#I got a ton of asks about it

[trailshome]

HOLY SHIT YOU UPDATED?? THE SCREAM I JUST SCRUMPT IS UNHOLY IM SO FCKING EXCITED THANKU YHANKU THANKUS😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Haha!! No thank you for being so excited!! Sorry the demo was broken for a few hours -- every time I fix something, another thing breaks lol!!

#asks #answered #I got a ton of asks about it #i'm embarrassed I couldn't fix it sooner #oml sorry yall #my kittens had a vet appointment that took... too long lol!!!

[waywardsunlight]

Dadmode

#don't ask about canon this is an au #i don't care #i love dad Darius #AU where everything was fine and Darius got a ton of character development right away when he saw baby Hunter #toh #toh fanart #the owl house #the owl house fanart #darius deamonne #hunter deamonne #they're my fav #dadrius #sonter #toh darius #toh hunter #hunter toh #darius toh #fanart #disney fanart #Wayward Sunlight Art

[atthebell-moved]

hi, i completely agree that the fandom has a problem with misogyny and often fails at self-introspection. my question is, do you have any resources/tips/thoughts on how to be better about it? even, how to recognize it in yourself the first place? "ok i'll stop being a misogynist now" is a lot easier said than done, especially for people who might not be that educated on the subject, and majority of the people in this fandom are quite young as well.

this is long as fuck and possibly somewhat incoherent bc it took so long to write but i did my best

my biggest tip for people who don't know much about misogyny is to look at your own behavior and learn how to clock what you're doing as sexist.

are you criticizing a female creator? think about why you're doing it, what the actual beef you have with them is. if it seems to be just a sense of discomfort or thinking they're annoying or overly loud or pushy, think about male ccs who act the same way and why you dont consider them annoying. are you annoyed with them for being on a male cc's stream? why? does it feel like theyre taking up too much attention? do you get annoyed with them for talking too much or flirting with guys? for gaming especially-- do you get annoyed with them for not knowing something or being "bad" at a game? think about why that is and why its just funny when a male cc is bad at games or doesnt know something.

a HUGE problem i see in this fandom is the Madonna-whore complex, repackaged as the little sister-racist dichotomy (kudos to @yourlittlemenace for that phrasing).

if a female cc is deemed to be "playing nice" (doesnt talk too much, is "nice", streams with male ccs but doesnt flirt with them, isn't "overtly sexual"), she's the little sister of the group. all the male ccs "protect" her, she literally folds their laundry, she doesnt call out how people treat her, and the fandom pretends that this is a normal and cool way to treat women who are public figures. this also goes for mom/big sister/etc. if you think you haven't done this, think about all the aus where you've forced puffy into some kind of maternal or sisterly role when it made no sense. then think about how pissed people got when she decided not to be the server therapist and was "mean" to Tommy (in lore, with permission. that she didnt even need to get. see that clip i rbed earlier from her podcast.)

if the fandom decides she doesnt play nice, if she flirts with male ccs too much or stands up for herself or points out how unfair it is that she's being treated this way, she gets demeaned, harassed, and shunned by the fandom. consider, again, puffy. consider how niki flirted with wilbur and talked about misogyny and got called a racist for *checks notes* "speaking to schlatt and fundy" and "not being a native english speaker". she got called a slut and a queerbaiter for kissing another woman despite being bisexual.

consider how hard people went down on hannah for having said the r slur several years back versus how hard they went on dream for the same thing. and how people dug it up as a direct response to her being on stream with dream. consider how every time hannah talks about how unfair it is that the mcc subreddit treats her like trash, she has to delete all her tweets bc they harass her to hell and back and act like she's an asshole for pointing out their hypocrisy.

the fandom doesnt do this across the board; i shouldnt have to say this, but its not an everyone versus no one issue. some people do this outright and loud, some dont seem to realize theyre doing it, and a few people dont do it at all (incredibly rare, i can count on one hand the number of people who genuinely seem to try to avoid these issues, which is why im complaining).

