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nogenderbee · 5 months

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all pjsk boys with a reader who collect dolls?

please and thank you! :)

(i havent reqested anything before so i dont know how to do this)

Of course! And don't worry, you did great <3 I'm sorry for making it so short but I just didn't really wanted to force it so... I left it like this... but well I hope you'll like it either way! ^^

Don't ask me how Toya part turned to be medium length and others are short...

♡˗ˏ✎*ೃ˚ 𝔻𝕠𝕝𝕝 𝕔𝕠𝕝𝕝𝕖𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟 ₊˚ˑ༄

*ੈ✩‧₊˚ Akito, Toya, Tsukasa, Rui with a doll collector!reader

*ੈ✩‧₊˚ fluff, can be read as platonic too

*ੈ✩‧₊˚ @bleachtheidiot @badwhole @yulikesminori @miya-akane @toyaswif3y @toyaslove @bl4cktourmaline @alicewinterway18 @indi-has-fallen

✧ Akito for one is scared for life because of your dolls

✧ since he came inside your room, he always suggested his place or any cafe, or anything else as your meeting place

✧ obviously tho, he couldn't do it together... so when he comes over to you, you can see him looking everywhere, it's like he's counting dolls over and over to make sure none disappeared

✧ he watched a horror movie once or twice and it just sticked to him

✧ but of course when you point out his paranoid behavior, he'll hardly disagree and pretend like he's just watching what kind of dolls you have so he won't get you a double

✧ so now he has no choice but actually get you a doll...

✧ he becomes a bit used to them but he's still not the most fond of them and will definitely never be, but he can try to tolerate them more or less for now...

"What?! Me?! Never! I was just... checking what type of dolls to look for... your birthday gift."

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✧ somehow Toya was immidietly interested in them, even if you collect dolls that look as if they're straight out of horror movie

✧ he even asked you to introduce him to all of them and if he can have a closer look

✧ he'll respect it if you tell him, he can't as he's aware you may not want your collection to get damaged

✧ but if you let him, you can literally see this boy playing with dolls and he's not harsh with them! He almost hold them like a baby as if he was afraid of hurting them a single bit

✧ and if your dolls have names or even "personalities", "interests" and so on, he'd be more than happy to hear about them!

✧ but the best part is when you get a new doll, it's like you get them for both of you because his eyes immidietly sparkle and he'll be in heaven if you let him name one

✧ unfortunately, he doesn't have matching dolls or anything like that with you since he's sure his dad will react negatively at him having those kind of "toys"

"What a cutie... I fee like her name could be Annabelle! ... Huh? Why not?"

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✧ the first time Tsukasa walked into your room, he literally got jumpscared by all the dolls in your house

✧ I feel like he'd get reminded of the horror movies and be really spooked by your collection

✧ but he gets used to it eventually and even starts liking them

✧ soon, he starts even talking to them! Buts it's not weird, it's cute how he's so polite even with dolls

✧ now he knows what to buy you for gifts! It could be a doll or new outfit for your current ones~

✧ if you gave him a doll once, you can be sure he'll keep it safely on a shelf

✧ I feel like his sister would also like dolls so it'd just be that first impression that'd surprise him or maybe she cannonly does and I just don't remember the event

"Welcome Miss Elizabeth, your hair is lovely! Oh Miss Clara, is that a new dress? Haha! Your dolls are as lovely as always Y/N!"

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✧ once Rui saw your collection, he was immidietly interested in them!

✧ definitely asked you if you make your own dolls as well and it you do or happen to think of it... he's so happy to have something similiar with you

✧ also if he'll most likely offer to make them mogę by hiding simple and small mechanism inside them but it's all up to you if it happens or not

✧ most likely tries inventing some doll or something doll-alike as a birthday for you but it's very likely he failed as he's creating something like that for the first time and it turned out to be more of a robot than a doll...

✧ he collects robots, you collect dolls, you're officially the best combo ever and there's no declining that!

✧ if you ever get called a weirdo because of your interests, you can be sure he'll stand by your side. He doesn't care if he's being insulted but he definitely won't tolerate when that happens to you

"Oh~ is that a new doll? How lovely! Would you like to introduce me to them properly?"

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shootingstarrfish · 1 month

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Hi I wanted to ask one of my fav obey me artists this question: Least favorite to favorite characters? If you wanna say why, that'd be cool. If anything! Please have a nice day!

hii there!!! dearest anon stop being so nice you're going to make me cry AHSHDHD thank you,,, <33333

but what a fun question! for anyone who doesn't want to read my stupid long explanation for each character i will leave this tierlist here! all tiers (except the first tier) are organised by most to least liked within the tier from left to right

no i dont hate lucifer, it's just facebook relationship status (aka complicated <3)

i have plenty of opinions though so i'll go ahead and give some explanations too!! >:D under the cut because there's a lot of rambling here LOL

some of the list is a bit boring because i cant really say i hate or even dislike any characters, and i don't wanna be mean about any characters just cause they're not necessarily my favourites so!

that being said lucifer pisses me off to a comical degree and he absolutely doesn't belong at the bottom but my feelings about him are so ridiculously complicated i don't know where else he belongs? i wish so badly that i could hate him in an uncomplicated way and move on but as an eldest sibling he's such a personal attack on me and i hate it. he's me, i'm him it's horrible. every time i start to think "ahh he's not that bad" he opens his mouth and makes me regret thinking that. i still think about the time i chose to kiss him on the ferris wheel and he held his hand out after and i took it and he said it reminded him of his dead sister, i will never stop holding it against him. he deserves to be loved and taken care of and he also should be thrown off a cliff. im quite certain if i had to assign myself a sin i would pick pride and i hate it >:( (this is all very lighthearted lol)

diavolo used to viscerally annoy me for no good reason when i first started the game, but over time he's grown on me and i'd say now i'm neutral-positive on him!! no idea why i hated him, i was just very salty for no reason hahaha i've recently come to appreciate his character a lot more, im very :( about how lonely he must be and i want him to have more genuine friends please solmare

i think mephisto really is just the kind of character i need to see more of to like, he's very interesting to read character analyses of (and kinda relatable tbh?) but i just need more in game is all! i love his silly lil poses those are real fun, and he is pretty

levi is another i also used to hate out of nowhere? i was neutral on him initially and then i suddenly hated him with a burning passion until one of my friends told me she really loved him and im physically incapable of hating a character my friends love so we're chill again HAHA slowly beginning to like him though! what a pathetic sopping wet cat of a man, it's GREAT

OUUGHH i so badly wanna be able to love beel more, it hurts me to have to put him here but unfortunately this is the way it is... i think it's more accurate to say i love the idea of beel? and ive noticed i really like him everywhere that isnt the game, which again is unfortunate :,)))

LUKE IS MY SON he is babyyyyyyy that's all i have to say <333 my precious lil sonboy he deserves the whole entire world

everyone loves mammon, and i am no exception :D he's not necessarily my type hence why he's neatly placed right in the middle but ugh i love a guy who tries and fails miserably to act tough but is super sweet inside, what a guy <3 ok i flip flopped between putting satan and simeon in the love tier because i am so very fond of both of them, but that's too many characters up there so imagine they're both in a weird tier purgatory between the 2 LOL

i am in fact going to marry simeon and then we will raise luke together it's a fact simeon is everything he's pretty and beautiful and a very complex and interesting character ahhh

SATAN MY LOVE he's a very interesting case to me in that i feel on paper he should be the kind of character who would be on the top of the list! he's smart and kind and unhinged and would kill for you and he likes cats!!! truly husband material i adore him

im going to marry thirteen, thanks for listening to my ted talk <3 my darling beautiful wife who would laugh hysterically if i fell down the stairs i love u thirteen <3333333 we will be wed tomorrow and we will live the dream in her silly lil cave of pranks and curses

i dont know what it is about raphael but i adore him??? is it the wet kitten swag? the done with life expression? his ridiculous outfit? i couldnt tell you but i saw him for the first time and i was immediately obsessed everything i learn about him just makes me more obsessed, i love the fact that he enjoys solomons cooking, the way he's good at sewing and is kind but kinda scary, what a fun character

i could talk endlessly about solomon oh how i love this silly househusband wizard guy i was pretty neutral on him in the og game, and then he swiftly stole my heart in nightbringer and now i would eat his terrible cooking any day of the week just to see him smile <3 if i die seeing him happy that's probably the best way to go out all his calls and messages are sooo cute and they make me melt im in love please just one chance...

barbatos and solomon are typically equal on the list i'd say? but the barbatos brainrot is hitting harder now so he gets to be ever so slightly higher this once hahaha barbs is another that took a while to grow on me, not that i ever disliked him or anything but i definitely overlooked him at first! design wise i absolutely LOVE him, his demon form is definitely one of my absolute favourites. the unique but still put together suit?? the ruffles?? the bone wing horns?? ugh he's just very pretty, and SO interesting as well love a calm collected guy who totally has the potential to destroy you if he so wishes but has a soft spot for you

and of course, real shocker im sure, at the tippy top of the list would be asmo and belphie my beloveds <333 i love them both equally and i could never put one above the other i actually started playing obey me for belphie because one of my favourite character tropes is The Tired One TM, and im absolutely not immune to a cute emo boy either. i've grown to really love his sass and the way he hides his manipulative nature behind his sweet and innocent appearance hehe i also do love how ridiculously forward and blunt he is at times, what a silly guy while belphie was very predictable, asmo was a very out of nowhere character for me! i distinctly remember seeing him initially and thinking "avatar of lust?? i guess he's pretty but he'll probably just be the fuckboy character who makes nonstop innuendos and has no character beyond that, and i'm too asexual for this" so i avoided him a lot at first, but i'm very weak for how kind and gentle and charismatic he is, and the way he puts his all into everything and everyone <333 it didnt take long for me to realise that he's almost exactly the kind of person i aspire to be more like

also miura ayme gives me so much gender envy its not fair send tweet

#if u read all this.... thank u sdfhjhd i am high fiving u right now <333 #AND THANK U FOR ASKING ANON this was fun to consider #i like overthinking categories and lists so this was delightful for me #ask box #obey me

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ropebuny · 2 days

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im so sorry but i can't with the pedo callout post and then the posts right next to it for daddy to do stuff to you on your blog djksgehrk. like -- i might be wrong here -- but is it possible faggotrocious and you both have..... kink related fantasies? of ageplay? with no actual evidence that you're fr acting on them outside of kink contexts? there's no actual evidence either u or faggotrocious is sexually abusing underage people or being sexually abused; that'd be a different thing. what you screenshotted are some edgy posts where it's unclear how much fantasy it is, sure, but given the context of horny posting can we assume it's a kink? i swearrrrr to god ppl take any chance to cancel trans fems w "gross" kinks at any moment lmao

I understand what you mean. but you’re saying like I made that post to ‘cancel trans fems w gross kinks’ which I don’t appreciate btw. this has nothing to do with cancelling trans fems with gross kinks. I’m an avid supporter or gross kinks, very clearly. lots of my mutuals are gross trans fems and I love them with all of my heart and I was in a relationship with one for 3.5 years and my best friend is a trans masc with gross kinks.

