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kamiversee · 1 month

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i feel like as a crazy gojo girly i should explain some things from my perspective at least (then i’ll tone down the craziness so nobody thinks i’m actually like this irl 🙄)…

i’m well aware gojo is obsessed and it’s literally the biggest red flag in my face i swear 😭😭 but he has been telling us he doesn’t deserve us and we shouldn’t be with him and we shouldn’t love him and we should be with choso instead (HE BLACKMAILED US TO GO TO CHOSO ON CHRISTMAS) he’s aware of the things he’s done to us and he doesn’t expect forgiveness and sympathy so he’s self aware so i’m not sure idk i genuinely don’t see the manipulation in this aspect 🥲

i just idk his confession is the one that stuck with me as well especially since choso only confessed his love when he knew gojo is telling reader he loves her idkkk i didn’t like that it felt unnatural to me 😬

another thing is that personallyyy i’ve been icked by choso ever since he video called but that’s my problem lmaojskskjs i’ll see how it goes maybe my perspective will change but i just want to understand my blue-eyed baby 😔

Yap session incoming;

The manipulation aspect stems from how he’s aware and claims to be sorry but never changes. Thus putting the reader in a position where she wants to forgive him and accept his apology but finds herself forgetting or overlooking how he doesn’t change no matter what he says :)

A lot of people said Choso’s confession felt forced or tht he only said it bc he knew he had competition but before he left, he already said he had a confession for her— it’s just that there was no point of giving it to her then if she didn’t want to be in a relationship 😔

Basically, with Choso he’s litterally always on a time frame with the reader if you rlly think about it. She meets him in between having to sleep with other guys so she can’t pursue him like she wanted to, he leaves because he can’t stand falling for someone he feels as though he cannot have, and then when he comes back, praying she might be ready for him, he learns that there’s another person she has feelings for.

I don’t think Choso’s pov is well understood in this fic, which is okay, we get more of Gojo’s pov than Choso’s but I mean the most I can say without spoiling is this because it’s been hinted at;

Gojo is keeping things from the reader & the reader is keeping things from Choso.

The reader is Choso’s “Gojo” just as Gojo is to the reader. DOES THT MAKE SENSE HELP?!

Gojo lies to her & she lies to Choso SO WHAT IM TRYNA SAY IS, the same confusion you see the reader going through, Choso is going through just as much

DAMN I YAPPED A LOT, PLS I REALLY WANT YALL TO UNDERSTAND CHOCHO🥹🥹

#kamiversee!answers

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panic-like-the-disaster-you-are · 9 months

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SOO I JUST FINISHED HEARTSTOPPER SEASON 2 RN.

AND UHHH I SMILED AND CRIED SO MUCH.

I LOVE HEARTSTOPPER SO MUCHHH.

(I'll warn you now, heartstopper SPOILERS ahead:)

I loved how we got to see Elle much more than the books, and i love the fact that she's an artist and she found other queer people in her new school and stuff.

I LOVE TORI SO MUCH. The "you're a pathetic little man" scene!!!! The scene where she dug her nails into David for being a dick when they were at the dining table. The scene where she told Nick to either take care of Charlie or he does!! I love her. Tho she did come accross darker this season as I've seen other people say

And the part where Isaac said "I've never really have any celebrity crushes" just hit different tbh, and the moment where he held the ace book and just strut out the library omgg. And Crush Culture by Conan Gray was perfect for Isaac i think.

And one thing, I never expected to see tao and charlie kiss, even if it was a dare...

Ohh, Nick's coming out at the party scene was slightly better in the book tbh

Also, I love the teachers (Farouk, Ajayi, and singh).

Ohhhhh, Imogen. Babe you are an idiot. Ben Hope, seriously?? Also is it just me or am I imagining stuff cuz there was a vibe about Sahar and Imogen towards the end, so idkkk

And OMGGGG SEVEN IS SUCH A PERFECT SONG FOR TARA AND DARCY.

"I think your house is haunted

Your dad is always mad and that must be why

And i think you should come live with me

And we can be pirates

Then you won't have to cry

Or hide in the closet"

The 'haunted' part. The 'your dad(mom) is always mad' part. The 'come live with me' part. The 'you won't have to cry or hide in the closet' part. Like omg. A song can't get more perfect than that. I love them so much. Darcy deserves much better parents, and also a hug tbh.

And the part where Charlie told Nick about self-harming. I was sobbing so much.

One thing about the ending tho, I don't think Charlie's gonna send Nick that message, next season will probably start with Charlie gay panicking and searching up "how to tell someone i love you" and talking to himself and making up a scenario like in the book. Cuz I really want the "YOU TOLD ME ILY IN THE SHOWER" scene

Anywayy, that's all for my Heartstopper season 2 rant, i loved it SOOO MUCHHH that I could cry. (I did actually cry lolll)

#Heartstopper #Heartstopper season 2 #Heartstopper season 2 spoilers #Osemanverse #heartstopper spoilers #heartstopper s2 #Heartstopper on Netflix #spoilers

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chaisshitposts · 6 months

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Hiii chai<3

Actually this is going to be kinda big sorry? Lol

Its not really related to LOA or void or even psychk, I just wanted somebody's opinion on my situation with my boyfriend???💀💀im sorry lol

Ok sooo basically i like him and he is nice and i am soo happy and i am sure that if we continue being together i will eventually fall for him but the thing is that I have always and i mean always imagined my future in a certain way and i cant imagine him fitting in my that certain future idk...what to do should i just manifest things so that he fits in that future but that involves changing him a bit and i dont really want that or i should have fun right now and then later on i can manifest us breaking up and moving on without either of us being hurt?? IDKKK please help me ouut😭😭

Also I'm 17 if that matters i guess?