in terms of lore, have you ever once done analysis on a female character? why do you think you haven't? the bechdel-wallace test is an (imperfect) way of gauging how a piece of media ignores women and prioritizes men. think about the fact that there are FOUR female ccs on the DSMP and they are continually ignored in favor of male characters. consider that puffy and aimsey both talked about trying to do genuine lore and getting shafted, either because no one was online and wouldn't put in the effort to stream with them or because they received insane amounts of criticism for breaking anything on the server, despite the clear lack of "no griefing" rules and the precedent that you can blow other people's shit up (tommy leveling one of puffy's builds, amongst many other examples).

a quick thing about ships: have you ever wondered why m/m ships are so popular? the general consensus amongst people who care about feminism and are into fandom studies is that for a long period of time, m/m was hugely popular because women are so rarely written as full and complete characters in any media. so people took to engaging with m/m ships and writing about them because they were the most fulfilling relationships, and because misogyny led them to be predisposed to be uninterested in female characters.

say an m/m ship is incredibly popular, something like, i dunno, john watson and sherlock holmes from bbc sherlock. lets also say the canonical media presents one or both of the characters with a female love interest. how do you think a fandom that prioritizes m/m ships and is primed to be disinterested in women as characters (either because of our society's role in teaching people that women do not matter or because of fandom's history in assuming female characters are not fleshed out) is going to react? if you said theyre going to send undue amounts of criticism her way and act like its an act of homophobia to give a canonically straight character a female love interest, congrats, you've figured out a huge component in fandom misogyny. take this, amplify it over several decades, and add the psychic damage that supernatural gave society. queerbaiting is bad but mistreating female characters in service of nonexistent queer relationships is also bad.

this is relevant in general but i also believe its relevant for the dsmp because of the complete lack of m/f ships. aside from phil and kristin, who are literally married irl and kristin isn't even on the server, there are no m/f ships that involve female creators. this is not, despite what you may think, due to the inherently yaoi nature of minecraft roleplay. this is because the creators, including the male ones, are afraid of the blowback of m/f flirting and how fucking awful people are to female ccs anytime it happens. once again look at niki. as another example, consider how notfounders harassed the living daylights out of mxmtoon for flirting with gnf on twitter. if i was a cc i would avoid it like the plague too considering how happy people are to dig shit up about them or accuse them of being a slut or an attention whore/"pick me girl" for speaking to a man.

one last thing, this is more about fanart than anything else but stop drawing women to look like teenage boys. the amount of fanart i see where i literally cannot tell if someone has drawn niki or tommy is fucking insane. niki has curves. draw her with them. if you cannot draw women or people outside a very specific body type you cannot draw. fatphobia and misogyny have a clear overlap.

i cant think of anything else and ive already spent forever on this. look into feminist media analysis. think twice about how you react to female ccs & female characters. consider not just what characters have interesting stories but who is allowed to have interesting stories. you might be neglecting someone who has a lot going on because you're dismissing a female character as inherently less likely to be interesting. you might not even know someone has an interesting story because the fandom neglects it so completely.

as a final little note: like i said earlier, if you're not familiar with gender & sexuality studies, you may not know this, but homophobia and transphobia are rooted in misogyny. the idea that gender is immutable and rigid is because of the patriarchy. this is why gendered slurs are used against queer people and why queer men in particular get accused of and demeaned for being feminine. your understanding of queerphobia is incomplete without considering how sexism plays a role.

also go read everything rayne fisher-quann has ever written but especially this piece on getting woman'd and listen to you're wrong about

#asks #anons #misogyny in fandom #i cant think of a ton of specific links to provide because my understanding of feminism is like. so entrenched #like ive been doing it basically since i got on the internet #and i also studied it in university so i dont want to send like. meaty academic texts necessarily #ill look and see if i can find any other helpful sources though and feel free to add on #also i want to note on that last bit that every time ive talked about this ive mentioned that this fandom runs quite young #and i acknowledge that i literally studied this for like six years #so i have a leg up. but it does feel genuinely like people are putting on blinders to avoid talking about it #which is why it feels like its bc feminism is cringe right now or something #this is. not well written but im honestly so sleepy i stayed up til 3 working on orders ahhhhh #banger posts

