#and when I DO try and offer sth fun sth that i normally do not do

[depthnessingsweet]

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#yahahahwhwhhsgdhavakshakak skwnw anxiety over having lost an essential part of my childhood hahwvdjdvwiqbnqbsjdvdkw qa #whos to blame? ME BITCH #idek what to say i just want to complain so badly #do i have friends now? yes #do i still have social anxietu like a motherfucking pussy??????? yes #i can NEVER FUCKING WIN IM SO SICK #lik oh yeah u wanna make memories ?????? TOO BAD HAAHAHAH #its all just a neverending cycle #like yeah i go out #i went out todag only to be offered a subtle pyramid scheme mhahahahahhahahaha i love hanging out!!!!!!!! im so normal about it!!!!! #and when I DO try and offer sth fun sth that i normally do not do #ppl are so SHOOK like yeah i get it but PLEQSE ACT NORMALLY ABOUT IT OK #bc otherwise i WILL feel insecure and backtrack several steps back #steps i barely took forward #plplplplplplspslspslslsl i just want normal fun activities why is it so fucking hard #why did i have to be such a bitch #still be such a bitch #all my fucking fault

[iridescentinkangel]

StH: Minthe the Rabbit

Did I make her last year & never posted her? Yes. Because I didn't wanna post a character reff without giving you all her bio. But, I started not caring about that on my DA & posted her either way. I did do her bio just a couple days ago anyway. But I will try to show more on here as far as character refs.

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Minthe the Rabbit Age: 23 Gender: Female DOB: Dec. 4th Species: Rabbit Occupation: Artist, Volunteers & helps others from time to time

Personality:

Sweet, kind, creative, forgiving, sympathetic, hardworking, courageous, generous, mindful, fun loving, & helpful.

Likes: 

Cute plushies, ice cream(mint chip is her fav), baking, art, crafting, fantasy stories, video games, rock/metal music, snowy days, beach trips, visual novels, & gardening. Dislikes:

Liars, manipulators, double crossers, rude/entitled people, spiders, thunder storms, walking at night. Hobbies/Talents: Baking, cooking, crafting, painting, drawing, gaming, yoga, wood work, basic repair skills, hand to hand combat, gardening. 

Facts & Bio:

Eldest daughter of Vanilla & Miso(Vanilla’s late husband).

Older sister of Cream.

Chocola is her chao buddy.

Lives in a small home on the outskirts of a small town all located in Green Hill Zone.

Joined the resistance when Sonic disappeared. She wanted to protect her family like her father once did when she was a child. Her mother was against it at first, but knew she couldn’t keep her daughter from doing what she thought was right. 

Minthe knew this was gonna be hard for her mom, since they lost her father during a botched mission when his old team was still operational. Since that happened, they’ve disbanded. But she reassured her mother that she wouldn’t let herself end up like that. Promising to stay safe during her time there. 

Months after defeating Eggman during their final battle at his old base, she comes back to it to look for scrap to use & things to possibly sell. Any parts that could be used to fix household appliances & such. That’s when she came upon a rather surprising sight. Infinite! He was out cold. Laying up against some rubble & looking rather banged up from her last encounter with him. She had thought he perished after the Phantom Ruby was destroyed. But here he was. Somehow still alive after this long. She considered leaving him there, but she just didn’t have the heart to do that. So, she brought him back to her home. 

She had laid him on her couch at the time. Looking in her bathroom cabinet for the first aid kit she had around. When she heard some commotion in her living room. When she got back in, he was awake, & rather shocked by the new environment he was somehow in. As she approached him, he looked surprised to see her. Thought she captured him. But she explained to him what happened in the final fight. At first he didn’t believe her. But when he looked over at a mirror she had hanging up, he saw how he looked. She truly wasn’t lying. But what surprised him more, was that she was patching him up. Being careful not to cause him any pain. He wasn’t used to this kind nature from her. For him…..it felt nice.

With nowhere else to go, Infinite became her new roommate. 

Minthe does a lot of volunteering & favors for others around Sunflower Cove(towns name she lives near). That & her crafts is how she keeps a steady income going.

Cream & Cheese often come over to visit. Even spending the night.

Whenever her mother needs help around her place, Minthe will come over & offer her service. It’s normal for her to fix appliances & such for her mother.

Cream will normally go to Minthe when she wants to hear stories about their dad. Sense he passed before she was born, she relies on Minthe to give her an idea of what kind of a person was like.

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#iridescentinkangel #digital art #Sonic the Hedgehog #Sonic Oc #Minthe the Rabbit #oc art

[mbti-notes]

Anon wrote: I am an INFJ and I have an issue with watching stuff. I basically get into a bad bingeing session whenever I start to watch anything on youtube or watch tv series online. The thing is, I think I have a bad dopamine dysregulation. I'm not trying to deflect my personal responsibility, but I think it's more like a consequence of my past experiences with dopamine. For example, I eat sweets everyday and I feel compelled to do it, every day. Otherwise I will feel that my day is somehow deficient. My sweet consumption, thankfully, isn't as damaging or excessive like watching. I have a routine where I have my ceremony for drinking tea and eating sweets, and after that I can go about my daily tasks.

With watching, I can get stuck for days on end. I had quit watching stuff cold-turkey about 4 months ago I guess and I was living nicely. Recently, I was thinking whether I can or should start watching stuff from time to time. After all, stupid soap dramas are fun and youtube can be immensely informative. Before I had made up my mind about this, last week, due to situational factors, I just started to watch a certain tv show. Here we are, after 4 days of bingeing a show. The truth is, the show was simply badly made. It really was garbage, but I still kept watching. I wasn't even excited about it. To save myself from the utter boredom of that show, I watched a couple episodes of another old series in-between.

Now I am sitting, tempted to watch something else (that show is over). In the first day, I think I watched about 7 hours of content, and i went to bed at 6 am. At this point, I feel like you're going to tell me I have not enough responsibilities in life, if I can sleep the whole day after bingeing. True, and even if I have responsibilities I seem to have a good skill of deflecting them. I have an assignment to submit in a couple days and I keep trying to work on it, but now I have to tackle both the unwillingness to work as well as the temptation to mindlessly watch. I guess Fe should help, but whenever I try to persuade myself by saying "Your actions have consequences for others" or sth of that sort, it only makes me feel worse and it doesn't generate meaningful action. Best I can do is freeze, because the only action I do want to take is the action I shouldn't be taking. I understand that I need to learn to use my Fe better, especially for decision-making, but I have a hard time understanding how.

In terms of practicalities, I know a lot about addiction and other dopamine-related issues. The way to fix this is straightforward: quit cold-turkey, don't engage in highly dopamine-stimulating activities, restore my dopamine baseline, etc. I was lucky to find good sources for these issues, many thanks to people who have shed light on this. But the question is, does it mean I can never watching anything in my life ever again? Is there really no way to watch something here and there like normal people and not lose my control entirely? When it comes to serious addictions, like alcohol or drug addiction, some people really are advised to abstain for life. Alcohol and drugs are bad for people, but watching videos can be beneficial (provided that I don't watch idiotic tv shows which I just did).

I understand that this problem is also exacerbated by my low Se. I wish I could treat my Se nicely and have good experiences, but when I quit watching stuff totally, I feel like I am repressing a part of my Se that wants to explore different things through videos. For example, I like watching nature documentaries. In terms of other Se engagements, I pay good attention to satisfying my Se needs. Prior to this week, I have been sleeping well, eating well and trying to visit new places, go out into the sun, etc. It's been a long time since I exercised and that, I indeed need to resume. I think developing Fe-Ti should help alleviate the extremity that I go into with watching. I'd be thankful if you offered your perspective on this. After all, if nothing works I will probably quit cold turkey again.

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You're basically describing Se grip issues. Since you don't really recognize it, perhaps you need to educate yourself about inferior grip and why it's a serious matter, refer to the study guides.

People with compulsions are not very aware of their underlying motivations, and this seems to be true of you. You say you understand addiction, but I disagree. You mention some dopamine related mechanism but that's a gross oversimplification. There are different forms of dependence that lead to addiction. Going cold turkey is necessary and safer when you suffer every form of dependence. I don't think you should be comparing yourself to those extreme cases.

There is nothing wrong with the activity of watching itself and there are even some legitimate benefits to be had. But there is something wrong with your heavy dependence on it and the utter lack of control you have over your habits due to the dependence. This raises many questions regarding why you are so dependent or how this dependence formed in the first place. Things to reflect on.

You don't seem to recognize the complexity of psychological dependence or understand how it happens. People fall into psychological dependence when they use certain things/activities as a coping mechanism, i.e., to avoid confronting the true extent of their pain and suffering. It is no coincidence that Se grip in INFJs means using Se-related activities to escape and mask a deeper emotional problem. What is the deeper problem exactly? I don't know. You lack insight into it, so you haven't provided enough info for me to make a judgment. But if you're like other INFJs, it's most likely related to you not wanting to acknowledge the true extent of how unhappy you are with yourself and/or your life.

The remedy to inferior grip is 1) restore healthy dominant functioning, and then 2) work on auxiliary development -> in that order. Therefore, Fe-Ti is not the right direction to go at this time. What's up with your Ni? What needs to change in that department?

#infj #se grip #addiction #ask

[jungshookz]

omg it’s me again i just thought of sth and only you can make it so good;; EMT seokjiN and this prompt i saw sth like “will you stop flirting with me? you just got seriously injured and I’m the emt trying to tend to your wounds, i don’t give a fuck that i look cute when i’m concerned, you’re lucky you’re not dead you dipshit”

➺ pairing; emt!seokjin x reader 

➺ genre; sfw!! namjoon is clumsy!! y/n is particularly cheeky that even i was like :0!! and handsome seokjin is simply handsome!! 

➺ wordcount; 4.9k

➺ what to expect; “i’m just checking out your pupils, darling. trust me. you’ll know when i’m about to kiss you.” 

➺ note; i thought i’d kick off the christmas with cee event with a jin drabble seeing as it was recently his birthday!! also i hope this drabble pumps you UP for the other drabbles that’ll be posted this month <3 happy deceember!! 

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“i just don’t think this is a super good idea, you know?” namjoon mutters sheepishly, looking down at you while you busy yourself with tightening his laces, “i mean, i can barely walk three steps without tripping over a normal floor, so i don’t know if me on ice is going to be any better-”

“oh, will you please give it a break? i’ve got you!” you get up off the ground before dusting your knees off, “besides, you were the one who said you wanted to try ice-skating - and it’s not like the ice skating rink is as steep as a mountain or anything. it’s all nice and flat! see?” you gesture towards the zamboni currently making its rounds on the ice, “and we came here just in time for a nice, clean layer of ice for us to skate on. there’s nothing that could go wrong!”

“nothing that could go wrong?!” namjoon gawks, hoisting his foot up so he can rest his ankle across his knee, “look at this thing, y/n! what kind of a shoe is this?” he taps his fingernail against the metal blade before quickly retracting his hand and shuddering, “these things are literal weapons- why can’t i just skate without the skates?”

“because that... wouldn’t be ice-skating anymore? that’d just be... ice-walking. and your sneakers won’t do you any good on the ice, anyway,” you shake your head before shrugging, “the blades are supposed to help you, like- they get a… solid grip on the ice and it helps you move around better, you know? something like that.”

namjoon scoffs and leans back on the bench, “please explain to me how a thin metal blade is supposed to get a solid grip on ice-”

“look, the offer to get you one of those little kiddie things for you to hold onto still stands.” you point over to the front counter, “they have one that looks like a penguin! it’s adorable! i mean, i think it’s a little shorter than your knees so you might have to crouch down a little if i get one for you-”

“wha-” namjoon immediately frowns before crossing his arms, “y/n, i am a grown man. i don’t need to hold onto a penguin-”

“okay, suit yourself!” you chirp, sticking your hand out for him, “c’mon, you manly man. i wanna get on the ice! i’ve been waiting all week for this-”

namjoon grumbles curses under his breath as he pushes himself up off the bench

penguin

he doesn’t need a penguin!

how dare you!!!!!

you can’t help but giggle as you watch him waddle towards you, being very careful not to fall over and twist an ankle

admittedly, bringing namjoon to an ice skating rink probably wasn’t the best idea

one time he sprained his ankle after tripping over literally nothing and he had to use a crutch for like two weeks

he’s verY susceptible to injuries 

when he first brought up the idea of going to an ice-skating rink you were going to turn him down and suggest something safer and more namjoon friendly...

but it’s december!

and december is literally the time to go ice-skating!

and there’s always a hot chocolate truck that’s parked right by the rink so hopefully you’ll be able to soothe namjoon’s bruised bum (you’re betting that namjoon’s bum will be all sorts of bruised after ten minutes on the ice) with extra whipped cream and marshmallows

hopefully he won’t be as grumpy as he is now when he’s sipping on a big ol mug of rich, creamy hot chocolate

“we’re going to have so much fun! the last time i went skating, i-” as soon as you slide onto the ice, namjoon suddenly yanks you backwards

you turn to look at him only to see him gripping onto the railing for dear life

he’s not even on the ice yet!

big ol’ wimp

“what’s the matter? cold feet?” you joke, namjoon giving you an unimpressed frown, “what?? you have to admit that was a good joke-”

“that was an awful joke-”

“namjoon…” you purse your lips and place your free hand on your hip, “you know that you have to be on the ice in order to ice skate, right?” you give his hand a reassuring squeeze, “i’m not going to let you fall. i promise! but in the rare case that you do fall, feel free to fall on top of me to cushion your blow. i’ll gladly break a couple of ribs just to keep you from hitting the ground!”

“what happens if you skate circles around me and end up cutting a circle into the ice and then i fall in??”

oh god

here we go

“that’s not going to happen, namjoon.” you shake your head, “because we’re not in a cartoon.”

“what happens if i accidentally fall backwards and end up stabbing myself in the eye with the blade?”

“that’s not going to happen, namjoon- first of all, the tip of the blade is rounded off, so you won’t be stabbing anything at all, and second of all, we both know you’re not nearly flexible enough for your body to be able to bend in half like that-

“what happens if i fall to the ground and someone skates over my fingers and slices them off?!”

“that’s not going to-” you pause for a split second, “well, that could happen, so maybe just don’t fall and remember to keep your hands off the ice-”

“okay, well- i don’t want to do this anymore!!!” namjoon lets go of your hand and you resist the urge to fall to the ground and let out a primal screech of rage, “if there’s even a chance that i’m going to lose the tip of one finger today, there’s no way in hell i’m getting onto the ice-”

“you’re not going to lose any fingers-”

“how can you be so sure?!”

you immediately shut up before reaching up to pinch the bridge of your nose

you love namjoon with all your heart but sometimes he’s just.., a little much

he’s not very big on risk-taking

he’s always been very content just staying within his comfort zone which is fine! 

you never pressure him into doing anything if he very clearly is uncomfortable with it

with that being said, it’s just that whenever you even try to nudge him like a centimetre out of his safety bubble, he flips out on you just like how he’s flipping out right now

like that one time you made him try a vanilla bean frappucino (arguably the plainest most basic frappucino flavour on the starbucks menu) instead of his usual iced americano and after he took a sip he accused you of trying to make him get diabetes

it’s not like you’re purposely trying to torment him by forcing him to ice skate

you just wanted to come here and have a good time with your friend!

“namjoon, you seriously need to calm down-”

“i am calm! i am so calm! in fact, i’ve never been MORE CALM-!”

it doesn’t take long for you and namjoon to start bickering with each other, the both of you too wrapped up in yelling at each other to notice the weird glances you’re getting from everyone

“all i’m trying to say is that the only reason why we’re here in the first place is because you said that you wanted to try-”

“yeah, and now i change my mind! what, are you saying i’m not allowed to change my mind?”

“i never- i never said you weren’t allowed to change your mind, i just want you to try to understand that it can be a little frustrating for me to set everything up for you only for you to chicken out at the end-”

“chicken out?! how dare you?! i am not chickening- i’m backing out for the safety of my eyeballs and my hands-”

“i said i would hold your hand the whole time!”

“that’s not secure enough! you holding my hand on slippery ice as a form of safety is equivalent to me getting on a rollercoaster using flimsy shoelaces to tie me to the seat-”

“that’s why i said i would get you the penguin so that you have two handles to hold onto-”

“i don’t want the friggin’ penguin!” namjoon snaps, stepping aside when a little kid nudges past him only to immediately glide onto the ice

the two of you pause to watch him and you gawk when he starts zipping back and forth like a maniac

that could be you right now

you, too, could be having a blast on the ice right now if it weren’t for your manbaby friend over here

you gesture to the random child currently twirling around on the ice before scoffing, “namjoon! look at him! if that literal toddler can do that on the ice, you can at least step forward to stand on the ice-”

“that is not a child, that is just a very tiny professional ice skater-”

you press your lips together in frustration as namjoon continues to list off reasons why the two of you should just go for hot chocolate and then go straight home

and for a second you think about giving up and just giving him what he wants but...

no

no way!

you are noT letting him talk himself out of this one this time

you wanna go ice skating today and you’re going to figure out a way to make both you and namjoon happy

okay

so he doesn’t want to hold your hand

he doesn’t want the penguin

what other options do you have??

you twiddle with the end of your scarf before pausing and looking down at it

…

lightbulb

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“alrighty… how does that feel?” you tighten the knot before giving namjoon’s stomach a pat, “nice and secure?”

yep

that’s right

you ended up tying your scarf around namjoon’s waist like some kind of a leash

you’re really hoping people won’t think this is one of those pet-play situations where namjoon is your human puppy and you’re his BDSM dominatrix

you’re not shaminG the kink or anything!!!

you’re just not into the whole arf arf roll over thing

it probably didn’t help that you wore a leather trench coat today

the weather’s finally cooled down enough for you to wear it so obviouSLY you had to wear your super cool leather trench coat but now you feel like you should take it off just in case it makes you look like you’re... into barking

namjoon hooks a finger into the scarf and gives it a little tug, “…i suppose… this is better than nothing…”

“great!” you sigh in relief, “so… i’m gonna take it nice and slow, okay? we’ll start off with some basic gliding and then we’ll go from there.”

unfortunately the ice is a little rougher now because it took like twenty minutes for namjoon to practice just standing on the ice without toppling over

you’re just glad that he’s now willing to actually give skating a try instead of giving up and going home

this is progress!!

you wonder if you’ll ever be able to convince him to go skydiving with you one day

...baby steps

“so, gliding is kind of like… it’s kind of like marching, i guess?” you hum, “it’ll help you transition into skating. you’re gonna march two steps forward and then let yourself just glide forward…” you wrap the end of the scarf around your fist to really make sure that it won’t slip from your fingers (because you’re 100% sure that namjoon will have a meltdown if you let go of it) as you continue to skate backwards slowly, watching namjoon’s feet like a hawk

you’re surprised he hasn’t fallen yet what with his wobbly knees

“am i… am i doing it??” namjoon asks dumbly and you can’t help but grin when he starts to pick up the movement

thank god he’s a fast learner

“hey, look at you go!” you laugh lightly, giving him a thumbs up, “you’re doing it! i mean, we’re going pretty slowly... but you’re doing it!”

namjoon reaches forward to grab onto the scarf when he wobbles a little and you immediately stop so that he can rebalance himself

(you don’t know how you’re going to catch him if he falls because he’s definitely going to end up crushing you and breaking all the bones in your body)

the two of you spend the next twenty minutes or so slowly making your way around the rink

for the most part, namjoon does just fine

there was one point where a little kid knocked into him from behind and he nearly fell over buT luckily he grabbed onto the railing before anything happened

he looked like he was fully ready to chase after the kid to strangle him but that’s beside the point

you let out an impatient little sigh as people continue to whiz past you

boo

you wanna do some whizzing too!

“are you…” you trail off, looking back over at namjoon, “okay to move on to stroking?”

namjoon’s brows furrow as he lets go of the scarf after regaining his balance, “stroking?”

“mhm!” you nod, turning to glance over your shoulder for a second to make sure there’s no one behind you, subtly skating backwards a tiny bit quicker, “it’s literally just, like, a longer version of gliding. you just extend the same motion for a longer period of time, that’s all.”

“oh... like... like this?” namjoon pushes off a little harder and you nod enthusiastically at the smooth movement

“yeah, there you go!” you laugh when namjoon picks it up with no problem, “look at you! you’re a natural... you might even be better than that tiny professional ice skater from earlier- make sure to lean forward a little…”

namjoon grins excitedly as he continues to glide left and right all while you (unbeknownst to him) gradually pick up your pace while pulling him towards you

hey!

he’s doing it!

this wasn’t as hard as he thought it’d be

he’s doing it!!!!!

and he’s going waY quicker than he originally was, which is probably a good sign, right?

“can i take the lead?” namjoon stands up a little straighter and puffs his chest out, “i wanna lead you now!”

you slow down a little and look down at the scarf that you’re still clutching onto for dear life, “you wanna take th- okay, well, do you want me to untie you?”

“oh no, i think you should still hold onto it just in case, but i wanna lead the way!” namjoon bounces up and down excitedly and clasps his hands together, “please, y/n? you’ve seen how fast i can go now!”

right

he can go super fasT on his own and it’s not because you’ve been pulling him along like a little wagon

you know what

it’s fine

you’re not worried about namjoon leading the way mainly because you know he’s just going to go around and around in slow circles

you could probably get away with closing your eyes while he pulls you around  

you snort before nodding and sliding to the side so that he can skate past you, “alright, hotshot. you take the lead. now it’s really going to look like this is a leash- woAH-” your eyes widen in surprise when namjoon suddenly surges forward, his legs going left and right and left and right at a consistent pace-

oh god

okay

you speed yourself up as well to try to keep up with him, keeping your grip tight around your poor stretched out scarf

“namjoon-!” you laugh uneasily, “take it easy, you speed demon-”

“we should go ice skating all the time!” namjoon cheers, raising both his hands up in the air as he continues gliding like a maniac, “isn’t this fun?!”

