#cause im ;_;

[lobotomy-fruitbat]

@ chubby men/hairy men: you are all so fucking beautiful and handsome and cool and I adore you and I'm sorry for any hate y'all get over your body. y'all are worthy of so much love and care and don't let anyone tell you shit otherwise. cause they suck. and their opinions don't matter. I love you all so much

#body postivity #i think #this is a ramble #of the gay variety #cause im #gay #mlm thoughts #this has been said obvs but #i wanted to say it anyways

[sunflowerseraph]

Hes bisexual and nobody wants him? well...call me Odysseus

#cause im #get it. g.et it #greek mythology #seraph.txt

[selfaware-stalker]

Having zero empathy and sociopathtic traits is having to constantly mask and create lists and scenerios of how to interact with people with emotions and empathy.

Making every interaction perfect, having a nice checklist of when to talk to them and what to do to make them happy and what not to say cause they will get sad and no amount of “i dont get what i did wrong” will fix it

Its making a perfect plan that ensures everyone is happy and then the empathy havers deciding im not trying enough.

For them to do things against your plans and when your confused them saying you just dont get it.

Its when people keep changing and stuffs not making sense and when your upset your “manipulative”

Everything they do is natural normal stuff and all my desires are manipulative abuse tactics they have to put up with.

We wont explain whats happening, we dont explain the emotions where feelings we wont let you in on a world of stuff i physically cant understand

I would understand if i just had empathy

#sick of empathy #sick of that horrid word #sick sick sick sick sick #i am autistic with no ability to feel it #no empathy #low empathy #actually cluster b #bpd vent #i try so hard #but obviously #i dont try enough #i can never try #cause im #just another abusive cluster b

[invisibleblooky]

how dare you have the audacity to be in love in front of me

#lonely #i want to be in a relationship #i want someone to love me #find me somebody to love #can anybody find me somebody to love #im just jealous #screw love #desperate #jelous #jealousy #turning saints into the sea #swimming through sick lullabies #choking on your alibis #but it's just the price i pay #destiny is calling me #open up my eager eyes #cause im #mr brightside #annoyed #done #please stop #alone #sad and lonely #i know im insecure im trying to get help #i dont know what else to put here #how dare you

[daydreamingleclerc]

i have so much to do today i wish i had tomorrow off too

#have to do all my grad prep todah #cause im #doing a 10hr shift tomlrrow #so i have to prep #my acrylics this afternoon i have to tan i have to pack #as well as editing and sending off my self tape and going to get last minute bits for grad #and my room is so filthy i have to clean it #and the race is on i don’t know where i’m gonna fit it all in

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[lesbian-disaster-academic]

i used to be so good at writing strong, thoroughly-researched, thoroughly-edited essays.

as a kid in hs, my teacher literally came up to me, holding my 40 page essay on the intersection of the European witch hunts and capitalism/exploitation/gender roles (it was supposed to be 7 pages...whoops) and went like "this is literally a master's-degree level thesis. what are you doing?? you could literally use this as your final dissertation in a master's program, what the fuck."

NOW??? NOW?? you'd think I'd be oh so skilled. but alas. i can barely piece together two ideas. adhd skill-regression is so so real. im SOBBING

#this is just me ranting sorry #im very tired and hungry #and i want to sleep but brain go brrrrr #well i used to be nice and smart and now im neither of those or however the song goes #pretty sure he was exaggerating cause looking back. it was good. but some of the wording was a lil wonky #adhd #actually adhd #executive dysfunction #actually neurodiverse #adhd paralysis #adult adhd #attention deficit hyperactivity disorder #adhd hacks #academia #neurodivergent #adhd skill regression #confessions of a burnt out gifted kid #<< i guess #former gifted kid #burnt out gifted kid #gifted kid burnout #realizing i sound rly pretentious here sorry -- formal speech patterns i picked up as an autistic child and never put down again haha

[trudlejack]

(+part 2)