[melonteee]

Dunno if u saw it but in the volume 102 sbs Oda did confirm that he didn't think of zoro as the first mate in that No.2 cover spread he did, just in case you ever needed that for a argument

Yup here it is

I mean I'm ngl we already knew that, the running gag is that non-strawhats think Zoro is the first mate or even the captain. Luffy would literally never call anyone on the strawhats his first mate because they're all equal to him, and no one on the strawhats calls anyone else the first mate either.

I understand people want Zoro to be the first mate so bad but the Strawhats literally do not function like a regular pirate crew and they never have, Zoro getting a position that essentially gives him the vice-captain role would turn everything out of whack for how the Strawhats function as a family and collective.

Oda has also literally never labelled Zoro as the first mate nor given him the role of the first mate, it's always just been swordsman LMAO but a lot of fans get really up in arms about Zoro being a first mate for some reason 😭😭😭

#sorry im saying all this cause I remember asking on twitter why ppl think zoro's the first mate and tons of replies got angry about it LMAO #ask #melonask

[fossilizedhysterics]

angel Ɛ✦3

#hiiiii im posting my fursona here for the first time. very nervous #idk why. this is literally the Having A Fursona website #im just gonna. ramble about him for a sec bc hes my guy and hes very silly #his name is roadkill!! technically not but his actual name cant be comprehended by humans #he got that name because of how often he gets run over. he does it on purpose most of the time. he thinks its funny #hes a possum/angel/demon/eldritch horror/incubus/somehow part borzoi thing #and he can shapeshift #and he has a youtube channel where he murders people #hes very controversial. they make video essays about him. but still tons of ppl defend him #(dont ask me why his channel hasnt just been deleted) #but yeah!! he dies a bunch and kills people and tempts people to sin! #there is no like. actual story with him really. hes just a silly guy i draw a lot. dont question it #ok ill shut up now #furry #furry art #fursona #anthro art #furry fandom #furry oc #my art

[dootznbootz]

Odypen definitely and equivalently adore each other BUT I weirdly can't see them as the type to actually say "I Love you".

They still definitely vocalize their love for each other but it's more so in "My Joy", and "Extraordinary Woman", "Strange Woman/Man", etc. And very cheesy lines (both say some cheesy shit in the Odyssey, and he definitely does in the Iliad as well. "Joy like a drowning sailor seeing land" bit???)

I could see "I adore you" but even then, that's probably during very specific moments but the actual "I love you"??? I just typed it just now for fic shit and... It weirdly just didn't feel right and I don't know why. 😅

Idk maybe it's kind of because I see them as over the top in ways, they love wordplay and riddles and I think they'd almost think "...That's not good enough >:( " about it??? I don't know???😂

#I wrote this last night. I'll do the asks I got later. don't worry! :D #I am the cheese god remember?😅 #I think these two would try to “out-cheese” each other and whoever is left speechless first loses #“I would forget my own name before I would ever forget you” bullshit. CHEESY #And yes. “I sleep in our nest with you or outside on the dirt” stupidity >:D #I plan for Odysseus as a beggar to ask why she waits so long. As he's been gone a longer amount of time than the time they had together #(Simply asking as reassurance. He knows his answer. Calypso asked him. but what about Penelope?) but she gets mad at the #“Beggar” and pities him as he must be telling the truth about having a miserable life if he never got the chance to know such devotion #How what they have could never be sullied by #something as trivial as distance and years. How the years with him were the best in her life. Only made better by their son. #'My dear Joy made songs and poems about love a reality as that was simply the life we shared. Even separated our 'song' will always echo #no matter how long it's been. I'LL make sure it always does. And I know he's doing the same... That strange man used to say that #even if he died his corpse would drag itself back to us before he'd ever give up.' #...I'm not one for 'odyssey zombie au' but when I first heard it yeah. :'D Came up with this back then #“His eyes as hard as flint or horn-” Bullshit! The sad lil fuck is hiding sobs with coughs and telling her to keep away for fear of her #catching whatever “illness” he has. The nice thing about being disguised as old means sickly old man works. #... #I'm noticing that Odysseus has a lot of silly oneliners while I write Penelope with a shit ton of set up :'D #They are so silly and I love them so much #...I wrote a lot :'D #Mad rambles #shot by odysseus #my headcanons #odypen #yahoo!!! #sometimes I wonder if I should tag this with more things but I don't want to taint the regular tags with my bullshit :'D I KNOW I'm insane