“oh shit, sorry, excuse me-” you try your best noT to collide with people as you skate past them, “namjoon, i know you think this is fun but i really think you should slow down a little- oh, frick-” you curse to yourself when you notice that your scarf is caught in the clasp of your bracelet

shit!

this scarf was expensive!!!!

there’s no way you’re going to accidentally yanK out the threads and ruin it

“c’mon, stupid thing...” you look up for a brief second to make sure that namjoon’s still going straight and that he’s not about to round a corner or anything before looking back down to try to unhook the thread

you could try tugging on it but you’re worried that it’s going to mess up your scarf and you are noT willing to take that chance

“i’m turning here!”

“uh-huh, yeah...” your tongue pokes out in concentration as you use your nail to try to pluck it out and...

ah!

success!

there we go

no destroyed scarves today!

“what did you just sa-!” your eyes widen in surprise when suddenly the scarf disappears from your fist and you look up to see that the-

SMAK!

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...

...

my head hurts

...

my ass hurts too

...

you peel an eye open slowly before closing it again

holy moly

your head is spinning and your ears are ringing and you’re pretty sure your eyes are permanently crossed because you can’t seem to get your vision to focus

is it possible to feel like you want to throw up and pass out at the same time?

you squeeze your eyes shut before shaking your head a little in a poor attempt to shakE the pain away

jesus

what happened??

the last thing you remember is going full speed on the ice and then everything went black

you push yourself up onto your elbows before looking around

you… are in a van that smells like bleach for some reason

why are you in a van??

oh god

were you kidnapped???

were you chloroformed and kidnapped???

you jump when one of the doors suddenly swings open and you immediately pull your legs up and away so that your kidnapper can’t reach over and drag you out by the legs

“hey, you! how are you feeling?”

“i- um-” you sit up all the way before turning and leaning back against the metal bench screwed into the side of the van, “i think i’m oka- a..a...aaaaaayyyy....?” you trail off dumbly, finding yourself being unable to shut your TRAP 

okay

hello

you blink owlishly at the very handsome kidnapper before tilting your head to the side a little

the corners of his mouth twitch in a smile and he mimics your movements, tilting his head as well

maybe… you weren’t kidnapped

you just died and went to heaven, that’s all!

this is heaven

heaven is the back of an impeccably clean van and you are currently staring at a real-life angel

“sorry you woke up all alone, by the way- i just had to ask your friend a couple of questions as to what happened... i also had to comfort him a little because i’m pretty sure he thinks he killed you-”

“i’m sorry, am i not dead? is this not, like, the bus to heaven or something?” you ask, looking around at your surroundings

there’s a lot of medical-related tools and gadgets in here considering the fact that this is heaven

apparently heaven has heart defibrillators which doesn’t make much sense

“hey, hey- relax!” you jump when you feel him wrap his fingers around your ankle to get your attention, “you’re not dead. this isn’t the bus to heaven. you’re just in the back of an ambulance. you got into a little collision with the plexiglass barriers.”

aH

okay

that makes more sense

“oh, thank god.” you breathe out, “because if i did die, then body slamming into plexiglass would’ve been a humiliating way to go.”  

“mm, i totally agree. i would’ve been embarrassed having to drag your dead body away from the plexiglass.” mr probably-not-here-to-kidnap-you laughs lightly and opens the door a little wider for himself, “i just wanna patch you up. will you let me do that?”

you feel your mouth go dry when he takes his jacket off

hello broad shoulders

“you can do anything you want to me.” you blurt out, watching in awe as he steps into the ambulance to join you

you’re pretty sure the fact that you might have a mild concussion has something to do with it but your filter has just completely disappeared because jesus christ you want this man to ram into you harder than you rammed into the wall

you just don’t get it

how can one man be so... attractive?

the soft, perfectly tousled hair is right!

the pillowy, cherry-coloured lips are right!

the twinkling brown eyes are right!

the low, soothing voice is right!

the broad shoulders and equally as broad chest... veRY right

everything is just so RIGHT

you swallow thickly when he sits down across from you and crosses his legs, his knees practically pressed right up against yours

you’re certainly not complaining about being so close to him but you’re definitely going to cramp up like this and you always make really weird faces when you get pins and needles shooting up your legs

you move your legs so that your ankles are on either side of his thighs before scooting your bum a little closer towards him

heh >:-) 

“can you tell me what your name is?” he asks, pulling a first-aid kit out from under the bench

“y/n y/l/n.” you answer almost instantaneously, keeping your eyes glued on his face as he rummages through the box

“mhm… very good…”

“what’s your name?” you watch as he rips open a little gauze pad

god

even his fingers are pretty

“seokjin.” seokjin smiles sweetly, your heart skipping a beat when he reaches up to brush some hair away from your forehead, “i’m just going to clean your cut up a little bit. stay still for me, yeah?”

you nod obediently and find yourself leaning forward a little bit even though you know you probably don’t need to

“what’s your last name?” you ask, seokjin looking down at you for a brief second before focusing back on the cut on your forehead

“kim. why?”

“just wanted to know what my future surname is going to be, that’s all.”

seokjin snorts before raising a brow, “quite the charmer, aren’t you?”

“it’s not every day that i get to talk to a very handsome ambulance man.”

seokjin chuckles, smoothing his fingers over the pad to make sure that it’s secure before pulling away, “mm, that’s fair. can you tell me what day it is?”

“saturday. which i think is the perfect day out of all of the days to go out on a date, because if we get super drunk and have crazy sex tonight, we can wake up late tomorrow and go out for brunch-!”

seokjin suddenly pinches your lips in between his fingers before frowning in concern, “your bottom lip is a little busted.”

“pheel vfree to kiss it bhetter.” you murmur, seokjin pulling away to rummage through his little kit again, “you look really cute when you’re concerned, by the way.”

“is that so?” seokjin hums, pulling a q-tip out and a tube of what looks to be some kind of a gel, “you can’t go around kissing strangers, you know.”

“you’re an exception.” you grin, dodging the q-tip when seokjin tries to dab some gel on your lip, “i was serious about the date, though. what do you think?”

“i think-” seokjin tries again only for you to turn your head the other way, “i think that you need to stop flirting with me so that i can do my job-”

“i’m letting you do your job!” you argue, “i’m just asking you an innocent question, that’s all-”

“if you were letting me do my job, you would be all patched up by now-” seokjin laughs lightly, shaking his head and leaning backwards when you move your head again, “okay, how about this? i will happily go out with you if you just stay still and let me clean up your lip.”

you perk up immediately, “for real?”

“for real.” he nods, holding the q-tip up, “are you willing to cooperate now?”

“mhm.” you hum contently, leaning forward and immediately pursing your lips, “please fix my lips so they’ll be nice and healed by the time we go out on our date.”

“why? are you planning to do a lot of kissing on our date?” seokjin teases, applying the gel before using the other end to dab off the excess

“that’s for me to know and for you to find out.”

seokjin presses his lips together to hold back a smirk

you are... awfully cheeky, aren’t you?

he’s verY into that

and bonus points because you’re very attractive and definitely his type

“okay, lemme just do one last thing here.” seokjin reaches into his shirt pocket for a little flashlight before reaching over and pinching your chin in between his fingers gently and bringing your face closer to his 

“you’re not even going to wait until after our first date to kiss me?” you murmur, your eyes widening slightly, “and i thought i was coming on strong.”

“i’m just checking out your pupils, darling.” seokjin hums, “trust me. you’ll know when i’m about to kiss you.”

you shift in your spot a little as you feel youR cheeks starting to heat up now

oh,.,. how the tables have turned.,,.

seokjin’s just glad that he finally figured out how to get you to stay still so that he can get along with his procedures smoothly

“hi, pretty girl…” seokjin coos, raising your eyelid gently so that he can get a good look at your pupils, “mhm, that’s right… just keep your eyes on me…”

gladly

you’d keep your eyes on seokjin for the rest of your liFE if you could  

“is this finally the part where you kiss me?”

“nice try, cheeky.”

                                      »»————-　❄　————-««

“so y/n’s going to be okay?” namjoon chews on his thumbnail anxiously and you reach over to pat his knee reassuringly

the poor thing is going to chew his entire hand off if he doesn’t stop soon

he joined you on the ambulance ten minutes ago but for eight whole minutes was just profusely apologizing to you (“i’ll never put on another pair of skates for as long as i’ll live!” “namjoon, it’s fine-” “for as long aS I LIVE-”)

seokjin nods as he packs up his kit and slides it back underneath the bench, “y/n’s going to be just fine. you can relax!”

“namjoon - you’re acting like you ran me over with a monster truck. i’m fine!”

“how many fingers am i holding up?” namjoon holds up three fingers and you blink at him before raising a brow

“obviously five.”

namjoon’s eyes widen in panic and he turns back to look at seokjin, “y-you said she was fine!”

“three! three fingers, you’re holding up three fingers-” you giggle, reaching forward to push namjoon’s hand back down, “seriously, joon... i’m fine! i swear.”

“alright, all you have to do is keep her company during the ride.” seokjin clears his throat, “i want to do a couple of scans at the hospital just in case!”

“aw, but i don’t want namjoon to keep me company-” you whine quietly, leaning against namjoon’s shoulder as you look up at jin, “why can’t you keep me company instead?”

“someone has to drive the ambulance.” seokjin teases, reaching down to pinch the apple of your cheek gently, “i’m all yours at the hospital.”

“namjoon can drive.” you push your bottom lip out in a pout before batting your lashes at him, “don’t you wanna hang out with me?”

“if namjoon’s driving skills are as good as his skating skills, i think i’m going to have to pass.” jin laughs lightly, sliding back into his jacket “we can hang out once we get to the hospital.”

namjoon narrows his eyes suspiciously as he glances back and forth between the two of you

...

..,.,...the energy in here...,.,..

.,,.,.,,the vibes,.,..,  

someone definitely wants to fuck someone

seokjin sighs to himself as he hops into the driver’s seat before slamming the door shut

he pulls his phone out to check the time before smiling to himself because :-) your number is on his phone :-)

he wasn’t expecting to get a cute girl’s number today but he welcomes this surprise with open arms! 

“y/n y/l/n...” he murmurs under his breath, reaching up to adjust the mirror

hm

your name does seem like it’d fit with his surname

his ears prickle when he hears your muffled voice through the thin partition and he leans back a little so he can do some sneaky eavesdropping

“i am planning... to have so much sex with that man. but in like a romantic way, you know? because i’m classy like that.”

seokjin snorts to himself before shoving the key into the ignition

(for the record: he feels the exact same way as you do).

christmas with cee 2020 masterlist 

🎁what would you like from ceenta this year? 🎁

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[honestgrins]

Hi I have a propt for u if u want , I just want to read a kc fic where caroline is a badass but mature and she puts hayley in her place and gives klaus shit for sleeping w her but not the whole baby thing she is not pregnant more like a alpha wannabe write it IF u want and like the idea if u dont want is ok thank u , tho its just my first birthday alone and I want sth special its kinda selfish but pls write even sth small ill be grateful thanks.

Petty

Elijah poured himself another cup of tea, politely ignoring the crash of furniture coming from upstairs. “Miss Forbes,” he offered, holding the kettle toward her.

Too busy poring over the textbook open beside her breakfast, Caroline gave a small grin of apology without looking at him. “I’m more of a coffee girl, thanks.” 

Glass shattered somewhere above them. “Perhaps some blood, then? I believe it will be a trying day. Best keep up your strength.”

“I appreciate the concern, but I think I could pass a freshman bio test while hallucinating from a wolf bite. I’ll be fine.”

He arched a brow, barely stifling his amusement. “I meant—”

Sighing, she finally met his intent gaze with exasperation. “I know what you meant, I just don’t have time to indulge his mood swings. Part of the deal of me living here is that I get to maintain a normal college experience, regardless of whatever world domination he has in mind.” Another crash of splintered wood broke her train of though, and she grimaced at the ceiling. “Or when things don’t go to plan. Why do vampires even keep wood in the house? Sure, you guys can’t exactly die as easily, but it seems impractical.”

“Noted,” Elijah said, just as Hayley stomped into the dining room and helped herself to the spread they’d barely touched. As she bit into a scone, he offered her a cup of tea as well with a concerned eye to her visible pregnancy. “I assume the meeting didn’t go well.”

“Your brother is an ass,” she snapped, frustrated. “Apparently, marrying the father of my child is an affront to his ego.”

Caroline groaned, slamming her book shut. “Oh, please. I’m as tired of his power trips as the next person, but we all know you and Jackson getting hitched bolsters your claim to lead the pack. Kind of goes against the agreement to live and let live without declaring a winner to the alpha war you guys are having, don’t you think?”

Hayley rolled her eyes. “Of course, you’d take his side.”

Glaring at the ceiling again, she forced her fangs to stay tucked away. “I’m so tired of this damn town. How’s anyone supposed to study when everyone is bickering over fake hierarchies?” With her enhanced hearing, she caught the offended huff coming from the studio. Letting out a slow breath, she gave her best fake smile to Hayley, then a more aggrieved expression to Elijah. “Please excuse me, I have a hybrid to admonish for petty disruptions.”

When she made it up to his studio, however, she was the one with her back pressed to the door. “A petty disruption, am I?” Klaus asked, his lips a distracting inch from hers as he pushed into her space. “Pray tell, sweetheart, the sins for which I need admonishment.”

With a sharp grin, her hand dug into his hair and tugged, baring his throat to her teeth. “I have a test in two hours and no patience for your tantrums over Hayley.” Her fangs tested the edge of his jaw, and she mused, “Unless it’s not about the pack at all.”

Klaus pulled back at that, brows knit as his eyes couldn’t leave her mouth. “Caroline—”

“You’re not just acting out of jealousy, are you?” she asked, trailing her lips up to his ear. “Did you want to be the one to knock her up, claim their little wolf dynasty for your own?” She shoved him back then, her stare hard as he glared. Worse, he looked a bit scared. A bit of tough love was in order, but she didn’t mean to make him question her. Speaking more gently, she leaned back against the door to show she wasn’t leaving anytime soon. “I get it, it sucks that New Orleans and all the vampires, witches, and wolves won’t fall in line behind you.”

“They’re not even trying,” he complained, running a hand through his mussed hair. “And now, she—”

“Hey.” Putting her hand up, Caroline refused to up with the pity party any longer. “You’re the one who told her about the Crescent pack and its likely connection to her, which you noticed at time she clearly didn’t bother you so much.” They both winced at the reminder of his tryst with the wolf, a past that couldn’t be buried back in Mystic Falls as easily as they’d like. “You break it, you buy it, and all that. Can’t we just...move on with our lives? Maybe have some fun while we’re at it? Without the supernatural warfare, preferably.”

His head tilted to the side, and she saw the predatory glint in his eyes half a second too late. Before she could argue, he lifted her into his arms and had her pressed against the door once more. “Now,” he said, his voice low through his fangs as he brushed his nose along hers, “where’s the fun in that?”

She kissed him with bruising force, tugging his lip with her own fangs. “You have one hour,” she warned, working his shirt out of his jeans. She tore it, though, at his challenging expression. “I mean it, Klaus, or else I will find somewhere else to live. Someplace with fewer distractions.” Her nails dug into his sides to emphasize her point. “My study schedule has been ruined enough.”

“Not quite,” he smirked, “but an hour will have to do.”

“For the time being,” she agreed, laughing when he lifted her back into his arms to carry her toward the lone sofa not destroyed.

#klaroline #klaroline drabbles #to rely on the kindness of strangers #fic: petty #thanks for the prompt! #happy birthday lovely! #i hope this helps make your day special #anon anon

[seoafin]

gojo, doing the nasty with mc after getting blueballed for 10 years : i DO NOT BEG for PUSSY. Imma ask 11 times thats it 🗣💯.

literally no thoughts head empty,, my face is like that lisa staring at the plate meme

the only thing i like abt gojo atp is that ijk his wallet and dick is big,, JSJSJS i just rly like the concept of “strongest man” on his knees for 1 (one) person + his kids,,, now if only mc agree with mei mei’s plan of generational wealth redistribution

ok but if u put this in the backburner for the longest time, i dont rly mind either way bc u writing whatever u want/ like will still come top notch either way,,, but ANYWAYS tysm for indulging 💞

and i HATE that whatever thoughts abt gojo shut down immediately the moment i saw that u posted sth abt geto 😭

geto teaching mc patiently while leaning over their shoulder and one of his hands is resting on the back of the chair and the other one lay flat on the desk (he insists that he’ll guide mc “properly” even tho mc has somewhat understand the problem more than b4 and would like to try solving it w out his help),, his bangs brushed the side of mc’s forehead before he tried tucking it behind his ear (it did not work, but mc asked to try to braid it and he may or may not allow it)

+ sharing snacks during break time with their ankles brushing each other under the desk and it will eventually lead to gojo and shoko walking on them leaning forward across the desk closer than necessary with their school books arranged neatly together aside and they’re discussing abt natsume soseki’s kokoro

the discussion was put to a stop when gojo and shoko pulled chairs so they end up talking abt another thing. when they return to their respective room, geto realize that mc’s bookmark is still attached to the book but mc never ask for it so he kept it with him (when he re read the book years after his defection, the twins swore that sth akin to wistfullness and fondness flashed across his face while he brought the bookmark closer and then putting it back into the page he remembered that struck mc when they first read it together)

murakami’s norwegian wood/ colorless tsukuru tazaki and his years of pilgrimage/ kafka on the shore or dazai’s setting sun/ no longer human give sum existential dread too 🥴

AGAIN,, TYSM FOR TAKING THE TIME TO WRITE AND SHARE THAT HC WITH US, HOPE UR DOING WELL </3- 🐱

11 TIMES PLS 😭😭

I SEE THAT INNUENDO 👀

if they’re in the library...i am not ashamed to say i’d suck his dick....im a weak woman,,..,,.,.,

geto can be bold but at the same time he’s so sly about it. normally when getting tutored you’d sit across from the person, but geto takes a seat next to you and leans in real close, then gets flustered when you meet his gaze while he’s right next to your face. NOT THE BRUSHING ANKLES....this is victorian level pining LMFAO

geto also does things like subtly pulling you a little closer to him, hand on your waist, in a crowd so you don’t “get lost” even though he and gojo are always heads tall above the rest of the crowd. offers you a bite of his ice cream when he sees you staring then goes red when he realizes it's an indirect kiss. brushing the hair out of your face while you’re trying to eat and it’s windy outside...im..... 🥺

gojo on the other hand just grabs your hand and tugs you wherever. bites your food without asking and steals handfuls of your candy. makes fun of you when you drop your ice cream 🤜😎

#hs geto gets flustered I stand by it #I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIMMMN #im glad im not the only one who has thought about braiding geto's hair LOL #alas....if only gojo closed that mouth....i'd hop on that dick so quick smh #i don't think anything's funnier than gojo n geto inadvertently cockblocking one another LMAOOO #the bookmark.....hnghhghghg #🐱 anon #long post #.geto suguru

[sometimes-i-write-4-you]

hi! i was wondering if i could request sth. it would be stanley barber w/ angst prompt: “I told you not to fall in love with me.” but like with a cute/fluffy ending thank you!!!

Like a movie - Stanley Barber x reader

a\n: so this is defently not my best piece, but oh well. ya’ll should request him more often so i can practice writing for him cause i’ve yet to come up with a good one i actually like.

trigger wornings: reader feels unworthy, cussing, also spoilers for Princess Bride kinda?? like i’m just queting the end scene but it dosen’t ruin the plot so it’s fine. 

word count: 1854

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It has been a month since homecoming. After Bradley's head blew up, everyone left the gym, but I was too shocked to move. "(y\n), right?" a curly haired boy asked me, and his hand carefully touched my shoulder to wake me out of my freeze. He had a notebook in one hand, and It was slightly covered in blood.

"what up, Westinghouse!" Jeff Butters called, crossing the stage, "where my boys at?" the crowd cheered. "where do I begin?" he said, "I wanna thank my mom for meeting my dad-".

Before he finished the sentence, Bradley barged in and took the microphone. "listen up" he caked, and the microphone's feedback rang through the gym. "brad, you can't do that" the principle tried to stop him, but Brad seemed determined. "give me a second" he said, and when the principle tried to drag him off stage he pushed him away, "give me a second!".

"I would like to take this moment" Brad started, "to talk about something very important that affects everyone here". I immediately knew – what he was gonna say matters to no one else but him, and I had a strange feeling like something bad is about to happen/ his tone was so... aggressive, and his eyes priced someone, I just don't know who. "Sydney Novak!" he called. I guess she's the one he was trying to kill with his stare.

"hey Sydney, raise your hand" he said, and that was well enough for me. I hurried to the bathroom, hiding from the horrible situation. The principle Is right there, why is he not trying to stop this? I sat down on the floor. "-she's one hell of a writer" he said, and when I turned around for a second I noticed he's holding up a notebook. This is homecoming, it's supposed to be fun but my only friend ditched me to dance with some guy, and now this. "-but being a full on dyke-" I hear him say, and quickly go back to ignore his voice. I can hear, but I don't listen. don't listen, don't listen, don't listen – "everyone in her life thinks that she is a piece of shit, and I mean everyone" he says. I don't want to listen, this is her fucking diary. That's not my business.

