#it always falls to me

[terrainofheartfelt]

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#i need to be childish and rant some more about this thing #i talked to a mutual friend — the poet of our group— and she advised me to repair things with this friend i had a Thing with last week #and the adult intellectual side of me who has a modicum of emotional intelligence knows she’s right #i know it #but GOD. does anyone else feel like their well of grace is running dry? #the thing about being The Good Kid is that I am always reaching first #it always falls to me #and like god I can’t remember the last time someone has reached for me. because I am worth the effort of repair #and I am TIRED. and I just want to be wanted as a friend for a goddamn second #going to be litigious on my own tumblr blog for a minute #because I am the wronged party here. she was the one who leapt at me #and honestly made me feel like she thought so little of me. after all the years we’ve known each other #i was open and vulnerable with her through a really hard fucking time for me #and I didn’t think she would ever use it as ammo against me but she DID #so why does the repair have to fall to ME #and I know — I know that sitting and waiting for her to talk first is childish and I could be waiting for a long long time #i know that is ultimately unproductive and doesn’t get anyone anywhere #(just like i know this friend is working through some deep deep shit) #(and my shit is lesser) #i know all this AND YET #I want to be petulant and pathetic because I never get to let the line down ever and I’m exhausted is everyone else exhausted #but it’s also like. this friendship this group is for fucking life and i really mean that #i am just—— UGH #anyway this is the anguish occupying my brain this wed evening #also i am afraid to reach out because what if i inadvertently hurt her and what if #what if reaching out only gives her an opening to hurt me again?

[stil-lindigo]

scorched earth.

a comic about a princess who died in a fire.

(this is a sequel to bite of winter, a comic about Snow and what became of her after her death.)

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#cw: blood #cw: beheading #cw:death #cw: gore #cw: burning alive #so nice of ash to have prepared a barbequed buffet ready for snow when she arrives #if it wasn't made clear enough ash did die in that fire #she just did it while taking down as many people as she could in the process. and now shes a smoke monster #and yes. the fire powers do imply she's not quite human. but shes human enough to fall in love and die and thats enough. #im sorry this comic took me so long. i had about a week where i was very depressed and nothing got done. #thank you for your patience #and as always #thank you for reading #comic art #sapphic art #lgbt #horror #somehow not as scary as snow but ash is still fearsome in her own way #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

[natjennie]

something about "your anger isn't scary to me" is making me so emotional. something about as above so below, cassandra as a mirror of kristen. something about "I've been dropping the ball a lot lately" and kristen's struggles with adhd. something about teenage girls and rage and fury and justice. something about adaine's vision of ruining fallinel and the sylvaire looking for revenge. something about sadness and doubt and anger and love. something about "I choose to understand" being the absolute core theme of d20 in general. something something.

#something about kristen's adhd making her fuck things up and being mad at herself and that manifesting #as her deity being overcome with rage #something about fear and anger and shame and the inability to do better even when you're trying so hard #and something about people loving you anyway #something about 'your anger isnt scary to me' #as someone who had undiagnosed pcos in early high school and got so fucking MAD #something about adhd and how you're always failing and you have no one to blame but yourself #and how heart breaking it is to watch your life fall apart around you KNOWING you could do something #but being unable to do it right. always forgetting always slipping up #and how mad that makes you. at yourself. #this fight is so much #fhjy #d20 #dimension 20 #fantasy high

[ewwww-what]

You are not a coward. You have a goddamn medical condition, alright?

#Adaine having an adult looking out for her for the first time in her life what the fuck #made this while watching the last two episodes of fy #cried twice #I love Jawbone and Adaine. ​this guy tried to kill her in a night club but he’s her dad now so it’s chill #I made her look so sad I’m sorry Adaine #I will always have a soft spot for found family where the family is just a whole bunch of weirdos /aff #(everyone in FH. literally all of them fall into that category for me.) #there’s a shaded version of this with a bg and everything I just don’t like it as much as the flatcolor #d20 #fantasy high #d20 fantasy high #dimension 20 #d20 fanart #fantasy high freshman year #fhfy #adaine abernant #adaine o'shaughnessey #adaine fantasy high #adaine fanart #jawbone o'shaughnessey #jawbone fantasy high #fh #d20 fhfy #undescribed #my art

[gooselycharm]

“something else” [part 1] [part 2] [part 3]

#deltarune #kris deltarune #kris dreemurr #noelle holiday #kriselle #im draw #someone in the tags: how come noelle doesnt have her antlers in the last page? me: FALLING TO MY KNEES #i forgor is always the answer

[photosofyou]

what’s a girl gotta do to get some love letters around here?

