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cherry-pop-elf · 3 months

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Pretty Rain Cloud

Fred Weasley x Reader x George Weasley

Can he read as Platonic As Well, because Platonic love is valid AF!

You were in a horribly sour mood. You swore you would never smile again, and never be happy. No way. Of course, you make this vow to the likes of Fred and George. What were you thinking?

Warnings: Umbridge. She’s a warning in general/Set during Order Of The Phoniex: Slight blood, tending to wounds, intense stress, I mean it’s about Umbridge. You know what’s up

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“Never ever ever again-!” You sniffled, as Fred was currently being your support. Letting you lean his head on his shoulder, as you two sat in The Room Of Requirement’s. Everyone busy with their Defense Practices, while George was busy cleaning the newly made scar on your hand. How it ached, and still burned. He tried to be as gentle as he could, but that toad knew how to make it hurt.

“Oh don’t go saying something like that-“ George would pipe up, as he wade sure your wound was clean. Having had plenty from Umbridge, let alone from the crazy life he lived in general. “We love your smile-“ Fred was quick to echo, as you would squeeze his hand. Since the pain of the fresh scar was so sharp.

“But you heard her. She said I was ‘Smiling To Much, And Distracting The Class’ and all that-!” You hiccuped, as George was finished with wrapping your hand. Being extra cheesy with kissing it. In the hopes you could smile again. To think, she would find a way to punish anyone wand everyone. You were wondering if she was just doing this to hurt Fred and George. Yet, it seemed like no one would escape her wrath. Not even Draco.

“Oh she hates that you actually have a pretty smile, and she doesn’t.” Fred tried to reason, as he rubbed your shoulder. Letting his older brother instincts take over. Doing whatever he could to help you. All the same with George, who remained at your feet. Holding that wounded hand, and feeling the pain throbbing into his own. How the white fabric was already growing a red tint.

“When that’s all healed up, gonna slather it in our latest invention. It’s a bruise removal puddy we got working on-“ George tried to cheer you up with, as Fred would pull out the tin. Inside was a shiny goop. Was rather similar to a glittery dark grey puddy. It did have you curious, but you refused to smile. As if those twins would quit that easy.

“How about this new candy we just made-“ George offered, as he pulled out another tin. Rattling it around. You were not budging. They loved a challenge anyway. They were older siblings, to Ron and Ginny. Harry as well, if anyone got technical with it. That boy was horribly traumatized, yet they could still get him to grin ear to ear. They won’t give up on you just like that. No sir.

“What about….” Fred hummed, as he looked around. They were inventors. Men that thought outside the box. They could figure this out. Those for eyes would scan the room, and watch as everyone would practice. Mastering the spells that she refused to teach. Seeing the dummy’s go flying had sparked an idea. The duo looked to each other, and just grinned.

“Up ya go-!” They said, before suddenly having their arms under each one of yours. Lifting you up, and making your legs kick and dangle. You were basically being kidnapped now. Those darn twins, and being stupidly tall. Along with strong. Even though Umbridge basically banned Quidditch, that didn’t stop the twins from practicing their beater skills.

“Where are we going-?” You asked, just accepting your fate. Better that way. You’ve seen what happened when people tried to escape. You knew you weren’t in actual danger. If you asked them to put you down, they would. They were pranksters, not monsters. Like how they made sure not to do pranks that involved books around Ginny, ever since the Snake Incident. Moral code, that just likes to bend a little bit.

“And here-!” Plopped down you went, with a brow raised. Just in front of one of the many test dummies the room held. Where was this going? Seemed everyone was now looking, fascinated at what the twins were planning. Ron was already grabbing your arm, and pulling you a solid five steps back. Ginny having mimicked the same action with Luna. Given she was spaced out a bit.

“Just five seconds-“ “-We know what we are doing-!” They spoke, which made everyone back up an extra large step. A mixture of curiosity, yet total anxiety at the same time. Just left to wondering what the ever living hell those two were doing, with the dummies right now. Casting quick spells, and working fast. In a blink, it was made clear.

“TA DA-!” They sung, as their ingenuity was unmatched. With some color changing spells, and some quick shifting of fabric, the dummies were turned into mock up dolls of the pink toad herself. “Not as ugly as her, but it gets the job done-!” They echoed, as they knocked on the dummies head. Having poorly done lipstick on. Given they had a little sister, and were basically the dorms collective older sibling, it was on purpose.

“HAVE AT IT-!” They chanted, before quickly ducking away. As if everyone was on edge to fire. They were, but you were able to have the first swing. A proud Flipendo Maxima was called by you, and that pink dummy went flying. Right into the wall, with a loud crumple, before being a crumpled up mess on the ground. You were just giggling in glee, as you did something you wish you could have to the real one.

“To easy-“ The twins snickered to each other, with such pride. Elbows to each other, before they were returning to your side. Watching as the other students would take advantage of this as well. All needing some serious stress relief from that hag. Everyone was able to gain some smiles, and you were included.

You could hardly recall you even dared made a promise like that around them. To never smile again. Maybe, deep inside, you knew what you were doing. That deep down you did deserve to smile. To spite that woman. No matter what your head said, you knew this. Never challenge a Weasley. Let alone the twins. They’ll make you smile, one way or another.

@george-weasleys-girl

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petterwass · 4 months

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Ho'olheyak really is quite the tragic figure once you read her file, isn't she?

For all her being very funny and her inexhaustible Bug Bunny energy, she really has been through so much, forced into a generations-long project that she never asked for, as a mere infant.

Is a small baby she was subjected to some sort of horrible brain surgery that forced the entirety of her species history into her brain and drastically cut down her lifespan, which is implied to be both very traumatic (only a infant could possibly survive it because once a child is old enough to have a sence of "self" it would have been completely obliterated along with their mind) and with incredibly high mortality (As Warfarin puts it: "I don't want to ask her how, many siblings she *had*).

All to force her to continue her family's generations-long project to restore the bloodline powers of the ancient ku'kul'kan.

While she maintains that the brain surgery does not in any force her to do this, she could if she wanted to, drop the entire thing. But I wonder how true that is.

After all, the sunk cost fallacy is real, and once you've already paid with half of your life, what choice is there really but to continue the work? To to otherwise would be to say that the price you paid was not worth it. That the price your mother paid, and her mother before her, going back hundreds if not thousands of years, was not worth it. That the goal they worked towards is not worth trying to achieve. That the sacrifice that was forced upon you has no meaning.

Which child, implanted with scenes of your people's lost grandeur and raised from birth for this single mission, could really say that they are doing it of their own free will? That they had a choice, when they were selected to pay the price for it even before they were born?

One wonders also, how this has created the Ho'olheyak we know. How different would she be if she did not have her people's history rattling around in her brain since before she could talk?

It also explains in a way, her wanting up always work alone. After all, who else could understand the importance of her mission, how everything and everyone can be sacrificed on its altar if need be, than the one who has already paid the highest price for it, and who can literally feel the wingsbeats of ancient ku'kul'kan in her mind? Who else could ever understand.

And that's not getting into her equipment, how each part of the gear she carries is intended to mimic a trait of the mythical Ku'kul'kan, how this burden she carries is literally too heavy to bear without using her arts to lighten it (her exoskeleton alone weighs over 90 kilograms. Without using her arts to lighten it, she would not be able to move). How perhaps the burden of reviving a extinct bloodline would be too much to bear for any human, except perhaps, one created for that express purpose with Arts and brain surgery, to be the perfect, or indeed, the only possible banner-bearer that could endure the weight of generations of sacrifice towards a single cause? Maybe I'm reading up much into it but the parallels are there.

