“Mika. Mika.” His fingers dig into the wound, slipping over the blood, tips numb and white. Underneath him, rattling breaths, Mika’s chest struggling to rise, eyes already beginning to glaze. He pictures the bullets, one, two, three, their trajectories in his mind. Leg, thigh, chest. Next to his heart. Behind him, high, wheezing, tight with pain. Ralf. Only hit by one bullet, in the lower arm. (An impossible choice. Unthinkable. Save one, lose the other. )
“Mika-” he starts again, but cannot finish. It doesn't matter. The Finn curls a hand around his wrist, loose, and squeezes, everything unsaid contained in the movement. I know. Go. A pause. Michael disengages himself, turns to Ralf. His ears fill with the sound of Mika’s labored coughing, life rushing from the Finn in his wake. (Ralf stares at him throughout, heavy, but Michael keeps his gaze averted, staunching the blood in silence.)
By the time rescue arrives, Mika’s gone.
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i think all quiet on the western front and the lord of the rings are in direct conversation with each other, as in theyre the retelling of the same war with one saying here's what happened, we all died, and it did not matter at all and another going hush little boy, of course we won, of course your friends came back
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One thing that was very interesting to me in this episode is the way Eddie was just... not joking about Buck's love interests.
That stuck out.
Usually when Eddie talks to Buck about his love interests, it's with an edge of fond exasperation, teasing laced around his gently delivered truths, but there was none of that this episode. Buck told Eddie he went to see Natalia and it was like something switched. Eddie's entire affect changed when Buck started talking about Natalia. He went from being loose and easy (as loose and easy as one can get when standing at a grave) to being... not combative, necessarily, but visibly actively not wanting to engage in conversation about her either, and it's not...
It's not even jealousy!! We joke a lot about Eddie and jealousy, but it wasn't that at all. It was a fatigue that comes with silence, that comes with holding your tongue, that comes with keeping secrets. Especially when Buck said that he feels like Natalia sees him. That look Eddie gave him immediately after? That was pure hurt. That was him saying I see you too, I've always seen you. But he can't say that. He can't say that, because to say that would be to say so many other things about the way he sees Buck, and to say so many other things would mean to have to unstick his tongue from the roof of his mouth about the ONE thing he's been holding onto ever since he was shot.
I don't know. I don't know, but I think Eddie taking Buck on a date and I think about how Eddie left his son—his heart—in Buck's care so they could bake cookies together (which becomes profoundly more significant in an episode where Christopher was talking about baking smores with his mom), and I think about Kenny saying Ryan has been doing some very nuanced work in the back half of this season, I'm like
Oh. Oh. I see it, thank you. Loud and clear.
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[ID: a digital drawing of chuuya and dazai from bungou stray dogs. in the main image, dazai is sitting on a metal counter in a nurse's office, his arms behind him to support him and knees spread so that chuuya can clean his wounds. he has bandages and scars on his arms and bare torso and is wearing white pants and white shoes. with a bored expression he says, hurry up. chuuya, who's opening a green bottle and is standing in front of the counter, shouts, wait a fucking minute, asshole, i'm not your damn nurse! in a smaller follow-up panel dazai shouts, you shot me! and chuuya is looking away while sweating and shouting back, you were being a shit. end ID]
the price of engaging in homoeroticism via shooting you 'old friend' THREE FUCKING TIMES more than necessary is, um... *checks notes* having to patch him up five minutes later whilst staring at his bare chest and then having to set his leg, thus literally putting him back on his feet to do his dramatic victory reveal??? this can't be right who wrote this
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i havent watched Etho's episode yet so i dont know if he's lying or not but. btw. Scar chasing Etho and Etho wanting to die in his house. he just wanted to die in his house ? only to perish, by the same hands as twice previously, in his own yard. Scar literally calling him a wounded animal. jesus fucking christ .
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