#might do edits later (for example I'm not quite happy with how you can look into those hairs at the back) but that

[starsmuserainbow]

This was, like, a huge effort that took me forever, so while I told myself I'm only gonna share more pictures from that charcreator game once I have all my muses in it, have another outside of that:

working on him was honestly so. much. effort. I found some chars with roughly fitting features in databases, so I could go from there - I probably would have never done him if not for that, since my own attempt of creating anything alike his body type failed very very fast and horribly.

#✫ Out of Clurblopf ✫ | OOC #✫ All 6000 Verses ✫ | Creative Things #he took me so so so much time ugh #i'm so exhausted but at least I'm done at least with the first do of him #might do edits later (for example I'm not quite happy with how you can look into those hairs at the back) but that #is a problem for future me #yes yes I know hands look weird in this pose but I didn't wanna use the default pose and finding sth fitting to him is difficult #all his beard and stuff vanishes in the outfit in a pose like this too but yeah

[lightlycareless]

Chapter 33 - thoughts.

Hello everyone!! I'm here... again... after disappearing for like 2 weeks lol.

Allot of things happened, between my birthday, surprise visits, me getting sick, me getting sick again, and con's... yeah, I was quite busy (and good thing I postponed the next update lol am I jinxing myself tho?) but I didn't forget writing them notes!!!

I'm sorry it took a while for me to post them, but they're finally here! They're quite short since there isn't much for me to expand on this chapter :> (which you can find over here.... hehe) but I still hope you find them interesting!

Per usual, this post has spoilers so I recommend reading the chapter first, unless you want to get spoilers with no context lol. Also, this is briefly, (mainly not) proofread so I apologize for any mistakes 😭

Now, without any further ado, here are the notes!

As some chapters in the past, I had some issues figuring out what I wanted for an introduction.

I already knew what points I wanted to cover, but there are moments where I have issues connecting those points, so after a while thinking about it, I finally decided to go with the one thing I had talked about in the past, but never really show, that being: Y/N’s letters to Hinata!

Now, it goes without saying that these letters had to be treated carefully since Y/N is meant to be locked away from the world and all that stuff. So, there wasn’t much to be written in that sense, Y/N wouldn’t go ahead to literally write down all of the things she had gone through while on the estate.

Of course, that soon changed when she began to feel some kind of cathartic release while writing them, as well as a feigned sensation that she was actually speaking to Hinata.

 Going back to those letters after I was done writing them was bittersweet. After knowing all that happened all I could think of is “NO, THAT’S NOT TRUE AT ALL!!” 😭😭😭 (on the fabricated ones right) and the way that Y/N was trying so hard to act as if she was living a normal life, like she was contacting her sister as she always did because they couldn’t meet due to her job… ☹ It’s nothing but a lie, a longing for a happy life, in a happy marriage, maybe where Naoya wasn’t her husband but instead anyone else lol.

Ugh, he’s a terrible, poor excuse for a human being. I’m excited for next chapter 😊

Anyways, I added a few details I thought would fit Y/N’s personality, how she would normally “text”, for example, kaomoji’s. It might be a bit… redundant I guess, but it’s the small things that help remind me she’s just 18, super young and already having gone through all this. (Also the first letter made me think that maybe I’m being too serious/dramatic with certain conversations, you know? Like chill, that’s your sister you’re talking/writing to lol)

My favorite letter would have to be the “I hate Naoya” one, inspired by a segment found in the Twilight saga, specifically on New Moon, right after Edward leaves Bella and there’s just chapters that only October, November, that kind of stuff. At one point I was tempted to upload a chapter that only said “I hate Naoya” over and over again and call it a day 😂 (I would’ve posted the rest of the chapter immediately after, but damn … I just might do that later on)

When doing the final editing on the ao3 page, just to check how the chapter was going to look published, I was very surprised to see that segment wasn’t very long… I ended up extending a few “I hate Naoya’s” just because, but I still wasn’t satisfied, considering it was one whole page on my google doc, but I think it still got the point across lol.

From there, the other thing that I wanted to show (and the one that seems to have yall divided 🤭) is Naoaki! And how their dynamic has changed. The staff and Ranta have stated that the two (mostly Naoaki tho) had become a bit bolder with their interactions, and I wanted to show just what they were doing for them to come to that conclusion—cause we’ve seen how they be acting inside closed doors AMIRITE? AAHHAHA

This part was particularly… well, I don’t know if hard is the right word, but I was heavily debating whether to write it in or not because, (I think I stated this before) I don’t want to cross certain lines with the two just yet. This is a Naoya/Reader fic at the end of the day, and reader being with someone else that’s not of the main pairing is…. Well, idk how to say it, a trope that if not handled carefully might sour the story for me lol.

Ahhh, I still want the harem experience though 😂 I can’t seem to understand myself. We’ll see.

My initial notes portrayed Naoaki to be a bit more insistent on the… you know, implications given throughout the whole the grape feeding thing. I supposed it made sense he’d want something more since the two had been going at it for a while, however, I do not think he would’ve been that adamant after her initial rejection.

Sure, he’s been a bit more comfortable with her as days went by and there’s many things that already happened between the two to build a stronger trust, but this specific desire might be a bit too much in this context, so he respected her decision and stopped insisting.

Also, let’s be real, Y/N has too much in her mind to go through with it. She might think of it, cause she’s human at the end of the day and who doesn’t like being doted by a nice, kind and handsome person???, but all that Naoya has done to her is still taking a toll on her.

I haven’t explored much about this topic, but most sexual acts disgust her at this point—it brings her back to the moments she was absolutely miserable with him. So yeah, at least for now, we can rest knowing Naoaki and Y/N are occupied thinking of other things (for now, for now mwahahah)

From there, Mariya’s secret makes its return. It’s here that I realized this is probably the most Mariya has spoken of her relationship with anyone outside her parents (More on that later) thus… it’s only natural that someone would overhear of it eventually.

All things considered, perhaps Hitomi being the one to hear about this wasn’t as bad as literally anyone else, but it’s the emotional value of their connection that worries her!! Hitomi is very… strict when it comes to following the rules, looking up to Mariya as a role model because of such thing—she wishes to have her work ethic, her determination… And Mariya knows that. It’s why she feared telling anyone from her close coworkers to begin with.

Haruko would be somewhat ok with her having a relationship with a fellow employee, after overcoming her surprise of course, since she never, ever, imagined Mariya would break the rules lol. At the end, I imagine both sisters would be very supportive of her, just… not right away.

I find it funny how Hitomi was quick to become suspicious of Mariya as soon as Tatsuro was mentioned. It’s not the first time she’s heard her talk of a man, but rather… her use a tone that would be comparable to excitement. Now THAT’S suspicious.

But she’s unable to confront her since there really isn’t evidence of anything, it’s all in her mind right now. Also, Mariya isn’t known for being a so… yeah, still, very funny indeed. What do you think? Think she’s going to find out who Tatsuro is to Mariya? Or will that remain a secret 👀? (I don’t want Hitomi to know… I fear the reaction she’ll have :’) I actually wanted to develop more that whole scenario in this chapter, but it was getting a bit too long so I decided to postpone it ahaha)

Moving to something happier, Hitomi preparing Y/N a gift because she’s super thankful of her sweets?! Ajkajkgajkjga Her and her sister really couldn’t get any sweeter…. I want them to be happy, just go with Hinata and leave all this shit behind. 😭

Aw man, now I want to write something with all of them together, explore what kind of dynamics they would have and all that. (Well, I do have some pending one-shots… so who knows?)

Honestly these scenes are just excuses for me to live my slice-of-life, fluff fantasy in this nightmare I have written lol.

Now lastly, but not least… the mystery that plagued the last chapter… what the hell was Naoya doing the moment he briefly left Y/N on the record store? We only see him shove something in his pocket, but what is it?

Well, now it’s finally revealed… the thing he was hiding in his pocket was… a receipt! For the things that eventually got delivered to her :> Guess Naoya did pay attention to what Y/N was saying after all, although there’s another motive behind those gifts that will be revealed in the future. Oof, excited for what’s to come.

Y/N’s reaction regarding the discs was something I was the one thing I knew had to be in the chapter, if anything, all was written around that particular detail, there’s no doubt about that.

The way her reaction happened was the only way I envisioned it going down honestly 😂 blatant anger seemed to be… a bit too on the nose I guess, but if you think about it horror sometimes starts from there— So yeah, I couldn’t see her reacting any other way: Naoya has been nothing but piece of trash since they got married, and suddenly he cares for her and what she has to say? Naaahhhh.

It felt like a mockery to her, a way for him to taint whatever good memories she had of her family, so yeah. Don’t get me wrong, I’m sad that she’s unable to react any other way 😣 wishing she wouldn’t have to get emotionally exhausted all the time, but in a place where she’s constantly attacked by everyone around her, and without the appropriate guidance to deal with her emotions, a completely different environment to the one she grew in… yeah, Y/N’s doing the best she can I guess.

Y/N’s decision (or more like approval via Mariya) regarding the relocation of the discs is one we’ll see further developed immediately in the next chapter, how it will affect her relationship with Naoya, as well as what he was doing during these days they didn’t speak to one another!

I’m really excited to post the next chapter, it’s one that I’ve been literally dreaming about!! I just hope I’ll be able to deliver. Agajkgvjkagja!!!!

Anyways, these are the notes I have for this chapter! They’re quite short, since it was straightforward and settled down some points that will affect the future of the story and I don’t think there is much for me to say outside what inspired me, but if there’s something I missed out on please let me know! I’ll do the best of my ability to respond ❤️

As always, thank you so much for coming back for another update! I’m eternally grateful for all of your support 😭❤️ I hope you have a wonderful week, take care, and hope to see you soon!!!

#thought series: first it hurts—

[pebblysand]

🎉⏳!

🎉 What leads you to consider a fic a success?

wow. what a difficult and interesting one. thanks for asking! i think, for me, ultimately, i'll consider a fic a success if i can re-read it a year down the line and without cringing. that's my standard. it might sound pretty low, but if a year later i'm like, 'yeah, this makes sense and i like it/would read it,' then that's a huge success in my book. i get very critical of my own work sometimes, so to me, that's very valuable.

i know a lot of people might base their measure of success on some sort of metric (kudos, hits, etc.) but as i said on the pod a few weeks ago, being someone who started writing in really small fandoms where getting just one comment is already a huge win, i find it very hard to measure fic metrics on HP, because what others might perceive as "bad" or "not enough" already feels very huge to me. i will always remember when castles got twenty subs or something and i saw that and was super baffled, thought to myself: wow, that's more people than i could fit in my flat if we all wanted to have a party. i also think the fics that i like best are not necessarily the ones that get the most attention (hinny, for example, is mathematically more mainstream than, say, deamus or bill/fleur, so my hinny fics will always get more attention, regardless of their quality) so ultimately, metrics aren't something i pay attention to much. if i did, i suppose i'd be writing dramione soulmates au-s to appeal to the people, not super niche content about seamus finnigan haha.

i'm aware that it may sound a tad self-centered to only base my assessment of my success on my own feelings, for which i apologise, but i feel like the metrics i'm given aren't ones i feel are particularly relevant to anything. though, i will say, i did randomly notice recently that castles actually ranks quite high on the sub-genre of post-war, canon-compliant fics on ao3 in terms of kudos and bookmarks (just checked again, 26th for kudos, and 13th for bookmarks), which did make me quite happy. not life-changing happy, but it was a nice thing to find out, you know?

lastly, i think something that i also consider a success is if i get any comments where people tell me they liked it, or why they did. more specifically, if you've read my fics, you'll know that my work touches on a lot of very sensitive topics, such as ptsd, sexual assault, etc. when i get positive comments about these things, or sometimes very personal messages from people telling me writing about these things helped them cope with/understand their own realities better, that's honestly more than i could ever hope for. i can't even find words to describe that feeling. it's not success, it's something better. connecting with people and making people feel things is the reason why a lot of us write (certainly why i write), and when it works? it's the best feeling in the world.

but, tldr: i guess my measure of success is more based on subjective elements (e.g. my own assessment or individual comments from people telling they related to my stories) than any objective metric.

