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st4rgzer · 6 days

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now playing…FORTNIGHT (spencer reid)

-“ˈfɔːtnaɪt: a period of two weeks”-

summary: in which your unlawful affair with fbi agent spencer reid must come to an end

genre: angst, flashback of fluff

cw!: allusions to cheating, kissing, inappropriate innuendos

a/n: this is acc so long but i promise its worth the read, first of many to come!

you watched as spencer methodically fiddled with his tie, a sign that no matter how loose he’d get it to be, it felt like he was choking. you grinned reminiscent, this had brought back to your mind the memory of your first date with him. except he had shorter, neater hair and a less bitter smile.

“how’s your wife” you said, pettiness laced in your words. your arms crossed over your chest, putting up invisible walls, distancing yourself mentally from him. pretending you weren’t thinking about how pretty he’d look under you.

“she’s…well.” he had given you a short, wary response. his eyes studied your face, landing on your lips, he licks his. most likely, he was trying to memorize everything, as if you were a fleeting moment. but you were. you were uncertain about his intents when his eyes wandered for a few seconds.

“how’s dan?” the word ‘dan’ came out with a petulant smile, and sour tone. flourishing the little likeness he had toward him.

the conversation bored you out of your mind. he was holding back. he could’ve said about a million things by now but he chose to keep silent, neglecting your tortured heart even more.

“i think he’s cheating on me, though im still not sure. but i have strong points on the subject, good reasoning” you say dismissively, looking down at your nails. the issue didn’t seem to faze you. after all, some could say you had committed certain behaviors that could allude as cheating.

spencer tried to bite back the grin that was forming on his face, he looked down to try and conceal it.

“i’m sorry about that…” his tone seemed untruthful. he wasn’t sorry about it, because he knew the things he’d done with you while both of you had a ring on your fingers.

you gnawed on your bottom lip. thinking of an ingenious comment that would make him laugh. a quip to start some friendly fire. something that could break through the crushing tension that lingered between the both of you, like thick vines wrapped around your neck, making you unable to speak.

‘i love you, it’s ruining my life’ was all that your brain could come up with, but of course, this wasn’t exactly the best thing to say given the setting and circumstances. but it was how you felt. you treasured every touch and every word, hanging onto every detail desperately. every fortnight that his wife would be out of town. it was unlawful, but, who were you to neglect an invitation with spencer reid? until then, your mornings are all mondays. stuck in an endless february. unable to move on from what should be yours.

you meet his gaze, regretting it almost immediately. knowing the lethal effects he had on you, like some sort of drunkenness that had turned you into a barely functioning alcoholic. his eyes change, his smile differs. he swallows, clearing his throat.

“we can’t do this anymore.” he speaks, his voice sounds brittle and unsure. you don’t break eye contact. you listen intently to his words.

“my wife…my wife knows that i don’t stay late at the BAU as much as i say i do.”

“im a profiler, i can lie but- it doesn’t take away from the fact that this can’t happen anymore.”

“i mean you know how i feel about you, i just- i just can’t keep up with the ruse. i love you and it’s ruining my life.”

your eyes widen at the last sentence, appalled. you tried to decipher spencer’s words. reading between the lines, seeking for some sort of clue that hinted towards the truth. if he loves you, why can’t he stay?

“okay…can we at least stay friends?” you ask him cautiously. even if it meant no more sneaking around, his eyes would at least stay in your life.

spencer swallowed harshly, your eyes lingering over his adam’s apple as he does so. he looks uncertain. you figure maybe his wife was the one with the real issue, not him. you wanted to kill her.

“sure” his voice was slightly above a whisper. he looked away. almost as if, if he continued to hold your gaze he’d had no choice but to give in. that’s what you wanted him to do, to cave in, like always. you wondered if this would be the last fortnight spent with him, and suddenly, realization hit you like a 10 ton truck. you looked down as well, confidence derailing.

“but you’re still my best friend, spence” your voice was nearly a whimper, sounding like a wounded dog. you look up at him with glassy eyes. tilting you head to the side slightly, eyebrows furrowed as you try to control your emotions. you look down, hands fidgeting nervously.

“yes, of course…we just can’t have those benefits anymore” he wants to do nothing more than to grab you and hold you in his arms. to say sorry for everything he had put your through. instead he looks to the waiter.

“check, please” he clears his throat and hopes the sound of his tearing heart isn’t too loud as you look up to look at him with tear rimmed eyes. you bite your bottom lip to stop it from trembling. spencer pays the tab, leaving a generous tip. you get up from your seat, incapable to look at spencer in the eye.

you don’t notice him stepping towards you. your breath hitches as you stare up at him, the closest you’ve been to him all night. his calloused hand cups your cheek, fingers tracing your face, to your under eye. you blink, cursing yourself internally as a tear slips. you look away. he sighs, wiping the tears carefully with his thumb.

“im sorry, you know what i’d do if i could…if things were different” his words are just more salt to fresh cuts. even if he sounded regretful, even if he was sorry, you still had the right to be sad.

“it’s fine, you aren’t mine, i shouldn’t be this sad” you harshly take a step back, wiping your eyes with the back of your hand. his mouth stays slightly agape at your sudden movement. he bites down at his lip, sighing, admitting defeat. you were right, he was never yours and you were never his. two parallel lines who never got the chance to see what could’ve been if the circumstances were different.

he had corrupted you, nights that belonged to only you would fade into a memory. the touches that lasted a fortnight. the feeling of his hands in your hair, your clothes on his bedroom floor.

you loved him, and it was ruining your life.

“goodbye, reid” you tone was purposefully cruel, and the choice of using his last name. you looked at him for a second, fighting the instinct of kissing him as a goodbye. he stared with pitiful eyes as you walked away, bell chiming as you opened and closed the door. for a moment he regretted everything said, wishing to just run away and live in the mountains, to follow through on that quiet life you had both talked about when the night passed 3am. tangled in bedsheets. he curses his eidetic memory for remembering your tearful expression, comparing it to the soft, sweet smile you had on every time you left him. can he erase every curve, every dimple he knew you had, every tiny change in your expression he could read like a book, over and over? no, he will be cursed with the gift of knowing, just like you’ll be cursed with the sound of his voice. soft and tender, the sound of his whispers of foreign words against your ear.

“Я тебя обожаю.” his voice is quiet, nose brushing against your neck as he places soft kisses against it. you giggle at the ticklish feeling, grabbing his face delicately to stop him.

“what does that mean?” you ask with a smile, pressing gentle kisses to the bridge of his nose, his face heating up in your hands.

“i adore you” he grins, leaning against your hand and kissing it.

“i know that but what does the sentence mean?” he rolls his eyes as you break out laughing, throwing your head over his shoulder, giggling as if it was the funniest joke you had ever told. you look up at him, both of you grinning widely as he places a proper kiss against your lips.

he loved you, it was ruining his life.

#spencer reid x you #spencer reid #spencer reid x reader #criminal minds #spencer reid fluff #spencer reid angst #spencer reid imagine #spencer reid fic #criminal minds imagine #criminal minds fic

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maple-the-awesome · 8 months

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You Sacrifice Yourself for Them Part 2/3

Part 1 || Part 3

Pairings: Four, Hyrule, & Warrior x GN Reader

Requested by anonymous: HIIIII OMG I JUST WANRED TO SAY i lovelovrloveloveeeee the way you write so much!!!!!!! ur recent loz post had me kicking and squealing in my sear hehehe T_T could i request a scenario with the chain in a situation where the reader sacrifices themselves to protect the boys? im imagining things begging the enemy to take them instead, protecting them from a hit or even something funny like taking the blame for a mistake they made!!! id love to see some angst from you!!!!! THANK U AND HAVE A GREAT WEEK!!!!!💖💖💖💖

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A surprise attack - that's what had awaited the group. They had their guards only slightly down, still keeping an ear for danger, yet that didn't do much to protect them from the onslaught of monsters who soon surrounded everybody faster than anyone could draw their swords.

It wasn't a huge deal at first, at least for ten seasoned heroes. They've been in troubling situations before, both during their own journeys and when together, so they all know how this sort of thing works, in fact some were even having fun with it, making a competition out of how many enemies they could each take down. Then everything went south - fast, too.

That troublesome lizard the Chain has been tracking for weeks - or has it been months now? - appeared without a sound onto the battlefield, going successfully unnoticed amongst the chaos as he creeped through the shadows waiting for an opportunity to strike. Everyone had gotten pretty spread out from each other, pushed apart by their enemies not that they took the time to notice nor worry. This meant the lizard could've realistically chosen anyone as his victim, it was dumb luck that his eyes landed upon Four who was finally beginning to break a sweat as he tried to one-up a Moblin.

Maybe a second passed between that Moblin disappearing into purple smoke and a blur entering his vision. All Four knew for certain was that he just barely blocked the lizard's sword which had been swung his way with such force that it knocked him off his feet. He's been knocked down before, though, and planned to fight without hesitation until -

"- GET AWAY FROM HIM!" It was you. Four didn't even realize you were so close and before he could object, you were engaged in your own little battle with that lizard, successfully drawing its attention away from your downed friend, however your efforts were not without cost.

You got hurt. Bad, too (although Four would say any injury is horrid if felt upon your skin). You were thrown to the ground just like he had, the difference being you weren't as fortunate as to block the lizard's sword, rather taking a direct hit which sent you crumbling to your knees. Any other day, Four would've been amazed by your determination when you still tried to stand your ground with a wobble, but it was no time to be in awe of your skill. He doesn't doubt that if it wasn't for Warrior and Twilight taking on the lizard next, you wouldn't have won that battle you so desperately fought.

Now Four feels as if his breath is caught in his throat while he stands by, helplessly watching as Hyrule heals you. You're in better spirits than he thinks you should be, awake and alert, but winching in hissed breaths whenever moving too quickly. He can't help feeling responsible for this, cursing himself for not having seen that lizard earlier. If he had, he would've been able to hold his own ground better, giving you no reason as to rush in so suddenly. Of course, you have a different outlook on the situation:

"I hope you aren't kicking yourself too hard over there, Smithy," It's like you can read his mind - or perhaps you can just read his facial expression. You raise an eyebrow at him almost teasingly as if your tunic isn't stained in your own blood, "I was the one who decided to jump in, you didn't ask me to - and I'd do it again if it means you're safe, just so you know."

