#This vent feels messy but I hope you understand what I mean

[enassbraid]

Hi there! Love your writing 💖

Can I request Wonderland x Showtime with a bedridden reader? Feel free to ignore it, if you are uncomfortable.

A Flower Bloomed Too Illuminate You

Featuring Tsukasa Tenma, Emu Otori, Nene Kusanagi and Rui Kamishiro

Hi anon, I’m not uncomfortable with it! Tried to keep the angst light so I hope you enjoy:) though i didn’t know what you exactly meant by bedridden. also saki’s illness is mentioned here- but im not using it as an extension to tsukasa’s character… if that’s not clear enough

Cw) reader is bedridden, light angst?? probably messy writing…

Tsukasa Tenma

Tsukasa already has a great understanding of your condition, as his sister has struggled being bedridden for a good portion of her life. He knows all too well what he should and shouldn’t do.

Tsukasa is always by your side when he can, and never wants to miss a moment with you. Granted, he’s upset about your physical state and worries for you, but he’s determined to brighten your mood!

He wants you to see his shows very bad, but if you can’t go to them, then Tsukasa might as well bring them to you. So often expect him and his troupe performing in your room- no matter how cramped it could be. They’re all happy to do it, and you’re just as happy to watch.

Although he won’t say it out loud, Tsukasa prays every night that you’ll get better soon. He’s send what being bedridden did to Saki, how how it took away so much of her childhood. He doesn’t want to watch you get your teen years ripped away from you just like that.

But for as long as you’re with Tsukasa, he’ll always make sure to keep your hopes up and a smile on your face.

Emu Otori

Emu feels obligated to keep you smiling, she absolutely refuses to allow you to lose any hope. It makes you worry for her at times- she seems too desperate to keep you happy.

Eventually you explain to her how it’s ok if you feel down sometimes, that it’s only natural in your condition. Emu will apologize if her antics were too much and that just wishes for you too feel better. Of course, you forgive her immediately, she is only trying to help.

After this, Emu is much more calmer around you but still makes you feel even a tad bit better just by being there. Often times she’ll tell you all about her troupe and the shows they perform, she’s even though about introducing you to them one day. Though she didn’t know if you’d like meeting multiple people at once like this. Depending on your answer, she’ll follow through with what you want.

Emu had the idea of recording a WxS show and showing it to you after- and it was one of the best decisions she’s made. She enjoyed watching your eyes light up and hearing your laughter from the performance. The happiness is contagious- as eventually Emu will be telling you all about the behind the scenes.

It’s a good thing Emu is like a walking sun, or else you’re life would probably be much darker without her.

Nene Kusanagi

It’s not often that Nene visits anyone besides Rui’s home, but that changed fast when she met you. Although she doesn’t quite understand what to do or what can help; she is trying her best!

You already knew Nene wasn’t much of a talker, and prefers speaking through actions. So every little thing she does for you means a lot more than she thinks. Whether she’s bringing multiplayer games over for the two of you or just a few snacks- you appreciate it from her so much.

Nene herself doesn’t quite get your condition, but does understand it’s severe enough to keep you bedridden. She tries to keep you from moving too much or pushing yourself, and usually you’ll listen to her.

She tries to keep your spirits up by using distractions, whether she’s telling you about her day or playing games with you, she just wants you to keep your mind off your physical state for a bit. But if you ever do need a shoulder to cry on or to just vent, Nene will listen and try her best to give words of comfort.

Overall, Nene is just happy you can still be here with her. She appreciates your strength just as much as you appreciate her actions.

Rui Kamishiro

Your condition doesn’t make Rui view you any differently, this is one of the first things he emphasizes with you. That no matter how poor your physical state may be, it won’t ever change how he sees or feels about you. He doesn’t want you to think that he’ll leave you over something so out of your control.

Because of how much he works on his own, and how he doesn’t want to leave your side, Rui brings his work to you- as long as you’re ok with it. He hopes that the little gadgets and robots he creates can brighten your mood, or give you some kind of entertainment.

Rui also enjoys late night chat with you; while you’re still awake and he’s at his most awake point, these moments feel really intimate to him for some reason. That you could be asleep resting right now but instead you’d rather talk to him means something more to him. However, he will make you rest at some point.

Expect a lot of random food bags from Rui as well. On his way home he’ll stop at a place he knows you enjoy to order you something. The glimmer you get in your eye when you eat it makes Rui feel proud. And he hopes that sooner or later he can take you out to eat at this restaurant.

Although he wishes you weren’t bedridden, Rui will happily stay by your side till you’ve recovered enough to move more.

#project sekai #prsk #pjsk #project sekai x reader #prsk x reader #pjsekai x reader #tsukasa #tsukasa tenma #tsukasa tenma x reader #emu otori #emu #emu otori x reader #nene #nene kusanagi #nene kusanagi x reader #rui #rui kamishiro #rui kamishiro x reader #wonderland x showtime #wxs #dor writes

[ghosts778]

The Consort and The Warlord Ch7

Summary: Megatron uses the All Spark to gain access to Cybertron and demands a peace treaty. An Autobot Consort is offered and Optimus is chosen. A Bonding Ceremony takes place and now Optimus has three vorn to figure out exactly what Megatron wants to do with Cybertron.

Pairing: Optimus Prime x Megatron

Continuity: Animated

Status: Ongoing

Optimus stopped, optics wide and stabilizers frozen. The femme ahead of him stopped as well, her multiple red optics locked onto him in just as much surprise. She recovered quickly however, as she bared her fangs and opened the door she was next to and closing it behind her. 

Optimus stood where he was for several nano-kliks. The femme had been very different from any other he'd seen. She was the same height as Ratchet, had several optics and her frame was strangely familiar to an organic creature he'd hope he'd never come across again. But there was something else about her that bugged him. He knew that femme, but he couldn't figure out for the life of him how. 

"Bossbot!"

Optimus broke from his thoughts and looked up to see Bulkhead, waving with a happy grin. Optimus waved back and decided to push the femme to the back of his processor for now. He'd come to visit Bulkhead after several cycles and he wouldn't let his processor get bogged down more than it already was. Walking up to the large green mech, he noticed that Shockwave was there as well. Bulkhead stepped forward and picked Optimus up in a tight hug. 

"You doing okay?" Bulkhead asked. 

"I think that's my question." Optimus said. "Are you doing okay?"

"Yeah! I mean the work is tough, but I'm having fun!" Bulkhead said.

"Most bots do not find the formulas for quantum physics, fun." Shockwave stayed bluntly. 

"But it is fun." Bulkhead said. "It's like putting a puzzle together."

Shockwave shook his helm. "The thoughts of a genius are unreasonable." He said with an ex-vent.

"Genius?" Optimus asked, looking up at Bulkhead. 

"I gave Bulkhead several tests and he scored amongst the top 0.01 percent for physics, quantum physics and quantum theory." Shockwave explained. "How he became a mere repair bot shows the incompetence of his instructors."

Bulkhead scratched his cheekplate, flushing at the praise. Optimus was clearly surprised, he knew Bulkhead always had a knack for space bridges, but he never thought that he was a genius. His chassis felt a bit tight; he should have paid closer attention to Bulkhead. 

"I'm glad he's finally getting the recognition he deserves." Optimus said. The large mech beamed down at his leader.

"Want to see what we made?" Bulkhead asked. He was eager and almost giddy. 

"Is it safe?" Optimus asked. He didn't know much about quantum physics but he knew it was dangerous.

"Of course! The reason we closed the science department before this was to make sure everything was safe and stable." Bulkhead explained. He began to push Optimus towards a door that led to the engineering department. 

The first room Optimus was in was messy, machines lined the wall along with desks covered in half built machinery. Scans dotted the area with readings Optimus couldn't even begin to understand. He had to step over thick tubing and he noted a medical berth off to the side with a bright light over it like some makeshift surgery table. Tools that made Optimus' tanks sink surrounded it and he was certain that the dried fluids were energon. Taking a glimpse back at Shockwave, Optimus remembered that this mech was and still is a feared mad scientist. 

Optimus was stopped outside an unsettlingly thick door that opened as Bulkhead pressed his servo to a scanner. A thick rush of cold air sent an alert to his hub as he entered the chilled room. The inside of the room was much neater than the previous one but cold air made the entire room feel like space. The center of the room was a large table, datapads, beakers, small machines and more were scattered about. At the very center of the table was a beaker with a small swirling blue orb.

"Isn't that a space bridge portal?" Optimus asked in surprise. He stood a bit closer and leaned down to peek into the beaker. 

"Yup!" Bulkhead said happily.

"Why is it in a beaker?" Optimus questioned.

"Because we made it small enough to fit in a beaker!" Bulkhead said. 

Optimus was still very much confused so he turned to Shockwave in hopes of a simpler answer. The warframe was checking some data and glanced back at them. 

"We managed to create our own space bridges but we decided to try see if we could make one without the bridge itself." Shockwave explained but seeing Optimus' confusion, he continued. "The space bridge itself acts as a coordination key but also as a stabilizer for the space bridge portal. It is capable of remaining open and stable due to the technology in the bridge and tends to be rather sensitive. A reason the Autobots deployed repair crews to keep constant maintenance on them.

