#idc whatever

[wild-moss-art]

Insane update

So shortly after I made that post I had a therapy session in which my therapist tried pretty hard to convince me to go straight to the er. I'm typing this from a hospital bed bc the test results haven't come back but I've had such a wild experience I just want to record it or something

So I'm admitted and they stuck me for an Iv. I immediately passed the fuck out. Never had a single problem with needles, ivs, give blood, nothing. So they try my other arm and it's fine.

THEN they put me in a room and the doctor comes in. He asks what's going on and I fill him in, tell him I think I have a tumor. He basically says that's ridiculous, I'm too young for that, I probably have some chronic illness that the specialist will deal with, so he won't order a ct scan, but he agrees to schedule an ultra sound just in case and leaves.

After 30 minutes he COMES BACKIN AND SAYS "okay I thought you were much younger than you are, 27 is plenty old for a tumor, I've ordered the CT scan instead" !!!(side note-- i rarely agree to see male doctors. For this fucking reason. Didn't even look at my age in the file before assuming i was 16 or smth I guess)

Anyway i do the CT scan and come back to the waiting room. They tell me they will have results in about an hour. So I'm waiting and I notice my Iv bleeding so I go to the nurse to see if that's normal. She tries to fix it. I pass the fuck out again. At this point all the nurses in the station are scrambling to run my vitals. They put me in a room and give me an Iv for the third time(successfully)

So now I've been sitting here for 4 hours and no update on the test which they said would be done in an hour. Which is pretty worrisome.

#worst case of terminal baby face syndrome every #sorry meant to leave this in drafts accidental put hit post #idc whatever #tw needles #tw hospital #idk what else I'm still lightheaded #tw blood

[existancexisxstillxpain]

If she's gonna talk to his family behind my back, then I can't help but ask about it... He hasn't changed his clothes or even taken his coat off in two weeks.

The thing is- it's not just so easy for me to move on and just get over it or w/e, be happy, continue my life... This person who caused me so much hurt, pain and confusion was also a fixture in my life. I went to his appointments with him, his case managers and doctors became regular people in my life. I would stay on the phone with him for hours while he was in the hospital, and made sure he had healthy meals when he got out. We went on walks together. I scratched his head while he slept. I was there through so much, so many ups and downs, so it's not so easy for me to just not think about. I'm still rooting for him.

But then I saw a balaklava today and freaked out.

#life #vent #idc whatever #nothing matters #lets all just do whatever #who cares #who really cares about anything at all #why #can I just be done with this already #but no I look at old pictures instead #idek why #I'm fine #I'm happy #I'm good #it's fine #his first episode was on fucking valentines day #so now I associate fucked up things with valentines day

[yahoo-sodaa]

My goals as a man are:

To put myself in the best possible position.

Be the best man I can be.

Create.

Find a women who can hold it down for whatever and whenever.

And oh, leave the matrix.

#my blog #my post #penny for your thoughts #penny for your thought #leave the matrix #the matrix #allinoneblog #nyc #real rap #rhetoric #my philosophies #my philosophy #idc whatever #followforfollow #follow4follow #follow me or don’t #athletehippyhoodpreppunk #lifeisart #artislife #praise God

[imnotrealdeadass]

Do y'all see it, do you see the vision

#valentino #vox #alastor #alastor altruist #aromantic #aroace #aroace alastor #radiostatic #staticradio #staticmoth #hazbin hotel #hazbin alastor #hazbin vox #hazbin valentino #fuck you valentino #idc that vox is your boyfriend or whatever #nobody wants you

[gravitycoill]

lil comic i’ve had in my head for a bit

#digital art #cons art #adventure time #fionna and cake #fionna and cake fanart #marshall lee #fionna and cake marshall lee #fionna and cake gary #fionna and cake garry #gary prince #prince gumball #ice queen #fionna and cake ice queen #gumlee #also i’ve had this idea in my head but i just used the designs n stuff from ep 9 #uurrghhh i’m also such a lil nerd like erm ice queen has a dif story from simon 🤓☝️ but IDC RN…. #like most the times i geek out about ice queen being different from ice king and how she might not be simone but whatever

[favroitecrime]

world war 3 jokes on twitter meanwhile none of them live in the region and none of them understand the severity of the situation. these next few hours will really determine whether or not we head into a regional war…

#not debating iran’s right to self defense or whatever idc not what i’m talking about here #cause last i checked there were about hmm #oh ~7 countries between iran and occupied palestine #tag: i speakth #trust i hope i’m just bring dramatic

[skeletoninthemelonland]

"Got you! Ha ha ha ha ha!"

