I felt I could not give anything more, I asked myself if there was any more inventory for the giving feteday. Its true, there wasn’t, there never was. They were never mine to give in the first place, nor theirs to take. But an understanding of the time and place, an organic comprehension of the connection between needs and gifts. Im still here now, and none of these things are really gone, or really mine.
What is real is that giving is a fitting verb for me. Something is pulling my hand, it appears like my soul, oh! Right, after it all, in this being molded, being given and at times undone, I feel this soul still pulling with a tenderly mood, with intention, with a glance of determination is implying: just go on.
After some time, took my words and art, rhymes that graced night lights with a cosmos of heart-warming tones, saw them as a nice gesture to deliver, and delivered they where. Selected my knowledge, lessons that elders once passed, that and my science, listed them in a contract that was then in my hands, another name here, and where mine goes was already signed.
I even folded some of my darkness, the fungus-like moist black soul toxins I used to hide, at an oriel I put them, private it appeared, but not really. Precious gifts, magic tricks, simple acts of kindness, a few pact objects and even a ring, yes I gave them all away.
It started, in the beginning, there they were; a soul dressed in innocence, also a smile that could not glimpse evil. Was it a Tuesday or a Thursday? Who knows? What I do know is that I granted them both. Then my body, melted over a promise that appeared without expiry. Gladly gave them away too.
Spirit in one hand, plans in the other, a picnic of romance and truth, the tingling love of souls that once built a world fit for two hearts shaped as one. I saw these all wrapped as presents and a name of their recipient too.
Every 571 minutes a ship is gone, a house is shaken and some guy named Raymond is baking. When the whispers get to 249 a hurricane called Helen sings a tune of mine, Back in June a roman stole a dime and still I chose to smile, When a mount I must climb for my dream to get in tide, I grasp the lie about a fly inside a jar that is ruefully far from the sky, But wait! for the illusion is torn as the newborn appeared, as love inside a tear, life and its meaning, as a fool that learns to hear, maybe something he will say, nonsense! a child?, theres no being with bigger cleanse, quiet Mr, Gray! that the child is about to speak, and astonished we all waited for a peek, and I crave for a dispatch of hope, a hone knife for this wretched rope, I stood bemused for the words a child dared to use, like dynamite with no fuse, true knife but no hope, -Im so tired of life!- were the words we had to cope, No worries we all have follies -said Mr. Gray- so we flew to the nearest bay to see how every 571 minutes a ship is gone, a house is shaken, and some guy named Raymond is baking.
Our precious canister can only hold a certain burden.
The finest moments, our whole heyday, smiling they cuddle.
Here they shine, truly bedecked, all of a sudden.
I lacked the sacred objects, the enhancement of vanity,
Modesty was not the gist for this underlined confession.
But a radical distinction, the value of invisible gifts, sharing creation.
The sun is not a glass, nor the sea a canteen, what an epiphany!
Still the fields need grass and fire needs air, even flowers dry for their children to emerge.
And saving is lacking, impatience is stress, thus loosing is just a simple round in the great roulette.
One stream of air, and we are dived into another tense, one that used to walk, even run, but now is gone.
And that may be the fate of our dearest case, none of the ritual objects arrived, What plot is going on?
Never mind these trivial items, nor these letters that make words vague, they’re dumb like a thousand heads of mystical cattle crashing into the fence.
But receive all that I proffer, whatever I make, I am, both aid and plague, I am a crumb but We are wholeness, in the cosmos we explore, You are the eye and im just a lens.
Truth is where lovers sack despair, how our longing will lodge and stay.
And truly now, requests aside, entrepots saturated and maybe diminished, for it all is futile without the inspiration of this truth, and nonsense whatever exists outside the circles of such perception.
Now the trees are exotic and even blue, I shout feelings about us two, and under the same truth i can say:
A day as a blossom, can be yours or maybe mine, but I prefer a garden of us both, than any valentine.