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onlyherefortheshowmances · 2 years

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I’ve posted a new one-shot of what I’d like to think happens after the end of Love, Victor S3.

Title: After the Ferris Wheel

Word Count: 4,140

Description: This is my brief continuation of what I'd like to think happened after the final scene of 3x8. Discussion of Victor's 'relationship' with Nick and discussion of Benji's conversation with his parents and past drinking and them just generally being shitty parents.

LINK TO READ ON AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/39732780

Also below the cut in full.“Just you?” the ride operator asks.

“Yeah, just me, and I’m okay with that,” Victor responds with a nod, realizing that if it’s not going to be Benji, maybe he really isn’t ready for it to be anyone else either, and maybe that’s okay.

“Okay,” the ride operator says, clearly, silently begging to not be subjected to this teenager’s life story. He gestures Victor onto the ride.

Victor walks up the ramp toward the vacant seat, but as he’s about to reach it, an all too familiar voice says “Wait!” from behind him and he whirls around instead. “Room for one more?” Benji asks when their eyes meet.

Victor stares at him, barely daring to believe what he’s seeing right in front of his own two eyes. He blinks, but Benji is really standing there, watching him. They stare at each other for a long moment, neither sure what to say next. “I, I thought you left,” Victor finally manages to stutter out.

Before Benji can respond, the ride operator interrupts. “Hey, buddy? You in or you out?” he asks, gesturing between them, looking at Benji.

Benji doesn’t answer, looking at Victor instead, leaving this decision to him alone. Victor can’t say no and he knows that. “Come on,” he says instead, gesturing for Benji to join him on the ride. Benji’s lips press together in an almost smile as he passes his ticket to the ride operator and goes to join Victor.

“Enjoy,” the ride operator says. Benji is nervous, but somehow also confident as he sits down, and Victor can’t help but watch him as he swings the safety bar across their laps. The other ride operator slides the pin that holds the safety bar into place.

Victor finally looks away and Benji starts to talk. “After you left today, I had a really long talk with my parents. About you, about what my dad said to you, and going behind my back like that.” Victor’s lip rolls in as he looks down at his hands, away from Benji’s face as he waits for the rest of the story. “And I told them that… you’re not my trigger,” Benji says, also looking away. He looks back at Victor before he continues. “They are.” Victor looks back at Benji in surprise; that’s not the answer he was expecting. “I want us to be together, Victor.” The ride stops then, they’re halfway to the top.

Victor had told himself for weeks that that wasn’t possible. At first, after Benji got back from rehab and broke up with it was that that wasn’t possible right now, but after Mr. Campbell showed up at his apartment door the night that they went to drag queen bingo, it became ever. He was inspired by his own speech, earlier the same day to be brave, to go after what he really wanted and who he really loved. As he walked from Benji’s house to his own apartment after what he thought was a failed attempt at a love confession, he thought that that may be the last time he ever saw Benji. He was too late. It took him too long to be brave. But now, only a few hours later, Benji is sitting next to him on this winter carnival Ferris wheel and there’s nowhere else in the world he’d rather be. He hates that their story went the way it did over the past couple months, but he still loves Benji more than anything and hearing him say that he wants them to be together isn’t what he woke up this morning anticipating or even wanting really, but he couldn’t be happier that it’s how this night is ending. His eyes dip briefly to Benji’s lips.

“But I still have to work on myself,” Benji continues. Victor knows that, but Victor also wants to be part of that. He cares about Benji; he wants to support him if Benji will let him. He nods and looks down at his hands again. “Like… a lot.” When Victor looks back up, Benji’s still watching him as he talks. “And I have no idea how it ends between us, which scares the hell out of me.” Victor looks over at him again. There’s still an ‘us’? he wonders. “Does it scare you?”

Victor raises his left eyebrow and nods barely perceptibly as he bites his lip. “Yeah.”

They both shake their heads and look away again. Victor wondering where this conversation is leading, but then Benji asks him another question that he’s not expecting. “Do you ever wonder what would’ve happened if we’d just gone on that Ferris wheel together when you first moved here?” They look at each other again.

Victor wasn’t sure Benji even knew about or remembered that night. The winter carnival last year. The night he road the Ferris wheel with Mia instead, because it was easy, because it was safe, because he was too scared to ask Benji even though that’s what he’d really wanted to do. He always thought Benji probably would’ve said no anyway, at least after he found out about Derek, but now he’s Benji asking a question that makes it sound like maybe he would’ve said yes after all, and it makes Victor think… think back to that first day in Atlanta last winter. He’d seen Benji at the water fountain, but then Benji walked over to him, to Felix. Benji and Felix weren’t friends then. Felix seemed surprised that Benji had come over to talk to them, though he brushed it off like it meant nothing. When at lunch the very same day, someone decided to push Victor to the ground, knocking his lunch everywhere, who had offered him the hand to get back to his feet? Benji. So, maybe he wasn’t just imagining things that day after all. He used to wonder about those what ifs all the time, but not anymore.

Victor shakes his head. “No.” He looks away again, but Benji watches him, seemingly confused at first. “Not really.” Benji looks away and this time it’s Victor looking at him. “Because… that isn’t our story. This is. And… it’s perfect.” Both of their eyes flit to each other’s lips and then Victor decides to be brave again. He stretches his right hand out to cup Benji’s jaw and pull their lips together. Benji’s left hand moves to Victor’s cheek almost immediately and they’re kissing. Not just kissing; kissing like they mean it as the Ferris wheel stops again, this time with them almost at the very top.

The ride eventually moves again, but neither of them are even aware, not until it stops with them at the bottom. The ride operator removes the pin from the safety bar and throws it open. They still don’t notice. “Jesus Christ in heaven,” he grumbles. “Your ride’s up!” he snaps loudly.

They snap apart, both red-faced and biting their lips. “Sorry,” Victor mumbles, scrambling to his feet. He can’t help but smile as he turns back to offer Benji his hand. Benji takes it without a moment of hesitation and gets to his feet, too. They walk down the ramp, hands still tangled together between them. Victor pulls Benji to a nearby empty bench and they sit down without words, both staring straight ahead at the people still milling about. Eventually Victor swallows and glances over at Benji. “What now?” he asks.

