#rivaere angst

[sugawara-levi]

Eren x Levi, one shot/shortie/idea/idk

wrote something out of the blue while listening to cardigan - taylor swift, it’s angst, it’s random, it might only make sense in my head

kinda wanna write more on this now but we’ll see what student-life gives me

established(?) relationship, fighting

“Levi, that just doesn’t make any sense!”

“I KNOW IT DOESN’T”

“I KNOW OKAY”

His hans were in his hair, pulling at anything they could reach. The strands that were always so perfect patted were now completely disheveled, the stark contrasts making the severity of it all even more apparent.

“IT DOESN’T MAKE SENSE, BUT I CANT STAY HERE, OKAY?”

His eyes were gleaming, pure silver, no blue left. Only silver around those black pupils.

Eren tried to speak, say something, anything, but only tears came out.

He felt utterly hopeless, like his soul had been ripped from his body, replaced only with a hollow, a vacuum.

He looked at Levi, but all the soft was gone, only the hard was left. He couldn’t find the man he knew inside those eyes.

sigh

Levi’s arms fell weak against his body, turned completely away from Eren. He picked up his jacket from the sofa. The leather jacket, the one that Eren had always loved on him.

“I’m sorry, Eren”

Without even a glance back he made for the door. Stopping momentarily in it, a hand on the frame.

Another sigh.

Eren couldn’t look.

He didn’t know how long Levi stayed in the doorway. Maybe it was just a second, maybe it was a minute, maybe more.

If he closed his eyes he could pretend he was still there, still waiting, still deciding. But deep down he knew, he knew the man had already left.

Neither did he know how long he stayed like that. Crouched down on the floor, tears rolling down his cheeks, hands, landing everywhere. Chest heaving until there was no more air in the universe, and the world beneath him had turned into the ocean.

—-

At some point he must have made it to bed.

When he woke up, miraculously, he wasn’t in his living-room, he wasn’t crying, there was air to breathe, and the floor was no longer ocean. But he was still hollow.

#girl this angst came out of nowhere #attack on titan #shingeki no kyojin #levi ackerman #ereri #riren #rivaere #eren yeager #eren jeager #levi x eren #angst #ereri angst #riren angst #rivaere angst #snk #snk fanfiction #aot fanfiction #aot writing #ereri fanfic #riren fanfic #rivaere fanfic

[forestsofthenightx]

hold on, i still need you

Chapters: 1/2

Rating: Teen

Archive warnings: Creator chose not to use archive warnings

Relationships: Levi Ackerman/Eren Yeager

Main tags: Uprising Arc, Blood and injury, Hurt Eren Yeager, Worried Levi Ackerman, Fluff and angst, Feelings realization

Tch, stupid suicidal brat. I'm gonna kick you myself once you've recovered.

Hold on, Eren.

Please.

or: Eren almost dies for the umpteenth time and Levi finally realises it is time for him to come to terms with his own feelings

Forgot to post it here too, but here’s my first Rivaereri fic, written for Day 17 - Injured of the wonderful Rivaereri October on Twitter🧡

Hope you like it!!

Read on Ao3

#rivaereri #ereri #rivaere #my writing #fic writing #riren #aot #levi #eren #snk #attack on titan #RivaEreriOctober23 #my moodboard #uprising arc #sort of #hurt eren #levi loves his boy so much #angst and whump my beloved #levi x eren #eren x levi #shingeki no kyojin #ereriren #eren jaeger #captain levi #Levi Ackerman #heichou #levi heichou #rivaille x eren

[foundingtitan]

rivaere angst thoughts... neglectful husband levi who eren has to beg to stay home and give him more attention. lots of hate sex followed by levi leaving again and again.. I can imagine them getting into fist fights too and being in a constant toxic cycle. like eren going to bars to make levi jealous just so his husband can come HOME. eren thought life would be so much better after the nation's came together for the rumbling but he's still chasing after that Damn man

#im just thinking #more physical too and lots of cry fighting on erens part #au of the world being okie dokie after the rumbling and levieren runaway together #but it is just angst #rivaere

[ereri-nation]

Ereri Nation Presents: Ereri Angst Week 2024!

The Ereri Nation 18+ Discord welcomes you to ereri angst week 2024! An event for angst lovers, hosted from 27th May - 2nd June! We're excited to see your submissions for this event!

Each day has a unique theme or topic to follow. You can choose one prompt or all three options!

