#like wtf they actually made me draw digitally again

[sanctus-ingenium]

u guys wanna see more WIPs... similar to the last post, here are Some WIPs

all of these were started in sai before going on to procreate. before going back to sai again in the case of the strength card

so Blue Sky/Out Of Time... yeah it’s extremely self-explanatory, it’s very obvious what this scene depicts and i’m sure everyone gets it (this is a joke i’ve had multiple people dm me asking wtf this even is). the one element that absolutely NEEDED to be there was the LED digital clock with a bullshit time on it, and i decided to replace it with an AIRE warning sign instead and put the LED readouts in the bg. the warning sign in this setting serves the purpose of informing ppl when there are hostile faeries around. i knew what the colours would be from the beginning, but it took a bit for me to realise what sort of shading style i wanted (it took forever). but i did know i wanted to contrast the very sketchy black void against the cleaner and almost cartoony/comic book style rest of the drawing, to emphasise the fact that the foreground sky and background void are made of two very different things. again i used a colour shifting brush to quickly make all the shards of sky different colours, but originally i planned to have some of the shards be dark or night time (with stars or the moon etc). unfortunately it didn’t work, it was too dark and pascal got lost against it.

My Eyes Are Up Here is pretty obviously the exact same scene with the same character, in the same field, but with a different sort of atmosphere. i sketched this in sai then did the final in procreate. originally it was going to have a black background

i really like this version tbh but the blue works better. i think he looks good against dark backgrounds where it’s kind of hard to see wtf is even happening there

so about the neon signs..... i’m well aware that the sketch has way more promise than what the final ultimately was, and that’s because i found that i didn’t have the technical or artistic ability to pull off the complex neon signs like i wanted to. i couldn’t get it looking good enough so i had to scrap them. but these signs will be back, i want to draw them properly and do them justice. the gif was unplanned too but i thought it would be fun to have the flicker be very intermittent so that if you scrolled past it you might not even realise, or you’d have to stick with it just to catch it looping. i used GIMP to make the gif and change the frame rate, and this actually took a very long time because i had to preview it over and over. anyway if you WERE to get lost in the púca’s field, in this story, you would see neon signs like this encouraging you to follow them.

Strength is actually the last drawing i ever made that ended with a paint-over in sai, and the oldest drawing here. as such i actually don’t think it’s representative of my current ability but i do have a soft spot for it for sentimental reasons lol. the reason for the paint-over in sai was because i drew this at a time when i still did not trust procreate to be able to place the level of finish on it that i wanted

the background took me a thousand years to figure out. literally it was so annoying that i considered scrapping it for something simpler. but the idea was for it to be a kind of fairytale-ish lost in the woods sort of look while also appearing like the blood vessels around the human heart. the branches were also supposed to be heart-shaped in cross-section but i spent so long zoomed in painting them that i forgot to zoom out to see if all those fine details were actually visible, and it turned out they weren’t. i was disappointed that i couldn’t get félix’s tattoos to look right but that’s what i get for making a character with shit tons of both tattoos and body hair. i also got rid of the foreground branches really soon because they weren’t adding anything and muddied up the readability of his pose

the swan is from a daemon au and bears no relation to my other swan characters. i just like swans a lot

#this again!

[mrghostrat]

i appreciate all the kindness for my uni rejection, and anyone going through the same thing should def read through my replies if they need similar comfort. there’s a lot of “ATAR isn’t everything!” comments tho, which made me realise i haven’t actually talked much about my goals, so i wanted to share a little context.

i’m 30 (on the 17th). i took a gap year after high school and i went to uni at 19. i even dropped out a semester before graduating to pursue the one thing that was making me happy (my first original comic) during a really bad depression (undiagnosed adhd burnout). i got the last units and graduated a year later, a bachelor of game design.

haven’t used my degree once. i went into comics and freelance rather than games. but i also loved that degree and would do it all again, it was absolutely worth it.

i’ve been freelance and self sufficient for 6-7 years, and it’s fun and i’m proud of the things i’ve made, but i’m so tired. i’m specifically tired of having to work 7 different angles to make up one sufficient salary, and even if it ends up being temporary, i’d give anything for a 9-5. have someone else in charge for once.

got to the end of my rope last year and sat down to figure out what i like and what i’m good at. a Life Plan, yknow. i’ve always had an interest in teaching, helping, connecting like that. figured out degrees and became really invested in this new trajectory i pictured my life going on. i was also tired of waiting, because every time i wanted to move back to the city from this tiny town we’re in, somethings come up or delayed it. so zita helped me figure out how we could get the ball rolling and break our lease 3 months early, so we could move back to melbourne and i could start my degree this year. we looked for (and found) an apartment specifically on the side of the city that would be closest to my campus.

i hope that gives a lil context as to why i’m so devastated right now. the last 5 months have been me revving up to start this new chapter at the end of feb and one little email said nah.

the degree i wanted to do was a double degree, secondary education (hons) and a BA of fine arts. i was equally excited for both, because i never got to do a lot of actual art learning in my last degree, and the BA would give me all of that— life drawing, sculpting, painting, wood/metal/jewellery working, digital, fuckin everything. but it was the less important of the pair, when it comes to getting myself a job as an art teacher, because i already have the art experience. it was just a fun bonus, and the education degree was the one i NEEDED.

in nov i had to travel to melbourne to present a portfolio and interview for the BA. they showed me around the studio too, and i fell a little bit in love. i got the acceptance email in december, but i still didn’t have an offer for the education degree. another reason why i’m so discombobulated— i technically have an invitation, but it’s for the less important degree that would just be a money sink. do i go to uni anyway?? or just ignore this invitation and move on?

my state recently made education/teaching degrees free as a way of encouraging more teacher jobs. i learnt about this after i decided i wanted to pursue teaching, so it was just a fun lil bonus that i wouldn’t be adding to my student debt. apparently not, bc i didn’t think about how every teenager and their dog would apply for teaching degrees so they could get straight into uni without any debt. so, even tho i’m a graduate and i’m not relying on school scores, i was one in a million, likely just numbers on a page, and didn’t get in.

there could be other paths. i could start the BA and add the Edu degree later? i could reapply for mid year intake. i could… idk, most of what i could do requires emailing Monash and asking wtf, because i have no idea what’s actually possible and will need someone to lay it out for me.

still feels like i’ve run into a brick wall though. little bit shut down. more sad, not quite angry, but suddenly really spiteful for some reason— like “oh, you don’t want me? okay fuck you then, i won’t ever teach.” so stupid. just a bit fragile rn

#ghost scribbles

[kaybreezy3000]

I call this Five's WTF face, and it's the same one I had this morning when someone sent me an ASK, not specifying one particular post I have done, with one word that said, "AI." See below if you want to see how I made this. (not AI 😉)

Link to my other Tumblr art and story posts

Disclaimer: I am not a professional artist. My background is in painting, and I started sketching people a little over a year ago, and I have a post on A03 (Link to that) to show my progression with that to this based on the lovey character of Five.

I just do this for fun and I haven't found my style yet, other than I like to try everything. I use Procreate digital drawing app, not AI for my art or the stories I post.

I have done things for other people on occasion that use a photo filter-like to dress up a pic for them or for a cover or something, but that's about as AI as I get.

I totally understand the AI question because it's out there everywhere, so I figured since I got 'asked,' I'd show how I do things this time.

This one above was done with a painting style, but the process is very similar for the more cartoonish/anime or sketch/line art I have done.

Here is the picture I looked at. (I always use a picture or several pictures or models as reference.)

This next one is my step one, which is getting the main lines right, and in this case, not much detail because it's for a painting. For this, I like to use the studio pen tool. (Looks very bad at this point. Sorry, Five. 😆)

This next one is the start of me adding colors and messing around with where shadows and highlights will be, but very little blending yet, and I am only using the basic 'soft brush' tool and smudger.

For the next step, I just keep going, adding more color and try to get things looking closer to the actual photo, but I also start using the wet acrylic brush and the dry acrylic brush-nothing fancy.

After that, it's what we get at the top of my post, with simply finishing it by adding more and more paint until I get it dark enough in the darkest spots and then I get to play with lighter colors on top again. I also go back and use my studio pen to darken areas and correct the sharper lines that got painted over.

~So that's it. If anyone ever wants to know how I do something, never hesitate to ask; I am an open book.

