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vlrspace · 5 months

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ABOUT - gojo finds himself enamoured by your new uniform

valeri’s notes: this is a little rushed, but after everything that’s going on in jjk, i need COMFORT and FLUFF. haha have fun… gojo come back to us

“what the fuck” gojo groans, more to himself than to his black black haired friend, who’s lips are formed into a tiny smirk while leaning against the doorway as the white haired male’s expression turns into a frown.

both boys are looking at the two girls talking not far from the basketball court they are standing at, the (h/c) coloured girl talking a little more animatedly with a huge grin on her face, shoko opposite of her looking slightly nonchalant, but her lips are stretched into a little smile.

gojo couldn’t take his eyes off of you though and at first he couldn’t understand why. not until his gaze traveled down on your body.

your uniform looked… different.

long gone your usual school girl uniform, the one that made you look so innocent. there is no flowy skirt that reached down to your knees, nor your loose fitting white shirt that kept your chest hidden from prying eyes and your huge sized blazer was missing as well.

gojo knew how in your last mission, your uniform got damaged, but he didn’t think it’ll lead you to change things up.

you’re now wearing a long leather coat that reaches almost your shin, a tight black dress with spaghetti straps and underneath there was white dress shirt as well, with a tie neatly done. and don’t get gojo started on those black boots that clung to your legs.

were you always this hot?

the frown on gojo’s face is replaced by a smirk before he starts stepping your way. geto behind him only lets out a chuckle before following his friend, while shaking his head. it was time for gojo to finally realise things around him.

“didn’t know we were allowed to get brand new uniforms” gojo muses deeply into your ear, standing behind you and barely touching your back with his chest. his sudden antics make your body jump slightly, before you turn around to face him, cheeks slightly reddening.

“i thought that maybe, it was time to change” you utter meekly, before offering gojo a sheepish smile. your eyes are a little outlined. your lips look shiny and your hair is done in a different style too, making gojo a little too enamoured.

gojo’s blue gaze keeps yours before you could look away and he grins at you, making you smile a little wider.

he doesn’t understand how he never spared a glance at you before, you are actually prettier than all the girls who are all over him. you’re always so kind to him as well, in your own little shy ways, helping him with whatever and never judge him for anything.

“okay now lovebirds, sensei is waiting for us” shoko amusedly breaks the two of you out of your little bubble and you silently thank the gods above you because your heart is racing and your face feels like it’s on fire as the four of you began walking.

your heart has been yearning for even the tiniest fraction of gojo’s attention for the past three years. the damage done to your old uniform and a little push from shoko and geto made you change your uniform up a little. you start to feel like it was worth it.

“you look very pretty” gojo’s tall form is bent down a little so only you can hear him and you mutter out a little thank you as you arrive to your destination.

and from the beating of your heart, you couldn’t feel gojo standing a little closer than usual, nor see his cheeks faintly blushing.

@vlrspace, 2023

#jjk fluff #jjk x reader #jjk x you #gojo satoru x reader #gojo x reader #gojo x you #satoru gojo x reader #vlrwrites

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shinjisdone · 10 months

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How I Imagine TWST Could Be If There Was A Female!MC

Had a bad day yesterday and just wanted to write some brainrot for myself

TW: MC/Reader is solely female here and will be main point talked about/focused on. Many mentions on bullying because you are a girl in an all-boys-academy.

Little differences/somethings there would be I think if MC was female:

Since NRC is an all-boys-academy I think there might be some differences on how the MC might be treated.

Let's just pretend you are really the only girl there, for simplicity's sake.

Grim might feel indifferent OR is stupid enough to not get why being a girl in an all-boys-academy might be a big deal for everyone.

Crowley might go HMMMM how UnusUAL, I'm sure my schOOL isn't miXED....HMMMMM...pondering very deeply.

Oh, well. Who cares. Do his chores anyway.

Would give you the usual school uniform, might ask if you'd like a skirt or even maybe dig up some old skirts. Who knows, maybe NRC used to be mixed.

If you do want that, he'd make you -PSYCH! Of COURSE he'd tell Sam to buy you one. Size and length as well as style can be chosen by you, it just needs to fit with the rest of the uniform.

When barging into the ceremony I believe everyone would be too startled/beside themselves to notice. Grim is the nuisance having to be dealt with.

If there is anything you specifically need...Crowley will just throw it your way.

On your first day Ace might need a second to realize you are a girl. Uh, not only do you not know who the Great Sevens are but you are at the wrong school, too, idiot! Haha! What's a girlie doing here?

Shenanigans happen quickly and Deuce comes to the rescue!

Needs much longer to realize you are a girl. You speak your thanks and as he says it's no problem he - suddenly - clams - up. Oh. Oh. You...g-g-g-girl...? Female....? A womf...?

Blushes like crazy and can't get a peep out, still as a statue. Ace's yelling is what snaps him out of it.

When Ace asks you if he could stay the night since...he got cuffed...you are first like - hmmm. Hmmm.

ಠಿ_ಠ

Nah, nah, nah! It ain't like that! He's gonna sleep on the couch in the lounge! There is no other place and Ramshakle is as good as abandonded anyway. What, you just want some cat as company?

...What do u mean here are ghosts ಠ_ಠ

Trey would be like, oh. Hello. Um, well, I didn't expect you here.

Well, if the headmaster says so, please, feel welcome! Anyone and everyone is welcome to a tea party! (well, if it aligns with the rules...)

Cater might be more surprised. You are so cute! Like, don't take it the wrong way but he just...finds you cute! From the way you make your hair to how you get a unique outfit (if you choose to wear an uniform skirt), oh he wishes he could do it too! Unfortunately, he can't cuz well, uniform is UNIform...

Riddle is too preoccupied and pissy to even notice a new person in the room. He'd probably only notice you after his overblot is over.

Cue in a few days later and he comes to apologize and properly introduce himself. As you introduce yourself back he makes the silent note that you are actually a girl. Huh. This school is not mixed...and you being here certainly must break a rule somewhere...but...you don't seem so bad, so he'll just ignore it. He is the dormleader of Heartslabyul, not of the entirety of NRC.

All in all: Ace barely cares that you are a girl and would just throw his usual jokes and jabs. Would sometimes throw in some that have to do with you being female but those are never in ill will.

Deuce my beloved would at the beginning be very shy but grows used to you and proclaim you as his best friend anyway. Would sometimes forget you are a girl and catch himself in the act. Might feel sheepish or EXTREMELY embarrassed. When the topic of you being female comes up anywhere, no matter with whom, he gets flustered and shy regardless of how close you are.

Trey is the most indifferent but throws in some protective advice anyhow. As your senior and you as his junior, he has to look out for you and he takes you being the only girl in an all-boys-school in account as well while doing so.

Cater annooooooys you to hell and back about how cute you are. He just thinks girls have much more variety when it comes to styling and likes to show you new trends. He has sisters as well so he is more used hanging around girls, anyway.

Riddle is also indifferent but he catches himself often in situations where he focuses intently on you being female. Do you feel comfortable? Is anyone bullying you? That behaviour is unacceptable, so do tell him when something like that happens. Riddle tries to grow from his flaws but will gladly cuff someone's head for that anyday... Would also act more gentlemanly for you. Opens doors, tells Ace and Deuce to hold your books can't you see they are heavy, invites you over to tea parties and takes out the chair for you. A bit more reliant with you when it comes to rule-breaking.

Savanclaw issssss...a bit more attentive of you being female.

Jack is a million times x 100000 more protective of you. You are the only girl here and people here kinda suck are like twisted villains. What are you doing here?!

He has little siblings so he somewhat sees you as his third one (if you'd like that. Though he would never admit that...) and just asks and asks and asks if you are okay, if you need something.

Will walk you from class to your dorm or anywhere else you need to be even if he doesn't, no matter what.

10000000% tsundere. He's...not doing this cuz he's worried...or likes to take care of you.

Ruggie is confused??? On what??? you??? are??? doing here???

UH this is not a mixed school!!! Helloooo??? Does something go 'ding ding ding'! in your head or what?

Also protective, mostly because of his own siblings and that he thinks you are naive. People that are different in any regard are unfortunately easy targets for others. This school won't be easy for you he already knows. So he might as well help out instead of being another troublemaker for you.

While he helps out he is also kinda wary of you??? Women in his home are uh, intimidating and if you have been doing good so far, you surely are, well, at least something that he doesn't want to mess with. Better stay on your good side, even IF you are a more gentle and meek one.

Leona issss....weird?

Makes fun of you but makes sure you aren't messed with at the same time? Tsundere that drank respect women juice.

Don't hang around him, don't bother him...but also stay out of trouble, if someone bothers you, tell them Leona sent you.

Softer around you and while he does tease you, he never really disrespects you. Distant but not cold.

Azul is intriguied but perhaps wouldn't care too much - unless he can make a deal out of this.

Aren't you tired getting all of this attention? You are magicless and the only girl to boot! Azul can help you...just sign here.

Might try to win your favor by being a suck-up gentleman by calling you Miss (Name). How are you today? Need any help?

Only if you can offer anything useful to him. Like, no offense but you're magicless...and unfortunately not as stupid as ADeuce.

Besides, his gentlemanly acts aren't as genuine as Riddle's.

Floyd has a 50/50 chance of not caring a bit or straight up interested in you because you are female.

Either: Huh? So what, you are just another plankton.

Or: Huh? A fishie swimming against the stream? What's a girl doing here?

However, if you are not interesting enough expect his interest to go down the drain.

If you heavily react to being picked on because you are girl, don't show it. Otherwise Floyd will exploit it like crazy. Will mention how lonely it might be to be the only girl, will pull on your hair, might switch between Shrimpy and Miss Shrimpy or straight up call you girlie or lassie. Kind of a bully but likes you nonethless if you are interesting.

Jade will increase his gentlemanly behaviour 100%!

Is more intrigued by you than Floyd. Oya, oya, what do we have here?

More keen on calling you miss or whatever you prefer and treats you quite nicely, almost like a princess, especially if you are regular at Monstro Longue.

Just as teasing as his brother but more consistent with it. Likes to mess with you but acts less roudy than Floyd but there is still...a certain air to him that makes him even more unbearable than his twin. A weird mix of looking down at you and treating you like you are special.

KALIIMMMM

A good boy 100%. Stupid enough or rather oblivious to notice that you are indeed the only girl here!

Nothing would change to how he treats you honestly. A good guy, a real champ. Is definitely gonna give you nicknames however if you are sweet to him, ending your name with the honorific '-chan' and you cannot convince me otherwise.

Can be very stupid about how your situation might affect you. Treats it like nothing's wrong, cuz there IS nothing wrong!

JAMILLLL

Kinda confused as well? Well, you've been here long enough and are surrounded by good friends so he takes it you are or will be fine.

Still, be careful, okay? There are some meanies out here...he's not saying it out of worry, it is common sense.

Might keep an extra eye out for you but if nothing happens, he'll stop. His priority is Kalim and if you are okay, then everything else is okay, too.