"hey man, leave her alone!". Ducking finally. I should go out there and help her. I don't know her, but someone needs to back that kid up. the kid that is now lying on the floor because he got punched. Shit. I stare at the scene

"but that's not even the weirdest thing about Sydney Novak" Brad goes back to his speech. I get closer as he speaks, hoping to get the boy who stuck up for her away from the crowd of people. "get this, Sydney claims that she has-" he talks, and I'm almost there. Everybody screams as a red fluid rains inside the gum. My now brown-ish dress is covered in the gooey thing as well, and I realize that it's not a punch rain surprise. It's blood.

"it's her diary" the curly haired boy explains to me, "I'm Stanley, and we have to get out of here, come on" he says, and grabs my hand. Then we run. We run so fast, leaving the gym and the crazy thing that we just witnessed behind.

"hey, (y\n)" Stanley smiles at me, offering his hand. I shake it and pulling him into one of those "bro hugs". He laughs and decides to go along. "hey bro, how was history class?" he asks, lowering his voice to sound manly as we started walking to class. "yo, it was cool man, we talked about Hamilton and how he had bitches, what a dope dude, I aspire to be him" I say, lowering my voice as well. He looks at me, smiling, but his eyes said, "what the fuck?". "too much?" I ask in my normal voice. "a bit, yeah, but I'm pretty sure I heard Jeff saying that, so at least you were accurate" he laughs/ I'm taking a step past him and turning my face to him. I walked backwards, praying I won't run into a jock. Ever since homecoming, Sydney, Dina, Stan and I became quite unpopular. I knew the consequences, but they were nice fellas, and I needed some decent people to hang out with. Who cares about popularity when you got loyal friends?

"hey, we're still on for tonight?" I ask him. "of course, I wouldn't miss it for a Bloodwitch concert" he smiles. I give him a look, and he laughs. "okay maybe I will ditch you for Bloodwitch, but come on – it's Bloodwitch, and no offence – but a drive in 80's movie night is just not as awesome" he admits, and I smile. I stop walking. "thank you for coming with, I just really want to go, but going with Sydney and Dina is just kind of awkward, cause they're like… so obviously in love but not official and it's… yeah" I say. "no problem, I'd go anywhere with you" he says, "cause, you know, best friends and all that" he quickly adds, punching my shoulder awkwardly to show that were "bros". see, I made him promise not to fall for me. I'm a mess, and he is so incredible, he just deserves someone better then me. He's funny, and charming and so… open to the world. He tries to be good to everyone and he stays loyal to his morals, and friends, and he's just… shit.

"well, this is my class, bye" I say, going straight to room 405. "bye" Stan calls, waving. Shit, shit, shit. I really like him, huh? I mean I knew I'd have a crush the moment I finally looked at him on that evening, the one that had the nightmare-coming. I obviously noticed he's a good-looking guy, and he was sweet, but what I didn't know is how much. I was also surprised to find out it was not just a crush.

7:00 PM finally arrives. I walk outside, and stan Is already there, which is a surprise since he is famous for his tendency to be late. He is leaning against his car, hands in the pockets of a flowy, creme-colored pants paired with a floral button up. The colors work together well, and that wasn't surprising since he had a touch for fashion – he even had a brown belt to tie the whole thing together. "Hi" I smile at him. "Hi" he returns the smile and moves closer to me for a hug. He wraps his hands around my waist, and I wrap mine around his neck. "He smells nice" I think to myself and break the hug. I'm not falling.

We get to the car and start driving. "Let me hear your voice to bring me down\I'm waiting for your lips to bring me round\My life's shame and sorrow falling back\Lead me from my head down underground" We scream along to Bloodwitch on our way to the drive-in theatre. We finally get there, parking next to Syd and Dina, who borrowed her mom's car. Every pair is sitting on its own car.

The first movie to screen is The Princess Bride. "oh, I love this movie" Dinna says, "it's so sweet". "it's a bit too cliché for me" Syd says, "but it is really good" she adds quickly in order to not upset her not-girlfriend. "I agree with Syd" I say, "Cliché but good". "I'm with Dinna on this one, top 10- no, 5 best 80's movies" Stan joins to the conversation

.By the end of the movie, Stan's hand is hugging my shoulder and I lean onto him. we got popcorn together, and every time our hands met in the carton I blushed. The only thing I could do was hope he didn't notice. "since the invention of the kiss, there have been five kisses that were rated the most passionate, the most pure, this one left them all behind" I looked at Syd and Dinna just in time to catch Dinna pulling Syd in for a kiss. Soon enough u noticed every couple did the same. "this is so cli-" I say, turning back to look at Stan, but I don't even get to finish my sentence.Stan's hand cups my cheek, pulling me in. his lips crush against mine, but in the sweetest way imaginable. For a moment I lean into the kiss and return it. No, wait. Shit. "Stan!" I pull away, " I told you not to fall in love with me" I whisper-yell. "remind me again, why?" he asks, his eyes looking down at me with so much sadness. His hand is still on my cheek, but as I talk, he moves it to my shoulder.

"because... look, I'm a mess, Stan. I don't know how to be someone's girlfriend, and I like you and I don't want to hurt you" I say. "don't you think It's my choice?" he says, a bit annoyed. "look, it's really for your best" I insist, but he's not willing to give up just yet."don't you think that this hurt?" he asks. "I don't- see, it's just what I do, I hurt the people I love" I reply, sad smile across my face. "look, (y\n), I'd love to have my heart broken by you. I don't mind getting hurt cause then I'll know we tried, and if you like me back, it's just stupid to ignore it" he replies, and tears are threatening to fall down my cheeks. He really is the sweetest guy I've ever met.

"okay" I say, breaking the silence. "okay what?" Stan asks confused. "fine, you want to try this, you think it's worth it, so... okay" I say. "okay what?" he asks again, hoping for me to say a very specific phrase."okay, I'Il-" I try. I want to say, "be your girlfriend" or "date you", even "try it", but words were never my strong suit, so action it is. My hand grabs his chin and pulls him closer to me, and our lips meet once again."you will be my girlfriend" he completes the sentence for me when we pull away. "sure, yeah".

"thank god, it's about time" Dinna sigh. Syd and her are cuddled up, and Syd has the hugest smile on her face. "oh, like you're the one to talk" I say.

"the next film we are going to screen is back To The Future!" a voice says. "oh, this is the coolest movie-" Syd starts. "An ICONIC movie" I agree with her. "oh, the plot is so weird, it's about a guy who travels back in time and his mom develops a crush on him" Stan disagrees, and Dina is on his side once again. "yeah, and the movie basically says Johnny b Good was made by a white man, that's so fucked up".

If it was a teen movie, the camera will zoom out as a song starts playing for credits. I bet it'd be a Bloodwitch song. Maybe Fly.

#stanley barber #Stanley barber x reader #stanley barber imagine #ianowt #ianowt x reader #i am not okay with this

[empyreanwritings]

Second Chances

Pairing: Tony Stark x mutant!Reader

Word Count: 3.4k

Warnings: mentions of miscarriages, angst central (ends fluffy tho, i swear)

Request:  Hi! Could you write a fic with Tony x reader? It can be a little angsty but fluffy at the end ? Maybe reader being pregnant or sth?

A/N: I wasn’t sure where I was going to go with this at first, but I’m very happy with where it went. I hope you enjoy it! Thank you so much for requesting, I hope you like it! Please let me know what y’all think (:

The look on Bruce's face when he walked into the exam room told you everything you needed to know. It was a look you had seen twice before already. He pushed his glasses to the top of his head and took a seat in front of you. You didn't want to meet his gaze; you didn't want to see the regret and worry that filled his eyes. It would only make you feel worse.

"Y/N-"

"I know," you whispered.

The first miscarriage happened when you were sixteen weeks along. You and Tony had already started decorating the nursery for your baby girl. Both of you thought that it had been the stress from going on missions, so when you decided to try again, you took a few months leave. And then you were ten weeks along when the second one happened. Despite Bruce running every test possible, he had no idea what was causing it. Your hormones were level. You were stress-free, for the most part. Not knowing had hit you harder emotionally than you thought it would.

You didn't know you were pregnant this time around. From the cramping you felt, you thought it was just your period showing up early. But the alarms went off in your head, and something told you to go see Bruce. There had been too much blood - too much pain - for it to be normal.

He didn't have to say anything this time because you knew. Complete miscarriage. It would be your third one within the last two years. You weren't sure if you could be sad about this one since you weren't attached to the idea of being pregnant yet, but you couldn't stop the dread from forming a pit in your stomach.

"I know this might not be what you want to hear, but I think I've figured out what may be causing the miscarriages."

Bruce flipped through the file in his lap and looked up at you expectedly. He wasn't going to tell you unless he knew you were ready to hear it. You gave him a curt nod, signaling him to continue. After everything you've been through, it couldn't possibly get worse.

"I went over the ultrasound we did when you had the second miscarriage. It looks like your gynecologist missed something." He handed you a picture from the ultrasound, but you had no idea what you were looking at. "There's scarring on your ovaries and your uterus. The damage is severe, and it's a miracle you managed to get pregnant in the first place. Three times is even more surprising."

You chewed on your bottom lip. You didn't like where this was going.

"The scarring is-" Bruce paused for a moment and took a deep breath. "The scarring is congruent with radiation treatments."

You squeezed your eyes tightly and shook your head. You were wrong, it got worse. So much worse.

You were eighteen when you and your sorority sisters got mixed up with a group that promised to give you abilities beyond your wildest dreams. You thought it was a hoax, but you went along with it anyways. If your friends were going to do it then you figured you might as well too. Five hundred dollars and three radiation treatments later, you were granted with the gift of electricity manipulation. None of you should have gone through with it. It had been dangerous, and some of you didn't make it out alive.

"So, you're telling me that because of a dumb decision I made when I was eighteen, I can't have kids? I have to go home and tell my husband when he returns from saving another country that I am the sole reason he cannot have a child." You sniffled. It was your fault. All this grief and false hope happened because of you.

Bruce tried to stop you from walking out of the room, but you pushed him to the side and darted out. You couldn't breathe. It was all your fault, and you'd have to be the one to break the news to Tony. Tears poured from your eyes as you thought about what his reaction would be. What if he hated you? What if he didn't want to be with you anymore? You couldn't blame him if he chose to leave. He deserved to be with someone who could give him everything he wanted.

Someone who wasn't broken.

---

You weren't ready to go back home yet, so you took the long route there. You found yourself stopping at the park that was only a block away from your building. It wasn't a large park, but it had a charm to it that a lot of people admired. All it had was a couple of benches, a swing set, and a metal merry-go-round. You didn't think merry-go-rounds like that still existed, but you had always told Tony it was going to be fun to play with your future kids on it.

You swallowed the lump forming in your throat. You felt lost. You had no idea what you were going to do with your life now. You had a plan and didn't think you needed a back-up one until now.

You wiped at a stray tear that managed to fall and sighed. You hated crying, but it felt like that was all you did these past two years.

"Thought I'd find you here." You turned your head to see Nat standing next to you. You hadn't heard her walk up because you were so wrapped up in your thoughts. "Bruce called. He told me that you might need someone to keep you company until Tony returned from the mission."

"He told you, didn't he?" You mumbled.

She nodded and wrapped her arm around your shoulder. "I know what you're thinking, and it's not your fault."

"But it is, Tasha! If I never did the radiation to trigger my underlying mutant abilities, I'd be able to have kids."

"And if you never had your mutant abilities, you never would have joined S.H.I.E.L.D. You never would have met Tony and fallen in love with each other. You can't believe that this is your fault because of one decision that did a lot of good for you."

She wasn't surprised when you didn't respond. You didn't want to believe her, but you knew her statement held some truth. Meeting Tony had been a whirlwind of a time. You had met him just after the Chitauri attack on New York. He struggled to cope with everything that happened, and you helped him through it. Well, you helped him with what you could anyways. He had a lot of internal battles he needed to figure out for himself.

When he got better, he asked you out to dinner to say thank you. Dinner had gone a lot better than you both expected, and he insisted you keep seeing each other. You almost said no because he seemed a little too confident in his ability to woo you, but you ended up agreeing anyways.

Part of you couldn't believe five years had passed since that first date.

"What am I going to do now, Tasha?" You whimpered. "What if he doesn't want to be with me anymore? He's talked about having kids for the past two years. The more we struggle, the more it affects him. I can't disappoint him with this."

Nat rubbed her hand along your arm and rested her head on top of yours. "I think you're underestimating how much Tony cares about you."

You shrugged and looked over at a toddler who was playing with a remote-controlled car. He started wailing because the batteries died, and it wouldn't drive anymore. His mother tried to comfort him and promised to buy new batteries tomorrow, but he didn't stop crying. You sent a small jolt of electricity towards the toy and watched it come back to life. The little boy gasped, which brought a smile to your face.

The smile didn't last long, though. You started to think about all of your lost opportunities, and it had slipped right off your face.

Nat looked between you and the toddler and let out a frustrated breath. There was nothing she could say right now that would make you stop wallowing. You had every right to be upset. Your whole life had been turned upside just a few hours ago, and she knew that you'd be hurt for a while. All she could do was offer a shoulder to cry on and try to distract you.

"Why don't we get some food? I think we both deserve to cheat on our Avenger diets and eat a pizza," Nat suggested.

You managed a small laugh. "That sounds good."

It really did sound good. You couldn't remember the last time you had eaten pizza.

You invited Nat back to your penthouse apartment. She ordered a large pizza to split between the two of you while you searched for a movie to watch. It was silly to think that a girl's night would help clear your head from the thoughts plaguing your mind, but it was worth a shot. You didn't want to send Nat away and be alone for the next few hours. Being alone was never a good thing when you were upset.

You held up two DVD cases and turned to face Nat. She already made herself comfortable on you couch, her feet propped up on the coffee table. You were torn between watching The Shining and Pet Sematary and needed a second opinion. You were in no mood to watch sappy chick flicks tonight. You needed some horror to balance out your feelings.

Nat pointed at The Shining, and you nodded. It was definitely a good night to watch The Shining.

You plopped down on the couch next to her and placed your head on her shoulder as the movie started. The pizza wouldn't be here for another hour, if you were lucky, so you didn't hesitate to get comfy. Nat pulled the blanket over the both of you but stayed quiet. You were thankful she didn't push talking about what happened. You didn't want to think about it. Not until Tony got home.

There was going to be a lot to talk about then.

---

Tony stepped into the apartment, surprised at the silence that greeted him. He walked towards the living room and smiled when he saw you curled up on the couch fast asleep. He moved to turn off the TV when Nat emerged from the kitchen, an empty pizza box in her hand. Tony jumped in surprise when he saw her.

"You know, I'm starting to feel bad for Bruce. You spend more time here with my wife than you do with him," Tony observed. "If you're looking for a threesome kind of experience, you should know that I'm not at flexible as I used to be. I'd hate to disappoint you."

Nat rolled her eyes. "Don't flatter yourself. If I wanted to sleep with your wife, I wouldn't want you in the middle of it."

"I'm going to choose to ignore that comment."

Tony walked past Nat and headed into the kitchen to grab a drink. He motioned for her to follow him, which she did. He had a feeling there was a reason she was here, and by the grave look on her face, he knew it wasn't just for a girl's night. He wanted to make sure their chatter didn't wake you up.

You rarely slept lately, and you didn't think he noticed, but he did. He wasn't about to ruin your chance to get a few hours in before he brought you to bed.

"To what do I owe the visit, Romanoff?" He grabbed a beer from the fridge and popped the top off. He offered one to Nat, but she declined.

"She had another miscarriage, Tony."

He stared at the bottle in his hand, and his eyebrows furrowed in confusion.

"But she-"

"She was only a few weeks along this time. Neither of you knew about it."

His stomach twisted, and he wasn't in the mood to drink anymore. He placed his hands on the counter, trying to steady himself as he processed what Nat told him. Why hadn't you called him? You had to have known he would have abandoned his mission and come home right away. He should have been there for you during this time. Not Bruce. Not Nat. It should have been him.

He didn't know the extent of what the miscarriages could do to your body, but he had a feeling it wasn't healthy to experience three within two years. You refused to talk about it with him. You assured him that you were fine, and you were ready to keep trying for a baby. You didn’t think he noticed the changes in you, but he did. You looked exhausted. You were always nauseous. No matter how many times you swore you were healthy, he never believed you.

If you kept pushing to have a baby, he worried it would kill you. Maybe thinking that was just paranoia eating at him, but he didn't want to risk anything. He couldn't lose you.

"Do we know why this keeps happening?" Nat looked down at her hands. She didn't want to tell him before you did, but she knew you were terrified of Tony's reaction. "If you know something, please tell me."

"Bruce found scarring on her uterus that was overlooked during her last miscarriage. He said it was a miracle that she even got pregnant and kept a baby for as long as sixteen weeks." She reached over and gently placed her hand on top of his. "She's blaming herself, Tony. The scarring is from radiation exposure."

He cleared his throat and stepped back from Nat's touch. His mind was reeling from this new information, but he was more concerned for you. He knew how your mind worked. As soon as Bruce told you about the scarring, you must have hated yourself. He understood why you didn't call now. You hadn't been ready to face him. You thought he was going to hate you.

After everything you two have been through, he could never hate you. Not in a million years.

He thanked Nat for telling him and excused himself from the kitchen. He didn't bother with saying goodbye - she knew when to take her leave. The only thing he wanted to focus on right now was you.

He had a plan. He just needed time to get everything together.

---

You woke up feeling confused. All remnants of Nat being there earlier had disappeared. In fact, the living room was more spotless than it had been before you fell asleep. You folded the blanket and placed it on the back of the couch. There was no way Nat was still here, but you wondered if Tony had come home yet. And if he had, why hadn't he woken you up?

Your heart hammered in your chest. The idea that Bruce called Tony during his mission had you frozen in front of your bedroom door. You should have called him immediately after you found out the news. If he found out from someone else, you couldn't imagine how upset it made him.

When you opened the door, you saw Tony sitting on the edge of the bed. You noticed a small stack of papers in his hands, and your heart dropped. Divorce papers. They had to be divorce papers because what else could they be? You bit down on your lip until you tasted blood. You couldn't cry in front of him. You had to be strong. You had to listen to what he had to say and accept whatever decision he had made.

You didn't blame him. You couldn't.

"Hi," you greeted weakly. You hated how your voice betrayed your calm exterior.

Tony looked up at you, a soft smile on his face. He placed the stack of papers on the bed next to him, and he patted his lap. You hesitated a moment before stepping over to him. You straddled his thighs and wrapped your arms around his neck to keep you steady. You couldn't bring yourself to look at the papers. You weren't ready to know the truth.

"I know about the miscarriage." Your head dropped at his words, but he tapped under your chin to get you to look back up at him. "I wish you would have called me. I should have been here for you. I know I'm not a sexy red-head who gives great advice, but I'd like to think I'm somewhat decent at comforting you."

You chuckled and hid your face in the crook of his neck. "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. This is all my-"

"Ah, ah! No, I don't want to hear you say that it's your fault. None of this is your fault, do you understand?"

"But-"

"I'm sorry, it sounds like you're trying to argue with me. I thought we agreed, I'm only ever wrong when I agree that I am."

You rolled your eyes. Somehow, even with his usual snarky self, he still knew the right thing to say to make you feel better. You thought he would hate you, but you should have given him more credit. He stuck around after two miscarriages. A third wasn't going to magically make him stop loving you. You'd never admit it out loud, but Nat had been right. You underestimated how much he cared for you.

"I love you," you mumbled against his skin. "I love you so much."

Tony rubbed his hands up and down your back, and you instantly relaxed at his touch. You spent so much of your day panicking and hating yourself because you thought you would lose Tony, it drained you. You were ready to fall asleep in his arms, but you still had one more thing to question.

"What are the papers?" You asked, raising your head to look up at him again. "If you're not. . .if you're not leaving me then what are they?"

"I'm going to pretend like you didn't just suggest that I would ever leave you over this and just show you." He grabbed the packet and held it in front of you. You adjusted yourself in his lap, so you could grab the papers from him. You tried to ignore the smile that was making its way on his face as you looked through the papers. You didn't understand what he was so excited about yet.

It was an application packet. You flipped through pages and pages of questionnaires, trying to understand what you were looking through. You finally flipped back to the front page, and your eyes grew wide when it clicked in your head. You were looking through an application for a local adoption agency.

"Tony, I- I don't-"

"You are the one person in this world that I cannot lose. I don't want to keep trying for a baby if it's going to hurt you." Tony delicately pushed your hair behind your ears, and you smiled at the gesture. "We're still going to have a child together, though. You are going to be the best mother, Y/N. I have no doubt in my mind about that. I just need you to trust me here. We're in this together."

Tears pooled in your eyes, and you looked between his face and the application. There was an overwhelming feeling of happiness swelling your chest. What you were feeling reminded you of the first time you found out you were pregnant. You both had been overjoyed with the news, and you were ready to take that next step.

This was your chance to try again. It wasn't what either of you had planned for your future, but you learned early to roll with the punches. You were married to Tony Stark, and you were a mutant. Normal had never been in the cards for you, but you were grateful that you had each other.

