#and hes like. i like to go on walks or hikes when im stressed. if you want i could show you my favorite spot

[magicdefendorwolf]

Dating Yanqing

Description:what its like dating Yanqing

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Im sure alot of people say this,but im going to say it again,he's quite energetic,so be prepared.

I think the start of your relationship with him is quite bumpy due to inexperience and still getting used to eachother in a romantic sense,but after that part is over you've got the biggest sunshine whipped for you.

His love language is definetly acts of service and quality time

He loves being able to help you out in any way,especially when he sees you stressed,knowing he is able to take a part of that stress of your shoulders makes him feel happy and more at ease.

But if he cant help in anyway might aswell help you get a break for a bit and take a walk with him,or just hang out with him really.

He also loves taking you on dates,dates with him look like going strolling around town and going wherever you two want,picnics,hikes,stargazing,late night walks and so on

However if you are more on the less energy side then no problem,he can carry you when you get tired,he also doesnt mind more relaxed dates

From time to time,you'll catch him staring at you,he just zones out while he is admiring you,and if you point it out there are two scenarios that can happen.

The first one is when he is still in a trance like state still focusing more on admiring you then what is happening,so he mumbles out something you cant quite catch he mumbled about how beautiful you are,he def had star eyes aswell.

Or the 2nd scenario where he quickly snaps back to reality and nervously stammers about how you had something on your face or that he wasnt staring,just admiring,there is a difference dont get it confused!

He is also unintentionally observant,he immediately sees your habits without even meaning to,he notices how you fidget with your fingers or whatever is in your hand when you're nervous,your stance change depending on your mood,speaking about moods,he is also very good at picking up on your mood. He doesnt really realise tht he unintentionally learnt how to read you like an open book until he actually uses what he's observed,or brings it up in a conversation with someone elseprobably Jing Yuan and they point it out

I also see him as someone who loves your hands,he loves playing with them,holding them,he'll even paint your nails for you if you ask,you'll just have to teach him first.

He absolutely melts when you cup his face and make eye contact with him,or when you play with his hands instead of the other way around.

I also cant press how much he loves your hair,whether its short or long he loves doing different hairstyles on you if you'll let him,and if yiur hair is long enough,helping you brush it and style it for the day to his best ability.

Jing Yuan may or may not have had a calm talk with you about Yanqing menacingly and subtly threatened you to not hurt Yanqing

All in all he is a ray of sunshine that is willing to protect you at all cost and love you endlessly

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My first post oficial,feel free to leave requests<3

#yanqing #yanqing x reader #hsr x reader #yanqing hsr #x reader #headcanon #hcs

[margoisthemoon2]

Just here to talk // Silco x Reader smut

Words: IDK as always

Warnings: Smut/Lemon. PIV. Eating out. A bit of CNC. Dominate Silco. A bit detailed.

Im back again Lmfaooo. There isn’t enough silco smut on tumblr so i took matters into my own hands. This is very mature so minors DNI. Always lets get on with the story.

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You walk up the stairs of The Last Drop what once was owned by Vander now belonged to Silco. You knock in the closed door hearing a small “Come in” from the other side. You turn the knob and step inside. “I heard you wanted to talk to me, silco?” You say as you took a few steps into the large room. Silco is sitting in his chair looking at the wall swaying left to tight with a cigar in his hand. His orange eye looks at you “yes. Close the door and lock it” he states. You do as he says and take a few more steps ahead. “Look silco i have somewhere…” you begin before seeing him turn towards you putting his cigar in a drawer and getting up and hurriedly walks towards you. He stands in front of you saying and doing nothing. “Look as i was saying i have some matters to take care of i really have to go lets make this talk quick, I really cant do anything else-“ you continue before being cut off by silco lips as he leans down to give you a rough kiss. When he pulls away you sigh and look around but mainly up to make sure the blue haired girl wasn’t occupying her usual spot. “Silco please I really cant do this and i have to go” you say turning on your heal to walk out the door. But before you can your wrist gets roughly grabbed and silco is pulling you along towards his desk.

He sits in his chair and you stand there not knowing what to do or say. He reaches up and pulls your thigh a bit before roughly grabbing your waist and basically throwing you onto his lap. He uses one hand gently rub your thigh and the other rest at your waist. “I’ve been so stressed lately. There is so much going on nowadays” He says removing his hand from your thigh and rubbing his face and then taking a big sigh “im sorry to hear that” you say playing with the hem of his shirt collar. “I really just need you here with me now” he says putting his hand back on your thigh and pulling you in closer by your waist. He buries his head into your chest. “I really wish i can stay but i cant. I promise ill come back tomorrow and stay by your side all day-“ you get cut off by silco bitting your neck and him immediately almost slamming you onto his desk. You look up confused and shocked. “Stay with me” he says kissing your legs up to your thighs.

You and silco have been knowing eachother for a couple of years now. You both are heavily crushing on eachother but agreed to just stay FWB due to your different lifestyles and schedules. None of you would have time for a relationship. You cannot lie that you haven’t fallen deeply in love with silco and he cannot lie either.

“Silco please i have to go” you say watching as he reaches up your mini dress and pulls off your underwear. “Stay” he says before he hikes up your dress to your hips. The cold air brushes over your heat making you shiver a bit. You watch as silco continues to kiss your thighs getting closer and closer to your heat. You attempt to close your leg but he uses his hands to grab you from the back of your knees and spread your legs more. “Silco please i cant” you say looking at the ceiling. “I dont hear a No” he says beforehand kissing your heat. You let out a slight moan from the touch. He continues by playing with your clit with his tongue. You look down moaning making direct eye contact with the man. “You are so beautiful” he says before burying himself into you more. His long nose making contact with you and his tongue going in and out of your now soaking wet cunt. You weakly try to push him away but this only makes him hold you tighter and eat you out like you’re the last meal in the lanes. You shut your eyes feeling a climax coming “Oh god silco im gonna cum” you say. This only makes him eat you out faster. “Ah shit silco” you say before feeling him pull away and you squirt over his shirt and the floor. “I love it when you do that” he says. Too weak to get up you watch as he removes his tie, vest, shirt and then pants. He kisses you before unzipping and removing your dress and bra.

He picks you up by your waist and turns you around. “Brace yourself” he says. You obey and lay flat on the desk using your hands to hold you in place. Arching your back and putting your azz in the air. Again the cold air brushes against your soaked heat. You hear Silco jerk off a few times before feeling his hand at the base of your spine. Feeling the tip if his cock slip past your lips and quickly gets coated in your juices. Inch by inch silco slide in before he is buried at the hilt. He put both hands on your waist before pulling out a bit then burying himself again. Soon he was thrusting in and out of your wet cunt. The desk rattling hard and material’s falling onto the floor. You couldn’t contain your moans as you got very vocal and loud from his thrusts. His hand coming to close over your mouth “listen” he says you try to concentrate on everything. You hear your skin connecting with his. The wetness of your cunt as you take him and the rattling of the desk. “You hear that? Yeah. You’re a fuckin whore” he says before biting your neck. He grabs both of your arms and put them behind your back. Thrusting harder than before. “Ah fuck!” You hear him grunt. He pulls you by your arms his chest now against your back and he brings his hand around your throat. This new position makes you moan even more. “Fuck! Youre so fucking tight my flower” he says, hearing this made you tighter against him “shit im close, im close!” You hear him. He lets your arms go and puts his hands on your lower stomach. “I can feel myself deep in you dear” he says. This also causing you to grip him tighter “oh fuck! Oh fuck! Im about to- im cumming im cumming” silco says as he pounds you a few more times before pulling out letting you go and jerking off a couple of times before his warm sticky liquid is splattered across your back.

The both of you breathing hard. Silco reaches down into a drawer and pulls out a napkin. Cleaning you up. He hands you back your underwear. “Im sorry but i really needed that.” He says, you take your underwear and finish getting dress “it’s okay. And honestly… i needed that too” you say with a small smile. Silco has finished putting on his pants but he now needs a new vest. He comes over and deeply kisses you. “Glad we are at an understanding” you say, you peck his cheek and runs out. “Im going to marry her one day” silco says before chuckling and opening his wardrobe to see a nice variety of vests and shirts to change into.

