#Gain. But i also think i... Am probably just doubting genuine people but it just puts me so on edge

[gentrychild]

BNHA 407 : AFO is a lying liar who lies

Today is a very sad day because I am about to do something I genuinely dislike: I am about to defend All for One. In order to cope, I shall make fun of him the whole time.

AFO and Yoichi's backstory is finally out, with AFO narrating it, and there are two possibilities: he is either completely lying about it (boring) or he is lying a little about it (very in-character for him) because he is also lying to himself.

Lie number 1: AFO was born evil.

The narrator (AFO, seriously, it's AFO) says things such as "The baby drained the lifeforce of both his mom and his brother.", "It was born an arrogant baby." and such but it really reads at AFO villifying himself to add to his own legend.

That's what babies do. Children, before they're born, kinda have to take their strength from their mother. That's why pregnant people aren't supposed to do anything taxing.

AFO and Yoichi's mother didn't die because baby AFO drained her like a vampire. She died because she was a homeless woman who had access to nothing and had to go in labor alone.

Same thing here: during twin birth, a twin is often bigger than the other (well, probably not to extent of Yoichi and AFO, but you get my point).

Lie number 2: AFO, as a demon baby, is shown killing for no reason, just because he can.

(First slaughter by Baby AFO shown in that chapter.)

There are two things that are strange in this scene (apart from... you know.... a baby murdering people...)

AFO had no reason to go after them because they don't have any quirks to steal.

It makes no sense for someone to attack a group of people with nothing to gain. I doubt that's the kind of behavior you have when you're in survival mode as you're barely surviving in the street.

However, a previous panel points at some context we might be missing.

The same panel that indicates that those guys don't have a quirk to steal also shows that they are wiling to do some "preventive attack" on a bunch of quirked people who might or might not be those who assaulted a protest group (reminder that in this context, that protest group are protesting the rights for quirked people to exist).

I could be wrong but odds are that they did something to be qualified as a threat to All for One and we are missing the additional context.

(Second slaughter by Baby AFO shown in that chapter.)

Now, the poor souls who just got absolutely wrecked by a toddler wearing what I suspect to be a garbage bag have quirks, which makes more sense than the previous scene.

However (and thank you for @aimportantdragoncollector for pointing that out to me), we also have this panel.)

Yoichi is shown with bruises on his face and might be broken teeth.

Probably because those same people AFO is shown killing attacked him.

Lie number 3: AFO never loved Yoichi because he can't love, he just considered that he was his. That's all. Nothing more.

(Just... Just ignore the rats.)

AFO didn't care about Yoichi so much that the very conscious first act of his life might have been to swim a river upstream while dragging his brother above the surface with what must have been the deathgrip of all deathgrip.

AFO didn't care about his brother so much that Yoichi was fed and clothed by an AFO who was malnourished enough for his ribs to show and who wore what's basically an improvised toga.

But he just keeps sacrificing what little he has for someone he doesn't care about one bit, that's just his first possession. Nothing more.

Okay, I am going to be clear: anyone who sees that panel and thinks that it's the proof AFO didn't like his brother... You just outed yourself as an only child.

Siblings punt each other for no reason. (There is a reason why the first recorded murderer was an older sibling.) In this case, the reason was Yoichi throwing a can at him.

AFO: "You're not inviting me to a fun activity? You're leaving me out, in the cold, unable to partake in brother bonding activity? Oh, vault for Little Brother! Vault for Little Brother for one thousand years!"

AFO: "Nevermind, we're reading together. All is well, I guess."

Lie number 3: AFO killed the glowing baby for power, because he could, or because the Glowing Baby didn't deserve it

Still laughing about AFO's flawless reasoning... "Comic books heroes' life suck. Better to be a villain. I already did the whole struggle thing, I want an easy life."

AFO killed the glowing baby because he was jealous. It's as simple as that. The glowing baby was considered the first official quirked individual (even though it's not true), was protected by his family (if I remember correctly, the mother of quirks was his mom) while AFO and Yoichi had no one but each other (EDIT: I was wrong, the Mother of Quirks was Destro's mother. thanks to the people in the tags), and had a ton of people following him (while, for some strange reason, people start running away screaming when AFO shows his quirk... What a mystery...).

The last panel was basically AFO saying "I want to be loved' but not having the frame of reference to even know what love is.

In conclusion...

While AFO is definitely a bad guy and a monster, he didn't begin his existence as one. He just wants people to believe that. Because his pride and his ego can't allow him to admit that he lived a childhood full of horrible trauma where he was a victim abandoned by society (to an even greater extent than the LOV) or he would probably combust out of rage and mortification.

Ergo facto, AFO is a lying liar who lies, especially to himself.

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[a-d-nox]

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pile 1

they lack self-confidence to get close to you - they might even not trust themselves around you. they might fear acting up or looking foolish around you. they are very apprehensive about taking action and you not accepting them as they are.

they find your personality very sexy. it's like they enjoy when someone takes charge - you don't mind taking up space and making your presence known and they adore that. your ambition, drive, and authoritative personality is addicting to them.

of course, they find you attractive - they worry that you don't find them attractive... they think that you won't take a chance on them and that you might not be open to a relationship/date with them because of how they look.

you are supportive. maybe you supported them or encouraged them in some way, or maybe they have seen how you interact with the people you care about. they can tell that you are a genuine person.

its wild; i feel like this person has a very active imagination. they might dream of marrying you or what being married to you would be like. they like the idea of walking with you on their arm. i feel like they wonder if they wait long enough and linger in the background that perhaps you will make the first move. they really like you. they think about the timing very often - they believe that you are the one for them. they really hope that you feel the same and are attracted to them. this is beyond lust for you - they love you.

pile 2

this is going to be a by chance meeting - you aren't going to run into each other everyday. you'll have a very positive few days with this person then it will be one of those things where it's like do you or don't you. perhaps this will be a "the one that got away" moment.

i feel like the connection is moving too quick for there to be much visibility into whether or not they even know much about you. so this connection has to make its own hold pattern - slow down a learn a bit more about each other. if someone peaks your interest, ask for their number.

i feel like you are out of your element with this connection. you don't see your beauty like they see it. you probably don't think they are attracted to you. you just need some confidence - trust that you are beautiful and make your move; stop waiting for masculine energies to make the first move.

they see that you lack confidence despite you being pretty and deserving attention. you are careful about what you do and what you say - this intrigues them. they are so curious about what you would say/do if you had the confidence to do so.

i feel like, unfortunately, no one will make a move in this situation. so you will keep to yourselves and spend time in solitude. stop thinking about what could have been and make it happen. you don't have to be unhappy with your present circumstances. start making a shift in your beliefs. you can put an end to your feelings of loneliness; you just have to change your mindset - abundance awaits you.

pile 3

they doubt themselves around you. i feel like you are rather close to them in their day-to-day life, but they don't think they can gain your attention. they tried - believe me, they have, but they just don't feel they are getting anywhere like they hoped they would.

they have been getting to know you for quite a bit of time. they love how passionate you are about the world around you. they also enjoy that you are building something for yourself.

you are very lovely to them. you are just at the beginning as your beauty journey too - you are going to continue to blossom and bloom.

you hold back which intrigues them. you can resist what others indulge in, which attracts their interest. you celebrate the small wins in very minimal ways, which they adore.

something is changing in the near future. you have to accept this connection as it is - i feel like you guys could be great for one another in the romantic sense, so why not try it? you can build a future together. this person wants to help you to grow in new and exciting ways. pay attention to subtle hints and messages from those around you. communication, fresh perspectives, and opportunities are ahead of you.

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[saintsenara]

12, 14, 16, and 22 for Snape asks please

I am most interested in your view of Lily as a character. To me, she never really seemed to live up to the hype I see? Like, I get the point that she's supposed to be Harry's mother and is supposed to be seen as the one who can't do any harm because of the sacrifice and all that. But I don't know whether JK purposely or intentionally put, like, the worst flashbacks to portray her as angelic(?). If I remember correctly, she wasn't even talked about as much as James by Remus or Sirius, they had to add things about her in the movies.

I can't ever see Lily as a good friend to Severus. To others, maybe, but I feel like it was different with Severus. More like a complicated one that was give-and-take, including Severus. Severus, an abused poor boy from Cokeworth, who knew about the wizarding world and Lily, a girl brought up in a happy family, who knew nothing about the wizarding world. Severus was able to get a friend while Lily gained knowledge of the wizarding world. But the one thing that cements this view of mine is the line where it says that Lily looks as if she was about to smile when Severus was being flipped over. Plus, I don't care if anyone says that she tried to defend him, but girl couldn't even use her wand or take points off as Prefect?? Girl was literally making a show, or whatever you want to call it.

Sorry about the rant, but I'm all for a good friend Lily in fics but when people say she was like that in canon? Maybe at times, but not when it mattered. I'd love to hear your opinion though.

thank you for the ask, @be-at-peace05!

[snape ask game here]

12. if you had to choose a golden trio era student to be snape's friend, who would it be and why?

while i don’t subscribe to the idea that he’s his godson, snape’s affection for draco malfoy does seem to be completely sincere. malfoy is also possessed of the sort of intellectual curiosity which snape obviously values (for example, how he figures out how to repair the vanishing cabinet - it’s genuinely impressive, and the fact that this is what he might be doing is certainly something which doesn’t occur to anyone in the order) and, while there’s no doubt that snape probably has as little interest in hearing him whine about everything as lucius does, i can see them having some genuinely fulfilling chats about potions. after all, malfoy gets an outstanding at owl, he must be good at the subject and he does seem to be interested in it.

14. what do you think is snape's favourite potion to prepare?

veritaserum. you just know he was chuckling to himself the whole time he was whipping that fake batch up for umbridge.

16. were you ever a snater? how and when did you become a snover?

i’m also extremely theatrical and fond of chemistry, so snape was always my boy.

i’m also capable of understanding the genre conventions which govern children’s literature and which require him to act as he does, so even when he was being a cock to various children we were chill.

