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imavillainok · 1 year

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Introducing my new Feitan and Psyche (OC) fanfiction: Crimson Bound !

Feitan, a member of the Phantom Troupe, finds a mysterious young girl named Psyche and takes her in. From a young age, Feitan learned to fend for himself on the streets, while Psyche's mysterious past left her struggling to fit in with the group. Despite her lack of communication, the Troupe sees something special in her and accepts her as one of their own. As they grow up together, Feitan and Psyche develop a close bond and navigate the dangerous world of the Troupe.

I've had so much fun writing this fanfiction, and I hope that you all enjoy reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it. I've included a banner below to give you a visual representation of Feitan and Psyche, and I would love to hear your thoughts and feedback!

For those who are interested in reading the full fanfiction, you can find it here [Crimson Bound]. I hope you enjoy reading it, and I can't wait to hear what you all think! I will post it here on tumblr as well

CLICK HERE TO READ IT ON TUMBLR !

Please note that Feitan will speak just like in the manga. He talks different in this story. Just like the "I no like Hisoka" "Why you not chase them?" kind.

It's been a while since I first created Psyche, my own original character for the world of Hunter x Hunter. I remember reading a lot of reader insert stories and tried to visualize a character to use for Y/N. I started using picrew to imagine what character would I want it to look like, trying to come up with a character that would make me smile. And that's how Psyche was born.

At first, she was just a silly girl with blue hair and a mysterious aura. But as I kept commissioning drawings for her and writing short scenes about her, she started to take on a life of her own. I imagined her as a member of the Phantom Troupe, with a tragic backstory and incredible powers. She's not just a character with no life.

I started sharing the drawings and scenes with other fans of Hunter x Hunter way back 2021 on my old tumblr blog, and to my surprise, people really seemed to like Psyche. I received messages of encouragement and support, and even some fanart from other artists who were inspired by her story. Even my irl friends like her, sometimes they ask for more stories about her and what is she like. It was amazing to see how this character existed in another person's life.

As I delved deeper into the lore and fandom of Hunter x Hunter, I began to imagine a story for Psyche, one that would explore her origins, her abilities, and her relationships with Feitan and other members of the Phantom Troupe. I wrote short scenes, commissioned artworks, and shared them on social media, hoping to find other fans who shared my fascination with this elusive character.

Over time, Psyche became more than just a fictional character to me. She became a source of inspiration. As I wrote and drew more about her, I realized that I was also creating a version of myself, a persona that embodied the qualities I wanted to have or express in my life but couldn't. This might also be a case for some people out there. I am a silent, reserved and shy person, quite the opposite of who Psyche is.

Of course, Psyche is not a perfect or happy character. She has gone through many hardships and traumas, both as a creature from a dangerous continent and as a member of a ruthless gang. She has struggled with communication, identity, and loyalty, as well as with her own powers and desires. Yet, I see in her a potential for growth, for self-discovery, and for making a difference in the world, even if it's a dark and chaotic one.

Now, years later, I still think about Psyche from time to time. Even though she's not a canon character, she has a special place in my heart. She's And I hope that one day, I'll be able to tell her story in a way that does justice to her strength and complexity.

I am grateful for the creators of Hunter x Hunter for introducing me to Psyche, and for the people who share my admiration for her.

So here's to Psyche, my silly little girl. Thank you for being a source of inspiration and comfort all these years.

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2a8n · 10 months

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New add. info 3

Most of this post will be devoted to my comments on the new information that has appeared, and not mediocre my assumptions on them, since the amount of this very information from the streams from DSP has increased so much lately (she streams almost every day). So expect a lot of text from me here and a small amount of any pictures. And yes, these drawings were also made on the stream, if I'm not mistaken.

I wonder what Rock did that makes Shirogane not even want to call him by his first name? Okay, he still doesn’t call Idate by name, but is this hot-tempered penguin really even worse than Rocma and Suno-san in the eye(s) of our depressive wolf? And yes, when did all the characters from Ice Scream manage to find out the name of the Orca? He had never introduced himself to anyone before. I understand that his niece Nagi and his "best friend" Rock may have learned his name as well as he learned their names due to long acquaintance, but what about the rest of the characters?

And the second warmest DSP character will be his brother Yukiyoshi? =)

--Especially in a place where there is a orca-rapist-abuser-bully-sociopath, a polar bear that can shred you to pieces at any time if she doesn’t like you or she is in a bad mood, a swearing penguin, which can also because of a bad mood or if you are not a child, say more nasty things and shoot you, and, finally, a living piece of pissed snow, mocking you at every opportunity. Indeed, Shirogane is really hard to get to think positively. I believe in it. Sounds like true.

I see that Takama has become more talked about on streams. Well, not as often as about his younger brother, but still… =\

Sorry dude, I forgot to mention you earlier. This character during the whole time that was his shown in Wadanohara and the Great Blue Sea, wasn't presented as very intelligent. I mean, all his conversations were about his hunger and even his longest monologue in essence consisted of the fact that "an empty stomach is the world's greatest pain". Even if he knew how to transform into a humanoid form, he wouldn't do it, simply because he couldn't even think about it: it would be easier to get food in his animal form, and he wouldn't even think about it, only because he is tormented by hunger more often than thoughts about his possibilities.

Most likely, those who don't find this guy scary will themselves be no less scary persons… And it seems that everyone that Idate considers weak (they either cannot fight back, or don't want to for some reason, or all at once), he classifies as "toys". Now I remember that he calls violence a "play", and in my head it just goes "play with toys" -> use violence on someone. I want to hit him.

Gosh, this friendship between Shirogane and Yukisada is clearly starting to go in some strange direction, don't you think? xD "Childhood friends" -> "close friends" -> "housemates" -> "great friends" -> "share a bed"…

They look youngful and at the same time younger than Orca. The Orca looks older, and at the same time he is older than these two. It remains to find out who else looks older/younger than whom, in order to collect at least an approximate picture in myself head regarding their age composition.

At least, before the meeting with Orca, he was definitely good health… ( - _ - )

DSP clearly keeps all information regarding the Shirogane family a secret. This wasn't the case with the family of Idate, Rock, Peraco, and, possibly, Yukisada (no one has yet asked anything about Yukisada's and his brother's parents). Does it mean that they can play some role in the Ice Scream itself…?

We recall that DSP divide into virginity into "rear virginity" and "genital virginity", and, based on this, we are already building our conclusions about what has been said.

I remembered that there was an official art showing Yukisada with a suitcase. Is it possible then that not only Yukiyoshi, probably, not living on Iceberg Isle, is visiting his older brother, but Yukisada is also visiting his younger brother as well?

But he only and does what he thinks about his childhood friend Shirogane and takes care of him all the time, so Yukisada indeed doesn't have time to think about love, ALTHOUGHWAITASECOND--! ( 0 _ 0 )

BONUS.

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starlit-hopes-and-dreams · 2 years

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Whump Intro

Hi, hello!

Um, I’ve been avoiding this intro bc I am a shy awkward hermit that usually just lurks and likes stuff, but that doesn’t really work on Tumblr so here I am! Plus I wanted to use Whumptober to force myself into sharing my writing and figured it might be useful to introduce myself first.

You can call me starlit, or anna, or hey you, I don’t really care lol. She/her pronouns. I love reading fantasy & fantasy romance, writing, and playing RPG video games when I have the time (usually fantasy based-are we sensing a theme here? 😂)

Before we get to more about me nonsense-

Acknowledgements!

Shout out to @i-can-even-burn-salad

For beta reading for me and then being brave enough to share her stories with me. And for sucking me into Tumbler lol. And for talking to me all the time and making me laugh. And for being such a great person. <3

I love her writing and stories so much. Please, please, check her writing out. It's worth it, I promise! Bring tissues though!!

Best internet friend ever trophy, where is it? I need to send it… oh, there it is. Here you go, Elli! 🏆🎉💜

I haven't had the opportunity to check out many other blogs yet, bc someone has such an extensive back catalog 👀 😂 but tagged below is the one I have read. I devoured Traces in one day because it was so good. Highly recommend!

Traces by @whumping-in-the-wings - Thanks for writing such a great story! Can't wait to see what happens next :)

(Obligatory disclaimer: heed the warnings. They are well-tagged.)

I've got my eye on several other blogs once I have a little more time. Hope ya'll like spam likes/reblogs/comments, bc I'm a bit enthusiastic 😂

Ok, back to me, I suppose. Under the cut 🤣

I tend to use emojis excessively, but don’t expect me to know the meaning of them beyond face-value expressions. I shamelessly claim elder millennial status as an excuse (which means I’m 18+, obviously).

I’m audhd (combo autistic/adhd), but I didn’t find that out until earlier this year, so I’m still very used to tiptoeing around people and holding myself back out of self-preservation. Working on that though, bc I’m tired of that shit.

Erm, also… fuck is my favorite word. If you don’t like foul language, I might not be a great fit for you.

I joined Tumblr about a month ago, so I am still learning and ask for your patience. (I will probably be learning for quite some time, tbh) If I’m doing something wrong, please let me know so I can fix it.

Asks are welcome, although not sure what you would ask me lol. With asks, keep in mind that I’m literal as fuck and context is everything :D

As is fairly common from what I’ve seen in this community, I’ve daydreamed whump for as long as I can remember, and it’s nice to:

1. know what to call it 🥲

2. find someplace where I don’t feel weird about getting it out of my head and putting it on digital paper. Well, not quite as weird haha.

I’m super nervous to post on here, but that’s what I’m here for, so… deep breaths 😶

Likes:

*Fantasy whump

Magic w/ consequences

Captivity

Torture/punishments

Restraints

Dub/non-con

Emotional whump/angst

Defiant whumpee

Breaking whumpee to the point of hopeless despair before building them back up again

Revenge against whumper

Creepy/intimate whumper

Named characters

Recovery arcs, bonus points for romance <3

Eventual Happy endings after copious amounts of suffering

I write what I like, btw. I have written explicit romance previously, but I’m not sure if I will here.

I will try to be diligent with my warnings, but as those are new for me as well, I may miss some. Please let me know if I do and I will fix it! (within reason, don't ask me to tag something like sadness. that's a typical emotion. extremes like depression, yes. sadness, no.)

* Disclaimer: I will only ever write fantasy. I prefer to read fantasy as well, but I have made exceptions when I get the tropes I want :D

Squicks:

I’m willing to try most anything once.

In general though, I tend to avoid cannibalism, major character death, hard-core conditioning, whumper redemptions, bad caretakers

I’m excited to join the community here and looking forward to participating in Whumptober! I have no idea how well I’ll keep up since I only decided to write for it 3 days before the event, but I’m willing to try 😅

Even if I can’t keep up during October's events, I do plan to finish the storyline and there will be a happy end :D

Fuck, this got long. Sorry!!!

See you all around! 💜

#whump intro #whump introduction #whump writing #whumpblr #whump #whump community #Nice to meet you all!#I can't believe I'm actually posting this and committing myself to something 😶#this is a rarity lol #don't ask me how long it took to actually click the post button #also don't ask how many times I read my own intro 😅

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noperopesaredope · 7 months

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My Voltron Self-Insert OC

Recently, I've been choosing to embrace my inner "cringe" and start creating/reviving my more self-indulgent and goofy fan OCs. Specifically, ones that I'd typically feel "embarrassed" for making. I haven't made too many self-insert OCs over the years, however, I have made one or two, and did have a special "can travel between worlds OC" (who turned into a psychosis-induced coping mechanism for depression). Recently, I remembered one of these self-insert OCs of mine, and decided to bring her back to life.