Ive been on a damn roll lately.

#arcane piltover #piltover and zaun #zaun #zaun arcane #silco fanfic #silco smut #silco imagine #silco my beloved #silco arcane #silco simp #piltover's finest #arcane #smut #arcane smut #reader #x reader

[kivaember]

im sleepy from work so im just like. gonna write a cute little coffee shop au drabble of rusty teaching 621 to ride a bicycle ok

Raven was rarely self-conscious. It wasn't because he lacked any sense of shame or awareness, but because Walter and the Hounds had taught him early on that it was pointless to stress over the opinions of complete strangers. It was a liberating mindset to have, and he stuck by it religiously.

However...

"It's alright, buddy, I'm here. I won't let you fall."

...it seemed there were some things that still got him flustered.

Raven fought down the flush he could feel scorching his cheeks, painfully aware of Rusty's hand against his own. It was a bright summer's day, which brought with it a sticky heat that made Raven horribly aware of how hot and sweaty he was - how hot and sweaty his hand was.

But that wasn't what was flustering him. Around him people ambled past, enjoying their time at the sprawling public park while the weather was good, not paying much attention to Raven, awkwardly perched on a bicycle, and Rusty, who was gently keeping him upright by holding onto the handlebars.

"Just try cycling slowly, and get your balance," Rusty said, either politely ignoring or oblivious to Raven trying not to spontaneously combust. "Once you've got your rhythm, I'll let go, alright?"

Raven nodded stiffly, and cautiously he lifted his foot from where it was braced on the cycle path, immediately keeping the bicycle try to pitch to the side. He made a small noise - startled - but Rusty tightened his grip on the handlebars, easily keeping him upright through pure strength alone.

"I've got you," Rusty murmured.

Argh.

Raven couldn't really pinpoint what was getting him so hot and bothered and self-conscious about this whole scenario. He'd been intrigued when Rusty floated the idea of teaching him to ride a bike - so that they could go on bike rides together sometime - but now that he was sitting on said bike, in public, with Rusty murmuring gently at him, hand over his... he felt like he was going to explode, his stomach a nest for carnivorous butterflies.

What a novel experience, he couldn't help but muse, I hate it.

But he tried to power through it. He started to pedal, awkwardly, and the bike moved forwards at a snail's pace. Rusty walked alongside, keeping him steady, and the bike gradually picked up speed.

"You're doing just fine, buddy," Rusty said. "See? Not even a wobble this time. I'm gonna let go in a sec, okay?"

Raven nodded stiffly, horribly aware that his face was likely bright red, and his heart leapt in his chest when Rusty let go as he warned, taking away that steady support.

The effect was immediate: his bike wobbled, and Raven sharply turned the handlebars to counteract - only to feel himself start to pitch, so frantically turned them the other way-!

"Whoa, whoa-!" Rusty hurriedly grasped onto the handlebars, stopping him from colliding right into a lamppost and steering him back down the path. "That was close...!"

Raven groaned quietly, and lowered his foot onto the ground, stopping the bike.

{I'm too bad at this,} he signed.

Rusty laughed. "Everyone's bad when they first start."

Logically, Raven knew that, but illogically he still felt self-conscious and embarrassed. He wasn't sure why... it wasn't that he was embarrassed about struggling to ride a bike in public, he didn't care what people thought when looking on-

Oh.

Raven looked at Rusty, realisation dawning. No, he wasn't embarrassed about struggling in public, but in front of Rusty...

Since they'd met, Raven had excelled in most things they did together. Building model kits, fighting in the AC arena, playing video games... Raven lost in their little competitions, but he never failed. Even that disastrous hiking attempt they'd tried, Raven hadn't felt all that embarrassed about it because it had been a health issue - even if he did feel guilty about ruining Rusty's plans.

This was different. This was him humiliating himself over a simple activity that children as young as five could achieve. This wasn't the first time he'd almost crashed, or fallen over, or whatever. They'd been at this all morning, and he still couldn't cycle more than a handful of seconds by himself before pitching or swerving wildly.

His shoulders slumped slightly. Rusty had been pretty excited about the idea of them cycling together too...

{I'm really bad,} he signed, not bothering to hide his despondancy. {I'm taking too long to learn, I'm sorry.}

Rusty didn't immediately say anything, and Raven avoided making eye contact. After a pause, Rusty sighed quietly and rested a hand atop of his head, his fingers gently running through Raven's hair.

"Hey, it's alright. This is just the first lesson, so it's not like I'm expecting you to be a cycling master after a few hours," he said gently. "But... if it's stressing you out, we can just leave it here. I don't want you to force yourself if you're not enjoying it, Raven."

Ugh, that wasn't what Raven meant! Rusty was always making compromises for him like this... just once, Raven wanted to compromise for him!

Raven ducked his head out from under Rusty's hand, and when his boyfriend made a puzzled noise, pushed off the ground and started cycling hard.

"Ah-!? Raven-!??"

No more hesitating. No more moping. He was going to become a good cyclist, no matter how clumsy or bad at steering he was! He was going to catch up to Rusty-!

"Raven! Wait, wait, wait! You're going off the path- RAVEN! THE POND-!"

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One unintentional pond dive and a broken bike wheel later, it was mutually agreed that maybe they should've started with training wheels...

#armored core #armored core 6 #v.iv rusty #c4 621 #viv621 #cute drabble fluff #when ur tired so u just write cute lil' drabbles.... #coffee shop au

[florence-is-gay]

hiii!!! im a fan of your work and was wondering of you could write some hcs of the mercs with an autistic s/o?? i struggle with autism and reading these things kinda helps. thx sm!!! :ooo

Absolutely!! I'm so glad you enjoy my headcanons, i haven't written any for quite a while lmao

--EDIT FROM YEARS LATER OML-- I had this sitting in my drafts completed with all mercs except for the last 3 listed, between procrastination and life and falling out of the fandom I guess I just eventually forgot... Once in a blue moon I'd come back to this post and think... "I'm sorry tomatosoopp... I will finish this for you one day. Maybe not now, or later, maybe not even soon... but... eventually. I promise." I hope things are going well for you, you've probably long forgotten your ask but I genuinely hope seeing this finally answered will bring you joy and make your day <3

I know it's late to say it, but Merry Christmas and Happy New year! Perhaps you can consider this as a long overdue gift, from me to you! I hope this year will bring you lots of wonderful and amazing things &lt;3 Love, Flo (P.S., I also added a bit to the shorter blurbs at the beginning... To make up for all that time! Now enjoy your long awaited post, my friend! <3)

SCOUT

Scout is pretty ADHD, and we all know how that's the peanut butter to his S/O's jelly. He gets excited with you about the things you love! And stims? Oh yeah. Leg bouncing, pen chewing, and the likes. So he won't judge you when you excitedly flap your hands or smack your thighs/any available surface. In fact, he'll share his fidgets with you when he notices you're feeling nervous or stressed. Sometimes he forgets you are extremely empathetic and sensitive to high energy or strong moods, so if he gets too excited or angry or anything of the sort he will do his best to calm himself as to not overwhelm or overstimulate you!

SNIPER

Sniper's not much of a talker, but he loves to listen to you ramble! Sometimes just the sound of your voice makes him smile! Also since he knows how tactile you are, he doesn't mind letting you feel his scars, tracing your fingers along and across them. He also lets you scritch his stubble, and he finds your reaction both amusing and adorable! Also, if you love nature, Sniper is your perfect guy! He'll take you for long walks in the woods or along hiking trails, not minding if you are slow or simply taking your time to stop and observe every little detail <3

ENGINEER

Engie loves all your little quirks!! He thinks you're the cutest darn thing on the planet! He'll definitely build you some fun fidgets and stimmy things! He also has earmuffs for when he's working with machinery, if you're feeling overstimulated he'll let you borrow them! Additionally, he enjoys relaxing with you by a fire just to chill out and play his instruments! He knows you have a fondness for music, so he tries to learn your favorite songs! He is also the type to always check on you to make sure you eat and drink <3

HEAVY

Like Sniper, Heavy isn't much for words. He doesn't mind silence, so he's perfectly okay with you zoning out, staring into space, or just lost in your thoughts. He also understands when you have a hard time wording things. He still struggles with English. And if you're feeling anxious or overwhelmed, he'll scoop you up in his big arms and hold you like a lil baby, and gently whisper words of praise and comfort. He'll also let you take naps in his arms <3 Like Engineer, he likes to make sure you don't skip meals. He doesn't always understand that some food textures are unpleasant, but he tries his best to find something you like!