22. do you think that lily was a good friend to snape?

well… this is the big one.

and the answer is no - but.

i always think it’s worth, before discussing lily, doing some quick acknowledgement of her narrative role in the story, which is a major contributing factor to why she feels a bit of a flop in person compared to the way she’s built up by other characters.

lily’s characterisation in canon is primarily hamstrung by two things. the first, as you note, is that her sacrificial role within the story requires a certain degree of perfection - not least because the harry potter series borrows heavily from the genre conventions of christian literature. lily is the analogy for the virgin mary - as we see when her purity of spirit succeeds in inflicting the first defeat on the satan-coded voldemort which will then be fulfilled by harry-as-the-resurrected-christ in the final stages of deathly hallows. obviously, a marian symbol is denied the complexity of other women - and that’s without even getting into the fact that the series has an extremely limited view of what ‘good’ motherhood is.

the second issue is that the text needs to keep lily’s centrality to the mystery hidden for as long as possible, not least because it needs to obscure snape’s true loyalties - and the role lily played in triggering them - until the very end of the seven-book series. this is the reason why sirius and lupin only speak about her once (after harry sees snape’s worst memory - and, even then, they’re mostly talking about james) and why harry’s self-conception is rooted entirely in his father - or in characters like sirius who are stand-ins for james - until half-blood prince, when the narrative begins to suggest that his mother is much more important than harry has previously given her credit for.

[the best way to illustrate this is to note that harry doesn’t give a shit in order of the phoenix that snape calls his mother a mudblood. his primary concern is that his father was a bully and that sirius aided and abetted him - when he thinks about lily, his concern is only that she doesn’t seem to like james, and his worry that his father forced her into a relationship. he doesn’t raise the fact that snape called lily a mudblood with sirius and lupin, and he doesn’t mention it to anyone else. but he cares - viscerally - about the slur at the end of half-blood prince, once the narrative is explicitly trying to convince the reader that snape is an unambiguous villain.]

these narrative necessities are a heavy burden for the canonical lily - and so i think she deserves some grace when it comes to how we analyse her behaviour in the snapshots of her as a real person we get in canon.

because of course she’s not perfect. why should she be? teenage girls are allowed to be less than flawless people - even towards their best friends.

[as an aside here, i think we have to be very careful - in our reading and our writing - not to replicate the contempt that jkr has for women who don’t fit her narrow view of ideal female behaviour. jkr loathes bitchy, girly, flighty, butch, rude, vapid, ugly women - just look at anything she’s ever said about pansy parkinson - and she tends to write her heroines - ginny and hermione chief among them - as that perfect not-like-other-girls storm of exactly pretty and clever and popular and brave enough to be worthy, but not so pretty as to be vain or clever as to be haughty or popular as to be slutty or brave as to be villainous. lily gets this treatment - and i think this drives the tendency of readers who dislike the way she behaves in canon to be hyper-critical of her characterisation. but the issue with this is that it’s also confining ‘good’ women to narrow boxes - while, all too often, allowing male characters a complexity their female counterparts are not permitted.]

which is to say: no, lily isn’t a good friend to snape. but he’s not a good friend to her either.

the issue that the two of them have is that they each relate to the other as though the other is the version of them that they’ve constructed in their head. they never take each other as they actually are.

it’s clear in canon that lily never moves beyond seeing snape as the child - devoted only to her - whose role was to teach her about the wonderful world of magic, and who acted primarily as a tool of her own self-actualisation. this is the reason why she can’t understand why snape is so concerned about fitting in at hogwarts - above all, why he wants to be friends with mulciber and avery - or why she never realises that he wants to be reassured of her affection for him versus the marauders, or why she doesn’t take what happens to him at the marauders’ hands seriously until she is made a part of it by james, or why she doesn’t understand snape’s relationship to his own social class and its role within slytherin. she simply doesn’t conceive of him as someone who exists for himself or who has a life of his own - he exists for her.

and snape thinks the same - he sees himself as the person who gave lily the wizarding world and, therefore, as the person who gets to dictate how she understands it. this is the reason why he can’t understand why she pushes back on his defence of mulciber’s use of dark magic (since he - in a very voldemort-ish move - clearly thinks that applying boundaries to what magic can and should be studied is gatekeeping), or why she doesn’t agree with him that the death eaters will help him, or why she’s upset when he’s rude to petunia, or why she leans into the performance of class expected from muggleborns (sucking up to slughorn, taking her pureblood husband’s name) in a time of increasing sectarian tension. she exists for him.

this assessment obviously makes them both sound incredibly cruel, but actually this is the way that childhood friendships often go. it’s very easy to see how the fact of being the only two magical children in cokeworth was validating for both snape and lily, and how this formed a tie between them which was very fierce but very brittle - which was never going to do anything other than shatter as they grew older, especially as they became aware of things like social structure, political affiliation, and sexual desire. it’s cruel of lily to laugh at snape’s poverty - absolutely - but it’s also the way that lots of teenagers who haven’t entirely grappled with their own relationship to society behave, and it’s also true that acting up in front of a boy you fancy is a time-honoured tradition which can also cause you to be quite cruel. lily isn’t nice by any means when snape is being attacked by james and sirius, but she doesn’t have to be. she just has to be human.

there are two final points which i think it’s worth being aware of:

the first is that snape evidently stands out as one of the few visibly working-class students in the castle [so much so that i have a meta in my drafts about whether or not hogwarts is a selective school] and the fact that he is obviously targeted for his poverty is cruel, and i understand why it makes many fans want to defend him - particularly given the fandom’s fondness for glorifying aristocracy and wealth.

but lily is also an other in wizarding society. i think it’s often not taken as seriously as it should be by snape fans just how terrified she must have been for her own safety, particularly from the later 1970s onwards, when all the evidence of canon is that voldemort is about to win. the wizarding world is set up to exclude her just as much as it is snape, and while we can and should be critical how her response to his poverty is unfair, we have to do the same for his outright refusal to acknowledge that she is subjected to discrimination on the basis of her blood status.

the second is that we don’t actually know if lily was a prefect - she was head girl, but james managed to become head boy without having been one. the person we do know was a prefect was remus lupin. if we’re criticising anyone for failing to intervene, it should be him.

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[deimosphilic]

TAKE MY HEART | NETEYAM TE SULI TSYEYK’ITAN

summary : you and neteyam had finally began to get along, so why was he all of a sudden distancing himself from you? well, they do say love overpowers frienship.

paring : neteyam x gn!metkayina!reader

warnings : shit writing and probably horrible grammar xx

authors note : reblgs r appreciated!! writing this made me realise i cannot spell for absolute shit. also, i literally dk wtf i’m doing so if this is dumb pls lmk. didn't know what to put for a gn tulkun so it's ur soul sibling! (s/s/n) = soul siblings name. LAZY ASS PROOFREAD

word count : 2.7k

request : yes | no

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when toruk makto and his family had first arrived at awa'atlu, you were apprehensive of them. what where omatikayan people doing seeking uturu from metkayinan people? you decided to push your thoughts aside and focus on the duty given by your father - teaching the children the way of water.

throughout their training, you realised that the na'rìng na’vi were bearable, you even became friends with them all - except the eldest, neteyam. he was always cold towards you, at first you tried to decipher the reason, tried to become his friend, but as soon as you realised he wasn’t going to stop giving you the cold shoulder you reciprocated it.

everything changed one day when he accompanied you in the small cove you'd found when you were a child.

you were laying down on the soft sand, enjoying the peace and quiet, until your ears twitched towards rustling in a bush. you had your hand on your hunters knife, ready in case you needed to attack, when you saw neteyam. you let out a sigh of relief, “do not scare me like that skxawng. i could have killed you.”

neteyam put his hands up in a mocking surrender with a sly smirk on his face, “i doubt you could even if you tried.”

“what are you even doing here?” you asked, ignoring his remark.

“decided to take a walk, went exploring, and found you here, apparently.” he said casually as if you were friends, you were far from it.

you didn’t bother to reply, thinking he’d go away, but that thought didn’t last very long as you felt the sand dip right next to you. you looked up from the shallow ocean to see that neteyam had planted himself next to you.

“why are you still here? go away.” you tried to shoo him off but gained a small chuckle from the boy.

“i am comfortable right here actually.” said boy retorted.

the both of you sat at the cove for hours, but made sure to get back before your families awoke, and talked, genuinely talked. what was once sending death glares at each other every second of every day, was now a beautiful friendship that had bloomed simply from the understanding you both had of each other, being the eldest in your families. ever since that very night, you, and neteyam had been attached to the hip. every time someone saw one of you without the other they’d always ask, “where is (y/n)?” or “where is neteyam?”

whilst becoming friends with neteyam you had realised your liking for him was much more than a friendship. you yearned for him behind closed doors, you so desperately wanted the hugs he gave you to last much longer than they did, you wanted him to sweep you off your feet and kiss you after not seeing you all day, you wanted him to want you as you wanted him. you wanted too much, much more than you could have, so you tried to push your feelings to the darkest corner of your mind just for them to spring right back, front and centre.

even though your feelings for him made themselves more known as the day went by, you were happy, so happy you could explode. that was until neteyam slowly started distancing himself. insecurity made its way through your body every time he’d make up some dumb excuse to not hang out with you, or when he wouldn’t show up at the cove like you'd been doing for the past few months. thoughts such as, 'am i annoying him too much?', 'does he know of my feelings?.', 'is he sick of me?.' were flooding your brain. after a very intense mental battle that lasted days, you finally decided to stop putting any effort into yours, and his short-lived friendship. that meant no trying to catch up with him after spotting him, no visiting his families marui just to see him, and no waiting for hours at the cove for him to show up.

on neteyam's part, ever since you, and him made eye contact the day he step foot on awa'atlu, you wouldn't leave his mind, seemingly making yourself at home in his brain. that's why he thought giving you the cold shoulder would be the best idea. 'if i don't talk to her it will go away.' he thought when he first met you after making eye contact with you at least fifteen times in the five minutes his father was trying to convince the olo'eyktan, and tsahìk, your parents, to let his family stay with your clan.

his plan did nothing to save the feeling he got when he saw you. everything you did gave him a fluttery feeling in his stomach, the way your eyes lit up the second one of his siblings directed a question to you, the way you smiled when you got to talk about something you enjoyed, or the way you made sure to send his siblings praises when they were struggling to grasp your ways of living. your entire existence made him crumble. even when you called him vonvä', even when you purposefully shoved your shoulder into his when you walked past him, and even the one time you slapped him across the face for making you drop your beads.

the day he found you by the cove changed everything.

neteyam had decided to go on a walk to clear his head. all he could think about was you and he needed to act upon it somehow. as he was walking all across the island, he managed to find a small forest far from the village. ‘maybe i could get a glimpse of home.’ he thought before immediately working his way over. he was ecstatic when he finally got to the clearing. there were tall trees, not as tall as back home though, and lively bushes, not as lively as back home though, and... the ocean. neteyam sighed. although he was over the moon about the fact that he could have a little piece of home, there was still stuff that reminded him he wasn't home. like the sand he was standing on, and the ilu he could hear clicking.

he decided to go further into the forest, making his way through harmful bushes, and fallen logs. as soon as neteyam got through all the flora, that eywa herself blessed them with, he gasped in awe. but before he could fully appreciate the beauty of the small cove he found, he heard a distinct voice.

