#you have to keep yourself safe

[thebumblecee]

FIC STATS

rules: give us the links to your fic with the most hits, second most kudos, third most comments, fourth most bookmarks, fifth most words, and fic with the least words.

Thank you for the tags @lemonlyman-dotcom and @chaotictarlos

(I just did Lonestar)

Most Hits

It’s gotta be Educating Mateo (38k) E this baby is coming up to it’s first full year out in the world. It hit really well with a group of the fandom I like to call the best ♥️ the fic is about married Tarlos training Mateo in BDSM, it’s not complex lol

Second most kudos

It’s actually EM again (the curse of the multi chapter. Or maybe it’s just sucks lol idk) so I went with my MOST kudos because well fuck it is 5am you can’t stop me which is

Something so wholesome (7k) E my Carlos introspective about his identity as a gay man and internalised homophobia (tw: slur is used)

Third Most Comments

Oh wildcard, it’s Just Like Heaven (11k wip) M. Yes, the 2005 romantic comedy starring Mark Ruffalo and Reece Witherspoon has a Tarlos parody. It has one chapter to go.

Fourth Most Bookmarked

It’s my baby When I’m Like this You’re The One I Want my (26k) D/s break up au that’s E, very E. I love the break up era and I wanted to put my own kinky spin on it.

Fifth Most Words

It’s JLH (above) and sixth is Wholesome (above) so SEVENTH is Pace Yourself For Me the 7.8k circus Tarlos knife kink au [girl what the hell is wrong with you etc etc]

Fic with the least words

Imma cheat here because my self-consciousness hasn’t woken up yet

Least words but full fic Gonna Please You Every Way I Can from the sub|Carlos series (2.4k) E

But I also have some short one shot collections (like 200-300 each) here and here

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I’m happy to scream, talk, cry, justify any of my fics past, present and future just hmu but please, please, PLEASE, read the tags. I am a kink writer first and foremost.

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Tagging: @mooshkat @a-j-cowwley @paperstorm @detective-giggles @jesuisici33 @wtfuckevenknows @lightningboltreader @heartstringsduet @wandering-night19 @birdclowns (my apologies anyone that’s done it it’s 5am I haven’t checked)

#cee speaks #writing #911 lonestar #tarlos #carlos reyes #tk strand #you have to keep yourself safe #read the tags and for the love of god do not feel obliged to read it just because we talk if it’ll make you uncomfortable #that is the LAST thing I would want #but if it is your thing then woo re-read #THANK YOU FOR TAGGING ME

[tampire]

"Stunning view" - Giant Crowley

#Good Omens #goodomensedit #goedit #Giant Crowley #Crowley #crowleyedit #ineffable husbands #David Tennant #My Gif #LGBT #lgbtedit #nonbinary #queer #you have sinned very bigly #i'm down with wicked #kys stands for keep yourself safe

[bearotonin-international]

Apex predator, my ass. I’m going to pet the dog 🐻🐻‍❄️🐼

perhaps now is a good time for some responsible bear programming to remind everyone that as cute and cuddly as they may seem, bears are lethal apex predators and should absolutely be treated accordingly if ever encountered.

DO

NOT

PET

#Responsible Bear Programming #^^ that's our tag for bears doing what they naturally do #if you do not like seeing bears behave as they naturally do -- as apex predators -- then please filter this tag accordingly friends #we are actually not accepting any complaints or suggestions about our tagging system or the content we post at the present moment #or at any point in the foreseeable future #so please don't try to comment or suggest otherwise #informative rant over now commencing educational rant #DO NOT try to pet the lethal beasts #you will be mauled and or killed #and then the bear will be killed for attacking a person #if you like bears the best thing you can do is ensure that they are not habituated to humans and do not view us as a source of food #either through your trash or through your flesh #keep yourself your neighbors and the bears safe by keeping human-bear interactions as minimal as possible #okay the team's done ranting now #(we're having A Day) #(it has a lot to do with the squirrels breaking into the floor of HQ and eating through our electrical wiring) #ask

[muppetcube]

Nobody is required to explain their personal relationship with their identity with you. I, however, will talk nonstop if given the chance and will give you a wildly different answer every time

