#they are literally the exact same ship your honour

[billiesinterlude]

Buddies version of Destiels Mixtape is the couch theory. Fight me.

#they are literally the exact same ship your honour #I’m so delusional it’s funny #buddie is real #destiel is real #Eddie Diaz #Evan Buckley #911 #911 show #Buddie #destiel #supernatural #dean winchester #castiel

[raayllum]

how are you a teacher and shipping a literal child with an 18 year old💀

i'm a tutor with an honours specialization in how fiction influences and/or is influenced by reality. i also work with students across all grade levels, even into university ages/adulthood. you're bringing up talking points from plato's republic that aristotle knew was stupid 3000+ years ago. i've written papers & studied this exact same line of discourse across the western canon of like, 800 years? but have fun playing into far right bullshit and book banning that just repeats over and over again, the literal conservative puritans were having these moral panics too <;3 totally not protestant conservatism with a gay hat

& that's cause i'm not shipping a literal child with an 18 year old (which btw 18 yr olds are not magically emotionally mature fully grown adults either even if they legally are adults, i say as someone who was a teenager just four years ago). i'm shipping two characters with an age gap when they're both fully grown adults in their 20s. if you think characters are for some reason Frozen at a certain age and can never be aged up when they're from an IP property you don't own, and that authors can only explore characters at different life stages when they're characters the author owns, you inherently don't understand the transformative part of fandom / transformative fiction

like hi, was a literal minor like 4 years ago who was harassed throughout my teen years by people just like you because i shipped two (2) things with a 4 year age gap, but no i'm sure calling a 16 yr old a pedophile in the name of "protecting children" (when no one online is entitled to anyone's personal private information, nvm their history with csa) was totally worth it

if you've ever enjoyed or read literally anything adjacent to greek myth or the fucking bible, you've enjoyed texts with a whole lot of fucked up shit in it, of which age gaps are the least of their 'problems'. come back to me when you've read "wuthering heights" or some actual fucked up shit

and update bc anon came back and Really thought they were doing something: wuthering heights doesn't have an age gap at all. the two leads are the same age and are fucked up for so many other reasons. plato's republic is a philosophical musing manual on where art fits into society and how it should manifest / what its purpose is. but thank you for failing critical thinking so hard you couldn't even google something for 2 seconds to make sure your argument was sound At All

#fandom nonsense #tw abuse mention #that said wuthering heights? so good so fucked up #guess this is how the new followers find out i'm not an anti (in the bio in the about me at ALL TIMES) #dragons gets salty #anti purity culture

[cranberrv]

heya! congratulations on your 200 followers!! <333 I would like a ridin' from the event! (possibly with the outsiders ^^)

I'm an average heighted female with pale skin (literally it looks like fucking milk even in summer😭). I have long wavy dark brown hair that is somehow always messy. My eyes are a mix between grey, green and blue and nobody (not even me) can make out their exact colour for the life of theirs since it seems like they are changing colour (from lightning, etc) at every second. I am very fond of the coquette style of clothing, I'm an hyperfeminine girly that loves to dress like the doll she feels like she is, (gotta treat myself! 😌). I'm talking full on short white lacy skirts with red heart-shaped sunglasses, cherry lipstick and pink tops with a white ribbon on my hair! Moving onto my personality; I'm a very sweet girl, I'm the literal mom friend of every friend group I've ever been in. I never shy away from complimenting anything and everything about a person, someone got a new shirt today? "oh my god, that looks so good on you!", someone is trying a new hobby "that's great! tell me all about it!", someone tried a new hairstyle? "you look utterly gorgeous/handsome!" I consider myself as a very touchy person, I like to hold hands, hang onto someone's arm, legs/shoes touching while sitting, hugs (a lot of hugs) and cuddling! I love cuddling! /all of this platonically and romantically. Though I will back away and tone it down if someone's uncomfortable with so much physicall or verbal affection and resort to gift-giving (hand-made trinkets or small things that reminded me of that certain someone, etc) as love-language. I am also very keen on clothe swapping, I love swapping jackets or wearing other's shirts! /I also literally cherish every thing that my friends give me, even if it's a random rock, it's getting an honour spot on my 'memory box' lmao. I laugh at almost everything, and I consider myself pretty much easy-going, I'm okay with every and any kind of plan as long as it's with my friends. Even if I'm sweet and have literally no idea how to even throw a punch, if someone tries to mess with my loved ones you bet your ass I'm gonna throw myself at them and try and do as much damage as I can, even if I end up with my face all bloodied and pretty much more hurt than the other 😭 (i just love my friends that much).

thank you, and sorry if this is too much text! <333

hiiii how are we literally the same person omg!!! i ship u with darry curtis, u guys would be sooo cute he would be so protective over u and u would probably help him take care of his brothers!

#🎀 announcements #ur so cute!!! #the outsiders #darry curtis

[dystopiandilfs]

My opinions on Feral Boys "ships" and a low-key insult to anyone who ships some of them purely because some shippers truly ruin duos for me.

Dream and George: I can't blame you because of how in your face ambigutron and homotron are with their flirty dynamic. George could literally be going into detail about the fattest shit and Dream would still be giggling, kicking his feet and twirling his hair. They fit into a lot of romantic tropes which is why they're so popular.

Dream and Sapnap: It's a solid duo and honestly the best duo in the family dynamics category. I see them more as chosen brothers who are comfortable in making sexual jokes to eachother and are incredibly loyal to eachother because of the level of trust they share. But most Dreamnappers are chill.

Sapnap and George: It's giving me pick me girl energy. Do you like this ship or do you just not like DNF/want to be different. Honestly once again I see them as brothers more of a blood brothers who pick on eachother but will defend them with their life rather than a romantic pairing.

Karl and Sapnap: Going to be honest I don't like this pairing. It's giving me wattpad vibes. Also don't fuck with how shippers make Sapnap into this tough bad mean Chad who got swooned and charmed by this cute loving soft boy purely because their real personality is the exact opposite also it's just weird to me to write about real people whilst completely erasing their natural personality to fit your own urges.

Karl and Quackity: Once again I don't really like this pairing as a ship. It's giving the energy of someone having to pair with a teacher because of uneven class numbers. I prefer their friendship more than anything but they're too loud and obnoxious for me tbh.

Quackity and George: Brothers. Younger brother who constantly teases older brother. I genuinely fail to see this as anything romantic. It's giving the two cousins who are close Vs everyone else energy.

Quackity and Sapnap: They're like the friends who make a promise to marry at 35 if they're both single. I love this duo so much more as a friendship than a romance but I can see why people ship them. Honestly in my top 3 of Feral Boys pairings.

Dream and Karl: It's giving mental illness alliance rather than a ship. From what I've seen their shippers cling to the one moment of Dream reminding Karl to eat and that's just gross to me. So for the glorification of ED and mental health it's a no from me.

Karl and George: Probably the best Karl pairing imo. They bounce off eachother very well. It's giving same person different font vibes. Don't enjoy that people turn their friendship into bottom alliance. Kinda gross.

Dream and Quackity: Another top tier pairing. They just work super good together. It's giving the class clown getting paired with the Himbo for a project and whilst nothing gets done they both have a great time so who cares. Once again I don't see it as romantic but childhood friends energy with the instant continuation of bits and jokes on stream (Tom gravy for example) they just flow so good together.

My personal Top 3 in no particular order are Dreamnap, Dreamnotfound and QuackDream/Quackitywastaken

Also I prefer Dreamnotnap over Karlnapity and Punznap is another honourable mention of a good duo.