but this person I posted about literally reblogs things like “you hate pedos for loving children more than you ever will” that is Not normal horny posting btw. and them saying how “pedos are silly haha :3 ^_^” is Not normal horny posting btw. and literally nowhere on there blog is stated that this is all fantasy. but it is on mine. so please don’t compare my posts with theirs lol. and they rbed a photo of literal teenagers and made a weird tag that said something like “I need to be them. and I need to [redacted]” which I can only speculate means something sexual towards the kids in the picture. which is Not normal horny posting when you’re involving actual kids. like we aren’t even on the hypothetical side anymore, that is a photo of actual teenagers they reblogged on a blog where they talk about being a pedo, supporting pedos etc… is that not a little weird to you ? and not like. oh weird kinks, whatever. but like. weird, on the illegal territory ? weird, like this isn’t a kink anymore because you are involving not only hypothetical but also literal kids ? it’s not like they post ageplay like I do where I, an adult, want to pretend to be little with a consenting partner and I post about my fantasies. they post things like “pedos are silly ^_^ x3” which is weird in my opinion, because you are lumping all pedos in one positive group. like why would you do that unless you were a pedo or supported them ? like talking about pedos in any light that isn’t “I hate them” on nsfw tumblr is weird to me. cause even ageplay accounts on here are like “dni if you’re an actual pedo” but this person has never written anything like that, but instead reblogs what clearly seems like pro-pedo posts. which is WEIRD to me and no longer considered a kink and many others agreed with me

like I’m all for kink positivity. I think people using the ‘p3do bait’ tag is weird as hell but if I check their profile and see that they are over 18, not much I can do. but that person I called out has no age in their bio which is immediately a red flag. and the pedo joking, calling themselves a pedo and how they support pedos etc… is not normal horny posting. and even if they thought it was and they weren’t an actual pedo, they are making a community for pedos to interact with. I make it avidly clear on my blog that I despise actual pedos and I constantly make sure to out them so when I saw this, I did so. without ever thinking about their gender or if they’re trans cause that’s the least that matters in this situation. like if one of my mutuals rbed something like this, I’d immediately have the same problem with them. and you don’t need to “actually sexually abuse anyone underage” like you say there is no proof they are doing so. yes,,,,, but if you’re a pedo who has sexual thoughts about kids and posts about it, you’re a bad person. no actual inappropriate contact with a child is needed for you to be considered a bad person in that case

#my asks

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cynic-view-ahead · 20 days

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20 Questions for Fic Writers

I was tagged by @aleheartilly for this meme thing (thank you!!) and I'm gonna try to do it even though I have a grand total of technically two (2) fics lmao!

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

Technically 2 but since Lion's Oath is a series/chronicle... 8

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

72,992

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Final Fantasy VIII

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

1- Lion's Oath 1: Space (32) (Ugh lmao it's so old)

2- Lion's Oath 6: Lost (21)

3- Lion's Oath 3: Wings (19)

4- Lion's Oath 2: Knight (15)

5- Lion's Oath 7: Fate (12)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Always! Someone took the time to read and express how my writing has made them feel; I'll definitely take the time to express gratitude to them and self-indulge a bit by geeking out about my work! <3

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I think Lion's Oath 1: Space wins angstiest ending? Lion's Oath 6: Lost is angsty but ends on a hopeful note, and Lion's Oath 5: Messenger is more of a cliffhanger so... I like angst but not in my endings normally haha

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Definitely Knight! I still really like how the ending of that chapter turned out!

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Never did so far. I think I'd find it a bit funny though... and maybe flattering? Like wow my writing has instilled enough rage in someone that they had to tell me! I dunno, it'd be amusing.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I did in the past, and plan to when Lion's Oath progresses a bit more! I'm not sure what 'kinds' there are but for Squinoa specifically it's going to start very slow and simple, with a focus on enthusiastic consent and (of course) emotions! I do have ideas that are a bit kinkier but there's quite a ways to go before those.

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

I haven't, though I've thought about writing some KH Strifehart stuff (does that even count as a crossover? lmao)

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of, that'd be so weird and funny though, I mean it's not like I'm making money off of this so what's the point of stealing it lmao

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

No, I guess I could translate my own fics in French? Haha

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

I haven't! How does that even work I wonder?

14. What's your all-time favourite ship?

Love me some Squall/Rinoa (surprising I know), close second is Zelda/Link! <3

15. What's a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

Probably Lion's Oath LOL in the sense that I don't think I'll ever look at it and go ''this is it, this is over and done!'' I guess that's the cool thing about it being a series

16. What are your writing strengths?

I've been told I'm good with characterizations?

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

I think my vocabulary could definitely be more extensive. I often find myself struggling to convey the exact meanings I want for dialogues/descriptions/atmosphere etc and using the same words a lot oops

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

If it fits with the context it's good, I'd stick to French though 'cause it's what I know along with English. Wouldn't risk potentially butchering a language I don't personally know haha

19. First fandom you wrote for?

The Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time! Back in like... 2004/05? Oof haha it was BAD.

20. Favourite fic you've ever written?

I think it's Lion's Oath 3: Wings. It's got a lot of fluff and a little bit of spiciness and I remember having a lot of fun writing it! Plus writing Badass Sorceress Rinoa is always a treat.

#tagged #tag game #meme #meme game #my shit #chronicles of a lion's oath #tag

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ur-momz-left-nut · 5 months

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SIOMON LOBOTOMY AU (spinoff fanfic) (Pt 2: Betty's Lab)

"Good morning, princess," Simon said as his eyes flicked open.

"I like it when you call me that."Betty smiled while extending her body to the lengths of the couch.

Simon turned to his other side so that he was now facing Betty. Betty lifted a hand and caressed his cheek, eventually leading to his messy bed head, kneeding through his knots gently. Betty sat up into a criss cross position, and Simon followed. Their knees were touching, and Simon could feel Betty's warm breath against his face. Simon cocked his head to the side in confusion.

"What are you thinking, my love?" Simon asked to fill the quiet room. Betty said nothing. She just lifted a hand and separated a small part of his hair. She lifted her other hand and started to braid the short strand. She didn't tie it. She just let it hang to fall to his forehead. Curious, Simon picked it up and tried to look at it. His eyes rolled up, then back down to Betty.

"Pretty," Simon smiled broadly, one that drew from one rosy cheek to another.

"I wanna know your idea, I dreamed about it last night," Simon revealed.

"Ah, yes, I almost forgot! Follow me," Betty jumped off the couch and tugged at Simon's hand. Unready Simon let out a squeak.

"Oh, sorry!" Betty exclaimed, letting go of his arm and taking a short pause.

Betty's face turned to a smirk, similar to that of a mad scientist. This concerned Simon, but he brushed it off because Betty usually looked like this when she was invested in something. Simon followed Betty up the stairs like a lost puppy.

"I excited to show you this part of me, Simon!" Betty expressed.

Simon thought this was weird because he was under the impression that they weren't hiding anything from each other. Betty brought Simon into the storage closet. The room was left untouched since Simon moved into Betty's house about two years ago. Betty went on her tip toes to reach and bring down the ladder to the attic.

Shocked, Simon said, "Wait, I thought you said the attic was filled with dead bodies!"

"Haha, Simon, that was a joke. You're so gullible," Betty giggled.

Simon wanted to say he was joking, but that'd be a lie.

"Now," she said, walking up the ladder as Simon followed. "Welcome to my lair of science!"

Simon got up from his crouching position and looked around. Simom had so many questions, but he didn't want to overwhelm her. She had a reason for all of it, and he figured she'd get to that eventually.

The attic was filled with lab tables, patient beds, papers with equations, and a locked closet labeled "failed experiments."

Betty pulled up two chairs and told Simon to sit. "I'm prepared to answer any questions you may have. I just want to say that I don't use this lab for anything bad, even though I have the power to."

Simon was flustered, "If you don't use it for anything bad, then I suppose I don't have any questions at all." He thought for a moment, "Oh, I do have one. What kinds of things do you do in here?"

"Well, I've made many potions, and I've tested them on a few of Candy Kingdom's Rats, but for some, it's hard to tell if they work or not, so I've never used them on a person," Betty explained.

"So, are you gonna make me drink one of those?" Simon gulped nervously.

"Not exactly. None of my potions could possibly have enough power to fix you... No offense," Betty elaborated.

"None taken!" Simon smiled.

"Alright, well then good." Betty said, putting her hands on her knees for more leverage to lift her body off the chair. "What I have planned for you is different in many ways," she paused, "Simon?"

"Yes?"

"What I say, you have to promise not to be scared, ok? I want to help you" Betty told.

Simon nodded, even more nervous than he was before. "Now," Betty said, walking over to a massive chalkboard and flipping it over to reveal a pre-drawn picture of a diagram and a tool. The diagram was that of a brain surrounded by a skull and rotated to the side as a side profile to better see the process. The front of the brain was highlighted in red chalk and labeled frontal lobe, and the tool was labeled orbitoclast. Betty picked up a piece of chalk and asked hesitantly, "Simon, have you ever heard of a lobotomy?"

(NEXT PART OUT WITHIN THE NEXT FEW DAYS)

#simon lobotomy #simon x betty #simon petrikov #betty grof #adventure time #fiona and cake #adventure time au

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riddlerosehearts · 2 months

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🐍 Thank you so much again for the thorough response! I love how much thought you put into Nico, it’s so easy to tell how much you love him hehe. And yes the snake is because Jamil’s my favourite character! They also have very boopable snouts in real life. Ignihyde is full of introverts who like to stay in their own rooms, but also full of nerds who are super into whatever they’re interested in. I bet there’d be at least one or two people who like Mythomagic there if it were canon in twst (1/4?)