"While Bulkhead is working on a better construction to strengthen the space bridges themselves, we decided to also work on a theory where a space bridge portal could function without the use of a space bridge itself." Shockwave said. "Unfortunately we cannot make it any larger or it becomes unstable and causes a massive suction."

"So you have a blackhole in a beaker." Optimus said, stepping away from the table.

"Kind of?" Bulkhead said with a laugh. "It's harmless right now but since it's constantly connected to the dimensional rift, we have to be careful. Megatron almost dropped the project when we did make a blackhole the first time."

"Lord Megatron was not amused with that miscalculation." Shockwave noted. "We managed to fix the formula but now it is only large enough to transport a cube."

"And we don't know where the cube goes." Bulkhead mentioned. "It isn't picking up the coordinates we insert since that was the job of the space bridge itself."

Optimus stared at Bulkhead and then back at the beaker before looking back at Bulkhead. "Do not let Bumblebee know you have a blackhole in a beaker."

"I wont!" Bulkhead laughed. 

"We should leave this room now, the readings are becoming unstable." Shockwave mentioned, gesturing towards the door.

They left swiftly and after a decontamination bath, due to possible radiation, Optimus sat on a stool as Shockwave prepared them energon. Bulkhead shook off the last of the disinfectant from his digits.

"What do you think?" Bulkhead asked.

"It's amazing." Optimus said honestly. "Science isn't my strong point, but I can tell you're working hard."

Bulkhead smiled brightly at the praise. "You know, I was so excited about working with space bridges that I didn't realize I'd be working with cons until I was already here." He explained. "But Shockwave and the others didn't ignore me or dismiss what I had to say. They listened and they asked for clarification. Shockwave is blunt and can be pretty rude, but he just wants to understand things correctly. Even Black Arachnia is easier to talk to."

"Black Arachnia is the other Science Lead, right?" Optimus asked. Bulkhead nodded. "Does she have multiple red optics and kind of small for a Decepticon?"

"That's her!" Bulkhead said. "Do you know her?"

Optimus shook his head. "I saw her in the hall and she glared at me." He said.

"Black Arachnia is a difficult bot to like." Shockwave stated, holding three cubes in his servos. He gave one to each of them as he sipped his own. "She seems to hate everybot and her loyalty to Lord Megatron is simply because he funds her research. I will admit that she is a talented scientist."

"She managed to create an energy efficient fuel that uses less energon consumption but still works the same." Bulkhead explained. "We are trying to get it to work for space bridges but it might not be strong enough."

"It is strong enough to power city states which is what Lord Megatron wants." Shockwave stated. "The less energon we have to spend on energy, the more we can have for fuel."

"I've noticed that DDecepticons ave very rich energon, even engex and energon goodies." Optimus noted. "The amount saved with this fuel must be substantial."

"Let's just say that this formula of hers is the only reason Lord Megatron keeps Black Arachnia in the ranks." Shockwave states. "Her other formulas tend to border on chemical warfare. Apparently that is her hobby."

"That's a nasty hobby." Bulkhead muttered as he put his cube down. "Was she born with the optics and appendages?"

"No, apparently that was caused by an accident stellar cycles ago." Shockwave said. "She is a techno-organic now but she used to be a full robotic organism like us."

Optimus froze and looked down at his servos. His cube was mostly full but he found himself no longer craving fuel. Black Arachnia got stuck in an accident and mutated… why did this bother him so much?

"Oi Bulkhead we've got some issues with the machine!"

A warframe Optimus didn't recognize stuck his helm out from a doorway. Bulkhead got up immediately and made his way to the warframe, stepping over thick wire bundles as he does. When he disappeared, Optimus slowly turned to Shockwave to see if he should get going soon since Bulkhead was now occupied.

"Are you and Lord Megatron in a disagreement?" Shockwave asked suddenly. 

Optimus flinched and leaned back. "H-how-why does everyone know that?" He stuttered. "And it wasn't a fight!"

"Lord Megatron’s mood has been down for the last couple of cycles." Shockwave explained. "Given that he isn't angry at anybot in particular, it is obvious that his mood has to do with you."

Optimus looked down at his servos again and frowned. He still didn't know what to do. His processor was going over every pro and con that each scenario has and all he can see is Cybertron going to war and not bring able to stop it. 

"I do not understand the turmoil you are currently in, Consort Optimus, but I do think it would be wise to at least speak with Lord Megatron about it." Shockwave stated. 

For a moment, Optimus thought he was talking to Longarm Prime again, but he pushed that thought to the side. Now wasn't the time to remember a mech who technically never existed. Now wasn't the time to falter. 

Standing up, Optimus thanked Shockwave and left. In the elevator, he found Lugnut waiting for him obediently. 

"Where is Megatron?" Optimus asked, the door closing behind them.

"LORD MEGATRON SHOULD BE IN HIS OFFICE THIS CYCLE!" Lugnut stated.

"Take me to him." Optimus said. 

Lugnut nodded and pressed a certain button on the elevator. It took them to a floor in the middle of the tower. This floor was packed with bots going about their business and Optimus was almost worried he'd get crushed until Lugnut led him to a different elevator. Inside was only a scanner and after pressing his servo to it, Lugnut leaned forward to allow an optic scan. The lights in the elevator dimmed as they began a long ascent to the top of the tower.

They went higher than Optimus' habsuite, most likely to the very top floor given the time it took. When I finally came to a stop, they were greeted with an open hallway not unlike any others. Walking down it, they came to a door, guarded by two large warframes who acknowledged Lugnut with a nod before bowing deeply to Optimus. The last action twisted his gut, but Optimus ignored it and stepped closer to the door.

"Lord Megatron is in a meeting." One of yhe guards stated.

Optimus looked out at the sky from the window. It was only midday. "I'll wait." He said, taking a spot against the wall and leaning against it. 

Hadeen began to set before the door to Megatron’s office opened and a mech with a deep blue frame and red visor left. Optimus still stood against against wall, Lugnut seated on the floor beside him looking absolutely bored. Optimus had gone through plenty of discipline training as a cadet so he was used to standing and waiting. The Decepticon with the visor stopped in front of Lugnut but nodded for the guard to inform Megatron of their guest. 

"Soundwave: Shocked at deplorable state of Lugnut." The new mech spoke.

Lugnut stood up immediately, towering over the smaller warframe. "I AM NOT DEPLORABLE!" Lugnut shouted. 

"Soundwave: Thinks otherwise. Lugnut: sitting around as Consort Optimus stands." Soundwave argued. 

"Consort Optimus, you can enter now." The guard said, gesturing for Optimus to enter.

Optimus decided to ignore the arguing cons behind him and entered the office. The inside was bare of anything unnecessary, only a few gem statues for decoration. The desk was piled up with datapads, several consoles and shelves lined the walls. Many held locks on them to prevent wandering servos from snatching important information. The only vent in the room was directly above the desk where Megatron sat. 

The warlord was engrossed in his datapads, not noticing as Optimus came to stand in front of the desk. It took almost a klik for Megatron to glance up and he did a double take when he saw Optimus. Standing up, Megatron immediately walked around the desk. 

"How long have you been waiting?" Megatron asked. 

"Just since midday." Optimus said.

"The guard should have let you in." Megatron scolded. "Are you okay?"

Optimus squirmed in his spot, digits locking together. "I need to speak with you." He said, trying to sound confident. 

Megatron noticed Optimus' discomfort and offered him to take a seat at a sitting area that was off to the side. Optimus sat down, staying at the edge of the large chair as Megatron sat down beside him. 

"Did you want any fuel?" Megatron offered but Optimus shook his head. "What did you need to speak about then?"

Optimus felt a lump in his throat and tried to swallow it. He'd spent all the time he'd waited thinking about how to speak with Megatron. He just needed his voicebox to work properly. Static came our and he coughed to clear his systems. Megatron seemed confused and worried about his situation but Optimus tried once more to speak.

"I'm… confused." Optimus finally spoke. He looked up at Megatron who nodded for him to continue. "I've spent the last few cycles going over everything and I just can't understand anything. I'm an Autobot, I swore my loyalty to Ultra Magnus and I made a vow to protect Cybertron no matter what. But with everything going on, I can't do both… I may not be able to do either!"

"What is going on?" Megatron asked. 

"You don't know?" Optimus asked. "Don't you still have spies in Iacon?"

"Of course I do, but I haven't heard anything from them since we entered Kaon." Megatron stated. Shockwave had been his key point of communication, without him, messages took much longer to arrive. 

"Iacon and the Council are split. Some want peace, they want to accept you and the Decepticons and give you a chance, but a majority want to drive you off of Cybertron, even if it means war." Optimus explained as clearly as he could despite how stressed he was. He shouldn't be giving this information to Megatron, but he couldn't figure out a solution on his own… and maybe he could see the true colors of the warlord. 

"How do you know this?" Megatron asked. 

"I have my own spy in Iacon." Optimus said sheepishly. "He came here the other cycle to tell me what happened."