#my relationship with myself and my identity and the world around me is constantly changing and evolving. if you asked me to explain my #identity this morning i would've given you a different answer than i'd give you if you asked me right now #because throughout the day i considered myself differently and had the chance to think more on it #identity doesn't have to be a rigid blade you carry to keep yourself safe. identity can be something as simple as a flowy shirt you like or #a cup you're drinking your favorite beverage out of. on the other hand #identity IS rigid for some people. and that's also okay. but we're talking about genderfuck folks and all the cool shit they're doin #i lost the plot writing these notes ik air drying in my bathroom after my shower (this too is gender) #queer #lgbt #lgbtq community #lgbtqia #queer community #lesbian #he/him lesbian #neopronouns #butch lesbian #genderqueer #gender nonconforming #genderfuck #trans #transgender #uhh. #inane identity ramblings #new gender tag

[everysongineverykey]

and for my next trick i present... my Grand Tv People Freakout Extravaganza!!! *falls to the floor weeping violently*

#the owl house #toh raeda #raine whispers #eda clawthorne #i swear to god they're going to kill me. they're going to kill me. falls onfloor #you do everything you can to keep your beloved from finding out your secret thinking they will surely hate you but they end up leaving you #for doing just that #and then thirty years later they lie to you about being brainwashed and pretend not to recognize you #to keep you safe so they say #but you look into their eyes and all you see is that younger you staring back at you!!! #the one who loved them so much she forced the feathers and claws back down into her skin to keep them with her and didn't even succeed! #and you think: i thought we were past this. i thought you said i should have known better. #but when it comes down to it you both just want to keep the other safe more than anything. because maybe you still love each other #underneath the years of loneliness and bitterness. and maybe the thought of looking them in the eyes #and just saying 'i'm sorry. i was wrong. i miss you. i love you. can we try again?' #is too frightening for that prideful earnest loving yet cowardly and broken girl inside you. #and the thought of admitting you have made them change their mind is too painful for your beloved #who has resigned themself to always standing there and watching as you go and destroy yourself while cracking a joke. #anyway. heehoo funny owl show

[phossyjaw]

actually shout-out to abuse victims that had/have to use tactics like manipulation in order to survive and get what they need. now don't get me wrong, i am not praising manipulation of other people or saying that it's good in any way, but sometimes that's what people need to do in order to get by.

and shout-out to people who still need to unlearn and get past those old tactics. getting out of survival mode and stop lying/avoiding/fawning/etc. is NOT easy!

#my brain feels so scattered right now i hope this makes sense #what i MEAN in simpler terms is using those kind of tactics isn't good or anything to praise but if it's all you have to keep yourself safe #then that's all you have. #and i myself and working to stop doing shit that i used to need to do while being abused. it's hard

[bluest-planet]

Having emotions over the fact that Kingdom Hearts as a series is probably the closest thing in mainstream media (to me, there of course might be more out there but like it different because its a product of major IPs) to like, aromantic and asexual themes and queerness being so intertwined with its 'friendship prevails' and 'forging connections' messaging.

Like. Yeah, theres the disney couples, and whatever the hell might be implied between characters like Kairi and Sora or Namine and Riku, or even Riku and Sora. But that's the thing, its not confirmed.

Like, sure, its enough for normies to maybe connect the "boy and girl therefore couple" despite how little there is to fall in line with that expectation because it takes so little for allos to believe in romantic love, that just a girl and a boy who care about one another yet barely speak is enough to confirm it.

But theres also, so, so much evidence against it too, if you just look to the side for a second.

Like, there's no big confession, there's no kiss or proposal of some kind (i mean theres the paopu but, im pretty sure they both have two separate fruits rather than one,) they have more characters in their lives to care about then just themselves, and maybe its the aro in me but they have like. Barely any chemistry and feel more like far away friends, where they left impact on one another but have an awkwardness/unfamiliarity between them.

And like, yeah, I think reading Riku as gay on his own- or both he and Sora having romantic feelings for one another is totally valid, esp considering how much is centered between their relationship.

But... It also... Warms my heart to just know they love and care about one another... Intertwined... But it could be entirely platonic. Not strictly as Brothers or Lovers but something else, be it best friends or queerplatonic partners or something entirely else that drifts between all of those labels.

They just care. And that's enough, thats valid, and its celebrated.

But what gets me the most, even if its not explored a lot, is Sora and his connection with everyone and his other heartmates (Xion, Roxas, Vanitas, Ventus). He has cute friendships in every world! He's friends with so many different people who are always happy to see him and invite him to comeback, always happy to help him if he needs it while he visits so long as it was within their power (the various disney characters) as if he has a home everywhere he goes, he's not actually bound to any one place.