"Did I mention that I love you?" You teased, wiping the happy tears away with the back of your hand.

"Once or twice, but I don't mind hearing it again," Tony quipped. "I love you most. And I will always love you."

#tony stark #tony stark x reader #tony stark imagine #tony stark one shot #tony stark x you #iron man x reader #iron man one shot #iron man imagine #iron man x you #tony x reader #tony one shot #tony stark fic #tony stark fanfic #tony stark fanfiction #iron man

[jacksbutland]

ChriKra did an amazing interview, I think they overran by an hour, but it was sooooo funny...!!! They had people ask him questions. Jonas Hofmann asked "Hi Chris, it's Jonas. I'd really like to know: Do you like your own dressing style?" and Chris replied Yes! He does! He's aware he's a very boring dresser, with his trousers and basic t-shirts and long-sleeve shirts, but he's comfortable and that's his priority. "I sound like I'm > forty, don't I? WHO CARES!" interviewers: So the others in the

dressing room have more swag?“ Chris "I mean *obviously*! Just look at Ibo Traoré! He can pull off *everything*! To be honest, I’d love to be able to wear that, all that glitz and glam and gold that he does, but if I tried that people would say ‘look at the lanky German, what does he think he’s doing?!” He says some nice and wise things as well, and spends a good deal gushing about Thorsten Mattuschka, which is so cute. “To me it was love at first sight!”

He also he says he currently “can’tstand Dieter Hecking” for benching him. The reporter’s obviously a bit shocked and CK says “That’s normal, isn’t it?” and says he and Hecking get on really well personally; though you can tell he’s really miffed, & that Hecking’s not giving him good reasons for it (Hecking was actually asked about that statement by Chris and said he understood him perfectly & that it definitely wasn’t Chris’ fault. A bit weird.) 

His former Bochum coach asks a question, Kießling and Leno, Lars and Ginter, Knippiand Mattuschka and a comedian and the ZDF presenter that he did the world cup stint with (Breyer, who starts out “Hi my favourite colleague, 1st question, when will you hang up your boots and join me full time?”). HAHA! He’s asked if there are people who just know him as TV pundit, not as a footballer, because apparently Mehmet Scholl mentioned that once. CK “Well I can say, my presenting went over well with the ladies over sixty. I’ve got many elderly ladies telling me know what a cute littlelittle thing I am. I trace that back to the ZDF work, rather than football…” Apparently the cashiers in the supermarket say that to him “And I have to say I love it, every time! It’s the best compliment!" BILD reporter "It’s obvious, by the way, that you are quite well liked by your teammates and other colleagues, since every single person we asked to participate and send in questions agreed to do so immediately. Well, one exception. We also asked Max Kruse and he said he'd do everything for Christoph Kramer, but not for BILD. Which, well, ok, fair play to him, I respect that." .... 

oh, he's still keeping that diary. Düsseldorf game entry goes something like "sat on the bench again and it sucked, really annoyed. On the other hand we won 3-0, still up in the table, yay." Also he does NOT complain constantly about not playing "that would be really shitty for my teammates who do play, wouldn't it?" and the atmo in the team's apparently great, and heloves them all. Would he rather play for Dortmund or for Bayern? Neither, he wants to stay in Gladbach. What was the best offer that he seriously considered before deciding against it? Ever since 2014 he's repeatedly been approached by Italian clubs and he did consider it once, during the season at Leverkusen, but then Gladbach contacted him and everything else became irrelevant. 

"You learned to play the guitar -" "No stop it, shut up, I didn't." "What?" "Well. I can't. I really tried but I... I can't. It really hurt on my fingers as well, I was so told it was supposed to, but no. You know, if you have ten lessons and still can't play a single chord, you have to face the truth: you're not made out to play the guitar. I'll take up piano lessons soon, but I'll fail that, too." "Is that really the spirit?" "Oh, I definitely won't be able to play two-handed, but, you know, maybe with one hand. Actually I just want to be able to say, "care to hear a song?" and then play one." "Oh, so we'llsee you on stage soon on the piano." "No, you definitely won't. I have not a single musical bone in my body. Probably once my football career is over, when I can focus all my energy and concentration on music, I'll try really hard and learn to play the recorder." HAHAHA. He's really quite funny. 

Leno asks why, even after he left, there was a pair of shoes of his hanging in some room of the Bayer 04 premises. And he gets all emotional: those were his FAVOURITE shoes! A pair of white adidas running shoes, he loved them so much. And he stepped in dog shit with them!! "So, dissolved in tears, I ran into the showers with them and spent ages trying to clean them, but the material, and the surface structure was such..." He couldn't get them clean. Or rather, they looked alright, but they still *smelled*. He should have thrown them away, but he *really didn't want to!!!* So he hoped that if they could just air out they'd be alright & so he hung them on a hook in some little back room."So if, by chance, anybody from Leverkusen is listening and, hoping against all hope, those shoes are still there: I'd REALLY like them back!! ...But you've probably long thrown them away and I really can't blame you..." He is soooo funny, and really likable. 

The thing with the podcast is that he gets a squeaky toy (or whatever) and when he doesn't want to answer he can use it, he gets that option 2x2 times (2 for each part of the podcast) and he does use it once. The reporter starts "A littlewhile ago someone tried to blackmail you with pictures - oh ladies and gentlemen, there it is-" "[squeak]" Do you want to hear more? The entire thing is priceless. To the interviewer's great surprise, he's recently taken up golf. "Yes, well, my parents are both newly retired and to stop them from bashing each other's head in spending all that time together at home, I had to think of sth I could do with my dad so I gave him golfing lessons for his birthday. And it's much more fun than expected.""What about your mum?" "Her birthday's not been yet. But I have to think of something. I hope I will." 

The first part is about sports, Gladbach, Bundesliga, fans/ultras, world cup 2014, world cup 2018, his career, the second part is more personal. I don't know how long it's supposed to be, but in the first part, at some point, the interviewer says "to be honest we've already run far overtime but I actually have no intention of stopping you, I'm having so much fun...". It's called phrasenmäher (pun on "Phrasen" and "Rasenmäher") and I'd never heard of it before, but going by the reactions on twitter, ChriKra's was the best one yet and much more entertaining than the previous one with Lahm twitter com/DreiMannSturm/status/1062081498998824960. It's really extremely entertaining! (They also talk about some serious stuff, btw. I was quite happy with the big majority of his responses. But all in all, he's really very likable!)

thank you for sharing this interview w me honestly chris is such a babe and i really like that his personality really comes through in interviews like these

also lmfao at max drawing the line at bild but it’s so nice to see that theyre still close

i cant believe he’s getting on the golf bandwagon

kinda wanna know wha the question about the pictures is about but if he doesnt wanna talk about it fair play to him

maybe i’ll take a listen though i probably won’t understand much so honestly massive thanks to u for making me aware of his interview n translating stuff for me (one day ..... one day i’ll be able to understand enough german to listen to interviews and read articles but for now i shall have to rely on u my lovely anon)

#anon #replies #chrikra

[roominthecastle]

Everyone is making a house call to Grissom, where we're y'all when Sara was here lol? And now noone is there to make him soup or shave him apparently :(( *no but srsly, why is everyone sick this episode? Was there some kind of an epidemy on set or sth? *It's Sara calling right? His face just light up)) I'm glad they stay in touch *wait, are those Mythbusters?? Too many nights those crazy dudes kept me company. Fun times... *Where's Sophia? I feel like I haven't seen her in a while... *Warrick 😿

This ep is a goldmine for domestic!Grissom!! cooking, wandering around in pjs and robe, taking care of his dog, and desperately trying but failing to escape visitors & adventures like some reincarnation of Bilbo Baggins.

I guess if a show is on air long enough, it’s almost inevitable to have an episode where the flu or a cold - or a musical event - strikes our faves. I tend to enjoy those eps and this one is no exception. Yes, your eyes weren’t deceiving you, those guest nerds in the lab were Adam and Jamie (CSI has on- and off-screen ties to the Discovery Channel), and oh YES that’s def Sara calling at the end. It’s enough to look at Griss stretch out on the couch after he answers the phone. I think if you lean close, you can hear him purring ;)))) And I kept thinking about it, but rn I honestly cannot recall what happens to Sofia. I think she just… idk… drops out of the story at some point?? and Warrick, yeah… now his departure is something else, like

9x01. How can I even… I AM NOT OKAY!!! Jesus I can’t even formulate anything… They’re all so close… Family… How can I ever be fine after seeing Grissom’s face?? When he just crumbled… Losing someone after allowing them to become that close, I don’t know how to… I’m not ok, with any of this… Glad Sara is there (even more beautiful than before, that’s just not fair) God I’m such a mess. I didn’t even like him all that much but Nicky loved him, and I can’t see him cry! And Gris… JC

What you said, anon. I’m not familiar w/ the specifics of the off-screen events that forced the writers to come up w/ an exit for Warrick/GD, but boy did they manage to make it CRUEL and PAINFUL. but also meaningful, imo. Warrick once called Grissom a robot for never emoting like a “normal” human being, and here we have this “robot” saying the L word out loud and openly breaking down and literally clinging to him in an entirely irrational and desperately emotional, futile human act to keep him alive… yeah, I’m w/ you 1000%: I AM NOT OKAY!!!

9x02. “who are we talking about right now?” A-a-and there is my Sara from first few seasons! God I love that woman. So brave, and strong, standing up for what she believes in, unwilling to talk riddles and play mind games. Just say it straight to her. Kind of understand Grissom too though… This whole thing is so damn sad… Oh and that pillow talk was so tender and quiet, so them…

They’ve been doing this thing ever since they started dating - whenever one makes an observation or drops a remark about a victim or a scene they happen to process, the other is like “okay, is that supposed to be about us?” and it’s never 100% clear. Work and private stuff has been bleeding together w/ them for a while and it is finally starting to make waves in a way that not even Grissom can remain immune to it.

9x05. Why does this show insists on fucking me up this season??! I can’t see them suffer anymore! He’s like a fish out of the water the whole episode… I’m a bit conflicted though. Sara left because she couldn’t take that job anymore and I totally get it, but did she expect him to just follow her? I mean it just doesn’t seem like him at all. Yes he belongs by her side but she moves around, he should have just upended his whole life, without any kind of plan? Perhaps I need to sleep on it tho…

905 is like exhibit A of why I love Lady Heather episodes - she cuts through Griss like no other, and this time there’s a clear overlap btw case and private life. LH’s sugarcoat-free remarks are relevant to both, helping Grissom unpack (or more like rip open) some of his own private mess and climb off the fence he’s been sitting on. I do understand your conflict, I was the same way at first, but then I came to the same conclusion you did below:

9x08. You damn right it’s time to up the ante! This girl is the right girl!! Ugh… 9x09. If Sara was here, she’d help you with that last word… Just saying… *omg is he for real? (I know he is, I’m just really emotional omg) *fly-fishing) his mind is already off of work)) he has been quite distracted lately though. This whole thing is a long time coming. Perhaps all he needed was that push from Sara… *man I love Bill Irwin! Which reminds me, have you watched Legion this year?

(After reading the summary, Legion instantly went on my watchlist, anon, but I haven’t seen it yet.)

Exactly, it’s been a long time coming and that’s why I think Sara was not out of line with her hope - or maybe even reasonable expectation? - that he’d start a brand new chapter with her away from the lab. Most of this relationship happens off-screen, so I can only offer guesswork, but we can find some telltale breadcrumbs leading up to these final episodes.

Grissom already starts displaying burnout signs in S7 + he starts dropping comments about how ppl no longer really need him in the lab anymore. He is not bitter, mind you, he is genuinely proud of the team he’s trained/mentored, but this also means that he becomes - as he tells Warrick - a teacher w/o students who feels increasingly aimless, unfulfilled and even drained after having spent 25+ years wading through the (literal and figurative) cesspools of humanity. I think the combination of developing burnout and unfulfillment is why he grabs at the opportunity to leave for a month and teach a seminar as far away from Vegas as possible, and I don’t think it goes unnoticed by Sara. It is never said out loud (naturally), but she seemed to understand why he just up and left the same way Griss understood why she needed to leave in S8 despite each feeling miserable w/o the other. It’s a constant back-and-forth btw them, a drifting away then back again then away again, as they work through their individual baggage, and this “double pendulum” doesn’t stop until the very last episode of the show.

Uprooting one’s life is a huge ask, esp for someone like Grissom, but in this specific case I think it was a natural progression and would have happened anyway. Sara did not force him out of a pleasant, fulfilling life. He needed - wanted - to move on, he knew it was time, he just needed one more little push, like you said. Then he jumped in w/ both feet

and:

9x10. Oh Lord omfg this is… I… This is like a cinematic experience or something… Oh God his face the very moment he first saw her! Oh my sweet awkward nerdy boy, his eyes!! And that sigh! The smile! And those needy arms!! And Sara omg I just can’t… Yes that’s right just grab her and kiss her, talking’s overrated anyway!! OMG I saw the gifs but I didn’t realize how this scene will be… will make me feel… It’s just so… I’ll get back to you when I’m a bit more coherent, please stand by

#anonymous #csirw #musings

[jchichibu]

Everything about my exchange in Europe/Sweden.

Hej!!! (is it too long never hej someone already)

It’s been almost 4 months since I have been back from my exchange at Umeå University in Sweden and everything has been moving so quickly ever since I was back. Firstly, I was back on 16 January 2016, which means school in NTU has actually already started. My last exam in Sweden was 15 Jan :( Secondly, transitioning back to $tre$$fuLyf3 Singapore education isn't the easiest thing to do right after a 7.5-month break from NTU. Thirdly, having cleared very little/very lame AUs during exchange, I wanted to focus a lil more this sem. Hence I had to chuck the idea of wanting to blog something about my exchange till when I've got more time.

And now that finals are ended, LAO NIANG CAN SIT DOWN AND SAY WHAT I WANT 'CUZ EXCHANGE WAS THE DAMN BIG THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO ME!!!!!!!

Ok that being said, I'm not going to make this like a travelogue/tips on how to travel on a budget because I really am not the best person travelling (but i do have a friend, buttergoesbudget) because I have literally forgotten many places that I'd been to and eaten at, and I wasn't the biggest/best saver. 

However having made quite a lot of mistakes during exchange, what I've got here are my experiences from exchange and I hope to share to whoever who wants to read, and hopefully will be useful for those heading to Europe/Sweden for exchange :) Also pardon my limited vocab and simple compo writing, I shall just pen my thoughts as if I'm talking to someone irl ok LOL

Some background story...

current major | Mathematics and Economics (NTU SPMS) year of exchange | Year 3 Semester 1, Autumn semester place of exchange | Umeå, Sweden host university | Umeå University (I took economics mods there, they do not offer many math mods) duration of exchange | 3 Aug 2015 to 15 Jan 2016

I shall skip the preliminaries such as how to go on an exchange, course matching etc 'cuz I've forgotten LOL and jump into my 10 things I think will be useful for those going exchange! Ok here we go.

1) Air tickets (from and to Singapore)

Vanessa and I actually got our deal from STA Travel, which mainly includes:

Qatar Airlines 

Stopover at Dubai

Ticket from Singapore to Rome

Ticket from Stockholm to Singapore

1 change of date back to Singapore FREE

40KG baggage limit

Max stopover was maybe at most 2 hours, wasn't long at all

We also got our ISIC (International Student Identity Card) done for FREE as a complementary (usual cost about sgd 25 I think). I thought owning this card was definitely not an essential but it was nice to have it as I did receive some good deals via ISIC card (you can check their discounts at different countries in their website).

I got my 2-way tickets for SGD 1440. I am quite sure this isn't the cheapest. But the 1 change of date and 40kg baggage limit were useful because I did change my flight back once and my baggage was freakin' on-the-dot 40kg. So don't underestimate these benefits included!

2) Pre-trip planning

I'm typing more for pre-trip because the time period is kinda more predictable than the trips in between school. Maybe some ideas to help you kickstart planning for your pre-trip! After your pretrip, I'm pretty damn sure your other trips will be much easier to plan (or even last min!)

Travel mates:Initially the pre-trip only consisted of Van and I, but Hui Cheng and Yi Jin joined in :)

It was just 4 girls and I think it was a good number because too many people sibei mafan, but too little people quite dangerous. My parents had concerns about only 4 girls travelling but I guess they were ok after a while. But of course, always nice to have some guys around!

Choosing where to visit: We all did not have any preferences to places to go as everyone haven't been to Europe before. Hence we simply followed the common route most people do, we planned on: Rome → Venice → Florence → Pisa → Cinque Terre → Milan → Paris → Amsterdam So basically there was no particular reason how we chose our route, but for those who are as new to Europe as us, I must say it was a doable and fun route. And for suaku me, being able to witness The Colosseum, Vatican City, Leaning Tower of Pisa, Eiffel Tower, Green light district of Amsterdam and Anne Frank House within 2.5 weeks was definitely sth familiar yet Europey to me! And can haolian to people you've been there seen those *flips hair*

However, the only bad part was probably the weather. On our first few days, it was super hot like 37°C during the daytime (early Aug) when we arrived at Rome (Singapore felt incomparable) (or was it) and I legit had a heatstroke-feeling-moment when I was in the Colosseum. But the nights are pretty chilly which was good. And then, within like 2 weeks or so, it was starting to get really cold by the time we were in Amsterdam (mid August). Cinque Terre vs Amsterdam within 2 weeks: From wearing like this...

to wearing like this.

So the weather changes up pretty quickly due to the how the seasons change, something not every Singaporean will understand (ie, me before exchange) and it gets quite unpredictable. Which means, you need to pack your summer and slightly warming clothing. But I managed through lower temperatures in Paris and Amsterdam with my baseball jacket and beanie (which I bought there). One note is that perhaps starting from lower parts of Europe (Spain, Portugal etc) can be a good alternative pre-trip route too, so as to get used to the temperatures in Europe and also the temperatures do not flactuate too much.

Duration of trip: We travelled from 3 August 2015 to 21 August 2015 (about 18 days). It was a good duration for me, not too long, not too short. But can I say I got a little sick of moving from place to place every few days :( Remember you are new to travelling for a relatively long time and travelling is not always rainbows and unicorns, it really gets tiring. 

This was the days spent in each city and my comments wrt the duration:

Rome- 5D4N: Had to adjust body clock, set aside time to settle my luggage matters and a full day in Vatican city. There were many things to see in Rome so duration was ok

Venice- 3D2N: duration was sufficient

Florence- 4D3N: too long LOL for me. I thought Florence was pretty normal only haha

Pisa- 3+HRS: too short LOL could have spent a lil longer but definitely less than a day. Although we only wanted to see the Leaning Tower in Pisa, taking the perfect shot of it took a loOooooOoong time and the distance by foot from Tower to train station was about 20min

Cinque Terre- 3D2N: loooove this place, wouldn't mind an extra day or 2 to properly visit all the islands! And even chill in the beaches

Milan- 8HRS: was a stopover so we did not do much actually besides eating and shopping at train station haha

Paris- 4D3N: would have liked an extra day to visit Disneyland!!! :( (which is quite a distance from the central Paris)

Amsterdam- 4D3N: duration was ok

Modes of transportation: For the route we took specifically, we took trains all the way. We used Raileurope to find the cheapest timings for each city. It is like a skyscanner for trains. And the trains were really great tbh!!!

So definitely take trains, takes about 2 to 4 hours between cities and they were ok priced I guess.

One of the perks will definitely be that the trains bring you to the city centre, which is always useful. 

Also, trains have no limits on baggage weight!!!!

We also got adventurous and tried the overnight sleeper train (Thello) from Milan to Paris. Comfort-wise, I was sleeping at the bottom deck in a 6-couchette, closest to the tracks, slept the entire night lol. I think they had blankets too! Price-wise, it wasn't the cheapest but definitely an experience! Safety wise, we were 4 friends in a 6-people cabin, and the other 2 being a mother and a young daughter. So we were lucky as they looked pretty harmless. I just placed my luggage filled with clothes in the unlocked storage area in the cabin and kept my belongings close to me like near my boobs when I slept. Also, the cabin door could be locked from inside. I advise to always have more of your own people than strangers in the couchette if possible, always safer this way! Initially we were wondering to try the eurail pass but I think we did not as it was only more worth it if we were taking the 1 month pass. But do compare the prices!

Another useful website to find out where are the best routes to take from a city to another is rome2rio.

Accommodations: We booked through airbnb. We mostly got a whole apartment to ourselves as we had 4 people, which was easier to find airbnbs for. Sometimes the airbnbs were for 3 people but had extra charge for extra person and worked out fine for us. So do consider that. We were looking for somewhere convenient, affordable and had good reviews. Tbh we just tried our luck with the area of the airbnb and basically was ok as long as the airbnb is near a subway or near some place of interest. It helps that airbnb now has the feature where the airbnbs are geotagged on a map with their pricing. 

Some better airbnbs/hostel that we stayed and were pretty decent in terms of location and airbnb itself were: Venice: link Florence: link Paris: link Amsterdam: link

In all, we basically we booked our train tickets, flight tickets and accommodation prior to the trip a few months before! Train ticket prices shouldn't change too much so tbh no need book so fast, same for airbnbs. But book earlier if you already have plans, try not to do last minute bookings as good airbnbs/train timings may not be available.

