#to be kinda... a lot worse

[cbmagus49]

🎄Happy Holidays everybody ^^🎄

#gravity falls #christmas #mabel pines #dipper pines #shooting star #pine tree #get it #'cuz it's a STAR on a TREE #I Am Very Funny™ #fun fact: this is a redraw! #the original was a piece I did years ago on DA #ngl I was expecting the quality of my old work #to be kinda... a lot worse #but honestly it's held up surprisingly well #which I guess makes sense since I was drawing A LOT back then #I sucked at writing descriptions though #I mean to be fair that hasn't really changed #I just take more time with it #that's half the reason it takes me so long to post stuff T^T #tag rambling helps :) #although I can get carried away and get stuck on that too #case in point #a good way to tell how long it took me to get over my executive dysfunction and post #is by looking at how long the tags on said post waffle on for #so as you can see #this one took a hot minute #and by that I mean like a week or two #not including the time it took to draw it #anywho I think I've got it on lock now #so tag spiel adjourned I guess :P

[rocksalt-and-pie]

shout-out to the makers of NBC Hannibal for (clearly) reading all four books about Hannibal Lecter by Thomas Harris and going "hmm. actually we will make the gayest possible version of this" going on to COMPLETELY disregard the other main character and (canon) ?love interest? of the series and never even MENTION Clarice Starling. Like it's so funny to me that she never even appears on the show when book!Will Graham literally fucks off after The Red Dragon and wants nothing to do with any of this anymore and book!Hannibal is obsessed with Clarice in the same way that tv!Hannibal is obsessed with tv!Will. like they really took a whole book franchise, picked out the cherries, and made it their own personal little gay AU. that's so refreshing and should be a leading example in television adaptations. in this essay i will

#hannibal #hannigram #hannibal lecter #will graham #Clarice Starling #thomas harris #nbc hannibal #mp #i actually like clarice as a character though #but i do think that the red dragon is the best book of the series and they get worse and worse #also they have nothing to do with the show when it comes to aesthetics #they're literally just action filled crime thrillers. they feel very to the point‚ very technical and practical and sober #whereas the show is literally just art and poetry and emotions and meaning and simply beautiful #i also love that the show treats its female characters so much better than the books #the books feel very masculine which is just due to the time of publishing i guess #i feel like a lot of books written and published by men in the 80s/90s have this very brutalist straight forward no emotions style #but yeah. the people who made the show really went all out with it and i love how their interpretation is kinda just high scale fanfiction #like i respect that so much and also: goals

[trafficlightchild]

SO YOU'RE TELLING ME THAT THE REASON ALADOR WENT ALONG WITH ALL OF THIS IS BECAUSE ODALIA WAS GOING TO GET THE KIDS INVOLVED IF HE DIDN'T WHAT THE FUCK

#divorce babe divorce #like I'm not saying this excuses what alador let happen #but it makes a lot more sense #like I feel even worse for him #cause it seemed kinda like a lose-lose situation #go back to darius honey #we all know you want to #the owl house #toh #the owl house spoilers #toh spoilers #clouds on the horizon #odalia blight #alador blight

[bonefall]

I'm not in 100 years reading wind, so what's the nightstar stuff as well as the harelight execution scene?

The Nightstar Stuff is that they're constantly making it clear they KNOW that cats can lie about getting the 9 lives, they KNOW that a murderer can receive the lives, and they KNOW that StarClan has never rejected an evil cat before... but then they handwave it away because they don't wanna do anything.

Nightstar/Nightpelt gets namedropped six times and vaguely alluded to a dozen more, but it means nothing to the story. You could have just forgotten him entirely and the plot would happen the same way.

Most of this book is the leaders finding excuses to sit on their butts, but I really only need to share one exchange to demonstrate just HOW stupid this is,

"I'd like to think that the ancestors would speak up." A+ logic Squirrelflight. Just believe that reality won't happen. If you cover your eyes it makes the maneating lion bowling towards your face go away. Soblem prolved.