RULES:

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#snk #ereri #rivaereri #levi ackerman #eren jaeger #ereri fanfic #ereri nation #aot #ereriangstweek2024

[bkdkluvbug]

Hey it’s me Mac but on tumblr!! This is basically going to be the same as my thread of thread on twt so if you follow me on there you know the drill!! It’ll look a lot cuter on here tho:)

ﾒ Socmed au’s

ProFanboy - bkdk, suggestive, underage, age gap, ongoing

ﾒ ao3

B and M - bkdk, chat fic, ongoing

Ship of Dreams - rivaere, titanic au, nsfw, MCD, ongoing

Inadequate - bkdk, zombie au, blood & gore, completed

Forbidden Beauty - bkdk, fantasy au, slavery, dark themes, ongoing

We’re… Engaged? - bkdk, established relationship, fluff, completed

Midnight Lover - sanuso, breakup, angst w happy ending, completed

ﾒ Oneshots and Blurbs

Bkdk

All I wanted was you - one shot

Rivaere

Sanuso

Other’s

#bkdkluvbug #bakudeku #bkdk #rivaere #ereri #sanuso #usosan

[ravens-bl-page]

“Forbidden Fruit”

New Rivaere one-shot

RavenLewdvi

Pair: Levi Ackerman/ Eren Jaeger

Rating: Explicit

Warnings: No archive warnings apply

Top Levi Ackerman/ Bottom Eren Jaeger

Characters: Levi Ackerman | Eren Yeager | Armin Arlert | Mikasa Ackerman | Hange Zoë | Erwin Smith

Tags: Angel/Demon relationship | Angel Eren Yeager | Angel Wings | Demon Levi Ackerman | Alternate Universe - Supernatural Elements | Archangels | Angel Armin Arlert | Angel Mikasa Ackerman | Demon Hange Zoë | Demon Erwin Smith | Overprotective Mikasa Ackerman | Levi Ackerman Loves Eren Yeager | Eren Yeager Loves Levi Ackerman | Mutual Pining | Fluff and Smut | Explicit Sexual Content | Needy Eren Yeager | Forbidden Love | Forest Sex | Levi has very sensitive horns | Eren loves playing with them | Light Angst | Happy Ending

Words: 9,281

Published: 27/07/2022

Summary:

“We could be happy, you know?"

Levi's softly spoken words had the desired effect, forcing the brunet to freeze on the spot.

But with sunken shoulders, Eren replied, "at what cost?"

Levi couldn't answer him. They both knew neither of them was selfish enough to endanger that many lives over their own happiness.

It was a different kind of pain, having to turn his back on the demon and, with a fluid flap of his wings, glide across the river and away from him.

Read now:

#ereri #riren #levi x eren #eren x levi #aot ereri #rivaere #levi ackerman #eren jaeger #erenxlevi #aot riren #read on ao3 #ereri fic #angel demon au

[noohdulss]

"Could I have done something to prevent this?" Levi tightened his grasp on the boy's locks, holding his head backwards, blade nipping the skin of his nape.

"No," Eren only offered a small smile. "I would do everything again. I hope you don't regret getting to know me."

"Never."

#riren drabbles #rivaere #ereri #snk riren #ereri riren #drabble #angst

[ererifanficprompts]

#151 Prompt

Eren had always felt that way, since that day in the courtroom, he’d always known that even if he was destroyed at Levi’s hands, even if he turned to ash and scattered like dust in the wind, his heart would always belong to Levi.

#Prompt #Ereri #Riren #Rivaere #Rivaereri #Angst #Canon Verse

[realmrsevilgenius]

Finally got to the smut!

#ereri #riren #rivaere #angst #romance #smut #hurt/comfort

[itsyue]

Commission 💕💕

Ughhh i love this so much 😭 the feels 😭

Artist: Mikka (FB)

#riren #angst #levi ackerman #eren jaeger #rivaere

[ageha-sakura]

Camping

This is a super late drabble poem thing for @ereri-writing-prompts June Prompt Incalescent! I have no excuses for why it’s so late, I’m just lazy. I wanna really quickly thank @omglevixeren for looking this over and making sure I’m not insane-though I’m sure I’m still totally insane.

Camping

Long drive. Unbearable songs. Awful singing. They took a wrong turn four times, Eren wasn't the best a reading maps, and anytime Levi brought up using their phones Eren would remind him this trip was to unplug and be one with nature.

Midsummer day. Uncomfortable heat. Muttered insults. And this damn tent they didn't know what to do with or how to put together balled up into rod and tarp covered disaster, they really needed to figure that out before sundown.

