Miles 42 is scared of thunder, always has been, always will be, he has no "justifiable reason" for the deep-seated fear, but he is always a trembling mess during thunderstorms.
this kid who can, will, an dprobably has killed a man or even many men, definitely needs someone to hold his hand during thunderstorms.
I make it angsty below the cut, nothing bad, but this could either be a kinda cute hc, or a really sad one, though there is some comfort at the very end
it was better when he was a kid, cause he could crawl into his mom and dads bed at night, and they would hold him through it, his dad promising nothing would ever hurt him on his watch. then his dad died, and thunder became a whole lot worse, cause it could hurt him now, his dad wasn't there to protect him, he had to be the man of the house now and couldn't go crawling to his mom or his uncle anymore, he had to be strong.
he pushes himself to just ignore it, to shove it all down, to not feel the utter terror that fills him every time the thunder rumbles so loud it feels like his bones are rattling. he gets hurt worse and more often on jobs with Aaron during storms, cause he jumps and flinches and paused whenever it strikes, opening himself up to be hit. over time, childish shame becomes true shame and he doesn't let anyone near him during storms, cause he can't be seen as weak.
he used to sit with his mom in the living room, when she was home, or hang out in his uncles apartment (though he'd pretend that he wasn't scared), but he felt more an more embarrassed as time passed. when he was still staying with ganke (and/or before ganke died, cause I'm all for ganke to be his canon event, cause I hate myself or something) they would stay in the same bunk together and ganke would let him use his good headphones so it wouldn't be so loud, and he'd try and help his (more than?) friend cope, to little avail; it typically ended in Miles just sobbing into his chest, begging him to make it stop. but eventually he gives up on seeking comfort and will just push himself until he breaks down somewhere, typically his empty room or an alley way.
(now for mild comfort)
things change when Miles 1610 and his dad come into the picture. Miles 1610 is also afraid of thunder, just not to the same extent (cause it wasn't worsened by the death of his dad, cause for Miles 42, the fear of thunder is sorta a cover for a lot of other big feelings he can't even begin to process, alongside genuine fear) and as the two get close, Miles 1610 helps Miles 42 feel safe to express his fear.
Miles 1610 picks up on it immedietly, being much more intune and analytical, let alone with his spidey senses, he notices every ounce of anxiety dripping off of his twin during their first storm together, so he immediately fesses up his own fear, and how the whole "earthquakes" collider, peter parker dying, situation made his fear of thunder a lot worse. he doesn't expect Miles 42 to open up per say, but he learned airing out his own weaknesses makes his brother more comfortable letting his guard down, cause Miles 1610 feels like less of a threat. he offers a hand when the heart of the storm is over them, and the thunder is so loud it shakes the house a little, but is kinda surprised when MIles 42 latches onto his middle, letting him drape an arm over his back, but he's alright with it, its kinda nice (if not absolutely heartbreaking, cause the kid is shaking and Miles is pretty sure he's crying and he feels so bad). they stay like that all night, well after the storms past, until Miles 42's shaken himself to sleep and Miles 1610 drags him to bed, taking his turn as the "big brother", making sure that his twin could sleep the night feeling safe and secure with him.
eventually they'll talk more about, "their" dad comes up, and Miles 1610 tells him he's always welcome to come over whenever he's nervous (though they dance around that word) and in time, its Jeff's side that both boys are diving into (cause Miles 1610 only braves through a storm when his brothers in need, otherwise he too just wants to be held and protected). Miles 42 is reluctant at first, cause being around Jeff's still hard, but one storm hits him hard enough to just crumble any resistance he had to the idea in seconds, maybe its a bad storm, maybe it was a bad day, but he knows he's begging Miles to bring him to his dimension and wasting no time to rush to "his" dad. jeff being the good dad he is, doesn't ask a single question, just settles his boys on the couch with him and rio and they camp out there for a good while, doing whatever it takes to distract from the storm outside.
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I don’t like minimizing the importance and gravity of Laios and Toshiro’s fight into just being a childish squabble, even if to a degree it is framed that way, because to both of them it has a lot of personal significance and emotional weight and runs very deep to their characters… The fight isn’t nothing it’s a LOT, they made up but it’s not something easy to express and to get over for either of them which makes it all the more meaningful! I’m on both sides but there very much are sides, there’s no "they’re both having a ball, Toshiro and Laios hand in hand yay" side to the fight, that comes after
The fight with Toshiro WAS very scary to Laios, almost existentially so, but it’s moreso the "I thought I’d made a friend!!" bit and my god. My god actually
Like it’s not "just" about oh his friend liking him less than he thought, THAT IS SO MUCH. It’s a bond he thought he had being a lie it’s all the time and moments spent together either being a lie from his perspective or marred now looking back. It’s not only being upset at Toshiro for lying but upset at himself that he’s so easy to fool, it’s being upset that there’s something so wrong with you that you can’t even tell if your "close buddy" even actually likes you or not, it’s like. Holding my head. He can’t trust his own vision of events that happened do you see. There’s always this film of distrust that it could be a lie that should be there when he interacts with people there’s always this sense of cloak and dagger to expect backstabs out of nowhere because you CAN’T see it coming you CAN’T you CAN’T there’s something about you which makes it impossible so you CAN’T-
He’s so scared of not being able to read people. He knows it’s a weak spot he has, he’s always known. All of these bits are centered around social expectations and betrayals, the assumption that he doesn’t belong either in society or with other humans.