#and I'm tired and dont feel like talking about the hare stuff rn #bc it will be better when I write a direct comparison between the two scenes and where the references are #and ngl it kinda makes me angry because when you go and read the stone scene... it's ACTUALLY good. #It's tense. It's well-paced. It's got a lot going on. Tiger is a great character and there's all these little unique dynamics #It's iconic for a reason and the Hare killing is just this knockoff version. Infinitely worse. #no understanding of why the scene was interesting or what made it work #And I'm really NOT trying to say the first arc was flawless. I talk a lot about how many of the problems in modern wc go back to it #but god. it's better than where we are now #asc spoilers #wind spoilers

[puppyeared]

its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously

#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to #im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but #because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of #exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something #and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh #and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing #because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant #even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still #its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn…. #if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about #I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird #maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel #a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t #I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to #be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol #idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week #had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting #yapping #does this count as vent #vent #Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly

[abaroo]

I realised I had to refine Ceroba for my au…

In the cowboy swap au, Ceroba is actually the Sheriff and leader of the Feisty Five. Clover is still the Deputy and goes by “Lucky Star”. He loves hanging around town with his Mama ☺️. I haven’t come up with a cool cowboy name for Ceroba yet, although she probably wouldn’t use one :/

Cowboy Swap Masterpost

#wait what’s with the random dot in the middle #whatever I’m too tired to go back and edit it #mildly infuriating when #I had a lot of fun with this design though #I don’t have a signature weapon for her yet #but her lasso handle looks like the bell on the end of her staff during pacifist and genocide route #love her but she’s so hard to write! #kinda going for a ‘fake friendly turns into real friendly which makes betrayal all the worse’ #wait that’s just liar revealed trope #eh I’m working on it #this is too many tags #again I’m tired #I’m going to bed #cowboy swap au #ceroba #ceroba undertale yellow #ceroba uty #undertale yellow fanart #uty fanart #undertale yellow #uty #artists on tumblr #fanart #video games

[skitskatdacat63]

"Death is nothing, but to live defeated and inglorious is to die daily."

+ process(tw blood)

Also, look at him, bloody little guy 🥹

This drawing was inspired by several matador pics :D here and here:

^ I don't think I'll ever live up to the second one ah. There's several pics of that specific guy just soaked with blood, and I'm uh a bit obsessed with then ITS FUCKED UP I KNOW OKAY! But I've not drawn blood in a while so it was a bit difficult so I added less than I would want to I guess. Also I'm obsessed with how often they kneel in bullfighting?? Like okay who are you arching your back and spreading your legs for-

#ah not 100% sure abt this one but i think i still like it!!! #i was practicing matador poses during the wknd and im like yeah should prob paint one #and then it felt like all the energy left my body djfkkglg i was like ugh how do i paint again????? #mostly: just really wanted to draw him bloody #i love how every time i draw him in ferrari colors its just the most eye bleeding thing ever #my eyes get too used to it on my ipad's display and im like aw this isnt red enough :( #and then i transfer it to my phone and it feels like the red suddenly is hurting my eyes even worse djfkkglg #im glad the blood turned out well. i honestly think it was probably easier bcs the clothes are red already #but yes yes suffering ferrari nando. hes my comfort character atp 😭😭 #perfect catie drawing: depressed ferrari fernando. blood. napoleon quote #anyways yeah lmk! i think it looks okay?? idk i think i just love the first 2 matador drawings i ever did #and its very hard to live up to them. but whatever. we move on #im glad i did a more complicated pose at least ????? #also god i was somewhat annoyed w his face and then i redrew his eye and it was like OH OKAY suddenly good okay #tw blood #<- i would put this drawing under the cut but like. my blog i do what i want and i want to draw blood #i used to draw bloody stuff a lot more but ah idk less opportunities now sjfkkglg so it was kinda nice #catie.art. #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #matador au

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Drew WWX and LWJ after I finished my rewatch of The Untamed a few months ago. I have gotten marginally better. May this set a benchmark for what to expect from this blog.

