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smalltimidbean · 4 months

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Hi! I'm Ruben, and this is my art blog! I mostly post silly OCs and original stuff, or whatever I happen to be hyperfixated on at the time! Read on to find out more!

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About

I am Ruben, but most people call me Bean, and I also go by Ben - so feel free to use any of those names, I'll respond to them all!

I'm 27, Non-Binary, and I use They/Them pronouns. I've been doing art pretty much all my life, and I do it somewhat professionally. I enjoy all types of art, but my mains are drawing and animation - but don't be surprised if there are some crafts or other medias here and there too!

I am autistic, and have severe social anxiety (among other disabilities), so please be patient with me if I take a while to respond, have an under/overreaction to something, or do not understand something right away! I also tend to forget things a lot, so you can always give me a reminder, if it has been a while - just please do not spam me!

I love getting asks about my characters, and AUs, even if I cannot answer them all - I have many askblogs for more specific characters/settings, which are linked below if you wanna check them out!

Please keep in mind that some of my characters are villainous, aggressive or just plain mean, and any actions or responses may be rude, violent or upsetting! When I respond in character, I am just playing a character, and their actions do not reflect me, and should not be taken personally!

DMs I am more hesitant about bc of the mentioned anxiety, so if you wish to DM me, please have a reason to be doing so - I don't tend to respond to just 'hi', and asking for free art will probably end up in a block. I also do not RP at all, so please do not ask.

I tend to vent a lot! I use art as a form of catharsis and to avoid hurting myself irl, so there might randomly be some upsetting content posted, but I do tag these with 'vent tag', and the appropriate CW tags - please see below for them

My art (and characters) is not for free use! So please do not repost, edit, trace my art, and please do not use it in videos/games, or for AI bots/databases. If you see my art somewhere, that I did not approve of, and regardless if it is credited or not, please let me know!

That being said, if you really want to use my art somewhere, please ask first! Usually the use as an icon, or in a silly meme, is fine - just ask first!

I don't do requests for things I am not interested in, and I probably will not draw your OC for free. I do take suggestions for things I am interested in, and might do the occasional art trade with mutuals/friends. I do also take commissions (but my sheet needs a big update, so prices may change soon).

I switch sonas around a lot! Bean is my main one (in a semi-realistic style and a more cartoonish one), but do not be surprised if I am sometimes depicted as a furry or a monster now and then.

These sonas are also both a representation of me, and characters in my stories. I try to define when I am 'in-character' and 'out-of-character', so please keep this in mind when commenting/asking.

Fanart of my characters and AUs is okay, and always appreciated! Please try to represent the characters(s) the best you can, and ask before doing making significant design changes (such as a 'Genderbend' or 'Species Swap' etc). Again, I am forgetful, so if I do not acknowledge it within a week or so, please give me a nudge!

I don't mind minors following, as most of my stuff is SFW, but please keep in mind that I am an adult, and may upload an occasional suggestive post or joke. These are also tagged as needed.

Good golly this is so long, but I think that's it for this part

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Interests

I am currently mainly into Pizza Tower, and the OCs I have created for it, so that is mostly what you will see at the moment! - I have currently two AUs I am focused on, mainly the one where it's just my interpretation of the game (no name for this one yet), and then my secondary called 'Cheeseshop AU', with Brick the Rat as the protag, and species are swapped! (So Brick is human, Peppino and Gustavo are rats etc)

I also have a lot of original stories, characters and concepts, and will post those too! I tend to jump from idea to idea and back again, so do not mind if I am talking about one genre in one post, and then it completely changes the next post. (Although most are just slice-o-life with fantasy elements)

Other interests are: FNAF (previous hyperfixation, kinda comes and goes and may have occasional posts here), Bugsnax (also a previous hyperfixation, mainly when the game came out but not so much any more), Pokemon (not a hyperfixation, I just think they're neat), and... That's pretty much it, that I can think of! I don't tend to get into fandoms much, and I just focus on one thing for years haha

I am also not really looking for other things to be interested in, so please do not take it personally if I do not look at or get into anything suggested to me.

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Content Warnings

As mentioned before, I vent a lot, but I also enjoy drawing some body horror or gore for fun, if the mood strikes! These are tagged simply as '[thing]' for blocking purposes, but please let me know if there are tags I have missed!

Common, will not be tagged: Mild Body Horror (things like extra eyes or limbs, or slightly melty people etc), Scars, Foul Language, Depictions of Panic Attacks/Meltdowns, Use of Caps and Glitched/Zalgo text

Uncommon, will be tagged: Eye Strain, Alcohol Use, Smoking (mostly regular cigarettes, but maybe weed too), Partial Nudity (bare chests mostly), Mildly Suggestive Jokes or Imagery, Emetophobia/Vomit, Blood, Violence, Moderate to Severe Body Horror (like excessive amounts of extra eyes or teeth, beings fused together etc), Guns, Self-Harm, Suicidal Thoughts, Gore, Implied Cannibalism, Implied Death

Rare, will be tagged, and under a read-more cut: Very Suggestive Jokes or Imagery, On Screen Cannibalism, On Screen Death

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Tags and Other Blogs/Links

My text post/ask tag is 'bean talks too much' and OC tags are 'OC: [OC's name]'. Other tags are for organisation, or just me talking to myself - and I do that a lot.

I am SmallTimidBean pretty much everywhere, although I mainly only post here, my characters to my Toyhou.se or ARPG stuff on my DeviantArt - and I have a Kofi, if you want to send a tip my way! (Not necessary, but very much appreciated if you do!)

I do have a Discord, but I am not comfortable giving it out unless we have interacted at least a few times! If you do find it by chance, please do not just send a friend request, I am unlikely to accept it for my own comfort.

My main blog, and the one that I follow from, is @smalltimidbean-reblogs - mainly just reblogs of art I like, animals or funny posts.

My currently active askblog is @ask-the-totally-real-peppino - an ask blog for Pep (my version of Fake Peppino from Pizza Tower)

I have several other askblogs, and just blogs in general, but I will put them under cut, as most are inactive or plain dead (I just keep them for archival sake, or the rare chance I may return to them)

@ask-the-music-man - Inactive FNAF askblog for Music Man, DJ Music Man and other FNAF characters, might return to it at some point but not right now

@we-bear-wicked-smiles - Inactive FNAF askblog for Nightmare and the other Nightmare animatronics, might also return to it but also not right now

@ask-lionel-ottaviani - Inactive askblog for a monster security guard named Lionel, will probably never return to it bc the group it was a part of disbanded, and I have bad memories with it - however Lionel and his friends show up here and an AU version where he is human feature on the Music Man blog

@bensnax - Inactive Bugsnax blog, was mostly reblogs, but I did intend to post my Grumpus characters there too (I think there's like one post of some of them) - probably will not return any time soon, as Bugsnax is not a major interest right now

@ask-a-genectric - Inactive Pokemon askblog for a Gengar/Manectric hybrid called Lexus, would like to return to it but unlikely

@the-bashful-skuntank - Inactive Pokemon askblog for a Skuntank named Fleur, would also like to return to it but unlikely

@thedailyzangoose - Previously a daily blog for the Pokemon Zangoose, but was revamped into an askblog for a troop of Zangoose characters, inactive and unlikely to return to it

@little-beast-bakery - A suggestion based blog to create little characters for people to adopt, never got off the ground and probably never will

I have a few other blogs that were OC specific askblogs, but I never posted to them, so no reason to link them. I did also have two NSFW blogs that are still technically up, but were nuked after the NSFW ban of 2018 - I am not going to link them for obvious reasons, but if you do somehow find them, keep it to yourself please!

Okay, this is very long, but I think that is it! Thank you for reading if you are down here!

#info #rules #pinned #about #reference

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shyranno · 2 years

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FAQ

Hiya!! Decided to do a lil faq thingy to make things easier since I’m not on Tumblr often and you might have to wait a bit for a response ;u;

Can I use your art for my fanfiction/as wallpaper/as a pfp/etc?

Yes, I’d be so honored if you do! As long as it’s non-commercial, please feel free--credit would be nice too! c; And if you use my art for your fanfics, omg please link them to me I wish to c o n s u m e

I have a drawing suggestion!

Feel free to drop it in my asks! c: If it tickles me, I’ll draw it!

Hey, how come you never answered my ask? :(

I’m sorry! I’m not really on Tumblr all that often--mostly just to post and then ghost sgjhfj so it might have gotten buried. ;u; I’ll try my best to answer questions, but if you left a nice message full of kind words, please just know I appreciate you so so much!!

(Sometimes I get really sweet and nice comments and I don't know how to respond without being repetitive... it's mostly just screaming and crying and babbling thank yous from me dawg...)

When’s the next Downtime comic coming out?

Your guess is as good as mine LMAO

What are your thoughts on [insert fandom related matter here]...

Bold of u to assume i think at all

Serious answer:

- I don’t care who you ship. I genuinely don’t. That’s your business--if I like it, I’ll gleefully slam the like button, if I do not like it I will simply move on bc I am an adult lmao I'm not here to police u (unless its stuff like shipping minors with adults or something like that's my hard limit right there buddy)

- I don’t condone harassment of any kind. Full stop.