⌛ How long does it take you to write a fic, or a chapter?

this is hard to answer at the moment, but i'm hoping i'll have better data in a while as i've just recently started tracking my writing time to assess this more precisely. for anything in the 3,000/4,000 words range (or lower), you can generally assume i probably wrote those over a weekend, so maybe, idk, 12 hours? i tend to edit one-shots less than i do chapters/longer works, so even for longer one-shots like slipped, we're probably looking at maybe 20/30 hours?

for castles chapters (or something substantial like the fault in faulty manufacturing which is a one-shot, but over 27k) i would say, writing time itself is probably somewhere between 50 and 100 hours, depending on how much writer's block i get, lol. then editing, probably another hundred? so like, probably between 150 and 250 hours total. so, between 4 and 7 weeks at 40 hours a week, if this was my full-time job, which it's not.

is it worth it? honestly i don't know. is my content better than that of someone who doesn't even spend half this time? i also don't know. whenever i think about it, it makes me a bit depressed haha. but it is the way i function lol :/

thanks again for the questions ❤️. these are lovely

(and for everyone else who sent some in, i'll do them tomorrow and queue them up for the next few days 🥰)

#asked and answered

[tomsmusictaste]

recent twitter refugee here, I'm kinda still gettin the hang of this place and still looking for people to talk to about any kinda rock music. you seem to have good taste so if you could give me some pointers that'd be ideal 🤘 tysm

Hello! Well first of all welcome, happy to have you here!! 😸🤘

Pointers eh? 🧐 Well, as well as following blogs you can follow specific tags (you should get the option to do that whenever you use the search function)

So then you’ll get the occasional post related to that popping up on your dashboard, regardless of whether you follow the op

Also when you’re on the homepage there’s a tab called ‘your tags’ which you can filter with as many or as few of your followed tags as you like

• Tag Tips: It can also be useful to use more specific tags if you’re searching for a particular artist, especially lesser known ones. Quite often you’ll see a post for a band, but it’s tags will include several similar bands, which is an algorithm thing I suppose, but it can make it quite hard to find content about specific artists — I personally make a point not to do this, I always only tag with the band or bands that are related to the post, but it does seem to be a fairly common practice :/ BUT! Here’s how to get around that problem:

Let’s say you want to see some posts about Seaway, instead of typing Seaway into the search bar (and being met with several Neck Deep posts that happen to have the Seaway tag on them) it’s better to search ‘Ryan Locke,’ (or any other member of the band) or ‘Seaway Lyrics,’ or in this particular case where the band has their own cute nickname then ‘Seaboiz’ — then you’re more likely to see posts that are actually about the bands you’re searching for

Oh and if you’re on the search page, swapping between the ‘Top’ and ‘Latest’ tabs can be a good way to find new stuff 👍

• Follow Freely. That said, in my experience, following blogs is better than following tags — if you keep seeing certain usernames around the content you like, if you see me or any other blogs you follow rb-ing from the same person a lot, then check out that blog! Maybe reblog some of their stuff, give them a follow — and hey, if it turns out they don’t post quite what you thought they might, it’s okay to unfollow later. Or if they post a mix of stuff you like and stuff you really don’t like, the Tumblr settings allow you to block certain tags - then you can follow whoever and just get the good stuff (assuming it’s tagged properly, which it sometimes isn’t, but alas, ‘tis a risk we must take)

• Reblogs Rule! Speaking of reblogging, reblog. The reblog feature is what this site is built around, a scrapbook in which we all just share stuff we like for our followers to see. If you see stuff you like reblog it, that’s what helps the community thrive. You may also find yourself on a blog that has been inactive for many years but has some older content that you like. You absolutely can and should reblog that content. Timestamps don’t matter over here, if you like it then share it, regardless of when it was originally posted or if the op is still active 🤘

And speaking of reblogging, when you do you’ll have the option to add tags – now you can simply add tags for search purposes; reblogging a post about Fall Out Boy? Tag it with #Fall Out Boy and then when you search that tag on your blog, you’ll be able to see that post again — but you also have free reign to put whatever you want in the tags, almost like a ‘soft comment’ a little bit of commentary regarding your instant reaction to the post, such as #omg I forgot about this song or #hell yes this bands rules or #whoa this edit looks super cool for example, but you can really write anything, and that can give the person you reblogged from a bit more insight into your thoughts and feelings regarding the artist or the post in question

• ‘Laundry Listing.’ Oh, and I just thought- it’s not as common nowadays, but a little while ago you’d fairly often see people post something along the lines of ‘Hey I’m looking for other people that are also into [insert laundry list of bands] like/reblog if any apply’ — so it could be worthwhile making a post like that, or if you find a post like that then reblogging and tagging it with the ones that do apply

• And last but not least, in fact perhaps the most important tip of all I can give you is this:

“Build It And They Will Come”

Basically, if you yourself post* about certain bands or artists, more often that not you’ll tend to find fans will gravitate towards you and follow you/reblog your stuff. In my experience, this is always felt like the best way to find like-minded fans of certain artists

*and I say post, but this can include reblogged posts from other people as well as your own posts

I mean, part of the whole reason I made this blog in the first place was I could barely find any content about some of my favourite bands (Every Avenue, The Downtown Fiction, The Academy Is…) so I thought ‘fuck it, I’ll make it myself’ — and that’s what I did. People started following me, I followed some of them back, and now here we are

So there you go! This is all just based off of my own experience here, and sorry if this was a bit of an info overload or if you already knew some of it, but still, those are the main tips I can think of, I hope any or all of this helps, and I hope your twitter refugee journey goes smoothly! Thanks for the ask!🤘🖤😸

Tl;dr - frequent reblogs and follows are good, post about what you like and you’ll tend to find people who post what you like as well 🖤

#asks #anon #pop-punk #rock #rock and roll #punk rock #thanks for the ask!

[lovethisletters]

Poly MC! hc for the: Demon Brothers!

This is my first time writing anything about poly relationships! So I'm a bit nervous! I took the time to do a bit of research about the subject...however I still have a lot to learn; if you find anything that might be offensive please let me know! Just know I didn't do it with any ill intentions and I'll make sure to correct my mistakes!

Also I didn't knew if you refered to a poly MC who is in a relationship with all of the brothers or how each individual brother would react to MC coming out as poly to them and later starting a poly relationship and how they behave in said relationship...so I did the latter bc I found it to be a bit more easy to write and the first option would have been way too long and I was worried it might come off as boring because of it :c (but maybe I'll try to edit it and then upload it...some day...idk)

so...here it is!

Keys: MC = your main character name

Summary: MC comes out as poly to the Demon Brothers and how they behave in a poly relationship!

Additional notes: MC is gender neutral!

TW: small mentions or implications of jealous/possessive behavior (they're very minimal, but still...just in case)

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Lucifer

Lucifer is probably the one you're the most nervous to talk to.

But when you finally find the courage to do so it goes...to put it mildly, a bit... weird.

He stares blankly at you like you just said to him that water is a liquid or something, he's not very...responsive.

His reaction might come off as rude, considering you spend all this time trying to figure out the "best" way to come out and talk about the possibility of starting a poly relationship.

But the reason why he's not talking much is because he's trying to avoid saying anything he might regret later, you see... he's trying to process his own feelings towards the matter.

Lucifer is someone who has lived for a long, looooooong time, so it's more likely than not that he's already experienced being in a poly relationship.

thing is...such relationship was more experimentation rather than something serious.

And now he has you...someone for who he'll be willing to die for...

He won't say it but deep down he feels like his pride has been bruised.

He just doesn't want to "share" you, you're his and his alone!

But when he looks up at you, and see just how nervous you are, waiting patiently for any kind of reaction from him.

He realizes he's thinking of you as an object and not a person and mentally kicks himself in the face for it.

Lucifer reaches for your hand and offers you a small smile.

After a long conversation where you two express your own desires and worries, you two agree and decide to give it a try.

At first... I'm not gonna lie...it would be quite... difficult...

The man is possessive and struggles to see you giving any kind of affection to any of his brothers.

However I think he genuinely wants this to work, he wants to see you happy and knows that just because you also love his brothers doesn't mean you love him any less.

So he'll sit down and talk to you whenever he feels jealous, he knows communication is key and it honestly makes him feel a bit better.

With time Lucifer comes to accept it; He loves you and he loves his brothers and it makes him happy that they all can share such bond with you.

Mammon

I think he's the one who'll have a harder time adapting to a poly relationship.

I'll even go as far to say Lucifer's jealousy pales in comparison to Mammon's and I think this is due to his low self-esteem.

He won't accept it but he's jealous af when he sees you "getting cozy" with any of his brothers.

He'll even interrupt the moment by placing himself in the middle of whoever you were getting close to or think about some lame excuse to take you away.

This makes things more difficult and tense for everyone, so if Mammon continues his shenanigans expect a LOT more arguing from the brothers...(yes...more than normal...)

You'll have to sit him down and talk to him about his insecurities.

The first times he won't be very open with you, I think he might even get a bit angry if you even imply he's jealous and act all offended and walk out of the room.

Surprisingly the one who makes him understand how toxic he's being and how much this affects you is Asmo!

He'll have a serious talk with him, and just the fact of seeing his often bubbly and cheerful young bro being all serious is enough for Mammon to realize that what he's been doing and how he's been acting hurts you and his brothers.

He'll apologize...the Mammon way...

But ultimately he now makes an effort to respect whenever you're close to one of his brothers.

Just like Lucifer. Mammon will come to accept you love him and his brothers all the same.

He'll sometimes even suggest places you all can go together for a date.

Please, be patient with the avatar of greed with time he will come to accept that love exist in more than one way or form.

Leviathan

Surprisingly, unlike his older brothers, your favorite shut-in-otaku has an easier time adapting to a poly relationship.

Easier, however does not mean problems are inexistent...

He has a low self-esteem and sometimes might get the feeling that you're ""picking favorites""

However he won't tell you anything about it, and he'll just try to pretend like nothing is wrong.

Fortunately for you, Levi is quite easy to read so you immediately notice whenever he's feeling sad.

But all you have to do is have a little gaming session with him, and as the two of you "game" the night away he'll eventually open up to you about whatever is bothering him.

All it takes is a little reassurance and saying "I love you" to the avatar of envy from time to time and he'll be all good with you showing affection to the rest of his brothers.

Satan

Uhhhh...this is a tricky one...

You see...Satan is probably the second brother you came out to and perhaps you didn't even realized that you did because it just happened so natural.

The two of you were talking and it just slipped out of your mouth and he was like "hahaha, right?" And continued the conversation as normal.

He genuinely doesn't care, (don't get me wrong I don't mean that in a bad way) but all he knows is that he loves you and he wants you to be happy, and if expanding the love that the two of you have to his brothers makes you happy, then so be it!

However... remember I said this was tricky?

Satan has no issue with you being affectionate with his brothers...all of them except for Lucifer...

When he sees you getting close to Lucifer he won't say anything, he won't make a scene or a passive-agressive remark, he'll just excuse himself and exit the room. (Neither he will confront you about it later when the two of you are alone)He won't say anything at all; he'll just stay silent and pretend like nothing is wrong.

However you'll be able to notice Satan's true feelings whenever Lucifer has a small present or gesture with you.

Oh? Lucifer gifted you a $300,000 coat? Well, Satan will give you another coat but this one is $600,000.

Lucifer treated you to dinner at ristorante six? Well, darling... guess what? Satan will reserve the entire building just for you!

At some point he will notice how bad this makes you feel, since he's turning a relationship into a competition and that's no good...

He'll eventually take a step back and realize how childish he's being, how his behavior hurts your feelings and might have even made you feel guilty or responsible for his beef with his older brother.

Before you even decide to talk to him about it, he already knows what you're trying to say, so he'll be the one to sit you down and apologize for his wrongdoings.

You're someone who he values dearly and all that he wants is for you to be happy, so he'll be willing to make the effort to get along or at least be a little more tolerant of Lucifer.

There might be times where they still fight and stop talking to each other for long periods of time, but the two of them will take the time to let you know that this has nothing to do with you and that there's no reason for you tu feel guilty.

Because if there's something in wich both, the avatar of pride and wrath agree in... Is in how much they love you.

Asmodeus

Asmodeus (definitely) was the first one to know about you being polyamorous.

He probably knew before you even said anything, let's be honest here...

He's probably the one who you're more comfortable talking about it.

The brothers accept you, yes...but Asmo understands you!

He knows that the world can be quite cruel to people who love differently to what our society stablish as "normal".

Whenever he expressed his liking for more than one person he was shamed or labeled as someone promiscuous who'll never be deserving of "true" love.

It happened in the celestial realm, in the human realm, and even sometimes here in the devildom.

Angels where expected to only focus in the lord and nothing else, some humans are close minded and shame whoever is different from them, and demon's often confuse love with obsession and get easily tangled up in possessive behavior, often viewing their partners as objects rather than individuals with their own goals and desires. (his brothers are the perfect example of that)

So he just knows how difficult it might have been for you to find acceptance.

