#why can’t I be normal

[regulusblqck123]

Regulus: why don’t I remember learning to read?

Sirius: cuz you’ve been reading since you were born.

Regulus: why can’t I remember learning to play the violin?

Sirius: cuz you learnt when you were two.

Regulus: why can’t I remember when I learnt to tie my shoes?

Sirius: cuz you have fucking amnesia.

Regulus: why can I remember a whole opera and book but not when I met James?

Sirius: you need to see a doctor.

Regulus: nah.

#regulus black #marauders #james potter #jegulus #marauders era #sirius black #remus lupin #dead gay wizards #wolfstar #james and regulus #amnesia #why can’t i be normal #why can’t I remember #idk what to tag this as

[vaisoric]

i’m jealous of people who actually have good dreams of jj.

one time, i chased him through a hotel in egypt, but every time i got close to him, he disappeared. so then i decided to pretend to be drowning in the pool to get his attention, and he saved me. and then he disappeared again.

#letty yaps 𝜗ৎ #why can’t i be normal #AND WHY IN EGYPT???? #jj maybank #jj maybank obx

[the-marauders-are-ghosts]

“Always the funny friend never the pretty friend “

Except I’m not even funny, I don’t understand conversation, I’m horrible at texting, idk who I can count as my friend, I’m always overthinking and I cry when I get under 90% on a test

Idk what’s wrong with me or how to fix it

#vent #i’m crying and dancing help #i’m crying #i’m going insane #why can’t i be normal #i want to feel wanted #why don’t I understand #fanfic #fanfiction #ao3 #marauders #solangelo #archive of our own #jegulus #percy jackon and the olympians #pjo fanfic #ao3 fanfic

[lysspossum]

Constantly torn between “of course I want attention! I’m human, humans need community and care from others! I need and want to be cared for by others just like everyone else”

and

“I almost sent my friend a message, that’s so fucking embarrassing. I can’t believe I almost told them I ate a sandwich today”

#whyyyyy #why can’t I be normal #why can’t I talk to people right

[exitwoundsx]

need to be naked on noah’s lap smoking a joint rn

#halfway through my 12 hour shift entertain me pls #why can’t i be normal #save me noah sebastian #noah sebastian #noah sebastian bad omens #chatting 🙂‍↕️

[p4rty4nim4l]

Tw//derealization

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I can’t even recognize myself in the mirror.

#object shows #object show community #bfdi #my art #x bfb #kinsona #vent #why can’t i be normal #I hate being like this #Im sorry

[the-shy-wolf]

I’m an absolute creature. I hibernate for months, draw my friends a thing, have an anxiety attack, then retreat into my hole for another few months.

#my art #why can’t I be normal

[dreamwinged]

ignore that i remade a month ago but remaking sounds sooooo good rn

#ok my reasoning is. #i feel so strange and bad about the way i exist in the community lately #NOBODYS FAULT everyone is so niceys and welcoming its just me tripping over the small stuff and guilting myself #but Still. not good i think i’ve vented abt it in depth a lot so i’ll spare y’all the details #i just think a fresh start might be better if i wanna change thins #does that even make sense. idk i just feel bad #WHY CAN’T I BE NORMAL #and i’m wondering if it’s even that deep like i should prolly just let shit go and stop hating on myself all the time #but. You know. siiiiiiiiiiiigh #.unrelated ˚༘⋆ ๋࣭ ࣪ ˖ #.mei’s chatter ˚༘⋆ ๋࣭ ࣪ ˖

[blackhillverse]

the shock and denial of maria’s death is finally wearing off and i slowly begin to cry every now and then, i hate it here its only the beginning of mourning.

#secret invasion spoilers #why can’t i be normal #deadass #my brain is like: i don’t understand the concept of fiction #hmph >:t #maria hill #secret invasion #marvel

[rabbitdepraved]

Not like- the best that could have been done but yk.

They don’t use normal pet names for each other because they’re not normal.

#saw #saw franchise #sawposting #hoffstrahm #saw fanart #peter strahm #coffinshipping #mark hoffman #they’re absolutely the worst #why can’t i be normal #brainrot is real #they can’t be nice to eachother at all #toxic yaoi #saw movies

[toomuchkween]

It was another cloudy weekend for me. I was awake from 11am on Saturday to about 1030pm Monday.

All told I spent downwards of 350 bucks.

I haven’t been to the gym in two weeks and I haven’t done laundry in 2 months.

I have 150 bucks in my checking account until I get paid Friday morning, and was able to pay 500 towards a CC bill.

Yay me?

My pipes are disgusting. I’m disgusting

#self sabotage #gay #gay mature #meth addict #addict #gay addict #queer addict #gay bear #i’m disgusting #why can’t i be normal #why can’t I stop

[beanibb]

killing my self is the most viable option rn.

#mentally fucked #obsessive thinking #borderline pd #bpd #bpd shit #s3lfharmm #kms #i hate existing #why am I like this #why can’t i be normal

[ndrwlls]

this wip i started like three moths ago (long before i started tma) is so tma coded

#everything is tma coded in my brain #i do mundane tasks and go #omg it’s just like in that one tma episode! #brain totally cooked #i remember mag86 every time i turn off the lights before bed #thought about going to the gym this is so mag90 #in a book shop thinking i’m so mike crew mag46 #why can’t i be normal #but i actually don’t want to be normal #my tma obsession makes me happy #my art #original art

[x-itzzzzzz-x]

i loooove being trans sooo much this is so great i feel so great all the time and love myself so much i have sooo many reasons to feel good about myself and i look , feel , sound and act exactly the way i want :)

#sarcasm #i hate this #i set myself up to be dysphoric #i’m built to feel wrong #transgender and autistic ?! #and afab #and queer #and fat #god must hate me #or just enjoys seeing me suffer #i hate myself so bad #i feel sick #i just want to be different #everything i want is out of reach #why can’t i be normal #or dead #i wish it had worked #it’s only gotten worse #i think it can only get worse #lonelly #trans #tw dysphoria #tw gender dysphoria #tw body dysmorphia #tw vent #tw sui ideation #autism #actually autistic #bpd

[fajkisses]

an insatiable desire to ruin myself in every way possible so someone finally proves they care about me

#i’m just a girl #just girly things #tumblr #female rage #poetry #literature #writing #post birthday sadness #girlblog #girlblogging #hell is a teenage girl #why can’t i be normal

[yourstrulyriley]

whos am i if not yours?

what am i if not your doll, your toy?

where am i if not your doll house that i cherish so deeply, that wretched, vile place?

when am i to be released if not ever?

who am i if not you?

who are you if not i?

we were meant to be one in the same, each others and each others only.

the other half to our souls once again conjoined,

but i cannot help but imagine that even after that,

maybe your soul belongs to another.

and maybe mine was never split in two to begin with.

perhaps i was only ever meant to have myself

maybe i was sculpted, shaped, to have everything i needed alone.

aside from the companionship i longed deeply,

the kind i thought i had found in you.

#poetry #guys my friends hate me i swear its not just me #everyone hates me and wants me to die #why am i incapable of true human friendship #why has god forsaken me #what have i done #why has god decided im better off alone #i am not #all i ever required was another half #anyone please #im just really tired and can’t bear existence rn #why can’t i be normal #why is it so hard