"So that's who you were speaking with." Megatron said, sounding almost relieved. "Wait, he got into our habauite?"

"He's a cyberninja." Optimus explained. "He told me that the Council is letting the civillians panic over the situation and Ultra Magnus isn't trying to help anybot! And I don't know what I'm supposed to be doing!

"I was sent as a spy to see what your true intentions are and after three Vorn, I'm supposed to report back and Ultra Magnus said he'd somehow break the bond and I was never told anything past that! But you actually want peace and my team are happy and finally have bots that treat them with respect and if I leave, they can't just stay here, especially if we go to war! And if we do go to war, so many civillians will get dragged into it, so much of Cybertron would get destroyed and so many lives will be lost, but if I stay here… if I stay, they could say you're holding me hostage and try to drag you down another way or I'll just be written off as a traitor and start the war anyway and-"

"Optimus!" Megatron said loudly.

Optimus flinched and looked up at Megatron with wide optics. The warlord was kneeling in front of him, large servos on his arms, holding him steady but not too hard. From the expression on the warlord's faceplate, he'd been calling his name for a while. Optimus realized his vents were running high; he was hyperventilating. Shaking, Optimus looked up at Megatron.

"Focus on me." Megatron said. "Don't think, just focus on me."

Slowly, Optimus let his focus stay on Megatron. Unable to look in his optics, Optimus focused on his chinplate. His vents began to slow, his frame began to lighten as his joints unlocked. After several kliks, Optimus was no longer in a state of panic and Megatron was now holding his servos. Stroking the back of them gently, Megatron let out a hum as he looked Optimus in the optic. 

"You have had a lot on your processor." Megatron said. 

"I-I don't know what to do." Optimus spoke, his voice cracking. 

"What do you want to do?" Megatron asked. Optimus shook his head. "I am sure you know, you just keep overthinking things. What is most important to you?"

Optimus remained silent. He watched as Megatron continued to stroke the back of his servos and he couldn't help but notice how nice it felt. Closing his optics, Optimus let his vents settle. Looking up to Megatron, he met his optics with a determined expression. 

"My vow to protect Cybertron." He said. 

Megatron smiled and stood up, still holding Optimus' servos. Optimus stood up, stumbling slightly as Megatron led him to stand between the chairs. 

"That is what I wanted to hear." Megatron spoke softly. "Now, in order to protect Cybertron, what do you intend to do?"

Optimus looked up at Megatron, trying not to look too embarrassed at being held so close to the warlord. He didn't mind it as much as he probably should've.

"I can't decide right now." Optimus said. "I don't know enough… and I really can't make a decision without speaking with Ultra Magnus first."

"That is an acceptable answer." Megatron stated. "It seems I will have to wait patiently for the next two vorn."

"I feel like I should apologize though." Optimus said carefully. Megatron gave him a look of confusion. "I did reveal that Ultra Magnus wanted to make an excuse to break the bond which is very inappropriate."

"I had always believed that he would attempt such a plan." Megatron admitted. "I still highly doubt he'd let one of his beloved Primes stay Bonded to me of all mechs."

"I'm not one of his beloved Primes." Optimus frowned. "I'm the spare."

"Maybe to others but Ultra Magnus seemed very disappointed at our bonding ceremony." Megatron explained. "I do not think he wanted to hand you over."

Optimus flushed at this but looked away with a frown. "Either way, this entire situation feels weird." He said. 

"How so?" Megatron asked.

"You know that I am here to spy on you and my superior wants to break the bonding." Optimus said. "And you are okay with it!"

Megatron simply chuckled. "I believe we should resign for the cycle, tomorrow you will be joining me in a meeting with all of my generals."

"I need a break." Optimus ex-vented.

"Afterwards little one." Megatron promised. 

#fanfic #fanfiction #megatron #optimus prime #optimus x megatron #the consort and the warlord #transformers animated

[neverluckygoldfish]

46 -

I’m always venting and focused on what needs to improve. In the spirit of gratitude & enjoying life, I’m going to take a second to gush over my husband.

I feel so lucky that he loves me. All the parts of me. I don’t even have to try and that is when he loves me best (his words). Our relationship feels like I’ve been holding a breath in my whole life and now I can finally release it. I can breathe. The air is so sweet.

I find him physically attractive, yes - but he’s changed my sense of attraction. Gone are the days I’m wooed by a good looking guy, crafty banter & smooth compliments. He’s goofy, sometimes cringe, sometimes very cringe, loves dad jokes and gets all excited to explain the most mundane of things.

Flaws? I’m sure he has them but I don’t see them as flaws per se, just his little quirks or tendencies. His particulars. He struggles with expressing his feelings and he’s SO messy!!! To love him is to understand that without said quirks, he would not be him. The good comes with the “bad”.

He always orders large fries EVEN when I say I don’t want anything because he knows I’ll want a bite when they’re in front of me.

He stands up for me. He keeps my secrets.

He sees the ugly, broken parts and loves me all the more for it.

Sometimes we just touch our noses together and stare into each others eyes.

He calls me his sunflower girl.

I just love to smell him. You know what I mean?

If I am the million stars in the sky, he is the million spaces in between - holding our universe together.

He changed sex for me. It used to be about lust, validation, about proving myself. Now it’s all about connection and trusting enough to fully let go. I want to fuse his body into mine.

“It’s you and me against the world”.

Sometimes we can have a conversation without any words.

What I love most is that we can just be. I don’t have to make conversation or be cute or witty or anything, I just enjoy his presence next to mine.

Home is wherever he is.

Also, he loves to bake. Yup, that’s right!!! I just say “wow I’m craving chocolate cookies” and he’s like “say less”, then whips up a batch. Even if I tell him not to go to the trouble, HE insists.

My dog (OUR dog), is glued to his hip. Even more so than mine and I was her mom first! I get jealous sure, but secretly it’s my favorite. Like if she sees someone that vaguely looks like him from far away (read: any tall man with facial hair lol), she sprints to see if it’s him.

He is always sending me dog videos lol.

He is my steady anchor on turbulent seas.

On Sundays, our day, we watch movies and trade headrubs.

He always allots an extra 10 minutes on any target trip so that we can smell all the candles in the candle section.

Regardless of how shitty things feel, we are a team and that gives me hope.

#lovers #love #in love #in looooove #i love you #all of me and all of you #healthy relationships #best friends

[orange-orchard-system]

Have you ever heard of a plural singlet?

For those who haven't, it's someone who is a singlet that is plural. This may mean that they are fragments of one person, their plurality spikes at certain times or they exist as one person with multiple states of self.

As a plural singlet myself, would the identity be something that bridges the disconnect of experience of plurality and singularity without having to fight over how experiences are.. experienced?

I see and know about the overwhelming hatred and/or off-putting feelings about singlets mainly because of past misunderstandings and the fact that most singlets are not plural. Singlets are usually in a place of "No, you're not welcome" to "you're fine, just don't speak over me" and it's starting to feel odd being stuck in the middle or not experiencing one or the other enough for one side to claim me.

We've never heard of this sort of thing before. I'll be honest and say I'm not sure if you're looking for advice, just commentary, or something else, but it's interesting to hear about this sort of thing.

I think empty systems have spoken up about similar experiences of feeling estranged in the past, and median + midcontinuum systems may be able to relate to some other experiences you've mentioned. I don't know if there's a perfect solution to the problems you've brought up – identity is messy, selfhood even more so, and for as much as people generally like to neatly organize things, with all the complexities of the self, it's far from easy to separate the world into "us" and "them." Which is probably a good thing, to some degree at least, but I don't have many thoughts down that path.

I get what you're saying, though. It reminds me of how "straight" and "cishet" are used in queer spaces. You'd think that these words neatly describe those who aren't queer, but there are straight and cishet people who are queer in ways that might take people a few minutes to understand, if they do at all. For those situations, I've always thought that simple phrases like "non-queer" probably work better, and maybe in plural spaces, "non-plural" would work better than "singlet" when trying to describe those who aren't plural, but I don't really see people using the phrase "non-queer," and I doubt the plural community is gonna pick up the phrase "non-plural" any time soon. After all, if the general definition of singlet seems to mean the same thing as non-plural, why make the change? ... That's what most would probably think. Might take a good while for folk here to understand that people have their own reasons for using seemingly contradictory terms to describe themselves.

But, eh, maybe that's also partly because the queer community is more experienced with complex identities. I've always thought of the plural community as the queer community's younger sibling when it comes to things like this. I can talk about aroallo acespecs on an aroallo blog and get people nodding along or chiming in with their own experiences, but plural peeps ain't really so used to something like that in this ballpark. All the infighting, misinformation, and chasing people into the closet ain't help none, either.

Idk. I'm rambling because it's late and I like theoretical + meta discussions maybe too much for my own good. Hope you have a good day. Feel free to send another ask or just reblog this if you want to talk more about this. I ain't good at reaching out first because I forget people exist, but I'm here to talk as long as it doesn't cross into extreme vent territory.

#asks #front soup.txt #long post #don't mind my ''ain'ts” btw. I ain't show it too often but my dialect is all over the place

[cartmankisser]

could i request tolkien, clyde, wendy (and maybe bebe if ur able to) comforting their s/o after they have a nightmare?

