#u will be hearing from my therapist. and me soon

[hoesformatt]

“YOU KNOW WHAT I WANT”

chris smut, this was an old draft but i fixed it up and here we finally have the long awaited plug fic…

dom!plug!chris • poc!reader friendly

contains: mentions of smoking and drinking, choking, heavy petting, making out, edging, orgasm denial, cowgirl, pet names, no use of y/n

word count: 1.5k

not proofread

It was getting late, I was getting lonely and bored so I decided to go grab my smoke bag to find my tin. I got all giddy when I found my tin, but then my smile disappeared when I felt there was no weight to the tin.

Please tell me there’s something in here, please tell me there’s something in here, I repeated in my head but to no surprise, there was nothing but the whiff of weed and my hopes and dreams.

I contemplated on what I was going to do on my Saturday, either sit here and puff on my nicotine til I got nic sick, or call my plug aka my late night therapist, which I did not want to do.

He is my last resort call because of our history, my plug was one of the scariest people I’ve ever met and I try not to ring him too much because I do not want to see him… but I do at the same time. He is fine as fuck, I can’t deny that shit but I am petrified by him even so I’ve never given him my address and I always meet him at his place.

I decided to face my fears and shot him a text

Are u up?

What do you need mama

He replied immediately and called me that pet name that gave me instant butterflies

I ran out, I need a new pack of woods

it’s about fucking time

My heart dropped to my ass

you buy so much shit and then dip, I like seeing you

Fuck, what do I say. I was lowkey feeling how he was flirting with me. My thoughts were interrupted by another text

Let me pull up on you

Hell the fuck no.

The usual place?

Nah

Lemme pull up, it’s late and shit

It’s no problem, the usual place is good i’ll be there in 10

Being left on delivered, I was tripping out at this point. I guess I’m thugging it out tonight… sober. I grabbed my juicy peach ice, geek bar from the cushion beside taking a puff. May the pulse be with you I guess, I was thinking in my head too much, trying to remember where I put my blinker.

Hearing a car driving past my driveway, I glanced at my front door and the window beside it trying to see who is. A car door shut close and then the door soon began to jiggle and open.

I frantically ran into the kitchen but when I turned around and looked in the living room I saw my plug walking into my home, holding a plastic white bag, bee-lining for my couch “FUCK CHRIS, What the fuck are you doing here, how the fuck do you know where I live?!” This is exactly why I’m terrified of him.

My heart felt like it was beating 1000 beats per second right now, and it was not going down. It’s like he was a serial killer out for my blood. Apart from the fact that Chris walked into my house as if he owned it, I’m half naked wearing the smallest Ethika set ever.

My eyes almost instantly scaled to crotch, clothed behind his grey sweatpants. “I followed you home before” Chris had two paper bags, pulling out a dark liquor and a bottle of tequila. I was trying to still catch my breath, attempting to register everything at once. “Last time you needed shit it was around this time, a rando was watching you, so I followed him to your house,” Chris said it so casually, popping open the Hennessy “You have shot glasses? and chasers?” He looked up at me for a response.

Finally, I calmed myself down after he told me someone was following me and I just pulled out the glasses and sodas from my fridge “Get yourself one too” He suggested.

He then got up taking the can of Pepsi and the glass from my hands to my living room table. I slowly followed after him, finding my place, far away from him. “C’mere baby, don’t be shy” Chris gestured for me to sit beside him and I didn’t move an inch.

Chris grabbed his waistline pulling out a gun from there, tossing it casually across the other side of him then looked back at me. “Now what?” He arose from his seat to come and sit next to me, sliding a shot to me. “It’s too late for me to drink” I came up with a petty excuse. Chris scoffed, downing both of the shots without making a face, straight Hennessy.

“Ok.” He raised out of the position he was in taking the white bag beside him opening it pulling out packs of woods. “How much are you gonna buy then, since you want me gone.” I snatched two packs the Loose Leaf, Watermelon Dream from the pile, almost salivating about the thought of the high I was going to get. “Let me get my wallet” I got up but Chris’ legs were in my way “‘Xcuse” When I walked past him my ass brushed his face which Chris touched.

I gazed down at him, completely infatuated by my juicy ass, unable to keep his hands to himself. I brushed it off since I was too happy to care. I collected my wallet pulling out my cash, I handed it to him, still standing up “I don’t want your money” He said flinging the money in my direction. Chris’ glacial blue eyes fucked me, and he found it hard to control himself. I noticed his cock grew hard in his sweatpants, and he bucked his hips upwards, enticing me. “You know what I want.”

Finally I gave in, straddling his lap and his hands immediately pulled me down to press upon his hardness. I waved my hips, making him moan as I took control.

Chris grasped my neck with aggression while stripping me of my tube top, lowering it. He latched his lips to my nipples, moving his hands down to my hips and helping me wave them. “Take your shorts off.”

Raising me, I removed my shorts in anticipation as he set free his large length that slapped against his stomach. He whipped out a condom from one of his pockets sliding it onto his length. When I got back on his lap, he had licked his two fingers, dipping them into me then back out to lick his fingers. “You must love me with the way you’re so wet for me” Chris smirked, aligning himself to my pulsing cunt. He pushed my hips down to settle onto his cock, I threw my head back to the feeling of him stretching me out.

With no patience Chris began to thrust upwards with a tight grip on my waist, making my tits jump. I cupped my hands over my mouth because I couldn’t show him how good he was making me feel, reaching points I didn’t know were there. Chris smacked my hand "Don't cover your mouth, I want to hear you” The sounds of his raspy voice and the wet noises faded together, I felt our wetness puddle under me. “Tell me how good I’m making you feel” Chris whispered in my ear.

I couldn’t believe that he was making me cum so quickly and he knew it, so he took his thumb and massaged my clit relentlessly trying to get the words out of me. “Tell me.” I shook my head no but my body was beginning to grow tired. Then he stopped. He stopped thrusting into me and I whined, “If I don’t make you fell good you should do it yourself right?” Chris didn’t care at all and I needed my release badly.

I took both of his wrist, putting them behind his head to ride my high. My erotic movements made Chris twitch inside me as he hit wall to wall.

It was so addicting that I wanted to feel him raw inside me and when I pulled his cock out of me, the condom was coated his sticky liquids. I yanked the rubber off his length and it slowly rolled up until it was off and I threw it elsewhere, jumping back on his dick.

Chris succumbed to my wetness, whimpering loudly as I wrapped around him. I bounced on his cock, hoping that my legs wouldn’t give up on me but Chris suddenly decided to take control again and ram into me. “I need to cum, I need to cum, please, please” I begged Chris to let me cum, reaching my climax. “Yes Chris, yes, yes—” Just as I was about to cum, Chris pulled out again and this time he threw me back on the couch.

“Please Chris, why— ” He had put back on his pants, packing up the rest of his shit.

“I don’t fuck ungrateful whores” He said casually, gripping my hair and kissing my cheek.

tags: @lunariaxzz @chrissturniolosbitch @leahsbussy @mattslolita @muwapsturniolo @idkwhosnyla @zayyluvz @i8kth @nonamegirlxsturniolo @ka1nani @livvy4realll @fuzzycupcakebeliever @mattgirly @love4chris @mattslutt @nickgetsmewetter @hearts4chriss @thenickgirl @jnkvivi

#hoesformatt #chris sturniolo x reader #chris sturniolo smut #chris sturniolo #christopher sturniolo #christopher sturniolo smut #sturniolo smut #fan fiction #fan fic

[riaki]

you’re so proud of urself arent u :/

#IM TNNA KILL UUUUUUUUU #VIA ☠️☠️☠️☠️ #n i js woke up too #ur foul for that #KEASE LAVEHIM ALONEEEEE #I HATE THAT SCENE 😭😭😭😭 #i still haven’t watched it through to this day #bc i cannot stand seeing him soooo 🧑‍🦯🧑‍🦯🧑‍🦯🧑‍🦯🧑‍🦯 #i’m actually gnna start crying bro ☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️ #THE EGG….. #that’s not him #thats #hki aayakawa #or something #LEAVE ME ALONEEEEEEEE #u will be hearing from my therapist. and me soon #inbox 💌 #precious moots! #via!

[hyeinism]

( ♡ )⠀𝒆𝒏𝒉𝒚𝒑𝒆𝒏 as . . . 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑏𝑜𝑦𝑓𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑑 .ᐟ ❝ boy you're such a dream to me ❞ ꒷꒦ ot7 𝑒𝑛ℎ𝑎 𝜗𝜚 ⟢ headcanons & established relationship fluff ৲ 𝖒𝖞 𝔞𝔫𝔤𝔢𝔩𝔰 ㅤ ♡ ㅤ

𐙚 . . via's entry ❫ ilysm plz enjoy my first thingy, 2239wc | fem reader .