🐍, nobody in PJO canon seemed to share his interest so I’d love for if Nico could discover friendship through his favourite card game and be happy there… but him feeling right at home in Ramshackle with a small number of residents is also just so him. Will also strikes me as someone who’d be in RSA instead, so Nico having some people he’d be willing to stay for in NRC would be so important for him to not feel lonely. Yuu and Grim to the rescue, I hope he likes cats. (2/?) 🐍 I’d give so much to see him feel accepted and brighten up a bit more.I’ll be honest I am super, super bad at making headcanons and writing so I really enjoy reading other people’s stuff far more, I always feel embarrassed about my own ideas or just can’t come up with much. BUT Leo in Ignihyde - I think he’d have a blast with all the technology lying around that he could play with and use for inventions, even if he’s weirded out by getting sorted into somewhere so gloomy-looking at first (3/?) 🐍He might not really get what other students are nerding out about like the latest anime though, he doesn’t strike me as the type to be super into shows and media (chronically offline). He’d have a lot of projects going on in his room all the time lying around that he keeps working on, but he starts more before he finishes them because he just has so many ideas. (4/?) 🐍 not sure how he’d interact with other Ignihyde students but I suuure hope Azul never notices all the cool stuff Leo’s making because he’d want to market them, stat. Leo’s not going to be good at reading those contracts down to the fine print. Also I know the curse is a Shroud family only thing but Leo + canon flame powers makes me so want to see him with fire hair as well haha. PLEASE do share if you have your own ideas about Leo in NRC, I’d love to hear them!! (5/5) 🐍Sorry about the multiple asks, I didn't know I'd write so much either 😭 I'm actually very okay if you want to chat abt it privately like over chat or Discord (so there's no word limit) but I'm ok sticking to asks as well if you prefer!

so before i reply to all of this i will say that there's actually a way to get around the silly 500-character limit in asks! it was removed ages ago in the app, but for some reason it's still in place on the website… unless you go to the dashboard view of someone's blog (so that'd be this link for my blog) and send an ask from there. that lets you send an ask with up to 4,096 characters. don't ask how i discovered that limit LMAO. but that should work so you can stay anonymous if you want!

i love nico a ridiculous amount lol, he was my favorite PJO character ever since i first read the original books. and even though i do have some issues with the sun and the star, i still love his development. it actually reminds me a lot of how idia, even though his anxiety definitely hasn't gone away, has been shown since the end of book 6 to be making more of an effort to put himself out there and try to be friendly with his classmates because he does want to have friends, he's just traumatized and scared.

you have excellent taste for jamil being your fave. i should post some of my thoughts about scarabia on here at some point because i like both jamil and kalim a lot and could talk for ages about how fascinated i am by their dynamic, but some people have the most shockingly bad takes about jamil 😭 do you have any thoughts on what PJO cabin he'd be in?

that's true, i did think about how ignihyde probably has some students who'd be into mythomagic or a twst equivalent of it! but then i thought that since nico is still kind of closed off and most people in ignihyde are so unsociable that even cater has claimed to not have a single friend from there, he might not manage to connect with those people before transferring out. although it also occurred to me that maybe if he and leo were there in ignihyde at the same time, things could be a bit different?

see, i've always thought there were a surprising amount of similarities between leo and nico but the books never called attention to them since the two basically never got to interact. and i wish they had, because i think they could have an interesting friendship if they got to know each other better! so maybe in this AU they could be friends, and leo could be there encouraging nico to stay and helping him understand the tech. i've also gotten myself kind of attached to the idea of him moving into ramshackle though! i guess either idea could work, as long as nico gets to be happy.

i haven't had a chance to ask my friend (who i've referred to as a will solace expert because she has so many headcanons and thoughts about him) where she thinks will would end up yet! i do think that if he somehow ended up at NRC, he'd be one of the few light magic users there.

"i hope he likes cats" reminds me that i always thought it would be funny if nico DID like cats but was allergic to them. and still just insisted on having one anyway. well, hey, grim is constantly telling us that he's NOT a cat, so maybe he gets around this problem lol.

omg i totally get the feeling of being embarassed about your ideas, anon!! for the longest time i used to not really post any of my own thoughts because i feel like i'm not very creative and it made me nervous. i'm also not always the best at just thinking up general headcanons and ideas unless i've got some sort of prompt or theme to go by. even now sometimes i post headcanons about my favorite twst ships and such while thinking, what if everyone who reads this hates it. what if someone thinks my interpretation of riddle is so bad that i don't deserve my url ASKFJGFD.

i like your ideas about leo, though!! i did think a bit about how he might be as an NRC student, and i also thought he'd definitely adjust better than nico would (makes a lot of sense that he'd be weirded out by the gloomy atmosphere initially, though) and would be fascinated and excited by all the magical technology and gadgets. i also figure that since he is someone who's always seeking out quiet and personal space to be alone and work on his projects, he wouldn't mind too much that the students tend to keep to themselves. and canonically he tries to be a lot more of a loud outgoing jokester than he really is in order to cover up his insecurities and try to make people like him, so maybe he could make some friends there without feeling like he has to do that.

i think leo made a few pop culture references in the books (one i remember for sure is star trek, though he says he doesn't like it) so maybe he wouldn't quite be chronically offline but he also wouldn't be obsessive about it, because his engineering projects are his top priority. he's definitely not a gamer, but i could see him liking to have background noise while he works sometimes and putting on whatever anime everyone is talking about! …which makes me imagine one of his dorm mates getting annoyed at him because he wasn't paying enough attention to remember their favorite background character from episode 679 of one piece, lol.

oh him meeting azul would be a disaster for SURE lol, let's hope idia warns him and that he doesn't have any unfortunate encounters with floyd and jade. and i'm not sure what a fitting explanation for leo having fire hair would be but i do agree that it would be extremely cool. and for that matter, i guess we'd also need an explanation for idia and ortho's hair if they were in the PJO universe… my first thought is they could either just have normal hair (boring, but it works) or maybe it's an extremely rare hades kid thing.

#asks #anonymous #pjo #twisted wonderland #riordanverse

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When I was a kid I used to wonder how my life would be at the time I reached the ages of my favorite characters; but now that I'm older than almost all of them, I often find myself thinking of the opposite. How do you think Silver and Espio's lives would change within the time it takes them to get to their 20s? Like their dynamics with each other and everyone else around them, milestones in their relationship, other stuff happening in the world, etc. 👉👈

That's an interesting question! I actually find it difficult at times to think of them as Older People Who Are Adults Now™️, but that is mostly because I don't really... see them as characters who are going to be radically different as they age? They're already entirely self-sufficient, the world is at their feet, they do what they want: they might as well be wholly adult-adjacent even at 14 and 16, if that makes sense, haha. But that being said, I really do love the idea that Silver and Espio adopt a Chao after a while, just because Silver is shown to act quite fondly of them in Rivals 2. That'd be Lilac in my fics. And I also like to think they'll get married one day in that world! Plus, Espilver would mean Silver basically lives in the past for good, so I think the date he came to the past for the first time is one they celebrate. And of course the first time he and Espio met! As for their dynamics... Silver's shown to be more easy-going in later games, but I doubt he'll take years to develop that mindset. I do think they'll rub off on each other: Espio can teach Silver a calmer and more focused demeanour that's not fuelled only by black-and-white thinking and a burning desire to make things right but is more oriented on logic, whereas Silver can teach Espio more about seeing the world with wonder and optimism.

As for the people around them, Charmy does have some growing and developing to do as he moves towards being a teenager, so I figure some things can change there. I think he'll always keep his chipper and upbeat attitude, but perhaps he becomes a bit more responsible and focused over time? That definitely gives Espio less stress to look after him amidst everything else, and for Silver it means that he's less babysitting Charmy when they're hanging out and more spending time with an equal. I don't think Vector will change much, though! And for most of their friends and adversaries, I figure they'll stay quite the same also. So how I imagine the future is that Silver and Espio will just... do the same things as they do as teenagers, namely fight off Eggman, do detective stuff, and just cherish each other. I doubt there'll be anything crazy weird occurring that changes everything, at least!

#silver the hedgehog #espio the chameleon #espilver #I always find it somewhat difficult to think of ways in which Silver can change Espio #vice versa I have plenty but I think Espio doesn't really... have that many flaws‚ to be quite honest?#Silver has many (often related to his good traits‚ which I love) that he thus can improve on #but for Espio I cannot really think of anything that he needs to get better at or be taught about?

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dev-nxbody-h3re · 2 years

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haha I told y'all I'd write a transfem mike au and boy did i

ft: extremely emotionally constipated tgirl, br*tish hater, the self care monster, and the only sane person ever

(the trigger warnings seem dark but I promise it's really not bad at all I promise this is HURT/COMFORT)

TW: internalized transphobia, f slur uncensored (once), swearing, bullying, accidental misgendering (michael is a bit of an idiot in this one lads), misogyny (not from anyone important tho), brief mention of church, mentions of abuse, lengthy emotional breakdown

Michael wasn't normal.

He's known that since forever. He never fit in right at school. He tried, really he did, but nothing he did worked. All of his classmates teased him for being too polite, so he toughened up. They mocked him for being too clean, so he got messy. They bullied him for being too girly, so he manned up.

But nothing worked. He was still Michael, the weird kid, the fag, the nut.

So he fought back. Michael got dirty, he got angry. The first time he punched someone in the nose, seeing their blood staining his hand, he felt disgusting. Not because he'd engaged in violent behavior, but because he liked it.

He liked it.

It was scary.

He racked up enough detentions and suspensions to last a lifetime, enough to miss out on a cool field trip to the aquarium. Whatever. It was just a bunch of dumb fish.

Michael had escaped his legacy as the weird kid. Now he was Michael the bully, the freak, the brute.

Despite everything, he managed to aquire friends. Somehow.

It wasn't on purpose, he would make that clear.

These three hooligans had brute-forced their way into Michael's life, digging up everything Michael had worked so hard to bury and elbowing their way past his carefully constructed defenses.

It was terrifying how easily they broke him. He felt himself unconsciously loosening around them, always having to slam his walls back up quickly. He couldn't relax his guard lest his peers see him for who he truly is.

Even still, with how scared he was around them, he couldn't bring himself to abandon them. He'd grown to.. tolerate the three.

Tolerate, yes. That's the word he'd use to describe their relationship, but truly he knew it was more than just toleration.

He didn't know what it was, because he'd never really stopped to think about it, but deep down he knew he did care about them.

He knew it in the way he knew where the cereal was at Taylor's house, in the way he knew the shortest route from Matthew's to James', the way he knew he'd be welcome to drop by whenever he wanted.

But he was scared. Oh, he was so scared.

Michael had had to adapt to a world that hated him, but that didn't mean he was entirely the person he'd created. Michael Afton was a fabrication; a falsehood. If they knew what he was really like, he was sure they'd never speak to him again.

But it wasn't like he could just tell them and have an open and honest conversation about how he was feeling, eventually leading to their bond growing and their relationship remaining healthy, right? That'd be ridiculous.

So he kept it bottled inside, the correct way to handle emotions.

"Earth to Michael? Hellooooo??" Michael was roused from his thoughts by Matthew snapping his fingers in front of his eyes. "Are you alive in there, big guy?"

Michael frowned, but at what he wasn't sure. "Just zoned out a bit," He muttered.

"Great, awesome. Well anyway, I've gotta head upstairs to Math. Is Taylor still driving?" Matthew and Michael stopped at the stairs, ignoring the other children around them walking to class.

Michael nodded. "Yeah, he's still driving unless he drops dead in the middle of Culinary."

Matthew looked like he wanted to say something, but shook his head. "Haha, yeah.. See you after school, Michaelangelo!" He waved, walking straight into a couple of girls coming down the stairs. Matthew laughed sheepishly, stepping past them and walking upstairs.

Michael laughed inwardly as he went to his art class. He'd made a huge show of needing an art credit to graduate, bemoaning the school for making him take such a girly class, but he secretly really enjoyed it. It was one of the only things he allowed himself to enjoy nowadays.

As he entered the room, he made sure he looked as displeased to be there as possible.

He could get through the last class of the day, no problem.

...

It was not "no problem".

Michael felt bad. He felt really bad. He didn't know why, but three quarters the way through class he had his head in his arms trying not to cry.

He was pretending he fell asleep, of course.

Michael didn't know why he was feeling so awful. He'd just been chatting with a couple of tablemates a few minutes prior, and then he just.. fell apart.

"Hey, man, wake up. Class is almost over, dude." One of his tablemates (he thought his name was Marcus?) spoke up, shaking his arm.