- Fandom drama exhausts me and I have 0 desire to partake (and I’m probably not even aware of it in the first place bc I have to work and study at the same, like all of the stuff I make here is just a hobby thing, your girl is busy as hell) I’m here to draw stuff that makes me laugh and then disappear into the night like a gremlin--if you like it, I thank you with tears in my eyes, if you don’t, that’s ok too lol

Where can I find you?

I’m mostly active on Twitter! I have a defunct Instagram full of cats too lmao. My handle is @shyranno

I’ll probably edit this if I get anymore similar questions! <3 Thank you for reading!

#faq

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the-elderly-are-evolving · 11 months

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gay twilight princess character headcanons bc it pride month

look im sure someone else has done it but idc i have A Lot Of Feelings rn and they have 2 go somewhere so get on board or get off ma ass about it

Link:

u no him, u love him, he has like 3 pixels in this game and all of them r doing their best!

he's coming from a conservative little backwater (i say this as the unfortunate alum of a conservative little backwater myself-- sorry, but Ordon's main export is like. goats or w/ever, there's no way there aren't any trump supporters in that town), but i think once he travels around n gets 2 experience different things on his quests n shit he starts 2 unravel some of that internalized homophobia & becomes a great ally and, dare i say it, a little bi-curious

"but, gabe," i hear u say, "link is such a nonbinary icon, what about the transmasc & transfemme gender envy???" and 2 that i say mmmmm yea yea ik, but i don't think he sees it in himself yet, i think that comes later when he's got more adult confidence n shit. like i can see a 20's/30's link with long luscious braided hair wearing crop tops and mini skirts 2 show off his sick nasty battle scars while he picks ppl up at the bar

final verdict is bi and, later, genderqueer, although i think he's one of those ppl who doesn't really care about labels/ pronouns bc he is simply 2 busy sparkle emoij boots the house down slaying monsters hahahah get it im hilaris

Midna:

now that's a she/they if ever i've met one

one of those ppl whose gender presentation is mostly just looking like a scruffy & stinky goblin cretur 95% of the time except 4 that like. 2% of the time they actually make an effort and turn out****

def has a bro-code friendship w link where they both just don't talk about their feelings and instead r violent together love this little war criminal & her dog best friend

ur 1st instinct is lesbian, but look a little closer, and u will soon realize that this is simply a pansexual with a strong preference 4 women in their natural habitat

i think she is trying 2 b a responsible queer bc she knows link is unfamiliar w the community n she is trying 2 b a good ambassador between link n the gays uhhhhh unfortunately she is simply 2 busy trying 2 commit crimes & being like. a chronically online 20-year old or however old she's supposed 2 be & i think link comes away more confused than ever b4

****couple things here: a) ik that doesn't add up to 100%-- i am gay, what part of do not talk 2 me about numbers don't u understand b) ik midna was literally cursed 2 b an imp by zant, but it doesn't change anything in my mind and u can't convince me that she didn't just pull out her "true form" bullshit 2 try an seduce zelda at the end of the game c) no i have no personal experience with this gender presentation at all how dare you insinuate anything of the sort i have totally showered this week totally now shut up

Zelda:

Lesbian, no further questions ur honor

Furthermore, femme lesbian, often gets Assigned Straight On Sight & is very tired of getting hit on by straight men

One of those gays who wear wacky silly n fun statement earrings so other queer ppl know they're gay

We don't actually see her a lot in this game so there's not much 2 go off of with her characterization... this zelda has had a lot of pressure put on her what with being the sole leader of her people in this time of extreme stress, & so i think she is very competent & composed & controlled, but out of necessity, which will prob lead her 2 rebel later in life & act out a little when the country is not at war & she gets to be more of a child again.... basically what im saying is twilight princess should've had a sequel n it should've started w zelda deciding she's punk now, shaving her head, and making link help her run away from home

EDIT: how did i not see this b4...... i have been a fool...... zelda is secretly an astrology gay. it's one of her guilty pleasures bc she knows it's prob not real n the planets prob aren't doing anything w ppl's personalities, but she can't help but b like oooh but wouldn't it b fun if the real reason zant was such a little bitch was just bc his pisces is in retrograde?

#twilight princess #legend of zelda #loz tp #loz headcanons

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forabeatofadrum · 1 year

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El WooWoo Wednesday! Thank you @confused-bi-queer and @larkral for the tag.

Yesterday started out terribly with me having a breakdown during a meeting at my job (oof) but it ended on such a high note. I don’t really share where I live on the internet (anymore) cause ya know internet security but now I kinda wish I did cause I mentioned several times that I organised a week filled with queer events and my big event was yesterday and I am still high on energy. I was so nervous beforehand but it went really well and the actress we invited was super chill. People also complimented me and said I didn’t seem nervous at all so +1 self-esteem there.

Gah, it was so good.

Apart from that, no writing is happening. Like I said I had a wee breakdown because I’d been living with constant stress for the past 1.5 weeks, partially due to the events, but also my studies, including my thesis. How’s my thesis going? It’s going. I am almost done with the analysis but it’s still very hard and frustrating and there is a lot of second guessing.

And of course, when I am not being Responsible, I am playing Zelda. I actually gave some more thoughts to the Zelda fic idea that I shared on Monday, but I’ll once again put it under the cut for spoilers.

And now, the weather: @quizasvivamos @blurglesmurfklaine @coffeegleek @esperantoauthor @otherworldsivelivedin @caramelcoffeeaddict @sillyunicorn @bazzybelle @dragoneggos @raenestee @tectonicduck @nightimedreamersworld @urban-sith @thnxforknowingme @captain-aralias (congrats on the baby!!!) @you-remind-me-of-the-babe @takitalks @justgleekout @cerriddwenluna @tea-brigade @ivelovedhimthroughworse @moodandmist @whogaveyoupermission @bookish-bogwitch @aroace-genderfluid-sheep @ionlydrinkhotwater @1908jmd @special-bc-ur-part-of-it @chen-chen-chen-again-chen @cutestkilla @nausikaaa /@wellbelesbian @artsyunderstudy @martsonmars @facewithoutheart @shrekgogurt @boyinjeans @rockitmans @bitbybitwrites @blackberrysummerblog

Okay so I reread Any way the wind blows and I forgot that Aryll is fucking 110 in that fic. That’s old! I mean, she had to be old cause the Calamity happened a hundred years ago AND Aryll needed to be old enough to properly remember her brother, but damn.

Now, I actually don’t know how many years are between Breath of the Wild and Tears of the Kingdom. We do know that Link is 17/117 in BOTW. Time has clearly passed, since children have grown up and places have changed. One change is that Link is an adult who can now drink alcohol at the bar in Gerudo Town (lmao). Someone (who also organised the aforementioned queer event) looked up the legal drinking age in Japan, which is 20, so does that mean there’s 3 years between the games?

That would make Aryll 113. If 110 was already pushing it, then 113 is really pushing it. Aryll was already weak and old in my fic, but man. So when the pirates attack Lurelin, is she still alive or did she die from old age? It’s established that Hylians have a human lifespan. But say she is alive in TOTK, then damn how will she flee Lurelin? Will Kiana and co. take her with them? But Aryll will have a lot of problems traversing through Hyrule. Even Faron is already difficult to traverse since it’s a big forest.

BUT

What if.... after Link and Aryll reunite..... and Link saves Zelda....... and Zelda sees the situation.............. Zelda goes to Purah. Purah reversed her age with Sheikah tech. And sure, it went a bit too far and she became a literal child, but she’s a teen/young adult now. This also kinda fucks up the 3 years idea, but also this is Purah so I won’t be surprised if she now sped up some aging in order to reach the age she wanted. What if, between games, Purah reverses Aryll’s age to match Link’s? Hmmmm. HMMMMM. Again, I’m just mumbling. I don’t know if this is a Legit Fic Idea, but I like to think about it.

#tagged in #wip wednesday

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longlivefanfic-net · 2 years

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Banished&Bloody: Eddie the Banished

Fic Summary: Post-Volume II. Eddie Munson wasn't dead when he was left in the Upside Down; well, he wasn't dead anymore. Steve Harrington has spent the days since they came back to Hawkins haunted by the idea that he could have saved Eddie--or at least died in his place. It quickly becomes clear that the Hawkin's group has to go back to the Upside Down and, when they do, they find an unfamiliar face. Vampire!Eddie Munson, Grieving Steve Harrington.

Chapter Summary/Content: Chapter 1 of 8. Eddie wakes up in the Upside Down and realizes he has to get back to Hawkins. Mentions of blood, grief, brief suicide mention. Extra angsty.

Word Count: 3.6k

A/N: Listen. Listen. I want Vampire! Eddie so fucking bad. But I am also absolutely terrified of him. Also, writing this made me tear up bc this baby boy just deserved nice, happy things and instead he gets?? this?? This fic is going to be 8 chapters (I think), alternating Eddie/Steve POVs, and (should be) smut free (it just doesn't fit!!! idk! maybe I can work something in). I am also planning on still writing a few little smut pieces in between chapters (I have a Steve/Reader and Reader/Robin fic that I'm just waiting on my beta reader's response for before I post it)!!