Burnt marshmallows. Sweet kisses. Crisp night. It’s colder now as the sun sets, Eren’s head nuzzling into Levi's shoulder, the warmth of the fire relaxing them a bit too much, lending them a false sense of security.

Scattered Freckles. Golden Glow. Sneaky drinks. The alcohol may have been a poor decision, but coming to a campsite with zero camping experience could also be classified as a "poor decision."

Soft steps. Metal snapping. Quiet swearing. The fire's warmth had bitten them both in the ass, the tent remained tangled and outrageously challenging to piece together-especially now in the dark.

Hushed laughter. Zippers sounding. Victory hugs. The tent may have tried to take their dignity, but Eren had sacrificed that the moment he purchased the too-small bear sleeping bags.

Faint rustling. Paranoid blabber. Tent Spiders. The neighbouring campers were chanting and humming, Eren insisted they were a cult, and as the evening wore on and the chanting grew louder, Levi started to believe him.

Loud swearing. Hurried packing. Car starting. Eren was barely strapped in when Levi pulled the car in reverse and hightailed it out of the campground at 2AM, the tent once again crumpled and shoved into the trunk of their car.

Eren couldn't stop laughing by the time they were 30 minutes down the old dirt road, the campgrounds far enough away to feel a wash of relief and minor hysteria.

Levi breathed out a small laugh of his own, glancing Eren's way, reminded of the warmth of the fireside. Being by Eren's side was a lot like that gentle glow and comfortable heat.

Levi could live like this for the rest of his life, running away from secret forest cults and tent spiders.

He could do anything, as long as he was by Eren's side.

For the rest of their lives.

#ereri #riren #rivaere #EreriWritingPrompt6 #ereri drabbles #camping #how do tag #aer thanks for looking this over you are such a bean #also thank aer for talking me out of angst because you bet i was four fucking seconds away from killing everyone #My writing

[no-longer-heree]

Forget Me Not

TW: Anxiety and panic attacks.Slight angst. Please be cautious while reading.

Thank you for another awesome prompt, @ereri-writing-prompts! I hope you all enjoy! :) (Pssst. You can also read on AO3! All feedback is appreciated.)

Prompt 3: Forgetfulness

Summary: Turns out, Levi forgets things sometimes too.

Eren was confused.

In all their six years of being together, Levi had never forgotten anything. He was meticulous in all things, and that included memorization. Whether it was entirely intentional, or absorbed into the interiors of his subconscious, Levi had a knack for always remembering. Of course, the quirk held it's pros and it's cons, but Eren had always been impressed by this feat, as infuriating as it was in some moments.

Levi never forgot, which was why Eren was so confused.

Eren did not share in his husband's gift. In fact, the younger of the two was quite forgetful himself. (Levi often joke that Eren should be the older of the two of them, since he seemed to be going senile much quicker. Eren always smacked his arm for the comment, lying about seeing grey hairs in his lover's raven locks.) But he had been making more of an effort lately to remember important dates. The day they met, their fist kiss, their first date, their first time, their wedding anniversary. Even Valentine's and Levi's birthday, which should have been easy to remember since it was on Christmas. It was all written down on a small piece of paper in his wallet, the one thing he never seemed to misplace.

After the first few years of checking the paper, the dates had seemingly began to ingrain themselves into his mind, and he couldn't be more pleased with himself. Finally. It also helped that Levi would start dropping hints that a special day was coming up a few days in advance, getting his husband flowers or small trinkets that he had caught him eyeing in shops. When that started happening, Eren knew to check his paper to see what they'd be celebrating soon.

But today. Today was a special day. It was their third wedding anniversary. It had snuck up on Eren in the blink of an eye due to the fact that Levi had left no hints. At first, Eren thought that Levi was trying to prove a point, or teach him a lesson, but Levi hadn't even asked Eren for gift ideas or what he would like for dinner that evening or anything. It was like it wasn't even happening, and the young man wasn't quite sure what to do.

Another thing Levi was good at was planning. He handled all the dates, only asking Eren a few questions about his preferences when needed. Maybe Levi had gotten tired and expected Eren to take over the planning this year. Maybe he was bored. Maybe he was angry.

Maybe he felt that Eren didn't want to celebrate such a beautiful day because he didn't care about him. Maybe he thought that Eren wasn't putting forth an effort because he didn't love him. Maybe he was hurt.

Because Levi never forgot.