#dreamwastaken #mcyt #dreamsmp #dream smp #georgenotfound #sapnap #quackity #karl jacobs #feral boys

[hoseas-angry-ghost]

YES YES YES I WOULD LOVE TO HEAR UR THEORIES

Hello anon! I am very surprised anyone wants to hear my chutney but here's my Strange Man Hot Take with some hopefully interesting info for curious parties:

To be honest, R* included so much misdirection around the Strange Man's identity (especially in RDR1) that I'm not *totally* convinced they're married to any one idea. RDR2 also complicated things by introducing new religions into Red Dead's world (Voodoo, Old Norse, etc.): he's no longer limited to just Christian / Western interpretations, as in RDR1, and it's possible R* might try to syncretise him with figures from other faiths (they did place Bayall Edge in Bayou Nwa, where most of the Voodoo stuff is).

At the same time, though, I think RDR2 actually narrowed things down somewhat in terms of the direction R* chose to take his character, and what we were shown of that. There's still a level of misdirection in RDR2, but IMO, it almost comes off as half-hearted in comparison to what was basically trolling in RDR1 -- it seems like they were a lot more focused on playing the "bad news" angle the second time round.

Based on what we know, and on the balance of things, I'm not convinced that the Strange Man is necessarily meant to be any one thing or figure, but I do think he's meant to fulfil some type of Satanic role within Red Dead's world, either in main or in part.

I won't compare and dissect other theories or anything, I just thought I'd list off some things that people might find interesting:

Armadillo. The deal between the Strange Man and Herbert Moon seems to be a pretty textbook Faustian bargain: Moon is offered earthly rewards ("happiness or two generations"), and although the price was (tellingly?) never specified, it seems like the recent Blood Money update for RDO all but confirmed that the cost was probably his soul. Although it's left ambiguous what Moon actually chose, the Armadillo curse was possibly an unforeseen (for Moon) consequence of the deal's terms, which would fit with similar tales of the devil or demon in question taking liberties with their end of the bargain.

In the files, there's some great audio of Moon off the shits and straight-up saying "I've made a deal with the devil, and I will never truly die!" It's possible this was cut for its own reasons (too overt?), but as a lot of stuff was apparently cut from Armadillo, I'm guessing it was either cut when Arthur in New Austin got cut, or it was part of something that R* didn't have time to implement in the epilogue. Either way, if it's not actually in the game then it's not technically canon, but it is an indication of what R* was thinking during development.

There's a lot of audio from the Armadillo townsfolk in general about devils and "devil curses," but the only thing I know of that definitely made it into the game is a line from the town crier ("Devil has the town in his hand").

There's audio of the Armadillo bartender saying "I heard the Tillworths made a deal with the devil to keep from gettin' sick! I don't wanna die any more than the next man, but ain't no safety worth a man's soul." Possibly idle gossip, but given Moon, possibly not.

RDO seemed to flirt with the idea of soul-selling a little bit with Old Man Jones' line "Well, this is America, so anything can be bought -- even souls," but then RDO pretty much just came right out and said it with Bluewater John in the Blood Money update. Bluewater John also apparently made a deal, almost definitely with the Strange Man (given the Moon deal and how close Bayall Edge is to all the drama); he was based on blues musician Robert Johnson and the myth that he sold his soul to the devil for mastery of the guitar. It's basically a rehash of the Moon deal, except it's... not subtle in its dialogue about deals, devils and souls.

"I GAVE EVERYTHING FOR ART, AND I LEARNED TOO MUCH AND NOTHING AT ALL" written on the wall at Bayall Edge also sounds like a reference to another one of these deals to me ("everything" being their soul, and "I learned too much and nothing at all" the foolishness of accepting eternal damnation for temporary knowledge). I think Bayall Edge might have originally belonged to a painter who struck a deal with the Strange Man for artistic skill, but then the Strange Man slowly possessed him or something -- which could be why some of the landscapes depict RDR1's I Know You locations, and why the writings on the wall kind of look like they deteriorate in quality. The puddle of blood at the foot of the portrait might also be linked to this somehow (whose is it?).

It's the deal-making for souls that really pushed the "devil" theory over the edge for me, because I can't think of whose wheelhouse that would be in except a devil's, or someone similarly malevolent.

Alternative name. The Strange Man's character model is called cs_mysteriousstranger in RDR2, and he's referred to as "the mysterious stranger" at least once in RDR1's in-game text. This could be a reference to The Mysterious Stranger, written by Mark Twain between 1897-1908, in which the stranger is a supernatural being called Satan. (At the end of the last version written, he tells the protagonist that nothing really exists and their lives are just a dream.)

Bayall Edge. Bayall Edge was possibly based on a Louisiana urban myth called the Devil's Toy Box, which is "described as a shack. From the outside, it is unappealing and average. ...The inside of the shack consists of floor-to-ceiling mirrors, including the walls. No one can last more than five minutes in this room. ...According to the legend, if you stood inside this mirror-room alone for too long, supposedly the devil would show up and steal your soul." The Strange Man does show up in the mirror eventually, and it's kind of curious that the paintings that change depending on your Honour act as metaphorical mirrors. This was also cut, but in the files, Arthur's drawing of the interior of Bayall Edge is unusually sloppy, like his faculties were impaired or something.

"Awful, fascinating and seductive". John writes this about Bayall Edge after the portrait is finished, and I think that's as good a description of something like the / a devil as any, but "seductive" is a big red flag for me, because it's such an odd choice of word and, from a Christian perspective, it's so loaded with connotations of evil and sin and temptation.

I Know You. Some have pointed out that I Know You in RDR1 resembles the Temptation of Christ, as it also takes place in three separate locations in the desert, and John is given moral tests in which he must choose between higher virtue or worldly vice. John is also, in a weird way, a kind of Christ-like figure in that he ultimately sacrifices his life for others. I do think the "temptation" in these encounters is very surreptitious but very much there ("Or rob her yourself" -- excuse me??), but they may also be operating on a Biblical definition of the word, i.e. a test or trial with the free choice of committing sin.

RDR1 dialogue. I don't want to get *too* much into this because I feel like we're all just getting punked in RDR1, but I think the Strange Man's dialogue broadly fits with something like a "devil" interpretation, or at least doesn't contradict it.

I'm thinking particularly of lines like "Damn you!" / "Yes, many have" (which would work metaphorically but also literally, given that the devil was thrown from heaven by God and his angels), and "I hope my boy turns out just like you" (of all the leading theories, I think Satan is the only figure who's popularly conceptualised as having a son, or prophesied to have a son -- God obviously had a son, but that ship kinda sailed).

I think the "accountant" line refers to Honour (which even uses an invisible numerical system), and how John's fate depends on the number of both good and bad acts he's committed throughout his life, and how these weigh against each other. If the Strange Man likes to collect souls, then he would have a vested interest in auditing you and seeing if your accounts are in the black or the red, as it were (and providing you with opportunities to push yourself further into the latter...), because if you're bankrupt, you're his.

Blind Man Cassidy. Interestingly, Cassidy seems to distinguish between "Death" and the Strange Man, implying that he's something else beyond his understanding: in one of Arthur's fortunes, after his TB diagnosis, he says "the man with no nose [Death] is coming for you," but in one of John's fortunes, he says "Two strangers seek thee: one from this world, perhaps one from another. One brings hatred; I'm not so sure what the other brings."