Looking forward to your advice :)

darlin'... I really just don't understand, why are you datin' someone ya don't want??? I don't get that— and the fact that ya don't see him in yer future is a sign to me... I have no idea what to tell ya, I am not a romance guru 🧍 good luck though !!! 🏃🏾🏃🏾🏃🏾🏃🏾

#— chai's asks. !! ~#— anonnie. !! ~

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lightyearssurrogatedaddy · 4 months

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Should I make a New Year's appreciation post too? Cus I saw someone else do it.

Idkkk this year was pretty wack, I met God for five seconds, met God again, improved my art, bawled like a baby, had sixteen sexuality awakenings before I decided to go unlabeled, and met some pretty incredible people that I plan on canibalistically consuming.

Started last year hating myself and crying, started this year feeling grumpy but that's prolly just because I woke up early today. I learned this terrible, terrible fact that I'm allowed to be loved and I spear fought that for a good few months ngl.

Learned that being cringe is awesome

Learned how to write

Learned that people are more terrifying than what I previously anticipated but that just makes me love them even more

I know the meaning of life (no I don't) (I've scraped it up to "fuck around and find out" and I suggest it as s tier advice) (actually no I don't)

Learned how to make a boiled potato (singular)

Life's pretty cool I didn't expect this at all. It threw me a curveball at half time and I got all my teeth knocked out. It's been a weird experience so far, I think I, did that thing, yk that thing humans do, yeah I think I shed a few cells and grew a little bit. Whoa. Crazy.

I learned that in hindsight this post doesn't really matter, but that's not gunna stop ME from giving a smooch to everyone I love. They like, changed the way I exist. I don't remember feeling this loved and thought of before, it's eerie, really eerie.

Learned how to like myself even a tiny bit, because of all of you. I owe you a lot.

(am I allowed to tag people?) (Sorry I'm still borderline new at this) (I don't wanna bother anyone with my silliness) (maybe I'll just say your names instead of tagging you and hope it magically summons you) (or maybe I won't)

@crunchontoast (for yk, everything. If I even attempt to write it all out we'll be here for days. Summing it up feels inadequate but I realize that I don't have to explain anything in a post to strangers online. Cus you already know and that's awesome)

@karineverse (for being a real one and listening to me ramble. Helping me figure out shapes for characters. You're a silly sills)

@fl0w3rg0at (for being one of my besties for almost three years at this point, I think. Whoa yeah. And for sticking with me through all my crappy phases)

I'm feeling awkward I hate emotions (‼️‼️‼️)

My Mom (thank you mom. ✨How did you survive me✨)

My Cousin (for getting me Hollow Knight for Christmas. And also for texting me once per year) (a real one fr)

My Cat (for giving me snuggles when I most needed it)

I wanna tag Tacol0ser can I tag Tacol0ser? Anyways (for being the silly guy in my Ao3 comments section and giving me bursts of confidence. You're cool)

My Bestie Since 1st Grade (for being like a sister to me, our lives are pretty rough and I'm glad we have each other. Let's hold hands and go downtown for pizza again)

Oh sorry did you expect more people? My b most of them are off Tumblr. Anyways I tried tell me when to delete this cus my nerves are getting the best of me.

Ah wait and thanks for Tumblr for giving me a shitton of new memes to bother folks with.

#lsd's bullshit

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booklovingturtle · 1 year

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Shadow and Bone Season 2 Rambles (SPOILERS)

S&B S2E8 season finale

DO NOT GIVE ME ANOTHER KAZxDARKLING FIGHT

I know Kaz did that for the money but still that was cute

pls just kill him this is so dumb

YES DEATH

Also shout out the nina plot convenience save

Inej and Zoya look amazing

The Darkling is delusional its giving Dmitri voicemail

Ben? The Darkling is terrible but I will miss him

NOOOO ALINA GIRL WHAT ARE YOU DOING

DOES SHE DO THIS IN THE BOOK??????

can you guys tell I really don't remember the S&B books at all?

Nina knows....

Wait I just realized she doesn't have white hair I really wanted to see that

I LOVE THAT EASTER EGG

Mal knows

Guys I really need someone to retell me the plot I don't remember

Ohhhhh wait I think I'm starting to get it is this their way of extending it so that we get more showline from them?

Aw nooo my scruffy boy's gonna get scruffier...whatever shall I do

I AM SOBBING THEY BETTER NOT HAVE KILLED MY BOY I WON'T BELIEVE IT TILL I SEE A BODY GUYS I CAN'T HANDLE THIS STOP JOKING WITH ME IF THIS ISN'T REALY THEN GIMME BACK MY DAVID RIGHT NOW

THEY'RE HOLDING THIS SHOT WAY TOO LONG I DON'T LIKE IT ARE YOU SERIOUS RIGHT NOW

FOR DAVID???? THEY KILLED HIM??? SERIOUSLY??? WAHTOIAHTOIAHFOAHRFOUAHRUIAHRIFHAEOIHAOIR;GAOIFHADSFHAISUHFAUOHGAUHGAUIHFAHOFIAOFAO;SDFJH;A

i know he dies in the King of Wolves book or whatever but that was fine bc i didn't read it so i can just pretend that isn't in the books but THIS IS JUST CRUEL

So Nikolai isn't a Shadow Fold monster dude?? I just realized that

lmao I am not interested in the show post-bookcannon tbh this better be a hard pivot into the Crows bc I don't care about Malina or Ravkan politics enough to keep watching after the book canon story

how is there still 30 whole minutes left this episode feels done the only thing left is to wrap up the crows and give us a teaser for next season that should be 10 minutes AT MOST

I feel like this Kanej scene isn't the serve they think it is...it works GREAT for me as a reader and lover of SOC but if I was just a viewer idkkk