She holds such a special place in my heart, and I can't bring myself to hate her, especially since she was created during a time when I was still discovering a lot of myself. She is actually an early sign of my gender fluidity, as she has a very masculine name with a very feminine appearance and pronouns. But even then, she’ll fuck around with gender. It doesn't matter to her. She was how I first realized that maybe I’m not cis, and I love her for that.

Plus, I lowkey kinda like her as a character? She was just really fun for me to work with. She was also both very similar to me at the time and very different. For example, she used she/her pronouns, as I was still figuring out my pronouns and gender identity at the time, and I prefer making female characters.

Her personality and the way she presents herself is also very different from both how I was then and how I am now. She honestly seems like a completely different person from me, but I still think of her as a self-insert, because that was the intent at the time. She is pretty cringy in some areas and a little bit OP, but even at the time, I tried to tone her down a bit.

So, without further ado, here is my old Voltron self-insert (warning: this is gonna be long):

Daniel Nathaniel!!!

Daniel is the "Orange Paladin". She is a bit complicated in backstory and stuff, so get ready guys, because this is gonna get a bit wild. There were a lot of intentional "holes" in the backstory with a few twists here and there, so I decided to write what I remembered and fill in the blanks with what I thought would be cool and fit.

Plotline:

Daniel Nathaniel was introduced in Season 2 in an episode titled “The Orange Paladin”. It starts where Voltron is battling a fleet of Galra, and is beginning to get overwhelmed. They aren’t completely losing by any means, but in order to win, they just need a tiny bit of backup. Suddenly, out of nowhere, what appears to be another Voltron lion (but a bit smaller and orange) bursts in and starts assisting them. Everyone is shocked, but they continue fighting, and they win the battle. They then manage to contact the person piloting the strange new lion, and tell them to meet up with them on a nearby planet.

The person agrees, and when they all step outside and watch the new lion land, the entrance to the lion opens, and out steps Daniel. She introduces herself and says that she has a lot of explaining to do. They invite her inside the castle, and once they all sit down, Daniel begins telling her “backstory.”

She was once a cadet at the Garrison, and when she heard about the missing cadets, she decided to do some investigating. She ended up discovering the cave where the Blue Lion was originally hidden, and found a few clues related to Voltron. She managed to do some digging on the little bits and pieces of history that gave clues to what the lions even were. This led her to a different remote location where she discovered a secret "arch" type thing that turned out to be a portal to a different planet.

There, she stumbled across the “Orange Lion”, and was able to connect with it. Due to the link between lions and their paladins and the fact that the Orange Lion has more telepathic abilities, Daniel was able to learn more about what exactly Voltron was and what the deal was with the Orange Lion. Allegedly, the Orange Lion was not one of the original lions, but one that was made later as a sort of “power up.”

It didn’t need to be present to form Voltron, it would just be able to attach itself to it and give it extra strength. It was made much later than the others, as a new comet was found around the time Zarkon was beginning to act up. Altean scientists turned it into a small, extra “upgrade” lion that could attach to Voltron, a failsafe for backup due to the escalating conflict. Due to it being finished right near the end of the war, there was no time to find a paladin for it, and it was hidden even further away than the other lions.

Allura and Coran are confused, as they don’t remember any of this. Daniel says that her lion said that Haggar probably messed with everyone’s memories of the Orange Lion so that, in case they managed to get Voltron back together, nobody remembers to look for the Orange Lion. Allura and Coran vaguely recall the Orange Lion, but the memories feel fuzzy and off. However, they don’t question it much.

(Important sidenote: Daniel is lying)

Daniel becomes a member of the team and fights as backup in battle. She also becomes close to the others quite quickly. There are hints here and there of Daniel knowing more than she says, and being in on secrets that she shouldn’t know, but it is continuously brushed off. There are also a lot of holes in her story, especially when she talks about her life before Voltron. In general, there is something incredibly suspicious about her, but it’s just subtle enough for the characters not to question it. However, the show draws just enough attention to these inconsistencies for it to be clear that the viewer is supposed to notice that something is wrong here.

She is wary of Lotor and believes that he is lying, and she says that something feels off about Shiro during Seasons 3-6. There are generally a lot of moments where she appears to know more about people than she lets on.

When everyone learns that Shiro is a clone, they all clearly seem to feel betrayed and want the real Shiro back. But Daniel cautiously argues in favor of the clone, saying that he is currently being mind controlled, and that even if he was kinda being the worst, they still spent a while getting to know Clone Shiro.

For all they know, he himself might not know that he isn’t the real Shiro. Maybe he himself wasn’t real, but the memories were, and she “knows in her heart” that he wasn’t pretending. Every battle they fought together, every memory they made together, every moment of friendship, all of it was genuine. This speech is written to be emotional, but slightly suspicious, as though Daniel is hiding some things.

The other characters begin to suspect that something is up, and it seems like she is speaking for more than just Clone Shiro. They question her a bit, but eventually decide to just leave it be for now. Small side note about the Clone Shiro plotline: we at some point have a scene in the special realm (can’t remember what it’s called) where the souls of OG Shiro and Clone Shiro get to interact. OG Shiro reveals to Clone Shiro that he was a clone. Clone Shiro is clearly distraught by this, and starts having an existential crisis. He understands that OG deserves to come back, but Clone also doesn’t want to disappear.

OG realizes that despite not being the best, Clone still clearly cares about the team, and he is still his own person. OG ends up giving him an offer. They both want to be Shiro. And right now, their team wants OG back, but OG understands that Clone doesn’t deserve to be left behind or erased. So the best solution would be to merge their souls together and become one person. That way, they can both exist and have the best of both worlds. Clone is hesitant at first, but realizes the advantages to this, and he agrees.

They shake hands, and when Shiro wakes up, he reveals to the team that they (evenly, so it isn’t like there is a dominant personality) merged together into one, and he might be a bit different now, but he’s still Shiro. I believe that this allows everything to be mostly the same, but feels less cruel to Clone Shiro and is more sweet. I remember watching it for the first time and being upset by the whole thing, since Clone Shiro clearly wasn’t trying to betray anyone, and he still formed those bonds with the others. So I decided to fix it a bit by explaining it a little further.

Anyways, back to Daniel. During the latter half of the series, it is revealed that Daniel has been lying about everything this whole time. And when I say everything, I mean everything. I might make this occur during the Season 6 finale, soon after Clone Shiro is revealed, making it a bit of a double hit. Partway through the battle at the end of Season 6, during a big and important moment, Daniel is dramatically injured in front of everyone in the fighting.

An important thing to note here is that, despite fighting multiple harsh battles throughout the series, Daniel has never really gotten hurt before, even minor injuries. Things that have hurt the rest of the team don’t hurt her, or she is consistently the quickest to recover, with no notable damage. It’s almost unusual, and may actually be subtly pointed out at some point. It’s often played off as a coincidence, but astute viewers will notice that something is wrong here.

But when Daniel finally gets injured, it’s significant, as she straight up loses an ear, causing her to bleed in excess. It isn’t overly gorey, with her covering that area with her hand, and the injury isn’t focused on, but the blood is clearly there. But instead of red blood, she is bleeding green. She stands there in shock as the other characters present look at the ground to the detached ear, which has turned into what looks like a blue, bat-ear-shaped ear. Daniel looks at the ear, then the others as different areas of her body begin to shift and change into something different, but in a held back way. She is trying to hold it back.

Pidge (who is likely the one standing closest to her, asks “who are you?” Daniel quickly says that she is still Daniel, and that she isn’t a fake version. Pidge then says “well, you clearly aren’t who you pretend you are.” And finally, Daniel admits that the Orange Paladin never really existed, that it was all a lie, and almost everything they knew about her was made up. There is no Fake Daniel, because Daniel was always fake.

She then passes out due to blood loss, and they manage to patch her up while trying to figure out their next steps. When she eventually wakes up, Daniel decides to tell everyone the truth.

She is what’s known as a Mutivesstallus, a member of a species which was nearly wiped out by Zarkon and the Galra. Mutivessallum (the plural for Mutivesstallus) have two primary abilities: shapeshifting and extreme mind powers. They are able to read minds, peer into others’ memories, slightly alter existing memories (though this is harder, and once someone realizes that the memory was false, they will remember the original memory), and generally scan people’s psychies. They can often figure out more about a person than the person knows about themselves. Mutivessallum are often hyper-empathic and very understanding, and have the unfortunate flaw of constantly giving others the benefit of the doubt and being overly forgiving.

Mutivessallum’s shapeshifting is only limited to organic and living species, and they have a harder time shifting into beings that are larger than them. However, with time and practice, a Mutivessallus is able to shift into a large variety of things. Daniel, having lived for a long while (she’s still somewhat young for her species, but has existed for quite a while due to longer lifespans), is relatively experienced enough to shapeshift into something like a human, which is about her size. However, due to me not wanting her to get too OP, she has a harder time shifting into bigger creatures, or can only shift into a select few due to practicing shifting into specific ones with similar biology to her kind.

After many of the Mutivessallum were destroyed, Daniel (who’s real name is something else, but none of the other characters can pronounce it, so she says they can still call her Daniel) was left alone and vengeful. She wished to destroy Zarkon, but didn’t have the means to, and all she could do was wander space and travel to other planets. Then, word spread about Voltron, and Daniel became hopeful. She wanted to help them defeat Zarkon and maybe become a member of their team. For complicated reasons (even before this reveal, she is consistently shown to think in a very different way from everyone else and has an unusual line of logic), she decides to go and find a legendary wish-granting being who is able to create most anything in the universe. Due to already being close to said being, she asks them to help her make a Voltron lion of her own so she can join Voltron and help them.

The being thinks that this is a bad idea, but Daniel manages to convince them to do it, and together, they design something extremely close to a lion that can be semi-compatible with Voltron. The being then grants her wish, and Daniel's beloved ship is transformed into this thing. Daniel believes that the team won’t accept her if she is her real self, so she decides to make a person for herself that will “make them more comfortable around me.” She does some research on humans, and gives herself a unique human form with a false identity. “They will trust another human like them than a random creature like me.”

Upon meeting the team and them beginning to ask questions, Daniel begins to panic, and worries that they will kick her out if they learn the truth about her and her lion. So she lies. She later works on constructing a more stable and well thought out backstory for herself, and using her powers, she manages to trick everyone into believing her story.

Everyone feels extremely betrayed and conflicted, because she has been a legitimately great friend to them, and she seems legitimately sorry. She’s also done a lot of stuff that has gained their trust, and proven that she genuinely wants to be a part of the team. She cares about them and thinks of them as a second family to her, and she fully believes in their cause. The problem is that she lied to them for a long while, and basically gaslit them. They decide not to kick her out, but they do let her know that she’ll need to earn their trust back, and stop lying. From then on, Daniel mostly remains in her true form, and she changes her lion to be its own thing.

This is good, because the Orange Lion was previously slightly messing up the balance between the lions, and it was already basically its own thing. Daniel begins to let her true self show and separates herself from her human persona. But everyone soon realizes that her persona and her true self weren’t completely separate. Yes, her identity was fake, but her personality was not. Some of her human-specific interests were things she used to seem more human, but once she tried them, she genuinely enjoyed them, and even continued to engage in the same hobbies as she did when she was pretending to be human.