Administration: As there are travel mates with u and everyone may be paying/booking different things, do set up Googledocs with your travel mates for all the important documents, like train tickets, airbnb receipts and itinerary. This keeps accounting easier and ensures no tickets/receipts are lost. To be honest, it gets quite messy trying to split costs etc so it's always nice to write down who paid for what for future references when everyone needs to start paying! Don't care if your friends think you damn lame, IT JUST MAKES EVERYTHING NEATER because there will be so many tickets and receipts to remember. They will thank you next time lol. Another advise is to divide the workload if possible, so everyone in charge of finding accommodation/transport for different cities respectively. Divide the workload, lessen the mistakes, eliminate the possibility that one person has to tank all the errors LOL.

One mistake I made was to book the wrong month for our Paris airbnb, and to only realise after that and the cancellation policy was strict :( SO PLEASE CHECK AND CHECK TO ENSURE EVERYTHING IS CORRECT FOR YOUR TICKET, ACCOMMODATION EVERYTHING! DON'T TAKE CHANCES.

3) Packing list for exchange

I waited till the super last minute to pack my luggage as I returned from Japan just less than a week before flying off for exchange. And I was lazy (so Claria had to help me overnight haha <3). But really hor, I think if can pack earlier. Just start throwing stuff you think you need during exchange into your luggage as and when. You don't want to be rushing and be anxious about forgetting something important. 

Something I forgotten to bring was, MY FREAKING GRAPHIC CALCULATOR. And I am a Math and Econs student. *come I clap for you* So yes, just please remember to bring, you don't want to buy one there.

I basically followed this checklist for advise on what to bring. I thought it was useful to help me get started.

And after experiencing exchange myself,

These are what I think you SHOULD NOT bring:

Maggie mee/ cup noodles: It is damn ding dey (occupy a lot of space, esp the bowl cup noodles) The asians shops have it. And bringing 5 packets over wouldn't last you entire exchange lolol. For Sweden, ICA sells them!!!! So don't worry if you really craving for it.

Too much milo packets: tbh I wasn't craving milo too much, mostly gave milo away for my international friends to try. I mean, milo is really yummy (milo fan 5eva) everyone should try it. However, that being said, one big packet will do for your friends to share. I brought 2 packets and it was SUPER HEAVY. I carried all my food around during pretrip it was extremely troublesome. Will explain why below.

Too many Singaporean-y food: I know you miss your food but just bring some to cook for your international friends! Go enjoy the food over there since you're in Europe! And also, if you really need some oyster sauce or whatever, just buy it from Asian supermarkets. You definitely have one nearby you. 

New winter wear just for exchange: I did not have any winter wear prior to exchange, and I bought myself some Uniqlo fleece hoodie and 2 turtlenecks. Think those were neccessary, sufficient and pretty affordable. But if you do not have winter jackets and will hardly experience winter anytime soon after exchange like me, just buy them from thrift stores when you reach your city! There are usually a large variety and muuuuuch cheaper for a substantial one. Scored myself a reasonably warm black jacket. But also, thrift shopping is possible only if you are ok with wearing used stuff! :)

Boots: If you do not have those Timberland boots or whatever, no need to buy just to walk on snow. Because when the snow comes and it gets all slippery and shit, these boots still make you fall. If you have them already, bring them as they definitely are better than normal sneakers. But if you do not own them already, don't bother buying them. Get the detachable spikes when you are at a snowy place!

These are what I think you SHOULD bring:

Running shoes: You need to exercise in exchange. Lol

Wifi router: I stayed in a school dormitory hence I was glad I brought my router so I had access to wifi the first day there. It is cheaper to bring it from Singapore!

Coffee packets from Singapore: I'm speaking for people going to Sweden for exchange. Swedish enjoy coffee, so bringing some good kopi packets for them to try may actually be very useful and nice.

Party wear: Not chao clubber but there are parties and parties to go when you are on exchange, so you may consider bringing some dresses/skirts that will keep you warm for the girls so you look presentable and ready to party!

Extra credit card: My parents got me another UOB Lady's Mastercard, on top of my existing POSB card which I usually draw my money with. I put my POSB card in my wallet and my UOB card somewhere else in my bag. The POSB card is for normal usage while the UOB serves as a backup in the case when I lose my wallet/card. This will kinda of save all the trouble of your parents having to send you money from Singapore and you will never be penniless/have insufficient money. This UOB Mastercard merely serves as a backup financially, it's always good to have extra "capabilities" to pay up. lol

Body pouch: Yes, those lao kok kok one that your parents may force you to use. Surprisingly 3 out of 4 of us actually wore it throughout our pretrip. I kept some extra cash and my passport in it and strap it close to my body.

Sling bag: I carried my crossbody bag throughout my trip and put it in front of me ALWAYS. I kept my wallet, handphone and iPad in this bag and constantly checked to ensure these 3 things are in it. Do not put too many junk in your bag, so you can just touch your bag to know that these 3 things are inside. I check my bag like 10 times or more a day not even kidding, better be safe than sorry because some European countries can be really unsafe! Even when we were travelling in trains, this crossbody is always with me. I do not put my valuables in my luggage. I mean if people want to steal my luggage they can la, they can have my clothes lo. Do remind each other about checking your belongings too, am thankful no one I travelled with lost anything.

Wide angle lens/fisheye lens: Good for taking photos with your friends and the whatever chio thing y'all trying to take with, that is if you do not own a DSLR like me!

Some nice things that represent Singapore that you want to share with your international pals: For example, chicken rice paste, chilli crab paste, NTU shirt, NTU file, etc

This list is definitely not exhaustive. Refer to the post above for a more detailed one (I used that checklist to prepare for my trip!).

4) Transporting your hugeass luggage from Singapore to host university

I'm talking about the luggage with 6 months worth of supplies. As my university was in the northern parts (read: ulu) of Sweden, it was quite expensive just to get a flight ticket, fly there, leave my luggage, then proceed for  my pre-trip. Furthermore, my room was not ready yet and I would not have a room to store my luggage. And I did not have a friend living in Sweden or whatsoever.  What Van and I did was, we brought our luggage (we had 40KG baggage limit for our flight from Singapore to Rome) to Rome and from Rome, we hired a door-to-door bagagge delivery service, sendmybag.com. It was definitely cheaper to send it from Rome to Umea, than from Singapore to Umea. We liased with our host uni prior to flying off and they agreed to collect our luggage for us and safekeep it for us in the general office. We had to print this tag and paste it in on our luggage, so do bring some tape! We also managed to find a printing shop nearby to print our tags. One bad thing is that they do not deliver food items, which explains why I had to carry all my cup noodles and milo packets around, throughout my entire pretrip TMD. Ended up eating all my Hello Panda even before I reached Sweden LOL. And also, gels, liquids etc are not allowed. You can read more on their website! Another bad part is that they did not tell us when they were coming to our Rome airbnb to collect our luggage, but instead gave us a time range, which was pretty much the whole day. That was why we actually allocated more time in Rome. So we have decided to wait in our airbnb for the delivery man to come collect our luggages. And thankfully (I still rmb we shrieked) the man came to collect at about 12pm so this means more time to explore Rome!!! Apparently, our luggage got delivered safely to our host uni and to Yi Jin's and Hui Cheng's apartment. Do remember to lias properly with the person in charge of collecting your luggage, don't cock up! But once our luggage was delivered and received, ALL WAS GOOD FROM THEN!!! I think I paid about 160SGD for the service.

Other alternatives is to place it in a friend's house first then fly for your trip, place it in your apartment if it's ready then fly for your trip or send it straight from Singapore a few days before you get your room. Please don't think of carrying your bigass luggage around please, IT'S REALLY DAMN TURN OFF TO CARRY SUCH HEAVY THINGS AROUND.

5) Packing list for pre-trip

For pretrip, just pack what is required because heavy luggages really makes travelling very sian. I expect a pretrip to be around July to end August, which is the season of transition from summer to autumn and sometimes the weather change is drastic. You don't need your winter coat yet, a hoodie and thermal should be enough. For a rough idea, what I suggest is: Thermals, 1 jeans, 1 shorts, 1 long pants, 2 cooling tops, a dress, 2 warm clothes, slipper, sneakers, socks, a good hoodie/jacket, beanie, AND SCARF if you want. I swear a scarf keeps u sooooo damnnnnnnn warm. This was about what I brought for my pretrip of 18 days. I kept my clothes highly matchable with one another. HAHA and I think I was pretty ok dressed for photos ;)

6) Phone services and banking services abroad

Different countries have different SIM cards, so if you were to travel so many places it would be expensive to get SIM cards for every country you visit. I mean you can also la. For me, I did not buy any SIM card for any country/city I visited. I just relied on wifi and I did not have any problem. Wifi are usually available in food places you visit, Macs and sometimes even the public transport. So this makes marking out on Googlemaps where you want to go before leaving your house very important. I kept my Singapore number and phone service so I am always contactable by my family. For my solo trip, I constantly kept in touch with my family via SMS. My dad decided to keep the line too, so that if I ever need to call them or anyone, I can do so. And I also did not get a Swedish number. LOL. But my city was really tiny without metro whatsoever so I wasn't actually very bored travelling from one place to another that I needed to use my phone. The prepaid card wasn't that expensive but it only limited me to call within Sweden, which apparently is quite useless for me because I don't have anyone to call to. The data plan was slightly pricier and not so worth it.

I relied solely on wifi throughout my entire exchange and travelling.

With regards to how I got cash, I did not open a Swedish bank account because it was just for 6 months. Instead, I withdrew money (5000SEK was maximum, about 840SGD) each time using my POSB bank account from their ATM. This can last me for quite long if I did not travel. Sweden is also a highly cashless country, so you can just use Mastercard for the cheapest thing in the supermarket. I understand that I lose out in the exchange rate and all, but ya, just sharing with you guys how I did banking while on exchange. Of course, I do have many friends who open bank accounts in other cities/countries.

7) While travelling

This is just some (read: MANY MANY) random tips I have for travelling in general, like anytime you travel!!! They may be very random/small/common-sensical as I'm just typing out whatever pops up from my head.

1. Always keep your train tickets/air tickets/airbnb itinerary/impt documents in your ipad or phone before leaving your house. You do not know if you have wifi outside so please save everything before leaving home. 2. Some airlines allow for digital tickets (ie, just show your airticket from phone can already) but some strictly only allows for hard copy air tickets. 3. Train tickets are basically ok if in soft copies. And you can buy your train tickets on the spot for city to city. So don't worry if last minute you missed your train etc! Still same price I think. But buy beforehand if possible. 4. RYANAIR requires Singaporeans to do a visa check before boarding. So you need to get a stamp at the ryanair booth before going to the boarding gate. Leave some time for that! They will state you need to check your visa in the ticket, read carefully! 5. Always keep your bags in front of you. Don't ever put it behind you. 6. Always put minimal valuables with you, and always check for them. Remind your friends too whenever leaving a place. It's the time to be naggy and paranoid. Chances are, if you lose sth you will never find it back. 7. Do not be too kind and help other people. I think everyone has heard enough pickpocketing stories. Don't go dark alleys in the night, be smart! 8. Try to collect all dem geotags on Snapchat. I mean, why not since you there already! 9. TAKE MANY PHOTOS AND VIDEOS!!!! The photos of my travelling still brings back fond memories and You Are A Tourist Just Do Your Thang!!! Chances are, you will not come back anymore so just take photos. But do be mindful of the time you take to get that perfect shot la ok, I mean those who I travelled with were really just looking to take nice touristy step shots with our samsung or iphone. But if you are those into professional photography and wouldn't mind spending half a day to take that one perfect shot, do see if your friends are on the same page with u! 10. Don't be specially on a hunt to buy soveniers for your family and friends. You can buy some along the way but don't be like on a full force hunt for them. To be honest I could not find many good soveniers that I feel were useful and worthy of the price. If something looks nice and affordable for a large bunch of people back home, just get them. So at least you solved your sovenier issue because trust me, there isn't many good soveniers la LOL. For me, I got 1 thing from some cities I went to, which were mostly small and not too pricey. Then I put them into goodiebags for my friends, so they get a range of soveniers from different places. Some ideas are, chocolates from Belgium, Eiffel Tower keychain from Paris, chio keychains from London, teabags from London and Ikea meatball sauce from Sweden. 11. Try sandermans free walking tours. Book in advance although you can just show up at their meeting point if you did not book (however at Prague they only allowed people who book to join because the crowd was overwhelming). The tours usually give me insights and interesting facts about the city and most of the time I'm not disappointed!! They are free tours and you pay how much the tour guide deserves after the tour has ended. We usually each give 5 euros or more each, don't be cheapskate and pay nothing la!!! 12. Googlemaps is da bombz. Prior to the trip I did not really use googlemaps. So for those who do not know what it is, lemme tell you the greatness of this feature. Save all your locations that you want to go before you start the day (you need wifi for this) and you get all the pins to plan your day. Most of the places of interests are really walkable, so once you get a rough gauge of what you are doing for the day, head out. To know how to walk from point A to B, switch on your gps (no wifi needed) and follow the route. TADA. Ok you may think this is stupid but I really did not know about it till I was there. I hardly got lost with googlemaps. 13. Be flexible with the itinerary. Don't tire everyone out with a full day pack plan. Enjoy the company and the places, that's more important. 14. If you need wifi, go to MacDonalds!!!! You may need to buy something to get the wifi password but ok, worth it. Saved my life many times. 15. Pay an entrance fee for something only if you want to. Some entrance fees may be pricey, so only go in if you want. Then again, don't sting on it if most of your friends want to visit. I mean, you are already there so just go in! Do take note if there are discounts using your ISIC card. I elaborate if you should or not visit some attractions below! 16. Try not to break the rules. I sound damn toot for saying this but sometimes, just pay for the bus or train if you need to. My friends and I paid for most of our trips ('cept in Prague, you really do not need to pay for the trains LOL nobody pays and nobody cares) like any good citizen would and I think it makes me less paranoid about train attendants coming to spot check on us and whatnot. In Cinque Terre, we did not pay for our bus and I swear the bus attendant came in one stop before we had to alight. I forgot what happened but I rather play on the safe side so I don't get hurt~~~ 17. Allocate more time to travel to the airport. DON'T DO LAST MINUTE BOARDING OF THE PLANES. You do not want to miss your flight because of security checks man. Don't try to think you have a lot of time, go about 1.5 hours before the flight. Some airports really do have extremely looOoooOong wait for security checks, like London. And rmb for Ryanair we need to get our visa checked. 18. Be a good travel buddy. It may feel like a fun getaway with your pals but sometimes when you are to spend 24/7 with them, their habits may not be in sync with what you like. This may be worst travelling with people you do not really know. Learn to be more accomodating, but voice out your opinions and preferences if needed. Know each other's spending habits, level of cleanliness, dietary preferences, whether they are on the more careless side or more laid back side, or even come to a consensus on what time you guys want to wake up... And try to work things out. It does help to have a bigger heart, yet rmb to be firm when it comes to serious matters like safety and train and flight timings. But then again, I had not much problem with those whom I travelled with HAHA. I think maybe I was the good travel buddy then *flips hair 19. Be adventurous and try new things, like new food, talk to new people, experience new activities but always be safe. I regretted not going skydiving before it colder, but I did not regret trying rabbit meat (sorry) in Prague, dressing up as Snow White in London, solo-trippin' in Helsinki and Tallin, cliff-jumping in Cinque Terre, random talking to some Korean and Chinese people under the Colosseum in Rome, 2eur cheap sexy thrill and smokin' in Amsterdam, iceskating in a Christmas market in Berlin and many more! 20. Be accountable to your parents because while you are having fun in Europe, trust me, your parents are worried sick back in Singapore. Even if you are a guy. Just ensure you always tell them which city you are at and let them know when you leave and return to your airbnb. Don't go mia because you are just making your parents more worried! This is the least you can do for them. 21. Try to be safe. I haven't couchsurfed or hitched a hike because mostly I travelled with girls and my parents are not that fond of the idea. I mean, I did not mind not having this experience too because my parents always tell me scary stories la. But if you ever do, I just want you to rmb to be safe and do these with caution. I mean if you alone one girl, try not to couchsurf or hitch a hike if got nothing la. Am I too naggy? 22. Be mindful of the luggage limits when you are taking a plane. It's damn expensive to pay extra baggage in the airport. Try not to bring too many unnecessary things, and wear your thickest clothings on your body to save space. I remember sweating like dog but had to wear my winter jacket on my body LOL. I did my travelling without any extra baggage, so everything handcarry (I didn't even own those bagpacking dk how many litres kind of bag). So really travel light, and try not to buy unneccesary things. I resisted myself so much at London :( 23. Get a good thick scarf!!! In extremely cold places I give credit to my scarf for protecting my coldass face. 24. Always bring a charged extra battery or portable charger to remain contactable by your parents, for directions purposes and to take photos. 25. Spend when you need, scrimp when you can. Don't go all budgety for every single thing you do there, spend on an entrance ticket for a place of interest you want to, splurge on a good meal if your friends want to. Rmb, since you are already in Europe, just enjoy yourself. Of course, don't spend money like it's free. Scrimp by going to the nearby grocery store to get breakfast and snacks for when you are hungry. Or take a walk instead of taking the metro or bus, anything within 5km of walking is definitely manageable. 26. Collect something from every city if you want! For me, I collected Snapchat geotags and postcards. 27. Be aware of the bus/flight/train timings! Just a personal experience. I was waiting for my overnight bus from Stockholm to Umea alone and was actually 1 hour early for my bus at 9pm. However, I was waiting and was so engrossed on my phone that I just missed the timing of my bus. Apparently the bus has left without me and I had to stayover at Macs, waited till 8am the next day for a 9-hr bus ride back. Waste money, wasted time and made my parents worry. Just be mindful that buses and trains are actually pretty damn accurate SO DON'T MAKE STUPID MISTAKES. 28. Singaporeans are really not that uncommon in Europe, you sorta can recognise that they are Singaporeans. Always nice to seek help from them if you need. I mean, always nice to talk to Singaporeans when you are so far away from home! 29. Document your exchange life on instagram, fb or even a blog. I'm glad I posted my feelings/things I did on exchange on Instagram because reading them now just gives me all the good vibes, and it reminds of things that I may have forgotten. 30. Check-in online beforehand. Different airlines have different days prior to flight to check in, some 3 days, some 24 hours.

8) Next trip after school started

When I first started school I did not travel much because I want to fully integrate myself into life in Umea. Our uni had a buddy programme and I kinda joined and attended most of the activities. I studied too HAHA. I think it's quite important to familiarise and enjoy yourself in your city since you are already there! Then when you see a break you can try to plan for your first adventure :) As my area predominantly required a plane to travel out, I used skyscanner to search for the cheapest places to fly to from Stockholm. Skyscanner has this feature that allows you to fly "Everywhere". Then you plan from there lol I also asked my Swedish friends what is the best ways to travel out and sometimes they do have good tips to share, like how SAS Airlines has a youth discount.

Then once you are ready just BOOK IT, don't think too much. I actually booked my Iceland trip assuming to go all myself because I really wanted to visit Iceland. Think I got cheaper tickets because I booked several months in advance.

As for itinerary, you can do it on the day itself when you start your day of travelling hahahaha. That's what I usually do, but it's normally not as detailed and well-planned as your pre-trip would have been.

One stupid mistake I made while booking my flights was to suaku-ly assume that every country has only one freaking airport. I had to take a flight from Umea to Stockholm, then Stockholm to London. However, there are 2 airports in Stockholm but I was so blur, so I booked one from Umea to Aranda Airport and the other from Skavsta Airport to London. And yes, Aranda to Skavsta airport is like super far. But I had to suck it up and buy an additional bus ticket to travel that distance, alone. And had some little adventure which made me take a taxi instead...... moral of the story, be alert!

Also, try not to think that you can skip all the lessons. I had trouble catching up and had to dabao one mod, not the best scenario. So do travel during school time mindfully! Exchange really need to study one!!!!!!

9) Being on exchange in campus

Umea uni is one of the best rated universities for exchange students and I do agree with it. We have a buddy programme whereby it's similar to a OG system in Singapore context, with group leaders and activities planned out. Always be active on Facebook because events are usually posted there. Parties invitations are also posted on Fb so really remember to check on Facebook to avoid missing out fun activities. It may be quite intimidating talking to a bunch of angmohs at first but don't worry because we are brought up with English as our first language, so communication is not a barrier. In fact, other Europeans don't even speak English as well as we do. Even if you speak some (for me, a lot) of Singlish in your conversations with them, just try to teach them some Singaporean culture! But of course, try to speak proper English and we all can if we want to really. I think it is also nice to talk to Asians first, if that is within your comfort zone. My first few friends and closest friends are actually Koreans! It's also always fun to speak Mandarin to Hongkongers and Taiwanese for a start :) Speaking of first day of class, I was petrified as hell because I really hate to go meet new people all by myself. I was srsly feeling left out when I entered the classs because I was late lol and most of them have already begun talking to each other. And worst still, I was the only Asian. I rmb going to the toilet to sit down during break because I was just so not used to being friendless LOL. But in the end I did try to introduce myself to my classmates and as days passed by, it got waaayyyyy better. Thankfully my class was small of about 7 people, we even had parties together and even go for gym classes tgt. Another thing is to always be willing to join activities. I was pretty enthu to join any activity and attended any party I was invited to, and it got me exposed to many fun and interesting things. Sometimes you may be so lazy to go out but trust me, it's going to be better than you think! I also try to be myself, and be as outspoken as I can be. You now have a buffet of international exchange students from all over the world in front of you, why not just take the time to know their culture better? And maybe teach some hokkien bad words to your international friends lol.

