#I was an English major can you tell

[youshouldjustliveinmychurch]

Thinking about the significance of falling when it come to Catradora. Obviously the imagery of cliffs, holding on to each other, and letting go are all significant in the narrative when it comes to their relationship. Two instances in particular stand out to me though as notable parallels. Catra falling into the portal and re-emerging as a twisted version of herself is very much in conversation with Adora falling into the chasm in the First One’s Temple and re-emerging as someone closer to the She-Ra that Light Hope (or her original programming) wants her to be. In both cases they’re reacting to having just experienced a mindbending mimicry of their lives together in the Horde before they split up. This is so eerie partially because reality is being expertly bent in both cases since there is a lot of truth woven into what Adora and Catra are seeing.

Adora is forced to literally let go (of her hold on the Cliff, her memories of Catra, her current feelings about Catra)/fall into the chasm. Light Hope has been trying to get her to let go the whole time because Adora’s attachment to other people threatens the First One’s plans to turn her into a weapon. Isolation. Other people are keeping her human. That of course extends to the Best Friends Squad, though it’s true that everyone expects too much of her, even the people she’s closest with. I think that’s one of the things that makes her relationship with Catra bloom in season 5. Catra wants Adora, specifically, not She-Ra. She is protective of Adora the person in a way that other people aren’t necessarily because she has an understanding of her that Bow and Glimmer aren’t going to have since they didn’t grow up with her in the Horde. Once Catra moves on from feeling in competition with Adora, then she can fully embrace her feelings. But anyway, tangent.

Adora being forced to let go/fall from the cliff is just the continuation of the idea that Adora feels like she has to choose the greater good over her own wants such as when she chooses the Rebellion over Catra. In her mind, she feels like there isn’t a choice. She has to leave Catra, even though she doesn’t want to do so. Light Hope is trying to take advantage of that trait for her own purposes, pushing Adora to follow orders and do what is best in the minds of the First Ones.

Now, Catra. Catra lets go of the cliff herself as reality is being pulled apart. This whole scene says so much about where her character is at this point in the plot. First of all, she tries to drag Adora down with her. She can’t stand the idea of Adora being better than her and on the moral high ground because part of that competitive dynamics is very much rooted in Shadow Weaver’s treatment of them both as children. Adora was prioritized. Catra was directly compared to Adora negatively and threatened with harm if she interfered with Adora’s “progress” in any way. Catra and Adora are both self-destructive at two ends of the same spectrum and the pressure/trauma caused by The Horde & First Ones are pushing them to extremes. Isolating extremes. Catra constantly feels a lack of safety and struggles with self-hatred. Catra lets go as she stares Adora in the eyes because she doesn’t feel worth much. I think that’s symbolic of her constantly pushing other people away on purpose as a way to both punish and protect herself.

When Catra re-emerges as Corrupted Catra we can see that her loathing for what Adora represents in her life has been taken to an extreme. I’m a believer that Corrupted Catra is just that. She’s still partially herself, but all of her instincts are taken to an extreme and it’s a raw expression of her hurt. Her pain is being visually symbolized by pieces of her simply being gone. This is another representation of the affect trauma is having on her and her life. That entire scene is brutal and it is good that Adora finally stands up for herself since obviously Catra is not justified in lashing out, but as she stands over Catra’s passed-out body, I think it’s a reminder that circumstances have been out of their control for a long while now. Trauma can isolate and push people away from each other (even when they need each other for healing), as well as away from being able to fully express themselves.

Then season 5 rolls around. Healing. Other people. Wanting. Self-expression. Wonderful things. Catra and Adora being together - what they bring out in each other - challenges both Shadow Weaver and the Horde’s purposes for them. Together, they defy control. You see, if they are able to truly love and connect with each other, then Adora might not conform to what the First One’s want of her and once Catra is able to move beyond the barriers in her relationship with Adora placed there by Shadow Weaver, she can’t be controlled by the Horde anymore either. They are defiance and self-expression and love and I’m totally obsessed with this show, aren’t I?