Even elements of her fictional life on Earth are not that different from her real life. She had a younger sibling, and most of the stories she told about her friends and family are slightly true, just altered to fit with Earth customs.

About 5 or so episodes into Season 7, a few of the others catch her hanging out in her human form, and she admits that she feels comfortable in it, and that every form she creates for herself feels like one of her “true forms”. Her human form isn’t just a persona, and she confesses that she feels like her real self in both forms. They all agree that she can still go into her human form, she just shouldn’t pretend that she was born a human, and that this is merely one of her alternate forms.

So for the rest of the series, Daniel switches back and forth between forms, and even shifts into other forms that she has taken on in the past. She also is more open about using her powers, letting the others know when she has sensed something with her powers or found out something. She later admits that she feels incredibly free being every version of herself and not hiding anything.

Gradually, the others forgive her, and begin to trust her again, especially since she doesn’t use her powers on them. She still senses their emotions and can subtly read what is generally on their mind, but that is because she can’t turn off that part of her powers. They understand this, and she rarely does anything with any knowledge she has on them. Even though her role in the team has somewhat changed, everyone still feels like she is a part of the team, she is just more similar to Coran or Season 1-2 Allura now.

So, that’s most of what I have for Daniel’s storyline in the series! This post is getting pretty long, so I will soon make a part 2 explaining her personality (which is probably more important than her storyline, but whatever) and her relationships with the other characters. But for now, I hope you liked her.

When I first created Daniel in middle school, I realized that there were lots of holes in her backstory, to the point that I even made it so that the others were suspicious of her. It just didn’t make much sense for there to be another lion, and I always wanted her to pick up on more than she should. I early on had given her mind powers that allowed her to know more than she should, but even then that felt out of place. Slightly later on, but still during middle school, I wanted her to secretly be an alien, but it just added a few more holes. Why wasn’t anyone questioning it?

Then, recently, while coming back to her, I thought, “what if all her odd character traits were the point? What if she was a character who was able to slightly manipulate the world around her so that she could be important to the story? What if she was a slightly meta commentary on how self-inserts will manipulate the entire story and lore in order to make the author feel like they can belong in this fictional world?” I thought that could be pretty fun, so I ran with it. Daniel is not supposed to fit. Her backstory is supposed to not make sense. She is not supposed to be there. That is the point.

However, she doesn’t do all this out of malice. She does it because she wants somewhere to belong. She wants to belong to a specific group of people, she wants to fit in with them and join them on adventures and be cool like them. But she can’t find a way to do that, so she twists the world around her in order to fit into the narrative. I try to be careful about how I present her morality, and how she isn’t a bad person, but she has done something bad by manipulating and lying. It does take some work for the team to forgive her, but they do learn to forgive her, because she changes and grows. And even if her story was fake, the bonds were real. Her personality is real. Even her fake identity has some genuineness to it.

I really loved working on her, especially the meta aspect of her story, and I enjoy writing about her and her interactions with the team. She is a sweetheart who is flawed and messy, and even though she can be a bit of a Mary Sue, I don’t really care. Plus, that is the idea. She is supposed to be a Mary Sue on a narrative level, and even then, she breaks some of the conventions because her actions have consequences and she fails frequently.

So she is generally a fun character to me, and I hope other people think she’s interesting. But at the end of the day, she was born a self-indulgent self insert, and I don’t really care if people think she is cringy. I enjoyed writing about her, and I hope to make more art of her, since she was really fun to draw. I hope some of ya’ll are willing to hear more about her. Stay tuned if you’re curious!

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andrewwtca · 4 months

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Today marks five years since I was introduced to Kingdom Hearts (a very messy essay on femininity and change)

Five years ago, I was in Orlando and I was at the beginning of my gaming renaissance. Much of my childhood had been spent reading and watching TV, always sitting on the sidelines when it came to video games. I'm not sure why—I was really bad at them, sure, and to an extent, I'm still not that great. Or maybe I felt like it wasn't proper for a girl to play video games.

Nonetheless, I was getting into gaming (getting back into gaming?) and in that winter, there was a demo for some strange game.

I'd heard of it before. My dad got it for my brother on the 3DS because all of us really loved Tron: Legacy. I remember there were some random volumes of it in my middle school library (side note: why did my MS library have Days and only Days? The first volume was always checked out, but the second was always in because no one had any context. I still don't know how or why they have it), and I had read them a few times. And, most importantly, I wanted to learn more about video games and if the game was pulling such large crowds, it had to be good, right?

So I scanned the code and waited 30 minutes before they called me inside. I stood in line with some other people, most years older than me. I remember the attendant who put us into line—he said he'd been around since the first game, and he'd been waiting over ten years for this one. He asked if anyone else had been waiting and no one raised their hands. I hope he enjoyed the game.

Finally, the last group finished up and they directed us to sit on couches set up in front of TVs. We were given pairs of headphones and told that if we wanted to take photos of the game, it'd have to be a selfie of some kind. I thought that this must be big then, to have this kind of protection.

So on December 28, 2018, I played Kingdom Hearts III for the first time. I played some of the Mount Olympus world and some of Toybox and I knew nothing else other than that there were Disney characters and "I think the main character is named Sky or Sora." I was mesmerized. I promised myself I would buy the game as soon as it came out, and I consider that the moment it all changed for me.

If we're being honest, I didn't play Kingdom Hearts III until 2020. So technically, it's only been 3.5 years since I got into the series, but we're talking about introductions! Without that day, I don't think I would be here.

There are a lot of things I could talk about. A lot of things I want to talk about, have told people. I can say how the story has given me a reason to keep fighting, whether it's through just the sheer want to know how it'll finish or the hope it instills in me, that through the darkness there is light, and there will always be a darkness in the light and that isn't to be feared but to be embraced. I can say how the music pumps me up and breaks me down and makes me reflect on every choice I've made. I can say how it's gotten me through very dark times.

I'm going to choose something less conventional. I want to talk about how Kingdom Hearts helped me overcome my internalized misogyny.

I am not a girl, but I grew up as one. When I first began to come to terms with my queerness, I was met with an extreme: I needed to reject all forms of femininity to be myself. It didn't matter that being feminine did make me happy; what I was sure would make me happier was people understanding I was a boy, and boys had to hate femininity, boys had to be masculine and tough.

I tried that for a very long while, trying to reject all forms of stereotypical femininity. I didn't like to wear pink and I didn't like to talk to girls and I wouldn't read girly books and it didn't make me very happy. I'm not sure what was making me so dissatisfied—I didn't look much like a boy but my good friends kept affirming me in the ways that mattered. So...that should make me happy, right?

But I liked pink. I liked talking to girls. I liked reading girly books, I liked wearing girly clothes, I didn't like being a girl, but things associated with girlhood weren't vile to me. They were the opposite. They were right.

Between 13 and 16, I would go in very varying approached to this. A constant struggle between femininity and transness, and I was so sure that one would cancel out the other, and I was so sure that femininity was just bad. That I was bad if I was feminine, that I was bad if I acted like a girl, that I wasn't enough if I did. This wasn't about being a boy anymore. This was about me thinking that girlhood was bad.

And there Sora fucking was, helping princesses achieve their happily ever afters.

I can't describe the exact moment it clicked, but it was between me finishing Kingdom Hearts and beginning Kingdom Hearts II—2021 and 2023. I liked Disney Princesses a lot growing up, and I had a lot of figurines for them in my room. And around that time, I kept trying to find cool ways to cover them up, cool ways to make it seem like I'm so over that. Because femininity was bad, right? The entire world demonized it. Being a girl brought me nothing but pain, so I should hate it.

But this boy that I grew so attached to would help these princesses without so much as a single remark. He would fight for them, and tell them they deserved a happy ending. He was a rowdy boy, poster ADHD boy, and yet, he never once made the princesses feel like they were less for being princesses.

He never once made me feel like I was less for still liking girlhood.

I am still a boy. I still go by he/they pronouns. But as of writing this, I happily dress femininely, I've pulled my figurines to the front of my room, and I like the color pink again. The world made me think that I had to choose between femininity and happiness. Sora, strangely, taught me that they were one in the same. That femininity is not evil, that femininity simply is like the sun, the ocean, the earth. That femininity is less concrete but not any less beautiful.

It's been five years since I've gotten into Kingdom Hearts. I'm grateful for everyone who's been with me this whole time. I'm grateful for girlhood. I'm grateful for second chances.

I'm grateful for Sora Kingdom Hearts.

#andrew's writing #personal essay #kingdom hearts #transgender #femininity

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duhragonball · 4 months

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Who is your favorite non-Sayian, non-villain character in the Dragonball series? I really like Piccolo and Tien for instance. Or do you only have room for the major players?

Probably Bulma, Piccolo, or Krillin, depending on my mood. If I show greater appreciation for Saiyans and villains, it's only because they have a greater presence in the show, so there's more for me to talk about.

Even so, I still enjoy minor characters, or even obscure ones. To give you an idea, or just because I need to get it out of my head, I'll say a few words about my latest fixation, Ivy from Where on Earth is Carmen Sandiego?

I just woke up today and somehow got reminded of this cartoon, which was promoted heavily on Fox back in 1994 while I was trying to watch Batman: The Animated Series. Carmen Sandiego is the thief from the old computer games, and the cartoon introduced a pair of detective characters to chase her, a brother-and-sister team named Zack and Ivy.

Zack is pretty easy to read. He's a computer whiz, voiced by the same guy who plays Robin in the Teen Titans cartoons, and he's basically this adolescent sidekick type. Ivy, on the other hand, I could never quite figure out. And the show is unwatchable, so that didn't help much.

Like, okay, in 1994 I was 17, and I kind of had the hots for Ivy. She kind of looks like a prototype Kim Possible, so I guess that gives younger people an idea of what I'm talking about. I think I just assumed she was also 17, but sometimes the show plays her off like she's an adult. I mean, she's a professional detective, and she seems pretty experienced, and from what I've read she has a "history with Carmen" according to the show. The implication is that she's been working this job for several years, so maybe she started when she was Zack's age and she's about 24 now. I'm just spitballing.

On the other hand, that's kind of dumb. It's a kids show, and Zack's a kid, so why wouldn't Ivy also be a kid? You see her in the same scene with Carmen and it seems obvious. She's older than Zack, but not by that much.

On the other hand, the two detectives are in contact with a live-action character known as the "Player", which sort of suggests that the entire cartoon is taking place inside a computer game, and Ivy doesn't actually exist. That would explain why no one can find a woman in a bright red trenchcoat, and why Zack is considered the second most qualified person to catch her. So Ivy could be any age, or no age at all. She's not a character so much as an avatar for the faceless Player.

Anyway, I only got this far because I looked up information on the show over the course of the day, because I had completely forgotten the character's whole deal. I just remembered the red hair and the bomber jacket. But while I was looking it up, I found out they made a whole other Carmen Sandiego show in 2019, and in that one, Zack and Ivy are Carmen's accomplices, which kind of blew my mind. Apparently Carmivy is a popular ship in that fandom, so I feel less silly for crushing on Ivy in 1994.

I guess the point I'm trying to make here is that I always admired the Ivy design, even if the character concept was frustratingly vague and inconsistent. And this is just the example that I've been thinking about today. I find myself latching onto all sorts of obscure characters, wanting to find out more about them, and then getting frustrated when I learn there's not much to be had.

And this is my roundabout way of saying that of course I like the supporting cast of Dragon Ball. Characters like Tien and 17 and Zarbon are what make the whole thing come together, and a lot of them have lore that's much more satisfying than Ivy's.