Eren's mind was swimming in a sea of maybes. No, he was drowning; swept away in the dark waters of his mind and pulled beneath the current with no safety harness. His heart seemed to clench in his chest, his mouth going bone dry as his lungs shrunk in a sudden fit of anxiety. He felt dizzy, standing on shaking legs as his knees started to go weak and tears welled up in his eyes. He tried to keep himself calm by taking deep breaths like Levi had always shown him, and it did seem to help, but the thoughts of possibly hurting his beloved worried his mind.

He lowered himself onto the couch, twisting his ring around his finger nervously as he continued to try to settle his racing mind, rocking back and forth, counting down from ten. But his heart rate picked up again when he heard the rattle of keys outside the apartment's door, the click of the lock, and the eventual swing of the door opening.

"Honey, I'm home." Levi's voice could be heard from the hall, tired from the long day at work, speaking words he only reserves for this special day. He never calls Eren honey. He never says anything so corny.

Only on their anniversary.

So he does remember... He thought to himself, which in his mind practically confirmed his fears. A small whimper slipped passed his lips, and he covered his mouth to muffle a sob as his rocking only quickened. Teal irises were hidden behind tightly shut eyelids, trying with all his might to subdue his now full-blown panic attack, his words trapped in his throat like they'd been glued there.

But Levi had heard. As he was taking off his shoes at the door, he had heard that tiny whimper, the gasping of breath and choked sobs. He was rushing as he kicked his shoes haphazardly out of his way, throwing off his jacket and dropping his keys to rush to his husband's aid. His breath hitched in his throat when he saw Eren, all crumpled on the couch with tear stained cheeks, but he didn't let the broken sight deter him from comforting the brunet. Levi remembered what helped and what didn't; he remembered.

He remembered the first time this had happened, over a shattered teacup. Levi hadn't been physically or emotionally hurt by the porcelain slipping out of his then-boyfriend's fingers, but Eren had nearly been inconsolable. He knew the boy was clumsy, and that he had small bouts of anxiety, but he had never been witness to one of the fateful attacks until then. That night, once Eren had calmed the storm of his mind and settled into Levi's loving arms, the older vowed that he would do everything in his power to help the love of his life conquer his crippling anxiety. He would research the mental illness, pay close attention to things that triggered attacks, and learn the best ways to help prevent or bring him out of his panic.

Having not been home to know what triggered this particular attack, Levi would have to wing it. He knelt down in front of his darling husband, setting gentle hands on his knees, soothingly stroking up and down his legs. "Eren, baby. Whatever it is, I'm here now. Can you tell me what happened?" he asked softly, voice as smooth and sweet as honey, but he barely got the words out before Eren's eyes flew open and another sob left him.

"I'm so sorry, Levi! I... I didn't mean to hurt you!" Eren gasped out through the tightness in his chest, his tongue feeling heavy in his mouth, like he was trying to speak passed a mouth full of sand.

Levi's eyebrows met in confusion, his hands faltering for only a moment before he shook himself enough to focus again. "What are you talking about, baby? You haven't hurt me at all."

But Eren only shook his head, and Levi could see the muscles in his neck tensing up, signalling that the brunet was having a very hard time getting his thoughts collected into words. Levi took a deep breath, and moved himself to sit next to his beloved on the couch. He wrapped him up in his arms, leaning against the arm of the sofa and pulling Eren back into his chest, massaging his shoulders. As he whispered loving words into the other's ear, he wracked his brain for any memory of Eren hurting him in the past few days, weeks, and even months. But if there was something, Levi didn't remember.

Ten minutes turned into thirty, and that turned into an hour. Levi realized silently that this was Eren's worst attack to date. He had been doing so well at coming out of his anxiety attacks here in the last several years. His medication certainly helped, but Eren also claimed that Levi was just really good at comforting him. But as one hour started to inch closer to two, the raven began to doubt himself.

”Eren, baby, it’s gonna be okay. I’m not mad or hurt, I swear.” He did his best to soothe, but the longer the attack drug on and on, the more Levi began to feel helpless. “My sweet Eren. Everything’s going to be okay. No matter what it is, it’s gonna be okay.”

But was it? Levi had no idea what had happened to cause this, and whose to say that he wasn’t making it worse? For all he knew, Eren could be afraid of him. He thought Levi was angry with him, or hurt by him, so it was entirely plausible that the raven’s presence was only making it worse.

Levi was pulled from his thoughts when he felt the warm body pressed to his front begin to twist around to face him. His normally bright teal eyes were hooded with exhaustion, his face red and splotchy and swollen. The older’s heart broke at the all too familiar expression on his husband’s precious face, his fingertips carefully wiping away his tears. “Baby, won’t you tell me what’s wrong?”

