#the weirdest discourse I had in my life

[gemsofgreece]

As a certified linguist I want to kinda smack that person a bit. Not only were they rude and entitled, they also did not do their homework. So this is @ them: Yeah seas and oceans are used interchangeably in poetry sometimes to. You know. Refer to bodies of water to point out their vastness. It’s not factual. A sea is not an ocean (check etymology btw you’ll find yourself nicely surprised.) But a literary term is literally never more applicabile than a factual one unless you’re writing poetry. And I’m pretty sure a Tumblr post caption for a photo is not somewhere you should refer to poetic language with an assumption that everyone knows you did. Entitlement and stupidity.

I hope you’re okay after this mess. ☀️

Just in, Anon, from this lovely person:

At this point I am giving them the benefit of the doubt that @lilbbyhaiku is very very young, otherwise I do not know what to say.

Again let's remember they lost their marbles for this tag:

I have never seen a more dramatic response for such a thing in my life. Like, I was literally acknowledging I was nitpicking from the beginning, even though I knew I was factually correct because like you said, I did consider it could have been said in a liberal, poetic fashion. Or perhaps they didn't know and it is human to not know.

However, we should also note that in American English the meaning has deviated in literal speech as well because I have seen it many times used and misused in an entirely factual context. For example, I was once conversing with an American and I told them I was from Greece and their first question was "Wow have you ever been to the ocean then?" which on one hand shows they know Greece has - generally - access to water, on the other hand either they don't know where Greece is located, which is their right of course, or the word has been standardized in American English as the primary word for any body of saltwater. If you also see here on Tumblr, people tag all photos picturing the sea, regardless of place, as "ocean". Happens to A LOT of my Greece posts as well. It has been standardised, fine, the issue is it can be really inaccurate and misleading for countries that do not have access to oceans, especially because the word ocean exists in so many languages and I believe in the vast majority its meaning has not deviated like in American English. Besides, the website they linked as the "ultimate source" does misuse the term in an entirely factual, supposedly informative context. A travel guide page, of all things.

So I honestly thought I wouldn't receive a response to that tag of mine or that they would say "oh okay i didn't know that" or "yeah I know I just used it in a liberal way because this happens occasionally in American English" and then I would be like "cool just clarifying for people taking this literally" but I certainly did not expect that shitstorm lol where I was told to fact-check, then I was called a troll because I did not find a random "Greece vs Turkey" personal post first thing and then I was presented with the wrongest travel article out there and told to shut the fuck up.

But the more I see of that person's responses, the more I realise there is not a reason to perpetuate this, either they're too young or they are generally not handling this well so let's drop it. I will also delete my reblog of their post because honestly sod it.

#the weirdest discourse I had in my life #about a jellyfish and oceans #anon #mail #linguistics

[thewriteblrlibrary]

A Step-by-Step Guide to the Weirdest Mush of Storytelling Techniques Known to Human Beings (that works surprisingly well)

SPOILERS - basically you combine anime/manga storytelling with tumblr character obsessions.

Okie dokie human beings, let me just come out of the gate and say that I've been hyperfixated and doing obsessive researching on storytelling methods since I was ten. You hear it all when you deep dive into this:

'You need conflict to drive your story' (wrong... well, not always true. Conflict isn't required but you can use it for funsies)

'Your characters need to be flawed. Give them flaws so they aren't Mary Sues' (Wrong. Traits in and of themselves have both nice and not-so-nice aspects, depending on the situation.

Take 'loyalty' for example. Loyal people can be apologists for those they are loyal to/not be objective when they think about their friends. But they will also be there for their friends... does that mean they are a people pleaser and won't be as nice to themselves? Mary Sues are only there because they are cardboard cutouts and people aren't having fun with them. *See remakes and pointless cash grabs* When you're self-indulgent and ignore the 'don't make the characters too cool' rules, people can tell. You all will have the time of your lives.)

Then you have... the discourse. As a storyteller, reading those made me so insecure about writing characters because I was worried I would anger someone. This method won't assure avoiding all discourse, but it makes the characters more believable and fun to watch. Everyone else can avoid the story. (It isn't for them anyways)

Anywhosies, after years of researching, I've finally, finally found a storytelling methodology that is structured yet insanely flexible, works for any story you're telling (watching tv will never be the same), and is pretty much the exact opposite of trashy Hollywood blockbusters.

So basically, it's: exploring a facet of existence through complex characters and an easy-to-follow plot.

So yea, I've talked in the land of general for too long. This is my modified method from the resources down below. Have fun!

Step One: Characters Concepts.

This will help you a lot when you make characters. Let's go through an existential crisis!

What concept about "how life works/philosophy/the unknown/viewpoint/question" do you want to explore?  This will be the aspect of life that the story attempts to make sense of and give the reader some new understanding or comfort about it. It will be the groundwork and foundation for your story going forward, so feel free to explore as many aspects of this topic as you wish. 

Specific memories can help with this. For example, I used the memory of crying over unfinished crafting projects to write my main WIP. (I was supposed to make this doll dress with my mom and we did part of it, had a lot of fun, then never finished it. A few months later, child-me sat beside the bed and waited for my mom to come out of the bathroom so I could ask her something. In the meantime, I looked underneath the bed and found that unfinished crafting project. I started bawling.)

This memory led me to make my concept: Happiness chasing. Those who want that happy ending so bad so they can have their childhood happiness back. Mostly because they are filled with regret over all the happiness they didn't have when they were little (the 'smart and didn't like to play because they wanted to read books' children... anyone else do this? And regret how little time they spent with other people?)

The second aspect of this concept that came up was the 'avoiding being happy right now because you need to earn it for a happy future' also the 'happiness needs to be perfect... but what exactly does happiness feel like?' and the 'happiness is overrated. I'm satisfied as an observer wandering around the world'

So yea, explore a concept and see where it takes you! It's okay if it's abstract, you can refine it in the next step:

Step Two: characters

~Here we go~

Here we are picking a dynamic, an internal conflict, 'the two wolves'.

Aka: desire vs fear.

And these will be in direct opposition. The character will want something, but the fear will stop them from getting it. Because to get what they want, they have to face what they fear. They cannot exist at the same time.

This took me the longest time to figure out... mostly because no one else spelled it out for me. But it works! Very well! Probably the fastest way to create a complex character!

So you'll take an aspect of your concept. Like: 'trying to replicate the happiness you had when you were little because you are full of regret about not being happy'. Then create a duality/ warring desire and fear off of it.

(Feel free to include all the extra character trait funsies here... just don't get too carried away. That becomes overwhelming fast. We'll talk about that more in the next step)

Here's an example from my WIP:

Anuli the dryad wants to have faer happy ending that fae wanted when fae was little. (I get very specific here because I wrote backstory, feel free to write a very specific image about what a 'perfect world' would look like to the character. What will having that perfect situation mean to them?)

Anuli the dryad fears being happy. Fae thinks that by being happy, fae will make a mistake and ruin others' happy endings. Then fae will be left with nothing but regret. It's wrong for faer to be faerself. (There's a misbelief about the world here. Typically, fears are rooted in false worldviews. So, you can write an opposing viewpoint and create a 'worst case scenario' based off of that.)

Ta da! Now you have a dynamic where the character has a conflicted view of the world and themself. Perfect for angst, fluff, whatever your story needs are! (Why does this sound like an old car salesperson?)

Step three: First meeting

My major issue when writing a new character is how to translate their unique prose style and convey their internal conflict, whilst also trying to figure out plotlines.

This step is entirely my own, and has been SO EXTREMELY helpful. (I'm proud of myself.)

What you'll do is some random writing of your character's internal monologue/how they see the world. Go through your writing from the previous steps and try translating that into prose. Play around with it until you are comfortable. It does not have to be perfect, it just has to be comfortable. If you're having trouble, pick a mini-topic to write about (perhaps something that's been on your mind lately) and see how your character would react to that. Or you can change the style of writing (more parenthesis? be ridiculous? stream of coconsciousness? Third person? Poetic? Change it up until you enjoy writing this character.)

Here's an example from my writing (this is my second WIP and it's a biology fanfiction.). I'm including it all because I messed around a bit and tried different things. I ended up setting for an informal semi-stream of consciousness style (partially to offset the complexity of biology and partially because that's who Cassiah wanted to be):

(It is... long. So scroll and skim, this is a messy example.) <3

I ended up going for first person instead of third. And I always go for past tense...plus a poetic style is a bit.. much for a biology fanfiction... and I wanted Cassiah to be a nervous mess on the inside while keeping up a 'full of themself' exterior. Therefore:

Feel free to include notes for yourself! This is a great place to refine and edit the writing you did in the previous steps! You can also do some exploring about worldbuilding (I may make another post for that) and congrats! A lot of what you are writing here becomes the character's behaviors that they've gotten from their internal conflict. These are a lot more specifc (and a lot more helpful) than character traits like 'loyal'.