✦ . . 이희승 ！

bf!heeseung who does aegyo for you and only you! he’d make sure no one else was in close proximity and then go “heedeungie!!” before cringing, and shutting his eyes closed, only reopening them to see your pretty smile.

bf!heeseung who always knows what you want, even if u’ve just glanced at a cute plushie at the store for one second best bet he’ll buy you every plushie from that brand, becoz ur his prince(ss) ofc

bf!heeseung who’d write little romantic ballads for you and call you randomly throughout the day (even during sleep hours!) so that you can hear his melodic voice sing the most shakespearean lyrics about his love for u 🥰

bf!heeseung who is like a bf and a therapist all in one! literally send as many voice messages ranting abt ur life as u can to him becoz he will listen to all of them and then respond with a voice message 10x longer

bf!heeseung who gets a bit impatient… likes listening to u talk but did u know that if u go longer than 42.32 seconds without kissing him he will eventually just stare at your lips and mumble random words while u rant every now and then; it gets you all hot and flustered when you realize where his attention actually is. soon enough, you just go “just kiss me if you want to.” and that’s enough for him to look back up at you, grin and softly press his lips against yours (contrary to popular opinion his kisses would be very soft! 🤓☝️) while grabbing both your shoulders with his hands

bf!heeseung who loves ur shoulders for some reason?? i just have this gut feeling that his favorite part about you is your shoulders?? like idk why, my heeseung senses r just tingling. anyways yes, he’d rest his head on your shoulders, kiss ur shoulders, put his arms over your shoulders and around your neck and whatnot!

✦ . . 박종성 ！

bf!jay who’d spent astronomical amounts of money (willingly :)) in just a week!! he refuses to buy you cheap counterparts, expensive is what his pretty lover deserves !

bf!jay WHO WOULD COOK THE MOST GOURMET MEALS FOR YOU! if it is a cultural dish, he will take time out of his day to cook in the kitchen with you until he learns how to make said cultural dish, then he will make it for u 4ever and ever!!! jay is certainly a caring partner

bf!jay who gives u sm partner privilege it’s insane. like he’d do anything for you without a second doubt. ask him to help you look for ur phone? no need, he’s already bought you 10 different new ones!

bf!jay who is such a romantic partner?? like if ur at work late, he will set up a whole candlelit dinner (hand made cuisine) with “moonlight” by kali uchis playing in the background. (jay looks like that song :3)

bf!jay likes tracing his fingers over your delicately placed features like you were sculpted by Greek Gods, and he’s nothing but a mere commoner admiring your beauty.

bf!jay gets matching things for you two ☹️ matching pandora rings, matching shoes/heels, what is there that he wouldn’t wear to twin with you! hell, he’d even do that cute thing where he matched the color of his tie to your dress!

bf!jay who does likes to go out with you, but he also likes to stay in! no matter what, he wants to be with you.

bf!jay who thinks that reading a romcom cuddled up with you under rain is a perfect way to spend saturday afternoon! (hint: he doesn’t usually like to read romcoms, he just loves spending time with you too much to say no 💖)

to conclude, jay just loves to do things for you. he always tries to impress you/make himself the perfect boyfriend for you by planning dates, getting u gifts, and doing whatever you need at all times (i feel like he believes he’ll never be good enough for u 😕)

✦ . . 심재윤 ！

bf!jake who gets so shy around u?? like stop u could stare at him and when he finally notices he’ll giggle like a little girl about it. he has the biggest crush on you ever it’s unbelievable

“okay fine, i love you more than my dog. i love you more than anyone, actually. is that weird?”

bf!jake who is a playful and lighthearted person, he truly does not have the capability to get mad at you 💞

but ofc he’s human, so when you two (somehow) get into arguments, he’ll always be the one to show up at your door at like 3am with a cute pout on his face because he misses you (it’s been 6 hours since you guys have last talked??) anyways how could you say no to his puppy face! obviously, u let him in and you two cuddle the night away

bf!jake who calls you layla’s mom and gets like cuteness aggression when he sees you and layla together

bf!jake who would say “this is for you” before shooting a hoop (and missing) for shits n giggles

bf!jake who clings onto you like his life depends on it……. this guy is so clingy???? like stop u won’t be able to use your non dominant hand at all because jake is just grabbing onto it for dear life

bf!jake who would LOVEE if his girlfriend had soft and plush cheeks. he’d squish ur face and giggle continuously at how cute you looked, pouty-faced and all.

bf!jake who likes simple yet planned out dates. picnics, arcade dates, carnival dates, and more are all apart of his comfort zone! but if you wanted to try anything new, he’d totally be up for it

bf!jake who loves u sososo unconditionally and always sticks by your side!! he’s like the type to agree with you in public and softly correct you in private.

bf!jake who smothers you with affection hourly reminds you everyday that he loves ur hair, ur face, ur body, ur legs, ur hands, and most importantly, YOU!!!

✦ . . 박성훈 ！

bf!sunghoon who would take you on ice skating dates and then take photos of you slipping on the ice (which don’t even come out that good because he’s busy laughing 🙄 )

bf!sunghoon who teases you then smirks when you get flustered like you teasing him doesn’t result in him having a mental breakdown of some sorts??? like boy plz

bf!sunghoon WHO IS SO SASSY OVER TEXT?? he’s literally your princess. “🙄🫸” is his go to emoji combo

bf!sunghoon who posts mirror selfies of the two of you and tries to be mysterious in the captions: “me n my girl 🖤”

bf!sunghoon who learns random english phrases (or ur main language) to impress you with

bf!sunghoon who wants to match styles with his s/o. would love to be the classy, romantic, sort of private couple.

bf!sunghoon who isn’t that into pda but if someone else starts flirting with you or even looks at you he’ll start being all touchy until the other person goes away. he’s super protective of u but doesn’t really show it that often

bf!sunghoon who pretends to be annoyed when you steal his hoodies knowing damn well he likes when you take his hoodies because they always smell like you after you give them back!!!!!

bf!sunghoon who loves to go on late night walks with you. everytime he sees a wildflower, he’ll pluck it for you and tuck it in your hair

bf!sunghoon who definitely can not fall asleep unless he gets a goodnight kiss from you 💖

✦ . . 김선우 ！

as your boyfriend, sunoo would love your hair sm.

especially if you had long hair he’d buy you shampoos, conditioners, everything! he’d also love to blow dry your hair for you and style it and everything

bf!sunoo would 100% let you sit on his lap and practice your makeup on him!!

bf!sunoo who would love to bake with you!!!! like he would make cakes and then use icing to spell out you two’s intials on the top

bf!sunoo who’s favorite form of affection is holding hands 💞 he’d do the thumb thing and adores when you grabs his hand randomly throughout the day, it gives him butterflies!

bf!sunoo who gets you small bouquets of tulips everytime he sees you!

bf!sunoo who loves to lay on your chest while cuddling and listen to your heartbeat (not in a creepy way, it’s just super comforting for him)

bf!sunoo who places gentle kisses all over your face before you fall asleep. he always makes sure to fall asleep after you so you’re comfortable

bf!sunoo who goes over your drama with you and hates whoever you hate. he’s your best friend and your boyfriend all at once!

bf!sunoo who is insanely creative when it comes to date ideas. he will make sure that he is the one planning dates most/all of the time!! his favorites are picnics, art dates, café dates and museum dates!!

bf!sunoo who loves to have a runway show in your bedroom after every one of your shopping trips!! he would coordinate the outfits and then cheer you on as you strut down the hallway

sunoo would tease you (not that much tho) about your height (would love a short gf!!) and then giggle about it and you just have to accept it cuz it makes him happy and his smile is literally the prettiest thing ever

bf!sunoo who genuinely does not know how to hate you, he’d give the softest love ever ☹️

✦ . . 양정원 ！

bf!jungwon who loves to tickle you. ik it sounds weird but just hear me out 🥰 he’d definitely just tickle the side of your waist randomly while you guys are cuddling just to hear your laugh and annoy you

bf!jungwon who prefers to be called “won” or other nicknames/petnames by you rather than his real name. would pout if you ever called him “jungwon” and go “hey!”

bf!jungwon who keeps a collection of cute photos of you on his phone to go through when he misses u ☹️ it’s genuinely so wholesome.

bf!jungwon also would keep a folder of just a bunch of 0.5 photos of you doing random things and make them your pfp on all messaging apps.

bf!jungwon who does silly little tiktok couple trends with you whenever you ask him to

bf!jungwon would ask you to do a spin everyday to see your outfit and then gush about how good you look!!

bf!jungwon, who often stays up late at night with you while the two of you talk about the future family you will have. | a conversation between the two of you would go, “we’ll have two kids! or three? or four?” “no, we’ll have cats instead. two cats, and one of them is you!”

bf!jungwon who ruffles your hair teasingly only to fix it again, pulling at each strand and placing it in its place gently

bf!jungwon who texts you random romantic song lyrics throughout the day, which never fail to fluster you and make you giggle

bf!jungwon who is a sucker for cheek kisses. before you leave him, he’d be like “oh, you’re forgetting something :(“ and you’d always play along, “what?” you’d say with a giggle as he’d point to his cheek, the place where you’d leave a small but loving peck!

