#but when they do it it's ok

[missmoonfrost]

Long night waiting - a wolfstar microfic

April 17 - Hospital AU - 539 words

@wolfstarmicrofic

Sirius' footsteps echoed in the empty corridor. He just needed to be alone. To get away from it all for a moment. A vending machine whirred low and spread a sliver of light in the abandoned entrance hall. Stray leaves and paper trash rustled at the feet of the automatic doors that slid open to let in crisp night air.

The feeling of being the only sorrowful soul awake was so strong that Sirius jumped when he saw another man leaning against the wall just outside. The other quickly put his foot in the gap to stop the doors from closing.

"Sorry to startle you. I was locked out.”

Just as the man got in, he turned and took a second look at Sirius' lack of jacket and belongings. "Are you going back in? The doors apparently don’t open from the outside at this hour. I can hold it for you."

"Thank you."

Now that he got a better look at his face he realised he was not as old as Sirius first took him to be, more like Sirius own age.

Sirius crouched with his back to the wall and lit a cigarette behind his cupped hand.

As his thoughts slowly caught up with him through the latest hours of chaos he turned towards the man again. "Sorry. You thought I was going to the smoking area and I'm just sitting here like an idiot. I can hold the door myself if you need to go somewhere."

The man smiled blearily at him. "I'm in no hurry. The nurse told me to go home. My mother's operation won't be finished in at least a few hours and then she will have to wake up before I can see her."

Sirius nodded. "It's good of you to be here for her."

The man made a sound between a laugh and a sob. "I don't know if I'm here for her or me to be honest." He sat down on the paving, clasping his arms around his knees, still holding the doors open with his body.

"My little brother tried to drown himself", Sirius said and blew a cloud of smoke into the night, "and our mother hasn’t even bothered to show up."

"I'm sorry, what?!" The man looked indignantly at him.

Sirius shook his head. "Said his behaviour was a disgrace to the family."

"Jesus Christ."

"Yep."

Sirius stubbed out the cigarette against the ground. He should be getting in. The crowded room where Regulus lay attached with wires and tubes to loud machines did not appeal at all. But what if he woke up?

None of them got up from the ground. Sirius felt a strange kind of brotherhood with this man he would never meet again. He eventually took out a cigarette for himself and held out the package to Sirius. He took another one. The man held his out so Sirius could light them both at once.

They shared the silence as the horizon slowly lit up.

An approaching watchman broke the spell. Sirius got up on cold stiff legs and stumbled inside the entrance hall. His companion held out his hand.

"Remus Lupin. I'll be in the waiting room outside the operation ward, second floor. Let me know if you and your brother need anything at all. Or if you want to share a smoke."

“Sirius Black. Thank you. Take care of your mother.”

#wolfstar #wolfstar microfic #sirius black #remus lupin #remus x sirius #sirius × remus #regulus black #muggle au #hospital au #first meeting #smoking is bad for you #but when they do it it's ok

[clown-owo]

been replaying the Portal series I think this is where its heading

#i haven't drawn in like. half a month. which listen i know i don't post much here but i do draw a lot #i have another blog. but also sometimes i just don't post things. i draw for myself #just got burnt out from working on an animation final 😔 #so anyway. eased myself back in with a silly comic about portal #my irl saw my shitty sketch and thought glados was painting chell which is very funny to me. #chelldos #but like. unrequited. glados is obsessed with chell. chell is not having a good time #portal #chell #GlaDOS #GlaD0S #my art #og post #1k #5k #10k #20k #edit: i made this post almost a year ago and it haunts me. theres a typo. chell is out of character. #because i couldn't come up with a good reason for her to be there in the first place #and this was a shitty ms paint replicating drawing that i did just to get back into drawing #i didn't think it would gain much attention #i was Wrong #anyway someone in the comments said this is what happens when you speedrun thats an infintely better setup for the punchline #EDIT 2: ok i fixed it fuck you