"do not scare me like that skxawng. i could have killed you."

you. his breath got trapped in his throat as he realised that the person who he was trying to distract himself from, was right in front of him. he quickly put his mean front up by painting a sly smirk on his face with his hands in the air to represent a mocking surrender.

"i doubt you could even if you tried." he spoke, trying so hard to cover up the fact that he was sweating balls just talking to you.

"what are you even doing here?" you asked, giving him your unintentional doe eyes that he was now encaptivated by.

"decided to talk a walk, went exploring, and found you apparently." he was partially telling the truth. besides making you think he hates you, why else would he lie to you?

when you didn't reply to him, he took his chances and decided to sit next to you. what you failed to notice was the purple tint to his cheeks, and the shakiness of his hands.

"why are you still here? go away." you attempted to shoo him off. he debated whether to leave, like you wanted, or stay, against your wishes. being the bold young man he is (he is probably the least bold person known to man) he decided to stay.

as the pair of you sat and talked, neteyam realised how much he liked when you when you weren't keeping a guard up for him. he liked when you laughed at his corny jokes, he liked when you'd tuck your braids behind your ear so he got to see your ear twitch whenever you heard something, no matter how little the sound was, he liked it when you'd grab his hands in comfort when he'd talk about a sensitive subject. he realised something big that night, he saw you, he saw all of you. he saw that your shoulders would tense up at the mention of your parents, and he saw how you put up a lively front, but on the inside, you were a child who needed love.

as the friendship grew closer, and closer each day. neteyam realised his feelings for you overpowered his thoughts, he yearned for you. he so desperately wanted the hugs he gave you to last much longer than they did, he wanted to sweep you off your feet and kiss you after not seeing you all day, he wanted you to want him as he wanted you. he knew you didn’t though, so he did the best thing he could think of. avoiding you. every time he saw you coming in his direction he'd turn and walk the opposite way, but not with out cursing himself mentally. he felt awful. he knew it was wrong but continued doing it, leaving his marui the second you step foot in there, just to help tuk with her braids. coincidence, right?

you, were stressed. you would sit at the cove for hours thinking about that stupid boy. the stupid boy who stole your heart just to shred it to pieces. the stupid boy who would spend the whole day with you, and then completely ignore you the next. as much as you wanted to resent him for playing with your feelings, you couldn't. not when he could make you smile just by flashing his canines. or, when he'd bring you a bouquet of your favourite flowers. you couldn't resent him when you'd already told your spirit sibling about him.

"i met a boy." you signed to your spirit sibling, with a cheesy grin etched on your face.

"a boy?" they replied, tone filled to the brim with excitement, "what is his name? what does he look like? where is he?" they bombarded you with questions.

"calm down (s/s/n)." you signed whilst giggling, "his name is neteyam, and he is omatikaya" you explained as your cheeks heated up.

"you are blushing!" they teased, flapping the fin you were sitting on slightly.

"i am not!" you denied as you covered your face from them. you definitely were.

you smiled at the memory before yelling out in frustration. you got up from your place on your marui's floor, and left to the one place that could calm you down, the cove. the journey there was muscle memory at this point, ever since you were young you went to the cove, finding comfort in the silence. you stood on the sand for a moment, basking in the last piece of sunlight before eclipse enveloped the sky. you let out a shaky breath, you wanted to scream, and cry. so that's what you did. sobs racked your body, faster than you could process as you kicked the sand beneath you, and punched the few trees that were there. as you were about to punch another palm tree, a hand stopped you.

"please do not hurt yourself (y/n)." neteyam. you ripped your hand from his grasp, "you should not be here past eclipse. go away!" you hissed out, turning your back to him.

"neither should you." he clapped back, grabbing your shoulder to turn you back around. "what i do does not concern you, anymore" you spoke and went to leave the cove, "whatever, if you will not leave, i will."

"wait!" neteyam said before thinking, and grabbed your wrist to stop you. you shook your wrist from his grasp, and turned towards him waiting for him to speak.

when he stayed silent, you sighed heavily, the silence immediately becoming awkward. you pondered asking him the question that had been on your mind for awhile, but you wanted, needed the truth. "why have you been avoiding me, neteyam?"

he froze. what was he supposed to say? 'oel ngati kamie?' no, that was too forward. he wished he could though, but there was one thing stopping him. rejection. what if you laughed, and walked away? what if you told him you didn't feel the same, with a pitiful smile? too many bad outcomes flooded his brain, and the next thing you know, he couldn't breathe.

"i-" he stuttered trying to makeup some dumb excuse again, because, apparently, that's all he can do. you sighed shakily, trying to hold back tears that were threatening to fall.

"do not lie to me this time." you warned and began picking at your fingers, a nervous habit you've had since you were young. neteyam opened his mouth to say something but immediately closed it with a huff. the silence was aggravating, causing you to tell out a, "WHY?!"

you were met with even more silence, making the sob you were so desperately holding back, escape. "please tell me." you begged.

seeing you in this state absolutely broke neteyam, causing the tears that he was holding back to fall. he wanted to tell you, but the overwhelming thought of rejection kept stopping him, and would probably stop him for the rest of eternity.

you let out a breath you didn't even know you were holding, "FINE! if you do not wish to tell me, fine." you turned to leave before you heard his voice after what felt like hours.

"oel ngati kameie."

no. you must be dreaming. why was he telling you this?

"you may as well take my heart, (y/n), it is already full of you." he confessed.

"please go." you breathed out, pointing to the exit. now was not time for joking around.

"what is it? what is wrong (y/n)?" was he seriously asking you this?

"you know nothing about me. you have known me only five moons." you said the tears you were holding back now freely flowing.

"five moons? (y/n) i have known you all my life." he spoke metaphorically. of course he hadn't known you all his life. he knew of his mate all his life, and the second he laid eyes on you on the beach, he knew you would be his. his mate. his tìyawn. his life.

"all your life?" you scoffed.

"it is true." he began, "when i have heard beautiful music, i have thought 'they would like that', i have looked at flowers, and known that one day, i would give them to you." he confessed. he was scared, scared you would reject him now that he spilt his heart out to you.

"oh stop- stop." you begged. you wanted to believe him so badly, but there was one thing stopping you. rejection. what if he laughed in your face and told you he was merely joking around? but he wouldn't be so sick as to tell you something so intimate as 'oel ngati kameie', right? some children do.

neteyam's heart was breaking, you were rejecting him. he prayed to eywa that this wasn't the outcome, but unfortunately, not everything goes how you want it to go.

"please (y/n). oel ngati kameie. why can you not see that?" he begged, and walked towards you, cupping your cheeks with his hands. he was determined.

"prove it." you said, too tired to even try removing his hands from your face.

prove it, you say. he'd do anything to prove his love for you. "can i please kiss you?" he asked, even in moments like this he's polite as ever.

your eyes softened, "of course you can." you said and his lips crashed onto yours. his lips matched perfectly with yours. like the last two puzzle pieces coming together to complete the picture. the kiss was full of pent up feelings being released. love, passion, excitement, joy. it felt euphoric, you didn't want to pull away, but at one point you needed to or you'd be dead from loss of air.

you pulled away, much neteyam's and yours dismay, and breathed. he proved it. "you proved it." you said breathlessly.

"i proved it." even after you allowed him to kiss you, he was still scared of rejection.

"oel ngati kameie, neteyam." you confessed. oh, how he loved the way his name rolled off of your tongue.

"oel ngati kameie, (y/n)." he said for the millionth time that night. oh, how you loved the way your name rolled off of his tongue.

