#abuse effects

[unwelcome-ozian]

#toxic positivity #emotional truth #sadness #being human #trauma effects #abuse effects #grief #negative emotions

[mystery-wings]

Jules Bellamy — Effects of the Past and of the Present 

Attuned inside, alluded, denied

I feel my breath pressed into contact

Undo the seal, the vague and unreal

I shouldn't pry, a child sighs and hides away

Visions intangible

Though small, they echo through the night

Memories I've felt before

Again and again, ghosts blind my sight

Hold my hand even if I cry

I need to feel like I'm human through you

Hold on tight 'till the tears run dry

The things I see are a dread to info

Don't go, I feel to wrong

Uncanny all along

Attuned inside with context applied

I feel this time I should say it

Self-spinning lies, unconscious surmise

I shouldn't pry, a child hides away and cries

Enabled thoughts, are they real or not?

A story sold but never gone cold

Although I know emotions tell it all

Visions intangible

Though small, they echo through the night

Mmemories I've felt before

Again and again l, ghosts blind my sight

Should I then believe my dealings? (Backed against a wall)

Spit it out, forget my feelings

Should I then believe my dealings (Backed against a wall)

Hear me out, they're only feelings

Should I then believe my dealings (Backed against a wall)

Attributes to my own doing

Should I believe my dealings (Backed against a wall)

Scrape it out, stare at the ceiling

Go away even if I cry

The burning shadows of human hands are far too much for a single life

The things I see are a dread must withstand

Through sobs, "I feel too wrong" (On my own)

Uncanny all along

Uncanny all along

Uncanny all along

— GHOST (Vocaloid)

#parental abuse #trauma #bullying #controlling mother #like a puppet on a string #fake smile #financial abuse #overworked #forced fame #forced career #female manipulator #male enabler #child abuse #abuse effects #parents of a celebrity #illegal conservatorship #toxic parents

[uran8ate]

in Disco Elysium I was expecting there to be some kind of “addiction mechanic” that would add a long-term downside to taking drugs, and was surprised not only by the absence of any such mechanic but also that the benefits of drugs greatly outweighed the cost. anyways fast forward to the late game and I was downing three bottles of pyrholidon and smoking an entire pack of cigarettes before attempting any check, and it was only then I realized there was in fact an addiction mechanic

#disco elysium #pyrholidon #listen if smoking increased your iq at the cost of moving you an inch closer to having a heart attack you would be smoking that shit all day #especially if the health effects could be instantly reversed with some nasal spray #tw drugs #tw substance abuse

[bruciemilf]

Somebody tell me if this is a bad take, or if my love for Bruce is causing my objective brain to glitch, but-- something about advertising Batman, a hero who's very popular for being good with children, for being NURTURING with children, a bad father kinda defeats the whole purpose of what he's supposed to represent.

Batman is a protector; He protects people the world (and especially law enforcement) does not care about. That's literally the point of him.

Something about marketing " you can be incredibly violent to people you care about! And Its fine, because you care about them even if you abuse them, and that's what matters!" towards people, but especially men and young boys, is REALLY fucked up to me.

#it's not really 'wahhh think of the children' because the media you consume isn't a vessel of your character #but. gotham war is so incredibly shallow to me for pulling the 'no no its another personality bruce would never!' like. thats worse. #you get thats worse right? #because 1) dc loves demoninsing DID for some reason but it doesn’t add any substantial weight because bruce will be associated with #the actions of his 'alter' anyway. and dc knew that. 2) if you truly cannot write an interesting comic book where bruce is not abusive #and the batkids aren't being abused. you failed. #this isn't a reprouch or an attack to people who prefer that format. but the creator isn't doing it as genuine exploration of dark tropes #if that's the case -- dont cop out with the personality thing. let him be a bad dad. but its kinda fucked how dc STILL try to paint him #as a good person while doing so. its the collen hoover effect. 'we know the guy is an abuser. thats not the problem. the problem #is that the author wants us to pretend thats a good thing.' #bruce wayne #dc comics #dc #batman #text post #dc critical

[comradekatara]

i’ve always kind of assumed that lo and li are azulon’s younger twin sisters and that’s why they were foisted off on azula, because she’s also a younger sister to the crown prince. but the fact that we never actually see them firebend is strange, because it implies either that nonbenders are instructing one of the greatest firebenders in the world, or that they are firebenders who simply do not firebend. and i think that the latter is more interesting, because it reflects how their position as elderly women devalues any firepower they might provide to the empire, passive and subdued even as they train ozai’s favorite weapon.