And in the end, soon enough, as her drastically shortened lifespan runs out. She will breed, likely several times to endure she has backup infants (and isn't that a cold-blooded thought? "the first one might not survive, better make more") . And she will subject her infants to the same horribly invasive and lethal brain surgery as was done to her. Until one of them survives. And that one will carry on the project. That one surviving baby will bear the torch. Will burn their life from both ends.

Of her own free will.

You can probably draw a lot of interesting parallels here. Both to the greatness of multi-generational work: "I plant a tree so my grandchildren can sit in the shade", but also to continuing cycles of abuse: "This, was done to me. I will do it to my children in turn. And they to their children. And the one that survived will carry on the torch."

I don't know. I just think she's incredibly fascinating and interesting once you get beyond the first, obvious outer layer of Sexy Fucked Up Evil Snake Woman.

There's really a lot there. And I love her. She is so very much more fucked up than you initially think she is.

#Arknights #ho'olheyak #Fucked up #Evil woman #Snake #Arknights Ho'olheyak #Character analysis #Thematics

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markantonys · 3 months

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today's gawynposting topic is: the "gawyn wants to be a hero" fandom narrative

i think it is complete nonsense to believe he still holds this attitude by the second half of the series, and i will fight brandon sanderson himself on it. we all know that sanderson's characterizations should be taken with a grain of salt at best, and at worst dismissed as inaccurate contradictions of jordan's characterizations, and he simply missed the mark on this aspect of gawyn's character. (in my opinion he struggled with the 3 trakand siblings even more than he did with mat, but that's another topic.) and unfortunately, recency bias makes this the general fandom memory of gawyn, even though it contradicts what we saw of him under jordan's pen.

gawyn's actual arc in this regard is more nuanced. to me, he reads as a representation of a young man who's been fed patriotic idealizations of war ever since he was a kid, and maybe at first he's eager to get a taste of real war, but when he actually does, he's given a brutal and immediate awakening as to the true horrors of war. it is nothing like it was told to him growing up, and he doesn't want anything to do with it anymore, but he's already signed up for it and so he has no choice but to keep going.

and that brutal awakening happens aallll the way back in book 4, the tower coup:

Most frightening to Min, with that blood-masked face and half-glazed eyes, with his body tensed almost to quivering and his hand upflung as if he had forgotten it, he never raised his voice or put any emotion into it. He only sounded tired, more tired than she had ever heard anyone sound in her life.

“If anything happens to them,” he said in that expressionless voice, “to Egwene or my sister, I will find you, wherever you hide, and I will make sure the same happens to you.” Abruptly he stalked a dozen paces away and stood with his arms folded, head down as if he could not bear to look at them any longer.

here min is doing what she does best - completely misinterpreting other people's behavior - but to the observant reader, it's obvious that gawyn hasn't turned into some violent, emotionless psychopath all of a sudden. instead, he's incredibly traumatized by what's happened today and has shut down as a coping mechanism. in fact, his behavior here is very very very similar to trauma behavior rand frequently demonstrates. a later line in this scene even describes gawyn as "brittle, ready to shatter at the wrong blow", aka the same analogy used for rand's whole "hardness vs. strength" arc.

as of today, book FOUR, gawyn no longer has any delusions about battle and heroism and glory. for further evidence, let's take a look at some of his reactions to dumai's wells, this time from his own point of view:

Young, as indeed all the Younglings were—many did not need to shave beyond every third day, and a few still only pretended even that—but Jisao wore the silver tower on his collar, marking him a veteran of the fighting when Siuan Sanche was deposed, and scars beneath his clothes from fighting since. He was one of those who could skip the razor most mornings; his dark eyes belonged to a man thirty years older, though. What did his own eyes look like, Gawyn wondered.

the younglings as a whole are meant to represent young men - boys, really - getting indoctrinated with patriotic ideals to make them eager to join up, and ultimately ending up dead or traumatized beyond repair because of it. these are teenage soldiers being manipulated and used by adults & institutions for their own ends, and yet fandom treats them like they're psychopathic monsters who love to murder their own mentors. jordan literally chose to name them the YOUNGLINGS, guys, like, i think he was trying to say something here.

Once he would have felt regret; he had grown up believing that if two men must fight, the duel should proceed honorably and cleanly. More than half a year of battles and skirmishes had taught him better. He put a foot on the Aiel man’s chest and wrenched his blade free. Ungallant, but fast, and in battle, slow was often dead.

Turning his bay with a sigh, he rode back down to see what the butcher’s bill had been this time. That had been his first real lesson as a soldier. You always had to pay the butcher. He had a feeling there would be bigger bills due soon. The world would forget Dumai’s Wells in what was coming.

in both of these passages, we see very clearly that gawyn has long since lost the idealization of war he grew up with. he is very aware of the true cost of war, and the prospect of future battles fills him with grim resignation rather than eagerness at more chances for Glory. he knows by the ACOS prologue that there is no glory to be found in war, only death. but he keeps on going because he feels trapped out of any other path, and because he feels a responsibility to the younglings and to the white tower.

and so sanderson's TOM passage where gawyn muses about how maybe the reason he hates rand so much is because rand gets to be a hero the way gawyn wants to be - total bullshit. as of the coup and certainly as of dumai's wells, gawyn has been thoroughly disabused of any heroic notions and has no interest at all in being a hero or gaining glory. if we think that incorrectly blaming him for morgase's death isn't a good enough reason for gawyn to hate rand for so long, then i can definitely buy that he hates him because in his mind rand is responsible for overturning the world in a way that caused gawyn all this trauma and loss of innocence and that broke his family apart, but i cannot buy that he's jealous of rand for getting to be the big hero despite being a lowly peasant.

that being said, in AMOL gawyn's characterization is more or less back on track, and his stated reason for going after demandred is because it needs to be done for the good of the last battle and he considers himself someone unimportant who can be risked for the task*. the idea that his motive is Wanting To Be A Hero is a fandom invention caused by that wonky OOC scene in TOM which apparently dictated gawyn's entire characterization forever despite 12 previous books of him not being like that.

*on this note, i came across one more line from his ACOS prologue that broke my heart: the inscription on his spyglass from morgase

“From Morgase, Queen of Andor, to her beloved son, Gawyn. May he be a living sword for his sister and Andor.”

a sword for others' use. that's how gawyn sees himself, because his own mother (along with gareth bryne and many others, i'm sure) taught him to see himself that way ever since he was a child. is it any wonder that gawyn is so self-sacrificial in the last battle without stopping to consider how his death might harm others? a sword is only worth anything if it's useful, and no one mourns it if it gets broken in battle.

of course he knows egwene will be hurt by his death because of the bond, but at the same time, he so deeply thinks of himself as disposable and as a sword meant to protect people who are more important than him that when he is put into a situation where he can sacrifice himself for a chance of saving someone more important (activating the rings which will kill him for a chance of helping egwene escape the sharans; going after demandred for a chance of taking out the person doing the most damage to the light's army without needing to risk more important people in the attempt), he's going to take it. he's a LOT like lan and rand in that way, convinced their duty is to die to protect others, but lan and rand got to unlearn that and live, and gawyn never did. and i am tired of people writing him off as a character meant to embody "cautionary tale of a mediocre white man arrogantly assuming he's more capable than he is" because that is so completely not what his character is actually about, and what his character IS actually about is really fucking sad!

#every time i gawynpost somebody inevitably 'wElL ActUAlLy'-s me with the coldest stalest takes imaginable #thus obligating me to gawynpost again! there are neither beginnings nor endings etc #gawyn trakand #wot #wot book spoilers

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sepublic · 10 months

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Luz and Hunter really are siblings in the sense that they were isolated, gaslit, and traumatized by the same abusive ‘parent’ so to speak, because the way Belos basically subsumes Luz as HIS responsibility, a human for him to save, is like some incredibly twisted form of adoption. Like a missionary seeking an unwilling convert, an inversion of how Eda accepted an eager Luz into her life, or the love of fathers based on Dana’s we normally see; Belos IS Luz’s abuser, too.