Inej looks amazing

My poor boy he just wants to be right with Djel and the world keeps kicking him down

Nina girly get this boy out with Dirtyhands

Ahhh yess so he will be a monster yes the this is good

That crown/gown look terrible I'm sorry bring back the kofta

EXCUSE ME YOU WANT ZOYA STOP LOOKING AT ALINA LIKE THAT

yes Zoya look at him

That coat looks bad too

I am affectionally insulting the royal fits btw

LOVE THE JURDA PAREM DROP

huhhhhhhhhhhhh...darkling cut....okay??? uhm

Choices were made

I must think more to decide how I feel about those choices

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felixfathom · 1 year

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Kagami focused episodes are actually so good and every single one of them expands her beyond badass sword girl that I'm shocked people still view her that way. I fear that it's because maybe some yt people feel like they just can't relate to an Asian girl (who has more pronounced Asian features and has her heritage superficially more emphasised by the narrative). Like I really hope that isn't the case and I don't want to assume but as an Asian girl myself, the west has always viewed us like some sort of invading Other. A perpetual foreigner that will never belong (no matter how hard we try to assimilate) and thus can never be properly identified with. Sorry for oversharing but idkkk I guess I'm sensitive about this stuff. Also ironically this makes kagami fit the senti thing even more bc that's also like feeling othered and stuff, with her desire for perfection sounding similar to how lots of east asians are fed the model minority myth (if you work hard enough without complaining, eventually you'll overcome racism and belong! no it doesn't work like that) and also how if Asians slip up (eg their English is not "perfect") people will start viewing us as foreigners again who don't belong (so we have to be perfect). So even though I know this isn't intentional and will never be explored, I actually identified a lot with her and it makes me sad that no one even thinks of her enough to come up with stuff like this. And also, ofc it would be great rep if she was a lesbian and it's a valid hc but she canonically isn't and I feel like people who only care about her if she is implies that... they don't care about women of color in and of themselves? like woc by themselves aren't interesting enough for you to pay attention to unless you add something else to them. Plus, everyone weirdly erases adrigami as if that wasn't a vital part of her character because they just can't stand that adrien was interested in someone other than marinette, and I kind of feel like that's why they hc her as a lesbian so that they can take adrigami out of the picture. Sorry ik this ask is weird but I'm just frustrated at how no one cares about her and just misinterprets her all the time

no bc this is super important and you bring up a lot of good points !! admittedly, part of kagami's character does revolve around her relationships with the main leads but what i noticed is that canon always focused on her feelings and her side of the story whereas in the fandom she's an accessory to them.

i also had the impression that (most) people boil her down to the lesbian headcanon as a way to invalidate adrigami and/or feligami and it's so dismissive of her actual character, it shows how they only care about her when she fits certain criterias or holds up well to the one-dimensional standard they set for her as the blunt perfectionist ice queen, the very thing she's trying to avoid being seen as. people can only appreciate her when she's being all buddy-buddy with marinette and they're doing a poor job at hiding it bc this season had 3 episodes that were about her in one way or another and all three times the fans managed to make it about adrien and marinette, with perfection probably being the worst offender out of all of them.

i don't think anyone who has neglected her arc up until this point should be allowed to have a say on what's in or out of character for her, bc i doubt they can even tell the difference between that and choices they personally don't align with. kagami is one of the most well written and multifaceted characters in the show, and she deserved a fandom that recognized all the ways she stood out from the rest of the supporting cast as opposed to one that only cares about her in relation to other characters

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jinkicake · 1 year

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Cannot stop thinking about giorno being an absolute menace, like I wonder what he would do with a darling who didn’t want to leave but they’re still firm on their on boundaries,like I would be fine to sit and play housewife lmao he’s paying for everything!! But if he wanted to catch an attitude like “you’re not allowed to go anywhere without me” I would be so annoyed. Like I don’t want to leave why are you being so insecure like hold my hand we gon go get therapy go them abandonment issues and separation anxiety 🙄SHDJD like he’s waiting for them to try and fight him or hurt him and run away bc there’s no way they’re chill, he’s prepared his entire mindset to physiologically manipulate them and to wait for them to love him but they already like him they’re just annoyed at how clingy he is. Like okay you can hold onto me or whatever but i need to go shower, unless you’re gunna like wash my hair like I’m a Victorian maiden and the maids wash you themselves; I would like a cm of personal space🥰🥰 like fhsh he’s so flabbergasted “🤨🤨 you sure you’re not going to escape?” Like he keeps setting them up and they pass every time liek cameras in the house but every exit is wide open and unlocked and it’s empty and they just go get food and go back upstairs 💀 even the rest if passions who would readily keep you under lock and key for him are like ,,,, maybe he is a little crazy we need to have an intervention😭😭 he was ready to use sex as bargaining but like I’m down lmao let me tie up my hair. Like I’ll definitely argue if he pulls some “ I love you and want to keep you safe” shit when I am literally going to the grocery store like mista and Bruno are literally escorting me you can calm the fuck down😒 like you can keep me here or whatever but you’re not gunna smother me that I won’t let slide; he’s trying to have his. Subordinates get close to you so you can tell them you’re planning to escape but that don’t work either. “ you actually hate him don’t you? You don’t look happy” “not really, I mean he’s like a golden retriever he just wants affection. Him stealing my underwear is annoying tho” “ you need me to help you escape? I can save you” “nah, I’m pretty good right here,and giorno has ears everywhere you might not want to let him hear you say that”

honestly... honestly, hear me out, i think giorno would respect those boundaries. idkkk like most yandere works i read of him, the writers always do him like that..... he doesn't let the reader leave or go anywhere but if the reader is like 'fuck u go away' giorno will watch over from afar (mentally crying bc he wants to respect his s/o and bc he can't be near them LOL)