DEMOMAN

Demo LOVES cuddles. He won't admit it to the other guys, but he finds it soothing. He knows you love to lay your head on his chest and listen to his heartbeat. He also gives great hugs! You told him once that you enjoy physical pressure on your body, so he'll give you extra-firm hugs, and sometimes he'll lay right on top of you to take a nap! He definitely will gift you some weighted blankets, along with some fun beanbags just to mess with. He also makes sure any touch on you is firm and grounding. Additionally, if you have a habit of sleeping a lot, it's no worry for this man! He's perfectly happy to pass out with you for 12+ hours and STILL have room for naps! As long as they are with you, he is happy <3

PYRO

Pyro themselves are nonverbal autistic, so honestly to them, you are the most normal person out there! They have hyperactive tendencies and struggle to pay attention to anything too long, but when it comes to you, you have their full attention! (To the best of their ability, anyway!) They will happily share their love for fire and cute things with you, though they also love when you share your hyperfixations with them! Not only that, but they will often bring you gifts relating to the things they know you love! Should you ever feel sad, touch-starved, or understimulated, just know Pyro will always be by your side to give you the best cuddles and hugs you could ask for!

MEDIC

If you are someone who is always psyched to learn new things, Medic is your perfect guy! He knows a lot about physical and psychological health, including autism! He will take time out of his day to educate you on your brain and why it works the way it does! He will do his absolute best to keep you informed so you can better understand yourself! (Even if at times you get tired of his lecturing) He also knows that you are very hands-on when it comes to many projects, so he will allow you to assist with simple tasks in his lab! He also knows you struggle with your health habits, aka hygiene, sleeping, eating, drinking, etc., so expect this man to be on your back! He wants to make sure you take good care of yourself <3

SPY

Spy is a bit of a tricky one. He seems completely unbothered by all of your quirks, almost to the point where you wonder if he even notices them. Rest assured, he certainly does! But he does his best not to bring attention to it unless you are the first to bring it up. He wants you to feel as though your autism doesn't define you, after all, you are more than your disability! At times he may challenge you to break from any bad or unhelpful habits, such as nail biting and pulling hair, or more serious matters like harmful stims when you get upset. Unrelated, he knows you are a person of the senses. So any gift to you is always a high-quality item: scented soaps and lovely colognes/perfumes, clothing that is soft and pleasant to touch, weighted blankets, and any type of small heavy object that may be grounding. Not to mention foods he knows you'll eat, since taste and texture can sometimes be an issue. Of course there is more, and if you don't like scented things and find soft textures on your body displeasing like some, he will accommodate for that as well! And lastly: Don't let him catch ANYONE making fun of you! They may not live to see the sun tomorrow.

SOLDIER

Honestly... He might also be autistic. No one knows for sure, but even if he was, he would loudly and proudly deny it. Loudly seems to be something the two of you do well-- you may find yourself struggling to control your volume in your excitement, but that's okay! He does too! Though he may also partly be hard of hearing from all of those rocket blasts... Regardless, the two of you seem to match each other's energy to near perfection- Yelling and screaming about nonsense, singing loud and off-key, even just making animal sounds or random noises incomparable to anything on this planet... Still he enjoys your company, neither of you really seem to be able to get a handle on social cues, but to heck with those! They're all confusing anyway! At least you understand each other! Additionally, the two of you may also struggle to remember things, especially short-term. But you're a good dynamic, always reminding each other what was forgotten! (...Just don't act surprised when he wants to recite to you the Declaration of Independence by heart for the 5th time that day.) And lastly, if you ever tell him you're autistic, surely he will tell you that you are American. And should you attempt to explain what autism is, more than likely he will assure you that you aren't (even if you clearly are-) and that you're perfect! He sees a lot of himself in you and he thinks you are the best thing since the birth of America <3

#tf2 #florence writes #tf2 headcanons #autistic s/o #tf2 mercs with autistic s/o #ask #florence answers #tomatosoopp #team fortress 2

[iwannabeastarstarrockmann]

I DID IT!! I LEFT HER :)

I bought a plane ticket and flew for the first time (which was so fun and I got to sit by the window both times!) to be with my extended family who I don't know all that well but my grandma is here too and my grandpa is on his way, so I feel more comfortable since they practically raised me. it's been so fun this past week getting to know all of my cousins and aunt and uncle! there's so much to do here too! I've been hiking, biking, riding atvs, riding my aunts boat, attempting wakeboarding although failing miserably, shooting my uncles guns which was a rush!! and it turns out I'm a perfect shot lmao. and on top of all that, this family really likes to do stuff together which I'm not used to at all so I swear I've been getting invited to one thing after the other every day I've been here. there also happens to be a whole lot of positions open up right now in this area which is great because I was mostly worried about how I was going to find a job last minute.

my uncle and I seem to have a lot in common which is comforting. he also grew up in the desert with nothing to do and also had a crazy mom so were getting along very well. we seem to have a lot of similarities in other areas as well. he took me for a day to show me some of his favorite things to do and also show me what a day of work is like for him and put me to work for part of the day so that he could get a feel for what im skilled at. were surrounded by so much forest so he took me to some of his favorite spots close to a cabin he's been fixing up and we got to explore an abandoned mine shaft!!! OMG it was so cool! he also took me to a really nice cemetery near where he works and it was so beautiful and mystical and we saw a whole lot of deer all throughout it which just enhanced the whole experience. I'm having so much fun

I've never been so relaxed in my entire life. its sad to think that this way of living was always available to me lol. oh yeah, the coffee here is absolutely amazing! and there are so many options, its almost overwhelming. now that im able to be more active, I've fallen back into my coffee addiction to stay energized throughout the day lol.

id say the only con is that my aunt is a lot like my mom so sometimes it can be difficult to be around her but other than that, this is like heaven :))

obviously it's not perfect, as I'm still trying to cope with the guilt of leaving my mom and fighting the urge to cut or starve when my guilt gets to be too much but id rather this lingering feeling than the constant torture of living with my mom in a place with nothing to do and nowhere to go, you know?

plus side from all this trauma is that I've lost 14 pounds since I left her and that's just from all the hiking and walking I'm doing during my free time lol

I'm still in a calorie deficit most days but its not really that low compared to how I used to restrict.

I'd say right now the only thing that's really stressing me out is my need to constantly body check, its definitely gotten worse since I moved out here, and its because I really cant tell how others perceive me.

I'm also fighting with myself most days since I got here cause I keep catching myself saying things inside my head like "you dont deserve to eat", "dont be a fat pig", "no one will love you if you get fat", you know, the cliche signs that you are not completely recovered yet, but I think I'm also going to be starting my period soon and I often fall into a depressive state right before, and it often starts with self hatred and then fades halfway through my period.

anyway I've gotten way off track, obviously the move cant solve all of my problems but I am so happy right now despite my mental struggles and still cant believe that I'm lucky enough to be so easily accepted by a family who doesn't even really know me yet! I wouldn't have been able to escape if they weren't so welcoming from the very beginning.

#ed bllog #tw ana diary #childhood trauma #child neglect #trauma #verbal abuse #psychological abuse #tw ana shit #ed vent #i wanna be perfect #edblrr #body ch3ck #ana trigger

[heartscrypt]

hhi. stray cat has returned. and i am in dire need of knowledge. what do the leech twins think about cyrus. im not sure if this was expanded on but i need 2 know

SO GLAD U ASKED STRAY CAT ANON!!!! ive been thinkin bout it lotsss. hehehehe

CANON CHARACTER THOUGHTS ON CYRUS: LEECH TWINS EDITION

"Eeeh? Nishikigoi-chan? Ahaha~ he's funny! It's annoying when she gets all fussy, though. He doesn't know when to quit when I tell him I don't wanna do stuff. Ugh... for a shallow lil' pond fishie, she can be so pushy..."