Benji bites his lower lip. “I don’t know,” he says, “but I do know, I was just torturing myself trying to stay away from you because I wanted to believe my parents were right and that they knew best, but they didn’t. I figured that out a couple nights ago, actually… um.”

“The night you saw me and Nick. That’s why you were coming over.”

“His name’s Nick?” Benji asks.

Victor closes his eyes and sighs. “He goes to church with my family. My parents met his parents one week and invited them for dinner as some kind of set up. It was whole thing, but it’s over now. I never… I was trying to move on, because that’s what everyone was trying to get me to do. I tried to tell them I wasn’t ready for that, but no one would listen, so I figured… they know best. I’ve never gone through a breakup before. I mean with Mia, but does that even count?” He sighs. “It was fun at first. It was distracting, but…” He almost laughs and glances at Benji’s face. “Um, it was just hooking up… in his parents’ car most of the time, in his little sister’s playhouse once. That was the last time… because I got poison ivy and thought it was something else.”

Benji tries not to laugh. “Oh my God.”

“Shush,” Victor grumbles in response. “But, yeah, I mean, um, after I decided just hookups weren't what I wanted, I downloaded the app at Rahim’s insistence and well you know what happened after that.”

“Wait, if that was after Nick, why did I see you kissing him two nights ago?”

Victor closes his eyes and lets out a loud breath through his nose. “Um, because after our thing and your dad coming to yell at me and him telling me that if I actually cared about you, I'd stay away from you... I asked my mom if I could go to church with her and Nick was there. He apologized. Um, I’d told him that I decided casual hookups weren’t what I was looking for anymore. I was more interested in maybe going on some dates or something instead, and that wasn’t his vibe. Um, he apologized at church and the next night he texted me and told me to come outside. I tried to say no because I thought it was just… what it always was with him. But I eventually went down, and he'd brought me flowers… and asked if I wanted to go to dinner some time. He tried, um, I immediately said yes. It was nice." He shrugs a little and glances at Benji again. "Um, the night you saw us, we’d, uh, we’d actually just gotten back from a double date with Rahim and his new boyfriend, maybe? I don’t know if they’re official yet, but he’s cute, his name’s Connor. He’s a waiter at a fancy restaurant which is how Rahim met him, while on a pretend date with my sister because his homophobic uncle was in town from Iran.”

“I knew about the uncle. Didn’t know about the pretend date with your sister.”

“Yeah, I don’t know how it happened exactly, but it did. Anyway, we’d just gotten back from that. Nothing even happened that night, even though, I think we both were going to at some point, but um, he left and I went inside. Um… today…” Benji blinks at him. “I don’t have to tell you about this if you don’t want.”

Benji bites his lip. “Uh, no. I think we should be honest with each other. Not talking about things is what got us into trouble before.” He nods almost encouragingly.

“Right, um, so, today, before the assembly, um, he was there and I thanked him for coming and he called himself my boyfriend and I just let it happen, but it scared the shit out of me. And it actually made me change my speech and made me realize a ton of stuff, but mostly that if it wasn’t you calling yourself my boyfriend, I didn’t want it to be someone else, either.” Benji almost smiles. “Um, yeah, so I accepted the gay award, because that’s definitely what it was. That's what I was contemplating, by the way, In the hallway the other morning, when you asked if I was okay."

"Oh."

"Coach Ford told me I was getting the 'bravery' award which we all know is just the gay award and I didn't want to accept it at first because I thought that if I was getting an award it should be for my talent, not for being gay. I didn't want to be 'gay Victor'. I just wanna be Victor, you know?" Benji nods. "Rahim convinced me. He's smarter than I give him credit for."

"I mean, he is the reason I'm now passing Calc."

Victor laughs a little bit. "Yeah, he mentioned that. Um, anyway, after the assembly ended, um, I apologized to Nick, and then I shoved my trophy at my mom and ran to your house so I could catch you before you left for Connecticut.”

“So, what you’re saying is, I can also thank my dad for you kissing someone else?”

Victor laughs. “Yeah, kinda. If he hadn’t shown up at my door, I don’t know if I would’ve agreed to the dates with Nick, so yeah.”

Benji sighs and shakes his head. “God, I really wish he hadn’t done that. Um, that night after Bingo, when I got inside, I, uh, I wanted to drink. It was the first time since I got back… I uh, I found a meeting instead… and went. My dad probably dropped me off, came to yell at you and then came back for me.”

“Oh,” Victor says quietly.

“Um, but, at that meeting, I talked to an older guy. I’d told the whole group why I was there. That I’d seen my ex-boyfriend and that I felt like I was torturing myself staying away from my favorite person, but everyone was saying that’s what I was supposed to do. And that…” he takes a deep breath. “That you made me happier than anyone else in the world and that you were the first person to ever make me feel safe and loved and like I was enough. Even my parents can’t manage that.” He swallows and blinks. “Um, afterward, I was talking to this guy and he said that it didn’t matter what everyone else said was right or wrong, I had to do what was best for me. And it was then that I knew, staying away from you wasn’t what was best for me. It was making me more anxious, and when you wouldn’t talk to me in the hallway and when I saw you kiss another guy, I… I thought leaving was the only option I had.”

Victor immediately feels monumentally terrible. “I… I thought… You’d said… Your dad had said… I just… I thought it wasn’t an option. I thought I was doing you a favor. I was… I was trying so hard to move on from you, because I thought that was my only option.” He closes his eyes and drops his chin toward his chest. “I just… I wish I would’ve known.”