Will tell Kalim to stop being so unaware of your situation. Show a bit of decency, try to see it from her perspective. You are magicless as well so things are sure to be difficult.

Might also ask Ace on how you are doing to get a third party's perspective of things during basketball training. Just as pre-information, nothing more...

Will definietly not ask Floyd. He knows how he is and if the topic turns to be about you and he hears it, he gets all "Heeee, you're talkin' about Shrimpy????"

It's annoying. It's even more annoying how much Floyd wants to annoy you.

Might think of his sister when he sees you and remembers to write to her a bit more frequently.

Epel: "Wait, you are a girl for real?! I thought yer just looked like one, like me! ...O-Or pretended to be one, maybe, I think..."

Squints his eyes reaaaal hard to really identify you. You sure you're a girl? And not just...a pretty boy like him?

Hm, ah shucks. Kinda hoped he might find another cursed soul like him. Well, at least you get it when people treat you a certain way just because of your looks.

Might have an easier time to show you his true self when speaking since you might either see through him easily or because he just knows he doesn't need to pretend in front of you.

He has a feeling you get it.

And when you agree and tell him how cool he is? Aquired yourself immediately a fierce friend (or crush, he kinda liked it when you called him cool...)

Hell, yeah, you get it!

Does actively NOT treat you with you being female in mind. You're one of the boyz. Doesn't want you to feel any different or casted out.

Got your back like crazy. He finds himself feeling more confident around you and will defend you like nothing else. So what if you are a magicless girl?! You're hella cool yourself!

Will call you cool and not cute, even if it isn't accurate.

The most annoying for sure is Rook.

The guy is a romantic at heart and believes it is fate that you came here.

You aren't an outcast! No, you are like a chosen hero! A princess around 22 twisted villains~ How exciting! Doesn't it make your heart beat faster?!

'Mademoiselle' is thrown at you constantlyyyy. The moment you hear the word you know Rook is around the corner, watching you. Weirdly nice and romantic towards you. He truly does believe you being in NRC is something special. He cannot help but gush about it!

When it comes to special events, he offers to prepare you for it with outfits or make-up. He's creative and sees you as his canvas and believes that no matter will be done or not, you will look beautiful! 100 points!

Vil is *sucks in breath* quick to criticize.

Doesn't truly care...but if you show the slightest bit of interest in fashion and beauty, hooh boy will he be watching.

Means to help but is, uh...mean. So, so, so mean.

But other than that...I don't think he'd care? HE is the fairest of them all...and you are just a potato.

Huh? Oh no, is this some shojo manga and you are the heroine getting a reverse harem or somethin'?

Idia is...weirded out but as long as he doesn't have to deal with you, he'll be fine.

Until you start getting involved in these overblots and...everything turns out okay? Like in a happy ending of a fairytale?

OMG are you a heroine?

No, he doesn't wanna be part of your harem!

Maaaaybe a bit more shy but just maybe. Will avoid you just as he does to everyone.

When in a good and braver mood, will call you 'heroine' when some 'anime shenanigans' happen as he calls them. If you're confused, will scream internally out of embarassment but also HOW COULD U NOT KNOW THAT TERM U NORMIE

Might call you that more often to mess with you.

Orhto kinda...won't care?

Probably scans you on your first meeting and goes 'yep, indeed f for female'.

As long as you are nice to his brother, all is good. Hey, be his friend too, while you're add it! Pretty please?

Malleus wouldn't care either. You being a magicless girl in NRC is quite curious and he will ask you about that...but no matter what your answer might be, he will listen, maybe take it to heart and set it aside, here and there. He doesn't care much for it.

As long as your bravery and willingness to be his friend remains, he won't ever make a fuss about it. Just be you.

During your meeting he might ask, "Oh? Are you perhaps a witch with a fitting black cat living here now in this abandonded house with a few ghostly roommates? Heh, I jest."

No matter what, you will still be his Child of Man.

If you do end up having trouble in school because you are a girl, he might go to Lilia for advice. He never had to deal with something like this before...shall he burn these bullies to crisps for making you school life difficult?

Lilia secretly agrees but tells him not to.

Other than that, same old Tsunotarou.

Lilia would go like "oh!" and that's it.

Curious, this is unusual for NRC but he is always happy and excited when changes happen.

Like the old man that he is he offers you his advice and help in anything. Even if he is an ancient fae, he is also your senior, so go ahead and ask him, alright?

Will also call you something endearing like Kalim and Rook. Adds the honorific '-chan' to you, definitely.

Very glad you are Malleus' friend, for that you automatically earned his protection. Just call when something's up, k?

Silver first needs to wake up.

huh????? zzz...

Wait, let him wake up...

Still a bit more.

There we go. Now that he is fully awake he realizes you are a girl.

Still somewhat in his dream lands, might wake up and say, "Wait, I didn't dream about a princess...or did I?" when he sees you.

Sometimes he does not fully realize its you when he freshly woke up. Needs to blink away the weariness before he goes "oh."

A tad bit more worried about you than his old man. Anything could happen and while you are in good hands not Crowley Silver sometimes tends to think about your happiness and safety here at NRC. You doing okay with the lessons? The teachers? The classmates? He's willing to offer his protection too, you know.

Perhaps its a knight thing to protect the maidens or smth, i dunno.

HUMAAAN!!!

WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?! THIS IS N R C, SILLY! AN ALL-BOYS-ACADEMY! THERE'S NO 'F' IN THAT!

BUT THERE WILL BE ON YOUR MARKS SINCE YOU SUCK SO MUCH!

A meanie, especially at the beginning since he doesn't believe you belong here.

Magicless at a magic school? Failure.

Female at an all-boys-school? Unaccaptable.

nOT WaKA-SAmA????? A DISGRACE

He will warm up to you though...it takes time. Protective as Silver but not as subtle.

Idiot will scream HOW OF COURSE YOU NEED HIS HELP YOU ARE THE ONLY GIRL HERE! HOW MANY HAVE ALREADY MOCKED YOU, HUH?! CUZ HE CAN PROBABLY COUNT HOW MANY TIMES BUT WOULD NEED 20 HANDS FOR THAT!

Means well but...obnoxious.

#twst #twst x reader #twisted wonderland #f!reader #f!mc #twst headcanons #smth silly #smth stupid #my days have been hell i need this #twst x f!reader

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1-800-c3dr1c · 5 months

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Sooo, let's try this ask thing haha. I was wondering if u cute write a super fluff where reader is friends with coryo and tigris and they let reader into the secret that they've almost got no food at home. Reader then brings them food or invites them over regularly and coriolanus is super thankful + embarrassed at the same time and reader assures him that its alright and happy to help and over time they both confess they like each other more than just friends?

YOUNG! CORIOLANUS SNOW FLUFF ONESHOT.

spoilers for the ballad of songbirds and snakes. spoilers for coriolanus’ backstory. gender-neutral reader. friends with mutuals feelings to lovers.

requests are: open! please look at the pinned post for characters i will write for. <3 let me know if you’d like to be in m tag list for whenever i post anything related to young! coriolanus snow under this post as well, or in my inbox.

i hope you liked this oneshot! i love love LOVE writing fluff, so thank you so much for requesting it!!

word count: 541

it had surprised you when one of your best friends, coriolanus snow, had asked you if he could tell you a secret. he nearly pleaded with you not to tell anyone else about it before he did, and when you promised over and over again that you wouldn’t, he finally took you to his house.

due to his family having been very popular and seemingly well-liked back during the war, this had been a stark contrast to what you had been expecting. he lived with tigris and his grandma’am, which you had known. however, what you hadn’t known was the fact that his fridge was nearly empty every single night, if not completely empty.

it was as if tigris had known you were coming, based upon the solemn expression she wore when you and coriolanus walked through the door. she could only smile sadly at you, and you could only walk over to her and place your hand on her shoulder, quietly reassuring her and coriolanus that you would help them.

and you did. you consistently invited them (including the grandma’am) to your house for dinner, making them delicious food and making sure that all three of them were well-fed. they would always profusely thank you, unable to do much else. sometimes, the grandma’am would slip a white rose behind your ear when you walked them to the door after dinner, and it always made you smile softly.

until that changed. one day, it hadn’t been the grandma’am to step forward again to slip a rose behind your ear as you had expected. it was coriolanus. you blinked at him, unspeaking as he carefully caught your chin with two fingers, angling your head slightly so that it was easier for him to slip the rose right behind your ear.

you didn’t move as he stepped back, looking behind him at tigris and the grandma’am. they both nodded to him before beginning to walk off, whereas he stayed right in front of you, just a few steps away. he swallowed thickly, and suddenly you could see how.. nervous he seemed to be?

“i have something to tell you,” he blurted out, his face flushing slightly in embarrassment.

“hm? what’s wrong, corio?” you asked softly. “are you guys running low on food again? i can start making more-” you started to say quickly, before he quickly cupped your cheek with a hand.

“that’s not what i wanted to talk about.” his voice was quiet, his nerves seeping through the words.

“..then what did you want to talk about?” now you were confused.

“i told you i had something to tell you. well.. i’m just going to outright say it. i like you.” he inhaled deeply, and it looked as if he was preparing himself for a rejection.

however, the opposite happened. you leaned forward, kissing his cheek softly. “i like you too, corio.”

coriolanus froze where he was. had he just heard you correctly? you liked him too. a sudden giddy feeling erupted in his stomach, a stupid smile on his face. “can i..”

he didn’t finish his question, as you kissed him softly, already knowing that had been what he wanted to ask. before you pulled away, you whispered a soft. “yes.”

#the ballad of songbirds and snakes #ballad of songbirds and snakes #the hunger games #hunger games #coriolanus fanfiction #coriolanus snow #coriolanus x reader #coriolanus x you #coriolanus snow x reader #corio snow #young coriolanus snow #coriolanus snow fluff #coryo snow #coryolanus snow

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Your post about "transitioning to escape gender but then there's more gender" has been rotating furiously in my mind since I saw it. When I first realized I was trans at age 15, I identified as agender, but I knew I wanted to go on T and get top surgery so I decided it would be simpler to tell everyone I was a trans man and that just kind of became the truth. Now 10 years later I'm sorta starting to feel like I wanna actually be agender again, but the idea of an identity shift like that at my current age is terrifying and idek who I'd tell, or how I'd do it, and I don't think I wanna stop using he/him exclusively, and I have no idea why I'm telling *you* this other than that I'm scared to talk to anyone I know about it because it feels like somehow admitting that I was wrong about the gender I fought like hell to become, even though i don't really think that's the case I think my sense of self might just be continuously evolving... but I just wanna say you talking about having a gender shift like once every several years is helping me process this rn and feel like I'm not faking anything now AND wasn't faking anything before.