Four huffs from where he sits mere inches away from you. Simply happy to see you alive, he didn't have time to care about the fact that he’s been holding your hand nonstop since first getting you out of the fray which had been a good ten minutes ago, "Shouldn't I be the one saying that, not the other way around? What is this, the second time you've saved my butt?"

"I don't think you almost falling off a stool counts," You argue, but after a moment of thought, you give his hand a squeeze, your voice a bashful whisper, "...And who says we can't both say it, hmm? Both be willingly to protect each other with our lives?"

"Because then it would be contradictory - If I'm willing to die for you and you're willing to die for me, then we'd both die"

"At least we'll still be together.”

Four frowns, but to your surprise, he proposes no argument. He instead nods eventually, squeezing your hand back as he looks off across camp in silent thought, “...I guess that’s logical. I’d just prefer we stay together in life, though.”

"You guys are sappy as hell."

"Shut up Legend."

You've had a well deserved afternoon of peace - at least the best you can probably wish for given the circumstances. You don't necessarily have a lot of scented soaps on hand or even access to a proper bath for that matter, and despite being near a town, you’ve been rationing your rupees since it’s slim pickings collecting them from only monster drops and those clay pots everyone fights over. Still, you did manage to sneak away from all the boys for some time alone, soaking in one of the nice little hot springs found around Death Mountain.

Still patting your hair with your now damp towel, you wander back into camp with dreams of a pleasant meal to finish your day with, after all this is Wild's universe, so you would think he'd know the area well enough to bless you all with something wonderful made from nearby resources. With this said, you're pretty surprised when your nose scrunches up in disgust upon a disastrous smell filling your nostrils.

It doesn't take long to notice the source, having to push through a few bodies to discover what everyone is glaring at: a pot of bubbling soup of a color you hadn't realized could even exist...and a texture you wish you didn't know existed.

"What happened?" You whisper to Legend who's closest to you. He shrugs as if this sight isn't all that bad, although you're certain he's already thought of some excuse that can get him out of eating tonight.

"Hyrule messed with Wild's cooking again."

"How? Wild's been watching him like a hawk since the last time."

"He wasn't here. He came down to the shops to get some things and when we all walked back together, we found the food like this."

Oh yeah. You remember now. Having overlooked an ingredient for his soup, Wild decided to run down to Goron Town where the others had already gone for a quick supply run and to question locals about weird portals. Soon after he left, the Traveler promised to watch over camp while you went to check out the hot springs as you’ve been dying to do. During your excitement, it failed to cross your mind that he’d be left unattended with Wild’s half-finished food.

"What did you add?" Wild has a hand on his hip, the other holding a ladle that's pointed directly towards Hyrule's chest accusingly as the poor boy sinks into himself, trying to stumble out a response.

This is far from the first time he’s messed with cooking despite everyone agreeing he should be banned from so much as touching a spoon, yet you can’t help feeling bad for the hero regardless of his bad habit in not keeping his curiosity under control. Hyrule did help you today. If it wasn’t for his kind offer to watch over camp on his own, you would’ve had to put off visiting the hot springs until the others camp back, drastically lowering your chances of being able to sneak away for some alone time.

“I’m the one messed with the soup,” All eyes are suddenly on you, not a single one looking convinced, but you continue anyways, “You said that you thought it needed ‘a little something more’, so I figured I’d try to help with that. I didn’t expect my additions to cause such -...mildly repulsive results…I’m sorry, Wild. I’ll remake dinner tonight if you want.”

Wild narrows his eyes, humming in thought for a good few seconds before announcing, “I don’t believe you! But…”

He then turns on his heel, dramatically dipping his ladle into the soup. The quote-on-quote ‘liquid’ doesn’t drip back into the pot once he brings up a ladle-full, instead sticking to the utensil before flopping into the soup with a heavy ‘splash’, “...I might be able to fix it if I add more broth - but this is the last warning I’m going to give: the next time anyone tampers with my cooking, I’ll only be making food with a jar of goron spice added in from then on, you hear?!”

Everyone is quick to agree, although Hyrule shows some brief hesitation until you elbow him roughly in the side. At that point, he eagerly nods, giving Wild a little piece of mind as he tries to figure out how to fix this dinner ‘you’ve’ so cruelly ruined.

“...Thank you for that,” Hyrule whispers to you, bashfully joining you beside fire as you lean back and shrug casually, “I really owe you this time.”

“Eh, don’t mention it. I already owed you for allowing me a nice break,” You nod your head towards the path that leads to the hot springs before peeking open an eye and glaring at him, your voice suddenly stern which sends shivers down his spine, “But seriously, dude, do. not. touch. Wild’s cooking again. Forced to eat meals laced with goron spice is where I draw the line in my love towards you.”

“N-Noted.”

No matter how tightly he squeezes his eyes shut, all Warrior can see among the darkness is stars that seem to glow brighter whenever another wave of pain shoots through his nervous system. He'd like to say he's had worse, although this is truly in his top five - maybe even top three. He can't adjust his body without grinding his teeth, yet he tries anyways, digging the end of his sword into the ground and using it as support to get himself up, but each inch he moves is agony to his battered body.

The moblin - if he remembers correctly, it's from Sky's universe - follows the bloody trail that had been left behind after it had previously tossed Warrior, stalking closer to the downed hero who can only curse his luck. Of course something like this happens on his turn to patrol. He shouted for help not long ago, although given the distance he's gone from camp, it's fairly possible no one heard. Even with the moblin raising its spear, he finds himself more concerned with the others than himself, praying to Hylia they don't get ambushed like he had -

"- HEY! OVER HERE YOU OVERGROWN PIG!" The moblin pauses, forced to turn its entire body to see where the voice had come from. This allows Warrior to see around it, spotting you running towards them with your sword drawn. He might've been relieved at this point if not for quickly noticing the fact that you're completely alone.

"N-NO! Don -...DON'T!" Warrior tries his best to stand up and reach for his sword, however he immediately crumbles onto his knees, hissing in pain as his free hand hurries to cover his wounded side.

You don't listen, although you most likely didn't even hear him, too busy going face-to-face with the moblin. It reacts to your charge by holding its shield out in front of itself, yet you take no issue in running right up it, stepping onto the top edge which you use to kick yourself into the air over the moblin's head. You successfully catch yourself on your feet behind and, before it can recover from this surprise, you attack, hitting the monster as many times as you can manage.

It cries out and angrily swipes its spear towards you (while Warrior holds his breath in worry), but even then you're faster, swiftly leaping out of harm's way and slicing its side in return. The moblin huffs, raising its spear to throw, however it stalls, eyes rolling back into its head before blood loss finally overcomes it, causing it to crash into the ground with a loud 'THUD'.

"Warrior!" You take no time celebrating your victory, hurrying to your friend where you fall to your knees and immediately begin looking over his injuries. His tunic is soaked in crimson at this point particularly around his side, making it difficult to pinpoint the exact damage. You curse yourself for not having gotten here sooner even though you truly did run as quickly as your feet could carry you after hearing his distressed shouts for aid. Thank Hylia you happened to have been foraging not too far away. If you had stayed in camp with the others, you would've surely lost a beloved member of your group.

"Here. Stay still," You order, reaching into your pocket and uncorking a bottle you kept there. A pink glow is free to flutter out and to your friend, practically dancing over his wounds in careful work that brings instant comfort shown through his sigh.

"...Why'd you do that?" Warrior wonders aloud, earning a confused look from you.

"Would you rather me have dragged you back to camp for Hyrule -?"

"- I mean why did you take on that moblin like that? Alone no less."

You huff, taking offense despite knowing full well that he isn't insulting your skill. He’s just terrible at wording stuff (all Links are), "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to steal your thunder there. I was only thinking it would be better to save your dumb butt than to take my time personally gathering an army to collect your corpse afterwards.”

Warrior clicks his tongue, forcing his eyes away from you, "...I'm thankful, don't get me wrong, but it was still incredibly stupid...You could've gotten just as hurt as me..."

"Hypocrite," You huff under your breath, although he still hears and pouts as a result. Gently, you take his chin, directing him to face you again, "I get that you're a captain and all, thus you feel responsible for protecting others, but there's nothing wrong with admitting defeat and trusting someone else to take charge if necessary. Your ego isn't worth your life, after all, I’ll only mourn one of the two.”

Warrior blushes, trying to look anywhere except your eyes, yet you refuse to let him do so, too amused by his adorable embarrassment to let go of his chin right away.

"I...I suppose you're right."

"I always am."

"...I'll be sure to remember that from here on out."

#lu chain #lu four #lu hyrule #lu warrior x reader #lu hyrule x reader #lu four x reader #link x reader #legend of zelda #linked universe x reader #linked universe

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milgram-tournament · 5 months

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MILGRAM Best Song Tournament, Round 1, Match 2 BRING IT ON vs. AFTER PAIN

Propaganda for both options under the cut!

Propaganda for BRING IT ON:

"Reasons why Bring it On should win:

- Just by starting the song, the instrumentals are BANGER. Like his more rock style is very cool, even better than After Pain’s more mellow style - Arthur’s voice (Futa’s va) had bills due because have you HEARD his singing?? His raspier voice fits Futa so well - It feels so explosive and like a call to action in a sense, which very much matches Futa’s mentality during trial 1. He also wasn’t playing victim like a CERTAIN girl… (jk, love you mu!) - SAA HAJIMEYOU USOTSUKI KARIDA - UNDEAD HEROOOI YES SLAY KING HIS HIGH NOTE HERE IS HEAVENLY - His scream at the end. Oh my god. HE LITERALLY ATE THIS NOTE. AFTER PAIN COULD NEVER. BRING IT ON FTW 🔥🔥🔥" - His range goes WAAAAAY higher than Mu. She would end up like PHG if she even tried hitting any of his high notes in the last chorus /j

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- The vocals are amazing, those growls are so well done - You’re able to get Fuuta’s crime and motive pretty succinctly, only based on the visuals - But it still leaves a lot up to interpretation, like how he only attacked once in the final fight scene. It lead to some cool theories. - On that note, the game aspects are so cool!! Especially when paired with him going after people online, just good synergy with awesome style! - Fuuta’s scared face after he realizes what he did. The great contrast of other foes simply being knocked out then being met with blood splatter. - The tempo of the song changing with his mood is a really good touch as well. Make the song more chaotic which highlights his character traits well

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"propaganda for bring it on: the music FUCKS it genuinely slaps so hard listening to it. song style is incredible its perfect for fuutas personality and gamer vibes. also the way the mv frames everything as a game? the only time real blood and real gore happens being when killcheroy dies? the little details of all the usernames, the different monster designs, the generally distorted feel of everything being too lighthearted?

okay i could go on about the mv for hours but lets not. aside from that: the FEEL of the song!!! the vocals!!!! it really feels like fuuta putting his whole heart into it, into this point of view that both blows problems out of proportion and minimises them, and DEEPLY fucking up. my darling little hypocrite gamer boy twitter user. he makes his witch hunt genuinely sound like something that could sweep people up into it. also the instruments goddddd. the guitar and synth the bass and the drums the DRUMS. im relistening to it to write this propaganda and it keeps making me headbang when i should be writing. if you arent headbanging to bring it on you are LYING.

the way the lyrics are written is wonderful too!!!! they feel so brash and brave and powerful and like. cocky about it. and it fits PERFECTLY. its gets someone swept up into it and it FUCKS. vote bring it on im serious. lets go!! a victory march!! dan da dan!!"