“I’m sorry,” Benji says. “I’m sorry for making you think that… that you couldn’t talk to me at all… for… for everything my dad said to you… for… for believing my parents and the therapist who believed parents instead of believing myself. I’m sorry, Victor, but I’m ready to do better, and I… I know I still have a fuck ton to do as far as working on myself and my anxiety and learning how to cope with all that without alcohol, but I… I want you to be part of my life, too. You were… you were always the part of my life that I loved and these past couple months, and especially the past couple weeks and days, I’ve… I’ve missed that. I’ve felt like I wasn’t… like I wasn’t allowed to be happy. That everything had to be working on myself, or going to meetings, or going to therapy, or work, or school. I felt I wasn’t allowed to have anything else. I started playing my guitar again, but the night I chose to do that, my dad walked into my room and told me, that without asking me first he, uh, he paid a lawyer to… to get my DUI conviction expunged from my record, so that I could get into college or whatever he said his reason was, but it felt like it was mostly, so he could pretend it never happened and so he could not think about it, not think about me. But he didn’t understand that I can’t do that. I don’t get to just not think about it. I think about that night, almost every day of my life, because that’s what anxiety does. I think about the day he found pictures of naked men on my laptop, and I lied to him and said it was because I lent my laptop to Lucy, and he was so relieved… He was so relieved that his son wasn’t gay, because ‘there’s not anything wrong with being gay but, but I never thought my son’. It hurt, and I still don’t think he realizes that.”

“Benji, I’m so sorry,” Victor says. Benji half-smiles at him. “I don’t know what I can do or if I can do anything, but if I can… please… I want to help you...”

Benji half-smiles again. “The fact that you can sit here and listen to all of this and not… and not walk away… and not say it’s too much… and not… not make me feel like I’m some horrible person… that’s enough. That’s what I’ve missed, and what I wish my parents could do. I’ve missed you. I… when we were… when we were together before, and your mom would say things and do things… and you know… well, when that would happen and when you’d tell me about it, I just wanted to protect you. I wanted to save you from her, because what she did… and said, was so much like what my parents said, or what my dad said, and my mom silently allowed him to say. I didn’t want you to end up where I ended up, Victor. I wanted to save you, and I couldn’t ,and the fact that I couldn’t save you, that I couldn’t make that better for you, yeah, that was why I drank sometimes, and I know it’s the anxiety, and the savior complex, but it was worth it for me. It was worth giving myself that anxiety, because I loved you, because I still love you…”

“I love you, too,” Victor says before Benji can continue. “And… my mom’s literally the one that set me up with Nick. If anything, she’s been… trying too hard, so… that shouldn’t be a problem anymore.”

Benji smiles. “Sounds like, she’s doing better than my parents, or at least my dad on that front.”

“I was gonna say, your mom always liked me.”

Benji laughs a little and half smiles. “Yeah, she did, until my dad put the idea in her head that you’re the reason I started drinking again, which I don’t even know how that makes sense, because I was already drinking again before you even moved to Creekwood. I… I guess I didn’t give them a good enough timeline the first time, um, the night we were together after the wedding; but I, uh, made sure they knew this time. The… the first time I drank again, was… the day I got home from the hospital, because I heard them talking in the hallway. My dad was complaining that I wasn’t the son he wanted. I wasn’t a good enough student and now I had this drinking problem. That night, my anxiety got the best of me, and I stole a bottle from his cabinet after they went to bed. I don’t know if he never noticed or if he just convinced himself that it wasn’t happening because he didn’t wanna think about it.” Benji pauses and bites his lip, but Victor just listens. “I drank the night after the strip club incident. I drank every night of finals week. They claim they didn’t know, but I think they were just trying to ignore it, convincing themselves it wasn’t happening, but I spent a year lying to them, to Hank, to everyone at AA meetings. Hank, uh, when he found out, he decided he couldn’t be my sponsor anymore, because I’d lied to him for so long, so I have to find a new one. Still working on that.”

“Why does you dad still have a liquor cabinet? Like, they knew when you had the accident, why… why would he still keep it in the house?”

“Cause he doesn’t have a drinking problem, so why can’t he have wine and liquor? That’s his logic anyway. He cares more about his own good time than anything about me. Always has. It’s just… It’s how my dad is.”

“That’s not right,” Victor says immediately. “He’s your dad.”

“My mom at least tries… to… be a parent, but my dad never has, he just gets disappointed every time I make a mistake, and about me being gay, and all I can do is disappoint him, and my mom just lets it happen. I hate it. I turn eighteen in November. I’m gonna move out as soon as I can, but I’m stuck until then. That’s… that’s part of why I was considering boarding school at all. I wouldn’t have to be at home most of the year, but…” he shakes his head and then looks at Victor. “I also wouldn’t have you.”

Victor blinks and smiles at him. “If you… if you think it would still be good… for… for those reason… to… to get away from your parents… I… you could still go… you’d have your phone…”

Benji shakes his head. “No. I mean, my aunt’s there and she’d just relay everything back to them and my dad would call me with his disappointment instead. I’d… I’d rather be here… with you…”

Victor smiles again. “Okay.” He leans forward and kisses Benji again, a kiss full of meaning. Not like on the Ferris wheel when it was a kiss of the emotions of having missed each other for so long or of surprise and lust and desire, no. This kiss is full of something else. It’s full of a new beginning, of starting over, of being the best versions of themselves they’ve ever been, and of trying to still be better. It’s full of passion and devotion and willingness to put the work in to make sure it’s better this time around. It’s full of all of those things, but mostly it’s full of love; of unconditional love.

They only pull apart when there’s confused laughter nearby. Victor turns his head to find both of his parents standing in front of them. “Oh, uh, hey, guys,” he says, clearly still out of breath from all the kissing.

“Hola, mijo,” his mom says, clearly trying not to laugh. “I thought…” She glances at Benji.

“It’s a long story,” Victor offers. “Um, he didn’t leave, he, um, he talked to his parents, and um…” He bites his lip and glances at Benji.

Benji is smiling at Victor. His face still red with embarrassment at being caught by Victor’s parents. “Um, yeah. I’m staying. I, uh, I’d interpreted some things wrong and… it turns out…” He takes a deep breath. “Breaking up with my boyfriend because that’s what everyone else told me was the right thing to do, wasn’t the right thing to do… at all.” He looks at Victor’s mom. “I should’ve listened to you instead.”

She smiles at him. “Well, I’m… happy, for… both of you… provided you’ve done some talking and not just kissing tonight.”

They both laugh. “Yeah, we have,” Victor says, biting his lower lip.