Arthur's cut dialogue. In the files, there's audio of Arthur having the exact same conversation with Herbert Moon as John in the epilogue, asking about the Strange Man picture because he "just seemed familiar". I think it's interesting that, like John, Arthur also would have apparently recognised the Strange Man despite (presumably) never seeing him before. Given how strong a theme morality is in Red Dead -- and how much both John and Arthur struggle with it -- my theory is that they find the Strange Man vaguely familiar because they're both familiar with the evil within themselves, or the potential for evil; and likewise, the Strange Man "knows" John because he embodies evil in some sense, so is aware of John's worst sins (like his involvement at Blackwater), or possibly even all of his sins (which would be, like, a lot).

Honourable mention: There's such a greater emphasis on conspiracies, myths, etc. in RDR2 that I half-wonder if the Strange Man's RDR2 incarnation was partly inspired by Hat Man (~excuse the link~ but often it's hard to find good sources for the kind of weird shit R* includes in their games).

ANYWAY, this got a little long but I hope someone found all this at least passably interesting. Thanks again for letting me ramble about the video game man, anon!

#The Strange Man #inbox #Me @ me: God jsut shut the fcuk-

[lambden]

fic writer review

tagged by @dameferre (on main) <3 this ended up being long so i’m throwing it under the cut! thank you for the tag, i’ve wanted to do this for a while!

tagging: @weedsinavacantlot @mosaicscale @jaskiersvalley @unyielding-as-the-sea @chubbykatsudon @ohnomybreadsticks even though I know some of you have already done this!

1. how many works do you have on ao3?

78. one is anonymous right now for a flash fic challenge so it isn’t showing up. i have no fucking idea how i got here (AND i’ve deleted so many stories...)

2. what’s your total ao3 word count?

542911 which is truly horrendous. somebody stop me

3. how many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

so i’ve MOSTLY written the witcher/dead by daylight/until dawn, but i have 25 fandoms with currently published works. yikes

4. what are your top 5 fics by kudos?

-number one is a stupid fic with a polyamorous ship (+ a trans character) for a fandom i no longer care about and a book series i really hate. i regret writing it (and have said so in the notes), i was at a place in my life where i wanted to write this incredibly self-indulgent thing after diving headfirst into canon, and now rereading it with a critical eye, it just makes me annoyed.

-number two is, SOMEHOW, the geraskier scent kink fic?! i don’t understand how this has more kudos than some of my other fics!!!!! people really love smut huh

-number three is venom smut

-number four is the cave, my longest fic! it’s an until dawn fix-it that is very self-indulgent and definitely needs a total rework haha

5. do you respond to comments, why or why not?

i try to respond to all comments that aren’t anonymous! like elle said, I appreciate it more when people notice an obscure reference or something. I think the one word/emoji comments are still nice but they don’t personally have much of an impact on me. and all this being said, i am perpetually behind on my comment replies I currently have 246 to do 😔😔😔

6. what’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

it’s the one i’m publishing next week for the whataboutthebard event hehe

7. do you write crossovers? if so, what’s the craziest one you’ve written?

i love crossovers i think theyre very fun! i wrote an (unpublished) crossover where deadpool and cable are the superhero identities of face and hannibal from the a-team. it was a birthday gift to a friend and it was VERY indulgent especially with the non-linear timeline (because cable) but whatever, i reread it recently and it still slaps

8. have you ever received hate on a fic?

i have but nothing that really irked me so badly i remembered it, oops

9. do you write smut? if so, what kind?

i sure do which is hilarious because as someone who is sex repulsed like 95% of the time irl... how do i keep getting away with this

10. have you ever had a fic stolen?

okay no i haven’t (to my knowledge) but also someone once wrote an until dawn fic “inspired by” the cave that basically took the exact same plot and ....??? made it worse/simpler? it was hard to read so i wasn’t 100% sure but. at first i was flattered and eventually it just got annoying, even though they barely wrote anything for it

11. have you ever had a fic translated?

people have offered but none have followed through!! wah

12. have you ever co-written a fic before?

i’ve planned out fics with people but the writing process is difficult enough without someone else there. i would really like to get into those train fics where each author writes a different part though, i think it’d be a ton of fun

13. what’s your all-time fave ship?

it is probably, just statistically, eames and arthur. but there are so many lmao how could i choose

14. what’s a fic you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

i should probably put the cave here but i’m close to the end of that one actually, just need to sit down and do it! but ‘spectacular’, the kingsman/baby driver crossover i worked SOOOO hard on, is probably not something i’m ever going to feel comfortable finishing. or if i do, i will be rewriting it so that it’s clear that i’m headcanoning baby as someone other than ans*l elg*rt (john boyega...? 👀) but yeah at this moment in time i can’t see that happening

15. what are your writing strengths?

idk.. i like my dialogue!

16. what are your writing weaknesses?

scene transitions, endings, editing out scenes that aren’t cohesive and don’t contribute anything but I love Them Your Honour, falling into the same boring writing style with each sentence having the exact same structure

17. what are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages on a fic?

i think it needs to be done correctly and there has to be a reason for it

18. what was the first fandom you ever wrote for?

i dunno man... naruto maybe???? d. gray-man? sh*rlock??????????? perhaps les mis when i was a baby and literally only cared about eponine and cosette

19. what is your favorite fic you’ve ever written?

it’s really hard for me to choose only one answer here 😔 I really like my laegjarn/fjorm stuff and the ocean’s eleven fic i wrote, and i LOVE the dialogue in my veep fics <3 for dead by daylight i’m still proud of my jake/evan summer camp slasher AU! and i like most of my witcher fics, i’m really excited about some things i have in the works right now.

if you actually made it to the bottom, thanks for reading!!! 🥰🥰🥰

#my writing #ask meme #(not really but you know!!! anyway)

[nabrizoya]

A month and half ago, I remember being unable to sleep, wondering about how to write for prompts if I did start accepting them. This was an idea I had come up then, something heartwarming and satisfying. Also, @princesslucretia remember I told you about how I’d already written something akin to your ideas? 

Ballroom Introductions. 

It was in the ballroom perhaps, Lucie thought now, lost in the progress that every month endured, of all the days that had slowly gone by in the year. Could she particularly pinpoint?

She sat with little Alexander, keeping him company at the farthest corner of the room. Lucie had danced quite a bit with Matthew and a few other gentlemen who had asked; except one, though she chided herself for even thinking about it. The evening was satisfactory—all happy faces everywhere, though if she looked deeper, she would be able make out the lines of loss and mourning under them. A lifetime too was short to grieve for all those everybody had lost in the Shadow War. 

Lucie engaged Alex in a gripping story, encapsulating wonder, terror and excitement in an impulsive story she had conjured out of thin air. Alex was amused, especially at the involvement of the soft circus ball, his new and most treasured toy. She personified the ball’s abilities, describing its magical properties and how it went on to become a hero when a pirate ship had begun to attack its island of toys. Her heart swelled with joy when he laughed at the bits she narrated with mirth. 

At one point, Alex just stared at her in wonder and confusion until she realised he had been staring at a point behind her. Perplexed, she turned to face her intruder, her heart stopping for a moment at the piercing green gaze. She regained her composure and smiled. “Hello, Jesse.”

She looked back at Alexander who was now eyeing Jesse skeptically. She waved in his face, just as Jesse bent down on his knee next to her, facing his cousin. Alex’s gaze trailed from him to her, his hands outstretched towards her. She pulled him into her lap and introduced him to Jesse. 