(i know you have a lot of requests rn so i hope ur hydrating urself and not overworking urself‼)

okay this is an old request i apologize!! it was hidden at the bottom of my inbox below a spam!! but still thank u for ur nice words

also i tried to add bebe but i really couldn't think of anything im super sorry!!!!

(reblogs > likes!)

i feel like tolkien wouldn't really know what to say. he'd just sorta rush to wrap his arms around you and then? just freeze? it wouldn't be until he felt how hard you were breathing that he would sorta snap out of it and fully wake up

he'd slowly rub his hands down your arms and back while whispering comforting words until you stop shaking and you can like? actually breath,, and then he'd ask if you wanted to talk about it. he understands if you don't want to though, so he doesn't really push you to say anything!

he'll stay up as late as you want him to!! he wouldn't even mention sleeping, he'd just hold you against him until you fall asleep first. he just wants to make sure you feel safe and comfortable before he heads back to sleep

i think like clyde would totally freak out with you, but for a completely different reason,, he's got no fucking clue what he's doing to comfort you?? he'll quickly go from hugging you as tight as possible and planting messy kisses all over your face before running in and out of the room while he tries to get stuff for you

he ends up bringing you an assortment of snacks, ice water, hot chocolate, ibuprofen, extra blankets, one of his sweatshirts for you to wear, and tissues,, yeah it's a bit over whelming but i mean he's trying his best,,,??

after he settles down a bit, he'd be very empathetic towards you. he'll wrap you in one of the 7 extra blankets he brought upstairs and just pull you tightly into him. he'd let you vent and ramble on for hours about your dream until finish your hot cocoa and feel good enough to head back to bed

i feel like out of them all, wendy would react the best? mean it really depends?? if you've brought up to her that you have frequent nightmares, she'd definitely research how to react to them. if you haven't, she'd still have a rough idea about what to do, but she wouldn't be able to identify when you're having a nightmare while you're still asleep or anything like that

i just get the vibe that she's a veryyy light sleeper, so she'd probably wake up before you do, but either way she would be fast to react. she'd ask you if you were okay with her hugging you, and then she'd pull you super close into her. she'd caress your arms and back and do some deep breaths with you until your ready to talk about what happened

the only negative thing that comes with dating wendy is that she is superrr logical about everything. she'd constantly be giving you advice about it,, "well maybe if you didn't watch ___" or even "next time don't so ___ before bed!" or the worst?! "well it's just a dream".

(i'm sorry i luv her a lot but she would absolutely say something like that)

#south park x reader #clyde donovan x reader #token black x reader #tolkien black x reader #wendy testaburger x reader

[moonlarked]

So I just wanted to talk a little bit about the Songs post I made and the responses!

First of all: thank you @soryasongsaa @cogaytes @dizzythegreat @thebestbookshelf for responding! It means a lot to me that people are being so nice and willing to explain stuff!! ❤️❤️

My personal thoughts reading: I think it’s pretty messy. There’s no excuse for the stereotyping; it just seems lazy and unresearched. As someone who wants to get into writing myself, I would research for hours before even considering writing about a culture that isn’t my own. And, yeah, they’re elves, they don’t have human ethnicities, so it would be kinda weird to specify them as a specific nationality while not doing the same for the white coded characters, but Shannon should’ve put more into their characters.

Anyway, I still love the Songs. I feel like they’ve been fleshed our more, but it’s been pretty rocky. And now I’m gonna stop bc I don’t want to say more about a subject that I don’t really have a say in.

Thanks for giving me your perspective!

(below the cut is more of a personal vent, so you can stop here if you want. ❤️)

I’m gonna talk about my OCD now and how it connects to this situation.

It’s hard to explain, but basically I’ve discovered that I need my special interest (I’m autistic) to be perfect. If I find something that’s problematic about it - like a social media post - I’m gonna take the whole day to ruminate to try to get rid of that awful panic. Which sucks, because I have a life beyond fandom.

This started with Wanda Maximoff. The movie version. Basically the first character I ever really connected with due to her mental struggles and anxiety and coping mechanisms. I saw a lot of myself in WandaVision.

Now, this is Tumblr, and a lot of this discourse is on Tumblr, but in case you aren’t caught up: basically: Wanda Maximoff is a Jewish-Romani woman. The comic version, that is. The movie version is a white woman from a made up country called Sokovia. And many posts have called out the way that the mcu translation has been… less than accurate. They’ve added stereotyping and outdated tropes while not even letting her be her original ethnicity. And the actress playing her hasn’t exactly been well researched on the situation - she’s pretty ignorant and has said some problematic stuff.

“Whiteness” is a controversial subject and many people have argued over the race of Romani and Jewish people. Not to mention her representation in the comics is less than progressive in some areas. But having Wanda being played by a white woman takes away meaningful rep from historically persecuted minority groups.

Is any of this my fault? No. Did I still have a mental breakdown frequently about this? Yes.

You have to understand - I ADORED this character. In many ways I still do. This doesn’t excuse the problematic parts, but it caused me to be in constant self-loathing. I convinced myself I was horrible because I related to to this character. This caused me to look up posts about this subject in hopes of something that would fix this, something to prove all these people wrong.

It was a cycle. I wanted to die frequently. It may seem like I was overreacting, but my mind was in constant panic mode and to me this seemed incredibly important.

You know what saved me? Well, talking to my parents of course, and learning about ocd, and getting counseling.

But also: Keeper.

Returning to a series that genuinely gave me joy. Letting myself escape.

That’s where the Song twin controversy comes in.

You’ll probably guess I was pretty panicked when I found out about this controversy. It felt like Wanda all over again. I feel like I’m falling into this cycle again.

But I’m deciding I’m not gonna let myself do that.

I’m gonna accept the bad. I’m gonna like what I like. And I’m gonna talk about my feelings instead of bottling them up.

The Song twins are problematic. People have a right to call them out.

And I still love Kotlc. I will continue to love it and talk to others who love it.

I’m not going to fall into that misery again. I’m going to tell my ocd to fuck off. I’m going to go to therapy. I’m going to get better.

❤️❤️❤️

#kotlc #keeper of the lost cities #kotlc discourse #ocd #obsessive compulsive disorder #aur’s mental health #self harm #mental health issues #tam song #kotlc tam #linh song #kotlc linh #mai song #quan song

[spaceyflowerswriting]

hyeonsu lee x reader headcanons? thanks

hyeonsu lee x reader headcanons

details: general canon au but if nothing bad ever happened <3, gender neutral reader

a/n: thank u for requesting, i hope this will do!! 💖

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> i don't think he'd fall in love easily, but there was just something about you that pulled him in; whatever your best charm is, that's most likely it. (and if you don't think you have a charm, well, you do. hyeonsu said so. no, he will not let you deny him)

> arrogant and confident, he would not hesitate to flirt right away. he's not exactly lowkey and if that's your thing, great! if not he'll consider toning down a bit but otherwise he's too stubborn to change his attitude just to please someone

> once y'all start dating, hyeonsu actually does tone down a little because you're his partner now so there's no need to win your heart anymore

> please be prepared for mean humor with him as your boyfriend. he means it in good heart and you can 100% banter with him back, he encourages it even

> surprisingly kind of chill dating him. of course, he still loves exciting adventures and causing havoc, but 60% of the time he keeps to himself unless it looks like someone's picking a fight (meaning, they don't intend to but it seems like it to hyeonsu)

> so uh... yeah. he's got a temper. please put him on a (metaphorical) leash sometimes

> dates with him are long, usually because they aren't in one place; you guys are always on the move. that is, unless it's a movie theater date or you guys decided to just hang out at home (like, your house or something i guess ?)

> hyeonsu knows how relationships work--he doesn't intend to just have you as a trophy lover or someone to keep him check; he wants you to be happy and comfortable with him, to see him as someone to depend on 'cause that's what boyfriends do, right? (he's actually a little inexperienced but like hell he'll let you know)

> he's very aggressively supportive of you ^_^ while he understands if you can't feel good about yourself everyday, he's making damn sure to be there to reassure you on your not-so-good days !!

> this.

> i.e. he loves showing you off and bragging about you whenever he can <3

> if you need to shittalk/rant, he will listen. he loves shittalking so much its unbelievable. even if he's clueless about what you're talking about, he's hyping you up like "right?! what a fucking asshole!"

> just... be a little careful when shittalking with him because if it involves someone mistreating you, hyeonsu's planning a murder in his mind, or at least to teach a Very good lesson to the person who dared to piss off/hurt his beloved

> he's awkward if you need to vent because he's uhm. not good at comforting or giving advice but he'll still listen, of course, and do what he can !!