#a tale told in three frames… #to everyone who said that other flavours are better should know that i had monster energy like once in my life #and i only did so cause it was the cool thing to do in the alt sphere #but thats all history #im neurodivergent tho so i ended feeling super sleepy afterwards #original art #fanart #digital art #digital illustration #laios dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #dunmeshi laios #dunmeshi #senshi dungeon meshi #senshi dunmeshi #senshi delicious in dungeon #marcille donato #marcille dungeon meshi #marcille dunmeshi #delicious in dungeon marcille #chilchuck #why does chilchuck only have 1 tag??? 😭😭😭😭 #procreate #fan comic #+part2?? isnt that the name of the starving artist game??/j

[tlemo]

hiatus ending + where I've been

Hi there! To the five people that are reading this, you may have been wondering where I've been!

Firstly, I mentioned a hiatus a few months ago for "personal reasons". That personal reason was that I was moving! I won't say where from or where to, but we've been moving. All I'm going to say is that I'm happy to have moved where I am now. We aren't planning on staying for too long, though, so I'd prepare for another hiatus.

That being said, I'm back! Or I'll be back pretty soon. Depends on what your definition of "I'm back" is. I recently switched over to Linux for the first time, and I chose NixOS as my distro. It's been fun so far, but it also means I'm definitely going to have to overcome plenty of obstacles during work.

During the move, I wasn't able to keep a large setup for my desktop. Even now, it's kind of messy, but I now have my drawing tablet again! I'm going to start commissions back up soon, and I would really appreciate anyone sending me one! I am currently unemployed, and while I'm not desperate for money right now, it would be nice to have a source of income I enjoy.

On the other hand, I am also considering streaming! Right now on twitch.tv/tlemo, I've set up a channel where I may stream myself doing art, development, and gaming. If I decide Twitch isn't worth it, I may instead stream on youtube.com/@tlemo5859, but signs are pointing towards Twitch.

To sum it up, I'm back. Stay tuned for content.

#im back #back in black #i hate to say #but it feels good #to be back #cause im #let loose #from the noose

[tadfools]

You guys are commenting on the fics you read right? You’re at least leaving kudos on the Astarion smut and the pairs that have less than 20 fics for them too? You’re bookmarking stories you really like that are still being updated and ones that haven’t been touched in over a year right?

You know that even the smallest interactions are like cocaine to fic writers right? You understand how important a string of emoji hearts left behind on chapter at three am is right?? Right????

You’re treating AO3 like a community and not a content factory….right?

#this isnt bg3 specific btw im seeing a lot of fandoms rotting cause of this #ao3 #archive of our own #bg3 fanfiction #bg3 #PLEASE YOU GUYS INTERACT WITH THE THINGS YOU READ #you’re not being weird or annoying!!! it doesn’t matter how old the fic is!!! #you can just say ‘I love this’ or ‘it’s three am and I haven’t slept yet cause I was reading this’ #you can copy and paste a paragraph you like and add ‘!!!!!!’ after it #theories in the comments! mention when you think you’ve found foreshadowing!!! #if there’s a part where you have to physically put your phone down and smile off into the distantce? TELL THE AUTHOR #you can leave comments every chapter too!!! ITS NOT ANNOYING

[jacobtheloofah]

hell world!!!! hell world!!!! hell world!!!!

#jacob's ramblings #politics #im so fucking sick of this because its not like they actually care about the lives of children #they just hate women and need a cause to rally behind #every anti-abortion politician deserves to have been aborted

[borealiszero]

People should make more doomed by narratives siblings relationship.

Like with lovers you can just sever it and not have it related to you ever again but with siblings how could you?