#catra #adora #she ra #spop #spop spoilers #catradora #the horde #the first ones #aaaa so many thoughts #I was an English major can you tell #this is still kind of general and oh my goodness there's so much to analyze #catra x adora #spop season 5

[animalcrossingshowdown]

or if you've never played, just pick the one that seems the coolest

#misc polls #this one was the hardest to stick to only 12. I could probably make a second entire poll #I could probably do a 64 contestant tournament for features new & unique to NL #you can tell I combined things here that could be separate options so I could fit more stuff in #NH was pretty hard too but NL just added SO MUCH #again one of the japanese exclusive games had what were essentially public works but I'm not counting them #bc that was a MAJOR new thing for english audiences

[lunarparacosm]

romeo and juliet.

#marauders #fanart #gay #jegulus #regulus black #james potter #james x regulus #romeo and juliet #sad shit #can you tell I’m an english major #this is based off a theatre production of Romeo and Juliet that I love #anyways #be gay be french #i’m making gay art #regulus deserved better #but he would honestly do this if james ever died #October 31rst vibes fr #sorry #not sorry #lol

[seaglassdinosaur]

It’s the lines, “Poseidon’s never helped me before. He wasn’t gonna start now. I would’ve never made it to Hades.”

The first two lines are obviously about him being poisoned, but it’s the fact that Percy talks about himself in the past tense. That he accepts he’s already dead. His father’s never shown up for him in the past, hence the past tense use, and he’s clearly not one to break the pattern. The ‘wasn’t’ though, communicates a kind of passivity. While ‘isn’t’ might suggest an active refusal, (such as: he isn’t going to start now) ‘wasn’t’ feels more like this is something that was never going to happen. The idea was fruitless from the start, and so they need to reassess the way they saw the events leading up to now; it’s almost like Percy is trying to alleviate future feelings of guilt from them, as there was nothing they did wrong, nothing they could have done better. Unlike Athena’s actions of resentment, Poseidon was just entirely uninterested.

The third line is even more interesting, I find. The ‘would’ communicates this reflection on his life, uninterrupted by his impending and accepted death, but it can be read in two ways: one, Percy, escaped from the Chimera wouldn’t make it to Hades because obviously his father doesn’t care enough about him to save him. He would die of poison before making it to LA.

Two though, and more sad, is that even if he were the one making it down the stairs, even if he were at his best, Percy doesn’t believe he could complete the quest. Facing his death in the eyes, Percy recognizes how ill-equipped and inadequate he is, because if he can’t handle the chimera, how could he ever have hoped to make it the rest of the way across the country?

#can you tell I’m an English major? #it sucks. #but I had to take this set of lines apart because they’re so interesting #and the intentional choice of past tense working along w double meanings is just so juicy #I’ll make a simpler version of this probably #pjo #pjo adaptation #pjo series #pjo tv show #my post

[the-cryptid-finch]

Okay newsies fans time to cry. Okay so I love Santa Fe as a song so much. But I have a suggestion that makes the song 10 times more emotional.

Changing "let me go far away somewhere they won't ever find me"

To "Let me go, far away, somewhere *he* wont ever find me"

Who's he? Is it Davey? Is it Snyder? WHO KNOWS. But it makes the song more emotional because it's more personal.

If you look at it as "he" being Davey, then you have the element of guilt in Jack. He didn't want to run away, he has to run away. Even if that means leaving the strike. He can't bear to stay and fight anymore, because he's tired of fighting, and he doesn't want Davey to convince him to stay.

If you look at it as "he" being Snyder, than you have the element of exhaustion in Jack. He's tired of running. He wants to get to Santa Fe to have a final destination where he doesn't have run anymore, where he's at home. And the part of him that wants to stay wants Snyder gone, so he can feel safe enough to stay with his family, the newsies, with Davey and katherine and Crutchie. He ultimately wants to be somewhere where he's safe and Snyder can never find him.

Anyway time to cry about Santa Fe

#can you tell im an english lit major and do a lot of character analysis #anyway sorry #newsies #jack kelly #santa fe #i love him #newsies uk #newsies west end #west end newsies #west endsies #newsies 1992 #newsies live #newsies london #newsies broadway

[therealamylee2]

“‘A few trinkets for my sister,’ she said. ‘She’s like Miss Glinda, she loves the fancy outside of things. I found a Vinkus shawl in the bazaar, red roses on a black background, with black and green fringe. I’m sending it to her, and a pair of striped stockings that Ama Clutch knitted for me.’” 

“He had brought her a traditional Vinkus fringed scarf--roses on a black background--and he had tied it around her waist, and from then on it was a costume for lovemaking.”