Which yeah, that might seem sad to people. The idea that Sora might not have a definitive home because hes been changed so much on his journey, so much hardship.

But that's kind of mean to think, isn't it? Sometimes people loose their childhood homes, but that doesn't mean you can't build an even better one elsewhere. That doesn't mean you should be bound to any one place, maybe his home is just his friends, any and all of them- wherever he is, so long as he's with anyone he cares about it'll be home. And if his friends aren't there?

He'll make more, not because he's replacing them, but because he just has so much space and so much love for the world around him. He's willing to keep expanding his horizons and making more connections, more homes so he'll never be homeless again. Does that make sense?

It might be hard in 4, whatever will happen to him in Quadratum, but thats what its about; how he'll recover in his darkest hour while relying on what he's learned and being himself but improved.

The fact that Sora has gone to so many worlds and made so many friends- something Ventus wanted to do so bad, and yet. He carried Ven and took him along for the ride while he was resting. To me its heartwarming, Ven may be asleep, but he's not being abandoned, he's right along with him enjoying it in his dreams. Sora's not alone with his companion even if he doesn't realize it.

I always define my gender as "We as in Me but upside down" or "the sum of conversations and experiences shared with others, including myself" because i usually use "we" to refer to myself (not here for simplicity's sake) I dont need romance or desire to be a person, or to enjoy life. I'm never alone, even if theres no one in the room. I get that from Sora, y'know?

How Xion and Roxas spawn from him, I'd wish we got more between them. But just knowing how much he wanted to save Roxas, Ventus, Aqua, Xion, Vanitas- he helps the people who both are and aren't him, or make up who he is or reflect- he care about them. And its because he cares about them, that he cares about the people they care about.

Sure, if he didn't have some connection to Ven and therefore Aqua- he'd still try and save her because that's just how he is. He cares. But at the same time, it means more because he knows how Ven feels, thats his friend, and therefore, Sora's friend. He doesn't care if he's ever met her he just jumps at the chance to save Aqua and hold onto the small thread tied between them. Same with Xion.

I'm sorry, I'm not making much sense, am I? I'm not good at articulating my thoughts. But the fact that he uses any small connection as an excuse to get closer to someone who means a lot to someone he cares a lot- it makes my heart flutter! I wished all the people i cared about got along and were friends with each other too. I wish I could visit and rely on people from all across the world too, because i would never want to settle in any one place if i realistic could. I'd keep my loved ones safe in my heart if they needed it, if i could, and carry them wherever I go, hoping to share all the same pleasant experiences. Or I'd be fine splitting pieces of myself, just to keep me company to know what I must look like outside of my own perspective, to know how else i could inevitably change into another person entirely to meet up and compare lives later, enjoying the differences.

I wish I could offer a chance at something better to the same face, to say; i see your anger and your path refuse to think its okay to be self-destructive, now come home. And my brighter, happier self, to get the happy ending i deserve by saving myself while also being a friend to myself. Waking up from the bad dream at last, to enjoy an awakened life full of connections.

But I cant, and thats okay, my life is one I enjoy regardless, but Kingdom Hearts... Is in many ways- the ultimate aromantic and asexual fantasy for me. And maybe even a few others.

#kh #kingdom hearts #asexuality #aromantic #kh sora #kh analysis #ig #blue speaks #is this anything? sorry im putting myself out there.... #of course being aroace is super varied and what im saying here doesn't apply to all aroaces #and hey id love to celebrate other aroace readings of kh! #ik mine is very heavily centered on what counts as the “self” and what i call “self company” #for a long time ive imagined not other people or personaities exactly.... #but closer to imaginary friends or facets of myself to talk to since ive been on my own a lot #its transformed as ive grown into a type of gender identity mixed with my aroace part #so the heart hotel is just such a lart of that #on that note. ik roxas and xion and ven and van are all their own people and that people find comfort knowing they're allowed to be #but when you have a gender like my own.... they're they're one people but they're also one... does that make sense? #if you could be friends with yourself. keep you safe. take care of you. have fun toegether.... and experience the same event differently... #idk theres feels about that #didn't get into it but yeah. sora leaves the islands that are his home and friends home in other people #and he wants to explore but it's different from why riku wants to leave #Riku leaves to explore learn and experience more things and discover the unknown #but Sora never 'leaves' the islands for good. He expands his definition of home. building a bigger house with materials he's given #idk if that makes ense again.... my bad LOL #edit: im tired and riddled with a shit tone of grammar and word mistakes about so excuse the incoherency lol