You grow up with them you raise them or they raised you you both know how unforgiving the world is to both of you? You would die for them but will hate them for doing the same and yet none of you would regret it and both of you know it. They could be the person you loath the most and miss the most cause you still remember how they sneaked a candy into your hands. You can sever the tie but you can never look away at what you've lost, at whom you've lost because fate doesn't allow you to be together, eating dinners in quiet peace, if only there's another life, another time, where i can make you another plate of pancakes i would im sorry im sorry im sorry —

#[borealis.txt] #sorry um. got feels again #just. aughhhhhhhhh #like genyas and sanemis relationship and the brothers in sctir #theyre so fuckin tragic cause god. aaaaaaaaaaaaa #'because my nemi is the best brother' WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO ME!!!!!! #edit: alright you guys can rb this again cause im feeling charitable

[sleepysebris]

:) 🖤

@mlsecretsanta gift for @thequeenofspace! happy belated holidays and apologies for the delay, had a serious family emergency followed by sickness! I had so much fun making this though, was so excited to finally draw these two 🖤 hope you enjoy!!!

#i absolutely believe emo marinette went home and made dolls after seeing the ladybug & chat noir dolls #im assuming adrien's room is the preferred hang out space in this universe #so this is his room and that is his ladybug doll #also obsessed with his quiet blushy personality #assume that when they detransform she laughs at his half-finished makeup cause they forgot what they were doing before they left #and he deserves it for poorly-timed teasing her mid-battle or something #there's the fanfic #ml secret santa 2023 #ml secret santa #miraculous ladybug #ml paris special #adrienette #emo love square #emodrien #my art #my ml comics

[fakakta-art]

worth it

#dc #jason todd #batfam #jim gordon #my art #*comes out of the photoshop app covered in blood* #IM ALIVE I PROMMY #its double funny cause its dean from spn and hes played by jensen ackles who voiced Jason in UTRH haha get it? get it? im very tired.

[sky-is-the-limit]

Okay, dearest followers, be honest.

Which one of your fictional crushes do you truly believe that you could pull irl? Realistically. Taking all factors into account. Whether you were in their universe or not, up to you. But be HONEST.

#a lil game #im really curious #also it can be any fictional character from any piece of media #I'll try to sleep now cause it's 6am but I'll answer them tomorrow!! #or well today idk

[watchingwisteria]

listen there really was just something about how in the book, snow’s 3-page descent from hesitant lover boy to deluded psychopath happens entirely in his mind. lucy gray gives him no indication whatsoever that she suspects him, that she’s going to leave or betray him. he’s just sitting quietly in the cabin waiting for her to return when that seed of calculated suspicion, which he has needed to survive the capitol, takes a hold of him and chokes the life out of any goodness left inside him. it really drives home your terror as a reader that “oh my god did he kill her? did she escape? what happened to her? why would he even think that?” in a way that when the movie had to adjust for visualization it lost some of that holy shit this guy has lost it emphasis.

#seeing some discourse and im not saying lucy grey didnt know #im saying she never dropped the kind of hints that she knew like she did in the movie #or if she did snow isnt worried about them until he very suddenly is consumed by them #snow is not concerned about whether or not she believed him. of course she did! hes snow! #but then shes gone…. for a while…… #and its the sudden immediate drastic unravelling that comes across so clearly in the book #that i knew wouldn’t translate to screen yet still cant help but miss #the hunger games #coriolanus snow #tbosas #lucy gray baird #not a crime or anything just a note that i cannot stop thinking about #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #this is all from memory of reading it quite a while ago. so maybe 3 pages is an exaggeration #but i remember it happening VERY quickly and without much external cause #like we as the reader have no indication as to whether shes nearby or not. #snow has no idea either. he just SUSPECTS. and his suspicion breeds the hatred that has been bubbling inside him all this time #he hates how she undoes him. he hates that he WOULD run away with her if shed let him keep his secrets #and he HATES more than anything that she makes him WANT to tell his secrets #he wants to be vulnerable and reveal the ugly nasty parts about himself and still be loved #but he does not let himself and it is everyone’s downfall #he chooses cruelty bc it is easy and familiar and makes him feel more powerful than the vulnerable give and take that real love requires