Luz and Hunter have been emotionally and physically scarred by Belos, even killed by him. They have their happiness, their other lives with their other friends they try to move on to... But when things get dark, they can fall back on each other to talk about that side with trust. They have each other to show the more messed up side, reflect on an exclusive trauma that went down between them. Trauma bonding isn’t exclusive to siblings of course, and Luz and Hunter aren’t LITERAL siblings. But an AU’s premise where they were raised by and survived under Belos’ abuse kind of gets it tbh.

This is why it’s so damn satisfying to see Camila break the cycle by saving Hunter, releasing Belos’ hold on his ‘nephew’ that he never gets to see again; Why it’s cathartic having Eda step up in Belos’ final moments and essentially remind him, she’s MY child, not yours; Before splattering his brains across the ground. It’s a mother’s vengeance after being made to worry and agonize helplessly over their child because of this man. Found family isn’t rooted in biology, the way Belos brings that up in his relation to Hunter, or shared species with Luz. These physical ties don’t matter in the face of actual parental love.

#the owl house #luz noceda #the owl house hunter #emperor belos #philip wittebane #abuse

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cryiling · 1 year

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what do you think revalink's baby would be like? would it be a rito or a hylian would it be blood related to either link or revali? do you think they would get a surrogate? i wanna write a baby revalink fic but i'm still not sure what kind of baby they would have

ooh I've never thought abt it before! I feel like they'd probably choose to adopt an orphan? since they're both canonically orphans bc I said so and they know how it felt to try and survive in a world that is not kind to those without parents, they want to be able to protect other kids from having to know that pain if they can help it 🥹

their first child is a rito, who was orphaned at a young age bc the single mother died shortly after childbirth :'( normally when a fledgeling is left without parents in rito village the community tries their best to collectively raise the fledgeling, but as we've seen with revali, this doesn't work out very well as the fledgeling doesn't receive the proper attention or care they need to develop. so when link and revali hear about the young orphan, they volunteer to take her in as their own. don't ask me name of the kid though bc idk AJDBAJDH

they live together as a small happy family for several years. ofc as new parents, link and revali have some struggles, but they're able to talk with other parents like saki and teba and amali about parenting tips. link also learns a lot more about rito culture and what is traditional when raising a fledgeling (don't ask me what these traditions and cultures are idk man💀). revali is also learning about a lot of these for the first time because he was never really raised in a traditional way and didn't realize parental figures were supposed to do all these things because certainly no one did for him :((

one day on one of their travels together (they left their fledgeling at home because they knew there would be monsters on the road and they didn't want to put their daughter in any potential danger🥺🥺) they see a camp of monsters off the side of the road. they go to fight them, but as they move closer, they realize the monsters had taken a little hylian toddler and were harassing and attacking him, and suddenly link is remembering his own childhood, powerless against monsters and hylian bullies alike, so alone and afraid, and link is moving before he can realize what is happening, his head buzzing with the only thought to protect the kid. revali quickly moves to back him up in the fight, and it's over in a matter of minutes.

there's a treasure chest that unlocks when all the monsters are killed, but link couldn't care less about that, he's rushing towards the boy to see if he's okay or injured, if his parents are around, and the toddler can only look up at him helplessly, eyes wide and tear-filled, so clearly and incredibly alone and abandoned. link turns to revali, who has been watching this exchange, and says, "we have to take him in."

revali knows the look in link's eyes, the face of someone remembering their past, the same face link wakes up with after nightmares of the calamity. he knows they both have a chance to protect this boy from a life on the streets, from being tormented by the evils that lurk on the streets and in civilizations, and so they decide to bring the boy home with them.

when they return to rito village, they introduce their daughter to the boy. she's still very young, so they do their best to explain how they found him without the traumatizing details, but when they tell her that he will be joining their family, she holds the boy in her arms and looks up at them reverently, whispering, "I'm going to be a big sister?" with joy in her eyes.

and relief floods revali and link, knowing that their family is going to be okay, that they'll all be able to take care of each other, that their children will be raised with the support only siblings can provide, that they will cherish this family forever. it's not a perfect family, and it's certainly not borne of blood relations, but the emotional bond they all have with each other is stronger than blood could ever be

#bye I didn't expect to get so emotional over this #this was so cute to write and think about thank you oomfie for asking this😭💗💗#if you write a fic with this premise PLS LMK I WOULD SERIOUSLY LOVE TO READ IT #amiharana #revalink #revali #link #botw #breath of the wild #legend of zelda #loz #me being So Normal about this game #cryiling asks #crow's revalinkverse

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manofmanymons · 2 years

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survive hcs of any kind. Hand em over 🔫

I have so many where do I even start

First I'll talk about truthful route specific hcs then transition to more general ones

Miu handles big scary rides way better than Takuma does so she becomes Minoru's go-to amusement park buddy

Shuuji sleeps holding Lopmon like a teddy bear

Akiharu goes from being the crazy eccentric at his university to being THE guy everyone goes to for answers. He gets a raise and a published textbook which is good because he accidentally became a single father of four (someone's gotta raise Miyuki, and Shuuji, Miu, and Kaito's parents don't deserve them) and could use the funds.

He, Miyuki, and Renamon teach the other kids and mons the piano with varying degrees of success. Dracmon, as it happens, does the best. Please imagine him for whatever reason coming across an organ someday and playing dramatic vampire music. That is all.

Saki finally learns to stop caring what people think of her because any friend worth having is one that'll love her for her real self. She loses a lot of her old friends that way but good riddance.

Ryo and Kaito are both actually quite book smart but stopped trying in school after Certain Traumatic Life Events. After getting back to the real world, Ryo finally starts trying again bc he remembers what it's like to care about his future again. Miu more or less forces Kaito to do better because she'll be damned if he can't graduate and she's stuck going to the same school as him forever.

Aoi is the only member of the group who can pass off her partner as a support animal and bring her everywhere and anywhere.

All the mons with at least one evo that has a more humanoid form have a human disguise they can use in the real world. That being said, please imagine Ceresmon Medium or Beelzemon working retail. Like how freaking funny would that be.

Minoru and Takuma were falsely led to believe that Kaito is bad at video games because Miu said she always beats him. He then proceeded to destroy them at every game they own. He's not a bad gamer, just a good brother.

Speaking of games, Minoru and Kaito are banned from board game night with The Squad after they nearly killed each other over Uno.

Third game related hc in a row but Floramon and Dracmon are the best at poker while Falcomon, Lopmon and Agumon suck. Kunemon, Labramon, and Syakomon unfortunately do not have hands to play without everyone seeing their cards. Sometimes their partners will help with this, but card cames aren't exactly Ryo's or Miu's idea of a good time.

Ryo is afraid of spiders. I wonder why.

Dracmon hates keeping to a diurnal schedule. As soon as they're all in the real world, he's up all night and asleep for as much of the day as he can get away with (usually when Kaito's at school). He's a bad influence on the kid's sleep schedule, but it's not like it's on purpose.

Getting into the more general stuff

Dracmon would absolutely leave eyes in random places as a prank

Aoi also likes romcoms so she and Takuma give each other manga and movie recs. They have an unspoken agreement not to let Minoru or Saki find out because that's too embarrassing.

Neither of the Shinonome siblings are cis or het and this is the hill I die on.