[lockandkeyhyena]

So so sorry if you've answered this before [or if you just didn't wanna talk about this] but I noticed your part is absent from the Primadonna Spottedleaf map? Again sorry if this is overstepping bounds but I'm just curious if you knew about that

all good. got kicked for supporting bi lesbians i think. they just said ‘because of the drama’

#which is weird because they supported me previously #gonna say it. #tons of wc creators have no spine. i really tried to understand not wanting to get involved in ‘drama’ #and prioritising your participants #but it got to the point where people who agreed with me would still kick me from their maps to sate the rabid callout culture #anyway. can you tell i’m bitter? i’m very bitter. i put in free labour for so many maps and while it is within a host’s rights to kick #whoever they want. its also within MY rights to be bitter about it #sorry lol. rant over #ignore me #anyway it would be nice if people were this aggressive about the people who raided my servers calling me and my participants racial slurs #but i guess racism just isnt as big of a deal as random bullshit queer infighting #OKAY #SORRY #RANT ACTUALLY OVER NOW #yeen rambles #ask

[zeddertop-bugster]

larry goes to terraria. it sucks.

#i still wanna draw more isekai larry but i dont have a ton of ideas n ill probably just do homestuck next #but if anyone got any ideas send me an ask or sm idk lolll #sorry when i draw him and he looks about half his apparent age :skull emojie: #its bc he looks too much like oc morgan who has tired baby face & force of habit ok? ok. #gym leader larry #digital art #elite four larry #larry pokemon #pokemon larry #elite 4 larry #artists on tumblr #digital artist #terraria #guide terraria

[aroaceleovaldez]

I’m a bit nervous about sending an ask, but the curiosity has won me over, hope this isn’t too many questions

You said you headcannon Leo Valdez as dragon kin so I was wondering, do you think he has shifts often, if at all? If so, does he generally have some types of shifts more often or is it more balanced? And do the other campers and the seven know? If they do, did he tell them or did they piece it together on their own? If he told them, did he have to explain a lot or were they kind of just like “okay” and didn’t question it a lot? Like they just accepted it and didn’t want to overstep or something is what I mean

I think maybe I’m overthinking this, I really hope I’m not asking too many questions or anything

It's no worries at all! Asks/questions are always welcome!

I think his most usual shifts would be teeth/scales, but they're a lot more subtle so he either doesn't notice them as much or can ignore them. Those ones are probably semi-regular for him but again, more subtle most of the time (most of the time... every once in awhile he gets hit with a stronger maw shift and he's just sitting there gnashing his teeth at the air for like an hour cause his mouth feels weird until it goes away). Maybe also horns.

Less common ones for him but ones he'd notice more are probably wings, tail, and talons. Talons i mostly just think would be funny for him cause he has his habit of tapping his fingers as a stim. Him getting tripped up from the phantom talons while trying to stim, being confused for a minute about why his fingers aren't touching the table and he just ends up tapping out morse code into the air a couple inches above his desk instead. Wings and tail would probably just be pretty standard phantom limbs - they're just there and he's aware of them and maybe able to move them a bit. I imagine he'd eventually try to make some 'kin gear to help with those shifts specifically just so his brain stops error 404ing when his dragon limbs pass through solid objects despite his brain thinking they should be able to tangibly interact.

