#what my brain made

[oleander-teacup]

companions after jumping off a very tall building in survival difficulty

#fallout 4 #fallout 4 companions #nick valentine #john hancock #fo4 #deacon fo4 #deacon fallout 4 #hancock fallout 4 #nick valentine fallout 4 #curie fallout 4 #codsworth #idk man #i want u all to laugh w me #bc i thought of this after nick jumped off a building #and i was like #i have to tell the people in my phone #what my brain made

[thebibliosphere]

I've talked about this before, but emotional dysregulation is such a mother fucker aspect of ADHD.

Like, sure, not being able to regulate my attention sucks, but it's genuinely fucking nothing compared to the absolute rollercoaster of emotions I just went on because someone said something in a shitty tone, and now I'm having to actively walk myself through DBT methods lest my idiot shit for brains 'shiny-can't-sit-still-disorder' drop the match on that particular bridge because the rejection sensitive dysphoria feels like my chest is burning and not being able to act on the hurt feels like I'm suffocating under the weight of emotions pushing down on me and lashing out in anger is quicker than taking the time to self soothe.

And the annoying fucking thing is I know it's me.

I've done enough therapy to know my emotional response to their shittiness is overblown and dysregulated. I know I'm taking it to heart more than they could ever imagine.

And I've got to fucking sit with that and process it because if I don't, I'll be the inconsiderate cunt in this interaction and hhnnggg--wailing, gnashing, biting my thumb at you in the marketplace, etc, etc.

#personal #this is so fucking insignificant and my brain is just like 'but what if we made it into a life or death adrenaline pumping reponse' #and it's like brain #I love you #but you're a fucking idiot sometimes #chill tf out

[inkskinned]

fucking hate it when the stuff everybody says "actually works" does actually work.

hate exercising and realizing i've let go of a lot of anxiety and anger because i've overturned my fight-or-flight response.

hate eating right and eating enough and eating 3 times a day and realizing i'm less anxious and i have more energy

hate journaling in my stupid notebook with my stupid bic ballpoint and realizing that i've actually started healing about something once i'm able to externalize it

hate forgiving myself hate complimenting myself more often hate treating myself with kindness hate taking a gratitude inventory hate having patience hate talking to myself gently

hate turning my little face up to the sun and taking deep breaths and looking at nature and grounding myself and realizing that i feel less burdened and more hopeful, more actually-here, that i am able to see the good sides of myself more clearly, that i am able to see not only how far i have to grow - but also how much growth i have already done & how much of my life i truly fill with light and laughter and love

horrible horrible horrible. hate it but i'm gonna do it tho

[lisafahrenheit]

been thinkin about how my ethics professor back in undergrad was like.

look. there’s no such thing as perfect altruism. you’ll always get something out of helping or being kind to others, whether it’s a stronger relationship or returned kindness or just the feeling of having done good. there’s nothing inherently bad about getting something from doing good either, especially since it’s completely unavoidable. people being rewarded for putting love into the world doesn’t make the world a worse place. so just do as much good as you can and don’t worry about being “selfless” while doing it, because being truly selfless is in fact impossible.

and like man did that take the pressure off of Being A Good Person!! you’re allowed to enjoy helping people! you’re allowed to be kind without worrying that you’re maybe secretly just doing it for yourself!! it’s okay if you are doing it for yourself because you’re still being kind to others!!!!!

#like truly i think that was what finally finished the process of un-fucking my brain from all of the Catholic Trauma #i don’t know what made me think of this again or what possessed me to make this post but. voila.

[totally-sapphic-posts]

Imagine coming home after a long day and they just hug you. They hug you in a way that melts all the tension from your muscles, and makes the stresses of the day fade into some distant memory. It’s one of those hugs you feel like you could fall asleep in, but you don’t want to because you want to savor every ounce of it even though you know you’ll get a million more of them

#post #I forgot what I was typing because my partner made me smile and all thoughts disappeared #why does my partner make me dumb 💀 #I feel like someone in one of those Disney movies when they talk to their crush and their brain malfunctions 😂 #so the words in this post aren’t exactly what I wanted to type but I can’t remember what it was 😂😭 #wlw #wlw blog #wlw post #wlw textpost #wlw sapphic #wlw yearning #useless wlw #sapphic #sapphic blog #sapphic post #sapphic textpost #useless sapphic #sapphic yearning #lesbian #lesbian blog #nblw blog #nblw #wlw pride #lesbian post #useless lesbian #nblw post #nblw textpost

[habken]

quirkless!Deku working at Dynamight’s agency in IT, he keeps messing with Bakugou’s stuff cause he has a crush on hates him

scammers to lovers <3 part 1 | part 2 | part 3

#mha #bnha #boku no hero acedamia #my hero academia #izuku midoriya #bakugou katsuki #bakudeku #bkdk #dkbk #habs art #doodles #la brava #this is probably the stupidest au i've made lmao #someone tried to scam me and my friend said 'what if the two of you fell in love' #and my brain has rotted away and I only think in bokiedokie so the rest is history #scammers to lovers

[hellhoundlair]

#in this scenario ur like. a smalltime celeb #i saw rpf of the guys from 2setviolin and it made my brain disconnect bc theyre just like some guys id see walk down the street #makes me think like. how rpf is different from americans who have a lot more celebrities per capata #or like. what if u wrote dan and phil rpf but u also lived a street away from them. thatd be weird.