> slightly territorial over you; "i don't trust the people around you" kind of situation. he's perfectly confident you like him too much to cheat

> still gets jealous easily anyway. it's why he always wants to hold your hand or have an arm around your waist/shoulders in public! does get way more touchy in private though. in all honestly he doesn't care about pda, but he at least wants to respect your feelings on it (unless you also don't mind)

> his ego gets so inflated if you call him anything along the lines of "my man/boyfriend"

> generally a big show off just so you can compliment him <3 boyfriend that goes, "this one's for you, babe," when he tosses a basketball into a hoop and he actually doesn't miss <3

> all in all, a loud and messy but well intentioned lover. there's never a dull moment with him! 💖

#viral hit x reader #how to fight x reader #hyeonsu lee x reader #wrote more than expected; it was actually fun thinking of this dude lmao #requests

[bastard-of-a-bog-being]

Sometimes I feel like I talk too much and people are going to think “all you ever do is talk about yourself!!” But like

I share my stories so I don’t sound disinterested but like I’m trying to hold a longer convo

I share my stories hoping you’ll share one back, not because I can Only Talk About Me. But it sure is awkward if I end a story with, “have YOU ever felt that way about people in the grocery store? What’s YOUR wacky medical story?”

I hate feeling self conscious over normal human interaction and having this little bug in the back of my brain showing me a slideshow of the text posts I see on here accusing people of “traumadumping” to their friends or “this isn’t about you stop trying to relate to people with your own personal experience” bullshit. Y’all wanna accuse people of being toxic friends because you’re toxic and can’t acknowledge that friendships get messy. Your first response to anything is “I don’t owe them anything. It’s not my job to teach them. I’m not their therapist” but like, you can’t drop a friend because they didn’t know something you knew and you were an ass to them about their uninformed opinion.

And you’re right! It’s tiring when people vent all the time! But guess what? Friends are supposed to support each other. If my friend needs to vent because they’re going through a shit time and having a mental breakdown, and I say “ugh! You’re so toxic. Stop traumadumping on me, we all have problems. Fuck off and learn the world doesn’t revolve around you! Go talk to your therapist or something it’s not MY problem you feel unliked and unwanted.” Guess who’s the toxic friend in that situation? You need to be the friend who says “that’s shit! I hate those people for making you feel shitty. Wanna get some pizza and go bowling and pretend the pins are the people who said or did Thing to you?”

Some of you have the WORST takes on friendship and it’s pretty clear you were either The Mean Girl/Guy in high school/toxic friend, or you straight up only received socializing skills from Tumblr and now TikTok and you MAYBE need to go outside.

I was homeschooled and sheltered. My friendships were short lived. I moved to a new state at 10 and somehow ended up it a city full of people who hate you because you weren’t born here. They’ve all known each other since before you ever THOUGHT you’d end up there. My socializing skills were a little jacked up, to say the least, and ADHD made it worse, and depression made it worse.

I found a solid friendship with a guy who I’ve seen Once in like three years. We kept in touch after he moved and we text or have three hour phone calls and we vent and sometimes I talk more than he does, because he’s not as much of a talker, and that’s okay. Because we’ve learned our way around it.

I sincerely beg you, if you are so quick to accuse people of “traumadumping” and “being a toxic friend” over normal interactions with friends like venting or freaking out when someone isn’t as Informed As You or maybe Likes Something You Don’t, first consider your own behavior and interactions. Are you a perfect friend? Are you satisfied in your friendships?

If you can’t handle venting and people with different opinions or whatever, maybe your friendship style is just a quick chat about the weather and moving on. That’s okay! But life really IS about compromise and understanding that everyone has a different set of life experiences and communication styles and not everybody thinks of what they’re doing as malicious. Sometimes it’s just HOW they communicate with you. Sometimes it’s how they show love.

But I highly implore you to get out and socialize with friends and form messy bonds. Have a friendship worth crying over when it breaks. Because god it’s gonna SUCK it’s gonna HURT but every moment of JOY is going to be worth it. Don’t like going to bars to socialize? Find friends willing to go bowling! Find friends willing to look a little silly and do karaoke with you! Find friends who are creative and want to do art projects or mini films with you! Struggling to find friends you have things in common with? Join a club, or form one! I know finding new friends isn’t easy. compromise with the friends you DO have because you can still be friends even if you don’t share every interest. You’ll find something you guys both like doing if they’re willing to compromise as well. (And I know that isn’t always easy, in a world full of people who hate compromise)

And remember: social media is a fun treat! But the “social” part is kind of a misnomer. It’s not a good substitute for social interactions long term, especially when so much of it is manufactured to look “perfect”. When you’re expecting everything to be Perfect. But life really is about the memories sitting with your toes dipped in the creek, looking at tadpoles, playing board games, making fun of movies… and sometimes, the occasional ugly messy venting because you or your friend need a shoulder to cry on.

#Ryan’s ramblings #got a lot of thoughts today #guess what if this doesn’t apply to you it’s not about you #also there’s a 90% chance it does apply to you if you think that #because some of you think that you’re rooted trees who can never grow #and baby there’s a lot of forest around you. you have space to grow. #vent #unpopular opinion

[your-bigender-big-brother]

vent anon here and also thank you!!!

recently, I've been having a bunch of gender dysphoria. It helps to collect genders since a big part of the dysphoria is just... confusion. I look in the mirror and I don't see myself, except I don't even know what "myself" is supposed to look like because I don't know what my gender is.

Usually, I can satisfy myself with "trans." But when the dysphoria gets awful, I'm struck by this stupid urge to understand my gender and know who and what I am. And it helps to collect genders. It helps to have who I am translated from this messy goop into simple, understandable words.

the problem is, I get really, really obsessed. My first time collecting, I wound up with over 300 labels. I felt like I was trying to grab a ball of oil - every time I thought I had it, it just slipped from my fingers again. I get into these hyperspecific microlabels, and it just ends up making me feel worse and even more confused.

all this to say that I'm kinda... scared of myself right now? I'm trying to collect more general terms and stay away from hyperspecifics, hoping that maybe if I stick to general terms I can understand myself without going crazy.

I want to talk to someone about it, but I'm worried my friends will think I'm silly. Xenogenders are sometimes viewed as not-real genders, and I don't want them to think I'm faking being trans or something. It helps a bunch to talk about how I feel without being worried I'll sound dumb, so thanks v much for the opportunity and sorry for the super long ask hehe

Anon, I love the super long asks and I encourage them. It gives me something to read and respond to, which is really nice.

Hoarding labels we relate to can definitely be a mess. That's a lot of terminology to sort through! What do you call yourself? You can't just put 300 labels in a tumblr bio. Which ones fit best? Should you keep the ones that only partially fit your experience? What about condensing them into fewer labels? The similar ones can get filed away into a larger umbrella term, right?

This is where you take a deep breath and remember that gender is a mess for a lot of people in this community. We're all struggling to find terms that fit just right, and sometimes it takes a really long time. And not every experience has quite the right word to describe it. Sometimes, we have to invent our own language to fill that gap, and that's the beauty of this community - we find a way to make it work.

What that means is reaching out to others and talking about your feelings, your doubts, your struggles. There's definitely someone out there having the same kind of issue as you. You might gain some insight from interacting with others, especially other gender hoarders.

As for feeling like a "faker": I've absolutely dealt with that myself! It took a long time for me to accept that I'm even nonbinary, because I spent so long clinging to the gender binary and never wanting to stray away from that. Not many people understand why I'm nonbinary and what that means for me. But their lack of understanding does not make me less valid, just less seen. I could be transmasculine, nonbinary, pangender, stargender, catgender, it doesn't matter. There's always someone out there who will doubt my existence. If that's always the case, then why not continue being proudly myself? I prefer the authentic experience, not the easy one.

If anyone who follows me has some kind of advice, please feel free to send me some for this anon! I would love for them to feel a bit better about things and see that they aren't alone.

- Your Bigender Big Brother 💙💚

#bbb.ask #anon #gender troubleshooting #your bigender big brother

[rookieforlife]

Yeah that’s fair. I guess blessing was a bad way to put it. I just hated watching her have to do 110% of the work and I had a bad feeling about it burning her out. I just want to see her on the field with quality players who can actually help her out. I hope she gets that next season. It would be so unfair for her to come back from this injury just to walk back into the same messy team. I know that injuries can happen at anytime but I can’t help but think this wouldn’t have happened if they had actually had a midfield and decent defenders. She never would’ve had to be playing that far back to begin with and probably wouldn’t have torn her ACL.

I really don't know why that happened. Maybe it was just bad luck, maybe it was her forcing herself. I don't know. The only thing I observed is that she was putting a lot of effort, and that's normal, that's Christen, she's always been like this, always giving everything and more. Of course these games were frustrating and I know people say all the time that she's smiling and happy constantly, but I know she's a competitor and winning is in her DNA. She's smart so I imagine she understands the process. There are a lot of things that we don't know though and it would be irresponsible of me to speculate. I just really hope that she wasn't desperately trying to prove something if you know what I mean. I love her so much that the only thing I want is her being respected, I'm not even saying recognized because I think she's got the recognition from the people who know and value her, that's enough. I just want her to be respected, because she gave us a lot, and she gave the game and the world of football a lot. Fighting for equality and fighting for the players as human beings, fighting for her rights. She deserves respect. Anyway, sorry for using your ask to express this but I just have a lot in my mind at the moment that sometimes I need to vent.

Next year will be better, let's put some good energy in those thoughts. And I hope we hear from her soon. I just want the best from her, and now the best is her being healthy.