[flowercrowngods]

i don't know how to be merely acquaintances when we used to be friends. or i think we used to be. i don't know how to yearn for a simple hello when you've been heaping your affection on me months ago, and i don't know how to talk to you when you won't say anything. when suddenly it's all about me. you know i have nothing to say, you know my brain is void of everything but horribleness and i cannot tell you about my day because i don't even know about my day. i cannot tell you about my day when i know you won't listen, when i know you'll apply your philosophy to my world and don't believe me when i say that everything is terrible. i don't know how to be the person you seem to think i am, or the person you want in your life. i don't know if you want anyone else in your life now that you're in love and sappy, found another recipient for your affections, leaving me empty and wounded and yearning.

you said you missed me. said it many times, while i was gone. now i'm back, have been back, and i wonder how you missed me, why you missed me, when you won't talk to me. i think you mistook missing for worrying. i think you mistook caring for a feeling of obligation. i think you like missing me more than talking to me.

and i think i can't breathe with how much that hurts

#how do you miss me when you won't talk to me? how do you like me so much and then go to just. not? #how did i let you in when i try so hard not to let people do that because i know that once they get past the walls all i'll be left with #is the idea of them rotting and withering inside me. polluting the space i create to keep myself safe. #why does everyone leave? leave in silence too. leaving behind so many questions and so many words engraved in my brain #i am so tired of *grieving* when those i grieve are still alive and well and thriving and i'm reminded that it's versions of myself #that i'm grieving instead. how do you grieve yourself? how do you not fucking fall apart over it? #just. fucking talk to me. don't make it be true that all i'll ever be is nothingness and the memory of someone you liked once #but never never never liked enough #i'm so so cold already. i'm a shell. i want to be warm again but it always leaves me so hollow and hurting #i grieve the dio who was warm. i grieve them i miss them i am so so angry that he had to leave. to hide. with no way out #i'm happy for you. i'm happy you're happy. but you're no better than anyone else and it makes me want to run away again #but i have nowhere else to run and no one else to be. and it's so fucked that it doesn't matter who i am i'll never be enough #for someone to just. stay. to see me and to stay. to hear me and to sit and listen and just. just fucking stay. #maybe i'm not worth staying for. maybe there's nothing to know nothing to hear nothing to see nothing to listen to nothing to find #maybe all i'll ever get is one/two good months paid for with a lifetime of grief. and i'm at the point where i don't want the good months #anymore with you or anyone else who tears down these walls with affection that is so endlessly addictive and leaves me yearning. #on the off chance that it will keep the grief away too. but that's the thing about grief isn't it? it's here to stay. unlike you #god this is so fucked up and i'll delete this later but for now i just need to. let it out. poe said i should make a side blog for the grie #but poe's not there anymore. poe has stopped starting fires. so this goes on main until shame makes me take it down #blah #personal #not st

[snekdood]

if ppl telling you "jewish ppl in israel were already kicked out of other countries and have no where else to go" makes you feel compelled to call whoever said that a "zionist", I really just dont think you give af about jewish ppl's lives quite frankly.

if your "free palestine" means "getting rid" of all jewish civilians in israel I think you're probably just a heartless asshole.

#two state solution ftw #or at least something along those lines #yelling at average jewish ppl who ARENT in israel is antisemitic #anti semitism- no matter how 'big of a deal' you think it is naturally makes jewish ppl feel unsafe by default #where do they go when theres nowhere else thats safe? you guessed it- probably to israel. #which is WHAT netanyahu wants. he wants scared controllable civilians to think hes the only one who can protect them #so you being anti semitic and not checking yourself on it or being 'whatever its nbd' about it is making everything so much worse #STOP BEING SO FUCKING APATHETIC FUCK ILL BEAT YOU UP TO MAKE YOU FEEL SOMETHING IF I HAVE TO #i dont feel like i can in good conscious reblog your 'free palestine' posts bc idk wtf the op thinks about jewish ppl being in #israel. and at this point i dont have faith in leftists to not notice the antisemitism in some of these ppl and call it out #its not something we can 'push aside and deal with and apologize for later' its ACTIVELY MAKING THE SITUATION WORSE AND NEEDS #TO BE ADDRESSED RIGHT THE FUCK NOW #maybe jewish ppl wouldnt be calling it 'self defense' if yall didnt keep being antisemitic and making them feel like they have to cling #to israel to stay tf alive. fuck. #OBVIOUSLY the response to what hamas did is disproportionate and affecting more people than israel says it intends to target #but thats the govt. and actual regular people are worried about their families. its disproportionate and probably being used as an excuse #to genocide palestinians but this wouldnt be happening if hamas didnt basically GIVE the israeli govt the excuse to do it. #free palestine. from hamas and from the israeli govt. and dont have genocidal intent toward jewish ppl. #thats all i want. #hamas' escalation did nothing but hurt everyone and make things worse especially for palestinians.