Okie dokie, you can always come back to this for some writing relaxation, and now we go towards everyone's favorite part:

Step four: the plot the tragic backstory:

Note that this doesn't necessarily have to be tragic. All this has to do is showcase the exact moment where the character got their internal conflict. You can do this with the desire, with the fear, or both! (Although typically you'll see the fear backstory... unless it's a Disney movie or Haikyuu)

'But wait!' You ask. 'Plotting is hard! And I need to have this backstory be perfec-'

So the method I followed had this thing where you would write one backstory scene where the fear came from, then three more backstory scenes where the character chose to follow the fear instead of the want and became more conflicted. You can do that if you wish (I'll give you a resource to help with plotting in a bit.)

What I like doing is... having fun? I rewrote my backstory scenes so much and got so stressed with it. (My main WIP has been my writing project since I was ten and I worked on it nonstop... but it JUST got a full backstory written.)

My method for writing backstory changes for each character I write. For that main WIP, I started trying to write the backstory for the backstory, and tried stopping myself from doing that. Which was a mistake. Nowadays I'll write pre-backstory for fluff, and how the fear complicates things after a twist. (Usually I get this specfic aspect of my concept that I want to explore through storytelling and I'll write a snippet about it), and my MC just gets more ridiculous every time I write faer.

All in all... you can just use the plotting method discussed in the next step for the backstory: kishotenketsu. If you do this, then I recommend that you use ki and sho for the 'want' portion. (some fluffy childhood goals if you will.). Then use ten and ketsu for the fear that complicates things and the aftermath.

But overall I recommend (for all scenes that you write) that you always connect whatever is happening to the character's internal dynamic. This is what gives weight to your story. And you've already practiced writing your character's internal monologue, so now it's time to relax, be ridiculous, write some bad stuff, and find the exact moments where the character's internal conflict came from.

I haven't gotten to this point with my biology fanfiction yet (been executive dysfunctioning until recently... the stars have aligned or smth.) but here's my initial prose-sketch:

From here, I'll write a more specific backstory (I tend to get bored of long scenes though, so I imagine I'll do my 'tiny section prose snippet style') to depict how Cassiah got their fear, then I'll write a bit showcasing how they started envying others and their confidence (the desire). Afterwards it'll be Cassiah being internally conflicted hijinks until they inevitably get themself in a ton of trouble.

Okie dokie everyone... now it's time for the plot present-day character explorations.

Step Something-or-other: Keep doing what you're doing, but technically this is the start of the story.

So there's this whole 'inciting incident' and blah blah blah.

Start your story when it becomes impossible for the character to avoid their fear anymore, which causes them to chase after their desire.

...I'm going to include a video for kishotenketsu because... I've been typing... for hours.... and I'll do an overview but video.

So kishotenketsu is the overall plot structure that anime and manga uses. Very flexible, very nice. I keep it in the back of my mind when I'm writing, making sure to connect everything back to the character's internal conflict (make sure they react to things and make decisions.)

Here's a scene card to help you with 'smaller scale' plotting:

So instead of the plot part I use kishotenketsu. And usually I'll write actual prose for the character's monologue (like we did for the freewriting) for the 'why it matters'. (What is the plot causing them to think and feel like? And what do they want to do to fix things?)

'And So?' is usually a decision that effects the plot moving forward. You can also just have a change in perception. Just something new to give the scene meaning.

Whoopdedoo so I'll do a quick overview of kishotenketsu, and then I'll list my resources if you want to do any further digging. My advice in general is to make up your own methodology for writing, and figure out what works best for you.

Kishotenketsu:

Ki - introduction: introduce the characters, their world, where they are at, what matters to them, and most importantly - their internal conflict/what aspect of your concept they represent.

Sho - development: The plot develops toward the twist later. You can use the scene cards for this part, it should have some cause and effect and it should develop and explore the character's internal world.

Ten - twist: this is where an obstacle occurs. Bonus points if it relates to the fear/desire. The character now has to change their perspective and deal with the aftermath of the twist.

Ketsu: I forget what this stands for - the aftermath. How do they deal with the effects of the twist?

Okie dokie fellow storytellers! Now go forth! And Remember! I SPENT WAY TO LONG WRITING THIS IT"S SO LONG WTFUDSICLE ICEPOPS IS THIS LENGTH IT"S TOO LONG

Resources:

Books: Story Genius (where I got the scene card from.)

Videos on kishotenketsu: First one. Second one.

Someone rewrote twilight and it was so helpful for my writing

And... funny story... my brother got viruses on his computer and now I can't pirate anime see 'restricted videos' on youtube because of ristricted mode.

So the Hannah person that rewrote Twilight? Search for 'physic distance' Very helpful.

Also look up. 'Zoe Bee poetry.' the basics of poetry are extremely helpful.

Things you should watch (the gifs)

Rise of the Teenage mutant ninja turtles

The promised neverland

Your Name

A silent Voice

Hilda

Avatar: the last airbender

Wolfwalkers

Song of the Sea

Amphibia

The Girl from the other side

Haikyuu (how did something get me to like a sport this is insanity)

Good Omens (I can't actually watch it because homophobic parents but I've seen all the clip compilations.)

#writeblr #writers of tumblr #writers on tumblr #writerscommunity #writing resources #writing advice #writing #on writing #author tips #author things #author talks #storytelling tips #narrative #original story #stories #long post #for reference #writing community #writer stuff #creative writing #advice #writing help #writing characters #writer tips #writing tips #authors of tumblr #book writing #author #fiction #writer

[rottenbrainstuff]

As I think more about attending the comic convention in the spring,

I’ve realized I have a strong and unpopular opinion….

I think there should be less audience questions at guest panels.

I’d really really rather just hear the actor talk for forty minutes about what they want to talk about and maybe answer two or three short questions at the very end, than listen to endless answers to questions I’ve heard the actor answer already in some interview or other, listen to weirdly personal and slightly uncomfortable questions, or listen to just weirdly weird questions in general where it’s not really clear what even is being asked.

The only Q&A I ever remember enjoying listening to was in a round-about way anyways and that was Carrie Fischer’s panel. She was asked the weirdest most awkward questions that I can remember a guest ever being asked, by fans who were clearly having trouble articulating their thoughts. I’m not really sure why Carrie Fischer specifically had so many questions like this compared to other guests. Odd, that. Anyways, she had the most awkward questions I’ve ever heard, but she answered each one with amazing patience and intelligence and wit. It was really impressive, made me respect her.

I still would have probably preferred to just listen to her tell the stories she wanted to tell, but I was quite impressed at her handling of the questions. That’s the only time I can remember ever enjoying a question session.

The very worst example I can think of is Jon Rhys-Davies. He came to my city for the first time about… oh… I don’t know, 15 years ago. He did one of the most amazing panels I’ve ever seen in my entire life. I wish I could remember more of it, but it was about 15 years ago. I just remember leaving thinking how lucky I was to hear it and how inspired I felt. There was no moderator and I don’t think he took any questions. He spent the whole time telling the audience stories about young people, inspiration, following dreams, and astronomy. It was so interesting and so funny and so inspiring and I had no idea he was such a smart and funny guy. I was so glad my oldest daughter was attending with me at the time and got to hear him talk.

A few years later he was back in my city and I thought awesome! I will DEFINITELY go hear him talk again. I sat down, he came out, he said hello, and said well, I’ve been told I prattle on too much, so! Let’s just go straight to audience questions! And he spend the entire time responding to questions. And I mean. He was still smart, he was still funny. But forty minutes of responding to the same old trivia questions I’ve already heard before was just… man. Not the same at all, not at all. I was so sad.

I’d really love to attend Neil Newbon’s panel whenever it is but mannnnnn…. I am honestly dreading what kind of weird uncomfortable questions the audience is going to ask. I am seeing so much bizarre discourse in the fandom and it makes me uncomfortable listening to other people get dragged into this kind of junk… I wish I could just listen to the guests talk. Or maybe I wish they would do for everyone what they did for Sigorney Weaver when she was here, and questions were submitted online ahead of time, and a few were selected to be answered at the panel.

Anyway. Grumpy old lady complaints. Whatever.

#there are a few exceptions #although most actors seem to be pretty charismatic and are good at telling stories #there are a few that are NOT and the questions give them something to talk about #but by and large I think the questions just irritate me more than anything else #long post #rambling

[beekeepercain]

I'm making the weirdest comeback to this blog today, solely because I have no other blog I actually can post in the tags on but am NOT followed by people who know my partner.

Hi! How's it going? I've been absent from here for years, and by years I mean it's been at least 5. Lots have happened! But I'm not here to talk about that. I'm here because I am haunted by some ace discourse I had here when I was like... 22.