For my school, we have a ebay on Facebook so people can sell and buy things. Do check those places out if you are interested to buy something but do not want to spend a lot.

Living by yourself in exchange also means lots of cooking. In Sweden, food is so expensive outside so I cooked almost every meal. I do not cook much in Singapore so it was actually pretty damn exciting to start making my own meals. I was more on the lazy side but you can be a masterchef here in exchange!

I also think exchange is a good time to set some personal goals. You are finally left to live by yourself without your family or any Singaporean friends, so it's just you and your discipline. I am regretful that I did not achieve my goal of losing weight LOL, because I drifted off so badly after my gym membership ended with my terrible eating habits. But I did exercise at least 4 times a week which was applaudable I suppose. Take this golden time of your life to make some changes, whether is it to eat better, exercise more, get that 6packs, lose weight, learn how to bake, learn how to knit, learn a new language... whatever it is. Exchange is actually a good time.

Lastly, stay in touch with your friends and family in Singapore. I was homesick for the first week and then never ever again LOL. But it always feels damn nice to skype/call/text those back home so that you stay in touch with their lives. Like really, seeing their faces just WARMS MY HEARTTTTT they have no idea.

10) Places I have visited throughout my exchange

This is just a summary of the places I've visited and my thoughts about them! I try to be as consized as possible, highlighting mainly the places YOU NEED TO GO, places YOU CAN DON'T NEED GO, duration at the city, accomodations I recommend and food to eat. ALSO I WENT ON THE SANDERMANS FREE WALKING TOUR WHENEVER I HAD TIME TO ON THE FIRST DAY WHEN I REACHED A CITY. They usually bring you to the highlights of the city and introduce the best things to do there.

Rome, Italy

3 August 2015 - 6 August 2015 Colosseum, Roman Forum and Palatine Hill were side by side and there's a ticket that covers all 3 entrances. PAY FOR TICKET! Vatican City visit is a must!!! I'm not the most historical person but this place blew me away. Go get cheaper tickets from the stand outside and go there earlier because we reached late and the tickets were sold out. Paid for those seemingly scamming tours but oh wells, pretty worth it. You can also choose to queue up (crazy queue) at the St. Peter's Square to enter for free, but I think just pay la, THE SUN AND QUEUE WAS CRAZY. St. Peter's Basilica, Sistine Chapel, Vatican Museums, etc.... Beautiful. PAY FOR TICKET! Pantheon was not bad but pales in comparison imo after I saw the churches in Vatican city lol. Spanish Steps is just steps... lor Trevi Fountain was renovating when we were there :( One famous gelato to try is Giolitti Gerlateria. It is walkable distance from the Pantheon! Not bad, just don't try g.nutella. HC and I chose it and totally regret 'cuz it was too damn dui (g stands for GAO, GAO NUTELLA)

Venice, Italy

7 August 2015- 8 August 2015 The only mode of transport in Venice is WATER TAXIS, ie they don't have cars/metro/buses. When you first reach Venice, buy their water taxi card depending on the number of days you are there for. It's quite pricey but no choice. I did not sit on a Gondola and think it is ok la, because really damn ex! There are 2 major islands in Venice, Burano and Murano. Murano is famous for its glass craftwork while Burano is the one with the colorful buildings. If you are short of time, give Murano a skip and just go to Burano. Murano got nothing much really unless you are into glass craftmanship! But can get a nice glass jewellery as a gift for your friends back though. Burano, on the other hand is super photogenic, just snap all your want and allocate more time here for some awesome shots. We had some time on hand so we went to Lido Beach too, which is awesome to see sunset. However, slightly out of way as it is the last stop of the water taxis. Nice spot to visit and chill if you've got some time. Food-wise, I Tre Mercanti is the place for yummy tiramisu. PISTACHIO ONE OMG. It's near to St Mark's Square, so just drop by for a taste!

Florence, Italy

9 August 2015 - 11 August 2015 Climb up to Piazzale Michelangelo for the beautiful sunset. Many people will already be there so be sure to reach early to grab a good spot and CAMP THERE. We reached pretty early but sat down and nua, to find out when the sun was setting, everyone freaking chiong and needed to squeeze a lil to get a good spot. Visit The Mall for outlet shops such as Gucci, MK, Prada etc. I got myself a MK bag and watch for a pretty decent price so yay! But take note it's quite a bus ride away from the city centre, and the price of the shuttle bus xiao ex. But since you are already on your way to getting yourself some luxury brands, don't hiam on the bus ticket LoL. Pointe Vecchio was pretty normal (right outside the airbnb I lived in!). Florence Cathedral was pretty unique and pretty to me! Florentine steak place to go is La Fettunta. It was my first time eating steak (lol) and it was yummy!!! And affordable too. Gelato choice is the famous Carapina!

Pisa, Italy

12 August 2016 We dropped by Pisa on our way to Cinque Terre to visit the Leaning Tower of Pisa :) Think of cool creative poses because everyone is doing the same ones. Also, be patient to take a nice photo because everyone gna photobomb you like every other famous attraction.

Cinque Terre, Italy

12 August 2015 - 13 August 2015 Can I say I super love this place?! It can easily be one of my favourite places throughout my entire exchange. I think I really liked the clear blue waters and the seafood and the sun and the swimming. However, it's quite hard to find airbnb there that was near to the islands. So book very early!! Ours was pretty damn faraway from all the beaches :( Cinque Terre consisted of 5 lands/islands and each land has a different feel to it. Wished I had more time to visit all of them. Only visited 3 (Manarola, Riomaggiore and Monterosso al Mare) in the end, and decided to stay at Riomaggiore 'cuz lesser people. It can get really crowded!!! Siao right, so crowded. Swim if you can! And cliffdive! And wear chio swimsuit! I got many scratches though because the rocks are super sharp but YOLOOOOOO.

Milan, Italy

14 August 2015 Nothing much happened as it was a stopover :(

Paris, France

15 August 2015 - 17 August 2015 Besides the Eiffel Tower, visit the Palace of Versailles! You need to take a more ex train because it's further away. The Palace was sadly closed when we were there :( But I heard it's really beautiful, at least the Gardens of Versailles which was opened gave me a good impression! One of my fav Sandermans walking tour was in Paris too! So definitely go for it. We then got tickets to Montparnasse, which is the highest point in Paris to view the Eiffel Tower and the city landscape at night. This was what we saw, and the ticket from Sandermans. I think can don't go up if wanna save! Just view it from below under the Eiffel Tower for free :) Near Mountparnasse though, there is a street filled with yummy pancake cafes. We wanted to visit La Crêperie de Josselin but it was closed the two times we were there. So we randomly visited one and it was still good. Just google for Josselin and you will find that street filled with all the pancake shops. I visited The Louvre museum too and got the tickets at 18euro to skip the line. Sadly, I was bored as hell and it was stuffy inside. Really no need to go in unless you really sibei artsy fartsy. I guess at least I can haolian that I saw the real Mona Lisa painting. But really quite bohua if you dk how to appreciate. A regret is not visiting the Disneyland Paris. It's a bit far away and we did not have time for it. Would totally wna visit it if I had a chance!

Amsterdam, The Netherlands

18 August 2015 - 20 August 2015 I went for the Red Light District free tour by Sandermans again and it was interesting! I mean, the whole rld is really eye-opening because you finally get to see the fishtanks people talk about. NO PHOTOGRAPHY THOUGH!!! Don't be a ccb and stick to the rules ok, 'cuz I really saw one lady scolding a tourist who took photos super fiercely. Not fun. There's also a 2euro cheap thrill shop, where you see people do stuff in a container for a few minutes for just 2 Euro. Ok la yolo And for weed... try but rmb weed stays in your system for 4 days la I heard. Don't kena caught in airport. Visited the Anne Frank museum too! Read it in school before and it's just really cool to visit it myself. The ticket is 9.50 euro and it is really quite small. But if you have cash to spare, go because it's like whatever you learnt in school come to life!!! It is about same as what you read from the book, just that you really see it real life I guess. Vondelpark was great to chill and watch how the Danish people cycle and enjoy life. I took a 2 hr nap on the grasspatch too, shiiiiiiiiiok Albert Cuyp Market is da bomb 'cuz food haven. It's not the cheapest but ok priced la if you share share. Please try this if you like fish!!! It's called Herring. I love the taste of it though my friends hate it :( Also, not sure it will still be there but there is a Birkenstock shop that sells reasonably cheap Birks!!! Some good beer place recommended by Van (who is beer expert) is Brouwerij 't IJ. I got damn tipsy I don't even know why, like I almost blacked out while I went to the toilet. LOL.

Helsinki, Finland

25 October 2015 - 28 October 2015 (duration was ok, since there was a day trip to Tallinn) This was my solo trip and I took a ferry to Helsinki. It's a pretty calm and safe place to visit. I visited Suomenlinna, which is a UNESCO heritage site. was ok LOL hahahaha I visited the Temppeliaukio Church, which is really cool church made from a rock! I do not know if the Market Square was just like that but there weren't many many stalls as I expected, so I was pretty sad. I walked everywhere and did not spend on transport. I suppose when you are alone you have more time to do what you want haha I stayed at Eurohostel and got a single room. The location is damn good, near the Market Square, Helsinki Cathedral and the ferry port. Helsinki in general is pretty boring (maybe I did not explore enough) but I did enjoy myself some alone time and did not feel lonely at all. Definitely do a solo trip if possible!

Tallinn, Estonia

27 October 2015 (1 day is sufficient) Took a 2-hr ferry from Helsinki to Tallinn, which is an old town. I spent less than a day there and went back to Helsinki. Simply roamed around Tallinn, enjoyed the architecture and ate some Estonian food too! From Helsinki you can take a ferry to Russia too, wished I had time to visit a little of Russia too!

London, United Kingdom

30 October 2015 - 3 November 2015 (Could have added one more day to visit the Emirates Stadium (and get sth for YH), and for shopping if you want) Was pretty honored to be brought around by Yvette HAHA so Peizi and I basically followed her and did not do much thinking. We visited Borough Market and Camden Food Market for fooOooOooOood. Gosh there were so much variety and I WANTED TO EAT EVERYTHING. Just something to make you excited about food markets in general. Pz and I also queued up early (we reached about 9ish am) on the day of the musical, at the ticket office at Apollo Victoria Theatre to buy discounted tickets for Wicked. Surprisingly, we were the only ones there LOL so hennnng ah, got our front row tickets (I mean like right smack in centre, front row, so good u feel a bit paiseh) seats for only 29.50 pounds. It's a huge discount considering the seats we are getting. So definitely worth considering! And can I say I super loved it!??!?! If I were to start London again, I would definitely watch a musical a day. Watched Wicked on our last night, so no more musicals! 10/10 WORTH THE PRICE! Visited the Harry Potter Studios and had to chiong all my Harry Potter movies. I thought pounds as euros so I got the tickets wtffff end up it was 33 pounds. Oh wells, but definitely eye opening. We went on the 6pm tour and we did not really visit the entire thing fully (it closes at 10pm). So try to book the earlier tours to really see everything, it is a free and easy tour :) Lucky for me, I chionged my HP movies and was able to understand what was happening. Pz didn't HAHAHA. Only go if you are a Harry Potter fan!!! Because the ticket is really quite ex. You need to book the tickets in advance and the timeslots avail do run out fast. Also note that the HP studio is a lil out of London so we had to take a train which costs almost 20sgd to the studios. Other awesome things to do in London is go for the walking tour where they bring you to see the London Eye, Buckingham Palace, Trafalgar Square, Big Ben etc. And eat Lobster and Burgers!!!! GOSHHHH Just to pre-empt you, London Bridge is really underwhelming. Tower Bridge on the other hand, is pretty!! And go shopping if you can, OXFORD STREET. I had to restrict myself because London was my first stop and I had to watch my baggage restrictions. Maybe can make London your last stop so you can shop enough, buy additional baggage space and go back to your uni. Wanted to watch a soccer match but there weren't matches while we were there. Some London people can be quite racist, just saying.

Lisbon, Portugal

3 November 2015 - 5 November 2015 (duration is sufficient!) I loved Lisbon!! Look at all the beautiful tiles everywhereeee. Although the streets here are all pretty steep. On the places that I don't think you need to pay for, just visit can already: Belém Tower, Santa Justa lift and Jerónimos Monastery. I got the Lisboa card, hence these attractions were free. However, if you are not getting the Lisboa card then no need buy tickets for them. The famous Portugese egg tarts were heavenly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Pasteis de Belem OMG. Haven't eaten dan tats like theirs. Also try the hot chocolate, yumzzzz. Another place I enjoyed was the Time Out Mercado da Ribeira. It is actually quite modern and slightly pricey, but serves awesome food. Like a higher end food court. Try the seafood risotto! Also, there is a Best Chocolate Cake ever from O Melhor Bolo de Chocolate do Mundo. But it was realllllly normal lol. We had time and visited a town Cascais for its beaches but it was very underwhelming. Was quite sure we were at the right place, but we caught a very beautiful sunset :) I wanted to find the airbnb I stayed in but I can't. However, the address is: Rua da Esperança 8 Lisboa, Lisboa 1200 Portugal (nearest Metro station: Cais do Sodre) Anywhere around this area is good!

Rotterdam, The Netherlands

6 November 2015 - 7 November 2015 (sufficient duration to roam around and shop) Basically visited Rotterdam because pz stays there and I get free accomodation hehe. I did not do much there except shop at Primark. I visited the Blaak Markt too and there were many things sold there such as food, flowers, clothes etc. My kind of thing! I did visit the Kinderdijk, a windmill area in Rotterdam myself. It was quite out of the way but definitely pretty. Wished I had cycled there if I had more time!!

Brussels, Belgium

7 November 2015 - 8 November 2015 (sufficient for me) This was a solo trip again and I took a bus from Rotterdam to Belgium cheap. Was expecting the chocolates to be damn heavenly but sadly idk if it's just me, but the chocolates are pretty underwhelming. Was googling for the best chocolate around, went there but the chocos were meh and pricey. Visited a flea market, Jeu de Balle, and I really liked it. They sell everything and anything! My kind of shopping. I stayed at Hôtel de Ville de Bruxelles which was walkable to all the normal touristy places. And the hotel was not bad too.

Stockholm, Sweden

13 November 2015 - 16 November 2015 (sufficient for me) Finally visited where I always stopover at. The best takeaway was prolly finally meeting Mandy and watching my first ice-hockey match! Although I did not understand a single thing about ice-hockey prior to the match, the atmosphere is just awesome! Visited the Vaasa museum which was pretty much an eyeopener. I really liked it, so go visit if you can! However, Skansen (a zoo and museum) and the museum I visited in Gamla Stan (I don't even rmb the name) was mehhhh. I followed the tour around Gamla Stan and it was interesting to know the history and background of Sweden.

Barcelona, Spain

15 December 2015 - 17 December 2015 (sufficient duration) Thank goodness the weather was so much more bearable than in Sweden. We did not pay for La Sagrada Familia but the exterior is so pretty, except for the ongoing construction LOL. However, we paid for entrance of Casa Batlló..... gosh not worth it. Visited Casa Milà (lame), Park Güell (think it have been beautiful if it was in the morning) and Magic Fountain of Montjuïc (however it was closed during winter T_T). Nonetheless the food made up for it. Churros, paella, tapas, llao llao (they taste the same as Singapore's). Food market: Mercado de La Boqueria Paella to try: As long as it is a paella. Ok where I went was La Tertulia but it was xiao ex Tapas: La Flauta We also visited Camp Nou but I did not enter due to time constraint. Not a soccer fan so not too much a loss for me! We walked everywhere without public transport. Also, from the airport to city centre you needed to take the shuttle bus, at 10.50eur if I did not remember wrongly. I reached at midnight alone at Barcelona but many mama shops were still open, and our airbnb was walkable from the city centre. Decent airbnb and the host was super friendly: link

Cologne, Germany

18 December 2015 - 19 December 2015 (sufficient for me) Welcomed Christmas season with all dem Germany's Christmas markets. Definitely up a notch for the xmas atmosphere this year. Very very crowded but 'tis a season to be jolly! I didn't do much in Cologne 'cept shopped at Primark HAHA. Just take note that during xmas times, it's very hard to find accomodations because hosts usually do not host you during xmas so book hostels earlier!

Hamburg, Germany

20 December 2015 - 21 December 2015 (sufficient for me) Another Xmas market by the Town hall! Took the time to go on the walking tour. Hostel we stayed was Generator Hostel Hamburg, super convenient and pretty.

Dresden, Germany

22 December 2015 - 23 December 2015 (sufficient for me) Bussed via Flixbus to Dresden and the buses were really comfy!! Xmas markets again and did some shopping since there was shopping streets near us. Tried Glühwein, a common xmas wine and I HATE IT. You can keep the cup or get a refund for the cups. But it's really heavy to collect mugs, so only collect if you rly like the design. The food in xmas markets are usually rather overpriced. And of course how can I not try some wurst (German hotdog)! Quite normal but just try la since already in Germany and they are everywhere!

Berlin, Germany

24 December 2015 - 25 December 2015 (could have one more day to visit more since there is soooo much history!) My favourite city out of the 4 I've visited in Germany, so much history and super interesting city. We visited Berlin on Christmas Day so basically everywhere was closed. And so I went on a concentration camp tour at Sachsenhausen Memorial for almost the entire day and it was mindblowing. This is a paid tour (14eur) by Sandermans and WORTH IT. Just remember to get your train tickets beforehand! Cheaper if you have 4 people to share with. Took quite a while to find out where the Berlin wall was LOL... it was pretty far from where we stayed gosh, but HAVE. TO. GO! Even if you live in West Germany (which I did). Do allocate more time if you want to take photos and walk through the entire wall... I didn't have sufficient time to walk everything. Food-wise, we wanted to try pork knuckles before we left Germany. Food-wise, we visited the famous Hofbrau Munchen Berlin for our xmas dinner. The food was yummy but the service SUXXXXXXXXX. Not sure if it's because it's xmas so everyone is damn angsty or what.

Prague, Czech Republic

26 December 2015 - 28 December 2015 (can shorten a bit!) This was the only city we took the transportation for free. The old town square has no fountain/wishing well LOL. Jolin was lying :( And the Charles Bridge is so crowded, walked it several times. But the Prague Astronomical Clock was just nearby so worthy to take photos there, though it is just a clock, but still a cool clock. I liked the Prague Castle too, really pretty. A place to oversee Prague's landscape is Petřín. A place for traditional Prague dishes at affordable price is U Parlamentu, it's nearby the Old Town Square. Dancing House was pretty underwhelming, no need go if no time. Our airbnb was great, shared with other strangers but we even made friends with the other Chinese girls pretty cool. Almost everywhere I wanted to go to in Prague was walkable from the Old Town Square, so it was quite convenient. Airbnb: link

Copenhagen, Denmark

29 December 2015 - 1 January 2016 (can shorten a bit, or probably just hated the weather LOL) Not sure if it's just me, but I really HATED the weather in CPH. The winds were so strong and the sky is constantly gloomy :( And it was very very cold, like it felt even colder than in Sweden. Little Mermaid statue was pretty out of the way and very underwhelming, as you can expect. The trip was pretty sian because I really hated the weather and we had to walk about 5km or so out to the city centre everyday. But my highlight gotta be visiting Freetown Christiania, which is a self-proclaimed autonomous neighborhood. They call it the Green Light Zone because there are so much weed. But rmb no photography! So interesting though the smell of weed was literally everywhere. Definitely an interesting place to visit.