“Good, don’t forget about that part,” she says, looking at her son. “Uh, we were gonna head home as soon as Adrian’s out of the bathroom, are you coming with us, or?”

Victor looks at Benji and he smiles. “Um, I’ll walk. I’m good.” Benji smiles at him, too.

“Okay. It’s Friday, so home by midnight, please.”

Victor looks at his watch. “Yeah, I’ll be home by midnight.”

His mom smiles at him and starts to walk away, but his dad pauses. “Be safe, be smart,” he says and then he follows his wife.

Victor almost laughs and looks back to Benji. “Um, sorry about them.”

Benji just smiles and shakes his head a little. “I’m not. It’s okay. Your parents act like parents at least.”

Victor nods a little. “That’s fair, um, did you… wanna do anything else at the carnival, or?”

Benji smiles at Victor for a second and then looks around. “I think maybe, my basketball star boyfriend is supposed to win me something at one of the games.”

Victor never realized a single word could make him as happy as that one just did. He smiles at Benji, unable to help himself and then nods. “Yeah, I think can be arranged.”

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ao3feed-lovevictor · 2 years

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by ciminos

Victor and Benji are idiots in love who take forever to confess their feelings for each other, in fact, it takes nearly an entire year.

Words: 7456, Chapters: 1/4, Language: English

Fandoms: Love Victor (TV 2020)

Rating: General Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: M/M

Characters: Benjamin "Benji" Campbell, Victor Salazar, Armando Salazar (Love Victor), Isabel Salazar, Pilar Salazar, Adrian Salazar, Felix Weston, Mia Brooks, Lake Meriwether, Andrew Spencer

Relationships: Benjamin "Benji" Campbell/Victor Salazar, Benjamin "Benji" Campbell & Victor Salazar

Additional Tags: Angst, Fluff, Getting Together, Friends to Lovers, Slow Burn, Mutual Pining, Character Study, Internal Conflict, Happy Ending, High School, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Idiots in Love

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footballfanficwriter · 3 months

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Spill the tea

Summary:where Jude is invested in girl drama

"Hello?"

"Hey girl, I've got hot tea for you"

"Yeah, spill it I'm listening"

I'm on a call with Ashley my Best friend who tells me everything, well we tell eachother everything, Ashley and I have been friends for the longest time, we grew up together and she was always there for me way before I even met Jude

"Ok so I just found out that Hannah is pregnant"

"What?"

"But the plot thickens, remember the boyfriend she said she was dating?"

"Yeah?"

"Well turns out he's not the father"

"If it's not him then whose the father?"

Jude walks into the house from training and he waves at me, I wave back at him

"It turns out that Hannah was having an Affair" Ashley says

"An Affair with who"

I see Jude turn his head towards me like my sentence has just peaked his interest and he walks to where I'm sat in the sofa and sits next to me watching me with interest

"The Gardner"

"The Gardner?"

Jude grabs my phone from my ear and puts the phone on speaker

"Whose having an affair with the Gardner?" He asks

"Hey Jude"

"Hey Ash, how are you?"

"I'm good, how are you"

"I'm good,so whose having an Affair with the Gardner"

"Hannah"

"But wasn't she with that other boyfriend of hers that she was bragging about?" Jude asks

"Yeah she was, I guess she was cheating on him"

"But, he was such a good guy"

"I know right"

"But there's more tea to be spilled"

"What Is it"

"Alice"

"I swear there's always something happening in Alice's life" I say

"Alice decided that it was a good idea to get surgery, and because she didn't have the budget for it, she went to a makeshift surgeon, and it did not come out proper, it just looks weird honestly"

"Do you have a picture?" I ask

"Yeah, hang on I'll send it just now"

Ash sends the picture and Jude and I look at it weirdly

"What has she done" he asks

"I'm speechless"

"I don't know whether to laugh or to cry" Jude says

"Why are her lips like that"

"Who ever did this to her needs to be arrested" Jude says

"Where is she now?" I ask

"At her house, she hasn't left eversince"

"Maybe we should check on her you know, see if she's doing fine" I say

"Yeah we should, we'll do it later"

"I'll make her something to try and make her feel better"

"Oh I just got am update on Hannah's situation"

"Turns out the Gardner is actually dating Haley, and he proposed to her"

"He proposed?" Jude asked

"So how are they going to work it out are they going to be one big polygamy Family"

"Even if the do that how is he going to afford to have a baby and have a wedding, knowing Haley she's definitely going to want a big extravagant wedding and she doesn't like sharing, so how is she going to share a husband with someone else?"

"What I don't get is how you're going to cheat on a person, then propose to the same person you cheated on, like do you know how much of a negative impact you have on a person"

"But Hannah is also in the wrong, she cheated on her boyfriend and went for Haley's then boyfriend and got pregnant by him, like that messed up, on top of that they are bestfriends" Jude says

"Ash you know I love you, but i could never be a sister wife with you, with anyone for a matter of fact"

"Don't worry, you're into footballers and I'm into NBA Stars totally different sport"

"Oh I forgot to tell you that Julia is moving" I say

"Julia is moving" They both ask

"Yeah she's moving back to France"

"Why?

"Something about being caught with the boss"

"She was caught with the boss"

"Well they weren't really keeping their affair a secret, they held hands in the office and they'd flirt in front of people, it was just a matter of time"

"But the boss?"

"Yup"

"Isn't she Lesbian?" Jude asks

"She's Lesbian?" I ask

"Isn't she in a relationship?" Ash asks

"She's in a relationship?" Jude and I ask at the same time

"That's crazy you know"

"It's insane actually"

"But hey you know what these aren't our lives and who are we to judge and Comment on other people's lives"

"True"

"So we'll meet in 2 hours to go and check on Alice?"

"Yeah, see you then"

I hang the phone up and look at Jude

"Let me go get ready I wanna see her myself"

"Jude when we get there please try to compose yourself until we get back home"

"Until we get back home?, I'll compose myself until we get into the car and drive off"

"Fine but if you can't keep your side if the bargain, I'll be very upset"

"Ok fine"

2 hours later

There's a knock

I walk to the door to reveal Ash

"Hey babe"

"Hey, you ready to go ?"