YOU KNOW HE HAS SOME BAD ASS SEPARATION ANXIETY AND ABANDONMENT ISSUES. LOOK AT HIS PARENTSSSS AND HIS CHILDHOOD-

no, see i think i could deal w the kidnapping and everything but like if i had to be stuck talking to a man for the rest of my life i dont think i could do it... sorry giorno,,, you can take away my freedom but not my friends! i would HAVE to shittalk with someone and i clearly cant shittalk to him! ... hmm i wonder if giorno would let his s/o talk shit about him to hiim HAH A

omg i would so want to go grocery shopping w mista like what a chaotic experience that would be but at the same time that would also be hell bc mista would not be my friend like he's working for giorno T T he would not care about my ass-

giorno steals underwear confirmed like it's right there, he's a gentleman-y perv (gasp that gives me an idea)

also if giorno were to keep you under lock and key, which character should he NOT keep close to you? Like for me, it would be abba bc if giorno leaves me in a room w that man im jumping his ass and sitting on his *

sigh i love part five

#sarahandoikawatalkshit

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suenitos · 1 year

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i am a lore head and i won't even apologize for it i was writting essays in my friends dms on the wholeeee thing until Um techno's passing where i lost any and all motivation to tap in (he was my favorite). idk it was so special i can atest that the reason it was sooo build up was because it worked in a way you could both take things at face value (as in, dream looking for the disc using his minecraft abilities being translated to him having those abilities in-character) and also imaginate stuff (such as burning george's house and/or the pogtopia arc could both be dramatized and downplayed). IDK IT WAS SO FUCKING SPECIAL

i do agree that q's lore being of incredible visual quality and cinematographic helped create this sense of greatness but it lacked so much succint stuff. you couldn't do anything but strong lore beats with that kind of lore, so a mixture of normal rp-ing and big lore cinematographics would've been good, but he missed the equlibrium and made a lot of people very annoying in how they reacted to the "writting" of the dsmp (like, remember those people saying that certain characters should have certain endings for how their characters had done, while the ccs were just having fun? yeah the change between dnd kind of rping to the fake idea of this being a fully scripted and narratively consistent arcs was q lolol). ANYWAY IDKKK lots of thoughts about everything always

sidenote on "is this lore" "is this canon" i also hatedddd that so much everything is canon lore. nothing is canon lore. lore doesnt even mean what you think it means 😭 you really mean plot.

YESSSS LIKE THESE PEOPLE WERE OUT THERE CHECKING EVERYTHING ANF CATEGORIZINFG EVERYTHIGN JESUS CHRIST THAT FAKE NATION YOU LOVE ROSE UP TO MAKE A DRUG MONOPOLY AND MAKE CDREAM'S LIFE HELL NOTHING MORE !!🌟

like people forgot really quickly that this used to be a mishmash of breaking bad and hamilton roleplay 😭 and most of the ccs are not actors or writers but they clearly had a lot of fun with it and again the relatively unserious medium of streaming made a lot of those moments actually more epic becuase it was serious but also not. i love your persepctive on this! its kinda funny you mention the dream irl abilities a little bit because i remember a few months ago friday got slammed for that here by an insane lorehead who was very much of the Everything Must Have A Reason crowd even though that was WAYY before any actual substantative plot HAPPENED.

i agree with the balance aspect and even though a lot more interactions between LN characters happened on other peoples streams (and was relatively more chill), i think the emphasis on these huge lore streams was a detriment to the story it was trying to tell whatever that was. i was confused more than sad that slime fucking died because as a casual dsmp viewer i only tapped into the big streams and nothing about the way slime was intro'd or integrated into the story through those streams really captured me the way someone might be swept into like crimeboys for example. it just wasnt the same. and also on the point of obsessive viewers FUCK michael i wish sapnap killed his ass

#🌟.txt #i have huge respect for loreheads i either engage with media OBSESSIVELY or not at all and in this case i fell more towards the cgeorge #side of things LOL. good for me cause he hardly ever did it i guess. but i did vaguely know what was happening with discduo etc #most of the time. im sorry to hear that about technos passing. i feel like he was an essential part to dsmp for a lot of reasons :(#ask.txt

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sailermoon · 1 year

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I just really can’t stand how I make myself small and how I just don’t tell people when I’m hurting like idk why I put so much focus on not telling people when others have hurt me because I would feel bad if people faced consequences for it??? like what the fuck?? I don’t even know what to call that behavior it’s just unwell

like the guy harassing me or my coworker treating me poorly I didn’t report because I “didn’t want them to get in trouble” like someone could try to murder me and I’d still be like “idkkk if I should call for help” like 😭😭 I need to learn to put myself first

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bookishjules · 4 months

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Hey 👋

Idk if you remember me but it's the one who has the 'Simon in the wild' best friend

That's a very vague reference ik. But well I'm here for something else. I haven't been really active on Tumblr recently but well here's the update I'm still bsfs with Simon guy ofc. But who'd have thought I kinda got interested in a guy in my college (honestly surprising) who's from a different major.

Guy doesn't read at all...I mean tries but it's just not his thing (he has one of my books). Though he really appreciates my long essays about books n shadowhunters basically. Like literally yesterday I just mentioned I'm so obsessed with Morgensterns n he wanted to know why ...I asked if he wants the whole reference later or should I cut it short tell rn (we've got our finals) he's like nah I'll prefer the essay , tell me about it later. Idk I just find it really sweet lol.

Hehe well Happy New year Jules ✨✨ hope you have an amazing year ahead

You n Bry are like the cousins I can drop by randomly for some tea (literally and metaphorically).