So he gives it to you; acceptance, reassurance, however many times you need to.

He'll be the one to encourage you to talk with his brothers, he'll be there to support you if you ever feel nervous, and he'll be the one to call his brothers out on their bs whenever they start to show any signs of toxic behavior.

He knows in all relationships communication and trust in your partners is key to a successful relationship, so he reminds this to everyone and even goes as far as to make plans where everyone feels included.

Overall the avatar of lust is the voice of reason in this relationship, because he knows better than anyone else that love is something that can't and should never be limited by what others believe or expect "true love" should look like.

Beelzebub

You weren't sure how Beel would react once you told him.

But still you were pleasantly surprised by Beel's reaction!

He was so accepting from the beginning and even thanked you for trusting him enough to share this with him.

He's happy that you want him to form part of this relationship.

He knows his brothers love you as much as he does and that you love them back, so he sees this as the perfect option for everyone.

He even thinks this relationship has brought everyone closer together.

Over all the avatar of gluttony is more than happy to be with you and share your affection with people he holds equally as dearly.

Belphegor

Belphie, much like Lucifer struggles to understand why would you want such a thing?

Is his love not enough for you?

It takes little more time for him to understand you, and learn that love doesn't just limits to one person.

He can be a bit insensitive some times, so he might accidentally say something hurtful to you about it.

And that's when Asmo has to intervene...

He'll have a talk with his younger brother and make him realize that there's more than one form of love and how his words might have hurt you.

He'll apologize...(much like Mammon) in his own way...

After thinking about it for a while, he realizes he's happy whenever you show affection to Beel, and wonders if it would be the same with the rest of his brothers.

Slowly but surely, Belphie it's more open to this new relationship.

There'll be times where he might try to monopolize your love, but he'll stop once you, Beel or Asmo call him out on it.

His favorite thing of this new relationship is whenever you spend time with him and Beel.

Please be patient with the avatar of sloth.

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If you find any grammatical errors let me know! I'm trying to improve my english and that would help me so so much!

I will forever thank you if you go check out my other profile: @aileysmirnov  where I post things about my OC: edits, one-shots, imagines, art, etc. If you like Greek mythology and the bat family maybe you would get to be as fond of her as much as I am!

Anyway, thank you for reading!

#obey me #obey me shall we date #obey me x reader #lucifer x mc #obey me hc #obey me lucifer #satan x mc #levi x mc #leviathan x mc #demon brothers x mc #satan x reader #lucifer x reader #mammon x reader #mammon x mc #asmodeus x reader #asmodeus x mc #beel x mc #beel x reader #belphegor x reader #belphie x mc

[redxblueihateloveyou]

Hey!! 👋🏽😄 I know you said in your last rant about SK8 and Reki and Renga that you were one of those people that always looks up and learns from others, but after your last Langa edit, I just wanted to remind you how immensely talented you are. I might have not seen your first attempts at editing, but I know how it looks like when you're barely starting something, and I'm sure everyone is proud of the progress you've made and many people looks up to you as the level of skill they want to achieve. You're doing amazing! 💖💖💖

Hi, my love!!!!!! ASDFSDFGHG that’s soooo sweet, thank you so much for saying this, it really means the world to me <3 Oh, haha I’ve deleted most of my old videos so it wouldn’t hurt anyone’s eyes lmao T_T I’m still a bit nervous each time I’m uploading my vids to the day to be honest, even with so many subs rn, but at first I really didn’t have any supporters at all and my god I sucked at this, but I guess the love for my fav ships was stronger apparently haha. So I always get silly happy at each nice comment and feedback, so thank you seriously. 

I really love love love vidding, Idk why but when smth comes out the way I wanted it’s a super addictive feeling for some reason, but many times I just looked at the final result and just threw it in the trash and started over and my god how many times SonyVegas crushed and didn’t autosave the project. I’m like Suga now, I’m pressing the save button each 2 minutes, cause don’t want to lose anything xD Being someone’s inspiration is truly an honor to me, I’ve got some messages that hit me too hard. Still feels weird bc I’m like “but do you know that I can’t even use photoshop tho, how do u like me now then?” lol.

I’m always drawn to talented characters, bc they amaze me, esp the humble ones. Like those who hate Haru or Lanaga just buffle me honestly. I understand that they’re pretty and talented and everything, but they’re also the sweetest and loveliest human beings, so like...??? And I adore those who don’t whine and get what they want. I just can’t help it. I’m a strong believer in the fact that "you can do anything if you put your mind to it”. So far it worked in real life so suck it lol.

People are also saying like Langa doesn’t deserve to win this and Haru doesn’t deserve to be in Olympics, like Langa didn’t snowboard since he was 2 and Haru wasn’t swimming every day since he was born. I’m like.. and you need to check in the mirror if your face is a shade of green. BTW I’ve also been in a professional sports for quite a long time since I was a little kid, ballroom dancing and adored it back then, and I did not get jealous at ppl who were talented than me, I was watching the tapes actually with a popcorn. And oh god those large competition events when you sit there for days and give it all, but then you’re like 296 out of 1000. Why was I proud instead of being sad? Idk xD It was fun.

So thanks for liking the vid, cause I even regretted uploading it a bit yesterday. Sadly everyone already knows that we lost this fandom to the middle schoolers being extra, so they do not care for anything each episode except for this ship, so that’s what I got for posting a just Langa vid:

And etc. and that just made me sad, cause I do not like such fandoms, like it’s not even related to the video, that I’ve been making... with love.  Also thanks for the "sama” title, I’m flattered, but editor only wants to vid matchablossom for now, so like there’s no need for any warnings. I’ve been in such horrendoes fandoms, that I’m immune to this. I also in fact didn’t know some keep ruining Langa’s page and saying that he steals Reki’s screen time... cause he’s aparently the only main character...? ...lmao? I didn’t even know Langa can be hated tbh. I wasn’t really ready for all the drama that followed me making a vid about him.

I’ve already deleted some comments, cause I’m like what this even has to do with the vid about Langa? No, I am not obliged to make a vid about Reki, too. What if I post a matchablossom vid, everyone will only start commenting “do renga”, cause fuck your efforts? I’m like... I hate such fanbases, seriously. I do not even know where this is going, but their fans are already pissing me off. I’m still trying hard for this to not affect my point of view about the ship, cause it’d be kinda unfair to them, but its getting harder each week istg.

And I maybe can’t take requests, but I love when some try to get me addicted on their ship with passion and great arguments. It happened to me with some nice ppl. But def not with agression and stupidity haha.

Cause apparently its one of the fandoms where you can’t NOT care for the main ship, even if you accept it for the only possible Langa ship (cause he doesn’t give a shit for anyone else, so like what’s the point), but it doesn’t do anything for you. I’m like... thanks for threatening. This will make me on board ASAP. Like it’s not the epitomy of love to me... I’m sorry? LMAO 

Some anon even sent me a “you’re dense” (literally thats it) ask after that Reki ask. I was tempted to write smth like “oh I’m sorry, this is the most epic love story of my life and his character is the most complex in the world and he’s the best friend and the most inspiring human being that ever hit my screen. can I become undense now? xD”. But you know I do not know if they’d realise the sarcasm and my pride sadly never allowed me to sell my life values for a bunch of 12 years olds to love me lol

My sister always laughs and jokingly says “but you’d probably get much more subs if you made a vid about this or that, but at what price that would be lmao”. Cause yeah, I never could make myself vid smth I do not like, cause I love vidding and do not want it to be associated with things I do not like, plus it’ll most likely turn out ugly, if I do not care. My mom says that she can feel love I put in my shipping vids that’s why she loves them. I really don’t think she’s wrong. But that also kinda makes me an idiot technically, cause I’m not into many of the popular ships, and some popular animes I just find really basic. 

Also I’m like 100% sure it ain’t happening, but even if they miraculously suck each other’s dicks while sitting on a skate board, I can still have the rights not to care at the end. Like did I sign some form where I’m obliged to love each and everyone canon gay ship even if it’s not what I like? Like gay is not the type of love in relationships. You can only care about his ass like Lan Zhan for example or you can only care about your ass. Like that’s different types of relationships, and whatever you like you like. So get all the way of people’s backs, please.

Also do ppl know that you do not need to be blind to the bad sides of the characters in your ships? Or you just gonna be like “I suddenly can’t see” for forever.

So really thanks for such wonderful message and liking the video and for the boosts when I need them and not being an ass to me if I’m not being obsessed with smth, when you like it. (like I think we have different ship in bnha, right? but we’re still doing great tho, thanks for being an angel <3)

I still didn’t expect this becoming a Voltron 2.0. situation tho. We in our twenties see everything differently, I guess. I do get extra about “their love is everywhere”, but I do not get extra by anonymously attacking ppl, threatening creators and yelling “queeerbating psychotic blind assholes if these two aint fucking by the end of the season I’m shaving my head and jumping out of the window and shoot the director. you do not ship it HARD? YOU DUMB FUCK. THAT’S THE BEST LOVE STORY IN THE WORLD”. Like damn, take your blinders off and see the world, kid. Firstly, it’s definitely not, secondly, ppl see love differently in general and at each age too.

Ah, also you must kill Adam, cause he’s a pedo apparently. Like he ain’t even a threat to your ship, unless you’re blind, but they’re still at it, like they do not know that this kind of age difference is literally nothing for an anime? And that there are canon ships with a huger age difference left and right, too. It’s like its their first time approaching an anime or smth. Like in anime world character can literally kill 1000 ppl with his bare hands and bathe in their blood and we can still stan them, depends on their story, ok? Also Langa couldn’t care less for his advances, so like separate Adam from your ship pls. Like, fuck off, if someone is interested in his character. Yeah, he’s a weirdo for reasons, but anime kind of weird do not apply to real life. Stop acting like you’re some purist, when later you’re gonna ship smth else and it suddenly will not apply. Also rules do not apply to animes, everyone knows they do not apply. These are not western cartoons, my god. And 24 years old flirting with 16 year old is defiinitely not the weirdest shit anyone has ever seen in the anime. Chinese BL has characters who were 14 and 30 when they met and happily married. Also FICTION is not life. Literally no one cares. If you’re scared for your saint eyes, do not watch animes, you’re gonna have a heart-attack from what you can see there. Also we’ve seen gayer bromances in animes, who are just bromances, so pls do not shoot anyone if it’s not canon.

So basically I was kinda pissed yersterday, cause fuck them for ruining the tag, but after chatting with my hommies and your ask, I’m okay again, I just have to avoid this fandom and stick to a tight community xD. I just got used to my nice fandoms and forgot for a bit about the precautions you need to take if you’re in one of those. You know. Who make a circus out of lgbt, instead of supporting it, and make other ppl hate being in fandoms.

P.S. sorry for this partially unrelated rant, your messages really always make my heart bloom, so thanks for supporting me, and I know you’re proud of my progress, too <3 and this makes me happy. LY

#answered #heavensweetheart #sk8 #sk8 the infinity #in such moments you for a moment don't even want to vid this fandom anymore #like seems more pain in the ass than joy #but then denying smth bc of stupid ppl is also dumb #so its like I need to breathe and not go to the tags or twitter #sjws ruin everything #anime #I'd rather go spend some time in my chill fandom with less ppl but more adults

[aros001]

Going in blind: Watching season 1 for the first time. Random thoughts.

This show is kind of nice because I have no memories of the original She-Ra show, or even any of He-Man, honestly. I'm not sure if I ever watched the original, so I have no frame of reference for how the series is "supposed" to be. I can just take it and judge it as is.

Of the bat, all I know is that supposedly She-Ra and Catra get together as a romantic couple later, but I'm also a huge My Hero Academia fan and the fandom around me ships every character with every other character, so for all I know that might just be shipper wishful thinking I've been seeing and hearing. Given fandoms for Gravity Falls, Thor, and Supernatural ship even siblings together, I've learned not to trust anything except for what I see in the series for myself.

By the way, this isn't a review, just random thoughts and comments I'm having as I'm going through season 1 for the first time.

Episodes 1 and 2: Right off, I really like Catra's "No duh" response to Adora about the truth of the horde. She knows they've been lying to them and have been doing terrible things, she just doesn't care. If she and Adora play their cards right they could end up being the ones in charge and then they'd have all that power. Not necessarily to make things better but enough to where they could do whatever and live however they want. That's a good build for an antagonist. Not ignorant to the fact what they're doing is wrong, just simply so selfish that they don't care.