As a final note. Thank you to all who have liked and reblogged my art and my stories, and for all the people/artists/writers/meme makers on here just trying to make stuff because they like too. I adore you all. 💕

#number five fanart #five hargreeves fanart #tua fanart #number five #number 5 #my process #kaybreezy-on-a03 #procreate #digital painting #digital art #tua #five hargreeves #tua 3 #wtf #AI or not AI-apparently that was the question or accusation so here is the answer 👍

[mamuzzy]

okay for the wip game, I gotta ask.. what on earth is 13. rwerwerwerwerwerwer? I wish to know more xD

AND I SHALL PROVIDE. @hurryupmerlin since you asked for 13 as well, I tag you here where you can read it too. :))) Now what do we have here... rwerwerwerwerwerwer, what do you mean it's not self-explanatory??? *mamuzzy actually has to look into the file to know wtf is inside*

Oh. OOOOHHHH. It was one of my first attempts to try out my new tablet in summer! I've actually made a post about the early sketch -> HERE Commander Thire, Commander Fox and Commander Thorn are chilling while watching a documentary about Space KitKat (a tiktok video about people reacting what the filling really is, @ithillia showed me once and got inspired). But with job and constant migraines, and feeling that I'm working on one drawing unsuccessfully for over two weeks and I did that rather slowly, I quickly lost interest in it and decided to put away for a while. It's a gamer trick. When a game makes you ragequit, leave it, and when you try again with cooler head later, you will succeed at the first try, you'll see. I'll be honest, I still have trouble with digital canvas sizes because I'm started to actively draw digitally recently and I have no idea what I'm doing. I just can't understand what measurements I need to use, what resolution, so I just go by instinct for the one size I don't see annoying extra pixels when zooming in. And since you can't change canvas size while drawing (or at least I couldn't find the way in Manga Studio) it was a chore to put layers from one file to another and still messing up. You see my problem is that I want a literal wall of text at the upper panel and some reactions to the second. And I just couldn't find the perfect balance. Ragequit. Now I would do differently, not doing details before everything is on the paper exactly how I want it. I want to say I plan to finish it... sometimes... we'll see.

Overall, I love how Thire and Thorn turned out but I'm not entirely satisfied with Fox so if I ever come back to this drawing, he'll definitely need a redraw. HE LOOKS SO SMOL!!!! But I'll definitely keep the socks. They are all comfy like this <3 BTW this is the original sketch about it. :))))

-------------------------- If you want to know more about my other wips, check out the list <3

#commander fox #commander thorn #commander thire #coruscant guard #the clone wars #tcw #clone wars #star wars #based on a tiktok video #wip #ask game #mamuzzy draws stuff #mamuzzy answers

[loriblau]

Grease!AU

“Tell me more, tell me more-” I don’t usually post digital art in here, but bunny is so precious that makes me forget my lazyness... I still have some sketches left to finish, maybe I will post them later!

#south park #sp bunny #bunny (south park) #sp #butters stotch #kenny mccormick #leopold stotch #digital art #bunny grease!au #grease #au #I love them so much #like wtf they actually made me draw digitally again #sorry for my english #someone in my rp group gave me the idea and it was fun to think about it #also i actually tried giving kenny the 50's hairstyle but i couldn't do it without crying #lmao anyway #hope you like it

[1ddiscourseoftheday]

Fri 11 June ‘21

LT band news! Guitarist Isaac posted a pic of himself with the other guitarist and bassist, plus LTHQ team member Jessie! Things are happening…idk what things, but THINGS! We know tour shows aren’t for a long while now so what might they be rehearsing or meeting for? Hopes are up that it could be to do promo for a single!! But really whatever it is would be exciting as hell. The shopping list for the recipe Louis will be following for his video is out and it does not look like it’ll be challenging- it’s a fish finger sandwich! I’m a little confused by the addition of waffles (not to mention sugar) in the ingredient list but overall how hard can it be right? I guess we’ll find out. And a fan who met Louis the other day says she had him write HOME for a tattoo and “told him that the song is extremely important for the whole lgbtq+ community” and that he “smiled and said thank you and bless you darling,” and we got more video from yesterday of him out by the studio; he was wearing the skull/ laurel/ rose/ triangle ‘new era’ cap again, nice, and how appropriate for the exciting LT2 era things he is cooking up (not the fish fingers, the other stuff.)

The much hyped Our Song behind the scenes video is finally here! We see the part where Niall pretends to be afraid of the dog that was hired to bark at him, but as we were told, the dog does not bark and was therefore fired; maybe the poor dog was just starstruck, leave her alone! Plus Niall and Anne are cute and look to be having fun, of course. And last night Niall was papped in Hollywood, looking good in all black with gucci loafers, oh lala.

Behind the scenes videos hype continues, with one for Lima’s NFT as well- it opens with a voiceover saying “stop being scared of who you are, you’re not negative you’re vulnerable” and other uplifting soundbites, then shows Liam drawing and walking in a beautiful forested glade, but mostly in his house he recently moved out of- Winston the dog has a sleeping-in-the-background cameo- and he and the other collaborators (musician Zedd and animator Gabe Damast) talk about how they worked out the concepts over zoom and tell us about Liam’s concept for the piece. They also talk about (and show one of) the physical objects and fancy packaging for it that they’ve made to sell along with the NFT, presumably because simply buying bragging rights of ownership of an intangible digital item isn’t actually terribly satisfying, so they need to provide some actual thing. Besides the dinner in Vegas that the buyers will be invited to join them at that is; we also learn more about that and oh my GOD wtf… uh I mean what they said is that it will take place in a literal glass box in the middle of the resort I honestly didn’t know they could make it sound MORE UNPLEASANT to me holy crap, not even to hug Liam would I do that. Liam also did a live where he tells us some stuff we already knew about Louis and Harry; about Louis he said that he’s working on music right now and “god he’s got long hair now doesn’t he”, I KNOW RIGHT, and about Harry that “he looks great in his policeman uniform,” Liam you WOULD like that, and “name a man who can pull off every look.”

Harry followed musician Pauli the PSM on insta. And as he’s often used his follows to tell us about people he is working with/ preparing something with one always wonders… For example as his scheduled shows for this year draw ever nearer with no rescheduling announcement yet, we’re all becoming impatient to know if he’s planning to play any of them this year. And if so, I know I wouldn’t be at all surprised if brand new mom Sarah Jones chose to sit a few out, so today’s follow of a British drummer… well, <eyeballs emoji>, right?! Honestly though it could be for any reason, that’s just wild speculation.

#louis tomlinson #liam payne #niall horan #harry styles #I know we all want the entertainment value of watching louis flail like hell on the cooking segment but the fact is #Louis doesn’t like publicly being bad at things. I’m guessing he wouldn’t do it if he didn’t think he could pull it off so my hopes of that #happening are not high #I feel like Harry has been making a point of using his platform to hype up black performers specifically over the last year #and I for one appreciate that #11 jun 21 #isaac anderson #matt dinnage #michael blackwell #jessie.... have I just forgotten her last name? we must know it right? #jessie martin #GOT IT #pauli lovejoy

[hapuriainen]

Hapuriainen's Animation & Comics & Games of 2020

It is again time for the annual compilation!

Manga:

Attack on Titan

I'm so sad this is so close to end... It's been my main thing for a few years now. Eren definitely didn't take the route I expected but I still find this consistent with his character and a bold and interesting move from the author.

(My notes say I also finished the jr high spin-off manga but it's not worth talking about)

Awards given: Best Side Girl (I still like Gabi, haters gonna hate), Best Boy (ditto Eren)

One Piece, My Hero Academia My interest in OP is still at an all-time low and I'm just waiting for the arc to end. There are so many characters and I have little idea what their deal is, Carrot hasn't been interesting in ages and currently Yamato is the only character I care for. Same for HeroAca; at least the excruciatingly long action scene is finally over.

Undead Unluck New Jump series! I think the main duo have a really good dynamic, but they're pretty much the only thing I care about and I'm very lost with what the plot is actually supposed to be about.

Majin Tantei Nougami Neuro

I like detective stories so here's one from the Assassination Classroom creator! The detective stuff itself could get rather nonsensical and as the story progressed more and more fantasy elements were added, but the titular character was entertaining enough to keep me interested. The viewpoint character was refreshingly (for a Jump series) a girl and her dynamic with Neuro (an ordinary schoolgirl and an arrogant amoral troll demon) was great.

Awards given: Best non-romantic relationship (Neuro & Yako)

Spy x Family

Super fun and the characters are cute!  The main couple has such great chemistry and in general I enjoy following characters who are really competent at their job. Not surprised that this has become hugely popular.

Awards given: Best romance (it is rare to get me to ship anything but the main couple here is just so cute)

Delicious in Dungeon

This manga has amazing character design and the author clearly loves to play around with it, like by drawing each character as each other's races, or making clones of everyone but each clone is a little different so you can guess which is the real one with the characters, and there's so much thought put to the outfits too. And then there's of course all the worldbuilding around how an RPG dungeon and the creatures in it could work, but it's presented simply enough that the story is still easy to follow. I also like the upbeat atmosphere; maybe I could get a bit more emotionally involved if there was more drama, but I still really like this as it is.

Awards given: Best character designs

Yokohama Kaidashi Kikou

Reread one of my favourite manga ever and it's still just as good. I love how the manga still has a positive vibe to it, under it there is the quiet melancholy of a world that is close to ending. And it's wonderful how uninterested the story is answering any of the worldbuilding questions it sets up.

Beastars

This was incredibly interesting in how it presented an animal society where the carnivore-herbivore differences couldn't be just explained away with "the differences don't really exist", and the story looks at this from so many different angles. Pairs really well with Zootopia for a completely different approach. Louis was a really interesting character with how he publicly managed to appear as if he was a good candidate to be the next ambassador for the peace between the animals but was actually very cold and broken inside, and I really liked his breakdown moment. The ending was pretty meh though.

Awards given: Best Side Boy (Louis)

Kannagi

This one has really cute character designs but apart from that it's a pretty generic harem story. Except for the twist that the main girl already had been involved with a boy which caused otaku to shred their manga or whatever. I believe I would have enjoyed this more if it finished back when it went to hiatus since at this point it didn't do much for me.