✦ . . 西村力 ！

bf!riki who gets butterflies whenever you call him his real name, riki, over his stage name. it makes him feel closer to you 💞

bf!riki who would make playlists for the two of you, naming them with you guys’ initials.

bf!riki who’d always had this fantasy of teaching his future girlfriend to dance, and that’s exactly what he does with you. he’d slowly wrap his arms around your own and guide them to the music.

bf!riki just would not let you get out of bed?? like every morning it’s a struggle for you 💔 “ni-ki let me go i’ll be late!” “no, 5 more minutes 😠” and how could u say no

bf!riki who always giggles in between kisses, causing you to pull away and lean your forehead on his while the two of you smile at one another fondly

bf!riki who LOVES to see u in his hoodies!! in fact, he’d even leave his hoodies at ur house just to see you wear it, and then tease you for it. “ew, give me back my hoodie, stinky.” he’d say, but in his head he’s kicking his feet at how ur body is engulfed by the cloth which is 10x too long for you.

bf!riki who pulls you out of bed late at night for impromptu 3AM walks to the convenience store.

bf!riki would teach you japanese and absolutely die everytime you try to say something in japanese for him

bf!riki who would tease you so much, especially if you were shorter than him, he’d misplace your things, putting them on high shelves and whatnot so you have no choice but to ask him to grab it for you

bf!riki who is super shy in front of other people, but when it’s just you two he gets super physical and touchy and affectionate!

bf!riki who mumbles sweet nothings into the crook of your neck while you two are cuddling after he’s sure you’ve fell asleep 💤 💖

tysm for reading! 𓂃 back to the library !

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[rreids]

hey, i was wondering if you'd be able to write smth with Spencer in a relationship with someone with bpd? it's totally okay if you're not comfy with that, but I've just been suspecting i may have it, and ppl with bpd are always portrayed so negatively in relationships. it would be just rly nice to read ur take on how Spencer would handle that and just see some positive representation! (my mental health has also been shit so it would be p comforting lol) thank u 🫶

hi love 🫶 i don't know a ton about bpd, so i hope i did this justice! i researched the diagnosis and how healthy relationships help with regulation and in what ways they do (both accounts from experts and from those who are diagnosed). and i hope you feel better soon <3 it sucks when your mind fights against you.

PROMISES • S. REID X READER

reader has bpd (written by an author without, ideally will be comforting rather than hurtful. please let me know if it is offensive in any way); gn!reader; spencer has to break a small promise but makes others; talks of therapy; teasing; fluff; ~500 words

“Hey, sweetheart,” Spencer whispers into the phone, voice a little strained. “I’m really, really sorry, but I can’t make lunch today. We’re on the way to a case in Omaha. It’s a really bad one.”

Your heart sinks. “Oh.”

“You know I want to be there more than anything, right?” He’s shuffling papers in the background, and you know they’re in the middle of getting ready on the jet and that he’s still making time for you, but it still makes your mind race with worry and upset. “I’ve been looking forward to it all week. And I promise I’ll take you out as soon as we’re back.”

You frown, fiddling with the promise ring on your finger. “Will you still talk to me?”

Spencer chuckles. “I think I go insane when I go too long without hearing your voice. As long as you don’t mind calls when it’s two a.m. there, I’m calling before bed every night I have enough time.”

You sigh.

“I know, honey. When’s your next meeting with your therapist?”

“Tomorrow,” you mumble, gnawing on your lip.

“Well, you have permission to talk about how much I suck,” Spencer teases lightly. “As long as you know it’s not by choice that I’m being a bad boyfriend.”

“You’re not a bad boyfriend.”

“Yeah?” You can hear the smile in his voice.

“You’re the best boyfriend. You understand me.” He does. He’s looked into BPD extensively — he knows even more than you do, rattling off statistics, assumed causes and connections, coping methods, everything. He knows how to break you out of the spirals and to calm your impulsivities.

“You have other boyfriends?” Spencer sighs dramatically, and you laugh.

“Why would I have them? You’re more than enough.”

Spencer hums. “I am, aren’t I?” 

You groan.

“I’m messing with you,” his voice is fond and soft. “I gotta hang up, everyone’s coming and we need all our focus on this case. Message me if you need anything. Don’t do anything I wouldn’t.”

“You don’t do anything,” you know you’re exaggerating, but it’s hard to stop the words.

“I do, just nothing out of our normal,” he’s nudging you gently, reminding you to think things through before acting impulsively. “I give you permission to watch our show without me if it’ll keep you entertained.”

You laugh. “Okay, okay. Fine. I’ll be good,” you draw it out.

Spencer snorts. “I love you.”

“I love you too, Spence.”

A beat.

“I’m not actually going to talk shit about you to my therapist, just so you know. I do talk about you though.”

And then you hang up. 

He sends you a ‘???’ and a ‘I wanted to say something still.’ right after. When you tell him to say it, he sends a ‘Do what you need to feel regulated. I don’t take it to heart, you know I don’t.’

And he doesn’t. He’s so sweet, so achingly perfect, understanding of when your moods swing, or when you feel empty, or whenever anything changes and you can’t tell why. 

And he always helps you down, kissing scars and tears and whispering praise as he gets you to feel right again.

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[murderhusbands4life]

Hannibal Lecter X Autistic Child Reader

first request!

request: Can u do like austitic child reader with Hannibal 

summary: Hannibal latest patient is a child filled with trauma over their elder brothers death and Hannibal cares for them like his own.

Third person pov...

Mrs L/N and her 7 year old arrive outside Dr Hannibal Lecter's office, Y/Ns new physiatrist. A little over a month ago Y/Ns elder brother died, the 7 year old witnessed it since then the child had been filled with terror and hadn't slept well since.

Said child was grumpily standing next to their Mum staring down at their shoes swaying back and forth. "Do I have too" they pout, this makes Y/Ns mum sigh, she kneels and holds her Childs shoulder making the kid flinch not liking touch.

"Sorry honey, but you know what the school says you have to stick with the same therapist for at least a week before going back to school" explains the kids Mum, the child sighs. "Okayy, lets do it" they say making the women smile at them.

The building itself was beautiful with a sense of historical back ground, it was tall and didn't look like a physiatrists office, nervously Y/N follows their mother inside the building, Mrs L/N had heard from her close friend Jack Crawford about an amazing physiatrist and decided to make an appointment for her child.

Soon they came to a door which was Dr Lecter's office, Mrs L/N knocks on the door, looking down at her nervous child of course the child was nervous, Y/N doesn't like change and this is a huge change for them, then the door opens and man stands there.

He was tall around 6tf, he had ash grey hair, brown eyes, he had sharp cheekbones and an obviously fake smile on his face, to Y/N he looked about 40 maybe mid 40s. he was wearing a dark red pinstripe suit and dark brown shoes.

He looks at the mother and child in front of him wondering who they were. "hello, you must be Dr Lecter, Im Y/M/N L/N and this is Y/N we have an appointment" says the H/C woman, Hannibal eyes widened a fraction before returning to normal. "ah yes my apologies, I had forgotten please come in" he says and stands to the right holding the door open.

He had a slight accent, possibly eastern European, Y/N wracks their brain trying to place it but couldn't think, they shall have to ask the man later.

But Y/Ns mum shakes her head at the invitation. "I'm already late for work, I'll leave Y/N with you" she says before turning her back and kneeling next to her child, Hannibal watches as the child's eyes wonder not looking at their mother.

"Y/N love, I'll be back to pick you up later okay, my shift at the clinic will finish at 5 okay see you then, be good and respectful to Dr Lecter now" she says to the child kissing their forehead and walking away throwing a wave goodbye behind her.

The hallway was filled with silence as the Dr and Child stand. "Please come in Y/N" he says to the silent child. Y/N nervously enters the pristine office, the child gasps at how large the room was, bright E/C eyes marvel at its beauty.

Dr Lecter lips turn up at the emotionless child gasping at his office, he then walks over to the child and begins taking their coat, this makes the child look at him before smiling in thanks. "Thank you, sir," Hannibal hears a mumble.

"of course, now if you would please take a seat we will begin" he says motioning to one of the chairs he uses for his patents, though it had been a while since he had such a young one in his office.

"now then we shall begin, I am Hannibal Lecter and I will be your physiatrist" he says smiling at the small child sitting in the overly large chair, said child was still looking around the room drinking in all the details and books.

"Im Y/N L/N, sir im 7 years old" comes a tiny voice, Hannibal smiles slightly, they were getting somewhere at least he got their name. "hello Y/N do you know why you are here?" he asks the child, Y/N stopped looking around and instead looked at their shoes.

"because I don't sleep and Mummy's worried about me" comes the quiet voice, Hannibal was barely able to hear. He crosses his legs and continues to write in his notebook, brown eyes look over the child sitting opposite him, their movements skittish like a scared bunny.

"And why is that Y/N?" he asks gently coaxing the child to speak more, minutes pass before the child speaks. "Because brother died and I still dream off him though not nice dreams, I miss him" whispers the child tears gathering in the corner of their big E/C eyes.

Already seeing this happening Hannibal hands, the 7 tear old some tissues he keeps on his desk, tiny hand grab the white tissue and wipes their tears and blows their nose. "t-thank y-you s-sir" comes a tearful voice.

Hannibal smiles gently at the child reassuring them. "of course, child" he says as their session moves on.

Over Y/Ns next few appointments with Hannibal they began to get more comfortable with him and always enjoyed coming to his office, once he noticed how their eyes wondered toward his many books on the second level, the expression of surprise will forever make him happy as he told the child they could read his collection.

Said child bounds over to the many books and carefully grabs a couple, he had learnt that Y/N was autistic and had a love for books they loved reading anything, the two become ever closer their sessions became something less formal.