Lots of love n cookies 🍪🍪

omg hi!!! happy new year to you too!! <3 i was just thinking about you the other day, actually :) glad to know you and simon guy are still besties hehe i will say tho i am very excited about this development..

is there anything like actually romantic going on between you two or is it still friendship vibes? bc idkkk a person who actively wants to hear your thoughts about everything like that... i wouldn't be surprised if he was into you too hehe regardless tho.. having someone you can rant to like that? what a great feeling fr and it makes me happy you have someone you can do that with irl <3

also now i want to read this essay about the morgensterns.. please feel free to return to tea time to rant about that ;) or whatever really! yk i'm always here for both kinds of tea <3 i hope you and simon friend are doing well!!

#love and cookies to you too hehe <3 #simon anon #asks

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notyobabygirl · 2 years

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hi!! ik you’re in a healthy happy relationship now, so i feel awful for bringing this up. but i remember when i first followed you you were still with your ex who cheated on you multiple times. i really applaud you for being so open with us about that btw!! anyways, i might have just found out my boyfriend of 2 years cheated on me almost a year ago. it was while we were “broken up” because he thought i had cheated on him (very long story). we both knew we weren’t officially broken up yet though and that he just needed time to come to terms with things and figure out if he could trust me, which he ended up doing. ik he was extremely emotional and hurt back then, and a part of me always told myself that if he had done anything to “get back at me” that i could forgive it as long as he was honest with me about it when we decided to stay together and move past the rumor that i cheated on him. i asked him multiple times if he did anything and explained to him that i’d be understanding of it but he always promised he didn’t. but a few weeks ago one of his friends came to me and told me he did do something with someone else while we were “broken up” but it was a 1 time thing and he didn’t know exactly what happened between them and he didn’t even know who the girl was. he said he doesn’t have proof of it and that my boyfriend could have been lying to him about it, but that’s all he knew. his friend was kinda weird about it and we were both pretty drunk when he told me. he told me i shouldn’t break up with my boyfriend because we don’t know if it’s true, and he told me not to tell my boyfriend i found out for at least a few weeks which i also found odd. as soon as i got home and sobered up i called my best friend and she told me it sounded like the friend made it up and she was always skeptical that this friend had a thing for me. so i had no idea what to think. i questioned my boyfriend about it and he seemed so confused and told me the friend was lying. he cut that friend off and i have as well, but i still don’t know what to believe. i found out that same friend went and lied about me to someone else, so now ik he’s a liar in general. but idk if he was lying about this. i feel like if my boyfriend cheated he would have come clean or i definitely would have found out by now because i’m kinda crazy and i find everything out naturally. ig my question here is- when you found out your ex cheated on you, and you knew you weren’t ready to stay with him, how did you tolerate dating him and gaining trust back? ik my situation is a little different if my boyfriend cheated considering the circumstances (still doesn’t make it ok) but i don’t think i’m ready to break up if he did cheat on me. but i’ve never been cheated on and i don’t think i could ever trust or love him the same again so idk? i also don’t know if i should even be worried about this rn. even my best friend who is always 100% honest and has no reason to defend my boyfriend told me the story his friend told me seems like a lie to just get a chance with me. so idkkk what do you think of this whole thing? what should i do?? thank you 🤍🤍 i hope you’re having a safe and good move!! :)

hi love! well first of all thank you!! that's so sweet. this is what I would do if I were you- I would first have a very CALM conversation with your boyfriend and just be like I cannot stop thinking about it and its driving me crazy, I will get over it but I just am going to ask you one more time if you hu with someone during that rough patch. next I would actually talk to that friend that told you. I would reach out to him and be like hey its been really bugging me since you told me that and I need to know the truth please tell me all the details you have. if he doesn't have any details then he probably is lying but I would still deff ask. your situation is different because my boyfriend and I were extremely toxic and looking back I was just too insecure to leave him. you are and your boyfriend were on a break or whatever you wanna call it and he might have done something out of spite. to be completly honest, if he did do something I wouldn't break up with him over it. the thing that would bother me the most is if he lied about it. but ask him and talk to that friend (dont tell your bf your asking that friend) lmk what happens! and thank you I cant wait to tell you guys about the move!!

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queenie-blackthorn · 6 months

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sooooo im 75% done w the first book of kotlc, here are some thoughts i had / theories i came up w while reading (the links to my thoughts for 25% and 50% are here and here respectively)

starting off hot, i did not like keefes dad. ik thats like obvious that hes bad, but hes giving lucius malfoy (i can imagine him w the black swan. not theorizing, but saying that i wouldnt be surprised). i swear if i find out hes touched a hair on keefes gorgeous head—

another thing, the pyrokinetics. that book was obviously planted by someone from the black swan, and i think i know who (i say it in one of the next points.) but i wonder what happens if someone is a pyrokinetic ? i think someone mentioned earlier that abilities can form on their own, so what do they do w someone who just like spawns that ability. also wouldnt it be funny if dex or marella was a pyrokinetic.

speaking of dex, can i just say i love him. i feel like hes sidelined by sophie n i know she doesnt mean it n hes her best friend but hes so left out cmon i feel so bad. also the way hes so jealous of fitz "you just like seeing wonderboy. please dont tell me you have some stupid crush on him" JSWJSHSHEHD I CANT

i can also now honestly say that i like sophie as a mc. like. a lot of books have bland mcs but not kotlc, shes a good person, she has a strong moral compass, hates attention cause she gets so much of it (esp sucks since this seems to be a chosen one trope). i wanna see more depth to her character tho cause a lot of this is just surface shit. but then again this is a middle-grade series n im only on the first book, so ill be patient

okay, look. about the black swan. i get that theyre planting information into her head. she knows abt elementine, she knows the word 'suldreen'. but some things i dont get how they planted. its too broad to be planted all at once like. she can understand a whole new language n she doesnt know it ?? she can read a whole new alphabet (the cipher runes) which is extremely rare to be able to read ?? she knows how the eternalia castles look like ?? howd they plant that in her head? might be a plothole but idkkk