Witch Hat Atelier

The main girl is the kind of heroic, friendly, plucky goody-two-shoes protagonist I really don't like but apart from that this is a great manga. I love the art, and the way the magic works is really well set up but also easy to understand. Great outfits too!

Anime:

This year I learned that in order to clear stuff from your anime watch list you need to actually watch anime. So unexpectedly I think I watched a lot more different series than usual.

Attack on Titan

It was my plan to watch seasons 1-3 before jumping on board with the last one, and of course I dragged my feet for the entire year and had to marathon the whole thing in autumn. I still prefer the manga, but the anime does have great colours, soundtrack and voice acting and some of the action scenes were amazing. But I really hate what they did to Historia in season 3... The final season has been excellent so far and I can't wait for the big scene in the next episode.

Awards given: Best OP (all the Linked Horizon ones)

Ouran High School Host Club

Haruhi continues to be one of the best girls in the anime and manga industry ever with her confident and no-nonsense attitude, and Tamaki's oblivious and overflowing friendliness makes for a great counterpart to her. And the opening theme is so darn catchy.

Awards given: Best Girl (Haruhi)

Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann Finally managed to watch this. I love the iconic character designs and all the chaotic energy. Kamina for best bro. I've never cared for mecha, the girls were nice but the writing around them sucked and the second half wasn't as strong as the first one, but still a good package overall.

Awards given: Best ED (don't care for the song that much but Simon looks somehow really cool in the second ending)

Haibane Renmei

Another one that had been on the watch list for years. A lovely quiet and contemplative show. Visuals were rather dull though but maybe it's better for a show like this that the characters didn't have bubblegum pink hair.

Digimon Adventure 2020

This started promising but has since lost steam. I really like how different the story is from the original Digimon Adventure, and compared to Precure it's super nice how not every episode has the exact same structure, and the cast has different roles and regularly gets split up instead of shoehorning everyone into every conflict. But on the other hand the characters feel way more samey and flat, and the original "kids want to return to their home from the Digital World" plot was a lot more personal than the current one about global crises and prophecy jargon. And some of the action scenes last way too long.

Awards given: Worst side boy (Agumon and his evolutions, it is of course expected that he'd get a lot of screen time but I'm so over how much he's constantly pushed in your face in the franchise)

Shuumatsu Nani Shitemasu ka? Isogashii Desu ka? Sukutte Moratte Ii Desu ka?

This wasn't afwul but still left me kind of cold. I think the character designs were a problem here, in general I'm used to brightly coloured anime characters but this was trying to be a very serious story about child soldiers who know they're going to die young. But when they were colour-coded and always wore the same clothes (and mostly had pretty generic animu girl personalities) they felt so artificial which made it harder to get into the drama. Nice OP song.

Yashahime

Inuyasha was my first show after really getting into anime so I was super hyped for any kind of new content. So far this has unfortunately been rather dull since I'm not particularly interested in either of Sesshoumaru's daughters, and the way the show treats the absence of the old cast is annoying. Just either show them or make it clear we're not supposed to care about them, now it's just annoying how their disappearance is treated as a mystery but the three heroines know barely anything about their heritage and don't even seem interested in learning either. But I'll watch this to the end for Moroha.

Kaitou Tenshi Twin Angels, Twin Angel Break, Pretear, Happy Seven, Healin' Good Precure

Watched a lot of magical girl stuff this year too, these being shows that play the tropes straight. The Twin Angel seasons had different flaws but were otherwise watchable aside from the awful Twin Angel Break heroine. Pretear had surprisingly nice character writing and I feel I would really have liked this if I saw it at an earlier part of my anime hobby experience but now it doesn't feel so special any more. Healin' Good Precure has been rather dull.

I also watched a bunch of Precure movies, out of which only the Star Twinkle Precure one was actually good, and the Spring Carnival crossover movie was also good in an absurd way, while the rest ranged from awful to somewhat decent.

Awards given: Worst girl (Meguru - Twin Angel Break), Biggest WTF (Happy Seven suddenly going from monster of the week shenaningans to alien mass destruction weapons)

Concrete Revolutio, Myriad Colors Phantom World, Re:Creators

Also some anime where the magical girl was a side character. Concrete Revolutio was an unpleasant mess with nice visuals, Myriad Colors was a pretty boring otaku high school harem thing and the magical girl episode was also rather bland, and Re:Creators had a lot of potential with the "anime characters come to our world" setting but the result was somewhat uneven. Re:Creators had the best magical girl out of these three.

Awards given: Worst non-romantic relationship, Worst side girl (Setsuna from Re:creators, with the main boy) not really an awful character on her own, but the writing around her was pretty bad, let's also give Worst Boy for the said main boy

Nausicaa

I watched the first half of the movie over a decade ago and didn't manage to finish until now. After seeing so many other Ghibli movies this didn't do much for me, but the animation and nature were still beautiful.

Western:

Most Popular Girls in School

The newer seasons didn't reach the heights of the earlier ones but there's still something entertaining about a very raunchy Barbie doll stop motion show. Also pairs well with the Barbie Life in the Dreamhouse for a fun but more child friendly Barbie experience.

Frozen 2

I'm wondering if these really are the only Western piece of media I consumed this year? I certainly didn't go to movies after March. Anyway, like the previous film I had major problems with the plot and characters (I don't think Elsa's story was set up properly, Kristoff's sub-plot feels like an afterthought when he doesn't factor to Anna's sub-plot at all, Olaf is annoying, too much Lore) but ultimately I still had a good time. I like the costume design, the idea for Elsa's arc is fine, the songs are great and there were plenty of good scenes too, and the lullaby was beautiful. I'd say that like the original Frozen this was patched together from perfectly serviceable pieces that didn't quite work combined.

Awards given: Worst romance (not the pairing itself but the way Kristoff x Anna was written)

Games:

Animal Crossing Pocket Camp

Early this year I just decided not to open this app for the daily money-grubbing grind and haven't touched it since. I'm free!

Animal Crossing New Horizons

However the daily grind continues here! It's been way more enjoyable, primarily due to lacking the microtransactions/limited time item angle and also for being so much more customisable. And the nature is so pretty... But I've reached a point where even this has started to feel kind of stale.

Super Mario Odyssey

My first Mario game since Super Mario World so of course I'm blown away by everything. I like how colourful and welcoming the worlds were, Cappy was a surprisingly enjoyable sidekick/mascot and also the game was easy enough and had a simple linear plot so it was far easier to approach than Zelda BotW which is still on hold.

Plans for 2021

Actually play Zelda BotW

Maybe finally Evangelion?

Finally finish the mostly disappointing Digimon Adventure tri

Various magical girl sequels and remakes

[missbecky]

Okay, time for another long post about a cool weird thing that happened with my cards last night. I still don't know how I feel about deities, I don't know that I'll ever worship one, as that's just not me to worship. But I have felt as though there was an entity, goddess, force, something trying to reach me. Any time I've tried to glean information on who it was, I kept getting a door slammed in my face. I kept getting messages that I wasn't ready. And I was totally fine with that.

I'm unemployed right now, I'm a single mom, and I live with my disabled mother to help take care of her. With COVID-19, we don't take chances as my mom is in the high risk category. What that all means is that I've had way too much time on my hands. So I've been like a sponge, soaking up all the knowledge I can when it comes to witchcraft. Not being ready wasn't that big of a deal, because it just meant I got to do more research and keep putting off stuff I didn't really want to do.

Yesterday, I did my daily card draw, and the message was suddenly way different. Change has always been in the messages, but also the stopping in order to be ready for the changes. Yesterday morning I drew the the star, the chariot, and the hanged man reversed. I took that as a go for it.

Later that day I was prowling all the research servers, and the went to Google something about deities, and found an article/blog post someone had written about wishing people would stop using a very specific tarot spread for deity identification. Naturally, I decide to do that very spread. It was a five card spread, I wrote down what I wanted to know, and started shuffling. I shuffled for what felt like forever, and then when I laid the cards out, without thinking, I laid out 7. At first I was going to put the last two back, but decided to leave them. And the cards were all over the place. But I looked at it, and thought, "whoa, whoever this is, is not messing around.

So this is what I laid out.

Before I get into breaking down what these cards meant and how each one directly correlates to one specific deity, I want to point out where my head was at going into this.

I basically really actually got started with everything like 2 weeks ago. I'm basically still a newborn, right? Anyway, as soon as I start researching, I keep getting drawn to Deities. That's weird because I'm an agnostic and basically have no interest in higher powers. If they're there cool, if not cool. I have always believed that if there is some kind of being that could mold and shape the world, then my puny human brain can't comprehend them anyway, and it's really none of my concern. So, it's been really strange that this repeatedly keeps sticking out for me. I get the distinct impression that whatever energy is reaching out to me is female, a tie to the moon, the feeling of 3 was there, I knew it had to be associated with motherhood, and just a general overall feel of the empowerment of women. Naturally, I just kind of assumed Hecate, but that never actually felt correct to me.