“Jesse?”

She ruffled his soft hair, hair akin to his cousin’s. “Yes, Alexander. Will you introduce yourself to your cousin?”

Alex remained silent. She watched him frown, still gaping at Jesse. Jesse met her eyes, all fear and apprehension. She noticed how his hair was longer now, completely covering his ears unlike before. His face wasn’t as pale but there were still shadows under his eyes, combed with his want to be introduced to his youngest cousin yet unsure of how. 

“Cousin?” Alex said finally. She gave Jesse a reassuring smile and bent to her side to face Alexander. 

“Correct. Thomas? Thomas is your cousin. Eugenia? Barbara-” her throat ached, “just how they are your cousins, Jesse too is one, Alex.”

“Tom,” he said sullenly, his face sour. She recalled Thomas taking his licorice away stating it had been his fifth for the day. Lucie nodded. 

“Tom, Euvy and Babbara,” he narrated. Lucie hugged him tighter. Looking at Jesse, she added, “Jesse.”

Jesse glanced at her, momentarily fazed. He smiled then, confidence in his posture and he gestured his gloved hand forth. “Jesse Blackthorn, sir,” he said, and took off his beret, bowing in a flourish. “Pleased to meet you.”

Lucie found herself smiling at that. Alexander gaped at him and looked at her, confused. “Go on, Alex. He’s very glad to have met you finally!”

“Not Pirate?”

She laughed. “No, you silly. Definitely not. Go on, now. It is impolite to keep a gentleman waiting.”

It was with some hesitation that Alex put his hand forth. “Alexandwer,” he said solemnly. Jesse took it confidently and shook his cousin’s small yet firm hand, contained ecstasy breaking out on his face. Alex hopped off Lucie’s lap, disconcerting Lucie momentarily from thinking how well Jesse had managed his introductions. People from the Enclave and around the world had flocked the London Institute to celebrate the victory in the Shadow War. They had all looked at him warily yet he was so confident and firm when he spoke, the air of surety in his walk and posture. He looked dapper in his new clothes, a wonderful frock coat adorning over his white shirt and a regal earthen waistcoat. It was subtle and simple, yet Jesse looked breathtaking. 

“Alex-” but Alexander was standing well on his feet, his posture mirroring his cousin’s. He titled his chin higher, much to both of their amusement. In that moment she could see how much the two of them resembled one another. They had the same stance as that of Gabriel, though the eyes gave their secrets away. “Alexandwer Lightwood,” he announced and mimicked Jesse’s bow. Lucie gave a startled laugh at that but Jesse only smiled wider. She felt her heart flutter at his radiant smile that seemed to light up an already bright room. Alex turned to face her, his cheeks now bright red and rushed into the crowd. 

Alarmed, Jesse got up to follow him but Lucie stopped him, standing up too. “He’s shy,” she said. “New introductions do tire him but you shouldn’t be worried.” At his look of confusion, she elaborated. “You seem to have made a fascinating first impression on him, Mr. Blackthorn,” she said, blushing at the awkwardness of addressing him differently. 

“I should hope so,” he gazed after Alexander, who was now tugging at the tail of his father’s coat. Gabriel picked him up with the ease of a father, his gaze confused until he retracted his son’s tracks and saw Jesse and Lucie. He smiled at them and turned away. 

“You have. I promise.”

They gazed collectively at the faces in the ballroom. The night was coming to a close yet nobody made any sign of farewell. When she finally looked at Jesse, she found him already looking at her. “I, uh, I’ve been looking for you.”

Lucie felt her stomach drop. “What for? I’ve been here this whole time.”

Jesse continued to stare at her, his lips pursed. He finally said, this time looking away, his cheeks red. “I wondered if you could do me the honour of this dance, Miss Herondale.” He met her gaze, sharp yet uncertain. Lucie could see the tension in his shoulders, the way the vein throbbed against his throat in apprehension. 

She blushed this time, though she didn’t look away. “You’re nervous,” she pointed, reverting to their constant innocuous bickering ways. Jesse’s shoulders slumped in relief at that, a smile overpowering his face. 

“Of course I am!” He gestured around the room, at the faces covering up the traces of pain, sheathed under the dimness of the light. “It is exhausting, akin to your observation about Alexander earlier, to make introductions.”

“Not to forget that you are quite literally a revived corpse.”

“My sources tell me you are not going to stop throwing that in my face until I die again,” he commented dryly. “Not that I mind, but I think repetitive gets bland.” 

Lucie laughed at that. “Well, I can assure you that you shall not be hearing the end of it, certainly. Though I believe there are more pressing matters to attend at the moment.”

“Such as?”

She put her hand forth, the way gentlemen did when they asked their partners or any agreeable stranger for a dance. “May I have this dance, Jesse Blackthorn? Former dead-ee, Current living person?”

Jesse’s laughter, lively and rich, was a sound unlike any melody in the room. She puffed out her cheeks in an attempt to conceal her smile until Jesse put his hand in hers. “I believe in no form of formality, you see,” she added as they made their way over to the dance floor. Lucie noticed how their hands shifted- it would seem as though Jesse had been the one to outstretch his hand to ask her out, and Lucie pondered briefly about that. It felt intimate in every slight bit.

“Though perhaps it is better you say that you assume that no bureaucratic formality remains between us, given that society works on norms,” he said, turning her around. “And I know you would disagree with me here.” 

“Perhaps I’ll let you have the agency this time of being right; I do think so.”

Jesse almost did a double take. “You do?” 

“Oh yes, I’m surprised too,” she laughed at Jesse’s wariness. “Who knows, you could possibly be my voice of reason sometimes.”

“I’m humbled, Miss Herondale. The utmost honour,” he bowed with a smile. 

“Let me do you another honour, if that be the case,” she grinned, mirroring his. “If we still- no, if you still put up with the formalities.”

Lucie was right, Jesse thought; the air of formality between them as though they were strangers was not a particularly welcoming idea. They knew each other a little too well, he assumed. One could not pin it on an exact moment, but it felt like a lot to reverse or start from scratch. It was lost in the progress that every month endured, of all the days that had slowly gone by in the year of spending time with each other. He didn’t mind, though quickly added, knowing what she had meant. “Don’t step on my toes,” he warned.

"And here I thought I could be discreet,” she grumbled good-naturedly, leaving them to each other’s silent laughter. The world faded to the shadows around them. For once, Lucie didn’t mind the darkness, if it brought light with it. And from enough stories she’s read, she knew it did.  