Propaganda for AFTER PAIN:

"so here is why people should vote for AFTER PAIN !!"

Muu's vocals. Need I say more?

The bridge to it is absolutely wonderfully done, the way she softens her vocals to an almost creepy point is incredible

during the final chorus you can hear the desperation in her voice and it’s very well portrayed

The coloring in this music video were phenomenal

The overlapping vocals at the end of the song just have a really really nice effect

Its just a pure banger

In some parts of the song there’s the sound of a clock ticking in the background used as a sort of beatline… GENIUS??

Its just a banger

even with what we found out about Muu in her second trial, After Pain on its own portrayed bullying in a very realisitc and artistic way (from someone who deals with it regularly)

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"After pain propoganda: She just girlbossed too close to the sun and happened to be holding a knife at the time"

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"Gosh everything about After Pain... How can you NOT like it? It's literally such a good song and is very singable. The instrumentation is absolutely amazing and I've listened to it on loop so much."

#milgram #milgramtournament #fuuta kajiyama #muu kusunoki #(ooc: im voting for bring it on because i love his dumb stupid walk cycle. and also his evil little laugh at the beginning)

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beatcroc · 1 month

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turns out i have to make an unnecessarily wordy thoughtspost about doombox too bc there is nothing about this character that isn't fucking ridiculous and also really funny and i'm kind of really obsessed with all of it. ordinarily i would just start firing but in this case I need to just. paste his bio and then go through it step by step because every phrase here is absurd when looking at how he's handled along with the other characters and the world as a whole. here we go

first sidenote: i should also add 'nonsensical' to the list of descriptors up there, because this is a fighting game and no doubt has the typical Bad Fighting Game Writing at play that doesn't really hold up when put under scrutiny as i'm about to, but understand that this is something i've come to love about the genre and its typically batshit lore, and it further enhances the experience for me. it's all utter nonsense and its my favorite shit ever.

the biggest thing to me that makes his entire shtick ridiculous is that he was explicitly made to be a weapon. like his express purpose is destruction and/or killing people, and he certainly has the disposition to be doing that. except that he is not doing that. he's out there playing Ball Game, evidently of his own volition.

i feel it is also important to highlight that he was not originally or intentionally a boombox; he just kinda lives in there. his own bio frames it as happenstance, but sonata's dlc skin lore** implies he isn't permanently stuck in there and can kinda just hop out and take control of whatever he wants whenever he wants. there is an entire goddamn tank just sitting there in the background of one of these stages. he is a weapon. there is heavy artillery readily available to him that he could be commanding if he wanted to, but he's not doing that either. he is still a boombox. i think he likes it in there. *there's an argument to be made that maybe he's not powerful enough to control something that large, or maybe just that switching hosts is really tiring or risky. im just saying though there's like a bajillion host devices better suited for A Fucking Weapon than a boombox, but he seems really committed to this for some reason. while im here btw it's fucking terrifying that he apparently can possess thing that are Not tech as well **as a side note from that the specific mention of her boomhammer is interesting. i don't think it's an intentional implication but i enjoy the idea he has an affinity for sound-based devices; i like to think the boombox left an impression on him with its being the initial thing he possessed and got used to

and then there is the berserking. the 'rampaging', as it is otherwise called. not exactly strange on its own given his temperament and designation, but strange for the way it's characterized as only a tendency. it's only that he's prone to rampaging. he rampages often, but not all the time. just often! what is he doing he is not rampaging? getting a custom trimmed jacket with his own logo emblazoned on it? like a nerd? and on the flipside, what exactly do these rampages even entail? because it's apparently not anything destructive or disruptive enough for anyone to care about stopping him under normal circumstances.

like how are you a giant angry "not exactly stable" weapon of a guy and everyone's like 'yeah that's fine. that's our doombox!' toxic's specific wording regarding his getting unfucked postgame is "back to his old raging self", which implies to me there's almost a certain fondness, or at least amusement, at his being like this. i know one of the core themes of lethal league is letting these oddball misfit dudes do their thing and freely be who they are, but like. is doombox sincerely just not a threat for that? like really? dice's interactions also sort of imply that his actually trying to kill someone is really out of the ordinary for him so truly like. db my man what ARE you doing out there. * re: toxic and dice's talking about him; i do also find it amusing that one of his defining traits is just being pissed off all the time. again, not surprising given his purpose/designation as a weapon, but funny in that it's like. how he's KNOWN; in the sense that it is immediately noticeable and a cause for concern for other characters to see he is Not angry. fuckin social barometer of a guy. local angry guy isn't angry, something's wrong.

the "reasons for playing in the league unknown" bit also strikes me as a little odd even though it REALLY shouldn't. i'm like 97% sure it's just written like that to make him seems mysterious and unpredictable and dangerous, but it's a weird thing to call attention to when you consider that...less than half of the other characters' reasons are known? raptor is there trying to get info on his dad, that one's well out there. dust & ashes i think have some kind of implied reason for being there as well but it of course isn't elaborated on, and grid is like trying to impress "the youth" and establish a profile or something. nitro seems like he might not actually be IN the league as an official competitor? it's just helpful for him to know how to ball for the situations he gets into with his investigations. everybody else's "reason" pretty much seems like they're just out there to have fun. and toxic says as much in the story mode intro! the game was developed for people to escape the monotonies of shine city! so to imply doombox has a separate, non-recreational reason for being here is weird. the easiest read on it for me is just that he was drawn to it cause it's intense and destructive but at the same time.... if all he wants is an excuse to wreck shit....why are you competing in a structured sports game with rules and shit my dude. you are a weapon. just go attack people. except that we've established that he doesnt really do that. so. once again. what IS he doing out here

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aside from the bio though, there's of course random little tidbits of characterization throughout the game itself and they are all also likewise ridiculous.

he refers to himself in third person, which is always an amusing choice for a character in general. it carries with it a certain sense of ego, an awareness of and and pride in one's presence and gravitas. this was mostly just surprising to me bc before i started looking at everything, i'd assumed he was more or less mindless and, yknow, robotic; without much personality/reason for being there beyond being the Biggest Baddest Best At Ball Game Guy doombox is already very imposing, so this is frankly a well-earned sense of pride for him to have.....but it still doubles back to being funny again because, as i've established above, he could stand to be a hell of a lot scarier! but he doesn't seem to notice or care that there are many readily-available options for becoming more powerful and/or establishing himself as unquestionable top dog. so instead he is a boombox. third-person is also often used for characters who are a little dumb, and i think this applies to doombox as well. he is a weapon, and clearly a brute-force-over-precision type of weapon at that, he doesnt need smarts. i think this is also sort of hinted at with his voice lines; where the other characters have some kind of snarky phrase or one-liner for their kill/score voice line, doombox just goes "bye-bye". Which is still appropriately Disrespectful, but it's also very, uh... simple. again i just think there are... more imposing things a guy like him could be saying there, but i guess he hasn't got anything more than fucking. bye-bye.

anyways the ego thing i think is well-echoed by his stupid fucking jacket. none of the other characters have their logo as part of their design and i'm pretty sure the rest of the symbols are just game abstractions and don't exist in-universe, but like. doombox is just going around wearing a jersey with his own damn face on it. ok. to be clear i love his jacket but it is literally so silly for him to have that. imagine being the guy having to custom-fit a fucking boombox. did db pay for it? how? we're getting into unproductive territory here but you could ask a million questions about that jacket and they all have hysterical implications. while im on the topic of designs i'd also like to say that while i don't count any of the other blaze redesigns as "canon" like actual events the characters went through between games [like raptor in particular would have already had to have the stitches since that's his backstory, it's just they weren't a design point before], doombox is in a weird spot since the first game's design for him was very specifically referencing its HUD in a meta way for his flavor and that was pretty much the entire extent of his flavor; while in blaze he and the HUD are very much separate distinct things with their own flavor. there's more to talk about here later but as it pertains to design what im saying is i think he just went out and found a better and cooler boombox to be in between games. and also got a funny jacket. *actually i have no idea if there's even a Timeline here. the gut vibe i had been running on was that blaze happens a couple years after the original, but looking at it now that doesn't seem right. does blaze Replace the timeline of the first game? are there even Events in the first game to count as a timeline? do they run concurrently?

alright anyway the last point here is the 3rd-person thing is even moreso interesting to me though bc i was under the assumption that 'doombox' was something akin to a codename he was given when other people saw this big fucking Thang rampaging through the streets. but seeing as 1. he's definitely aware of it, and 2. not even the damn scientists who made him knew he was in a boombox [as implied in his dlc skin lore], i'm led to believe he came up with the name himself. the fucking tape in his cassette player does just say 'doom' on it so i am choosing to believe that's either where he got the name, or that he put that on there himself.