#anonymous

[yonkimint]

I KNEW OT WASN'T GOING TO BE HEEEEEER

Omg, everyone is trashing tae's girlfriend for what she MAY do and then it just hit me, tae would be the one in the wrong here, I mean put yourself in the girlfriend shoes, he treats his best friend as he would treat his girlfriend. That would make me insecure for sure, and trying to talk to him about it to end up being labeled as some jealous manipulating bitch, that wouldn't be it 💀

And y/n's a little at fault here too because indeed she was never honest about her feelings but I understand her, there was a lot at stake. AND THEN THE BULLETPROOF BOYS AGHHH

I've seen how we're trashing them, and I want to do that too bc i do too hate when my friends think they're helping me by hyping me up saying that he could like me too and stuff like that WHEN I KNOW THAT SHIT'S NOT POSSIBLE NEVER IN A MILLION YEARS but they mean well, but it still hurts getting your hopes up bc of it even when you don't want to have your hopes up 😩

AHHH, IT'S GETTING MESSY

Me likes it, but me is afraid 😟

Moving on, WHAT DO YOU MEAN THERE'S NOT A HAPPY ENDING CONFIRMED???? DO YOU THINK I READ FANFICTION TO GET HEARTBROKEN???????

(I'm not trying to be rude I swear, I'm just not mentally stable HAHAHAHAHAHA 😩😭, you keep your plot plans as they are, I'm still going to be here waiting and reading, probably keep sending you this just to vent 🤪🤪)

Ho, just to let you know that tae's my v-as and that it would be so funny how your other stories all got a happy ending except this one :D

And to let you know too that I'm usually a silent reader so look what you got me doing 😾

Also, idk if I already told you but english is not my first language, so I may be incoherent sometimes lmao

Omg, your English is fantastic and it's totally okay to be a silent reader or to send me full essays (we love the duality!!!!) Feel free to rant in my ask box anytime!

It is for sure getting messy but I promise I'm gonna make it all work out in the end!! And as far as that ending goes, I'll just tell you that the title of the AU is important, okay? It's all gonna be okay!

So yeah, to address some of your points, I definitely think Tae is the problematic one in how he treats both y/n and his actual girlfriend and that is something we'll address more as she and y/n start to interact. As far as the Boy Scouts go, I know they meant well and usually friends do when they're trying to hype you up about your crush AND they aren't technically wrong -- Tae feels something for y/n that he has never acknowledged but it was wrong to focus all of that on y/n without also hyping Tae.

Lastly, and this is to all my readers, please don't hate Tae's girlfriend blindly! I know we're all defensive of y/n (and I know I have a track record of making "the other woman" a villain in my other AUs) but we gotta at least give this girl a chance, okay?

All right, love you! Thank you for this ask and I hope my answer brings you a little peace as you keep reading!

#the end is you and i asks

[hideawayintheimaginationworld]

Vent:

I need to get this off my chest now, I've been dwelling on it for the last few months and it's making me feel really awful.

I've lost motivation to do anything relating to the Parenthood AU, I just can't get into the mindset for writing or creating anything relating to the AU, I don’t know, my mind is a fuzzy mess and I feel like I can’t write it anymore. I've been stuck for a few months, I've tried to create artworks to generate my excitement for it, but nothing works, I just have half finished artworks sitting there that I don’t feel motivated to finish. I've tried revisiting them several times and each time I just want to work on another AU instead because I can’t focus on it. I feel burnt out with this AU because I don’t know what to do.

And before anyone asks: I don’t want to force myself to create content, because I know I will half-arse it and hate it honestly and I don’t want to show people content that I haven’t put some effort into, using that AU just doesn’t... appeal to me anymore... I've lost my motivation completely and I don’t know if it'll come back... I've just been stuck for a few months now, meanwhile I'm working on I am Machine, Little Nightmares AU, some other things, and there's the Parenthood AU, I just feel guilty for not doing anything (like Headcanons/artwork) with it but I literally can’t. I can’t think.

I can’t. I'm sorry, I don’t know what to do. I just want to be honest about this AU right now.

#Vent #Parenthood AU #AU vent #This vent feels messy but I hope you understand what I mean #I feel really awful to admit it because I know people adore the AU but it's the truth #I've just lost the excitement for it and I don’t know if I'll ever get it back #I just can’t force myself to work on it right now #I've tried to force myself to focus on it but it just doesn’t work #I'm sorry #I'm especially sorry to the anons who gave prompts for the AU because I haven’t finished them and I don’t feel like I can right now #I don’t know what I'm going to do about it #I know I've been talking about it occasionally recently but I just don’t feel like I can do anything with it right now

[honey-tea-and-cookies]

My Love For These Placements <3

Hello everybody! It was one of my best friend's birthdays a couple days ago. So,, to celebrate I've decided to make a post about some of their placements and everything I love about those placements!

Please note: While I'm thinking of my friend, I am writing this so it applies to everyone with these placements :)

I know I set this all up in a weird way, I'm so sorry. Hope it doesn't look too messy aaa <3

Capricorn Sun: Lowkey one of my favourite Sun placements!! Honestly so sweet. Very selfless people. Cap Suns are so funny I don't care what y'all say. They're always so genuine?? They don't compliment or really open up often, so you know when they actually say something, they mean it. My poor babies doubt themselves so much, but I promise you're better than you think you are, okay? I believe in you! You're brilliant, and capable, and strong, and SO much better than you think you are. You also deserve better. Please practise setting up strong boundaries.

Gemini Moon: How are you so energetic, yet so tired?? I don't understand extroverts smh. That said, I also envy that part of you. You love people so wholly. You just want to spend time with people! You just want to help people! Also, AMAZING hype buddies. Y'all always know how to make me feel confident and good about myself. I will not be insecure on your watch, no siree. This may just be something I've noticed (sorry if it doesn't resonate for you), but you guys love to dance. Not professionally or anything (though you could if you wanted, y'all go off), but just for fun! You guys LOVE music and it's so cute hearing you go on about your favourite bands and artists. Tbh that's just all major Gemini placements. Cuties!!!!!!!

Capricorn Mercury: Ughhhh (affectionately). My Aqua Mercury loves y'all so much. The only people that can stump me. I love how cut-and-dry you can be?? I overthink and unintentionally do mental gymnastics A LOT, and you guys are very good at at bringing things down to reality. You don't say that I'm wrong, you don't straight-up say you disagree, because you know I'll get defensive and double-down. You just reiterate your statement and make me understand, using logic and reason. Me + you guys = besties <333

Capricorn Venus: MY FRIEND IS A CAP STELLIUM? YES TF SHE IS 🙏😤!!!! I have a Cap Venus too, so forgive me for any bias. BUT!!! Y'all are swag as fuck. Sexy in a platonic way. Once you're close with a Cap Venus, it's amazing. They will care for you and worry about you constantly. You know you always have someone in your corner. I'm not sure why, but reassuring words and words of affirmation can be really important for these guys. The type to just let you vent and cry, or hold your hair as you throw up, or go out of their way to buy you food if they know you don't have any. Real ones 💅. I say this to my friend all the time as a joke, but Cap Venus' are the real #4lyfers. The most accepting people in the world. I would die for you, 15/10.

Taurus Mars: Also my placement, so sorry if I seem biased. We all have some kind of weird trauma?? idk but it makes us funny as hell. Also I'm not sure what it is, but Taurus Mars is kinda fruity 👀 (obviously straight people can have Taurus Mars, astrology can't predict sexual orientation, this was a joke, if you're homophobic/transphobic get of my fucking blog xx). Also Taurus Mars is VERY chill. Super cool to hang with. 100% would be besties, also would for sure would have a movie/TV marathon with you. Fantastic placement, awesome people. Also stubborn and petty but it's funny lmao.

Aries Rising: You guys always have really bright, beautiful eyes. The colour doesn't matter, they just always stand out. Once again, a chill placement. I would vibe with y'all. I'm not sure why, but y'all are the type to watch Rick and Morty (that's a compliment, it's a great show). I just need to give you all a hug (if you are comfortable with that). So cute!!! Pretty cheeks that I just wanna PINCH and GRAB (can you guys tell I'm the mum friend?? I take care of my babies <3). You remind me of the sparkle emoji, in that you always shine stunning and bright :). I love you!!!

Moon in 3rd House: You're all about sharing and connection. It's so beautiful!! You're so optimistic about others, it's cute, really. You never seem to be as kind towards yourself, though? First of all, please learn to set boundaries. Do NOT dismiss your own feelings to 'keep the peace'. There is no peace if your feelings are hurt. You matter too. Cute lil nerds. Lemme give you kiss, mwah! Your eagerness to learn and explore is adorable. I could just listen to you talk and ramble all day. Please accept my endless love and affection, sweet thing <3

Mars in 1st House: OKAY so I have this placement too, so I'll (once again) try not to seem biased. Y'all are such bad bitches?? So here for you omg. All of your fits *SERVE* idc what other people say 😤. Also if you do eyeliner, it's iconic. It just is! That's the truth. Very expressive with facial expressions and hand gestures, it's one of my favourite things. I love being able to just look after at you from across the room and know exactly what you're thinking. You and me?? Psychic connection 🤝. Nobara Kugisaki vibes (and that is an insane compliment!!)