I feel there is some literary significance here. Elphaba buys the shawl for her sister as a gesture of love and then receives the very same one later on from Fiyero (his gesture of love). A rose for a rose (Nessarose) and then a rose as in romance. Black red and green. “Green fringe.” Elphaba on the fringe, never quite “whole,” offbeat, never fully this or that, without a soul (according to her), from both worlds (without even knowing it). On the fringe of her father’s love, never fully receiving it unlike her sister, and later, on the fringe of insanity. 

And the red is love, all kinds, sisterly love, passionate love, but also the red of blood--Nessarose’s death, Fiyero’s murder and his blood on Elphaba’s hands and wrists as she finds him. The murder of Dr. Dillamond, the blood she almost choked on when biting the midwife’s finger off after only being alive for a minute or two. The red rubies in Quadling country, the Wizard’s crimson hot air balloon. The “ruby” slippers, what made for her downfall. Love and destruction. Beauty and violence, political items, contention. As Elphie once said, “There was much to hate in this world, and too much to love.”

The black is her, her essence, but I don’t think in the typical, easy, “wicked” way. Her black hat. Her black crows. Her black hair that Galinda found herself spellbound by. Elphaba riding the broom for the first time in the dead of night, feeling like a night angel. Her black dresses and boots. Her murky beliefs, her slipping out of herself when part of the resistance. The way she blends into the woodwork despite being such a standout, how she’s able to do so for survival. Her staring into the night sky at the stars and thinking big thoughts whilst being exhausted by it all. Her spirit dimming, but then coming back. Her grief ultimately swallowing her, ruining her, regardless.

#can you tell i was an english major #lol #wicked #wicked the life and times of the wicked witch of the west #gregory maguire #elphie #elphaba #fiyero #nessarose #bookverse #headcanon #literary analysis #book club #book theory #wicked the musical #wicked the book

[be-the-glenn-to-my-maggie]

Longass Crop Circles Notes (I Don't Think I've Changed Chapter Two):

I don't want to talk about how many weeks these notes have been sitting in my notes app because I couldn't bring myself to go through them yet. My sincere apologies @spicymiilk

-Ah that incredibly relatable feeling when you want to get to one part of your story and you have to force yourself to slog through to get to it. It happens to us all.

-KIRI AND LO’AK GOING TO SPECIAL SCHOOL WHILE NETEYAM IS REGULAR IS SO FUNNY TO ME. Poor Lo’ak I’m being so mean to him. But you really want their asses GONE gone.

-Calling Jake a white man and saying he can’t understand their hair is so funny. Dude NEVER helped with ANY of his kids hair ever??? He’s never done Neytiri’s for her because he’s her bitch? Come on Jake, I expected more. Even I’ve done my cousins hair a few times. Maybe Spider will fare better?

-Obsessed with the way Neteyam is about his morning routine and solitude, it jives so well with my opinion of him. He’s got to have things his way, and under his control. Taken care of well. He’s going to have a field day with Spider. I see we are already leaning heavily into Neteyam’s "I can fix him" complex. Even when he wants to help Jake, which I know is something wheelchair users don’t often want if it’s something they do all the time themselves. It’s the innate feeling of standing by and doing nothing while watching someone struggle, when it’s their day to day life. And if that isn’t Neteyam’s whole thing? I’m obsessed with how he just cannot handle anyone else’s bad vibes without trying to fix it right away. Speaking of;

-If there is not a moment where Jake allows Neteyam to help him when he needs it, I will throw myself off a bridge, Andrei. ~growth~ the opportunity is there and it’s ripe.

-JAKE AND NETEYAM BANTER, I did not realize I was in a drought until I got a little bit of rain and I realized I was DYING OF THIRST. PARCHED FOR THEM.

-Jake “Detective” Sully: You are gay, son, try not to be too gay to the new foster kid you stalk at the local Micky Ds.

-I am literally obsessed with My Father Jake Sully who was neglected and hurt as a child being the most desperate man alive to connect with and heal kids in the same situation he was in. It fits so so well in his character for me. I feel like he spends most of his life trying to heal old wounds and make up for the past, in a way.

-Neteyam “I thought this kid was named Miles for years but I guess legally on his birth certificate it def must say Spider because it couldn’t be a nickname, that’s for sure” Sully

-I am CACKLING at them both lying to each other about McDonalds as though they both don’t know exactly how often the other one is there because they both find the other hot I’m dead.