Minoru snores. Loudly. At least one night in the Other World, Takuma had to stop Kaito from smothering him in his sleep over it.

Aoi is a fitfull sleeper and Miu gets nightterrors. Rip Saki's sleep.

Minoru's fashion sense bothers Saki more than she will ever say to his face. She really likes Miu's, tho, which made Miu extremely happy to hear.

The mystery of how Aoi's hair works plagues everyone's thoughts. Seriously how does it do that?

Speaking of hair, Kaito is really pretty with his down. It is for this exact reason that it is ALWAYS up, even when he sleeps.

Most of these kids can't cook to save their lives. Shuuji is particularly skilled at accidentally lighting fires. If Miu wants to experiment with spices, RUN.

Takuma's goggles are prescription. His eyesight isn't that bad, but they help his depth perception when he's playing sports. I don't wanna accuse him of being a soccer player like certain other goggle heads...so I'm gonna come in with another hc and say he's good at tennis.

Miu is the kind of kid who would write fanfic in an open notebook in the middle of class with 0 shits given. In the Moral and Truthful Routes (and yknow what fuck it why not Wrathful, too) I like to think she would start posting shit online and Minoru would be her beta reader. If Kaito's jealous that she didn't ask him instead, he doesn't say it.

Takuma is bad at math. I have no real reason for believing this, he just feels like a guy who's bad at math. Maybe it's just because he reminds me too much of Sora from Kingdom Hearts.

You really opened a can of worms buddy jfc this post is long.

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genuinerio · 2 years

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YOUNG, WILD AND FREE ↠ 「 Outer Banks 」

PAIRINGS: John B Routledge (possibly eventual love interest, best friend), Pope Heyward (platonic, best friend), Kiara Carrera (platonic, best friend, a potential love interest), JJ Maybank (platonic, siblings)

WORDS: 1312.

NOTES: So, I don’t have an exact definite love interest for my OC, River yet since she’s going to have a few possible love interests and will try her best to allow others to get close and be in a committed relationship, I apologize. Also, River and JJ’s close sibling relationship was inspired a lot by Jesus and Mariana’s close relationship from “The Fosters.”

SUMMARY: River Maybank was a girl who always tried her hardest to fight and get back up when she was down, oftentimes at the hands of Luke, her abusive father. Like her brother, JJ, she was known to be a rebellious person, the girl had always enjoyed taking risks and partying, most times to rid herself of the trauma they had both faced in being raised in such a tragic environment. She loved to have a good time in parties, smoking weed, promiscuity, art and surfing with art being her way of expressing herself through such traumatic moments. River didn’t believe in committing to a relationship, frankly, she was scared to death of commitment and could never see herself staying with just one person for too long or else she’d lose interest. Frankly, she didn’t see herself as valuable enough for anyone else regarding a relationship with River seeing herself as broken and “damaged goods,” and as she continually told others, she was working on herself first before anything else but hopefully, there truly is someone eventually out there for River Maybank.

RIVER MAYBANK, like her brother is known for being the life of the party on the cut side of Outer Banks. Despite her tragic and abusive home life, she tries her hardest not to let that affect her but coping with it by unraveling in very heartbreaking coping mechanisms like drinking, weed and promiscuity along with a healthy one in art and surfing.

In doing so, River tries her hardest to not get too attached to those who she feels that she could lose in a blink of an eye with the exception of her brother who she knows would never betray her just as she would never to him along with their shared friends who they both know is more like family than they’ve ever had back home besides one another.

Because of how loving JJ is towards his dear twin sister, he can be quite overprotective which could really drive River insane even though he has the best intentions at heart. Within this, River feels that he often acts like her father rather than her brother and takes this into extreme lengths and circumstances with him believing he has the right especially with him being her brother despite her mentioning that they’re twins and she’s only younger than him by a simple ten minutes.

There were numerous times that in not wanting his sister to deal with the same abuse that he had and in protection, JJ would take the fall for River with them both knowing that if Luke was to ever find out, they’d suffer ten times of the abuse that they had dealt with prior. And in times like that, River was always very grateful for him to do that even though, she was okay and accepting of taking the heat for her own troubled actions.

With their extremely close bond especially as they only truly had one another to depend and rely on as children growing up, to their mutual disgust and disappointment, oftentimes, River and JJ are mistaken as a couple with the two sharing a grossed out facial expression. And throughout every fight and argument they’ve had where they were beyond infuriated with each other, they would never let become too much where they hated each other or even if they claimed to do so, the hatred and anger would never last long as it would never break their special bond.

One explosive fight was over a guy that River was trying her hardest to commit to but struggled with nonetheless. Upon meeting him and in any possible romantic suitor needing JJ’s approval to date River, he had deemed the guy to be a total fuckboy to which a chuckling River felt JJ to be a total hypocrite since he was exactly of the same sorts.

A particular guy who no doubt had JJ’s approval was John B Routledge, JJ’s best friend since the third grade and someone who he along with their shared friends had believed the two to harbour crushes over one another despite potentially breaking the “No pogue on pogue macking” rule. River and John B were believed to have a flirtatious relationship with their joking around and bonding moments but truthfully neither saw it as romantic but rather pure friendship and a sibling type bond.

Something that neither her brother nor her friends knew with the exception of Kiara was that River was very much into women just as she was of men but also loved anyone of any gender for that matter with identifying herself as pansexual. Kiara had once saw her friend making out with a woman slightly older than her and in accidentally overcoming this, she could surely tell River was the one withholding the upper hand and in proving her belief that she was a dominant woman.

Her promiscuity was something that she felt saved her in a lot ways but also hurt her in causing her to be fearful of commitment and in relationships that were not strictly sexual and nothing more. She could never truly see a committed River in any romantic relationship that wasn’t sexual, it just wasn’t something that was in her nature nor even had wanted for herself whatsoever.

Throughout their years of shared childhood abuse, JJ and River have promised to never keep a secret from one another which of course River tried to keep except with one major secret that she vowed to take to her grave with how explicit and traumatic it could be as she knew it would JJ to quite fury and create even more painful moments than they already endured. Because if she did, JJ would blame this upon himself and see himself at fault when it never truly was nor had he known about it.

And as much as she didn’t want to believe it, she oftentimes at her lowest felt like she deserved the pain and abuse that Luke put her through regarding all the rebellious and troubled acts that she had committed in a way to remove how terribly the abuse affected her from childhood to current teens.

As a way to remove herself from such a toxic situation and mindset, she would abuse substances, sleep around and oftentimes would paint since art was a great passion of hers. River felt that art was the perfect example in removing such pain and trauma with also being an excellent way in expressing herself.

She wanted to believe that the abuse her and JJ suffered from their dick of a father didn’t affect her as much as she’d like to believe with drinking and smoking her sorrows away. It felt like the better option than any of the others that she had thought of at least.

Another way that had helped her cope with surfing which JJ had taught her in once he had learned himself. It was a hobby that they bonded over amongst all the other shared hobbies that they endured together.

Regardless of all the struggles and trauma that sixteen year old, River Maybank had gone through, she wasn’t going to let this get to her nor let Luke bring her down without a fight because she deserved vengeance both for her and for her brother as well considering how much pain, suffering and emotional distress they’d gone through. Because as River famously quoted herself saying, if someone kicked her while she was down, they better hope and pray that she doesn’t get back up with her love of vengeance.

She didn’t want to make herself get used to such a toxic environment and just accept it for herself like her friends believed she would nor let herself feel like she does not deserve a loving relationship with whoever she felt a strong connection with. They wanted happiness for her and wanted to get her to believe that she deserved it as well. This girl who viewed herself as not worthy of anything good, seeing upon herself such a broken soul and as someone who was simply just “damaged goods” was much more than that.