Edit: June 2023 redraw

#Poorly Drawn MDZS #MDZS #wei wuxian #Lan Wanji #there are a lot of great artists in this fandom. I am not one of them #I've always admired artists a lot so I wanted to try learning how to draw #And the only way to start is to draw a lot. Enter the audio drama (and my desire to listen to it guilt free) #doing both at once was my way of participating in my own fandom #as much as I wanted to be super social on the MDZS forums...I honestly got really nervous #I have nothing to contribute besides going 'cool!' to other people's art #Writing and historical/theory posts. It kinda felt worse than isolation... #That aside...I am just here to dump my silly comics and I expect absolutely nothing to come of it #I'm blogging like that lady from that julia child movie. about the cookbook. I forgot what its called. this is just a journal to me

[butchhatred]

No because i absolutely fucking hate how having a short twink body type is automatically associated with having a feminine presentation. Like can we not apply gender roles to things people cannot change ffs

#being short and hairless already makes my dysphoria pretty bad bc i know im never gonna pass until i get t #but these ''short femboy twink'' posts make it a thousand times worse #im not a fucking femboy. fuck yourself #txt #transandrophobia #<i feel like this tag kinda fits bc a lot of trans men are short/twinks #and yall know we are automatically thought of as inherently more feminine by default

[haphazardcorvid]

There's something sort of distorted with how grief is currently being seen and dealt with on the island + Qsmp.

I've been thinking about this for a while during the missing egg arc, but Bagi implying that Foolish wasn't that attached to Leo has finally pushed me into putting the thoughts into words.

I really don't like how several of the islanders - especially the new ones - view grief and expressions of grief. It's like they expect all grief to be big and loud and performative, and otherwise, it isn't as significant, or as important. Like how Bagi's expectations for sadness seem to be shaped by Bbh's very visual, obvious deterioration, and disregards that MAYBE, just MAYBE, not everyone is going to shove their feelings in your face when they barely know you? That some people may break down privately, where you are not privy to their thoughts, and you are not entitled to a public performance of that grief in order to verify that they do, in fact, care?

It's not just islanders who haven't spent much time with the eggs either - Forever himself said he thought that, ASIDE FROM BAGHERA AND BBH, everyone was simply moving on and living life without the eggs. Funnily enough, these are both players with skins that specifically denote emotional turmoil :). Does grief have to expressly visualised for people to acknowledge that it's there? That was particularly jarring as a Philza main, who's character was and is currently going through a drealisation and mental deterioration arc after going to suspicious coordinates (the birdcage) FOR THE SAKE OF HIS EGGS.

Most annoyingly it also bleeds into the fandom sometimes, despite the fact we have the benefit of meta awareness. I've seen posts or comments about how 'oh, bbh is the only one truly miserable about the eggs' 'other islanders aren't suffering about the kids like ___".

It's just striking having watched Fit, a person whom canonically struggles with outward expressions of vulnerable emotion due to his background but clearly deeply misses Ramon, who would fall into this 'unaffected' category because he's not giving showy public displays or monologues about his feelings. Or Phil, who to members of the island who haven't reached out to him on those topics, seems largely still like a strong rock to lean on because he plunged himself into propping up other islanders the moment he returned - but behind closed doors fell apart at Tallulah's letter and is clearly rapidly deteriorating as a character. Or Foolish, who maintains an upbeat character, retains his capacity to carry on moving, and lives as brightly as he can while SIMULTANEOUSLY being completely broken up internally about his daughter. You can see it in the way they talk about their kids, how they rush to collect any clues whenever they pop up, how many of them seem to be living in limbo, incapable of new changes and beginnings.

And alright. So that's not explicit to those other characters. But it should not have to be visually explicit for them to not degrade their grief. The assumption should not be that grief is either public or nonexistent. You are not entitled to flashy displays of feeling. Forthright and in your face emotion is not the baseline requirement for distress. Demeaning someone's attachment to their child because they aren't grieving in the RIGHT way for YOU, one that isn't visible enough to YOU, isn't excusable because 'oh I can't really see how that person is feeling though'. It's basic social understanding.

And of course they are aware of the mental and emotional states of their friends - who are also very visual with their grieving - above others, because those people are ALSO the ones that those like Bagi and Forever consistently interact with for prolonged periods of time. Have they actually really, deeply talked with all the other islanders about their internal state? No, of course not, they don't spend that much time with them and aren't that close. That's not bad or anything, that's life and relationships and very normal. But then what grounds do those assumptions of 'oh, there are parents who don't care' actually have? They themselves should be capable of acknowledging that they don't actually have insight into these other people, and they should not be using the expressions of grief from say Baghera and Bbh as a cudgel to cheapen and diminish that of others.