TRANSLATIONS

toruk makto = rider of last shadow (great leonopteryx)

uturu = sanctuary

na'rìng na'vi = forest people

skxawng = moron, idiot

olo'eyktan = clan leader

tsahìk = spiritual leader

vonvä' = asshole

tìyawn = love

oel ngati kameie = i see you

#avatar #avatar the way of water #avatar 2009 #neteyam #neteyam x you #neteyam x reader #neteyam x y/n #neteyam sully #avatar fic #jake sully #lo’ak sully #neytiri #kiri sully #avatar 2 #mars writes *:･ﾟ

[starry-bugs]

okay so like, roier and cellbit's soulmate bond is probably like the strongest on the island. and that's mostly because they spend every fucking second together, and they're just that in love.

and i think that the federation, despite the fact they're not happy about it, would want to study that. because love makes people happy, and if the islanders are happy then things are perfect.

and since roier is functionally isolated from everyone but cellbit because of the reveal that he's basically their golden boy, it would give them a lot of time to study how that bond works. because roier is devastated, but he has his soulmate, and cellbit being with him is still keeping him at least somewhat okay

but it takes awhile for them to be able to get to study it up close, if they get to at all. because roier is angry with them, furious really, and every time a federation employee tries to get close to them he bares his fangs and threatens and leaves. and that's no good at all.

but the thing is that people are also noticing that roier wants nothing to do with the federation, and that's keeping them from fully losing trust in him. because yeah they have their doubts but roier doesn't ever make a big deal of denouncing the feds the way someone would if they were trying to gain trust, hes telling them to leave him be because haven't they done enough? and its clear those words and his actions are coming from a place of genuine hurt.

and really this au can go one of two ways:

option 1: the federation gets to run all of their extremely unethical soulmate bond tests because roier ends up just that isolated (possibly even away from cellbit) and cellbit has to convince everyone to help him rescue him because it's roier and do you really think he'd just betray everybody?

option 2: roier slowly regains everyone's trust, and he grows past the way the federation has raised him to believe in them. and he gets a family that actually cares about him. and while it's not the same, he's happy. and the federation either has to stop trying to fuck with his family or fall

and i'm not sure which one id like more for multiple reasons but either one of these could work and tell their own stories. i'm not as confident with this one as i am with the vampire au but i still kind of like it so any thoughts are more than welcome

#qsmp #destined spiderbit au #this post was a lot of fucking rambling rahhh

[mymistakewriting]

Diaz Family Dynamics

This comes with the standard warnings of 'hey if you think I'm bashing this character, I'm not' and 'if you don't like my content, you don't have to interact with it because I ain't fighting with people over opinions'. With a single exception. I am absolutely bashing Helena and Ramon Diaz. They're terrible parents and even worse people. my asks are open for questions or conversations!

I also have other thoughts about Eddie, including things involving him and Shannon, and more things about him and his sisters, his traumas, etc. However, I think this post is a little too heavy to share all of those. If you're interested in any of them, let me know. I'll do a separate post for them later regardless, but I'd love to see what people are interested in hearing about.

Trigger warnings: PTSD, talk of child neglect & abuse. It's Eddie Diaz and his family, that's it's own warning.

Let's get the hard stuff out of the way first, shall we? As someone who's been in shoes similar to Eddie and Maddie as oldest sibling who's had to step up and be a parent to their younger siblings, there is no situation where a child is raising another child and it's not because the actual parents are neglectful at best and abusive at worst. The Diaz parents are both. And it's exactly the way you'd think. Helena is shown to be verbally and emotionally abusive to Eddie in the flashbacks we're given during Eddie Begins. She sits back and watches her son, who's a newly single father and still healing from injuries he gained in a war that he ran to in part because of his parents struggle with multiple jobs at once, doctors appointments for himself AND his son, and did nothing to help. Instead, she used the fact that he was struggling as an excuse to ask for custody of Christopher. And considering Eddie grew up with that same style of abuse, that he shielded his sisters from receiving it, too? Yeah, I hope she burns in Hell for it.

And Ramon. Oh, Ramon. He's equally shitty to Eddie when it comes to verbal abuse. He abandoned the family (for work, yes, but what decent father looks at their 10 year old son and tells them it's time to 'man up'?). And no one has a fight style scrappy enough for genuine street fighting, the way Eddie's got, unless it was learned originally in self defense and then refined later on with actual lessons. I'd put money on Ramon having laid hands on Eddie a time or two before he got big enough to fight back. I've seen it, I grew up with kids who have that exact fighting style and that's what it was from. And the way he never turns his back on his father when they do interact? It's a survivor's skill that you learn the hard way.

Also? All of Eddie's doubts about him being a good dad? His worries that he's fucking Christopher up when he's given everything he's got for his son? Those come from his parents, too. He's always tried to make sure he wasn't like either of his parents, but those doubts don't leave very easily when you've spent your whole life not knowing anything else. Helena definitely drilled it in the entire time after Eddie came home from overseas that what he was doing for Christopher's sake wasn't enough. That he wasn't a good enough parent.

I'm also entirely sure that Eddie's lack of skill in cooking stems in part from his childhood. He was the oldest sibling of three, and he was helping raise his sisters. He probably tried to learn to cook by the time he was 12 for their sake but was told no by his mother. They're a Southern family, do you know how much time some boys are allowed to spend in the kitchen when there's daughters around to learn to cook instead? Sure isn't enough to learn anything. And I 100% believe Helena just refused to teach him. He learned how to cook eggs when he was 12, but no one ever taught him anything else until after he moved to LA, where Pepa and Isabel stepped in and tried to teach him. But it's harder to learn to cook in your late 20s when you've got the weight of the world on your shoulders already than it would be when you're a kid. It's just an unfortunate fact that some aspects of toxic masculinity like that are furthered by the mothers here in the American South. Sometimes.

Additionally, Eddie's never considered that he could be anything other than straight (I think he's bisexual but demiromantic, but that's just a headcanon). Again. Welcome to the South. He grew up Catholic. No way in Hell that Ramon didn't threaten to 'beat the gay out of him' the first time he was overheard jokingly flirting with a friend in high school. More families are like that down here than I want to admit. My own included. Just look how quickly Eddie's communication style changes when he realizes something sounds flirty. All those times he's jokingly said something to Buck and then went too serious directly after for no discernible reason? Bet you anything it's that.

He didn't leave despite hating staying with his parents after Shannon left not because he couldn't (Pepa or Isabel would've let them stay until he got a place, I'm sure that's what happened anyway because he packed them up and left on a dime anyway) because he had to make sure his sisters were out of his parents' home first. He'd rather suffer than leave them unprotected from it all.

All three Diaz siblings went no contact eventually. Then Eddie switched to limited contact because he thought Christopher deserved to know his living grandparents after Shannon's death. The only time they all show up is when it's required (like at Ramon's retirement party).

And final comment involving the Diaz parents: Eddie never wanted to marry Shannon. Another unfortunate tradition here in the South that still happens (less frequently, but happens): sometimes the parents force a marriage in the case of an unplanned pregnancy. We've had several in my family. Eddie loved Shannon, yes. But he never would have married her on his own. His parents forced it as soon as they found out Shannon was pregnant. It's part of why their marriage was so toxic, I think.

#kieran talks #911 #eddie diaz #not writing #tw: mentions of abuse #tw: ptsd #helena and ramon diaz can suffer imo #them and the buckley parents deserve pain and nothing else #those are my thoughts and no one can convince me otherwise #also ignore any misspellings or bad grammar its 3 am for me as I post this

[phoeeling]

those posts about Azula and Zuko’s relationship by @zuko-always-lies and @wingsfreedom respectively got me thinking about the fire hazards. one pointed out what makes Zuko seem like he doesn’t care about Azula, and one pointed out what does. And it brought me to a conclusion.

Zuko parrots what other people’s opinions on Azula are. (Almost all of the time)

When we see Zuko’s first flashback in Zuko Alone, he’s hanging out with his mom by the pond. He says “Hey, mom, wanna see how Azula feeds Turtleducks?”

Zuko says this like he finds it genuinely funny and interesting. He views it positively. Now, Zuko immediately fails at mimicking her— as soon as the bread hits the Turtleduck, Zuko’s expression is shocked and horrified. That wasn’t supposed to happen, and he’s scolded by Ursa for it.

“Zuko, why would you do that?”

Ursa doesn’t assume it’s an accident. Ursa— and I’m trying to give her the benefit of the doubt, really— has a low opinion of Azula. She isn’t able to separate her trauma regarding Ozai (even if we ignore the comics, absolutely nothing isn’t traumatic about being married to a man willing to kill your children) from Azula very effectively.

Ursa has outright questioned “what is wrong with that child” in earshot of Zuko and Azula, to the point that the former actually remembers her saying it, and her Nickelodeon bio confirmed Zuko as her favourite.

While Zuko is processing, Turtleduck resurfaces and it’s mother attacks him. The rest of that part isn’t particularly relevant, what’s relevant is what comes after. It transitions to Azula “playing” with her friends.

“Mom, can you make Zuko play with us? We need equal teams to play a game.”

Zuko, who previously seemed to have a more positive opinion on Azula earlier that day, responds kind of aggressively with “I am not cartwheeling.

Azula points out cartwheeling isn’t a game, especially one that wouldn’t need teams.

“I don’t care. I don’t want to play with you.”

Zuko, just that morning, had no problem with Azula and no reason to, and is now acting needlessly aggressive toward her. Zuko internalized Ursa’s opinion of Azula even without Ursa outwardly expressing her negative feelings, and it further paints what we see of those flashbacks. He even joins Ursa in scolding Azula for her comment about if Iroh died.

The next flashback is awhile after, and Zuko’s personal opinion doesn’t seem to be altered to fit the bias of anyone else around him: Zuko is playing a tag-like game with Azula, and the two are laughing and smiling.

The scene after that, it’s unclear when it takes place. How much longer after. It appears to be late in the day, like sunset-ish. Zuko is fine hanging out with Azula until she insults him, and then he gets defensive. (Also note: when the two of them are spying on the meeting, as Zuko runs away, Azula actually turns to check on him as he runs away.)

Next scene when Zuko is lying in bed. Azula is sing-songy and mocks him about what she heard. Now, despite this— and I note— Azula suggests Zuko to flee the country.

“I’m only telling you for your own good. I know! Maybe you can find a good Earth Kingdom family to adopt you.”

In all technicality, what Azula is suggesting is treason and I think that might make her treasonous by suggesting it. She’s telling him to go against the Fire Lord’s orders— that would potentially further Ozai in gaining the crown, which is what really matters here— and telling him to live. All she’d have to do is say nothing and Zuko would be gone and she’d be heir.

(Not only that, but when Ursa asks Azula what was going on, Azula tells her everything.)

The next notable scene: when Azula tells Zuko no one knows where [Ursa] is and that Azulon is dead, Zuko says it’s not funny and she’s sick, which is probably the best instance of him parroting Ursa’s opinions.