Hannibal had never felt this close to a child before, but he enjoyed their sessions together and was delighted to be able to help such a sweet innocent child go through their trauma.

The end!

Hope you liked this first oneshot for this new book. Sorry for the spelling and grammar mistakes in this.

Requests are open!

Word count: 1065

#hannibal #hannibal lecter #hannibal nbc #hannibal lecter x child reader #x autistic reader #x child reader #death of brother #oneshot #fluff #hannibal x child reader

[marycorcaroli]

massage w sanji. ♡

fluff, gn!reader ! !

@vulturelined 's req ♡ : my whole body hurts like hell, and i’m thinking about sanji massage hcs…

if you don’t want to write then no worries 🙏 just an idea for one of my fave mutuals

mary ♡ : thanks for the req, hope u like it ! english is not my first language, i apologize for the mistakes.

rules ; masterlist.

— i think sanji will notice from the very beginning how tired you are and how you can barely walk and stretch your shoulders and back. and he's so caring 🥺 he'll come to you right away and ask you what's wrong and what he can do to make you feel better.

"mm? what is it? are you too tired? aww, my flower, what can i do for you?" sanji literally purred saying those words to relax you a little and not to make you more nervous.

"what? you want me to give you a massage? baby!—" oh, he literally shrieked the last word and forgot about your tiredness, but it's okay, because he brushed his lips against your temple, kissing you as hard as he could. and of course he salivated on your temple.

"oh god, i'm sorry, sunshine, it's weird i didn't realize what you needed since you love my hands so much." that little shit-he's so shameless, but that didn't stop him from getting a flick on the head from you and hearing his ringing laughter bringing a smile to your face.

— first of all, sanji will ask you to undress and will run to prepare a warm bath for you, with your favorite toys, bubble bath or bombs, in general, he will do everything to make your body a little stressed and ready for the massage.

— he will gently put you in the bathtub and sit on the edge, running his hand through your hair and with the pad of his thumb he will touch your cheek, turning you towards him he will give you a quick smooch.

— god, i feel like he's gonna make different foam figures on your head. he's so small 😭

— will joke a lot while he washes you and tell you funny stories from his life to see you smile and your eyes sparkle ! ! i already told you he is the cutest didn't i ? ?

— will definitely dry your hair and brush it and then start with a scalp massage.

— ( i am not a massage therapist and i have rarely had a massage, but i will try to describe it well 💗 )

— while you are sitting on his lap with your back resting on his chest, sanji will use the pads of his fingers to gently go from the beginning of your hair to the end, and so on several times in a row, then he will massage your temples gently in a circular motion and eventually he will put all of his fingers in your hair and pull it back, but not too hard so it won't hurt you.

— ithink he will suggest that you lie on your bed while he runs back and forth to get all sorts of oils (where did he get that from¿).

— he will come to you and sit gently on your ass, kissing your shoulder and mumbling some sweet nothings.

— he will start gently rubbing the oils all over your body while massaging it.

— to relax your muscles, he will massage your neck and shoulders, using his fingers and palms. he will start with something small so that you don't feel any discomfort. he is really trying so hard for you, even though he doesn't know anything ; (

— he rubs your whole back so that it doesn't hurt so much, he kneads your back so that your blood circulation is normalized after using his thumbs in circular motions along your spine.

— and finally starts massaging your feet so that your feet finally release tension and you can sleep.

— sanji will not forget to tell you how good you are and how hard you are working for him ! !

"baby? you're not hurt, are you? ah, you're almost asleep, wait a little while and soon we'll go to bed."

"can i get you some water?"

"my moon and stars, you're so good, i'm sorry if i do something wrong."

— he's gonna pay attention to your heels, you've been walking so much and your heels are the most stressed. So he's gonna make a fist again and he's gonna make a circular motion all over the surface.

— he'll smooth your ankles and look at you to see if you like it or not.

— he will finish his massage by wrapping the palms of both hands around one of your shins, moving from the tendon to the hamstring, and then he will do the same with the other shin.

— he will massage your ankles in a smoothing motion and look at you to see if you like it or not.

— he will finish his massage by wrapping the palms of both hands around one of your shins, moving from the tendon to the hamstring, and then he will do the same with the other shin.

— after the massage, he will clean you of the oils and bring you everything you need, so that he can hold you against his side and hear you sniffing in his ears.

#one piece live action #one piece #one piece x reader #one piece x you #sanji x reader #one piece sanji #opla sanji #opla #sanji #vinsmoke sanji #vinsmoke sanji x reader #sanji x y/n #taz skylar x reader #taz skylar #mary ♡ #— vulturelined 🦋

[yanderecrazysie]

i love ur yan kokichi omg i need more... plot can be whatever u want go crazy babe

I hope this turned out okay- I decided to mess around a little and came up with this plot. A bit cheesy and short, but my brain isn’t working well.

Title: Frayed Edges of Sanity

Pairings: Kokichi Ouma x Reader

WARNINGS: Yandere themes, Kokichi is a ghost, murder

Summary: Are you losing your mind, or is someone behind all of the hallucinations after all?

“Fighting the fear of fear

Growing conspiracy, myself is after me

Frayed ends of sanity

Hear them calling”

-From “Frayed Edges of Sanity” by Metallica

“So this is the place,” you wrinkled your nose a little as you looked at the decaying house.

A patchwork roof riddled with holes, peeling paint, a generally displeasing aura… that about summed up the manor you were met with.

But it was a house. And it was free. What kind of person would turn that down?

Apparently your great uncle, who you had never met, had entrusted this house to you for some reason. The whole thing seemed like a scam but here it was- an actual place to live. No strings attached.

There was no path to the front door, so you walked through the yard, grass crunching under your boots. The yard is choked with weeds and the grass is turning brown. The entire property is one big mess.

“This is going to take a ton of work,” you groaned. You should’ve known this would be a little too good to be true.

But still, it was a house. Not your tiny, musky, thin-walled apartment or an extra room at your parents’ place. 

You unlocked the door and pulled it open, ignoring the ear-splitting creak it gave you in reply. There was a mirror in the entryway and you nearly walked by it, when something in your peripheral vision flashed in the glass. You took a step back, but the mirror didn’t show what you thought you’d seen.

No dark-haired boy in sight.

You shook your head, banishing the thought from your mind. It had simply been a trick of the light, that’s all.

Your therapist had suggested you keep a journal to document your mental state. Since you were starting over your life in a new home, you might as well start a new habit.

January 8th

Got a new house! Finally out of that awful apartment.

Looking forward to a brand new start.

—-----------------------------------

January 26th

I feel like someone’s watching me. And all night, I hear giggling.

I think I’m going insane.

You put the pen down and buried your face in your hands. Every day, you felt like you were slowly going crazier.

Your furniture kept rearranging itself, your possessions kept disappearing, you kept hearing a voice whispering in your ear, telling you to turn around, only for you to find nothing there. 

You climbed into your bed and pulled the covers up to your ears. You closed your eyes but the feeling that someone was watching you was overwhelming.

You opened your eyes and were met with a pair of purple ones.

“Good moooorning, sleepyhead!” A playful voice met your ears. Your blood ran cold- that voice was the same one whispering and giggling in your ears since the day you walked in.

The dark-haired boy was floating upside down, arms behind his head as he regarded you with amusement. 

“Who… What are you?” You demanded, scooting back on your bed until your back hit the headboard.

“I’m Kokichi Oma,” the boy replied. He puffed out his chest and added, “I’m a ghost.”

“Why am I only seeing you now?” You asked suspiciously.

“Get up,” Kokichi’s grin grew, “Get up and you’ll see.”

He held out a hand to you, but you waved it away from you, anger bubbling up inside of you. He’d been bothering you for weeks, making you think you were insane. 

You slowly stood up, watching Kokichi carefully. He merely gave you a closed-eyed smile and pointed behind you, “Now turn around.”

You obeyed him and, as soon as you did, your entire body froze. 

There, on the bed, lay your body. 

Your eyes were open, unseeing, glazed over with death. Your skin was several shades lighter than it usually was and a dribble of blood had dried on your lips. A knife was driven through your chest, blood soaking through the shirt in the area around the blade.

“I’m… dead…” You stared at your body, realizing only now that you were just a spirit, “Kokichi… what happened?”

“I killed you,” Kokichi supplied cheerfully.

“What?!” You shrieked, “Why?”

“So you could finally be with me,” Kokichi pouted, “You couldn’t even see me while you were alive. But I hung out with you for a while and decided that we should be together!”

“What is wrong with you?” You screamed, “You killed me because you wanted me to be able to see you?”

“That’s not the only reason,” Kokichi said, “Now, I have you all to myself.” Kokichi let out a loud giggle, “If you don’t believe me, try talking to anyone else. They can’t hear or see you.” 

“I’m all you’ve got left.”

#yandere #yandere x reader #yandere one shot #one shot #yandere danganronpa v3 #danganronpa v3 #yandere kokichi #kokichi ouma

[doylldonmagar]

Heyyyy i saw your post about writing your daydream to cope with maladaptive daydreaming. Do you have antimite tips that your therapist gave u ? ( cause therapy is kinda expensive for me right now)

Thanks <3

Hey, thank you for reaching out, I'm genuinely really glad you did. I'm afraid I'm not a great resource for this, honestly. Soon after that post I quit the job that provided therapy, so I don't have much more to offer. But I'll give you all of the things that I remember from therapy in case it can serve you!