-Spider mad at Norm for enforcing child labour laws has me wanting to make memes about it. The children truly do yearn for the mines.

-All the tiny little details of how Spider focuses on the people around him, on their moods and their movements and the way his brain works is so well done. That survival mindset takes years and years to unlearn, if you ever can fully. It’s well done as always.

-OH MY GOD EVEN NEYTIRI ALSO THINKS NETEYAM IS BEING TOO GAY THIS IS AMAZING.

-Justice for Jake, I will get him one of the cars paralyzed people can drive. Also his joke about driving Neytiri up the wall? HE’S A COMEDIAN. GET HIM A NETFLIX SPECIAL.

-Spider can’t look at Tuk because he was close with a little abused foster girl, where is the nearest bridge. NO REST FOR US, ANDREI?? ALL THE PAIN AND TRAUMA POSSIBLE CRAMMED INTO ONE EPIC.

-God the line about Spider’s therapist saying that his habit will lead him down a dangerous path, but he doesn’t understand why because he only ever hurts himself because he doesn’t see damage to himself as damage because he doesn’t see himself as worthy? Not worthy of the phone, of food, of attention or love? Truly my fav paragraph of the chapter. You are a master at establishing a character in a few subtle lines. It's a tactic that I only get after a few rewrites; instead of saying "Neteyam wants to fix everyone" you show us him in a situations where he wants to and can't help. Instead of telling me Spider doesn't care for his own safety, you tell me he's confused by his therapist saying his coping is dangerous. Instead of saying emotion, tell me something that would make me feel that emotion. Writing 101, and yet so hard to pull off properly.

-I laughed out loud at Neteyam trying not to look at Spider’s muscles I am dying. Neteyam should ask him out loud.

-EVEN TUK HAS IT ON LOCK, SHE SAYS NETEYAM HAS A THING FOR PEOPLE WHO SOUND A LITTLE SAD. This is so not funny but so funny because it’s all specifically for me.

-Neteyam later in life is like that dumbass gum commercial where the guy reveals he’s been keeping the gum wrappers every time the girl gives him one and drawing on them when and where she gave it to him? That’s Neteyam when the piles and piles of smiley face receipts fall out of his trench coat pockets.

-“I didn’t realize that was you” filthy liar. Spider’s smiley face drawing rizz is crazy. You bet your ass he wasn't doing that to every fuckers receipts.

-WHAT ON EARTH IS LO’AK DOING AT SMART PERSON SCHOOL, EVEN YOU DON’T KNOW ANDREI.

-THE CUTE BOY AT THE WINDOW ASKED FOR HIS NUMBER? AS IN, SPIDER, PHONELESS SPIDER, OR ANOTHER SNEAKY BASTARD BUTTING IN.

-Also these people have real memory problems, I’ve never forgotten any awkward interaction I’ve ever had in my entire life, especially not with a crush. I couldn't hear my crush at a party last year and I just laughed and said yeah and she was like "no I asked what you think" and not a single day goes by it doesn't play behind my eyelids like the DVD in The Ring. So, unless Spider has asked every single man at McDonalds out, he remembers when he asked a guy out and the guy sped off like he had a warrant out from Dominic Toretto.

-Oh my god, it was Spider. And this man sURVIVED that encounter? This man who can’t survive a strong breeze rn? What was he going to do with number, call him from phone booths? Send smoke signals to the write telephone wire? I am cackling at the idea that he had rehearsed this so many times and yet never actually thought through not having a phone.

-The smiley face on the paper. That revived Spider from his death post awkward encounter. There will be smiley faces on the invitations to their wedding and only Tuk will understand.

#truly a banger #can you tell i had fun #as per usual though i had to listen to indie songs for the vibe the whole time #the sad songs from the heartstopper album #miles spider socorro #spider socorro #neteyam sully #nocorro #jake sully #tuktirey sully #neytiri sully #lo'ak sully #kiri sully #avatar #avatar the way of water #james cameron avatar #melissa is an english major #fic recs #melissa og #melissa on avatar (cameron)

[knowlesian]

doooo not love that conspiracy brain too online bullshit is just lowkey de rigueur in a lot of fandom spaces now, not sure what to do about it but i know i hate it