Eren’s shoulder’s were stiff, his back sore from the wracking of his sobs. He sniffled, resting his head against his chest. “I’m sorry.” The words were whispered so quietly that Levi had barely heard him.

But he did, and he moved a gentle hand under Eren’s chin to tilt his face towards his own. “Eren, you don’t have a single thing to be sorry about. What happened, baby? What brought this on all of a sudden?” He asked softly, afraid that he would set off another attack if he spoke too loudly. But Eren only shook his head, staying silent for a long while as he thought through his words.

Silences between the young men were not always comfortable. When they were first starting to know each other, their silence was filled with adolescent awkwardness, but they had grown out of that fairly quickly. It morphed into a pleasantness that both boys were fond of, wrapping themselves in the warm glow of each other's embrace and finding comfort in the fact that they didn't need words to show each other love. However, there were still times that the silence was filled with tension.

This was one of those times.

"I thought I hurt your feelings." he whispered as quietly as a breath, wiping at the last of his tears with the backs of his hands. "I thought maybe you were upset because I can never remember our special days, even though I'm trying really hard. I thought that you thought I didn't care, or that I'm not putting in any effort, or that I don't love you anymore... I do. I do care, and I'm trying, and I love you so much. I even have this little paper in my wallet that has all of the dates we like to celebrate, and I try to keep up, but you weren't leaving any hints, so I don't even have you anything for our anniversary, and I'm sorry. I'm so sorry, Levi. I'm sorry I forgot."

What was supposed to come out as a well thought out explanation turned into a hurl of word vomit. It all tumbled from the younger's lips clumsily, stammering and sniffling through the entire apology. But Levi easily caught on, and hugged his young lover to his chest even tighter than before.

"Eren, no. I don't think those things at all. I know you're trying. I can see it, and that shows me how much you care. And I know you wouldn't have married me if you thought for one second that you could ever stop loving me. I know my Eren." he whispered soothingly, continuing to massage the brunet's tense shoulders and dot loving kisses along his face. The raven took a deep breath, and prepared himself for his own confession. One he never thought he would have to make. "It's okay you forgot, because I forgot too."

Teal eyes widened to the size of saucers, his mouth hanging wide open. "But... Levi, you never forget. Ever."

"I do, I just play it off like I don't." the older shrugs, and sighs tiredly as he brings one hand up to rub at his eyes. "I'm sorry, baby. Things have been so hectic at work this past month, so I haven't gotten the free time to go buy you gifts. I know I could have found time, but I've been getting in so late that I just wanted to come home and spend what little time I had left in the day with my husband. After the first week of putting all the planning off, today completely slipped my mind. I didn't even know what day it was until I checked the calendar at work this morning."

Eren was concerned deeply for his husband, but his anxiety was seemingly beginning to ebb away into relief. "Sweetheart, I'm so sorry you've been having such a rough time at work. Why didn't you tell me?" he asked softly, and ran his fingers through raven hair just like he knew Levi liked.

Levi only shrugged again, leaning into his lover's comforting touch. "Because I didn't want to bring work home. I didn't want to burden you, I know you have so much on your own plate. It was stressful, but I was handling it, and it's done now."

Eren's body was completely relaxed now, leaning slack into his husband's chest. He thought for a moment about pressing Levi further about what had happened at work, but knew that the man was too stubborn to let anything out now that his mind was set on keeping it all to himself. If Levi wanted to talk, he'll come to Eren. If not, he won't. Simple as that. "So then... We both forgot..."

The raven nodded, bringing Eren's hands out of his hair to hold against his chest. "Seems like it."

They sat in silence once again, relieved to find it comfortable this time, the tension eased by each other's confessions. Eren's mind was no longer an obsidian ocean pulling him into it's inky depths. It was no longer a flood of ifs or maybes, no longer holding his body captive in the iron chains of panic. The air he breathed was clear, and filled with the scent of cedarwood and lemon, the smell of Levi. Even his guilt began to ease at the thought of his beloved not having any gifts for him either.

Several minutes passed before either of them spoke again, but that was fine. When the silence was broken, it was Levi who spoke up first, his tone easier and a bit teasing. "Wanna order pizza and marathon Harry Potter?"

Eren's thoughtful expression morphed into a wide grin, his eyes finally beginning to light up and sparkle like the gems they were. "That sounds perfect, love."

"Happy anniversary."