"Why're you even asking what I think about Floyd, smallfry? Haaah.. guess I got nothing better to do but answer you. He's entertaining, I guess, when he's not being a dead weight. Hm hm hm~ I like how he bites back. Too many Octavinelle fry walk around with no spine, you know, so it's nice to see someone in the dorm with guts."

okay so first up. floyd. floyd and cyrus are really similar actually. in terms of like. Priorities (aka they both have none and just do whatever the fuck they want). cyrus only hangs around people that entertain her because she craves constant stimuli like. all the time. and floyd def fits that bill so. they enable each other to do things that will eventually make azuls hair fall out from stress probably.

doesn't mean they're always on the best terms though. when floyd's mood swings he finds cyrus annoying and in turn cyrus finds Him to be a drag when he's not hyperactive. they are very much fair weather friends. when they can stand to be around each other, they are collectively a menace to society. when they can't stand to be around each other, they are.... still menaces to society but in a much different way.

"Oh, you've encountered Cyrus-san. It seems he enjoys toying with his food.. ahem, that is to say-- he's quite the playful person, isn't he? Heheh. It's a shame that she refuses to join the Mountain Lovers club ... He does seem to enjoy the anecdotes from my trips, but I haven't yet been able to convince him to come enjoy the beauty of nature with me. Oh, but it'll happen one day. I'm sure."

"Hm? What am I drinking? Wouldn't you like to know... aw, darling fry, don't look so spooked. It's only something Jade brewed up for me. Ahaha! Oh, your face looks so stupid all scrunched up like that. Of course I don't know what Jade's put in this. That's the exciting bit, you know. ... Though if he's put a paralyzing agent in this one again, I'll pour herbicide in his new terrarium, and he knows it. Paralysis is so last week."

secondly. jade. honestly, cyrus prefers jade's company over floyd's. they have tea together because cyrus is pretty much the only person who will listen to jade talk about mountains and mushrooms. as someone who likes to explore herself. he does get bored if jade starts going into too much detail about the natural wonder of the mountains or whatever. also not a big fan of hiking like jade is so she refuses to go on hikes w jade. he'd rather sit n listen to the other tell stories.

... also cyrus is the only one willing to try jades mushroom concoctions as Long as jade disguises the taste of it. because as weird as it is she's a huge thrillseeker who can't stand a moment feeling bored and if jade wants to Mildly poison her it's better than. idk. Not being poisoned and sitting still with nothing to do.

#twst #twst oc #twisted wonderland oc #twisted wonderland #heartscreations #cyrus de seirene #txt post #in conclusion theyre all freaks and they make everyone's lives around them hell #the coral sea is small so realistically they shouldve encountered her once as kids #but with cyrus's living situation she wouldn't have seen much of Anyone outside her immediate circle so #thats my excuse for why they didn't know each other before nrc

[inkybinkyboink]

like just,,,let clopin watch drag race. let him scream at the contestants. let him get really fucking dressed up with earrings and

 everything and when esmerelda asks where he’s going he goes “you said you were going to the grocery store. did you think i was going in just jeans and a t-shirt?”. let him help out in a soup kitchen. let him get those calendars you rip one page a day off for quasi bc it helps him keep track of the date. let him hold a yard sale and let the kiddies take any toys theyd like for free. show me him buying lemonade from a lemonade stand and paying extra. show me him literally going to a student-led conference with a kid when their own parents didnt have the time to go themselves, or a soccer game, or a chess tournament or whatever. let him be the gay uncle or cousin or whatever. let him take quasi out to the nature parks for hikes or walks along the beach there. let him stress clean his house. let him crack jokes while he’s getting blood drawn at the doctors. let him crochet a funny hat. let him build little things with scraps of wood and then whine when esmerelda has to take out all of the splinters and “you should read my palm while you’re at it” “your palm is telling me you’re an idiot, and should wear gloves next time”. let him be the bitch that covers up anti-semitic/homphobic/racist graffiti with pure art. let him take funny selfies and post them on instagram. let him reassure quasi on a bad day and grab a mirror and “quasi what do you see?” “a monster” “oh well that’s funny, i only see two people. you and me”. let him ugly sob at cringy hallmark romcoms, let him hold phoebus’ hand while he gets yet ANOTHER piercing in his ear. like let him be fucking clopin

anyways someone put this in their tags on a previous post and im reeling

#clopin trouillefou #the hunchback of notre dame

[wanderingparasite]

i feel like when i was in high school i never felt like i fit in & like i was always searching for the right friend group. i was okay at making friends but i never really held on to them for long, its like every friendship i had always fizzled out after a year or so and they moved on to new friends. so by sophomore year, i started counting down until i got to college because it could be a “fresh start”. new people, new city, new everything. i thought not having the baggage of a small town high school knowing everything about everyone would mean that i would be able to make new friends really easily. we’re all starting fresh right??

of course, i graduated during covid, and began college during it, too. most of my freshman year was online & so was this year. i lived alone last year on campus because i was too afraid to get a roommate, and i live alone off campus now because being in dorms stressed me out too much. that part’s okay, i like being alone most of the time, right now my partner lives with me so i have him around and hes also autistic so it works pretty well.

anyway… im rambling here….

all last year i kept telling myself “it’ll be better next semester - you’ll have new classes, you’ll make friends, its a fresh start!!” and every time, the semester comes and goes and im still friendless. i thought moving off campus would do it, i have an apartment with a couch and entertainment and i have serving trays to make food for people… but they never get used.

and now i’m telling myself it’ll be okay, i’m moving closer to campus next semester and having in person classes, it’s a fresh start. but im getting discouraged. every time i start again it just feels like im getting farther and farther behind everyone else. i see all these big groups of friends at dining halls, walking around campus, laughing and smiling and i just wonder why cant i have that? how do i even go about getting that? i want it so bad, i want to have picnics and go to museums and zoos and on hikes with friends but i dont have anyone to ask because i dont know how to even do that.

i feel like im missing something, like everyone else got a guide to making friends that i didnt, like theres something that people arent telling me when i ask “how do i make friends?” people always assume im joking when i ask, but im serious!!! i dont know what’s appropriate, i dont know how to plan things other people will like, i dont know when is a good time to ask people, i dont know how to ask, i dont know what im doing!!!!

its so frustrating and i dont even know how to deal with this. summer is starting and i have no plans. i want to have plans. i want friends.

#talking to the void #actually autistic #asd #autism #social issues #h e l p #lik seriously if there is some sort of friendship guide that exists someone give it to me im desperate #i dont even know how to make friends online #ijust want people to talk to who arent my partner or my family.

[sashaarielle]

Aspen: Across the River, Chap. 2

It’s now Friday and Friday nights aren’t as exciting as you think. My best friend on the other hand...

Aspen. Asp, I like to call her, she’s my best friend, well best friend is an understatement. She’s been with me ever since I moved to Windbrook. I'm a very independent person but she really knows how to bring me out of my shell and helped me meet all my friends when I first got here. She is the queen of planning Friday nights out. 3am swims, midnight movies, hiking, surfing or even just chilling at home (which those are my ideas of the perfect fridays). She has always been the go-getter.

 “So what shall we do tonight?” She flops down on my bed and puts her head in my lap.

 “Stay home and watch a movie?” I say hopefully “Ha! You're funny, we're going to Claire’s, her parents are out of town and she has the whole house to herself, Molly, Payton and Gabe are gonna be there too!”

 I roll my eyes at her “I knew you already had something planned, why even ask me?” she gives me a sickly smile “to be polite”. I sigh and stand up, Grabbing my green jacket that used to be my dads. As we drove down my street I stare at the thick wall of trees, And my mind drifts off to Foster. Him being so friendly when we first met. Like he knew me somehow. Or surprised I was there. It’s a public park.