And Laios’ level of awareness is actually sort of complex to analyze, but it’s there, there’s how out of him and Falin he was the one sensitive to the ~aura of hatred~ he felt from the townspeople, there’s of course his nightmares whispering to him about the mocking looks, and how yeah actually he realizes that his gold stripper coworker was taking advantage of him. There’s of course the Winged Lion speech about his trauma and how he fundamentally mistrusts/dislikes humans to some deep seated degree, this distrust that he still keeps under control always. There’s how pre-canon he often wanted to suggest eating monsters but never worked up the courage to bring it up with the others. There’s how he gets across as stoic when he isn’t being enthusiastic…… We don’t know how aware and wary he is exactly in the moment but we do know he has some anxiety around social stuff, and looking back he does notice and aughh augh, the sense you have to hide yourself to not get hurt and be on your guard and shit and.
When you don’t know what to look out for and when to look out for it, the general ‘common sense’ of not always trusting people or noticing when someone’s messing with you becomes hypervigilance in social settings
"Man they really know what you hate huh". Being socially unaware literally plagues him, he knows, he knows it so well.
It’s so quick that it’s almost hard to digest how literal and blatant Laios summoning his monster to crush all the people who’ve hurt him is. His literal go-to coping mechanism for comfort in his literal monster-induced emotionally intense nightmares, saving him by taking away the upsetting element (the humans)
"Monsters are his coping fantasy, where they can whisk him away from humanity, all the hurt it’s caused him and its arbitrary rules" with the subtlety of a brick. Monsters are his comfort safe zone "because they kill humans" yes but no it’s because he pits them as the guardians against humans who to him are in the role of the agressors. To him they represent freedom from the shackles of what it means to be part of humanity, a fundamentally social species
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tbh i do get a little bothered by the notion that tim took the first shot he had to drop out of school because he hated school and didnt wanna do it and all of that bc i feel like it ignores the probably very important context that he dropped out after his dad (as well as steph-or at least, he was led to believe, in the same week) died, also he was in a school shooting. He did attempt to go to a school in bludhaven but the kids there were so wildly insensitive about the shooting that tim dropped out under the pretense of his "uncle" homeschooling him. In his oyl era, he /did/ go back to school, and it provided him some form of normalcy. Tim was a normal kid, he wasnt crazy about school but he still went to school and it helped him feel like a normal kid, something he desperately clung to. He only dropped out again to do his Brucequest, in an era where he was notably Not Doing Well (which. Yeah. he wasnt doing well bc he was like 17 and almost everyone in his support system was dead, he recently had hits put out on him, got blown up, and backstabbed by his not-dead-ex, he couldnt support his theory that bruce was alive and was extremely stressed about that, and he didnt know wtf he was doing. I love him btw.) Basically tim dropping out of school was a signifier that he wasnt doing well and he was giving up on the normality that he tried to cling to and im a bit of a nitpicky person who gets irked by minor things
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I think Ryne would have a kinda skewed sense of what's normal. Like, she may technically know what's "normal" for most people, but what's normal for her is way different. She's raised by two men who are both Weird, only one of which can even pretend to be normal (and like hell Thancred bothered with that while on the run with Ryne lol)
Ryne thinks that talking circles round pixies is common knowledge from her many stays in Il Mheg. It is not. She also thinks knowing how to and being able to stomach skinning and gutting animals for food is normal. It's certainly more common, but unless you're a hunter it absolutely does not come as easily. Being able to walk and run around quietly is something she technically knows is unusual, but since her company has mainly consisted of a professional spy and a man who barely leaves home she tends to forget that most people can't do that.
I can't come up with anymore atm but. Ryne should get to be just a little weird(er) I think
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Horrible stupid but funny plot idea I have in my brain : Bart decides to try edibles for once so him and Tim and kon are just chilling and Bart doesn’t realize eating a whole packet of weed gummies will fuck you up so he does that and proceeds to transcend into the next plane of existence while he is laying in kons lap on the floor, eyes dilated to the fucking sun. He’s in another dimension. Tim and kon don’t want to leave his side because they’re pretty sure he’ll start seizing or something if they do. Or he’ll like clip through the floor like a CGI character.
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yeah uhm we poisoned your boyfriend. he was being a nosy little bitch so we spiked his coffee and he's in a coma now. he uh. he won't be waking up for another 6 years, and when he finally does wake up you won't be around to greet him. oh and he's gonna Come Back Wrong, too. yeah he'll become a very bitter, vengeful man with his heart set on trying to salvage what little he has left in the world, and he'll ultimately sort of fail at that. sorry. i hope the transgender sex was good while it lasted.
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