I don't think Leo would know what otherkin/alterhuman is when he first meets the Argo II crew, and probably wouldn't get the opportunity to learn about it for awhile. He doesn't really have the vocabulary to explain how he's feeling - just that he Is A Dragon. The rest of the crew probably also doesn't know what otherkin/alterhuman is either so they don't have an explanation for him, but, yknow, demigod life is already so goddamn weird, if Leo says he's a dragon that's not the most abnormal thing they've heard that week and they'll just take his word for it and accept it. And Jason probably understands the feeling re: being a wolf therian, even though he doesn't have the vocabulary to explain it either, so there's at least some solidarity there.

Earlier on I think Leo would just crack a lot of jokes about being a dragon, not particularly explaining how he feels about it to the others but just kind of putting the concept out there. He might try to explain it if the topic comes up but, as mentioned before, just struggle too much to try and find the words for it (the adhd/dyslexia/autism wording problems do not help there). I do like to think though that, due to their Hades/Pluto kid soul powers, Nico and Hazel would actually be able to pick up on spiritual-origin otherkin/therians/etc if they focused on it - Nico in particular, probably a lot more passively - and be able to kind of see phantom limbs/shifts sometimes (cause goodness knows how souls/spirit stuff works in the Riordanverse and I can have my self-indulgent silly alterhuman worldbuilding hcs if i want to - also at least partially inspired by some journal posts i've read of people mentioning people/animals/automatic doors picking up on their phantom limbs and being able to track the movement and stuff. if any demigod would be able to do that it's gonna be the kids with literal soul/phantom powers). I just find the concept amusing of Leo trying to explain this extremely metaphysical experience and Nico's just off to the side like "Oh yeah no, your soul is a dragon. Like, very literally. Dunno how that happened but good for you. btw why do you have ghost wings sometimes?" And Leo's grateful for someone helping him explain it but also isn't sure how he should react to statement. Eventually though one of the crew stumbles across alterhuman stuff - probably Leo or Annabeth, most likely accidentally through looking into daemonism stuff (you know they both read His Dark Materials) - and they put two and two together and finally have a means to explain it and Leo could not be more relieved (though he still doesn't know how to feel about Nico's soul comments).

I love rotating alterhuman demigods in my brain

#pjo #riordanverse #leo valdez #alterhuman demigods #headcanon #headcanons #long post // #ask #Anonymous #side tangent - i have a lot of niche complex hcs about how Nico and Hazel can see souls and what souls look like to them #its definitely not as literal and just kind of a manifestation of the person but they can pick up a ton of details from that #like what life theyre on or certain experiences (like Percy getting the Curse of Achilles or that time Jason got stabbed in the soul) #but if their sort of spiritual manifestation doesnt match their external presentation the death sibs can kind of see that #its probably pretty vague/blurry/amorphous but yknow. when the disconnect is a whole dragon or wolf or something that's kinda obvious #nico looks at percy's soul and it looks like an uncrumpled peice of paper from the curse of achilles being undone #and then he looks over at Leo and just sees big ol' dragon wings sticking out of his soul #and he just goes ''welp. none of my business.'' #but also very wholesome hazel and leo bff bonding potential - hazel being able to see leo's phantom shifts #and just being able to tell Leo about what she sees and generally react to his phantom limbs and its very validating for him #Leo: [extends phantom wings] | Hazel: Oooh big stretch! | Leo: ...I have never felt this much joy in my life

[thegreatyin]

who is the scoundrel? I see you posting about them(it? Idk) all the time but I haven’t figured out who they are

my fallen london OC! i made them by accident a few months ago and as you can tell ive very quickly developed scoundrel brainrot. it's a terminal illness for which there is no cure and the symptoms are instead of brain there is scoundrel.

in terms of actual character rundowns, their full moniker is The Bandaged Scoundrel, though i tend to call them "the scoundrel" for short. their real name is D█████, but they'd sooner die permanently than respond to or even acknowledge its existence.