 “I met someone the other day” 

The car suddenly stops, I jolt and my seatbelt tugs across my chest. “WHAT?!” Asp says. “God, Aspen you almost just killed us”. “I literally just stopped the ca- wait that's not the point. Forest what do you mean you met someone, a boy, you met a boy? or girl? sorry you know I don't judge” We are stopped in the middle of the road and she’s staring at me so intensely. 

“Yeah, a boy but it’s not like that I was walking Cooper and had my headphones on and he yelled at me from across the river”. I try to look anywhere but her “what was he doing In the woods in the first place? burying a body?”   

“He was just skipping rocks, I don't know” she blinks slowly at me “Did you at least ask him his name?! You're the kind of person that would just walk away if I cute guy was talking to you”.

 “First of all, ouch, second of all, yeah thats true and I never said he was cute.” 

she rolls her eyes at me “oh come on, look at you, you're literally blushing thinking about it ” I sigh. “His name is Foster, He was really nice for a stranger, he told me he just moved here and asked for my name but I got scared and walked away”

“New guy? Foster? hm, I like it, sounds kinda mysterious to go along with the whole skipping rocks thing”.

 “I don’t think skipping rocks is mysterious”.

 She presses her lips together “It kinda is and besides, this is great! maybe you’ll see him tomorrow when you walk Cooper again.”

 “Maybe I don't know, you know I've never had any kind of relationship”. She head tilts slightly “Why though, I mean guys have liked you in the past and you just never seemed interested?”

My chest suddenly feels heavy. “Yeah, I know and I do like guys and find them attractive its just--” 

 Suddenly a car beeps behind us making Aspen drive again. The car falls silent hoping she won't make me talk about it again. I don’t know if Im ready to admit anything yet to anyone. “ You know it’s okay to like someone, I know how you feel about that kind of stuff but it may be good to get out there”. she says as she pulls up to a red light. 

I roll my eyes “you sound like my mom”.

“Well Mrs. C is never wrong” I don't say anything and we pull up to Claire’s 5 minutes later. “Well you and I are going to talk more about this later but for now I'm telling the others about Mr. Rock skipper” as she runs to the door. “DON’T YOU DARE” and I run after her. 

...

OMG! I am so sorry for abandoning this story. Junior year was stressful and now I'm a senior and bored so I'm back on it! I promise to upload as much as I can!!! 

#boy x girl #young love #forest #love #romace #original fiction

[forestryfae]

i dont. understand. when are they expecting us to be able to do laundry. i have an hour in the morning i guess but i physically cant get myself out of bed unless its absolutely the last minute and they dont wait for you to hang up your laundry, theyll just drive away from you.

theres also an hour right after i come home from work but generally i need it to change clothes or shower and to regain some of my energy.

after dinner theres like 2 hours but jesus christ i JUST got back from work and i share laundryday with another guy, i have no idea how much laundry hes gonna do

then theres a meeting every other monday and a dumb bullshit hike that takes like 2 hours then were back around 7:30 or 8 i think and generally after a long tiring hike where noone waits for you so you dont get even one break even tho your legs are burning there isnt much energy for laundry. and then theres that one meal we get afterwards as a reward or whatever for the hike and then at 9 they lock the laundryroom.

so theres like 1 and a half hours there too ig but who has the fucking energy. we need showers too. and to eat. so like yeah theres like a few hours here and there and one load of laundry takes half an hour with the big machine but thats still a very tight schedule. esp considering they REALLY want us to go on the hikes cus its An AcTiViTy ThAtS gOoD fOr YoU.

like. i have limited energy and i only have so much time in the day. i can only do so much in one day before i run out of energy and i need to be allowed to be tired and need to rest too. i dont function well on tuesday evenings specifically because im exhausted. its why i take wednesdays and fridays off. i need the extra rest and time. like. idk how to even explain it without sounding lazy and whiny and kinda pathetic for not being able to do a million things a day back to back. but i actually need time to decompress and shit. idk.

the point ismondays are a shit day to do laundry, i dont want to do it on wednesdays cus i like to have time off but im expected to clean my room the millisecond i wake up and im more often than not woken up with "good morning, what are you going to do today, i think you should do laundry and cleanyour room" like thanks now i cant get out of bed until 12 and i cant do anything i was planning to do cus yall wont stop fucking pestering me if i dont do whats expected of me every single minute im alive, and they never fucking check when i actually do clean and usually cleaning my room results in 'you missed a spot'. like why even botver. its so fucking stressfull and i dont know how to stop bekng stressed and when people try to help they make it worse and itpisses me off so much, i hate having people mess witvmy stuff and moving shit around and touching fucking dirty clothes then moving clean stuff.

like jesus christ im allowed to be tired. i need to be allowed to have hobbies and free time that doesnt result in my brain being occupied by being pissed cus someone told me what im Supposed to do instead of just allowing me to fucking do what i need or want to do. like can i get five fucking minutes where i dont feel guilty cus i dont shower fast enough or i dont mop the floor fast enough and i dont walk fast enough and im not strong enough to just do shit without ever getting tired or needing rest.

were not even doing real therapy rn, i wanted a psychologist and i still havent gotten one, i wanted to talk to the economics guy and i still havent been able to, i cant talk to anyone who isnt my primary contact and i have no idea how to even reach out to her plus shes not always working so i dont always see her, and like. a lot of the time i feel like whatever i say is just Too Emotional and its not actually worth the time but my guy my parents have been treating me like i dont deserve to exist in front of them since i was a fucking toddler and when i got bullied in school my parents thought that was my own fault for getting angry that i was being treated like shit. i didnt fucking grow up with people who cared about me unless it suited them, im fucking allowed to be upset and confused and terrified and worried about shit. it makes perfect sense that i dont understand any fucking thing and im struggling so fucking much. i should be getting help and getting rid of the shitty fucking house and getting diagnosed and maybe even medicated. i should be in fucking therapy and i should be talking to SOMEONE about shit instead of sitting in my room crying every weekend cus i dont know whats wrong with me and im starting to get worried that im just too fucked up to be fixable or atleast able to be liked by people

in other news the laundrymachine was taken and theres stuff hanging to dry cus the people working here did laundry today and now i have to wait until saturday and i have like 2 tshirts and 2 pants and one bra and one sweater thats clean and that will not last until monday

#talkies

[signedeclipse]

hiii pooks can i get a matchup with a hashira or uppermoon(preferably male)😇ill love u forever, i go by she/her

For hobbies i swim, play the drums, do kickboxing, poetry, video games

I hide my negative emotions often im actually sensitive. I rarely cry infront of people but i do it in private. When somebody i love yells at me or gets upset with me i have panic attacks.

I have adhd +anxiety and both of them make me restless

So for my personality and other stuff uhh Im ambitious, brave, moody, observant, impulsive, energetic, funny, clingy, blunt, bossy, sometimes aggressive, but genuinely kind hearted .😭 Im also an aquarius

I like a lot of things animals, kids, flowers, horror, slasher films, gardening, hiking, nature, running, exercise, music, metal, grunge, summer, halloween, helping people, dark humor, a lot more.

My love language is physical touch, acts of service .

I also really love hugs and hugging people whenever i hug my friends i don't let go until im forced.

You got…Kyojuro!

He thinks all of your hobbies are super cool! He has given his life to his craft and never had much time for hobbies of his own, but he will support you and ask to join you whenever he can! He likes kickboxing a lot and whatever he learns from you he integrates into his breathing style to make it all the more personal.

Would 100% introduce you to anyone he thinks can help your passions, like making you and Giyuu friends so you can swim in the lakes surrounding the water mansion.

He would let you have your personal space whenever you were upset or feeling stressed because he knows above all else you see when you'll want him. Sometimes he might walk by just to make sure everything is good, and 'suddenly decide' to put his haori down near you before leaving. Not so you can use it as a blanket or feel his presence or anything...

Kyojuro is proud to have you for an s/o, because you are just so talented with so many hobbies, and you are just as fiery as him, except in more of an out-there way than his more clueless way. When he introduces you to his friends, you always seem to get along! And when you go on rescue missions for the younger slayers or civilians, you are so good at making them feel better and safe.