Back then, I wrote something about how asexuals can still participate in sex for reasons that are unrelated to sexual attraction, such as baby-making or a desire to bond with a partner even if they themselves have no desire or drive for sex. It got a mixed response, for a controversial subject. Mostly positive - but some VERY angry individuals also told me that either all sex that an asexual goes through is rape, or they're a fake asexual.

So - fun fact - I've been on a journey here. For a good few years, I actually agreed with the latter points; I am asexual, and stopped being able to imagine situations in which I'd be comfortable having sex. I couldn't imagine it anymore and came to the logical conclusion that I'd been confused before and the rhetoric about inherent asexual nonconsent might actually be true.

The very concept of sex has been a very frightening, horrible burden on me since it became something that was within the realm of possibilities for me. I did not want any and I was despairing because that made me feel unlovable, like I'd be trapping a potential partner in an unsatisfying situation.

Then I grew up a bit more again, and began to realise it was less the concept of sex overall that was the problem - the problem is specifically that I don't want any. Period. However, the concept of giving my partner pleasure has always been an open question for me. On one hand, I am curious. On the other, the taste and consistency and smell of human fluids and crotch... frankly makes me want to puke. But what if said crotch was well-washed, with mild odor? Not something you've kept in your pants since last Saturday. What then?

I became familiar with the concept of stone butches. I felt... awed. That's a thing you can do with a partner? Give, and not want to be touched, and have both parties be okay with that? What if getting off is not the point of it, but being close and having fun instead? And I don't have to do anything I don't want to? A wild concept.

Another couple years - I met a person who was unbothered by my difficult relationship to sex. A person who was open to exploring and experimenting but had no huge ambitions for sex as a part of our relationship, and didn't care either way if it was going to be or not.

So, at the ripe old age of 31, after getting vaccinated for HPV for my own sake and going through a pointless set of STD tests to meet my partner in the middle with trust and safety, I felt comfortable enough to do science in the field.

And you know what I found out?

First - I am so incredibly, boringly, utterly asexual. Arousal? I do not know her. In fact, I barely know her name. This is now an undeniable, inescapable fact of me that I have proved in every single way a person can. And it's fine. Do I still kind of wish I wasn't? Sure. I do feel like I'm missing something, but on the other hand, I have a thousand other things I derive my basic animal pleasures from (like head rubs, or ice cream.)

Second - sex as a giving, not receiving, party is the exact same feeling as giving someone I love (in this case, a life partner) a massage. I don't get shit from giving a massage to them, and my arms will hurt after, but it's fun and it's intimate and it's nice because my partner likes it and it makes them feel good. Sex is the same. It was not groundbreaking, it was not degrading, it was not painful (other than for my muscles, my poor fucking muscles dear GOD), and it was fun and it brought us closer. It was fun enough to keep at it for four hours one day, but I'd again rather eat rocks than do that every day. The same way I'm not just available to rub your shoulders all day long, I have other things I want to be doing, but as an occasional thing - yeah, sure. Why not.

Third, it is a REALITY that I can exchange sex for massages. I can get a massage. I can leverage this whole getting my partner off into receiving nice physical pleasures for myself that I like and actively desire. And it's particularly nice after I've destroyed both of my wrists on the altar of their enjoyment.

So like.

Yes, sex repulsed asexuals are real and there are no circumstances under which one should be forced or pressured into any sexual act, or made to debate or defend their desires, wants, wishes, and lacks thereof. This is all sexual coercion, and at worst, it is assault. If you push ANYBODY who is not interested, you are a disgrace and I hope you eat yourself in your sleep.

However, sex neutral and positive asexuals also, apparently, do exist. I was right about at least one whole thing when I was 20. Look at that.

As a final word on this update nobody expected - I'm sex neutral. Sometimes the whole subject makes me feel like throwing up, most of the time I'm whatever about it, sometimes I'm curious about it the same way you're curious about trying a new dish or touching a fabric you don't know beforehand what it'll feel like. Unfortunately my own body is permanently disinterested and I'd throw up out of discomfort and spite if anybody tried to push me into receiving "pleasure", however, as long as my partner accepts this about me, I'm free to enjoy the science of it all, and the togetherness of spending time with my partner in a manner that is... deliciously heavy on trust and good intentions. It's nice. Having my boundaries respected is like. Extra nice.

That's it. Hopefully this puts my mind at ease about the angry reblogs from a decade ago. Probably not. You will haunt me to my grave, strangers on Tumblr.

#asexual #asexuality #sex neutral #sex positive #lgbt #this is not about Supernatural #however! I yet live

[dykefaggotry]

hi i’ve been on tumblr since 2011 so here’s some of the stupidest discourses i’ve been involved in (and fret not, people are still fucking stupid)

when frozen came out there was a really popular frozen fanfic in which elsa was a modern depressed teenager on reddit. i’m not joking. it was everywhere. i said it wasn’t that good. the author deleted bc of this one piece of mild criticism in a sea of praise and fanart. they were an adult, i was like 13. i got death threats and people telling me they hoped i got cancer.

one time when i was like 15 or 16 i made a post saying "tag the state you think sounds most made up mine is oklahoma" very obviously meaning had cryptid vibes/whatnot. i got at least 5 essays from white people telling me i was being racist towards native americans for mocking their languages. my grandma is navajo and mexican.

one time i called luke skywalker gay and the post broke containment. straight people were livid. mara jade fans wanted my head. i was sexist, homophobic, biphobic, racist, a snowflake, everything else.

another time i called a canonically gay male character gay instead of bi and people lost their fucking minds. i'm bisexual.

another time (and bear with me this gets a lil weird if you weren't in the fandom) i had a headcanon that a demon from good omens was a fallen archangel. it broke containment and became The headcanon. people wanted to see me hung and quartered for this. someone said i was being a capitalist. i was blocked by many people for this headcanon. neil g*iman himself responded to it but someone sent the wrong archangel name and this caused more discourse.

one time i made a post asking if you were an xyz gay but the theme was fanfiction and ppl said i was saying every gay person on earth read fanfiction, mocked me for being a virgin (i was not), and accused my friend of pedophilia bc they responded to them. a 19 year old.

made a shitty uquiz saying "pick some men but it gets progressively worse" and got accused of hating men bc i said abusers were bad actually and made light fun of benedict cumberbatch. also one result was "do you like men? if you do you just have the same vibes as lesbians which is a compliment they're cool" and got called all sorts of things for that one. again, i am bisexual.

there is so much more for every post that has gotten more than 1k notes i can promise you there is the weirdest discourse you have ever seen in your life hiding in the notes

[grouchythefish]

look y'all, I haven't read The Article (tm) yet, because I've been at work all day and it's long so I haven't had time but I do wanna say like, as someone who was VERY involved in that community (probably too involved for my own mental health) and then took a step back after I experienced one of the weirdest job interviews of my life applying for a position at RQ...idk seeing stuff blow up like this now does not surprise me even a little just like the fiasco with the discord didn't surprise me and I even predicted it happening in said interview and was scoffed at.

So like, idk, I can see why people are critical of the article being written by a "competitor" but at the same time, who else was going to write it? Audiodrama production is a small community and most of the discourse around it tends to come from within it.

IDK I might change my mind here or have more to say after I actually read it but these are my thoughts right now.

#steeve.txt

[chaotic-neutral-knitter]

I feel like I’ve been inoculated against some of the wildest twitter/tumblr discourse bc I followed glumshoe while people were saying the weirdest shit to them and it became apparent relatively quickly that a lot of the purity culture popular on the internet is complete BS.

Like, nothing will convince you that some people are just nuts and should not be listened to faster than the sand hill crane husband person. Or the people who were like ‘this pencil sketch of your friend is whitewashing.’ Or *gestures wildly at all the unending nonsense about gender and orientation they had to put up with.*

So now if I see someone saying shit like, “it’s wrong to dress provocatively bc the people around you haven’t consented to it,” I can just go, ‘oh, fuck off you puritan weirdo’ and it makes my life a lot easier.

#anyways fuck all the people who did that shit bc I liked their blog and thought they were cool #and now I don’t want to follow their new blog bc they’ve asked people not to! #tumblr stop bullying popular blogs into oblivion challenge #my nonsense #also it’s a lot easier to not fall into internet discourse traps once you’re older imo bc your more certain of yourself

[irradiate-space]

Hard disagree on your "no remotely plausible secular justifications to ban early-term abortions" point, but I'm actually glad to see you make it, both because I've wanted to argue against/vent about this point for some time, and because you seem generally cool, so this feels like I'm sending you Anon Arguments and not Anon Hate.

