#but this is completely true

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

going through my old journals as part of therapy homework and i'm reading a section written in the emotional wreckage of a full-on breakdown when i get hit with this line:

There is never a satisfying answer to ‘Why didn’t they love me?’

like wow babe. good fucking point

#like you were on the ground biting the carpet and dry sobbing while you wrote that and still. good fucking point #not a shitpost #cptsd #and it's true. there's never a satisfying answer #the truth is i know why i wasn't loved #i analyzed my parent's traumas and abuse to death. i understand why i alienated and was alienated from my siblings #i know why my mom was too overwhelmed to be capable of nurturing #i know why my dad vanished into addiction and avoidance #the details of our cycles of trauma and cptsd and family history i have a phd in all of it #i understood perfectly. i spent years studying and now i knew the answer #and guess what? IT WAS NOT SATISFYING!!! #because they still didn't love me! and i still couldn't change that! #it was still a completely unsatisfying state of affairs! #so like. when the people who are supposed to love you...don't. #when the people who are supposed to take care of you...fail to #you can look for answers and reasons and explanations #but that's not actually going to FIX your situation. #and it's probably not within your ability TO fix the situation. (and definitely not your job) #because you don't need answers--you need a new situation #*inserts Just Walk Out. You Can Leave!!! (Running Skeleton) Meme* #and yes. walking out isn't always possible. #but for you i hope it will be one day soon. and i hope you build the courage to take that leap. #stepping away from the people who failed to love you...it feels like being untethered but also like being lighter than air #new and scary. immensely relieving. the future opens up. empty but empty like a canvas. blindingly bright until your eyes adjust #like climbing out of a pit you called home and for the first time realizing how bright the light of day can truly be #when you aren't just getting glimpses from the bottom of a hole

[maeamian]

This may just be the autism speaking, but I fucking hate when customer surveys ask me 'how likely are you to recommend this or that to a friend' because they are lying about what they're asking. I am 0% likely to recommend almost any product to any friend and especially not by brand if at all possible, but what they want to know is 'did you have a decent experience with the thing' and that's a whole other fucking question if you want that answered fucking ask that. Except if I answer the question they're asking instead of the secret question, they yell at their employees on my behalf which I never wanted either. Terrible system, would not recommend it to a friend.

#This isn't completely true I recommend books and games and the like to friends all the time #but they're never the ones sending me these fucking emails

[foreverephemeral-art]

love is beautiful

#I love the idea that rivulet is a completely natural albeit somewhat outlandish mutation/species variation #that just coincidentally gets involved in the affairs of dying gods #why not! #a true shenanigan partaker #my art #rain world #rain world art #rw rivulet #rw spearmaster #fanart

[shrimpricebowl]

oh thank god

#art from a while back #i played hk first and deepnest was like. the most uncomfortable ive ever been playing the game #mainly because its just so DARK #as for rw... when i got to shaded...... what the actual Hell #i eventually got used to just dying in the dark and exploring the first parts of the region but like. Why is it pitch black #i didnt even realize there was a path to the scav merchant at the first room..... i got to memory crypts before finding it in my next run #hollow knight #rain world #hk ghost #rw slugcat #rw survivor #artatat #?!?@?@?@?@ the alt text got removed for a sec Sorry about that im not sure why or how that happened #also im completely aware deepnest without a lantern is much darker but atleast it isnt pitch black. You know #i also wanna add on the fact i entered deepnest after the mantis lords and thought. “what kind of winning gift is this!?!?!?” #and felt like cornifer for the first couple of minutes LOL #but i had nowhere to go so womp womp :P #to clarify: i dont hate shaded its actually my top route to go from industrial to shoreline #but i hate deepnest with all my heart❤️ godbless #reading the rbs here is so fun.... so true guys

[chloesimaginationthings]

im sorry but your mike/fnafsb vanessa dynamic reminds me vaguely of the fuckass deviantart hot yaoi base so i wasted like 30 minutes of my time doing this

my brain loves to continuously shit out horrible ideas and for some reason i decide to do them