Malmo, Sweden

30 December 2015 (a day trip is sufficient) Took a day trip to Sweden on a bus from CPH, wasn't very expensive. Malmö didn't have many things to do but my main aim was to visit Ikea and try meatballs. So I did. Not sure if it's a psychological thing but Ikea meatballs just feel more legit when eaten in Sweden ;)

Reykjavik, Iceland

2 January 2016 - 6 January 2016 (can extend, there are still many amazing things I could have done/ places to visit in Iceland) Instead of driving around as I was the only driver, we booked everything under tour packages. I recce all the tour packages and found out these were the cheapest (although nothing is really cheap here LOL). Northern lights tour: We flew wowair so there were some promotions for the tours, which was organised by Reykjavik Excursions, and we paid SGD63.24/pax. Southern Iceland Tour: Consisted of to and fro from Blue Lagoon (entrance fee not included), Southern Iceland tour and Golden Circle tour. The company we hired was bustravel, and we paid SGD273.40/pax. For the Northern lights tour, you check the Reyjavik Excursions Facebook page to keep updated if the tour is on as it is subject to weather conditions. As the appearance of aurora is unpredictable, we went on the first night we reached to maximise our chances of seeing aurora. You can keep rebooking the tours, whether you see the aurora or not, and it's valid for 1 year. So no worries! For the Southern Iceland tour, I really enjoyed myself. Had a terribly hard time walking on slippery glaciers LOL bring better shoes if can because I literally felt I would slip and die anytime. But the view was worth it. Blue lagoon was pretty overpriced though it is definitely a must go. The tour only included the transportation so we had to book the entrance ticket ourselves. Book early because if you book when you are there, chances are you will not get it. We paid for the 55eur COMFORT package and it was certainly comfortable. You get a drink and some trial mud mask thing, beer by Blue Lagoon is quite shiok experience. To take photos, do bring along those transparent handphone holders from Singapore yourself! They sell it there but really expensive. This makes taking photos with your phone easier, you don't want to get your phone wet. Another favourite view of mine is the Gullfoss. We decided to do Icelandic horseriding at the last minute at Laxnes Horse Farm. It wasn't a bad experience, but I was feeling extremely cold and sorry for the horses lol. Got boring after a while as the horses weren't galloping all the time. Definitely can skip this if you are not into horseriding, wasn't cheap either! But at least, my first horseriding experience checked! Food-wise, we tried some Icelandic food and didn't like it, wasn't cheap too:( So maybe just buy one dish for everyone to try. We stayed at Baldursbra Guesthouse Reykjavik which is avail for pickup for the tours we did, and there is free breakfast! Everything was nice about the place :) Once you sign with the tour, the bus will state a time to pick you up so you just wait at your guesthouse for pickup and start your day! It's pretty convenient this way. Also, they send u back to your guesthouse at the end of the tour. *** This is all and hope it has helped a little! Enjoy yourself because exchange is really a privilege and stay safe! Signing off, Jasmine

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Hey babe I was friends with a person like that and the whole summer before college when everyone came home, they’d constantly make plans and I’d just watch from Snapchat or Instagram without actually being invited and it hurt so much I mean I don’t like going out that much but the sentiment of me not being invited hurt so much and they’d try to one up me when I was with them or just leave me it of convos ?? and it was so painful I’d be anxious whenever they DID invite me and sad whenever (1)

(2) They didn’t and it was such a vicious cycle especially during a time like summer where I didn’t really have much to do to keep my mind off things anyway ,,. It got to the point where I felt keeping this relationship was worth it because I felt the good memories I did have, I didn’t wanna get rid of because of these few bad feelings and I’ve realized that that’s not okay. Your feelings are valid you’re not being sensitive it really DOES affect your mental health i mean I never really thought  

(3) I’d ever be in a situation where I was left out but it hurts like hell lmfao like I think back to those times and I really was miserable I felt like I had to prove myself to them and it was not okay so gradually (because I’m no confrontational asf lmao) I just cut off communication with them like if they texted me or even those who didn’t I just stopped interacting?? And yeah I realized that a lot of them didn’t really mind or notice lmao but then the ones that did and reached out somehow hurt     

(4) More because ?? I knew I’d talk to them again and they’d treat me like a side thing at the end of the day so i just stopped communicating. And I know it’s easier said than done and I don’t know your situation but !!! It’s been like 5 months and the first month was so !! So painful not having them talk to me and vise Vera because I KNEW it was me that initiated this lack of contact on my end but I can say with my whole chest now that I’m so much happier I think about those times and the pains             

(5) Still there(definitely!!) but I’m so much better off than where I was mentally when I was around them. The first steps in this process which is realization of you being worth more than them and knowing they can’t offer you what you deserve and that’s not a reflection of you as a person rather how unfortunate they are to not appreciate you and acknowledge you  is the most difficult to deal with but you have to understand that I love you sm and I wish you the best know ur worth bitch I believ in u

okay im putting this under cut because i wrote..a lot.

well first of all, hello to you too! im sorry i was delying my response to this but i needed some time to think (and to get on my desktop to put all of what you sent to me in one place). second of all: wow. im just?? so moved?? you’re probably the first ever person who really made me realize that maybe im not actually all alone in this, that somewhere in this cruel world are people suffering from many different things, some even experiencing same difficulties as me.

you know, when im having a crappy day, when anxiety kicks in and i have no will to interract with others AT ALL, i tend to isolate myself. i keep my mouth shut, pretend everything’s fine on the outside but inside im just screaming for help. this is probably a very much toxic trait of mine but i do act like this because deep down i hope someone will notice something’s wrong with me; that they would approach me somehow and ask if im alright or tell me they’ve observed i haven’t been acting like ‘old’ me recently, that some things are off. but what’s actually really illogical here is that they never notice. well, maybe except for my mum, cause you know what they say, mums always know when their children are having a bad time. yet for me, in most cases i try not to transfer my problems onto my family. i just don’t want them to feel worry about me.

so yeah, no one notices and that’s how life goes by. i cry myself a little to sleep, watch antother netflix series or a movie, study for school and then i come back to normal. everything’s peachy, until it isn’t.

what you wrote about your relationship with your friends is very similar to my situation. at some point, i don’t know how that happened, they just stopped treating me like they used to. we are so called ‘group’ of friends. four girls, one of them being my best friend of five years (actually she kinda isn’t anymore but that’s a discourse for another occasion), the other two i know since the beginning of high school (we’re in our senior year now). somehow, we just clicked.we started hanging out, discovered having same outlooks and interests (3/4 of us are armys and the other girl is very supportive bts ally). people treated us like a whole package, y’know what i mean? it was all fun and games until last year some things went to shit.

i don’t want to get into details because that is not my point here at all, what im trying to say is that i’ve never felt more left out in my entire life. i didn’t do anything wrong and even if my behaviour or sth i had said annoyed or disturbed them in some way - they shoud have confronted about it to me. that’s how people work out conflicts, right? they TALK. instead, they started meeting up behind my back. what is hilarious, they sent me a snapchat, that’s how i found out. when i asked them why didn’t they tell me about the meeting, no one answered me. i just hoped at least they felt a little bit uneasy.

it went to the point were i was literally sitting with them during lunch break and they were discussing going somewhere together. they didn’t ask for my opinion, acted like i wasn’t even there and yes, they did fulfill their plans after all, without me. and it hurt. it hurt so bad and i’ve never felt shitier as a person like ever. that’s when my mental health literally began to crumble. i started blaming myself for this, isolating, not responding enthusiastically in group chats anymore because i thought pretending everything’s fine wasn’t a good idea. i was a shallow of my old self.

somehow, things went back to normal. dare i say it was great, even. and now it kind of isn’t, again. they are good days and worse days. i can’t completely separate myself from having contact with them because firstly, we’re seeing each other practically everyday still (im graduating in may!) and secondly, like you said, i wanna keep holding onto those good memories because i do like spending time with them but sometimes it’s just...hard. being alone and lonely aren’t the same things.

thank you, for showing so much care for me even though we don’t know each other personally. it really means a lot to me. oh and, sorry for any mistakes. english isn’t my 1st language and i was emotional while writing this so probably this mess doesn’t make mess but yeah.

wish you all the best!!

[ace2light]

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Let’s just talk about poon.

It all started back in korea where people could tell he had interest in me, I couldn’t tell at all. This was how block headed I am. Even Ashley could tell which surprises me because I don’t really talk to him in class. Jiawen was the first one to tell me, I shrugged it off by saying ‘how could it be possible? I am so much older, not feminine, not pretty, not nice figure, so quiet.’ I thought it was because I happened to know xingxi and I went out with the guys in room 423 because jiawen was injured. That’s why we all became friends. I was awkward af then, cos all guys. The only person I ain’t awkward with was xingxi. I got to know poon from here. I didn’t talk much to him initially, I don’t normally talk to people unless orientation because I am anti-social and don’t know how to initiate conversation. Hahaha, I always remember the subtle and small things, my memory isn’t that bad afterall. I am surprised by myself too.

There was once, we were all at the supermarket buying stuff, the guys didn’t take the basket, I took the basket, everyone put their stuff with me, end up the basket was a little too heavy for me to carry. Then poon offered to help. I don’t remember how many times he offered to help and carry it, but I clearly remember he did, that move, I plainly thought he was being nice and gentleman.

Then as the time passes in korea, I started talking to him more as I was more comfortable speaking to him now. He always pat my head, it was the first time someone actually asked for my permission to pat my head, I am surprised lol. Everyone just loves to pat my head because I am short. Regardless, I always like it when people pat my head so nothing surprising. It makes me feel I am being taken care of. As the only child, I always yearns for that. One thing that shocked me was I knew he took photos of me without me knowing in Korea, because his roommate, my close friend took a snap of the photos he uploading on this computer to me. I knew long ago, I had my suspicions when I saw those photo taken, I didn’t trust that someone would actually take photo of me, cos I ain’t pretty. But I didn’t think about it after that.

Then, we started texting abit in korea, which I find it pretty weird, I don’t normally text or call people whom I just know, which explains my replies were either short or late reply to him then. Oops sorry. I just feel that he is friendly so I just reply out of courtesy. I just feel that he is another sean then, pretty touchy. I did tried to avoid abit then. I am still very scared of physical contact due to 2 harassment and 1 uncomfortable encounter with my uncle. I tend to avoid touchy people, especially those that I just met.

Then somehow somewhat, we end up at the rooftop and swing alone, it was then I get to talk more to you, get to know more about you. Normally in a group, I seldom talk because I don’t want to overpower voices so I tend to just listen. I also don’t like to cut conversations, and I don’t know how to enter conversations too. I tend to make more connections with people when I am alone with them. Honestly, I thought poon is an extrovert based on how he carries himself in front of me so I was surprised when he told me he is an introvert. In my opinion, he don’t look like an introvert, I thought he always put on his earpiece because he loves to listen to music/ watch videos.

On the last night, jiawen, poon and me mainly stayed on the rooftop almost the entire night, to play with his camera and to slack. Then jiawen was telling me, why would someone keep trying to write my name.

The last day, we were packing our stuff, jiawen and me finished packing already, we wanted to catch some sleep after packing because I only slept for 3h plus before I started roaming around in school on my own when jiawen is sleeping. When I was about to sleep, poon suddenly appear in our room, I thought he wanted to grab something or borrow something, but he just came to slack lol. I wanted to sleep but he was there, I was randomly meddling with my ipad because he was there I can’t really sleep in his presence, it took me some days to get used to jiawen being in my room, needless to say him whom is a just a friend then and he is a guy. I was sitting on the table in the room, he decided to piggy back me, it was the first time I was piggy back by a guy. I think I almost choked him, Cos my arms are strangling him in a way as I avoided my chest touching his back. I am still aware of the physical contact with him.

Then in airport, we went to eat as a group, people started teasing him and me together. I plainly thought it was for fun so I didn’t say much. I was so tired when we were at the airport Cos I didn’t have much sleep the previous night. I literally lost my energy to be enthu and joke around, I just nua on the chair while waiting to board the plane. He offered to lend me his cap to cover the light off Cos I wanted to sleep. I borrowed his cap till I reached Singapore. Sitting beside him was purely coincidental and a bit of on purpose. Lol. I rather sit with someone I close with than a school mate, so I decided to sit beside him on a plane. I was shocked when the hand rest was pulled up, but then I realised he wanted to put his camera there so hahaha. Then after a while, he decided to offer me his shoulder. I am very scared of take off and take down, so I tend to keep chewing sweets, I have no idea how many packs of sweets I chewed before take off. If I am a frequent plane taker, I prolly would be suffering from diabetes. But anyways, I shrugged off his offer by saying we eat first. I was so awkward, Cos in my opinion, I thought only Boyfriend’s or husband’s or mum’s does that. So I was a little reluctant because of the high degree of awkwardness. Then I was fidgeting so much, then he asked again, Cos I usually sit inside, I always lean to the window but I am sitting outside, I can’t lean. So I gave up and lie on his shoulder awkwardly. It was nice for my neck, I didn’t know it was so comfortable. But my back is breaking Cos I was avoiding as much physical contact with him. There was a pillow between us on off. Towards the end, I felt that his head was on my head, I can’t confirm it until jiawen told me. But then, I pretend I didn’t know to avoid more awkwardness. To be honest, I managed to rest, I didn’t sleep at all that night. I was still scarred by the harassment, so I tend to be awake in front of others and it is near impossible for me to fall asleep in front of others unless I didn’t sleep for 2/3 days.

After we returned to Singapore, I am surprised we are still texting each other cos I thought, the texting would probably stop but it went on, and texting each other more. I totally forgotten to take my portable from him at the airport. He wanted to meet a day after we arrived in Singapore, but I am too tired and lazy to get out of my house. I felt bad to reject, so I said the next day, and I normally don’t want people to specially deliver my stuff from elsewhere to near my house, so I suggested accompany me to watch a movie, I thought as a close friend mah, no other hidden meanings. It was indeed awkward but the awkwardness slowly diminished. As the movie was ‘cringe’ to him, he kept leaning towards my shoulder on and off. Then dinner, I obviously heard what he said but I wasn’t sure. I said sth friend he said girlfriend then I just told him don’t anyhow say ah.

I have no idea how we end up meeting each other frequently also. Meeting in clubroom to watch anime and do a bit of report. I shouldn’t be allowing outsiders into clubroom but who cares. Then we both went for a walk in a ‘forest’ near school, it was damn dark, I was super scared. It was the first time I held on to a guy’s hand, cos I am too scared. I didn’t really dare to grab it as much cos holding hands are for couples, we are just close friends, i was awkward but then I was scared so I rather feel a bit less scared than care about the awkwardness in the dark forest. After we came out of the forest and there’s light, we still continued to hold hands lol. That was when the real awkward came hahaha. Got once he fling my hand off, I was a bit sad then but who am I to hold his hand also.

Certain texts are cringe, initially I thought it was for fun, after a while, I don’t think so already. That’s why I decided to ask him. I don’t know why I kept asking him to accompany me out ever since we touch down in Singapore. Just instinct bah. All these things I’ve shared with my besties cos being a blockhead like me, I don’t get it de, I might feel it but always deny it because of my low self-esteem.

I just randomly asked him to accompany me to the beach to dig out a can I buried. I honestly did buried a can but I couldn’t find it. I also don’t know why I asked him then. I just felt like it. Lol. We drank a can of cider and was just chilling and chit chatting on the beach. Tbh, I totally forgotten what I said then, I only rmb what I did, I rmb holding his hand, and I know I didn’t want to let go also. Cos he usually put his arms around me, but he didn’t put as much this time, I was a little sad. Hahaha.

The way we got together was also very cute lol. I am already sober now. I was randomly sharing with him how much physical contact I dislike cos he said ‘why did he bring me here’. It seems like it was not a happy memory for him cos he found out a girl actually had a boyfriend there. Then I want him to be happy so I decided to ask him the question I had been so curious about. I wouldn’t have asked that question if I not really sure about it. I just wanna confirmed it. Then somehow somewhat it became getting together. Was quite sad he didn’t explicitly say ‘do you want to be my girlfriend?’ Cannot blame him as it was his first time also and prolly came in unexpected. As it was my first time also, I am so scared I accepted him based on infatuation, but then I asked my besties before I asked him whether or not I like him. They all said yes. But I wasn’t sure myself, I only knew I was comfortable with him, I can say whatever that is on my mind, like those normal ones, cos sometimes normal stuff I also don’t say it out to friends. Then after a few weeks, I finally realised and confirmed I really like him. That’s when I finally told him after he constantly asked me to say what I wanted to say, ‘I like him’ to him after the camp. Cos the camp made me extremely stressed, my mood became better when he appear and we hug, instantly became better. The warmth and support and the listening ear he provided really helps a lot. Then before that, jiawen and me spoke almost the entire night, and confirmed I like him.

Then I still didn’t dare to say ‘I love you’. To me, love is a big and ambiguous word. So I wouldn’t say it unless he’s the one. And yes, I said it, which also means I am admitting he is the one. Although he is very far from my ideal type of partner in life, but ideal and reality is different ah. As long as I am comfortable with him, and the feeling is right, these are all that matters to me.

Initially I didn’t dare to say a lot cringe stuff, or be crazy, I filter out a lot of things as I scared he would misunderstand certain meanings like sex. After telling him, I didn’t want, I became more daring to say whatever I want. After telling him what I really wanted and don’t want, I was so scared then, it was like my real thoughts exposed, never had I like my thoughts and true feelings exposed like that, now I am daring and filtering less and less of my words and my actions, at most it is just me being embarrassed and shy.

Although he is younger than me, there are certain things that he seems to be more mature than me, like relationship with things and people. He guided me when I was lost as to what to do, he listened to my rants, showered me with warmth and support whenever I am not happy. I ain’t a person who easily cries in front of others, it is very hard, I have many layers of personality within me. To me, crying is a weakness. I don’t like to show my weakness out. I think he reached the inner layer, cos for me to cry in front of people is extremely hard, given how well I hide myself. His existence is a huge relief to me, whenever i am feeling down, meeting him and either him hugging me or me hugging him is a huge comfort to me, little did i know I would rely so much on a person, it is the first time i actually rely so much. I always have trust issues with people, i never actually let people know about how i feel about them, cos to me, they don’t have to know what i feel, it is not important and doesn’t matter anyways.

After i sent him a long essay about what i felt, i am extremely comfortable with him. He is very handsome and looks smart when he is doing his work, hehe. I always remembered the time he was unhappy when I self-harm, I didn’t know i am so important to someone. I always felt i am not important due to my family. He was the one who gave me the power to stop self harming, each time i almost do it, i think of him, then i stopped. He is very important in my life. I am so used to him now. I love to cuddle, I always like to hug things, now i am slowly hugging him on my own accord cos i am comfortable now. I am also daring to say more and more stuff on my mind although i am still very shy. Hugging him or him hugging me instantly changes my mood, provides me with security, warmth and comfort. Him asking about my day makes me feel there’s always someone there for me. I can find him anytime, i can go to him anytime. It’s like there’s never enough time to spend with him.

However, i still have trouble trying to fall asleep totally in front of him. Well, i have issues sleeping anywhere apart from my own bed so hahaha. I managed to fall into short stint of light sleep already very good le. I like it when he cuddles me regardless of how was it done. I like it when i am being treated like a kid when i am obviously older than him. I like it when he says i am cute, this is really thick-skinned. I like it when he calls me ‘dear’ or ‘darling’, but i still feel it is selfish of me still being extremely shy to call him ‘poon’, i already tried my best. I am a very shy girl. I actually like it when he says cringe stuff, hehe. He prolly don’t know. I don’t mind him being possessive with me at all, I like it anyways. There are times I wanted to let the whole world knows he is my boyfriend, but for the interest of us, I stopped and resisted. I like whenever he says ‘anything for you’, awww, heart melted. I like it when he gives me stuff, whichever the gift is, as long as it is from him, i like it all and I would treasure it. Before i said to stop all those sexual stuff, i am actually surprised he could control himself, that’s what make me trust him so much. I like the fact he respected me. He is literally my pillar now. I listen to him a lot. I never thought i would get so close with someone, including Boyfriend. I like his straightforwardness cos I don’t really have to guess certain stuff.

I am always afraid he got scolded by his parents because of me, i dont want that to happen. So there are certain times, I didn’t dare to ask a lot from him, i tend to try to handle things on my own, also I didn’t want him to be overwhelmed by my problems. I don’t want him to be burdened by me. There are times I wanna just spam him but I resisted it cos I scared I annoy him.

Through these 2 months plus, i really felt a lot of love from him, especially after telling him what i wanted in a relationship. I understand how horny he can get so i only allowed him to touch my boobs, that’s the leeway i gave him. Really hope we can last, i love you truckloads, poon poon darling. Thank you for appearing in my life and become my Boyfriend, i never regretted the stuff we did also. I really hope he would be my one and only Boyfriend.

He prolly didn’t know, the place we got tgt is the my favourite place now. He prolly not the most romantic guy but he is definitely the most caring person for me, for a person who is so wounded.

[fonttale-auception]

Doki Doki! Literature Club AU

Summary :

All the corrupt! versions (C!Dings, C!Chara, C!Frisk, C!Aster) somehow ends up in the same void and Corrupt!Chara take it upon them to make up a world for them to settle without stressing them out and lessen the corruption.

Until they realized they are in a dating sim game and the protag is here to ruin everything

Details :

Okay not intentionally ruin everything but still

All the corrupted characters always goes up and fight each other whenever the corruption rises and things are awful

C!Chara noticed that the corruption tied strongly to their emotion so C!Chara sets em up to another game/world setting where they can..technically lived normally without dealing the stress and isolation in the Void. The game they picked up is apparently a dating sims game.

C!Chara puts em up in where the girls would be : Aster as Yuri, Dings as Sayori, Frisk as Natsuki, and Chara themself as Monika, where they can took control as the admin of the world

Dings is Sayori so the protagonist’s childhood friend, and practically the one that keeps everyone in check.. in a way. Dings keeps Frisk in check by.. probably fighting / arguing with them a lot? It keeps Frisk from getting their violent tendencies to the other or sth like that? And he make sure Aster takes good care of himself and stuff. Dings and Chara is generally good pal so yeah?

Aster is Yuri so he acts like.. well regular nice and calm Aster~

Frisk is Natsuki except they are 2x more likely to fight you because they can.. probably not bring cookie but idk?.. tbh Frisk would just waves those ilegal manga like hey bro bro ya wanna read some manga i got them good ones and its totally allowed in clubroom join us

Chara is Monika but still a pretty chill dude? Monika has somekind of strict aura coz she’s the president but Chara more like ehh ok you can join the club, or not, please don’t.