the allergy when she was nine HAS GOT TO HAVE SOME SIGNIFICANCE. i mean, it was thrown in n she mentioned that they never discovered what its cause was ??? real suspicious shit im telling you

now, this ones a lil far fetched n it goes off of barely anything except for my writer instinct but bear w me, at first when sophie started getting notes in her locker n they suspected it was someone from the black swan (i suspect the book was also planted by that someone, tho i suppose its kinda obvious), i thought it was a student or teacher who could get easy access. heck, i assumed it might be keefe for a hot sec bc we know he broke into her locker before. but then he said that he found it opened, n alden said it might be a vanisher... and then alvar, a vanisher, showed up during that same conversation. now, i could be wrong, but wouldnt that make for an insane plot twist? esp since sophies gonna move in w the vackers, n itd make for a cool thing to notice if you go for a reread knowing hes the vanisher alden speculated abt. idk, just a thought

thats all i have, the next one is gonna be a post when im 100% done, n ive found a pdf of the second book so imma start reading that prolly immediately after im done w this one. lmk if i should do posts like this for 'exile', too (i wonder why its called that btw?)

tagging: @tastetherainbow290, @that-multi-fandom-hijabi, @aylin-hijabi

#kotlc #keeper of the lost cities #kotlc thoughts #first time read

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hoekageyama · 4 years

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ok i’m about to rant abt personal life stuff so if y’all don’t mind here we go...

(i’ll make this a read longer so it’s not clogging up y’all feed w my stupid personal problems lol)

send help i’m supposed to go to a bday party for a (somewhat close) friend tn and i’m conflicted bc part of me just wants to chill w my babies & play cod w them all night bc they’re finally home from being away for what feels like fucking ages :((((

i am:

like i don’t wanna be a bad friend but just emotionally idk if i can handle being around ppl other than my boys rn

it really sucks tho bc we were gonna hang tn in person and all have a cute lil sleepover like we normally do but bc of the pandemic, my fren is gonna self quarantine bc he’s a good, respectable person & actually cares abt us (MY HEART HURTS LIKE LEMME HOLD UR HAND AND HUG U IDIOT)

anywaaaaaaay....

like i feel fucking gross beyond belief bc i’m just like ew (like as a whole entity)

but also like i wanna go bc i finally get girl time & like they’re so sweet and THERES ALCOHOL!!! LIKE I CAN FINALLY BE A LIL THODDIE W MY GIRLS BUT IM TOO FUCKIN D*PRESSED TO LEAVE THE HOUSE 😩😩😩😩😩😩

also like WHAT THE FUCK DO I GET HER FOR HER BIRTHDAY????!!!!! I DONT KNOW AND IM FREAKING OUT I AFDAJFFKJADJ

H E L P

P L E A S E

if u got this far pls take all these sweet haikyuu reaction pics as an apology for spewing my stupid personal bullshit nonsense online & it making its way to ur feed 🥺👉👈

#wurbs #SOMEONE PLS TELL ME WHAT TO GIFT U GET SOMEONE ON SUCH A SHORT NOTICE #LIKE DO I GET A CARD W SOME ALCOHOL OR????#IDKKK HELP PLS #oh also i guess i should tag this just in case #tw depression #even tho its not really super obvious idk #im just really fucking anxious rn and need a lil bit of consoling and i dont have anyone to talk to except for thAT group of friends and ugh #i just feel so bad for doing this #fuck it ill just go and get reeeeally fucked up and then have a good time #im gonna force myself to have a good time #bc i deserve to let loose #right???#i think i do anyway???#ugh idek anymore dude #i hate being so anxious #im waaay too indecisive #this post is a mess #anyway if ur still reading this ilysm!!!#please remember to drink water!!!#also please make sure ur eating at least something today!!#be good to urself!#i love u endlessly <3

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ukiyoexo · 4 years

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COFFEE ADDICT. — NMY

PAIRINGS — nct, nakamoto yuta x reader

GENRES — ghoul!yuta, tokyoghoul!au, student!reader, uni!au, fluff, angst

SYNOPSIS — yuta, the boy who sits two rows in front of you in biology class. yuta, the boy who has a secret he could never let you find out about. yuta, the boy with an undying craving for flesh and addiction to coffee. yuta, the boy who ends up saving you?

WARNINGS — violence, blood, idkkk

WORD COUNT — 1.5k+

TAG LIST — @uwu-yifan @peachjaem00 @heartyyjeno @guccichan @morkleeskneecaps

NOTE — ayyyy this is kinda messy but i wanna write more tokyo ghoul stuff because this was fun :)))

DEVILTALES — MASTERLIST

tokyo. the city that never sleeps. the city of big dreams and big problems — big ghoul problems.

you had heard plenty about the ghoul situation in tokyo before you had even applied to uni in the city. it was hard not to. not only was it printed in black bold lettering on the front of every newspaper after every attack, but you also found them incredibly fascinating. you were almost drawn to them, the mystery that surrounded them, the unknown.

but maybe that curiosity was always going to be your downfall.

since you had first moved to tokyo, there had been more attacks than you could count. the days between them descreasing each time. it was scary, of course, the stay at home orders and the many warnings to not go out at night increasing.

and you mostly followed them, but you would be lying if you said you weren’t partly intrigued.