This is a greater compliment than you can even imagine

#ask reply #fanart #I’m .. #IM IN tears over this #this is true art cause it’s completely stopped me in my tracks #I just have to witness it #DYNAMIC SO GOOD ITS STRAIGHT YAOI? #if it was the other way around I would have failed yall #but the fact Vanessa is the big buff one W we did it babes #images I added is for comparison the evidence speaks for itself

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Lan Wangji Goes To Lotus Pier AU: Part 2: Indocktrination

(Part 1, Part 3)

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #mdzs AU #Yungmeng Jiang training arc AU #nie huaisang #lan wangij #wei wuxian #jiang cheng #Quick note: These comics are going to be out of order timeline-wise. Less of a story; more of a splattering of ideas. #Per last comic; I think WWX and JC showing up wet and covered in mud was 100% on purpose (on wwx's behalf) #A hazing ritual for the rumoured stuck-up Lan boy who would be coming to train with them. #With that in mind - I think LWJ has been pushed off the docks several times by this point. This is is first time dunking someone else. #The completion of the Jiang indoctrination is being both the pusher and pushee. LWJ has gained true respect now. #Yes think does mean I think Jiang Yanli has both been pushed and pushed someone into the water. #I think WWX would have volunteered but she went in for a surprise attack on JC. This is a point of contention among the trio.

[girlboyburger]

cow's secret revealed! 🛸

fun lil alt design for cow i've been workin on >:03c

💫🛸

#....or has it always been like this? #*x files theme* #weewooo this has been in progress for um #almost 6 months! #weehee #focusing on my comms over my personal work = so long spent on a piece that i completely redo it several times #my art #furry #fursona #anthro #oc #cow #cattle #bovine #alien #ref #reference sheet #ref sheet #originally it was gonna be a xenobiologist but the i decided it would be more true to life if i made her a space stoner #so hes out there smoking galatic doinks and scavenging space trash #btw i fucking hate captioning my art. help #girl what do u mean out of this world update stfu #goo #? #do i tag it as GOO? #AH

[thesaintofnevergettingitright]

Have you ever wondered how Dimension 20’s Intrepid Heroes (+Aabria) would react to being told “I’d die for you”? Because my brain would not allow me to rest until I shared my thoughts on the subject.

#dimension 20 #d20 #mine #I have no explanation for this #other than I saw a Brennan Lee Mulligan edit on tiktok and thought #‘I’d die for him’ Immediately followed by ‘he WOULD NOT let me’ #and then I blacked out for a few hours and woke up at 4am having completed this #lmaoooo #ally beardsley #emily axford #brian murphy #zac oyama #siobhan thompson #lou wilson #brennan lee mulligan #aabria iyengar #as is true of all of my original posts: #if you disagree with me ✨ no you don’t ✨

[batty-pham]

DPxDC au idea

Danny, aged down, little to now memory of who he was, ends up with the Waynes.

Jazz, seeing her missing little brother on TV with them comes to one obvious conclusion.

Another insane billionaire got ahold of her brother.

So she goes to Gotham to try and get him back, by any means necessary.

#dp x dc #dpxdc #batfamily #dc x dp #dp x dc crossover #danny phantom #batpham #jazz fenton #she realizes that bruce is Batman tim style #and goes “ah- his son dies so he wants to re start with a son thatCANT die and found a way to age him down and-” #just completely phycoanolyzing him for shut that's true #but also #slightly wrong

[pyroshrooms]

Animated movies with undefined and unconventional family dynamics my absolute beloveds

#i stand that none of these are completely conventional relationships #they dont fit into the typical roles of a nuclear family and i love that for them #feel free to add any i missed though i love seeing these dynamics #the sea beast #nimona #puss in boots #puss in boots the last wish #found family #TRUE found family imo #ramblings

[katimanki]

From Hate When I Sin by @foodiewithdahoodie 💖🫶🏻

When I started this fic and read the first scene, I had to put my phone down, grab my iPad and sketch it out immediately!!