So the 3 of cups being the first card just kind of reinforced the sense of 3 to me, and the whole sisterhood aspects of women empowering women. I wrote down 3, sisterhood, and good times. In the spread that was supposed to be 5 cards (and I did 7), the first card was supposed to sum up who the deity was.

I love my tarot deck for the strength card the most, I think. Strength is a mama bear. Again, this confirms my feeling of being tied to motherhood. The second card was supposed to represent the deities weakness. I wrote mama bear, power, and overly protective.

The third card was the chariot, and according to the spread this was their strength, their power. I wrote down action, strength, determination, will-power.

Then I get to the 4th card, the lovers. This is supposed to be what they rule. This one had me scratching my head. Now the author said this one will be harder to figure out, because the deities could even try to be snarky with this. I didn't even know what to do with this card, but like it made sense later. As I was going through each card individually, however, I came up with nothing, and in turn wrote nothing.

Card 5 was to be their symbol or association, and I had drawn 7 card. Anyway, I began analyzing the reversed hierophant, and the reversed 2 of cups. By that point I'm feeling personally attacked. And then the King of swords felt like a slap in the face. Words like logical, smart, level headed came up, which is honestly the person I've always prided myself on being. What was that person doing trying to contact a deity? I basically had to stop and ask myself wtf I was doing.

Like all shadow work, I decided to go browse the internet to distract myself from having to think about it too much. So I start googling triple Goddess and love, even though the lovers definitely didn't feel right, I'm like what the hell? Why not? Hecate and Diana come up, well that's not right. So I decide to take away the triple deciding I could just be way off base with the whole 3 thing. So I Google goddess of female empowerment and found a list of badass goddesses, and Artemis stuck out to me. But I'm like, no, that can't be right. This peace loving hippie couldn't possibly identify with the goddess of the hunt (which was the extent of my knowledge about Artemis). I then Google goddess of sisterhood, envisioning a woman running with a girl gang fucking shit up. What the fuck do you know, but that is Artemis.

After that Google search, I decide I clearly don't know enough about Artemis, and had recently downloaded some Greek mythology books, have never had the slightest interest in Greek mythology, but I saved them in my Google drive just in case. After finding out a bit about Artemis from Google, I turned to the digital books I had.

It was crazy how each of the cards began actually tying into the mythology of Artemis. She traveled with like a gang of nymphs, which I'm sure there was some sisterhood there. She helped her mother deliver her twin brother, and became like the patron God of childbirth. She defended babies and Young girls. She only ever wanted to belong to herself and so she requested everlasting virginity. From what I read she was very protective, straight up murdered rapists, and she was strong to a fault, which made sense why the strength card was listed as weakness. Apollo challenged her to hit a target way out in the ocean that she couldn't see, telling her she couldn't do it, she did it to prove she could and there was no better sharpshooter than her. The target was Orion, the only person she ever loved. So the reversed two of cards made sense. The reversed hierophant made sense because she was not traditional, she went against the grain. Her story is far from ordinary, even by mythological standards. She was a straight up badass that lived life on her terms and no one else's. There's nothing more rebellious than a woman with such control of her own life and destiny. And of course the chariot would be her strength identification, she was nothing but action oriented. The lovers could be interpreted several ways, but I take it as a woman who loves herself so fiercely she had no need for any other kind. But also when I think of love, I don't think of romantic love, I think of the bond i share with my daughter. She fiercely loved her brother, and maybe because she helped with his birth it connected her to him similar to that of a mother and child? That of course speculation. But the lovers card could also be a jab at her eternal virginity. And the King of swords sounded exactly like Artemis.

So I'm convinced this spread is talking about Artemis, but I can't shake the aspect of 3. Can't let that one go. Don't know why. So I'm looking through the l The Greek Myths by Robert Graves, and in it he speculated that Artemis was in fact a triad/triple Goddess!!!

Needless to say, I lost my fucking shit after reading that one. I was right in what I felt about what traits I felt the energy having, and the fucking spread related with every gd card.

Oh, and apparently Artemis chose to spend most of her time in the mountains. One of my favorite thing in all of the things is the mountains of Colorado, second only to my daughter, and I even identify as connected with earth elements the most because of my love for mountains. Makes me wonder how long Artemis has been trying to get my attention 😉

Anyway, I don't know what this all means to me personally yet. I've been ridiculously drained today, it's already 11 pm, and I only just now felt like I had enough energy and focus to write this out. So haven't had much time to sit with everything I experienced and felt last night.

However, it was very exciting! And I had to share my experience!

#witchcraft #witch community #tarot #witchblr #magick #Artemis #deity #deity work

[noctanotherone]

So... about Maxyartwork

So...Just wanna apologize ahead of time about how long this is going to be.... but... made a comment to Maxyartwork’s post the other day...about how wrong it is for them to villainize tracing because people have disabilities and health issues that prevent them from doing art normally....

And because I said they were having a bitch fit aka a temper tantrum...they decided to twist what I said, claim I called them a bitch, then proceeded to delete all evidence of what I said and keep theirs up, then block me...

So...I'm going to post up here and pretty much summarized what I said cause a. my memory is shit and I cant remember word for word, and b. some people will go wtf and wanna look it up. Take it as you will, but read before judging... Plus after this, I’ll probably wind up blocking them as well cause All I wanted to do was let them know that hey, maybe stop and think about how this is all helpful to people, maybe bring up some more facts, and say my last peace and leave them alone, (course this is the internet, I should know better by now that that never happens...) But I’m doing that now...

FYI...there is going to be a lot of sarcastic tones in here, sorry if you miss them...

But anyways....

As I briefly mentioned above, I called out Maxyartwork for yelling at people for tracing their artwork... even though the tracings were recolored different...in essence, it was a fanart of a fanart (cause Maxyartwork took someone else’s idea, and someone else's character and redrew it... Pot meet Kettle.)

And when I got a little heated cause of what they said... cause I’m mentally disabled and grew up around those who were mentally and physically disabled, and explained how tracing actually helped not just me but others and how it made them happy to actually be able to draw, and all the good tracing can do, and how it does train your hand to draw better, specially when its not used to doing any drawing or you have to relearn how to draw from scratch cause of an injury... hell, I even told them how tracing helped me as a kid and that I no longer need it now...I then essentially told them they shouldn’t be having a bitch fit over it. (that or they did have one...don't remember which atm...)

They Then proceed to get offended (as mentioned above, they accused me of calling them a bitch) and try to emotionally/verbally manipulate and gaslight me and others.

All because they were so self centered into thinking that tracing does not equal hard work..and that it actually equals *gasp* theft because its so ‘easy’ to do!

And I corrected them and told them, no. Tracing is not theft. It is not illegal, there is no law stating it is, people can trace all they want. Then proceeded to tell them that if I wanted to, I could take every art they posted online, trace it, recolor it, and post it, and that there was nothing they could do about it...cause a. as I said before, not against the law, and b. its the fucking internet... if you don't want it stolen or copied don't post it online.

And of course I'm not gonna do that anyways cause I have muscle issues in my hands, where they cramp up really bad, and I have to stop for hours before continuing again.. I’m already having issues just finishing the artworks I already started!

And then I told them what they should really do is focus on the actual issue, Actual Art theft, where people take others artwork and sell it online....instead of something so small and harmless that it takes away from the actual issue by making such a big deal out of it....

Also I love how they tried to say doing references is okay but tracing is not....like...you legit took someone else's idea, (drawing on eye liner with a blade) redrew it with a copyrighted character from marvel (now owned by Disney of all people)....and then get mad and yell at people for tracing it, claiming they are stealing their art....their. art.

Those in glass houses should not throw stones....

Specially since... Disney has sued people for less....I actually knew a family who had another family member paint Disney princesses in their daughters room and because they posted it on the net...they got sued by Disney and were ordered to paint over it...it was a really pretty room too...(course this was over 10 years ago and Disney has gotten more lax on that)

So yeah...

Also... speaking of Disney...here’s a random thought...How else do you think animators drew their animations before digital??? They traced shit...all the time...multiple times...then traced it to cel’s....seriously...

TRACING WAS A HARD WORKING RESPECTED JOB!!!

Also...if you presketch your digital art...you’re essentially tracing your art...

And again, sorry for bringing up this drama, I normally avoid posting anything drama on my page cause omfg I do not wanna deal with drama....

But this hit me the wrong way, cause I'm sorry, if someone did a fanart of my art, I’d be ecstatic, i would encourage them, tell them to keep at it, get better, and then maybe one day, come up with their own version/style like I did.

#Maxyartwork #Tracing #Tracing does not equal theft #Tracing was a job #Disney #Marvel #Selling others art against their permission is the real theft #BitchFit

[candicewright]

all primes for the 111 questions list :)

Well, time to pull out the list of prime numbers.

002 - What is the bravest thing you've ever done?

Probably moving to Canada. I'm only here for a year, but still. I mean, I had to 1) leave the country I'd been living in for all my life 2) go to a country where I can't speak my first language (though I'm very good at English and I know some French) 3) basically start all over again in terms of relationships. This is not saying this was an epic feat by any means, I know a lot of people who have done it, but was very scary so I am proud of myself.

003 - Is it hard for you to show your feelings?

I kind of do that thing where I overshare so that people think they know what I'm feeling but I actually don't tell them what I'm going through. So, I guess?

005 - What is your favorite sound?