Basically, this seems like one of the weirdest points in the already-very-weird abortion discourse, and IMO it's tragic that the pro-life movement can't argue against it effectively. The secular argument against abortion is actually much stronger than any religious argument against abortion, and I think the public failure to recognize this comes down to several factors: The pro-life movement is so heavily devoutly religious that they are not at all comfortable acknowledging any distinction between their religion and their morality. The pro-choice movement finds it convenient to use the pro-life movement's religiosity against them, to paint them as theocrats (who we would also expect to be traditionalist and patriarchal). The exact nature and boundaries of personhood are one of life's deepest questions, so it intuitively makes sense to people that it would be a matter traditionally answered by religion. The population as a whole, both religious and irreligious, is remarkably religiously illiterate, and does not know much of the actual contents of their own or anyone else's faith.

There are Bible verses you could find and use to support an anti-abortion position; however, there are other much clearer Bible verses you could find and use to support a pro-abortion position. I have seen pro-choicers attempt to use this as a gotcha, but I think that they're missing the point that this undermines their own position, by demonstrating that the actual motive of pro-lifers is not religion at all (the actual motives and morality of the religious are rarely rooted purely in religion), but modern secular humanism, Whig history, the expansion of basic rights and protections to more and more people. Pro-lifers do not see themselves as a continuation of the Puritans shunning outsiders and enforcing endless arbitrary rules on divine authority; they see themselves as a continuation the Abolitionist movement, fighting against a grave and massive moral evil, obviously offensive on its face to any honest person, that their society was complicit in. The slavery issue had religious arguments and people on both sides, as the modern abortion issue does, but contrary to modern left/right stereotypes, the Abolitionist side was at the time the one seen as more religious, more moralist, more theocratic, and more obsessed with enforcing their own idiosyncratic views on others.

Honestly, I'm inclined to say that the connection between pro-life politics and religion goes the other way: people who believe that their country is endorsing infanticide on such a scale are likely to go a little crazy about it, and turn to religion to cope. In any case, while I have found myself drifting leftwards and away from religion over the course of my life, I've got to say that pro-choice rhetoric is some of the worst I have seen anywhere in politics, and comes across as a desperate attempt to miss the point, representing the other possible reaction to such moral horror, which is an attempt to run some DARVO.

The "no remotely plausible secular justifications to ban early-term abortions" point was made by @ghostpalmtechnique, but I do kind of agree with it.

Correct me if I'm wrong, but the secular argument against abortion that you propose can be summarized thus: Banning abortion protects the rights of the fertilized egg as a not-yet-born human, and extends the rights of personhood to more people.

It's a neat argument. I've seen some modern anti-abortion people make that argument, but these people are not at all common.

Consider the statistic that 10-15% of known pregnancies end in a miscarriage, and 80% of those miscarriages happen in the first trimester. Consider also that, with how modern abortifacients and morning-after pills use the same biochemical pathways as natural miscarriages, it's really fucking hard to tell the difference between a natural miscarriage and an induced one. To enforce a ban on abortions even in the first trimester means that every miscarriage - 8% to 12% of all pregnancies - must be criminally investigated. And because many of these miscarriages occur in the privacy of the home, without medical treatment, enforcing the law will require surveilling women* to determine if they are pregnant and if they have miscarried. Enforcing the law will require a massive police state which, to justify its own existence, will seek a high rate of convictions, even though it has no way of knowing whether the abortions were induced. So if we believe that a smaller state is a better state, that less government intrusion in our lives is good, that the Fourth Amendment's ban on unreasonable searches requires warrants which require proof before allowing intrusion, then we must reject both the pregnancy police state and the abortion criminalization that it enforces.

But that's not really the essay that I came here to write, or that you came here to read. It's founded in American Constitutional law, not in grander concepts. So let's address the grander concepts behind a ban on early-term abortions.

Consider the possibility-space of a woman's ability to bear offspring: when she⁑ becomes pregnant, how that affects her** employment prospects and earning ability and health, how it affects whether and when she chooses to bear other children, and so on. Different timelines with different histories of her life, where certain timelines have fewer children because of her economic position or her choice or her reduced health or her death or her running off to join a lesbian commune where pregnancy is impossible. Consider also the quality of life of her children in each of these myriad scenarios: how their lives are affected by her health, her ability to support her children, her love or lack of love for the children, her support network, and so on. When a woman becomes pregnant, and how she becomes pregnant, and how that pregnancy progresses, affect all these things. Unwanted pregnancies are particularly likely to negatively impact the quality of life of the woman and her children. Forcing her to bear children reduces the potential for good outcomes

A movement grounded in secular humanist values, especially with regards to expanding basic rights, would recognize the negative effects of unwanted pregnancies, and would seek to prevent unwanted pregnancies through any means possible: birth control, reversible sterilizations, Plan B, building a system so that an unexpected pregnancy isn't a life-ruining fiscal and health emergency. When faced with a young mother⁂ who has suffered rape or incest or accident or ectopic pregnancy, a secular pro-life movement might say, "She should have been on birth control, the sire should have used a condom, and they should both have practiced safe sex. Here's how we will rearrange society to prevent an unwanted pregnancy from occurring in this scenario ever again."

A movement grounded in secular humanist values would, I hope, be anti-abortion in a way that seeks to reduce all-cause abortions while improving health outcomes in wanted pregnancies.

That's not what the current anti-abortion movement are doing.

When faced with rape or incest or accidents or ectopic pregnancies, they say, "she shouldn't've had sex" or "she deserves the baby as punishment for her harlotry," and quite often "let this be a lesson to the lot of you: don't have sex," even when abstinence-only sex ed results in more unwanted pregnancies. The modern anti-abortion movement lobbies to ban training in safe sex, ban prophylactics, ban emergency contraception, restrict prenatal healthcare, restrict welfare programs that support mothers and infants, and in general remove agency from mothers. They also restrict the agency of those who sire pregnancies, by restricting access to condoms and vasectomies and similar sperm-side prophylactics. And once a woman is pregnant, well, that's her responsibility, not anyone else's. If she miscarries or dies from pregnancy, the anti-abortion view is that she was a bad mother, not that the healthcare system and society failed her. The modern anti-abortion movement are not interested in reducing unwanted pregnancies or reducing the things that contribute to pregnancies going wrong.

The modern anti-abortion movement is anti-abortion in a way that requires sex to result in pregnancy, and condemns the mother if the pregnancy is nonviable. I don't think they value the mother for her ability to contribute to her already-born offspring's lives, or to her future offspring's lives, or her ability to give birth to children; I think they value the mother for her ability to be pregnant. If she dies in childbirth or from pregnancy, so be it: she fulfilling her purpose. If the modern anti-abortion movement valued mothers, or valued a woman's mothering of her children, or valued her ability to give birth, we wouldn't see the sort of forced-pregnancy bills that are being passed by anti-abortion legislatures this year.

I don't think the modern anti-abortion movement is founded in secular humanism.

With that said:

As you point out, the modern anti-abortion movement is unable to respond to religiosity-based critiques of their movement. I propose that this is because the current "pro-life" movement is more anti-abortion than pro-life. Using secular justifications for abortion bans would further justify policy positions opposed by the conservative Christian factions who make the majority of the modern anti-abortion movement: secular arguments would favor widened access to contraceptives, family planning tools, and socialized healthcare. That doesn't sit well with the Republican Party or its Christian base, because contraceptives, abortions, and socialized healthcare go against their doctrine.

So: yeah, maybe there could be secular justification for banning abortion, but if it exists, it's less mainstream in the USA political discourse than the Green Party.

*women, ⁂mother, **her, ⁑she: person capable of pregnancy, pregnant person, third-person possessive pronoun, third-person singular pronoun. Language simplified for argument's sake, because this isn't a discussion of whether pregnancy is available to people who don't use the traditional English feminine pronouns.

#abortion #politicking #anonymous #ghostpalmtechnique #secular humanism #rape #rape cw #not getting into the DARVO stuff here because this post is too long already #long

[the-cat-and-the-birdie]

Proship isn’t brand new, it’s a label that emerged ca 2016, TikTok wasn’t as popular as nach then and it was coined as a response to “anti shippers” who called themselves that FIRST

Before that the label didn’t exist. We had no need for it because not harassing people over fanwork or ship was the default stance (and mostly still is).

But this new weird culture of “everything I don’t like is immoral” caused people to be attacked, harassed, shamed, threatened, stalked online and in real life, some lost their job, some their life because they liked the wrong ship or fanfic and were isolated and called a sexual predator

I WISH I was just stupid online discourse, but it stopped being that the moment some loud and terrifying voices decided to help conservatives in criminalizing lgbtq+

Thats whats SOO crazy to me.