#EreriWritingPrompts #EreriWritingPrompt3 #Ereri #Riren #Rivaere #Eren Jaeger #Levi Ackerman #Modern AU #tw: anxious thoughts #tw: panic attack #Angst to Fluff #Hurt/Comfort #Slight Angst #Fluff #writing #my writing #thesilverfield writing #snk #snk fic #aot #aot fic #ao3 #ao3 fic

[sweetsoursugarcube]

I didn't see the prompt post hehe, "Why are you giving me such a hard time about this?” for Levi and eren if it's still going

haha yes, it’s still going ^.~ thank you so much for giving me a prompt! 🌸 (from this prompt meme)

11. “Why are you giving me such a hard time about this?” ~840 words

”Why are you giving me such a hard time aboutthis?”

“Because if I don’t, you’re going to make afool out of yourself and the whole Survey Corps. Now, stand straight and keepyour hand on my waist. Firmer, you’releading me.” Levi took a hold of Eren’s wrist and guided it further around hismiddle. Eren blinked at him with wide eyes.

“And then?”

“Take a small step back- I said small. Your partner will wear high heelsthat hurt her feet, she’s not going to chase you across the dancefloor.”

Eren flushed and stumbled forward at the sametime as Levi attempted to amend the monstrous gap between them. Their chestspressed up to each other and they shared a moment of silent eye contact.

“You’re a shitty leader, you know that?”

“I know, I know.” Eren let out a frustratedgrowl. “I’m sorry, this isn’t going anywhere. Are you sure you can’t tell themI’m sick and can’t attend, or something?”

The night had claimed most of Levi’s office,their only light being the gas lamp on his desk and the moonlight shyly peekingin through the windows. Everyone else in the squad were dreaming sweet dreams,because everyone else in the squad could waltz. Everyone, but Eren, who surelywould embarrass them all at the yearly royal Christmas party all military officershad to attend. Squad Levi were frequently honored guests thanks to their crucialcontributions in the Survey Corps’ successful missions, but that might change onceEren performed the wobbly foal step dance, which was the only dance he excelledin. Levi didn’t know if the possible exclusion from the following years’celebrations was desirable or not. Sure, he despised socializing with creammoustached snobs, but on the other hand he dreaded the day Erwin realized that Eren’satrocious waltz had discouraged their sponsors.

“Let’s switch it up.” Levi withdrew his hands fromEren’s body.

“How?”

“Put your left hand on my shoulder and placethe other here. Maybe you’ll learn it easier like this.” Levi curled his right handaround Eren’s midriff and offered the left for him to take. “Follow my lead.”

“Uh, are you sure about this?”

“Just follow. And watch your feet.”

Levi counted from one to three to set a rhythm theyswayed back and forth to—“I’m waltzing,Levi, look!” “Seems like you are. Huh, who would’ve thought?”—in a slowcircle. They made it twice around the room before Levi pulled Eren firmer tohimself and quickened the pace, deeming him ready for it without riskingcrushed toes. Eren followed well, albeit occasionally stumbling and peering athis feet. He even smiled and chuckled a little when Levi attempted a dip.

They danced their way back to their startingpoint, ending in the center of the office. Levi eased his grip and leaned back tostudy Eren’s flushed cheeks and newfound radiance. “You’ll lead next.”

The smile disappeared, replaced by a grimace.Eren rested his head on Levi’s shoulder and groaned. “Do I have to? Why can’t Ijust dance the follower’s part?”

“The ladies won’t be impressed when you askthem to lead.”

He pouted. “But maybe … I could dance withyou?”

“All night?” Levi was flashed a bright smileand he snorted. “And what would that look like?”

“Does it matter?”

He was inclined to admit that no, it didn’t matter, but was haunted bythe memory of Erwin’s furrowed brow whenever Survey Corps’ annual finance meetingsrolled around. “Yes. We’ll keep dancing until you get this.”

Eren sighed, but positioned himself. A smallfrown had etched itself on his face, between his eyebrows and in the downwardcurve of his lips. “I’ll never dance as well as you do.”

“And I couldn’t dance at all when I firstjoined ranks. Just avoid looking anyone in the eye when it’s time to pick apartner and you’ll manage.”

“Should I avoid even you?” Eren asked, his eyesshining with mirth.

“Especially me. There’ll be plenty of girls todance with, Eren. There’ll be lines, for both of us.” Unfortunately. ThoughEren could thank his lucky stars for having the face he had, the nobles wouldno doubt overlook any minor stumbling in favor of sharing breathing space withhim.