(Assuming you're trying to stop disassociating,) look out for triggers. What makes you switch from being present to daydreaming?

When you initially notice you've switched to daydreaming, try to stop. This sounds obvious, but I've had to really keep it in mind, and there's usually a reason you switched to daydreaming (for me its usually anxiety or a lack of stimulation) and going back to reality isn't what your mind wants, so try to have something you are switching to. For instance, when I try to become present again, I usually start describing an object I see, and sometimes I shift to describe everything I'm experiencing, so all of the senses, things I'm seeing, hearing, smelling, feeling. And then once you're in the moment, then you can more easily switch to being actually in the moment as in conversations, etc, not just aware of reality but also a part of it. (Describing objects also helps with anxiety and spiraling, if you struggle with that)

Keeping a record of your daydreams can help if you are replaying a lot or if you have a story you are interested in building.

Setting aside time to daydream can help. It sounds counter intuitive, but if you stop yourself from daydreaming other times and say no I'm gonna daydream at 3 till 3:30, then when that time comes you daydream and then you stop yourself. This can build up self control and can break the urge to daydream whenever.

Trying to keep your mind occupied can help. If you daydream while you fold laundry, then maybe try playing music or a podcast or an audiobook and try to stay focused on it.

Doing yoga, or journaling, or something aimed at practicing awareness (physical, emotional, etc) can really help. Even stuff like spending 5 minutes describing everything I see and hear and feel can really help. A big part of getting away from MADD is just training your mind to be able to focus on the present.

Ultimately, what I've found is that maladaptive daydreaming is really just an addiction. And it's a coping mechanism. If you can find what you're coping with and can find a healthy way to deal with it, or find a way to cut it from your life, both are good options, but neither will necessarily stop the disassociation. If an addiction is narrowing activities you enjoy down to the one thing, then the way to break it is to find more outlets, more things you enjoy. If you have hobbies you don't do anymore, or things you used to be interested in, pursuing those can be good. Finding other things you enjoy doing can be super helpful.

On writing: (I didn't get this from therapy, just personal experience) it might help to write down everything from past daydreams that you remember (I personally would get really caught up in trying to remember all of the things. I had been daydreaming for about 5 years when I started writing, so I was trying to remember a lot. And I did forget a lot.) if you have a timeline, feel free to type it up. I write it down almost every time it comes up. I'll have clips of dialogue running in my head and I'll pull out my phone and type it up. Same goes for if I have a plot idea. I write it down to explore it later during the time I set aside for it. If I'm scared I'll forget it, then it runs over and over in my mind and it takes up time, and I don't want that. If I want to explore it, finish the scene, then I'm committing more time, and I don't want that. So it really helps me to cut it short by writing it down.

I'll add more to this list if I think of anything. Hopefully this helps in some way, feel free to reach out again! I tried to highlight my main ideas, sorry if it's distracting but I thought with so much text, it might be easier to skim.

<3

#maladapting daydreaming disorder #maladaptive daydreaming #maladaptive coping #maladaptive daydreamer #immersive daydreaming #obsessive daydreaming #therapy tips #therapy

[lovekz]

actor station~

welcome to the actor station, where you can find all of the fanfics i have written!

main stars! (who i mostly write for)

starring... rindou haitani!

“music to my ears~!”

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strawberry milk : fluff <3

a day in bed (ft ran) : fluff <3

suddenly i do hair : smut <3 

dirty laundry : fluff/crack <3

the rizzler : fluff/crack <3

turn up friday : fluff <3

the house is silent : angst-fluff <3

what does he have that i don’t? : angst <3

eyes don’t lie : angst-fluff <3

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starring... ran haitani!

“gets me all excited~”

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drunken words are sober thoughts : fluff <3

little me’s, little you’s : fluff <3

i did not do it for you : angst <3

it’s not mine : crack <3

sharing is caring : smut <3

love : fluff <3

home : fluff <3

hot girl shit : smut <3 

it’s seasonal : angst-fluff <3

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starring... taiju shiba!

“so... who is this jerk?”

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taiju shiba has a wife : fluff <3

extra assistance : fluff <3

cake : crack <3

the polaroid camera : crack <3

pillow fun : crack + fluff (coming soon!)

eight years : fluff <3 

i know you : fluff <3

dumb dick! : smut <3

spoiled rotten : fluff <3

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starring... izana kurokawa!

“i’ll let you suffer until the bitter end.”

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six man’s job : crack + fluff <3

leaving tonight : angst-fluff <3

teenagers : crack + fluff (coming soon!

tuesday : angst + fluff <3

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side stars! (who i don’t really write for)

starring.. manjiro ‘mikey sano!

"i’m going to create a new age for delinquents”

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the pancake mistake : fluff <3

she was hanging out with how many boys?? : fluff <3

hearing something happened to you after an argument : angst <3

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starring... ken ‘draken’ ryuguji

“we’ll deal with our problems in our own world”

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hearing something happened to you after an argument : angst <3

little me’s, little yous : fluff <3

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starring... kazutora hanemiya

“if you kill your enemies.. that makes you a hero.”

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let me take care of you : smut <3

meeting the parents : fluff <3

a misunderstanding : angst <3

little me’s, little yous : fluff <3

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starring... souya ‘angry’ kawata

“maan. smiley would totally get it’

~

stargazing : fluff <3

a misunderstanding : angst <3

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starring... hakkai shiba

“maan. yuzuha would totally get it.

betrayal : crack <3

starring... chifuyu matsuno

“those two are really screwed, ‘cause they’re both the youngest!”

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meeting the parents : fluff <3

you used to do what for money?! : fluff <3

~

starring... sanzu haruchiyo

“you have no idea of what happened that day.”

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you know no one can treat or love you better than i do : angst <3

c-k 4 u : fluff <3

~

starring... takashi mitsuya

“i’ll show you how to fight one-on-one.”

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flirt with me, not her : fluff <3

hearing something happened to you after an argument : angst <3

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starring.. various actors!

‘with this, we’ve conquered the whole country’

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four am : angst <3

out of time : angst <3

lights out : crack <3

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a few shows! (full series)

izana kurokawa’s ‘infatuated’ ~ <3

izana kurokawa is infatuated with two things. the adrenaline from illegal racing and getting into fights. you might become a third. (ongoing)

five of [unknown] chapters completed!

rindou haitani’s ‘french kiss’ ~ <3

rindou has a crush on his older brother’s best friend, and literally doesn’t know how to express his feelings. but when ran isn’t available and you come to him for advice, he suddenly has an idea.  (ongoing) 

eleven of thirteen chapters completed!

french kiss epilogue

taiju shiba’s ‘baby mama’ ~ <3

taiju shiba has a baby mother, and he just can’t get over her. it seems she can’t get over him either. (ongoing)

five of [unknown] chapters completed!

izana kurokawa’s ‘mini best friends’ ~ <3

syn -> yours and another kid get really close with each other during daycare. but when you see the parent of this kid, you want to help out. (incoming!)

two of [unknown] chapters completed!

ran haitani’s ‘moon talk’ ~ <3

syn -> ran haitani has fallen deep in love with his therapist, who claims she cannot stand him

zero of [unknown] chapters completed!

 rindou haitani’s ‘the five stages of grief’ ~ <3

they warned you. on multiple occasions. “the haitani brothers settle for no one” “nothing you can do will keep him down” “he can’t be yours when he’s everyone’s” but you never listened, did you? now here you are, going through the five stages of grief 

eight of eight chapters completed!

five stages of grief epilogues : one    two

ran haitani’s love for rose ~ <3

when ran needed time alone, he’d go to a vacant spot at the top of roppongi, where he grew up. what he didn’t know, was another person knew about it as well.  (on hiatus)

ran haitani’s hotel red ~ <3

if she’s just a dancer at hotel red, why can’t ran haitani get her out of his mind? (on hiatus)

ran haitani’s last woman standing ~  <3

ran haitani. one sick son of a bitch. he finds himself interested in a group of friends, more directly to one of the friends. the only reason he’s interested though, is to see how fast they could survive a killer living in the walls of their vacation house.  (on hiatus/discontinued (unsure))

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the following characters have been put in the waiting room! if you would like to make a request for one, you may!

hanma shuji, keisuke baji, nahoya ‘smiley’ kawata,

thank you so much for reading! if you would like to make a request for one of these characters, you can do that here!   ??

#masterlist!