#it’s the most q-anon lite bullshit and like. i was once an english major and i love a wild theorizing session #but if your whole theory is like “unlike you sheeple i can tell the writers are stupid liars who you can never trust” (among other issues) #like. i gotta get off that train. #also… as a writer this mindset is so weird. #like. people ask insanely spoilery questions and then writers have to find a way to answer that isn’t a spoiler or a tip-off #and then people go SEE! THEY LIED! later on when the thing actually happens and they didn’t spoil it #set down the q-anon juice friends

[lurking-latinist]

⛵

#I also keep seeing modern au aubrey-maturin art #that makes me wish I could draw and thereby contribute #unfortunately I can't even *write* modern aus generally. but I like transferring character dynamics from place to place in my brain #and I feel like I could do a university AU very nicely if I could do AUs at all #because I have had rowers in my class with as far as I could tell jack's exact personality #(unfortunately it has to be a US university AU because (a) that's what I know and (b) afaik nobody else does randomly assigned roommates) #(and I cannot pass up the opportunity for randomly assigned roommates. #OR RATHER #for 'you seem more or less human - quick let's request each other so we don't have to go into potluck' #I think that works best) #(but maybe they are both international students anyway. that works fine. & therefore extremely alarmed by potluck [can't say they're wrong] #sophie is a sorority girl. english major I think. and I can see her so clearly #(she's the part I want to draw) #she's not that into the high-octane social schedule her sorority expects her to have #but her pushy mother was a member and it is Unthinkable that sophie should not be #and a lot of the other girls are sweet :) so it's fine :) she says #feel like she has roommate issues (unlike her original self she is able to live away from mrs williams so this makes up for that) #so she's always over in jack and stephen's room. people who know her tangentially sometimes gossip about which one she's actually dating #(at that particular moment it is actually neither of them she's just hanging out with stephen) #diana freed from the shackles of 19th century womanhood creates even more and weirder drama than in canon #idk I just want to see the plot of post captain played out over text message #don't ask me HOW idk HOW i just want it #stephen is a biology major/pre-med obvs. if he can survive organic chemistry #jack is some kind of engineering major. I think he'd enjoy that with the math. diana has changed her major 7 times #(I don't know whether to put jack in rotc. I don't think it Actually actually fits - he's in the navy in canon because he's in the navy #not bc he's Inevitably Military In All Worlds. he would not want to do that if he didn't get to sail #but at the same time I find it hard to picture him not belonging to Discipline somehow. #it's more than a disinterested passion for cleanliness that drives him to wash stephen's mug for him that has had coffee and ramen in it #(and NOT in that order) #in the bathroom sink

[graham--folger]

*through gritted teeth* what the fuck do people want from a resume

#this semester i've had three different people look at my resume and all three of them were like contradicting whatever the other person said #one said add references. the other said don't add references. the other said no add them back in #one said add color. one said only do black & white. one said no you should have color #also in terms of content they all differed as well like. guys i just want to get this fucking internship so i can get out of here #i appreciate the feedback but i think it's made me more stressed in the long run #alex’s inane ramblings #plus just now finding out im gonna need to do a fucking seminar probably in addition to my internship unless i want to do 4 credits of #internship. i fucking hate seminars. and it's taught by my advisor who i like. but he knows how fucking quiet i am and calls me out on it o #the daily. which gets on my fucking nerves let me tell you #im the most non-english-major english major to ever exist #don't make me talk. please dear god don't make me talk #plus in this seminar we would be writing a 20 page paper. on american romance lit. #sorry dr. phillis but that sounds godawful #and if i decide to do the seminar it conflicts with another class i need to take so id have to talk to my graphic design advisor about maki #a substitution #hell on earth. why the fuck is graduating so goddamn hard #i don't have enough credits to be staying an extra semester so i have to get this all wrapped up by december #alright im gonna shut up now. college is hard guys

[nekohrine]

nanowrimo day thirty: i fucking hate nanowrimo numbers but here we go! wrote ~700 words of sad gay dialogue and met my own little goal of 10k. overall, I used the word "you" 286 times, "and" - 275 times, AND "the" - 266 times. 29/30 days because fuck that one day, I have no idea where it went. anyway. I think my relationship with this wip is kind of healthy now! (watch me return to the madness the following day, as usual)

