#just easier to work through

[zosanbrainrot]

zosantober day 12 - spicy

mandatory supplies stop

#this was my first thought #then I thought maybe I should just draw them making out #but Im posting these on ig as well and uhh idk #tumblr makes it so much easier to get through to fandom people ig is just shouting into the void but also irl people are there #ANYWAY #compo could be better but I think I made it work #also why did inktober spell it spicey with an E inside #is there sth I dont know I tried googling but it just says its an alt spelling #never seen that before #zosantober #one piece #sanji #zoro #zosan #inktober #inktober 2023 #my art #one piece fanart

[ibrithir-was-here]

Sooo I wrote a…weird little thing, a certain comic by @mayhemchicken-artblog got my creative juices percolating and under the press of staying up far too late for several days this came to fruition, enjoy!

The Eye of the Beholder

Link to the Comic

#my art #reincarnation #comics #tpodg #the picture of dorian gray #basil hallward #(why did he reincarnate as a girl with Dorian’s face? #cuz that was how the mad idea came to me at 2am #plus it’s easier to hide the ‘birthmarks’ with long flowing locks #my brain is weird ) #lord henry wotton #dorian gray #gothic literature #really the thought I had here was basically #man it would be so messed up to be haunting the body of the person who murdered you #especially if you loved them #and I think Basil deserves both a second chance and to get to be actually upset about that betrayal #even if as Rosemary she can’t really remember it #but also this is gothic fiction nobody just gets handed a happy ending you gotta work through stuff #sorry hon #tw body dysmorphia #tw stab wound #Rosemary is for Remembrance

[robindaydream]

Movie night with the gfs.

#slarpg #super lesbian animal rpg #Melody Amaranth #Allison Goleta #Claire Higsby #art #shipping #furry #would not have guessed that the first two slarpg characters I would draw kissing would be Allison and Claire #I realize the last thing I drew was just 'maybe Melody and Claire like each other' so this kind of skips ahead #but I have some thoughts about how to go back and fill in the gaps... #I spent so long on this and I realized about halfway through that it would have been so much easier as a traditional comic #even if I had to redraw some background elements sometimes #it also would have made it way easier to fit speech bubbles in a reasonable way #ANYWAY I worked super hard on this it took me like two weeks #enjoy

[honeypleasejustkillme]

i use dissociation more than anything i’ve ever learned in my 10yrs of therapy

#actually bpd #bpd problems #bpd vent #actually borderline #actually mentally ill #bpd fp #bpd #bpd shitposting #bpd favorite person #bpd mood #dissociation is my favorite coping mechanism #that and avoidance #i love avoiding my problems until i can’t take it anymore and have a full blown breakdown about it #it’s easier to go through life ignoring everything that’s bothering you until it all just explodes one day #idk maybe that’s just me tho #right after every breakdown i feel like shit tho cuz i usually freak out everyone around me but i don’t know how else to cope #even tho i’ve had 10yrs of therapy nothing else worked for me #so dissociation it is babyyyy

[skunkes]

sure sure

(i gave it another shot)

#i ruined it almost instantly when i first started working on it in march...at least i finally saw it through i guess #my issue with relief on soft blocks like this is i dont have super sharp carving tools #or carving tools that get small enough #so carving always just turns to cutting pieces out with a craft knife #(as in the case of the very small details like the shoes and toes and fingers) #but then i just wanna do that for the whole thing bc its easier to get those fine lines out #a doodley #<- i guess #oh also the song is friends - sure sure ^_^ #can’t believe...i was a believer...no i will not count on youuu anymore

[everysongineverykey]

don't hug me i'm scared episode 6 electricity is really something when you're autistic, huh. yellow guy is made fun of all his life by his only friends and laughed at for being "stupid" when all he needed was a change of batteries but no one would listen to him and give him the accommodations he needed and deserved and when he finally did get new batteries and become more clearheaded his friends didn't like him any better. they stopped making fun of him, sure, but they didn't like that he was "smart" all of a sudden, because they'd gotten used to him being "the stupid one". and he looked in the mirror and saw his former self, and his reflection asked him, "have we gone wrong? they seem upset with us" because the truth is even if the way you are now is more comfortable for you, even if it doesn't hurt to think anymore, people will only ever like you if you're the Right Kind of autistic/adhd/traumatized/whatever. have we gone wrong? have we gone wrong? that's what you always ask yourself. "maybe they're not in charge of us anymore." "maybe they never were." and his reflection walks away, as if accepting that the others will think what they will think, and it won't matter, because yellow guy is his own person, no matter how difficult it is for him to articulate his thoughts, and he doesn't need their approval to think. "maybe they never were."