In 2016 I was graduating high school, and had been writing fanfic for half a decade, so I really lump it in with 'vine-tiktok' era but it really is a culmination of a lot of different internet cultures colliding really

like damn i remember when you could read the most heinous ass shit in fanfic and someone would be in the comments like 'you should torture the character next :) just a thought'

The rise of that culture is one of the reasons why I choose to not show my face online or rather in fandom and why I don't talk about my personal life here at all.

Tiktok really erodes that barrier ESPECIALLY having tiktoks of you outside where people can surmize your location

but that aside-

Hot Opinion but I like immoral things in fics.

It's a critical and cructial part of fiction, not all fiction, but a lot, and immoral situations and relationships can absolutely be presented as bad even when from the abuses POV (good yandere fics get this right)

even then, if you wanna write some off the wall shit, do it! honestly if you're guarding people from a whole sector of writing that actually enriches fanfic and original work because you're too chickenshit to write it yourself im just gonna assume you cant write for shit and your range is low but that's just me.

AND THEN THE POLITICAL OLYMPICS OF IT the uninformed analyzation of media and characters through skewed understandings of oppression and then using that to attack people in the weirdest ways AHHHH

In short: You mfing right!!!!!!

[blindomens]

ask game: tumblr edition

✨ : what’s the funniest reason you know you’ve been blocked for? For being myself, being blunt.

💥 : what’s the funniest reason you’ve blocked someone for? Dick pics.

⚡️ : have you ever blocked a mutual for something? if so, what for? Nope

👾 : what’s the funniest/stupidest discourse you’ve ever been a part of? Being blamed for a group of friends disbanding.

❔: what’s the weirdest ask you’ve ever gotten? On an old account, It was "Do you need help? Look for God"

📸 : have you ever been doxxed or had call out posts made about you? Yes, one of my pictures on a YouTube video. Really dumb tbh

🤫 : have you ever been vagued in a tumblr post? Nope

💣 : have you ever received anon hate? Not yet.

🧨 : is there a specific fandom that you’d say you have bad experiences with? FNAF community, on having an opinion on a theory.

🪦 : do you consider yourself part of a “small fandom”? and how small is small? Repo the Genetic Opera. All places I have seen groups for this have been less then 1k people.

🛑 : how many blogs do you have blocked? you can decide whether or not to include porn bots None at the moment.

🖤 : how long have you had your tumblr blog for? This new one, not very long.

☠️ : how many tumblr accounts do you have? 2, but I haven't logged into the old one in a VERY long time.

🍂 : how many sideblogs do you have? None.

🥀 : do you hoard urls/save urls? Yessssss, I have a discord channel for them....

🎥 : what’s the biggest post you’ve made? My #ofmiceandmen Tattoo, I posted on instagram. Also another Of Mice & Men post that the lead singer posted on.

💎 : do you have any blocked tags? if so, how many? None, as of right now.

🔪 : have you blocked the tags of a mutuals interest you don’t share? Nope.

🏆 : do you have mutuals that you consider famous, or big blogs? Nope.

✉️ : do certain mutuals in your notifs make you smile? Nope. Man my life is boring as fuck....

#ask game#ask games

Source: pogbur

[venhedish]

Ven’s Masterlist of SPN Fic

I write mostly pre-series and early seasons Big Feels™ Wincest fic. There’s a lot of angst and pining here, but plenty of love and devotion mixed in with the darkness.

I always deeply, deeply appreciate likes, kudos, comments, and reblogs!

Wincest Fic

Stand-Alone

Yesterday is a Ghost I Believe In ~4.1k, Teen, Pre-series, Epistolary, Multimedia, Experimental There's an old shoebox under Sam Winchester's bed. It's been there almost as long as he can remember. He doesn't look inside it very often, but when he does, he takes his time. A multimedia collection of letters, journal entries, pictures, and other ephemera from a life on the road. .

That Monster, Love ~2k, Teen, Pre-series, POV Outsider, POV John Winchester, John Finds Out, Angst “You think you’re doing your boys any favors, raisin’ ‘em like this?” .

To Cure My Lonesome Blood ~8.8k, Explicit, Pre-series, Pining Dean, Angst, Bittersweet Ending Dean’s been sick since before either of them was born. The disease is incurable, written into his blood – the same blood he shares with his brother. If he’s not careful, the fever will spread like a fire and consume them both. .

Like Sand, Like Water, Like Sunlight ~1.7k, Gen, Pre-series, Mutual Pining, Angst, Pre-Slash Sea birds circle overhead and Dean wishes he had a camera. Sam looks so young, all of twelve years old, and exhilarated. Dean wants to hold this image in the chambers of his heart, but his pulse just carries it along; time is cruel that way. .

The Space Between Sense and Memory ~4.8k, Teen, Pre-series through Season 1, 5-and-1 Things There are a hundred unwritten rules on all the acceptable ways brothers should touch each other. There are hardly any ways at all to break them. Or; five times they follow the rules and one time they don’t. .

Every Goodbye, all at Once ~900, Teen, Pre-series, Stanford Era, Pining Dean, Angst, Epistolary "Hey, It's Sam. If you're looking for my dad, you can reach him at 866-555-9352. If you're looking for me, leave a message." A series of voicemails Dean leaves at the number Sam left behind. .

Breathe You In (Choke You Down) ~6k, Explicit, Season 01, PWP, Scent Kink, Guilty Dean Winchester Once Sam was gone, Dean missed him in a way that was all-consuming, all the way down – so deep in his bones that he shook with loneliness some nights. And it was the familiar scent of his brother’s hair where it tangled warm against the pillows, his pulse beating under his skin and sending the fear of the hunt wafting off of him in waves that Dean struggled to hold onto the hardest. Dean really likes the way Sam smells..  .

Dawn is Coming (Open Your Eyes) ~5k, Explicit, Season 01, Hurt/Comfort, Getting Back Together In which Sam and Dean suffer new wounds and stitch old ones back together. There’s an awful storm, a dead monster, an injury, and a whole lot of feelings. .

You put the Magic in Me ~9.1k, Explicit, Season 02(ish), Sex Pollen, Porn with Plot, Casefic “This is the weirdest thing we’ve ever done for a case,” Dean says under his breath, leaning into Sam and scouting the crowd gathered around a dozen tables inside the little café. “Dude, relax,” Sam says back, eyebrows raising at his brother’s nervous energy. “I thought this would be, like, your thing.” He gestures vaguely to the women milling around inside. A long, vividly red banner hangs across the open french doors that lead into the space, emblazoned with the words The Oolong Tea Room Presents: Lonely Hearts Club Speed Dating! Feb 11-14th! Or; in which Sam and Dean learn a thing or two about chemistry. .

The Stars are not Wanted Now ~2k, Teen, Season 02, Episode Tag: s02e21 All Hell Breaks Loose, Angst, Death Rituals There was a body on the bed.  It had been there long enough that the slanting light of morning crept into the room like an unwelcome invader and washed the world in a dream-shade of palest blue.   But there were no dreams here; only death, only memory. The body on the bed was all that remained of Samuel Winchester, who had died in his brother’s arms the night before. .

Demi-Gods and Hungry Ghosts ~5.8k, Explicit, Season 03, Episode Tag: s03e11 Mystery Spot, Dark, Dub-con, Hurt No Comfort This dream-state of living on pause and rewind leads to some interesting avenues of thought that Sam doesn’t mean to travel, but after a certain number of unrelenting Tuesdays, they just become inevitable. If Dean dies every day—if his memories are wiped, or if they never happen at all—what could Sam get away with, if he wanted to? Could he dare to find out?  .

In Sanguine Vita Est   ~5.2k, Explicit, Season 04, Knifeplay, Dean’s Hell Trauma, Hurt/Comfort Everything was different now. Dean was here—back from the fucking dead—but he was a stranger in his own body. Scars gone, aches from broken bones that hadn’t set right vanished back into the void as if they’d never existed at all. He’d become a stranger to the whole world. He’d become a stranger to Sam. _ Dean asks Sam to help him heal after he returns from Hell. .

All Heartless Spectres, Happiness ~5.7k, Explicit, Season 06, Episode Tag: s06e06 You Can’t Handle the Truth, POV Outsider, Angst, Soulless Sam Lisa Braeden receives an email with the subject line, "You Deserve to Know." It contains a single video file and nothing else. .

The Rungs of Me be Under You ~1.6k, Teen, Gencest, Post-Bunker, 2nd Person POV, Queerplatonic Sam and Dean, Non-Sexual Kink What they share has never been easy to define. Why should this be any different?  .

Wincest Series The Top/Bottom Discourse Series (Ongoing) [Each story is canon compliant and listed chronologically, but they can all be read as standalone works.] This series was born originally from a silly meta post I made on Tumblr as a response to some very angry top/bottom discourse I was seeing about how only Sam could truly be A Top™, or how only Dean could truly be A Top™. I personally like to kink and let kink and not drag outdated gender politics into my fandom (Dean can't be a bottom because he's too masculine? Ice cold take, bro), so I wrote a filthy little tongue-in-cheek post about all the ways I think Sam and Dean have fucked each other over the years.