Of course, the flame hashira knows you love hugs, and he once heard from Shinobu that hugging someone for 20 seconds a day improves health! So he shares this information with you hoping you don't feel bad for clinging a little longer. Besides, it really does work; your hugs improve his performance in missions!

Overall, Kyojuro thinks you're too good for him, so he will always do his best to give you all the love and go above and beyond to match! Expect long letters when he is away, and always linking arms or leaning on one another when he's home.

Authors Note - Something about your user slapped me accross the face and threw me accross the room but in a good way! Thank you for requesting and i hope i was able to give you a good match <3

#matchup #demon slayer matchups #demon slayer #kimetsu no yaiba #kny #kyojuro

[disanddatmedia]

I'm going to fucking cry,

seriously.

I have an condition, PMR is what I was told but I don't fit it exactly, and Im now in flare up #2 in this month of july, my employer is demanding a doctors note and my GP is SUPER busy, but I need to see him because he knows what these flares up are to me, he knows the history, and apparently other doctors at that office fuck me around, and if I don't get this note to stay home since I barely can stand and walk, I'm worried ill lose my shitty job, despite being the worst fucking job ive ever been at, I need it, because I've looked and theres nothing better that I can physically/qualified to do, and its sad because my current job gives out the absolute minimum compensation possible legally for a 40 hr week, i didn't even get a second fucking shirt until i was there for 1 year and 7 months, my grandfather dies? I get a max of 3 days off unpaid per year because thats the government minimum, no raises (even when i had every goddam right to ask and get one), no benefits, no fucking nothing, just minimum wage and a fuck you, and I cant find better. since the cost of gas and groceries went sky high ive been stuck at around 2000+ in visa debt (was ZERO before the price hike) because 90-97% of all that is from groceries, gas, medicine, important shit, and I have no way to pay it back, ive been spending as minimum as possible and putting as much as possible from my paycheck into it but it always goes back to 2000+, and I cant get a second job because Im already maxed out basically from my other job.

I was told by my doctor that I have to have less stress in my life ad maybe it will be less often that i get flare ups. HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSE TO DO THAT! I kmow he means well and hes probably right but how the fuck am i suppose to do that? my biggest stresses are (in order): Financial, work/job, mental health. Im not able to get any fucking help with fucking any of it (even mental health, to see a psychologist, it be almost a year, when i asked if i could any sooner, i was told that it is usually 5 year wait)

And ill be honest, if i wasn't renting from my sister but instead a random fuck, i be homeless by now, my rent is cheap because theyre not looking to make money off of me and she cares bout me. but if i had a random? rent be higher and i wont be able to pay for it unless i literally straved.

there is no freedom in being poor, only pain, suffering, and hell.

I get told to get a better job, but fucking how? there is nothing.

i get told to get a second job, how? i can barely make it through the 8 hour shift 5 days a week.

i get told to go back to school, how? Im already in debt with the bank so they're not going to want to loan to me, also i cant even get my mental health controlled which includes learning disabilities, and then its also a matter of what i can actually get into because its been like 9 years since i was in school, i didn't do that well, and im not going to get accepted into anything unless it too is a job thats minimum wage

i get told to be smarter with money, I can't exactly do more than I already am, im doing everything i can to get out and its not happening anytime soon (also owe my father 2000, at least he understands my shit position)

go talk to a mental health worker? Im trying, i cant afford paid therapy and psychologist so i have to wait forever for one i can see for free

this is not living, this is not getting by, this is suffering, and this suffering is from higher ups in government and corporations, they do not care how im doing until i am camped outside there area, which it will be only to kick me out and destroy my shit

cons dont care, its always "get a better job, pull yourself up by the bootstraps" but their is no fucking bootstraps, and my body is getting more and more fucked to where if there was straps and if it was possible to do it in general, my body is too weak to do so

living and existence is suffering in hell with no way out

i hope to find an out but im very doubtful at this point that their will be

[alluzja]

SKAM S03E01 - VOCABULARY

skam - shame

høy musikk - loud music

fredag - friday

pa - on

bra - good

både - both

dritdeilige - hot (prob slang idk)

nei - no

pulbar - doable (able to be achieved) (cont. hun er ikke pulbar)

hæ - what

tenker - thinking

at - that

enda finere - even nicer

fin - nice

fått så lav standard - do you have a low standard?

(så - such) (lav standard - low standards)

hva er det med deg? - whats up with you?

du burde vaert mye mindre kresen så stygg som du er - you should be much less picky as ugly as you are

(burde - should) (vaert - be) (mye mindre - much less) (kresen - picky) (så stygg som du er - as ugly as u are)

ingen - no

ikke en eneste? - not a single one? / not one?

Jeg kunne pult alle i første - i could have gotten with every first years

(kunne - could) (alle - everyone)

hør på meg - listen to me

kort, mørkt hår - short, dark hair

pen - pretty

har sett - have seen

Hun som ligner på Natalie? - does she look like natalie?

(som - as)

Jeg tror ikke du har kjangs - I dont believe u have a chance

(kjangs - chance) (tror - believe)

Ikke i dette livet eller det neste - Not in this life or the next one

(dette - this) (livet - life) (eller - or) (neste - next)

holdt på med - kept on with

han var hoy og mork, du er ingen av delene - he was tall and dark, you are none of the parts

(hoy - tall) (ingen - no/neither/nobody)

hvorfor skulle jeg bry meg om det? - why should i care about that?

Da vet du hvor standarden ligger - then you know where her standards lie

(ligger - is located)

Når en jente dater en 20 år gammel modell, skal hun ikke finne en til. - When a girl dates a 20 year old model, she should not find another.

(når - when) (dater - date) (år gammel - years old) (finne - find) (en til - another)

ta stæsjet - take the plunge (meaning: o make a decision to do something, especially after thinking about it for a long time)

Jeg stresser stresser like mye med det - I'm too stressed to have it

Ta det selv - take it yourself

Gjem det - hide it

Jeg kan ikke ha det pa meg - I can't have it with me

(kan - can) (på meg - with me[in this situation, usually just on me,with me, depending on the meaning])

ditt - yours

Bare la ham ta det - Just let him take it

(bare - just) (let - la) (ham - him) (ta - take)

Kjenner ham ikke engang - I don't even know him

(kjenner - know) (engang - once(?)[in this sentence it means "even"])

Hva prater du om? - What are u talking about?

(om - about) (prater - talking longly nonsense)

Du sitter jo og røyker med ham - Youre sitting here and smoke with him

(jo - here[in this case]) (røyker - smoke) (med - with)

Selvfølgelig - of course

gjør - does gjøre - do

er helt sikker - to be quite sure

Hva skulle dere gjort uten meg, da? - what would you do without me, then?

Hva skjer nå? Lukk døra. Jeg skal tisse - What happens now? Close the door. I have to pee

Lukk dora drit kjapt, da. - Shut the door, then.

(lukk - close) (døra - door) (kjapt - fast) (drit - shit, slang)

Ikke bare gå! Jeg ble sittende med han nørden! - Don't just leave. I was stuck there with that nerd.

(gå - go, walk, also: enter, hike, exit)

Jeg måtte tisse - I have to pee

(måtte - must)

Dama di - Your girl

Det her er dritkjedelig - this is boring.

(dritkjedelig - boring)

Halla - Hi (slang)

Lykke dil - good luck

Vi var hos Sana og røyka noen piller - We were at Sana's place and smoked some pills

(noen - some) (piller - pills) (var - were) (hos - at)

De var ikke blå - They were not blue

(blå - blue)

Tror det er de samme - I think they are the same

(tror - think) (de samme - the same) (ligner (på) - looks like)

lille - little

This little boy is actually a girl. Eleven.

egentlig - really/actually/in fact

Så sykt frekt sagt - So damn rude!

(så sykt - so rude) (frekt - rude) (sagt - said)

Nei. Hun er jo søt, hun - No, She is so sweet.

(jo søt - so sweet)

Hæ? Jeg bare kødda - What? Huh? I am just kidding.