[vorpalfae]

hi do you mind if I ask you what symptoms of bipolar you have experienced before/are currently experiencing right now? if this is too heavy for you to answer then that’s alright it’s just that I was recently diagnosed with bipolar 2 and I wanted to hear about the experience from another person.. thank you 

well i have bipolar 1 rapid cycling which is more severe than just having bipolar 1. and bipolar 1 by itself is more severe than bipolar 2, so definitely don't compare yourself to me too much. also everyone is different. not every person with bipolar of any type has the same symptoms. i also have anxiety, ptsd, and im seeing a psychiatrist in november to be tested for a neurological disorder that my therapist thinks i may have but she can't diagnose me. so sometimes those symptoms from other things overlap into what i experience. some things might be caused by my anxiety or ptsd. for example i've had hallucinations plenty of times which can be a symptom of bipolar but also could be from ptsd too. i have manic episodes all the time. and when im not having mania im basically in a constant state of depression. its awful. i do have impulses but ive spent years learning how to control them. they used to be uncontrollable and it ruined my life for many years. my sleep and appetite changes constantly. sometimes i dont need sleep at all and other times all i do is sleep. and most of them time i can't eat a lot. and when i am able to eat i end up binge eating to make up for barely eating most of the time. im extremely indecisive and its hard to focus on one task. i usually have like 10 different tasks going at a time which makes it hard to complete anything. but i also become obsessed with my interests. it actually annoys ppl because i will talk about the same few things over and over. i have suicidal thought all the time. only thoughts tho. i would never act on them. but before i could control my impulses i had multiple attempts to end my life. i also have constant racing thoughts or my mind feels blank and i'll be completely silent for days sometimes because i have nothing to say. except when it comes to my children. obviously i speak to them when they are around, but i won't start a conversation when my mind feels blank or i won't CHOOSE to say anything for days. yeah it really fucking sucks. life with bipolar is mainly living in extremes. [for me anyway]. im either exteremely happy or extremely sad. same goes with being confident or not confident, hungry or not hungry, etc. one of the hardest things is having so much energy when im manic and feeling constantly tired and drained when im depressive. because i have children and i HAVE to be productive on daily basis. i can't just NOT clean or do dishes or laundry etc. so when im depressive i have to mentally and physically force myself to do anything. its honestly absolute hell. and im so sorry you have it too. i wish i had more positive things to tell you about it, but im not going to sugarcoat it or lie to you.

as long as you put in effort to work on yourself and try to be aware of the way you react to things or what things affect your mood, it will get easier. i know that i NEED therapy. every time i left therapy i relapsed on drugs or i mentally deteriorated. so i highly recommend finding a good therapist if you start to struggle badly. or just have one just to help you even if you don't think you need one. they help sooo much with helping u understand yourself and your thoughts and actions. i wish you nothing but the best✨💜 bipolar disorder can be so crippling. it can even be a disability for some ppl. for me it is. i am getting disability soon because its pretty impossible to find a job that works with what im able and unable to do. it lowered my confidence a lot when i realized i needed the extra help but now im more okay with it because i know its just the hand i've been dealt. i didnt ask for bipolar disorder. just like i didn't ask for it to prevent me from working. its just what happened to me. and thats okay. 🖤💜 i hope you are well🥰

#ask

[grasslandgirl]

HI SAV!!! HAPPY SLASHERVERSARY MWAH. legitimately so deeply excited to read the new fic 💖 ALSO wanted to throw ask at you bc I am sure you have many thoughts and I wanna hear them all, so! do you have a favorite line you've written, across all of slasherverse so far, or one that you think is like, a core line/core component? and what scene in 'verse so far has been the most fun to write?

HIII JADE MWAAHHH MWAAH MWAH THANK U SORRY FOR BELATED RESPONSE XOXO

ooooohh aaaaaaa okay. in answering these it got really long bc I added some snip cuts from some of the fics so. click thru the read more xoxo

do you have a favorite line you've written, across all of slasherverse so far, or one that you think is like, a core line/core component?

ummmm. this is so hard. I think the ending line/lines of the original slasherverse fic are sooo crazy and like impactful to me personally at least ??

But in the moment before the officer reaches them, light breaks through the dense tree line, the first clear beam of sunshine that morning. It lands squarely on Fig’s face. Blinding, but warm. She grimaces, half smile.  “Fucking day break,” she mutters under her breath. 

like. yeah. I feel really good about that being the final ending beat and I think the first/original slasherfic is soooo concise and effective and is forever one of my favorite things i've ever written- I also think the line

He told them that so many times- there’s no one around for miles, kids, did you know that?   There's no one to hear you scream.

that Jamie @gilears used in his first collage (and the cover of the bound fic she made of slasher for me !!!!!) (and my phone lock screen for nearly the last two years) is just. mwaaahhh and maybe that's bc its in the collage. and yet <3

what scene in 'verse so far has been the most fun to write?

i really really loved the imagery in the gorgug pov fic, windows down, scream along at the end when he and fig are driving in the middle of the night scream-singing along to teenagers by mcr. I just love that moment so much.

i also really really enjoyed two different bits in the most recent slasherverse installment, the two year anniversary fic, one where fig and gorgug have a conversation in the middle of the night and the scene is almost entirely dialogue- I really wanted to push myself and try to pare down the descriptions and internal monologue as much as possible bc I think sometimes my writing and dialogue specifically can get bogged down too much, and I really really like how clean and quick the scene came out (also the you and me bit at the end of this snip was a reference to something Jamie and I say to each other all the time bc I'm a SAP <3)

“Nightmare. Uh. It was- it wasn’t- yeah. I was awake until like four last night I think though. Staring at the ceiling.” “Hello preacher, it’s me, the choir.”  Gorgug huffed out a quiet laugh. It filled the room.  “Hello, choir. Can I join you in the… church?”  “Yikes, I dunno, maybe too soon with the church-and-religion jokes, dude. I had to go to four funerals. In churches.” Another pause stretched thin.  “Only two of them were even in churches, Fig-” “Yeah, okay, I know-” “Also it was a year and a half ago-” “Yeah, fine! Okay, sue me for trying to make a terrible-” “And if you’d tried to say that to anyone else-” “-Unfunny joke about our dead friends, dude-” “-They’d probably have you, like, committed, or whatever-” “-I’m sleep deprived as shit, you know I get punchy and stupid when I’m exhausted-” “-and-” “Wait.” “Huh?” “You’re gonna have me committed?” Gorgug sighed. Quiet and affectionate. “Only if I can come with.” “Deal.”  “You and me?”

and then similarly, there's a bit at the end that's basically just a monologue from fig about her feelings for and relationship to gorgug and a single brief response where the context is finally given that she's talking to a therapist. and I just. really enjoyed getting to fall down the rabbit hole of how people. and fig (hello projection) would talk? about that? and I really enjoy how it came out.

“It feels selfish. To- to- we’re trying to be better, right? Like, that’s what we’re doing here, uh, you and me. But I also mean me and him. We’re- fucking- we’re trying to get better. To not be, like, codependent and insanely traumatized and agoraphobic or whatever the fuck and- and- god. I don’t know. I don’t want to lose him. And I feel like- I feel like we’re both trying so hard and going through so much insane shit that no one else can even fucking understand, and- and- if I mess it up, if I want something more then I’m threatening all of that. The- the understanding and the safety and the comfort and like, like, he’s told me that sometimes it’s like I’m the only string keeping him together or the only, like, balloon keeping him afloat- god. Not in those words, actually- whatever, I’m editorializing, but the point, the point is that like. He’s my, like, touchstone to reality. And I’m his. And I get that that’s probably not the most healthy or well adjusted, or anything, but that’s what I’m in therapy to fix? And it’s taking a really fucking long time to fix my fucked up trauma PTSD brain which I get is like, normal and expected or whatever, but until we’re both like, normal and not traumatized codependent ducklings who’ve imprinted on each other for safety in a world that tried to kill us I’m- I’m like- it should stay the same. Us. Me and Gorgug. ‘Cause if I change something and it makes him worse or us worse or undoes any of the progress we’ve fucking made to recover then like- like- it’s just selfish, you know? I don’t wanna be selfish about that. About him.” Her therapist’s blurry image on her computer blinked, head tilted, considering.  “Okay. I hear you.”

finally there's a bit I wrote ages ago and haven't had a place where it fits in a fic yet but really enjoy it so here a gift for anyone who actually read thru this whole post lmao:

“I don’t really know how to pray,” Fig said, kicking slightly at the water. Droplets flicked up and landed with tiny ripples on the surface of the lake. “But I feel like we should. Because they are, back there, all the people that loved them but didn’t know them- not like we did. Who don’t know what it was like. Like, we should do something to like, counteract their prayer or something. Correct it.” “Spell check?” “Yeah,” Fig said, smiling faintly. “But I don’t really know how to do it ‘cept the whole, like, are you there, god, it’s me Fig; thing.” “Dear God.” “Yeah, exactly, Dear God. Do you think that does anything? Do you think he’s listening? If he cares if we say it like a letter or know all the right words? Amen, love Fig, that whole thing.” “Dunno. Do you think it matters? Maybe it’s just for us. To say what needs saying and remember them the way we knew them. And if God’s there and he listens then. I don’t know. It’s a bonus.” “Yeah. Yeah, I think you’re right.”