#jesse blackthorn #lucie herondale #jesse x lucie #lucie x jesse #blackdale #the last hours #aaaah #mine* #i'm just emptying my google docs at this point tbh #i'll probably post something for jordelia next because i have a couple in there lmao #and i edited this instead of sleeping so eh #or a thomastair? #hmm tough decisions to make

[delineative]

writing year in review: 2018

total number of completed stories: 9

total word count:

ao3: 43 879

(+ ~5k on socks)

fandoms written in:

dorohedoro

we both chose each other - noi/shin

houseki no kuni

growing without rest - phos/phos

idol producer / nine percent

counting flower petals all day long - xukun/zhengting

leaving nothing behind - xukun/zhengting

when we see each other again - jun/zhengting, ziyi/zhengting, yanjun/zhangjing/zhengting, xukun/zhengting, justin/chengcheng/zhengting

take one step closer - xukun/yanjun/zhengting

nct

from first principles - 00line

produce 101 china / rocket girls

coincidence makes sense - yamy/meiqi/xuanyi

seventeen

the earth in its turning stopped (last 2 chapters) - seungcheol/jeonghan/joshua

reaching for you from the endless dream - wonwoo/jun

wips:

out of the wips i’m currently working on:

dirtmix assignment (will be revealed very shortly!)

nahyuck pacific rim au

markrenmin enemies to lovers fantasy au

looking back, did you expect to write more fic than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you’d expected?

around what i expected... i was aiming for 1 fic a month and didn’t quite manage to hit that but i feel like each fic was longer than usual (i’m a terminal shortfic writer so anything over 3k is long for me). like i kept going 1-4k over my projected wordcount which was extremely panic-inducing when i was trying to write to deadlines lmao so overall i’m okay with the quantity of words i produced this year!

what pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted in January?

fandom-wise probably the survival show spiral and moving into ncity... if 2017 was the year of yugioh then 2018 was the year of rpf. some of the stuff i posted to socks was very uncharacteristic of my usual m.o but i think everything i put on main was very true to brand i.e ambiguous relationships + vague pining + emo conversations in the dark

did you take any writing risks this year? what did you learn from them?

i signed up for svtbb and had to drop out due to exam pressure, which was sad bc it’s the first exchange/fest i’ve ever defaulted on, but then i went and did lordeventeen and yuletide even though they partly ran through exam seasons too so i guess i learned nothing?!?

actually i think i probably could have afforded to take a few more risks genre-wise, i feel like everything i wrote in 2018 recycled the exact same themes but also at the same time those themes are the only thing i can write. terrible taste i will never change i will never improve that is a promise etc etc

what’s your own favorite story of the year?

reaching for you from the endless dream had me tearing my hair out while i was writing it but ultimately i feel like it paid off! i’ve always wanted to try canon compliant + magic and this ended up with some of the best writing i’ve ever done, plus i’m happy i was finally able to write something for one of my favourite svt ships <3 honourable mention to the concept behind when we see each other again, my post-disbandment allzzt ship manifesto titled after csc_uri_dasi_bol_ttae.mp3 

best story of the year?

also reaching for you from the endless dream! i’m really proud of how this one turned out both in terms of technical quality (.... *repeats the same phrase 300 times* Is This Thematic Consistency?) and emotional beats, and it got so many lovely comments. i think this is probably one of my best fics ever, and i’m glad it struck a chord with other people too!

most popular story of the year?

not counting teiits since most of that was posted in 2017, it’s counting flower petals all day long, which really surprised me when i checked my ao3 stats? i must have hit the sweet spot of fandom growth + burgeoning ship popularity bc literally nothing happens in the fic other than one (1) kiss, but thank you for giving it so much love 💖

story of mine most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion:

omg i think everything i wrote this year was WAY over-appreciated but coincidence makes sense, which features a f/f/f rarepair (raretrio?) in a fandom with very little western fan presence, so i’m not surprised by its stats but i’m still pretty fond of this one and consider it one of the better fics i wrote in 2018, and one of the best idolverse fics i’ve ever written

most fun story to write:

from first principles, the debate au fic i’ve wanted to write for like 6 years, my beloved pet project through the month of august, and i think it shows? i tripled my projected word count and in the process of writing fully converted to dreamyism(/renjunism), so a lot of love went into it, even though there are places you can tell i definitely rushed the execution. one day i’ll do justice to a proper nct sports anime fic... 

story with the single sexiest moment:

all the rated content i wrote this year was posted to socks other than the brief dance studio 3some scene in take one step closer, but i genuinely have no idea if that was even sxc since i wrote it on my phone in a feverish last-minute sprint on a plane while blasting twice bdz and haven’t reread it at all jhfgdfjdfh

most sweet story:

the general tone of everything i wrote in 2018 was much less depressing than 2017 but i guess the sweetest story was we both chose each other... what’s more romantic than dismembering a bunch of thugs with your beloved partner and then jumping off a cliff together!!

story that shifted my own perceptions of the characters:

kind of a weird question to apply to rpf... characterisation perceptions are constantly shifting based on current meta and au role needs, though i feel like i’m always struggling to play catchup and by the time i publish anything the general image has shifted ;__; 

most unintentionally telling story:

from first principles draws heavily on my own experiences with high school debating... lots of 3rd speaker related anxieties and hangups projection all over the place in there lmao

hardest story to write:

every time i’m working on something, especially when i’m close to finishing, it is the hardest thing i have ever written... i can’t remember if writing has always been this difficult for me or if it’s an rpf thing. probably i struggled the most with reaching for you from the endless dream bc i’m deeply intimidated by writing jun (light of my life) due to the fear of not doing him justice, and also the deadline pressure nearly killed me. also at one point i called writing from first principles the worst experience of my life but looking back it wasn’t even that bad... mostly it was just that it kept getting longer and longer and eventually i was like Please God Let It End Already

biggest disappointment:

not finishing my svtbb fic... i am literally twitter user juncheolsoo i owe them SOMETHING!! not writing more fic. mediocre execution of decent concepts bc i got too impatient and rushed to finish things before i got bored of them

biggest surprise:

all of my fics about idol boys except one have over 100 kudos, which is just a ridiculous amount?! idol rpf fandoms have been so kind to me... i will work hard to become a better content creator in 2019!!

favourite opening line(s):

from leaving nothing behind:

“Are you looking for Justin?”

Xukun rears back, knuckles still poised to knock on the doorframe. “I—what?”

“Are you looking for Justin?” Zhengting repeats. He’s sprawled across the bottom bunk, leg dangling inelegantly off the edge. The phone in his hand casts an unsteady ellipse of light over his collarbone.

favourite closing line(s):

from growing without rest:

Beyond the arches the world is silent. The gem Phosphophyllite will become returns their gaze steadily, evenly. The shadows lengthen. In the distance behind them, a flicker of white, like light needling off somebody’s back, or the gleam of a pearl eye.

favourite 5 line(s) from anywhere:

from first principles:

“If only Mark-hyung was still here,” Renjun said, only half-jokingly. There was a brief moment of solemn silence as the three of them paused to consider their ex-captain, who had passed on last year to the realm of university debating.

when we see each other again:

So maybe they weren’t friends, but they were something. You couldn’t inhabit the same space for two years and come out the other side as strangers. Sometimes Zhengting thought that might have been easier than whatever this intimacy limbo was supposed to be, knowing somebody in the minutest details, what they looked like at the height of their intensity or the moments before they fell asleep, without really knowing them at all. Looking, and not having the gesture returned, or at least not equally.

coincidence makes sense:

The song ends, starts over. Meiqi doesn’t, though, pivoting to face them, and that’s all the invitation Xuanyi needs to unfold from her position beside Guo Ying and cross the floor. Like two halves of a single movement Meiqi reaches out to Xuanyi and Xuanyi presses their palms together, interlacing their fingers. The tilt of their heads towards each other like it’s something irresistible.

reaching for you from the endless dream:

Junhui was practically raised by the industry. The stage lying close enough to the bone it would be indistinguishable from it. He leaves his intensity on the stage but glimpses of it show through in odd moments, seamlessness without ease. It’s hard for Wonwoo to understand, but most things about Junhui are.

take one step closer:

You want to look into somebody, of course you have to let them look back. This is why he kept away in the first place, the terror of vulnerability when it could be staved off indefinitely instead, though he’d wanted to be seen, hoped for it, even, despite himself, something in the marrow singing out to be known.