MOVING on, another really good thing is that he does this

i just think it's funny he's continuing to use the thing as an actual boombox; i feel like that isn't something he necessarily Has to do. obviously he's susceptible to certain quirks and limitations of being a boombox re: mind control tape, but i don't think that means he has to play out its every function. i think he's doing that on purpose and i am filing it under "he likes it in there". hes listening to his jams.

also on a similar note,

this is also not important and i realize it's mostly just a quirky videogamey way to get around saying the robot kinda character is "asleep", but i do enjoy the implication that shine city's biggest terror is like out there running on 4 D-cells.

also i'm making this guy out to be a city street menace, and the vibe i had assumed for him before was like, a random encounter in the back alleys that you super do not want to run into; but his associated stage/hangout seems to be the desert/scrapyard? which i don't really have anything interesting to say to that, but it's definitely a different vibe for his character if he typically hangs out in more desolate areas.

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i think maybe the most baffling thing doombox has going on is the apparent "rivalry" with dice. this is also bizzare from dice's side of things. what the fuck does it even mean to be "rivals" with doombox? what are they competing for? what kind of things does dice get up to that doombox would even give a shit about in the first place, let alone to be considered a rival in? i mean, like, the league, probably, but why dice specifically, out of everyone? would doombox's league rival not just be whoever's the [second] strongest there? i believe dice when he says they're evenly-matched, but there isn't really anything that implies dice is of particularly high prestige within the league so it feels like he shouldn't hold much interest as a target. to be fair dice doesn't seem like the type that would care about prestige, but again, if he's not out there flaunting his shit or trying to claim he's the best or whatever, why does db care? this would be a lot easier to understand if it was a one-sided thing on doombox's part like okay maybe dice pissed him off one day and he's still mad about it. whatever. that's the vibe they go for in story mode, but then there's dice's dlc skin description, which seems to run entirely counter to that and has dice as the aggressor:

when deprived of his usual sense and restraint, dice's first thought is I Gotta Go Fuckin Kill Doombox? even if he's over it under normal circumstances, it's clear both of them have some deeper-rooted beef in this exchange. there is yet another layer to this in that doombox is, weirdly enough, not really shown to be the kind of guy that's interested in revenge. again, going back to his own dlc description, he- and i quote- "couldn't care less" about the guys who made him capturing him and chaining him up. his only interest there is breaking out and getting back to doing his thing. if you want to be really generous, you could also read this vibe from the story mode epilogue: doombox was not the one hunting down the safety league, that was nitro. doombox was simply, as stated before "back to his old raging self". both of these to say, he simply does not seem to give a shit about people who have directly wronged him and only wants to Do His Thing. so. once again. what the fuck is going on with dice that they both have lasting beef here. i truly cannot fathom what either of them did to be so mad specifically at eachother. this rivalry is something they reference a LOT too like it's a big deal in-universe, or something otherwise really important to portray. like

lore so strong you gotta put it on an achievement!!!!! really!!!!! and there are no details whatsoever about this????? * while i'm here i'd just like to say have more questions about dice than fucking anything else in this game. sadly there's practically nothing to intuit from the game about any of his situations so i don't have much for coherent thoughts to post on him, but my god. what the fuck, dice. this rivalry is arguably the single strangest thing doombox has going on but it doesn't even break top 5 weird things about dice.

anyways, the final section and MOST interesting thing to me in all this is that, coming out of the first game, i was really under the impression that doombox is just the arbitrary final boss monster you gotta kill; no real purpose or personality his own to speak of, and most importantly just synonymous with the game itself and its aesthetics re: mirroring the HUD design. he certainly still holds the role of big scary final boss monster in blaze too, but blaze 1. has him much more fleshed-out as his own Guy, and more importantly, 2. doesn't really consider him a Problem like your typical big angry final boss monster. or at least not moreso than anything else going on in the game. he's not a threat to be eliminated, he's respected as a character and as a competitor in the league; and more than that he just seems to be... liked? as in, liked by other people in-universe? and he's liked enough that they'll readily help him out so he can keep doing his thing? i do think latch fixed him up postgame mostly bc he felt bad about being the one responsible for getting db brainwashed in the first place but like. the game could have just as easily gone "and then doombox was defeated yay" and left it at that. instead, they seem to have a vested interest in keeping him around. most transparently this is likely just a "we can't get rid of any of the playable characters or else story mode would be noncanon", BUT the point of this post is trying to read cohesive narrative sense into places there probably isn't any, and my read here is that doombox is a sort of inadvertent guardian of the league. for 1, he does still very much embody a lot of what the game [both The Videogame and the league itself] is about, but more importantly i think his presence is just really good at keeping a lot of the more minor threats at bay. if you try to fuck with the league, you will eventually be squaring off with doombox, most likely having freshly pissed him off in the process, and i can't imagine that goes well for who or whatever is in that situation. there's probably not much that wants to stand up to him by himself, and there's even less that can challenge the league as a whole unit; he's really just a good guy to have on your side like in general when you are running an illegal sports operation. i think at Worst toxic might see him as the league's funny little mascot but realistically i think she has more respect for him than that. either way i don't think he's going to care and it doesn't affect him much regardless. for this, doombox simply gets to keep doing his thing, whatever the fuck that may be. there are certainly still forces beyond his control at play here [as demonstrated in story mode by the safety league], and when these come into play, the league in turn looks out for him and keeps him on top of his game. i'm not sure if he has the, uh.... kind of cognitive ability that he could be grateful for this, but if nothing else, we know he seems to enjoy playing in the league, so he probably at least recognizes that he's not going to meet a lot of resistance in it and/or that it's a good environment to keep doing as he pleases. i don't mean for this all to sound so transactional, but it's hard to say whether he has much charisma in-universe for people to want him around for more "legitimate" reasons. likewise, there's also still a lot up in the air on how like... sapient doombox actually is. whether he can have complex motivations about anything or if he has some concept of "having friends" or if he can experience emotions besides rage; i tend to lean to "no" on those because i am really trying my damndest not to woobify this guy, but ultimately i don't think it matters much; in the end, he and the league are still mutually beneficial for eachother, and they still enjoy having the other around. and i think that's pretty cool :)

#lethal league blaze #lethal league #doombox #babygirl i can write misplaced analysis about anythinggggg #also ik im making this post in 2024 but to be clear i've been playing this series since 2016 #i never talk about it much but it has always held a special place 4 me.#i come back to it briefly like semi-anually. it just happened to REALLY grab me this time around for whatever reason #and i got really obsessed w doombox. as it goes i suppose #speaking of which the final word count for this one is.... apparently a little over 3k this time. oh my god.#usually these character/game writeup things are like half that length. look i just think hes neat #as my friend said: ''He seems like he should be so self-explanatory but he just isn't''#and ''We learn just enough about Doombox to know we don't know fucking anything about Doombox''#boy id like to know. the things id do for literally any kind of external loredump for this game. auuggghhh

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fanficfanatic000 · 22 days

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(A date?) E.M pt two

Trigger warning no minors 18+read if you dare

Nerd loser eddie x nerd loser fem reader

Summary ( the fem reader works at a craft shop .seems and patches. Reader has more alt style. Reader is 21 and Eddie's 22. Eddie dropped out of high-school after almost dieing. The reader has zero friendsUntil a certain boy came into your work.)

The next day you put eyeliner just cause you knew he might come back today..So you waited it was noon then you waited and it was sunset and you waited... and It soonly turned to 6:00 closing hour.Hell you should've known he wouldn't come you turn your back to the street and locked the store up then you walked to your car opened the door. When you heard a familiar jingle of chainsRunning towards you. "Y/N! Wait!!"It was him. He had his Jean vest and black leather jacket on over a corroded coffen shirt and black ripped jeans over combat boots chains hung from his belt loop and a silver chain was on his neck "sorry i -i meant to come earlier i just was getting ready and the time flew." You look closely at him he had eyeliner on and he sewed the patches in the exact spot you placed them. "Eddie you look pretty good today" you said shyly. His eyes swoop from your face to your feet twice "you also look great my dear. But I-I Uh came back to ask you outOn a Datee if you wanted too?" He looked away averted your eye contact as he said those words he was worried you'd be another rejection. "Yes" he looked back "yeah?" You nodded yes "take me away eddie" he smiled wide "well i was hoping to cook for you at my place if you're up for it."Usually you'd never ever go into the place of someone you barely knew. But eddie was different he was sweet and kind and it feels as if you've known him you're whole life"Okay lets go." You got in the van of Eddie's. And he drove you to the trailer lot He opened the doors for you And you were in the place smelled of febreeze and cigarettes dimly lit but comfortable and cleaned "make youself at home.""Do you live alone?." You say sitting on the couch "nah i live with my uncle wayne hes out until tomorrow afternoon. " this man. Sent his uncle home. For the whole night just for you he wanted to get laid and boy did that turn you on. "So do you like spaghetti? " "yeah. Why?" You hear him turn the water on "well thats what im making if that sounds good?" You hear him break a glass. "Yeah sounds good but you should let me help you make it." "Do you want to?" "Yeah sure why not. " "Great cause i have no idea what im doing"You got of the couch and went into the kitchen seeing eddie. His hair tied back holding a dust pan with a broken glass cup and a Lil goofy smile on that just made you giggle. He threw the glass in the trash and snapped the dust pan on the broom and was in the sink washing his hands "sorry im pretty clumsy sometimes." You smile "eh its no big deal.. so first we....•

#fandom #eddie munson #eddie x fem!reader #eddie x you #eddie munson lives #eddie munson x reader #eddie stranger things #eddie #fanfic #stranger things 4 #A date em #eddie munson smut #corroded coffin #stranger things s4 #stranger things au

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pleasetiemyshoelaces · 21 days

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obligatory 'as a traaans peerson' statement outta the way

I don't like the emphasis of life and death that is placed on gender affirming surgeries. I feel like the american medical care system causes people to lump surgeries into two catagories: opinional surgeries you get because you're fat, lazy, or vain, or SUPER IMPORTANT I WILL DIE IF IM NOT ON THE TABLE RIGHT NOW

and like- theres an in between. there are quality of life procedures that arent 'necessary' (such as vision correction) just as there are aesthetic procedures that are (plastic surgery for people with severe birth defects or injuries that prevent them from integrating into society)

I think the need to make facial fem surgery a matter of life or death is because ppl are just really insecure about surgery in general. Im of the opinion you should be able to do Whatever The Fuck You Want to your body no matter who you are, be it fake tits liposuction or a heart transplant.

but having one aesthetic surgery be too sacred to comment on just because its used by trans women carries the unspoken implication that all other surgery needs to be justified by being sacred. the reality is ppl should just do what they want.

exactly, plus the life and death conversation sort of implies that people like Kim K would have endgamed without the surgeries she had

or that someone who may just want/need it may be shamed away from it because "well im not going to die without it"

It starts a conversation of whos surgeries are more important based on personal feelings around them. And as someone who's got BPD, my personal feelings are almost always at an irrational level. So just because i feel at certain times that things are as drastic as they seem, they actually arent and i am just being irrational.