[time-woods]

isnt it so strange how something can be so so so different yet at the sum of its parts its still the same? hard concept to grasp,,

full ver plus before i rendered!! (iv been rendering a bit different as of late and its basically just me not doing anything else in between the sketch and render)) (this is based off of PartyCoffins tumblr post! i needa go to bed so i shall find the link to it tomorrow)

#welcome home #Welcome Home arg #help how do you draw food #i only do this like once a blu moon #ive never eaten apple pie and i dont plan on it i dont like the way it looks... also i dont like fruit pies #i am a very picky guy when it comes to food #i got reasons ok? its called AUTISM

[tiktaalic]

one of my beloved friends (very autism) was in.. not denial but ignorance sounds mean. but that abt themself last time you brought up the raads r test so i sent it to the gc (full of autism) and they were like psh. fake test no one could get below 100. they know now but i think about it so much

The thing is. When you take the autism test. And you see your score is in the 100 to 160 range. You think. Oh this is probably the middle? Middle autism. Tinge of autism. Your relatives calling you bright but shy autism. Just a whiff of autism. And then you see the score ranges. And you go. This test is lying to me there is absolutely no way the majority of people score under 65. The 65 number is such a low cutoff and so many of these experiences are clearly universal a score under 65 is something they made up in a lab. People who score under 65 are obviously scoring just under that mark from 59 to 64 and they’re also obviously lying or purposely misrepresenting their experiences as less severe than they are. And then you find out there are real people who get a 20 or 30 or 7 on it. And you go. Ah

#ask #anonymous #it does help to remember when I’m feeling extremely crazy that it’s more than likely because I am operating in a world populated by people w #who don’t know what raads r is because they have no reason to take it because their score on it would be like. 14. #like. oh! that’s why I feel crazy. because my brain has created a world state that 98% of usa adults do not create or experience because #they’re normal. ok.

[spiderversegf]

i have started asking myself “how can i make this more fun?” in regards to the things i have to do and it is such a small difference but it brings me so much delight

#🍜 #sagittarius posting #but really like i just let myself stim however i want and i let myself do my weird silly harmless stuff #i used to be sooooo self conscious even when all alone! so this has been making me feel braver in a weird and unexpected way #i love joy i will never stop seeking it out!!! #ok to rb #🦠

[lesbaurinkos]

do you think they knew even then that it was gonna be forever

#sent this to my friend in the middle of class and she physically put her head in her hands with such devastation another classmate asked- #-if she was ok. so i hope it can aid u guys in similar manners i suppose! #smiling shakily… Do You Remember. The Time. When W #no one look too hard at the train i don’t care what trains look like. it’s not about that. #it’s about. sing along to the start of forever. as paramore once said. #took the train home for spring break yesterday! just thought of them. x #dnp #dan and phil #phanart

[thenearsightedmicroraptor]

Seen a lot of posts about people coming into your notifications out of nothing and liking your entire blog, but here's a shoutout to the people who do Not follow you, who appear out of nowhere, reblog One (1) post that you are Not the op of, and then you never see them again. Where did you come from girl.

#EDITED bc I think this one goes on ppls recommended pages now #HEY GUYS the question in this post is rhetorical ! i don't actually care. you can stop telling me honeys its ok #i like the mystery. i don't needta know everything #also when i say shoutout. i mean it. i love you guys i am not annoyed. you're all wonderful. keep doing you. #posts by ME #tumblr #like ... you didn't find the post thru tags because I just reblogged it #i made no addition. how did you find me #be free you majestic creatures I'm glad I got to witness you in passing #how tf tho. #did you look at my blog but only one post made the cut. amazing. i love you.

[casinocircus]

I've been thinking about that post that's like hey don't think autism is destigmatized irl just because there's memes on this website about "my autism beam" or whatever and Ykw?? Guys, it's not even hard to see how much people still love dogging on autistic people for being "weird" all over the entire internet! Even on here!! A lot of people still see us as the people they're allowed to bully for no reason, and while I'm glad there's been some positive change over the years, we still need to work towards getting people to unpack why they think some people are ok targets, and how most of the time it's ableism.