Tears welled up in his eyes again. He blinked them away quickly and sat up, acting as if sleep had made his eyes wet and not whatever was happening to him.

"Hey, Mike, a couple of those chicks over there were talking about you." A kid he vaguely remembered as Trevor gestured to a table close by. Michael wondered why he was bringing it up, it's not as if he really cared.

"Oh yeah? what were they saying?" He asked, gathering up his pencils as the clock ticked nearer to 2:46.

"Kensie's got a crush on you," Trevor whispered. "She says that she loves a man who could pick her up. Haha, dude, you should totally pretend to ask her out, it'd be hilarious!"

His lip twitched. "Who's Kensie?"

Marcus ignored his question. "Oh, that would be so funny! Come on, man, you gotta! She's dumb as a rock, she'd totally fall for it. And it's not like you don't got a line of broads waiting to drool over you anyway, one dumb bitch isn't gonna fuck it up for you."

Michael clenched his teeth, scowling. "That sounds unnecessarily cruel. Can't you guys just lay off, I've got shit to do and I don't have time for your garbage."

Trevor whistled. "Ohhhh, Britain's got a mouth on him! Come on, are you scared Mr. Tough Guy? Can't even muster up the courage to talk to a woman? Hah, Tim was right, you really are a pansy bitch."

"Yeah, man up, she'll just forget it tomorrow!" Marcus agreed, picking his backpack off the floor.

Michael gripped his own backpack with a vice grip. What in the world was wrong with him? Every single sentence they spoke shot barbs into his chest, and for why?

As he opened his mouth to bite out a retort, the bell chimed. The teacher called out a farewell as every student rushed to the door.

Michael pushed past everyone and walked down the hall towards James' class, his knuckles turning white from where he clutched his shirt. He really wanted to punch something, or break something, or just get all of his nervous energy out, but he'd look like a freak if he did. So he settled for wrinkling his shirt a bit.

He saw James standing near a block of lockers waiting for him. As he neared, the boy noticed his presence and jogged over to him.

"Hey, Mickey! You alright?" James, never one for subtlety, asked. Michael sighed.

"Fine. Just.. bad day, I guess." He avoided James' gaze as they walked to the student parking lot.

"Awe, shucks, that's rough. You don't have to go home today, right?" James said, trying to distract Michael from his problems.

"Not right away, the nanny's picking up Evan and Elizabeth from school so I've got a bit before curfew," He replied easily.

"Sweet, dude!" Michael was starting to feel.. hollow. What was wrong with him? "I'm sure as hell not going home today, my parents are having a get together with some people from church and I'd rather not be around for that." James chuckled dryly, wringing his hands together nervously.

"And I'm assuming Matthew is still staying with Taylor for the foreseeable future." To put it very lightly, Matthew had a nasty fight with his parents and was unable to stay there for a while.

"Yup. What can you do, y'know?" His cheery mood fell a bit, but he shook it away. "Come on, we don't want Taylor to get bored and leave us." James grabbed Michael's arm and tugged him along.

Soon enough they found themselves gathering around Taylor's car.

"You guys sure were slow today," Taylor remarked, deadpan as usual.

"There were a lot more people than usual," James said apologetically. Taylor's lips quirked up in a smile.

"It's cool. Not like we've got anywhere to be." He walked to the driver's side of the car and got in, the others following him.

Michael had to sit in the passenger seat because he was, in James' words, freakishly tall. That meant Matthew and James had to share the backseat.

"Oh my god, get your feet off me, gnome," Matthew complained, trying to squirm away from James who was laying sideways in the backseat.

"Why? You love it. You love it soooo much!" James teased, grinning. Matthew groaned.

"No, you fucking stink. You're so gross, ohmygodstop!" Matthew jerked away as James kicked him in the face.

"Boys, settle down back there. You're gonna make me crash the car," Taylor reprimanded, not sounding very enthusiastic.

"Sorry, mom.." They said simultaneously, James sitting correctly while Matthew glared at him.

"Thank you," Taylor said. "Please be more respectful to the only one of us with a license."

"I have my permit," Michael reminded him. Taylor looked at him briefly.

"Your dad doesn't let you drive."

"I could. I passed the test, I just need hours."

"I don't trust you to drive my car," Taylor said, pulling into his driveway. His parents' car was not in the driveway, like usual.

Michael rolled his eyes, grabbing his backpack as he exited the car. The others soon followed, Taylor taking out his keys and unlocking the door.

Michael immediately went to the kitchen to make himself tea, dropping his backpack on the floor.

"Woah, you alright?" Matthew asked, surprised at how quickly he moved.

"Fine," Michael replied curtly, beginning to boil water. He tapped his fingers on the countertop as he stared at the kettle, waiting impatiently for it to steam.

Matthew peered over his shoulder to see what he was doing. "Wow, really going back to England with this one, huh?"

"Yeah, yeah, pip pip cheerio, laugh it up." He grumbled. "I'm only British when it's funny."

"Aww, Mike, you're British all the time!" Matthew grinned, mischief in his eyes. "It's just always funny!"

"Not gonna be as funny when this Brit douses you in boiling water," Michael snarked back, his mouth twitching up into a smile despite himself.

Matthew gave a fake gasp. "Oh, the horror! What ever will I do?!" He chuckled a bit to himself before wrapping his arms around Michael's midsection, resting his head on his shoulder. Michael really couldn't bring himself to care. "But seriously, are you alright man? You're feeling a bit tense."

After a moment of hesitation, Michael nodded. "Yeah, I'm good. I'm great, even. Doing just peachy."

Matthew clicked his tongue in disbelief. "You're a shit liar."

Once again, Michael nodded. "Don't know why I even bothered."

"You know you can tell me what's up." Matthew prompted, stroking Michael's stomach with his thumb. "I'm the least judgy person to ever exist, ever."

Michael stared at the kettle. "I don't want to talk about it," He said simply. He expected more prodding and quite a bit more teasing, but all he got was a hum.

"Alright. Just know I'm here if you wanna talk." Matthew moved his head closer to Michael's. He could feel his vocal chords vibrating against his shoulder.

The simplicity of it all made Michael feel weird. That was it? No digging in, no relentless jabbering? None of the 'are you sure's and 'come on man's? It was odd, but not unwelcome. He really had to start getting used to basic respect, but it never failed to upturn him every time it happened.

After a moment of silence, Michael spoke. "Are you gonna leave?"

Matthew shifted his head. "Do you want me to?"

Michael blinked down at the kettle, letting out a breath. "No, not really." He opened his mouth to continue, but decided against it at the last moment. He still had somewhat of an image to maintain, even if his friends were slowly chipping away at it one act of kindness at a time.

He felt Matthew smile. "Awesome. Can I have some tea, too? You make the best tea."

In lieu of an answer, Michael reached up and grabbed another cup out of the cupboard.

"Thanks, you're the best." He replied, squeezing Michael lightly.

As they waited for the water to boil (maybe watching it was making the water nervous or something), Michael felt the silence slowly turn tense. Maybe it was just him and to Matthew, everything was fine. But as he was left alone with only the sounds of water beginning to boil to distract him from his thoughts, something in him burned to be released.

"Matthew, I don't think I-" Michael choked on his words, everything he'd been thinking about suddenly far out of his reach. But he couldn't go back, not after he'd already got this far. It would look weird; Matthew would judge him. He took a deep breath, feeling Matthew's weight behind him just that little bit more. "I don't think I like being... being me, anymore."

He felt his throat closing up as his vision blurred with tears, but his chest felt lighter. Michael swallowed against emotion, gripping the counter to prevent his hands from shaking. What was he thinking? He fucked everything up, he couldn't take it back, what was Matthew thinking? He was quiet, he was too quiet, what if Matthew hated him? What if-

"Hey, that's okay." Matthew reassured, bringing his hands up to Michael's arms. "If you don't like being you, just switch it up until you find something you like. You don't have to keep being this you if you don't like him." Matthew shrugged, seemingly unaware of Michael's inner turmoil. "That's just my opinion, though. I'm not really the guy to ask about an identity crisis, that's more Taylor's thing."

Michael drew in a deep breath. As he thought of a reply that wouldn't make him burst into tears, the kettle began whistling. Thankful for the distraction, he dislodged his arms from Matthew's hands and poured the water into the two cups, pulling two teabags out of the box.

He let them steep, finding his answer after a moment.

"No, it's.. it's alright. I just need to man up and deal with it. It'll go away," Michael said, finally managing to swallow back his tears. The statement felt wrong.

Matthew slapped him on the stomach. "Okay, you're being a stupid ass idiot, I'm bringing in the big guns." Michael's eyes widened as he knew exactly what Matthew was referring to.

"No, wait-"

"JAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMEEEEEEESSSSS!" Matthew yelled. "MICHAEL ISN'T TAKING CARE OF HIS HEAAAAAAALTHHHHH!"

Almost immediately, Michael heard what he thought might be the sounds of several rabid dogs fighting drawing nearer and nearer as the seconds passed.

"NOT ON MY FUCKING WATCH HE ISN'T." James entered the kitchen at extreme speeds, sliding on the tile and almost colliding with the fridge.

A moment later, Taylor came sliding in, breathing heavily. "What did... he do... this time...?"

"He told himself to man up as if his feelings don't matter!" Matthew tattled, Michael shrinking into himself in embarrassment.

"Alright that's it, you're in time out. I sentence you to one hour MINIMUM-" James accentuated that word heavily- "in the Cuddle Dungeon!"

"Hey now, wait, I think there's been a misunderstanding-" Michael tried to plead his case, but was interrupted by Taylor.

"Should've thought about the consequences of your actions before you dismissed your mental well-being, young man!"

In an instant, everything Michael had worked so hard to repress came bursting out. That hurt. He didn't know why, but it hurt so bad.

Everyone went dead silent as Michael began to sob. He leaned hard on his hands, digging his palms into the edge of the counter.

"Oh, Michael." Taylor stepped up to him, nudging Matthew out of the way. He grabbed his arm and turned Michael to face him. "What's wrong?"

The others, not prepared to deal with Michael crying, stood in the kitchen awkwardly.

"I don't know what's wrong with me.." Michael tearfully admitted.

"Why do you think there's something wrong with you?" He took Michael's hands into his own, gripping them firmly.

"There's something wrong with me." He reiterated. "I'm disgusting, I- I'm horrible, I-"

"No, hey, don't say that about yourself." He felt Taylor guiding him out of the kitchen. Taylor pushed him onto the couch, wrapping a blanket around his shoulders.

After a second, he felt weight on each side. He cracked open a tear-filled eye and saw the others sitting next to him.

"You're amazing, Mike. I dunno who told you that but I'm gonna beat them up," James said earnestly. Michael didn't quite believe James could physically fight anyone, as short as he was.

"Come on, honey. Can you tell us why you're feeling like this?" Taylor rubbed his hand across his back, leaning up against his side. Michael almost melted at the nickname.

"I don't like being me," He sobbed. "It hurts to be me. I- It's so dumb." Michael wiped at his eyes, fruitlessly trying to cease his pathetic crying.

"I don't think it's dumb. I'm sure the others don't think it's dumb either." Taylor reassured. "Why don't you like being you?"