they are! a bastard! a rat! a son of a b___! a motherf______! they are vain beyond your wildest imagination and they think they're the most infallible perfect being in all of existence and they have the exact attitude of a saturday morning power-hungry cartoon supervillain on cocaine.

and also, perhaps most importantly, they're Really Fucking Stupid. because of course they are.

they are resplendently awful. they are inevitably going to cause their own demise in an act of pure karmic retribution. they are a speck of dust in history that desperately keeps trying to insist they're actually a tornado. i love them dearly.

in loose conclusion while also acknowledging ive explained literally nothing; my goofy silly victorian london browser game player character that deserves to get timetraveled against their will to the 21st century specifically so they can get hit by a truck

#also their pronouns and gender are whatever you feel like that day #i usually use they/them or it/its for simplicites sake #ask #fallen london #im not gonna do the rundown on what FL is again bc ive answered asks abt it like twice already so you can look in the tag on my blog #all you need to know for the purposes of The Scoundrel is that it's an oc creation simulator with a few extra steps #i used to have an oc directionary post.. i should probably make a new one at some point. i post a ton about the fuckers anyway #other scoundrel trivia facts im not including in this post so it doesnt clog dashboards forever: #-their ethnicity is unknown but likely german or french #-they get comical levels of seasick on boats and absolutely despise zailing despite loving the profits of being a pirate #-they probably pay absurd amounts of money just to get the flowers in their hair from the surface #-the bandages cover every single part of their body except their face. they hate covering their face. they want everyone to admire them #they wear bandages all the time in such vast quantities for Other Reasons. #probably ranging from 'got sent to the tomb colonies so much they dont bother taking it all off' to 'wrote correspondence on their arm' #-their eyes are violant because they dipped them. In It. so they wouldn't forget a certain... Event involving cricket #they're really really normal. #also yes i doodled this chibi just for this ask bc im insane #if you ever wanna know more/get a proper answer just ask. im always foaming at the mouth to discuss my ocs

[buglaur]

a healthy dose of gael for your troubles

#i'm very tired but i have tuesday off wooo!!! #i can play then #i got 20 mins of cas time but now i've gotta get back to homework #i hate you 5 page essay about the poetry of adrienne rich!! #ts4 #sims 4 #gael i missed you #can you believe he's been gone 5 months #feels like yesterday #i'm also sitting on a shit ton of asks but i'll answer them soon i promise #i'm so so sorry anon that asked me for a tutorial on converting nondefault skins to default #all the way back in september #its in the works i'm so sorry omfg #ts4 cas

[benkyoutobentou]

hi! i'm sorry for the dumb question but i wanted to finally start reading manga in japanese (i already have a little list of titles beginner-friendly) buuuut i'm not sure where i actually find it ;; sorry again for the stupid question

Not a dumb question at all! There are a bunch of places to get manga, the most accessible probably being (unfortunately) amazon.jp. You need to have a Japanese address to buy things regardless of where it's being shipped to (or not, in the case of ebooks), but I believe just any address will do. You can also sometimes buy manga directly on the publisher's sites. Cmoa is another good place to check, and they also will often have entire volumes of manga available to read on their site for free (just look for the 無料 section). Bilingualmanga might also be of interest. It's free (and therefore sometimes gets taken down), but is exactly what it sounds like. Their selection isn't huge, but what they do have, they have in both English and Japanese.

If you want to buy physical volumes, CDJapan is my go-to. I'm in the USA, but I'm pretty sure they ship to most parts of the world. Kinokuniya is also a good place to buy manga from, especially if you're lucky enough to have a physical store near you. My main issue with them is that I think they're overpriced, though. Another thing that depends on luck, if you have any Book Off stores near you, go check them out! It's secondhand, so finding what you're looking for is definitely luck based, but I think it's a good experience to browse Japanese language books and manga regardless.

If you're having trouble finding something in particular, or want some... slightly less legal sources, feel free to contact me off anon!