#Sorry that's a lot #It was all adding up slowly - just an awareness of a general disregard some people had for how others were processing the disappearance #But the fact that it didn't get resolved with time and in fact seems worse just pulled it out of me all at once #The Foolish and Bagi thing mainly #Just how being subtle in your distress leads particular people to brush it off or pretend you feel quite the opposite is frustrating #And soz kinda personal lmao #as a person who has struggled heavily mentally but has had it devalued using how others outwardly react to their own issues #It kinda resonated #Foosh you are valid and a brilliant father to me #qsmp #qsmp foolish #qsmp baghera #qsmp forever #qsmp bagi #qsmp eggs #qsmp philza #qsmp fitmc #qsmp badboyhalo #Edit - just to note this is about the characters and their interactions only #It would be stupid to be saying this about actual ccs lmao

[arsenicflame]

since we all appear to be talking about izzy 'calling the police' on stede id like to offer my silly little two cents:

its not like the navy wasn't actively looking for him anyway??????

at most, izzys actions sped up badminton catching up with stede, but its made very clear that badminton wanted Stede dead well before this, and was willing to use whatever he could to find him- whos to say jackie wouldnt have cut a deal on her own? that any other pirate thats seen them being unsubtle in a port wouldn't take the opportunity to make a quick buck over a guy who is Nobody and holds no influence that could lead to any consequences for them?

in reality izzy is probably the only person who would receive negative repercussions to selling out stede, given his personal connection with ed- any other pirate would probably have gotten away unscathed, anonymous. they likely wouldnt have even been present like izzy was. izzy had personal stakes, anyone else would have taken the money and ran

the way i see it, with or without izzy the events of episode 10 probably would have happened in some degree, izzy just expedited the timeline

#like ok. i dont exactly support izzys actions but i honestly dont see it as that big of a deal??? to our characters i mean #idk i just. its a dick move!! but i struggle to see it as any more than that #its the actions of a desperate man who made a stupid decision to get his.... ed. out of what he saw as a bad situation #whether it is or not i cant say! but you cant deny ed drastically changed in the time he was on the revenge #in a way that could be concerning from the outside #(i saw a good post kinda comparing it to your friend ending up in a cult and. yeah. excellent description from an outside perspective) #idk theres a lot of. undertones in the way people say 'calling the police' and also they always say ed too and its like. no! izzy tried to #get ed out of there! he set the navy on everyone BUT ed. and its not like the navy really cared about the crew. only stede #i am not the person to talk about why 'calling the cops' is a bad take but the posts are out there. ive seen them. #izzy did what hundreds of pirates did to save their own hide- including hornigold himself (but honestly that was worse because he actively #turned hunter. not just a guy with a tip) #also side historic note that uhh. the navy was casually in Nassau. what exactly was the situation there??? was shit occurring. w #we know it did in history #idk #nyxtalks #ofmd #izzy hands #israel hands #spanish jackie 🤝 izzy: girlbosses for selling stede out to the British/Spanish for their own gain #idk i think thats the one thing he did 'wrong' but ita still very sympathetic to me #its not like izzy dibbed in a guy nobody cared about #'hey hey ill sell you information about this pirate please let me sell you information' ' i mean i guess we are supposed to be doing that' #badminton had an active vendetta against stede and kinda seemed like. he would stop at nothing to get him??? #given. the whole 'id rather let blackbeard go and kill Stede than take a huge pirate into custody' thing

[fallahifag]

something is Very wrong with my ankle at the moment (average skateboarder) but i’m like lowkey dragging it out because i really don’t want to go to the hospital and pay them during the strike 😭

#like a lot of ppl are taking this strike less seriously and it’s kinda upsetting #but me i’m… im in it for REAL. #i’ll probably go if it gets worse but like #it’s 7 in the morning i do not want to deal with it now #(** ps before anyone asks about free healthcare the province im in doesn’t give me a valid healthcard bc i’m not a citizen here lol) #racist ass system yea

[nero-neptune]

made up a group of edwardian-era hockey girls, Heavily inspired by the many wintery late 19th/early 20th century photos i processed in an archive over the summer. at some point, i decided their team would be called "the hail raisers".