 I’m Thinking About Whatever You’re Thinking About ~5.1k, Explicit, Pre-series, PWP, Bratty Sam, Exhibitionism, Fear of Discovery Sam is such a brat, sometimes. .

 Shoot to Thrill ~6.7k, Explicit, Season 02, Porn with Plot, Hustling, Getting Back Together It's just like riding a bike. .

Burn Out The Night ~4.9k, Explicit, Season 08, Porn with Plot, Car Sex, Light BDSM, Fluff What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. .

Destiel Fic

Love Made a Martyr of Me ~500, Teen, Season 05, Endverse, Past Sam/Dean, Angst Sam says yes in Detroit, and in the space of a single syllable, there's nothing left in Heaven or on Earth for Dean to love. Cas doesn't seem to care. .

The Sharp Teeth of the One You Love ~2k, Teen, Season 05, Endverse, Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Pining “Quit bein’ a baby, Cas.” Dean’s hands were covered in blood, but they were steady as always while he worked to stitch Castiel back together. “I’m sorry,” Cas growled between gritted teeth. “I don’t exactly have a lot of experience feeling pain.” He hissed again when Dean slid the curved needle back through the eight-inch-long gash that ran deep and bloody down Cas’s bicep. Castiel learns something about what it means to be human. .

Wincestiel Fic

Temerate ~700, Teen, Season 05(ish), Past Sam/Dean, 2nd Person POV, First Time Your brother is sitting in the corner of the motel room. His big hands are worrying at each other; he squeezes them together, fingertips white from the pressure of his grip. He meets your eyes and his gaze is like a lightning strike. .

Dean/John Fic

Cruore ~1.1k, Mature, Pre-series, Dead Dove: Do Not Eat, Blood, Intrusive Thoughts Bites, Dean could deal with – claw marks and broken bones. But this- ... a bullet was a different kind of monster altogether. .

Supernatural RPF

Il Cielo in Una Stanza ~4.4k, Explicit, Jensen Ackles/Jared Padalecki, Getting Back Together, Prequel-Gate, Polyamory, Non-AU Jared Padalecki receives a present he wasn't expecting at all for his 39th birthday. . 

Other Supernatural Fic

Bad Things, Better Reasons ~2k, Explicit, Pre-series, Dean Does Sex Work, Angst, Brotherly Love. Dean does whatever it takes to keep the bills paid while John is gone. The kid waiting for him back at the motel room is all the justification he’ll ever need. .

No Was Her Name ~1.3k, Teen, Season 12, Dean/Mary, Light Angst, First Kiss Mary Winchester was alive. She was solid—made of skin and blood and bone—and she existed in the same world as Dean. It wasn’t a dream; she walked and talked and breathed. She ate, she slept, she wandered the halls of the bunker at odd hours. She was a ghost made flesh, and Dean was haunted by her presence. .

#ven creates #wincest #wincestiel #destiel #J2 #daddycest #spn fic #fic masterlist #my fic #long post #sorry #i just wanna be able to link to it in my bio

[soulvomit]

One of the things about masking discourse is that there’s a weird generational vibe here.

I think it’s more prevalent now to just expect to be your same self, all day long, every day. There’s even a culture of oversharing at people’s jobs.

The idea that you had You By Day and You By Night was much more mainstream in the 80s and 90s. It’s mid-century middle class career culture. 

My biggest mask is The Professional. There is strict etiquette around The Professional, in an environment where other people are ALSO LARPing The Professional. There are rules to being The Professional. It’s actually not a high effort mask for me, provided everyone stays on script. 

What’s a high effort mask is Normie Casual. At what point in a culture of extreme casualness and oversharing do I even know WHAT I should admit, WHAT I should open up about? Most of my big social mistakes will happen in Normie Casual mode.

The Professional has much more explicit rules. I tended to do The Professional and then go hang out with my weirdest nerd and goth friends by night. I tended to do The Professional while also being closeted. Stuff like that. 

It’s much much harder to have that compartmentalized a life as Normie Casual. Everyone knows who everyone is fucking and it matters. 

Another thing is that one thing that’s taken as an image from masking narrative, was a mainstream image in the 80s and 90s:

Women practicing different personae in the mirror, holding up dresses in front of the mirror before a date and going... “who should I be? The Vamp? The Ingenue? The Girl Next Door?” 

Also, 80s and 90s were rife with female image reinvention imagery, and 80s teenage girls’ magazines and girls’ advice books always had stuff about changing your image

Literally every fairly superficial trope presently in masking discourse was part of 80s mainstream talk. It’s like... now that everyone else is expected *not* to mask, autistics found themselves having to double down harder and live what amounts to more of a double life in a time when living a double life is less actually expected.

Another thing is that there was still discourse - such as Language and Women’s Place, such as Women’s Reality - that talked about how women were required to fake their way through life.

So like... the modern take on masking discourse comes from a very different cultural context than I was reared in, in a time when autists as we know them *now* didn’t exist in the public imagination, only 1) profoundly disabled children and 2) a long legacy of media imagery of eccentric, smart adults, and we were - in the context of our times - gifted kids who turned out not to live up to any of our potential. 

[domjaehyun]

opening up tumblr to that entertaining discourse was pretty hilarious to me. two smut writers going at it to describe lubrication of the female genitalia in preparation for coitus?? yes please.

reading your last response to her on the matter, i had the impression of you coming off as arrogant. you described your skills, proficiency and knowledge of the english language. you go girl!! i am not being sarcastic, im just very surprised, and glad that you knew what you were saying and confident in yourself.

i guess to a natural english speaker, the technicalities of a word is very important to matter? the meanings, synonyms, all that. i mean, you have the vocabulary, so using the correct terms and words must come to you like second nature. i envy you for that.

anyways, back to thirsting over nct. December 11 is going to be lit, shame i wont be able to enjoy it.

ps. love you

DFJSGKFLD pls !!!! that was not the issue i had w the situation and i will maintain that forever bc i don't care what people do ! if i read a fic and i don't like it for whatever reason, i just move on !! so genuinely you could use the weirdest, most inaccurate wording on the face of the earth and i'm not gonna come for you i'm just not gonna enjoy the story,,,, and if it's laughably wrong, then... yeah, i'm probably gonna send it to a friend or two !!!! (i talked more abt the rest of this message ad nauseam under the cut but the nct related part is going on top of the read more bc . yeah)

ANYWAY yes back to nct 💖 i'm so excited for the album release omg omg do you have any songs in particular you're excited for?? or like . thoughts in general abt the songs? (i have many....) and :(( why can't you enjoy it?? do you have something on that day? i hope we like the album when it comes out :D i'm v v excited !!!!

p.s. i love you TOO :D

and wait––WAIT SDJFKGSLKJ PLS SORRY I AM TAKING YOU SERIOUSLY but i genuinely don't think anyone has ever described me as arrogant like . in my life (to my face obvi idk what goes on behind my back) BUT HONESTLY ? I'M KINDA FLATTERED IDK WHY i think that arrogance to me usually like . is associated with a level of confidence i don't usually have in myself y'know? so to see that someone interpreted me as like. That Confident is rly kinda nice to hear jdsfdsjsfj but i do genuinely mean that it wasn't my intention to be arrogant at all !! assertive and about my shit? yep !! catty and particular abt words? yep !! but yeah arrogant was not even remotely in the ballpark of things i was going for dfjksg

THANK YOU DFJSGDLK LIKE AS SOMEONE WHO ROUTINELY DOESN'T TRY TO BE A KNOW IT ALL ABOUT THINGS OR ANYTHING ... when i DO share my knowledge and like my thoughts on things that i'm interested in and passionate abt and ppl are like . rude abt it for no reason it just jars me bc like . i wasn't talking...about anyone in particular ... i couldn't name a single fic by name that used any of those words bc i don't sit around writing a little hit list for ppl who write things i don't like jsgfdk but yeah it was just very offputting bc i said things in the tags of a post not about anyone, then someone asked me to elaborate and i got excited and talked abt my knowledge on smth, and then yknow everything else happened so i was like . what abt me being particular about word usage was so upsetting?

but yeah if there's one thing i know for sure, it's writing. construction wise, i am aware that like . i have more knowledge on it than the average person that i encounter (not even saying that's bad for them im saying that it's kind of a blessing and a curse) so i notice shit other ppl don't and i'm aware of things people don't even catch!!

a way to explain it kinda is like . y'know how in some neurodivergent people, they can analyze and find patterns in what seem to be unrelated situations to outside perspectives? that's me, but i am like. aggressively proofreading every single bit of text i read dsjlfsdjflk this is coming from someone who is so admittedly neurotic about words and letters and linguistics that like . i will re-do my keysmashes if i don't like them... and if i still don't like them i will literally manually edit it letter by letter until it puts me at ease 😭 like i look at subtitles on tv (which i have to have bc my fixation on the physical words is what keeps me paying attention and i lose focus otherwise) and will correct the grammar like . out loud . i see writing mistakes in professional settings and it makes me agitated !! my mom and i literally went head to head last night abt the difference between "broken" and "separated" and she was very surprised that like . (1) i didn't back down at all (2) when we were done she realized that i was . right the entire time !!! as someone who hates when people just start being know-it-alls, i try very very hard not to be one !! i just Know What I'm Talking About and won't pretend otherwise yknow?