Zuko also later ends up parroting Iroh’s opinion of Azula. We know Iroh doesn’t have a very high opinion of Azula— despite the fact Iroh isn’t looking at her during the Agni Kai, he remembers her as smiling. She also looks no different than her current appearance, which suggests Iroh doesn’t really see her as a child.

Iroh is immediately hostile towards Azula when all she’s said is hello, screwing up his expression. (Zuko’s screws up his expression too, but he’s made angrier expressions at Iroh.)

After the guard slips that it was a lie, then Zuko gets angry at Azula for an actual reason— and during the Chase, he wants to fight her. But when he’s talking to Iroh, he seems genuinely unsure on how to feel about Azula. “I know, she’s my sister and I should try to get along with her.”

Now, one thing to note— Ursa doesn’t directly say this from what we see. The closet she does is agree with Azula that it’s important for brothers and sisters to spend time together. Which means that he’s likely either parroting that sentiment from Azula, or that’s an original thought.

Iroh reinforces that Zuko should feel negatively towards Azula. “She’s crazy and she needs to go down.”

(Iroh should be in the right by saying that, should being the key word. She shot fire at him. But she only had to do that because he prevented her from fleeing the scene in the first place, meaning she had to come up with an alternate escape plan. She had already attempted to flee from battle semi-peacefully because she was outnumbered, meaning he outright risked his niece’s safety for no reason.)

When Zuko’s in the Fire Nation, he’s mostly neutral-positive on Azula. There’s no negative outside opinions altering his view on Azula, and that’s when they get along the most. Despite the fact Zuko is incredibly grumpy throughout all of S3. He’s still very Zuko about it, but he doesn’t hate her.

When he joins the Gaang, his opinion on Azula gets negative again. He seems neutral-sad when she nearly falls to her death and resigned when she survives, and says to Katara in Sozin’s Comet: “How would you like to help me put Azula in her place?”

When Sokka asks if he left behind anyone he cares about, he doesn’t say Azula: because Zuko can’t tell if he cares about Azula.

When Suki says “This is a rematch I’ve been waiting for”, Zuko literally parrots her. Suki has a reason to want a rematch— Zuko doesn’t. He hasn’t lost a battle to Azula, because he hasn’t been in a battle with Azula that actually resulted with either of them winning.

To summarize: Azula knows her and Zuko’s sibling relationship is wrong and wants to repair it. Zuko knows his and Azula’s sibling relationship is wrong and doesn’t know what the right is, so he mimics what everyone else thinks [about Azula].

And everyone is getting in-between them reconciling and building a health relationship. Ozai intentionally, Ursa unintentionally and Iroh somehow both intentional and unintentionally.

#atla #avatar #azula #Zuko #fire hazards #analysis #the only reason Zuko says that Azula isn’t sorry about the way things turned out is because everyone else #has made him believe that to be the case #Zuko has a hard time making up his own mind and forming his own opinions. #it’s why he struggled with morality and it’s why he struggles with Azula #because I do think Zuko wants them to be on the same side #that’s why he sounds so offended she lied to him in S2 EP1 #he doesn’t realize that for the most part they *are* on the same side bc everyone else is telling him they’re not #the comics aren’t canon btw those suck #originally wrote 99% of this on a reblog of a post #thought it’d be better as a separate post

[asherlockstudy]

I am screaming rn

Okay something happened in the latest Ear Biscuit and I am freaking losing my mind. It might sound a little obnoxious but it is out of genuine enthusiasm. If you are following, you know how I love to analyse stuff, like feelings and situations. And I feel that something that was discussed in this episode was great vindication / validation for my efforts to understand these two men.

I am talking about the EB where they were given various scenarios in which each had to predict the other’s reaction. My point of interest was the second scenario; what Link would choose to do if he was invisible for a day. During all these scenarios, I was playing along, trying to imagine what they would do too. So in this one, an answer came quite quickly to me and it was the following:

“Link”, I thought, “ would immediately go to Rhett’s house or where Rhett is anyway and try to figure out whether Rhett’s love / care for him is genuine. I am not sure how he would do it though, probably he would check how Rhett interacts with Jessie in private or how they talk about him behind his back or what Rhett tells Jessie about Link.” END OF THOUGHT

A little context before I continue. I have written many times before about how Link’s root of his frustration with Rhett, with all the anger bursts and nasty jokes, is his uncertainty about Rhett’s feelings. Link does not take Rhett’s feelings for granted at all, in fact he has doubts about them, and he loathes that Rhett has (seemingly) zero doubts about Link’s love for him. Whether Link’s concern is any founded at all or he is acting all possessive (don’t forget his widely acknowledged abandonment issues) I cannot decide yet. Also, the reason I believe Link wants to use Jessie as a meter for this is… well… obvious. I know some people don’t like this but it doesn’t take much to see that Link is antagonistic towards Jessie. Let's...let's be real for a sec, okay? I am just an eye and an ear. Don't shoot the eye or the ear.

And now that we’re done with the context, here’s what Link himself said he would do:

Link: Gain access to. Information. And, um, I decided to invest the limited time I have in - as an invisible - to learn what people think about me. Really. Like, I wanna put myself in positions where people -

Rhett: Give me an example.

Link: Like, every relationship that I have, I'm talking work relationships, friend relationships... I mean, it was a quick answer but-

(...)

Link (after some non-significant joke part initiated by Rhett ): I feel like I know what Christy thinks about me. I don't feel like it would be fair to spy on my wife.

Rhett: But I feel like maybe you can predict what all these people say about you without you being there...

Link: Yeah... maybe there's not much to learn and maybe it's only... maybe I don't want to learn it.

Rhett makes it less significant again.

You see why I am screaming? Link essentially said just. that. Of course he said "people" and "all my relationships... work relationships...friendships" and he might mean it for more people, sure, but first and foremost he said it about Rhett. He tried to generalize in order to not be exposed or not offend Rhett in particular. Rhett indeed became quite inquisitive, probably in order to figure out what exactly Link meant by this. Link backtracked quickly, waving it off as a quick answer or that it didn't make much sense but it actually makes. perfect. sense. Link is not the first of us to question what his closest people really feel about him. But Link backpedalled because otherwise he would expose himself.

Still, Link did try to pass the message to Rhett, somewhat. He hinted at it when he said all his friendships and work relationships, by only excluding Christy (not taking into account the kids here). Well, what's next and not excluded? Rhett. So, Rhett's the very first. Rhett was either innocent or cunning enough to not ask about himself. But, not to sound like a broken record, he was not excluded and I doubt Link cares more what Chase thinks deep inside or a friend he sees once per month for a hike. Sorry to say this but I don't think Link cares THAT much what his employees think of him as long as he ticks off all his responsibilities as an employer and boss. Or at least, not in the way Rhett imagined it (with sending a stupid text to an employee and checking their reactions and all). Rhett probably intentionally tried to turn Link's answer into a joke in order to disorientate the viewers, however he also looked genuinely baffled and I don't get why he would be baffled about such a honest and maybe even common answer.

Here's what makes me suspicious; Rhett makes the quite strange remark that Link should maybe predict what all these people think about him in his absence. I am SO confused with this. Why? Why should he be able to predict it? Don't we all have similar concerns? Should we be able to predict what others truly think about us? Most of us just take leaps of faith. Rhett's argument literally makes no sense whatsoever. And yet Link quickly agrees, not questioning it in the slightest. My best guess is that either Rhett was trying to save Link from the hole he (and Rhett) were both digging for him by focusing only on the employees out of fear of being exposed, even though Link's true answer wasn't about them, not mostly at least. Or it was Rhett's own veiled answer, a " you should be sure about what I feel / think of you, even when you 're not there", which is why Link quickly retreated , because this could lead to a fight or Rhett feeling hurt. Maybe both guesses apply actually.

Another interesting moment is how Link says he wouldn't spy on Christie. While this is a reasonable choice to not throw his wife under the bus, it's very interesting that he says "it wouldn't be fair". He doesn't say it's out of solid trust. He does say he thinks he knows how she feels but still, the fact that he wouldn't do it because it wouldn't be fair is a very interesting choice of word for me. It's almost like saying, when you give someone your all, you also expect their all in an equal, fair relationship, but when you give someone like, your 50%, it wouldn't be fair to demand their 100%. You know?

In the end, after agreeing with Rhett it's insignificant and that it should be obvious what others feel about him (no it isn't? wtf), Link essentially shoots this down by saying it would be a poor choice, not for the aforementioned arguments, but because perhaps Link would eventually regret learning what others truly feel about him. And somehow I doubt this is about twinkle fingers. It could be about him too but it's not about him first and foremost.

#rhink #rhett and link #r&l #rhett mclaughlin #link neal #ebs #ear biscuits #eb 373 #mythical

[eternalwritess]

Hello, I'd like to ask for a match with Hazbin?

And you don't have to rush into it, I'm always happy to wait, because quality is over time

Sexuality: Asexual & Bi

Pronouns: She/Her

Worldview/Personality: I am an ordinary introvert who opens up very quickly to loved ones!

I'm pretty snarky, I like to sing and dance, I have ADHD, so I can also randomly start modeling clothes or composing music :) I love beautiful fitted clothes and often sew them for myself, also all my friends have elements of clothing from me, also I am a traditional artist, and oh my goodness, I love painting! I am 175 cm tall, I have a rather attractive figure, meets the standards. I have an aristocratic face with stiff features, clear eyebrows and gray-blue eyes. I can say I'm strong, at least I can lift a person like I weight, hehe. Sometimes I'm very naughty and my temper deteriorates slightly. But I try to avoid it, because after such explosions I often cry and I can't sing properly. And this is very sad!

𝕐𝕠𝕦 𝕙𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕓𝕖𝕖𝕟 𝕞𝕒𝕥𝕔𝕙𝕖𝕕 𝕨𝕚𝕥𝕙…

𝓥𝓮𝓵𝓿𝓮𝓽𝓽𝓮!