#byler #mike wheeler #will byers #ted wheeler #ted with his true byler truther outfit!! #his shirt is loterally mikes colors and the beige pants #!!! that’s basically yellow my dudes #I am so scared there are typos #mike and will being worsties in this fic is killing me #i love it so much #(there’s a secret message in this lol) #lmao not the only two noses in this being #a way too realistic one and the other a complete clownery #shitbyme

[densewentz]

i think the turning point in my life both academically and professionally was realizing that. If you Go First, be it a presentation or an interview or whatever. If you go first, you are being judged based on NOTHING but yourself. They aren't comparing you to anyone else, you don't have an act to "follow". You are the Bar. You can literally just do the best you can and at that point it will automatically be the best they've seen so far. And once you're done you're done. You can mentally and emotionally check out.

Game changer insofar as being stressed about presenting because now I just bulldoze over everyone else to go first like a feral hog.

#its true though #all my anxiety about presentations got reduced SIGNIFICANTLY once I started fighting to be first #its Good Advice #this actually especially applies to people with unfinished work like #girl you do not want to watch 9 people with complete presentations go and then give your speech #just jump on that grenade early before they've had time to be impressed by anyone #and the fallout wont be NEARLY as bad #and then its over right away #also if youre a smug petty bitch like me #you can absolutely blow the performance out of the water #and bask in the absolutely traumatized expressions of everyone who has to go after you now #if im gonna be the bar im going to set it at the ceiling #sorry #so i guess the next lesson is you have to fight to be before Me and those Like Me #rip

[myuminji]

#copy pasting from twt but thinking of 98ww being the only one who still retains human empathy the most out of all WWs #bcs he didn't really go through modifications that makes him feel like he completely lost his right to 'humanity'... #<- smth abt ww treating Vash as someone that is also capable to process emotion and pain like a human despite knowing his true nature... #smth abt it that makes Vash wants to cry and it's not bcs of his injuries anymore... #trigun #trigun 98 #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #vashwood #ish #myuminjiart #sorry for the wonky art i just want to throw this idea out

[spelldealer]

idk what kind of tree this was but it had the coolest blossoms

#they were completely flat and just vaguely flower shaped #rather than true flowers

[brw]

"but hamas is getting funded by extremist islamic hate groups!" do you think the U.S. government and military giving funding for israeli's war efforts against palestinians is a morally neutral and inherently righteous body that had no influence in the politics of southwest asia as a global colonial superpower. do you really think anything you can say about the people resisting oppression can't be said about the oppressors.

#brieuc.txt #palestine #this isnt me justifying it but it is me pointing out the double standard how hamas' funding is antithetical to the freedom movement #but the u.s.' influence and financial support is completely fine and doesnt need to be brought up at all #''hamas doesnt have the best interests of palestinian people'' may be true but the alternative is not allowing an apartheid state to exist #also its a ridiculous thing to say because thats a common thing in most countries #neo-nazi groups r a major problem in the Ukraine military but nobody questions ukraine's right for freedom. #the double standards keep on piling up #im not saying you cant criticise these groups but is it criticism or is it propaganda #are you talking abt how war radicalises and changes n traumatises people or are you implying every palestinian is a dirty terrorist #etc #and do you understand that in an active war zone n worlds largest open air prison violence is guaranteed and is brutal. #or do you think that if the people with no electricity and water just Werent So Stubborn And Talked everything would be okay? #and do you consider white people fighting for freedom martyrs but brown people doing the same terrorists

[chaoticshark98]

some younger bucciarati and abbacchio designs teehee

#bruno t boy swag bucciarati becauss its true #i imagine abbacchio as an academic kid always on her own n stuff #teehee the skrunkly #jjba #bruno bucciarati #leone abbacchio #jjba part 5 #bruabba #I COMPLETELY FORGOT TO POST THESE HERE OH NOOOOO