ANYWAY thank you for letting me say my piece again sjdgkfd i'm glad you don't think i was just . being stubborn and loud and ignorant or whatever bc those are things i never want to be !! (honestly i can be stubborn..... and i can def be loud...... but they aren't usually at the same time...... but if there's one thing i dont think could ever describe me, it's "ignorant" so . yeah)

but yeah :( i mean i think that i also have a knowledge of it that surpasses many typical native english speakers i've encountered ?? so i can talk to someone whose first and only language is english and we had similar educational experiences and i'll still find mistakes in things they say but i don't say anything abt it yknow? also i have come a very long way bc i used to physically cringe when i saw/heard particularly bad mistakes !! i am not like that anymore !!!

so yeah idk i just have a huge amount of respect for the rules of languages (i was like this in latin class and in spanish class–i understood the rules immediately and was like . exceptionally good at both subjects–on paper; i get very nervous speaking spanish out loud bc i don't want to mess up jdsfglk but i wrote very well and read spanish very well AND understand it for the most part if the person speaks slowly enough for me to get it) so it rly does just confuse/bother me when ppl just . don't care ig? i use bother in the circumstance of like. someone having a problem with me liking language rules ig? bc if you don't care that's fine i'll just avoid engaging w you abt stuff like that but if someone has a problem with me ... enjoying the rules of a language.... i don't rly know what that has to do with anyone idk but it's fine ig!!

#answered #anon

[segretecose]

sex scene discourse: i have never found them weird or awkward, but bc of work, i had to read the script of a movie that was never ended up being produced. there was only one female character and all what she did was cook and have sex with her husband. her entire life was solely about pleasing him. those were the weirdest, most descriptive sex scenes i have ever read in a script, and it took me a moment to realize i hated the misogyny behind them, rather than the sex they portrayed.

absolutely! there is definitely a huge problem with eccessive male fantasy, male gaze and voyeuristic approaches and those kinds of writers/directors need to be held accountable, 100%. but my point was that to say that all sex scenes are inherently bad is 1. inaccurate and also, now that i think about it, 2. very dismissive of the work and commitment of the many female, queer and feminist directors/writers/actors etc. who’ve been striving to make sexual content in media more balanced and more widely enjoyable

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[fireolin]

for the fanfic meme! 🗑 📌💡

Fanfic meme

Thank you for asking - these are fun!!

🗑 - What is one fic idea that you loved at first but then scrapped? Which one...? I'll pick the biggest. Which was my 'Edwardian fic', which I drafted right through until almost the end, at 90K words. I also have a complete outline and know how it ends. But then the idea of editing my mess just threw me completely. It needed so much work. I think also, reading my crappy first draft months later was just too much. All my first drafts are horrible, and it needed to change significantly. I loved the idea, and I still do, but I bit off too much. Maybe I need to get better as a writer to cope! 📌 - If all your fics/WIPs fell off a ship and were drowning (go with it), and you could only save one, which would it be?

All my fics/WIPs fluttering on the waves, slowly sinking and fading into the depths. And I can grab one. I'd definitely rescue my current WIP, The Wishing Hunt. The others will live on in my head. I know what happens in each one before the end. But I don't yet know where my current WIP will finish up, or how it will get there (especially with votes influencing its path), and the only way to find out is keep writing. 💡- What’s the weirdest thing you’ve been inspired by?

I LOVE this question, because I really love weird things. (And reading weird fiction.) How do I choose? When you're used to reading and consuming weird things, what remains weird? Maybe something unusual that inspires a weird train of thought. I stumbled across a Victorian object that inspired part of my draft Edwardian fic. A really ugly male anti-masturbation device. It became attached, shall we say, to one of the characters (not Killua or Gon), and provided accidental shielding, plus gets accidentally used as a weapon in the climactic scene. I just couldn't resist. Plus honestly, it looks so uncomfortable. I've put it below the cut (nsfw content). Little holes in the steel plate so the wearer's skin could breathe. Thanks so much again for asking! It was really fun answering these! <3

(Nsfw content below cut)

Male anti-masturbation device, 1880-1920. © Science Museum, London 'In order to curb men's habitual urges, and in response to Malthusian predictions that population increase would inevitably outstrip food resources, early Victorian social moralists proposed and to some extent imposed a socio-medical discourse based on masculine self-control in support of the bourgeois ideal of domestic life. [...]

Thus it was seriously held, for example, that sexual appetite was incompatible with mental distinction and that procreation impaired artistic genius. Men were vigorously counselled to conserve vital health by avoiding fornication, masturbation and nocturnal emissions (for which a variety of devices were invented) and by rationing sex within marriage. Even when other causes were present, sickness and debility were frequently ascribed to masturbation - the great erotic subject described as vigorously as it was denounced. 'That insanity arises from masturbation is now beyond a doubt', declared one widely read authority, who also claimed that 'masturbators' became withdrawn, flabby, pale, self-mutilating and consumptive.'

From http://www.vam.ac.uk/content/articles/s/sex-and-sexuality-19th-century/

(I had a copy in my notes, but I can no longer find the original article!)

#ask meme #fanfic ask meme #crowsintheforest #thanks so much for sending these!

[delightfulstarlightparadise]

Stardew valley Imagine. Reader/ Sebastian (?)

-Before we start, oce again I remind you that English is not my main language, but I am doing my best.

“I didn’t think you were so tired to the point of passing out in that sofa.” Sebastian says while taking a drag of his cigarette. “If I knew we would have come earlier.”

“Aw... I shouldn’t have drink that beer.” you say, feeling sick to your stomach.

“If you are going to throw up, please do it in some bush and not near me.”

You didn’t even bother answering him. Next thing you knew, you were kneeling down barfing behind a tree. You were not very used to drinking.

“Sorry.” you say when you can finally talk.

“What about?”

“Everything.”

He shrugs and helps you stand up.

“You are... different.” he says.

“I know, I am weird.”

He laughs.

“You think you are weird? My best friend is the weirdest person I know. Being different in a town like this is not a bad thing you know?” he says.

You stare at him for a while too long, he blushes showing is uncomfort.

“You didn’t pass as a supportive type at first.” you say.  

“Don’t get used to it.” he says smirking at you.

When you arrive the farm you can see that the seeds you planted in the morning had turned into little saplings already. You shake your head, sure that it is a prank of your dizzy mind, but they are there.

“Sebastian, can you see those or am I really wasted?” you ask him, pointing at the saplings.

“I can see them, but I am also pretty sure you ARE wasted.” He mocks you.

“How can it be?! I planted them this morning!” you look at him completely astonished.

“So what?” he asks.

“They were not supposed to grow like this… I mean, this is crazy!”

“Oh really? I don’t understand much about farming.” he says while getting another cigarette from his pocket. “I will be going now, ok? Thanks for the game, I had fun. Destroying Sam every time was starting to get boring.

As he goes, you sit down on your porch staring at those little saplings.

…

You have a dream.

You are playing with your cousins by the mountain river. A younger Sam and a younger Sebastian are there too. Sebastian is ginger back then, but Sam’s hair still challenges gravity somehow. There is a third boy that is not from your family, he is brunette, very alethic and seems to like you a lot.

Sebastian challenges you all: who can go up a tree by the shore faster. You are the first to run there, before anyone even agrees to the bet. He doesn’t like it and runs as fast as he can, followed by the other boy and your cousins. Sam kind of gets left behind.

You start climbing the tree so fast, you didn’t even remember being so agile, you feel like a feral squirl. The other boy is right behind you, he even tries to hold your foot and tickle you, but you don’t give up. As you laugh together, Sebastian gets to pass you, but you quickly follow after him.

Somehow you manage to get to the top first, Sebastian is all sweaty and puffing. The other boy comes after and congratulates you on the win. He kisses you on the cheek and you get all red about it. Sebastian doesn’t like it, actually he seems really jealous. You think it is about you having won and start mocking on him.

You call him gingerbread man. He hates it and pushes you. Because of your weigh the branch you fall on cracks and you fall on the river. You can see both Sebastian and the other boy reaching towards you.