Episode 3: It really feels like there was no good reason why Glimmer didn't just outright introduce Adora to her mother and every reason she should have known it was a bad idea to try and hide her for a surprise. Being a former horde soldier she'd probably get treated with hostility if Glimmer brought her to the front gate but you'd almost guarantee Adora would get arrested or outright killed if she got caught while no one else knew she was there.

On the other side, we have Hordak being pretty intelligent in promoting Catra. He probably knows Shadow Weaver already doesn't like him, so it's not like he's losing anything making her upset with him, and it's clear she favors Adora way more than Catra, so that little bit of advancement towards Catra probably goes a long way in earning her loyalty to him and a person on the inside with Shadow Weaver.

Also, I'm not the only one who saw Madam Razz and immediately thought Adora had found her Yoda, right?

Episode 4: I don't know how it was in the original She-Ra and He-Man series but I kind of like She-Ra being this title from legend. Adora is not the first She-Ra, given what Razz was talking about with a Mara, so instead of being something new, impressing everyone with abilities they've never seen before, and creating the legend, Adora is placed in a position WAY over her head where she's having to live up to what came before her.

Episode 5: Calling it now, as long as her personality is genuine I think Scorpia is going to be one of my favorite characters in this show. She's...endearing, I think is the best word. She's like a mix of Kronk and a nicer Shego.

For a little bit I thought Mermista was voiced by the same actress who played Poison Ivy in the Harley Quinn animated series. She's not but they do have the same kind of Daria-ish inflections, thus by confusion. Given the prom episode, Sea Hawk feels kind of like her Kite Man.

Episode 6: Okay, now it's between Scorpia and Entrapta who are likely to be my favorites by the end of this. She's fun and quirky.

Episode 7: Quite the lore drop. Shadow Weaver was once a Mystacor sorceress known as Light Spinner. I like to imagine we'll get more on that later. Her haunting Adora reminded me of the Teen Titans' episode where Robin was similarly haunted by Slade. This didn't go as far as that but that's probably for the best, since TT had two and a half seasons to build that dynamic up with Robin and Slade while we're only now halfway through the first season.

Episode 8: Well dang. Again, I don't know for sure if Adora and Catra do end up together but boy do I buy why they're shipped together after that dance. Also, good on Bow for standing up for himself. It's clear that he'll always be Glimmer's friend and this won't change that but that doesn't mean he has to just accommodate her. I understand where her issues stem from but I am still glad he gave her a reality check. It helps him feel a little more like his own character.

Also, another nice little bit of lore and worldbuilding. Scorpia's a princess, the horde landed where her people lived, and they seemed to join them willingly.

Episode 9: Surprisingly don't have a lot to say about this other than I don't buy for a second that Entrapta is dead (EDIT: She's not). This was mostly action.

Episode 10: Not going to lie, this one kind of annoyed me a little, at least the first half. The conversation between Glimmer and her mother saved it a bit. It was a bit of a trifecta. You have the alliance breaking apart, saying that the loss of Entrapta only happened because they were all together...even though Entrapta only "died" because of her own machine obsession that caused her to deliberately walk back into the purging chamber. You have Entrapta who might be turning to the horde's side because she feels abandoned by the other princesses...even though they thought she was dead, and again it was her fault they got separated. And you have Glimmer refusing to tell her mother that Shadow Weaver's dark magic has caused her powers to go on the fritz and is causing her great pain. It just feels like none of this would be an issue if most of these people would stop being self-absorbed for three seconds and talk like any normal person would. It feels very CW drama, like something I'd see in a bad season of Arrow or The Flash. The only person whose issues I buy is Adora, who is basically a soldier who was never properly raised to deal with emotion or loss and is already struggling with the burden of being She-Ra, the legendary savior. I get why she's beating down on herself for not being able to do more even if nothing that happened was her fault.

Episode 11: JEEEEEEEEEZZZZ, that was such a good episode! Focused entirely on Adora and Catra and their past together. Like, just showing someone this episode alone could probably get them to want to watch the series. That was everything you needed to know about their dynamic and history together.

Also, that moment when Catra and her past self are looking at each other, while obviously Catra takes the opposite lesson, it reminded me of this fanart I'd once seen of Jason Todd, the Red Hood, looking at his past self as Robin. The past says to the future "You ruined everything". Catra could be happy but, ironically for someone who hates Shadow Weaver, she's probably going to be a lot like her, sacrificing everything for power and ambition.

Given the way she looked, I'm guessing Shadow Weaver is either addicted to the power of the Black Garnet or she suffered some kind of past injury and its power is the only thing keeping her going. Or both.

Episode 12: I'll be honest, Swiftwind being able to talk kind of gobsmacked and I needed a moment to recover. What a great voice they chose for that character.

So She-Ra is kind of like the legendary heroes from Rising of the Shield Hero, coming from a long line of people chosen to wield the sword. I tend to dislike chosen one types of stories because I think prophecy takes a lot of weight out of the character's actions, so this and Avatar are more what I like. The MC is special but not the only one who's ever been special and they can still easily fail. Their destiny was only to be able to use the weapon, not that they would succeed in any specific purpose.

And dang, Catra's turn against Shadow Weaver happened faster than I thought it would but I'm not complaining. That great "This is what you've really been preparing me for" speech and Hordak, again, being an intelligent villain. "Oh, this experiment could net me a MASSIVE gain and all it could potentially cost me is this rock I already gave away to someone who lately hasn't been producing any results and has been consistently disobeying me. Yeah, I'm going to let this play out."

Episode 13: That was kind of a brutal fight between Adora and Catra. Not the worst I've ever seen even in other shows for this age range (Samurai Jack, for example) but those punches are connecting and those claws are leaving marks.

Also, maybe I'm just misunderstanding the exact situation but shouldn't the good guys' side be called the Resistance instead of the Rebellion? Being a rebellion would imply they are rebelling against an established power or rule over them, but the actual conflict we are shown is the established power and rule that is the kingdoms of Eternia resisting an outside force that wishes to establish a new order over them.

Season 1 verdict: I'm into it. I'm definitely more invested in the villains' side of things but that's not a fault of the series, that stuff is just way more geared towards me than the current princess stuff. I actively am at attention whenever the horde main characters are on screen. For the good guys it's mostly Adora and the She-Ra stuff I'm invested it. That isn't to say I have any real dislikes for that side. Bow especially I'm liking much more than I thought I might. He has kind of this gravitational pull around him. You will be his friend regardless of how much you might want to resist. He's definitely the rock for everyone else to hold onto.

Minor side note, kind of like Korra in Legend of Korra, I love how even when her powers aren't active Adora is shown to still be pretty strong physically with how easily she was lifting people up at the prom.

And I was right, Scorpia is my favorite side character.

On to season 2!

Original Reddit post: https://www.reddit.com/r/PrincessesOfPower/comments/nyll2e/going_in_blind_watching_season_1_for_the_first/

#she ra #she ra spop #random thoughts #reddit repost

[queenofbaws]

Hello. Have you ever made a character's backstory for a fanfiction--because canon doesn't provide one--but when you started writing the fic, the backstory was still a vague idea? But you proceeded to sprinkle hints of the said backstory throughout the chapters, while only having a vague idea about it; and now when you actually get to sit down and flesh it out, you realized that the hints don't actually make sense when connected? And you have?? published the fic so you can't rewrite them??

I know I prob making little sense,, and I shouldn't have done what I've done, but do you have an advice about it? I'm so sorry, I know this is something the perpetrator has to figure out herself, but I'm having a minor (dramatic) meltdown and I guess I need another writer's insight ;_; So sorry again and thanks in advance

well hey!!! i’m always happy to ramble on and hope it helps, haha!!! oh man, don’t worry - you’re making perfect sense, and hooooo boy, i have ABSOLUTELY been there before! (the joy of writing for characters canon doesn’t pay enough attention to, huh? ;P) here’s what i’ll say upfront: PLEASE don’t feel meltdown-worthy over this! you are so, so good.

i know it feels like you can’t, but if the problem feels big enough to you, hey, who says you can’t rewrite what you’ve already published? i know it FEELS like we can’t, because aw man, already hit submit and everything...but if it’s really, REALLY bugging you, there’s absolutely 0 shame in making some rewrites/edits and then just sticking a note onto the fic! “hey guys, if you read this before it might look a little different now, but i made a few changes to better reflect [x]’s backstory!” or something like that. but if you’d really rather not rewrite, that’s totally understandable too!

here’s how i look at it when i find myself dealing with a situation like this - sometimes (read: a lot of the time) characteristics/traits/events in our lives, as real people, sometimes don’t really fit together either!!! now, i was a super goth/emo kid who won homecoming, so maybe i’m a little biased when it comes to that belief, but...lol. even if the things you’re talking about are COMPLETE opposites, even if they couldn’t POSSIBLY fit together (super simplified example: they say they grew up in france at one point, but then later say they grew up in florida), you can spin it in such a way that that just informs the character’s personality more! maybe they’re a big ol’ fibber! maybe they’re comically forgetful! maybe they have ulterior motives...the possibilities are there!!

those little hints that you’ve had in your head, the ones you’ve been sprinkling into the story, whether or not they connect (right now), they’ve been in your head for a reason! maybe when you look at them in your published fic currently, they don’t quite gel together, but you had those ideas about that character for a reason, whatever it might’ve been, so hey! they belong there!!! at the end of the day, i’m a firm believer in the idea that everything you write - every single thing!!! mistakes and all!!! - is for a reason. which sounds like some hippy-dippy bs, right? but i mean it! just because the little pieces of your backstory don’t link up perfectly right now doesn’t mean you won’t be struck by inspiration on how to fit them together later, but even if they don’t, they felt right to you to begin with, right enough to include the first time around, so who’s to say they NEED fixing? ;)

#resha04 #asks #writing woes #i hope this helps!!!!!! #i promise promise promise ive walked this road MANY a time before #you got this!!!!!!

[writings-of-hazel]

Forgotten Gospel (Sam Winchester x OC) Part One:

Summary:

When Diane was three her parents where murdered by a group of demons, John Winchester saved her life. Now an orphan Diane had no one to look after her, her relatives all mysteriously died as well. John was her surrogate father as was Bobby. She joined John and his two boys on their quest to find and kill what murdered their mother. Growing up Diane and Sam became lovers throughout their teen years, that was until Sam left for college.

Notes:~Hey so this is the LONGEST chapter I have ever written and I don't think every chapter is going to be as long as this one but I'll try. I'm also super out of practice and don't have time to edit so these might be messy but I still hope you enjoy. Leave a kudos or a comment if you like what I have so far and if you would like to see more!!

“Sam..” Diane muttered through trembling lips. The cold night air bit at her bare arms, causing goosebumps to run up her spine. The black impala was parked on the side of the road and everyone was outside, in a rather hasty dispute. A livid John Winchester stood behind Diane, his face red with anger and eyes wide and shaking. Beside him stood his eldest son, Dean, with an unreadable expression. The Winchester family was not well known for their mild temperament, and tonight was a prime example. This was the aftermath.

“Stanford..you’re going to Stanford?” Diane asked.

After a moment of complete and utter silence, Sam looked at her with a soft scowl, his face still red with sweat from the absolute shitshow that happened just before.

“Yes,” He finally spoke. His tone had changed, softened, and his eyes adverted away from her and onto the ground. “I start in two months.”

He raised his face and Diane caught his gaze. It was really happening. Diane thought. Sam was leaving them. She knew he was serious.

Her dark eyebrows began to furrow, and everything felt like it was in slow motion, or like she was moving through quicksand.

“What, so you’re just going to..you’re just-..you’re just going to leave like that?” She stuttered, shaking her head, choking back the lump in her throat. “What are we to you? What am I to you? This is your family Sammy, you can’t just-“

“I know!” He snapped, his eyebrows furrowing. He let out a small scoff, throwing his hands up in the air.

“You know I don’t want this Diane, this isn’t what I wanna be, I’m tired of being under his thumb. I’m tired of all the fighting and all the death and all the everything. I-..Diane I can’t live like this anymore and this is my ticket to get out.” His stiff body relaxed the slightest bit as he spoke, his hard, solemn eyes softening near the end.

It was Diane’s turn to be silent, the look on his face told her that he knew that she knew he was right.

The anger fueled behind her eyes flickered out, and her head slowly slumped down, looking at the mud on her shoes. She could no longer fight the hot tears burning behind her eyes, and slowly small streaks rolled down her face.

When she gathered the strength to look him in the eyes she was met with a sorrowful gaze. Sam’s face had contorted and his eyes where glossed over.

“I know, Sam,” all power left her voice, it was almost a whisper. “But look what- look who your leaving behind, your dad? Your brother? Me?” Her voice broke at the end, her hand rose and quickly swiped away the new coming tears.