It’s like an infection, a second heart in his ribs. A kind of longing that bites right through his hand. Strikes down to the quick. Severs the whole thing clean off. He ran so far from himself he landed in somebody else’s body, and here he is, still trying to escape.

top 5 scenes from anywhere you would choose to have illustrated:

jun lifting zzt up and spinning him around, from when we see each other again (;___; #junting_agenda_seeding)

wonwoo and jun in the kitchen with nectarines spilling out of the open fridge, from reaching for you from the endless dream

cxkzzt conversation in the dark while zzt is wearing a facemask, from leaving nothing behind

00z sports shounen hug, from from first principles

phos getting crushed by their future self’s gold arms, from growing without rest

honourable mention to noishin leaping off a cliff from we both chose each other, which actually did get illustrated in dorohedorozine <3

do you have any fanfic or profit goals for the new year?

cut down my wip list... please i have 25+ wips on my spreadsheet i just want to FINISH something for once in my life instead of constantly starting new wips and letting them rot in the graveyard of my gdocs

practise writing actual shipfic and not poorly disguised gen. i WILL get better at writing kiss scenes

try to write something over 10k again

relearn what figurative language is and how to use it. rpf boosted my productivity stats but at what cost...

#ash writes #i literally log on once a year to make this post

[smallmarvel]

Forever Means Forever - part 2

Pairing: Steve Rogers x reader

Summary: Growing up with your best friends Steve and Bucky in the 40′s was the highlight of your entire life. But honestly, being a governmental weapon doesn’t offer much competition.

WC: 1.4k

A/N: Pretty sure this low key sucks but it’s okay because it’ll get better! I can’t wait to show you guys the next part! Comments are strongly encouraged, I’d love to know what you think or ideas you have :)

Warnings: death, mourning 

part 1

You heard your alarm clock blaring and swung your arm over your bed to turn it off. Another day, another mission, another kill. You yawned and threw your legs off the bed. You quickly changed into your suit and made your way to the jet. Every day was the same. You were briefed at the beginning of the week, then followed through. Every. Single. Day. You were the government’s property, so you did as you were told. You buckled in on the jet as it started its route to wherever the hell it was going. You set your head back and closed your eyes.

You turned the page of your magazine you were reading on your front porch. You’d finally received a message from Steve the other day. He was safe. They’d actually taken him into the army. You’d figured just as much. It was just good to ease your conscience and know that he wasn’t dead. Even though he wouldn’t be much better off in the war. You’d finally adjusted to life without your best friends. All you had was your waitressing job at the diner, and your hope. Your hope that your best friends would come back safe and sound to you.  

You were ripped out of your daydream by a knock on the column of your porch. A young man in a tan uniform pulled out a sheet of paper and your heart dropped. 

“Excuse me, are you (Y/N) (Y/L/N)?” All you could manage was a nod. “Do you share this apartment with James Buchanan Barnes?” you nodded again. “I’m very sorry, ma’am, but Barnes is MIA, as is Steven Grant Rogers. You were listed as his only emergency contact,” he saluted and walked back down the porch steps. Your magazine dropped to the ground. 

You stood and ushed your way into your house before your legs gave out. You tripped over the coffee table and fell onto the ground. Your body shook with silent sobs and you cried harder than you’d ever cried in your entire life. Your heart was shattered and your body felt like a stone. Your lungs were on fire. You couldn’t stop thinking about how you were going to have to live without them. You couldn’t. You just couldn’t live without them. 

Life continued like this. You cried yourself to sleep every night. You barely ate, slept, or did much of anything. After two or so weeks, you got your first wakeup call. You were being evicted. The apartment you’d shared with Bucky for three years was going to be taken away from you. It was the last thing you cared about. Material possessions meant nothing to you anymore. So you decided to get your shit together and sell everything. You sold clothes, furniture, everything. While you were purging, you got an idea.

“Hello, I’m Thomas (Y/L/N),” you spoke in your lowest voice. The recruitment officer shuffled the papers on his desk and sighed. 

“You’re looking to enlist?” he peered at your over his glasses. You nodded. You were sweating and shaking and cursing yourself for coming up with this awful idea. Your baggy clothes swamped you, making you even hotter. In grade school, you’d read about several women who had dressed up as men and fought in wars. With all the technological differences, you should’ve known you couldn’t have gotten away with it. You just thought it was something nice to honour Bucky and Steve. They were all you had to live for, anyway. With them gone, you didn’t mind dying for the same cause they had, and, in a way, for them. “Well, get ready for the physical examination,” he said, standing up and tucking the papers into a manilla folder on the desk. “The doctor will be in shortly.”

He exited the room and shut the door. Your heart rate increased and you began to panic. What were you supposed to do? You hadn’t thought this through all the way. Your brain was racing a million miles a minute and you knew you were quickly running out of options. You heard the door open and a little man with grey hair and glasses walked in. You sat down on the examination bed. He sat down on the swivel chair and laced his hands together, laying them on his lap.

“You can calm down, (Y/N),” he said. Your eyes widened and you did the exact opposite. Your heart rate quickened, if that was possible, and you felt your body go into flight mode. “We know why you’re here. We know about Rogers and Barnes,” he sighed. “We know you were very close with them. Clearly, you share their bravery and courage.”

“Who is ‘we’?” You found your voice. You took off your hat and your outer layer of clothes, revealing your normal pants and shirt. He sighed again.

“The government, (Y/N),” you squinted at him. “We chose Rogers for a top-secret experiment to turn him into a super soldier. However, the serum was destroyed. We have been hoping to find a new candidate for the new and improved serum. We figured you would be a good candidate,” you didn’t even think twice. 

“Yes,” you said. His eyes widened. 

“Are you sure? I mean, there’s a lot involved in-” you cut him off.

“I’m sure,” you said. “I’m doing this for Bucky and Steve.”

You laughed at the memory. You were so young and naive. You should have listened to the terms and conditions before you made the biggest decision of your entire life. The serum gave you super strength, incredible reflexes, and an incredible body. On top of all of this, you literally could not get hurt. You were virtually indestructible. You couldn’t even get so much as a papercut. 

It was the worst decision of your life. For the past 70 years, you’d been made to destroy and kill. You did the missions that the government was too scared to do. You were just a weapon, a tool. Sure, they gave you food, housing, anything you could ask for. In exchange for your freedom. After a few years of it, while you were technically still in the trials for the new serum, you had realized how much of a curse this new power was. As far as you were concerned, you couldn’t die. Any blade that touched your skin broke, any fist that tried to hit you shattered. That’s why you decided to destroy the serum and all plans that had come with it. You wouldn’t allow them to do this to anyone else. They were playing God and they knew it. 

Unfortunately but understandably, you were punished. That’s why you were under house arrest and had no freedom. Sometimes you were given liberties, but you mostly just stayed in the place they housed you. You had nothing else to do, anyway. 

You didn’t have a phone, computer, or television. As far as you were concerned, it was still the 40′s. You were content with your newspapers and your books. You sewed in your free time. Of course, the government fed all of these hobbies. They provided you with any books or materials that you wanted. You’d even been the one who made your suit. It was dark blue and felt like a second skin. You could fight with no problem in it. It was a big improvement from your first suit, the one they’d provided you with.