Your head hits a rock and you get unconscious. But actually, you just can't move, you still can see... everyone is jumping on the water after you, but you feel like you are nowhere to be found. Maybe that is it, your short life has come to an end.

You hear a funny sound and turn your head to the left. You see an apple.

The apple has two eyes and pink cheeks.  

There are others, they are all around you, making that funny sound and lifting you up from the bottom of the lake.

Next thing you see, a hand grabs your wrist, lifted by the little apple spirits. You are pulled out of the water by Sebastian, he has almost drowned too. He is crying and doesn’t stop apologizing, but you aren’t able to say anything to him, the words don’t come out.

You spend some days in the hospital, all your vitals are ok, but you keep seeing those little apple spirits around. The adults are afraid you had too bad of a concussion and no one believes in you... except for... grandpa?  

He says you were saved by the forest spirits, but your mother and father tell him not to incentive these kind of thoughts in you. Eventually, they stop taking you to Stardew valley.

The longer you are away, the more you forget about your time there.

When you wake up, the dream seems like a shadow, but you feel very different.

…

They were even bigger! From one night to the other, the saplings have grown as much as they should in a week.

“Am I going insane?” you ask yourself.

You water them and put some extra fertilizer, then you decide to go to the city and buy some food for the farm. When you arrive there, you see Mayor Lewis in front of a big old house behind the square.

“Oh, hi y/n!” he calls you, as you two seem to be the only people around. “Come here a second.”

You feel a little annoyed. Is it going to be like this now? Every day that amount of interaction in your life... how can you handle it?

“Good afternoon, Mr. Lewis.” you say.

“Call me Lewis.” he says with a gentle smile. “Do you remember this place?”

You take a look at it. Everything is so broken and old you can swear it is probably haunted. You can’t seem to remember anything like it.

“I see.” he says. “You were so young, but you, your cousins and your grandpa used to come here. This is the community center of Pelican town. Well... it used to be. Come on in.”

You follow him inside and it looks even worse than the outside.  Bindweed has taken over the walls, there isn’t a single piece of wood that is not broken or rotten and there is even a tree fully grown in the corner of the main hall, but even that tree seems to be decaying.

“This used to be the heart of the town, everyone in the community gathered here for parties, birthdays and even city events.” he says. “But as time went by... it seems like these kinds of things are not as important nowadays.”  

He starts a discourse about how people would rather watch TV instead of gathering with the community, but you can’t follow because... there is an apple jumping by the window.

“Y/n, what’s with you?” the mayor asks turning to the place you are looking.

It immediately disappears.

“It was...” you are about to tell him about the apple but, why bother? “I think I saw a mouse.”

“This place is probably infested by mice, it has been closed for so long.” He says and sighs. “It is sad to see it like this. But I think that is what happens to old things, see Paradise farm, for example. Good that now you are there to rebuild it. Too bad for this place, there aren’t people willing to do it.”

“Did you ask people?” you ask out of curiosity.

“Unfortunately, every time we set to rebuild everyone was busy with something else. Eventually, I think everyone just gave up.” the mayor let go a long sigh. “And since Joja Mart came to town, they keep making offers to buy it and turn it into a warehouse. I am thinking about selling it by the end of this year... the city could use the money.”

You look around once more. It does seem sad to let ANYTHING that once was good end up in Joja corporation’s hands. Wasn’t this what happened to you.  

You feel a strange connection to the place.

“Anyway, I must be going now. Have some mayor duties to accomplish. Thanks for giving an old man some time to be nostalgic.” he says and chuckles. “I will leave this place open if you want to take a look, maybe you can find some of you Paradise kid’s old toys in the crafts room.”

It is weird because you wouldn’t usually do something like that, but as the mayor went away, you started exploring the rooms and they seemed to bring you back some blurry memories. Maybe you played with your cousins in that corner. Maybe you attended someone’s birthday and ate cake by that old table. Maybe you sat with your grandpa in front of that big fish tank and he told you stories about fishing.

You hear a sound and it immediately makes you turn to the decaying tree in the corner of the main hall. Your heartbeat increases as you see not one, but many apple spirits jumping around and waving at you. They seem to be talking but you can’t quite understand.

“What the hell is going on with me?” you say, rubbing your eyes and shaking your head.

They are still there.  

One of them, a green one makes you a sign for you to follow it Still uncertain, you do, and it takes you to a golden scroll in the middle of the crafts room. You see there is something written there, but you can’t quite understand it.

“Junimos?” is the only thing you can discern.

The little apple starts jumping and making that funny sound as if it is agreeing to you.

“You are Junimos?”

It seems even more excited. The more it makes those funny sounds, the more it seems like it is saying your name.

“You know me, isn’t it?”

It seems to agree.

“You saved me that day.” you say. “So either everyone was wrong and I didn’t go crazy back then, or I am going crazy right now.”

“You are certainly not going crazy, my dear.”

You yell as you listen to a voice come from behind you and a figure comes from the shadows of the corner of the room. A purple bearded wizard dressed up in a fine robe walks towards you.

“Don’t be afraid. I am Rasmodius, the Wizard, keeper of the secrets of the forest, master of the elemental’s knowledge... you get the picture.”

“Where did you come from?!” you yell as you try to step back, but you end up tripping and falling.

“I have been paying close attention to you for the past couple of days. You are the one whose arrival was foreseen by the valley. The one connected to the forest powers, the one to change the valleys destiny... well you, my friend, are a hero to become.”

“What the fuck is going on here? Am I dreaming? Am I dead? Am I dreaming in a comma?” you star hyperventilating. “I have gone crazy, that is it. I finally lost it!”

“Please, calm down.” the wizard says as he can see you going pale.

“Oh my, what if I never left Zuzu city? I must still be in bed, I need to wake up to go to work, that is it! I am not crazy I am just sleeping...”

The little Junimo beside up jumps and slaps your face with his little stick hand and it hurts way more than it seems to be possible.

“What the...” you say, but it seems to take you away from your anxious thoughts.

“As I was saying...” the Wizard cleans his throat. “You were brought back to this valley to help it heal from the many hazards it has been imposed by both mankind and witchcraft. Also, I have seen, to change the destiny of the people who live here.”

“Me?” you screech with unbelief. “Man, I can’t barely fix my own life.”

The wizard chuckles.

“Well, sometimes to help another one is the best way of helping oneself.” he says.

“What the hell is going on?” you say rubbing your temples.

“You will understand when the time is right.” the wizard replies. “For now, drink this.”

He extended to you a cup filled with a green liquid.

“You are kidding right?” you say.

“No, you are supposed to drink. These are the ingredients from the forest, it will help you understand the language of the elementals.” he says.

“I am not drinking it.”  

The Junimo beside you starts jumping and puffing in a way to demonstrate impatience and he seems so angry that you take the cup from the wizard’s hand and, after taking a nauseated look at the content, you drink it.

You feel dizzy and things start moving a lot slower. You can see the memories of yourself as a kid running among trees, playing in the river, collecting and eating savage berries. You see yourself playing with animals, riding a horse, rolling in the mud with grandpa's pig.

You see the faces of some people from the town. You are beside them, helping them and doing nice things, things you had never thought you would do in your life. You feel happy to help, you feel like a part of something. And then... there is this someone you suddenly see yourself kiss.

“If you might ever need me... meet me in the towers west Cindersap forest.” you hear the Wizard’s voice.

As you open your eyes, you see the image of a man and a girl, both with glasses in front of you.

“Y/n? Are you ok?” you hear Maru’s voice coming from the distance. “Oh my Yoba, what a scare you gave me!”

“What? Where am I?” you say slowly sitting down and looking around.

“You are in the clinic. Maru found you passed out near the fountain. You have symptoms of an insulation, perhaps you have been working too hard in the farm.” the man says, adjusting his glasses. “I am doctor Harvey.”

“Insulation? Last thing I remember I was drinking that green thing from the wizard...”

Both Maru and the doctor stare at you, looking concerned.

“I mean, I probably had a bad dream while passed out. Thanks for bringing me Maru, sorry for the trouble.” you say.

“No problem, I am stronger than I look.” she says. “Now lay down, you are taking intravenous medicine, you seem to be very poorly nourished. Have you been skipping meals?”

She gently pushes you into laying down.

“I forget to eat sometimes.”

“That is very hazardous! Even more being a farmer and working a lot in the sun and with so much physical effort!” says Harvey, looking very angry.

He gives you a full lecture about the importance of eating healthy and says that he is going to give you some supplements. You are actually worried about how you are going to pay for the treatment.

…-

Next part here:

Credits for the pose reference: https://snuffysbox.tumblr.com/post/160658875287/have-another-angsty-draw-your-otp-%E1%95%95-3-%E1%95%97-please 

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