A running stream of water.

007 - What do you notice first when you meet a new person? (Both in real and on the internet)

In real life, it's usually how they look (I'm not going to be one of those who say 'their personality' because no, Karen, when you meet a person you can't infer their character telepathically) and also the vibes they give me, what my gut tells me they're like. I tend to trust that first impression a lot.

On the Internet, it's either their sense of humor or the stuff they like.

011 - What are you going to spend money on next?

Probably food. I may be tiny, but I'm one hungry human.

013 - What is your favorite place?

I answered this here. Sorry for not saying it again but I don't want to make this post longer that it's already going to be.

017 - How would you describe yourself in 3 words?

Curious, smart, creative.

019 - What time were you born?

Around 11:15 p.m on a good ol' Christmas Day.

023 - What is your favorite food?

Sushi. All types of sushi. I'm a sushi whore.

029 - Do you show affection in public?

I'm weir about this. I generally don't like people touching me. But if I'm the one to initiate the contact, I can be very affectionate. So, yes, if I'm with someone I care about and trust.

031 - Have you ever been to other countries? If yes, where?

Yes, here goes the list: Spain, Canada, England, Croatia, Greece, Italy, Montenegro, France and Germany.

I love travelling if you couldn't tell.

037 - What are 3 objects that are *very* important to you and why?

My computer because it's where I write and play videogames (two very important things in my life), my graphic tablet because I love drawing digitally and my stuffed animals because I've had them since I was a kid and they all have a lot of sentimental value (and they're cute. so. yeah).

041 - What is one illegal thing you would do if there were no consequences?

I don't want to say something typical like robbing a bank (though I'd definitely do that) so maybe hacking into the internet's database to have access to everyone's information. I would only use it to destroy some big and sketchy companies, mind you. But it would be fun :)

043 - Do you ever wish you were somebody else?

Yes? Doesn't everyone? I mean, I'm a non-binary, pansexual, female-presenting person so I've gone through a lot of discrimination and bullying. Have I ever wished I were someone else? Yes. Do I now? Not that much anymore. I'm comfortable with my identity right now. That doesn't mean I don't go through shit sometimes though.

047 - What do you want for your birthday?

Something Merlin related. Don't even get me started on this. I literally told all my friends AND my family that I wanted Merlin stuff for my birthday and NO ONE GOT ME ANYTHING WTF. Like, I don't ask for much like. ever. But I guess I'll have to treat myself to some stuff because no one else wants to.

053 - Do you want to get married? What are your views on marriage?

Yes? Maybe? I don't know. I like the idea of the wedding itself more than the being married part. I think marriage is cool as long as the people who are getting married love each other. Idk, I just want people to be happy.

059 - Would you rather go to a party or stay at home?

STAY AT HOME.

fuck human interaction.

061 - Are you a positive person?

I like to think so, yes. Though I tend to be more positive towards others than to myself.

067 - In your opinion, what is your best quality?

My ability to be passionate about everything I do/like.

071 -  In your opinion, what is the secret for a great relationship?

Communication.

073 - Is it hard for you to trust people?

No, I'm a very trusting person.

079 - Are you left or right handed?

Right handed.

083 - You are given one wish: What do you wish for?

The ability to fulfil all of my own wishes by myself. I don't need no genie or divine intervention to achieve my goals.

089 - Have you ever cheated on someone? Ever been cheated on?

I've never been in a relationship, so no.

097 - Would you rather commit to one person or have several relationships?

Commit to one person. One is more than enough.

101 - What is your Top 3 favorite shows? What was your Top 3 favorite shows when you were a kid?

Right now it's:

1. Merlin

2. The Witcher

3. Good Omens

When I was little I liked Heidi, Pipi Longstocking and Sandokan. Yes, I was one weird child. Blame my mom.

103 - What was your last meal? What was your last beverage?

Chicken alfredo and orange juice.

107 - Has anyone ever written a poem or a song dedicated to you? Have you?

No, thank god. Have I written a song/poem to myself? Hell no. To someone else? Yes, but I never showed them.

109 - If you could go back in the past, would you change anything? If yes, what?

Not really. I don't want to sound cliche, but those experiences made me who I am and I like myself right now. So no.

Well, that was a journey😅 Thank you for the asks!💜

#love you for this💜 #i need to go to sleep now #ask response

[salamandrinanana]

Two weeks into quarantine

Well, plus 3 days now. Took me a bit of time to get on my laptop without anyone looking over my shoulder constantly. 

Quarantine started for me with not physically being able to leave the house for a few days. I never expected those planned “few days” to turn into two weeks, but then on day 2 it was announced that all universities were going to close the next day, which was quite a shock to me. I didn’t expext for things to change that quickly and I don’t know how long things will stay this way. Here’s a bit about how those two weeks have been, who knows how many will follow:

- I’ve been outside for 2 hours max. in these two weeks. Felt oddly reassuring to see that my town hasn’t changed at all. First time out was on day 8 or 9.

- Stayed awake for 39 hours at the beginning of it all. Not fun. And not by choice. I was in too much pain to relax. Got myself dosed up on ibuprofen and slept for 12 hours straight.

- I had exactly one online class. I hated it. Felt really weird and I kept losing focus. Also: group discussions don’t work when you’re thrown in a seperate chatroom thing and your random group members are all afraid of turning on their mic so nothing ends up happening.

- Apart from that online class I haven’t done shit for uni. Can’t focus at home with my brother working in his bedroom a.k.a. constantly calling people and my mother watching TV downstairs when she isn’t at work.

- I’m now in week 1 of 3 of what was supposed to be my official exam period with midterms and shit. I’ve got 3 exams that are going on as normal, because I had to do those at home anyway and there’s one that’s going to be changed a bit so you can do it at home. We’re only going to get 2 hours for that though, normal time for the exam, which absolutely sucks. For the others I have 2 weeks.

- I actually started writing a story. Me. Writing. Never thought I’d get to that point. Progress is really slow, I’m only 2.5k words in and there are lots of details I’m still unsure about and I have no idea wtf is supposed to happen in it yet, but hey I’m writing. It’s about a girl discovering she has superpowers. It’s terrible. She finds out when she tries to kill herself about 500 words in. Yikes why is my brain like this. Oh right because I’m an idiot and my childhood wish of being able to fly has come back to haunt me and I’m telling myself to never try to commit suicide. Writing this is a bit of a weird way of doing it though.

- I also tried digital drawing on this Autodesk SketchBook app. I sort of finished my drawing and it kind of looks how I wanted it to, but I am never going to try that again. Three days of endless fucking pain and getting cramps in my fingers.

- My random obsession with the Chernobyl disaster is back. I’ve spent a lot of time on YouTube watching “stalkers” illegally entering the exclusion zone and staying there for a few days. Fascinating stuff. Would never dare to go there myself.

- I went back to one of those game sites for children that I used to spend hours on as a kid. Because fuck it. (Logical combo of course: Chernobyl and dress-up games; that shit happened on the same day.)

- Looks like I haven’t lost my ability to recognise a Depeche Mode song in 0.4s in the SongPop app.

I’m also pretty good at recognising Neubauten, though they’re kinda hard to find in the game.

- Witnessed Blixa Bargeld making broccoli soup. Possibly the best hour in the whole of these two weeks. He danced!!! 

- Got a phone call from my university's study abroad coordinator. Was told that none of the universities I wanted to go to (Glasgow, Brighton and Manchester) were possible for me. Which is a rare thing, that none of your choices work out; of course that shit happens to me, I seem to be a magnet for bad luck! I somehow managed to keep it together while on the phone, but I was ready to scream or cry. Not sure which. Both have not happened yet but still possible. Now I'm looking into the other options she gave me. Will probably end up going to Leeds. If it's even possible to go anywhere by that time with this whole corona bullshit situation. Well, at least I haven't been rejected...

- Ready to kill my mother and brother because they will never understand how goddamn terrified I am of phone calls. They always think I'm stupid and exaggerating, while they haven't felt my heart pounding in my chest whenever my phone rings. I'm always scared of not knowing what to say. When it's an unknown number it's even worse, having absolutely no idea of what to expect.

- Finally watching series 7 of Endeavour on a Belgian TV channel. 

And, last but not least:

- The VHS Tapes Adventure

I found a big shopping bag full of VHS tapes and dragged out the old VCR. Six of the tapes contained footage of tiny ass kid me and my brother, who’s two years older than me.

I had never seen these tapes before, so it was a bit overwhelming. I had no idea we had footage that actually included sound! All the stuff I had seen before was made with a crappy camera with no sound.

I saw myself when I was less than a day old. I saw myself walk at 10 months. I heard myself slowly learning how to talk. I saw myself in one of those typical “child tries something new to drink and is totally amazed by it” moments, drinking coca cola and immediately demanding more. I saw my now dead grandmother, holding me, playing with me, and I heard her voice again. I cried.

God, it was so overwhelming; and it was weird to actually use a VCR again, last time I did that was over 10 years ago. I had one fuck-up though followed by a bit of a panic attack. I think the VHS went in at a slightly wrong angle, there was lots of noise and then it came out with some tape sticking out of it. God I was terrified, I had never experienced that before and we don’t have backups of any of that childhood footage. I ran to my mum and cried like a baby. She fixed it and was not really worried.