Eren’s shoulders sagged. His downcast gaze, thedejected expression … Levi could not resist leaning in, shifting all hisweight on his toes to kiss that creased forehead.

He got his desired reaction; Eren looked up,lips parted, the question written in his eyes. He had a handsome face, allright. Levi made a point of keeping his expression passive.

“And remember to watch out for the olderladies. They’ll pinch your ass if they get the chance.”

“Really? Do they do that to you too?”

Levi didn’t reply and Eren laughed.

“I can’t believe they’d dare to do that. I’mjealous, I’ve never pinched your-”

Levi fixed him with a glare. “And you’re notgoing to. Now, tighten your hold, we’re trying again.”

#ereri #riren #rivaere #fanfic #ficlet #fanfiction #snk #my fics #levieren #anonymous #ask #prompt meme #i'm soo thankful to my beta who took time to read this even though she's been super busy #god bless #also bless you anon ^.~ #i wrote three angst fics for this prompt and then got so frustrated i wrote this #so this is entirely frustration-fueled d: #e.txt

[shinjekinootp]

Why am I not enough ?

So I got this idea this evening of a little angst ereri drabble, and here this thing happens. For some reasons I thought writing it in english instead of my usual french would be a good idea, and also thought why not publish it on tumblr ? So here it is read it and enjoy ?

“Why am I not enough ?"

Levi voice is fill with anger makes Eren shiver.  But there is more than anger has he says those words.  Fear, confusion, sadness, and above all despair that makes Eren’s heart squeeze in his chest,

"Why am I not enough for you ?"

He asks again, locking their eyes together. Eren's air escapes his lungs, as he loses himself in those piercing silver eyes, full of questions and regrets.

"Why am I not enough for you to stay?"

Eren feels like his body has turn to stone, every inch of himslef seems to be heavier, he can't move, he can't talk, he can't avert his gaze. It's not the first time they had this fight, but it certainly will be the last. Levi moves closer, kneeling next to him, and resting his forearm on his lap.

"Why are we not enough ?"

It's more than what Eren can handle. He swallows hardly, holding back his tears, and turns his face away, as he wispers :

"You know why…"

"No, I don't. I need you to tell me why."

Eren clenches his teeth hardly. That's a lie, he knows that. They've already talked about that, he already explained him why. It's not their first fight about this, but it will certainly be the last… But even as he knows that, he still he forces himself to answer.

"I can't bare to lose who I am. I don't want this, I don't want to become this way"

"So what ? You're giving up ?"

Anger flashes across Eren eyes, but disapper almost intantly as he reply.

"Yes. I'm tired. Maybe that makes me a coward, but I don't care. I had enough of this."

"So you're gonna let the illness won ? Let it took you away from me ?"

Eren laughs darkly, making Levi shiver.

"Don't you understand ? It's already over, it has always been. There is no giving up, because there is nothing left to fight for"

"You're wrong. There is us. You can fight for us."

"I'm doing this for us"

Levi's eyes widen as he hisses angrily.

"How could you say that ? How you could you, choosing to die, could be for us ?"

"Because I can't ruin your life this way! What do you think our futur will be ? It was already difficult when it was only my legs… But in a few weeks, my arms, my chest, even my mouth will be paralyze. I wouldn't be able to talk or breathe anymore. I will need a life support. I will be a burden and I refuse to be yours"

"I don't care about all of that. I don't care if I have to give up my job to take care of you. I don't care if you can't walk, I don't care if you can't drive or if I had to carry you to the bathroom at 5am everyday! I don't care if I have to be by your side every minutes for the rest of my life! I don't care as long as we are together"

"I can't let you do that. I can't let you throw away your life for me."

"You are my life Eren, I love you and I'm willing to do anythig for you"

That's too much for Eren, he can't hold back his tears anymore and lets them flow on his face.Why can't he understand? Why does he have to make it harder? He's still crying as he screams with the strenght of disaspear :

"But that doesn't matter ! I wish it does, I wish our love was enough but it isn't ! Even if I try, even if I stay, I will die anyway. You will lose me, and I will lose you. So why wait ? Why should I let the disease kill me instead of choosing how I will die ? What will be the point ? Why will a few weeks will make any difference ?"

"You don't know if  it will be weeks. It might be months, or years ! Don't you see that it could make all the difference ? I can't lose you, not yet"

"maybe never." He adds after a tense silence.

"Please don't ask me  to do that…"

His voice still hoarse from crying, cames out as a broken whisper.