"Yup, just waiting for Jude"

"Ok, so what did you make Alice"

"Soup, cause you know I figured that she wouldn't be able to eat a lot of things that are solid"

"Yeah"

Jude walks down the stairs and greets Ash

Ash decides to ride in her own car on our way to Alice's house

When we arrive there I knock on the door and after a few seconds later the door opens revealing Alice

I turn to Jude and watch his eyes grow bigger, I then turn back to Alice

"Hey Alice we heard you weren't feeling well, so we thought we might check on you see how you're doing"

"Yeah, we heard what happened" Ash says

"Come in please"

"So how have you been" Jude asks

"Is it bad like really bad can you see I got my face done"

"No, it's not that bad, your lips just look more plumb" I say

I hear Jude clear his throat next to him

"I just can't stop looking in the mirror" she says crying

"Oh sweetie don't so that to yourself, I'm sure it will get better, don't bring yourself down like that" Ashley says

"Yeah Ashley is right I didn't even notice it until you brought it up" Jude says

"Really?"

"Yeah, he's right c'mon you must be hungry Y/n made soup for you I'll plate it up for you" Ash says taking the big bowl of soup from my hands and leading Alice to the Kitchen

"What are you doing" I ask him

"What, I thought we were telling her lies to make her feel better" he says

"Jude stop ok"

"But I haven't laughed ever since we got here, though it may be difficult not to I still haven't"

"Fine just stop with the side expressions and stuff"

"Oh c'mon you're going to stand there and pretend that all of this is not funny"

"Unlike you I know how to compose myself and keep my laughter in, and plus we're in her house how rude would it be if we just came in and laughed at her face"

He smiles a little almost like he's trying not to laugh

I sigh

"I give up on you"

We stay with Alice for 3 more hours until we announce that we have to go but Ash opts to stay with Alice until she's better and we promise to occasionally visit

As soon as we enter the car He laughs his ass off

"Let's not even talk about the lips did you see the eyebrows, she can't even lift her eyebrows"

"Wait until we get home"

"I'm not waiting until we get home I'm talking now"

"Jude"

"C'mon, it's not like she can hear me"

"Fine"

"Did you see the nose, it's like this" he says laughing and making the shape of her nose in the air

As much as I don't want to laugh at Alice Jude is not making it any easier not to so I just chuckle

"Her lips are like this, babe look" he says making his lips plump by squishing them together using his hands

I laugh at his comment and the rest if the way Jude and I are talking about Alice and all the things that could have forced her to do this to herself

The rest of the day is spent hanging out and Jude and i making dinner for ourselves then watching a movie then bed

As I'm changing into my Pajamas Jude speaks up

"Babe?"

"Yeah?"

"On a serious note though, l love you just the way you are"

I raise my eyebrow wondering where all of this came from

"Ok, why are you being weird"

"I'm not I'm just saying if you ever decide to get plastic surgery or a face lift, whatever it is, Just know that I love your body just the way it is and I don't want you to be pressured or feel like it's your obligation to make yourself look younger or have more curves or to look a certain way when you're with me"

"Aww, Jude Babe thank you so much, and to make you feel better and to put you at ease, I wasn't even thinking about getting anything on my body done so, you have nothing to worry about, in fact Alice's case just pushed me futher away from the idea"

He breathes a sigh of relief and walks over to me towers over me where he kisses my forehead

"I love you and your body"

"I love you too"

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autumnalmess · 4 months

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Part 2 of Café Musain booknook!!

I decorated the inside with bottles I made from hot glue and painted (the thin one in the middle of the trio I actually just found somewhere). I added a picture of floreal because the patrons definitely just thought she was hot and put it up (classic. I would too) and then I added a wee menu and a table I made out of lollipop sticks and stained with watercolours

Then I started work on some bits of the surrounding street before I add the front face of the Musain and the sign. So I cheated and used some printed bricks this time but then I used a little sponge to dirtify it as well as the ground below

Next up I painted a wall and made it gross looking to go above the brick part. Then I made shutters out of lollipop sticks and painted them. I thought it was quite cute to paint the inside black and leave them a bit open. And then I made a flag out of scraps of fabric and hot glued it to the wall

Then I made another cute window and painted the wall behind it black to fill the space. I was gonna do another door but I realised it would be too big.

I found these cute wheels out of an old Lego set and painted them to go on the ground under the window

I'm currently making the exterior of the Musain so I'll keep you updated!

#I LOVE HOT GLUE #big hot glue enjoyer #les miserables #les mis #victor hugo #les misposting #booknook #les amis de l'abc #cafe musain booknook #adhd #ive also posted another chapter of my fanfiction so go and read that #enjoltaire

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ddringo · 5 months

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We repeat what we don’t repair

Victor grasps Yuuri's cheeks and forces their eyes to lock. “It’s okay, Yuuri. It’s always scary the first time, but I won’t let anything happen to you. I promise.” He places a soft kiss across Yuuri’s lips. Feels him relax, just a little, under the touch.

“What if I fall?” Yuuri’s voice is small and hollow.

“I’ll catch you” Victor promises.

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Yuuri is the most important, amazing, passionated, incredible, lovable person in Victor's life. There’s just one problem... Yuuri refuses to skate.

Prompt: Childhood Trauma @badthingshappenbingo

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ambrossart · 13 days

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Just finished my reread of Paper Men and I just have to say I don’t think anything Patrick or Henry do from this point on could change my mind…. I love Vic and Evelyn. Starting this story, I fully expected to root for Henry or Patrick. Honestly, I never really cared about Vic before reading Paper Men. But the way you’ve created him and built his relationship with Evelyn and all the little things he does for her that she’s oblivious to…. I really hope one day his true feelings for her come to light. I know he was just a childhood crush to her and he messed up big time and hurt her, but let’s be honest, he’s much better for her than Henry and Patrick.