(kødda - tuller/kidding[slang])

Seriously. I am kidding. I am sorry.

(helt serr - completly seriously) (unskyld - im sorry)

Emma. You are damn beautiful.

(jævlig - damn) (vakker - beautiful)

Vi stikker - we are leaving

Vet du om disse funker? - Do you know if these work?

(disse - these) (funker - work)

La meg se - Let me see

trøtt - tired

av det - of it

vil - want

sjekker - look for/search

[busylilbee]

BIG fuck you to the giant group of tourists who rented 4 jeeps and came into our building's parking garage blasting music and screaming to each other out their windows DONT BE A DICK OR GO A W A Y

#god i hate staying at our waikiki home its so fucking annoying being around these people #theres a guy who owns like 50 units and rents them out like a god damn hotel #and so theres always a bunch of short term tourists staying there #i hate them #theyre always so rude #im sure some are fine but the ones i interact with are horrible #no consideration whatsoever #also just got back from grabbing lunch the people next door (who i know are one of Don's hotel rental people) are having a raging party #with music blasting and i saw 2 people come out helping another dude walk like hes too drunk to walk or some shit #i hate it here #personal #if you ever go on vacation somewhere please be considerate of others #otherwise you are a massive dick and i hope you scratch your rental car and get a nice big fee for it ☺☺☺ #people always gush about how lucky i am to live here and sure but also its stressful bc i cant go hiking or go to the beach #or do any of the fun stuff without having my already elevated blood pressure rise bc of the dumbasses i am forced to encounter #literally no place is safe anymore #when i was a kid we used to be able to go to kailua beach and walk and swim and just have a nice relaxing day amongst a few other groups #but now?? its horrible its ALWAYS f u l l of people and rental companies are set up so theres people renting kayaks and surfboards #we barely go there anymore bc theres never any parking and its so fucking crowded with visitors that its no longer relaxing #i dont understand how people can go on vacation somewhere and just act like they own the place #okay i need to stop thinking about this its making me upset lol #might delete this later idk

[kaeyaskvnt]

Its me, im your little helper 

☼ geo statue of the seven x f!traveler reader

☼ humiliation/embarrassment kink, voyeurism in a sense, thigh riding, praise, dirty talk, degradation, sick(?)reader

☼ a/n: dont question me ( ´◡`)

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You know you shouldn’t be doing this, always leaning on him for support, this time physically. But you couldn’t help it, he without fail would keep you safe. You felt like you had a connection with him, always running to him when things got though, the sigh of relief when you finally saw his light shine in the distance knowing you'd be taken care of. But him taking care of you in this sense never came into your mind until today.

Fever running high as your commissions tore you apart, gliding to him was the first thing did, as usual. Completely relying on him instead of the cathedral or food. Head dizzy as your wings gave out, stamina running empty as you basically threw yourself in his hard lap, wincing but quickly growing comfortable as your body rested in his hand, instantly feeling his power run through you.

Laying limp there for what felt like forever as you rested in his hold, finally gaining enough strength to adjust yourself while you place your head on his big chest, legs moving to straddle his thigh.

Snuggling up to him like he was a teddy bear as you accidently grazed your clit. A little gasp slipping between your lips as you gently rocked your hips back and forth against him. Not even realizing what you were doing, and fuck it felt so good. 

You were so busy with requests and bounties that you never had time to take care of yourself, head getting thrown back as your skirt was hiked up, eyes fluttering open to see his large body beneath you, remembering where you were.

Feeling ashamed as his gaze peeking out from under his hood on you, eyes locked into place.

Squeezing your eyes shut and looking the other way to block out any thoughts that weren't for your own pleasure.

 Brought back to reality as you felt his cold rough fingers graze your back, his palm gripping itself against your waist. So full of lust that you weren't even in awe. Only feeling his grip grow firmer as you didnt stop your hips.

“Such a bad girl, I always take care of you and this is what you do, hm?” 

His deep voice sounded outworldly as his body eerily moved closer to yours, so slow and in control. “I even give you more than you need, such a greedy little thing, aren't you?”

He couldn't help it, you were so loyal to him. Always running around on your last breath getting geolucus and only giving them to him. Your face so drained and tired all for him, he got the slightest bit addicted to it. 

Justifying his actions as give and take, but he couldn't bring himself to admit how much he favored you, even though you were so blatantly obvious about it with him.

“Go on, you always take what you want from me, so why stop now?”

The slight threat in his tone to tell you to continue made your legs clench around his thigh, pussy throbbing from getting bossed around like the little slut you were. The shame fading from getting caught and turning you on insead.

“Don't shy away, come here.” Spreading his legs further apart and his hand wrapped around your waist, pulling you closer to him. “Treating me like I'm your throne, it's only right you listen to me.”

Instantly shaking your head as your full pleasure was in his hands, fingers scratching onto his chest, dwarfed by his size as you mewled out for more. “Yeah,i-, ah, m’your greedy little slut!”

“Really?” He slightly chuckled, sounding entertained that those dirty words came out of that cute mouth of yours. His head moving down to your hip as he leaned back against his throne, a grin opposite of his lust filled eyes appearing, his breath feeling like wind as he spoke, almost knocking you off his lap if his grip wasn't so strong.  

Hearing his low voice get raspier as he leaned into your ear. “Why don't you show me that you're mine?” 

Inching closer to him while pressing harder and harder against his thigh, head falling back once again as your hips stuttered, a whimper falling from your swollen lips at the jolt of pleasure. Your pleas growing faster and faster as you jerked your hips hysterically, trying to chase your high.

“That's my good girl.” 

The word ’my’ making your heart and pussy skip a beat. Jerking his knee up, catching your clit as he bounced his leg up and down, falling into his arms as he did the work for you. Your desperate and filthy whines echoing around the mountains, so desolate except the two of you.

“So needy, if only you could see yourself.” His stone cold fingers tracing your tears down to your lips, easily taking up your whole face. “...Trying to cum just from rubbing your desperate little cunt on my thigh.”

Nodding frantically as you shoved your head into him wanting his touch all over you.. “Use your words. Tell me what you need.”

“W-wanna cum, please! Need it s-, ngh, so bad, please! ”

“Yeah? You gonna rub that selfish little cunt on me until you cum?” He muttered as you choked back a drawn out cry as it hit you, hips struggling to move as he does it for you, his hands on you tummy while he pushes you back and forth, stroking you though your orgasm, 

“That’s it, good girl.” he praises, holding your head close to his chest. Twitching as that was the first time you've cum in for what felt like months, mind already elsewhere while your body slumps forward, resting completely on him. 

Melting into his chest, swearing you could feel his arms wrap around you, as you dug your head further in, feeling so at peace for once. Not caring about anything or anyone but yourself. All the stress falling off your body as your eyes closed shut, your long awaited sleep was finally here as you dozed off.

Body turning to your side as you jumped up, eyes quickly opening as the sun shone down on you. Noticing that there was no mess between your thighs, wondering if you just had a wet fever dream, looking down as it looked like you just washed off while you jumped off his lap. 

Grabbing your bags and heading back to the inn, walking the slowest you ever have as your eyes were lingering back at him more than once as you felt like an anchor was tied between you two.

Heat rising to your face in embarrassment as you questioned if that really happened, bringing the back of your palm up to your forehead, seeing if you were still ill and hallucinated it all. But you knew one thing as your eyes meet him one last time, and that was you’d come back to him, always 

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I’m on the team - pt 3

Pt 1 pt 2 pt 4

Summery: the first day of training camp!!

Tw!!! scratching (self harm scratching), panic attack

It’s strange, over the week the team has been super busy, practicing and studying. I helped Tsuki with Hinata and Kageyama trying to make sure they pass there exams, Iv gotten pretty close with the two, there both really fun, and watching them both struggle with classes and Tsuki scolding them is super funny. Sadly the two didn’t pass their exams and are both super upset. I remember when we were getting our test scores back i rushed to their classroom with Yams hoping to see them both super excited only to see Hinata come out pouting, and Kageyama with this super dejected look like he was super disappointed in himself for his grades. They were assured tho that they would be able to get to the training camp just a bit late!