#i hate nanowrimo numbers but I think these are nice numbers #anyway I'm very proud of myself #rip scrivener free trial you will be missed #till next year #when I say “unhealthy relationship” I fucking mean it #everytime I see someone talking about their story I'm like wow!! you aren't completely consumed by it?? #you can tell the difference between your feelings and your MC's feelings???? #you don't feel like you share a body with another person????? #and you actually feel like you see yourself when you look at the mirror #and you're not scared that people will notice that you're a depressed 27yo english lit major living in a body of a 22yo english major #that's just a MAJOR flex I think #good for you! good for you #in today's episode of casey is oversharing in the tags #there's more haha #anyway #nanowrimo #nanowrimo 2023

[squishlordkiwi]

I keep noticing small language things and other parallels when it comes to AA & DGS XD I almost always listen to a combination of all my dubbed relaxing game OSTs while I'm writing. I think it's because both played relatively close to each other tonight, but Edgeworth's theme from JFA onward and Kazuma's grand reveal have similar naming schemes.

Edgeworth's is 「大なる復活～御剣怜侍」 (or the other way around; romaji for it is ounarufukkatsu - mitsurugireiji), its English title being "Triumphant Return - Miles Edgeworth." Kazuma's is 「大なる帰還」 (ounarukikan), and in English it's "His Glorious Return." I guess they're also pretty close in English, but the difference in endings (復活 vs. 帰還) is really the word that changes instead of the adjective (大なる, which roughly means "great" in both cases).

I'm relying a lot on google since I'm still a beginner when it comes to speaking Japanese b u t I only got curious about this because the actual verb for "to return" is 帰る (kaeru), which shares the same kanji with 帰還 and then it went downhill from there.

復活 (fukkatsu) is actually closer in English to resurrection or revival, which makes a lot of sense considering the first time the player actually hears Edgeworth's theme. If I remember right (it's been a hot second since I've played JFA), the first time you hear it is in the police department in 2-4 after Edgeworth butts into Franziska and Wright's conversation after being presumed dead for... I don't remember how long oops. There's the literal revival of him being not dead and coming back to Japanifornia, but also the metaphorical revival of him learning to be a better prosecutor.

帰還 (kikan) roughly translates to repatriation, which is a big word I didn't know until I googled it. Oxford says it means "the return of someone to their own country," which is of course super interesting with the context of when it plays in DGS2. It's during the scene where it's revealed who the Professor is and Kazuma gets his memories back. You can interpret it in the way of his memories returning to their rightful place, essentially "coming home," or in the way that home isn't necessarily a place and he's been "reunited" with his father and/or friends after so long. OR (I'm spitballing here as the ideas come to me) it's super weird in the sense that the meaning doesn't match since Kazuma wasn't born in England, but it could mean repatriation in the sense that he's "freeing" Genshin's spirit by destroying the waxwork and retuning it back home, Japan or Karuma or wherever it is.

Okay I'll shut up now byeeeeeeeeeeeeee

#ace attorney #dgs #the great ace attorney #dgs spoilers #kazuma asogi #miles edgeworth #language nerd #analysis #i'm such a nerd ignore me lol #i need to stop doing this omg #this is what i'm doing instead of writing oops #can you tell i'm an english major with a passion for linguistics? #slk.overanalyzes

[dykevanny]

Sits quietly in the corner. You know doggirl vanessa is funny bc if you think about her whole thing with like dog symbolism it is soooo tasty is the thing. Like,, dogs you know. Animals. Crazy i know. But just like,, the idea of. Being at the mercy of whoever’s got the leash. Being forced into things you don’t want to do without knowing why. Treated badly but still having to be loyal because what else is there to do. Something something don’t bite the hand that feeds you. I don’t know i just woke up.

#can you tell i want to be an English major #vanessa sb #fnaf #vanessa security breach

[jorvikzelda]

think I may be finished writing this FUCKING text...

#just gonna ask my mom to proof read for me lmfao #had a moment where i was like hm i wonder if i can ask my english major mutual (tm) to proof read #NO ZELDA. NO YOU CAN'T. THAT WILL REVEAL SO MANY THINGS ABOUT YOU. STOP. THIS TEXT IS LITERALLY ABOUT YOUR PERSONAL EXPERIENCES #The very real desire to just doxx youself to your internet friends so you can tell them everything about your life tho :/ #z talks #not horse game #I have had internet safety so drilled into my head (and also scored so high on the anxiety screening test) so I'm like. #picture of my pets? no I've posted them on instagram before. that's not safe. #talking about what I'm doing at university? no that narrows down the places I could be studying. that's not safe #sometimes I'm like... oh god is the distance I bike to school and the fact there's stoplights on the way too personal?????? #but at that point ive just gotta tell my bitch brain to shut up that shits not rational in the slightest