Honestly... yeah Velvette fits you perfectly- its the fashion and I think you'd have a really fun dynamic

With you being an introvert she probably saw you walking on the streets of hell and noticed how pretty you were and went 'that one i want that one' then dragged your ass into her building

"Come on I'm gonna make you a fucking star!"

That being said she also noticed how socially awkward you were with her and others and she probably couldn't stand it at first so she kept you away from people like Vox and Val

Eventually she probably started noticing you opening up and becoming more snarky and she fucking loved it

She would comment on things with you and be sarcastic with you all of the time

Its safe to say you were her new favorite person... also you were really pretty so-

"Honestly, out of all these fuckers in this hell hole... I'm gonna be honest, you're my favorite"

She lets you model clothes with her all of the time and will always take into account your adjustments... but she does get the final say

Once she noticed that you also painted she definitely asked you to paint her or to at least let her post your stuff online so that she can gain more recognition

"Aw come on, its amazing! Just look at it!"

There is little doubt in my mind that she's your hype man and will always back you up no matter what

If you tend to explode at someone she'll instantly back you up and if you start apologizing she'll just be like 'no no continue, rip them to shreds'

If you blow up at her she doesn't care, although if its over a genuine problem of her's she'll try and fix it for you. Point being she can take you blowing up on her

If she sees you crying she pause and go up to you and offer to beat up whoever the hell made you cry or make an extremely mean post about them

#matchups #hazbin hotel matchup #hazbin hotel matchups #match up #matchup #hazbin hotel match up #hazbin hotel #hazbin #hazbin hotel match ups

[spoiltizzy]

Aside from Izzy, Ed, and Stede, what, if any, other OFMD characters do you have an interest in seeing gain?

In addition, do you tend to favor certain branches (ik there's def a better word but I am like 3 mins away from bed so my brain is off rn) of feedism over another for particular characters, or do your interests remain fairly steady across the board (ex: prefer to see character A getting hand fed, have a thing for character b burping, seeing stretch marks on C, vs liking to see the same scenarios for a, b, and c)?

I was in the pub when I got this and I’ve been thinking about it but that doesn’t mean my answer is going to be any less rambly than usual sorry haha. I talk about dubcon scenarios in this more than I usually would, so. Just a warning. Um, I did once write sprizzy, but unfortunately at this point I’m sort of more in the Stede, Ed, and Izzy fandom than the OFMD fandom, if that makes any sense. You’d think that I’d be more interested in the heavier characters in OFMD, given my kink, I guess? Or more interested in other characters for other reasons. I mean, Fang has his tummy out all the time, and Roach seems to be quite a passionate chef. But I connected the most with Stede, Ed, and Izzy, and sadly the other characters really just do not scratch my brain, and there are some of them that I actually really dislike, like Ricky and Jack.

Jack, at least, I’d be willing to have horny thoughts about, but the situations I mentally put him in are all sort of demeaning and humiliating towards him. Sometimes worse. Maybe there’s a market for that, haha, idk. I didn’t understand hate sex until I read a CJ fanfic one time. I find him so annoying that I’d do kinky things to him but in a demeaning way, which is weird, because normally this kink is, if not always soft, usually at least sort of loving for me. It’s almost the only time that I have any interest in gaining being used in a genuine humiliation or punishment way, rather than anything of that sort being just roleplay between characters who actually love each other. Even when I think about Izzy being humiliated or feminized in a humiliating way, which is a weird kink of mine but hey, I grew up in a society full of gender roles so I’m allowed to have kinks about shit that’s been a part of my upbringing’s culture, usually I imagine that the people doing that to him have a lot of affection towards him, whereas any cuteness Stede or Ed saw in Jack in the scenarios in my head is in an actually condescending way with no respect for him. In fact the scenario sort of rests on them approaching the exchange with animosity towards him, which probably makes this my most controversial horny fantasy about pirates. Still, just because I find Jack annoying and don’t like him, I doubt I’d ever actually be able to write a fic or draw any art of this scenario or of chubby Jack or any of that. I don’t like the guy, the only satisfaction I get from thinking about him is either in this weird fucked up capacity, OR in a very very specific scenario involving Stede which I’ll get to later, because I think it’s kinda related to the second part of the question.

Given I am mostly only interested in my three favourite pirates, I can only really answer that second part of the question in relation to them, so I hope that’s ok. But yeah, there are different things that I like best for different characters.

I tend to favour Izzy in I guess what you’d describe as more submissive roles. That doesn’t necessarily always mean him being bigger. For example, the idea of a fat Stede and Ed feeding Izzy because their baseline for what he should weigh is thrown off by their own ideas of how big someone should be, given what they’ve done to themselves. Izzy also tends to be the only one who I’d put in more dubcon situations, like… force-feeding (though it’s worth noting I want him to secretly enjoy it) or weird fantasy intox scenarios where he’s being fattened up and might not be fully aware of it. He’s also my favourite pick for being the spoiled pet out of the three. In general, though I adore Izzy, he’s unfortunately the one that I tend to put in the weirdest most demeaning scenarios of the three. I have also been guilty of making him so fucking stupid because I think it’s funny, cute, and sometimes a little hot in the right scenarios. Like, if the crew realises giving Izzy food shuts him up and he has no idea why it’s happening and doesn’t realise he’s getting fat because of it, or, like I said, in weird fantasy intox scenarios where he’s just… not especially aware of what’s happening. He likes it, though. And he’s always very very loved. The only scenario I can imagine Izzy being somewhat akin to dominant in is just under the circumstances in which he’s petting Ed’s hair and saying sweet comforting things to Ed while Ed “some kind of mommy issues probably” Teach nuzzles and mouths and sucks on Izzy’s tits. Um. What can I say, dude, I’m a weirdo.

Ed’s really hot, and though he may not be suave at heart, he’s capable of acting all cool and sexy and stuff, and for some reason that kinda inspires the desire to see him be completely unabashed about his gain more than I want to see that with either of the others. Or even perhaps unaware of it, or at least acting unaware of it. Ed’s the sort of person where I can totally see him always eating whatever the fuck he wants, and then one day his metabolism really starts to slow down but he keeps eating like always and it just doesn’t occur to him that gaining weight is ever on the agenda. Sneaks up on him because he’s never worried about managing his weight in his life, so he’s not prepared for getting a little older and his sweet tooth having consequences all of a sudden. But I don’t think he’d be ashamed when he realised he was getting chubby, or at least he definitely wouldn’t if he realised Stede and Izzy liked it. And because he’s never had any shame about his food choices, he remains shameless about his sweet tooth and his appetite. That’s a specific fantasy I have quite regularly about Ed, but wouldn’t necessarily put to any of the other characters. And this is related to intox more than tummy, but this is my kink blog so I’ll just say whatever I want on it, but I also sort of like the idea of an Ed who somehow still expects his alcohol tolerance to be what it was when he was in his 20s and partying a lot— I imagine this is sort of just Ed lore in every universe, lol, in some context. Even if “partying” was just getting drunk with Jack on pirate versions of shore leave or something. So he might overdo it and then just insist, while tripping over his words a little and hiccuping, that he wasn’t drunk. But not cause he’s lying, just because he genuinely didn’t expect to be drunk already, and he’s a cute silly billy who thinks he isn’t drunk. Ed’s versatile. He can be a good kitty or a sweetheart who deserves to be spoiled or he can be the kraken demanding to be fed more with a gun in his hand. He can be using his appetite and his pudgy belly to fluster Stede or Izzy on purpose, or he can be so unprepared to have gained weight but so unabashed about his cropped tops and appetite he’s doing it accidentally.

Stede’s a funny one because I usually make him slightly more dominant than the others, in a soft way, in my head. Though that is NOT a rule. I will write flustered or submissive Stede or Stede being teased sometimes. I like a lot of things for Stede, I love it when he feeds another character or fattens them up, I love it when he has those desires and he executes them, but obviously mutual gaining is a really big thing for me so I like him to gain and/or be pudgy too. Though I always want Stede a bit chubby, and usually pudgier than he canonically is by a notable amount, I don’t necessarily feel a need for him to be as big as the others, whereas if I were writing a scenario where Ed or Izzy were not as fat as Stede I would want them to catch up or surpass Stede in weight/size. Maybe it’s because I relate more to Stede, but I tend to give him the most feedery role in my head and though I don’t mind the thought of him catching up or matching the others if they were gaining, I don’t have anywhere near as much of a desire to see him surpass the others. Ed or Izzy on the other hand I would love to see surpass the others. I know I’ve just repeated myself but oh well.

Also, though I like it when all of them burp, I have more of a thing for Stede burping. It’s odd because to me it counts as a sort of subversion of expectations that I adore applying to Stede, but it’s hard to explain exactly why. After all, Stede’s not exactly polite. I guess, though, that he doesn’t come across as gross or messy, so the idea of Stede burping aloud, or aloud in front of others, unabashedly, or letting out rather loud/big burps is kinda hot to me BECAUSE Stede… though he’s willing to pick up pickled noses in his bare hands or dig around in the dirt, he doesn’t have gross vibes, or the vibes of a man who would burp aloud.

That’s where that other Jack fantasy comes in, actually. It’s purely this: I think it would be sort of hot, if say, Jack and Ed were drinking beer and trying to one-up each other’s burps, you know, like the frat boys they were, and Stede just. Got fed up of it, and tried to get them to stop by proceeding to burp in such a manner as to win whatever silly burping contest Jack and Ed were up to. Or if Jack and Stede got catty with each other and it somehow lead to some sort of competition like that, and Ed and Stede’s crew were like “wow, ok, didn’t see that coming” about it. Haha.