Okay, I selfishly love hearing that because I have such a soft spot for Victor and Evelyn. On paper, these two shouldn’t be compatible and in many ways they aren’t compatible (I mean, Evelyn literally gives Victor a headache when she’s around him), but they care about each other anyway. I love how Victor softens when he’s around her. I love that he secretly supports her (like by asking Christie Gibson to drop out of the student council race). It’s a nice departure from what Evelyn’s used to with Henry and now Patrick.

The only reason Vic and Evelyn aren’t an official pairing is because I don’t wanna force myself into that corner. The minute I add that to the description, there’s gonna be expectations. At minimum, people will expect a confession and a kiss, and I just can’t promise that, especially when romance isn’t even on the table for these two. Vic’s not trying to date Evelyn. Evelyn’s not trying to date Vic. They’re just trying to mend their friendship.

For now, let’s just leave that alone.

#seriously what's not to love about vic?#he's perfect #bowers gang #victor criss #it stephen king #it 2017 #answered asks #thanks for the ask!#it fanfiction #paper men #ambrossart

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comradesalazar · 8 months

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Chapter XV of Cut from a Different Cloth

Summary:

Victor and Rahim make a deal.

(Love, Victor Devil Wears Prada AU/crossover; Venji enemies/rivals to lovers/endgame; see chapter note for warnings. Proceed with caution.)

#love victor #venji #love victor fic #venji fic #love victor fanfic #venji fanfic #love victor fanfiction #venji fanfiction #devil wears prada

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midsummerevening · 2 years

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The summer of truths

The thirteenth chapter of this story is now posted.

NB: The chapter's name, "Land of marvels" is a direct reference to Jules Verne and is from the quote: "You will visit a Land of Marvels." from Twenty Thousand Leagues Under the Sea. I chose it because Nantes was Jules Verne's birthplace and he was the inspiration for a famous attraction in the city -- which is mentioned in the chapter!

Summary: Victor visits Nantes for the day with his family, some messages are exchanged and a surprising encounter makes Victor realize something.

The graphic below gives you Victor and his family's itinerary in the city throughout the day.

Link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/34988737/chapters/100780635

#love victor #lovevictor #victor salazar #benji campbell #victor x benji #benji x victor #venji #love victor fanfic #love victor fanfiction #love victor fic #venji fanfic #love victor hulu #venji is endgame

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onlyherefortheshowmances · 2 years

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I just posted the twelfth chapter of the March fic of the Venji Marching Band AU. It’s a longer chapter (7.8k words), and contains detailed smut near the end and sexual language throughout. This chapter gets pretty heavy (I may be accidentally make Benji’s dad almost as bad as he is in canon, oops.).

The new chapter can be found here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/39434895/chapters/99648357

The first chapter of this fic can be found here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/39434895/chapters/98695509

The original fic can be found here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/29409834/chapters/72250422

The March fic covers March 1 to April 5, 2020. This particular chapter is for Sunday, March 29, 2020.

#love victor #love victor fanfic #love victor fanfiction #venji #venji fanfic #venji fanfiction #marching band #marching band au

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ao3feed-lovevictor · 2 years

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by all_the_ships_are_sailing

The third follow up fic.

Words: 3771, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Series: Part 5 of Venji Marching Band AU

Fandoms: Love Victor (TV 2020)

Rating: Explicit

Warnings: Underage

Categories: M/M

Characters: Victor Salazar, Benjamin "Benji" Campbell, Benjamin "Benji" Campbell's Parents, Isabel Salazar, Armando Salazar (Love Victor), Pilar Salazar, Felix Weston, Lake Meriwether, Lucy (Love Victor), Mia Brooks, Andrew Spencer, Original Characters

Relationships: Benjamin "Benji" Campbell/Victor Salazar, Pilar Salazar/Felix Weston, Lake Meriwether/Lucy, Mia Brooks/Andrew Spencer

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Marching Band, Marching Band, High School

#love victor fanfiction #love victor fanfic #love victor #fanfic #ao3feed

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footballfanficwriter · 1 month

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Absent Father

Summary:where the reader is about to give birth and Jude is not home

"When are you going to be back?" I ask as I watch him pack his bag

"In a couple of months Love" he says

"Oh"

"But don't worry it'll be over before we know it"

"Can't you pull out of the squad and say you've got an injury or something"

"You know I can't do that, they'll examine my body to check my story out"

I sigh

"Hey, it's not that bad, we'll call eachother and face time, we're gonna be ok"

"You sound like you're trying to convince yourself"

"I'm trying to convince the both of us"

"Jude you know that I'm due any day now right"

"I know"

"And you won't be there by my side holding my hand or getting to witness the birth of your child" I say trying to hold back my tears

"I know baby, and I'm sorry"

"Sometimes I wish you were Just Jude Bellingham, not Jude Bellingham the Real Madrid and England Star

He stops packing and looks at me

"Sometimes I wish that as well darling, but that's not how it is"

"Yeah, I'm going to the kitchen to make a snack"

"Ok"

I leave the room and walk to the kitchen to make something to eat

As I'm busy I hear Jude come down the stairs with his bag

He places it down and walks up to me and towers over me, places a kiss on my forehead and bends down to kiss my belly

"I have to go" he says as he stands up

I come in for a hug and hug him very tightly as if by doing so I can just pause time and stop it from moving

He hugs me tightly as well indicating he doesn't wanna let go

As we're hugging the tears start coming out and I don't even try to fight them this time, i'm silently crying, and pretty sure my tears have now stained his shirt

He pulls away, looks me in the eyes and wipes the tears from my face

"I love you"

He kisses my forehead one more time walks to his bag and heads for the door where his driver waits for him

A week later:

I'm lying on the sofa watching a series that I'm not really paying attention to, all I'm thinking about is how scared I am and how I won't have anyone in the delivery room with me, and the person that I do want to be there is in another country

It's been difficult to talk and Face time with Jude, because he's either very busy or he's too tired to talk, if he's not training, he's doing press, if it's not press it's games, if it's not games he's out with his teammates, there's just always something happening and it makes me wonder if he's trying to avoid me, because if he wasn't ignoring me then he would at least make the time to try and talk to me, it's always me reaching out and calling him but he never does the same

The only interactions we have nowadays is when he posts something and I like and comment under his post and he'll just reply to my comment

I honestly don't know what to do but I just keep telling myself that he's busy and can't talk

I stand up and walk upstairs to get my phone to check if I've gotten any call from Jude

The minute I grab my phone from my bed there's a warm liquid that I feel on my legs

I look down and see water on the floor

I start freaking out a bit but then compose myself and walk to my wardrobe to grab my bag

And walk downstairs and get into the car and start driving to the hospital

When I arrive at the hospital I ask the receptionist for my doctor, but she tells me that in order to see her I have to have an appointment

"Lady listen to me, I'm a Pregnant Woman that's about to give birth, are you really gonna tell me to wait to see my Doctor?"