[thebumblecee]

In an effort to try write something anything I’ve asked various people to give me a word. I’ll add the micro flashes here as they come out

1. Thigh

If handed a pen and a piece of paper TK could map out Carlos’s thighs from memory. Every curve of firm muscle, every dip of soft flesh, the scar he got riding his bike when he was twelve, the soft hair that dusts them. All of it is burned into TK’s living memory.

When he’s not with him he can see them so clearly in his mind's eye. He can picture the way they tense when he comes and trembles when he desperately needs to. His fingers ghost over phantom scratches he’s left behind on the outside of his husband’s thighs a few nights prior.

They’ll be there, under his uniform, standing raised against golden brown skin.

The inside of his thigh starting to purple in a delicate pattern of bruises from TK’s mouth that morning.

Fuck.

He knows them better than he knows his own. He’s traced his fingers along the veins when they’ve had lazy Sundays wherein Carlos lay on his stomach and read trusting TK to amuse himself, and he’s tasted the salty sweet sweat that peppers his skin when he’s been working out and TK dragged him to bed. He’s felt the power in them when Carlos fucks up into him. How they feel squeezing against his sides, trapping him in place, in a warm safety he’s never felt before.

Work is slow. The energy in the firehouse is low and there nothing to occupy TK’s thoughts away from his husband’s thighs.

It’s criminal they’re attached to the man who’s across the other side of the city.

2. Knife

TK knows that there is probably some deep seated, psychological, issue at play in his unconscious mind right now but he’s pushing it to the side to admire his husband’s knife work.

Well, more like drool over it.

He’s seen Carlos cook a thousand times but it feels like this is the first time he’s really seen it.

He’s finely chopping peppers as he talks idly about his day in that sweet, soothing, tone of voice that comes deep from inside of his chest. The kind that calms the voices in TK’s mind and ebbs away his anxiety like cold water in a stream.

TK isn’t listening to a word. He’s transfixed on the way he has the knife gripped in his hand, it’s secure but not too firm, there’s enough movement from the handle that it works as an extension of him. The blade flashes teasingly as it slices through the vegetable with ease. They rhythmic thumpthumpthump on the chopping board is syncopating with TK’s own heartbeat.

Why is he sweating?

The muscles in Carlos’ forearm flexes with every commanding chop of the knife and TK’s mouth goes dry.

“Babe?” The word floats towards him languidly before settling in his brain. He snaps his eyes up to Carlos’ concerned ones.

The concerned expression vanishes as quickly as it came and a smug tug on his lips appears instead, “you good?”

“Bed,” TK says, he misses suave and alluring by a mile and lands on croaky, “forget dinner let’s go to bed.”

Whether or not the knife stays in the kitchen is between them.

#cee speaks #will be unbetad and all done within 10 minutes #it’s get the words on the page #fast and messy #to be continued #if you see a mistake no you don’t #I’ll edit when the rest of the words come in/I wake up #sorry for the word please 🫴🏻 messages #if you don’t mind me adding ur name next to your word let me know and I’ll tag you #you have to keep yourself safe #me? writing? inconceivable!

[3amclothesmonster]

Me seeing my mutuals comment on pro-npd posts saying "___ is not a narcissists" or anti-npd things: ):

#GUYS PLEASE I HAVE POSSIBLE NPD DO NOT MAKE ME HATED BY MY OWN COMMUNITY (I also am cluster b) #Please. If you don't agree just keep it to yourself #cluster b safe #Please don't get a block cause of things you comment

[danger-noodles-doodles]

i am tired and procrastinating and i'm sure someone has said this already, and better, but Nightshade in Transformers: Earthspark is making me so emotional.

it's about the joy of being queer and especially the joy of finding out there's a whole world full of people like you and the joy of learning that there's words that describe how you feel and the joy of being able to talk about it.