Michael took a moment to think about it. "It- it just hurts. I just wanna-" He made frustrated, angry motions with his hands, seemingly mimicking destroying something. "I just wanna get rid of it!"

"Get rid of what?" James asked, his hand on his knee.

"The- the- the-" Michael hummed in frustration, unable to articulate exactly what he was feeling. "The Michael! Just.. Michael! I wanna.. I wanna be everything but Michael!"

After the longest 'short pause' Michael had ever sat through, he continued. "I don't know. I just don't know. I'm sorry, I shouldn't ha-"

"No, no, it's okay not to know. I understand what you're feeling, it's not stupid, alright?" Taylor said, sharing a brief look with Matthew and James.

Michael gave a disbelieving scoff. "You're just saying that to make me feel better." He tried once again to wipe his eyes, eventually just giving up.

"It's true. I've had many an identity crisis in my day."

"It's not an identity crisis!" Michael wailed, another round of sobbing spurred on.

"Hey man, no offense but that is literally what an identity crisis is," Matthew said. Michael just sobbed harder.

James and Taylor gave him a look. "What did I do?"

"Just.. forget it," James replied, shaking his head.

"Mike, wh-" Taylor scooted closer to him.

"Stop!" He whined, bringing his feet up on the couch, head resting on his knees.

A pause.

"Stop what?" Matthew asked.

Taylor shushed him. "Do you not want to be called Michael anymore?"

Michael(?) hesitated for a moment before shaking his head.

"Oh. Oh," Taylor cooed, running his fingers through (?)'s hair. "That's okay. Do you have an idea of what you want to be called?"

His breath hitched in a sob, once again shaking his head.

"Okay." Taylor took a deep breath. "I have a question for you, alright?"

(?) nodded, peeking over his knees to look at Taylor.

"Do you know what being transgender is?"

(?) thought about it for a bit, and then shook his head. He could tell Taylor was nervous, but about what he wasn't sure.

Taylor cracked a smile. "Well, I'm transgender. It- It means that I was born a boy, but I'm not anymore."

He blinked in confusion. "What do you mean?"

"I'm nonbinary. It's like.. a third gender. I'm not a boy or a girl. Some people were born girls and became boys, and some people were born boys and became girls. I picked neither." Taylor explained, eyes darting up to Matthew and James. So they knew, then. "That's what being transgender is."

He tried to process the information, thinking it over before responding. It was obvious that being "transgender" was important to Taylor. "So there's secret genders nobody told me about?"

Taylor laughed. "I mean, yeah I guess. I have a secret gender."

(?) nodded. "Okay. Um, if you're non.. uh.."

"Nonbinary." Taylor corrected.

"That. If you're that, um, is there like a secret he or she option? Since you're not a boy or girl."

"I use they and them. Like when you're talking about a group of people," They said.

"That's cool." (?) sniffed, wiping his tears on his jeans. "Why are you telling me this?"

Taylor smiled. "Well, sweetheart-" (?) squeaked in response to the nickname.

James 'aww'ed from (?)'s other side. "That was adorable."

"Did you like that, sweetheart?" Matthew teased, tousling (?)'s hair gently. (?)'s face flushed, and he buried his head in his arms.

"Do you think you're a boy?" Taylor asked simply. The sentence threw (?) off, snapping his head up.

"Of course I am." He answered, more of a knee-jerk reaction than anything.

"Take a bit to think about it and then get back to us." James patted him on the arm. "Meanwhile, I believe you left your tea in the kitchen, so I'll be getting that."

James stood up, shoving Matthew off the couch just for fun. He walked into the kitchen giggling.

"That rat fuck." Matthew climbed back on the couch, settling up against (?).

(?), however, took some time to think. Actually think. Was he a boy?

The obvious answer was yes, because he was born a boy. But what Taylor said threw that theory out the window. It was confusing, but it made sense. Kind of? Transgender people could like.. do that. Gender crossing. (?) briefly wondered if transgender people were shapeshifters.

He kind of wanted to be a shapeshifter. Imagine all the things he could do. What would he do? Well, he'd probably make himself shorter, he'd never really liked how tall he'd gotten. He'd for sure get rid of any facial hair, that's a given. He already had decently long hair, but what if it went down to his ass? He would be able to put it up in a ponytail. He would swish it around and twirl around in pretty skirts. Maybe he'd braid flowers into it.

He would be happy, walking to pretty little shops and thrifting and reading those shitty romance novels he was always bullied for reading. Guys would start falling in love with him because they'd think he's a girl, and he'd love the attention.

Yeah. He'd love to be able to shapeshift. That would be awesome.

(?) giggled softly, imagining himself as a girl. He thought that he would be a lot prettier as a girl. More lively. If he could wake up as a girl tomorrow, that would be the ideal scenario.

He shook himself out of his thoughts. What was he supposed to be thinking about?

Ah, yes. Is he a boy?

...

Yes, he does think he's a boy.

But why did it feel so awful to think about that?

Was he a boy?

Just thinking about it, seriously thinking about it was terrifying.

But at the same time, it was a bit freeing. He could be a girl if he wanted.

He could be a girl.

He could-

She could be a girl.

"I come bearing gifts!" James exclaimed, holding two tea cups in his hands. Matthew sat up straight and made grabby hands towards James. "Not for you, bitch," he said, giving Matthew the cup anyway.

James handed (?) her (HER!!!!) the second cup, (?) taking it eagerly.

(?) took a tentative sip, pleasantly surprised at how close it tasted to her usual recipe. "You're good at making tea."

"I watched you do it for so long I just memorized it." James sat down, grinning bashfully.

After sitting in silence for a couple minutes drinking tea, (?) finally spoke.

"I think I'm a girl," she whispered, almost afraid to speak any louder.

A beat.

She barely had time to set her tea down before she was practically tackled into a four-way hug.

"I'm so proud of you," Taylor said, almost wrapped around her neck entirely.

"I already have several name suggestions if you wanna hear them!" James exclaimed, squashed against her cheek.

"Chill out, dude, you're gonna overwhelm her." Matthew paused. "You do use she and her, right?"

(?) grinned, new tears welling up in her eyes. "Yeah. Yeah, I do."

"Wow, you're the first girl I've ever spoken to!" Matthew cackled.

"That's just sad, man. You're what, 15?" Taylor asked.

"He acts like he's 7," James said, punching Matthew in the arm lightly.

"And you look like you're 7!" He shot back.

"That is uncalled for, you dirty sack of shit!"

As they argued, Taylor cupped her cheek and made her look at them. "Seriously. Thanks for trusting us with that. I know it wasn't easy for you."

(?) smiled at them softly. "I'm not used to it yet. But I think- no, I know this is what I want." She paused. "I think."

"Don't worry about it. I still get doubts about my gender all the time." Taylor looked her over. "Besides, I don't think I've seen you smile this much ever."

"Yeah, I'm. I'm really happy," (?) said.

Looking over at the other two (who were still arguing) she felt that maybe this wouldn't be so hard.

Maybe being her would finally be worth it.

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bdoubleowo · 1 year

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...sitting still in minecraft to get mmd background is so smart i was over here teaching myself to export chunks through mininator to blender to pmd fighting for my life getting textures to look right. god.

so, it really depends what you want from your background. if you don't care about like. the small animations like candles and torches then you can literally just take a screenshot. or you can sit and record for the background. but that severely limits your camera options. you cannot move the camera, and you need to make sure that the mmd camera matches the minecraft one's angle or it'll look weird.

i used this strategy for one of my first minecraft mmds (and actually probably my first public mmd akjshdsda) but actually instead of importing it directly into mmd as a background .avi i chromakeyed out the background, as i did with my most recent one. the first time was because of hijinks where i didn't save the motion edits after exporting, but then decided to change the background. and i didn't want to redo them.

this time was because i couldn't figure out how to use a background image with raymmd.

however, using an image does have the benefits of "i don't actually have access to this world right now but i do have a screenshot from a youtube video!" which i did here.

I use mineways to export portions of minecraft worlds to blender, but i've only used it like twice. it was. a bit of an ordeal because the materials weren't linked to the textures properly so i just. ported the mmd model and motion to blender. and rendered it there. you can see the results of that here, but it's not grreat. because i didn't know blender as well as i knew mmd. which honestly wasn't even that much at the time.

the second time i tried to use mineways i bit the bullet and figured out what the issue was. i had to go through each block and fix the texture paths. one by one. it had the issue of the textures being blurry but i think it was very much worth it. fancy camera movements really added to the fun, and by this point i'd learnt raymmd well enough to get some decent looking shading

now the reason i chose to go with the stationary camera method this time was partially i don't wanna fix all the textures again,,,,, but also the fact that it was a fully enclosed space. i wasn't certain how well mmd would respond to that, and it seemed like it was more effort than it was worth to try and fight the lighting. and i wanted to emulate lizzie's lighting as closely as possible, so i figured that'd be easiest in minecraft itself. even if the amethysts are considered?? emissive in my game but not hers?? so they're WAY brighter in my shader. i don't know. how to fix it without turning out all emissive light. which she CLEARLY has on with the lava and lanterns. so. rip me ig.

sorry this is kind of rambly haha. i just have many thoughts on the matter

#og post #ttechnically you could work fancier camera movements in with multiple recordings/screenshots. and cutting between them #but that's less camera movement and just. multiple shots. still adds some variety #which i'm looking into for my next thing i think #ask #anon #anonymous #mmd

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tartrazeen · 11 months

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I have finally seen Across the Spiderverse!

tl;dr - amazing movie, folks here need to be more normal about Miguel

The longer version:

1. I'm so happy you people put that "Gwen is trans" theory in my head.

I got to watch the whole beginning of the movie like, "Omg, her dad is so supportive of her!"

And then I got to watch that part where Miles tells her, "We're the same. Uh - I mean, in the important ways, we're same," and be like "(⁠☞ﾟ⁠∀ﾟ⁠)⁠☞ Solid recovery, man."

And then I got to watch the part where Gwen comes back home, and when her dad asks her where she's been, appreciate the metaphor that'd be in, "I was off murdering all my best friends." Like - oof. I would not have caught the added meaning in a trans girl telling that to her father without this theory. A bit of "I guess he's not that supportive" followed by "Oh thank God, he's going to try harder through the power of movie magic and love and acceptance."

And that really hammered home the "Spider-man is a metaphor for coming out" with Miles, because he can't exactly pull a Misha Collins and come out as straight. As bi, though? As part of a big, interconnected web of LGBTQ2I+? Yeeeesssss.

Separately from that, I hope he and Gwen get together, really building off the "I'm gonna do my own thing" arc he's going through, paired with the "It doesn't end well" bit about Gwen falling for a Spider-man.

2. Loved how quickly they set up Spot.

I get him, I get the story, but they kept the pacing perfectly focused on the Spiderverse stuff. Spot's in the background but also developed well in the background. It's a perfect case of 'not too little' but especially - more importantly! - not too much.