Self esteem issues are part of life, very few people actually ever have the means to "fix" what they dont like about themselves. The majority of us just have to learn to live with it and grow to love it for what it is. Nobody gets to decide what they look like and we all have a "perfect" image of what we would like to look like in our heads.

Saying shit like "im going to off myself because i dont look like marilyn monroe, or because i dont sound like jennifer tilly" sends a TERRIBLE fucking message to ANYONE, cis or trans. You dont have to "look" or "sound" a certain way to be acceptable to society, and black and whites like life and death are a great way to push the idea that you do.

Do what you want with your body and your money. But stop trying to make it a "life and death" thing, when its something EVERYONE has to deal with in life.

We'd all change things about ourselves if we could, but that never means you cant find happiness in your life if you cant. In my personal opinion thats just the perspective of a shallow narcissistic person. Looks arent everything, pretty, femme, butch, masc, handsome, is skin deep.

#courtney orchard #courtney peet

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renalord · 1 year

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Greetings! I've comes across your blog and happens to notice in your masterlist fandom genshin is apart of it. Apologies if I read wrong somehow but if your requests are open, I would love to request a fluff for Rosaria, may I?

- 🧸 anon

✰ pairing: rosaria x gn!reader

✰ synopsis: rosaria takes reader to a nice tavern.

✰ warnings: alcohol, mentions of drunkenness.

✰ authors note: hi, 🧸! thank you so much for your request! i havent seen many rosaria fanfics on here, and since shes one of my favorite characters this felt like a great opportunity to write for her! keep sending in requests!

stay calm, stay calm, stay calm. that was all you could manage to think of after rosaria had walked up to you and asked if you wanted to accompany her to angel’s share. to be honest, it surprised you that she asked you and not kaeya, assuming the two of them often went to the quiet tavern together.

“you want to go with me? why not kaeya?” you questioned, looking for an answer to your ponderings.

“hm? oh, he had work to do. something about abyss mages or whatever. the fatui.” the gothic nun replied, pink eyes scanning yours. you couldn’t help but notice the way her usually pale, almost vampire-like skin turned a golden hue in the warm hours of dusk. also, what a lame excuse. you expected something better from her, since you knew well that kaeya was free for the rest of the night, and rosaria knew no less. but still, it was endearing how she made up a lie in order to spend time with you. well, at least you hoped it was for that reason.

“reeeaaally?” you put on your best fake ‘ohhh’ tone. “we should get going then. don’t want this beautiful scenery to go to waste.” rosaria agreed, making her way towards angel’s share, right behind you. there was nothing you could do besides smile.

a ring sounded throughout the tavern as you both entered, bringing the attention of the bartender, charles, to your two figures.

“ah, rosaria, y/n. welcome in. what can i get for you?” he gave a friendly smile, already mixing something up.

“my usual. what about you?” rosaria turned to you, leaning on the counter as she sat. her gaze wasn’t deadly, or even cold when she looked at you. she seemed dazed.

“uhh, wolfhook juice. thanks.” you pushed out one of the barstools, sitting on it and scooting in. you took a brief moment to glance at rosaria who was outlining circles with her finger on the counter wood, completely lost in something. wow, her attention span was not great at night. you decided to take your chance to speak. “something on your mind, nun?” you gave her a small smile, indicating your teasing tone in the nickname. she just blinked, looked up at charles who was bringing her her drink, and then to you.

“no. not at all.” her voice was hoarse, but she cured it with a sip of her beer. “it’s nothing.”

“are you sure? you seem unfocused.” you continued questioning her, thoughts beginning to wander through all the possible things she could be thinking about. rosaria wasn’t your acquaintance, but calling her your friend also seemed a bit off. it was more like you two were close partners, nighttime buddies. still, you couldn’t help but ask yourself if she thought more of you, wanted more of you.

“im fine. its just exhausting reciting prayers and saying ‘amen’ all day.” yeah.. was that job really best suited for her? probably not. but as long as she was content with her life, it didn’t bother you. your attention was brought back to her when she sighed after finishing her last gulp of beer. “well, it might be something else too.” she confessed. “i don’t usually experience a lot of emotion around people, but when i’m around a certain someone, my heart starts beating faster and i feel like i could go into cardiac arrest at any moment.” weird way of putting it, but okay. “it’s like they’re special. their power is making my hands sweat and my stomach turn. it makes my head ache.” she groaned quietly, and you could see that she was focused on the wood intently, trying her best to cover her face by putting a hand on either side of her head.

“that’s.. well, that’s normal. you like them. but do you mind telling me who it is?” your eyes wandered on her sitting figure, so severely hoping the next words to come out of her mouth would be ‘it’s you.’

“it’s.. i dont understand it. i think it’s you.” PRAISE BARBATOS, YOUR PRAYERS HAVE BEEN ANSWERED! the wolfhook juice in your mouth went dry at rosaria’s sentence, and you could immediately feel the sour taste of the berries going through your tastebuds. you froze, doing nothing but staring her down. she shifted in her seat, raising one hand to glance at your reaction. her throat moved as she gulped, and she suddenly felt hot. “y/n?”

“hm?” was all you could muster out through your shock, eyes still wide from the impact of her confession. rosaria continued speaking.

“do you..” sigh. “do you feel those same things happening to you whenever you talk to me, too?” there was a hint of hope in her voice.

“i think..” you took a moment to come down from your high back to your normal state, inhaling a deep but discreet breath. your mouth and heart opened to give a response. “i think i do.”

#✰ renas woes #✰ renas requests #rosaria x reader #rosaria x you #rosaria #genshin rosaria #genshin #genshin impact #genshin imagines #genshin scenarios #genshin x reader #genshin x you #genshin impact x reader #genshin impact x you #oneshot #anime #hoyoverse

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saltynsassy31 · 5 months

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no cus i totally understand your frustration, ive also quit splatfests for the moment until they get an overhaul

i suggest if you feel close to getting hateful to either shiver or shiver fans then maybe quit for a while for your own sake cus ive felt a lot better after doing so, im still really sensitive to negative comments towards frye or rude ones about shiver winning but taking some time for myself has made me feel infinitely better

ive been close to hating shiver before bc of how cocky and rude them and their fans can be but it doesnt really do anything but sour your enjoyment of the game more, so its really not worth it

i do have to say though, anyone who says "its just a game" reaaally needs to understand the frustration of people OTHER than them, sympathy is something a lot of people forget about when it comes to things that arent real life. just because it doesnt affect you doesnt mean everyone can shut off their attachment to the game or a character like a light switch; a lot of the time you dont know whats going on with them. i myself am really attached to frye cus i am hashtag autism creature and he brings me comfort, so anyone being rude to me about shiver winning really REALLY gets under my skin. its not entirely (if they were serious, if they werent then its not at all) their fault, but nintendo fixing the frustration of splatfests constantly keeling in one direction (which theyre supposed to do anyways but they havent) would definitely fix the issue. we need to find a way to have nintendo fix this, not attack anyone else for what bundle of pixels and text theyre attached to.

not everyone has really thick skin and if we want splatoon 3 to be more hospitable then we should try to cut down on the general splatfest bullassery in public spaces (being overly cocky and rude/blaming others in a way with no basis or truth behind it). its not something everyone can always do since we arent all perfect, but if we make steps in that direction then we could help more people enjoy the splatoon community rather than being eaten up by toxicity and spite

i didnt word all of this entirely correctly so like interpret ad best as you can cus im eepy but yeah.

a fye for u to enjoy (also ur anon is off btw)

u dont have to but for the sake of not being harrassed id appreciate if u didnt tag with public tags

👏👏 PREACH

I don't want to quit playing it, I do enjoy splatfests, to a certain extent, i like going with my friends and i made a lot of new friends through it, it's like, the online community that I'm having a problem with

I don't hate shiver, I thought I did but I can't, she is still a comfort character (tho Frye is like, my obsession besides being my comfort character cuz I am also part part the 'tism XD), in a way, I like her dynamic with the group at least, she annoys me, yes, very much so, but I don't hate her

And I don't hate people who like her either

Who I do hate is people being mean about it, I had turned off anon cuz of a stupid person who was going around every frye support account anonymously just saying mean stuff and praising shiver as the best, I just forgot to turn it on, so thanks for reminding me 😅

Saying that "It's just a game" is so annoying to, tell that to the football fans, they go just as crazy if not more so

Splatfests are ment to be fun! You should be able to enjoy the splatfest without having to worry about people fighting

I don't like fighting with people, I hate how angry I become, how mean I can sound sometimes, I usually just vent without interacting

At least she won in Japan, so that is one other win under her belt, I just wish she'd win more in the future 😔

Oh also I almost didn't participate in this splatfest either and I did only because I haven't had time to play and I haven't finished my catalogue yet 😅 I usually use splatfests to up my catalogue quicker lmao

Also, don't worry, I won't tag anything that could get you harassed, if anything does happen, please block for your health, I don't want anything happening to you, you seem very sweet ;w;

Edit: also YOUR FRYE PLUSH IS SO CUTE! I've been seeing people get her but idk where to buy her!!!! Where'd you get it? :0

#salty rants #salty answers #ask #ask box open

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blackglasses66 · 4 months

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Top 10 Vocaloid Songs for 2023

Hi, im Jakob Cobb and I enjoy a good vocaloid song.

Inspired by a certain someone posting about it monthly, I've decided to compile a top 10 list of my favorite vocaloid songs of the year. There is no rhyme or reason about them and it’s 100% just decided on the fact that I love the song for one reason or another

Without much else to say, I will say that this has been an awesome year of vocaloid music and I hope next year continues to be great.