#dhmis #don't hug me i'm scared #yellow guy's conversation with his reflection lives in my head rent free just so you know. #it's so important to me that although he's 'awakened' now- the part of him that's sensitive to what other people think #is still represented by his former self. the 'stupid' version of him. the naive hopeful kid who was mesmerized by a butterfly #and wanted to work with coworkers in a factory and missed duck so much when he died he dug him up #and hated himself for being 'stupid in the head' when he forgot the computer password. #even when yellow guy is clearheaded enough to see through the fabric of his reality #that part of him is still very much present and important in his life and thought processes. #it confuses me that some people seem to see the batteries as a metaphor for a 'cure' for autism or whatever. #to me the batteries are like adhd or schizophrenia medication or antidepressants. they make life easier #while you're dealing with a condition that would normally make moving through a neurotypical world pretty hard. #yellow guy is still the same person. he still cares about his friends' opinions. he's just much more clearheaded and articulate than usual.

[lady-charinette]

Rei shooting himself in his dominant arm, most likely permanently injuring most if not all of his nerves so he could effectively only use his left hand.

Rei most likely not being able to play any video games anymore, his main coping mechanism and hobby throughout the show, something he did in the beginning to the point of neglecting to take care of Miri and doing house chores.

Rei most likely, after extensive physical therapy and relearning how to use his right hand as his dominant one, trying to find other stuff he could turn into hobbies except gaming.

Rei most likely finding true joy in not just playing games himself, but watching others play them.

Watching Miri and Kazuki battle it out in the kid friendly and later on more action video games together and having fun and bonding over how bad of a sore loser Papa Kazuki is and how well Rei taught Miri how to play by supporting her with tips from the sidelines.

Rei most likely finding that, even if he can't play himself, he enjoys watching his loved ones play his video games in his stead because he gained something so much more to hold dear in his heart by losing his arm.

#buddy daddies #bd #im totally (un)normal about this #imagine rei -during physical therapy- attempting to play video games but finding he cant hold the controller properly with one hand #kazuki feels bad for him and tries to help him out at first - he holds on side of the controller while rei holds the other #they're awkward af during gameplay and it doesnt work at all #rei's reflexes are faster than kazuki's and they keep losing or being killed in the game #still rei appreciated kazuki's efforts and learned to move on through his slump - he found it much easier too #miri feeling sad for rei papa for losing his hobby that she tries being just as good as him to make him proud #the three as a family realizing that WHAT they're doing doesn't matter as much as long as they're doing it TOGETHER #pls im sobbing someone call my nonexistent therapist #miri unasaka #rei suwa #kazuki kurusu #kazurei #buddy daddies spoilers #bd spoilers

[purpleshadow-star]

Pic context: Talking about the exy stadium at USC considering the fact that USC is a real school

I love how Nora just invents things in order to avoid complications with real-life things.

Like, using USC's football stadium as the exy stadium too would take a lot of work to figure out how that would be possible. Solution: invent a new stadium!

Having the characters play a real sport that already exists would mean looking into all the rules and regulations and history, etc, and there could be multiple elements of the sport that work against the plot of the story or complicate it in some way. Solution: invent a new sport!

I mean, it gives her full creative control over what happens in the story, and we as readers get to learn about a cool new thing without feeling the need to fact-check every element. Tbh, it makes so much sense to me.

Like, go off! Make stuff up! It's your world. We're just reading and enjoying and becoming obsessed with it!!!

#also the fact that palmetto state university is made up #it's based on an actual college but it doesnt actually exist lol #and again i think that makes sense #it allows us to become immersed in this fiction story even though it takes place in our world #i think having these elements unique to that world also makes it easier to go along with the plot #like imagine if neil was being hunted by his serial killer father and the yakuza while attending the university of south carolina #and playing hokey or lacrosse or smth #the made up stuff helps woth the immersion imo #anyway i just wanted to point out how funny it was that her solution is to make stuff up #like makes sense 100% work smarter not harder #tbh if the series wasnt centered around a fake sport i prob wouldnt have read it 💀 #like im just being real here #so thank you nora for going through the trouble of creating a whole new sport #bc im sure that was the final thing that convinced many people to read it (i.e. me) #anyway rant over #aftg #all for the game #nora sakavic #the sunshine court #tsc #the foxhole court #the raven king #the kings men #exy

[fromtheseventhhell]

Do you ever think about how Arya being left-handed most likely had an impact on her needlework and other tasks? And how she needed special attention not only because she wasn't as naturally gifted as her sister but because the way she was being taught fundamentally didn't work for her? And how instead of being given the attention she needed she was instead held to an unfair standard by her teacher and used as a measure for bad behavior? And how this all impacted her self-esteem and her views on being a Lady?