Chapter One: Eddie the Banished

When Eddie’s eyes opened, the skies above him were black. He thought it was night, at first, then cloudy when he realized he couldn’t see any stars. When he saw the sky roiling overhead, he felt momentarily reassured. This wasn’t the first time he had gone on a bender and ended up waking outside, flat on his back in the woods or on a hill. But when streaks of lightning flashed the wrong way across the clouds, going straight across the throbbing mass of darkness instead of straight down, he recognized that he wasn’t in Hawkins–not the Hawkins he knew. He was somehow still in the other Hawkins, the one Dustin had called the “Upside Down,” like it was part of Hellfire nights instead of…this, this other, terrifying place Henderson and Wheeler and their friends had brought him to. Once he understood where he was, Eddie sat straight up, searching the darkness around him for his newfound group of friends. Surely, if he was here, the rest of them must be too; at least, Harrington or Buckley or Wheeler, the “adults” of the group he had so reluctantly joined, would still be here with him.

He was in the road of his trailer park, the Upside Down version of it, and–as he looked around him–he realized he was surrounded by a circle of demobats. None of them were moving. He sat, breath bated, watching for one of them to twitch, for the whole flock to suddenly jump up and swarm him, but they stayed where they were. He reached out, slowly, and gingerly poked the one closest to him. When it didn’t move, he looked, quickly, his eyes jumping from corpse to corpse, at the limp bodies surrounding him. Surely this was a sign of Vecna’s fall, a sign that Harrington had made good on his promise and made him pay, a sign that they were all safe. But no one else appeared. It seemed like he was alone. Eddie couldn’t understand it–if he was there, in this Upside Down Hawkins, where was everyone else? Had he been taken, grabbed like Harrington in the lake and dragged through a gate? He wracked his memory, still lying on the cool ground while he kept a careful ear out for any hints of approaching bats–or the other creatures Henderson had mentioned, the demogorgons, or dogs, or any of the other crazy shit he had thought only existed in tabletop games two weeks ago. The last thing he could remember–barely, the memory dark and fuzzy around the edges–was Henderson’s face hovering over his, tears running down over his nose to splatter on Eddie’s face.

It was an odd memory. Eddie couldn’t place it, couldn’t link it to anything else. Why would Dustin have been crying? Why did he remember Dustin holding him up, trying to pull him to standing, and oh God, why did he remember a ripping pain through his side when Dustin pulled at his skin? What the fuck was that, that memory of agony splitting through his body as he choked on hot liquid pooling in his mouth? Eddie carefully, slowly, reached his fingers down to his torso and brushed them over his skin, searching out an answer for the question this blurry half-memory created. He found nothing. There were ragged holes in his shirt, sure, but the skin underneath it felt fine, almost hard to his touch. The strange memory must be some Vecna thing, one of those false creations Red–Max, he corrected himself–had tried to explain to him: his skin was fine, his body still whole under his probing hands. He was not choking, his body was not in pieces, he wasn’t being held by Dustin while he promised to look after the kids in Hawkins who were a little too much like the two of them, a little too weird to fly under the radar. Whatever had created that memory of splitting pain through his skin, the fear and pain were gone now. In fact, Eddie almost couldn’t believe how good he felt as he sat in the deserted road. To have woken up here in the Upside Down with no memory of how he got there he would have assumed something was wrong, but his body felt fine–hell, maybe even better than when he first crossed the gate in his ceiling, exhausted and starving from running for his life from Chrissy’s body, from the cops, from Jason and his friends, from bats and creatures he couldn’t even envision. He felt rested, his muscles light under his skin, and his mind was working faster than it seemed like it ever had before, even when he had tried that shit that Rick had promised would help him finally focus on one specific thing long enough to get to graduation. He had been surviving on nothing but the cheap beer and junk food Harrington had brought him for too long, and his body had felt close to giving up even before he had flipped, head over heels, into the Upside Down.

On the thought of his previous days of starving, he did feel a slow sensation building in his core. A hunger was gnawing at his sides, but it was different, not like his normal hunger. Hunger was far from being a completely unknown feeling to Eddie Munson: he had felt hunger when he had still been living with his dad, just a kid who had gone too many days without a real meal; he had felt hunger when he smoked some of the weed he was supposed to be selling, a deep gnawing need for whatever comfort food he could get his hands on. This hunger was different: it was more of a slinking feeling, a physical need accompanied by an emotional sensation he couldn’t put words to. It reminded him of how he felt when he thought about Corroded Coffin breaking out of Hawkins, making a name for themselves with a rush and flush of skin; it reminded him of that sinking pit in his stomach that opened within him every time another test he hadn’t studied for ended up on the desk in front of him and he thought to himself that he should be able to turn in his D&D quests for his writing projects instead of these damn analysis essays; it reminded him of how longing for another person would slide it’s way into his heart late at night sometimes and soak through his frame, filling his head with images of someone wrapping their arms around his neck or brushing his hair smooth against his head. This ache in his stomach, this hunger, made his throat constrict too, made his nostrils flare as he acknowledged it. Mixtures of sadness, of desire, of longing, met with a need through his whole body and, suddenly, he was overwhelmed by the sharp, metallic stink of blood. Eddie suddenly remembered where he was. The smell of blood could be anything, could be a creeping monster coming nearer to finish him off after dragging him here in the first place. Nervous, he slowly, gingerly put his feet under himself and stood up.

Eddie’s body felt different–he felt stronger, lighter on his feet. As he looked around himself in the cool, dark constant night of the Upside Down, he swallowed against the tightness in his throat. The smell of blood seemed to be coming from the slick stains on the ground around him. Patches of darkness spilled over the road, and some of it–closer to savaged remains of demobats–was darker, thicker. Eddie looked down at himself, noting the bright red smears over his clothes and drying along his arms. Hurriedly, he tried to wipe the gore from his slick palms, patting his jeans and ragged shirt but his hands only came away damper, more blood coming from his clothes. It must have been because he was laying in it, Eddie thought, trying to find a single part of him that would clean his hands. In his frantic search, an unbidden thought came to him: that play he had to read his second Senior year, where the wife (or was she a Queen? Whatever) had dreamed about blood on her hands. She had scrubbed her hands in water, yelling “Out, out damned spot!” He remembered because it was the first time he’d ever heard a teacher swear in class, and everyone had giggled. He felt like her now, madly cleaning his hands. “Out,” he hissed between his teeth, finally rubbing his hands on the inside of his jeans pockets. This seemed to work–his hands felt cleaner, at least. Whoever’s blood he was soaked in–his stomach curdled at the thought–had covered him so thoroughly he didn’t know if they would have lived.

He took stock of the carnage around him, trying to put the pieces together to explain the sheer amount of blood under his feet. Fuck, he hoped it wasn’t from any of his friends. If it was Dustin– He couldn’t even finish the thought. He refused to lose that kid. Eddie looked around, searching for even the slightest hint of proof that someone else was still out there with him. When he couldn’t find it, he decided they must have taken whoever was injured–more injured than him, since he was just passed out–back to safety. They must be back at the trailer, he thought. He should get to the trailer. Stepping around the dark, fallen corpses of the bats on the ground, he made his way down the road, keeping to the shadows of the other trailers. He would make it back to the trailer and find his friends, he was sure of it, and then they would go back to Hawkins–the real Hawkins–and he could clear his name, tell the police he hadn’t even been around when Nancy’s friend got killed, and he and his uncle would buy a new trailer and be safe. He could graduate. He could finally leave Hawkins and move on with his life. He felt renewed, a sense of vigor coursing through his bloodstream as he snuck trailer to trailer up to his own.

When he swung the door open, he half expected to see the lights on, his friends in a circle around his stained mattress on the floor, all cheering for him like the Hellfire club had when they finished his most recent campaign. His heart thudded against his chest painfully when he saw no one inside. The mattress was gone–he vaguely remembered moving it himself, trying to keep Henderson from following him as he went back to buy Steve, Nancy, and Robin safety for a little while longer. The half of the rope he remembered cutting was still on the floor, one of the old chairs he and his uncle ate dinner in replacing it in the middle of the room. But when he looked up at the ceiling, the undulating vines had been–boarded over? That wasn’t possible. Scraps of wood–wood that looked suspiciously like pieces of Eddie’s uncle’s furniture, his dining table and maybe the end table he kept his alarm clock on–had been thrown over the opening on the right side of Hawkins. His eyebrows furrowed, trying to understand how the chunks of loose furniture could be above him, knowing they would have to be nailed or screwed or supported against the ceiling in the real Hawkins. Eddie stood on the chair, placing his hands against the wood, and shoved. It barely shifted. His body groaned, the unusual tightness in his throat burning again, and he shoved again, bracing his feet more soundly in the chair. However this shit was stuck to the ceiling, it should come loose easy enough but it didn’t move. Whatever had been piled against the wood, likely propping each piece in place in some sort of complicated manner only Nancy Wheeler and Dustin Henderson could dream up, it was there firmly.