"I'm sorry I was not aware, I'll go get her"

She walks down a passage and makes a left knocking on a door, 2 minutes later she returns with Doctor Ashley Johnson

"Mrs. Bellingham, what are you doing here?, Where's is your Husband?"

"On a business Trip" I say breathing heavily

"Can someone get this woman a wheelchair?"

A few minutes later I'm in a hospital gown and walking around my hospital room trying to Dilate myself enough to give birth to this baby and Doctor Johnson holding my hand

"So where is your husband?"

"He's away, on a Business trip"

"Your Mother?"

"We don't really get along, let's just say she's not happy with the decisions I made in my life"

"Like?"

"Marring my Husband"

"What's wrong with him?"

"Nothing, she just didn't want me to marry someone who is from a different country number one and from a different culture"

"Your mother in law?"

"She moved back to England to be with my Father in law and brother in law"

"Siblings?"

"They are all married and even if I were to call them they are too far away"

"So I guess it's just you and me then" she says

I nod my head realizing that no one from my family is actually coming

"Yep"

After 10 hours of walking around and trying to Dilate Doctor Johnson informs me that I'm ready to give birth

She calls the rest of her team to come and assist and after two hours

A baby Boy is born

My body is tired and I just feel absolutely exhausted

"Mrs. Bellingham, we're going to clean your baby boy, you just get some rest we'll bring him right back"

"Ok" I say falling asleep

The next day I wake up feeling much better than the previous day, I turn my head to see my baby sleeping peacefully and Doctor Johnson walks into the room

"Hi, how are we doing in here?"

"We're ok, he's asleep"

"Have you spoken to your family yet?"

"No, I haven't, I'll wait for him to wake up first, then I'll make calls"

"And a name, have you decided on a name yet?"

"No I wanna call my husband first then we'll discuss it"

"Ok"

Doctor Johnson stays with me for some time until the baby wakes up

"I'll leave you to it then"

"Thank you"

I grab my phone and the first people I call are my Four sisters

They all get excited and squeal as they see the baby for the first time

"What's his name?" One of them ask

"I don't know, I'm gonna call Jude and we'll talk about it"

"Aww, he's so cute"

"Thank you"

"Congratulations sis, we're so proud of you, we wish we could be there"

I shed some tears and tell them it's fine and that we'll all meet up eventually

The next person I call is Denise.

"Hello love"

"Hi Mom, you alright?"

"Yeah, how are you"

"Oh we're fine, but I have something to show you"

I slightly turn the phone to Show her the baby and she looks in shock

"Mark, Jobe come look"

After some time Mark and Jobe appear on the screen

"Oh God he's so adorable"

"Are you ok though love"

"Yeah, I will be" I say

"What's his name?"

"I still need to call Jude, then we'll discuss it, and then we'll let everyone know

"Ok love, take care of yourself ok"

"Ok"

"We love you"

"Love you too"

The next person I call is Jude, hoping he'll pick up but he doesn't instead he sends a text

Hubby: what's up?

Me: can you call, it's important

Hubby: what is it?

Me: Jude can you pls just answer your phone it's really important

Hubby: just text me, I'm busy rn

Me: with what?

Hubby: With Trent, Madders and Hendo

Me: so you can't just excuse yourself for some time, I'm telling you that this is important why are you being difficult?"

Hubby: no actually I can't excuse myself, we're playing UNO, and I'm losing like hell

Me: oh so you would rather play a game of UNO than to hear what I have to say?

Hubby: just text it to me, I'm sure it's not a big deal

Me: if you consider the fact that you have a son not important then Yeah, it's not important

Hubby: what 🤯 are you being serious, you game birth?

Me: yeah but don't let me stop you from your game, it's most definitely more important than the birth of your son

Hubby ❤

Calling...

I decline the call

Hubby: babe answer the phone

Me: The baby is asleep, I'll call you when he wakes up, if I answer it'll wake him up

Hubby: oh c'mon don't be like that

Me: I'll call you later, get back to your game

I place my phone next to me and admire my newly born baby boy who is fully awake

"Hey Babe, welcome to the world, I'm gonna love you so much more than anything in the world"

He only giggles and cuddles further into my arms and it makes me Coo

2 months later:

Today is the day Jude comes back and to say I'm excited is an understatement we never had the discussion of the Baby's name so I just decided it Myself

And I Decided on Jamie

Ever since Jamie's birth Jude has been calling a lot more often and calling to check on us every day, which is good because then he won't miss that many Moments

Jamie is growing so fast it feels like it was just yesterday when it was just the two of us cuddling in a hospital bed, now he can crawl

Jude should be landing in a few hours and Jamie and I are preparing something to have for dinner, hopefully Jude will be here in time for dinner

Jamie however is on top of the counter grabbing things and putting them in his mouth while I prepare dinner

After making dinner, I get Jamie cleaned up and into his pajamas

And I carry him downstairs where we'll sit and wait for Jude

I'm so excited because we're about to have our first dinner as a family also adding the fact that I haven't seen Jude in almost three months

20:00( 8pm)

Jamie and I are sitting in the dinning room waiting for Jude to come home

21:00( 9pm)

Jamie has fallen asleep on my chest

22:00 ( 10pm)

Jamie is now asleep in this crib and I'm waiting for Jude while doing the dishes and packing away all the table decor that I've put out

23:00 (11:00 pm)

Fast asleep in bed

00:00 ( 12:00pm)

01:00 am

The door to the house opens and I hear Jude walk up the stairs and towards our room, the door opens and I hear him sigh and take his clothes off leaving him in his trunks

He gets into bed and kisses my shoulder

"Hello my love" he says in a husky voice

"I know you're awake, you're a light sleeper, I know you heard me come in"

I shrug him off and try to make myself comfortable on the bed

"What's wrong, are you not going to greet back"

"Hi"

"Is that all I get?"