#ask duhragonball #note to self: use ivy's clothes for the next zatte commission i order #no one else is using that fit so i might as well get something out of it

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goldenfreddy22 · 8 months

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So the only place that this man resides on so far is my TikTok and I am deciding to bring him to other places.

This boy is named Upton, his full name is Upton Oliver Goode but he will shorten his middle name to O. the majority of the time. He is a tailor and loves to make many different outfits. Trust me when I say that he is extremely fashionable but he has the unfortunate luck of being drawn by a troglodyte with no fashion sense so his outfit might not even go well together.

He is my Welcome Home oc but I did start to make him his own character just because I kinda want to make my own little world with him at some point. I do have that wonderful brain rot tho so I will still be drawing him with Welcome Home characters because I love them all so much.

Regarding him in the Welcome Home universe, he was supposed to have multiple purposes on the show. I like to think that he would not have been on the show from the very beginning so there would be an episode having to introduce his character. When he is first brought on the show he is used as an example of the whole “don’t judge a book by its cover” thing and teaches kids to not believe everything that people say about a person. As the episodes go on and he starts establishing himself into the show he teaches kids how to dress themselves/express themselves through their clothing choices. He could also teach them how to make their own clothes or the basics of sewing. His other purpose was to teach kids Spanish (phrases, colors, numbers, etc.) for the sake of expanding dialects.

He has been helping me as I learn Spanish myself, I have always wanted to learn more so I can reconnect and communicate with some of my family so having this little goober help me has been so lovely. I doodle him everywhere on my notes to help me remember things. With that being said, if I ever draw him speaking Spanish then I would appreciate being told if I did it incorrectly. While he is an oc that speaks Spanish he is also a means of reconnecting and I would like to do it correctly.

Anyways, I hope that y’all like him as much as I do. I might post more art on here of him/Welcome Home/other things I am fixated on in the future. I might even answer some things about him if he gets any questions. Glad to have my boy on more than one platform now.

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rigelmejo · 2 years

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Language Updates! May 25, 2022

My health is still being mean but hopefully it'll turn. As expected, I'm not studying much.

But I did get the urge to study again. So I did. And it went in an odd direction (for me) so I feel like documenting it.

First the Japanese stuff - I got into playing Final Fantasy 7 again, and video games always remind me how much I want to learn Japanese, so the urge to study kicked in gear lol. As of now I'm not doing anything big, I'm too tired lately for big goals. I am playing Yakuza 0 now and having fun picking up the words I do know. And learning some words, mainly though just refreshing my memory on things I already knew like 少し,あるんだ, zenbun matte etc. Some sentences I fully understand! Most I know a couple words, some I only hear omae lol. As one would expect.

I'm also listening to Glossika Japanese again (as review so the old files I've heard already). So not much listening, at the beginning again lol, but everything is coming back fast. So that's good.

I also bought Koisenu Futari today and started reading it on Kindle. It's like 249 pages and my reading speed says I'll finish in 8 hours, which honestly is amazing to me since usually I read too slow to Ever finish a novel ToT in a foreign language (unless it's french). I read 7 pages and it's clear to me on some level I remember the grammar i learned i jusr don't explicitly remember it if it makes sense. Like I know what's a noun or verb or how the verbs conjugation affects meaning but I'm not able to say exactly whats going on. Basically it's readable, thankfully, cause my brain still remembers how to interpret the grammar. I still credit forcing myself to do 600 Clozemaster Japanese sentences last summer for all the grammar comprehension improvements tbh, it really truly helped me get used to real world sentences and the variety in them (versus textbook sentences). Anyway so far its nice! It's to my happiness an easier read (difficulty wise) with a lot of Kanji I know so I also can kind of cheat and guess the meaning on a lot (I'm mainly looking up Kanji pronunciations/confirmations of definition and hiragana words). But I will say :c kindles Japanese to English dictionary sucks So I'm glad i recognize the Kanji a bit.

Basically, I'm back into Japanese a bit. I also found some audio dramas with eng subs I'd like to listen to that I was going to months ago, maybe yest Listening Reading Method with. But tbh my attention span is short and I don't think I can focus for 1.5 hours to get through them (though Nier Replicant Audio drama AND mdzs Japanese audio drama are on youtube which are both very cool and i do eventually wanna get to ToT)

Now for the out of character portion. So ive been watching kdramas. Live Up to Your Name, Mr Sunshine, Tomorrow, My Country the New Age, etc. As you do. And it turns out... when I listen to something long enough I really want to learn something. So I looked into learning Korean a bit.

I want to preface with!!! If YOU are brand new to learning Korean, like comprehensible input/nature method learning methods, I highly recommend going to Learn Korean in Korean YouTube channel and just Devouring all the videos made by that guy. THAT is a well made course where you can genuinely learn through comprehensible input for the basics and some surface conversational stuff (possibly more). I watched 1 of his videos once knowing zero Hangul and not caring if i learned and learned how to introduce myself. His videos are GOOD.

That said... mejo is a messy person who doesn't follow their own advice, and despite me KNOWING I love that specific learning material... I'm not using it. Why? Because watching YouTube videos requires consistent focus and i just cannot reliably focus on something for several minutes right now. I can't do long periods of focused study at the moment. Even though I know if I binged his channel I'd learn a lot.

So what is mejos plan to learn korean?

Well studying Hangul is step 1, which I've done before and have done the past few days again. Now I'm practicing just kind of seeing it in practice (like in textbooks etc) to get used to properly reading it and remembering. As my motivations for wanting to learn korean are Extremely Shallow right now - I'd just like to know some lines in kdramas when I watch, maybe absolute MOST I'd like to have a convo in korean like hi how are you do you draw (and in a world I'll never live in... enough to read Korean guardian translation but let's be real its not gonna happen.. probably). I have no intense need to learn to read Hangul. I'm gonna pick it up anyway, since it's everywhere and reading it is ultimately critical. But books with romanization are my friends right now so I can compare romanization to the Hangul to test my reading of the Hangul, and to learn words with an approximate pronunciation instead of absolutely no idea if i picked a moderately close pronunciation up (if theres only Hangul and I read a,syllable wrong I'm gonna learn words wrong lol).

So I found Teach Yourself Korean (or some equivalent type book) on archive.org for free. And am reading it. It covers Hangul, and then simple surface level conversations like your typical beginner textbook (hi, how are you, my name is, i work at, I study, I want to eat x etc). It works fine for some Hangul reading practice and getting a chance to look at sentence structure. Realistically I know korean is SOV and a really Great help would be a textbook that does literal word by word translations cause my brain likes seeing that but I'm not putting tons of time into this. (Also sadly? I KNOW there's a cool korean textbook out there whixh starts with english but in korean sentence structure then adds more korean words, like comprehensible input for korean but also intuitive grammar instruction. And i DONT know the name so I canr find it ;-; if you know the name of the textbook I'm mentioning please message me).

For words, i was going to just be brutal to myself and hop right into Clozemaster Korean. That was utterly impossible lol! With very poor Hangul reading skills you are screwed in clozemaster, there's no romanization to help you sound anything out. Also you don't hear audio until after you answer, also the diffetent grammar structure is not explained even minimally in Clozemaster. So I have realized. Yes, yes you really do need to be upper beginner or above to use Clozemaster reasonably comfortably. Unless you're learning a language with similar grammar and a similar alphabet like French or Spanish then maybe you could jump right in as a complete novice if you were up for the challenge (I can read some Spanish, I could probably push through clozemaster Spanish to study and learn more vocab even though it would be brutal). I realized clozemaster is just NOT helpful as a complete beginner in korean with zero grammar knowledge. Now normally, I'd dive right in and spend 1 week to 1 month reading a grammar guide summary of the language so I have a vague idea of what I'm looking at verb noun adjective subject object particle wise etc at all times. But as I mentioned, im exhausted lately, i cant do intensive focused reading for hours which a grammar guide would require of me. Also... to be honest, I find it an interesting experiment to go into a language totally unprepared. I was prepared for all the other languages I studied to some (minimal) degree since i studied literally all of them as a teen at least a little (japanese, Spanish, French, German, mandarin). While it's not much, it does mean if there were ever 6 months of struggling with sound or writing system or what the heck does a verb look like in z language, i got a little practice prior to diving in more as an adult.

So. What to do. Well I know for me, comparing sentence structure truly helps me grasp grammar the best. It's why clozemasrer Japanese helped me SO much with grammar, it's why one of my fave japanese textbooks is Japanese Sentence Patterns, it's why Spoonfed Chinese anki deck ans audio files help me so much. Seeing and hearing a sentence in both languages helps me figure out where words go in each, how they conjugate, what phrases are different completely etc. Unfortunately anki and memrise sentence decks in korean would make me exhausted, as i can't do the hours long intensive focus I need for flashcards personally at the moment. Clozemaster has a radio mode (to help make it easier on me) but clozemaster sentences start TOO hard compared to educational made sentences which tend to start artificially simple but help clarify the sentence structures before adding complexity gradually. Well i was like... glossika Korean might work. Turns out I'd downloaded the old glossika korean audio files a year ago so I put them in a place I could listen to. And that's going to be my primary setup for study probably. I doubt I'm going to pick up much, certainly not at the slow rate I've got to study right now. But if I DO learn anything then I'm putting in a good word for comparative 2 language audio flashcard type study materials. They worked EXCELLENTLY for me for chinese listening comprehension, increasing vocabulary, grammar patterns, but i used them as an upper beginner who could read some stuff already. Korean would be my first time trying to use glossika with a language I can't already read some things in (aka comprehend basic stuff to a decent level when reading already). We will see if i pick up much. But I can already tell it's easier for me to figure out new words than clozemaster korean, so glossika is easier for a beginner to use for sure. (Personally I do Not recommend modern glossikas subscription model I hate the flashcards but tbh i canr do flashcards often, I prefer the old glossika audio lessons they used to make so that's what I use whenever i say glossika).

So yeah, my plan for korean right now is: glossika korean audio files (dual language audio of sentences starting simple then progressing), and Teach Yourself Korean book read through. Maybe some other stuff, but this is easiest.

A side note: I am sad to report the FSI korean course audio files on archive.org are Only korean. I say thus because FsiS chinese course audios read the English aloud, then rhe chinese, then the drill directions then the drill answers. So you can basically do the entire course entirely through audio (which is great if visuals are an issue for you, or so it can be done without needing to look if say you're walking or working, and the book is mainly pinyin so it's not a huge loss to just use the audio files). So I was expecting the korean FSI course audio to also have all that - which would have made it serve the "simple sentences with dual audio to compare and pick up words and grammar" function. But there's no English in the audio, so i found the korean glossika audios instead. (In a pinch FSI courses are yes dry, but very good introductions to several languages. I like their tone drills a lot for chinese.)

Another side note: sad to report that unlike Japanese and Chinese I am not aware of the really cool niche textbooks yet. Like in Japanese, I have textbooks specifically suited to me - ones that focus on sentence patterns, 2 that teach through reading and progressive difficulty, Kanji mnemonic books. Same for chinese - I have an old grammar book that writes a way I understand, 3 comprehensible input massive graded readers that increase in difficulty, some more graded readers by difficulty, a 500 most common hanzi book with a bunch of words that use them underneath, parallel texts, a wonderful hanzi mnemonics book, a wonderful chinese intro book that covers 1000 words (which isn't ideal but i appreciate the author and irs better than one textbook I found which only teaches 200 words total yikes). I learn well with comprehensible input books like graded readers/stuff that makes you learn by trying to understand, and with comparisons of sentence structure with a LOT of common words so I pick them up. Like I mentioned above... I know a korean textbook exists that writes the English in korean word order then gradually adds in more korean words too, I am very interested in finding it if anyone knows the name or has heard of it before.