#arya stark #septa mordane #catelyn stark #asoiaf #a song of ice and fire #I think about this all the normal amount I'm definitely not obsessed with Arya and her internal conflict on being a lady #I'm not saying her being left-handed is the sole reason she was bad at those tasks but I do think it had an impact #that's why it gets pointed out by Syrio and how it will impact her swordplay...it has an impact on the way she does things #Arya not being able to fit in kills me because she genuinely tried to be the Lady that her family wanted #she was literally trying her best to do tasks that didn't come naturally and she was constantly told she wasn't good enough #if her family hadn't forced the issue and been so hard on her it would've been so much easier for her to do what was expected of her #it's just so fascinating and one of my favorite internal conflicts...I can't wait to see the resolution #so many people try and make Arya the problem but she was literally 9 years old #and her behavior in canon isn't the disruptive wild child people portray her to be she was doing her best that just wasn't enough for some #she was frustrated because her work wasn't as good as her sisters and her teacher mother and sister made sure she knew it #of course that's going to impact her views self-esteem and behavior #like no she was not a burden that her /poor/ mother and teacher suffered through lol

[victoriartdrawings]

So I made this snowbaird folder (in which i put all fics i loved from ao3)

They are sorted by WIP or COMPLETED work,

i try to udapte the WIPs gradually (as they are udapted on ao3)

And im still in the process of categorizing and sorting them out by themes, canon divergence, AU...etc...so, sorry it takes a bit more time than planned😅.

additional note/disclaimer: ik that as a snowbaird shipper youre aware of what youre in for with them but (in case you are a minor) a lot if not most of these works contains explicit sexual content, sometimes dubious consent, depict toxic dynamics (such as power imbalance, manipulation from both side, dom/sub dynamics, well. Snowbaird.)

That being said i just want to add, these amazing writers are on ao3, tumblr, working hard to entertain and please us, readers so if you can and have the time, go on ao3 and drop some comments, love or kudos to these incredible artist!!!

#Snowbaird #( i am just a little blog trying to make it easier for reader who doesnt /want to search through ao3. ) in no way am i trying to usurp thei #Work or their well deserved success😉 #Thank you #snowbaird fanfic #lucy x coryo #lucy gray x coriolanus #coriolanus snow #tbosas #tbosbas fanfic #the ballad of songbirds and snakes movie #lucy gray baird

[garuye]

I'd like to get to a point where I can draw again and not be completely overwhelmed or underwhelmed by the attempt. I guess I'm just in a messed up place mentally, I miss drawing but any time I sit down to do it, it. Doesn't happen.

#it's a lack of discipline I know #everyone has art blocks and you have to make active efforts to push through them #but with work eating up most of my day and my meager social life and the video game that's #much easier to play than art is to draw #think the depression is winning this one #if you read this thank u for listening and sorry for venting on your dash #I wanna have art to share but I just do not #maybe just maybe I'll start trying harder again soon

[iguessitsjustme]

Ask Game - Name a character

1. Who you want to go on a walk with

2. Who you want to go to karaoke with

3. Whose cooking you want to try

4. Whose style is similar to your own

5. Who you want to work with

6. Who you would be best friends with

7. Who you relate to

8. Who you want to go out dancing with

9. Who you would take to a Ren Faire

10. Who you want to grab by the shoulders and shake

11. Who would be fun to go to a museum with

12. Who you could beat at bowling

13. To throw you a birthday party

14. To arrange you a large bouquet of flowers

15. To go out to drinks with

16. To tuck into bed. They need a nap

17. Who would be fun to go on a road trip with

18. Who you think of when you hear your favorite song

19. To go sailing with

20. To play board games with

21. To sing you a song

22. To give a puppy

23. To stranded on a desert island with

24. To get arrested with (bonus points for what crime it is that gets you arrested)

25. To stay up all night with

#ask game #started this yesterday while going through it at work #and now I’m running late to work #so perfect time to post this I think #just waiting for the light to change (I walk to work I’m not on my phone and driving I’m not that reckless) #I’m also positive I’ve seen something like this before but it was easier to just create my own #anyway have fun everybody I made it to work #gonna be a weird day so many managers are out

[tj-crochets]