"...what a wonderful word for a wonderful experience."

being queer is a wonderful experience and i'm so so unbelievably happy that there's starting to be media that shares that opinion so blatantly. there's people out there who get you and people you can talk to and my gods so many people who have stood where you're standing and whose footprints in the road ahead can show you where you might end up. you can wave at them and say hi! i'm like you! and then they might say hi! i'm like you! and that connection gets to sit in the back of your mind for the rest of your life because you're not alone and you've never been alone.

what a wonderful experience indeed.

#queer #nonbinary #gender #transformers #transformers earthspark #tfe nightshade #i'm rambling i'm raving and also a secret third thing #which is ranting #if you're not safe being you yet then you keep yourself safe and never think less of yourself for it #you're all wonderful #this probably makes no sense i'm so tired #but have it anyways

[meownotgood]

ok now u got me thinking. aki coming back as the Cold devil. or the Winter devil. or the Snow Storm devil. and he looks the same as he did when he was human but his irises are like a powder blue and there’s always snow in his hair and his lashes. and contrast that with falling in love with you again who he thinks of as so warm and kind and loving….. thawing him….. much to think about - 🍊

the same year the gun devil was eliminated, japan experienced a particularly hard winter season — perhaps that's why he was reborn as the snow devil. when he first opened his eyes, he was met with a dark and cloudy sky, he could hear the lull of the ocean, his ears were still ringing from the hum of a chainsaw and the only thing he can remember is his first name, and particularly not his last.

public safety is quick to follow through on the reports of a humanoid-looking devil wandering the outskirts of hokkaido, leaving a trail of frozen water and dead trees in his path. upon capturing him, since he seemed to not pose much of a threat, he's escorted to the headquarters in tokyo rather than slain.

once the devil gets there, he's apathetic, quiet. doesn't speak unless spoken to. his skin is pale, his lips are chapped, his eyes are a pretty shade of blue and his eyelashes are pure white. he'd pass as a human if it wasn't for the twist of icicles sticking out from his head like horns, covering his hair and his shoulders in tiny droplets of snow, or for the intricate marks on his skin, faint tattoos in the shape of snowflakes.

he looks familiar. like someone who's face was in the obituaries a while ago.

in the mail, you get an unexpected letter from public safety. it includes train tickets, and it's telling you to come to tokyo on urgent business. the minute you've arrived, some devil hunters explain the situation: you need to have a look at this devil — the snow storm devil — and tell them everything you might know about it.

of course, you've never heard of such a thing before. you don't know anything about devils, how are you supposed to give them any valuable information? but when the hunters unlock the cell for you, when you take a step inside and they tell you, don't worry, just keep your distance and you won't get hurt right as they flick the lights on, you realize exactly why you were called here.

it's him.

it's aki, this devil looks exactly like aki, his hair is long and dark and messy, he's got the same face as aki and the same voice as aki when he opens his mouth to ask who you are. he doesn't get to finish his sentence and tell you how damn familiar you look to him because you're already running over, reaching out to touch him even though the devil hunters are yelling at you from the other side of the door, telling you it's too dangerous.

and his skin is cold, he's freezing. you grip his hands, you wrap your arms around him and hug him and it's aki.

aki isn't sure why, but right then, he feels like crying. he's felt nothing but coldness since he came to this place, but you feel so, so warm. his heart twists in his chest, he hugs you back even though he doesn't really know why. he could kill you, he could press his palm to your back and watch you freeze until you're nothing but dust and ice. but he doesn't.

he holds you close, he breathes frost-filled air into the nape of your neck. his body shakes, you mutter into his ear that you've missed him. you pull away, and there's a look in his eyes that's familiar, it's one you've always known.

and yet, when you nervously ask him if he knows who you are, if he remembers you, aki answers honestly, and it's the most the devil has ever spoken: "I don't. But I feel like I should. I'm sorry."

#how about you having to protect devil aki from being slain #perhaps injuring yourself in order to keep him safe #and it confuses him because why would you do something so kind for a devil? #don't you understand what he is? why are you so kind to him? #you end up trying to do things to jog his memory but in the end it never works #but it does make him slowly fall in love with you all over again #and as you grow closer to him and treat him with more warmth and affection #the days in winter seem to be warmer as a result.... #thanks for indulging me in reincarnation aki..... I have the brain worms for it right now.... #just the idea of aki who gets a second chance at life but has to rebuild everything from scratch #aaaa.. a.. a. aasbsbbww #wanna write something full about it some time #I really love the idea of aki being a snow related devil.... I also imagined him being like a snow devil but #he's like a snow angel so he has big white wings #ask mags #aki <3