“I’m sorry Diane.” Sam said with genuine tone. With a sigh, he took a few strides closer to her, till they where less than a foot apart.

Diane looked up along Sam’s giant frame, his gentle face towering above hers. He gave her a knowing look, the corner of his lip twitching the way it always did when he was nervous.

His large hand cupped the side of her trembling cheek, using the pad of his thumb to gingerly swipe away a few stray tears from her face.

Diane’s head was swimming in a whirlpool of thoughts, she wanted to cry, she wanted to scream, she wanted to beg. Beg for all of this to go back the way it was a few hours later.

Things got quiet, only the purr of the impala from behind them.

Sam studied the features of her face and Diane could tell that he was thinking something through. His eyes averted away for just a moment, before flickering back to her with a hopeful vigor.

“Come with me,” He finally spoke, “We can go to California together, say goodbye to all this, all the pain, all the monsters, everything.” The corner of his lips pulled into a hopeful smile, his other hand cupping the back of her head. “We could be happy Diane, really, genuinely, happy. I know you want the same thing I do. Come with me”

Before Diane could answer, the engine of the impala roared to life.

“Dean get in the car- I’m done with this.” John muttered to his son, wrenching open the drivers side car door “Diane we’re leaving. Now.” He barked out. Diane broke her gaze from Sam’s and glanced behind her. John got into the driver seat and slammed the door with a thud.

When she turned back to Sam, his expression changed not only was there anger, but something akin to heart ache. Sam’s hands where now stuffed in his pockets and his body was rigid again, there wasn’t much time left before John was bound to take off.

“I’m going to California tonight-“ he sighed, giving a defeated shrug. “Are you coming with me or not?”

Diane knew she didn’t have much time to decide, but how could she possibly process any of this? It was paralyzing. Her eyes fell to the ground, wracking her cluttered brain for thoughts.

“Sam..” she sighed after what felt like forever. She took a step closer to Sam, wrapping her hands around his large forearm and looking him in the eye. “I can’t.” She croaked, tears welling in her dark eyes, and streaming down her cheeks. “I’m sorry Sam..I just..I can’t.”

Sam’s face fell the moment the words left her lips, his eyes falling to the ground. He sniffed back the tears threatening to escape, but it was in vain. A few wet streaks ran along his face.

When he lifted his face up to meet Diane’s, she felt as if her heart where about to shatter on spot.

The look of utter disappointment and heartbreak in his eyes was more painful than any bullet wound she had ever received.

“This is who I am, there’s no normal for me, not anymore.” Diane choked through her tears. There was a loud honk from the impala behind her, causing her to jump. Her signal to hurry up.

Sam looked over her features one last time, his face contorted with sadness.

“Then goodbye, Diane” he said with a hardened voice, reluctantly pulling himself away from her.

“Sam...don’t-“ The car honked again.

“Diane! Get in the car now, I’m not asking you again!” Johns voice howled out the window.

“I’m sorry Diane, I have to get out of here.” He said with an empty chuckle, taking step after step back, farther away from her. His eyes looked hollow, broken. Like an abused animal. He gave her one last look, before turning his back to her, continuing his stride.

“Sam.” She muttered, her voice broken. Sam didn’t turn around.

“Come on- he’s gone” said a gruff voice behind her, making her jump and turn around. She came face to face with Dean, hot tears running down her face. Immediately Dean wrapped his arms around her, pulling her into his warm embrace.

Suddenly, she couldn’t hold it anymore. Wrenching sobs began to tear through her body, her face buried itself into his chest. Dean ran his fingers through the back of her hair, rubbing her back with his other hand.

“Hey it’s okay, c’mon, let’s get you in the car.” He cooed, collecting her form in his arms and guiding her to the backseat, he shrugged his thick leather jacket off of his shoulders and threw it around her. The aroma of whisky and tobacco filling her nostrils as she breathed it in. The moment her door shut John pulled out into the road, driving in the opposite direction of Sam.

All was dead quiet, and no one would dare speak a word. The radio was turned low and there was only the purr of the impala between the three.

Diane felt like she was in a state of shock, only half an hour ago Sam was in the car, sitting beside her. How could he do something like this? When she felt the tears brimming her eyes she shoved the thought out of her mind. She wasn’t going to cry, not right now, not in front of them.

Her eyes peaked over to the rear view mirror, she caught a glimpse of Deans face, not his usual stoic expression that he always pulls when things go to shit but the face he makes when he’s thinking something through. His face was hard and twisted, and his eyes wide as saucers. He wasn’t in much more shock and she was. His round, green eyes flickered up to the mirror catching her glance and holding it for a minute. Giving her a look she couldn’t quite read.

She tore away her eyes from his and looked out the window at the night sky.

Damnit Sam. She thought to herself, why did he have to do this shit. She shook her head with disbelief. The last images of his face racing through her head. The whole thing lasted less than ten minutes, but it had felt like hours.

When they finally arrived at the motel, John went livid, howling, punching and destroying everything he could get his eyes on. Dean ended up having to sleep on the bathroom floor. Diane got the couch.

But she was getting no sleep that night.

*three years and two months later*

The dark impala flew down the highway. Dean was behind the wheel, driving with one hand, a whole hot pocket in the other.

“Dean..I mean are you sure this is a good idea?” Diane asked with a raised eyebrow “I mean, last time I checked, Sam wanted nothing to do with this kind of business”

“Yeauuh..” Dean said with a mouth full of hot pocket, “but we need him more than ever right now, especially if we’re gonna find dad.”

Diane rolled her eyes gave him a quizzical look.

Dean furrowed his eyebrows at her expression “What?” He asked, crumbs shooting out of his mouth.

“First of all you’re disgusting..” she began “and second of all, what makes you think Sam is going to help us out. He told us himself, he’s done.”

Dean’s face fell a moment and the car went quiet “Yeah, well, that was a long time ago, who knows what could happen.”

“I still don’t think he’s gonna join us.” Diane sighed.

“Well, if it’s concerning dad, I think he’ll come around quicker than you think.” Dean glanced over at her, her features where tight and stiff, her eyes gazing miles away. She picked at the side of her lip softly, shaking her leg with nervousness.

Dean sighed, he knew how hard this had been for Diane. Her and Sammy had been childhood lovebirds since kindergarten. Sam leaving was especially hard for her. Setting his beloved hot pocket on his lap, he pressed his warm hand against her leg, giving it a reassuring squeeze. When her eyes rose up to meet his, he gave her a quiet nod.

“It’s gonna be okay, trust me, I’m nervous too. Three and a half years have gone by and not so much as a call. But I got you, okay? You got me?” He spoke, giving her an encouraging glance.

“I got you Dean.” She muttered with a sigh, falling back into the leather interior.

“Put on some Zeppelin,” she mumbled after a minute or two of silence “I need Zeppelin.”

Dean belted out a laugh, a dumb grin growing on his face. “That’s my girl.” He chuckled reaching under his seat for his box of cassettes. He handed over the box to Diane. “Pick anyone you want- ooh- ahh shit! dammit!” Dean exclaimed, swerving on the road.

He swept up the hot pocket off of his leg, the hot filling had seeped out and onto his pant leg, burning the shit out of him.

“Idiot.” Diane muttered with a laugh.

“Jackass.” Dean threw back with a smile.

-

When they got to Stanford campus, it was quite the sight.

“Damn, so this is what the college life looks like.” Dean muttered into the cool night air, his hands resting on his hips.

“Yeah, yeah, I guess so. Where is the dorm located?” Diane asked, pulling her jacket tighter around her. The large stone buildings towered over her like gothic cathedrals. Something felt, off.

“Yeah uhh, it’s right over here.” He mumbled and began walking. Diane followed behind him, her arms crossed over her chest.

“What if he’s different, Dean?” She asked, her heart beginning to race in her chest with every footstep.

“Of course he’s gonna be different, but Sammy is Sammy, he’s family.” Dean reassured her, but mostly reassuring himself.

When they met the steel doorway to the dorm Dean pulled out his lock picking tools and began to work. Diane glanced up at the window above them, Sam’s window. She wondered for a moment, how many times he had looked from out that window to watch the night sky like he always did. Did he even do that anymore? She didn’t know. She could feel him, his presence already, like a familiar vibration buzzing down her back. She was broken from her thought by the sound of the front door unlocking.

“I’m in, come on.” Dean whispered, stepping quietly into the dorm house. Silently the two crawled up the stairs, till they made it to the fourth floor.

“He is apartment 216.” Dean said in a gruff whisper.

She followed behind him quietly, down the long and narrow halls leading to his room.

“Bingo.” Dean sighed, finding the entrance. He picked the lock quick and quietly opened the door. Diane took a step in, but found her foot trapped at an angle, causing her to stumble into Deans back, kicking some shoes across the hall.

“Shh!” Dean hushed harshly, turning around to give her a look.

“Shut up just keep going.” She whispered back taking another step into the dorm.

Though all the lights where out and it was near pitch black, Diane could make out the general space of the dorm, it was more like an apartment than anything. It was a decent size with high ceilings. They made their way into the kitchen when a ruffling sound came from the other room, followed by silence. Dean held up his hand and froze, Diane paused behind him.

He could hear soft footsteps coming from outside the kitchen drawing nearer, and nearer.

Sam. She thought, that has to be Sam.

As if they had the same thought, when the footsteps reached the kitchen entrance Dean abruptly stepped out into view.

A large figure grabbed Dean by the back of his collar, yanking him back with great strength, Dean turned around pushing the tall figures hands away, Dean and the figure began to fight. Dean threw in a few blows, as did the figure. Dean eventually got the upper hand and managed to pin the man to the ground.

“Woah...easy there tiger.” He grunted, his hand still wrapped around his throat

“Dean?” That voice, the first time she’s heard that voice in years. Diane went rigid, her eyes as wide as saucers. “You scared the crap outta me!” He exclaimed angrily.

A smile was glued onto Deans face, “That’s just cause you’re outta practice.” He grunted with a laugh. Quickly Sam knocked Dean onto his back, pinning him down.

“Or not-“ Dean groaned, tapping out “Get off me.” He grunted.

Sam sprung off of him, lowering his hand and lifting Dean onto his feet. “What are you doing here Dean?” Sam asked with a confused look.

“Well I was here to grab a beer.” Dean said with a grin, swiping some dust off of Sam’s shoulder.

“No, why are you here?” Sam said in a more serious tone.

“Okay, we need to talk, just for a little bit-“ Dean was interrupted by the light switching on, catching their attention.

Diane’s fingers lingered in the light-switch. Her eyes immediately fell on Sam, he had changed a little from the last time she saw him so long ago. His hair was shorter, he was thinner. His face looked more adult than it did before.

Sam’s gaze locked with hers, he examined the features of her face slowly, taking in the view of her. His eyes went wide, he blinked hard a few times and rubbed his eyes.

“Diana?” He utttered, his eyes not moving from hers. His chest heaved a few times as he tried to collect himself. Hearing his voice was the sweetest and most bitter thing she had experienced. Her eyes took in his form in its entirety, soaking in the image of the long lost Sam.

“Hey.” She replied softly, crossing her arms over her chest, hugging her torso. He didn’t take a step forward and neither did she.

“Hey.” He replied slowly, his mouth slightly open.

Diane felt the heat on her neck like hell fire, she was sure her face was red beyond recognition. But judging by Sam’s expression, she wasn’t alone.

Sam looked for a minute between her and Dean, at loss for words.

“Sam?” Said a new voice from behind her.

Diane swung her head around, her hand behind her jacket, clutching the handle of her pistol. She was met with a woman’s face, she was wearing nothing but a shirt and some underwear, but she was beautiful no doubt. Her skin looked soft and clean, untamed curls framing her face. The woman gave her a concerned look, cocking one eyebrow, before glancing over to the other Winchester brother.

“Sam, who are these people?” She asked, looking between the two strangers.

“Jess,” Sam spoke, giving her a half genuine crooked smile. Jess began to walk towards him, Diane moved out of the way. Jess, that was her name. She watched as Jess, with the grace of an angel, glided over to Sam, tucking herself under his large arm.

Jesus fucking Christ, way to stab someone in the heart and twist the blade.

Diane’s gaze immediately diverted from the two. Sam had found someone new, she guessed he meant it when he said he wanted a new life. That didn’t stop the sharp sting radiating through her body. She walked across the kitchen towards the older Winchester, keeping her eyes on the walls.

Sam noticed this, and felt a small pang himself. He knew what her hurt looked like, and he saw it all over her face, despite how hard she was trying to conceal it.