3. Hobie is a fucking bro.

He showed up to help everyone - like one of the first things out of his mouth was, "Hey Miles, you can do better with your powers, here's some help." Loved him. And the fucking COMMON SENSE this guy had? I loved his little "haha anarchy" jokes, but this guy was on the Spiderverse's side completely - right up until he realized, "Nope, this shit has crossed a line" and immediately fought back against them. He didn't just help Miles and then quit. He helped Miles, quit, probably left assuming that Miguel wasn't gonna go completely batshit, and despite that assumption, still had the presence of mind to pass on his not-a-watch to Gwen.

And I think someone else wrote that he ran away? I disagree with characterization. He didn't panic and leave, and he didn't even abandon anybody. He disagreed, withdrew his support, and then left the others to come around at their own speed. I mean, Miguel hurried that speed up a lot, but that just speaks to how fast Hobie moved from "I agree with the Spiderverse" to "You guys are fucking facists." And the second he was tagged to help - after realizing how correct he was about the 'facist' thing - he was immediately back to actively fighting alongside Gwen. There was no passiveness on his side whatsoever. What a bro. And he even gave Gwen a place to stay when she needed it, which was such an extra point of community. 💖

4. Uhhhhhh can everyone please be more normal about Miguel...?

Because I watched that movie. I know like 5% of who this guy is. They gave us the Cliff notes of Sad Backstory and a glimpse - a glimpse! - into how he probably felt, but it was all from behind an iron mask. We haven't gotten into any of the real him yet, just the anger and outrage and fury.

So... people taking running with an obviously incomplete character? That's normal, fine, sure.

People taking that and running with it to slot him in as an uwu Top for Peter B.? Did you only go in looking for a ship, and did you have to be so weird about making it be the guy whose only defining traits are "Big" when his other and MORE IMPORTANT defining trait is "PoC whose race has been historically and actively fetishized for being violent sex objects"? 'Cause it's like everyone just scrubbed that 5% of what we know away to put him into this predefined "Big Dom Top" role with zero self-reflection, and handwaved how that once again perpetuates every racist stereotype this relates to. All to woobify the white guy some more.

I'm all for shipping, but you people literally don't know him. His story's pretty clearly being saved for the next movie, comic book sales show so many of you don't read those and definitely didn't before this (likely just stopping at what Wikipedia says), and went off of ~v i b e s~

And just happened to not notice how creepy and fetishizing it is that those were the vibes you were left with.

5. I teared up when Miles' story started. Yes, right after the opening title.

I wasn't expecting it, but as soon as the music started and that atmosphere was set, I just got hit with such a wave of, "This is unapologetically black." I heard the Puerto Rican vibes coming in later and both of them perfectly throughout the movie, but the centering of his blackness through the music alone. It was a 'great opening for a sequel' before that point. At that point? It was 'a brand-new story.' 💖💖💖💖 Representation bbyyyyy

#across the spider verse spoilers #across the spider verse #atsv

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Spookengan 4 - Temple Gathering

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"And here we are" Niko puts his bag on the floor "This is the place."

The boy looks around. It was definitely some kind of old lacquered wooden building on top of a hill, oddly too colorful and decorated for something half-destroyed, but it definitely had some solidity. Eh, de'd seen things in worse shape. After an infinity of stone stairs, the sight of some ceiling was kinda comforting, even.

"Hnnn…" He takes three steps forward, inspecting the place with an indifferent look on his face "Is anyone living here? Since it's all adorned and shit..."

"No, no" Niko laughs "This, Ohma, is a temple. It's not built for living in, but it's quiet enough and has a nice patio for us to practice our next moves."

"Then why decorate it, if no one lives here?" The boy snorts, then shrugs his shoulders "Eh, who cares. Let's start this soon. You said you had something new to show me..."

“Show the dead some respect, boy. Temples are built out of respect for them… did you know that ghosts are vengeful?" he flicks the boy’s head, then gives a mischievous smile "If one comes to pull your foot at night, I won’t help you…"

Ohma grunts, massaging the area where he'd been hit "I'm not afraid of anyone who's already six feet under. If ghosts really existed, the ‘Inside’ would be full of’em…"

"And who said it isn't?" Niko smiles more "They usually gather in places like this" he indicates the place with his hands "be careful not to offend them. And for tonight are we going to rest, or do you want to train without eating, after all the stairs back there?"

That makes the boy widen his eyes a little, shaking his head "Hell no! That many steps made me hunger bigger" He then opens a smirk "These ghosts sure are lucky, aren't they? The dead don't get tired, and they don't feel hungry either, haha..."

"What a sad life, not being able to enjoy the good things, right?" he laughs "Now let's gather wood to make a fire. Or you go and I stay here, tidying everything up."

"I'll handle the wood. You stay here keeping the ghosts company…" Ohma laughs, going to do what his master had suggested, having a lot of fun with that particular joke.

"Ooh, are you scared? You big pansy…" Niko laughs, smiling like a mischievous cat.

"Fuck you! I'm not scared of anything, especially of things that don't even exist…" He growls before stomping away, cursing his master in his thoughts.

Ghosts… who believed in that shit? When a person died, they died and that was it. It was a one-way ticket with no return. It was living people they had to worry about on a everyday basis. People determined to make them join the dead that Niko wanted to respect so bad.

He busies himself with gathering wood, distracted, now wanting to occupy his head with thoughts of the dinner that'd soon be served. He just hoped Niko didn't decide to leave some of the food to those spirits. It would be a waste…

He stops mid-task, hearing a weird sound.

Living for so long in an unhealthy place like the Inside, someone like him, in order to survive, would need to sharpen their instincts and senses, so it was not for nothing that he felt a strange presence. Ohma frowns, that all-too-familiar tension rising through his body, tensing his muscles. It didn't seem to be an animal, people and animals used to have a different presence. But that presence didn’t felt like a person either…

Shit, that's what he got for listening to Niko's stories. He wouldn't be able to get them out of his head and'd start imagining things. He shakes his head and says: “I know there's someone there. You better scram, if you know what's good for you."

No answer. A sepulchral silence, very appropriate for the place. And that feeling was still there. Trying to sound intimidating, Ohma raises his voice, his expression dangerous: "Yeah, you better stay where you are. Come closer and I'll beat the shit outta you! Got it? Keep thinking you can scare me and see what happens..." And he starts to walk away, trying to hide that feeling of alertness, of nervousness, that was growing in his chest and making him want to run.

And then, under the moonlight, he catches a glimpse of a figure passing silently, watching. It wasn't an animal. The boy felt something icy build up in the pit of his stomach as his instincts screamed for him to drop the wood and get into a fighting stance, for him to prepare to punch, kick, even kill if necessary-

"No. Niko doesn't want me to kill anymore."

And the mention of Niko's name brought back memories of his earlier warning. Ohma immediately relaxed, huffing and straightening his stance.

"Yeah, Niko, very funny. You thought you'd scare me to convince me that these stupid ghosts exist, huh? Well, you lost your fucking time, because I already know it's you!" He barks into nothingness before retracing his way back to the temple, muttering to himself. Crazy old man, thinking he could fool him like he was still a kid…

He enters the temple carrying the wood, still annoyed, when, to his surprise, he saw Niko there, still sitting and arranging the place for them to settle down and rest for the night, even whistling some tune. He looks at Ohma and smiles:

"Hey kiddo, you're back! I knew there was enough wood out there, the forest next door is quite plentiful… what happened?" He raises an eyebrow as he looks at the boy's face, pale as wax.

"You…", He starts, astonished, before looking quickly over his shoulder "Were you in here the whole time…?"

"Huh? Yes…?" he blinks, confused "Did you think I was going to scare you of something? You're already a giant pansy, and I have better things to do…

"Go to hell! 'Let's cook the damn food already, I'm starving", He growls as he drops the wood on the temple floor, kneeling down to organize the fire. So, after all, it must have been just some wanderer who had come to visit that temple. Or a stupid thief who'd wanted to scare him to see if he dropped anything of value…