Eddie climbed off the chair and looked around the room. If this blockage was in place, keeping anything from the Upside Down from getting back into his world, what did that mean for him? His stomach tightened into knots. Why would they leave him here? His friends were gone–that much was clear–but they had left him behind and, more than that, they had locked him out. How was he supposed to get back to them? Was he expected to get all the way back to the dry field of what was supposed to be Lover’s Lake and swim his way through a gate again? He had never been a strong swimmer, and he felt certain he wouldn’t make it through the watergate a second time without Robin pulling him along. And why were all of his friends gone? Did they–did they not want him to come back? Or…did they think he wouldn’t? Had they left him, passed out on the street, thinking he was dead? Oh God, oh fuck, if they thought he was dead they wouldn’t come back for him. They would go back to Hawkins and tell everyone he was dead; it would be just like when Nancy’s boyfriend’s kid brother had disappeared, the school making everyone going to an assembly to honor his life right before he had suddenly shown up again. His uncle Wayne’s face flashed in his mind, a memory from when Eddie was a little kid and had seen him sitting in the dark at the kitchen table, draining a beer, glimmering tear tracks running down his face and leaving giant, wet splotches along his work shirt. One of his friends, an old buddy, had died that night, had walked in front of a fucking train, but Eddie hadn’t known that then. He had stood in the doorframe between the hallway and the kitchen and watched his uncle sit at that table, lit only by the passing headlights that cut through the wide windows intermittently. Eddie had listened to him sob, had listened to muffled cries turn into heart wrenching choking sounds, and he had felt his own stomach curdle. It had been a relief when his uncle had finally put his head down on his arms, his sobs turning to gentle breathing as he fell asleep. Eddie never knew if his uncle had known that Eddie had watched him that night; he didn’t know if his uncle knew that every time Eddie really, really started to screw up he pulled back at the last second, thinking about his uncle making those sounds over him.

And now that’s all Eddie could imagine. Somewhere, back in the Right Side of Hawkins, was his uncle sleeping on a kitchen table strewn with empty beer cans? Was he choking on his own sadness as it broke through his mouth, the way Eddie suddenly felt like he might? Or did Uncle Wayne think he was just missing, maybe on a bender with some of his friends like he had been before? The last time Eddie had disappeared for a week, Wayne had sat him down in the living room–the same room Eddie was in now, but it was warm and softly lit with lamps and tense with awkward silence–and told him that he was allowed to disappear for a while (“Hell,” uncle Wayne had said, “You’re practically grown now.”) but that he had to check in every three days. He hadn’t seen his uncle since Chrissy died–also in this same room, he remembered with a painful shudder forcing it’s way up his spine–but he had known that Wayne would understand that; would be waiting for him, but would let him do what he needed to keep the both of them safe. Was that what Eddie was doing now? Keeping himself and others safe by leaving those scraps of wood in place where Chrissy had died, keeping himself here? Eddie wasn’t sure. Part of him couldn’t make sense of it anyway–how could they board this up? How could they think he was dead when he was right here?

The memory of Dustin crying over him flashed through his head again. He, Eddie, had thought he was dying then. But surely he was wrong because look at him–he’s alive, right now. He held a hand up in front of his face, pinching the smooth pale skin below his rings. No, not dreaming. This was real, whatever it was. This had to be some weird sort of Upside Down thing; maybe you couldn’t die in the Upside Down. That had to be it, Eddie thought. He should have died but he didn’t, probably because he wasn’t from the Upside Down, he wasn’t like all of those other things out there, rattling in the dark as they searched for their next meal, so he couldn’t die here. An unwelcome thought occurred to him: maybe he had died but he had come back as a ghost. Sure, Eddie had assumed that ghosts wouldn’t be bothered by things like pieces of broken wood over a transdimensional crossing, but it’s not like he knew how that shit would work. He’d ask Henderson, if he could, but he imagined Dustin would roll his eyes and sigh, condescendingly explaining that ghosts aren't real (but, Eddie reasoned, none of this shit should be real. Didn’t stop it from being real, didn’t stop him from being here). Desperate to prove to himself that he really was alive, Eddie wrapped his fingers around his wrist, his grip so tight that the rational part of his mind told him to expect bruises. Nothing. He slid his hands around his cool skin, trying to find the dull beat that he could always feel tingling through his extremities when he had smoked a little too much, but there was nothing there. His hand came up to his chest, groping around over his thin t-shirt. Where the fuck was his heartbeat? He was alive, he knew he was alive, he could feel himself moving and breathing and thinking, he had to be alive. There–in his throat–he had found his pulse. Just barely, the softest, lightest thrum against his fingers. The beat was too slow, but it was there.

He wasn’t sure why his heartbeat was so slow, why his blood felt thick and morose under his skin. He also wasn’t sure why he had been left behind. Shit, Eddie Munson was slowly coming to terms with the fact that there was a lot he didn’t–and never would–know. But, Eddie thought to himself, he had been left behind, and that’s what really mattered right now. He didn’t think of Dustin’s friends as his own–Harrington, Wheeler, and Buckley had all been nice enough but that didn’t mean he expected them to be a band of best friends after this. He had expected them to fight for him; it had been clear from the moment he lowered the broken bottle he had held against Steve’s throat that whatever this was, they were in it together. But they weren’t anymore, were they? Abandoned. Eddie had been abandoned by his temporary friends. Eddie the Banished, really and truly banished, left to rot alongside the vines and the demobats and Vecna. He didn’t know what the hell he was supposed to do. Maybe he could find a way around this–he could go back to Wheeler’s house and touch the lights and tap out SOS on every damn surface in this town until someone put two and two together and brought him back. That would work, he thought, that had to work. A small voice rang out in the back of his head: what if they’re not at Wheeler’s house? What if they just think the wiring’s gone bad? What if they don’t want you back bad enough to risk opening the gate again? Eddie shook his head, dispelling the thoughts that threatened to take over, and sniffed, once.

He looked around the dark, empty trailer. Eddie knew it wasn’t really safe to stay here too long–Vecna’s monsters would probably come back here, they could probably scent or sense or whatever they did, the fucking creeps, that he was there already. Dustin’s spear was leaning up against the wall, one of their homemade shields made of a garbage can lid and long nails still stuck to the ceiling. He stood on a chair, prying the shield loose from where he had stabbed it, and took Dustin’s spear in his other hand. It wasn’t much–probably not enough to keep him alive–but it would have to be enough to get him around town. He’d stick to the shadows, take back roads he was already too familiar with in case those fucking monsters preferred sidewalks or some shit, and he’d ruin the electrical grid of the whole damn town of Hawkins, Indiana if that’s what it took to get him home. He was going home, dammit, and not this home, a backwards, Upside Down version of his house. Eddie steeled his courage at the door of his trailer. Taking one last look over his shoulder, he regarded the space that was so similar to the one he had lived in for so long. His guitar was leaning up against the wall where he had discarded it before fighting the bats with Dustin, and there were die with too-many sides scattered over countertops. He couldn’t take it with him; he couldn’t take the memories, the longing for that part of his life again, either. When he swung the door open, stepping out into the darkness, the sky lit up overhead. The roiling flashes of red lighting cast a bloody glow over Eddie’s face as he stared up, blinking slowly. Shouldering his spear, makeshift shield in his other hand, he began the slow walk towards Wheeler’s house.

Chapter two here!

#eddie munson stranger things #eddie stranger things #eddie munson imagine #my fic #feral fics #eddie munson fic #eddie munson fanfic #eddie munson #steve x eddie #stranger thing s4 #eddie munson st4 #eddie munsen #Eddie Munson fanfic #vampire!eddie #vampire eddie munson

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convexicalcrow · 1 year

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Intro:

Hello, frens! Call me Lex or Crow, queer, he/they/she pronouns bc gender is weird and fucked. Old Millenial. Australian. Practicing Witch.

This tumblr was mostly set up for Hermitcraft and Empires shitposting, and that's mostly what I'll use it for. I do occasionally post fics and other ramblings, sometimes snippets from streams or from watching episodes, new or otherwise. Lots of art and fic reblogs. And sometimes I post my minecraft builds.

And now that it's Snowflake Challenge time again, i thought I'd do these posts over here and the first challenge is getting your fandom info and links organised, and I really don't have anything like that over here yet, so. Have an intro post. :D

Ships and Fandom Interests:

I'm mainly hyperfixated on Cub and Scar and the ConVex, as well as Sausage and Pearl and their lore, but I also write RenDoc and Ren/Martyn and others when the inspiration strikes.

I am shippy and do occasionally write smutfic and kinkfic, but I do also write gen and platonic fic as well when the story wants that instead. Mostly I am your niche rarepair writer who isn't interested in the big juggernaut pairings. And who wrote skulk Cub before it was canon lmao. XD

Blogs:

Follows come from this account bc I set this up not intending for it to be my main and then I left twitter like an idiot and well. Here we are lol.

I have a sideblog set up @lexstellaris for non-fannish shitposting and other more personal things. No need to follow that unless you want to.