[theshriekingsisterhood]

The way I SPRINTED to my computer to make this the second Risky showed me this textpost

#what we do in the shadows #wwdits #nandor the relentless #Nandor #Autistic Nandor the Relentless #Autismposting #deadass i didnt even have time to rip HD screenshots I needed to get this baby OUT #a more Nandor ass post has never before been made #Obviously Nandor doesn't know wtf Autism is bc hes a nearly 800 year old vampire #In my mind tho Colin Robinson called him Autistic once and Nandor just assumed it was a complimentary adjective akin to Awesome or Majestic #'Guillermo which of these capes makes me look more Autistic?' #'Guillermo is that not the most Autistic painting of a horse you have ever seen?' #Colin Robinson wasn't saying it as an insult also just to clarify #Just as like #a neutral descriptor #which obviously applies to Nandor #Risky I love you and your brain it is huge and wrinkly

[hitwiththetmnt]

I MADE MY IDEA! Spitfire AU

So this has been rattling around in my head for a while. Essentially it’s and AU based on the idea of the RISE boys having Nepo dragons as a fun combo between the 2003 dragon forms and the mystic magic of the RISE universe

I tried to take inspiration from the 2003 designs but also alter them to fit the RISE turtles personalities and powers

I’m working on developing this idea more (things like names and how this would run in the RISE universe) but I’m so happy I actually got to draw them ( ´ ▽ ` )

#thank you brain for letting me draw them when I had art block #there are already some cool comparisons between the RISE boys and the 2003 turtles so why not add to it? #I’m curious if someone else though of something like this #I’ve never made an AU so I’m curious to what depths of hell this will drag me to #my art #tmnt #tmnt 2003 #tmnt 2k3 #rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #tmnt spitfire #spitfire au #spitfire #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise tmnt #rise donnie #rise mikey #rise raph #rise leo #rise of the turtles

[suntails]

dance of dreams

#THEYRE SPINNIIIING THEYRE TWIIIIIRLING JUST LIKE IM TWIRLIIIING MY HAAAAAIR blink blink blink blink. hi :3 #im not taking back the :3 its how i feel dammit. its REAL RAW EMOTION u gotta accept it. en ee wayz #so 7.3 eng drop huh. yea so um. i . so u remember how the initial drop made me go insano mode and i drew 5 pieces in 4 days? #so it wasnt done. the second drop gave me one more to draw. its the THEM chapters its mals rage when hes like 'YOURE AWAKE??' #the TENSION!!! the DRAMA!!!! oh i am SICK my heart SKIPS!!! the two guys with dream powers fighting ougughh made just for me #made in a LAB for miss cartoons!!!!!! made in a lab for ME!!!!! silver's eye is a lil bit open if u look close. mal will find out soon #IM SICK SICK SICK SICK AND TWISTED MY BRAIN IS RATTLING LIKE A JUNKER CAR U BOUGHT AT 16 FOR 400 BUCKS #twst #twisted wonderland #twst silver #malleus draconia #the overblot fit still sucks to draw but goddammit ill do what i must. also yippee i dont hafta tag spoilers for once FGHJD #suntails

[sandflakedraws]

so i'm readin various stuff on the xray cause this silly film is my current source of joy and

wait

hold up.

what...

WAHT ??? WHAT

XRAY CAST DESCRIPTION????

YEARS???

xrAY dESCRIPTION eXPLaIN!!! WHAT DO YOU MEAN FLOYD WAS HELD CAPTIVE FOR YEARS, WHAT SECRET INFO DO U HAVE ACCESS TO???

#joey babbles #trolls band together #trolls floyd #I. don't know what to do with this random snippet #to be fair - #each description of the brozone bros expands a little bit further than the films do (ex. clay being a prankster) so is this. is this canon? #no? yes? half? #did velvet and veneer have him for years and only recently explode on the scene cause they got like. a big break? #some financial backing? a viral video? spotlight on spotify? #were they just experimenting with the best way to harvest a troll's core and only recently hit the jackpot method? #we never learn how the spritz bottle was made in the first place #my brain is bungled . #y. years....?

[chloesimaginationthings]

The way you draw Michael is so silly

I love him :3

SUCH A CUTE DRAWING OF HIM!!