#casinos whining hour #ableism #autism #asd #hell even im guilty of this to an extent and have to catch myself and ask why i think someones behavior is 'funny' #like if its coming from an ok place or not or if i need to examine further #a lot of things we picked up when we were younger was from copying other people to fit in and that came with stuff we need to do away with

[stevebabey]

personally love the interaction in the start of s4 where steve goes “ugh, you know i don’t do double vhs.” when robin suggests doctor zhivago. like ugh robin!!!! we’ve talked about this before!!! steve has a limited attention span and if robin puts on something too long, he will start shooting her with rubber bands

#or seeing how many paper clips he can stack into one tower #the answer is about 7 #also love the idea that if u put on a movey he loves #like a sports film or something #he’ll be in the aisle — supposed to be shelving — but just staring at the viewing screen like :O #he’s a guy who stands with his mouth open if he’s distracted trust me #and that’s when ROBIN tries to hit him with a rubber band - aiming for his mouth #the great incident of ‘86 is when she manages to get it in and steve chokes on a rubber band for 15 seconds #anyways how often do u think they fight over movie picks ? #stobin #platonic stobin #steve & robin #stobin headcanons #they’re my fave besties :D #ok nanite

[somecunttookmyurl]

the "all customer service people are trained by management to be illiterate apes you can never get any resolutions by design dont be mean about it" crowd would faint to know there is a guy at my bank RIGHT NOW attempting to resolve an issue that would normally take a week

see. i tried to order food (having nothing of note in the house, and too much pain currently to get down 3 flights of stairs about it) and the payment failed on just eat's end.

but it went through fine on my bank's end, so the funds are tied up in "pending"... for a week. my available balance is now 95p so i can't just do it again

the bank cannot typically do anything about this until the normal time frame for collection passes and they funds just release automatically. just eat have zero contactable customer service

but it is for FOOD and there's no more MONEY and i am a DISABLED CUSTOMER so BY FUCKING GOD not on zeeshan's watch

#i said i live by myself - which i do it's kind of the problem right now #so he's actually said 'i fully understand what you're going through so please know i'm here even if you just want to talk to someone #whilst i wait for a response from the product team' #like. ok king #i hope you can always find a pen when you need one and it always works

[fairycosmos]

call me soft or whatever but i find it so incredible that people manage to keep themselves alive. like you’re paying rent?? maintaining relationships?? going to work?? every day single day?? in this economy?? on the mental diet we’ve all been raised on?? the effort you must be putting into your life simply by living it is olympian. and it is impressive

#i cant do half the things i named #god im going to die #life just goes fast. it's all unrecognisable and i cant keep up #when i was a kid i thought i'd be ok eventually for real .

[voiider]

I need codependent Danny/Jason as a little treat (for me) and I love the idea of them having some sort of instant connection the moment they meet (bc ghost stuff idk)

Danny who's been dropped in Gotham with no way home (alt universe??) and he's been here for 36 hours and having a Very bad time senses a liminal being and immediately latches onto them heedless of the fact that his new best friend is shooting at some seedy guys in an alley and goes off about how stressed he is and how he can't make it back to the ghost zone and what a bad day he's been having (and it's important to note Danny is a littol ghost boy literally hanging off of Jason's neck as he floats aimlessly) and Jason is like "who are you??" And Danny is like "oh sorry I'm Danny lol" and then just continues lamenting his woes

And honestly ? This might as well happen. Nothing about this Danny guy(is he human?) gives Jason a bad vibe and tbh he's never felt more calm and level headed before so he just keeps up his usual Red Hood patrol and doesn't even think about it when he heads back to a safehouse and feeds Danny dinner (breakfast) before crashing for half the day

The only thing I actually need is Jason meeting up with the bats for some sort of Intel meeting and they're like "uhhh who's that" and Jason is like "that's Danny." And does not elaborate (very ".... What do you have there?" "A smoothie" vibes)

And it takes them a while to realize that these two have known each other for less than 12 hours and are literally attached at the hip