KATHRYN NEWTON as RIVER MAYBANK.

OUTER BANKS CAST as THEIR RESPECTIVE CHARACTERS.

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Bloodline omegaverse AU 👀

This is something I’m interested in. Which ranks would each of the madrigals be?

mmmmn I'd like to pick their ranks based on which would create a more interesting story/dynamic rather than the vibes I get from their personalities, and that means Isabela is an omega, always, because who doesn't like to see her suffer horribly? >:3c and at least one of them has to be an alpha in order for the arrangement to get arranged in the first place, so let's say Mira is an alpha. A baby alpha. She's probably a late bloomer and presented super late, so she's only now beginning to learn how to be a "good alpha", whatever that means. Considering how eager she is to please and make herself useful, I think she'd be the kind of alpha who is super nice and attentive and protective and takes such good care of everyone in the family. In her case, this means, like, making sure everyone drinks enough water, checking on everyone to see if anyone is sad, babysitting Antonio, escorting omega family members around town... speaking of, I imagine Alma would be an omega, but due to her personal history, she could never allow her to live the comfortable omega life, being taken care of and doten on by her alpha husband. Instead, she had to take on the leadership role, which she doesn't exactly feel comfortable in, but someone had to do it. Which is why she wants to give her omega granddaughter she life she never had... which is the same old interpretation that comes up in every omegaverse AU lmao but it's just too good and accurate to ignore. Though in this case, I wanna bring it up because I'm sure Mirabel is out there being a baby alpha and like, helping her cross the street and whatnot lmao.

As for everyone else.... mmm... I think Luisa would be a beta, even though, because of her gift, most people would have expected her to be an alpha... she's stronger than any alpha, because magic, but she stil feels inadequate, like she's not strong enough, or like she doesn't have the ability to protect everyone like she would if she were an alpha... She does have some "alpha behaviors", I guess, i.e being a highschool jock. But that's just how she is. She's lowkey jealous tiny little Mira got to be an alpha, but she's happy to help out with whatever she needs. In fact, despite having multiple alphas in the family, Luisa is still Mirabel's main role model. Mira learns the most from her and she wouldn't have it any other way.

As for their parents, mmmm, I'm gonna say beta Julieta and omega Agustín. Julieta being a beta means she was raised to keep peace and be the mature, responsible one, while other people could allow themselves more liberties... it can be frustrating, having her worth based on how well she can hold together her disfunctional family ;-; marrying an omega man was a small rebellion, though. Alma did not approve, believing they would struggle to have children, and that an omega man couldn't be a good match for her beta daughter, but she married him regardless. There is also the fact that Agustín was not part of the family, and it's tradition for them to "keep the blood pure". Alma 100% blames him for "dilluting the magic" and giving them a giftless child ;-;

Pepa and Bruno are both alphas, and they butted heads a lot, like soooo much omg THIS is what drove poor Julieta crazy, having two traumatized alphas for siblings, poor girl couldn't catch a breath because Pepa spent 23 hours a day bullying Bruno ;-;

Félix is canonically Alma's favorite son-in-law so I want him to be an omega too. Perfect match for Pepa being an alpha. Absolutely flawless. Of course, Pepa wasn't looking for an omega partner specifically, she fell in love with Félix because he was Félix, but Alma is out there thinking about grandchildren and stuff. It's also worth pointing out that, in this AU, because of the whole "keeping the bloodline pure", I imagine Félix would have been a second cousin or so. A bit more distant than what Alma would have wanted, and in fact, he doesn't have any magic, but Pedro didn't have magic either and their children still had magic, and she liked Félix so much and thought he was such a good match for Pepa, that she gave him a chance, and didn't regret it: unlike Agustín, he had three beautiful magical children.

Another note on Alma and Pedro: they were first cousins, and Alma in fact DOES have magic, though it's a bit less like powers and more like... the occassional ability to perform miracles? She performed a miracle and gave the family a new home, so there's that. Pedro didn't have any magic, but their family has been doing the "pure bloodline" for generations and while it doesn't work always, it's still a more reliable method than letting the magic be "dilluted". After Pedro's death though, Alma became obsessed with any following children having strong and powerful magic, to keep everyone safe...

#madrigalcest #shipcest #omegaverse #uhhh #bloodline au

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Would you still be into Zucest if they weren't related at all?

That's a tough one because, let's be real, would these two even be the same characters if they weren't siblings?

I can deal with them being separated eventually (they kind of were in the show), and even with a "They were raised as siblings, but later find out they're not actually related" (though I REALLY prefer them to be blood siblings), but I just cannot wrap my head around the concept of them only knowing about each other's existence in adulthood/late teens, or just being childhood friends.

Because there won't be the mix of hate, love, jealousy, affection, and resentment. That push and pull of Azula teasing him because her older brother is way too dramatic and serious. The competition, the rivalry, Zuko's inferiority complex, the feeling that only one of them can be loved, that one has to fall to their demise for the other to be able to rise up to glory.

The contradiction of them being the only ones who know what it was like to grow up in their insane family, yet also growing appart because their family traumatized them in completely different ways. The life-long grudges they have to move past to heal, the tender memories they wish they could forget but can't. The unspoken understanding and loyalty. The loud, physical and verbal fights, the quiet the back-stabbing.

The feeling of obligation. The "I love you, but I don't like you." The "I hate you, but I can't you go." The inappropriate feelings that everyone says should be wrong, but feel so right, natural, and inevitable.

All of this comes from the fact that they ARE siblings. That they were often forced to be on the same side even when they couldn't stand each other, and then suddenly had to be mortal enemies once things had finally started to work out.

You can't erase the incest factor of the ship without changing it's core aspects as well. Eventually it'd just reach a point where it's not even the same pairing anymore.

#asks #zucest #shipcest #zucest meta

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Thought this might give you some food for thought: I’m anti j*nrya and anti j*nsa on the grounds of incest but I like J*nerys. And here’s why. Our brains identify our relatives based on our lives experience with them, not actual blood shared. The material experience and lived relationships we have with other people are not changed by learning that there is blood shared or not shared. That’s why Jon still loved Dany when he found out they were related, even though he was uncomfortable with it. It didn’t dissolve the way his brain categorized her (as a non relative) based on experience. Likewise, Jon finding out that his siblings are actually his cousins isn’t going to make him suddenly able to be attracted to them because his whole life his brain has categorized them as relatives. When he meets and bonds with Dany, they have no idea. This is why it’s actually pretty uncommon for lifelong childhood friends raised side by side to end up together. Their experience is likely to have led their brains to classify each other as relatives. This all isn’t meant to change your mind or anything like that, but I’ve had people question how I can be against J*nsa, J*nrya, D*emyra, etc but like Jonerys

You have an interesting point of view, but I respectfully disagree entierly for a few reasons. First being, it scientifically is actually based off of blood. We are genetically hardwired to be sexually and romantically repulsed by our blood relatives, because it is a survival instinct against inbreeding.

It's why most long lost relatives are not accidentally attracted to family members before learning of their relation. We are genuinly hardwired in our DNA and genetic code to be repulsed by those who share within those sets of genetics. We can detect invisible markers that our conscious minds do not know about that indicate a similarity in blood relatives and will repulsed immediately. It's why incest is so abnormal, because it is biologically unnatural to be attracted to members of your family even if you don't know they are your blood relatives.

It's why the Targaryean incestual practices made them extinct, because it is unsustainable. We are biologically opposed to inbreeding because of the serious medical complications and issues of infertility. If I breed with my uncle, we share too many of the same genetic markers. Meaning that whatever rare syndromes or diseases we carry hereditary genes of, need to be matched with a partner that does not carry a hereditary ability to pass those rare conditions on. If I breed with my uncle we are too similar and it increases the chance a child would inherit those rare conditions because they did not have a second parent that could cancel out the hereditary genes. It's why we are almost never attracted to any blood relative, it is a survival instinct coded within our very dna.