#rant #may #may progress #progress #may goals #goals #korean #korean study plan #study plan #WOW YEAH im learning a little korean #not much but i would like to recognize a bit more than i do now which is like nothing #except the greeting and thank you

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I feel like I need a long-term list of projects I wanted completed. My manic drive from January/February has died down, but my will to create is NOT gone. That's ... a feat.

Limbo - this project requires research by way of rewatching some if not all of 2k3 (and my definition of this is seasons 1 through 4 only, as I do not include the Tribunal, FF, or BttS as part of my cannon). As I write this, I'm halfway through season 2 and I'm outlining the points that will help me structure Limbo physically. The more I watch, the more I'm pissed about my creative choices for Limbo draft 1. That might turn out in my favor.

◦ outline 2k3 and figure out WHEN Limbo takes place to ground it in cannon

◦ outline major plot points in Limbo

◦ detail major characters' growth throughout entire story

◦ fucking write the damn story

Horse Comic - okay, another one that has tickled me since my childhood. I wanna get it done. I swore to myself that I wouldn't start this project until I had the skill to draw horses unaided by references. Well, mostly. The point is drawing a comic - and I think this comic will be five issues/chapters long from what I figured out last night - depicting a rundown of a modified story that I remember from my breyer horse herd as a little kid. Well, now adult storytelling, years of stacked ideas that go well with the og story, color genetics, and actually having the drive to put a comic together (by myself) come into play. This ain't gonna be a light project.

◦ break the story down into five chapters and detail everything that needs to happen within each chapter

◦ break each chapter down into pages so that I don't have to worry about page pacing when I start putting it all together

◦ "pencil" the ENTIRE first chapter before I even think about "inking" or laying down color/background

◦ work on one chapter at a time, but don't expect more than one chapter per year if I can even keep up my drive for this

◦ come up with an intriguing title because I'm stumped

HARPG - so I even started a blog for this and have a few chapters uploaded already, but when I got caught up in that commission I fell a couple weeks behind already. I am NOT feeling this so much, but I still would like to crank out a couple years of story this year. I NEED TO DRAW RAMSEY RIGHT FUCKING NOW. And then continue to come up with a chapter and chapter art every other week. Like, c'mon, me.

New Nation - another story that haunts me every time I think about my stories. Maybe I'll love Kurt again through Limbo. Probably not. I think I'm falling out of love with the character that got me through ... everything ... the past decade. Is it the Catholicism? I've been at war with Catholicism since my job at the pig farm. It's gotta be more than that. But anyway, I really ... really ... I don't know if I can ever come back to this story anymore, tbh. But it would be cool if I could. I might just say that I need to animate the unpublished scene of the future, because why not add another large ass project to the list. But that fight scene? Is AMAZING.

The Tribes - let's be serious. This needs to be written. Though it would be cool if I could actually write down my plan of action so that I have something physical to fall back on when my brain farts again. As it do. I remember that my goal for this story is to end at around 150-175k words. I believe I have the first 25k words written, though a lot needs to be done to those words to make things better. Even so, this is the best iteration of the Tribes yet. And my crack fic? Is actually really, really helping. I did not expect that.

◦ first 25k words are Kifu finding Taya and Jiogi and getting brought to the Tribe

◦ next 25k words are Kifu fitting into the Tribe, and getting to know the other Tribeslings. Need to figure out Mai's predecessor's name

◦ next 75k words are Kifu training under Kumji, first learning what every Tribesperson knows: hunting, gathering, basic body training; and later he introduces her to his group, where she secretly learns how to fight and kill - more details about this to be figured out later

◦ last 25k words are Kifu's struggle with the group's goals and eventual loss of control

I dunno. The story is my pet and I actually do have the entire series vaguely outlined somewhere with names all of the fucking place in the margins. I *do* want to come up with back stories for each and every person of the Air Tribe so it's not just the Kifu show, but a cohesive land where people are more than welcome to hate the main character because she be a stupid ho, but come around for everyone else. idk Things get better after the first book anyway.

#i dunno all this is kind of pointless #i just needed to write it down to get it off my shoulders yknow?#just a lot of rambling for the sake of it i guess #you know what else i need to do? FINISH MY FUCKING QUILT

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takaraphoenix · 2 years

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DCMK for the ask game!

Thanks for the ask! ^-^

3 male characters I love: KAITOOOO, Shinichi, Saguru!! The OT3 ships itself on account of being my faves tbh xD

3 female characters I love: SONOKO I have so much love for Sonoko, Haibara, Sera - a late but welcomed addition to the franchise ;D

3 romantic ships I love: KaiShin duh, SaguShin as a nice second and it feels like a cope out to say SaguKaiShin now because that's just the other two mashed together so I'll say MakoSono as the canon ship that makes me the happiest and makes me go !! :D !! whenever they're in an episode together <3

3 platonic dynamics I love: Heiji and Shinichi are suuuch a dorky brOTP, I love Sonoko and Ran's friendship and how good and supportive it is, third one would be the Detective Boys (this includes the professor! He is their designated adult, after all)

3 favorite moments in canon: Okay I don't want to only list KaiShin moments so I will limit myself to one KaiShin moment. Kaito and Shinichi's team-up for the First of Blue Sapphire, specifically when Kaito broke into the mansion and had not a second's reluctance as he was facing off against the goons because he knew Shinichi had his back and Shinichi then kicking a ball to knock the dude out. Honestly the SeraRan scene when Ran remembers the waves in that sappy scene of her getting a softly colored flashback-esque moment of seeing Sera run away from her while they're at the beach and Sonoko goes "oooh? Oh are you falling for her?" like shit fam she's right that was gay, you met that chick one time ten years ago and still have such a longing and strong memory of her? And third one has to be the Eleventh Striker movie when Shinichi gets to meet the soccer team and gets to be such a dorky fanboy and just have fun, I cherish that scene.

3 favorite headcanons: ACE!KAITO has to be at the top of this list, tbh. I just. I love how performative his perviness is, it really feels more like copying what teen boys ought to be like than an actual pervy teen boy. Other favorite headcanon is that Kaito's bad guys are just a sub branch of Shinichi's bad guys; this has been vocally denied by the author as a canon sooo it remains a headcanon but honestly nothing else makes sense. Lastly, Shinichi naming his son Conan, just feels like a cute thing to do.

3 least favorite things about it: The way the narrative keeps reducing Ran to Pining Sad GirlfriendTM and regularly stripping her of all her other qualities for large stretches of movies/episodes like c'mon. You're making love look like something super not worth it like why would I want to feel like shit all the time wtf. The overdone "childhood sweethearts" trope. Ran and Shinichi were one thing. But then introducing Heiji and Kazuha, then learning that Kaito and Aoko also exist, and now lately from what I gather from skipping through the chapters, like at least two cop couples were retconned into childhood sweethearts, right? It's like. Shit it's okay. You are allowed to meet people when you're older than four. This is getting weird. And the third one HAS to be the condensed timeline I mean what the fuck the past, what, twenty years happened in half a year? Ahahahaha. Just let time pass. Even if not one to one, at least two years should have passed by now considering how much has happened, even outside of the murder cases (that'd surely add up to so many more days than half a year)

Top Three Fandom Ask Game

#Detective Conan #DCMK #Top Three Ask Game #send me asks

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stargatelov3r · 2 years

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Whoa, this is amazing. I-i, they may have become my top pairing now (at least top three,) and I may, MAY have teared up as I read your response. (Also very emotional about this.) 🧡

Flour-covered Chuck in his little apron? Picnics on the mainland? LEARNING CZECH TO UNDERSTAND RADEK!?

Fuck yes!

Hmm… Chuck is learning Czech in secret, also as a surprise. Because the two of them do really love a good surprise. So Radek doesn’t know he can actually translate what has been engraved on it.

“Jsi láska mého života.”

Chuck is blown away by the translation, he doesn’t tell Radek though. Instead, Chuck mulls it over and a plan starts forming. He has to secretly put said plan into motion.

Radek notices Chuck being off and slightly twitchy, (cliche - *cough* that I love *cough*) but he starts to get worried about their relationship. Chuck has a terrible poker face after all so he tries to avoid Radek when possible. Rodney starts to get twitchy too. Radek, consumed by negative feelings can only assume the worst considering that two of his closest people are acting strange around him.

So when Rodney, flushed and fidgety asks Radek to follow him he feels terror grip his heart. He follows, preparing to accept any outcome of this interaction with grace.

He’s so wrapped up in these thoughts that he doesn’t notice Rodney is dressed a little bit fancy (fancy for him,) nor does he notice they are alone in such a heavy traffic hallway. So when the transporter door opens to the gate room and Chuck is there on one knee holding out a ring he is completely floored.

Radek is obviously the kind to cry in this type of situation, and he does, crying and yelling “Ano! Ano!” before lifting Chuck up and kissing him so hard as the entirety of Atlantis claps and cheers behind them. 😭😭

Elizabeth, of course, set up a whole feast for the occasion.

I hope we convert others to this pairing. Come on people, Chuck/ Radek fanfic let’s go!

Hmm… challenge name… Side ships maybe? No, idk.. Hm, um, hmm… We need a SGA community discussion for this.

I might have to bug sassycordy now because that headcanon is amazing and I wish to hear more. Hmm… I might not have time to though considering I wrote down 22 ship pairings last night to discuss with you over the following thousand years. 😳

I love solo-episodes, love background, give it all!! I need it all!!! At least we have fanfic.

Don't be sorry at all, we are very similar in this regard, I could rant about it forever, and I love hearing your perspective. 🧡

I remember that episode thoroughly, blah Kavenaugh, love to hate him lol

Ugh, yesssss! This, this soooo much. Forget Earth, Atlantica is where it's at (Coined by sweet bby Aiden and - denied by Sheppard but hey nobody else named it sooooo) they could have had way more Atlantis based episodes, especially if they expanded on characters that rarely leave.

Okay this is all canon now, this is what happened, nobody else can convince me otherwise.

I'm going to rewatch SGA just to make note of allies they might have, because I can only think of those kids and Athosians as well lol

Thank you for responding to my novels, I too am thoroughly enjoying myself. 🧡

ship anon... please tell me you write fanfiction. please. I NEED IT. THIS IS SO PURE AND BEAUTIFUL!!!!!

I love how we went from "yeah i think they would be cute" to "they are getting married and all of Atlantis knows it before except Radek" in 24 hours... very cool of us.

I... don't really have anything to add that right now, I'm still trying to process the cuteness of this idea and the general wholesomeness of this ship.

i just checked ao3, there are 3 works which include the "radek zelenka/chuck" tag, so.... welcome to the rarepair corner! We're gonna make this everyone elses problem now! Let the Chuck/Radek agenda begin!!!

Seriously, I'm so glad you brought this to my attention <3 Atlantis did such a great job with introducing background characters (there are a few more I wish they had included more, e.g. Dr. Biro, Miko...) and they deserve all the love <3

you... you have 22 more ships to throw at me? LEMME SEE LEMME SEE LEMME SEE! (though it's gonna be hard to top this one o.0). I love your dedication, ship anon <3

honestly, i love your novels. I was at a friend's place earlier when i read this one and i was like hoooooly shit, i need to read this again when i get home so i can respond to it properly. Your mind is just <3

#ship anon #radek x chuck #radek zelenka #chuck #headcanons #sga #answered

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Watched the 1981 RAI adaptation of "the silver key" and...