#the only reason why i think fnaf ar wasnt a complete waste of time: springtrap voicelines #idc if those are from the mimic or whatever this is how'd sound ok. ok #and GOD. those are just so freaking good #'And now... you're mine' the growl at the end. sir !!!! #no cuz i used to think he was boring when i was 9 #fnaf #five nights at freddy's #springtrap #starbsart

[bonesandthebees]

ao3 commenters PSA: even on older fics with a ton of comments the authors still get the notifs for every single comment

re: the person who just left a multi paragraph comment on one of my older fics talking about how much they disliked the ending and detailing several alternate endings they came up with instead that they thought would be better, and ending the comment with "no one is going to see this but oh well" authors see your comments yes even on old fics and it really doesn't feel good to see a comment like that even years after I finished the fic

#as always you can dislike a fic idc if you complain to your friends about how much you hated one of my fics or whatever #but don't comment it on my fucking fic?? #theres a proper place for that stuff and it's not shoving it in the authors face #ughhhh #ramblings

[scarydogyy]

#steven universe #fanart #how do u use tags idk WHATEVER IDC

[twinstxrs]

brennan reintroducing the bad kids with genuine titles they hold in canon like “archdevil” “captain of the owlbears” & “risen saint” but adding “holder of the tin flower” to gorgug’s intro because of how gorgug offering his tin flower to fabian, even after they fought, so effectively represents the type of person gorgug is (a kind one).

#what if i died #gorgug thistlespring #fantasy high #dimension 20 #fhjy spoilers #fhjy #if u think about it this is a win for the thistlecaster agenda (i’m delusional) #fellas is it gay if offering a tin flower to my bro which he later got put on the ax holster he gifted me is a core tenet of my character? #(no) #idk if tenet is the right word there but whatever it’s 5 a.m. idc at this point #but anyways. zac oyama characters you are often so kind & i love that about you.

[akihatohnoofficial]

go reblog someone else's post instead. this post is closed. i saw this on my dash go check it out instead

(i turned off reblogs because this post was making my notes fucking unusable and also it was never meant to be more than a personal vent post.)

#or make your own post. I’m giving you permission to wholesale steal the wording of my post. you can repost it whatever idc

[hood-ex]

So anyway, since Bruce abandoned his family, are they gonna let Damian go live with Dick in the Tower orrr is DC going to keep being dumb and not take advantage of such a golden opportunity...

#listen i know bruce and damian have a title rn but idc #bruce is like ''take care of the family dick'' #okay you absentee father #all the other kids are adults now so they can do whatever. but damian is still a minor!! he's 14!! #Bruce Wayne #Dick Grayson #Damian Wayne

[yahoo-sodaa]

“I made the best of what I thought was impossible.”

-TSSF

#quotes #pop punk #punk rock #my post #followforfollow #allinoneblog #nyc #follow4follow #false realities #false reality #penny for my thoughts #penny for your thoughts #penny for your thought #leave the matrix #idc whatever #me #follow my blog #inside my mind #jesusisgod

[tubbytarchia]

Missed drawing these two too

Bonuses

#rendoc #still thinking about them a lot #always #hermitshipping #sorry for the weird empty area in the first one. It was my attempt to make it take up less of people's timelines #this art is so embarrassing lol but man I like when Doc's drawn as a big goat man I have no defense I plead the fifth #or well at least it becomes embarrassing when its. shippy #whatever Tumblr people are usually cool so here goes!! #I am 99% a fluff and hurt/comfort person. Idc how frisky these guys get in fanon all I can ever think of is fluff sorry #Also contemplated implementing Doc's accent into the dialogue but I am forever paranoid of offending someone lol #idk how to write accents etc but you guys will make it sound fine in your heads I'm sure #hermitblr #tubby art

[souporsaladnatural]

The supernatural cast is literally so funny. Like on one hand you have misha and jarpad, who are pretty much the exact opposites of their characters in every way, and then on the other you have jensen ackles, who is at all times experiencing the worst case of character bleed in the entire world. Love that for them

#spn #supernatural #cat spirals tag #am. i going to tag them #yea idc whatever #jensen ackles #misha collins #jared padalecki #wait girl HELP why are we trending??

[transgenderboobs]

the magnus protocol is a podcast

#tmp #tmagp #the magnus protocol #magnus protocol #magpod #alice dyer #sam khalid #samama khalid #gwen bouchard #gwendolyn bouchard #my draws #listen. #in my HEAD when i was first listening sam was chubby. #idc if he's been described as having noodle arms or stick legs or whatever #he's chubby in my heart #die mad about it #described in the alt text