Thanks for reading! Full playlist here, rankings under the cut:

HONORABLE MENTIONS: 花隈の歌は可愛いし小春六花はマジでうるさい - Gyari Honestly just makes the list purely on the fact it makes me happy that Gyari released two vocaloid songs in the year, which is something I thought they never might do again after they dedicated themselves to vtuber creation and management (?) かまぼこかまほろかまことか - yuro mashima A song im very sad to cut out of the top ten, all due to the fact this song was released on December 30 last year. This song introduced me to yuro mashima, who has released some incredibly good songs in the year (i'm a big fan of the song about brushing your teeth) フランスパンのうた (cover) - world elec. Decided against the inclusion of this song on the top ten over the fact its A) A cover and B) Of an old song at that, regardless, it's really good to hear both OG Teto and New Teto together in a song and making both of them sound good, it also includes a MIDI kazoo solo 少女レイ (remix) - Haru-Ichiban The reason for not including this one in the top ten is due to it being a remix of an already popular vocaloid song, however I feel like it bears to mention how outstanding Haru-Ichiban’s remix is. This song just tickles my brain in the right way and uses the basis of the original to create its own feel サカサカバンバンバスピスピス - Yakomochi The first of three、 absolutely different songs that Yakomochi has become known for. I love the simple silliness this song has an continues to shine on the future works that Yakomochi has made since then 10. TEN: モミアゲヲシャカアゲヲ - Nu^16 Like one of the top comments of the video mentions (by the aptly named @mnmnmmnmmmmmm), the price Nu^16 pays for being a prodigious composer, lyricist and artist/painter is that they can only make joke-y silly songs, despite this and honestly adding to it, the fact that these songs are very funny but still legit good songs really makes it click for me 9. NINE: おどロボ - Umicha The fact that Umicha has only really made three songs in their career (the other two being also amazing), goes to show that some amazing producers have shown up in recent years and that they’ll hopefully continue to make amazing music for the years to come (and as will be shown later, Umicha isn't the only producer with three amazing songs under their belt as their first three) 8. EIGHT:

怪電話 - r-906 This song made me learn about ROSE and POPY, the bandori voice synths, and I think that alone should make this song rank highly. r-906 is a really good producer and they’ve been around for a bit but this song just hits an absolute home run for me with the way its paced and the phone samples 7. SEVEN: 機械少女と三十路OL - Ro2noki Can a song cement a ship in your brain? It can for me! Ro2noki’s awesome song rewired my brain in such a way that Rei and Teto are almost inseparable and are dating, it does help that both their twitter accounts have leaned into it heavily, along with the heaps and heaps of wonderful art of them together 6. SIX: オーバーライド - Yoshida Yasei This became a pretty popular niconico MAD song for some reason, but honestly I get it, everyone enjoys a high energy and tempo song with a really good looking but simple video. Something about this song just works for me wonderfully and it really makes the New Teto sound incredibly nice 5. FIVE:

太陽ポカポカで草 - namigroove Namigroove was a surprise to me this year, they made a bunch of really good songs and my favorite is the one song that sounds like a Vulfpeck song. They're also one of the realest producers out there, their taste in music is insane and so is their choice of voice synths 4. FOUR: 焦燥 - kinoue64 Sometimes certain songs awaken you to understanding that there is so many different things voice synths can do and this is for sure one of them. The Miku shoegaze song is a crazy good song and so is the rest of the album it comes from, if you have the chance do listen to it 3. THREE:

ホントノ - Haraguchi Sasuke It's rare that a commercial producer goes into vocaloid (at least in my experience, it's usually the reverse that happens), but Sasuke has not only knocked it out of the park with the three or so songs he’s made using vocaloid, it only looks like he’s getting started and I look forward to all new songs he’ll make 2. TWO:

ちっちゃな私 - Masarada New Teto release was bound to create new producers for her but no one could’ve anticipated that one would show up and deliver amazing and very distinct songs out of nowhere. Masarada is a producer that I believe will become a household name with some of the greatest vocaloid producers to ever do it if they manage to continue releasing the high quality and chock full of personality songs they’ve managed to release so far, with the song i'm choosing as my top two song of the year being my favorite of them 1. ONE:

KEEP YOUR HEADACHES - Ryo Iogi Teto Hyperpop!!! Not only did this song basically put me on to enjoying hyperpop more but also became one of my most listened to songs of the year period. I hope the Ryo Iogi will eventually make more hyperpop style songs using voice synths (although I will say their grungy Chis-A song is also awesome), because they clearly have a talent for making the style of music and how to blend it with the intricacies of working voice synths

#music #vocaloid #utau #utaloid #hatsune miku #kasane teto #adachi rei #kafu #cevio #cevio ai #kotonoha aoi #kotonoha akane #zundamon #chis-a #synthv #hanakuma chifuyu #synthesizer v #koharu rikka

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one for the tales — j.ww

༉‧₊˚✧ for my 1k event ! (now closed)

requested by @nayuyeons : HI CHOL MY LOVE *bops nose* CONGRATS ON 1K IM SO PROUD AND HAPPY AND ILYSM YOU DESERVE THIS AND MORE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! also !!! for ur event, can i request a wonu writing? and,,,, im between a royalty au (bc pls imagine prince wonu IM SWEATING JDKSJSKSK) or or or,,,,,,, BIKER WONU since hot is out now like JXKSJKX okay okay !!!!! u can do whichever genre u like, i will love whatever you write my chol<3333

a/n: hi nini 💖💖 thank u for requesting something and i hope this is the prince!wonu of your dreams WHSJAJS i chose the royal au bc someone else requested a biker!wonu au so we get the best of both worlds >:) 🫶🏻

word count | 1k

pairing | jeon wonwoo (svt) x gn!reader

genre | fluff, royal au

warning(s) / includes | none (please lmk if i missed anything!)

Some nights, the fear of the crown prince being caught with you keeps you up. You can already imagine the rumours that would inevitably surface if anyone were to ever find out about your clandestine meetings with him.

What you can’t imagine, however, is not being able to see Wonwoo again. The king and queen seem kind, albeit distant, from their public addresses, but even the kindest have their limit, and you’re almost certain their son sneaking into a bookstore—where the owner also lives, no less—late at night is gravely testing theirs.

Though it’s moments like these that make the fear, the risk, the secrecy all worth it in your eyes. From behind a looming stack of books, you let your gaze linger on Wonwoo. There’s something magnetising about his perfect posture, handsomely sharp features, and silver-rimmed glasses that slide down his nose bridge every five minutes. In a sense, he’s the lantern hanging outside by your door and you’re the moth drawn to it, unable to will yourself to pull away.

As though feeling the weight of your stare, he looks up, his eyes finding yours immediately. You feign an air of nonchalance when he raises his brows curiously, hoping he doesn’t sense your panic at being caught ogling. There’s a lamp hanging right above you, but you don’t think it’s the source of the heat that blooms beneath your cheeks.

“Interesting choice,” you finally choke out, gesturing to the book he’s holding. You had recognised the cover the moment he pulled it out from its shelf, but chose to remain silent until now. “I thought fairytales were too…” your voice trails off as you try to find the right word, not wanting to offend him, “vapid for your tastes, Your Highness.”

“I changed my mind,” Wonwoo responds softly, offering a shrug before idly flipping a page. Is the light deceiving your eyes, or is that a smile crossing his lips? “Also, I thought I said there’s no need to use my title when we are alone.”

When we are alone. You wish your cheeks didn’t burn as much as they should whenever he says it. Then again, everything sounds better, more enticing when they come from his lips.

“R-Right. My apologies, Your H—Wonwoo.”

He hums. “To answer your question, I have… taken quite a liking to fairytales recently.”

“Oh?” You move to take a seat across from him to hear him better—at least, that’s what you tell yourself—and not so you can get a better glimpse at him. Your stomach does a flip as you take in his features, illuminated by pale yellow light that also creates flickers of gold in his irises.

“What changed your mind, if I may ask?”

With a light thud, Wonwoo sets the book down onto the table before lifting his head from the aged pages, his lips pursed as he looks off to the side in deep thought.

“I’m not too certain myself,” he finally says, “perhaps it’s the temporary reprieve from reality they provide that I’m beginning to enjoy.”

Your voice is tentative, barely audible when you ask, “Is… something troubling you, Wonwoo?”

“Ah, it’s nothing troubling.” The way he waves his hand is elegant, dismissive, in an attempt to ease your concern. “Father and Mother are simply becoming rather… impatient because I am not yet married.”

“But—but you’re still so young!”

“Not by royal standards, especially for a crown prince.” His lips curl into a wry smile, the amused glint in his eyes faltering for a second to betray a hint of regret. How ironic that you spend your days tucked away within your cave of bookshelves, and yet you’re unable to find the words to describe the uncomfortable ache that burrows into your heart.

Despite the heavy subject, Wonwoo chuckles. The deep rumble of laughter chases away the heavy silence that has descended upon the room; it’s warm like the comforting crackle of a fireplace in the frigid winter, rich like the hot chocolate they serve at the cosy inn on the outskirts of town.

“Hope is… a powerful thing,” he begins with a glance down at the book, “it will always be the greatest reassurance humans have for the complexities—even cruelty—of life. I’m beginning to find comfort in stories like this one where the protagonist lives a life of freedom with the person he truly loves, and I now understand why there is such an appreciation for them.”

You remember a time in the distant past when you, much like most commoners you know, believed the crown prince to be a stoic, unmoved man. Back then, you would’ve never foreseen him sitting across from you in your tiny bookstore tucked away in a dingy alleyway, arguing over the semantics of happy endings, hiding smiles behind cooled cups of tea.

“I cannot say for certain if my future holds the same,” Wonwoo continues, looking up from the page to hold your gaze, “but…” His lips are still curved into a smile, yet something bittersweet manages to peek through his flawless composure. It sends a gripping ache straight to your heart. “It is nice to hope.”

“Keep it,” you blurt out, earning a mildly bemused look from the prince. “The book,” you rush to clarify, hoping to whatever deity watching over you from the heavens that he doesn’t notice the mistiness in your eyes. “If it holds such significance to you, I’d like for you to have it.”

“That’s very kind of you, Y/N. But respectfully, I will decline. I’d hate to keep such a lovely story to myself, why not leave it here where it can bring others some much needed hope as well?”