Dog i am right there with you. As a kid I always thought gender was bullshit, the coercive nature of it disgusted and scared me and I rebelled against it the best that I could. I loathed being assigned to any gender category, I never identified as a "girl", but I didn't really identify with any other category either. Puberty terrified me (and of course, it does most young people, but it felt like it would only more deeply entrench the category that I was assigned to in other people's minds, it made it more difficult to escape). I had trans friends as a teen but it did not occur to me to transition because there was really no end goal that I wanted to head toward, I just knew what I wanted to avoid and not experience. I coped mostly by degendering my body with a fairly androgynous style and way of presenting myself to the word and mannerisms, but also by starving myself which was not so great, and not sustainable. I considered transness for myself, even trying on a friend's binder and presenting masculinely at certain queer events, but it seemed to me at the time like just another way in which to obsess over gender, a foolish coercive socially constructed thing that i was trying to avoid.

In my 20s, I learned more about nonbinary people and figured that explained things pretty well. I was enamored with the transition journeys of some other trans people, largely trans women more than trans masculine ones (with some trans-effeminate faggot boy exceptions), but I still didn't want to take on all the expense and uncertainty and hassle of navigating the medical system for myself. I didn't think that the pursuit of being happy merited taking on so many risks or fiddling with myself so much. I saw it as an extravagance I didn't deserve, I guess, and I also couldn't locate a target outcome that seemed desirable enough for me. I was still dealing with an eating disorder and recovering from some trauma and didn't really think about my life in the long term. I guess I still don't, haha, whoops.

Eventually I came out as nonbinary, and nobody really gave a shit. There is a lot of useless, solidarity-breaking discourse that happens online about essentially who is "more" oppressed, binary trans people or nonbinary people, and a lot of that fight amounts to the two groups shouting about the ways in which they annoy one another without there being any cogent analysis of power and where oppression comes from (let alone how much those two categories overlap).

But I will say that being a they/them was far more difficult than being a trans guy socially and institutionally, because your identity is completely illegible to every system around you. "binary" trans people struggle under this too, but i have found there are some immense benefits to having a socially and institutionally legible target gender. nobody would fucking actually they/them me. not anyone. not even other trans people and queer people. there were no public gendered spaces for me. there were no spaces for me. there was no way to move through the medical system, professional life, and other public institutions as a nonbinary person. i was still just a cis woman in everyone's eyes. including the people who claimed to support me. and it was massively frustrating.

and so i think ultimately, i took my frustrations with not being at all able to escape coerced gendering as a nonbinary person and combined that with the affinity i do feel for queer men and the general sense of misery i was still experiencing in my life and decided what the hell, i'll round myself up to being a trans guy. i upped my T dose, i dressed more masculinely, i eventually got a super masculine hair cut that really squared off my jawline and got me gendered correctly, and i started more consciously inhabiting queer men's spaces.

and it was pretty dope. for a while. i felt the rush of having gotten away with something. when people effortlessly gendered as male i felt freed at last from the pressure to be a woman. i was no longer being coerced into being something that i was not. i had escaped the enforced category so much that people couldn't even see the history of that category being pushed onto me. there was relief.

but then. as always happens. people made little comments about my handshake being too weak for a man. the hypermasc dudes at the leather bar rolled their eyes at me and all the other effeminate dudes swanning around the bar. the people who picked me up off the apps or at the sauna would always let it slip, eventually, that they had a lot of experience with trans guys, or had most recently been dating all trans guys, and it would make me feel like a stock character to them, yet another category into which all kinds of assumptions had been projected. a type not a person. a few people said my haircut made me look like i was in the military or described me as actually masculine, which was equally jarring because it was so incorrect. people tried to affirm me by saying i was such a dude, i was such a man, i was such a fag, i was such a gay bro, pawing all over me leaving the mark of all their assumptions and oversimplifications behind. i had tried to run away from gender and there i was just BASTING all the time in everybody's goddamn assumptions about gender. trans people didn't talk about it any less than cis people did, they were just as fucking confining to be around.

it honestly feels really dirty. when people try to affirm your gender constantly and can't stop talking about it, when people look past you and see only your body, your history, or the role they have typecast you in, when people use your body as an outlet for their own gender or sexuality explorations, when they keep trying to measure every single facet of existence up into being masculine or being feminine or being toppy or bottomy or any other gendered type, it's claustrophobic.

as a trans man i tried playing this whole gender game and the second i started winning i began to feel even more disgusted with myself. it wasn't a victory or an escape, it was a capitulation. exploring with my identity and presentation has brought positive things into my life and my health has gotten better as a result, and i've made wonderful friends who, like me, are disaffected by this coercive gendering system. so i don't regret any of that. but trying to make myself legible under the existing gendered system was a fool's fucking errand. i wish i hadnt done it to myself and i wish i hadnt had it pushed onto me. to be clear, it was cissexist, binarist society that forced it onto me; even when other queer people coated me in their gendered assumptions that is obviously a byproduct of societal conditioning, and it's conditioning that ive reinforced in my own behavior and outlook toward others plenty of times too. we all do it, and we are all wronged by the existing coercive gender system.

i dont even care how i fucking identify anymore and i have no intention of changing pronouns again or anything, i'm so bored of it, i just actually want off this fucking thing. im not interested in trying to make others understand what i am anymore or in who i am even being simply categorizable, i dont want to obsess anymore over how i am perceived or to attempt engineer my appearance and mannerisms to broadcast an identity to anyone. i dont even want to fuck anybody right now at all because im so sick of how much that's a gender pantomime for people. i want off this fuckin ride man im so done.

it's kind of freeing, to hit this point of complete gender apathy, and i think it is a pretty common stage of identity development for a lot of queer people who have explored multiple identities and roles over time. there is no category that i actually am, or that anyone is, there are just the frameworks that society has given us to work with to understand ourselves, and the ways in which we flatten who we are to be able to make sense of the world using those frameworks. but who i actually am is so much more contextual and mutable than all that. i am a different person in the classroom than i am on the train platform than i am in the bedroom than i am cuddling on the couch than i am when i'm working out than i am when curled up on the floor crying than i am at a big furry convention. who i am continues to change as new people come in and out of my life and age and change and my body alters and as the weather turns. who fuckin knows man it's nothing and everything. i want to let it just be

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akutasoda · 6 months

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Hii Akuta, me again ;3

I JUST HAVE AN IMPULSIVE THOUGHT OF ASKING U FOR BSD CHARACTERS WHEN S/O ASKS THEM IF THEY'D LOVE THEM I IF THEY WERE A WORM HAHA (dont judge me🥹)

Would like to ask for Ranpo, Fyodor and if its not too much then Yosano, Nikolai, Dazai, Chuuya, Atsushi, Akutagawa, Kōyō? (I think that its too much so if you decide to add more than Ranpo and Fyodor then not all of 'em if you don't feel like writing them all ALSO I UNDERSTAND ITS A LOT OF CHARACTERS-)

'what if i was a worm?'

synopsis - you pose them the age old question

includes - atsushi, dazai, yosano, ranpo, chuuya, koyo, akutagawa, fyodor, nikolai

warnings - gn!reader, crack, fluff??, wc - 614

a/n: hi <: !!! no amount of characters are too much!! hope your doing well!

'would you still love me if i was a worm?'

atsushi nakajima ★↷

point blank stare. he doesn't truly know how to respond considering he took it a bit too seriously and didn't want to say no in case it genuinely upset you. but then he figured out you were joking but still would say yes. he reckons that if you were to become a worm he would always allow you to be in his pocket on his shirt and he would look after you.

osamu dazai ★↷

he knew your tricks from the moment 'would you love-' came out your mouth. so with no hesitation he said no. a very enthusiastic no as he then proceeded to talk about how he wouldn't carry around a worm let alone take care of it. and still in serious he probably wouldn't take care of you if you were a worm. he'd think about it, considering it was you, but ultimately decide no.

akiko yosano ★↷

her initial reaction would be to slightly laugh but when she saw you still waiting for a response she said yes. while worms aren't exactly the most pleasant creatures, they still are living and therefore if the love of her life were to become one, of course she would. your still you no matter the form and therefore she would love you.

ranpo edogawa ★↷

you wouldn't even have to start speaking, you would just go something like 'hey ranpo' and he says no. you expect him to love you as a worm you would be sorely mistaken. sure he would love you now and perhaps if you were to become something else but worms, no. if anything he would recognise it as you and atleast try and keep you safe. no promises.

chuuya nakahara ★↷

just stares a little confused before saying that he wouldn't love you as a worm but still would deeply care for you. at the end of the day it would still be you but worms are... he doesn't quite know what to say. so perhaps hr would look after you but he would probably not actually live you, just care deeply.

koyo ozaki ★↷

she would initially be quite confused by the question and in the politest way she would say no. she would then elaborate on how she would try and look after you because it would be you still but she can tell you quite honestly she would never love a worm, only you. so if you were a worm her love would be dwindling.

ryunosuke akutagawa ★↷

another point blank starer. looks at you for just a second before saying no. he tells you that he wouldn't love you as a worm or even look after you. but you can tell that he would atleast try and keep you out of harm's way if you were truly to become a worm.

fyodor dostoevsky ★↷

'would you l-' no. he doesn't even acknowledge the question, just stating point blank that no he would not. he wouldn't care what you became, if you weren't you as you are now he wouldn't even take care of you. maybe he would try but ultimately decide not to. he's not even entertaining the question let alone entertaining the idea of loving you as a worm. and no amount of live he holds for you now could change that.

nikolai gogol ★↷

he was also immune to your tricks but his genuine answer would be yes. so what if you were a worm? sure you may lose quite a few qualities to yourself but it would still be you and he loves you! would tell you that he would constantly take you everywhere with him and you'd be his little worm buddy. he would love you regardless of your forn because again, it's still you in there.

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mandyvsfx · 1 year

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(Ethan Landry x F!Reader)

★Late Night Walk★

warnings: SMUT, p in v, oral sex(m!receiving), unprotected sex, kinda(?)public sex, subby Ethan.

(quickly reminder that english is not my first language, im deeply sorry if there are any grammatical errors on this!)

"Dude, this is getting awkward, you're gonna scare her off." Chad said after noticing the way Ethan was devouring you with his eyes.

"What? I don't know what you're talking about." The boy answered, shaking his head and looking down to the floor.

It was not a secret that Ethan had a huge crush on you ever since you moved to New York, despite all the effort he put into trying to hide it. Every now and then you would look at him just to realize he was already staring, looking away as soon as your eyes meet. It was honestly kinda cute.

"TARA, HE'S STARING AT ME AGAIN." You had to shout due to the loud music playing on the party.

"LOOK AT YOU, if I were him I would fall in love too. -The girl said playfully, winking and blowing you a kiss- You should make the first move, I think he's too shy to do anything." She finished the sentence, handing you a vodka shot.

"You only live once" You thought to yourself as you walked towards him. With each step, your heart skipped a beat.

Chad was still hyping Ethan up, telling him how hot he was and how you totally had a crush on him. (He was not wrong.)

"And now she's right behind you, See ya." Chad walked away, leaving the poor boy alone, how cruel.

"WHAT? WAIT. no, no no no no.- He turned to face you, trying to keep it cool.- Oh, hi! I didn't even notice you here, haha..."

His costume was goofy, at first you couldn't even tell what he was dressed up as. It looked like something a child would make out of boxes and crayons, however, he still managed to look good.

"So, are you enjoying the party?" You looked up at him, waiting for a response.