[gibbearish]

ik i talk abt high control groups kinda often but i do encourage anyone involved in discourse in any capacity to watch folding ideas' "this is financial advice" video, because a lot of what he says about the gamestop apes being a self-organizing high control group imo also explains the more toxic discourse tendencies, and i feel like most discussion around high-control groups on here focuses on the tradtional kind that has one or a few distinct leaders which makes it harder to draw parallels between the signs. so i think its important to point out that these kinds of groups can still create that same energy as a unit even if there isn't one specific person calling the shots

#origibberish #namely the signs ive noticed most over the years are obviously internal jargon‚ thats kind of a given when working with microlabels #but see also transmed/truscum/trender/tucute/acey/theyfab/transandrophobia truther/etc etc etc #ideas being boiled down to short gotchas that just get ping ponged back and forth #see The Entirely Of Any Ace Discourse Argument for that but again see 'theyre just trans mras' #and the tendancy for members to turn on anyone who steps out of line even a little #omg i cqnt believe i forgot pro/anti discourse too theyre really bad about all of these on both sides #oh or another example would be steven universe discourse #like 'it endorses letting fascists off the hook' would just get thrown around as if it was undisputed fact despite there being MILES #of shit going on in the background to get to that #anyways. yeah 👍 keeping this in mind has already made a huge difference in how i engage in online discussions #and has also been a good rule of thumb for when to Stop engaging with someone #where if theyre displaying these signs thank you i do not want to be part of this #and like yes that goes for people youre arguing with but it obviously /ESPECIALLY/ goes for people you like #if you have a friend who you feel like you cant say anything that disagrees with them or theyll freak out at you. you dont have to keep #being friends with them. if being around someone makes you uncomfortable and you constantly find yourself making excuses for why #they treat you the way they do then thats a bad sign #and like with that i really hope ive managed to yknow. create a nice space here where ppl feel safe bringing stuff up? #idk

[icewindandboringhorror]

A very interesting cloud formation!

#I don't think I had ever really seen clouds like this before? it looks like a cool painting or something :0 #Pulling just a few images from my cloud and sky photos folder which has like 650 pictures in it becvause I'm obsessed with the sky lol #I will usually spare everyone the cloudposting but... in some exceptions when it's really cool I must Share #(upcoming covid mention in tags for those avoiding the topic) #I WANT TO BE ON AN AIRPLANE SO SO BAD I am going to start casting evil spells to explode all these 'back to normal' bastards who are out #spreading virus and shit HHHHHH... Covid is NOT over actually contrary to popular beielf especially for people with health conditions #that make them more vulnerable or would have worse consequences if they were to catch it etc. etc. wearing a mask in public is #in MOSt cases not THAt much of a horrific terrible evil inconvenience and it helps keep everyone around you safer including these #vulnerable populations!!!! Even if I didn't have any problems myself I would STILL be masking because it's a small gesture that can make a #big difference in people around me being comfortable. It's not like people with health issues just never have to go out or go to the stor #or whatever. There are still people out there who could be helped by extra precautions that are being overlooked. grrrrr... #Like at this point since I'm vaccinated and everything I would MAYBE consider flying on an airplane IF everyone else around me #was masking and being just as careful as me. But at this point it's just the wild west and I would literally be the only one who gives #a shit or who gets tested freqeuntly before after and during traveling and wears the proper type of mask well fitting and not half off my f #ce and blah blah blah. And precautions work best when EVEYRONE is participating. There's only so much you can protext yourself if everyone #around you is doing nothing. So.. alas.. I still do not feel safe traveling. And probably won't for years until more progress is made in #terms of like understanding and treating certain long covid issues and etc. Since I think it's inevitable that if I start going out again #I would get covid. Me and my household bubble are some of the only people I know who haven't had it yet (or at least not knowingly so - if #so it was one of the asymptomatic cases etc.). So if I was GOING to get it anyway I'd at least like the assurance that whatever long term #issues I inevtabley suffer because of it will be more easily treatable at that point instead of entirely disabling even further than I'm #already disabled. etc. AAANYWAY!! all that to say. I JSUT REALLY WANT TO be on an airplane!!! I dont even like traveling and going places I #hate vacations and would rather be at home working on my projects I'm fixated on lol HOWEVER I love the view from airplane windows #like the very few times in my life Ive actually been on a plane and the window is so COLD when you lay your forehead on it and sometimes yo #even see little ice crystals and it's like you're just in a landscape of clouds with a sea of clouds above and below and aaaAAAAAA #Literally I want to get on a plane just to go up in the air and then land and fly back. I don't even want to go on a real trip. I just NEED #to see the sky I need to be IN the sky I need to have that VIEW and the cold and everything!!!! gRGGHGgg... And I will do that the entire #time. I think my longest plane ride was 7 hours and I do not watch movies. I dont text or play games. I literally do nothing to entertain #myself except stare straight out the window for 7 hours (with a few eating and bathroom breaks). not even joking lmao. It's like a trance #I LOVE the sky and clouds so much and the view you get from an airplane is like incomparable!! also I love airports with the big windows an #people watching. but mostly I just long for the sky view again. GRRR.. sobbing and yearning >:T