It has an extremely slow pacing. It opens with an introduction in which a discount version of Leeman Kessler impersonates Lovecraft. Basically he fell asleep in 1928, waking up only several years later and then deciding to introduce himself by recounting the exact same words one can find in one of his self portraits. ("I was born in 1890. When I was two I already knew the alphabet, I could read very well by the time I was four but I still messed up long words; I write, and my mother was the only one who believed in my abilities as an artist" etc, etc) Y'know, the thing one would usually do: "hi my name is hpl and I don't like talking about myself but I'll proceed to waste five whole minutes of your life by talking incredibly slowly about my childhood and my ideologies". For God's sake, the actor playing him, who also plays Randolph, is not even italian and believe me when I tell you that if there's something, anything that makes my nerves go [redacted] is hearing someone speak my language in an uncannily broken way, but mostly without any hint of emotion. Side note: I appreciate immensely when people go out of their way to learn Italian, it makes me so happy like "oh yesss!! i know it's difficult but I also know you can do it!! Thank you for the efforts you're putting in it, I'm proud of u!!!" When there's a foreign actor acting in an italian production, usually, they get a voice actor to dub the scenes they're in. It sadly didn't happen in this case. Another side note: for some reason I often imagine Hpl with a tone of voice similar to that of Roberto Chevalier, who dubbed Tom Cruise in the majority of his movies, and also David Bowie. Don't ask why.

Another big problem is the script. The movie is basically an audiobook: discount-Hpl narrates with the emotion and expression of an ancient broken coffee grinder, while the scenes play out almost silently. Few characters talk, and when they do it's often extremely forced, like the scriptwriters basically did copy and paste with some quotes of the original story. Some scenes are set in Rome, which is always good to see. In one, Carter walks along the Tiber river. (oh yeah baby, Tiber is the new Miskatonic!) Some shots are actually pretty nice, some are even memeable. Might make gifs out of 'em later. Anyway I'm still at half of the movie, I hope I'll find some actually redeeming qualities about this.

Edit: I finished it, and no. It has no redeeming qualities. Except old Benjamin, his actor is the only one who expressed something through acting. Also Randolph meets himself when he was a child??? That wasn't in the original as far as I remember. And when he decides to go to the cave with the key to "go back", small Randolph says "don't forget the scroll, or else you'll transform! And then coming back will be difficult." And, the transformation part - isn't that what happens in "Through the gates of the silver key"? I read it a long time ago so I may be mistaken tho

In short, my disappointment is immeasurable and my day is ruined. I had hoped with all my soul it would at least be decent... I guess I'll go and listen to some music, I need to distract myself and forget the awful acting.

#lovecraft #the silver key #randolph carter #claire rambling about stuff

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stonewallsposts · 1 year

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16 personalities questions: 6-9

6. At social events you rarely try to introduce yourself to new people and mostly talk to the ones you already know

I'm the opposite of this. I actually go out of my way to find the people I don't know and introduce myself. This happened recently at a 'margarita hour' at our office. We had sent out some invitations to the other businesses on our floor. When people started showing up, I wanted to make sure and greet them and welcome them in. I made a point of asking their names and then trying to remember them. If I saw someone standing off by themselves, I would go up and talk to them. I did this a lot at the church I go to. Not as much anymore, since I'm not part of the leadership, but I will still introduce myself to people regularly if I don't recognize them, and ask them who they are, if this is their first time, etc.

I know I already mentioned some of this earlier in another response.

Related to this, but not quite the same, I love being in a group and having us all participate in the discussion. I know it's common for people to split off into subgroups, I do this too. But I really try to bring everyone in to the discussion. I'll note during the conversation if someone is not participating, and try to ask them their thoughts. But part of the deal is recognizing when people are more comfortable NOT being integral to the conversation, but just partaking by watching. Then I need to leave them alone. Thankfully, we have a very social office environment, precisely because many of us are fairly outgoing. There are a few that tend to hang back and observe, but most of us participate freely in the conversations.

7. You prefer to completely finish one project before starting another

Classic creative personality, in my opinion, is to lurch from one thing to the next. I have this tendency.

Now, if we're talking about a work project, then I would prefer to finish it up, then move on to the next thing. But unfortunately, inasmuch as my projects sometimes require input from others, I'm not in control of this. I have to turn a project over to someone else until they give their input, and often that means I have to wait. Until then, I can't just sit, so I have to switch gears and do something else.

Overall, I'm pretty good at time management, and I am totally a self-starter. This is partly because I worked for myself for 22 years, partly because it's my personality.

When it comes to my work projects, I would prefer to finish one, then move to the next. It just doesn't usually work that way.

When I'm reading, I tend to do one book at a time. The only time I vary from this is when I'm just not very interested in one, then I might start a second one and work through it at the same time. But I generally prefer to do one at a time.

In much of my other interests, I will move from one thing to the next. I've often said I'll never be an expert in anything, because my interests are too scattered. I learn a little about the thing that catches my interest, then move on once I'm satisfied that I've gotten enough knowledge about the thing. With some things, I return consistently and get better over time. With other things, I learn a little, then leave off and it's all good. I tend therefore to have a little knowledge about a lot of different things, but no particular expertise in anything, because I lack the particular character trait that causes people to focus on that one thing.

In the summary of this, I do find myself wanting to finish a project before I start another, at least in some areas, particularly work and reading. In many other areas, I don't care.

8. You are very sentimental

My first question was, what exactly does this mean? The definition of sentimental is: prompted by feelings of tenderness, sadness, or nostalgia.

Wikipedia has this to say: originally indicated the reliance on feelings as a guide to truth, but in current usage the term commonly connotes a reliance on shallow, uncomplicated emotions at the expense of reason.

If I'm relying on the first definition, I don't know if I rise to the level of 'very' sentimental, but I'll try to offer some examples of where I am on this. I remember specific dates of things that happened. I have marked them on my calendar. I remember moments and little things that mean something to me. Maybe everyone does this, I don't know. So it's hard to say if I'm in the normal range, or towards 'more sentimental', but can certainly be prompted by tenderness, sadness or nostalgia.

I'm also pretty bad at hiding my emotions . I try, and have actually done pretty well at it in some instances, but people are often able to read my impatience, for example, on my face. Again, I'm not sure where this would fall in consideration of the statement, but it feels like it is part of the equation.

If I'm relying on wikipedia, I mean, it sounds bad, but maybe I'm guilty of it. Even my choice of words- guilty... like it’s a crime or something to rely on emotions, would speak that it's not good to be sentimental. But of course they word it not just 'emotions' but "shallow, uncomplicated emotions", "at the expense of reason". Who would want to admit to being driven by "shallow, uncomplicated emotions at the expense of reason"? That doesn't sound like a stable person.

The question though isn't whether I like the way it sounds, it's whether I'm like that or not. I hope I'm more driven by reason, and in many areas I probably am, but there are other areas where I clearly am not. Just like overeating when I know I'm supposed to be on a diet, I know there are things that I should give up, that would be the reasonable thing, but which I just can't seem to let go of.

That, as a matter of fact, does lead to some instability.

There are some areas where people might consider me rather dead to sentiment. For example, with my father's passing. There are people who really seem to have a hard time with death, with the loss. I don't. I just accept that the deceased had their time, I am thankful for it, and now it's over. Where my aunt, for example, has built a mini-shrine to her deceased husband in the room where he was, I just think it's kind of weird. Now granting, I've not lost a spouse. That is the closest relationship we'll have in this life, and my aunt and uncle didn't have any kids so he was her everything. But even so. I just can't relate to people who want to hang on so much. I'm sure lots of people would consider me heartless because of this. I don’t think I am, I just view it more rationally, in my opinion.

We are watching a show right now where the guy loses his wife. For the first year he was so distraught he could hardly move, and even five years later, he is still stuck in a sort of paralysis in some areas. It just drives me nuts. I can't understand this. I'm sure my attitude could be both a strength and a weakness, but I'm just as sure that lots of people would still consider me heartless because of it.

So in an attempt at analyzing where I fit on this spectrum, it would depend perhaps on the definition, but I think while in general I'm probably in the middle, there are areas where I'd probably lean towards the more sentimental.

9. You like to use organizing tools like schedules and lists

I use schedules and lists for work, but not for much else. I suppose that's because by nature I'm a little more disorganized than is good for me. But having worked for myself for many years, I learned to do what I had to in order to make sure I accomplished my work on time.

Outside of work, I don’t really organize as much. I used to manage projects when I was involved in leadership at church, and for that, I would have to sit down and figure out what had to happen, when each step along the way should be happening, and then set up milestones and progress reports to make sure it was all moving along as it was supposed to. But I don't do that job anymore.

I occasionally have to manage a project for the HOA where I live, but nothing that really requires so much planning. And without needing to plan stuff, I don't need organizing tools.

I suppose there are other areas of life that require organization. I try to be relatively organized in general with my stuff. I didn't grow up that way. My mom was constantly "looking for" some thing or other that was needed. When I was well into adulthood, a friend mentioned that she always had a place for everything, and put it there. So she never had to go looking for a thing. She only had to go to the place where it should be. I had never heard that before but I immediately loved the entire concept. To be honest, I was already well on my way to being more organized, probably as a reaction against the way I grew up, but this time I decided that it was going to be the way to live my life.

I can't say I manage it perfectly. There are things that I have to get so rarely that I don't always remember exactly where the place is...but in general, I do try to stay organized with household or workplace items.

Same holds true for my computer files and folders. I try to put things in logical places.

But as a kid, I was always a forgetful. I used to regularly come home from school without my jacket, at which point my mom would say: David, where's your jacket? I would sheepishly look down and notice I didn't have it, and then mutter I must have forgot it. To which my mom would reply: I swear David, if you didn't have your head screwed on, you'd forget that too! I heard that about a thousand times growing up. But I was always had a thing for keeping my room as uncluttered as possible. I would at times, haul in one of the big trash cans from outside and then just pitch a bunch of stuff I didn't want anymore. Mom would see this and go out and root through it and pull stuff out that she didn't think I ought to be throwing away. I know the statement didn’t list 'organizing tools like trash cans', but I would think trash cans can be organizing tools, right?

The last two points then are related to organizing in the sense that, as a kid, I was really forgetful, which would be evidence that I'm not naturally super organized, and yet, I don't like clutter, which would be evidence that I at least want to be organized. That's the way I'm seeing it anyway.

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whoviancumberbunny · 1 year

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Part Three: Leave A Tender Moment Alone - A Scanlan Fluff Fic

Part one: Tentative Love

Part Two: Small Miracles

Leave a Tender Moment Alone

Scanlan Shorthalt & other Vox Machina Characters Created by Critical Role

Lucy Collins-Shorthalt Created Melissa C. Scraper @whoviancumberbunny

It was their fifth anniversary and Scanlan knew it would likely make his friends mad that he was doing this without asking first. But he had learned this spell from exiled king from another dimension, by the name of Quentin Coldwater. “Damn it, how do the hand motions go again. I remember one of the last hand motions is crossing my fingers and holding my wrist. But it all has to be one smooth motion.” He closes his eyes “This is for my wife.” He mumbles he loved to see her smile he gets the hand motions right and Suddenly Percy and Vax start singing backing harmony for a love song

He grabs his mandolin and thinks back to day they met she was walking few steps behind everyone else because she hadn’t eaten in days and something made him want to look back at her even with sadness in her eyes there was still light around her “I don’t care what consequence it brings I have been a fool for lesser things. You needed me and I needed you too I intend to hold you for the longest time.”