"What? I can't hear you!" Oh but he did, believe me, he heard you perfectly.

You grabbed his hand and walked out of the party. BINGO. That was his plan.

"Do you wanna go for a walk?" You asked.

He nodded. You let go of his hand and put yours into your pockets. The night was weirdly cold, you could feel the wind caressing your cheeks and blowing your hair.

After a few minutes of you two just walking in silence, he decided to say something.

"So, um, where are we going?.."

"Honestly? I have no idea." He laughed, but you wasn't joking.

"There's this... this garden I really like, would you wanna go there? -Ethan was looking at you, and at the same time, trying to avoid eye contact. As soon as you said yes, he let out a smile.- Ok! Just follow me, I know a shortcut."

A shortcut? In the middle of the night? ALONE with a boy? Nuh-uh, not after everything you went through in Woodsboro. But... He's just so cute, trustable, irresistible. You would walk barefoot on fire if it meant you'd get to be with him. There's something about this brown haired boy that just pulls you towards him like a magnet. "Fuck it." You did as you were told, just followed him.

When you realized, you two were in the middle of an alleyway.

"Um, Ethan, are you sure this is safe?.." After that, he suddenly stopped walking and walked in front of you, looking in your eyes for a few seconds. At this moment, you felt your whole body shivering.

That was it, the magnet had finally pulled you in completely. You caught yourself exploring his mouth with your tongue while your hands travelled from his cheeks to his hair, from his hair to his abs...

You had no idea of how an innocent walk to the garden became a make out session out in an alleyway for anyone to see, but you didn't really care.

Ethan didn't know where to put his hands, he was so scared to touch you and so needy for it at the same time. He needed to feel you, all of you, every single part of your body.

He broke the kiss to catch his breath, soon interlacing your lips again.

"You don't need to be scared, I want you, Ethan. Please just touch me..." That was enough to drive him crazy, all of a sudden he wasn't that little shy boy anymore.

"What if we get caught?" He asked, almost returning to his normal self again.

"Don't worry, let's pretend no one else exists. It's only the two of us now."

You pressed your body against his, imediately feeling the growth under his pants, and 'accidentaly' moved your hips, causing him to let out a small whine.

The sound sent shivers down your spine and motivated you to keep going. You could feel he wanted more, it was like you two were connected by some kind of force or energy.

He placed his hand on your waist and pulled you even closer to him, this time you were the one making noises. He once again broke the kiss, just to look at your eyes. The way you looked so needy for him, so eager for what was to come, everything about this moment was just perfect. He wished he could stay in there forever.

You gave him one last small kiss on the lips and placed him against the wall, slowly placing gentle kisses on his neck, going further down until you were on your knees.

You found yourself looking at the boy with a pleading face while unzipping his pants and taking his lenght out of his boxers. It was so big, even more than what you expected. You looked up again to ask for permission, he whined a small "yes..." He has such pretty eyes, and the noises he's making... You wonder if you even deserve to be able to touch this man.

What is taking you so long? He's desperate, he NEEDS this, were you trying to tease him or something? How unfair.

You licked his hard member and gave it a little kiss, that was enough for him to become a moaning mess. You took half his lenght in your mouth, stroking the rest of it with your left hand while you squeezed your tits with the right one to find your own pleasure.

"Please... -That was the only thing he managed to let out, mind going fuzzy.- Please, let me fuck you."

"Oh? But we are just getting started, are you that desperate for me?"

"mhm..."

"Use your words, Ethan."

"Yes, yes. Please... wanna... be inside of... you."

How could you resist? huh? He was just so cute begging like this, being such a good boy.

You layed on top of the first thing you found. Ethan was impatient, he pulled off your pants and tore off your favorite red panties. You were too entertained to care anyway.

Without a warning, he slipped the tip into your hole, waiting for you to adjust yourself so that he could insert the rest of him inside of you.

"I'm ready." You said in order for him to start moving.

He just fit in so good, hitting just the right places, you knew you were going to feel empty when he wasn't there anymore.

"You feel so good..." He praised.

You took one of his hands and put it on your breasts, his other one was gripping your hips so hard that you could tell there was gonna be a bruise in the morning.

His moans and praises were sending you over the edge, he looked so pretty with his hair wet from sweat and eyes shut. He is quite vocal, he wants you to know you're making him feel good. He also likes to know HE is making you feel good, all the praising and affirmations, oh god.

It didn't take long for his pace to get faster, rougher, less passionate and more desperate. His grip on your hips got tighter, would hurt a bit but you could care less.

You put your arms around his neck and crossed your legs around him, pulling him closer. You felt a knot forming in your stomach, knowing that soon you would collapse.

"Please, love, faster."

He obeyed. You never felt this amount of pleasure, it was too much, it was overwhelming.

With one last thrust, you found your release, squeezing around and sucking him in even deeper. All those feelings mixed together made him soon find his release too.

His hot seed filled you, painting your walls with the color white. That was when you remembered.

"Oh. My. God. We forgot the condom."

"Shh, we can take care of that later." He said while taking his member out of you, gently placing a kiss on your cheek.

He helped you clean and dress yourself up, every now and then giving you sloppy kisses.

You two got dressed and walked back to the party like nothing happened, thinking no one would ever suspect of anything... but oooh they did.

YALL SORRY IF THIS IS LONG OR BAD THIS IS MY FIRST TIME WRITING SMUT.

hope you guys liked it!<3

#ethan landry x reader #ethan landry #ghostface #ghostface x reader #ethan landry smut #ghostface smut #scream #scream 6 #scream smut

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shuuuuush · 10 months

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NOT ENOUGH [Niko]

Summary: Niko had been ignoring you for a few weeks, and this wasn't the first time you decided to confront him.

Warnings: angst (warning bc I usually don't write angst yet here we are 🤟)

A/N: YESS HAHA MY FIRST ANGST AND FOR MY BBY TOO , honestly just went with the flow when writing this hope yall like it ;_;

When you first dated Niko, everything felt like a dream. You were both deeply in love with each other, and you would spend almost, if not all, of your time with one another.

Whether that would be going out to spend time with each other, visits to places, or just being near each other while watching a movie and eating snacks.

One memory you won't ever forget was when Niko first kissed you. It felt like the ending of a romance movie honestly, everything with him was just so perfect.

You loved this relationship so much, and you were sure Niko did, too. You would do anything for him.

But now, you weren't sure he would anymore.

The past few months, you've tried to overlook everything.

Maybe he was tired.

Maybe he just wanted to relax after being so busy all the time.

He's been pushing you away for a few weeks, and then when you ask about it, he suddenly avoids the topic and acts all lovey again. Apologising and then buying you gifts to suppress all the questions.

You thought at first when this happened, it would all go back to normal again.

But then the cycle repeated.

Pushing you away for a while and then coming back only for apologies and gifts and then pushing you away again.

What was going on with him?

The man you remembered and fell in love with, would yes be a bit busy but he loved you, would spend most of his time with you and never would have let you felt ignored or less than what you are.

Sometimes you would get into fights, asking him why he was ignoring you and not there most of the time, you understand that he's a YouTuber obviously he's busy but you only need a bit of his time.

You don't want to disappear fully from his life.

And you sure as hell hope he doesn't want you to leave either.

He would brush it off, apologise, and kiss you. Sometimes, throw in a gift there, and you would be ok, for a couple of days, contacting each other and then it happens all over again.

You put so much effort into making things right with him, keeping the relationship happy and reestablishing things after a fight.

You never lost hope that Niko would come back, and be his usual self, the one that you fell in love with.

But honestly, you were getting tired now. Hope used to burn in your heart, strong, feeling as if you could take on any challenge with him.

But now that fire was dwindling, almost to the point of extinction.

Needing to know whether that fire in your heart should be extinguished forever or reignited, you decided to arrange to talk with Niko.

This time, you aren't going to accept all those simple apologies and kisses. You needed to be firm, and you wanted to make sure of one thing.

If he really truly still loved you.

You arranged to meet up at his house, since that would be the most comfortable, and he wouldn't be able to come up with some excuse to ignore this conversation since he lived there.

Walking up to his door, you rang the doorbell, and you took a deep breath, trying to calm your nerves, as you didn't know what was going to happen.

Of course, you wanted things to go well in the end. But realistically, was that going to happen? Did you prepare your heart for heartbreak? The answer is no. No you didn't. But if the truth needed to come out then so be it, you needed to know.

The door swung open, and you were greeted with the face of the man you loved, Niko. Briefly observing him before you walked in, his hair was dishevelled, and he was in his classic NDL hoodie and sweatpants.

Clearly, you were overdressed for this casual meet-up that you knew he thought this was.

He moved out of the way, holding the door open for you to enter. And you walked inside, you took off your shoes and put your jacket on the coat rack. You wanted to at least be respectful.

You both walked over to the couch and sat down on it. Niko turned to you while you still faced forward.

"So what did you want to meet up for?" He asked, looking at you.

"Can I not just meet up with my boyfriend? Why do I have to have a reason." You looked down at your feet, not making eye contact. You needed to talk to him about this problem, so why can't you get the courage right now?

"Well, obviously you can, but it is a bit strange."

Taking a deep breath, you turned to him, finally making eye contact. He then looked surprised as he could see in your eyes the firmness and seriousness. He could now tell that this wasn't just a casual meet-up. It was serious.

"Niko. These past few months have honestly been insane. Our relationship is falling apart, and I don't know if you can see it." You decided to be straight up and tell him. It was hurting you to beat around the bush.

"Every time I try and contact you, you either ignore me for a few weeks or apologise simply, and then we're alright for a couple days, and then the whole cycle of ignoring me happens again. Niko, what is going on?"

At that last part, your voice starts to break.

You didn't care if you looked desperate.

You were tired of all this.

Niko sighed, running a hand through his curly hair. He started to speak but then he cut himself off, looking away.

You placed a hand on his shoulder, making him turn to look at you. You used to understand him, his eyes would explain everything to you, or even the slightest twitch of his mouth you would be able to understand.

But now you just can't read him at all, it's almost like there was no emotion, nothing to be read.

He faked a laugh, one you knew wasn't real, and he took your hands into his, "Y/N, come on. You know I've got a lot to do these days. I'm sorry, come here." He leaned in towards you, but you pushed him away, earning a shocked look from Niko.

In his mind, did you just reject a kiss?

You backed away into the couch, crossing your arms. Clenching your jaw, you were starting to get annoyed at the situation. You looked directly into his eyes.

"No kisses, no gifts, no amount of "sorrys" can make up for this. These lost moments, Niko."

Saying words like these to Niko, although true, started slowly cracking your almost heart.

"I'm sick of patiently waiting for you when you won't even arrive," feeling hot tears start to develop at the back of your eyes. You tried to blink them away to look strong in front of him, "I feel that you're not even trying in this relationship anymore."

"Y/N, I've tried, honest, I've tried to get us back together to be happy again like we were." He tried to hold your hands, but you pushed it away.

"But it wasn't enough, was it?"

"Please just-"

"No, Niko. No. I've given you so many chances, and you blew it all."