#very remora fish with a shark #jason todd #danny fenton #danny phantom #dpxdc #dp x dc #this isnt super important but i imagine Danny's ghost form as young and unaged from his death so jason is used to this small whispy kid #who just hangs off him and talks literally all the time #so when something comes up and someone is like 'idk if we can bring danny looking like... that' (glowing and a literal ghost) #danny is like 'oh ok u need a human? ok :)' and transforms #its been WEEKS #jason didn't know he could do that #nobody did #and now theres this 20ish dude standing there #human form danny doesn't talk a lot (anxiety) ghost form danny can't stop talking (anxiety) #could be a ship fic and at this point jason goes from 'where is my little buddy :(' to 👀😳 #i imagine theres a sort of feedback loop with them both feeding off of each other's ecto energies and vibes idk #so when danny is human its not as strong #batman is convince this strange entity is like hypnoyizing his son and like hes not WRONG #but it goes both ways #idk #i just need more codependency fics :( #i should go on a bender #ignore my 500 open tabs and go to town

[dozydawn]

Mayerling.

Melissa Hamilton and Rupert Pennefather.

Lauren Cuthbertson and Thiago Soares.

Natalia Osipova and Edward Watson.

Melissa Hamilton and Rupert Pennefather.

Natalia Osipova and Edward Watson.

Sarah Lamb and Steven McRae.

#obsessed #mayerling #ballet #kiss #couple #fave pics #lifts #i’m so glad this is hitting w folks bc this sat in my drafts for months cause i thought this is a post Just For Me and it’ll flop #mostly it sat in my drafts bc i was like what the fuck do i write as a header ‘this one hot kiss lift from mayerling’ #in the end i just settled for the ballet title ok everyone knows what this is #you guys are conditioning me to release more pose compilations from my hellish drafts #oh and ​one more thing... ice dance interpretation of this lift WHEN? i need a mayerling ice dance program stat please #1k #kenneth macmillan #pose compilation

[rileyclaw]

I just think that Gus would find animations very neat!!!

#my art #toh #the owl house #toh comic #fanart #luz noceda #amity blight #willow park #gus porter #hunter toh #lumity #this kinda got away from me but the concept was cute #ok someone told me cartoons exist BUT im going to blame that on illusionists too #why hand animate somethin when you can Conjure something i wish i could do that!!!

[ministarfruit]

day 10: love is devotion ♡

(femslashfeb prompt list)

#minifemslashfeb2024 #ace attorney #junithena #athena cykes #juniper woods #melts into a puddle #junithena WARM junithena SOFT #junithena is so darling to me especially the version of it I made up in my head #ok I always write junie with imposter syndrome BUT #can we talk about how many skills this girl has. she can knit. she can sing. she can write. she can garden. she's smart #AND she's studying law to become a judge #I made her a painter for this too. because why not #god gave her health problems to nerf her. otherwise she would be too powerful #also athena short hair swag because I think she looks cute like that #do you ever think about the space and earth symbolism? no? just me? #is there something quite so intangible as falling in love with the stars #believing you will never reach them #when the stars are shining brightly to guide your way #they shine just for you... #mini be normal about junithena challenge: failed #'what are you talking about' shhh. shh. #you are safe now my sweet child

[yourlocalabomination]

The darkness will spare my soul.

#PLEASE LOOK AT THE RUFFLES #PLEASE APPRECHIATE HOW LONG I SPENT ON THEM #actually please apprechiate all of this because I spent like 3/4 weeks on this bad boy #this piece reminded me why I’m lazy with most of my art because when I actually do detail properly it takes forever #also- idk how to do lighting I’m learning rn do don’t try and deep it too hard ok #anyway I’m out here shoving religious symbolism into my artwork oh look how original #I think grace would be dismayed at the fact this took 6 9 hours- a holy number #grace chasity #grace chastity npmd #grace chastity fanart #npmd #npmd starkid #starkid npmd #npmd fanart #nerdy prudes must die #starkid nerdy prudes must die #nerdy prudes must die fanart #starkid #starkid fanart #fanart starkid #team starkid #starkid productions #hatchetfield #hatchetverse #hatchetfield universe #fanart #my art