Vex “they are so going to kick his ass later. But it is kind of sweet.” She said “I wonder if she’s told him yet she is pregnant again.”

Kiki “No telling. Grog Lucy keeps telling you not to help daphne get to high spaces she is only three years old.”

They look on top of the book shelf and see giggling half gnome child, who always wore a beret to match her father.

He frowns “it makes her laugh. I like seeing her smile. Most kids are afraid of grog because I am a goliath.” Vex goes over to the book shelf “Daphne go play with my kids okay sweet girl.”

“Okay, Auntie Vexy.” She grabs her bongos off the floor and runs to find the playroom

Pike “Whose idea was it to give her bongos.” She sighs “that’s right. Mine.” It wouldfine if she had the same musical skill as Scanlan. But Daphne was quite adept for three year old.

Meanwhile as Scanlan finishes the song and spell breaks “How the fuck did we end up in the hallway outside your living quarters Shorthalt?” Vax grumbled about to hit him over the head “It is their anniversary isn’t it. We will discuss you shanghaiing us later. You little weasel. Happy Anniversary, Lucy.”

None Quite understood how vax was alive logically he should have died three years before “Thanks, Vax/.go spend time with Kiki.” Percy hated hangovers from magic spells as he went back to the kitchen area to make something to eat.

Lucy “I was thinking about that one time, the first time w made love. Before we rented the room at the inn.”

“Oh when that guy was hitting on you and I used my polymorph spell to make myself a few inches taller than you. It took a while for the spell to wear off. That was the first time in my life I have never needed to use my magic music to convince someone to go to bed with me.”

“that was first time I realized you were willing to protect me. For the few months in Whitestone I always felt like I was not going to find some place to feel safe.” She had never considered the battle with Gabriel them protecting her. She was no fighter. She had always felt blessed that Vox helped in so many ways She he sits next to her “I want you to have this. It is the only thing I have that belonged to my father.” She puts compass on a chain in his hand “I love you Scanlan and gods helo us if either of these twins ends up being like you.”

“Did you say twins?” he places his hand on her stomach after placing the compass around his own neck “Quentin Percival and Elijah Vax’ildan, if they are both boys.”

“They are.” She had had prophetic dreams more like vision of the spirits of her mother and grandmother introducing her to two young boys. Because time wasn’t a straight stream when it came to her dreams

“We’ll need more space.“ she caresses his face to calm him down

“Going into panic mode isn’t going to help. My handsome gnome. You’ve been avoiding Kaylie since she arrived in Whitestone two months ago you know if you don’t speak to her she will just believe whatever her mom may have told her about the man you are.”

The gnome looked down for moment “I Know. But I am just unsure what to say to her.”

“Just tell her the truth. If you had known about her you would have been in her life.” He he looked down at his hand gently placed on her “All I can do is be honest with her.” He laughs when she reaches into his bad of holding takes out his beret.

“You are braver when you have this on.” She put it on his head “Scanlan the revolutionary!” Lucy had Shaun become business partners when she had donated the money to help expand Gilmore’s Glorious Goods. Last time she had gone into town she had crossed paths Kaylie. More like caught the young gnome woman staring at her with Daphne.

He laughed “You always know how to make me smile. You and Daphne are my world. For the longest time I felt alone.” He kissed her “Twins.” He sighed, as he went into town to find Kaylie and when he finally finds her she punches him In the face “If beating me up will make you feel better, I will gladly let you. But I am here to speak honestly with you. I will admit that I don’t remember your mother’s name. I was a selfish asshole before I met my wife.”

“The human with the scars on her neck.” They go to the inn to talk, a after few hours “I am not going to say I forgive you. But thank you for being honest. Why this inn specifically I know there are three in Whitestone.”

“Because every important moment in my life that didn’t happen in front of the other members of Vox Machina, happened here.” It was even because of having family that he drank less when he was spending time on missions with his friends.” Lucy had her reasons she didn’t like alcohol

“What’s the deal with the beret?”

“I wear it when I want to be brave.” He said looking down “You’re welcome in my home. I understand if you never accept the invitation.” His face still stung where the bruises were forming and he knew pike would offer to heal them. But it was Karma for the man he was. He had heard somewhere that it took 20 positive experiences to override one negative one. All he could do was his best to help Kaylie understand that he is not the man he was.

“Why does the kid wear one too?”

“Diedre the hat maker gave it to her as a gift to match mine.” He said grinning, then he winces because the smile had made the bruises hurt

“Geez I am sorry I beat the crap out of you.”

“I deserve it.” He stood up “I need to go it is my anniversary. I will see you around.” went home “Let the bruises heal on their own. She needed to get her frustrations out.” He responded when Pike offered to heal him. Now all they could do was wait and see what Kaylie’s next move would be

“Vax’ildan, Percival I am sorry about casting magic spell on you. Lucy is pregnant with twins and we already decided if they are both male we want to name them Quentin Percival and Elijah Vax’ildan.” He walks into the bedroom and leans against the door “Gods how is someone I only just met so much like me it hurts.” He goes over to Lucy “Thank you for making me talk to her.” And she takes his hands in hers. There was soemthing comforting about how it felt to look as his hand almost disappearing into the gentle caress of lucy’s grip

A few months later the day after the twins are born, Kaylie cautiously enters the house “Hello My name is Kaylie I am Scanlan’s daughter.”

“Welcome to the family. Come say hello to your new brothers.” Pike says as she drags Kaylie over to the bassinettes “It is hard to tell them apart sleeping. Elijah has blue eyes and Quentin has brown eyes.

Scanlan sat in his rocking chair with Daphne asleep in his lap “Before you ask the bruise on my forehead is from tripping over your sister’s bongos.” He looks at them “remember everyone be quiet, Lucy just spent twelve hours giving birth to these little guys. “ he carefully stands up and takes Daphne to put her in her bed. “I think she sees spirits like her mother. she talks to them.”

Pike “whenever I am called upon to pray for someone who is about to go to the clearing, Lucy comes with me to see if the spirits have any messages for the living.” she said , they all wondered how she managed to stay mildly sane when she could clearly view the veil between live and death

To Be Continued…

Saturday, February 4th, 2023

#vox machina au #scanlan shorthalt #fluff #scanlan x oc

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kunalkarankapoor · 2 years

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Dear Kunal,

Your name marks you as a lotus, as a bird with beautiful eyes, and as the God of the Universe. Quite apt, all of them, if you ask me.

You have the talent and the grit that could turn murky waters into the backdrop of a full-bloomed lotus.

You have the eyes that not only gauge the beauty in the most mundane of scenes, but also manage to capture it— both, from behind the camera lens and in front of it.

You hold within yourself a universe; In fact, multitudes of them. There's a galaxy of emotions, a nebula of ideas, a plethora of voice modulations and an infinity of expressions.

You, Mr. Kunal Karan Kapoor, continue to touch lives too many to count each day anew. And you do so not just through the characters scripted for you, but also through the miniscule yet immensely impactful nuances that you add to them.

Be it the vulnerability which led a cadet to a suicide attempt, or the conviction with which a friend became a rape survivor's strength, or the selfless affection that a doting father showered on all his kids — you didn't just act your way through your characters; you lived them. And through you, we lived lives that weren't our own — grieving in your anguish, rejoicing in your joys, learning through your goof-ups.

Here's wishing that your special day (and your life) overflows with all the love that you've so rightfully amassed.

Happy Birthday, KKK!

Shine on, like the star you are✨️

~V.S. :)

Dear Kunal,

It’s incredible how despite being in this industry for such a long time, you still bring with you lots of passion and dedication. In all the shows, your characters draw us in, there is always something new to discover, some nuance you introduce. Thinking about your career always takes me back to Na Bole days and that one show that has stayed with us the audience and your character Mohan who has personally stayed with me.

It’s amazing how, over the course of the show with each episode you’d make Mohan tangible, breathe life into a character that only existed on page before then. Every little quirk of Mohan and the way you played that character, I don’t think I will ever truly be able to express how brilliant you were and what that character means to me and to a whole lot of other people. Be it his brash attitude, his ‘sunn na’, his dynamic with chavvani, his relationships across the board, all of it was beautiful. While I can wax poetic about your performance in Na Bole for hours on end, I will have to just limit myself to saying that Mohan as a character seems to have a lot of potential for growth and change and development but none of that would have mattered if you weren’t able to translate that onscreen. And I can say without a moment’s hesitation that you did a spectacular job with Mohan.

If I have known one thing in all these years since Na Bole, it is that you have always grown as a performer. From your performance in Doli Armaanon Ki to Who Apna Sa to the Raikar Case, to recently ZDMN, if anyone has followed your journey, they will agree that you constantly grow. And that is so amazing to witness, so inspiring. To top it all, just the amount of passion you bring is evident in all the ways the characters become real.

I know that your characters as a result of your performance are remembered fondly by so many people, definitely by me. I can go and re-watch your work and be just as pleased as I was while watching it the first time around. Honestly, I feel like I don’t have words to adequately express how remarkable we think you are.

For your birthday, I only wish for you a lot of love, happiness, success and so much peace. Wish you get lots of time for reading, gaming and watching stuff. I wish you always find calm in this super chaotic world. And I wish you always find things that drive you and inspire you. This one may be coming from a selfish place, but I hope we get to see you back on screen super soon.

Wishing you the happiest of birthdays! We love you so very much.

With love, wishes and hugs,

Gauri (@trashchai_ld)

"My mom was a travel freak, that's what I've inherited from her. She used to take us to the airport, me & my dad without clothes, without baggage, without anything & be in different cities which would be Delhi, Kolkata or Bangalore & we would go on a two-three day trip without anything & be in different cities" : Kunal Karan Kapoor

2012 While reading THIS I could literally see that brave & awesome lady doing so with her man & little Kunal. That moment the woman inside me felt so proud of her. I have never seen any picture of hers but I found myself drawing a picture of hers in my vision. I felt like cheering for her and that very moment all I wanted was to know, exactly how it feels when you pull such stunts.....

After my parents & brother if there is anything that I love the most it's WINDOW SEAT. I love traveling.... Solo travels are the best thing but obviously I have never tried such random unplanned travels without anything. But may be in future I will try that because I really want to experience this.

The best part about fangirling over Kunal Karan Kapoor is, it's not limited to the TV Screen & short term entertainment, you get to learn about simple yet so important things of life from this man. For example, his Instagram feed That place is "Sukoon" His photography is his vision, the way he looks at certain things. I will never be able to copy that, I don't want to even. But I try to capture things through my own vision and maintain the peace of my Instagram feed getting inspired by him. His choices of books are guiding light for me. If I get stuck with him in a lift instead of taking selfie I will end up taking interview of him because I have a thing for his words, his suggestions, his vision, his art. There is so much to say about him, so much to read about him no wonder I crave for a biography of him. His presence has quite an affect on me. No other actor has that on me. Probably because he is not just an actor but much much more.....