Meaning it doesn't matter if Jon had no idea he was related to her, there is a 99% chance Jon naturally would not have any attraction to her because biology would already be warning him of the red flags his internal sensors are picking up of similar genetic traits. He also would likely be horrified because Dany is related to him in the exact way Jon thought he was related to Lyanna (meaning having sex with a woman who is his aunt likely would leave him traumatized since he just learned a woman he thought was aunt is actually his mother). She's his aunt in the exact way Benjen was his uncle, and he grew up both not raised to think incest is normal and he follows the old gods which strongly condemns it. He psychologically would have trauma learning he was related to her after having sex with her.

Also, being transparent, Dany being related to him is literally like one of the last reasons I have against them as a ship. My argument is Jon would oppose her as a human being because she stands for everything he finds monstrous, and their entire relationship is abuse and any subsequent sex is rape.

I outline a lot of this in this post and this post if you were curious.

I respect your choice to ship it but I fundamentally disagree with any argument of Jon ever being attracted to her for multiple reasons.

I think he would never be attracted to her, like her, or respect her. And I think their show relationship is gross and abusive, and rape.

The incest is just the icing on the 'no' cake.

#thank you for the ask really #i enjoy explaining my opposition to popular jon ships like this because a lot of the discussions are very hostile #so i appreciate you coming with a point of view in such a calm and collected manner #jon snow #anti jonerys #anti daenerys targaryen #game of thrones #asoiaf #a song of ice and fire #tw incest #incest tw

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I know I’m probably going to get roasted for this but I suffered from parentification as a child and I think a lot of the blame for how Albus and Aberforths relationship turned out lies with Kendra. When Percival is sent to prison Albus, whose ten, becomes the de facto head of the family and a second parent to Aberforth and Ariana. Then Aberforth takes up a carers role for Ariana despite only being a child himself. Where’s their mum in all of this? Why isn’t she looking after all her kids instead of giving them roles in the family that they aren’t equipped for?

Then we get Albus having to be on charge of two children when Kendra dies despite only being a child himself. Like, who lets a 17 year old be a guardian of two kids?! How was he supposed to pay for things or be able to get a job?? Where was Wizarding Child Services?! I think their sibling relationship got lost along the way with Albus having to parent the other two and Aberforth pushing against that because Albus isn’t his parent but also wanting his brother to remain in that parent role and not leave the family.

I have mixed feelings about this. I agree about the siblings being too young of having a single chance to handle the situation they had to face. They were bound to be emotionally compromised and traumatized. They were bound to have to sacrifice their childhood.

While it's easy to blame parents and they are supposed to protect their children, I don't have enough context. We know for a fact that he Dumbledores had an aunt called Honoria, but we have no idea if she was still alive at the time. I don't think that based on canon Albus became a second parent to Aberforth and Ariana. Based on what we know Kendra was taking care of them, Aberdorth was helping her take care of Ariana and Albus was contributing more rarely, but it's not like she had abandoned them. Albus was given the space to focus on his studies and to leave after school. Aberforth too was at Hogwarts for most of the year and while he hated what happened on Ariana he was always happy to help his sister. It doesn't seem like she forced them when she was alive.

Kendra was raising three kids as a single mother under very problematic circumstances. Ariana's situation was one that they couldn't reveal because the ministry would have cared to put her down instead of helping her. Realistically, I don't think she had many choices. We don't even know if they were eating from ready money or if she also had to work. She couldn't bring someone in to help, because she would be risking their lives and Ariana's exposure. She also swallowed her pride and allowed people to slunder her and imply that she was a shrew who discriminated, imprisoned and abused her daughter for not having magic.

Then there are several other problems. Her death was an accident. She was still young and her death was not something she or anyone else had anticipated. Then, in the eyes of Wizarding Law, Albus was an adult. It didn't matter if at 17 people are still to young to take such a burden. So even if there were Wizarding Child Services (which we know little about), Albus was legal and he would probably not have chosen that for the same reasons that Kendra kept them isolated. Albus mentions that Kendra gave up her life to care for Ariana. Aberforth kinda blames her for raising them with secrets and lies because he thinks it affected them, but he still acknowledges that Kendra did everything she could.

My point is that I don't think that Kendra was a perfect mother, but I'd say she was dealt a terrible hand and did the best she could under the circumstances. The situation is so complicated that I can't bring myself to point fingers within the family.

#kendra dumbledore #albus dumbledore #aberforth dumbledore #harry potter #asks #dumbledore family meta #hp meta

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milo-hernandez · 2 years

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CHARACTER INTRO // MILO HERNANDEZ

BASICS

Full Name: Milo Luis Hernandez

Nickname(s): Lilo

Age: 22

Place of Birth: Virginia

Ethnicity: Hispanic

Gender: Cis Male

Sexual Orientation: Gay

Position: Switch Verse

Religion: Atheist

Language(s) Spoken: English, Spanish

PHYSICAL APPEARANCE

Faceclaim: Manu Rios

Hair Color: Brown

Eye Color: Green

Height: 5'11"

Weight: 181 lbs

Tattoos: "Angel" written across the front of his neck

Piercings: None

PERSONALITY

Positive Traits: Exuberant, charming, clever

Negative Traits: Self-righteous, demanding, egocentric

Fears: Relapse, homelessness, being re-traumatized

FAMILY

Father: Julian Fernandez

Mother: Lucia Fernandez

Sibling(s): Sadie Fernandez

BIO

Milo’s life story was one shared by many people in the queer community. He was raised in an extremely religious environment. His entire existence as a child revolved around god. But his family were no saints. They all shared the same trauma that they’d passed down through generations. There wasn’t a day that went by without some sort of fight between various family members. It was a toxic environment, to say the least. At home, Milo also had to deal with his alcoholic and abusive father. His mother was docile when it came to their father’s behavior, believing that it was her role as the woman to respect him no matter what.

As a teenager, Milo began to rebel. His entire life he was shamed for being effeminate. He was terrified to come out to his family because he had no doubt he’d be disowned. So he turned to alcohol and drugs to cope with his suffocating surroundings. He would do anything to numb the pain he was in. This didn’t end well for Milo. His family eventually found out about his substance abuse and it was a constant battle from there. He didn’t have their support. Not in the way he needed. He carried the heavy weight of their shame on his back. And it only made things worse.

Eventually, shortly after turning 18, Milo moved out of his parents house and in with a boyfriend at the time. They’d drink and use drugs together all day. He’d go to work and Milo would just sit around and get fucked up. It went on for about a year before Milo dumped him and checked himself into rehab.

Once he was out, Milo found work at a local gay bar. He was a gogo boy and a bar back. This led him into escorting and eventually, when he was 21, Milo started to bartend. He had somehow made it out of the darkness and he was fully self-sufficient. He was scouted by Haus of Perses and although he was sad to leave his found family at the bar, he couldn’t pass up the opportunity to work for such a prestigious establishment. They’d be waiting for him, if or when he decided he wanted to return.