they are the ones to most overtly illustrate azula’s precarious relationship to femininity, after all. for example, noting the position of her hair after she successfully lightningbends in “the avatar state,” or emphasizing azula’s beauty when they introduce her in “the awakening.” and it’s clear that azula doesn’t really like them, dismisses and avoids them whenever she gets the chance. she can’t even tell them apart. their very existence is almost a humiliation. a reminder to azula that this is who she is destined to become once she lives past her usefulness. not the imperious azulon, her namesake, raised above on a fiery dais, but his sisters, insignificant and functionally powerless.

so of course “almost isn’t good enough,” of course “one hair out of place” is a failure. the only way azula can prove her worth to the empire she has devoted her entire self to in a way that matters is, perhaps, by being perfect, by being better and stronger than the discarded women who came before her. but that, too, is a delusion, that any amount of excellence will reward her in a way that compensates for the erosion of her very humanity. and yet, it’s all she has to cling to. so she gives it her all to excel within a system that will never really care about her because she has deliberately been made incapable of imagining an alternative. of simply recognizing the system for the failure that it is, conceptualizing a world beyond the bars of her gilded cage, and leaving.

#SHES SO ANTHYCODED 😭😭😭😭 #azula #lo and li #azula&ozai #azulon #analysis #and someday together we’ll shine… if you even care . #this was supposed to be a 2 sentence post about lo and li btw 🥴 #ALSO to be clear im not shaming her for not leaving #azula has no concept of ‘leaving’ that is not a) in disgrace or b) in a bodybag #im saying that she CANT because ozai’s psychological and physical abuse is so potent and effective #and that’s not her fault at all #just to be clear #in my mind i am so anthypilled that im like yeah everyone understands the mechanisms and psychology of abuse #what it means to be end of the world #and also just how azula has completely internalized the logic that the only way to survive is within this framework #she’s not weak or foolish for not being able to imagine a different path #which is very obvious to me. but i realized that might not be obvious to everyone. so.

[maeo-png]

I really hope Marceline has some kind of negative reaction to everyone encouraging Simon to put the crown back on again. maybe she panics and worries if “Ice King” has forgotten her again.

#like #an adult child watching their parent relapse into substance abuse because their friends said ‘but drunk/high you is so fun!’ #as if it didn’t negatively effect the kids childhood #the crown during Simon & Marcy/any apocalypse flashback is much more fitting to substance abuse than alzheimers or degenerative diseases #e.g marcy telling simon to not put the crown on. that it scares her. #adventure time #fionna and cake #fionna & cake #simon petrikov #marceline

[jujoobedoodling]

Doomed by the narrative.

"Don't make me do this, Jaina."

I hope I've conveyed the tortured undead Sylvanas expression properly. The I feel like have no choice after doing so much, after coming this far, after all of my sacrifices look. You know, the one.

inspired by this femslash february prompt list

#world of warcraft #sylvaina #sylvanas windrunner #jaina proudmoore #minifemslashfeb2024 #mine #screenshot redraw if you know you know #but 100000 times more narratively painful and angsty #also abusing the shit out of glowy effects

[aropride]

seeing these proposed and even passed laws banning minors from social media without parental consent is so terrifying. like aside from the "government collecting data abt what their citizens are doing online" and the implications for online anonymity, i remember being a young mentally ill queer kid in a homophobic abusive household and idk how i wouldve gotten thru it without my online friends and the escape of the internet. and if a law like this had passed and my parents had been made aware of all my social media accounts i would have been in so much trouble for being queer & nonchristian & interested in secular media & swearing & complaining abt my parents & mentally ill & having friends they didn't like & etc etc. idk i think it's super fucking dangerous and sets a dangerous precedent

#text #louisiana voted (unanimously in both chambers) to pass a law requiring parents consent for kids to have social media #the govener hasnt signed it yet & it wouldnt go into effect til 2024 it looks like. but still. #abuse tw

[moonlit-positivity]

Lesser known effects of trauma that don't ever get acknowledged

Cw: mentions of csa, sa, despair, depression, & generally dark content that some may find hard to read. Please interact & read with care.

"bed rotting" (which I hear is gaining attention on TikTok these days) ie the process of becoming bedridden due to your body being stuck in freeze response (paralyzed w fear, too scared to move)

Needing to cut your hair bc it keeps getting matted down, because you can't shower or wash it or keep up with it anymore

Gaining weight (i gained over 200lbs in a year), losing all the clothes you once fit in, and feeling guilty when all you see everywhere all the time is fat shaming

Losing weight (and subsequently all your clothes start falling off 😭) eating disorders and struggling with body image

Existing off of God knows what at this point. Is that milk spoiled? Yeah but how many days is it spoiled? Mmm, nah, nevermind, I'll just eat air.