Mercury in 9th House: I am jealous of you (affectionately and respectfully). SO generous and selfless and soft an amazing. The type of person to split your last bit of food with someone. Your desire to learn is really beautiful. I've found that a lot of you struggle with typical school, but you learn really well through real-life experience. The type to spend HOURS making travel plans for years in the future, just because you're so excited and can't wait. Also really open to other people and their stories. Extremely tolerant and accepting!! I just feel very comfortable and safe with you guys. Some people could learn a thing or two from y'all smh. All in all, let's go run away to Europe together <33333

This is all I have for today everyone! I'm sorry if it was kind of short. I just love my friend (and all you guys) so much!!!!! I guess I don't need a lot of words to say it lol. Let me know if you have any of these placements, and what you think! Thank you so much for reading everyone. Sending you so much love, and hopefully I'll see you next time <33333

(ps) SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY FRIEND OR ELSE!!!

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[dreamsclock]

“Are you okay?” Punz asks.

[ a little bit of late-night vent writing, hope this is ok ! sorry it’s p sad, but writing always helps me clear my head, and this is what came out haha. here’s a little something about c!dream + mental illness ]

[ warnings: emotional distress, unhealthy coping mechanisms, trauma, trauma responses, unhealthy thoughts, mental instability, mental deterioration, hurt no comfort, general mental illness + themes of not recovering ]

“Are you okay?” Punz asks.

Dream considers this. The easy answer is yes. The answer Punz thinks is true is no. The true answer is more complex. (It usually is. That’s the thing about sides: they don’t ever show the scope of the situation.)

He’s okay in that he’s handling things. Because he has to. Regardless of his personal feelings — messy, painful, unpredictable things that complicate everything — he’s in this situation now, and he can’t back down now. What had Sapnap used to say? Go big or go home. And, well—

Dream thinks of the Community House, of the smouldering anger and hurt in George’s eyes, of Sam’s cool disgust when he’d found him after one of Quackity’s visits.

A smile, detached, comes to his face.

Well. Home isn’t really an option anymore. Go big is all he has.

The plan is simple. The plan is not simple. The plan is simple in that he knows the steps — follows them religiously, blasphemy to real religion aside — and the steps are easy. The plan is not simple because it involves people, and emotions, which are notoriously difficult. Dream prides himself on his ability to recognise other people’s thoughts and feelings and use them to his advantage. Dream prides himself less on his newly impossible emotions, that writhe out of his control and splay across his body for the whole world to see.

He doesn’t understand or like the night terrors, or the way his hands sometimes refuse to cooperate with him if he’s scared. He doesn’t know how to deal with the one time he’d panicked and called Punz sir because he’d moved too much like Quackity, doesn’t know where he stands in terms of himself (small, inconsequential, in the grand scheme of things) and his emotions (all-powerful, churning, hungry black waves threatening to swallow him whole). His body performs the steps of the plan as he’s taught it. His mind is a different matter after prison.

But he’s okay in that— the plan is still the same. Punz is still the same. Immovable, unflappable Punz, who turns to his goals with detached focus and achieves them with impossible success. Punz isn’t like Dream, who feels like something has been cracked open inside him since Pandora’s Vault. Every night he returns, he searches for the part of himself he’d left in there; the confident, focused, emotionless mask he’d had, the version of him that had stood alone and lost two lives for his plan, the version of him that would die and kill for his plan. Dream is not him anymore: remembering that man feels like staring through a tunnel. Distorted. He is not that man anymore, no matter how much he pretends to be or how much he’d like to be.

But he’s okay because this is his new normal. Because being not okay would mean someone — Punz — taking action, reaching out to save him, giving him a life boat to stop him drowning. Being not okay means talking, means getting help, means admitting he’s not okay, which Dream thinks he’d rather die than do. There’s nothing useful in admitting you’re hurt — what does it solve? What does admittance fix that denial doesn’t do twice as well? Being not okay, more than anything, means giving up that denial, means telling the world loud and clear I’m hurting, I’m suffering, I need another human being to help me, I can’t do this on my own.

Which is one step from admitting that he hasn’t been okay for a long time. And he knows that. And that’s one step again from admitting the plan — his plan — is a plan created by someone who was not okay, and is not okay, and feels like he’ll never be okay. A plan like that is doomed to fail: and a plan like that enacted by someone weak enough to be not okay is doomed to be deadly. The plan relies on him being okay. If he’s not okay…

Dream licks his lips, opens his mouth to reply.

“Are you okay?” Punz says, quietly, insistently.

Okay. Not okay. Dream resists the urge to give him a wry, smart answer about things not being so black-and-white.

Explosions flicker behind his eyelids when he blinks, and in his mind’s eye, he sees Ranboo fall. Tommy fall. Wilbur fall. Himself fall, himself respawning on top of that mountain and forcing his terrified body back to Tommy’s axe and the eyes of a Greek chorus damning him to the Vault.

Are you okay?

“Yes,” Dream says simply, “I’m okay.”

Yes, he doesn’t say, because I need to be.

#> sparrow’s writing !! #> that one clock guy #> eye spy guy #> c!stagedduo

[actualbird]

Oh god!

I really love the poly headcanons they are so sweet.... (or don't but that's part of it and i think the tot boys+MC deserve all the love the world has to give).

But, liking it or not, our 4 beloved boys are kinda complicated (that's what makes them perfect). Plus I never thought about how people get in poly relationships. So i was thinking, how do you think they all get into a polyrelationship together?

(I really have no idea of how that would happen)

hi, two anons!! im glad you guys liked my nxx team polycule stuff!! i'll answer these in one go, my "headcanon" (in quotes because i think this kinda turned into a character analysis/minific of sorts HAHA) being what first anon asked, How They Get Together.

heads up, wc of this is 1.9k words long so buckle up for a bit of a read jfsjdfkjbf

because first anon, youre right!!! the boys are stupendously complicated which i love so so much but canon has also shown us clearly that each of the boys' quirks and habits and tendencies causes a lot of (mostly played for laughs) friction. the bickering, the backhanded insults, the "im the best one here" preening contests. theyre all SOOOO RIDICULOUS and it is hilarious but yep! the boys r complex!! and that means this beautiful ship, imo, has a lot of phases to get to the actual romantic relationship bit.

how they get together, in my opinion, starts because of mc.

not in the sense that she matchmakes them all, but like.

phase 1 of the nxx team polycule is this:

through being in love with her (which we all know the boys 100% are), each of the boys come to terms with their own flaws and weaknesses. it's very apparent to me in all the story thus far that these boys are flawed as hell, it's very compelling but even more compelling to me is how all of them also do intense mental gymnastics to Not Confront Those Flaws. like, marius is a dickbag always teasing and toeing the line of insincerity, vyn is a controlling mf who always tries to sway situations to his benefit, artem is so repressed to the point that he has genuine trouble with emotions, luke is a self sacrificial bastard and also a huge hypocrite about how no, actually, hes the only one that should be hiding his pain and being dishonest, no dishonesty from other people!! in the beginning of the story, all the boys have their flaws and seem to have just kinda...not addressed how those flaws are harming them and the people around them.

and then mc rolls around and they all fall in love with her. and she sees those flaws and she doesnt let them slide. she challenges the boys in her own ways to see another side of the situation, to acknowledge what theyre doing. she doesnt want to get rid of flaws, thats impossible and also not cool. she just has this beautiful hope for like, all of humanity, that goodness can prevail with the right work. so when she sees her beloved nxx boys, she believes that for them as well.

which leads to phase 2 of the nxx team polycule:

the boys, more aware of themselves, become more aware of each other.

they werent Unaware of the others of course. it's just that they didnt like...truly connect on a personal level just yet. they saw the other teammembers with their emotional armor and flaws and saw a wall that wasnt worth looking past.

but after mc makes them realize that hey, flaws arent the end of the world actually, it's alright and the person behind them may just be worth it, the boys like. end up understanding the others. A LOT OF THIS BIT IS UNINTENTIONAL, ON THEIR PARTS KJDSBFS. like they stumble into understanding each other by accident, they didnt plan it, but over the course of nxx investigations, it's inevitable that they end up seeing the depths of the others. i delve into this a little bit in my fanfic "filler eps of the lost gold" where the boys are just going thru their actions and then trip over another boy's fears or desires and through that, gain a deeper understanding mutually.

and with understanding, sometimes, comes trust.

phase 3 of the nxx team polycule goes like this:

everybody in this team, whether they like it or not, whether they know it or not, has a heart that wants to give love so desperately.

marius lives in a world full of snakes so he cant have his heart on his sleeve for his own protection. vyn wants to be seen as perfect and the heart is inherently messy so he holds it back. artem for a very very long time was focused on work and success and achievement that he neglected his heart. and luke has been giving love all his life in a sense but in a way thats hidden.

all these tendencies that are brought upon their life circumstances results in this: they want to love honestly but they havent been able to do this

until mc. and all of them want to push back whatever fears or patterns their life has instilled in them because they see her and see somebody so unwaveringly good that all their hearts begin giving love to her to make her happy and to make themselves happy as well.

but heres the thing. the boys dont just see mc. by this point, they have connected and understood and come to trust each other as well, and the consequence of that is that They Can See Each Other Now Too, Truly.

and heres the thing. all of the boys are unwaveringly good as well.

one by one, each of the boys realize that what they feel for the other boys in the team starts to...change. yeah theyre all friends, they pick on each other a lot of the time, but the bedrock of the relationship is solid and strong now. but when marius is with luke, marius sees a light inside of luke so bright that he seems unaware that he gives off. when artem is with vyn, artem sees a goodness inside of vyn that hesitates to make itself obvious and known because vyn is scared of getting hurt thanks to it. all of them see the other and their goodness and, unbidden, their hearts want to give love to each other as well.

and because theyre all a bit stupid in their own way theyre like, huh, weird! wonder why this feeling is so familiar! and yet i cant seem to name it...and then they all independently compare these feeling with the feelings they have for mc, a feeling they do know the name of, and theyre like.