Also, I was left slightly pissed off. I witnessed all of my brother’s birthday parties, starting with his first, but the only birthday party I saw that was for me was when I turned four. Also, there’s a lot more footage of my brother in general. And I know it’s completely stupid, and I get that it was different with my brother because he was the first child, but it still makes me feel bad. 

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I know there probably won’t be anyone reading this, or getting this far, and I know all of this is not relevant to you even in the slightest, but it feels good to write stuff and share it somewhere at least in the knowledge that someone out there might read this and possibly care? We're in a weird situation right now and I don't really have anyone to talk to. I only speak to other students (I don't really dare to call them friends - we just sort of talk when we see each other but not really outside of that) when I see them in person, so I have not been in contact with them at all these past weeks. This is the only place where I can share stuff now, also because this is the only social media account none of my family are aware of. And it’s really good to have something away from them so that I don’t have to feel embarrassed.

#personal stuff #sort of diary thingy I guess

[potter-art]

How long have you been drawing digitally? Your talent is insane and I really have no idea how you’re 18 and and are so so so so fucking good at everything you draw.

Thank you so much for asking, Anon!

I hope you don’t mind that I took your ask and turned it into an entire digital art journey?

Good.

(This turned out a little longer than expected)

Now I feel like I should mention that most of my drawing progress was made with traditional mediums. I started really getting into art (and actually practicing) around 2009 / 2010 (age 10/11 y/o).

I wish I could show you pictures of that, but they’re at my parent’s place and I didn’t have social media back then, so they aren’t uploaded anywhere (thank God)

I did find something from 2012 though! (And I already did a redraw of it! Yay!)

(Why did they all look like hedgehogs wtf)

Anyways, you asked about digital art, so here we go!

I got my first graphic tablet for Christmas in 2012 (I was 13 at the time). I was drawing with Photoshop 2 on a Windows 98 PC, so you can imagine how well that went. Sadly the very few drawings I did back then mostly got lost when I got my new PC bc the old one kept crashing at random times.

These are from around April 2013 (I was 14 at the time) and ALL of them are referenced. I’m sorry for not being able to credit whomever I referenced this from, but I really don’t remember. It’s been too long.

All of them are original characters I designed / drew for friends!

This one’s also from that time, though not as referenced

*shudders* yea, that’s more like it.

(To see more read below the cut!)

The next one’s from October 2013 (and really heavily referenced from another fandom artist, sorry!)

And then I decided that digital art was not my thing (it took me nearly a week to finish each of the larger drawings, and it was really frustrating. My digital abilities were just not up to par with my traditional art and I was an impatient little fuck back then) So I just. Stopped. Didn’t touch my tablet again until…

January 2015!

I finally got a new drawing program (Clip Studio Paint instead of Photoshop Elements) which made things a little easier.

I did a redrawing of the “Ender-Girl” from 2013 as a birthday present for a friend. The new one was NOT REFERENCED!! Yay!

Much happier with how it turned out, but still not close to my traditional art, so the digital drawings became sporadic things inbetween and thus, I didn’t really improve.

Flash forward to Christmas 2016! (One year ago, we’re getting closer!)

I got my Microsoft Surface Book for christmas and that’s when I  r e a l l y  started working digitally. Drawing directly on the screen made a huge difference for me personally and digital became much more fun. So I also precticed more!

This one’s from the beginning of January 2017 (by now I’m 18 y/o), no references used, the first proper digital drawing on my Surface.

Also made a re-draw of one of my oldest pieces, the Seto drawing from 2013:

And then I re-discovered the joys of coloring my traditional sketches digitally!

Still really proud of that one.

Then came my A-Levels (studying, ugh) and afterwards, around June 2017, getting rejected from art university, so I didn’t really draw much anymore, neither digitally nor traditionally. Basically one huge art block.

That lasted till September 2017, which is when I created a new Tumblr blog and decided to re-awaken an old passion of mine: Harry Potter.

(Yes, I’m talking about this very blog)

Since then I’ve been drawing more digital stuff than ever before! (Partly got the Color Palette Challenge to thank for that)

I can’t possibly put all of them here, so you can either go to this link for all of my drawings or this one for the Color Palette drawings!

But here are some of my favourites from each month.

On a side note, this account has its three month anniversary *drumroll please* today!!

So yea, with that being said, I’m more than excited to see where this journey will take me.

And I’d also like to take this opportunity to thank all 2,638 of you for your incredible support!!

I haven’t been this motivated to draw in ages. So from the bottom of my heart, thank you! You’re incredible.

And apologies to you, Anon, I could’ve just said “I started around 2013″, but where would be the fun in that?

(During Christmas break I’ll most likely do a traditional art improvement too, including drawings from when I was, like, three bc my parents are awesome and still have most of that. So stay tuned!)

#Well #that escalated quickly #i hope you enjoy this little journey through my digital art! #if I manage to find something from the really old ones #I'll let you know #art improvement #art journey #digital art #my art #seto kousuke #draco malfoy #won't tag all of the characters here I think that'd be a little too much lmao #draw this again #long post #but with a cut #art #look at the pointy chins I can't #faq #anonymous #answered

[51wheezes]

1k+ milestone!!

I recently hit over 1,000 followers on this account and I’m… honestly blown away. Like, that’s fucking insane. I seriously can’t thank y’all enough, but I’M GONNA DO MY BEST. (long post below the cut but tl;dr i’m a big sappy grateful baby and i love all of you xoxo)

I made this account around mid-August of this year, because I’d rapidly fallen down the Buzzfeed Unsolved hole, and wanted to become a part of the fandom. Joining fandoms/online communities in general is… pretty hard for me, for a lot of reasons. I’ve had to really wiggle in and out of fandoms to find what I was most comfortable with, and where I fit in the most. When I joined this fandom, I felt like I was nobody. I wasn’t really sure where to start or who to talk to, let alone how to talk to them. I didn’t know how to gain a following if ever it was possible, I didn’t know how to make friends, I was just sort of… there. But within the first month or so, I became more comfortable with my spot in the fandom and really melded myself into the community by actually communicating with others and creating content.

I’ve found that I ACTUALLY FIT IN HERE!!! WOW THAT’S SOMETHING BECAUSE I LITERALLY NEVER FIT IN ANYWHERE. But everyone here is so kind and warm and so fucking funny, like, it’s impossible for me to scroll through my dash without cracking a smile or bursting out laughing. This fandom is just so great and it’s all around such a chill community of people and?? i’m love??? wow

But, of course, it’s not just about me; I wanted to give a few kind words to some people who have made me feel welcome, became my friends within the past few months, and/or inspire me in so many ways (and in no order of course)!!

@ghostwheeze (ah, mari. the wheeziest ghost of them all. my first follower, an incredibly supportive, talented, and amazing friend, never fails to make me smile/laugh, is there for me when I’m down. You know I love your writing, I’ll never stop shouting it from the rooftops. I can spend literal hours talking to you and I’d love every minute of it. I love u to absolute death boo, and one day I swear I’ll get my ass to Cali so we can hang out and search for the The Bois at Disneyland. deal??? deal. ily)

@spookyboybergara (KAIT UR SO FUCKING FUNNY AND ILYSM!! THANK U FOR BEING SUPPORTIVE AND MAKING ME SMILE AND LAUGH. Honestly I was surprised when you first messaged me because I was like ‘an amazing person with an amazing blog? Talking to ME? Never thought that was likely but I guess it is oof’. Bottom line you’re great thank u for being so great)

@shanebergaras (such a kind, warm, adorable, and funny person!! your blog will never fail to give me this warm feeling, both you and your blog are so nice. Also, you’re incredibly talented. like wow. also I’m soso happy for you!! I have no doubt in my mind that you’re going places, kid. Keep being amazing my dear)

@acacia-writes (u are LITERALLY such a sweet and bubbly person?? your positivity is so heartwarming and I love love LOVE talking to you, you’re such a fucking doll. you have this charm about you and I thought you were just the sweetest as soon as you first messaged me. thank you for deeming me worthy of your friendship??? smooch ily)

@northeasting (EAST? I LOVE YA???? like fuck I love your writing so so SO GODDAMN MUCH AND YOU ARE JUST SUCH A GOOD PERSON WTF. When you say you like my writing my heart stops because like? wow that’s crazy and means a lot? I think you’re fantastic and you know I’ll always love your work and just YOU AS A PERSON!! thank you for your kind words, I’ll always have plenty for you as well)

@boys-and-ghouls (KEANNA!!!! You are an absolute DELIGHT, DO YOU KNOW THAT?? you exude intelligence and wisdom and you’re so goddamn hilarious and just soso kind and your psa’s? so fucking well-worded. honestly i really respect how well you state your opinions and i wish i could word things as well as you do. you’re just such a strong person and i look up to you a lot? yes? you’re such a good friend ily) 

@alcxandermadej (your traditional art has me FUCKING SOARING. I’ve got an entire artist’s kit full of traditional art materials that I still haven’t used because I’m a digital artist and traditional artistry intimidates the living fuck out of me, but your art makes me wanna give it a try??? Maybe one day!! For now I’ll keep ogling your art and telling everyone how amazing it is and how much I idolize your talent) 