This time, you couldn't hold in the tears. The strength to do it had crumbled. And you let them fall.

"I want a partner who can actually be there for each other. All I wanted was a bit of your time. Now it's hopeless, and honestly, I'm losing my mind, Niko."

Seeing you cry like this stabbed Niko in the heart, the first time seeing you cry in front of him, and he hated it.

He hated that he was the cause of you crying.

But what could he do?

Did you even want to be with him anymore?

"Y/N..." His brows lowered and his lips thinned into a straight line. He held a hand out to you but then retracted it, not knowing whether or not you wanted to be hugged right now.

He ended up pulling you into a hug, resting his chin on top of your head, as you cried out into his chest.

You let him hug you because in this state you were in right now, you couldn't think straight.

"Please just give me one more chance." He whispered, his voice so quiet you would only be able to hear it if you were an inch away from him.

After your tears felt like they flooded all out, you breathed in and let yourself go from Nikos' grasp.

Looking for answers in his eyes, you told him, "Niko, please don't play with my heart right now. Don't lie to me. Tell me the truth."

"I need to know, do you still love me?"

His breath hitched in his throat, eyes roaming yours, "I..." and then he nodded, "I do love you."

You didn't believe him. Why would he hesitate if he truly loved you? You could see it in his eyes. He didn't have the same love, the same fire as you both did before.

Standing up, looking at him one last time, you headed towards the door, putting on your shoes and jacket.

"Y/N, where are you going?" Niko swiftly ran up beside you while you were getting your things and held his hands out in confusion.

"Goodbye, Niko."

Turning to leave through the door, you could hear his protests behind you.

But you ran to your car and started it, reversing out of his driveway. You saw Niko in your side mirror trying to catch up to your car.

Halfway on the road back to your place, you pondered the situation, a lump in your throat developing, and your eyes became itchy.

You thought you made the right decision?

So why does your heart hurt?

Why were you crying?

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raspberryslushie · 1 year

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When You're Scared

Ft. Xiao, Wanderer, and Kazuha x gn! reader (Separate)

Warnings: crying 😔, cringe, freaking tf out. I didn't pre-plan this on a doc either, so it's kinda weird and messy to read idk. I kinda also messed up on pacing but it came out in a whim so WTV HAHA

Wanderer is referred to by his old alias, Scaramouche, since wanderer is more comfortably said as "the wanderer," but thats kinda wacky so i just got lazy and used scaramouche instead LMAO

Prompt: How would they comfort you in your times of need?

Xiao

He probably came in out of nowhere and scared you more than whatever else u were worried about before

Teleports in the second he hears ur sniffling tho

questions u in all caps, bold, and italics irl

The second he realizes that interrogating you probably wasn't gonna help, he sits the both of you down and stares. for like half an hour.

Xiao doesn't know how to react when you suddenly cling onto his shirt and cry into his shoulder.

But it doesn't matter how long it takes for him to calm you down, because even if he's inexperienced, he'd do anything to make u happy again

Hands shaking and clenching into fists so tight to the point where your nails were digging deeply into your skin to the point of numbing, you felt a scream begging to tear itself out of your throat. But when those sobs of terror found themselves out, they sounded of something desperate, and you weren't the only one who heard.

"What's wrong?" A rough hand pulled against your arm and made you face the person in question, who was unsurprisingly stoic, weapon already out to fight off whatever might've been troubling you. Yet when you look into his eyes, they're frantic and scouring your form for even the tiniest of cuts. After all, Xiao promised the world that under his watch, none would do you harm. And as an adeptus, it was his duty to protect mortals who couldn't defend themselves.

But Xiao didn’t realize what was bothering you at first, because in his eyes, there was little to be afraid of when nothing else was in the room, yet the gods had sent down demons that even he couldn't conquer: your own mind. Even so, with you by his side he learned how to comfort someone without a spear in the moment that your body leaned against his, warm arms hugging around his torso tightly. What comes first from him is an awkward gasp that sounded like something between a yelp and a hiccup, but then you feel a series of gentle pats on your back, and soon the yaksha finds himself softening into your hug. It's comforting because maybe Xiao doesn't exactly mind the prospect of loving you like this after all.

Wanderer

probably isn't as sensitive to these types of things as Xiao or Kazuha might be

wonders who might be bothering you once he finally notices the tears rolling down your cheeks.

threatens u to tell him

pretends like he doesnt care

secret hugs at night or in private, because he's really just shy

"Who hurt you?" Scaramouche stared you dead in the eyes, refusing to back down.

"No one! Archons, would you just leave me alone!" You hardly ever talked back to him so aggressively, and it’s at that moment when he finally realizes that you were scared, because once you brought up the idea of leaving him, he knew he felt the same as you did right then.

But Scaramouche knew no other way of hushing you up than to bring you close and smother you in his embrace because with how tightly his arms were wrapped around you, it might've been lethal. Once he finally does let go, it takes you a few moments to catch your breath. The second you look at him though, his expression has you in a chokehold. The boy wept for you.

He wasn't someone who felt too strongly about anything, no, and would rather end his own existence than openly admit his feelings, but how could he bear your tears? Abandonment left its marks on him enough times to dread the day you would too, leave him, and even if you hated Scaramouche for how he seemed to not care for any human decency, there was nothing he wouldn't do to keep your smile.

That night it took everything in you to try and act as if you were deep in slumber once Scaramouche made his way to your room. You felt him sit atop the bed before dragging the sheets across his form and pressing your back flush against his chest. Slender arms were covering your body protectively, and the entire night was spent by him mumbling quiet “I love you”’s until he fell asleep, face red hot and snuggled in your shoulder.

Kazuha

He knows fear as an emotion well, and knows you as a person just as well, too.

100% sure of what’s wrong and what you need bc he pays more attention to you than anything else.

If you’re in public and don’t want to be seen, he’d take his arm with the long sleeve and cover you with that and his body while you walk home.

Picks up take-out or makes you his own dishes once you get him.

Hugs and kisses irl please make out with me /hj

“Are you alright, love?” Kazuha puts an arm around your shoulder before looking down at you.

“Y-yeah, fine Kazuha.” Lies. And Kazuha knew that well enough to end your excursion early to head home. The city streets were crowded by festival times, and he was willing to leave early for your sake.

“No, you’re not,” He covered your face with his sleeve and guided the two of you away from prying eyes. “Let’s get back, the evening air is beginning to mellow out.” The rest of the walk home is wordless, aside from a few muffled sniffs and cries, but Kazuha made the panic drown out in the soothing winds that whipped around your hair.

By the time you got home, your heart had already found itself back at normal pace, and Kazuha laid you down on a blanketed mat. But you got up anyway to follow him while he cooked, for the sake of “company”. (He knew that you really just wanted to stay near him).

The rest of the night you ate together in private, and as much as you tried to apologize for breaking down in the middle of your outing, he didn't listen into any of it, relentlessly pecking your cheek with kisses in his own way of telling you that it was all alright.

That night Kazuha actually had more trouble sleeping than you, for he was out past midnight scribbling down all the words he found himself fond of in the wilderness. One by one, the lines and rhymes flowed together, until you wake up the next morning to the smell of fried fish and a piece of paper on the nightstand that told you all the words he couldn’t last night.

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bronx-bomber87 · 2 months

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Good evening Fandom :) Gonna try and be more concise and mini this time haha Wasn’t so mini last time. Imma really try LOL Also the gif library just refuses to pull anything that's new and its driving me nuts. Guess all the pretty gifs will have to wait till summer when the library gets it's act together and I can be more in depth. LOL This is supposed to mini anyways. I'll do my best to make this brief but impactful haha This is a new gear for me.

6x02 The Hammer

Their first interaction is fraught af. Tim is radiating hurt still not that I blame him. He is trying to sweep it under the rug but the man is hurting. I do love Lucy trying to let him know not how healthy communication works. heh She's not wrong. You know I was so Tim in this moment before therapy. Surprise surprise right?

Deeply hurt but when it gets brought up I shirked it off. Try to put it in a box and bury it. Lucy is right it’s not healthy. But he isn’t in the place to receive that right now. I do love her saying they have stuff to talk about if she ever goes under. Yes.... yes you do. Lucy seems to have calmed down at this point and Tim isn’t there yet…

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Lucy getting roped into the ring thing LOL Their tension is immediate as they sandwich Angela in their fight. Angela is the fandom as she watches them bicker. My goodness not hiding how they feel whatsoever….Tense af while they’re fighting. Could cut it with a knife. Sniping at each other. Tim saying he knew she wasn't really over it.

Which kills my 'calmed down' theory for Lucy haha Even though they're at odds Tim still offers his help because it's his girl. Lucy saying she will accept it even if she doesn’t need it. These two.. Angela's final words had me laughing. Wanting to come and enjoy their fight with popcorn. Tim saying she’s not funny on the way out hahaha Not in the mood for his bestie either.

Love Lucy reaching out to touch him and make a joke bout Hammer's real name. Tim full of sass asking if he can finish? Well I never Timothy. LOL He has a warrant out and it’s outstanding that'll make this easy.... Even worse he loves to fight cops. Oh boy. Ladies first lmfao oh Tim I love you so. Putting his hand on her back. She’s smiling though.

OMG I can’t believe Tim tried to get her to fight the Hammer. My love no.... Her argument is solid af that she has to look amazing. That no one cares what he looks like. I mean I care what he looks like but it’s true she needs to look hot at haha Tim caving because well it's Lucy. Like fighting the sun right now. heh Lucy telling him he’s got this. Oh my lord it's so cute.

Lucy wanting to jump in but Tim stops her. My heart. He’s getting his ass kicked at first oof. Tim launching off the bed to kick Hammer into the closet. Holy shit that was sexy. I hope this fight gets gif'd it was great. He wins though. Well done Tim that was fine as hell. Got my motor revving.

Oh my goodness him bending on one knee and looking at her. The looks are LOADED here. Especially on Lucy's end. Getting me all in my feels goodness. Especially Lucy’s face. Myriad of emotions going on there. Foreshadowing at it's finest Oh my. I have a feeling when do the summer review I'll have a novel on this. Tim passes the hell out shortly after. Getting asthma attack just looking at him.

Love the set up girls night/boys night and their talk bout their relationship. Celina asking Lucy to have less baking at her party HA! Naww love Celina thinking in those terms. Lucy saying that's way off. Seeming worried it’s not in their future. Heart clutch. Adore this back and forth between Lucy and Tim at the parties LOVING Chastity telling Lucy like it is. Calling her out really. Even she can see it. I mean feel like Lucy is scared and just won't back down from this path.

It's not just Tim. It's her too but she is digging her heels in. I can’t say I don’t agree with Tim on the projection. Lucy using Isabel as an excuse for that. I think she is using it more than he is IMO at this point in time. She usually is right on the money with Tim. This time doesn't feel like it. Almost as if she’s using Isabel as a scape goat for being scared more so than Tim. Lucy saying she’s fine. Lying liar my love lying liar.