#i hope this helps! #thank you for asking!! <3 #im sure there are way more places to buy ebooks of manga that i just dont know of because im so adamant about Only reading physicals #but i did read lots of trigun as ebooks #that i got... elsewhere #benkyou posting #langblr #studyblr #polyglot #manga #languages #language learning #oh btw bilingualmanga grew so much from when i last looked at it a few years ago #they have tons of good options #like 暁のヨナ and 三月のライオン #among many others #theyve also got a bunch of classic shoujo now like basara

[sparring-spirals]

Fearne tells Delilah "we made a promise, bitch", because she brushed the hair out of Laudna's face and told her she was sorry, and that they'd find a way back for her, and she meant it. Honesty and lies and promises are a little different, to her. (to fey). Fearne lies, often and easy and for fun, but she made a promise, and she meant it. Fearne came into this haunted Whitestone and admired its beauty, complimented the flora. Fearne went "Oh, I see." looking up at the shape of a tree that haunts Laudna's past.

Fearne looked at this immense, majestic tree, trapping Laudna away. Watched it catch ablaze, and did everything in her power to finish burning it to the ground. She made a promise. She's keeping it.

#critical role #cr spoilers #c3e37 #okay ive got a number of asks and tons of posts to reblog so uh. prep for that i supposr #fearne #laudna #spooky funtime gals #character meta #? #its either gonna be lile 4 super long posts about everyone in Bells hells or 10 separate posts gushing about each character individually #leaning towards the latter #anyway WHAT AN EPISODE AM I RIGHT #OH NO I FORGOT TO MENTION THE NOOSE #good stuff

[knickynoo]

I am *adoring* your rambles on Family Ties! I’ve been wanting to finish the series for years and can’t find it anywhere! Is there anywhere in particular you watch/stream it??

Ehehehe, thank you!

You can watch the entire series free with ads on Pluto, which is where I stream it! They have the show on demand and also have a Family Ties channel under their "Live TV" section that plays the show on a loop all day every day. It's great.

#asks #family ties #i will literally shout about Pluto tv from the rooftops i love it so much #they've got channels for everything and tons of classic tv which is my jam #twilight zone and dick van dyke and little house on the prairie and so on

[httpiastri]

just finished ur oscar christmas fic... godly

"i was up reading," his huskey accent is like music to your ears. YEAH I WAS GIGGLING

SDJHFDJHF AAAAAA LOVE 😭😭

^^ me rn 🤭 please you have me giggling and kicking my feet and squealing and- 🥺

#i love u sm #pls i would cry if i got to hear oscar's raspy voice in the middle of the night when he hasn't spoken to anyone in hours #mmmmm just thinking about it is so 🥰 #i'm so glad you liked the fic!! 🥺🥺 #tons of kisses to you #asks! #iamsodonewithlemons!

[no-light-left-on]

1k words of pure, self indulgent corvosider fluff post-doto, early into their relationship

The mattress dips as Corvo crawls on the bed behind the Outsider – he does little as Corvo wraps an arm around his waist and presses a kiss to his hair, far too preoccupied with the text of the novel. He turns the page, smiling as Corvo presses closer, his broad chest against the Outsider’s back, and kisses down the back of his neck until he can bury his face into his shoulder. He pulls the Outsider closer until there is no space left, his hand large enough to cover his stomach, and he rubs little circles into his side. His hand does not stay long, though, restless as fingers catch on pearl buttons and the Outsider pauses.

Corvo’s hand dips under the silk fabric, trailing lower and lower until he reaches the belt.

“Corvo,” the Outsider says, somewhere between a plea and a warning as his hand shoots to Corvo’s. The hold around him eases and the Outsider curses himself as Corvo’s warmth gets further.

“I’m sorry.” Corvo rolls away, his weight no longer on top of the Outsider’s, though the Outsider is quick to follow as he rolls on his back to face him.

The Outsider kisses his shoulder, a chaste little peace offering. “No, no- it’s okay. No need to apologise.”

Still, Corvo remains tense, propped up on his elbow. There is too much distance between them now.