Losing track of time. Losing months to years of time because of extreme dissociation, fatigue, stress, and the inability to move

Brain & body "shut down" or go into sleep mode for long periods of time

Self hygiene becomes non existent. Showering? Brushing teeth? Changing clothes? Don't know her.

House cleaning becomes non existent. "If It's Not In The Vacinity, It's Not Getting Done."

Lying to everyone about what's going on because it's easier than telling the truth

Not being comfortable with having your pictures taken, go through a phase where you destroy any evidence you ever existed anywhere at all

Isolating & ghosting all ur friends periodically to make sure they're not gonna leave you (lol makes perfect sense, if you know you know)

Animal upkeep goes to shit. Litter box goes neglected for long periods of time.

Noise & light sensitivity goes haywire. Noise & light triggers get amplified especially once you start to feel any sense of "safety" and start decompressing. An alarm goes off, the stove beeps, the cat meows, anything that makes even the slightest noise in the foreground and you have a whole ass panic attack and find yourself in bed for the rest of the day

Agoraphobia. You never go outside ever again. Too much paranoia, too many eyes staring at you, too many reasons to panic and stay in bed

Life becomes so non existent that the only thing that matters is whatever you're currently doing to cope & survive. If you're addicted to something, well, it's a fucking miracle you even wake up anymore

Couch surfing and inevitable homelessness when people get tired of housing you. Having to confront the way society frames government assistance as "the lazy man's income" & hope disability goes through. Which it won't. Wait-lists out the ass, section 8 takes 5 years or more to kick in. Disability doesn't even go through bc they always deny the first time you apply. The process is littered with appeals and court dates and what the fuck, I can't even get out of bed. What the fuck. What the fuck.

Leaning into your despair because, despite what everyone on social media will shout at you about resilience and "not allowing yourself to fall into despair," they will never understand that concept that despair is there for a reason too. Youre looking at someone who was raped at 5 years old and youre telling them to "stay positive." Yeah okay.

The anger, the bitterness, the resentment at the world & everyone in it. The cold blooded urge for revenge & justice. Especially when there's nothing you can do about the fact that your abusers are still free to live and roam this world as they please.

Not being able to "talk about it." Not being able to "trust a safe space." That's bullshit. I was beat and abused my whole life, what the fuck you mean "safe space?" The absolute mind fuckery that you have to sit with and undo and learn the fact that they fucking lied to you. It is enough to kill you.

Everything you learn in therapy just pisses you off even more because why the fuck wasn't there someone there as a kid to teach you this shit???? Why the fuck do I have to learn this as an adult???? Where was this when I actually fucking needed it????

Nothing helps. Nothing soothes, because there is no soothing. There is only pain. It's like ripping your skin off.

Losing everything. Losing all your friends. Losing all your "cool status" points. Losing your reputation. Losing all the things that once brought you great joy and passion. There is nothing anymore. Pain and isolation and desolation and despair.

Learning that no one can relate. Except that's not entirely true at all. People can relate. It's just such a stigmatized topic that no one talks about it out loud, because no one else in society really gets it.

#recovery #ptsd #trauma #mental health #boundaries #healing #abuse #effects of abuse #childhood trauma #abusive parenting #abusive relationships #addictions #alcoholism #acoa #codependency #substance use

[unwelcome-ozian]

#abuse effects #trauma effects #dissociated emotions #control #coping mechanisms #eating disorders #t.w. eating disorders #E.D. #t.w. e.d.

[danandfuckingjonlmao]

klaus hargreeves hearing three (3) symptoms of a disorder from a child that he just met and coming to the conclusion that he definitely has it is a mentally ill mood

#klaus does not have odd #me and my psych degree and crisis counselor certification were sitting there like #hmmmmm #also not me listing credentials as if anyone cares #i can dream <3 #don’t get me wrong he has a shit ton of other stuff #he just really doesn’t fit the criterion for odd #like dsm 5 & textbook criterion #not him #adhd ptsd depression all that shit #substance abuse disorders obviously #addictive personality s*icidal ideation risky behaviour lack of impulse control self destructive tendencies opposition behaviour you name i #t #am a little scared of misinformation being spread about odd tbh #klaus hargreeves #it is a mood to just vaguely hear symptoms of something and be like “yes that is me #barnum effect babey #yeet my deet #tua s3 spoilers #the umbrella academy

[phoet]

it's so funny to me how the tma fandom has mandela-effected themselves into believing that gerry keay and michael shelley worked at the magnus archives together.

they didn't

michael and eric, GERRY'S FATHER, worked together.