"Yeah"

"Why are you upset i haven't seen you in 2 months and the first time I come back you give me a cold shoulder?"

"Exactly we haven't seen eachother in 2 months, and you couldn't even get home on time for dinner like you promised"

"Oh, you know I thought I told you that I was gonna be late, because Trent wanted to party for a bit before we were all headed home because we wouldn't see eachother in a long time"

"Does Trent have a two month old baby boy who he hasn't seen ever since his birth and a wife who gave birth on her own waiting for him at home?"

"No"

"Do you?"

"Yes"

"So please explain to me because I must be losing my mind, you had two months, two months with these people "your sheriffs" to laugh and share moments, yet your two month old son has not even shared a single moment with you and you still put your teammates before him to make moments with them and you don't even have one with your son"

He is quiet

"So is it wrong for me to assume that from now on your international teammates and club teammates will forever be the first choice no matter what?"

"No babe, you and James are the most important thing in my life and will forever be my first"

"I can't even look at you right now"

"You were not there when he was born, when we were suppose to name him , i ended up naming him myself because I had to put something on the birth certificate, you weren't there when he started crawling and now you said the wrong name yet he's your son"

"Is his name not James?"

"If you had answered your phone on that day we would have named him together" I say getting out of bed and grabbing my gown

"And his name is Jamie" I say walking out of the room and walking to Jamie's room to sleep there

The next morning I'm woken up by Jamie's cries

I walk to him and pick him out of his crib and walk to the Kitchen to find Jude making Breakfast

"Morning babe"

"What are you doing?"

"Making breakfast, I'm making French toast, still your favorite right?"

"Yeah"

"Great, have a seat it'll be ready in just a few minutes"

Jamie lays his head on my shoulder as he looks at Jude almost as if he's asking who is the guy in our Kitchen making food

He's uncomfortable

"Hey it's ok, that's your dad" I whisper into his ear and kiss his head

I walk to the dinning table and put Jamie on my lap where he stares at me and shows his gums that are without teeth

I smile down at him and shower him with kisses and he giggles

In that moment Jude walks to us and almost immediately Jamie's head goes on my chest and he stops giggling

"Here you are"

"Thanks" I say

He takes a seat across me and looks at Jamie and sends him a small wave, but it only makes Jamie force himself further into my chest

Jude gives me a sad look and I look back at him

He clears his throat and breaks the uncomfortable silence

"So how have you been?"

"Fine, yeah I've been fine, you?"

"Yep same just really tired"

"Yeah"

The awkward silence is among us again and we eat in silence

"Fuck" he says under his breath

"How much have I missed?" He asks

"A lot more than you can imagine" I reply

"Baby, I am so sorry, when you said that I missed so much I didn't know you meant it like that to the point where my own son doesn't recognize me"

"Yeah"

"How can I make up for it?"

"I wouldn't know either Jude, Jamie is a baby, he doesn't comprehend what's happening, it not like you can just throw the words I'm sorry to him and he'll forgive you just like that"

"You're not helping, I'm asking for solutions not for you to make me feel worse than I already do"

"Well you wouldn't be feeling like this if you had been there number 1, if you had answered your phone so we could name him together and if you had made more time to talk to us"

"I called you every day"

"Did you call me when I was a week from giving birth, huh, when our only interaction would be on Social media where I was liking pictures and commenting and you were liking or replying to my comments"

"I called you guys every day, to find out how you were doing"

"For five minutes, you can't really say anything in five minutes"

"I was tired"

"But you were never too tired to go out with your teammates, right?, all that time you spent with them, could have been used to get to know your son, given how difficult it was to be there for him when he was born"

"So what, you wanted me to stay in my hotel room and be left out while everyone was enjoying themselves?"

"If you couldn't do it for me then you could have at least done it for Jamie, you were an absent father, and it's not my fault that after I tried to get you involved in his life and you refused and now he doesn't even know you"

He's quiet and just continues eating his food

After having breakfast Jamie and i walk to the Kitchen and i get started on the dishes while He sits next me with his favorite chew toy that keeps him behaving

Jude walks in

"Let me take him" he says

He goes to pick Jamie up and Jamie starts crying

I immediately leave the dishes and walk to them

"Here take over the dishes, I'll take him

"No it's fine, he'll be fine"

"No Jude let go of him, I need to feed him he hasn't been fed yet"

He let's go of Jamie and I walk to his room to feed him

After 2 hours Jamie falls asleep for his afternoon nap

And I walk to the living room to watch some TV only to find Jude watching TV

I take a seat and Jude pauses his show

"Is he ok?"

"Yeah, he's asleep"

"That's good"

"Mhm"

"Y/n, I'm sorry, I know that the past 2 months have not been easy for you and that you were scared when you had to give birth to Jamie, because I wasn't there for you both"

"It's fine, you were working"

"Yeah but that's not an excuse, I feel horrible, I feel like I'll never get to have a relationship with my son if things go on like this"

"Don't say that Jude, Jamie will get use to you, eventually, maybe not tomorrow or next week, but eventually"

"You were right, if I made the time then we wouldn't be here right now having this conversation"

"True, but you made a mistake and you are rectifying it, now you know what to do and what not to next time"

He smiles at me and I return the smile

"Thank you"

"You're welcome"

He scoots closer to me and places his arm around my shoulder and I lay my head on his

"I've missed you so much"

"I've missed you as well"

"Can you believe it, we're actually Parents now"

"Right, times like these are gonna be fewer, where it's just the two of us bringe watching Movies and series"

"That's true, we're gonna be so occupied, it's crazy"

"Yep"

"I love you"

"I love you too"

He kisses my forehead and unpause the show he was watching.

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