TW :: Pet loss and poor animal conditions in awful puppy mills
I been away for a long time now, recovering from a surgery and recouping at my mom’s place and today’s the first time I’m back home in well over a month. I’m also home alone for the first time in almost 13 years.
I had to put my precious dog, Raven, down on Tuesday. Her health declined rapidly and I had to say goodbye on Tuesday afternoon. I’ve had her since she was the length of my forearm after a terrible breakup. Ray was a rescue from a puppy mill where her mother was being bred in a cage nonstop for sick profit. She was always on the smaller side from not getting all the nutrients she needed from her nutrient deficient mother. She’s been the one positive constant in my life since I was 22 and now it feels like I’m entering the wrong home because she’s not here greeting me.
I’m finally back home amongst a mountain of mail and boxes I need to open, Raven’s favorite toys all over the place and her bed and it’s too fucking quiet in here. I’m a mess. I took her on Wednesday to be cremated and can pick her up next month because the vet I went to to put her to sleep wiped my account clean of what was left despite the receipt they gave me stating otherwise so I couldn’t even pick her ashes up today to be with her and I hate the way it feels in here: 🏡 and here: 🤍
I apologize. I know I told you Catch and Release 3 is coming out, and it still is, I just need time. I also know some people have asked to be tagged and so long as you’re of age, I have no problem tagging you in the series. I’ll also get back to you soon if you’ve tagged me in anything, left me messages and such. I’m just grieving heavily rn but, I will be writing again and I will get back to you. I appreciate you all understanding, thank you so much.
This was the last photo I took of my old girl
I was just about to brush her that day but she had knocked her brush under the couch and I still haven’t been able to reach it since
🌈Those over the rainbow bridge are so lucky to have her🌈
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lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)
if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.
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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.
I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.
I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.
If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.
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Hug
It's nearly impossible to have a quiet and peaceful day with the crew, like the strawhats. Nami is mostly used to the noise on Going Merry but one day she gets fed up with Zoro and Sanji arguing. Not only are they extremely loud, but they've also already broken way too many things during their fights.
She decides that If they want to act like brats, then she's going to treat them as such. So she makes them apologize and hug each other in silence for an hour. None of them are happy about this punishment, but Nami threatened to raise Zoro's debt, and Sanji couldn't say no to her. It could be worse.
It's awkward enough for them to not incite any fight for a long time and Nami is quite proud of herself. She knows it won't last forever but at least now she knows how to handle them. It inevitably happens again. And again. And again.
Much to her surprise, those fights became more and more frequent. And what's even weirder is that she could see the way both Zoro and Sanji occasionally glanced at her to make sure she was nearby. It's almost as if they wanted someone to make them hug each other. As if they needed an excuse.... these idiots.
Soon, they don't even need Nami's help. When they aren't busy training, cooking or fighting, they cuddle together. Sometimes Luffy or Chopper would join them, but most of the crew knew it was their time.
After two years spent separately, they became extremely clingy. It's no surprise when they start sleeping in the same bed. What is surprising is that despite them behaving like a lovey-dovey couple, those oblivious idiots are STILL unaware of each other's feelings.
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Sulien attempting to court Ayden:
Ayden wondering what the hell he did to get the attention of the scariest guy ever:
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is this old religion, are we calling it love?
{sweet movie, alisha dietzman / @gaphic / tiktok / @iamalivenow / on earth we're briefly gorgeous, ocean vuong / @manywinged / these violent delights, micah nemerever / the reader, bernhard schlink (trans. carol brown janeway) / hestitations outside the door, margaret atwood / a self-portrait in letters, anne sexton}
[ID: ten images of text together in a litstack
1: Confession: I will think of you forever
2: a post by gaphic: It’s only tragedy if you convince yourself, for even just a moment, that everything could be ok, despite knowing it won’t be. Tragedy lies in ‘so close, yet so far.’ It’s avoidable because it would only take a tiny alteration to prevent disaster, but human nature is in the way- not maliciously, not knowingly, despite trying so hard.
3: a tiktok comment and answer: Are they lovers? / Worse
4: a post by iamalivenow: gay sex won't fix this. it'll probably make this worse. that being said don't you want to see how much worse it can get?
5: Sometimes being offered tenderness feels like the very proof that you've been ruined.
6: tags from manywinged: #technically they know and understand each other better than anyone else alive #but they communicate that in the most fucked up insane unnecessarily complicated way and think thats normal
7: I don't think you've ever felt anything that didn't hurt you. / We've found each other, out of everyone else in the world. Does that hurt, too?
8: "I'm not used to being loved. I wouldn't know what to do."
9: Should we go into it together / If I go into it with you I will never come out
10: of course the love is there. / still, / still, / still.
end ID]
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