#love letters #words of affirmation #send me love letter please #fall in love with #fall in love #sad aesthetic #i miss you #love #send anons #always lonely #admirer

[sillyjesterart]

Imagining these two falling from space and chell just having to take them with her was the idea for this. Just wanted to doodle it out

#people usually just do Wheatley falling from space but it always makes me confused on where space core is #so space core is here too because i said so! #portal 2 wheatley #portal #portal 2 #portal fanart #wheatley #art #digital art #portal chell #chell portal #chell #space core

[itsdefinitely]

If you're up for a double doozy, maybe some PaulKins? (Totally chill if not though)

i am not immune to them

#id in alt text #paulkins #paul matthews #emma perkins #emdroid #paul 23 #the guy who didn't like musicals #black friday #forever and always #nerdy prudes must die #definitely art #SOMEBODY SAVE ME IM FALLING!!!!!! AAUUUUAGAGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! #hatchetfield #nightmare time

[son1c]

i got you

#sonic #sonic the hedgehog #sth #shadow the hedgehog #sonic au #falling stars au #scribbles #so this part will (most likely) never be written out cuz it's like. The Implied Prologue or whatever but #i've always pictured it as sonic holds onto his super form for as long as he can and it only fades completely after they hit the ground... #which 1) saves his life and 2) brings shadow a little comfort as they fall to earth cuz of super's Big Positive Energy #just a little lore from me to u...

[ministarfruit]

day 10: love is devotion ♡

(femslashfeb prompt list)

#minifemslashfeb2024 #ace attorney #junithena #athena cykes #juniper woods #melts into a puddle #junithena WARM junithena SOFT #junithena is so darling to me especially the version of it I made up in my head #ok I always write junie with imposter syndrome BUT #can we talk about how many skills this girl has. she can knit. she can sing. she can write. she can garden. she's smart #AND she's studying law to become a judge #I made her a painter for this too. because why not #god gave her health problems to nerf her. otherwise she would be too powerful #also athena short hair swag because I think she looks cute like that #do you ever think about the space and earth symbolism? no? just me? #is there something quite so intangible as falling in love with the stars #believing you will never reach them #when the stars are shining brightly to guide your way #they shine just for you... #mini be normal about junithena challenge: failed #'what are you talking about' shhh. shh. #you are safe now my sweet child

[general-cyno]

Luffy + being completely normal about Zoro.

#tvedit #onepieceedit #oplaedit #one piece live action #opla #monkey d. luffy #roronoa zoro #zolu #one piece #zoro #luffy #myedit #mygifs #long post #THEY'RE SO #luffy always being so happy to see zoro and thinking he's cool makes me feel things ok #luffy: if i had a first mate i would hype him up so much - #also the fact that when everything's seemingly falling apart the person he wants (needs) most by his side........is zoro #im so unwell #also maybe im just a simple man but 'i'd do anything to save him. anything. except stand in the way of his dream' goes so hard #love is real actually #this isn't even all of it......but if i giffed more this post wouldn't end #love them so much

[commsroom]

the u.s.s. horrible unending nightmare 💥 (once again from the incredible @hehearse)

#wolf 359 #w359 #doug eiffel #hera wolf 359 #hera w359 #art #id in alt text #i've been holding onto this one for a little while. for no particular reason i just wanted to. #but here it is #thank you so so much!! #incredible eye for detail as always and i'm obsessed with how you draw people. and also. everything #this is such a good eiffel. the circle kind of suggesting a helmet worked out so well. the way you did the star!! the glitch effects!! #the use of an actual sound clip and the heart monitor through it and all of it through his chest. genius to me. #and this ended up leaning more in the direction of eiffel's general repeated misfortune but i also really love the element of #eiffel and hera both being prisoners treated as test subjects. i like how it can read as much like him being pulled away as falling. #and with the soundwave and communication as a bridge and that specific clip from mayday and hera being the voice in his head that saves him #etc. etc. i love it thank you so much again!! <3

[zarla-s]

We move forward, 'cause we can't go back...

It's the EIGHTH anniversary of Handplates, and the first one after I finished the comic back in July! I decided to dig up a very old wip that I never finished and finally do it. I've always loved WeMoveForward by The Midnight, and I think it applies not only to the comic itself but also this period after it... there's no way to go back to when I was doing it, only moving forward after it's done.

Even more appropriately, since I did this wip, these characters all moved forward even further... even as this sat in my files, they moved forward, in a sense. I don't know, the song gives me a sort of plaintive, longing, bittersweet feeling... it's hard to explain.

I had a very insistent voice in my head that always made me do a Handplates page over the years I was working on it, no matter what happened. I wasn't sure if that voice would ever stop, even when it's done, but it has! It's gotten quieter now, mostly only nagging me about other projects I should be working on (Defrag, the Ace Attorney/Frozen fic, web design, fic ideas, art ideas...) whenever I'm doing something, much like it did before I started the comic.

How I feel about Handplates finishing though is strange. At times it doesn't feel like it's over, even if I don't feel like I need to do another page. At other times I get sad thinking about it and I miss it, and other times I look back on it with amazement that I was able to do it. Sometimes I look back on it and think about what was happening in my life at that time, and sometimes when I look at it it's unreal and it's hard to believe I even did it, like someone else did the whole thing. It's like it's there but it's not, it's present but it isn't. It's a very strange feeling, it's hard to describe or pin down. I know it'll always be with me in some way, but it is strange to be able to focus so much attention on other things without that feeling of having to set aside a few days to do a page every two weeks... not bad or anything, but I'm not used to it still.