#{ ;; intro }

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zitasaurusrex · 2 years

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idk if y'all want to hear more about my very much doomed unethical war furry story i'm never going to finish but it is the last original thing i worked on so like...

basically it's a pile of tropes i think are interesting/enjoy for their sadness value/vibe with for whatever reason. i didn't have it all thought out. and maybe it was bad, i don't know.

there are two main characters. one is "wise", short for wiseguy, because all he had was a designation number but long ago when he was young (and not yet ground completely into the dirt) his mouth was too smart and his head was too stupid. wise is a wolf man that was engineered and raised as a weapon because technically if you're part animal you're not human, and if you're not a legally recognized sapient species there are no space laws protecting you. fought in a war against a terrible dangerous space enemy that was doing lots of murder and violence to a lot of planets and lost the unethical furry clone siblings he cared about.

to add insult to injury, after the war was safely over the highly unethical furries did get recognized legally as people, which meant the organization that created wise dumped him out into the world with nowhere to go because they couldn't keep him anymore.

wise is very traumatized for obvious reasons, and suffers from unexplained migraines that sometimes debilitate him for days at a time. this makes it hard for him to hold down even the shitty space dockyard work he's managed to find. wise is very miserable and bitter always.

the other main character is xiris, a member of an eusocial insectoid species with telepathy that was almost completely wiped out in the war. this is a thing a lot of people don't understand about them, because it looks like there are a lot of them around. the thing is that a single bug alien hive can be an extremely large number of bodies but they're all kind of one individual and the psychic center of the hive is the queen. i was still working on all the details of this idea.

xiris is an unmated queen who is not in the matriarch-of-a-hive life stage, she's just one individual in one body. she is painfully alert to how her people are dying out, and the remaining queens are infighting with one another over increasingly scant resources. the problem they're having is they can't build more hiveships which are highly specialized and in large percentage biological constructs that all come from the same foundry.

the bug aliens use psychic imprints to transfer information and memory and all that good stuff to one another, and they also used that as keys to important organic technology like the great foundry. it was possible to lose those keys if they lost all the right people at once.

this is kind of a fragile way for things to be, but sometimes that is the decisions people make and how a civilization ends up balanced on a point of failure. for them, that point of failure was realized when so many queens were slain in the war. worst of all the high queen, the caretaker of failsafe copies of all their most important imprints, was also killed.

xiris was supposed to grow into her own and found her hive and begin taking on, bit by bit, the duty of safeguarding those imprints before the old queen passed, but obviously some things happened.

when the old queen died, she didn't have another queen to pass the imprints to. and, because the bug aliens were like that, all the members of her own hive (kind of a part of her) would die soon after her, so she couldn't store them there.

but there were allied soldiers fighting the enemy alongside her hive, and one of them was close enough...

it takes xiris several years to work through this and figure out what the fuck happened.

and so wise, extremely burned out and bitter wolfman struggling with stigma and disability and having no future, eventually gets his day ruined by a very intense alien bug princess who needs him to understand that she needs the migraines out of his head now.

because they belong to her people, and they're very important.

wise is not very happy to have his day ruined, but is like great. awesome. how do you get them out of my head, can we do it now?

it is at this point that xiris realizes she doesn't actually know how she's going to do this.

and so they have to go on an adventure about it, and this is terrible timing because the space enemy that i hadn't finished figuring out anyway is coming back.

there u go, that's my overly ambitious scifi novel i don't think i'm strong enough to write.

also, the main two characters are not a ship.

like, if someone wanted to write that fanfic i guess they could, but they're super not. it is hard for them to become friends and that's enough.

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When I think about it the basic premise of my lair is one huge inter-generational trauma conga line. --------------------------------------------------------------------------- I have: - The nature rep who has always deeply resented her mother for abandoning her and being put in the spotlight for her special eyes and now coddles and helicopters her own daughter’s life. - The banescale siblings who grew up with a horrid father and left one of them with deep emotional trauma and the other determined to not have his own kids hate him the same way but failing to address his own misgivings because he’s convinced he’s not doing anything wrong. He’s doing so much wrong it’s not funny. - A tired and deeply damaged aberration who just was handed a newborn to take care of. The thing is, she also was abandoned and he has to fight himself not to push his trauma onto her. - Single guardian father (two actually) who never got it right with partners and was left to raise their children on their own. Said children either grew up too fast taking care of their siblings or got involved in shady shit down the road because dad was never around to tell them not to do so.

- TWO MORE PAIRS of traumatized war veteran veilspuns who do what they can to give their children a better life and now one kid has anxiety and the other has Princess Syndrome.

- The pearlcatcher half-siblings who were (ultimately) failed by their parents and now resent each other for what they see as betrayal and favoritism when in reality it was because none of their parents even tried healthy coping mechanisms. - Spiral siblings who had a very neglectful and vain mother. Both are people-pleasers at their core even when the closest friends in their lives are some of the most toxic individuals you’ll meet. - Crime dad coatl and his two awful daughters. Raised them with all the love he could give but not once did he teach them healthy coping mechanisms and now they resort to violence and deceit at the drop of a hat. One drinks a lot. Both have mommy issues.

#flight rising #you ever just....realize things?#this isn't even counting all the other dragons with issues #caused or not caused by family they live with #i have ONE therapist in the lair #i now need two or three more

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pokefanbri · 2 months

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Bri's back story

Little back story, my mom's birthday is Halloween btw lol 🎃 She was a very wild child & couldn't be controlled by grama & grampa rip. Who always compared her to her older siblings who were roudy & eventually became roudy herself. Conceived me & twin bro in New Orleans where she had fun & came back pregnant w/us, Grampa passed in 96 & the fam split, she raised 4 kids on her own, did crack & broke under the pressure, got us taken away is the gist.

We were put in foster care when I & my twin bro (13) & 2 younger siblings were all split up into group homes after twin bro called cps & snitched on her, can't forgive her, paint himself as the victim & says I abandoned the family of which was only his opinion nobody else's. Since I reunited with her I'm unforgivable & discarded by him & my aunt by association. But honestly foster care was probably the best thing for us cuz we struggled to eat & were actually well taken care of. Twin & I got through our HS careers in separate schools w/the same build blueprint so was like a twin school...thank God he would have cramped my style 😎 We got jobs at 16 to save for apt after emancipation. The only issue was visitations, they wouldn't let us see her cuz CPS is ALWAYS AGAINST THE MOTHER... denied her rights to see us but we could see each other. (cuz drugs are involved regardless if from good homes or not, I had a roommate w/a similar situation w/her kids but she was a good mom) My younger bros got adopted out into & nice family, twin bro naturally got adopted by them as well cuz he wanted what they had. They got all their own cars & everything they wanted. However I went a diff route & not knowing it was an option I did everything on my own & humbled myself on the bottom living my own struggle....... while they floated in a pool & had loving parents & went on cruises without me.

Middle child always had a knack for making money 💰 starting young ADHD & had wild ideas to get in trouble, now has multiple businesses going & has 4 kids however he may be Fked up the most & may need exorcism due to antichrist & blasphemous behavior.

Youngest grew up right cuz he was too young & is very very funny, actually cares about me but doesn't know me.

Anyway mom spoiled twin more than all 4 of us to keep his mouth shut about her drug use after she told him,fought w/her alot whilst being spoiled at the same time while I cleaned & took care of the younger 2. Twin always played video games & ignored everything while I was screamed at with curse words & told to do everything for her except cook, traumatized the fk outta me. However paid me to play yazzi with her sometimes when she was high lol. Guys & friends going in & out of the place all the time, they didn't scare me...I learned to be very protective & wary. Misspent youth growing up early couldn't really be a kid so I'm sort of a kid still at ❤️ The group home drilled cleaning into me too 🫤 CindaBri over here. These days I'm very sensitive & am prone to crying since I was a kid. I don't do well with conflict, bullying, negativity of any kind I cannot tolerate. I have a huge heart despite how I grew up, I was a pushover & it took me a longtime to develop a backbone. I absolutely hate it when I'm mistreated, feels like I'm a punching bag for family to take it out on. Well hears something, I honestly do not give a flying rat's ass what they think about me or my mother. I am free from their controlling ways and I'm so grateful to God that he gave me the strength to sever ties on my own terms and not theirs instead. I'm allowed to do the same exact thing & cut people out of my life if its better for me & my health then that's what I'll do. Not because of hatred but because it's the right thing to do. As family oriented as I want to be it's just not possible for my family to get along and it's very sad & pathetic. I have to be able to heal from the trauma even more as I had the worst of it. now broken however beautiful 😊 Mostly independent & very strong/resilient 💪 I have Jesus to thank for saving my life more than I can count. Never learned to drive either to this day & always take the bus. I think I'm 10x slower, I work really hard & always burnt out.