#ask reply #fanart #THE JOY of seeing yall draw my designs has not worn off yet #and it never will #it’s just immediate serotonin to my brain #and reminds me why I draw these comics 💜💜 #I LOVEEE THIS lil doodle!! #you made him look like he’s scheming #what is he planning…. (arson)

[arunneronthird]

two different flavors of absolute menace

#i want to draw so much angst and i have so many thoughts on ghost as a character but #ofc first one my brain made me draw was the stupid one #call of duty #modern warfare ii #mw2 #simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish #my art #hi mw fandom i have no clue what im doing #but my god im gonna write and completely butcher everyones accent out of pure love for them #cod #cod mw2

[sillyahhchana]

gerard way in a nutshell

#well maybe not that feral yesterday but you see what i'm trying to say #i literally made this after i woke up so pls forgive idk what my brain forced me into #mcrokc #mcrsanantonio #mcr fanart #mcr #my chemical romance #also me posting art two days in a row? on freshly made blog? damn

[rawliverandgoronspice]

Always a bit puzzled by people saying that anyone who wanted long-term consequences for TotK Zelda's sacrifice are "edgy".

I'm not even particularly in the camp that she should have remained a dragon forever (I think this should have been Ganondorf's fate, it would have been sooo much more impactful than to explode him and move on but anyway). To be honest, I wish the rules for turning back would have been 1) clear 2) active gameplay on the player so that it feels like it's something we have earned, and 3) not make her have amnesia about it and/or at least having her gain some crucial insight because of the experience.

(also: doesn't she crave knowledge? isn't that insanely mean to have her watch over every civilization and every bit of history ever and then take it away from her? kind of dislike how totk privileges the comfort of the player's feelings over what the characters would actually want or need tbh)

To be perfectly honest, I fully expected us needing to turn her back before engaging Ganondorf so we would fight him together, especially since Zelda as a compagnon exists in the game code already (though in a very subdued state). It feels very very strange to me that all of this mechanic of Sages following us existing and yet we never have the very climactic cool Zelda-staple moment of facing Ganondorf or Ganon together (OoT, WW, TP, ST and probably more that I'm forgetting all did this in some way --even BotW had Zelda more involved than in TotK). I'm not sure Mineru was a compagnon that was needed over Zelda honestly, especially given the kind of non-insight she gives us on the zonai (even if the idea of the mecha is cool, it really could have been Zelda using her zonai + sheikah knowledge to pilot one for us or something).

But anyway: yeah, even if this isn't what I would have wanted personally, I think wanting Zelda to remain a dragon is kind of arguably more respectful of her relationship to Link, in a way, that what the game ended up doing. When she enacted this sacrifice, Zelda decided to trust him to such a extent that she lost herself, reciprocated his trust in her and his devotion to her, and now the future of Hyrule exists beyond her and beyond what Hyrule once was, but she trusts them to follow through and be happy and she will watch over them from the stars moving on. It's fine if we manage to save her from that fate, but even if we don't, honestly this sounds like a beautiful story/tragic romance to me, if you want to read it that way. Tragedy doesn't necesserily involve edginess. Fictional pain isn't always mean, or out to get you.

#totk #totk critical #zelda #link #when will my brain return from the imprisoning war... #take it from me: a professional edgelord #but genuinely I was quite disappointed when I realized I wouldn't get to fight alongside Zelda at all #I thought for sure the first descent was a setup for the final descent when we would be reunited #and then confront Ganondorf together #I don't know to me that would have just made sense #she's the one with the most beef with that man Link is honestly just here so she doesn't have to call an über afterward #link doesn't have half as much reasons to want ganondorf dead as zelda does #which didn't help the feeling that I had as much emotional investment in the situation than the friend you call when you get in trouble #ganondorf isn't even directly responsible for zelda returning to the past NOR turning into a dragon! the guy has no idea what's going on! #anyway. this game's plot is very weird.

[cemeterything]

this quote about cordyceps from this article in a scientific magazine is basically how i've always imagined possession to work in horror stories. the demon/entity/whatever doesn't alter your perception, displace you, or control your mind, they just take over all your bodily processes, bypassing your brain entirely. they force your mouth and vocal cords to form the words they want you to say, force your limbs to move in the direction they want you to go, and force your lungs to keep expanding and contracting and your heart to keep beating, even through excruciating pain and horrific injury, so you can't even self-sabotage and your friends and loved ones are discouraged from trying to stop you for fear of what harm they might cause you to do to yourself to escape. you're a passenger in the driver's seat of your own car, and the hands on the wheel, though outwardly apparently the same pair you've always had, are no longer your own.

#🐉 #self harm mention #idk what to tag this tbh i was just like heheheheheheh possession horror and made a post #horror #demonic possession #lmk if theres anything else you want me to add #this also ties into my speculative designs for angels and demons as more machinelike than humanlike #why try to hack something as complex and prone to error and randomness as the brain when you can just override a simpler sytem the body?