Asks:

Feel free to submit asks if you have questions, or there there's something you want me to discuss, or you want to throw fic prompts at me. :D I have a tag for all my ask responses if you want to look through that as well.

AO3:

You can find my fic posted on AO3 here under the name orphancrow.

I have been posting fic on AO3 under other accounts for a long time, and I mostly adhere to AO3's guidelines when rating my fic. So you may find kinkfic and other sexual content in my M-rated fics as well as my E-rated fics bc both are designed for adult content, but this will always be clear from the tags so there shouldn't be any surprises. I know I differ from some of the fandom on this, but it's how I do things, and I want to be upfront about that.

Transformative Works Policy:

If you wanna write fic or draw art inspired by my works, that's totally fine with me, just link back to the works that inspired you. I'm also fine with anyone wanting to podfic my works or translate them into other languages, as long as there's a link back to my original works.

You can find this in my AO3 profile as well.

Tags and Projects:

#spoilers - I'm (mostly) consistent in using the spoilers tag for any new eps or current streams I'm posting about so feel free to block that if you're not interested in knowing. I mostly use this for eps just released if I'm watching them then.

#fanfic - Fanfic posted on this account can be found under the fanfic tag. This does include stuff I've posted to AO3 as well, some of which is stuff I've edited and tidied up after posting it here.

#vex magic grimoire - If you're interested in the Vex Magic Grimoire, I have a tag for that where you can follow the progress of that grimoire. The concept behind it is that it's being written mostly by Pharaoh Cub in s7, with inputs from Scar, and it's exploring and explaining Vex magic and potions and a bunch of my Vex lore.

I have also started an archive for the grimoire pages over here at the Liber Vex archive. It's just simple links back to tumblr rn, but it'll be more of a full text archive in time. New pages will be updated there and I'll link this at the end of each new post as well, so keep an eye on that site if you want to keep up with all the lore.

#minecraft builds - All my minecraft screencaps and builds are housed under this tag. I play both java and bedrock, survival and creative. I currently have three worlds I'm working on:

#bedrock co op world - This is a co op bedrock realm I play with my partner. We're playing on the hc9 seed (-3609821817241206192). We started in survival but now it's mostly creative, tho there are some farms and other things for when I am in the mood to grind resources. Being played on a Hermitcraft seed, there's a few Hermitcraft-inspired/Cub-inspired builds on here, but there's also plenty of other things too. I'm working on populating the Hermissippi river with builds to make it feel less empty lol.

#villa hekatea - This is a Java solo world, seed -6478546301100136766. I play in survival easy and am building up a small sanctuary town dedicated to Hekate. It's my first attempt at playing pure survival and I'm having so much fun with it. The lore is that my character was pushed to leave their home city due to Hekate worship being banned, and ran away to settle in this area and is building up a place for Hekate's worship. There's a lot of personal builds in this one that come from my own worship and work with Hekate, but it's also it's own thing, and it's so fun.

#the mountain shrine - This is another Java solo world I started for 1.20, seed 3718928586175470756. I'm currently playing on survival peaceful, though I may switch to easy eventually so I can get an iron farm and xp farm going, since I've found those so helpful in my other Java world. I have big plans for terraforming the area including building shrines on the mountain oppsite, building a river/lake between the mountains, and essentially following along with Pix's survival guide progress, just as a challenge for myself to push my survival skills a little bit further.

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commaclear · 1 year

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♡ Ko-fi link ♡

Hi! I’m Comma! I’m primarily a tnt duo fic writer and parental figure of tntblr (call me appa) here on tungle dot hell, and this blog is for my endless torment at the hands of my lovely anons (as well as memes only I find funny, political hot takes, and brainrot rabbitholes)

I’m not really one for self promos, but I guess I’ll link my Ao3 if you want to check out my nonsense (and if you can’t get enough, I have a bunch of extra content on available on my ko-fi for the low low price of whatever you want to pay /nf)

Anons are my primary source of enrichment, so never feel shy about sending one or fifty. I do not care about spam at all, and as a teacher I can confirm that there’s no such thing as a dumb question (or ask in this case). Send me literally anything. Stupid jokes, three page essays, weird takes, memes, way too personal questions, samurai death poetry. Anything. Seriously, I eat that shit up.

If you ever wonder things like “I hope comma isn’t annoyed/upset with me” or “did I piss comma off?” the answer is NO. I find it funny to act annoyed or outraged in response to things, but I will never ever respond to people in genuine anger. If anything actually bothers me on the internet, I simply don’t engage with it. There’s a lot of negativity out here, and I am not going to add to it. I am not annoyed with you, or upset or pissed off or anything else. I promise if I seem angry, it will always be a bit.

And just so you know, I am possibly the most upfront person I know, and I haven’t felt actual embarrassment or shame in about nine years. It’s great for me, but it also means that I will answer pretty much anything you ask with too much honesty. Even if you don’t realize how much you really don’t want an honest answer to something. So askers, beware.

I never know which cw/tw tags people actually use, but if you follow me and there’s a topic you want me to tag so you can avoid it, please just send me an ask or a dm. I never ever want to make people uncomfortable, so I will do my utmost to tag it correctly. It can be anything. You just have to let me know. Current tags: cw abuse: this one encompasses general/sexual adult/childhood abuse and pedophilia, I can’t have a separate tag for anything sexual bc Tumblr will straight up erase the post from existence if I tag it properly

Um... Gender. Grammatically it’s useful to refer to people, but I really don’t care about it, so use whatever pronouns you feel fit the vibes!

Other links you may have been looking for:

join my Discord to meet like-minded goblins!

The post-mortem for Close to the Bone

The inbox lore explained (AKA what the fuck is wrong is wrong with my anons)

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translestatdl · 9 months

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Characters that are very me coded

Tagged by @dontbesylly to share my "so me" characters. thanks! <3

Lestat, Louis, & Armand - these guys are like my unholy trinity of blorbos. currently I see different aspects of myself in all three but ive also been on a bit of a journey over the past ten years in how I relate to them. when i first watched/read IWTV I related strongly to Louis bc depression and self-loathing. then when I got to TVA I imprinted on Armand like a baby duck for gender reasons. TVL also had that effect on me but my understanding and acceptance of myself wasn't developed enough back then for me to recognize that for what it was. the past couple years as ive been uncovering who i really am when im not trying to please anyone ive realized I vibe the most with Lestat in terms of presentation and his general lust for life and romance etc. also I'm pretty sure he and I have almost identical taste in music and men

Guillermo de la Cruz - I think this one is pretty self explanatory

Link (Legend of Zelda) - I grew up playing Ocarina of Time and Majora's Mask, then Twilight Princess in high school and Breath of the Wild more recently. I experienced gender envy over Link before I even knew what that was. also I related a lot to him as a character whose forced to take on adult responsibilities at a young age and has to mature quickly with little guidance. all while being non verbal and being viewed as kind of a weirdo. and BOTW Link is just straight up transmasc so there's that

alright fine since i can't think of anyone else rn

Naruto - hyperactive blonde idiot ostracized by his community for things outside of his control. also absent father and in love with his emo best frenemy

tagging @nightcolorz @butchybats and anyone else who wants to

#tag game

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jancys-blue-bayou · 2 years

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The Byers and Wheeler siblings (except Holly lol) for the character ask

Jonathan

do I like them: LOVE THEM

5 good qualities: Incredibly brave, selfless, protective of those he love, incredibly caring, smart, funny.

3 bad qualities: putting himself and his own dreams last and down, not always communicating what he's feeling, and uh...early in s1 has an issue with boundaries that he grows out of.

favourite episode/etc: generally s1 but ep 4-5-6 is the peak. From him crying and hugging himself listening to Atmosphere when he thinks Will is dead and his mom is going insane to him and Joyce fighting on the street, to talking with Nancy at the funeral parlor, teaming up, target practice and talk, arguing in the woods, saving Nancy from the UD, comforting her, heading out with her again the next day, shopping for hunting supplies, rightfully beating the shit out of Steve etc.

otp: Jancy, duh.

brotp: Byers bros, duh. Excluding familial bonds, Argyle ofc.

ot3: Hear me out: Nancy, Jonathan AND Samantha aka Siouxsie Sioux from the party in s2.

notp: Stonathan

best quote: "You shouldn't like things because people tell you you're supposed to."

head canon: he went out on his own and literally talked his way into a job the day after Lonnie left bc he was perceptive enough to be aware even at that age of the family economics.

Will

do I like them: yes ofc

5 good qualities: brave, selfless, good friend/brother, talented artist, sweet.

3 bad qualities: putting himself and his own wants last, hiding his problems from others, 15 but still hasn't stood up to his mom about the bowl cuts.

favourite episode/etc: s2 finale

otp: none

brotp: Byers bros, duh, the party ofc but want to esp highlight Will and Lucas together.

ot3: none

notp: passing this too since I'm not putting any otp

best quote: "Is that why you don't have any friends?" jc roast king Byers

head canon: when he's in college and Jonathan is an adult with Nancy, a career and responsibilities Will makes Jonathan a bunch of mix tapes of new good music so his big brother doesn't get too out of touch.