He preferred to cling to any of those options. Because thinking about the third, in that temple where Niko said the dead gathered… Well, it was going to make it difficult for him to sleep later…

~~~ Years later ~~~

“Uhhh…” he says after climbing another familiar flight of stairs “is this a Temple too?”

“It is, yes! Big one, huh?” Kanami smiles at him “And we came on a good day, because it's not too crowded. The offering box is right there…”

“Isn't this kind of where the dead gather?” He asks, looking around. Despite the virtually blank expression, she already knew him well enough. From the hands in his pockets, tense shoulders, half hunched over, and slow, cautious steps, she could tell he was nervous. She could practically see the shadow in his eyes.

She arches an eyebrow “Ah… yes, in a way. This place is more for paying our respects, saying prayers, thanks… why? Have a problem with these types of temples?”

“I remember seeing a ghost in one of those temples” he says “They were a little short or was bent over, in the dark, and it had a hat…” he looks to the side and feels the figure again, and points almost giving a jump “There!”

And Kanami sees... A rather embarrassed Ohma, looking at an innocent stone lantern, in the corner, near the bushes, looking like a person wearing a hat... his finger kind of withers when he stops pointing and scratching his head, and Kanami barely doesn't can't hold back the laugh she let out.

“Ahahaha! S-Sorry!” She covers her mouth with one hand, her shoulders shaking “Sorry, I – I think it’s easy to get confused in the dark… and if you squint your eyes and turn your head to the side” She does just that, with an exaggerated grimace. “Then you can even confuse it with a wandering spirit, hahaha!”

“…I was a kid, come on,” he huffs, muttering under his breath, but finally relaxing. “Damn Niko…” Raises his head to the temple “Hey, you old bore, if you're around here, it was a dirty trick to scare me like that. When I get there, we'll settle the score…”

Kanami laughs again, more quietly and contently this time. She pats Ohma's right arm, saying with a tender smile “Sorry, I actually found it quite cute. You never gave me the impression that you would be scared of that kind of thing, I like to discover new things about you. And as for your master… don't get me wrong, but I hope it will take a very, very long time before you meet again. I want you to live a very long life to visit more temples like this with me. And I'm sure he wants that too, wherever he is.”

“I know” he huffs a little, still annoyed, but softening his tone “I'm just marking a gathering beforehand.”

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#kengan ashura #kengan omega #kenganverse #heavybakery #fanfiction #ohma tokita #tokita ohma #tokita niko #niko tokita #SpookenganChallenge #ghost

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Ahaha thank youuu, it's always nice to see you in my comments 😊

Ohh I'm gonna dive deeper into the stories then, cause I'm not that familiar with all of them. I've already noticed that some of the cards take a bit of a different meaning because of the particular stories attached to them, like you mentioned for example 9 of cups. The story gives it a weird undertone to it. Although whenever I look at it, I think of two people having a lot of chemistry so on the other hand the image itself reinforces the theme of pleasure (which for me 9 of cups usually is more so a card of contentment and pleasure rather than a straght up wish granted).

So for example, now knowing the full story, if I got 10 of swords as someone's best quality, that'd be something along the lines of coming out stronger after a tough situation. Well that makes more sense, all I saw was a person drowning in agony ahaha, I couldn't even see it as the "at least it's over/can't be worse than that" type of situation that I tend to associate 10 of swords with.

I used to have a bit of a problem with the RW deck as well until I realized that it's often just very settle. Like 3 of cups can be just one person complimenting you, making you happy for a few minutes haha. Also I've noticed, at least for me, that it gives better answers when I'm asking about others. Whenever I do spreads for myself I usually use my favourite Shadowscapes deck cause it just vibes with me the best I guess (and it's my oldest one so that helps).

But your answer was very helpful so thanks 😊

💖💖!

Yeah! The cards in that deck tend to take on a life of its own but weirdly I kind of like that? It’s fun. Also I get what you mean in regards to the 9 of cups! It’s visually a really sweet card! I think the downfall to the deck would be the association with fairytales considering there’s so many renditions of them. Like for the fool being the little mermaid, do you go with light-hearted Disney or the messed up original, while keeping the meaning of the card in tact. However I still think in a backwards way it’s a strong asset bc it can highlight the strength of different readers and how they interpret the cards you know?

And for the 10 of Swords absolutely!! It’s that saying uuuhh beauty from pain. Or something. That overused quote they always say to make you feel better about your ✨struggles✨

🤔🤔🤔 HM okay I’m going to spend more time with it to get our communication flowing more easily, thank you for that tip!! I have another deck that I rarely use for anyone else besides me too. It was my first deck as well that my friends gifted to me and it’s so harsh LMAO I haven’t used it in a minute but the fact that I want to use it again probably ain’t a good sign (I’m glad I could help!!!!!)

#bout to pick up that deck so it can curse me out #pain #waterasks #I should clarify harsh as in like tough love bc I’m stubborn so #that’s the only way I listen sometimes

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Thoughts from watching the ATLA live action!

Episode 5:

An very fun fight scene to start the episode!

Genuinely love them confirming the fact that Katara is such an excellent bender because she's resourceful and takes inspiration from the other bendings, and it's such an early case of this train of thought too!! I love it! Her and Iroh would get along great, I really want to see a scene with the two of them just hanging out now haha

Lmao Sokka flirting with a Fire Nation soldier is genuinely so in character, my dude is just looking for a date everywhere he goes

Katara is pretty great in this episode so far! She seems much more open and communicative, it feels a bit like she's growing comfortable with Aang which is great to see.

My name is Sokka, rhymes with Okka! Oh? Pippinpaddleopsicopolis coming from Sokka this time? Oh wait is she the third, after Bonzu and June? Anyway, this is a very sweet scene

Are they... Perhaps going to do a parallel big brothers thing here with Shi-Yong and Sokka? That'd be fun!!

Angry, mean Zuko is fun too. Azula... Makes me sad.

Huh... Interesting- Sokka AND Katara get to be in the spirit world here?

Seedy Tavern... IS THIS THE JUNE EPISODE??? Maybe not, but oh my god this is so funny, just... Mentioning the exploits of the animated Gaang that are implied to happen off screen here hahaha. A bit heartbroken about no "I'll save you from the pirates" and mentioning them brought up that pain, but following it up immediately with The Great "worst episode in the series" Divide is fucking fantastic.

June baited me!!! Her and Nyla were outside the pub!! Oml that entire scene was fucking hilarious

Genuinely, why is Wan Shi Tong here, it's so fucking weird. A lot of the changes I can understand, but this dude's whole thing is that he and his library are interconnected- why is he just... Here, outside of it? Fuck, I actually hate this whole thing. I really liked how OG Sokka was kinda spiritually tuned against his will, here his reluctance is just a joke to uplift Katara- it feels bad, and them being unable to understand Wan Shi Tong fucking sucks. Literally why are they even here, genuinely I hate this change a lot. Literally the water siblings' only contribution to the scene is "hehe we can't understand what the magic spirit animal is saying" and it feels insulting, and cheapens everything they adapted here. Also, they literally couldn't even have him say "until we meet again"?? Are we just. Not gonna see him next season and/or ever learn his name? I hate that he appeared here, it was meaningless and didn't fit with ANY of the established lore. It literally was just a character cameo, it fucking sucked balls.

In other news, unhinged Azula!!! I love my girl. Every scene she's in is good and perfect and I love that she's in this season so much!!

I think I can pretty safely say at this point that they're finally getting into the groove of writing Iroh- he's much, MUCH better here!

I like the theme of both Sokka and Katara being in denial about something, and I think that's a fantastic plot thread to have here. That said, I still think having Wan Shi Tong introduce it was a wild choice that contributed nothing- he's literally just there for people who saw the original and would recognize him, and honestly? That makes it worse because you know it doesn't make sense that he's here. That role should've been filled by either another spirit, or someone new entirely. The whole scene with him was just SO bad, but I'm glad they seem to be recovering here.

Pretty funny to see Aang and Katara realize they can't bend only for Sokka to essentially be like "welcome to my world" and be the only useful one by paying attention because he isn't distracted by how weird everything is.

Sokka and foxes. It's a thing. Actually, I'm really happy that they're making sure that Sokka is vital here given that it's originally an episode that revolves around his journey in the spirit world- which it doesn't show too much, because ultimately the focus there is on Aang and the role and powers of the Avatar, so I'm happy to see a focus on Sokka here!

Dangerous fog gives me some P4 vibes ngl, my stress immediately shot up purely through association.

In general the vibes of this episode kinda feel like it can serve as a sort of precursor to The Swamp, which I desperately hope they don't cut because I feel like it could work really well with them having experienced something similar before already!!

Oh no. It's Katara backstory time, isn't it? Oh no. Fuck, literally making Katara relive this is brutal- having older Katara experience most of it somehow hurts more than if she just saw her younger self. Fuck, Katara bending to try and save Kya and having it directly lead to her death is devastating.

Koh?? Ah fuck, this whole thing is emotionally ruining me rn. Btw, Katara's face should 100% be gone, idk why they're once again breaking established rules here just to feature spirit world characters, but I hate it.

So... I hate this Hakoda? He sucks? Why would they make him suck so hard? This is a bad change. Hakoda was ALREADY a bit controversial, they didn't need to make him an asshole. Idk if these are like... Real things that happened or what Sokka is projecting went on behind the scenes, but I hope beyond hope Hakoda isn't actually like this.

Cool, Sokka's face is gone too! What the fuck are they even doing in this episode, I hate it so much, they're legit just alternating between good and bad scenes, it's wild!!

It feels really weird that Aang is automatically emotionless here when meeting with Koh. I don't like it, it feels off, like he was warned- but he wasn't, he has no way to know he should be emotionless, and it isn't exactly his neutral state, so... What the fuck. This episode is a mess. Showing the monkey face has no effect when we didn't see the faceless monkey, Koh has no reason to interfere here... It's all literally just so shoved in and feels so unnatural!!

I... Also can't believe it's really Gyatso, in fact, I don't think he is, and if he is, it feels like the wrong time and wrong way to make me believe it is him.

Still cried, and even though it makes no sense and he's done very little to prove it ig I am meant to belive this is Gyatso, so I'm just. Ignoring how poorly written that whole setup was and focusing on the meat of it- it was heartbreaking, and something I'm very glad Aang got to hear. Even though it wasn't executed super well, I am glad we got to see Gyatso again.

This episode REALLY struggles with it's plot and premise, but it hits all of the characters moments extremely well, and that kinda sucks- it could have been great if they just took out the pointless spirit cameos. Idk why Wan Shi Tong was here, and there's literally no reason to bump Koh up to here instead of later in the season- in fact, it weakens his connection to the plot and completely uproots Hei-Bai's because the focus on him is all but gone. It matters that Aang meets Koh while his physical body is in the Northern Water Tribe, where Kuruk- who faced him and lost- was from. Here his powers barely matter, he appears to just... Eat people? It's weak and doesn't work, and the impact is genuinely so much weaker than the original. I don't get the choice they made here at all, he doesn't even connect to Katara and Sokka in any meaningful way, and I wish the writers felt comfortable enough to just create a new spirit with powers that actually fit rather than just coopt and ruin Koh. Honestly? They could've just made Hei-Bai do it semi-accidentally out of grief and it would've worked better than inserting a being with known powers into a situation that necessitates changing them dramatically to tell the story they want. Koh and Wan Shi Tong should not be in this episode- the only theme connecting them is the spirit world, and by that logic you could put Zuko's banishment and the students' dance party in the same episode because they're both about kids from the Fire Nation. It sucks. As much as episode 3 didn't work, I at least got the idea they were going for- it only didn't work because it was a bad setting for it and because they cut integral character moments, not because it was doomed conceptually, y'know?

So Gyatso is obviously lying to Aang about being able to talk more later... Why? Why the fuck is he doing that? Is he trying to teach Aang a lesson about timing or something? It's weird and I don't get it.

I'm... Confused. Is Aang going to be captured trying to save his friends by going to the Fire Nation?? Are Sokka and Katara just gonna be completely absent next episode given that it's the Blue Spirit one and it'd be overly depressing to just cut to them in captivity on Koh's cave? I don't get it. Aang was literally already in the spirit world, so I don't really get why they wouldn't just have Fang ferry him to the temple and have him meet Roku as a Spirit. Is his physical presence there really so important? It feels weird. Literally how does he think he's going to get there solely on his glider??? Some wild decisions here in this episode, for real.