“Dean, Diane, this is my girlfriend Jessica. Jess, this is Dean, and this is Diane. We used to work together.” Sam said, gesturing to the two.

“You’re brother Dean?” Jess asked, pointing to the Winchester brother.

Sam nodded.

Diane clenched her jaw, she was right, this was a terrible idea.

“Wow-“ Dean said with a smirk, taking a step towards her, Diane rolled her eyes, knowing exactly where this was going.

“I love the smurfs” he said with a shit eating grin, pointing to her cleavage “and i just gotta say, wow, you are so outta my brothers league

“Just- let me put something on.” Jess replied uncomfortably.

“Nahh nah, wouldn’t dream of it-OW” Dean was cut off by a sharp smack to the back of the head by Diana. Dean swung his head to her, giving her the meanest glare.

Diane rolled her eyes, looking back at Jess, and then to Sam, who had his gaze glued on her. “Sorry about him- he thinks more with his dick than with his brain.” Diane chuckled, holding out a hand to her.

A small smile tugged at the corner of Jess’s lips as she shook it.

“Oh I can guess.” she chuckled.

Dean, who was now beyond pissed off was no longer in a playful mood. “Well Diane and I have some family business to discuss with your boyfriend but uhh I’ll see ya later.” He said with a wink, shoving his elbow into Diana’s side.

“Ow-fuck you.” She whispered to Dean harshly, rubbing her side. Dean flashed her a wicked grin, saying that they where even. Jess stood there quietly, glancing over to Sam.

Real smooth Dean. Diane thought.

Diane felt it again, like a stabbing pain. The way he looked at her was something she hadn’t seen in years. There was an awkward silence that followed, eventually Sam spoke up.

“No-“ he said giving Dean the bitchiest face he could muster. “Whatever you can say in front of me, you can say in front of her.” He wrapped his arm around her shoulder, pulling her close.

Dean shot a glance at Diane, and then at Sam.

“Dad’s on a hunting trip.” Dean said with a cryptic glace.

“Yeah,” Sam replied with a shrug, “He goes on a lot of hunting trips. I’m sure he’s fine”

The smile on Deans face fell and his expression grew serious.

“Dad’s on a hunting trip, and he hasn’t been home in a few days”

With that Sam’s whole demeanor changed.

“Jess, will you excuse us?” Sam said, his body stiffening.

-

“Dean you can’t just barge in in the middle of the night and expect me to just pack up and go with you” Sam retorted as the three hunters quickly shuffled down the staircase.

“You’re not listening Sammy, Dad’s missing.” Dean replied carelessly, glancing behind him. Diana made it down the stairs first and stood at the door, her arms crossed over her chest.

“You remember that werewolf in Dayton? The Mississippi devil gates, Dad was gone for weeks. He’s always missing and he’s always fine.” Sam paused at the end of the stairs.

Diane rolled her eyes, “Yeah but never like this, not without some kind of...something, anything.” she tagged in, taking a step towards the two.

Sam gave her a look and puffed his chest.

“Diana’s right, something’s not right and I don’t like that, So are you in or not?” Dean asked impatiently Diana fought back the small smile from reaching her lips.

Sam paused a minute, his lips pursed tightly, “I’m not.” he replied.

A smug smile spread over Diane’s face, her eyes meeting the older Winchester’s “What did I say Dean?” Diane jabbed, throwing her hands up in the air.

“Don’t.” Dean warned, giving her a stern look.

Sam ground his teeth behind his lips, shaking his head. “I said I was done with hunting Dean, I started a new life to get away from that.”

“Oh come on, it wasn’t easy but it wasn’t that bad.” Dean retorted, adjusting the duffle on his back.

“Dean when I told dad I was afraid of the dark he gave me a .45” Sam said with a look of bewilderment

“What else was he supposed to do?” Dean replied, obviously not getting his point.

“I was nine years old, Dean. He’s supposed to say “Don’t be afraid of the dark.” Sam scoffed, crossing his arms.

“Don’t be afraid if the dark? Of course you should be afraid of the dark you know what’s out there.” Dean cautioned with wide eyes.

“You boys are wasting time.“ Diane finally huffed. One thing she had not missed was the arguing, “You guys still argue like a married couple it makes me wanna vomit let’s gooo.” She stammered as she sprung through the metal door, letting it slam behind her. She began to walk across the building towards the black impala, the boys following behind her.

“You think mom would of wanted this for us,” Sam began.

Oh no.

“You think she would of wanted the weapon training, making silver bullets?”

Shut up.

“Dad put a gun in my hands the moment I was able to carry one”

Shut the fuck up Sam.

“Man, Dean, we where raised like warriors “

“So?” Dean replied, not looking behind him. “What? You’re just gonna live some normal, apple pie, white picket fence life?” When he finally reached the car, Dean turned to face his brother.

“No, not normal.” Sam paused, looking at Diane again, “Safe.”

That word hit Diane, ‘Safe’. In a way, she understood what he meant, that’s why he left in the first place.

“That’s why you left in the first place?” Dean said her thought out loud.

Sam’s eyes flickered to the floor and then up to Dean “Dad was the one who said if I left I should stay gone..So I did.”

Dean let out a haste sigh, putting his hands in the pockets of his leather jacket. “Listen, Dad’s in trouble and he needs help, he’s not dead I can feel it .” He spoke through clenched teeth, determination in his voice. Sam went silent for a bit, his mind in deep thought.

When there was no response Dean continued “Listen it’s just Diane and I out here, and we can’t do this by ourselves.”

“and we don’t want to, Sam.” Diane added, leaning against the impala.

Sam’s expression softened a bit, the furrows in his brows unraveling. Diane gave Sam a hopeful look, and Sam let out a huff.

“What was Dad hunting?” He finally relented, his shoulder shrugging in defeat.

Diane gave Sam a small smile, tossing Dean the keys “Good question, we don’t know.” She replied.

Dean went to the trunk and popped it open, revealing a collection of guns, knives and other kinds of tools.

“What do you mean?” Sam inquired, eyebrow raised.

“Well Diane and I where out in out on a gig in Milwaukee, there was a cannibal den. Phew they where some nasty sons of bitches” He sighed, shuffling through the trunk with loud clanks and clicks.

“Wait wait,” Sam began, a look of disbelief flickering across his face “Dad let you two go on a hunt alone?”

Diane furrowed her eyebrows the same time Dean did, taking the same offense.

“Im twenty six dude,” he retorted

“You’ve been gone for a long time Sam. Things are different.” Diane sighed. Sam gave her another long look.

“Bingo found it, down in Iowa was where I last heard from him, and look at this.” Dean swiftly interrupted the silence, pulling out a tape recorder.

“Let’s give it a listen.” Sam murmured, leaning down to heard the recording on the tape. Dean pressed play and static began to echo in the air. Diane furrowed her eyebrows, straining her ears to listen, the boys large frames easily nudged her behind them.

“I can never go home “ Rang clear as day from the static in the recorder.

“I can never go home?” Sam repeated, determination crossing his eyes.

“We gotta check it out Sam.” Diane spoke up, pushing Dean out of her way, which earned her a sharp elbow in the arm.

Sam put his hands on his hips, looking at the ground. He had his thinking face on. “Okay,” he began, letting out another sigh, “I’ll go.. But I gotta be back by this Monday.”

“Why?” Dean inquired, raising an eyebrow.

“I got an interview.” Sam said through pursed lips.

“A job interview? Skip it.” Dean said casually.

Sam sighed and shook his head. “It’s a interview for a law firm, it’s basically my whole career on a plate Dean-“

“Yeah, yeah. Okay whatever we’ll get you home by Monday.” Dean shrugged, but his face looked annoyed.

Sam gave his brother a look.“I’m gonna go upstairs and pack.” After giving each of them a glance he lazily turned around and carried his large frame back towards his dorm.

-

Dean was downstairs making calls and setting up and Diane, bored, made her way back up the stairs towards Sam’s dorm. She gently rapped her knuckles against the door and waited.

The door opened to Jess’s face.

“Oh, hey.” She said with a smile. Despite the small stabs of pain her face left in her chest Diane couldn’t help but smile. Jess seemed nice, she seemed sweet. She imagined her long fingers diving into Sam’s chocolate hair, her round lips feeling his soft and tender kiss, all the late night love confessions they had shared together.

“Hello?” Jess asked again, cocking one eyebrow.

“Oh. Sorry, I’m running on no sleep.” Diane replied, ripped from her self wallowing thoughts.

“Well, come in” Jess sighed pleasantly “Make yourself comfortable.”

“Thanks Jessica.” Diane replied, stepping inside.

“Please, call me Jess. Here I’ll pour you some coffee before I head to class” She chuckled leading Diane to the kitchen.

The two sat in silence for a minute, Diane mindlessly gazing into the dark liquid in her mug.

“Sam won’t tell me where he’s going,” Jess finally said, glancing over to Diane, “You two know each other.”

Diane took a small swing of her coffee, enjoying the familiar bitter taste. “Yeah, Winchester boys are like that..they never really let you know what’s going on. I think it’s a self righteous think they got, or idiocy, a bit of both." She paused for a minute "Oh Sam and I, yeah, we..we grew up together.” Diane stumbled, taking another sip from her mug.

Jess nodded quietly, taking a drink from her coffee. her eyes glanced up at the clock. “Shit I gotta go to class,” she sighed, setting down the cup “Sam?” she asked down the hall , walking towards the room. Diane could hear him murmur a reply. After a while she heard the front door open and shut.

Her demeanor fell immediately. Her eyes lowering to her scarred hands, the hands of a hunter. Taking another last sip she poured the rest down the drain and set the cup down, and made her way to where she heard Sam’s voice.

Diane made her way across the dorm to the doorway of Sam and Jessica’s room. She stopped at the entrance, her eyes locking on Sam’s form in front of her.

Sam was bent over, his cocoa dark locks hanging in front of his face while shuffling clothes into his duffle bag. A tender feeling arose from her stomach, tugging at the corners of her lips. Raising her hand she gently rapped her knuckles against the doorway.

Sam’s head shot in her direction, his rounded hazel eyes catching her dark brown orbs, recognition turned on his face and his mouth curved into a small smile.

“Hey Diane,” he greeted, standing straight, his fingers slowly fumbling around with the shirt in his hands.

“Hey,” Diane replied stepping into the room and leaning against the dresser, crossing her arms over her chest “How ya doin’?” She asked.

The muscle in Sam’s jaw twitched slightly, his eyes flickering down to the duffle bag and then back to her. “Honestly,” he huffed, shaking his head, raking his long fingers through his hair “Not good.”

Diana let out a sigh, her eyes flickering to the ground “I know, Sam,” She pushed herself off the dresser and Sam’s eyes followed her as she stepped to the edge of the bed. Diane took a deep breath.

“I know you never wanted any of this Sam, the guns, the ghosts, the monsters” she muttered “That’s why you ran away right?” Her tone was softly spoken, though her heart was racing against her chest. Memories washed over her brain like tidal waves, the last image of his face years before, watching his back as he left.

Sam read her somber expression, his face softened in sympathy.

“Diane, about...about last time, I-“ Sam began to say.

“Don’t Sam,” Diane cut in, shaking her head, her eyes met his and she felt like melting, she saw the guilt and it made her stomach churn. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath “I understand, and..” She paused, her tongue catching in her mouth.

Sam waited, curiosity flickering across his features.

Diane read his expression to go on, sucking in a deep breath through her lips she sighed out “And I’m proud of you Sam..really I am.” The words hurt as they left Diana’s mouth, but they still rung true. “This is what you’ve always wanted, something safe, and you deserve it Sam.”

The corners of Sam’s lips pulled into a gentle smile, though his sorrowful eyes remained the same. “Thank you,” Sam murmured, his eyebrows furrowing “So do you.”

Diane shook her head, her eyes flickering to the wall beside her “Yeah, well, I made that choice.” The muscles in her jaw clenched.

Sam sighed, turning his back to her and continued packing his duffle bag “You know I’m not back, right?” He finally said after a moment of silence, pausing his movements “I’m just gonna help find dad and then I’m out, for good this time.”

Diane held back the scoff in her throat, “I know that Sam, I’m not quite sure Dean knows that, but I do.”

Sam nodded slowly, turning his face to her.

“But you don’t have to be gone Sam.” Diane finally added, “Dean misses you, I miss you and John misses you-“

“I don’t wanna talk about it.” Sam cut in, his voice hard.