WAIT.

THESE FEELINGS ARE...VERY BASICALLY EXACTLY WHAT I FEEL FOR MC.

which only means one thing: theyve fallen in love with everybody else

marius: //goes to his studio to Think and sees that a bunch of his recent art actually had little crumbs of these feelings already, etched into the brushstrokes and scenes. has an emotional crisis about it

vyn: //records a 1 hour long entry in his audio diary to examine and gain control of his feelings but by the end of the hour all he knows is that he wants to hold these people and be held by them

artem: //quite literally just bluescreens, artem.exe has stopped working, sits at his study and slowly, slowly, thunks his head down onto his desk, valiantly trying to ignore the fast pulse of his heart

luke: //manically vents about it to peanut who, by virtue of being a bird, doesnt get it. just keeps talking at peanut to get a grasp of it all and then lies down on the floor, overwhelmed

mc, sitting in her apartment watching some netflix: ...why do i inexplicably feel as if something very, very important has just happened?

phase 4 of the nxx team polycule is basically:

pining: extreme difficulty level

because pining is already hard when ur pining for one person. what more for an additional 3 more people. and those additional 3 more people are pining back.

and all these boys are SOOOO OBVIOUS with their romantic feelings, in their own special way. the way they show their affection to mc starts to bleed into their interactions with the others and everybody can CLEARLY SEE WHAT IS GOING ON, LOL, but also all the boys are too chickenshit to confront it, because if they confront it, what will even happen??? being in love with each other, all of them, thats going to be such a complicated fucking relationship, holy shit. it's 2030, yeah, being a polyamorous group relationship isnt completely unheard of, but sue them, theyre scared.

but mc (who i forgot to mention already knows of the boys' romantic feelings for her, shes just hasnt made a move yet on any of them because SHES IN LOVE WITH ALL OF THEM AS WELL and shes been trying to figure out how the hell to make that work, she cant bear to choose just one of them, she'd be heartbroken over leaving the rest of them behind) sees that the nxx investigation team is now all pining for each other FULLY and she kinda wants to laugh when she realizes whats going on because like, what are the chances? that this would happen? that they all found each other and their feelings fell into just the right place for nobody to be left behind?

theyre all scared, she can tell. and she is as well, she wont lie.

but shes always had a belief that goodness can prevail with the right work.

and love is one of the greatest goods out there.

phase 5 of the nxx team polycule:

It's Time For Communication, Baby!!!!!

the exact scenes of how this happens is a bit vague to me. it could go two ways: mc going to each of the boys independently to talk about feelings, hers about everybodys and his about everybodys as well. OR they have a fucking meeting about it all together and artem literally schedules it in his google calendar, or something.

either way, they like, actually talk about this. starts casual, maybe over a chill date, maybe over dinner at a nice restaurant, maybe over a walk in the park as the sun is starting to set. but where ever it happens, the end result is the same: a heart is laid out bare and it is taken in gentle, grateful hands.

marius: OKAY, NOW THAT THE FEELINGS ARE OUT OF THE WAY, CAN I PLEASE KISS ONE OR ALL OF YOU, PLEASE, IVE BEEN WANTING TO KISS U GUYS FOR FOREVER

vyn, laughing fondly: has anybody ever told you patience is a virtue? we quite literally just talked it all out.

marius: //needy whining noises

artem, embarrassed: ive...never kissed anybody before

luke, embarrassed but trying to play it Cool: ....same here

mc: kissing is great, you two will love it!

marius: awesome, awesome, so is ANYBODY going to give me a go ahead or WHAT????

phase 6 of the nxx team polycule:

i dont want to say it's happily ever after, once they all get together. thats not really realistic.

they all have their quirks and tendencies and habits. and those will inevitable clash against each other. theyll have their arguments, theyll get upset, theyll sulk and be angry, sometimes. but also...

theyll see each other smile and feel like their love shining so brightly. theyll reach out for another's hand and be held in such a way that makes them think that their heart is in a safe place. theyll love each other and theyll put in the work to continue loving each other. because goodness will prevail.

and they all see each other as the most good people in the world.

so whatever happens, theyll get through it together.

#tears of themis #vyn richter #marius von hagen #tears of themis rosa #artem wing

[fairestwriting]

Can I have Cater, Floyd, Jamil, Kalim and Epel with an s/o who had a traumatic experience in their past please?

Thank you in advance, and please don't forget that you are loved by all of us!!

and i love all of you too TvT i hope i did this request justice! hurt/comfort isnt my forte;;

Cater Diamond

Also isn’t really in the best space possible mentally, so a part of him understands just being unable to deal with certain things that may feel natural to others. Even though he may not be able to fully understand your situation fully, he does empathize with your feelings.

He’s more prone to letting his walls down near you, too, since he has the feeling you’ll understand him better for the reason mentioned above. Cater still has a difficult time opening up about his real emotions, but he feels way more comfortable around you.

Sometimes he doesn’t know what to say if you’re venting to him, but he’s always there to listen, give you reassurance that you matter to him, and if you want, he’ll hold you to punctuate those words, too. As long as it makes you feel as loved and safe as you deserve.

Floyd Leech

Floyd isn’t really the best with emotional support... but you can tell he loves you and he tries his best to be gentle with you, keeping in mind what things may remind you of things you don’t want to think about, protecting you whenever it seems you need to feel safe, things like that.

Most of his attempts at help will come from protection, in fact, especially if the thing that’s happened to you involved someone specific hurting you. He may go as far as suggesting to get revenge on them — And he’s dead serious in his offer, despite that probably not being the best road to take, but to him that’s a way of showing he cares.

Makes up for good distractions if you ever need them, though, being able to bring up random subjects and come up with unexpected ideas for things to do. If you want to avoid thinking about something, that’s a sort of help he can offer.

Jamil Viper

Yeah, he’s been there. It’s unlikely you two have the same trauma, but... growing up in the reality he did, he knows what it’s like to have one thing, or series of things, from the past affect you so much it changes the way you see and experience life.

How he approaches your situation will be tailored to how you approach it yourself. If you want to face your problems head on, Jamil will be there to encourage you. If you don’t feel ready to do that yet, he’ll help you avoid bad memories. He’ll give you some advice on balancing multiple approaches no matter what route you take, though, but always doing his best to not push you out of your comfort zone so much that it hurts you.

If you have behaviors similar to his, carrying a lot of repressed anger, though, things may be messy... though seeing himself reflected on you can help him realize the work he has to do on himself. Just make sure you’re communicating well, and you’ll be able to help each other cope with your situations.

Kalim Al-Asim

Kalim has a... weird relationship with his own past. He’s been through things, the assassination and kidnapping attempts, but the way he’s dealt with them was, well... maybe not the best, just naturalizing the danger he’s constantly in. Your situation makes him think about his own too, how its shaped him and the likes.

But he's already kind of processed that, so he’s focused a lot more in trying to do something to help you — Mostly through material means, if there’s anything about your situation that could be improved through money, Kalim will arrange that, no questions asked, but also by making sure you feel loved and supported through your good and bad days.

Despite being a little oblivious and childish at times, he’s actually really helpful and surprisingly emotionally intelligent. Kalim will listen to you vent and comfort you when you need, help you with things like therapy if you find it necessary. If you’ve ever felt like you were hard to love, Kalim will make it his life’s mission to prove that wrong.

Epel Felmier

One of the more awkward ones regarding subjects like that. It’s not that he doesn’t care, he just doesn’t feel like he has the skills needed to really make a difference in that aspect of your life. Initially, Epel feels like the most he can offer is vague, stilted support.

But that doesn’t mean he won’t try to learn better ways to support you through recovering from your past. He’ll get advice from seniors he finds reliable, maybe read up on online articles or even flip up through books on helping loved ones with whatever situation you may be dealing with.

As time goes by, he does become a much more reliable boyfriend. And even if he’s not sure what to say sometimes, or unable to fully understand how things affect you, he’ll continue to make his best efforts to support you, and remind you that you’re not alone in this.

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