Oh yeah here's the kicker, at 19 I started getting auditory & increasingly visual hallucinations ever since...i have a brilliant mind like I'm fkin Matilda after my trauma or some sh*t. I've been having de ja vu or precognitive dreams of my own life since I was a toddler, one of a week span smashed into 1 dream which was my strongest one. lately I don't remember my dreams since late 2023 😓 my gifts keep growing though & I swear I hear passed on family, friends, & even celebrities, & my calico cat of 15 yrs. Whatever it is I believe it's God given, but I don't know how to control it yet.

I have an amazing longterm memory I do remember my own birth (that's a good story too) My mind has a lot of knowledge to use but may be overloaded now as I've recently been having issues...Its why I write to get things down & vent.

I was diagnosed with "paranoid schizophrenia" w/ depression & anxiety, a lot of fam has mental issues it seems. Think I'm the only one diagnosed with mental illness but the eldest 2 boys should definitely get tested out for it too if they haven't seen a doctor already. There's alot of resentment from my family toward my mother cuz of her behavior in the past. As a God fearing woman I know better & choose to Honor my mom the best of my ability even if our relationship is strained, I know it's not her fault & it's the devil's work. She like my siblings are equally messed up by how our parents raised us, it's an viscous cycle of torture that needs to end, there's no love coming from most family & it makes me sick, family is supposed to stick together but we were left in the dust cuz they don't wanna deal with her. I believe the evil one has a grasp on people in many different ways, whether it be mental illness or hatred he causes havoc in everything he can, has a grasp on the people of earth. But the Father controls the universe, our story is prewritten & is a domino effect. My deja vu I've theorized it's like a time lapse of some kind, hope to God I haven't lived it already over & over that would be hell to me 🫤 Although never a dull moment that's for sure, oh if I could do it all over again ..... idk if I'd want to.

Fighting me on it & won't listen u have to have the patience of a saint. Doesn't like being proven wrong, very stubborn, mixed w/bipolar..gets angry. She keeps comparing me to my grandma. Think she's more mentally fked up than I am from her past too but I'm no psychologist. Luckily I raised myself to be better than that in this gen, self aware, I use logic & understanding but do stupid sh*t sometimes lol...I wanna break the cycle cuz it's a complete sh*t show. I don't want to be held back & torn down by family again & again just seems like even she doesn't care about me either sometimes. But she's getting old & cranky, wanna snap her out of it somehow. It's not a gypsy rose situation exactly I actually care I'm just annoyed & trying to get along with her, we do most of time.

And today I came to a starting discovery.

Seems I may need to check my mom for Alzheimer's/Dementia, think it's worse than I thought. She keeps having fits/episodes of memory loss & blaming me for things, thinks I touched her phone to change it to dark mode today but it's been that way for a month or so already & didn't believe me.

How to heal from the past when she won't give u room to breathe, thought i was making progress w/her, keeps buying cigs & soda everytime she has stamps or money & when she's out hits me up for money, I just got my 1st check & I'm trying to save, says I can say no but then bitches at me. I honestly don't understand her sometimes. And after the cigs are gone she's crankier which makes things worse. All the cigs she's had over maybe 2 yrs she could've had a car by now & I'm working my butt off for one, & all the food is eaten while I'm gone. Tried clensing the apt but just made her angry, mental illness or demons I can't tell sometimes.

I'm so tired I haven't slept after work yesterday & need it for brain function but I had 3 hrs to sleep b4 church this morning so decided to stay up ..idk how long I've been up actually my eyes hurt, Have 2 hopefully benign tumors in my head & she's stressing me the fk out. Church or sleep, was actually a good day. Was trying to recap to her on what I did today & I just got ready for church this morning, when did I have time to touch her phone? But doesn't listen at all & always threatens to kick me out when she's incapable of being her by herself anymore. And depending on an hour to the next day she fine again & tells me to ignore her. Fking crazy. I already have memory issues wtf happena when we both lose our damn minds. I have the choice between doing laundry to get tf outta here or watch the rewards show & rest my eyes...Bed looks good rn actually 🥱😴

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My Past Could Help Your Future

I am starting to blog and shit do I have a lot to say. If my life and mistakes can change one persons life or help one soul then I’m doing what the universe is pushing me towards. I am a great person and have just had terrible things happen and even worse when I really have it my all my whole heart and soul I was hurt more then ever. Our world is a mess and our systems are broken but the only way one can hope for change is to speak up and spend time telling your story because my experiences could change your outcome and yours could change mine. Once I went public with my story after being silent for to long I received so many messages from people thanking me for sharing my story. I want to blog I want to write a book and I want to be on every social media platform that’s possible to not only help others but so my daughters can one day read and know I’m speaking my truth from my heart and I never gave up. As parents we all want better for our kids and want to give them everything and sometimes things get in the way of that but it doesn’t make you less of a parent. I messed up so bad in life because I was so messed up from my childhood trauma and I tried everything to be a good mom and to be there for everything the PTA mom always involved. I was and I loved my kids so much and they knew it I did everything for them. They always had what they needed and they always had fun and I never wanted them to know when I was hurting. I spent so much time trying to be the perfect parent for them i lost sight of where I was going in life. I never wanted to depend on a man and have to feel like everything was there’s and that my girls and I existed in someone else’s world not our own. I wanted to show them independence and to stay smart and to work hard and to be kind. All the best things that they are. Losing a loved one is painful but losing the loves of your life and they are still out there living and you can’t see them or talk to them. It’s not even human nature it’s not the way they are supposed to be raised it’s slowly taking who they were away and making them something that I never imagined. So not dealing with my trauma has now caused them their own. Such a sick twist of fate. I’m not ever going to say that I’m perfect but I did not deserve to have my kids taken and they didn’t deserve to have their mom taken and not see their siblings. The courts, people who dislike you, ex husband, ex wife and even your own family have way to much power taking kids away from their parents. My kids were traumatized after all of this and now live with the person who traumatized me and that was my worst fear. They didn’t spend more then a short weekend away from me and I worked so hard to get them back home after they were taken. This isn’t your usual situation where I’m poor me I lost my kids and did nothing wrong but I DID NOT have any rights in those court rooms and every specialist or teacher or counselor said they could see how to loved my kids and I had my inner most trusted person working against me the whole time and I was just to blind to see it because I thought for once she was proud of me and she loved me and I was finally one of her daughters. I was so wrong. The system in place to help protect kids and I believe in that. I did nothing to have them stripped from me to not see again until they are adopted or 18 years old. I lost the most important thing to me, the loves of my life and the reason I got up and wanted more and better. So now all I can do is just move on and hope that they are ok. I will write my truth and I will never give up. I know this is happening to more so reach out to m. Share your thoughts or stories m making sure my daughters know the truth and that they can be better and have a voice. I believe that our bonds are strong enough to be under the same moon and feel safe knowing that someone is out there loving them and fighting for them. So how ever I try to get my story out I will enjoy the people I can help, the advice I can give, an ear to listen

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