♡ ♡ ♡

“afternoon class,” your professor welcomed you all, scribbling a topic on the slate board at the front of the class in large, scrawled white chalk. you had always loved biology, that’s why you chose it as your major. not only was interesting and you were constantly learning new things, but it just encouraged your aspirations to one day study the ghouls that ran the city. “today we’ll be learning about mutation.” he continued as you copied down the title.

you were good student, you paid intention in class and you got the work, often coming out with top grades. but recently you had been distracted by something, or more specifically someone.

the transfer from osaka that sat in front of the class and wore his cherry red hair in a ponytail was quite hard to miss. same went for his addiction to coffee, a cup from the same coffee shop downtown held in his hand every time he walked into lectures.

at first, you hadn’t payed much mind to him. you were working towards your dream and weren’t going to let some boy with bright hair distract you. but it was hard not to be intrigued — there was your undying curiosity again. sure, he was good looking, and looked like he had been carved by the gods or whatever, but that wasn’t what pulled you in.

he was different. the way he acted, the way he held himself, the aura that surrounded him. there was something different about him and you couldn’t quite place it, apart from the fact that he did quite literally only seem to live on the caffeine filled beverage.

class wraps up quickly, your attention only drawn to the boy a couple times. although you couldn’t help but notice how he seemed more invested in his note taking than normal.

at the end of this lecture, you’d normally head straight home to avoid the streets in the dark, but your biology had set an essay to be done with a rather tight turn around.

you could have, of course, organised your time to get it done another time. but it was one night, you would be fine, right? besides, a part of you was so fascinated by the beings that you almost wanted to see the things that stalked the city.

the library is quiet, most people not wanting to have to risk the journey home. yet it’s helpful, actually. you manage to plan and write most of your essay without much difficulty. but maybe that was because it was also on a topic you loved: ghouls.

you’re mid way through a sentence when you get a notification from your phone. a random text from your friend, some stupid meme, your attention drawn instead to the time that’s glaring back at you.

it was late, later than you had intended. and too late to really be out.

you pack up quickly after that, heading out of the library and making your way down the safest path home. you had your keys slid between your fingers, although you didn’t know how much use they would come to if an incident did occur.

the night is cold and black. an icy, darkness that seems to coat the city and leaves a shiver running down your line, chills prickling your skin. you continued down the street, making a sharp left turn. it’s a blind corner, one that you shouldn’t have taken, one that should have made you choose another route. but you had taken it anyway, maybe it your curiosity again that drew you to it.

you notice the blood first, a steady stream of thick red liquid trickling down the street, dripping it’s way down the drain. then the sound of ripping. meat tearing. flesh.

the gulp from your throat is audible, your eyes not even fully up as your feet begin to shuffle back, you don’t feel as intrigued or nearly as brave as before.

you try to escape, but it’s too late.

you see her eyes first. a fluorescent red surrounded by a black that matched the night sky. her hair a violet, bright shade that seemed to contrast the dark look on her face. a hungry look. “p- please- i won’t tell anyone i saw you- just-”

“just let you go? is that what you going to ask me, dear?” she inches closer and you wish you could run but your frozen, not only trapped by the crippling fear but by the ‘claws’ that extended from her body. “do you really want your last words to be pitiful begs?” her hand reaches to cup your neck, touch almost delicate. “i- i-”

“let her go rize.” your stammered words are interrupted by the voice of a man, his tone calm and steady. the woman shifts her attention away from you at his command but her hand remains gripping at your throat, tightening ever so slightly. “yuta?” she almost smiles.

the name is familiar yet you cant quite yet place why.

“i thought you didn’t hunt these pests anymore?” her face contorts into a pout, patronising the man who you still hadn’t caught a glimpse of. “i don’t.” he states and you can hear his teeth gritting.

“and i thought your binge eater days were behind you?” he fires back, a bit more aggressively than before.

rize’s head cocks at his words, body turning, hand dragging you with her.

the way she smiles is so sickly and sweet, tongue poking out to wipe the reamining blood from her last victim from her lip. “you know her, don’t you?”

your gaze flickers up at her question, curious eyes scanning up the body of the man who had at least delayed your murder. his red hair catches your attention first, a vibrant shade that you recognise, although it’s no longer in a ponytail, instead framing his chiselled face. his jaw is clenched but his eyes are wide. “oh, did you not want her to know what you are?” she opens her hand, letting you fall to the ground. her claw instead coming to pin you to the ground.

you had read about hers before,a rinkaku kagune, it’s strong and pushes hard against your chest until you’re gasping for air.

“you should have stopped when i told you to,” the boy who you had only known from biology spits back, and for some reason you can’t help but think how stupid you were for not piecing the clues together, the fact that you had only seen him consume coffee should have been enough for you to realise.

he was a ghoul.

and he was powerful.

his kigune seems to glow in light of the moon, its a bikaku, one of the only one’s that can properly disarm a rinkaku.

he strikes, hard, quick movements that leave the pressure on your chest weakening. rize attempts to strike back but he’s cut through half her kigune claws before she can even process fully what’s going on. you expect him to finish her off completely but he stops just there, “go before i kill you.” he grits and you scowl on her face twist. “you’ll see me again, yuta.” she mutters harshly, walking over to where her prior victim lay, picking up the body before leaving.

yuta seems to keep his cool as he makes his way over to you, extending a hand which you take with your own shaky one. his eyes meet your eyes and his whole demeanour seems to shift, “don’t tell anyone,” he states quietly, a stark contrast from his prior tone, “please.”

you don’t get an opportunity to respond before he’s turned around again, he moves quickly, leaving you standing frozen with little time to thaw from your fearful state.

you don’t sleep much that night, mulling over what yuta had asked of you. you barely knew him, if at all, and how could you trust that he wasn’t just another senseless ghoul who killed the innocent people you saw in the newspaper. you want to keep his secret but it’s a big ask, and you don’t know if you can.

morning comes and it’s another biology class. you wonder if he’ll be there, how he’ll act. but you’ve already made up your mind nonetheless.

you enter the classroom lightly later than normal, having taken a detour to the campus. yuta’s sat in his same spot at the front, and a small smile tugs at the corner of your lips when you see your saviour. your confident, making your way towards him.

your hand slides a black coffee across his desk and he looks up with wide eyes, his gaze softening slightly when it meets your face but still just as confused.