XOXOXOXOXOOXXOOXOX JADE LOVE U HOPE U ENJOYED NEW SLASHERVERSE THANK UUU FOR THE ASK XOXOX MWAAH

#asks #slasherverse

[seekingseven]

I’m so normal about baby blue! (Baby blue is my Roman Empire, literally on my mind 24/7, the fic causes me to feel sadness, anger and depression on a regular basis. You will be hearing from my therapist..) I really like the writing, especially how you write emotions! ( I absolutely love your writing, it’s literally perfection and more, the way you write emotions brings me to tears. It’s that good) so yeah, I’m totally normal about the fic..! (I totally don’t refresh aot every 4 hours to see if baby blue has been updated) …there is a tiny chance I’m not normal about baby blue…

Okay but seriously, I love your writing, baby blue definitely my fav fanfic I’ve read this year (ever) especially since I mainly enjoy family fics. Megumi and Gojos family dynamic is so sad especially considering the manga (gege when I catch you) but at least a feel a little better (or worse) whenever I reread baby blue (I’ve read it at least 5 times)

I love your writing keep up the amazing work!! (so excited for chapter 9 fr)

OMG AAAAAA

what what what?! this is so nice!! im so so glad that you're enjoying it so far!! this is such insanely high praise omg,,, this comment is my roman empire fr. huge kiss for u anon!

I am very very VERY glad that you like it! I adore the (very little) family-centric jjk content and I'm really happy to have been able to contribute a little bit! Esp with whatever heinous stuff gege is cooking up. send this man to jail immediately lol and youve REREAD the fic? um wow thank you?!

I apologize for how long it's taken me to get up the next chapter! I try to write a little bit every night, but school has been ramping up and my classes have been harder than I thought they would be. But summer is coming soon!

Thank you for your kindness! Chapter 9 coming....soon....I hope you'll enjoy!

#thank you anon this is so nice!! #seeking answers

[symptoms-syndrome]

7, 17, 25, 28

7 answered 💚

17. If you could tell someone questioning whether they have DID/OSDD one thing, what would it be?

This is gonna sound dismissive, but like. Don't worry about it man.

Either you do or you don't but thinking about it too hard isn't gonna change anything, and I think that worrying about it too hard might make you fixate on things. Like, you'll be looking for evidence for or against and you're gonna find ways to fit all sorts of irrelevant stuff into either category. Had a hot dog yesterday and liked it, but today you think it tastes a little weird? Put it in the "maybe a part thing" bucket. Remember what you had for lunch last week? Put it in the "don't have it" bucket. That kind of thing, it'll just trip you up.

Like. Think about why you think you might, sure. But rather than "do I have [thing]" in general I think it's best to ask like. Why is it bothering you? Are there things you can do for that?

Like. I've got shit memory right. I had shit memory before I got my diagnosis and I've still got it. So I use a calendar on my phone, as soon as I hear about anything that I want to go to or need to do, I put it right in there so I don't forget about it. What if I woke up tomorrow and my therapist called and was like "JK man, u just have ADHD." My calendar wouldn't like. Explode. It would still be helpful n everything. And that applies to like a lottt of coping skills and strats and stuff. Most stuff that happens with DID happens with other stuff too, sometimes in diff ways but like. A lot of the time the coping skills are the same. DID doesn't exist in a weird little mental illness fortified palace separate from everything else like some people act like it does.

25. What is a piece of misinformation about DID/OSDD do you want to clear up?

I already answered this one but I'm answering it again bc I have a diff lil piece of misinfo.

If you have DID/OSDD, you don't have to be plural.

Not in the sense of you don't have parts. But in the sense that you don't necessarily need to treat your parts/system the same way others may treat theirs. You don't need to "come out" about it, or communicate to other people who's fronting, or drastically change your lifestyle.

I think that this is part of what makes people so weird about DID/OSDD, the idea that it gives you permission to live a Plural Lifestyle because DID/OSDD is associated with automatically enrolling you in the Plural Lifestyle.

There's nothing inherently wrong with not being open about having a deeply stigmatized disorder. You don't need to "fight stigma" or "be visible" and it's not like being in the closet about being gay or trans (though you don't need to come out about either of those either, but that's a different topic.) You aren't betraying your community or a victim of internalized ableism or anything like that for not wanting to be open about your DID and/or not wanting to communicate to others about your parts. Doubly so for things like work or school.

Being open about it/telling people about it also doesn't have to be a black and white thing. You can tell some people but not others. You can be open about parts fronting some times or places but not others. You can tell some people some things but not everything. That's all fine. I have like two friends (outside of my DID-sphere) who know about some of my parts by name, about a dozen who just know I have DID with no further details. And that's fine with me. Even the friends who know some parts by name I don't tell who's fronting all the time.

I think some people think you need to be super consistent across the board or you're "not being true to yourself" or "hiding parts of you" or "ashamed of your identity" or something. Which is not true.

Also conversely, I think that similarly to what I said the last time about misinfo, if seeing yourself in parts helps you somehow I think that's fine. Or if you have an imaginary friend or daydream or whatever else. Embrace non-normativity even if it isn't disordered.

28. Have you met other people with DID/OSDD irl/online? What was it like?

IRL once I went to a conference to give a talk about racism and DID and it was a real mixed bag. It felt like everyone there was either 20s or 40+. I felt more at home with the 40+ crowd because the 20s crowd was very? Plural in a way that I am not and don't feel comfortable being. One of them loudly announced that everyone at the table was plural in like a Starbucks and that made me feel like I was going to die. The older folks were incredible though, very kind and it was nice chatting about our experiences and what things we had in common or didn't.

Also once at a different conference (also about race, but this time about race and disability) I met someone (a like, ~50 year old Asian lady) who shared that she had OSDD in a private moment and I shared that I had DID. It was interesting to talk to her as well.

Plus some various. Weird experiences with other people. Including someone who said I was pluralphobic for not letting them join a group for POC when they are white w an alter that looks Asian. LMAO.

I'm also...vaguely aware of some people in my area who keep being very weird about hosting events for plurals. Which. Whatever do your thing I guess. Just not for me and not when they're being weird about it.

Online. 95% negative experiences but 5% positive! When I was first diagnosed I tried finding online groups but they all sucked TBH, full of drama and teenagers and weird expectations on how I should behave and how much I need to share/know. It made me feel overwhelmed and confused because I didn't fit in. But now I've found my little group of people who I feel like I vibe with and who understand each other.

Also there's like. A few weird experiences I've had on dating apps of all places.

#asks #this was written in two parts days apart hope its coherent

[cg-saturn]

Hiii gubby m hopes u hads a good day!! mm wonderins if gubby Hans any tips on how to not be so obewstimuwated cuz da fings mm usually dobes nots wowkins an mm been obewstimuwated for wike to weeks now and m hasn’t even been boin anyfing actually alots of m stuffs dat m was boing was stopped cuz it’s getting colb nows so m was jus wondering if u hab any tips fow dats

Awso hewe sum cookies!! 🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪🍪

Hey lil buddy!! I'm so sorry you've been feeling overstimulated recently, that's never easy. Sometimes the Big world can have too much happening and it's hard to process it all without getting overwhelmed. At times like this, the best thing you can do is try and take care of yourself.

When I was in high school and got really overstimulated it was hard to find ways to calm myself down, especially with a family and homework and everything else. When things got to be too much, I found that closing my door and turning off notifications could be really helpful. Music was the best way for me to block out the Big world. I always would make playlists of music that made me feel relaxed, or find low-fi playlists online. I've always been a huuuge bath advocate, sometimes being able to just sit in the tub and enjoy the bubbles and quiet. If you don't have a bath, showers work just as well! You don't have to wash yourself even, just stand under the warm water and let the world drip away. I also loved to do basic self-care like face masks or painting my nails.

I always found it calming to do repetitive motions, that's why I picked up knitting and crochet! Sometimes making things with your hands can really help bring you back to your body. It's a very grounding thing to do, and it's fairly inexpensive if you get things second hand or on sale like I always have! Along the same lines, making any type of art can be really relaxing and grounding! Coloring is both a great way to ground and be little at the same time! Don't worry about being clean either! Sometimes, the pick up can be just as therapeutic. You can put your crayons in color order, or play a counting game with scraps from crafts!

I also like to use grounding tools like scents and textures to help me. If you can burn incents or candles those are my personal favorites, but you can also use things like defusers, wax burners, or comforting perfumes to help bring a cozy vibe into your space! I also love a good comfort blanket and stuffies, sometimes having soft textures can help ground you. Squeeze hugging a stuffie can really help make you feel better, it's just like hugging your best friend!

I also have a few grounding exercises past therapists and friends have given me over the past few years. My personal go-to is doing a sensory count down; 5 things you can see, 4 things you can touch, 3 things you can hear, 2 things you can smell, and 1 thing you can taste (water counts! Stay hydrated!).

I really hope this helps a little, it's always horrible to feel overstimulated and overwhelmed. Please also know my dm and askbox are both always open when you're not doing good! I'm so so proud of you for reaching out kiddo, I know it can be hard to talk about feeling sometimes, and im so happy you felt comfortable and safe enough to share this with me. Thank you so much for the cookies too lil one, they're delicious! Here, try one for yourself, and have some juice to wash it down 🍪🧃 I hope you start to feel better soon buddy!

Gubby Saturn 💕

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[valleyfthdolls]

hii tell me about ur fnaf AUs !! (u wanted someone to ask teehee)

Omg hiii *attempts to twirl my hair but it's just at that length where all that happens is it gets tangled bc I need to get it cut*

(I'm excited I'm getting my hair cut & dyed on Friday ignore me)

So I have my main AU which is on the blog @thechristmaskidsau, but there are a few others that have been rotating around in my head for a WHILE that I need to get out

I have been sitting on this one since 20 fucking 20. Basically, the rebirth AU is a freak-ass Help Wanted AU, and I'm salty that it doesn't sound creative anymore because of everyone's stupid theories. This is probably up there as one of my weirdest AUs. Basically, the AU follows Vanessa, who, hey, for once is actually Vanny, like they finally seem to have given up and basically admitted is like 99% canon. I find them more fun to write when I put someone else under the suit, but that's besides the point.