You lived a bleak, bleak life. The only highlight was when you were able to venture to the museum to see the Captain America exhibit. You’d only been a handful of times. It hurt when you went, but you were happy to be able to see Steve again, even if it was just the glorified version of Captain America. You were incredibly proud of Steve. He’d gotten what he wanted, a chance to fight for his country. He was brave and courageous, everything he’d always been, but had a chance to finally use. Even up until his last second alive, he was protecting the greater good. You still missed Steve and Bucky, but the sharp pain had turned into a dull ache over the years. 

You were so caught up in your thoughts that you’d hardly realized that the ship was landing. You prepared to hear the words “(Y/N), prepare for dispatch”, beginning to unbuckle your seatbelt, but they didn’t come. Instead, it boomed “Prepare for a change of course”. You were confused. You heard Fury’s voice in your ear.

“You’re headed to Antarctica,” he said. “A certain Hydra bomber plane was just found.”

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[sweetsummersansa-blog]

What’s gonna happen if Jonsa isn’t endgame?

Hey anon! Thanks for the ask!

Now are you asking what will happen if Jonsa isn’t just endgame, or if Jonsa doesn’t happen at all? 

If Jonsa happens but isn’t endgame, I’ll be very sad, because I think they make the most beautiful couple as they are so loving and trusting and supportive of each other and are basically each other’s other half. But as long as the ending makes sense and does the characters and their relationship justice, I will still be happy and enjoy the series, as my true OTP (before Jonsa or anything else) is ASOIAF x Strong-Plot-Point-And-An-Ending-That-Makes-Sense-And-Is-Wothy-Of-The-Series.

However, if Jonsa doesn’t happen at all, D&D are going to have A HELL OF A LOT OF EXPLAINING TO DO!!! 

I like to think of myself as a realist, and if I ship a crackship, I would gladly admit it to myself and to the rest of the world without any issue. However, I do not think Jonsa is a crackship at all, and I will go to my grave thinking this. There has been so much evidence/buildup to Jonsa that if it never happens in either the show or the books I will riot because of the lack in logic... I mean if it doesn’t happen D&D are going to have to explain to us all why:

-Sansa and Jon have literally been set up as Cat/Ned 2.0- Seriously, so many their scenes are shot in THE EXACT SAME WAY as Cat/Ned scenes and Sansa and Jon’s costumes draw heavy inspiration from Cat and Ned costumes. Plus Sansa has always been said/shown to look the most like Cat out of all the children and the same goes for Jon with Ned... there have been so many things that visually tie/set up Sansa and Jon as Cat/Ned 2.0 and if Jonsa doesn't happen I need to know WHY

- Why Jon went all angry Kitten on THREE separate occasions in consecutive episodes, threatening the men in Sansa’s life. And why LF and Davos had “oh shit” looks right after two of them.  Like especially in the scene with Littlefinger, it was only after LF said “I love Sansa as I loved her mother” that Jon went ballistic and almost strangled him to death - just like Ned almost strangled him to death in season 1 over Cat’s honour/the honour of the woman he loves. Maybe it could be a brother protecting his little sister... but I also have three little sisters, and as much as I would gladly run any guys who hurt them over with a car, and then chop them up into little tiny pieces and throw them into a fire... I still though Jon’s reactions were a little lot much. And also, if it was just a brother protecting his little sister, why give the “oh shit” looks TWICE from LF and Davos, alluding to the fact that its more than just a brother being overprotective. Again, if Jonsa doesn't happen, D&D have A LOT of explaining to do!

-Why the camera kept zooming in everytime Sansa touched Jon? - like this is romantic cinema trop 101... Why bother doing this is Jonsa will never happen?

- The entire 6x10 forehead kiss scene? Like I wasn't even a shipper, let alone a Jonsa shipper when I watched this scene for the first time... and this made me fell like there was DEFINELTY romantic tension between Jon and Sansa... they made the scene that way for a reason... what could that reason possibly be if they are not setting up a slow burn Jonsa relationshjp ? 

-What is the significance of R+L=J in Jumanji and why did they make the “most important pairing of the series” so underwhelming? The only reason I could think of for them fucking up that bad is if Jumanji wasn’t supposed to be seen the most epic romance that people will fall in love with and root for- because Jonsa will. Also R+L=J is important because it makes Jonsa possible and not completely disgusting in the eyes of Jon, Sansa and the viewers,.. while it does the opposite for Jumanji...

- Why film Jon and Sansa scenes in the similar way as other romantic couple scenes? If you compare Jonsa scenes to every other important romantic pairing, you can notice that the cinematic tropes they use are IDENTICAL, especially with Jamie/Brienne scenes... why film them that way unless they are setting up a Jonsa romance? 

Anyways, so if Jonsa doesn’t happen, D&D are going to have so much explaining to do, and I’m going to ned a fucking five-paragraph essay explains their logic for each of the questions raised above...

But don’t you worry your pretty little mind anon because Jonsa is endgame! It is known! 

[oodlyenough]

good luck on your workout!! for the fandom meme, 3, 6, 15, 23, 31, 45, 50 :)

Thanks!! (For this fandom meme if anyone’s interested.)

3. What is the best fandom you’ve ever been involved in?

all fandoms are equally garbage

lmao nah I love fandom but it is a mixed bag and every fandom has its own virtues and pitfalls. I met a lot of great people in both of my long-term fandoms that turned into like decades-long friendships and I also had a lot of internet fights and got compared to George Bush once, so you win some you lose some.

I think I’ll say Harry Potter though, it had a really formative impact on me growing up as I grew up with the series/fandom, and I think it occupies a space in my heart that no other media will ever touch for that exact reason. And because it was SO huge there was content for literally anything you could ever want, which was great.

6. List your OTP from each fandom you’ve been involved in.

I’m pretty fandom monogamous and tend to settle into one major fandom for a loooong time and then have, like, side flings. There’s also for me kinda a difference between stuff I love The Most and stuff I am actively in a fandom for, and sometimes they don’t align. Usually I define my being “in” a fandom as me writing fic, which narrows it down a LOT. So with that definition in mind we have:

Harry Potter - Lily/JamesDoctor Who - Tenth Doctor/RoseTales from the Borderlands - Rhys/SashaHonourable mention to Life is Strange, for which I have read fic but not published any, and my OTP there is Max/Chloe obv.

Two notable fandom flings:

my Twilight phase, during which I guess I was ostensibly team Jacob but had no real OTP and I contributed nothing to the fandom at all aside from metaphorically stuffing popcorn into my mouth while everything was on fire circa Eclipse, casting Robert Pattinson and the great Breaking Dawn leak; it was a wild summer

my foray into Broadchurch fandom, which got me writing fic again briefly and for which I shipped Ellie/Hardy but I’d say I shipped them less than the other things listed here (or at any rate was more content for their canon to be platonic), so I dunno if they really earn OTP status

15. Is there an obscure ship which you love?

lol tbh in terms of sheer volume of content Rhys/Sasha is probably the most “obscure” I’ve ever been particularly into and I wouldn’t consider it, like, a rarepair or whatever, just strangely underrepresented in its own fandom and considering its canon status.

I’m not much of a shipper and am unlikely to ship anything that doesn’t have a canon basis, because I just don’t really… care enough about shipping to fill it in where it isn’t, which means I don’t usually ship anything completely unheard of.