The Outsider reaches out, pressing his thumb between Corvo’s brows to smooth his wrinkles out. They sit heavy over his forehead, and while most would read them as the lord protector’s stern gaze, the Outsider knows them for what they are. Anxiety.

“You did nothing wrong,” he assures, but something else sits atop the worry. An old vulnerability of Corvo’s, and a new one, too.

“You’re always so skittish when we get physical,” Corvo states. He does not pose a question next, knows he doesn’t need to. The Outsider reads him like an open book.

Am I too old? Is it the age? Or is it me?

The Outsider cups his cheek, his beard prickling his palm, and as he brushes his thumb over an old scar on Corvo’s cheek, Corvo’s breath catches.

Are you repulsed by what you might find under?

The Outsider takes a deep breath, screws his eyes shut as he feels his stomach drop. His core feels like it is being swallowed by the Void as he speaks. “Corvo, I’m just not interested.”

He knows the words he chose were wrong the moment they leave his mouth.

“In me?” Corvo asks, tentative and cautious.

“In sex.”

Oh. Oh.

“Oh,” Corvo says with all the eloquence of a noble and the father of the empress. The tension dissipates out of his muscles.

“Yeah.”

“At all?”

“At all.”

Corvo laughs, startled and relieved, then buries his face back in the Outsider’s shoulder.

“That was a horrid way to phrase it,” he mutters into the silks as the Outsider combs his fingers through his hair.

“I’ve never been known to speak with other people’s emotions in mind,” the Outsider says as an apology. It is not one, but it will do.

“One day you’ll be the death of me,” Corvo whispers.

“I am honoured that you wish to keep me around for that long.”

They fall silent, with Corvo’s head resting on the Outsider’s chest, lulled by the beating of his painfully human heart.

“I’m sorry,” he says.

“What for?” the Outsider asks.

“For trying to get physical.” Corvo shifts, suddenly far too aware of the thinness of the Outsider’s shirt, of his own hand on his belly, their intertwined legs. “It didn’t even cross my mind that you-”

The Outsider catches his face, cupping both cheeks in his cold hands, their eyes meeting. “Corvo.” The sound of his name stops Corvo’s rambling, intent and captivating the same way it was during the bad old days at the shrines. “You didn’t know. I never told you. I didn’t even intend on telling you this soon. Most humans don’t feel this way, and you had no way of simply figuring it out, not with how close I let you. Please, do not feel bad.” He takes a deep breath. His stomach turns, empty yet heavy like he’s drank the cold water of the Wrenhaven. “This is- I do not know where to begin explaining this. But take it as… it is just another odd quirk of mine. I don’t know.”

“Mio,” Corvo coos. “You don’t have to explain yourself to me.”

“I feel like I have to,” the Outsider admits. “We both know that I am voidawful at this whole being human business. I only ever had the opportunity to watch, but there is so very little I remember of how to feel, and experience, and live, and all that I seem to do now is so very other to how humans have been for all those centuries I spent watching. And this is no different, I suppose. But this time it involves you, too.”

Corvo opens his mouth to argue, stops. “I don’t mind that you feel different about these things,” he settles on. “I’m just glad you told me.”

“I had to.” For you and for myself, both. The thought of it is too raw. The Outsider grins and instead says: “You always looked like a kicked pup when I smacked your hand away.”

Corvo gapes and the Outsider smiles wider.

“Or like a wolfhound that just got scolded for trying to eat without permission,” he teases.

“Mio-”

“Whenever I told you off you looked at me like a wolfhound begging for a piece of steak.”

“Mio!”

The Outsider bursts out laughing as blood rushes into Corvo’s cheeks. “Oh, feared Lord Protector, if only the nobles of Dunwall saw how easily you melt for me-” He yelps as Corvo buries his face into the crook of his neck, his beard prickling the tender skin, and the sensation makes him laugh harder. Corvo holds him down, pinning him into the pillows as the Outsider kicks out, struggling and giggling and pushing at Corvo’s shoulders as Corvo kisses the bare skin and nuzzles his collarbone.

This, he could get used to.

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