Diane sighed, placing her hands on her hips “Okay, whatever you say. I’ll be in the car.” She stepped away from the bed and towards the door, mentally defeated and exhausted. She stopped a minute and turned around, a solemn smile on her face. “Jess is a good girl Sam.” She uttered and Sam turned to face her. Diane looked deep into those hazel eyes she had both missed and loved, tears threatening to well in her eyes. “I’m happy she makes you happy.”

Sam’s eyes watered over through no tears where spilled, his lips curved into a pursed smile.

Diane returned the smile and turned her back to him.

When she finally made it back to the impala, Dean was sitting on the hood, beer in his hand. His bright green eyes flickered towards Diane and he gave her a toothy grin.

“How was the talk?” Dean asked.

“It was a talk.” Diane muttered in a defeated tone, walking across the impala and in front of Dean.

“Did you tell him?” Dean inquired, raising an eyebrow.

“No,” Diane sighed, “Not yet. We need his help.”

Dean rolled his eyes “I get it,” he pushed himself off the hood and took a step towards Diane, reaching his arm out. His hand caught her arm and gently pulled her towards him. Diane wrapped her arms around Dean’s torso, burying her face in his chest. His body was warm, smelling of whisky and peppermint, she inhaled the comforting aroma. Taking a deep breath Diane craned her neck back to look into Dean’s soulful eyes. Dean smiled, leaning his head down and softly connecting his lips with hers. Diane smiled softly against his lips, running her hands up his chest to grab his face. After a moment the two pulled apart.

“You shouldn’t feel bad Diane, I mean, Sammy moved on..why shouldn’t you?” Dean sighed, “We’ve been on for months now, you shouldn’t feel ashamed”

“Feel ashamed that I’m seeing my ex-boyfriends brother? Nah, I do feel like a sloppy second though.” Diane chuckled, leaning against the car.

Dean chuckled, leaning next to her and sliding an arm across her shoulders. “You’re far from being a sloppy second, I can tell you that right now.” Dean said with a genuine smile, pressing a chaste kiss against her lips.

Sam stepped away from the window, closing the curtain. His heart felt like an anvil in his chest, crushing him towards the ground. He wanted to be mad, to be furious, but where could he stand to feel so. He had someone of his own now too, he was the one who left. He couldn’t blame her or his brother for any of that. His face turned brooding and pensive as he turned to the duffle bag. He could just say no, turn back, tell them to leave him back to the life he had built.

That wouldn’t be right either. Sighing Sam swung the duffle bag onto his shoulder and made his way to the impala.

There was work to be done.

-

The ride through the night was quiet, Diane slept across the back seats, using one of Dean’s flannels as a makeshift pillow. In the morning she awoke to a loud tapping on the window.

“Rise and shine sleeping beauty” Dean’s voice rang from outside. Diane opened her eyes with a tired grunt, looking out the bright window to the older Winchester.

“Fuck you, good morning.” Diane muttered sleepily as she popped open the door.

“Good morning to you too, grumpy,” Dean said with mock hurt, he leaned in to connect his lips to hers but was stopped by her hand. Glancing over to Sam who was pretending not to listen, shuffling through a box of old cassette tapes.

“Oh..yeah.” Dean muttered, annoyance flickering in his eyes. He set down a chocolate bar and some beef jerky in her lap “Breakfast.” He sighed. Diane gave him an apologetic look and Dean nodded, heaving a sigh.

“Dean what the heck is all this?” Sam interrupted looking through their box of fake badges and ID’s, along with several fake credit cards. “You and Dad still running those credit card scams?”

“You bet your ass we are.” Diane groaned, sitting up and ripping open the wrapping to her ‘breakfast’

(Stay tuned for part two)

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Um I'm really sorry to do this but I'm a new writing blog and I was wondering if you could give me some tips on how to get followers?

Hello there, welcome to the writing community! First off, awesome url, but secondly, here are a couple tips that might help you out:

1. Say Hi to People!

This tip definitely belongs at number one, because it’s not only the easiest to do, but the quickest way to build connections with people with not a lot of effort. 

The writeblr community is so awesome because we all engage with one another, and by mixing yourself into the fray of people who talk with one another often, your name will slowly gain recognition, and people will start to do things like tag you in games, mention you in posts, tag in writing, all that fun stuff. Here are a couple bullets of what to try:

Respond to “send me an ask about ____” posts

Send asks about characters and WIPs even when not prompted

Comment, comment, comment! Leaving a nice message below a WIP page makes a huge difference

Tag blogs you would like to be friends with in games

Send people DMs about their WIPs if you find them interesting and be sure to ask them questions. People love talking about their projects :)

2. Make a WIP Page

This one’s a little bit trickier, but is definitely worth it if you want to gain more followers on writeblr. Not every writeblr has a WIP, but having one under your belt can help people connect with your writing and characters, which precedes the asks about characters that people always love. A couple things to include on a WIP page are the summary, characters, moodboards, (optional) face claims, and maybe even a short “profile”, as in likes and dislikes, age, sexuality, things like that, if you’re feeling up for it.

Here are the steps to making a basic WIP page:

1. Go on a computer or desktop (anything that’s not mobile) and click on your blog. Go to “Edit Appearance”

2. Scroll until you find “Edit Theme” and click it (P.S if you don’t have a blog theme right now, don’t worry!)

3. Scroll aaallll the way down until you see a plus sign with “add a page” next to it. Click it and fill in whatever you want about your WIP!

4. When you’re done, make sure you’ve hit “Show a link to this page” so that people clicking on your bio can see it right away

5. Make an intro post separate from that one on your main blog (this is so that it can appear on peoples’ dashes – the one you just made doesn’t appear like that)

If you’re good at programming, then you can also make a master list later on to archive your posts, but starting out, I don’t think it’s a necessity. After you’ve finished making a WIP page, the next thing is to bring on the pressure!

3. Talk About Your WIP Frequently

This is something that I’m actually just starting to learn myself, but this one’s quite important. When I made a writeblr, I thought I would start with writing advice and the questions about my WIP would just magically follow, but that’s not the case, but more on that in a second.

I’m not saying you have to post every day, but even short, original thoughts about your process can help people hook on. Even something as small as “oh my god, I love _____ but can she like,,,,, take five minutes?? Have a time-out?? I can’t work with her right now, ugh” can be funny and relatable enough to make someone say “man, I gotta follow this dude, they’re rad!”

It’s going to be frustrating at first to have people not ask about your story or OCs, but I promise that with enough time and enough blog attention focusing on your WIPs the fans, even if there are only one or two of them, will come.

4. Start With Something

Something I tend to see in a lot of rising writeblrs is the fact that a lot of them become very good at their craft, and as a result spread their talents to bring their WIPs more full circle. For example @ava-burton-writing does professional quality edits and moodboards, and they always look amazing! Their talents help broaden the characters of To Bet Your Life (wonderful WIP by the way, go check it out!) and help show them in an artistic way.

Another example, @idreamonpaper is very good at characterizing her characters and does an incredible job at making them come to life (From the Shadows is another incredible WIP, check that one out too!). She does this with asks and rambles, and it really works for your advantage.

I, myself, started with advice. I’m not really artistically inclined, so I started with helping people with their writing problems and helping answer asks to try and further their journeys, much like this one :). From there, with the follower base I already had from writing advice, I was able to branch out and (finally) talk about my WIP. This strategy helps because you’ve already made a name for yourself and it’s a lot easier to have people notice your WIP once you’ve already been here for some time.

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It’ll seem like an uphill battle for quite some time, but believe me when I say that it gets easier. When you find yourself becoming more comfortable in this community, it’ll start to get easier and easier to reach out, make friends, and make your blog into everything you want it to be. Until then, good luck, and happy writing!

#how to get followers on writeblr #how to get popular on writeblr #writeblr popularity #writeblr

[gg-astrology]

Hi ! I wanted to ask about your opinion on cusp ? I'm born on the 23th of august so my sun is leo (29'59) but I feel like virgo suit me the most ? I'm quite new to astrology but I already love it so much and struggle a lot already too ;-; I'm just really meticulous about learning it right and you seem so nice ! I hope I didn't bother you too much ! Keep going and have a nice day 💕

Happy belated birthday!! 💕 First of all I hope you had a great day and is enjoying this Virgo season! 💕 You didn’t bother me at all no worries! :) I’m glad you’re loving your astrology journey so far💕 I’m going to try to explain this, but feel free to let me know if you need clarification on anything ok? 💕

[Below cut: ‘Cusps’ + Critical Degrees/Importance of Degrees ]

Just a little bit of preface: You don’t have to learn everything right the first time/say the right stuff all the time, so don’t be too hard on yourself if you ever do that ok? 💕

Honestly (imo) a huge part of astrology is just an on-going process, so there’s a lot of editing involved regarding interpretations/opinions? People can have a lot of different opinions on astrology, it’s just how multi-faceted the (signs/placements) things we’re learning/studying are. That’s part of intaking the information. It’s also the style people interpret/express it outwards that’s different. You can learn things bit by bit and just make it easier on yourself to digest information. And you can make up your own interpretation (that’s meticulous, but forgiving) that way ok? 

Don’t feel like you’re struggling alone, or if you’re taking the hard path by yourself. You can always edit your answer and think about things more, I hope this helps you out a bit/feel a lil bit better about it! Let me know how you feel! Otherwise I’ll just preface it like this because Im nervous and just want to help skdjfns💕

So on to the topic, degrees do matter in astrology. To make matters a little simplier -- if you’re standing at the door you can’t be standing at the window 5 feet away. I don’t think our legs stretch that long, so where it lands is the exact point of where it is. 

If you want a general rule/thing just to make it easier for yourself (in regards to ‘cusps’ and all the confusing stuff), just pay more attention to the degrees/calculating things. You can apply it across the board to your other placements as well (not just the sun, which is where we usually hear the word ‘cusp’ used). 

With degrees, its about the progression of going through the signs, right? Like you can tell when someone is at the end of their Aries Moon by the degree it’s in, but it’s also the lessons the signs gives you/their energy/stages you are in corresponding to those signs. It’s the dialogue between your natal placement and the rulership directly. I had an answered ask about critical point/karmic point if you’re interested in it. It basically outlines the energy these points 29′-0′ goes to and why it has that plutonian effect on it (transformation between the planets/signs in placements). The answer ask applies more for people with 0′ degrees though, I’m going to kind of explain what the difference is between 29′-0′ later (before the end of this ask). 

So similarities between 29′-0′ first: When signs are at 29′ degrees it’s at the final stages of the sign, so the energy is geared towards wrapping things up, doing the final exam. It’s facing the final boss/challenges on the lesson that the sign brings, and learning to conquer it. 

But it’s also talking about new beginnings (karmic point/transformation) so it’s trying to beat that boss while moving into another sign at the same time. Your focus/direction is geared towards the next sign (Virgo) but the challenges you face/have to beat are from Leo in order to prove yourself ready for leveling up.  

Most people give rounding up 29′59 to 0′. There’s a lot of different names for this and most have varying opinion about what it’s called/if it’s actually good or bad. It’s kinda like people either really liking Scorpio/Pluto or really really despise them. Personal opinions and sometimes personal fears.

Most just honestly think it’s kind of layered/complex. Natives who find themselves at that crux point often find them ready/tilting towards the next sign already (29′), but those who are in the sign (0′) might find themselves drowned completely by the multi-faceted problems that the sign’s journey has to face, y know?

So people in this crux will either run away from it or embrace it. It’s a karmic point where you either feel more related to your past (0′) or your future (29′). They’ll find themselves relating strongly to either sign, particularly the core energy that’s usually described in the archetype (like, the typical zodiac/horoscope stuff). 

Watch out for nit-picking the parts they want to relate to and the part they don’t understand. Mostly because other native in the same sign are progressing through parts of that journey (in other degrees of progressions, like 14′-16′, 17′-25′ etc.) that reaches the less seen/unexplored part of the signs that’s not written as their archetype y know? Some difficulties can’t be explained to people who hasn’t been through the same journey (again, past-future). So that’s part of the reason why sometimes, people find themselves feeling different from other natives of the sign, and look for that core-energy to stabilize/give direction to them. (ASC, absent signs in people, intercepted signs, karmic points)

Archetype is like the unsaid part of the sign, a huge area that simplified zodiac/horoscope stuff doesn’t cover. Take Leo for example, there’s a lot of brandishing on the extroverted, leadership qualities of a Leo. But the unexplored part that astrology puts a focus to is the sentimentalism, kind of shy and romantic part of Leo as well. 