23. Name a fic you’ve written that you’re especially fond of & explain why you like it.

There’s a few different contenders for this that are labours of love, especially a lot of my collab fics, but for the purposes of this meme I’ll just stick to stuff I’ve written on my own and go with Return on Investment, which grew from a totally silly one-off joke that I think I made in a text message conversation and evolved from there into 10k. I’m happy with how this one turned out because for something that kept spiraling as I was writing I think it all tied together really well and I managed to hit all the emotional beats I wanted to hit in ways that were (imo) pretty organic, after working and reworking different parts a lot. I really like Rhys and Fiona’s relationship and this was my little ode to it and I think I got across most of what I wanted to re: how and why their friendship works and what they each bring to the table.

31. What’s the nicest thing someone has ever said about your writing?

A tough one! A compliment I’ve gotten a couple times in different fandoms is variations on “wow this felt just like [source material]” and that always makes me smile, I guess because that’s the ultimate goal of fanfiction, usually, right?

Oh the other thing I get occasionally is something like “I never liked character/ship before but this changed my mind/made me rethink” and that’s always nice too, like, I think I’ve said recently that fic is like 80% meta for me so I am glad I won you over with my cleverly disguised persuasive essay.

45. What is your all time favourite fanfic?

My go-to answer to this question has been Five Women Who Hate Fleur Delacour for years and I don’t intend to change now, mainly because that would mean I’d have to rethink it and that sounds hard.

50. How did you get into reading and/or writing fanfiction?

I’ve been unknowingly writing fanfiction literally forever, I used to write what I now understand to be fanfics about my favourite cartoons and stuff as a kid, in pencil and paper, in script format; one of my other friends at the time would do it to and we’d read each other’s stories and act them out lmao. Then pretty much as soon as we got a home computer I was on like… oldschool Geocities-style fansites for those same cartoons writing terrible terrible 8-year-old fanfiction for all to see.

I think one of those fandoms led me to Fanfiction.net and then I never really stopped? FF.net led to livejournal and UnknowableRoom.org and Teaspoon and now eventually AO3 and Tumblr. I go in phases where I write a lot and phases where I write less because I’m not ~inspired or don’t have a fandom, but I always love writing fic and tbh I’m happier when I am. I don’t write original fiction so it’s fanfic or bust basically! Happy to be in an “on” phase right now for the first time in a few years.

#meme answers #you've got questions we've got answers #anon

[havenforsouls]

If & Chloe... in an AU where a certain vampire doesn't ruin everything

Send me a Ship and I’ll Break Them DOWN (Accepting, but will be slow)

How did they they meet?

If and Chloe were born to the same village! I can’t recall if I ever asked you about Chloe’s exact origins, but I believe you said that her family was dead? Which means they lived under the same circumstances and were probably brought up communally by their village along with all the other children who’s parents had been killed. So they have pretty much always known each other.

Who developed romantic feelings first?

I honestly don’t know. I think it was probably just something that happened naturally over time. I can say Chloe probably realized them sooner than Since If is a dullard who somehow thinks she’s straight. As I play If she does care very much about finding that special someone, and going on dates and living a ‘normal’ life so I guess if I had to pick she’d be more likely to have developed them first, realized them second.

Who is their biggest “shipper?”

Remember that drabble I wrote about all their barracks mates? Everyone of them probably shipped it and wished If would get a clue.

When did they have their first kiss and under what circumstances?

HMMMM. I can imagine a scenario in which they are hunting and circumstances (probably hiding out or taking shelter from a big storm) keeps them locked up in so ramshackle shelter or cave for a while. And they cuddle for warmth and spend a long time talking and it just…happens.

Who confessed their feelings first?

Depends on when that kiss came! For that at least would finally be a wake up call to If but I think even then she’d be super confused and need time to sort her feelings out. After said kiss she’d eventually figure it out and could be the one, I suppose it depends on if Chloe would be patient enough to wait for her to do that xD

What was their first official date?

It would be hard for them to have dates given their duties, but maybe once in a blue moon they could take a break provided there are enough other hunters and guardiansto fill in for them.

It couldn’t have been anything fancy, maybe them just going out to eat in one of the few restaurants in town, or having a picnic (only Chloe cooks).

How do they feel about double dates/group dates?

They love it! It’s great to spend time with their friends, I think they all treasure each other very much because they know how easily any one of them can disappear.

What do they do in their down time?

Excluding hunt, guarding, and training….their downtime probably consists of reading, walking around,chatting, making fun of each other (especially Chloe to If for her terrible tastes in books). I don’t think there is really alot that they can do in terms of recreation since I feel the advancements of their home is heavily stunted by…..well….everyone being killed. They probably don’t have a lot of trade and communication with other places either due to travel being so difficult.

But they find ways to have fun still.

What was the first meeting of parents as an official couple like?

Uh. Well.

What was their first fight over and how did they get past it?

That’s hard. I’m sure there have been plenty of arguments over trivial things, and then some slightly more serious ones when it comes to how to approach select members of their enemies but…I honestly can’t see anything that would constitute a fight. Not with That Vampire Who Should Not Be Named outta the picture.

I guess….maybe how If handles her curse could be one? She can sometimes take some serious risks when it comes to trying to find a way to lift it since she’s in a huge hurry to do just that (especially if she and Chloe were to get together) whereas I think Chloe would want her to slow down and take a safer route. I think we’d need to discuss their dynamic pre turn more to figure this one out.

Which one is more easily made jealous?

I think both of them are very, very, very against that emotion towards relationships. Both have seen and know somewhat what it’s like to have someone be possessive over you from experience and seeing it happen. That said I think If would be the more likely of the two to get jealous, but she’d suck it up and get over it very quickly.

What is their favourite thing to get to eat?

SWEETS. Sugar is probably a huge luxury for their village and they don’t get to have anything sweet often. Whenever one of them gets a hold of anything sweet they always share, no matter how small.

Who’s the cuddly one? What their favourite cuddling position?

If…..If really likes to cuddle….but she’s can be a fucking tsun and so doesn’t often admit to wanting it.

Are they hand holders?

Yes. So very yes.

How long do they wait before sleeping together for the first time? What’s the circumstances?

UHM. IF IS A VERY FRUSTRATED VIRGIN. VERY FRUSTRATED. But she imagines Chloe would want to wait on that so she wouldn’t say a thing until she’s certain Chloe is comfortable.

Who tops?

They switch? I have no idea how Chloe regards sex.

What’s the worst first they’ve ever gotten into?

Probably the one I mentioned before.

Who does the shopping and the cooking?

DON’T LET IF FUCKING COOK. NEVER LET IF FUCKING COOK. SPOILERS, EVERYONE IN THEIR BARRACKS DIED BECAUSE OF HER COOKING, IT WASN’T THE DEMONS OR VAMPIRES.

She can do the shopping and cleaning though.

Which one is more organized and prone to tidiness?

If isn’t SUPER messy by nature (she got that way after losing Chloe and all the others because depression does that to ya) but I think Chloe is still tidier.

Who proposes?

If!

Do they have joined Bachelor/Bacheloette parties or separate?

Separate. Their friends pull them apart to throw parties for them that they are both embarrassed but amused by.

Who is the best man/maid of honour? Any other groomsmen or bridesmaids?

Take your pick from any of those dead NPCs who shall be alive in this AU too xD

Big Ceremony or Small?

Small because hell it’s literally impossible to have a big one.

Do they have a honeymoon? If so, where?  

I don’t think they’d be able to :(

Do they have children? How many? 

Maybe? I think they would, but I think they’d both be afraid to bring children into this world, especially given their jobs. They wouldn’t want to leave anyone behind.

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