I don't know! When I read the comments on the last page a lot of them made me cry, especially those talking about how the comic had been their childhood, and now their childhood is over. It was sad to think that I had a part in something like that ending... but it ends for everyone, no matter what you do. We, you and me, everyone... we move forward, 'cause we can't go back. That line was so evocative for me that I even used it as a chapter title for the penultimate chapter on Comicfury.

I don't know, just nostalgic thoughts! I don't know if that's the right word for it... but thank you to all of you who read it and enjoyed it. Even now I hear from new people coming to it and reading through it again now that it's done. Even if it's finished, it's still new to people just finding it. It's still "living" in a sense. And thanks to those of you who stuck around even though it's done, I appreciate it. |D

(As a note, the Gaster ukagaka has a surprise if you boot him on the anniversary after seeing the brothers, if you haven't done that)

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#undertale #handplates #asgore #gaster #sans #papyrus #asriel #z art #man i like never draw asriel #i always feel guilty when i move on to something different than what brought people to me #but my interests never really die they just fall asleep for a little while #they always come back eventually

[horseshoemybeloved]

“ His authority for joy was pervasive, and to be in his presence was to understand that music is supposed to be joy. We’re supposed to share this together “

#this actually isn’t done I need to touch up the keyboard and line Andy’s thumb #but idk I wanted to post it 😭 #this moment hasn’t left me #as someone who always feels foolish after showing emotion. it was cool to see Patrick express it #and to see him be able to infront of many others was very impactful to me #rest in peace and power Casey Benjamin #fall out boy #fob #art #my art #fall out boy fan art #andy hurley #patrick stump #fob8

[turtleblogatlast]

I think a lot about Leo’s tendency to push his way into the spotlight despite clearly being a natural in the shadows. Hell, you could argue that his worst moments are when he’s forcing himself onstage, and his best are when he does things no one notices until it’s already been done.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt leo #rottmnt headcanons #rise leo #His aptitude with subterfuge sleight of hand stealth and speed really push how being a ninja really comes naturally to him. #it’s arguable that his desperation for the spotlight and validation is an act of subterfuge against himself #note that when he’s offered a job as a mascot he’s fine being unknown #when he and splinter win the battle nexus Leo immediately says ‘they love YOU pops’ #idk I think so much about how good a ninja Leo is #and how much his persona is more an actor #Leo as a tot is shown a natural skill at katana too so hear me out- #every Leo is a natural ninja but every Leo’s route in life is directly tied to their splinter so #since rise splinter is an actor Leo too aims for it #and he brings it into his whole life - masking always because a Leo makes what they do who they are #I think that Leo naturally falls more in line with that of a typical ninja #his eccentric performer self is his subterfuge skill just set to an 11 at all times #not that that’s NOT him - like I said it’s still undoubtedly a part of Leo #but? idk I think about little moments like Leo being the only one to choose stealth in bug busters #or Leo being the only one to almost get Gus’s dog tags in The Ninja Art of Hide and Seek (he was so close but luck was against him alas) #like- he’s clearly in his element there and he falls into those skills so easily #it’s like how everyone has skills in so many things but some exceed more in some than others do #like Raph? Raph’s the biggest Hero of the bunch of them let’s be perfectly real here. Raph is THE Hero #All the boys are smart in their own rights but Donnie is THE Genius. #and they all have mystic powers but Mikey is THE Mystic Warrior with immense untapped potential #likewise Leo I feel is THE Ninja #but yeah I love how much Leo goes for the spotlight anyway for better or for worse #he IS a performer again make no mistake! but again the way he does it still lines up with his natural ninja aptitude and I love it #Leo loving magic tricks and magicians so much works doubly well here because like #you’d think he’s focused solely on the performance flair - no it’s ALSO and ESPECIALLY the DECEPTION

[ugisfeelings]

my hot take on the awful nuclear war movie discourse is that i do actually think there is a way to create a critical but sympathetic biopic abt the jewish leftist/communist scientists involved in the manhatten project, who at the moment of 1942 did earnestly (and had reason to) view themselves as part of an urgent struggle against global nazism, and which can cut thru the usamerican imperialist apologia hero-fetish impulse and lay bare the genocidal devastations left in the wake of continuing us counterinsurgent militarism across the continent and pacific (which means addressing the anticommunism!) w/o resorting to white man existentialist handwringing. such a film however, would not be politically commensurable as a bajillion dollar summer blockbuster directed by christopher nolan!

#qq #film directors who think they are existential philosophers will almost always be insufferable to me and it's not even just nolan #that being said. the 'takes' r tiring (i say as i contribute the inaneness) #like. no offense but did /u/ even know abt us nuclear testing and the fall of the scientific popular front in the 40-50ss???