Poor Tim wanting to show he’s not the problem my love. That he's not the only one. There is clearly still a lot to sort through for them. This scene is proof of that. Lucy gets a call from Tim to meet at the station. This has to be the lie detector test. Harper telling her to run I was dying.

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How cute is Tim in his black shirt all wired up for her? I'm dying how precious it was. The way she crosses the room sweet lord. Eyeing her prey. She basically is straddling his thigh. Imma pass out. Getting as close as she can to him. Basically hugging his thigh with hers. I’m getting hot under the collar already. She is so ready to ask him anything but UC questions to start this off. Clearly wanting to ask him specific things on her mind since he's hooked up to the machine.

The bug question LMAO. The most Tim and Lucy thing ever. Of course that man doesn't release the bugs haha. Very her to ask him to do it though. God this was so cute I cannot. Small little insight to their relationship we don't usually get to see.

Then she went right after it with asking if he loves her? A question I think has been weighing on her mind for awhile. Knowing she can immediately see if he's lying. Gah look at him light up. The way he leans into her. Reminding of his posture in 5x09 when he asked her out again. Just as serious now as he was then. Saying he loves her ugh my heart. Our big softie in action in this moment.

Lucy couldn’t be happier with this answer. Same look she got whenever he complimented her in the past. They be beaming everyone. Then he get’s a big fact lie with the UC question crap. Now I feel this isn't fair. Because the man LIVES to support her but he is a struggle bus about this path. To me that 'lie' wasn't because he doesn't support her. To me just those damn demons that won't rest for him.

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Tim looking fine af. Looking for his girl of courses sigh. Cool cool cool fun angsty glances. Damn you gif library was primo angsty looks. Even though they’re sitting next to each other it’s the most physical distance seen between them really in ever. Yeah their arms are touching but not much else. More angsty looks between them at the reception. Gah they’re intense as hell.

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Tim coming to find her my heart. Being the one to break the distance. Asking her to dance and confronting this issue. So proud of him and what he tells her. What a man. He's owning the trauma he still carries. Which is HUGE for him. Lucy thanking him and saying they'll make it through. I love this. Always love us touching back on. 'Unless it is.' moment. Because yeah this is hard but they're worth it and they continually see that and show it.

Now do I love it squarely being just on Tim this UC Fight? No I don't. I do think she is still having doubts but love him laying it out there. I think the issue's Lucy is having just haven't been confronted yet. Their fight from 6x01 was about Tim's issues for most part. Her's were for sure in there just not as prominently. I'm hopeful we touch on her's later this season.

This still feel unresolved to me and imbalanced. Especially now that Tim has admitted some fault to their problems as of late. I feel like I have a really good grasp on these characters. To me my gut is telling me Lucy is scared, having doubts, worried about a long term assignment. What it'll mean for them. Her side of it still needs to be delved into. 5x20-5x21 shook her more than she is letting on. Truly think this just hasn't been explored yet. Because they both have things to resolve with this career choice.

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Also wanna note in this lovely scene. Lucy has her hands all over her him and I’m about it my god. The intimate swaying and leaning into each other. That magnetic force of their's bringing them back together. Their bodies relaxing for the first time in this entire episode. Just happy to be near one another. They're glowing when they come back together in this moment.

Gah their chemistry is out of this world. Her hand on the back his head too phew lord and we get a return ILY. *heart clutch* Lucy's eyes searching his face hoping her saying as such soothes his wounds a little. The cute lie detector line I cannot. It’s was so precious. Their smiles have me on cloud 9. Couldn't be more in love if these two tried. *happy sigh*

Lucy and Tim leading the charge hot damn they pretty. Tim in formal wear and his badge? Lord help me. Phew this was a HEFTY one. So many things to sort through. Like I said in my OG post these are first thoughts. Should be interesting to see how they change come summer and we're in the hiatus.

Thank you to everyone who liked the premiere post. These are a different gear for me glad they're liked ha Imposter Syndrome is real ya'll lol Feel free to comment your thoughts I love chatting about them and this season best part of going through it together for first time. See you all next week!

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Side notes-non Chenford

Lmao the cold open. Daddy cop was always a fav one of mine.

Hey Henry is back sorta. ha

Love Luna checking in on Aaron. Then having a little ptsd poor love.

Oscar is back too LOL

‘Miss Cleo' nickname LMAO

Poor Aaron having a rough time of it. I was worried he was leaning on Celina too much tbh. Also that kiss yikes my man yikes...

#Caitlin's Mini Reviews #chenford #s6 #6x02 The Hammer #the rookie 6x02 #otp: doing my job #otp: you know me so well. too well.#otp: some things matter more #otp: you did good #otp: you're nothing like him.#otp: unless it is #tim x lucy #tim bradford #lucy chen #the rookie #lucy x tim #eric winter #melissa o'neil

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perfectlywrongformend3s · 9 months

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I miss you, I’m sorry-Conrad Fisher

A/n: I have fallen deeply in love with Conrad so except a lot for him. Haha!

Song: I miss you, I'm sorry

Written: Gracie Abrams

-Samantha

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Your POV

'Do you remember happy together? I do, don't you? Then all of a sudden you're sick to your stomach, Is that still true?'

I was on my bed looking at all the pictures Conrad and I took together. All I could think about was how much I miss him and wish I could hold him again. I heard a knock on my bedroom door which made me let out a sigh.

" Come in." I said

Belly walked in and sat next to me. She pulled me in for a hug which made me brake down. She rubbed my back trying to calm me down.

" Why doesn't he want me Belly?" I whimpered out

" Y/n/n, you know he loves you, he's..."

I lifted my head to give her a small glare. " If you loved me, he wouldn't have broken my heart." She sighed. " Y/n, what I'm trying to say is he probably did it for a reason. You know he's been going through a hard time."

I just fell back on my bed with tears still running down my face. I saw Belly get up to leave.

'You said."forever" in the end I fought it. Please be honest, are we better for it? Thought you'd hate me, but instead you called, And said, " I miss you" I caught it.'

'Flashback'

I was watching Conrad pace around the kitchen. I didn't understand why he was stressed out. He never really tells me anything.

" Connie, what's wrong?" I asked concerned

He turned around and said...

" I think we should break up."

I looked at him with my jaw dropped, " What?" I said shaky

I was trying my best not to cry. He looked perfectly fine while I was trying not to break down. " I just have a lot going on and I don't want to drag you down with me." He said

" But you said " forever" Don't you love me?" I whispered

He took a shaky breath. " OfCourse I love you. I just don't think I'm in the right mindset for a relationship."

'Present'

I couldn't help but pick up the phone. I wanted to hear his voice so bad. Before I could push his contact I saw his name pop up on my screen. I immediately picked it up.

" Connie?" I said softly

All I heard was his breathing. " Are you okay?"

" I miss you." He whispered super low but I could still hear it. Before I could respond the phone beeped telling me the call ended. I felt like crying again, just from hearing his voice.

'Good to each other, give it the summer, I knew, you too, But I only saw you once in December, I'm still confused'

'Flashback'

I was lying on the pool chairs trying my best to rest, but felt wet droplets land on me. I opened my eyes to find Conrad. I smiled up at him, which had him smiling. He leaned down to kiss my lips.

'Present'

Just thinking of that memory brought back how much fun we had together. All I wish to have Conrad back . But then thinking about summer was getting me thinking about how he barely showed up for the winter. He only ever showed up at my house once through the whole season. I wished he showed up more to visit me.

'You said," forever" and I almost bought it, I miss fighting in your apartment, Breaking dishes when you're disappointed, I still love you, I promise, nothing happened in the way I wanted, Every corner of this place this haunted, And I know you said that we're not talking, But I miss you, I'm sorry.'

'Flashback'

I was in the kitchen of the beach house just messing around on my phone when I heard someone walk in. I looked up to find my boyfriend. I gave him a smile, but all I got back was a glare. I got confused and carefully asked...

" Did I do something, babe?"

Conrad just shook his head. He then went to grab a cup but it slipped and landed on the floor. We both flinched when the glass made contact with the floor. I immediately went to help, but he grabbed my wrist. " No, I don't want you to get hurt." He mumbled

I nodded and watched him walk away to get something to clean the glass up.

'Present'

I wanted to call him and tell him I miss him too, but he told me to never speak to him again. But it's not like I'm breaking it. He did it first. I pushed on his contact letting it ring. I then hung up because he normally answers on the second ring. I placed my phone on my chest and started thinking about why he would break up with me.

'Everywhere I go leads me back to you, I don't wanna go, think I'll make it worse, Everything I know brings me back to us, I don't wanna go, we've been before, Everywhere I go leads me back to you.'

I was back on my phone when Steven barged in my room. " All right, get up!" He stated

I looked at him. " Um, no!"

He then walked over to me. " Don't make me drag you."

I groaned and got up. " Where are we even going Steven."

He shrugged, " I'm just trying to get you out of the house."

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We've been driving for about an hour already and everything is making me think of Conrad. Without Steven knowing I grabbed my phone and texted him.

I miss you so much It hurts. And I'm sorry for still having feelings for you. You don't have to respond, but I'm just letting you know. I also never stopped loving you.

I hit send before eI could regret it. I then just tried to enjoy the ride with my brother.

Conrad's POV

I heard my phone buzz and when I picked it up I was shocked to find a text from her. I thought she hated me ever since the break up. Reading her message brought back those feelings that never seem to go away.

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Okay, I'm not sure if I like this one. There's just something about it. But if you like it please let me know or if you have any feedback let me know. Thank you so much again for reading. Please enjoy!!

-Samantha

#conrad fisher #conrad #conrad fisher x reader #conrad fisher x y/n #conrad fisher x you #Conrad fisher x #conrad fisher fanfic #conrad fisher angst #conrad fisher imagine #mine #angst

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peterman-spideyparker · 2 years

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Congratulations on 2K!!! It’s an astounding achievement and you absolutely deserve it! Your writing is next level, literally every single one is a hit, and I’m consistently surprised and delighted and your ideas, your creativity, and how well you write Matt! Your writing is basically canon to me, it feels like I’m just getting extra exclusive content 💖💖💖

To celebrate with Matty, may I request the prompt: being proposed to and saying no at first because they don’t think they’re worthy, but their lover convinces them that they are, and they say yes…. Dealers choice on who’s doing the proposing and who’s running away!

Babes🥰💜😭 you're so so sweet, and I love you so so much!!! I have gone through three versions of this because I couldn't decide who should do the proposing and who should the the proposed to, and this was just so incredibly fun to write!! I also came up with a word the internet says "isn't real", so that was fun, haha. I hope you enjoy💜💜💜💜

Loving You is Easy (Matt Murdock x Reader)

Matt knew it was love early into your relationship.