An appreciative smile stretches across your face, one that Wonwoo mirrors without hesitation. “Thoughtful to your people as always,” you tease. “Very well then, it shall remain here.”

Curiously, your cat trots across the table before deciding the space between you makes the perfect resting place. Wonwoo hardly seems to mind, gently running a curled finger over her fur and grinning when she lets out a contented purr.

“What are the chances you’d allow me to have your cat instead?”

“I’ve had the sneaking suspicion that you only return here for Maisie for quite some time, Your Highness.”

His laugh rings clearly as your eyes meet; your heart skips a beat at the playful twinkle that not even his glasses can disguise.

“A most preposterous assumption, that I can assure you.”

a/n: skskkws i hope the second half makes sense 😭 as always tysm for reading 💖

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dontinterupt · 2 months

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sometimes when social situations drag on way longer than they should i physically feel upset by it ...certain "normal" social things seem so unnecessary even if thats "how they are" and it "shows someones paying attention and interested" or whatever...

but for example: "something happened today...." and then NOT SAYING ANYTHING until you say "....what" or similar and leaving you on a massive cliff-hanger is such a big one for a lot of us.

like what happened, was it bad, was it good, is this something i should be anxious about or am i gonna be upset or happy or what just tell me this is too much unnecessary anxiety and uncertainty this could be said and done in one sentence. and yeah im sure this has something to do with the fact that in our life it seems like things are constantly Happening no matter how quiet we try to make things, so we just expect the worst but i just wish that people would just say things sometimes and not find certain ways to beat around the bush.

theres so much back and forth that goes on in conversations that doesnt particularly 'need' to happen, and that can be very hard when your brain is wired in a way that makes you incredibly hypervigilant and therefore you just NEED to know what the thing is and get to the point otherwise the words just start to sound like noises and it gets harder and harder to respond each time just willing the conversation to finally get to the point almost like youre trying to skip dialogue in a video game. having so many issues and discomforts in social situations is such an isolating feeling, and no one is at fault for it. we just hope these things get easier for us because i feel like a lot of us have come off kind of unpleasant lately.... its hard to respond to people appropriately when you constantly feel Wrong.

the truth is we really need our loved ones around right now but i think that given how hard things have been we just seem so...disconnected and unpredictable trying to build ourselves back up again.

really really hoping for a little bit of normalcy in the coming months.....

#ramblings #avril + peter #dont know if any of thats relatable #but it makes us feel so inpatient and short tempered sometimes

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April 25 2024 2009

Yesterday's updates were something.

First a new sound page! this one without a title/prompt. Its also our official title page.

I really went down a rabbit hole on this page specifically so more thoughts and breakdown for the update are below the cut.

The whole sequence is very smooth in its panning zoom to the sky and the following narration is just ... odd. It makes me inclined to say this is another character rather than Hussie just writing. Someone omniscient almost, speaking to us the reader but also to John even if he can't hear it.

The streets are empty. Wind skims the voids keeping neighbors apart, as if grazing the hollow of a cut reed, or say, a plundered mailbox.

Its curious that theres no other sounds in the audio. Just winds and chimes. It should be a Monday based on the calendar from John's room which makes it Easter Monday. We dont know where John lives, but his school must make it a holiday since hes at home being stuffed with cake and so is his Dad, said baker. You would think there would be other dads doing yard work or some kids playing outside but there's no indication of either.

A familiar note is produced. It's the one Desolation plays to keep its instrument in tune.

Familiar to whom? And in what way?

Google says Desolation is "a state of complete emptiness or destruction". So is the wind equal to Desolation? I feel like we dont actually hear the note per say. Our narrator only likens the sound to something we could probably comprehend. In reality, the wind over the void space is Desolations note.

It is your thirteenth birthday, and as with all twelve preceding it, something feels missing from your life.

A nice callback to the first page of the comic but also more references to lacking and emptiness. Although a funny gag, the first page also says John is only getting his nane Today. Logically we know that's false. TT uses his name in their convo on persterchum. So what does that mean? Has he only been alive but not actually living?

The game presently eluding you is only the latest sleight of hand in the repertoire of an unseen riddler, one to engender a sense not of mirth, but of lack. His coarse schemes are those less of a prankster than a common pickpocket.

Has Desolation been keeping John from living? Why?? What would it gain from that?

His riddle is Absence itself. It is a mystery dispersing altogether, like the moon's faint reflection, with even one pebble of inquiry dropped in its black well. It is the most diabolical riddle of all.

Googling Absence gives us "the state of being away from a place or person". So his riddle is a state of being away from others... I feel like the following statement gives more but I cant discern what.

"Absence diminishes little passions and increases great ones, as wind extinguishes candles and fans a fire." -Walt Whitman

Yes, you are certain Walt Whitman said that. One hundred percent positive.

We get another quote that is certainly not Walt Whitmans. I'm curious if the mis-attributions are John legit not knowing, which would be strange knowing the quote but not the speaker, or the narrator fucking with John. I like to believe the latter.

Our actual guy is François de La Rochefoucauld, a French moralist with two works published of which this quote is from Maximes. I kinda want to make posts of each wrong quote and author after reading more about what the book is about. For now I think this is good enough.

You have a feeling it's going to be a long day.

The last actual time we saw was 4:26 pm. If we wanna take a guess saying we 'started' at 4:00 pm and guessing based of the times we have been shown, its been no more than 45 min. So yeah, I think its gonna be long indeed.

Two pages later we once again 180 back.

With the previous stuff Im now suspicious of these shift changes. (I could also juat be reading way too into it but *shrug*)

We continue to search for the elusive SBURB and find a package in Dads car. Gandering into the kitchen FULL of steam (is your Dad/the oven ok?) we spot another package and potentially the game?! There's no avoiding your Dad John. Get in the kitchen John.

#homestuck #homestuck replay #hsrp liveblog

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cluster-a-culture-is · 1 year

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how do you tell if you have schizotypal or schizophrenia (with only moderate hallucinations) ? im looking into schizotypal but idk if it may just be schizophrenia

in my experience, it mostly depends on severity of symptoms and how long you've been dealing with them.

schizotypal has less severe symptoms but it's lifelong or almost, since it's a personality disorder and it's pervasive in nature.

while schizophrenia is episodic but its episodes can last very long with full symptoms, months or years, so the main difference is in the severity.

schizotypal usually doesn't cause word salad, pressured talking, or clanging (using words just because of how they sound, regardless of meaning), it's usually more of a different way of talking while still being intelligible, like a large use of metaphors, making up words but still making some sense, things like that. for example, I often add a sillable or two in what I'm saying because it sounds nice but people usually can understand what I'm saying.

schizotypal can have hallucinations as a feature, but they're subtle and tend to look like distortions in perception rather than full on perceiving something that's not actually there. it can be hearing whispers in the wind, seeing lights, seeing things brighter/darker than what they should be.

schizotypal also doesn't have a criteria of delusions, rather it's something like believing in something odd, but not completely untrue. or if it's untrue, it's not inflexible like a delusion is. I sometimes think I can control the weather but can scroll off the thought quite easily.

negative and motor symptoms aren't a criteria for schizotypal either, but they are for certain manifestations of schizophrenia (though they aren't necessary for a diagnosis and pw schizophrenia can live all their lives without an episode of negative symptoms or catatonia), so you might look into them too.

stpd is an end in the schizophrenia spectrum, and can be considered a milder form of schizophrenia.

it doesn't mean it's easy to live and deal with, it just has less severe symptoms, but it's pervasive and more often than not lifelong, and relatively stable over time in symptoms

if it helps to clear up, criteria for stpd (in the icd-11) are

Constricted affect, such that the individual appears cold and aloof;

Behaviour or appearance that is odd, eccentric, unusual, or peculiar and is inconsistent with cultural or subcultural norms;

Poor rapport with others and a tendency towards social withdrawal;

Unusual beliefs or magical thinking influencing the person’s behaviour in ways that are inconsistent with subcultural norms, but not reaching the diagnostic requirements for a delusion;

Unusual perceptual distortions such as intense illusions, depersonalization, derealization, or auditory or other hallucinations;

Suspiciousness or paranoid ideas;

Vague, circumstantial, metaphorical, overelaborate, or stereotyped thinking, manifest in odd speech without gross incoherence;

Obsessive ruminations without a sense that the obsession is foreign or unwanted, often with body dysmorphic, sexual, or aggressive content.

#cluster a #stpd #schizotypal pd #schizotypal personality disorder #schizophrenia

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i think i realized that ultimately my issue with how bdsm kinda is irl vs how it is on ofmd (that i prefer) is that its the same as my issues with like, the idea of someone describing anything as just a checklist of the dictionary definition of that thing. like i do understand for safety reasons why certain things have to be so rigid and coded but also i find it very bizarre and alienating how its like “ok we’re In A Scene now” ok “im playing this role now” or like oh this sentence and interaction is in the roleplay but wait no this ones not idk like i know for some other autistic people this kind of structure is more freeing bc its more clear cut, but to me it feels like a pantomime in the same way filling regular social roles is and i just dont vibe with it, and i also am not personally interested in doing specific kinks that would require more elaborate specific “scenes” (and im not saying no one should, this is all just a personal musing) vs like, i think things that are incidental in a relationship and not necessarily Explicit explicit (like telling someone to tell you what to do, and “learn to sound mean”) like its not about whats actually being said and done its about the subtext and what layers that adds to a relationship? like it almost feels more.. Earned than like. just doing what someone else says because theyre your ~master or owner now or whatever. i guess what the heart of the matter is is that i like things that feel more organic in general. i dont like things that feel forced or set up. same reason why i dont usually like the idea of meet ups or dating apps irl. its just not how my mind vibes w things

and again this is just a personal musing after spending a couple years living intensely closely with people whose entire lives revolve around bdsm, and how seeing something that resonates more with me has made me reflect on it, and not a statement on how things should be, or whats “right” and “wrong”

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moonlightdancer26 · 11 months

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hi hello hey howdy *tips hat*

i have yet another Question for you (if im being annoying im sorry)

How does one write Severus Snape?????

in the fic im writing i want him to be somewhat snarky and majorly, majorly intelligent (his character arc depends upon it), but even with a lot of changes to his backstory, still retain a lot of the same characteristics otherwise?

for context: its a house of the dragon/dance of dragon's au. if your unfamiliar, think medieval-esque grimdark politically-driven fantasy with dragons and civil war. the big changes are that he never meets lily evans, and he is fostered/"adopted" by the malfoys and raised to be a steward from a young age. (abraxas malfoy spends half his introduction going LOOK AT HIM HE'S BRILLIANT and the other half snogging tom riddle while they discuss politics) he is the last surviving member of a ruined house with nothing but intelligence and the protection of the malfoy's to his name, until he meets Sirius (apologies now this isnt a sev/sirius fic, its wolfstar, but sev and sirius' relationship is important in later chapters.) they start on,,, bumpy terms, but they are both young teenagers - 14? - at the time, and sirius is The Crown Prince, so they don't see each other again, only hear of each other's exploits/achievements. eventually, once war breaks out, sirius asks severus to be a part of his council as 'master of war' aka head tactician. but that involves going directly against the malfoys. sev does accept this proposal.

im asking i guess about what his train of thought would be? what his motivations might become, how he would evolve, etc etc.

i will take literally any advice here i am Struggling

Howdy there partner

(and dw bud your questions are always a joy to answer)

(also omg that AU sounds legendary)

To be honest… I haven’t a goddamn clue. And I think that’s the best part about it. His character’s confusing as hell, we barely get any content of him when he’s not with Harry, who was basically a walking trigger for him (meaning he was pretty much at his worst whenever Harry was in the room 💀). It’s incredibly easy to mess up his character in fics, but it feels like winning the lottery when you finally nail it.