We’re headed to the training camp, me Tsuki and yams are all sitting together, me and Tsuki on one side and yams on the seat across the isle. I’m starting to get nervous, not knowing how other teams are going to react to me being there! They don’t even know who I am, or my situation!

“Tsuki!! What if their angry! Maybe I shouldn’t have come- or-or maybe I shouldn’t have even joined, we don’t know how people are going to react!”

“It’s going to be ok (Y/N) im sure their all nice.” Yams said with this super supportive smile

“Yeah and if anyone bothers you I’ll take care of them.” Tsuki says knocking shoulders with me giving me a small smile.

“Yeah (Y/N) don’t worry! You’ve got all of us, we won’t let anything happen!” Suga says turning around, seemingly having heard me freaking out.

I sigh starting to scratch my hands a nervous habit of mine. After a minute or two Tsuki notices grabbing my hand giving me a disapproving look. He reaches down into the backpack he brought on the bus looking for something, pulling out a stress ball and hands it to me.

The rest of the bus ride me Tsuki and Yams ended up falling asleep, I guess I tired myself out with all of my stressing.

We got to Tokyo faster then I thought, the bus ride felt way to quick! But I guess that happens when you sleep, it’s like time travel.

Getting off the bus we were greeted by some guy with crazy strange rooster hair, I quickly moved to hide behind Tsuki still scared about meeting the other guys. Daichi went over to talk to rooster head while the rest of us got our bags off the bus Tanaka and Noya pushing me and Tsuki and Yams to “walk faster” and “get more excited”.

I overhear The guy Daichi is talking to saying “ your missing a few aren’t you? Wait who’s the new kid” I move closer to Tsuki hoping his tallness will hide me, “why does the new kid look so scared of me.” all I can think about is what if they’re transphobic, what if they don’t want me here, what’s going to happen when they find out. “I’ll tell you about him in a bit.” Daichi responds giving me a concerned look. Tsuki makes a comment about annoying volleyball guys while nudging me to try and get my attention, he and Yams start bickering a little bit and Noya and Tanaka are practically bouncing off the walls and it keeps me distracted.

We were pointed towards the room we’d be staying in putting our bags down and changing. I started getting more nervous, Iv never met these people before and they don’t know my situation. What if I walk on the court and someone yells at me, what if people start asking questions, what if one of them gets super angry and starts yelling at me, what if the team decides they actually side with them! What if-

“(Y/N)” it’s Tsuki and Suga, the two are standing in front of me, Suga is holding my hands and Tsuki has a hand on my back.

“Come on let’s sit down yeah,” the two move me to go sit on a windowsill I look over their shoulders and see all the guys looking at me, I don’t know why I feel so small now, I know them all, I know their not judging me, but I still feel like the piercing stare I’m getting from them is too much. I see Asahi start moving and coming to stand next to Suga on the opposite side from Tsuki.

“Hey (Y/N) I need you to breath for me ok,” he gives me a really concerned look I hadn’t even realized I was hyperventilating, taking one of my hands from Suga and putting it on his chest taking big deep breaths so that I can feel it. “In and out, in and out.” The two words being repeated like a mantra.

Once I’m breathing slightly better Tsuki starts asking questions

“are you lightheaded?”

“Kinda”

“did you eat this morning”

“no”

“why?”

“Didn’t have time.”

“Can someone go grab a granola bar or something?” I see some movement and I think it was Noya who left to go grab something for me to eat. “Are you nervous about training camp?”

“Yes” I say quietly hoping that only he can hear

“Is it because you haven’t played a real game yet.”

I shake my head, I haven’t even thought about that fact that I’m going to be playing a real game for the first time, the only people Iv played against is the team.

“Is it because your afraid people are going to be mean about your gender?”

“I- yes,”

I see everyone look around, I guess they hadn’t thought this was really that big of a deal, but for me, this isn’t something that happens normally, while they all had the door to this space opened to them, I had to hike up a mountain to just get to the door, and I’m just scared that once I get into the space that they all see as a right, is a privilege that most people like me don’t have, it isn’t a space I’m normally supposed to be in, and once you realize my situation everyone knows it.

Suga pulls on my hands making me face him. “ it’s gunna be ok (Y/N), if anyone says anything we’ll deal with it. You’ve got the team! We’re going to make sure your ok.” Suga says with a reassuring smile.

Noya quickly gets back in the room with a granola bar and a water bottle sliding in front of me to hand them both to me. “Thanks Noya” it’s a couple more minutes that I sit there catching my breath before I give everyone a nod letting them know I’m ok, everyone starts to disperse to Finnish getting ready.

Tsuki went over to his bag giving me an extra shirt he had, just like when I first stopped wearing my binder while playing. It’s a reassuring gesture. I get changed and everyone starts leaving before Tsuki grabs my hand, holding me back for a second.

“Your gunna be ok. I promise. And if you get scared or anything just let me or Suga or Daichi know and we’ll get you off the court ok?”

“Thanks Tsuki.”

Tsuki speeds up a little bit to get to yams and Daichi slows down a bit to get back to me.

“Hey I wanted to let you know before we get in there, there might be a cupule people who know your situation, mainly Kuroo the captain of Nekoma, he’s the guy from when we first show up. And I think Kenma their setter might. Him and Kuroo are close and he’s friends with hinata, and we’ll you know hinata. Other then that I’m not sure, they might have told some others but still I can’t tell you what the rest know.”

“Thanks Daichi, um did Kuroo seem chill about it when you told him?”

“Yeah, yeah definitely, I mean he was for sure surprised but, he ended up just saying ‘oh! That’s cool’ so I don’t think you have anything to worry about there.”

“Thanks Daichi.”

“Of course kid.”

We finally all get into the gym moving to get warmed up before our first game!

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Let’s just say we haven’t been winning much, Coach put me into Hinatas spot so Iv been playing a lot. Honestly Iv been so stressed about my gender that I didn’t have time to stress about the fact that Iv never been in a game before. Iv gotten a few good spikes in and have been blocking a bit, but I’m by no means super good! We’ve been doing lots of flying laps.

After one of our practice games with nekoma everyone was taking a break to drink some water when some guy with bleached long hair came over to me.

“Hey.” He said kind of quietly, he seemed pretty awkward like he doesn’t do this often.

“Hey?”

“Um I just wanna let you know- i mean I’m friends with hinata and he’s told me about your situation.”

“Ah I see”

“I just wanted to let you know I’m chill with it, all of us on Nekoma are, so you’ve got nothing to worry about with us.”

“Thanks. It’s uh really reassuring to hear that. I’m (Y/N)”

“Kenma.”

“It’s nice to meet you Kenma”

“So uh how long have you been playing, it’s just we did a practice game with you guys not to long again and you weren’t there.”

“Oh yeah umm I just started playing only a few weeks ago.”

“Wow really. Your pretty good for someone who’s never played before.”

“Ha thanks, but I really have my team to thank, they got me playing and have been pretty good teachers”

“I hope one of those teachers hasn’t been Hinata I’m pretty sure most of what he says to explain volleyball is sound-effects.”

“I know right! It’s like he doesn’t know words sometimes.”

“Yeah it’s really strange but you get used to it.”

“Haha I guess eventually I’ll learn to speak his strange language!”

“Yeah!” Kind of out of nowhere the guy from this morning Kuroo I think his name was wrapped an arm around Kenmas shoulders.

“Well well what do we have here! Is Kenma actually talking to someone!”

“Shut up Kuroo”

“Hi I’m Kuroo, (Y/N) right?”

“Yeah, yeah that’s me.”

“Well it’s nice to meet the newest player.” He sends me a wink, “come on Kenma our games about to start, it was nice to meet you (Y/N)!” The two walk off headed back to the court.

It’s a little bit later in the day that Hinata and Kageyama show up! Hinata taking my spot in the game, and honestly I’m grateful, this day has been exhausting.

An: hey guys! Thank you so much for reading! I hope you all liked this part!! I’m so excited to keel writing!! I take requests so if you have any please just message me!!!

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