The Protagonist of course would enter the world at some point and it throw a wrench on the whole “safe and normal” settings chara has been trying to keep. Because, being a dating sim, the protag would definitely go for romance and love... and none of the characters are ready for that kind of emotion yet lol

So first part of the game goes normally like how DDLC goes, they all join the same club, get together, read poem, yada yada yada romance. Except here Chara is trying so hard to keep you from romancing the other characters.. like.. at all. But being a player on a dating sims, they gonna try anyway.. which will go the same way as DDLC goes, and ends the first part w/ Dings’ death

Second part starts and it goes normally except Chara is now even MORE determined to not have you there. (So I guess either the others invite you or you were checking clubs and stumble the one here and got caught in Frisk offer for free manga read) And during the glitched part, Chara would ALSO starts to glitch because of the stress and will start blaming you like “What have you done!?” “What part of DON’T GET TOO CLOSE TO EVERYONE DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND???!!”

the thing about Aster is that when he’s corrupted he is incredibly manipulative on keeping people to stay with him and very possesive too

Like Yuri lol

Aster would redirect you into going through his route no matter what

but unlike Yuri he would still look as calm and polite as he always is

Until that last bit

And also probably do that suicide thing Yuri does

I forgot what Frisk would do here but Frisk and Aster fight would not be pretty it would be incredibly awful and Aster would be the first to throw the awful degrading words first which is.. ya know.. incredibly out of character but dang he would

By the end of this part, depending on whether or not you heed Chara’s warning or not, they going to react to it and it will affect their involvement in the next part

If you heed their warning and not actively going through the romantic route, they would settle down and explains things as they are. And how you can possibly help them fix things up in the next run (because the stone has rolled on this one you have to restart regardless)

If you still stubbornly try to romance everyone or exhaust their glitchness to the fullest, Chara would just throw the towel and say FUCK IT YOU WANT TO MESS UP EVERYBODY SO BAD?! BE MY FUCKING GUEST YOU ASSHAT! And just... leave you alone through the new part

Third part the game would glitched so bad you end up in another game intirely. A murder mystery game. Your childhood friend has been missing for a long while and no one have any clue to their where about. Until you suddenly saw them on your way to school. You try to stop them but before you can get to them they were  gone.. again. You go back on your track and go to school.

There, Chara invites you to the Literature Club, only to stop you halfway to the clubroom, and depend on the result you get on the last one, Chara would either inform you about how to makes things better for the other (as in genuinely just going through friend route and not try to romance anyone please) or just “Have fun you asshole” and leave you alone in the clubroom filled with... Frisk, Aster and... Dings!

You tried to talk to Dings like where have you been what happened to you and Dings just look at you like you’re the dramatic one. “I know we’re not on the same class and club but jeez chill! I’ve always been on the club after school, guess that’s why we never catched up to each other.” And just.. goes on normally. The club goes as it is with everyone introduce themself and you get home with the poem homework

The next day you come to school and there’s rumors that some students are suddenly missing too. You’re not sure how to process the whole thing and you determined to figure out the truth from Dings, being one of the student who disappeared and just.. back again suddenly. Dings keep dodging the questions and thinks you are the paranoid one. Poem exchange time and you realized everyone’s poem are cryptic as hell. Like a puzzle of time and places but you can’t pinpoint what... yet. You go home for the day

Another day goes and out of curiosity, you try to ask around to Aster and Frisk’s classmates (you know they are on the same grade and upperclass) and you find out... they both also have disappeared for a while. You ask to Dings’ classmate and they answered no, Dings has not, in fact, been to class since... months ago. Despite him always constantly in the clubroom. Another student also missing too today, one of your classmate. You decide to approached all of them about this

Everyone thinks you are crazy and also reads too much of that mystery novel Aster gave you. Poem exchange time. Another time and place puzzle, this time you realized there’s also people appreance description there, that... strangely fits so well with your missing classmate! If you choose Chara last (and also Chara helping you in this route), they would invite you to walk home together. If you choose Chara first, they would ask you to “keep a close eye on the poems, you might find some hidden symbolism in it”. you go home together regardless, and Chara pulls you aside and ask if you figure out the clues yet. You both them put the puzzle pieces together and follows the directions. You find out where your classmate are. Dead. You called the police and ambulance and they go to the scene and question you for information. Chara answers most of the questions to make sure they won’t go to suspect you nor everyone in the club... yet.

this goes so long holy shit

fuck uh

Revelation moment, turns out Dings, Aster, AND Frisk are the ones behind the students disapperance and Frisk is the head of the operation. Later on finds out that Dings and Aster are actually ghosts who’s gone crazy and winds up killing people. even later on you finds out that Frisk was actually the one who killed them in the first place but they couldn’t remember Frisk’s face so they just go around in rampage

sth sth epilogue they all settle down and finally found peace?? Dings and Aster calmed down and Frisk... uh.... i guess the same idk

#ddlc!au #masterpost au

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COSTA BLANCA STH BOWLS ROUNDUP 19 JUNE 17

El Rancho Bowls Club.

Our Wednesday VCL match was at Quesada, against the Tigers and all in all it was a close match, with both teams taking 3 rinks and the Tigers taking the overall shots by a small margin. A good away result for El Rancho. Ladies singles: Carolyn Harris 21-9. Gents singles: David Whitworth 6-21. Pairs: Jane Hamill and Stew Hamill 21-16. Triples: June Whitworth, John Skipper and Jim Gracie 21-9. Rinks: Pam Harris, Barry Bright, Brian Taylor and Shirley Edwards 12-16. Rinks: Bob Easthope, Brian Harris, Jan Bright and Richard Lee 8-23.

Friday found the Buckskins playing host to Horadada Hawks, yet another close match, both teams taking 3 rinks and the Hawks taking the overall shots by another small margin, a good effort though. Pam Harris, Malc Elmore and Brian Harris 16-10. Jan Bright, Brian Yates and Shirley Edwards 13-16. Barry Bright, Diane Yates and Richard Lee 23-11. Dave Haynes, Bob Easthope and Jim Gracie 18-14. Marion Haynes, Jane Hamill and Stew Hamill 12-29. Graham Day, Rob Clark and John Skipper 10-20. For membership details contact Brian Taylor on 965077093 or at [email protected] or Carolyn Harris on 966774316 or at [email protected]

Emerald Isle Bowls Club

The Earls played at home on Wed against Country Bowls Herons and got beaten 10-4 aggregate of 106 -78. Winners were M Foulds G Inwood G Dyer B Foulds 23-13, J Jarvis E Morris B Eldred L Fisher 19-10

Friday saw the Victors play San Miguel Moors at home and they won 9-5, Aggregate of 107-88  the winners were B Kavanagh A Burns C Lindgren  24-5 M Whitelock  K Jolliffe M Stacey 24-9, C Thomas C Highland D Birkett 19-11,and a drawn trip of  S Johnson M Veale M  Odell  19-19

The Vulcans visited Quesada Lancasters and lost 10-4 aggregate 111-95 with the winners D Martin B Smith  P Creswell 18-12, J Redfern G Inwood B Allen 18-13

ELWYN MORRIS

Greenlands Bowls Club

Result of the games played in the Men’s 4 x wood pairs on Monday 12th June. Greenlands versus San Miguel, Home – shots for – 23 against 11.  Away shots for – 12.  Against – 18. Points for – 3 against – 2.

In The VCL match played away at Monte mar the weather proved to be a big a challenge as the games but after a very friendly game Greenlands came away with a very respectable score winning on three rinks and drawing on one. Final score was – 9 points to 5. In the Hurricane Division the Gladiators were away to La Marina Pilots. Final score was – Total shots for – 97.  Against – 111.  Points for – 4.  Points against – 10. There were two drawn rinks and one winning rink won by Jean Thompson, Jean Giddings and skip Dave Webb. 20 shots to 15.

Greenlands Bowls Club are looking to add to their current membership and would welcome new members and ensure they would have regular games in all leagues. We pride ourselves on having one of the friendliest and sociable clubs on the Costa, so why not find out for yourselves and give Haley a ring on 966844399.

La Siesta Bowls Report By Rod Edgerton

Last Saturday Jack and Barbara Cooper invited other La Siesta Members to join them in a Fun Competition to celebrate their Golden Wedding. A Large turnout in glorious weather saw all rinks being used whilst others turned up just to join in the celebrations. The competition consisted of three separate 6 end disciplines consisting of normal ends, fixed jack full length and fixed jack minimum length.

The winners Norman Adcroft, Irene Laverick and Dennis Andrew received their prizes from Jack and Barbara. Lollipops were handed out for every member that a bowl touching the jack. Needless to say the 50 lollipops on offer did not last long. On behalf of the club members our President Jean Cooper presented Jack and Barbara with cut glasses and a bottle of Bubbly.

In the VCL league La Siesta visited San Miguel Deputies and gained 6 points to their opponents 8. The overall shots going to San Miguel by 103 to 94.Winners for La Siesta were the Pair of Dawn Taylor and Mike Edwards by 18 shots to 16.Whilst the Rinks teams of Joy Gardiner, Pat Moore, Brian Gardiner and Jean Cooper won 18-12 and the rink of Tanya Oliver, Tony Campbell, Bill Jordan and John Ball won 20-13.

In the Spitfire Division the Wasps entertained Quesada and managed to win on 2 rinks picking up 4 points with Ramsey Sinclair, Pat Moore and John Ball winning by 22-20 whilst Dave Davies, George Richardson and Mike Edwards who were one shot behind after 16 ends managing to pick up 6 shots without reply on the final 2 ends to win 20-15.The overall match shots were 116 to 91 in favour of Quesada.

In the Harrier Division the Hornets got back to winning ways with a 8-6 victory away at San Luis Hercules. The overall match shots going to the Hornets by 113 to 103.

The winning rinks for the Hornets came from Hilary Clarke, Trish Reilly and Vic Mahomet by 27-13,Tanya Oliver, Tony Campbell and Pat Reilly by 22-11 and Ron Sheldon, Sue Mahomet and Rab Logan 20-14.

Monte Mar Bowls and Social Club

Sponsored by The Belfry, The Pub, Bowling Abroad and Avalon

VCL LEAGUE

WEDNESDAY JUNE 14TH . MONTE MAR LORDS V GREENLANDS

Another hard fought match against Greenlands, winning on two rinks and drawing on one. Well done to Alan Ashberry (singles) Wendy Sheridan, June Young, Joe Ridley and skip Dianne Ridley and the drawing rink Ronnie Cairns, Mike Farrelly and skip Dave Melville.

Shots Monte Mar 96 – 110 Greenlands. Points Monte Mar 5 – 9 Greenlands.

MONTE MAR TORROS V VISTABELLA  GREENERS

FRIDAY JUNE 16th – A remarkable result as we were winning on four rinks with three ends to go. At the end of the match the one winning rink was Denise Ashberry, June Young and skip Alan Ashberry well done. Shots Monte Mar 107 – 111  Vistabella. Points Monte Mar 2 – 12 Vistabella.

For further information about Monte Mar Bowls and Social Club check out our website  www.montemarbowls.com or email us at [email protected]. We are also on Facebook.

SAN LUIS BOWLS CLUB REPORT 16.06.17.

Wednesday 14th June VCLeague Falcons were home v VB Saxons; taking some useful points 8-6, shots 104-93. Winners: pairs; June & Keith Jones 19-10, triples; Margaret Morrison, Sabrina & Russell Marks 27-14, rinks; Bill Webb, Barry Edwards, Suzi Cooper, Roy Cordell 14-9.

Friday 16th June, Spitfire Division: SL Wellingtons were away v SM Christians, and had a good result: shots 122-100, points 9-5. Winners: Margaret & Neil Morrison, Derrick Cooper 25-12, Bob White, Vic Slater, Keith Lowry 21-13, Colin Jackson, Bill Webb, Mal Hughes 32-12, Ann Holland, Pam Lockett, Roy Cordell 17-17.

Friday 16th Harrier Division: SL Hercules home v La Siesta Hornets, had a tough game for 6 points – 8, shots 103-113. Winners: Tom Fromson, Ian Ross, Robin Harker 36-11, Helen Hammond, Chris

Brooks, Scott Malden 18-14, Mary Fromson, Harry Epsom, Sue Ross 21-19.

As there has been so much speculation and discussion about SAN LUIS BOWLS GREEN hopefully this will explain the current situation:

“When Vic announced that we were to have the base done, a new underlay and a new carpet, as discussed and quoted for by the Greengauge representative, we all had high expectations of a great playing surface to be the “flagship” for them, of what they could provide.

Unfortunately, this has not been the case as the base has shown to be “not suitable for purpose”. The Company, commissioned by the Greengauge representative, after much discussion via Julian Pering agreed to try and rectify the matter f.o.c.

In order to do so the carpet and underlay had to be unstitched and lifted and then when the base was done relaid, and restitched – AT A COST – through no fault of Vic’s. Greengauge were not prepared to give in anyway at all saying the base was not within their remit, although their representative had been involved with “providing” the company.

Vic has decided NOT to have any more work done on the green FOR THE TIME BEING. We have a good carpet and underlay but unfortunately the expectations of a great playing surface has not been met. BUT it is still perfectly playable and no worse than certain rinks at other clubs.

So, let’s just get on with bowling and enjoying our matches and each other’s company and show what a great club we are.”

For more information: www.sanluisbowls.byethost7.com or contact June Jones, Club Captain: 691903773.

Sheila Cammack

San Miguel Bowls Club

San Miguel Deputies played La Siesta     in the VCL winning 8 points to 6.  Ladies singles, Anita Brown won 21-11; Mens singles, Carl Eagle won 21-15;  Pairs, Pat McEwan, Gary Raby lost 16-18;  Trips, Bob Nesbitt, Dave Champion, Dave McEwan won 20-12;  Rinks, Sue Milner, Paul Hayward, Ann Eagle, John Raby lost 12-18;  Rinks, Ken Hope, Stan North, Eddie Cowan, Alan Campbell lost 13-20.   Shots for 103 – against 94.

In the Spitfire league, San Miguel Moors were away to Emerald Isle Victors, coming away with 5 points to 9.  Winning teams were Bob Hanton, Sheila

Booth, Bob Donnelly 19-18; Stan North, Barbara Scotthern, Eddie Cowan, 25-3;  David Champion, Frank Scotthern, Jack Jackson drew 19 across.  Total shots were 88 for San Miguel and 107 to Emerald Isle.

No other results received

Club mornings are still on, though numbers are dwindling due to the heat, 0945 for 1015.  The WASPS will carry on, Wednesday afternoons, 1.30pm until 12th July, and will resume on 13th September.

For further information on San Miguel Bowls Club, please contact the President, Rosamond Stockell, telephone [phone] or Secretary, Pat McEwan, telephone [phone].

La Marina Report by Barry Latham

Last week we beat the VCL League Leaders and this week we upset the number two by beating San Miguel at our place 10-4.  The togetherness continued for the Parsons, both Janet and Peter played the Singles and won 21-17 each.  Isn’t it lovely? Captain Colin Armitage, Martin Butler and Lynne Armitage had a tight game but came out the winners 14-12. Last (Well, off the green.) but not least the rink of Barry Latham, Wendy Latham, Mike Smith and Barbara Forshaw had a good win by 18 to 13.  The overall shot difference was very close, we got it by one.  We might still be last in the league but we are at the moment upsetting the leaders.  May it continue!!!!    When I arrived to watch the Pilots I was told as we walked to the ground we were down on very rink bar one.  Obviously it must have been our cheering and ribald comments that spurred the Pilots to eventually chop down the Greenland Gladiators.  Good to see a lot of our friends from our old club but even better to beat them 10-4.  Close all the way though but gradually La Marina took over.  Mike Smith, Peter Bailey and Jean Tregoing plus Terry and Jean Perchard and Reg Jackson both pulled off creditable draws.  Dave Taylor, Tom Spencer and Mo Taylor had a good win by four shots.  And the Hadaways are back ……. to form both winning.  Dave, Arthur Cronk and Dave O’Sullivan won 20-15 and Shirley, Steve Hindle and Carol Smith won 25-15.  Two cracking results this week so well done Captains and Selectors who get a lot of stick at times.

Don’t forget if you want to join our happy little Club you can phone our Captain Steve Hindle on 966184360.  Don’t worry if you have never played before we can lend you all the kit you need plus some coaching. 

Vistabella Bowls Report With Lynne Bishop

Not only is it very warm on the green but the competition is hotting up as we go into the final few games of the summer season.

This week the VCL Vikings were at home playing top of the league Quesada Lions, our away leg resulted in a 6-8 win for the Lions but despite a somewhat depleted team we managed to square things up which leaves us just one shot behind them on the league table. Men’s Singles Martin Foulcer won 21-16. Ladies Singles Lynne Bishop won 21-19 and the Triples team of Jenny Chaplin, Bert Ewart & Dave Chaplin won 22-14. The shots couldn’t have been any closer VB 104 (8)- 103(6) Q.

The Saxons were away to the San Luis Falcons, another hard game but well done to Ian Kenyon for yet another great win of 21-14 in the Men’s Singles and also to Lin Watkins winning 21-16 in the Ladies Singles. The Rinks team of Mike Irwin, Tony French, Geoff Paylor & Dave Jenkins won 18-4 you guys are brilliant! Shots, VB 93 (6) – 104 (8) SL.

SAL League. The Spitfire league Fairways had a bye.

The Hurricane league Greeners travelled to Monte Mar to play the Torro’s picking up an impressive twelve points. Winning teams were Jenny Chaplin, Ken Savage & Peter Whitehall 21-7. Frank Barclay, Peter Cadwell & Barry Norris 23-15. Mike Irwin, Sue Norris & Pat Rafferty 15-10. Del Gunning, Dave Chaplin & Dave Jenkins 23-20. Rosemarie Savage, Brian Pointon, Bill Corbishly 22-21. Shots VB 111 (12) – 107 (2) MM. We have our sights set on promotion…good luck in your last game next week.

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Dear Crashpad Diary #20

About -20ºC / Nepal Fashion week / Bhaktapur and the pricey entrance / Momos, momos everywhere / Bowling for thakali Sweeeeet!! this post will be quite short cuz I already have many many things to tell yas about our incredible and epic expedition to the Annapurna Base Camp (AKA ABC)!! You know that when youre travelling you normally don´t get to choose always the apparel… you wear as you go and as the flow dictates… sometimes the laundry takes longer than it should… sometimes they burn your good and only rain coat/ parka…. sometimes… as happened with my friend while we were travelling in Peru… someone steals your clothes from the girl that was supposed to wash them heheheheh And due to the circumstances… we get to the point we just reached over here… when you pass by a mirror and realise that youre looking like a grab a blue and white beanie… black down vest… over a green down jacked… one one those indian trousers in grey, black and purple colours… to finish the best match ever… black boot and red socks…now we can declare the Nepal Fashion week opened!! hahahahah While we were waiting for my bro to get to Kathmandu and our time for the trekking to come we decided to try to get the most out of the time… even though KTM is not a huge city and there is not much to keep a traveller busy for more than 3 days, we did not have other option and went visiting other cities in the valley!! The first city was Bhaktapur… old town with wooden front houses and beautiful temples… the problem… a great problem for backpackers though…. is the price to get in the city… serious… they charge foreigners the exorbitant amount of 1500 rupees… which is around 15 euros… to put your dirty feet in the dirty streets only…. and they don’t even offer a chocolate cake or ice-cream as bonus or sth like that…. they must be crazy hahahah Sadly… this is a usual practice here in Nepal… you get the local price and the tourists prices…. the second one is normally overcharged whereas the locals pay less than 10% of that… when they do!! Fortunately, I´ve been traveling and seen stunning places around the world and I always found cool the way the government in many countries tries to provide the possibility for the local people to visit and value their traditions and history… Like in Chile where you have the prices for Chilean people (cheapest), for the South Americans and another one (a bit more expensive) for the Rest of the World Citizens…. I agree when it is reasonable…. but rip-offs are never cool! Like here…. freaking expensive for foreigners and nothing for locals…. negative point for you Nepal!!! Talking about negative…. we´ve been told that we will face freakin low temperatures during the trek…. up to -20ºC…. brrrrrrrrrrrrrrr Get the base layers ready peeps!! =) As we were in the vibe of getting ready for the trip we went down the momo road…. hahahaha If you came to Nepal you know what I´m talking about… momos are fantastically scrumptious and so hard to stop eating… they are like the Chinese guioza (dunno if they are Chinese, neither if I wrote right!! hahha) but the thing is that you find´em everywhere!! There are shops… tents…. trailers… big and small restaurants…. even a Cave… that sells it!! hahahah the other day I opened my locker under my bed and a guy jumped selling it!! hahhahha kidding…. but I don´t doubt!! hahahaha Well… that´s actually a good way to put up weight before going for the expedition hahaha Momos on any kind of flavours…. the best ones off course are the cheese and garlic… veggie…. mushroom… but I heard the potato… paneer… chicken and other ones are great too!! Easily to believe!! =) Also… you have the sauces…. ow the sauces…. they actually challenge the momos to see who is the most tasteful and favourite!! hahahaha yep.. thats our life during the days we are waiting to get to the trekking…. we decided to start on the february the 3rd… till there…. we had loads of days…. loads of momos and any sports at all…. No… in fact thats not true…. I couldn’t climb because of my ribs… but we went for a bowling competition hahaha and whoever wins would get a Takhali (another Nepali dish)…. as prize…. hahaha what else could that be?? hahahahaha Well… Aquarius was aligned with mars and Halley comet was passing by one of the 32 moons of Taurus… I was lucky enough to win by one point!! hahahahah Few more pounds for free on my bellyyyyyyyy =) hahahahaha Days later we went to another nice city that deservers mention…. Kirtipur…. cozy city where we ate Newari Khaja…. by far my favourite Nepali dish!! What a life!! =) And that way we spent the days till Luh got here…. on the 1st!! Sweeeeeeeeeeet…. off we go to Pokhara and starting the trekking of our life…. so far!! That´s it for now!!! Hope you´re great there beasts!! Enjoying life and having fun right?!?!?!?! Just wanna let yous that as Mike Libecki says… “life is good and the moment is now!!” =) Cheers, Evan

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