So to answer your question about ‘cusps’ in the Sun: Just for the sake of technicalities, there’s only one sun. You can always focus on the part of the journey where you’ll still have to slay the boss (which will resurrect many times) but you’ll also find Virgo manifesting somewhere else in your chart usually. 

It’s at the end/beginning of one sign which makes the energy kind of pointed into a focus (transitioning stage).  

Also another thing: karmic point or this 29′-0′ makes the native find themselves facing difficulties manifesting certain traits of the planet. Usually it’s because the energy/focus is shifted into driving towards that one sign that you are less aware/focused on your other-- or maybe vice versa. 

But maybe if you’re at 0′ something, it’s also because in side-real you may be the past sign (-23′) so generally there’s a lot of challenges to think and consider about being here (also in trad. astro there’s things about terms/bounds and if you’re interested, that’s also very fascinating to read about since 29′ tends to be the area where we’re restricted somewhat) 

So the lessons you’ve learnt/the challenges you faced are not often focused on bringing what resources/materials you’ve gained already into being used. There’s a disconnection there because your eyes are set on the future, that sometimes you forget to side-step the pothole when you easily can. Or you forgot how to use materials from the past and therefore the future cannot happen. It’s a frustrating position to be in. 

I hope this answers your question and help you somewhat! 💕 If you need further readings that might be easier to understand than my rambling, this astrologyuniverse article is really helpful! 

I hope this isn’t too harsh and I didn’t just? info-dump on you. Feel free to ask me anytime you want a second opinion, I’ll try to help as best as I can? I know the way I explain things can be really whacky so please feel free to ask me to clarify! I can also link u up to some resources if I don’t know stuff! 💕

PS. Also, thank you for commenting/responding to the Namjoon post!! I’ll be sure to add it in and try to address it ok? 💕 And also thank you for sending in the ask in general!! I hope I helped you somehow! 💕

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[scriptstructure]

I want to write a novel partially set in the Cretaceous period with accurate environment although my characters time travel there. It's taken 3 years so far for research, but the biggest problem is new scientific studies changing things. When do I just stop changing my plan because of that? To be honest, I'm not sure if I will even write it, since the most I've ever written are short stories or a couple chapters that went nowhere and a dozen outlines never written and thrown out.

I have a post that talks about when to stop worldbuilding and start writing [HERE] that might be some help.

This is a really ambitious and interesting project, I find it really cool when people use hard research to build up a view into the world as it once was, so that we can get a look at how things were in a way that doesn’t quite spring off the page of academic texts.

I think that at some point, you’re going to need to accept that the science is going to keep on marching, but if you want to write this story you’ll have to pick a point where you simply take the information that you have and run with it.

Think about it this way: at a certain point you pass the horizon of what the average reader is going to know about your chosen time period. To them, everything you write is going to be previously unknown.

At another point you draw level with or surpass the invested reader, whose particular interest is focussed on your chosen time period. These people, probably with access to the same resources as you, may pick at your research, or they may simply be happy that someone has written a whole book about their area of interest.

You will probably not surpass the level of specialised knowledge that is held by the actual scientists and researchers investigating the time period of interest. Science often advances so quickly, and theories are tested and changed so rapidly, that by the time the probably several-years long process of finishing the novel is complete, your story will already hold outdated ideas. Many of these researchers and scientists will be utterly delighted nonetheless.

If you write a solid story, based on a strong foundation of currently accepted scientific information, then there’s nothing to fear from the progress of your scientific field of interest. A great example is Jurassic Park: we know now that dinosaurs were likely feathered, and colourful, but that doesn’t make the lizard-skinned JP dinosaurs any less impressive.

Writing a story that deals with a topic of niche specialisation can wind up being very popular among the people who actually work in that field, especially if the research that goes into it is thorough and well-utilised. The way that figure skaters became enamoured of Yuri!!! on Ice is another good example, the show creators researched the sport’s visual and technical elements, as well as the atmosphere and politics of behind the scenes, and used them to tell a story.

Finally, I want to point out that while a massive new discovery that changes everything we know about that time period would probably throw off your story significantly, more minor or ‘cosmetic’ changes are things that can be fixed up during the editing process. As long as your main narrative is solid, you can work on fixing up elements that have become obsolete later down the track, if and when you feel you need to.

Aside from that, get writing! This sounds like a great project, and it would be a pity to let it fall by the wayside!

#writing #research #Anonymous #edited to fix link

[hii-raeth]

Hii! Here comes my questions for the FanFic Ask Game! Be prepared for I love reading answers from writers. ^^ So... C - F - G - H - I - L - N - O - P - U - V - W - Z, pretty please! Aaaaannnnd because I'm a little brat, could you also answer the question E for the fic "Uneasy Lies the Head" (I've tried, guys! xD)? Thank you very much! Take care!

Wow, that’s a boatload of questions! Thank you for asking >D 

C: What member do you identify with most?

Member is a bit vague, isn’t it? Unfortunately, I don’t know any authors well enough to identify with them. Characters are different story, but even then there are too many characters that I relate to in some way for me to name all of them. Whoops…?

E: If you wrote a sequel to Uneasy Lies the Head, what would it be about?

Wouldn’t you like to know ;) all I will tell you is that it involves brand-new technology, an old family secret, and carrying grudges. If that isn’t cryptic, I don’t know what is…

F: Share a snippet from one of your favorite dialogue scenes you’ve written and explain why you’re proud of it.

Almost forgot this one!  probably because it's very hard to answer... I actually think dialogue might be one of my weaker points. I'm having a hard time remembering everything I've written, but I like the one between Sasuke and Kakashi in chapter 12. 

When I look back on it I think I could've refined it a bit more, but I still like the general idea of these two emotionally constipated people talking about big themes.I feel like that’s... an incredibly vague answer.

G: Do you write your story from start to finish, or do you write the scenes out of order? 

A bit of both. I write most of it chronologically so I don’t make big mistakes in continuity, but if I have a clear scene in mind for a future chapter I will write it whenever I feel inspired.

H: How would you describe your style?

A little bit wordy… Not anywhere near as elegant as I’d like, but I think it is occasionally funny. I hope it is, anyway.

I: Do you have a guilty pleasure in fic (reading or writing)?

I suppose I do. For one thing, I tend to completely focus on one character per fandom- I rarely read anything that isn’t about them. Some of these characters are from pretty bad shows…

As for writing, I can get a little bit carried away when it comes to my favorites… I try to limit it, though!

L: How many times do you usually revise your fic/chapter before posting?

Not as often as I should. Usually I go back months later to edit it, but by then it will be too late for most of my readers. I am trying to learn from my mistakes with this new story.

N: Is there a fic you wish someone else would write (or finish) for you?

Of my own stories? Definitely Thunderstruck and its many unwritten sequels. I’m still pretty happy with the concept, but writing it turns out to be harder than I thought it would be.

O: How do you begin a story–with the plot, or the characters?

A little bit of both. I want to have theme for my main character and a general idea for plot. Everything else happens pretty organically. For example, in Uneasy, Kakashi’s theme is allowing himself to be vulnerable and letting his friends help him, the general plot idea is ‘someone tries to kill him and,very shady reasons, tries to blame it on others. The plot changed quite a bit after that.

P: Are you what George R. R. Martin would call an “architect” or a “gardener”? (How much do you plan in advance, versus letting the story unfold as you go?)

A little bit of both. I was definitely a gardener for Uneasy Lies the Head, but Foundling was completely planned. I’m hoping the next story will be a combination of these two.

U: Share three of your favorite fic writers and why you like them so much.

DK, Nezu, Ki and GM from @anbu-legacy​ spring to mind. That’s… four people. Err. Let’s ignore that for the moment. I also really liked sna back in the day. There are many others, but I can’t recall all their names. I feel bad about that 8′)Things that appeal to me, though: writers who can find a balance between emotion, comedy, and realism. These people have that down to an art form.

V: If you could write the sequel (or prequel) to any fic out there not written by yourself, which would you choose?

Better yet, what if their original authors were to write a sequel or prequel? (Just to clarify, I totally understand dropping a story if it’s no longer right for you or just can’t do it anymore. I just don’t think I could do justice to most of my favorite stories, because my style is different and therefore not the style I enjoyed so much.)

W: Do you like more general prompts, or more specific ones?

Specific is good, but they shouldn’t be too specific, either. I should still be able to come up with a few things myself. If a prompt is to general, it might not work either, though.

Z: Major character death–do you ever write/read it? Is there a character whose death you can’t tolerate?

I don’t go looking for it. I prefer not to read about my favorites dying at all (Kakashi in particular), but I can stand other characters’ deaths. It should be for good reason, though, not just random death for shock value. I don’t usually write it because I only tend to write about characters I really like. That makes things a little bit harder.

#@funnylittlebrain #funnylittlebrain

[henryandalex]

Sorry to bother you, but I'm trying to write a story, and I was wondering if you have any tips

Oh, Anon, first of all, you are not bothering me; second of all: I am probably the worst person to give out any tips because at the end of the day every writer has its own way to write and compose a story. But well, I can try to give you some basics? I hope these will help you.

1) Read. Read. Read. It sounds stupid and kinda ridiculous? But honestly, you can pretty much ask every writer and they will tell you to go and read. It gives you a great and detailed view of how other writers did compose their stories. You get a grip for climaxes, turning points, a feeling for characters. Plus, it is good to stay in touch with your grammar and you get to know new words. Which is good, trust me. You later on need all the words you can think of.

2) WRITE. You think I am kidding, right? But really, the mystery behind every story is that the author actually sat down and wrote down all these words. So do this. Every day. Include it in your daily life and write. It doesn’t have to be perfect! Far from it. Just get a routine. And write, write, write.

3) Get to know your characters. Who are they? What are their characteristics? Why do they act the way they do? Find names for them that suit them. Make lists of what they like or don’t like. The more you know about them, the better. Even if you don’t use everything, it gives you a feeling for these people that you will spend quite some time with.

4) Plan your story. Even if you are not one of those writers who write down every detail that happens in each chapter beforehand, you need to know where to start, the climax, turning points of your story and the ending. I, for example, like to plan a lot because I get lost on the way otherwise. But there are also writers who have no idea where their story might lead them. But those are rare. Planning is the better option, trust me. It’s good to know where to go, see where some struggling might be before you’re at that point in your story and you have no idea what to do or how to solve this.

5) This is optional but I find this very helpful. Before you actually start writing your story, pitch it. Basically sum up your plot in one sentence. Trust me, if you have a good pitch, you have a good plot. It also shows you where some flaws of your story might be. After that, write down a short summary. Again, I find this useful to see if the story works that way.

6) Write about the things you are familiar with. Especially for a beginner it is very helpful to use a setting f.e. that you know like the back of your hand. Like set the story in your hometown. Or when you are a student, you can write about everyday life of universities and all that. If you decide to not do that, do some research. Your readers will know in 0.2 seconds if you actually know what you are writing about or not.

7) There will come a point when you are struggling with writing. We all have heard about the BS of muses and such. It is BS! You can wait for your so called writing muse for 10 years if it makes you happy. But you won’t get your story finished this way. So if you are struggling, go back in your plot and look where the problem lies. A character you didn’t know well enough? A flaw in your plotting? Find it. And I am telling you, once you did that, your writing flow will be back in no time!

8) Don’t be afraid of mistakes. Or grammar issues. Just write. Write. You can edit everything else later on. So just, write!

9) When you are finished writing your story one day: Congrats. You did it. Awesome. Now let it rest for some time. And then take a look at it again. Re-read it again. Edit it.

10) And once you are satisfied with that: Go and find a beta. But please not your best friend or a family member. They are not honest with you most of the time and they will take it easy on you. Your readers won’t do that. Besides, I am not exaggerating but a good beta is worth everything. Because when you spent so much time with your characters and your writing and that plot itself, you get blind. You don’t see flaws anymore. A beta finds them because they look at it for the very first time when you spent months writing it. So trust your beta when they say…this or that has some flaws or this or that doesn’t work. Your beta wants to help you, not make you angry. Which doesn’t mean you have to do everything they say, but take it into consideration!

And one of the most important rules of writing: WRITE FOR YOURSELF! Write the story you wanna read. Write the story only you can write! Don’t think about readers. Or how to publish your story, let alone thinking this is the next bestseller. It won’t work this way, trust me. So just think about yourself. It’s your story. So just write it down. Everything else comes after that.

And that is another long and hard way, paved often with criticism, tears and frustration. And happiness. Sometimes.

#writing #writing tips #you will hate it #you will love it #you think everything sucks #but at the end of the day #knowing you just did that #you wrote that #the best feeling ever #answered #anonymous #thanks for asking!