I think you should reread some of his most memorable moments in the books, especially the meaner ones (e.g. when he humiliates Hermione), since they can say a lot about his character. Whether said moment is good or bad. His canon interactions with Sirius and Remus (and even Dumbledore) can also speak volumes about him and how he deals with certain people in certain situations.

For example: when he delivered the Wolfsbane potion to Remus in front of Harry, he seemed paranoid and uncomfortable. [The door opened, and in came Snape. He was carrying a goblet, which was smoking faintly, and stopped at the sight of Harry, his black eyes narrowing. . . . Snape set down the smoking goblet, his eyes wandering between Harry and Lupin. . . . “Fascinating,” said Snape, without looking at it. “You should drink that directly, Lupin.” . . . “I made an entire cauldronful,” Snape continued. “If you need more.” . . . “Not at all,” said Snape, but there was a look in his eye that Harry didn’t like. He backed out of the room, unsmiling and watchful.] There was no insults, no snark (which is an important detail given that his snark is 90% of his personality), no snippy snappy attitude. When you reread it and keep in mind that Severus was almost killed by werewolf!Remus and genuinely thought he was working with Sirius, the scene simply reads as Snape desperately wanting Remus to just hurry and drink the potion because he’s worried Remus’ll turn into a psycho bloodthirsty werewolf who’ll gobble up all the kids in a split second. He was somewhat civil and wanted to keep their interactions as minimal as possible—this might suggest Snape was genuinely scared of Remus. Especially since he doesn’t have any of that behaviour when it comes to Sirius, mans did not hold back at ALL. I believe that has a lot to do with the fact that, unlike Remus, Sirius was direct and didn’t hesitate to openly display his loathing of Severus. Harry—our POV—can see the problem with him, Remus, on the other hand, is indirect and passive towards Severus. He acts polite despite knowing their history, he acts polite while still attempting to burnish his friends’ image to Harry by justifying their bullying of him [which is telling since he puts more effort into it than Sirius does. Sirius basically just said “yeah we bullied the git” when Harry confronted them while Remus tries hard to defend their actions, which arguably says a lot about their dynamic since Sirius was undoubtedly more involved in the bullying than Remus ever was]. Snape was willing to be civil with Remus, but he clearly had no respect for him. This isn’t to say Sev respected Sirius (he violated him every 2 seconds in OoTP so definitely not), but it can be said that Severus at least had some respect for Sirius’s directness. Sirius never tried to shift the dynamic between them in front of other people; their feelings towards each other was crystal clear, but with Sev and Remus it’s much more difficult to analyse.

I think that says a lot about what traits Severus prioritises; he hated Sirius, but he never treated him the same way he did with Remus, who he viewed as cowardly and weak. Severus took great offence to being called a coward and showed Gryffindor-level bravery many times throughout the series; he was a strong figure who mastered controlling and shutting down his emotions. Bravery was a big thing in his eyes. He said it himself that people who wore their hearts on their sleeves were fools and easy prey for the Dark Lord, so it certainly wouldn’t be a stretch to say he thinks extremely lowly of people who he believes are weak.

His intelligence is also a big part of his character, not only has he proven to be a brilliant wizard, but he (as I’ve mentioned above) was very emotionally intelligent. It’s no doubt that he takes pride in it, but a very important thing to remember is that he doesn’t brag about it. He’s literally one of the most powerful wizards in the Potterverse, yet he never even makes a remark about it in canon. There were a few moments in the series where we got to see his magical abilities, and it’s still extremely impressive. We know the guy legitimately invented spells and surpassed the curriculum at the mere age of 16, and he’s only gotten more talented over the years. So I think it’s very important that you keep in mind he doesn’t go displaying his brilliance 24/7 (I think that has a lot to do with the element of surprise, he’s a double-agent and likely wouldn’t want to draw attention to himself in that way), but when he does, you better make sure he displays it in more than one way—his emotional understanding can be conveyed through remarks and heated moments, his magical talent can be shown through occasional bursts of magic.

And keep in mind that even with people whose presence he seems to genuinely enjoy, he still has his snark. In his interactions with Minnie and Dumbledore, we see him make sassy and witty remarks (“Would you like me to do it now?” asked Snape, his voice heavy with irony. “Or would you like a few moments to compose an epitaph?” is always gonna be one of the best Snape quotes), and even with Lily, we see in his memories that he has an obvious soft spot for her, but he’s still very… Snapey. So his biting wit definitely isn’t just reserved for People Who Trigger And/Or Annoy Him.

the big changes are that he never meets lily evans, and he is fostered/"adopted" by the malfoys and raised to be a steward from a young age. (abraxas malfoy spends half his introduction going LOOK AT HIM HE'S BRILLIANT and the other half snogging tom riddle while they discuss politics)

ok first of all, goddamn I never thought I’d relate to Abraxas Malfoy this much (snogging Tommy and obsessing over baby!Snape? he just like me fr). Second of all, if he doesn’t meet Lily, who was basically the light who shone on his sad life (*sobs in platonic!Snily*), then is there anyone who takes on a similar role in Sev’s life? Will Lucius and Abraxas raise him like the family he’s never had? Will his life be even sadder than in canon? Because his experiences in his childhood shape out so many aspects of the rest of his life (the evidence is shown by both teen/baby!Snape and adult!Snape, in this essay I will- ), so with these changes it’ll be of great significance to keep this information in mind. (I believe a reread of SWM and TPT will definitely help with this, since those are the only times we’re actually able to see Sev as a young boy.)

(apologies now this isnt a sev/ sirius fic, its wolfstar, but sev and sirius" relationship is important in later chapters.)

*wipes tears* /j Dw lol, any interactions of Sirius and Severus are enough to satisfy me, especially when there’s character development. They’re both such loyal, snarky, headstrong assholes who’d watch the world burn for their loved ones, so seeing scenes of them together is always a blast. A whole lotta Good-cop-Bad-cop vibes.

+ the main thing in Wolfstar fanfics that make me hate them in the first place are its inaccurate portrayals of Sirius and Remus (other characters too, for that matter), but knowing you’re the author makes me confident you’ll make it enjoyable.

they start on,., bumpy terms, but they are both young teenagers - 14? - at the time, and sirius is The Crown Prince, so they don't see each other again, only hear of each other's exploits/ achievements.

eventually, once war breaks out, sirius asks severus to be a part of his council as 'master of war' aka head tactician. but that involves going directly against the malfoys. sev does accept this proposal.

*casually obsessing over this*

im asking i guess about what his train of thought would be? what his motivations might become, how he would evolve, etc etc.

I definitely understand why this requires a lot of thought 😭 However, it highly depends on how life treated him leading up to this moment. Was he still bullied, or was the Malfoy family name enough to protect him? Was he well-groomed, or was he still looked down upon? Did Lucius and Abraxas teach him about pureblood supremacy and raise him Draco-style? Did he still have the same personality? If he was raised like other Malfoys, then I really don’t know, because I think it would require some very big changes with Severus’s character. The only things I’m assuming will completely stay the same are his intelligence, loyalty, capacity for love, and humour.

I personally love a Snape with blurrier morals than in canon. The darker aspect of his character wasn’t as explored as much as I would’ve liked it to be, so this might be an opportunity for you to introduce a (slightly?) darker version of Snape. What usually helps me out with this is thinking about what he must’ve been like when he canonically joined the DEs—his humour, devotion, talents, etc, were all the same. But it was simply a matter of where his loyalties lie, he had always prioritised Lily’s life above all else (even over his own master), that was something that never changed about him. But the problem was it just took him a while to figure it out.

So if you’ll include a Lily-like figure in his life (be it Lucius or anyone else), then I think you should take a bit of inspo from canon. That point in his life where he joined the DEs was likely the lowest/darkest he’s ever been, but like I said, all those qualities we know of were in there somewhere. The moment when Voldemort was basically doomed to screw up was when Snape began to use said qualities to benefit the other side of the war.

The reason he defected from the DEs was because Lily—his loved one—was in danger, it was a personal reason and, to an extent, somewhat selfish. Lily’s safety was his initial motive, her being safe would “benefit” him (by benefit I mean make him not live the rest of his life in guilt and agony <3), so perhaps in this AU Snape’s motive could be one that merely serves his interests. He could think “in the end, this might give me a great opportunity for *this,* maybe agreeing won’t be too bad of an idea,” or something similar to that. If you want character growth, then, like in canon, you can make the initial motive not be the whole motive anymore. He might grow to fight for/believe in what the AU’s about, like he did with the Order’s cause (in the beginning he only did it for Lils, then we see that he genuinely believed in what the Order’s fighting for).

So yeah, I suppose that’s it lol. I seriously hope I helped you out with this because I’m honestly so honoured you came to me for this 😭 If you need help with anything related to Snape (or anything at all), you can always come to me. Have a great day!

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