Nancy

do I like them: LOVE THEM

5 good qualities: incredibly brave, smart, persevering, protective and caring.

3 bad qualities: retreating (between s1-2), getting tunnel vision and not fully considering others viewpoints at times, not always considering her own safety

favourite episode/etc: like Jonathan generally s1 with ep 5 and 6 the peak. Maybe specifically ep 6 for her then, from being saved from the UD by Jonathan, comforted by him, theorizing about the monster, bravely deciding to head out there again, shopping for hunting supplies, confronting and slapping Steve, her and Jonathan at the police station, linking up with Joyce and Hopper etc.

otp: Jancy, duh.

brotp: Max

ot3: Hear me out: Nancy, Jonathan AND Samantha aka Siouxsie Sioux from the party in s2.

notp: Stancy, duh

best quote: "I wanna finish what we started. I want to kill it."

head canon: Karen had to outlaw Wheeler board game night for fear of Nancy and Mike actually killing each other over Monopoly.

Mike

do I like them: yes ofc

5 good qualities: he's goodhearted, has leadership qualities, would do anything for his friends, is brave and caring.

3 bad qualities: gets tunnel vision, gets distracted, doesn't always think things through

favourite episode/etc: Prob 1x06 for him when the brave idiot jumps off a cliff for Dustin.

otp: none

brotp: the party as a whole, Will esp.

ot3: none

notp: passing this too since I'm not putting any otp

best quote: "If anyone asks where I am, I've left the country."

head canon: he and Nancy were closer when they were younger and get along better when she moves out and he grows up.

#ask game #jancy #jonathan byers #nancy wheeler #will byers #mike wheeler #stranger things

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Idk if this is just me but does anyone else ever look at celebrities (esp women) who are beautiful, wealthy, talented and have everything in life and see their relationships still failing and even the women still being cheated on and you're just shocked bc like how am I as a normal not very pretty girl going to have a good relationship if these people can't you know??? Idk

I think a lot of people feel this way, for sure. I just read through a thread on Reddit about Benjamin Millepied cheating on Natalie Portman and the responses were basically all the same thing that you just said- Natalie is so beautiful, talented, wealthy... how is it possible that she's being cheated on? And if she's getting cheated on, what hope is there for the rest of us who aren't as beautiful or talented or wealthy?

But I think that train of thought fundamentally misunderstands what cheating is about and why people do it. Men who cheat actually usually consider their significant other to be better than the person they're cheating with. Only 30 percent of men cheated with women younger than their current partners, and only a quarter of the men found their mistresses more interesting or more in shape than their partners. Cheating is motivated by dissatisfaction within a relationship- either emotional dissatisfaction or sexual dissatisfaction. A lack of communication between partners, a feeling of not being understood, and sexual incompatibility are the most common reasons people give for cheating. From that same study I linked to above, men said that they found their mistresses to be more passionate, better listeners and more caring than their significant others, and 89.6 percent of the women who responded indicated that the man they're cheating with makes them feel more appreciated than their significant other. Even the best relationships require upkeep and effort to maintain, and sometimes people let that maintenance go by the wayside as time goes on. But there's no such thing as a person that's "good enough" to not be cheated on- the problem when there's cheating in a relationship is the person who cheated.

And with celebrities, I think it would make sense that they're actually more likely to experience infidelity than the average person. Celebrities are often people who grew up in chaotic environments and who were adultified at young ages. They're often people who spend a lot of time away from their significant other because their job requires them to shoot films on location or on a soundstage that's away from home or because it requires them to tour. They're often people who have tons and tons of opportunities to cheat because they're attractive and the people around them are fans, and they're often people who have people around them that are constantly validating their decisions. If you're someone who hasn't seen healthy relationships modeled in your life, who became the primary breadwinner for your family at a young age and was pushed into adult situations as a child, are constantly away from your partner, and are surrounded by people who want to sleep with you and will tell you that it's totally not your fault that you cheated and you didn't do a bad thing, you would be way more likely to do it, you know?

Being in a successful relationship doesn't require a person to be uncommonly beautiful or talented or smart. It requires a person to be willing express their own needs, to hear their partner out, to be empathetic towards them, to find ways to make them feel appreciated, and to be willing to work on making the relationship stronger. And people can do that no matter how they look or how talented they are or how much money they have. It just takes effort and practice.

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mischievoussilvertongue · 1 year

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Welcome everyone, to my blog that I will likely mostly dedicate to Inkheart and other whump/angst things that I will write when I am bored. Hi! I have been thinking on how to introduce this and why not start with some immediate Dustfinger angst? And if you don't know what and who I am talking about, then I feel sorry for you.

Anyways! I hope we all know what history Dustfinger and The Black Prince share? Good because I can't stop thinking about them when listening to Ribs - by Lorde. Here is the song AND how I link it to Dustfinger and The Prince. Enjoy.

(also apologies, this will be pretty long)

All of this is platonic btw.

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The drink you spilt all over me

"Lover's Spit" left on repeat

My mom and dad let me stay home

It drives you crazy getting old

Alright so the one line I rly focus here is the last one, although maybe one can see the others as how they met or whatever but I don't want to do that so I just leave that out for now.

This is Dustfinger talking to the Prince. "It drives you crazy getting old" is him telling how the prince doesn't want to grow up. We know they met as kids and so this is as they are growing older. Dustfinger doesn't think it's too bad but the prince doesn't want the responsibility of an adult, nor does he want to stop playing and living the careless life of a kid and Dustfinger kind of mocks him a little bit. Although he can understand him to some degree.

We can talk it so good

We can make it so divine

We can talk it good

How you wish it would be all the time

The two of them sticking together throughout growing up, facing problems together and becoming good friends. "How you wish it would be all the time." again referring to the prince who wants this to be forever, the being a kid and just loving life running around and having fun.

The drink you spilt all over me

"Lover's Spit" left on repeat

My mom and dad let me stay home

It drives you crazy getting old

(Repetition of the prior ones, but they are older now like young adults, maybe 18 or 20)

The drink you spilt all over me

"Lover's Spit" left on repeat

My mom and dad let me stay home

It drives you crazy getting old

Again, memories but this time its the prince stating that Dustfinger now in the other world is scared bcs "he has a feeling" and I have Meta-knowledge lol. Essentially it's the prince describing how Dustfinger will feel in our world without knowing. More detail in the next verses but essentially their rolls are flipped for this verse.

This dream isn't feeling sweet

We're reeling through the midnight streets

And I've never felt more alone

It feels so scary getting old

Alright buckle up bcs I have a scene for this one:

Dustfinger sits in the ground, back leaned against a wall, legs pulled up, arms wrapped around and head resting on his knees. It it raining. He looks up at 'this dream isn't feeling sweet' and you see that he has been crying. Throughout the other lines you see how much he misses his old life. And honestly he looks like a hungry, drenched, stray dog because what else is he anyways in our world? And now he is the one saying it is scary to get old because he is all alone *just like song says aaahg*

*ahem*

I want 'em back, I want 'em back

The minds we had, the minds we had

How all the thoughts, how all the thoughts

Moved 'round our heads, moved 'round our heads

he missed his old life and especially the black prince, how they used to have fun together, etc.

I want 'em back, I want 'em back

The minds we had, the minds we had

It's not enough to feel the lack

I want 'em back, I want 'em back, I want 'em back

same thing! I would also say he misses Roxanne and could have this be about her but this song is for the friendship of him and the prince, my mind kinda just decided that. I have other songs for Roxanne and dustfingers relationship.

You're the only friend I need (you're the only friend I need)

Sharing beds like little kids (sharing beds like little kids)

And laughing 'til our ribs get tough (laughing 'til our ribs get tough)

But that will never be enough (but that will never be enough)

the main voice is dustfinger thinking/saying/whatever it says. The echo is the prince on the other side of the book pages, missing Dustfinger just as much and basically echoing him without knowing so. "Sharing beds like little kids" both think back to their childhood again and how they grew up together. "But that will never be enough" it's not just a friendship. They are more than friends, they are family, soulmates (platonically) and what not.

You're the only friend I need (you're the only friend I need)

Sharing beds like little kids (sharing beds like little kids)

And laughing 'til our ribs get tough (laughing 'til our ribs get tough)

But that will never be enough (but that will never be enough)

Again this, both thinking of each other at the same time actually. You can visualize it like this I guess: In a video, this would play and you see Dustfinger before it cuts to the prince also singing. The time is the same and so it becomes obvious they are thinking of each other at the same time, etc. You might even get a side by side shot of the two scenes or smth like that.

Jesus Christ this was... A lot. Thank you for coming to my pep talk and I hope you enjoyed the Angst :) I started sketching this but Holy F*ck it's a lot and unfortunately I am not the greatest artist and need a lot of practice still. But one day I will give you the scene that I described with Dustfinger sitting. If u actually read all of this then wow.

I love you and am proud of you! C ya whenever I decide to post again.

