somedsy

[somedsy]

Sometimes you need to rearrange your whole room at 2 o’clock in the morning and that’s just the way it is.

#rearrange #insomnia #insomniac #redecorate #silently trying to move my giant creaky wood bedframe by myself #I feel like a new person now #refreshing #life #I’m trying not to wake everybody up

[somedsy]

People who think they are terrible, are terrible.

People who think they are good, are terrible.

We are all terrible people, morality just gets in the way sometimes.

#webweaving #mental health #sad thoughts #life #quotes #quote #terrible #terrible people #we are all bad people #shower thoughts #thoughts #emotions #morality keeps us alive #morality #poem

[somedsy]

People who go to bed early always complain that the night is too short, but for those of us who stay up all night, it can feel as long as a lifetime.

Banana Yoshimoto

#mental health #perpetually sleepy #sleep deprivation #cant sleep #i just want to sleep #sad thoughts #quotes #quote #sleep quotes

[somedsy]

I grew up thinking knowledge is wonderful.

Having the answers to questions nobody my age thought to ask gave me a deep satisfaction that I felt run through every nerve in my body.

Now that I’m older, I feel like my knowledge weighs me down.

My head is harder to lift, and my feet drag against the floor with all the words I now have to carry with me.

I wish I could be as ignorant as the rest of the people around me.

To be as blissfully unaware as them, because they just seem so much happier than me.

#mental health #sad thoughts #keep going #life #webweaving #depressing shit #destroy myself>>> #tw depressing thoughts #sorry for being depressing

[somedsy]

“I've always envied people who sleep easily. Their brains must be cleaner, the floorboards of the skull well swept, all the little monsters closed up in a steamer trunk at the foot of the bed.”

David Benioff, City of Thieves

#mental health #sad thoughts #chronic insomnia #idiopathic insomnia #insomia #perpetually sleepy #tired #mentally tired

[somedsy]

How nice it must be to be pottery in Japan.

To know that if you break, someone will be there to glue you back together and make your scars golden.

And to have people marvel over how pretty the gold makes you.

#Kintsugi #webweaving #life #golden #breaking #to be put back together #piece by piece #mental health #keep going #pottery #broken glass #broken pot #glue me back together

[somedsy]

I will continue to grieve for as long as I love you.

I hope there never comes a day where I do not grieve you.

#webweaving #sad thoughts #grief #grieve #words words words #spilled words #loss #big brother #i miss you #emotions

[somedsy]

There’s no story here.

Just a boy, who did good on a math test,

And he could not wait to go home and show his grandmother.

#webweaving #keep going #life #sad thoughts #I miss old friends #and the kids we used to be #I remember #how excited you were #I didn’t forget #children are the strongest of us all #sad #spilled words #achievement #I was proud of you #I still am #i still believe #in you #is this tragedy? #I knew you once

[somedsy]

I feel like I have weights attached to the corners of my lips, dragging them down

#mental health #life #sad thoughts #sad #perpetually sad #perpetually sleepy #quote #quotes #sad quotes #mental illness #alexa how do I stop being sad? #keep going #try harder #do #not #stop

[somedsy]

And this fear was different than what I had before.

Before it was fear of never being able to escape you, but now, it's the fear that you're going to come back, and I won't be able to stop it.

#grief #fear #scared #love #life #loss #mental health #child abuse #emotional #zero escape #escape #leave me alone #please don’t come back #I don’t want you here #quotes #quote #life lessons #life quotes #to fear is to die

[somedsy]

Lonely

You are not who I would look at first when walking into a crowded room.

I wouldn't be drawn to the sound of your voice as your words were lost in a sea of overlapping sounds in that same crowded room.

Yet here I am, missing what i imagined you could give me.

#dream #dreams #lonely #lonesome #sad poem #sad thoughts #poem #poetry #substitution #distraction #if only #wanting #want #maybe #one day #we might reconnect #connection

[somedsy]

Most people seem to think that as you grow older, the newer and wiser part of you keeps you moving forward.

But every step I take has a childlike rage built behind it, propelling me forward.

The newer and wiser me does not have the strength that the younger me carried.

And I am reminded of it everyday, when it's a childlike voice in my head that tells me to get up and keep going.

#poem #mental health #webweaving #rage #childlike rage #children are the strongest of us all #keep moving #keep going #move forward #live for your inner child #original

[somedsy]

Oh to cut my own apples, and feel so proud of my skill and independence so early in life.

That is, until I see my mother cutting an apple for my younger sister, years past the age when I learned to do it for myself.

She won't cut apples for me anymore, because she says I no longer need her to.

#poem #mental health #poetry #webweaving #independent #apples #mother #mom #independence #middle child #older sibling #forgotten children #original #emotions #I wish my mother would cut apple slices for me #spilled words #words words words

[somedsy]

Sometime I just need to stay awake and miss you.

Everyone and everything that I have and haven't lost.

It just feels right.

To give my self a time,

And a place,

To grieve the world.

And what is no longer in it.

It's only right,

To stay awake and do these things,

Alone, while the rest of the world sleeps.

Well,

The rest of the world except,

The others who grieve,

Just as strongly as I do.

#poetry #webweaving #quotes #original post #grief #to grieve is to love #insomnia #heavy heart #grieve #mental health #mental illness #poem #chronic insomnia #loss