Vanessa is a 21 year old girl who can't really remember most of her life. She's chalked it up to amnesia or maybe trauma that her therapist is trying to help her uncover, but when she meets an odd digital entity in a game she's been hired to beta test that begins referring to her by a false name and infests her head like she's just a computer, she's pushed to uncover the actual truth: She hasn't had any life before her 21st year. She is a robot created by this new entity to mimic the existence of Michael Afton, and make her his successor the way Michael's father had intended for him to be. The realization breaks her, her AI is slowly taken over, but then she meets a little girl named Bella, locked away in a production facility. The entity, who she's given the spiteful nickname of Glitchtrap, tells her that Bella is a failsafe, someone he knows will do whatever he asks, unless her AI is damaged, because the girl she's modeled after desperately wanted to be perfect and compliant. The girl looks like she's been tortured, and Glitchtrap tells Vanessa that she is dying- Vanessa is killing her. The dread, shock, and fear of hearing that seems to push her too far. She can't take it anymore. She can't take any of this. She has to help Bella, and she has to find the boy who's supposed to be a mimic of her brother, and get him where Glitchtrap can- where she can never hurt him. Where she can protect him. Where she can save them both.

This one I came up with last week: the Smile AU is basically just an excuse to be FNAF about everything.

Charlotte Emily died with an eerily unfitting smile. Her horror, her pain and trauma, it seemed to unleash something inside of her that escaped when she died. This is Shadow Freddy, malignant and sadistic, and he feeds off the pain of children, taking as many forms as necessary to make them fearful, lonely and hopeless so he can finish them off. He basically forces them to succumb to their trauma, cutting them off from anyone who might support or help them. It's similar to the main theme of Smile itself, but with more emphasis on the trauma thing. The main story starts after Charlie's death, as well as Elizabeth's- Shadow Freddy manifests at the scene of Elizabeth's death due to her horrible situation, and Cassidy's intense fear watching his sister die. By appearing physically, taking the form of a large and brutally disfigured replica of Cassidy's stuffed Fredbear toy, he takes this as his chance to begin haunting Cassidy in his dreams, getting closer every night, worsening his fear and making him a perfect target. Michael's refusal to believe anything he says about Elizabeth or Shadow Freddy or his nightmares ultimately causes Cassidy to succumb to Shadow Freddy, and Michael witnesses the immediate result. Cassidy, in a panic, frantically scratches through his scalp, screaming and jittering like something is climbing in through the scratch in his head, and as soon as he stops, Michael sees the shift. He begins to smile, strained and tight-lipped with dead eyes, then whispers to Michael, "this is all your fault."

In the fallout, Cassidy is bleeding out on the floor, Michael cradling his head trying to keep him alive, the paramedics arrive in a frenzy, Cassidy is taken away from him, and for a moment, the smile seems to fall. The next time Michael sees it, he knows. Cassidy was telling the truth. And if he lets that thing get to him, he's going to die too.

Charlie appears to him in his dreams that night, but she's not smiling. She's an emotional wreck, a vulnerable and messy and broken state he never saw her in. She's darkened, her eyes unnaturally light, and her shadow seems to cast rabbit ears behind her.

Shadow Bonnie in this AU is the spirits of the children, their pain and agony after Shadow Freddy fed off them, leaving them wrecked husks of souls, and while trying to face down his seemingly inevitable demise at the hands of the thing his father's one horrible act unleashed, he has to try to side with another monster just like it in the hope of saving Elizabeth and Cassidy.

#long post #fnaf #fnaf au #hairbackc0llarup

[menalez]

Never mind the question if you don't wanna answer it but can i ask what ultimately helped you get better psychologically wise? Like a certain kind of therapy or a though process you adopted that made it easier? Elaborate as much as you like

sure, i’m quite open about this and if anyone wants to learn more about that pls feel free to ask me. :) so my therapy history is quite… extensive to say the least. in bahrain, i saw a male psychiatrist who i couldn’t even talk to myself (i was too scared) & so my mom told him my story like im a rape victim etc and he immediately prescribed me with cipralex & seroquel within the first session in one hour. despite hearing all about my trauma he simply diagnosed me with major depression or sth. anyways, i didn’t go to him again and after my mom found out i got stitches, she asked my uncle who’s a doctor and he connected us to a female psychiatrist in one of the main public hospitals in bahrain. she immediately diagnosed me with BPD & PTSD and referred me to the children’s psychiatric ward in bahrain (there’s only one in the country & it’s garbage. the criminally insane and just deeply mentally ill are both hospitalised there). the women who evaluated me also diagnosed me with the same stuff but were fixated on the BPD. at this point i must’ve been no older than 15. perhaps still 14 even but i think i was 15. one of the women who evaluated me became my therapist & i saw her for an hour per week for like a year. she would try to point things out to me and make me aware of my situation, she knew all about it and i started to open up to her more which was hard on me (before seeing her individually, my mom basically talked on my behalf to all the therapists bc i couldn’t say what happened to me out loud). i think she tried her best but our therapists are just not good at all honestly. she even would criticise my parents for how negligent they were etc. it was not any particular type of therapy besides like.. just regular talking therapy. i think her goal was to make me somewhat self-aware bc i completely lacked any self-awareness in terms of my feelings & situation etc.

after that my mom took us to the US bc there was no improvement in my situation. i was still 15 but nearing 16 at this point. at that point i was still on cipralex & seroquel, 50mg each i think. my mom basically took me to one of the big name hospitals near northern virginia and they had this very extensive evaluation where they’d ask family history etc. they said i show the symptoms of BPD but that they don’t like diagnosing kids with personality disorders so they diagnosed me with like 500 things instead. i thought it was kinda dumb but whatever. the therapy they decided i needed was CBT. i did. CBT for 6 months and they saw progress in me. the next therapy in line was some sort of trauma therapy, i’m not sure its exact name but i can describe it for u n maybe you’ll know. i never finished it tho ftr. it was basically split into three parts: life before the trauma, life after the trauma, and then the trauma itself. i only got through 2 weeks of it and barely started the life after the trauma section of the therapy. it was too much for me and i stopped going bc of it, my mom didn’t mind that bc they were ripping us off majorly (making us pay for a translator we didn’t need nor see) and she was running out of money at that point.

soon after i overdosed again & my mom found me & called the ambulance. i was taken to the emergency room, fed charcoal and they put this tube up my nose bc i threw up the charcoal etc it was a very traumatic experience honestly esp when they forcefully put some thingy up my urethra bc they needed to evaluate my pee. anyways i was taken from there to some hospital where i was placed on 42 hour suicide watch. the doctor there said i needed to be placed in a psych ward so i was put in a children’s inpatient ward more south of virginia. i was there like 2 weeks? and they basically had all kinds of therapy in there 24/7. i was considered high risk so i wasnt allowed the privacy a lot of my ward had. anyways we had a little school in there and we’d basically have art therapy, group therapy, therapy for addiction, individual therapy, psychiatric visits, PE therapy, etc. wildly enough, one night in this ward cost us less than the 1 hour sessions with the previous american hospital i got a lot of therapy from which showed just how badly they were ripping us off. they referred me to some kind of girls home where it’d be more constant therapy etc but i couldnt actually stay there bc it’s only for the citizens of virginia on paper (which i was not. we were illegal immigrants at this point). they referred me to a trauma centre and i basically went thru some sort of expressive therapy? i wasn’t given much more detail than that but we’d work with a sand box & id be given a prompt and told to try to show how i feel in the sand box using a bunch of figures to try to illustrate the situation. besides that we did expressive art therapy where i think i had to paint sth or draw sth but i don’t remember it well. we also did some sort of meditative therapy, focused on learning how to breathe bc i had a lot of panic attacks & anxiety-induced nausea etc so that was meant to help me in such cases. i remember we did sth called the i think 478. breathe in 4 seconds, hold 7 seconds, breathe out 8 seconds. do it at least 6 times and count in ur head bc it helps. it’s meant to trigger ur parasympathetic nervous system and calm down ur body. overall my time in america was a year & a half.

after that i had to go back to bahrain for a year and then i got into uni in the UK. i immediately asked to be put into therapy & was again considered high risk & high priority due to my history w suicidality & self harming behaviours. despite that, it took 3 years to even get me anywhere with that process. i was evaluated and the therapist thought i’d benefit most from DBT. i only managed to start DBT on my 4th year in the U.K., ie the end of my time there. i must’ve done like idk 4 months of DBT? maybe even less. and the program is meant to be a minimum of one year. if i recall correctly it was 3 hours per week, 2 hours group therapy & 1 hour individual therapy. it was really helpful and great but i had to leave bc my residence permit was expiring and it was a v sad moment.

i haven’t been able to get back into therapy since which has been hard but i’ve managed to control my self-harming behaviours esp after DBT. sorry this was rly long but i wasn’t sure what aspect would benefit u or not so i thought might as well go in depth