which, when i realised this (upon seeing the resurgance of doorkeay posts after gerry's appearance in tmagp) made me wonder — why was that never a ship??

the more i thought about it the more i realised the fandom missed out on so much angst potential. the perfect ship is not gerry and michael no no no.

it's eric delano and michael shelley starcrossed lovers doomed by the narrative

#but he's marrie— HIS WIFE SUCKS #i can excuse being a hot older evil lady but i draw the line at child abuse #anyway #i also found out that johnny said the fandom imagines michael much younger than he was intended to be written so #mandela effect #it strikes again #michael shelley #eric delano #gerry keay #doorkeay #tma #tmagp #the magnus archives #the magnus protocol

[tysonfurybattlepass]

lancer hot take GO

1. CRIMINALLY underrated as a key player in the narrative. so often in fan content, he’s relegated to comic relief when in reality his character arc is the fucking CO-FOCAL POINT of ch1 (alongside susie’s)

but where susie learns that opposition isn’t always the answer, and it can lead to her hurting people she loves, lancer learns that the authority figure in his life isn’t omnipotent and perfect and he can stand up for what he knows is just. he can question the adult in his life he can BE HIS OWN PERSON and he doesn’t have to feel like he’s not good enough. fuck. not personal or anything prommy (lying)

2. i think he should be allowed to KILL. queen will livestream it. shit would be funny as fuck

#fr though i rly hope toby does something w lancer either narritavely #or as a side thing about his recovery arc #because like. thats not the end right? #hes in a better situation now but what about the psychological effect of All That #even if you dont accept my/meatloaf’s hc #that spade always believed lancer to be the Prince Of Legend and thus tried to supress him #abusing him solely to circumvent the prophecy by removing a key player #the entire debacle on the rooftop at the emd of ch1 was traumatizing enough for lancer #i think he deserves to express the less cute/silly side of his trauma #maybe even do something DAMAGING #i understand and love susie despite what she did in ch1 #i would understand and love lancer too if he made bad decisions or caused problems #as an expression of what he’s been through #because christ almighty he’s been so mature for so long #god damn #anyway #deltarune #jordan talks

[doodlebloo]

For those CCs that Lexi mentioned brushing her off when she came forward about her experiences, a simple "this apology sucks" reply to Wilbur is NOT going to cut it. We need something more substantial from them acknowledging that they've contributed to these abusers going unchecked for so long.

#YES its entirely possible some of them are abuse victims themselves. im not asking them to come forward with that if they arent ready #but if they arent ready to share they should say that they arent ready. not just post a snappy reply to Wilbur's statement #i have low hopes for Phil Jack Tommy etc to effectively explain how they werent complacent in this abuse #but of course i have no idea what happens behind the scenes so i am willing to hear them out first #tw abuse

[vvictuss]

wh40k fans can be so strange sometimes. you know the ones. they read Reflection Crack'd or find a vid about the Daemonculaba and are like "how dare there be grimdark in my grimdark universe! erase it from canon"

jesus fuckin kennedy grow up pls, it's just Graham McNeill writing vaguely fetishistic bullshit again to freak out his audience. This is barely scratching the surface of what grimdark can be and The Daemonculaba isnt even that bad tbh

#imo the Daemonculaba would've been more effective if it followed what Alien did #and face the horrors of life/birth through the use of men's bodies rather than women #it just gets old. ooo scary #the abuse of women. so original #warhammer 40k #graham mcneill hate club #wh40k #??? #warhammer 40000 #daemonculaba #warhammer 30k #warhammercommunity #games workshop #40k

[liquidstar]

How is tumblr going to ban porn and then show me ads where two triceratops are straight up having sex

#frankly these mobile game ads have also gotten just kinda disgusting and i feel like there needs to be regulations on them #i don't mean the dino fuck one it's not graphic but like #all the ones about those app women getting abused are out of hand like i keep seeing one where a guy cuts off a his wifes boob??? #or where a lady is lactating or pissing herself or shitting herself #or even ones that imply straight up sa. like. #i understand. it's because it's shocking and drives engagement and ppl to make YouTube videos going woooaa weird ads but. #like. i don't wanna talk too much about them bc i don't wanna feed into what makes it effective but i just feel like #there needs to be somekinda standards here. the same way you can't just show whatever on tv advertisements #bc malicious advertising is an issue and there SHOULD be limitations to make sure this doesn't happen #not just bc it's gross but because it's underhanded and also false advertising! that stuff is straight up not in the app lol #it's usually just candy crush w extra steps #tbh im surprised no one has capitalized on actually making a fucked up gross game like that since there's clearly an audience #but still. annoying. sick of seeing them