“your secret is safe with me.”

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rukia-kuchiki-divided · 3 years

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Can i still ask for otp asks? If so, then # 5, 11, 14, 17, 19, 25, 26, 27, 28. (I'd go for more but maybe next time)

OTP Asks | Closed (I made an exception for this one because I felt like it... lol)

(~Under readmore for length. Tagging @cosmic-canons @cc-ichigo-kurosaki for reference~))

5. What activities do they enjoy together?

~Honestly, there aren’t many activities Ichigo and Rukia don’t enjoy doing together. They just fit together so seamlessly but also don’t need to be together for everything. Like they aren’t codependent in that way. Remember when Ichigo was training with the vizards and Rukia was content to not disturb him? All she needed to know was that he was safe. That’s it. She trusts Ichigo to do whatever it is he needs to do and that he will tell her when he is ready. She trusts him. Ichigo is perfectly fine spending time alone while Rukia is doing whatever she needs to do and vice versa. But in general, they just enjoy each other’s company, regardless of what they are doing. It can be anything from training together all the way to just reading/drawing while in the same room as the other - looking over every so often and exchanging a smirk or teasing face.~

11. What causes them to fight?

~Okay, this is important because it DOES happen - and it’s usually the result of miscommunication. But neither of them is one to hold a grudge for very long without talking about it. I’ll give an example:

In the Hueco Mundo arc when Ichigo left without trusting that Rukia would come back. I know they didn’t “fight” per se in the sense that they yelled back and forth or whatever - but that’s not how Ichigo and Rukia seriously fight. When they are actually fighting (and that’s when one has wounded or hurt the other), it’s silent. Rukia didn’t yell at him, not until after she slapped him to jolt him to his senses. Then she explains that he hurt her by not knowing she would never have abandoned Orihime in Hueco Mundo.

Rukia and Ichigo don’t fight about silly things like leaving a toilet seat up or not capping the toothpaste. They’ll yell and argue about it but they aren’t fighting, not really. But when they close off to the other, when they try and shoulder the pain on their own and don’t trust the other to have their back - that’s when they fight and it’s an eerie sad silence until resolved.~

14. What would be a dealbreaker?

~An abuse of power. That’s the deal breaker. If either one were to abuse their power and take advantage of those weaker than they are, but especially each other. I think if Ichigo were to turn on Rukia and like break her trust, it would really break her. She's had such a hard time relearning to trust and depend on others again and Ichigo was at the very center of that healing. ~

17. What senses (sights, smells, feelings, etc). remind them of each other?

~Ichigo: the warm glow of a sunset just before it falls below the horizon; the sweet smell of cinnamon, cloves and honey that brings to mind a crisp autumn day curled up indoors with a warm fireplace; a feeling of safety, stability, like it's okay to let your guard down and be yourself around him because he'll protect you no matter what.

Rukia: The soft reflection of the full moon on freshly fallen snow; the light hint of lavender and iris on a warm summer breeze; the feeling of clarity, of compassion, of someone staring into your very core and seeing into your very heart and accepting it in whatever condition it may be.~

19. If they could each write a single line in their marriage vows, what would they be?

~ Ichigo: "From the moment I looked into those violet eyes, I knew we were connected for life times."

Rukia: "It was you, Ichigo, that broke through the ice I had formed around my heart, melting it with every action you did until I had no choice but to trust you. You made me want to live again in my darkest time." ~

25. What moves do they know work on the other?

~Rukia does this cute little pout and bats her eyes in a way that makes Ichigo roll his own and give in to her whims (usually Chappy related).

Ichigo acts like he *doesn't* want to do it until Rukia pushes him to do it knowing full well it's what he wanted the whole time. ~

26. What are their favorite parts about physical affection/sex?

~Ichigo's: He just loves the physical connection of touch. It doesn't matter to him if it's sexual in natue or just affectionate. He just really enjoys having a physical connection with Rukia. He sits close enough that his arm is draped over her shoulders or his knee just touching her leg. If they are cuddling, he puts his arms around her and buries his face in her neck. Sexually, I imagine he loves to run his fingers up and down her body, just feeling her alive underneath his touch and enjoying the little shivers he'd cause.

Rukia's: She also likes to have a physical connection though her version is a bit rougher. She does allow those soft moments and the touches to happen. But she also loves to be a little more forward. Biting, scratching and *edging* Ichigo are all things she loves to do. She'll let him get close with his cuddles and then start biting that sensitive spot on his neck she knows too well. She'll mark him (consensually of course) and drive him wild before letting him release. ~

27. Do they have any kinks/fetishes that they share?

~Well I actually think they both switch and are able to be "tops" or "bottoms" interchangeably depending on the mood of their partner. As far as fetishes, I'm not really sure yet. I think Ichigo does think Rukia looks *very good* in a sexy rabbit costume. Rukia isn't a virgin but she's not super experienced either. Ichigo is … probably a virgin but not because he *couldn’t* get it but he just isn't interested. I think Ichigo is the type to really only do that with those he is in a serious relationship with.

I think they would honestly both enjoy exploring this with each other. ~

28. Write a ~300 fantasy one of them has about the other.

~okay my brain isn't working for this one right now but I promise to do one in the future… so raincheck on this one? But I will give you two ideas I had, one NSFW and one SFW:

~Ichigo fantasized about Rukia meeting his mom.

~Rukia fantasized about Ichigo making out with her at Kuchiki function and just throwing smirks at the nobles judging them all while dodging Byakuya’s glare.

should I turn those into drabbles?? ahhh idkkk~

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