This episode had probably straight up just the worst adaptation of stuff from the original, while simultaneously having the best original stuff. It's... Disappointing to see that tends to generally be the vibe of this adaptation- they try too hard to bring over beloved stuff from the original, and it's to the detriment of this reimagining that has proven to be capable of some really great stuff. Koh and Wan Shi Tong had no place here, ans Sai and Jet both lost the appeal of their episodes for the sake of just... Having them both appear. For contrast- Bumi was wildly different, they took a pretty big swing with him that evidently not everyone was gonna like- and I thought it was a brilliant alternative depiction of a guy who lived for way too long meeting an important friend from his childhood that never had to face the same difficulties he had, and how they still reconcile at the end even if he's much more bitter about it here. And Bumi STILL struggled from sticking too close to the original- his original jokes don't work in live action, but they were still there, unfortunately lol. Anyway my point is that like? Genuinely this show is doing a good job, and it had a really tough fucking challenge, and I think by trying too hard to appeal to old fans rather than committing to telling the same overall story through a different lens using different methods... It really shot itself in the foot, because purists were never gonna be happy even if they stuck to a 1 to 1 adaptation, let alone when they change stuff- they should've just fucking went wild and created an alternate universe fix it fic that reimagines all the characters AND only uses stuff that works from the original. Here they're clearly forcing some stuff because fans love them, and it shows, because things stop making sense. I know I'm probably contradicting myself a bit: I've always liked Hakoda, so seeing him be a jerk here sucks- and yet, it's an alternative take on his character, what he could've been, and in fact, what some fans see him as! And yet, I still don't like this change. Everyone is gonna have opinions on every change, and I feel like they knew that going in and tried to do their best to mitigate that by including a lot of fan favorite stuff- even when it doesn't work- because isn't it fun to see your favorite thing come to life? You have people saying "At least we got ___" right alongside those that say "Wish we still had ___". This show had an insane amount of pressure on it right from the start, and the fact that it was coming from so many sides surely didn't help mitigate that, but. As much as I'm not pleased with what they did to some of my favorite stuff, it has also proven to me that this version of the story is worthwhile, and it's impossible not to see the care and thought put into it! It'd be a lot easier if I could just hate it or love it, but. Honestly it's so interesting in that each episode features choices that elicit both emotions from me. As much as I truly don't get the thought process behind the early inclusion of Koh and Wan Shi Tong, or why they dropped Sokka from Jet and Aang from The Northern Air Temple... They still did interesting things in these episodes! They have a lot of misses, but they also have a lot of hits, and at the end of the day... I'm genuinely enjoying watching this show! I think that for the most part it could stand on its own really well, and a lot of my gripes with it are stuff that would almost certainly not be an issue for people who haven't watched the original- and that's important too! Even if it disappoints veteran fans, it's important that things don't feel out of place for new ones, and honestly I can't imagine many things here that do! Frankly, it's actually mostly the occasional carry over joke from the original (The dramatic Cabbage Merchant moment is probably a wild thing for people not in the know, for example lmao)

Anyway this episode was. A real mixed bag, and I felt equally as strongly about the things I liked and the things I didn't. It's definitely more disappointing for it, I think- the fact that I really liked some of it while I really didn't like others- but. Overall I think it was probably a good one, and honestly I mostly just wish it was allowed to be more original- which is a great thing, actually! They're doing such a good job with the original/changed aspects of the show that I wish there was more of it, and trust that it could have worked better rather than the existing lore remixed to fit the occasion! Honestly I hope they get some breathing room from the announcement of two more seasons, and that they feel more comfortable with making this their own alternate version of the story rather than an adaptation. Don't get me wrong, they should still follow the general throughlines, but... If this episode has proven anything, it's that they shouldn't force themselves to remix and adapt parts of the original story that they don't think fit in theirs just to check a box.

#avatar the last airbender #atla #atla live action #avatar the last airbender live action #natla

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SASASAP POSTMORTEM TIME

I've heard real game devs do something called a POSTMORTEM. They allow themselves to talk about a game they released and stuff.

I'm a real game devs. My video game START AGAIN: a prologue has been released for a year on itch.io. Six months on Steam. As of yesterday it's now available in Japanese. Wow. POSTMORTEM TIME

Gigantic pile of text below about what I think worked about the game and what I think didn't, and other musings. You don’t need to read it. But you can. Spoilers for my game SASASAP which you can get here on itch.io and here on Steam!!! And the artbook for it is here, also, why not!!!

In case you're new, START AGAIN START AGAIN START AGAIN: a prologue (or START AGAIN: a prologue) (or SASASAP) is a story-driven RPG I released back in February 2021. It's been a year now, which is wild. I started making it back in July 2020, but it has a bit more history before that.

Back in 2017, I created this little comic just called "Yes >No". Just a little RPG character, a little fella (now Siffrin, the main character), stuck in a new game+ forever. I ended up liking the concept of a character knowing they're stuck in a video game time loop so much I made a few more small comics about it throughout the years. And then 2020 happened, and I was working from home, and I was bored, and I thought "well I could make a game." . . .

"Well no", I thought, "I can't make a whole RPG right away. That'd be stupid, that's just asking for trouble, I don't even know how to code. I'll make a demo for that RPG first, to learn how RPGMaker MV, the software I'm using to make it, works, and then I can make the actual game. But demo first." And that demo grew wings and is now SASASAP, which I released seven months later on itch.io, and on Steam 6 months later that (Steam's hard to figure out okay!!!). I'm currently working very hard on the next game along with my publisher Armor Games Studios, so stay tuned for news sooner rather than later, tee hee.

Ok intro over POSTMORTEM TIME

WHAT WORKED: -Great news! The game worked (more or less)

-Really glad i decided to use assets on this one. I used assets for many things in the game, like for icons, attack animations, many of the pixel environments, and more. I edited pretty much all of them if only to make them in black and white. Again: very glad i used assets, because making things from scratch is hard. USE ASSETS THEYRE GOOD.

-Working with no real release date in mind was nice. Didn't have the stress of "I have to finish this before this date!!!" (not to say I didn't have other stresses.) But that allowed me to just. Do whatever. Freedom!

-Overall I was worried about the story of the prologue not being enough, even though I forced myself to make something I might like playing, but apparently making something I'd like makes… a pretty darn good game? People really enjoyed the story and it made them feel things and many friends messaged me with a very upset "HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME" once they finished playing so I'm very very very glad.

-Also surprisingly the True Ending (Note: SASASAP has 3.5 ways the loop can go, so 3.5 "endings") didn't seem hard to find for people??? I remember being very stressed out about whether people would find it, since i added the different endings in like. the last month of development probably. The way to get the True Ending is by getting enough "Weird Points" in a single loop, and there's two different ways to do so: either go straight for the keys to open the dungeon without looking at anything beforehand (which prompts your allies to go "hey how come you knew where the key was………"), or keep interacting with the environment and make choices that are Weird ("haha Siffrin you usually love puns and you just picked the "Don't go for the pun" choice, everything okay?"). Going for every single key right away gives you enough Weird Points to access the True Ending, and acting weird gives you a little at a time. I was worried about players seeing themselves as Siffrin and so they wouldn't take certain actions, but nah they clearly saw themselves as players separate from Sif and it was easy for them to go "Alright let's make Sif act a certain way so their friends notice." From the few streams I've seen, people managed by going straight for the keys for half of the keys, and getting over the ending threshold by acting weird. Woohoo!

-Speaking of the True Ending path, I did love seeing a few streamers see the Researcher go "…" in suspicion when you talk to her at the end of the first loop, and streamers went "OH FUCK SHE CAN FIGURE OUT WE'RE LOOPING OR AT LEAST THAT SOMETHING'S PROBABLY- TIME TO ACT WEIRD" yesssss this was on purpose I did good game design I succeeded

-Related: people did find most little secrets except ONE (or at least I haven't seen people mention it teehee (its not that big)). Anyway, I was worried about the number of little details/interactions I added because oh god I've heard people don’t like to read! And maybe they won't check things more than once!!! Maybe they won't care?!?? But the game did end up getting praised a bunch for its attention to details because of how much personality it added. Which makes me very happy!!!! And even if people don't find all the little things, someone else might and you get a cool "WOW I DIDN’T SEE THIS HOW DID YOU GET THIS?!??" moment. (This also meant some people's expectations SKYROCKETED like "oh if I do this will the game notice???" no sorry. Players mostly weren't mad about it though so WHATEVER)

-I made sure to leave a few hints of things to come, which means it has been very funny and interesting to hear people's theories. Thank you for thinking about the game. Genuinely one of the big highlights of making a story in multiple installments, not gonna lie

-I've seen a few people say they replayed the game a bunch to see everything? And some people didn't replay it a la Undertale because they were satisfied with the ending? WOW?!??!? The way people treat save files is so fascinating to me

-Also (I point at myself in the mirror) @ self I was right people liked the open ending. I think if the game is too long, an open/sad ending makes people mad. But if it's a short game it's like ah! Gotcha! Are you sad?!???! HA!!!!! SUCCESS and people aren't mad about it. Thanks for coming to my sad endings ted talk

-People also really liked the gameplay!!!! Wow!!!! Unexpected!!! The battle system was the thing I was the shakiest about. The Rock Paper Scissors weaknesses is simple enough but you still have to think about strategy… The skill to give away your turn was pretty inspired too if I do say so myself. (I'M GLAD THE BATTLES WEREN'T TOO BORING)

-The characters are all queer it's not important to the story you just need to know BUT TURNS OUT! I've gotten a few messages from people saying they were so glad one character was aroace, or that Siffrin using he/they pronouns made them realize they were nonbinary. IT IS: IMPORTANT, REPRESENTATION: MATTERS

WHAT DIDN'T WORK:

-GOD, THE STRESS AT RELEASE. GENUINELY ONE OF THE MOST STRESSFUL DAYS OF MY VERY YOUNG LIFE. I released the game on a weekend, and had to take a day off from work to rest from the stress, and I didn't even rest, and it DEFINITELY wasn't enough time off. Self, remember two days off is NOT enough to release a game. I would've said 4 at the very least, to do some marketing, answer ppl, fix bugs, etc. I did order a lot of takeout and was very gentle with myself. Thank you splatoon 2 for helping me take my mind off things -God I should've made way more people beta test it. Some pretty big and pretty easy to find bugs weren't caught. I know it's scary to show the game to people but you gotta do it for the beta test, for the QA, self!!! Be strong!!! (Well this doesn’t apply for the next game since I have a publisher now teehee. But remember for later.)

-The different endings and how to get them/what even constitutes as an ending was confusing. People got to the True Ending and wondered if they was more to it. I thought adding credits to it would make people understand it was the end, but nope! Not the case. People saw the other endings (aka: how a loop ends) less as actual endings and more as, uh, the way it's supposed to go I guess? Anyway I did end up adding items that you unlock after each ending that tell you which ending you got, but it was still confusing. That's my bad! Oops!

-I need to add more comments to my coding. Sometimes I look at old scenes and I'm like how did I even do this.

-Also, self, remember bug reports are NOT a reflection of how the poster hated the game, but more often actually a reflection of how they loved the game and want it to be even better. It's a sign of people loving the game. So dont stress out about it

-Hey self some bugs can't be fixed and you need to let it go. Reader, sorry if you fell on a bug I didn't manage to fix. At this point I don't know how to fix it and I'm sorry!!!

-Not that it "didn't work", but maybe I should've talked about the game more often to build hype. I managed to get a reasonable amount of hype by talking and showing screenshots a month before release, but talking about it for the whole 7 months could've been good, instead of being a hermit game dev. Yeah. (Is still a hermit game dev)

OTHER THOUGHTS: -I didn't add many tutorials because I'm a hashtag Gamer, but tbh more tutorials/reminders are better than none. I noticed a few streamers didn't remember SHIFT is to run, or how to open the menu. REMIND PLAYERS HOW TO PLAY EVERY SO OFTEN!!!! THEY HAVE TINY BRAINS!!!! ITS NOT THEIR FAULT!!!!!!

-Some people said "weh weh game price too high!!!" but consider this: it's not. 12$CAD for a 3-4h game seems good for me, because I always compare it to movie tickets… A movie is like 10$, for 2 hours, so that's 5$ per hour. Bang for your buck if you ask me!!! And also people in the video game industry told me they were happy I put it at that price bc it might make other indies price their own games higher, so. (I wink at the camera)

-This is very small but seeing people play has taught me to plan for every eventuality because some players like to do things just because they can. I know one player switched every weapon around, giving the housemaiden the researcher's weapon for example, to see what would happen (so you cant do that anymore now!!! locked!!!) and someone else grinded levels until level goddamn 99 (you start at lvl 45), just to see if they'd be able to beat the King on the first loop by being strong enough (you can't!), so like. Some gamers are unhinged (affectionate). I'm definitely keeping that in mind for the next game, so hopefully if you go unhinged the game either won't let you do it or will go "what the FUCK dude". Unhinged players: I love you thank you for playing

Postmortem done. Thank you for reading! Thank you for playing! Thank you for being here! The response to the game has been absolutely wild to me and I'm so thankful to anyone who played the game, drew fanart about the game, wrote theories about the game!!! Thank you so much!!!!!!!!! BYE

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