[brightokyolights]

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#you know another motherfucking stupid thing about all this 'islamist mob' shit #is that if you go to a free palestine protest in the uk. it is MAJORITY FUCKING WHITE NON MULSIM PEOPLE!!!!! #BECAUSE GUESS WHAT!!! MAJORITY OF THE POPULATION IS FUCKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHITE AND NOT MUSLIM!!! #so this idea that we're trying to pin all this on muslims when we are. 6%. of the fucking population. like shut up #tell me youve never been to a protest or any demonstration without telling me that #i hate that im even making this argument too because even if it was only brown people going. why would that justify any of this islamophobia #and racism. anyways im just glad im in scotland i really do feel for my english counter parts #like its not perfect here but at least i can Somewhat trust the snp #le text post

[someabsolutenonsense]

Okay don’t mind me but two of my literary fixations may have crossed over and I’m now obligated to discuss it

Ignore me or I will inflict upon you my “Yes The Locked Tomb Is Catholicism But Also Look At The Greek Tragedy It’s There I’m Not Making This Up” agenda

Okay so in Agamemnon, the first play in Aeschylus’ The Orestia there’s this scene where Agamemnon comes back from winning the Trojan War and sees his wife Clytemnestra for the first time in years. So Agamemnon if you are unaware is the actual worst and killed their daughter Iphigenia as a sacrifice…it’s a whole thing, basically Clytemnestra’s planning to kill him for very valid reasons. This is relevant cause she’s staged this whole situation to quietly assert power over him with some casual manipulation and taunting of the gods.

So Clytemnestra has these purple carpets like spread out for Agamemnon to walk on to go inside and he’s like arguing

“You’ll draw down envy. That stuff is for gods. I am a mortal. I can’t trample luxuries underfoot. Honor me as a man not as a divinity.” (Anne Carson translation)

“Strew not this purple that shall make each step an arrogance; such pomp beseems the gods, not me. A mortal man to set his foot on these rich dyes?” (E.D.A. Morshead translation)

Basically Clytemnestra is manipulating Agamemnon into an act that puts him above the gods, and he does it and dies by the end of the play. Greek tragedy, am I right? Poetic.

Now we go to Gideon The Ninth page 307. Palamades has brought Harrow to look at perpetual bone in the keyhole of that one door. They have established that this is intense and definitely would need a powerful necromancer to undo. Then we get…

Palamades: “I didn’t bring you here to remove it, I just brought you here to confirm, which you’ve done nicely, thank you.”

Harrow: “Excuse me. I never said I couldn’t remove it.”

Palamades: “You don’t think…?”

And then the narration says…

“It was the Harrowhark of old who responded, the one who walked down dusty Ninth House halls as though crushing purple silk beneath her feet.”

Now…I may be reading into things too far, seeing Greek Tragedy where there is none. But if my analysis is anything than this is saying not only was Harrow walking around like she was above the gods all the time, but she was doing this with ease when even AGAMEMNON, daughter killing Cassandra capturing returning in glory from the Trojan war Agamemnon from the absolute worst most cursed family in all of Greek tragedy, even he was like “oh shit yeah we don’t walk on the purple carpets.” To be clear I’m not making a Harrow-Agamemnon parallel, not really. I’m saying Harrow, probably the most religious character in these fucking books, is compared to an act of utter disrespect to the gods. Harrowhark Nonagesimus of the past just had that kind of fucking hubris. And not that she knew but…she was pretty terrible to God’s Actual Daughter in those “…crushing purple silk…” days too. Just pointing that out. And Harrow set out to become a lyctor, where Agammemnon said “honor me as a man not a divinity,” Harrow said I’m literally going to be a saint I’ll do it all by myself and no one can stop me. And eventually she did get to walk among the gods/saints/lyctors/whatever. To become one even. And it only brought her pain. I could go on, and perhaps make my thoughts more coherent, but not now.

Also sidenotes, Harrow’s dad’s name is Priamhark and Priam was the king of Troy, another person who fought (against Troy) was named Palamades, the books all include dramatis personae and are split into acts, Harrow starts with a prologue and a parados like in a Greek Play, and I could pitch Gideon’s 2nd person narration from inside Harrow’s mind as a Greek Chorus though that one’s a bit more of a stretch.

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