It had been a Thursday night. Matt had asked you to stay over at his place, not wanting you to go back to your apartment late after a quaint little dinner date that he cooked. You had stayed the night before, but Matt had always stayed with you, either too worn from your activities or wanting to just have a quiet night in, absorbed by the softness of your skin and the shampoo that lingered in your hair. You knew about his little secret, and you had taken it in stride, never once faltering and always ready to help patch him up if he swung by your place after a night out, letting him talk and cry when he needed to, never pushing him and giving him space when he needed it. You always insisted on waiting up for him. Yes, he didn’t like that you lost out on sleep for him, but he loved how deeply you cared and wanted to help. That night, though, you weren’t sitting up with a book or your crochet hook or a streaming service on your laptop. Rather, you were laying down, curled up in the silk sheets and one of his Columbia t-shirts, your breath rising and falling at a slow, even pace.

You fell asleep waiting for him.

A silent chuckle escaped out of his nose and the Devil gave an angelic smile. He moved around his apartment carefully to not wake you, but he heard you stir in the sheets despite his efforts.

“Matt?” you asked groggily as you pull yourself from sleep. “That you? D’you need help?”

“I’m okay, angel,” he assured you as he moved to take off his suit. “Just go back to sleep.”

You hummed out a sleepily defiant “nuh uh” and sat up in the bed, letting the sheets fall down to your lap as you rubbed your eyes. “You sure?”

“It was a quiet night in the Kitchen,” he reassured you, moving to press a kiss in your hair. “Not even a tiny cut that needs stitching.”

“Anything need to be kissed better?” you joked, happily humming at his touch.

“Well, I’d never say no to your lips on me.”

“Then get out of that thing and come here.”

He agreed with a smile, moving out to the living room to put the Devil suit in its trunk. When he returned, you were lying down again in bed.

“Sorry your side is warm,” you said as he crawled into the sheets next to you, pressing a loud kiss to his neck that pulled a chuckle from his throat. “Your pillow felt so nice, and it smells like you.”

A sweet smile pulled the corners of Matt’s lips up as he wrapped his arms around you.

Yeah, he loved you.

“It’s okay, angel. It’s perfect.”

You were the first one to say I love you, though. You weren’t even together face to face when you said it—it had just slipped out when you were leaving Matt a message.

“Hey, hon,” the voice message started. “I, uh . . . Um.” There was a nervous, completely bubbly laugh that provided a break in your words. “I don’t know what I wanted to say. I guess I just want you to know I’m thinking about you, and I miss you.” He heard you take a breath, muttering This is such a silly message away from the speaker. “Bye, Matty. I love you.”

His heart nearly flung out of his chest when he heard your voice form those three words. He immediately saved it to his phone, listening to it over and over. It’s his favorite thing to listen to because not only could he listen to your voice for anything and everything, but because he could hear the love and deep affection that added such a wonderful warmth to your words; it reminded him of his favorite Columbia sweatshirt—an article of his clothes that has become your favorite, too.

But the moment that he knew he wanted to marry you came when you both were working from home one day; neither of you had really seen each other in weeks other than in passing or for brief moments in the morning as you bolted out of the apartment. Unfortunately, your schedules didn’t allow for you to take a day off, but this was the next best thing—neither one of you having to worry about rushing to work or where the mate to that other shoe was. You had given Matt the couch and coffee table to spread his files out on while you sat curled up in one of the chairs, Matt having placed the plaid blanket around your shoulders to protect you from the draft coming from the large windows. Deep in his work, he heard you get up and shuffle over to him, draping the blanket around his back and shoulders, pressing a kiss to the crown of his head before you walked to the bedroom, throwing on an extra layer and going to closet to grab a thinner, scratchier spare for yourself before you resumed your work. As soon as he felt the familiar fabric wrap around his body that engulfed him with the pure scent of you in the gesture of your love, he knew that he wanted to be yours forever. The very next day, he asks Foggy to run an errand with him.

“Is it shiny?” Matt asks after running his fingers over the ring.

“Very,” Foggy says. “And way out of your price range. You’ve got expensive taste, my friend.”

Matt sighs, handing it back to the jeweler.

“She deserves something so perfect, and I can’t give it to her,” Matt breathes, his voice small and defeated as he hangs his head slightly.

“That’s bullshit and you know it,” Foggy counters. “Not that’s she deserves something fantastic. The part that you can’t give it to her.”

“Fog—.”

“Matt, you know (Y/N) better than you know yourself, and the same is true for the other way around. You two give everything of yourselves to each other, and you always push to give more. You are meant for one another; you’re just excited and nervous and anxious because you want this to be right. I’m pretty sure you could give her twine and a Ring Pop and she’d say yes.” Foggy claps a hand over Matt’s shoulder in a reassuring manner. “Just take a deep breath and think. What does she like? What does some of her jewelry feel like?”

Matt takes a moment to recall the feeling of the precious metal that he has encountered with his fingers and his lips that grace your body with loving reverence time and time again. He thinks back to this morning, the feeling of your hand sliding down his cheek and neck as you have him a kiss before you left for work.

“More on the dainty side,” he says. “Thin, small.”

The jeweler jingles his keyring. “We have some more understated rings over here, sir . . .”

After going through some of the more delicate rings, Matt is about to give up when he feels one more. The little jewels on it are scattered across the top of the ring like a constellation or a cluster, the band only a little thicker than the circumference of the smallest stone.

“This is it,” Matt says, a smile pulling at his lips as tears well in his eyes. Then, like a sign from above, he hears your voice ring in his mind with something you said late one night after one too many rounds at Josie’s when you two had been in the flirty stage of your relationship—definitely interested in one another, but not quite a couple yet. I’m telling you, Matt, the red glasses works: passionate, intense, and caring—three things that you definitely are. “Are all of these stones diamonds?”

“It’s actually a combination of diamonds and rubies,” the jeweler tells him. “There’s nine stones total: four rubies, five diamonds.”

“It’s perfect.”

After a painfully long (although calendricly short) waiting period, he has the sized ring in his pocket. Foggy and Karen tried to convince him to plan something special for the proposal, and he truly wanted to, but he just wants to ask you. For him, the sooner that he can slide that ring on you, the better. He just can’t wait.

He loves you so much.

“Okay, what sounds good for you?” you ask, coming back to the living room as you flip through a bunch of takeout menus. “I know we usually do Thai, but I’m thinking maybe—.” You gasp as you look over at Matt, down on one knee on the old hardwood.

“(Y/N),” he starts his question, his heart feeling like it’s going to burst from his chest. “Will you marry me?”

Matt listens to the way that your heart races over the soft rustle of paper menus falling to the floor. He would call its pace joy and excitement if it didn’t sound like it was on the verge of cardiac arrest, or the amount of hot tears that were falling from your eyes as your entire body trembles.

“No,” you breathe through your tears, your words sounding broken and small under the soft back and forth shaking of your head.

Matt’s heart drops straight down to the pit of his stomach and down the the floor. He doesn’t move for a moment, not expecting this sudden detour. Before he can close the box and think on the fly, he hears a faint choked sob leave your lips and your hand cover your mouth, whispering a sob of, “Why me?”

Sliding the little velvet box in his pants pocket, he stands to wrap your shaking form in his arms.

“Angel—.”

“This can’t be happening,” you rush out, a million thoughts running through your mind.

“Hey,” he hushes gently. "Deep breaths."

“Matt,” you start, your breathing shaky as you try to find the words to articulate what you’re feeling. “I love you. I do. I love you so much. But this—this can’t, I can’t —I-I’m not worthy of you.”

His heart shatters into a million pieces, only making him hold onto you tighter. “How could you possibly think that?”

“I . . .” you trail. “You are so amazing and generous and loving and intelligent and I could go on and on, and I’m just me. I’ve asked myself before why you’re with me, and I haven’t come up with an answer. I just know that I love you. We’re not even on the same caliber. I mean, I just rejected your proposal, and you’re hugging me.”

Matt leans back, wiping the tears away from your eyes with his thumbs.

“You’re right, angel, we’re not on the same caliber. But you’re the one out of my league. I’ve never met anyone more patient and loving and accepting. You make everything in my life better—even the things I’m not thrilled about—just by being in it. You’re a constant in my life. I don’t get to say that about many people. And I don’t even want to think about my life without you in it.” He rests his forehead on yours, his hands gently caressing your skin. “You put up with all my shit, and you don’t get mad, even when you really fucking should.” He chuckles lightly when he thinks of the moment he knew he wanted to spend the rest of his life with you. “You give me the soft blanket because it doesn’t feel scratchy against my skin.” He runs his fingers through your hair, melting into the soft, silky feeling. “If anything, I’m not worthy of you. I just pray that you won’t get tired of me.”

“I don’t think that’s possible in any reality,” you whisper, holding him close for a hug. “I love you, Matt. I love you so much.”

Matt brings a sweet kiss to your lips, his hands holding onto the side of your face in the way that he knows makes your heart flutter. When Matt’s lips part from yours, he sinks back down to his knees again, his warm hand holding yours.

“Can I try again?” he asks with raised eyebrows and a throat full of emotion.

“Yeah,” you sniffle, rubbing your thumbs along his skin.

He says your full name, taking a deep breath as he smiles big. “You are my entire world. When I’m at my lowest, you’re right there for me, and you never lose faith. So, if you would let me, it would be my greatest honor to make you feel so incredibly loved for the rest of your life. So, (Y/N), will you marry me?”

“Yes,” you smile brightly as he stands upright, kissing you so deeply that he dips you. Between each kiss, he mutters “I love you”, the way his stubble moves tickling your skin in just the right way you giggle. He only breaks away when a high-pitched moan escapes your lips, something having poked your thigh.

“Sorry,” he laughs lightly, his hand moving down to grab the ring box once more, a dashing smile on his lips. “May I?”

“You may.”

The ring slides on easily. Once it’s on, he brushes his thumb against how it feels against your skin, bringing it up to his lips for a kiss before you side your arms around his neck, holding onto him tightly and never wanting to let go.

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slutforhaechan · 1 year

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pairing: haechan x reader

cw: jelous haechan, possessive haechan, bratty reader, secret relationship, mild degrading,

a.n: shout out to the first anon who requested this, shit i accidentally delete your question haha but hopefully you'll see this. this is for you!