@cctinsley (another one of those first blogs I came across and was immediately like wow!!! this person is so cool wtf. your blog is fantastic and your art?? IS SO CUTE AND FLUFFY I LOVE IT KEEP THAT SHIT UP I LIVE FOR IT. GOOD SHIT) 

@crimsxnflxwerz (beautiful art that literally brings me to tears and inspires me improve my own art. beautiful writing. fellow lover of Greek mythology, and writes it so goddamn well, too. beautiful person all around. share some of that beauty, will ya? Just kidding keep it because I love all of the BEAUTIFUL WORK YOU PUT OUT UGH)

@halfwheeze (mer. oh my god okay. your writing makes my soul ascend to heaven. you do it so well and so fast and that’s so fucking inspirational?? I wish I could write such beautiful things on a whim like that rip. You’re also a sweetheart and one of the first few blogs I followed on here. I love all of the content you put out and all of your kind words, you’re just an absolute treat okay)

@wimpydemons (you only recently joined this fandom and you’ve already been so warm to me and others like……you’re so lovely. I love getting messages from you and talking to you!! You always have the nicest things to say and it makes my heart so full. I can’t describe how amazing you are like ily alright)

@ccaffe (your art??? never fails to make me jealous but like, in a proud way. I love your art. Never stop drawing. Also you’re adorable. And I love your blog and your general aesthetics. You’re just so generally wholesome Claude like thank you for blessing me)

@buzzfeedunsoived (ALEX!!!! I love you and your blog!! one of the first unsolved blogs that I came across, and I seriously thought I followed you way sooner than I had but I guess not??? shame on me. I think you are an absolutely fantastic person who so clearly shows how much they care about their friends and that’s just so admirable. your blog makes me giggle and just. ugh. thank you for being such a sweetheart)

@trippy-sunshine96 (such a beautiful person and kind soul who deserves beautiful and good things and warm hugs!! I would so give you warm hugs if I could okay. I love having deep conversations with you and being able to relate with you and honestly? I’m always hoping you’re doing okay because you deserve it!! I care about you so much)

@weirdo-ing (okay one, your writing is SO GOOD. Two, your blog is amazing?? Your fucking tags have me HOWLING. You’re so funny, I scroll through your blog when I need a pick-me-up!! Thank you so much for being so kind and hilarious!!!)

@buzzwheeze (hey wow yeah I’m gonna fucking fight you because your writing makes me cry and you do it so eloquently. c’mon post up greer. no but really you inspire me a hell of a lot and you deserve every ounce of praise you get. never stop being the talented individual you are) 

@smallwheeze (tiny??? you’re so adorable and nice what the shit?? your art is the CUTEST, I wish you uploaded more of it!! I love seeing it! and you’re just a very delightful person your blog is great and oof you’re wonderful)

@brentbennett (FUCK I LOVE U AND UR WRITING. I literally can’t describe how much of an inspiration you are to me, your writing absolutely blows me away each and every fucking time, and YOU’RE SUCH A KIND AND FUNNY PERSON!! UR GREAT!! ILYSM I KNOW YOU’VE BEEN A LIL INACTIVE LATELY I HOPE UR DOING OKAY)

@faequill (your fics were some of the first that I read for this fandom, and let me tell ya; it’s fuckin god tier. A+. amazing. Every fic of yours gets a standing ovation from me. You’re crazy talented and just an all around lovely person!! Also you deserve the world and I’m here for you alright. Stay strong lovely)

@pekuliar (GIRL YOU ARE A M A Z I N G like listen. When you started talking to me I had to make sure you were messaging the right person because you are just so talented and your blog is incredibly aesthetically pleasing and you’re such a delight to talk to!! You’re just so great and I genuinely appreciate you so so much okay)

Hey okay I’m fucking long-winded I’M SORRY. But I wanted to say that my love is absolutely not exclusive to anyone listed here. This fandom is full of great, talented blogs that make this community fantastic to be a part of! Plus, I am so grateful for each and every one of my followers and I want y’all to understand that I am open and willing to talk to any and everyone!! Never be afraid to send me something. I’ll always respond, even if it takes me a little bit (I get a little anxious/intimidated, but I will never turn a single person down). I’m very happy that you all enjoy my trash blog and trash writing and trash shitposts, and found me worthy of a follow. Again, thank you. More trash content to come.  ♡ ♡

#1k milestone #sorry this was so dumb and long agsvjhgn i'm stupid #y'all can literally just say 'shut up nia' whenever because once I start writing/talking I literally never stop #i just wanted to share my gratitude and give others some praise!!! #again thank you

[wannawrite]

Type Of Boyfriend: Lee Euiwoong

who?: Yuehua's Lee Euiwoong genre: 🌸 type: bullet point blog navigator. • how Euiwoong would be as a boyfriend I’m not super good at these but I will try my best! Thank you anon, hope you like it!! And holy shit Euiwoong is going to release music ??? But where are the other 3 + 2 hidden trainees? Smh Yuehua I’m trusting you not to mess up rn.

- Admin L

PS: soulmate AUs are up next ;)

• hmm Lee Euiwoong / Eric pretty much already screams boyfriend material • like do you see his outfits dkshskswi boyfriend • bonus! he is also a really cute squish • when approaching you and in the baby steps of your relationship, he could be quite shy • blushes often and has to pull the hood of his hoodie up the whole time • hesitates to hold your hand or initiate any sort of physical contact • you know, that kind of shyness • especially shy when you’re the one to call or text first 

• but actually • we all know our baby boy here is a savage • once you get past the honeymoon stage, Euiwoong’s roastings and savage sayings are a common thing • not even his best friends are safe from his roasts • sometimes it becomes a full diss track • you know his rap skills are out of this world • he is an amazing rapper • usually, he writes really sad, angsty and depressing raps but for you, he writes cute, lovable raps about summer and sunshine and puppies and generally all good things • mainly bc he is inspired by you so much • writes them in a different, secret notebook • but is exposed by Hyungseob when he accidentally leaves it in his backpack • wh00ps • he either radiates joy or angst there is no in between • but you love him either way • he gets really soft when you visit his workroom with food • more specifically, candy • self-proclaimed sweet tooth • he nearly cries when he wakes up to a ‘good morning’ text every morning • or when you randomly send him a paragraph complimenting him and hoping he’s doing well • savages can be soft okay • Euiwoong would be a big fan of matching couple clothes • whenever he goes shopping, he tries to find a similar item for you • if he can’t, he’ll try his best to DIY the clothing item for you • with the help of Jung Jung and Seunghyuk • because does it look like Justin and Hyungseob will survive threading the needle? • maybe not • “oh my god, what is this?” you ask, lifting out yet another couple shirt of the gift bag, giggling • lowkey, you’re a sucker for them • you guys rock them and kill it at Seoul Fashion Week • photographers swarm you guys, thinking you guys are models • well, Euiwoong kind of is an idol too • that IG couple • yes, all of his 133K followers need to know you two are thriving and looking amazing • and there’s no space for anyone else • takes mirror selfies of your clothes almost too often • his fan base has seen your entire closet • DIY prints his rap lyrics on shirts and gifts one of them to you for your birthday • it’s all you ever wear now and Euiwoong can’t wipe the smug look off his face • speaking of faces, this boy is SO handsome • and he knows it, too well in fact • narcissism is off the charts • “ahh, Y/N, I’m definitely the prettier one in this relationship” • “you’re more beautiful on the inside though” • “wait i’m sorry you know I lo - like you” • also really cautious when saying the L word • he’s just waiting for the right time • and so are you • gives you fashion advice like a professional stylist • “no, you should style it with a barrette and not a baseball cap” • this is how you won ‘best dressed’ in Senior year • he hypes himself but not as much as he hypes you • “yassss! that’s my baby!” he yells as he’s recording you admire your outfit in the mirror • makes sure to get all the angles • including your ‘glamorous’ ones, he saves the photos in the ‘blackmail’ album on his phone • “omg babe stop” • he thinks the world of you and never hesitates you reassure you look amazing • “of course you look good, I put that outfit together” • then he kisses the top of your head affectionally • “also because you are such a wonderful person, inside and out.” • give me a minute :”) • Euiwoong is truly an intellectual • You envy him, he’s pretty much the smartest student in the entire school • always makes Dean’s List • everyone loves him • always first in class, while you’re tearing up your report cart littered with mediocre grades • after seeing your upset face, Euiwoong wraps you in his arms and pressing a kiss to your cheek • “aww babe, don’t worry. grades are just a number” • wow okay that didn’t really make you feel any better but • he beams at you, “never fear, I’ll tutor you. You’ll get better in no time. I know you’re really smart” • he’s that kind of guy to draw up a schedule then half-heartedly sticks to it • but he is determined to pull up your F9s to A1s • he’s trying his best pls save him • kisses you awake when you’re falling asleep as he drones on about math • “hey, wake up. we’re almost done, hang in there” • you muster up whatever strength you have and finish up the last couple of sums he assigned you • you’re so tired you end up falling asleep on his shoulder once you’re done with the work • Euiwoong buries you in his hoodie and rubs your back affectionately • luckily, he decided to tutor you at your house and not at the library • so it’s easy to get you into bed • smiles at the sight of sleepy you, you’re very cute 24/7 • he’s packing up to leave when you reach out and grab his wrist • “don’t go.” • anD HE JUST BECOMES A SOFT MESS • “the last bus has left, it’s past midnight already.” you mumble, half asleep • Euiwoong just melts knowing that you care about him, you know he takes bus 152 from the bus stop across the street from your house • but the last bus has gone and it’s too dangerous for him to walk home, especially alone • protect boys too okay • Euiwoong sighs, “well, what do you want me to do then?” • in response, you open your arms wide, inviting him to cuddle • he’s a little more hesitant because he knows your family is around and he’s afraid they’ll get a bad impression of him after that • like why are you in bed with my child wtf what game are you playing • but he eventually succumbs and cuddles you to sleep • it’s super toasty, Euiwoong + comforter + hoodie, perfect for battling the Autumn cold outside • you’re sad he’s gone before you wake up but the post-its on your mirror make you smile again • “you look beautiful all the time” • “I’ll take you to Sephora next week since you’re running low on products” • “my baby always glows” • BLUSH BLUSH BLUSH • Euiwoong loves the heck out of you • and now, your family does too • he stayed long enough to help your parents to prepare breakfast while chatting with them • ah yes they claim Lee Euiwoong as their son-in-law from now on • cliche but for your birthday....remember all those raps he wrote for you because of you • he spends extra time in the studio to produce, record and burn them in a mixtape for you, with the help of his hyungs of course • also available in a digital version • “damn, Euiwoong never made me something so special,” Jung Jung complains but ruffles the younger boy’s hair adoringly • you thought you were surprised when he whipped out the tape • you nearly scream in shock when you analyse his raps • the baddie image has been shed • thE AMOUNT OF SWEETNESS AND FLUFF • nO ONE COULD EVER • iT’S ALL LOVE AND MORE LOVE AND MORE CUTE THINGS ABOUT YOU UGH • when will I ever find someone who will treat me like this • after much coding, you realise that the first letter of each title put together spells ‘My Love For You’ • 12 days of Christmas who? I got 12 raps of how much my boyfriend loves me • you have never been confessed to this way. no one has ever put in so much effort into proclaiming their love for you • Lee Euiwoong is the perfect boyfriend, of course, he does have his shortcomings • like his short temper that strikes on occasion and savage sayings • but you love him for who he is and there really isn’t any other way around it • 10/10 the best boyfriend