Hey y'all, I am blanking on a word so hard I am even blanking on the words to describe that word What's the term for like...groups of colors? color palettes but more specific? I'm looking for the generic term, but the specific words that are versions of that generic I can think of are things like earth tones, jewel tones, pastels, and maybe brights/neons I'm trying to figure out other categories like those but I cannot figure out what the word is to search

#crowd sourcing brain function because mine is not working #what is that called????? there has to be a like overarching category name for those #normally when I forget a word I can work around it in a way that makes it easier to come up with the word #when I was little I read a book that mentioned every piece of data in your mind has a pathway to get to it #and if you only have one connection to that data point when the path breaks you lose it #but if you have multiple paths to get there you can lose one path and still be able to find the data #(like I could remember shark facts by thinking about carnivores or weird teeth or shark jaws or non-human sensory perceptions) #idk if that is true??? but it was like. formative to me as a small child #so I deliberately made multiple associations to anything I learned from that point on #to the point where it kind of became second nature #which is good for me now that my brain is uhhhh not operating full speed #because I can work around a mental block (usually) and come up with the word #but I cannot remember this one!!! and it's frustrating! I'm just spinning through loose associations trying to find one that connects #my brain is a mush of half remembered art terms at the moment and I am getting no closer to figuring it out lol

[figofswords]

has anyone tried loop earplugs for auditory processing issues, especially and specifically while working a retail job? I know originally they were for helping with overstimulation but the noise levels at my job aren’t enough to overstimulate me so I’m not really looking for anything that’s going to muffle things too much. the issue is if there is more than one conversation happening or if we’ve opened the door to the street I completely lose the ability to process what’s being said to me, like I’ll stand there absolutely fighting for my life trying to process the customer spelling their name for me and having to have them repeat each letter four or five times before my brain understands it, or fully checking out of one conversation and into another without noticing it and then having to fight my way back to figure out what the other person said, or even trying to figure out what *i’m* saying if I check out mid-sentence. my manager recommended I try loop so im wondering if anyone else with adhd and auditory processing issues has experience using loop in a retail setting and whether you think it’s worth it or not

#it’s literally so bad I feel like I’m wading through water against the current trying to stay on top of a conversation #I’ve always had some auditory processing issues but if I’m with friends or family I can just be like wait sorry I checked out repeat that? #but at work I’m standing there the customer is spelling their name two letters at a time #I cannot hold onto those letters for long enough to type them into the computer #I ask them to repeat they repeat at the same speed same volume and don’t break it into single letters OR syllable groups #each of which would be easier than two letters at a time #and the only thing that changes in their tone or face is a subtle expression of ‘oh this person is stupid’ #IM SORRY OK MY COWORKER JUST LAUGHED ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE ROOM MY MANAGER JUST YELLED SOMETHING FROM THE BACK #A GROUP OF FRIENDS WALKED PAST OUTSIDE TALKING LOUDLY THE BUS JUST WENT PAST #IM TRYINGGGGGGG

[jealousofthetea]

To the men exposed to his rule Lymond never appeared ill: he was never tired; he was never worried, or pained, or disappointed, or passionately angry. If he rested, he did so alone; if he slept, he took good care to sleep apart. "—I sometimes doubt if he's human," said Will, speaking his thought aloud. "It's probably all done with wheels."

Dorothy Dunett, The Game of Kings

Exhausting and ridiculous way to live your life! Shakign him like a snowglobe

#the library took this book away from me when i was 44% of the way through #and then it was ages before i got it back again so i've just started again from the beginning #possibly going slower bc i now have ebook rather than audiobook and so can stop and google things much easier #to try and work out which fucking spanish poem or whatever they're quoting this time #the lymond chronicles #books #m

[canon-gabriel-quotes]

Gianni not doing any streams until April is gonna give you a good chance to catch up on your backlog I hope!

I’m all caught up with the exception of the most recent stream which I’ll probably get to tomorrow.

The backlog is uhh everything older than December 2023 (a lot). Not going to run out of that anytime soon.

I’m in no rush. Some weeks I only get through like 3 streams, other weeks it’s more like 9. Just depends on how much I need to be paying attention at work lol

#the backlog that SCARES ME is the list of clips #downloading and editing and all that is what takes a while #and I only do that at home (which is to say: very limited amount of time) #I have been trying to do it in batches and schedule em through the week recently #which is much easier #it’s just finding the time to do it that sucks lol #I have plenty of time at work #but very little free time at home #that’s the issue for me tbh #non voice post #ask #asks