#inkheart #inkheart trilogy #book blog #cornelia funke #tintenherz #angsty #dustfinger #the black prince #ribs lorde #new blog #omg I cant tell you how long I have been wanting to share this

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hostilehospitalbeds · 2 years

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This post is fear-mongering and conspiracy-based thinking:

(Image description: screenshot of tumblr post that reads “fuck it

ice cream listeria outbreak. again. did you know that illness due to listeria has a 20-30% mortality rate?

family dollar recalling a bunch of drugs and supplements because they stored them wrong

lucky charms and cheerios continue to make children and adults sick, the cause is still under investigation, and no recall has been issued. terrifying. that means it is almost definitely not one of the common causes like salmonella...”)

That “ice cream listeria outbreak”? Click the link and it’s ONE creamery specifically in Sarasota FL. Important info for sure but the implications here are very different (the overall vibe of the post is “what is the fda not telling you?” and yet… the fda is literally the ones telling us that) (no link for their “again” statement - has this happened many times or one other time? Where? When? What companies? Who knows! That would be giving real facts instead of spreading conspiracies!)

And then the cereal stuff is just laughable. A) there’s actual articles about the fda investigations but they just linked to “am I being poisoned .com” B) perhaps no recall has been issued bc it’s still under investigation and PERHAPS it’s still under investigation bc they’re only investigating it bc of these weird complaints and there’s actually nothing to find! Sometimes individuals have weird reactions to certain foods! Sometimes you get a stomach bug and it’s not food poisoning!

I for one have found that eating certain cereals can make my tummy hurty bc there’s just a lot of fiber in cereal and I have my personal tummy issues that can be exacerbated by that and you don’t see me out here like “I WAS POISONED BY RAISIN BRAN” bc I have critical thinking skills. Jesus Christ. Also I just had a stomach bug and there’s no way I could possibly pinpoint a food I ate that was responsible bc a) idk if it was food poisoning at all and b) even if it was there’s no way to know which food unless there was a big outbreak and investigation and news about it.

Yet these people are like well I ate nothing out of the ordinary recently except Honey Nut Cheerios so it HAD to be the Cheerios. ummm that’s not how food poisoning works, you can get it from something you eat all the time if it was a bad batch, expired, you cooked it wrong, whatever. But they’re obviously not really talking in scientific medical terms about food poisoning, they have weird ideas about certain foods being intrinsically Poison To The Human Body. Which is nonsense.

Oh you know what let’s talk about this one too:

(image description: screenshot of tumblr post that reads “several honey products are being recalled for having undisclosed, get this...VIAGRA in them. and cialis. sildenafil and tadalafil”)

And here’s the fda explanation (interestingly not the one they linked to, they intentionally chose a much vaguer press release):

(image description: screenshot of an FDA article that reads “When you’re browsing, one of the best ways to protect yourself from fake, and even possibly harmful, products is asking whether a claim sounds too good to be true, or if it contradicts what you’ve heard from reputable sources.

On July 12, 2022, the U.S. Food and Drug Administration posted warning letters to companies that are violating federal law by selling products marketed as food which contain undisclosed or hidden prescription medication. These products are labeled as honey with herbal ingredients and are marketed with claims to treat disease or improve health.

These products are promoted and sold for sexual enhancement on various websites and online marketplaces, and possibly in some retail stores. If you are struggling with sexual performance issues, you may have a physical condition that is keeping your body from responding as it normally would. Talk openly with your health care professional before considering any treatments.”)

like. We’re talking a scam product to begin with and op is making it sound like any random honey you pull off the grocery store shelf might have viagra in it!

tl;dr - the FDA’s job is to protect you from dangerous food and drugs and they generally are on top of that job (if it seems like they’re behind or lacking they probably just… didn’t know yet! Shocker they aren’t omniscient!) and anyone trying to tell you otherwise is a conspiracy theorist. Learn how to recognize twisting of info to fit a narrative.

#idk about the family dollar drugs things and there were more items under that and I didn’t feel like investigating them all #my guess is many of them are like the ice cream where something legit happened but they’re twisting it into a mass conspiracy #(see above I investigated another one that caught my eye as Bizarre)#(After writing those tags I mean)#food #health #I put so much work into this post and it will probably get Zero Notes. I should really get off this website maybe #to start with I unfollowed the person who reblogged that post and put it on my dash. Don’t need stuff like this on my dash!

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ddemonseonghwa · 2 years

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Update/Fic Ideas and WIP’s

I just posted about a Chan fic coming up (since my little mini emotional disappearance, yuh). It’s kind of experimental but I am kind of practicing. I will say, massive trigger warning for this fic when I post it. There’s a lot of stuff mentioned in it (will indicate when posted) but overall I’m kind of not mad at how it’s turning out.

I also plan to work on the setup of my account. I might redo it tbh. I want to make a master list and actually make my blog look pretty. It’s already black and electric purple, but I wanna make it look better. I have my Ask box set up (I can only see it on my Mac, not on my phone), I have fic ideas for ATEEZ and Stray Kids (I need to start on the few The Boyz members I wanna write for omg), and more. Fic ideas are listed under the border.

Overall, I’m fine. Just kind of in a weird spot right now. Early 20’s stuff and adulting, you know? I also have to take care of one of my dogs. She has a gash on her paw pad and it’s very, VERY deep and requires surgery. She has to have stitches. On Tuesday, she got it bandaged and was prescribed antibiotics but today, Thursday, she is having surgery for about 2 hours? The gash was literally so bad the vet said it almost took the pad off. I’m not even the one who got cut and that made me wince. 😭 So after surgery, I have to take care of her. Keep her cone on, make sure her paw stays dry, can’t let her run, keep her on a leash in the backyard, give her antibiotics (which is not easy lol), all that good stuff. I’m also in my last class of college and I’m taking care of financial things. So I’ve been kinda busy and didn’t write shit except for my class. Oh, and I had writer’s block. But like I said in my last post, I HAVE been working on a Chan fanfic. It’s 95% complete and will be up soon. I don’t know what else to put here but I’ll update this post if I feel the need to. Border isn’t mine btw I think it belongs to starfellcup1d.

Fanfic Ideas (Stray Kids/ATEEZ)

***Subject to change!!!***

I also name the reader. I’m not writing y/n over and over again.

Fanfics are NOT tied together unless indicated.

WIP: currently working on it

Stray Kids

💜Bang Chan/Seven💜

(he’s one of my ult biases, and my main one, so uhhhh tons of ideas for his fine ass bc god damn he’s so mf fine)

-Werewolf! Chan x Vampire! Female Reader

-Werewolf! Chan x Female Reader; lots of smutty shit in this when I start writing it.

You belong to a family that’s human and you’re in an organization that is involved with werewolves. The werewolves are in a facility where they train and carry out their responsibilities, one of which getting selected the first day of the new year to be the leader. Every year, the oldest or lead wolf gets to pick which girl he deems the best to help him carry on his bloodline while maintaining her own responsibilities. Chan’s family is trying to get him to pick a certain girl but he spots you, and you happen to be his mate. You’re not interested in this event but when you see Chan, you only focus on him because you feel a strong pull towards him (and a pang of arousal because he’s hot). Since it’s not easy, it leads to a series of events of you two sneaking around and fucking and getting closer to each other as mates. How will it end? Wolfgang Bang Chan in this. 🤤

-Werewolf! Chan x Bunny Hybrid! Female Reader

-Understanding Boyfriend! Chan x OCD Female Reader; completed, should be in my top posts at the top of my blog 💜 and I have OCD so don’t come for me

-Mafia Leader! Chan x Female Reader;

You’re attracted to each other— he’s a mafia leader and you’re a slightly innocent girl with a sexual side. It’s the perfect combo for him, but there’s one problem— you’re in the family of the enemy mafia. You’re sick of your family except a few people, but both mafias are brutal with harsh punishments for insubordination and betrayal. Sneaking around can only do so much since he’s your sneaky link. When feelings build, what will happen?

-Incubus! Bang Chan x Female Reader

-Boxer! Bang Chan x Female Reader; that TikTok that showed part of him practicing fighting has me in a chokehold

-Vampire! Chan x Female Reader

-Devil! Chan x Mix Breed! Female Reader; this is the fanfic I was talking about. It’s close to being done and will be posted soon. WIP

-Hustler! Chan x Female Reader; Uh so basically typical Chan but he’s dating the reader. Can’t decide if I want it to be Idol Chan or some other hustle but I’ll figure it out.