"I am asking you to do that. I know I shouldn't. I know it's unfair, and yet I'm asking. It's probably selfish, but I don't care. If it what it takes to have more time with you then so be it"

Levi brings their forhead together and whispers softly, like a prayer.

"Please, stay"

Eren sobbs even more, feeling overwhelming by his own love, as he hears Levi begging him. How could he says no, when he can feel his love through those words ? How could he refueses, when he don't want to ? He barely have the strenght to do it before, and now he can't bring himself to find his determination back. So he nods, agreeing without a word.

They stay like that for what feels like hours, but is only minutes. Holding each other, tasting each other lips, breath, skin. Wispering promesses in the dark, and soft "I love you"

Eventually Eren breaks their embrace and says.

"I need a drink"

Levi heads to the kitchen but Eren stops him.

"Please, let me do it while I still can"

Pain flashes accross Levi's face, but he understood and reply :

"Ok, I'll wait you in bed"

Eren smile softly before turning back in his wheelchair. He makes black tea for two, adding three teaspoons of what could be sugar in Levi's cup. He lets it infuse a few minutes before joining Levi's in their bedroom. They drink the hot brevage together, enjoying the way it's warm their bodies before laying down together.

Eren lets Levi's hold him, and watch him as he closes his eyes. As he feels the body againt him relax, he know it's only a matter of seconds now before sleeping pill made their job. He do not waste time and rolls on the other side before he changes his mind, before his resolution flickers and pick up his phone.

Armin answers immediatly, probably not expecting to get a call from this ID anymore.

"Eren ?"

His voice is uncertain, as if he couldn't believe it was really him.

"Yes. Armin can you bring me to the hospital ?"

"But… I though Levi was the one-"

He interrupts  himself, as he slowly understood.

"Eren you can't do that. You can't leave him this way…"

"He didn't leave me the choice" He saids firmly.

"Please Armin, just come and pick me."

"Ok. I'll be there in a few minutes"

He thanks him and hangs up. He knows he should move, getting ready before Armin arrives but instead he rolls back to Levi's side.

He looks at him closely. Looking at how his black hairs fall on his eyes, how even with his eyes closed his eybrows are still frown. Trying to memorise every line and every curve of this perfect face. He moves closer to his ears and whisper

"I love you"

He bring their lips together, tasting him one last time, letting a single tear roll from his eyes, before pulling appart. Unable to said the words that linger on his lips.

I'm sorry.

#hope the grammar isn't aweful #Hum be gentle ? First drabble I wrote #And maybe let me know what you thinks about it ? #ereri #ereri drabble #levi x eren #angst #ereri angst #drabble angst #drabble #wrtiting #my writing #riren #rivaere #eren x levi #levi ackerman #Eren Jaeger

[kyo224]

Finished this in around 2 hours i think.... and yeah it’s digital art tbh lol

[Do not repost my art without my permission]

#art #Fanart #ereri #riren #rivaere #attack on titan #shingeki no kyojin #eren x levi #eren jaeger #levi ackerman #AoT #snk #rivaille ackerman #levi heichou #inking #sketch #angst

[noohdulss]

Free [Riren/Ereri Drabble] | Angst, Reincarnation

Eren died early in his first lifetime spent with the love of his life. They exhausted all knowledge available, experiments, and and scoured every inch of history in order to save Eren from Ymir's curse, still he died.

Levi vows that he will find him in their next life and love him better—longer. Even if it takes him thousands of years, Levi vowed to find him and give him the life they weren't able to have together.

And they did, they loved each other so much that they found each other. With their memories intact, the universe's fucked up way to help them and make them pay for all the sufferings and death's from their first life.

Levi and Eren found each other in all lifetimes. They met, fell in love, and they part ways; a vicious cycle.

Still, fate seems like they have a different plan for them. Eren died—dies at the same age, over and over again.

Levi had all the time and lifetime in the world but never enough time with Eren. All the time in the world is never enough for Levi when it comes to Eren.

Levi wants to marry him, live with him, grow old with him, and fuck—maybe even build a family with him but whenever he meets Eren, he was still in college and he would die just before or after he gets out of it.

Levi was tired and heartbroken.

And Eren knew it.

He knows that Levi was the one burdened with all of this being the one left alone after he's done—dead. So he decided, he would let Levi go after this lifetime.

He would set Levi free.

#ereri riren #rivaere #riren drabbles #ereri #ereri drabbles #aot ereri #angst #ereri angst #riren angst #reincarnated au #reincarnation