I wish the best for him, may he continues to get such projects that satisfies the artist inside him. I hope he gets to direct or write something because he has so much to offer and the world needs it. Stay blessed Kunal

Arpita Dey

It is my story on a journey of witnessing an outstanding actor and absolute stunner named Kunal Karan Kapoor. My journey is a little different than the rest, I believe. The reason I say so is because I have been an admirer of his work since 2015, Doli Armaano Ki. More than Kunal Karan Kapoor, I was attracted towards Shaurya Urmi Sinha, the man who defined feminism, the man who faught back his trauma instead of self victimizing him, the man who stood by his employee turned lady-love to fight back the society and the list goes on. Kunal was so precise in conveying every emotion of a person with childhood trauma, and family issues; a man who wants to fight against societal norms, stands side-by-side with a girl who faced injustice. The main reason I was able to connect myself with Shaurya was because of Kunal’s acting. The way he understood his character, the little nuances, everything added value to the character and made it more closer to the viewers. My most favorite scene of Kunal as Shaurya was Shaurya's breakdown when he got overwhelmed about his past traumas and him sharing his anger towards his own gender and guiltiness for belonging to the same gender. It was really heart wrenching to watch those scenes. Kunal absolutely nailed those scenes.

Fast forward a few years, I came across a youth army training based show, Ziddi Dil Maane Na. At first glance, I identified that Siddarth Ganju was none other than Shaurya Urmi Sinha. Again, a feminist man, who has identity crisis. What attracted me the most about Siddarth Ganju was his point of view. The way he sees life, world, his strong belief in the universe, stars; everything was unique and very much similar to mine. He has established good and different rapport with each and every character in the show. There are a lot of things we can learn from Sid. What I learnt from our Siddi boy is that problems come with solutions, it is on us whether we focus on the problem or the solution. Besides that, I also learnt to listen to my heart; listening to what your heart desires is also a part of self love. Sid’s progression from a rich aimless kid to focused, self driven trainer at Parakram SAF was really inspiring and motivating for youths who have no particular aim in their lives.

During my ZDMN times, I was very much invested in knowing the actor Kunal Karan Kapoor. I spent time going through Kunal’s IG, interviews, works, etc. One day as such, I came across a clip of Kunal reciting a poem, ‘yaadon mein kitni dafa’. That poem made me watch Na Bole Tum Na Maine Kuch Kaha. As much as I loved season 1 of this show, season 2 has become my forever favorite, solely because of Kunal. He made the viewers go for an emotional rollercoaster ride with his talents. There were countless scenes that made me cry in a river in season 2. As much as I love Shaurya, I would happily agree that Mohan Bhatnagar is iconic, so does the show. Mohan’s equation with all his loved ones, his selfless love, work ethics, everything was very well handled by you. No wonder your fans say, no one does it like Kunal does. Indeed. It is your cup of tea.

More than an actor and your characters, I also learnt a lot from you as a person. I enjoyed all your interviews, chit chat sessions, IG Lives, Youtube Live, and so on. A thing that you said in one of the ZDMN launch event videos really caught my attention. It goes “I work for myself. I made a comeback because I decided to do so.” Not all artists have the guts to say that, yet you did and I really loved it. You always have something to bring to the table and push others to think from that point of view and not forget how welcoming you are, to listen to others point of view as well. Your interviews with your co-stars are so fun to watch, instant mood boosters.

Pain is the most beautiful emotion to portray and you are born to slay it. Looking forward to witnessing the magic you create on screen. A small request from an admirer of your work, I really wish to see you in any tamil movie someday. You know right, the number of fans you have in the south. That was for the actor Kunal Karan Kapoor. Now, this is a request to the traveler Kunal Karan Kapoor. Hope to see your travel stories in Malaysia real soon. We have beautiful beaches and mountains here. I am sure you will love it. Lastly, thank you for making my 2021 so Kunal’ish full.

With lots of love from Malaysia,

- Eva (@revvvz_)

Exploring Kunal Karan Kapoor as an actor

First of all, this write up is dedicated to Anila di, you put so much heart in everything you do for Kunal that your love becomes infections and one can't afford to refuse your request. Secondly, I have no idea if I would be able to do justice to the above title since the artist we are talking about is an ocean of his own, to measure his depth and give words to his vision sound like one impossible job. I can just promise to try my best. Having said that, this article would look at one unmissable side of Kunal, which is that he has broken a lot of streotypes be it in terms of his unconventional looks, his acting skills or as a celebrity. It is not everyday that you see a hero with unruly hair, so when Kunal does come onscreen, you can't help but notice that more than a hero, he looks like the boy next door. Yet, this apparent hindrance proves to be a boon more than a bane in my opinion for it allows the viewers to look beyond the obvious and notice his work and his talent which rarely misses the eye of even those who find him handsome and hot I believe. I have seen natural actors and I have also seen actors who work hard to get their scenes right. Usually, that's the two kind of actors that you come across, but I won't shy away to say that Kunal has created a category of his own, one in which along with being natural, he also fully understands and knows his character. So much so that he infact doesn't portray them, but he simply becomes them. This can be seen both in his work as Mohan and Sid. Despite sharing much similarities with both characters as Kunal, I never see Kunal when I watch them onscreen. He always manages to make his characters their own and yet leaves his imprint as Kunal on all of them on different levels and that makes for a fascinating watch. Second stereotypes that Kunal has broken as an actor and that deserves to be highlighted is that he has no inhibitions when he portrays pain onscreen. In my humble opinion, he is the only tv actor that I have seen that doesn't shy away from bringing raw emotions to life onscreen. In an industry in which men tend to be conscious of how they look while crying or to what extent should they cry as a man, we have one KKK, who is not only seemingly free from those apprehensions, but masters to what extent pain should be shown in a particular situation. Consequently, the audience is served with heartening emotional performances which strike a chord with us. Last but not the least, Kunal has also broken the stereotypes on what it means to be a celebrity in the industry. Usually, a celebrity is characterized as someone who loves attention, seeks validation and is basically out there at the centre of every stage, but as far as I have seen Kunal so far, he doesn't seem like the stars who are always seeking validation from critics or audiences. Of course, it is welcomed with gratitude, yet unlike a lot of celebrities, he doesn't actively seek it, that has never been his driving force as an actor. His motivation seems to be internal. Acting is personal for him, so more than anybody else, he is trying to satisfy the artist in him in his every scene. I personally feel this quality of his has empowered him so much as an actor. Second main stereotypes that he has broken as a celebrity is that he is not seeking attention from anybody. He prefers to keep a low profile, living and enjoying his life as he wishes to privately without feeling the need to share it with the world. It takes an inspiring amount of security, boldness, fearlessness and confidence to do that as a star I guess since this choice can define and impact your career. Towards the end, I can think of no better way of ending this write up than to declare that the title of game changer that has been attributed to Kunal Karan Kapoor by the media at the beginning of his career suits him perfectly in every aspect of his life be it professionally or personally. Game changer he was, game changer he is and game changer he would remain.

Taujoo Madiha

Kunal Karan Kapoor - An encyclopedia of innumerable spectrum of emotions.

You blend into the characters and scenes just like waves in the ocean. Your eyes speaks volume, your voice runs down the spine. The way you carry yourself onscreen is a delight to watch. You give so much more to pen and paper. You just keep your audiences hooked to the screens. You add so much more to everything. You are precious, both as a person and as an actor. You are real, grounded and innocent and that's the best part in you. At end, I just wanna say, Stay Same, Stay Blessed and we all love you. Hope you get whatever you want from your life. Best wishes. My story on how Kunal Karan Kapoor inspired me, motivated me and become one of the best person in my life❤️...

Ankhi

I have never done this before but the mere thought that Kunal Karan Kapoor might read a part of it, even just catch a glimpse of this while going through all that everybody has to say, which I'm sure is so many things, was enough to make me dive head first in this pool that is called talking about you.

Honestly talking about your art comes effortlessly to me. I have so much to say but it's only because you have so much to convey through your art that adds so much to the scene to interpret from. Through your nuances & voice modulation that gives so much insight to us viewers about the character; perfect food for thought to imagine, interpret & understand.

While I have seen clips of your many works, Sidharth ganju's is the reason I got to know about your art & it's this character that I'm wholeheartedly in love with & have religiously followed till the end. Not that it's the end of sid G bRRooO, he's going to live forever in his world(& how beautiful is that world indeed with the love of his life. Forever & always!).

His journey from a 'headless chicken' with no ambition to a man with purpose has been so satisfying to watch. Despite him being careless & childish in the beginning his maturity & seriousness shined in the way he pursued his 'tattoo wali bandi' with sincerity & dedication. From accepting his mistakes, giving sanju respect & space by not imposing himself on her, calling her 'ma'am', creating that professional boundary for her to breathe more easily & be able to look at him for what he is, respecting her decision whatever it is to just being there always, silently, making his presence & support known he is no doubt reliable, accepting, intuitive & attentive. He loves & cares the way no one does. With his full heart, body & soul. And it's so palpable that I can feel it through the screen. In the way he is ready to do anything & everything for the people he love. In the kindness that he shows to people. In accepting & making them feel welcomed without any judgment. He is sarcastic & savage, charming & a flirt, passionate & straight forward, selfish, observant, brave, forgiving, sensitive, impulsive always willing to take that leap, chaotic yet calm, a through & through feminist, a gentleman and so much more I can go on.

These are not just random adjectives but things I know & understand about cadet Siddharth ganju AKA sid G bRRooO because you showed it to us through your words, eyes, gestures & body language, through actions that spoke volume & words that were left unsaid. It's all you. You & your improvisation. You & your understanding. You & your dedication. You & your art.

So this message here is just a squeal of every emotion that you have portrayed & made me feel, a thank you & a 'I'm looking forward to you & your future projects, whatever it is, with bated breath'. Happy birthday Kunal, our one & only sid G bRRooO. Cheers & lots of love.

Ani

र राह आसन हो, हर राह पे खुशिया हो, हर दिन ख़ूबसूरत हो, ऐसा ही पूरा जीवन हो, यही हर दिन मेरी दुआ हो, ऐसा ही तुम्हारा हर जन्मदिन हो….!! हर दिन से प्यारा लगता है हमें ये ख़ास दिन , हम जिसे बिताना नहीं चाहते आप के बिना, वैसे तो दिल देता है सदा ही दुआ आपको , फिर भी कहते है मुबारक हो Birthday आपको . हर ख़ुशी आनंद मांगे आपसे, जिंदगी उत्साह मांगे आपसे, रोशनी हो मुक़द्दर में आपके इतना, की चाँद भी रोशनी मांगे आपसे. फूलो सी महकती रहे लाइफ आपकी , खुशिया सदा चूमे आपके कदम, आपको बहुत सारा प्यार और आशीर्वाद हमारा, सिर झुका कर आपके लिए दुआ करते है, आप अपनी मंजिल को पाएं; अगर आपकी राहों में आये कभी अंधेर, तो भगवान प्रकाश के लिए हमको जलाये। जन्मदिन की बहुत बहुत बधाई। निकलता हुआ सूरज स्तुति दे आपको, खिलता हुआ फूल सुगंध दे आपको, हम तो कुछ देने के काबिल नहीं, भगवान हज़ारो खुशियां दे आपको.. !!दिल से हैप्पी बर्थडे Kunal beta फुलो ने कहा खुशबू से, खुशबू ने कहा बादल से, बादल ने कहा लहरों से, लहरों ने कहा सूरज से, और बाद मे हमने कहा आपको दिल से, Happy birthday to you Kunal beta!!!

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