#it's all about texture texture texture #i'm very bad at modeling old handwriting. but just bc i've seen a lot of old handwriting doesn't mean i can replicate it :/ #also- technically the vast Vast majority of any photos pre 1930 (that i worked with) were explicitly black and white #but we're gonna pretend this is some super faded autochrome!! which works bc i LOOOOVE autochrome <3<3<3 #the things i'm most proud of here are 1) the gloves and 2) the personality shining through each girl #they're bruised and bloody and gap toothed and they're ready for more! #my art #artists on tumblr #edwardian era #edwardian art #hockey #also this is more for me but- gap toothed girl is clara #alma's the formal looking one (with a crooked nose). lenore's looking dazed and confused. and dolores at the bottom right is out for blood #(also i'm preemptively blaming any 'off' proportions on the fact that they're wearing bulky sorta-oversized winter clothes) #(also also- drawing old fashioned hair was fun. they kinda just did whatever as long as it's in a particular shape) #(also also also- i enjoyed drawing injuries. for better or worse i think of 'injuries' whenever i think 'hockey'. #now. would you photograph edwardian-era girls beat up to hell? idk. but check out the 1890s princeton students post-snowball fight photo!)

[23meteorstreet]

charlie kelly - season 16

#iasip #it's always sunny in philadelphia #charlie kelly #charlie day #my gifs #s16 spoilers #sorry if this sucks photoshop keeps deleting all my settings :( #gonna be real... i know they were prob trying to balance things out bc s15 had a bunch of charlie stuff #but man there werent enough good charlie moments this season :( #(or at least not stuff i really enjoyed) #i have a dee one coming up tomorrow (not even gonna get into how much worse this season was for her) #& then i think after that im taking a sunny gifmaking break for a bit #i love making these (and im planning on coming to them eventually) but theyre a lot of work #and tbh ive been thinking i need to spend less time on tumblr/sunny stuff bc im just not having as much fun as i used to #& i know i'll enjoy it again eventually tho bc my brain likes to cycle thru the same 5 interests year after year (lol) #just have 2 get there again!!! which might take a bit of time #might still be on all the time. might not. #might be a little more multifandom might make gifs or fanart for other stuff (dont wanna scare everyone off tho) #idk at this point but i felt like i needed to get it out there ya kno #kinda gotta figure out some things. like how to have an actual social life & finding time to make art & not feel overwhelmed all the time. #speaking of art maybe i'll start updating my art blog lol #anyway... gonna be fun when i do come back to these to try to find them to add the links

[milkweedman]

going from normal sized socks to socks with half the stitches is crazy...i already feel like im zipping along on normal socks so this is like i blink and im at the next step 0.0

#would go a lot faster if i could maybe stop injuring myself getting on and off my bed #not sure what i did to my foot but its stiff and kinda painful and noticably swollen. minor sprain ? #fucked up my knee and then continually my wrist which is whats actually slowing me down. bc like. i start getting into/out of bed #and then when im Almost safely laying/standing i fall the rest of the way #i am hoping its just migraine lack of spactial awareness being worse than usual bc the migraine is worse than usual #but you really never know. maybe if i just fall on doctors until i injure of THEM theyll listen #disability #chronic illness #sock knitting

[sonknuxadow]

people hated shadows game and mocked it endlessly calling it one of the worst sonic games ever made for years and saying shadow himself is a cringe edgelord but im calling it now the second the trailer for sonic 3 drops and shadow as a character becomes relevant in the eyes of the general public those same people are gonna suddenly decide that its cool to like shadow now motorcycle and guns and swear words and all and the game will start selling for 200 dollars minimum on ebay . 70 dollars for just the case or manual. 500 for all 3

#prices for older 3d sonic games are already getting kinda bad but i just know that the prices for sa2 and shth specifically #are gonna go from bad to nightmareish the second shadow is in a big popular movie #glad i got most of my physical copies of sonic games a few years ago when prices for secondhand games were a lot lower .. #actually i never did get physical copies of sa1 and 2 just digital #because even back then the prices for those were kinda high compared to other games. but if i had know just how mcuh they would rise #i probably would have gotten them back then ... and i kinda want them now but i dont like the prices im seeing #but i also know theyre only gonna get worse from here. SAD