#Admin L #produce 101 #produce 101 scenarios #yuehua trainees #yuehua sprouts #lee euiwoong #justin huang #choi seunghyuk #jung jung #zhu zheng ting #ahn hyungseob

[audienceofdoubt]

Happy Belated Birthday to the only and only Mon aka @soupery!!!

Firstly, yes I am about 2 days late to the party (that’s not fair, i’ve been checking your blog every day since September started coz I can’t remember your exact date until 18th came and stuff happened and a K-Pop group made a comeback and I had no time to check kvjdnsc) and yeah this seems pretty crap too cOZ WHOOPS!!!!! I forgot how to draw and colour lmao it didn’t turn out the way I wanted coz I blacked out so close an eye, yeah~?

Anyways, super duper long, sobby tragic note underneath the cut for the late-birthday bud btw!!! (I’m so sorry in advance)

SOO O OO O OOOO are you reading this, Mon? Or someone else, oh well what can I do lmao soso anyways I wanted to draw a gift for you last year (I remember spECIFICALLY HOW I WANTED IT TO BE AND EVERYTHING UGH) but around that time, I had to swap from Paint Tool Sai to FireAlpaca so a) my WIP is practically useless and it was one of those it’s-so-good-i-can’t-ever-redraw-that-ever-again sketches so i can’t redraw and b) what the heck is FireAlpaca amirite (still asking that up to this day-) so it still saddens me a lot tbhh, I really wanted to throw it to you last year,,, I was so excited and everything hhh I hope this doodle is alright tho,,, 

Woah i’m rambling I forgot my train of thought sorry lemme remember i’m just typing my mind out ah yes anyways

Mon!!!!! I don’t know if you know crap about me but i’ve been a huge huge fan of your works for frickin’ 3-4 years now (Ithink(butyeahit’salongtimetrustme)) (I remembered how I first found your works; your AT works and your first speedpaint really wowed my dumb 14-yo ass lmao it still does) and honestly? Thank you so much,,,

Seriously, if it wasn’t for your pretty Adventure Time works years ago, I would have never went “man, I wish I can draw digitally,” attempt to draw Ice King and Marceline on an iPad and cry, beg my parents for a tablet and accidentally spiralled down into “Actual Drawing” tbh

WHAT AM I TRYING TO SAY IS you are literally the reason why I draw. Like, you genuinely made the final spark in me to pursue drawing, and actually shaping me into what I am today-

Shit i’m tearing

-And i’m very thankful for you and your super inspiring art tbhh,, I mean, because of you, I tried to draw digitally, and even tried painting digitally, aimed for a very bubbly and interesting art style with the most beautiful colour schemes ever, seriously I could fall in love with any artist from any fandom but you always seem to stay in my cold, broken heart anyways these past few years (wow this got cheesy lmao)

And even if we don’t have all-too-similar interests that got me pulled into you in the first place (i’ve been wanting to check out AT again but thERE’S SO MANY EPISODES OH YMG ODDDD REGRETS) because I kept shifting interests every few months (super super annoying I swear) I always found myself coming back to your art blog and scroll through, going both “man I wonder how Mon is doing” or “shit dude how does she draw wtf what are colours”

And well, I don’t know if you remember me (coz a) I shift interests so much, so if there’s some scrub-ass K-Pop group on your dash rn i’m sorry b) wait I can’t tell if you’re following me anymore c) probably not d) and I keep changing URLs I think I changed it like 2-3 times lmao so sorry you’re hearing all this weird creepy (?) stuff from a stranger who knows

I just wanna say these all out loud because seriously, you’re one of the very, very, very veryv ery very few people that have stuck around in my world for more than a year, and let me tell you, that is a fucking huge deal tbh o3o but what would I know? I’m just a 17-yo kid who cries too much over everything

And now at this point I can’t really care less that my doodle sucks loads of ass coz’ I just wanted something to accompany these thoughts, y’know? Coz imagine getting this randomly on a normal day (i’d be crying but idk)

These past few years, i’ve been so scared of talking to you too tbh?? (Blahh I know about the “friend to all” bid but i’m just very anxious so that happens I guess) So I hope I got to say everything i’ve been meaning to say for the past 3-4 years so I won’t run away embarrassed only to realise that I forgot to write something in here approx. 10 minutes after I post this :^)

OH YEAH bless your colours tbhhhhhhhhhhhhh ohnymg fodododdddd d d

O boi this is so so embarrassing I promise i’ll draw a better one soon (or if I forget (most likely) next year y’know ahah)

I think you may have heard these many times (I mean-) but your art has gotten more beautiful and better but every scribble, every doodle and it’s so inspiring (weird, I never get inspired by artists that much tbh) so thank you, and keep being you, Mon!!!

This has gotten super super long (man i’d black out if I have to reread this halfway ugh sorry Mon wtf) so i’m gonna stop before I whine more jeez

Anyways, again, happy birthday, Mon, and hope you have a soup-er wonderful year ahead, coz you frickin’ deserve it!!!!

-Disparity

#soupery #doods #disparity draws

[tricksytrex]

It’s-a me. And-a me. And-a all of us. Sorta. Amdusias and the two funny-looking dudes-of-indeterminable-species don’t occupy a slice of my personality. Sorta. Fuck.

Ugh. Need to art more again. I’m not necessary displeased with how this turned out, but. Still. Anatomy was never something I took the time to properly learn. I’m really, really bad at forcing myself to study anything other than a character reference when it comes to drawing. So I end up faking it ‘til I making...it. Which isn’t that often. Anywho, I did this doodle sometime last year. Took me a billion forevers to do it and as you can tell, it was across two sheets of paper. I then scanned it and took another 2 billion forevers to have this monstrosity come out.

I hate coloring SO MUCH. I’m no better at doing it with physical media, but I figured I’d at least make a vague attempt at working with digital coloring. I left the shading layer off of this version because my gods it is awful. And yes, that sweet character line-up graphic was stolen directly from Google. Complete with royalty-free watermarks I was entirely too lazy to edit out. It’s kind of approximate for everyone’s heights. You can refer to the sketch if you’re super-curious.

Samael and Ezekiel are chupadores. You can find out more about wtf a chupadore is by going here or here or here. I made them exclusively for the creepy reason of writing a fanfic based on Shu’s comic. Because I apparently have a knack for writing fanfics-within-a-fanfic. Currently the finished chapters of that story are here. I’ve actually finished chapter 3, but the site hasn’t been updated in a hot minute, so it lurks only in Shu’s inbox for now. Maybe I’ll throw it up here, too. Or make a third tumblr for writing stuff. I like having overly complicated divisions in everything I do.

This has become a ramble, so. I’ll shut up now. Hopefully some more art lurks on the horizon. Might post the sketch-versions of the aforementioned poorly-colored-porn-doodles on my NSFW page. 

#art #furry #character lineup #the demons are inside me #haha get it like buttsex #man i am just too funny for my own good