-Sugar Daddy/Dilf! Chan x Female Reader

-Professor! Chan x Honor Student! Female Reader

-Tattoo Artist! Chan x Female Reader

-Extraterrestrial! Chan x Female Reader; oh bitch I have ideas, and very dirty ones, too

-Chan x Depressed! Female Reader; two-part series~ WIP/massive trigger warning when released

• Part 1: I Hate To Admit

• Part : 42

-Immortal Mercenary AU! Chan x Female Reader; probably five-part series, WIP, good shit involved

-Porn Star! Bang Chan x Female Reader; I can assure you that this is the product of my whore mind

💜Lee Know/Athena💜

I need more ideas for Lee Know omg

-Tattoo Artist/Piercer! Lee Know x Female Reader; tied with Tattoo Artist Changbin

-Mafia Leader! Lee Know x Female Reader

-Porn Star! Lee Know x Female Reader; I’m excited for this bc he’s so fine and I can imagine him being a really gifted Porn Star 🤤

-Vampire! Lee Know x Female Reader

-College Senior AU! Lee Know X Female Reader; I recommend listening to Blueprint for this one when I post it~ this is autumn themed and just kinda soft with vanilla smut, I’m experimenting with this one omg it has nothing to do with the fact that I want it to be autumn already or anything

-Werewolf! Lee Know x Female Reader

💜Changbin/Rin💜

-Dom Bad Boy! Changbin x Rebellious/Alternative! Female Reader

-Werewolf! Changbin x Female Reader

-Porn Star! Changbin x Female Reader

-Mafia! Changbin x Female Reader

-Vampire! Changbin x Female Reader

-Boxer! Changbin x Female Reader; he’s so buff I can see him being a fine ass boxer or something 🤤

-Tattoo Artist! Changbin x Female Reader; tied with Tattoo Artist/Piercer Leek Know, titled Red Fire, preview on the top of my blog, WIP

-Sugar Daddy! Changbin x Female Reader

💜Hyunjin/Rose💜

- Art Student! Hyunjin x Art Student! Female Reader

- Extraterrestrial! Hyunjin x Human! Female Reader; WIP

- Vampire! Hyunjin x Female Reader

- Werewolf! Hyunjin x Female Reader

- Kinky! Hyunjin x Female Reader; he just wants to tie you up pls

-Mafia Leader! Hyunjin x Female Reader

💜Han/Hana💜

-Vampire! Han x Female Reader

-Werewolf! Han x Female Reader

-Foreign Exchange Student! Han x Female Reader; WIP

-Assassin! Han x Female Reader

-Mafia Leader! Han x Female Reader

-Traumatized! Han x Female Reader; WIP

-Demon! Han x Female Reader; he wants nobody else but you.

💜Felix/Sky (Syx)💜

- Incubus! Felix x Female Reader

- Dancer! Felix x Female Reader; not stripping, just genuinely as a passion

- Rapper! Felix x Female Reader; again, as a solo passion

- Vampire! Felix x Female Reader

- Personal Bodyguard/Assassin/Mafia! Felix x Mafia! Female Reader

- Porn Star! Felix x Female Reader

💜Seungmin/Sara💜

Most of these will be difficult because he’s so soft omg

- Soft Boy! Seungmin x Female Reader; your classmate in your art class, college AU

- Brutal Werewolf! Seungmin x Bunny Hybrid Female Reader; WIP

He’s a very brutal werewolf. When he’s in his werewolf mindset, he cares about absolutely nothing besides protecting his fellow pack mates. In his human form, he’s soft and adorable, yet still brutal. Consistently comes to lectures with some kind of minor wound, mainly deeply bruised and cut knuckles in bandages. He also gets into a lot of fights because he’s a brutal and gifted besides being an omega, his enemies attack him, but they either end up going missing, dead on the spot, or almost lethally injured. When he finds out you’re his mate, the game changes.

- Mafia Member! Seungmin x Female Reader

💜I.N/Jeongin/Melanie💜

I need more prompts for him omg pls

- Gamer/Nerd! Jeongin x Female Reader

- Mafia Leader! Jeongin x Female Reader; interesting ideas for this

- College Student AU! Jeongin x Female Reader

- Werewolf! I.N x Female Reader

Poly:

Rough Dom Bangchan/Changbin x Female Reader

Rough Dom 3RACHA x Female Reader

Rough Dom Hyunjin/Han x Female Reader with PTSD; might be a collab with a very special someone ✨

Rough Dom I.N/Seungmin x Female Reader

OT8:

Vampire Stray Kids x Female Reader

Halloween Costume Party; you’re dressed as a bunny and things get kinky

💕ATEEZ💕

Soooo these are the plots I have for ATEEZ fics. I wrote this months ago so I just copied and pasted this onto a single post. Some are subject to change so yea

💕Hongjoong/Sara💕

- Incubus! Hongjoong x Human Female Reader

- Vampire! Hongjoong x Human! Female Reader

- Model or Porn Star! Hongjoong x Female Reader

- Art Professor! Hongjoong x Female Reader

- Designer! Hongjoong x Model! Female Reader

- Mafia Leader! Hongjoong x Mafia Leader ! Female Reader; enemies to FWB to lovers. Both highly successful mafias.

💕Seonghwa/Melanie💕

(Another main ult bias that triggers my whore mind✨)

- Mafia Leader! Seonghwa x Female Reader

- Demon! Seonghwa x Female Reader

-Devil! Seonghwa x Female Reader

The man at church, the one your parents force you to meet, is the perfect Christian man who accepts you despite your alternative lifestyle. You’re not religious and religion makes you uncomfortable. But he’s not as Christian as you think when it becomes nighttime. Meeting him at the church at night is a new game, one that would ruin your church and pull you closer to him.

Alternate synopsis: oops the church man I met is actually the devil and he’s attracted to me, and he fucks me dumb on the altar at my family’s church most nights.

- Investigator! Seonghwa x Female Reader

- Dilf/Rich Daddy! Seonghwa x Female Reader

- Photography Professor! Seonghwa x Female Reader

- Werewolf! Seonghwa x Female Reader; highly HIGHLY NSFW

-Vampire! Seonghwa x Female Reader

-Mafia AU (yes, again)! Mafia Leader! Seonghwa x Female Reader; major infidelity theme here, which I don’t condone irl.

Basically, Seonghwa was put in an arranged marriage with a woman that his parents knew before they passed the role to him. Her family is a partner and they were looking to put their daughter in a marriage as well to strengthen the relationship between the two mafias. But the woman is a bitch, she’s unnecessarily rude to people, him included sometimes, and she can do things but it’s just her shitty attitude and fake/sneaky personality that gets under his skin. But he finds you at a nightclub while he’s alone, and you can do many things, things that are extremely useful in the mafia that supersede her abilities. So how will it play off when he’s married to a bitch and he’s attracted to and fucking a woman who actually makes him feel things for once?

💕Yunho/Seven💕

- Porn star! Yunho x OnlyFans! Female Reader; WIP

- Business Owner/Rich/Dilf! Yunho x Female Reader; he has a black card so it makes sense

- Bad Boy/Softy! Yunho x Bisexual Female Reader; WIP, part 1 is done

- Incubus! Yunho x Female Reader

- Dance Instructor! Yunho x Female Reader

💕Yeosang/Mae💕

- Tattoo Artist! Yeosang x Model! Female Reader

- Lawyer! Yeosang x College Student! Female Reader

- Mafia Member! Yeosang x Secretary! Female Reader

- Physics Professor! Yeosang x Female Reader

- Library Employee/Nerd! Yeosang x Honor Student! Female Reader

- Dorky Gamer! Yeosang x Female Reader

💕San/Rin💕

- Dilf! Professor San x Depressed! Female Reader; I have severe depression so I’m not trying to romanticize it

- Dilf/Incubus/Professor! San x Vampire Female Reader; I can explain, this is an experiment, part 1 finished, WIP

- Mafia Leader! San x Female Reader

Tatted/pierced San has to protect you. But it’s not easy when he’s attracted to you and daydreams endlessly about making you squirt and scream his name. Kind of pervy San, for you, but he loves rough sex.

- Rich Business Owner! San x Female Reader

- Tae Kwon Do Instructor! San x Red Belt! Female Reader

- Werewolf! San x Female Reader

-Vampire! San x Female Reader

💕Mingi/Athena💕

- Half Breed Vampire! Mingi x Vampire! Female Reader

- Extraterrestrial! Mingi x Human! Female Reader

- Professor! Mingi x Female Reader; WIP

- Mafia Leader! Mingi x Female Reader

- Werewolf! Mingi x Female Reader

💕Wooyoung/Hana💕

- Poseidon Descendant! Wooyoung x Siren! Female Reader; I got GOOD ideas for this

- Assassin/Mafia Leader! Wooyoung x Witness! Female Reader

- Dilf! Wooyoung x Female Reader

- Young Professor! Wooyoung x Female Reader

- Werewolf! Wooyoung x Female Reader.

- Gamer/Artist/YouTuber(?)! Wooyoung x Female Reader

- Vampire! Wooyoung x Female Reader

💕Jongho/Kana💕

- Gentleman! Jongho x Female Reader; oh child I have ideas

- Photographer! Jongho x Model! Female Reader; female reader might be a Suicide Girl, he’s shy but the reader helps him loosen up

- Hurt/Dilf! Jongho x Female Reader

- History/Psychology Professor! Jongho x Female Reader

-Werewolf! Jongho x Female Reader

Poly:

San/Seonghwa x Female Reader

WooSan x Female Reader

Yunho/Mingi x Female Reader

Seonghwa/Hongjoong x Female Reader

OT8:

VampireTEEZ x Female Reader

That’s all I have. It’s 3:38 A.M. and I have to be up at 5:15 A.M. after I basically slept all day lmfao

Like I said, this post is subject to change. We’ll just see. This post is so horribly formatted omg

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