Mark is your long acquainted friend way back in highschool and because of mark you met haechan. when you met haechan for the first time, it went so smoothly because you and him instantly clicked because you both have the vibes and humor that keep you alive together. after many months of getting to know each other, he told you right away that he loved you and wanted to secretly court you. you agreed because you felt the same way. he's happy about it, but there's one condition he doesn't want his members to know about your relationship with him. you agreed because you know how he feels. so that you have to behaved like a friend when you are talking to him in front of his members.

being close with his members is so great and your favorite thing to do is messed around with them and haechan finds it annoying or maybe because he's jelous. when jungwoo once teased that you and johnny, about how great it would be if you and johnny were the mom and dad of the group or in real life, you laughed "dude stop, johnny is too old for me," while johnny shouted, "EXCUSE ME?!?!?" the rest of the members laughed so hard but except haechan. you noticed that he is quietly sitting on the side of couch and when you meet his eyes, he looks at you like you're in trouble, and you could feel the tension between you and him. you gulped and smiled at him like nothing had happened, but clearly you were in trouble."shit, this is so bad" haechan kill the vibe and quickly stands up "y/n, come i have to show you something." and he directly walks to his room leaving his members in shock because of the sudden change of him, "haechan-ah.. what's gotten on you?" mark ask, but haechan completely ignored him, you stand up and you being a friend of him slash girlfriend you immediately followed him.

now that you're standing in front of his door, you saw him standing by the side of the bed and told you to "lock the door" . you locked the door and you felt weird excitement with somewhat anxious. you turn around and walk towards him to ask "haechan, are you okay?" you're acting worried but deep inside you know the reason. haechan spoke "of course not, because the jelousy is crawling up on my body right now." you quickly hold his hand "haechan baby, we're just joking around and its not that big deal." you told him in calm voice, "really? not big deal? but for me it is!" he said in not so mad tone and you're getting irritated now "okay, i know your getting mad right now but please don't be so overreacting" you expressed to him in bratty voice so that he will think that you really mean it , he just looks at you deeply mad and serious, he instantly yanks your hair and you suddenly let out a gasp "why you acting like a brat right now?, you're being a bad girlfriend i think you'll be punish. hmm?" you nod because that is all you want right? fuck the shit out of you.

he pushed you to the bed and looked at you lustfully "do you think that i will forgive you easily?" he said cockily "do you think bad girlfriends deserve to cum? huh?" while he cups your cheeks."i'm sorry haechan, i would do anything" as you said almost cried "poor baby, that is not how you feel sorry right now, show me how you feel sorry to me" you immediately kneel in front of him and pull his pants down "what a desperate slut you are for me." you smiled at him as he looked at you and you began to palm his cock on his boxer and you can already hear him breathing heavily. you didn't waste your time you pulled his boxer down and start to pump his cock "yeah that's right baby, show me how you feel sorry." you put your mouth on his cock and start to gag in and out, lick and sucking his tip all the way to his balls, he groans in pleasure, you didn't take your eyes on his face you wanted to see how he reacts on what you were doing to him, he started to breathe and moan heavily and you can tell that he is close "oh fuck y/n.. don't stop i'm so fucking close stop." you bob your head non stop and when he reach his high he bust on your throat and you can taste the hot thick liquid on your mouth.

you let out a moan laugh "you're such a dirty girl, i wonder johnny will like this too if you agree that you wants to be his wife in real life? yeah?" you just nod in disagree "take your clothes off, and play with yourself so that i can think if you really deserve to cum" you quickly take off your clothes and climb up to the bed, spreading your legs wide so that he can see your wet pussy. you started playing with yourself while groping your tits, but you kept your moans quiet because you didn't want them to hear you, haechan noticed it. "come on baby, why are you holding your sexy moans? why? you don't want to johnny hear your slutty voice?" you nod while looking on him, your sight is so good to watch because he touches himself too it's more like mutual masturbation and its arouses you even more,"okay stop" you completely stopped and he gets closer to you and touches your wet pussy. "your pussy is mine right? you're all mine y/n.. i own you not by anyone or johnny." you're shaken to your core by his current display of possessiveness, which sends chills up your spine.

he pull your legs together to get close to you, he rub his cock on your pussy and you think you're going crazy in pleasure, he looks at you "yeah you like that? i think johnny thinks about this when he's with you." you just nod because you can't respond cuz you're drooling to his touch, he giggles "look at you baby, can't say any word because you're to clouded with my cock rubbing onto yours" he quickly put his cock inside and it made you gasped so loud "yeah baby, don't hold back your moans. let my members and johnny hear your beautiful moans and whimpers so that they will think who you belongs to." while thrusting in you, your just completely fucked out by his cock inside you, you can't comprehend what you want to say to him. "yeah? is daddy making you feel good? huh? hmmm f-fuck.." you just mumbled "yes daddy" he thrusted even more when he heard you call him 'daddy' "say what baby? hearing you calling me that makes me go crazy" you answered "yes daddy, please let me cum." a heavenly pleasure makes your eyes rolled back and you keep mumbling "oh daddy, your cocks feels so good." haechan is convince enough to make you cum he set his pace so fast so that you will claim your high fastly "oh daddy, i'm cumming ooh fuck-." he grips your hips so hard "yeah baby, cum let's cum together." he said in between of his moans. few more thrust untill you get your high "daddy i'm gonna cum.. ooh fuck god." he thrust more "yeah me too baby." last hard thrust makes your body wild as you both reaches the high. you both panted so hard and laugh, haechan put his body weight on the mattress and hugged you tight, "i'm sorry baby, i just don't want anyone to claim you. you're all mine baby, i love you." you melted on his words you kissed him on his cheek "i like it when your jelous, i love you too baby" he chuckled and kissed you again "let's clean up and go outside" your mouth hung open when he said that, he snorted "what?!? you look so funny right now." after you both cleaned up you and haechan went to the living room, mark shouted "dude, what took you so long? what the fuck is happening?" haechan laughs "nothing, i just claimed what's mine" he turn his gaze on you and you just stand frooze while eyeing his members. mark looks so confused and disgusted at the same time and his members too. "you guys are weird" but who knows.... johnny knows what you both did on the room so he just grinned.

#nct smut #haechan #nct #nct lee donghyuck #lee haechan smut #nct dream #nct haechan #nct haechan smut #haechan fluff #nct suggestive

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tarotreaderbabe · 1 year

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Your next partner.

This read is for my single babes! I want to focus on the next person you'll be with, the dynamics, etc. It can be for those who were once in a relationship or who never been in a relationship. I'll just say, if you're a minor.. focus on other things. please.

Pile one

It seems like you'll be together with an ex once again. I feel like this person have betrayed you in a way. They regret that deeply, or will soon. You'll be very guarded when they come back, but it seems like their energy will have shifted a lot. I see that they are in the process of becoming, again, the person you fell for. You're working on yourself, healing and being the best version of yourself, and soon you'll be fully healed and self sufficient, and they will be attracted to that energy. You'll probably meet them again in a public setting, some sort of celebration. They will be absolutely charmed by you, without you even doing anything.

Signs this is your pile: you fell for this person very slowly. you were incredibly dedicated after you fell for them. they are the one that left. this person is a child at heart, loves exploring, loves excitement and new things.

Pile two.

This is probably someone that you feel is out of your league. They seem like a dream that can never come true. You probably met them at school, and it will start with some sort of intellectual conversation. This person will feel.. aroused by your mind haha. This is why they will fall for you (which is kind of weird, because you fall for someone for deeper reasons than their intellectual baggage). I'm sorry so say but, if you put them in a pedestal or go too quickly, they will leave you. And please be very careful if you choose to have unprotected sex with them.. i see pregnancy. I'm sorry about such a negative read, but I have to say what i see. If you have a crush on someone and they approach you, don't let your heart fool you. They are not good for you. You have an insanely powerful mind. You can analyze and organize information in even the most complex situations, but sometimes your heart takes over and your mind gets clouded. Understand that they are in love with the idea of love, with their own idealized version of you, and as soon as you show the real you, they will leave.

Signs this is your pile: if things have already started with them, it's developing way too quickly. you feel like this is a spiritual connection, such as twin flame. you can have friends in common, or your friends know that you like them. you could have worked in a group setting with them already.

Pile three.

WOW THIS IS SUCH A SPECIFIC SITUATION.

If you upset someone in the past.. They will confront you. This person will feel a weird feeling on their belly while they talk about their upset. You'll be very beautiful that day. You'll notice them starting off very angry and calming down and getting embarrassed as they speak, and you'll try to keep your composure. You two will feel angry at each other, but with some sort of attraction. Enemies to lovers?? haha

They tried and still try to move on from whatever you did, but it seems way too painful. You regret putting them in that situation as well, but you seem to try to keep your face stoic. After this conversation, after a few weeks/days i believe, they will show up at your door. They are very scared of your reaction, and of looking stupid if you reject them. Even with all the resentment you two hold for each other, they love you, actually. You feel something too, but you want to use your mind a lot more than anything else. they have such a cute, humble, and kind heart. they are the type of person to laugh embarrassed when people are singing them happy birthday. really, really, I mean really soft heart. which they try to keep safe, unsuccessfully. you are, on the contrary, a very stoic and mental individual, even apathetic sometimes. but you'll work on that for them.

signs this is your pile: you might have a very different, unusual type of mental health problem. it seems a very tricky problem to diagnose. you're an optimistic person, even with difficulty feeling. someone might be working on their career. they might have gave you some jewelry as a gift.

#pick a card #pac #pick a pile #tarot reading #witchblr

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infamous-if · 1 year

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What would be the ROs reactions if MC came to their door and revealed they left fame for them? Would they do the same? By the way I saw on your other blog that you felt burnt out. Take care of yourself 🥰

Thank you! I took a day to myself today and already feel much better!

Seb: Panic, at first. That feels like a lot of pressure to have knowing he’s responsible for such a big decision. He’d keep asking MC if they’re sure and probably talk MC out of it. If MC is 1000% sure, I think he’d not only be happy but relieved. Fame is a bit much for him. Knowing MC is willing to give that up would make him feel real special haha but I think he’d always feel a bit of fear, as if any moment they can change their mind and leave him.

August: “…you sure?” It wouldn’t compute in August’ head that someone is willing to go those lengths for them. They’d be uncertain and at first assume it’s a joke. Once they realize it’s not a joke, I think they’d just agree and do the same. August puts their loved ones ahead of themself. They’d drop it all for MC if MC asked. It’s not even about being uncaring it’s more that it just feels natural for August to drop everything for someone else. That’s what they’re used to.

Victoria: She’d be brought to tears and find the grand gesture like that of movies. No one has ever put her first in that way or prioritized her like that: she craves it. She would think it’s the most beautiful thing haha. I think she’d do the same solely because she thinks that’s what romance is: grand gestures and large sacrifices. Even if she wouldn’t want to. It’d be on MC to remind her that she shouldn’t give up on her dreams just because she thinks that’s what love is. Victoria loves deeply and loves hard and sometimes she gets tunnel vision.

Seven: I said before Seven is a hopeless romantic and I think they’d be super flattered haha probably cry just because of how big of a deal/decision that would be. I think Seven is the one likely to do that but they’re also aware how big of a dream that is so they’d be hesitant but honestly if they’re in love deeply enough, they’d give up anything to be with MC. Still, Seven would probably at least try to convince MC otherwise.

Orion: Orion…is difficult. I actually can’t seem to pin a reaction from him. It can go a few ways: downright saying “nope, you’re not going to do this for me” or tell MC that they can have both and not have to give one up for the other, or just be very afraid. Orion does not think he is worthy of such a big decision like that. He’ll just keep waiting for the moment MC comes to their senses and leaves him. Knowing he’s responsible for a huge decision like that actually wouldn’t flatter him, it would terrify him. Would Orion do the same? Likely not. Haha. I can’t elaborate on why though.

G: freak out. That’s too much for them. They wouldn’t think they’re worth such a gesture. Fame is all G knows so they wouldn’t be able to do the same because what are they without their fame? Honestly it would blow G’s mind that MC is willing to let all that go, for them of all people too. I think they’d try to convince MC to change their mind. They would insist that disappointment is inevitable lol

#inbox #infamous cast #scenario

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