[boxwinebaddie]

URGENTT ADVICE FROM UNCLE NINA NEEDED!!

ok so I know you work with kids; even if theyre not as young as the ones I work with, and I have a situation I need some advice on. I'm 15 and I volunteer to work with kids that are troubled/their parents don't or can't have them home right away. (D.A.R.E) And there's this kid who has become my little buddy, he's nine years old and today I was at my little volunteer job and he started fake moaning so ofc I let him know not to do that; and he didn't stop so I repeated myself. That resulted in him asking why, so I said "Do you know what that means?" And he said yes. But then I was like bro no way so I said what dude thats crazy then he was like im just kidding but then he asked me what it meant and I was like, "ask your mom." Then he started making inappropriate jokes and I continued to let him know that it wasnt appropriate, Then he asked if I had a boyfriend so i was like nope and he was like oh I thought you would have one so I said thanks, but it really concerned me. I don't know what I should do, I talked to my mom and she said to just keep correcting him and he'll learn and not to tell the deputy I work with because that'll just get him in trouble and to only do that when it becomes too extreme. I agree with her but I want another opinion to see if this would be the correct thing to do.

thanks so much:D

hi, my friend! i apologize if this is brief and a bit jumbled -- i am still a little out of sorts, but you did say Urgent, so i wanted to respond!

that...is an unfortunate situation. and a tricky one. i do agree with you and your mom, though. i think you should definitely use your next interactions as an indication of tone w/ the kid you're working with, see if he mellows out or is still not listening/not respecting your boundaries. i think it might even be wise as a final warning to be like, hi, this is making me uncomfortable, this is your last warning before i speak -authority figure- and while not telling that deputy, perhaps mentioning the possibility of consulting that deputy will deter the kid.

most importantly though, i just want to caution you and say please don't let that drag out too long. the biggest issue i found with my new job is i did not set boundaries well enough or firmly enough and that's why i got hell handed to me in a handbasket, like if that child is saying something uncomfortable to you and you are like "hm, that was weird, i didn't like that, but maybe it'll be alright" that is not alright and you should not feel like that.

at the end of the day, those kids need support and while getting in trouble is very unpleasant, if that is how that kid is going to learn not to conduct himself in that manner, then he is better off for it.

but yes, i would go ahead with the corrections but if you notice it getting Worse ( and not even like massively worse, i think any amount of it escalating/you not being listened to is cause for action )...i would speak to the deputy but also maybe see if there is a gentler way in which your friend can go about speaking to the child?

either way, i will say sometimes you have to put up that hard wall, it sucks but it's always easier as a teacher to start stern and get sweet, if you stat sweet and try to get stern, that's muuuch harder. so tldr, give the kid grace for now, but if it gets worse, i would say something and i would say something sooner rather than later.

i am...not very wise, but i hope this helps?

#sorry this is a mess u did say Urgent #and i think that ur on the right track #the important thing for me is that u cannot let wanting to help any child be placed over your personal comfort levels #and that is behavior that does need to be corrected asap #it does suck having to get kids in trouble but...unfortunately it is most of my job and it does keep them safe #it also keeps you safe my dear #just really listen to your heart and how you feel and i would say #even a time before you think Okay This Is Really Bad #i would tell someone #bc u are likely holding out far longer than you should for the sake of keeping that kid from getting reprimanded #be kind to yourself my friend; set those boundaries! #also having boundaries and structures like that are what i think are going to support those kids the most #but also i like boundaries and support ig #SPEAKING OF THE KIDS #I AGREED TO STAY 3 EXTRA HOURS TO DO AFTER SCHOOL #BRUUUUUH WHY AM I LIKE THIS #mine is diff tho mine is for money shskalskslas