So yeah, it is rather different for all the characters, and my rules do all tend to have exceptions. But in general, Izzy’s the one I’m most willing to demean, lovingly. Izzy’s not the only one I tend to make stupid or under the influence of something that makes him so so silly and dumb, but I tend to enjoy doing that to him a lot more than the others. I don’t really like Stede to be the biggest one in the endgame but he can be equal to the other(s). Also, this has nothing to do with tummy, but I like Stede to top. I think this is because Stede is sorta my projection character a lot of the time, and I have an unwavering preference for topping. I like the idea of like… force-feeding as roleplay for both Ed and Izzy but not really for Stede. I tend to like my Ed shameless and my Izzy more often full of shame but for horny reasons, though when Stede’s full of shame it’s usually for angsty reasons.

Basically, yeah, I have a set of different preferences depending on the character, but it’s all sort of weird and complicated and full of exceptions and not really following all that many patterns. I mean, it does follow patterns, but… ah, I don’t know.

SORRY for talking this much, have fun tackling this fucking CHUNK of text, lmao. um. oops.

#asks #god this is probably more than you wanted anon #i’m sorry #i should have made this more concise but i got overzealous and went into SOOOOO much detail

[persephoneflouwers]

Hello Angie!

I hope you don’t mind the novel but hey you wanted to share thoughts so here I am!

Rationalize is a big word but me thinks this is happening for various reasons, you tell me what you think about these options:

- Louis has this persona of “not wanting to grow up” so a younger girlfriend fits what everybody knows about him. She also seems to be tailored to the het audience who wants to “date him” and might identify with her. You know, sort of what El 1.0 was in 2012, the girl next door sort of thing but still “a fashion model” (who does no modeling, lol). But these pap pics feel precisely planned to make her look like a fan, so the message seems to be if she can date him, all fans can too! He’s a normal dude dating a normal girl who looks just like you! Buy tickets to his concerts and you might get lucky (because I can pretty much guess she’s gonna disappear real quickly and he’s going to be *available* and party boy during tour 🥲)

- There’s extra gayness in the documentary so having a son wasn’t enough. Seems unlikely but who knows? Rainbows can’t be erased from his tour shots, so I guess it’ll have to be addressed in some way.

- Also having a new romance in general helps with publicity, so for him to be talked about before the doc release. I still would have picked a higher profile, maybe another musician girl, if you really needed to sell a certain image AND benefit Louis and expand his audience, but again let’s be real I think his PR is incompetent. If I have to give them the benefit of the doubt, maybe the fan, down to earth girl angle is what they actually wanted to achieve with picking a good-looking nobody (back to point 1). It’s clearly benefitting her more than him (she went from 5K followers this morning to what, 35K now?)

- last wild though, maybe there was something with Eleanor wearing his clothes and still posting from his house that didn’t sit well with someone? So they needed to make a point? Wild but we’ve seen worse so keeping all options open.

I genuinely don’t know, but a mix options 1 and 3 seem the more rational. What do you think?

Last thought: I really hope she was ready and well informed before agreeing to this, but the whole shitshow with the Pinterest pins and Spotify playlists tells me there was a level of naivety on her end which is alarming. She was probably guided into this by a reckless agent with who knows what promises and it scares me. I don’t mind the age gap (my parents started dating when she was 18 and he was 29), but I do mind the fact that she’s likely too young to handle the hate she’s getting, regardless of the economic gains she’ll get from this it’s going to be traumatic if you don’t have the right support to handle it/maturity.

Hello, angel! Thank you for sharing <3 I will slowly go through your thoughts and explain what I think.

1. The forever young boy is interesting, bc Louis comes off as the loud hyperactive guy sometimes. Unfortunately I think they burned this option out when they gave him a fake kid lol

2. I think feeding such a dream to his fans is a huge underdevelopment, but it’s loyal to his fanbase origin. Still. It’s so cringe for me that a 31 yo man with a kid goes out with a young girl who pins tiktoks and random tattoos researches on Pinterest. It’s counterproductive, dumb and lazy. I don’t look at them as examples and I don’t expect them to do smart shit. we’re talking about rich people growing up as completely detouched from normal world since they were teenagers. Me and them, you and them? We’re not the same as them. I hoped he was smarter than this tho. Of course this can be useful as promo for the doc… will it tho, we know how his team and the media treat his content and projects, so I wouldn’t be surprised if they wouldn’t get any coverage not even with these pics. I don’t think that’s how you expand a fanbase or get more people curious in his work.

3. I think Eleanor simply wanted to be out for whatever reason. I think they replaced her with a new one bc E wasn’t going to engage with bg. She has never and she won’t (so far). I hope this new girl did her homework because fandom is hard to manage.

#casella di posta numero 32

[reality-suckssssss]

Well... here we are, its officially the last day of the year 2022. That sounds so insane to write because my brain is still trying to process the last few years that all seem like a giant blur and suffering, very much like this year haha. I am officially 9 days away from being 27. 27... that sounds so scary, its mind blowing I've made it this far and yet its also sad that I've made it this far. I never thought I'd make it to be honest and i lost all hopes, dreams and ambitions long ago but i want to gain them back so that next year i dont look bad and think about my life the way im thinking about it now, a waste.

I feel like the biggest failure on this earth and that my time here has truly been pointless. I genuinely dont know how or why I've made it this far, yet here i am.. still alive, still stuck, still lost, i still dont know what the fucking purpose of my existence is when my life is so boring and insignificant. 365 days wasted. 365 of being depressed and wanting to die. 365 days of dealing with anxiety over the smallest of things. 365 days... wasted on nothing meanwhile there's people that are wishing for just one more day of life, one more day to spend with a loved one, one more day of a life they love yet that life is coming to an end.

Meanwhile all i did this year was cry over the littlest of things, cry over things never working in my favor, crying over being fat yet not having enough mental strength and motivation to do anything about it. All i did this year was get a new job and cry over a boy that doesnt want me hahah but i will admit getting my job was probably the one and only good thing to happen this year. I genuinely love my job and i am greatful for such a good job with such amazing people around me, which also includes the boy that doesn't want me and is taken haha since my very first day there on valentine's day i got mesmerized by him, amazed at how beautiful he is because he is truly the most beautiful man i have ever seen. He is the kind of man i pictured when i thought about what kind of man i wanted for myself. He is tall, sweet, respectful, smart and so kind but sadly this beautiful man is already taken, not that he'd ever look in my direction the way i look at him every day. To him I'm just the awkward girl that stutters a little bit and used to get bright red every time she talked to him (so glad i learned to stop myself from turning red lol) but to me he's the one thing that makes me wake up happy which is sad and pathetic i know but do you know how many times I've told myself that i dont like him, that he doesnt like me and that nothing is gonna happen between us only to turn around half a second later and be sooo happy just because he talked to me!? A lot. A lot of times. But i can't help it.. i don't know what it is about him that has me there stuck on him, usually i can get over someone fairly quickly but with him it seems that no matter how hard i try im still back at square one.. But i hope i can move on in this coming year and i hope i can find some ambitions, goals to keep me going. i hope that i find genuine happiness and the love my soul so hopelessly wants.. i have so much love to give yet no one to give it to, a hopeless romantic that's never had true beautiful romance in her life, tragic.

I doubt anyone will read this but if you did... heres to the new year! <3 may this year be filled with all the greatest and all the love we want it to have.

#end of the year #2022 #thoughts #love #wonder #helpless #hopeful #depression sucks #anxiety sucks

[por-siempre-aqui]

I decided to clean up a little so I opened a drawer and put it on the bed.

I found at least half a dozen cards from over the years Im guessing? I have no memory of these cards, like at all.

I opened each one up.

To me, it's like reading them for the first time.

I swear I read each one and I had no memory of these words of love that he wrote to me. I completely forgot he would get me a card and flowers whenever he could, and I hate surprises, but it was always the best gesture when he did this.

It wasn't an illusion, that's what I realized today.

Like we really really did love each other so much and it was genuine.

But then I also found a bunch of instax photos too, and it was of us at places we explored. And I could remember from those pictures was how uncomfortable I felt and how bad my anxiety was.

We had an argument at the beach and I cried and I ended up apologizing. But I wasn't really sorry. I just regretted whatever I did to start the argument.

Whenever we have had fights, he is extremely quiet and then out of nowhere extremely confrontational.

We are both tired of each other right now. I know I am. I need space. I hope that he gets his life together. And that's coming from someone who has no idea what it's like to have no one to turn to for help.

I don't have anything in my life together right now. I have to focus on me, so that's what I'm doing. I need to take care of myself, I need to cook for myself and keep showing myself love.

And you know what? I have already been feeling better. I am sad and I do feel uncomfortable. But I realized that I am also so used to feeling uncomfortable around him.

So many feelings. So many random moments of sadness and happiness and comfort and then complete annoyance.

He still hasn't apologized. He will never apologize. I probably have should him that he doesn't have to be sorry or agree with me at all.

He has his own opinions about me and I cannot control how he perceives me.

I know he loves me I never have ever doubted that he loves me. But he loves me in his own way, and I have tried so many times to straight up tell him how to love me. His corporate jobs stress him out.

He still doesn't have a car.

He hasn't filed his taxes in 4 years?

He doesn't have a drivers license, just an ID.

He doesn't care about my anxiety.

We have never taken a vacation or an overnight getaway together and we have been together for 4 years.

When we fight it always circles back to the same thing. We are both tired of feeling like we have to prove how much we love each other. And it shouldn't feel like a burden. And then there's the fact that I don't feel comfortable cuddling, my back always hurts 100% due to my weight gain and my old mattress.

A mattress that has been worn down by two large people sleeping on it.

There isn't enough room on the bed for both of us to sleep comfortably. That's one of the reasons I was getting a new bed. And the new bed is bigger so I get to feel extra alone in it. Super

But my bed will no longer have hay, crumbs or his pubes or his nail bits in it. There won't be random spills in my room anymore. The only mountain of clothes I will have will be mine!!

I want to get some steps for my dog so she can safely climb into bed with me. At least I have her. He won't even have her and that fucks me up to think about.

I want to believe that by having him move out he will get his shit together, and that's it. If something happens to him I will feel responsible. That's truly how I see it.

But I have asked him so many times to help me. Do the dishes, take out the trash, please do your laundry?! I mean come on dude. I can only tolerate that for so long.

Guess what I also stupidly opened up one of his drawers and saw a lot of the cards that I got for him?! Hahahaha.

I swear someone is setting me up.

Open that drawer, oh wow. Love cards with no date on them. They're not from last year or the year before. So I'm going to guess they are from 2020-2021. Some time after that he walked away from the first job and I didn't know how to respond to his depression.

I think I did the best I could. I definitely made excuses for him, and it is a difficult habit to break. I still do it.

But why am I so judgmental? I would have nothing without my parents help. Literally nothing. No place to live, no car and mostly no hope. I know people who would do their best to help me if I asked them. But I can't imagine ever being that at odds with my parents.

I'm tired of feeling unhappy. And I know I am unhappy in this relationship, in this living situation and I'm unhappy with myself. With who I am right now, i don't like myself. I'm lazy. I'm anxiety ridden. I haven't felt truly relaxed in too long. It has always felt like he was just a guest and I have never felt truly comfortable.

I wanted him so badly and when I got him I felt so lucky. But I didn't really, truly know him. I barely understand him, and yet I love him.

But I need to love me more. I have to love me more.

I was on my way to truly loving and accepting myself and I allowed myself to get lost and jaded and I silenced myself. I am just as responsible for the failure of this relationship. I didn't speak up when I first started to feel uncomfortable and suffocated. I saw him alone and I said hey stay with me. And that was that. I had to convince him, basically beg him and fast forward to today. My parents did start charging both of us rent a few years ago, but neither of us knows how to be financially stable. And we never talked about making a plan for our future. We liked to talk about stuff we wanted to do. But we never got around to doing much of it.

Which is fine by me, I'll figure out another way to go to these places. Because I want to go. And if not I'll try inviting friends. I gotta be social and I gotta go outside more. For me a walk around the block is all I need. Or an hour on the elliptical. I somehow feel like I will have more time and freedom to do what I want to do, when I want to do it.

I am terrified that I'm making a mistake. And that hurting him will be a somehow simply just piss him off. I can't control how he feels about me. But he can't control if I worry and I know I will get over it, and it will pass.

We don't have to try to be friends or acquaintances if he isn't willing. I'm not going to force a damn thing. I have been through that before. I'm just tired of him having no drive. I need someone who wants to work at growing and supporting each other. Someone who doesn't just call me out, but someone who does it in a loving way. Someone who I can be myself around.

I sure as hell don't have my shit together. I know I have a whole lot to work through. I'm going to try therapy at my campus and then I'll see where to go from there.

I hope we can connect from time to time. But I don't know if he will be willing to because I'm straight up kicking him out. I'm being generous because of his situation. I'm giving him time to gather money so he can have something saved up. But I don't want him to get the wrong idea. I really want him to take moving out seriously. That's the number one thing I need from him.

[kaythefloppa]

Hey, saw your posts with Kash and wanted to say I'm so sorry all that happened to you - I admittedly was in a drama group years ago where she was very active and it's not at all surprising that she continues to behave like it's 2012 and triggering the SJWs was the hot thing for edgelords. Also very not surprising she's now the person who whinges about cancel culture.

You don't have to respond to this, just hope you're doing alright and any backlash from making that call out has died down by now.

Thanks for sending this. I know it was a year ago but thank you.

Admittedly after all the shit that I endured in the months following the call-out, it’s made me consider leaving the LK fandom — It was what ended up making me leave the MLP fandom as well (it was that bad that the shit had crossed over there, you likely know about it from the tags but if not, you can DM me for context) but I stayed anyways because admittedly, I’m TLK trash and there were some things about the online community that I genuinely liked.

Though it’s still taken a toll on me — Because every day there’s some new shit-storm in regards to racism or pro shipping, stuff which I want to contribute to people speaking out against but can’t because “look how well it happened last time.” (I had to stay off the TLK tag for a full day on my birthday because of this, yay! /s) It feels like I’m the odd one out, though in reality that’s likely the perception that I’ve created in my head because of it. And yeah, I still get some backlash from making it and was even blocked by some creators I followed, but it says more about them than me if anything.

And at this point, nothing I hear about Kash surprises me. Nowadays her whole blog is basically defending proshippers, scapegoating “antis” (I don’t like using that term, I’m against proshippers, but I don’t think something called “anti-SHIP” should be a phrase for people who are against specific, awful ships, my two cents), likening them to fascists, Republicans, puritans, media illiterates, cults, and homophobes (that last one cost her a few followers and was what motivated me the most to make the call-out and she unsurprisingly enough didn't address that little comparison, I doubt she ever will), and blanketed the term “fandom cops” onto people who were calling out micro aggressions. Again, nothing that surprises me, and I’d be beating a dead horse if I went any further and would probably end up on the front page of Laughable-lion-king-art if I did but it's nothing that nobody else doesn't already know.

I'm not gonna blissfully pretend that the callout-fallout didn't completely fuck up my mental and emotional wellbeing, but I am at least glad that I took some initiative and ended up gaining closure in the end. And given how many people really had it out for me last year, I'm glad you're among the people who are willing to support me. Thanks again.

#vent? kinda #answered #anon ask #tlk fandom #fandom #tw proship mention #tw racism #the lion king fandom #had to let it out

[mrfoox]

Biggest problem with me is really that I can't seriously think someone likes me more than like maybe a friend. So if anyone does show such signs... I just kinda mentally shut it down and deny it and sabotage myself potentially

Because I can't see anyone without any ulterior motive showing interest in me

#miranda talking shit #I really just end up.... Trying to figure out what they want? Like... What could you gain from being nice to me....? #Because no one sane would look at me or learn anything about me and decide im dating material #Aaaalso probably why i am so hung up on friends to lovers bc i... I just cant see anyone liking me otherwise #I guess its a good thing i think this way too? Bc its not uncommon for there to be people out there hoping to manipulate you for their own #Gain. But i also think i... Am probably just doubting genuine people but it just puts me so on edge ? #Considering my autism and how easy it usually is for us to trust others it might be a blessing i do this... #I just assume anyone showing romantic things towards me are either joking or want something from me #Im not pretty or likable enough to have someone just get so strong intrest in me its impossible... #Liking me is insane like .... Who would ... And if you do... Im sorry /: like i feel bad for friends who even like me .... Damn #Negative

[nataliaphantomhivesblog]

Thinking about the fact that Dazai found intrest in Chuuya because of his loyalty and not his ability. Thinking about the fact that the idea of Chuuya being Arahabki never crossed Dazai's mind. Thinking about the fact that Dazai truly disliked how the sheep took advantage of Chuuya. Thinking about the fact that Chuuya was Dazai's reason to live in the fifthteen light novel. Thinking about the fact that Chuuya was the first person Dazai shared an equal partnership with. Thinking about the fact that Chuuya was the first person Dazai ever started to harvest genuine care for. Thinking about the fact that Chuuya was Dazai's drive to keep living and fighting in Stormbringer. Thinking about the fact that Dazai carried Chuuya on his back and took him to the bar so he can say goodbye to his dying friends. Thinking about the fact that Dazai never doubted Chuuya's humanity. Thinking about the fact that after Dazai believed Veraline was defeated he didn't hesitate to look for Chuuya in the woods when he could've told anyone else to do it for him. Thinking about the fact that Dazai gave Chuuya Verlaine's hat because he knows it hold meaning to him. Thinking about the fact that Dazai is amazed by corruption but also uses it as a last resort for Chuuya's sake. Thinking about the fact that Dazai is always delicate when it comes to nullifying Chuuya's corruption. Thinking about the fact that Dazai started to softly laugh at Chuuya's shooked face when he found out that Adam actually cared for him. Thinking about the fact that Dazai let Chuuya rest on his lap and silently comforted him after the dragon head conflict. Thinking about the fact that Dazai covered up for Chuuya so that he wouldn't be incriminated back in the basement. Thinking about the fact that Chuuya's damsel impression was the one thing that made Dazai genuienly laugh. Thinking about the fact that Dazai proudly bragged to the enemy how strong Chuuya was in the lovecraft battle. Thinking about the fact that Dazai sewed an inside joke in Chuuya's coat. Thinking about the fact that Dazai still calls Chuuya "partner" and not "ex-partner". Thinking about the fact that Dazai probably feels the most comfortable with Chuuya. Thinking about the fact that Dazai put his life on Chuuya's hands without hesitation. Thinking about the fact that Dazai could've left Chuuya to die back in the fog but he let protected him and let him sleep in his lap.

.... But Dazai defiently uses Chuuya right? Dazai defiently does not regard Chuuya as a human being and would let him die for his own personal gain, right? Yeah.....

This isn't even me pointing out headcanons of these two or me romantizing them either. Its just me pointing canon facts from the light novels, anime and manga.

I won't bash you for not shipping them, I obviously won't shove this ship down your throat either. But you can't just simply ignore the canon trust and bond these two characters have for one another.

Right now, I only focused on Dazai's feelings for Chuuya because a lot of people always use the "Dazai doesn't care for Chuuya" as an argument when it comes to bashing this ship.

Of course I won't lie to you and say that this ship is pure sunshine and rainbows, of course not! But is any bsd ship truly sunshine and rainbows considering the toxic enviorments they all grew in?

If you truly believe that Dazai does not care for Chuuya I am seriously going to assume you only watched the anime, and even if you only watched the anime the care is still evident but I guess its more subtle.

I've seen so many people being too passionate about their hatred for this ship, and I totally get if you don't ship it but I think its pretty understandable why people ship it too.

I personally love this ship and the reason for it is because of how profound this dynamic is and how important it is to both characters.

Aaannnd im done with my rant, and if you don't ship this its totally fine! You can ship whatever you want unless its pedophilic or toxic, it just sort of annoys me when people try to bash this ship with the empty argument of "Dazai doesn't care for Chuuya" or vise versa.

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