#demi rambles

[hushed-chorus]

So, like, meds have made a *huge* difference to my quality of life in a number of ways. But you know what the most unexpected outcome of it has been?

I discovered I have a sense of humour.

I spent years thinking I had the wit and charisma of a plank of wood. After a few weeks on my meds, I started popping out jokes all over the place with friends and family. I even started writing humour into stories and being told *it was funny*.

The thing is, it's not that meds made me funny. It's not some weird side effect akin to seeing Elvis in the fridge or whatever. For years I'd thought of funny things to say, but would spend so long frozen by anxiety, trying to figure out if it was actually funny and not annoying, that the moment would pass.

My meds took that anxiety away. So I just say the joke. And people laugh. I can make people laugh!

I guess what I'm saying is, sometimes meds can help you discover things about yourself that were hidden from you before.

#demi rambles #mental health

[1in5-demigods-agree]

SAPHICS OF TUMBLR:

Yall have failed me!

Was no one gonna tell me that Willow (2022) is not only high fantasy but Gay from the jump, or was I supposed to happen upon it myself

UNACCEPTABLE

#willow (2022) #Kit×Jade #wlw #disney+ #This is right up my alley and I am only finding out about today!! #lesbian #Demi rambles #lgbtq #sapphic

[demi-rxndxm-stxff]

I GOT IT! I GOT IT!! I GOT IT!!

Last weekend, before my dad left for his job in another state (like he always does), I asked if he could buy "The Forgotten warrior" by Erin Hunter from amazon. And he said yes!

We ordered it and it said it would arrive in April 5th. And that was today! I was waiting from 4 in the morning. I wanted pull my hair out.

A few minutes ago, I was listening to music and I heard the faintest sound of the gate opening and I immediately went outside. After I closed the door and started squealing!

I just wanted to ramble about it I'm sorry!

Hollyleaf looks so pretty oml! I just love the new interior!

Quick backstory, I started reading Warrior cats from Omen Of The Starts "Night Whispers", but I still know most of the stuff that happens before that through yt vids.

So, I'm so sorry for wasting your time! I just love the series and wanted to ramble about it.

#warrior cats #omen of the stars #hollyleaf #warrior cats hollyleaf #Demi Rambles

[anxiousdemifaemess]

making crochet to sell is just like,,, So anxiety inducing to me. like. i understand why its expensive. i understand why crochet is so much money. i would absolutely pay fair price to another crocheter asking, say, $40 for a scarf. but if IM asking for $40 for a scarf- pfft! im in tears. shaking. crying. sobbing. why would i ask anyone for this much?? it is an Easy Project. i Had Fun Making It. please please please dont make me sell it for what its Actually Worth,,,

(i will sell it for what its worth but i will cry the whole time)

#demi rambles #crochet talk

[aspec-helpless-romantic]

I wish there was a dating app/site that focused on people on the aroace spectrum.

Like, not a full-on dating app.

Just somewhere where it'd be normal for me to come on and say "Hey, I'm demi-aroace, so I don't like you like that right away, but I'd love to meet new friends, and have a chance to develop deeper feelings while the other side is aware that it's a possibility and something I'm looking for!"

Somewhere for other aspec people to come to look for platonic/queer-platonic life partners.

Somewhere where it wouldn't be weird to look for purely platonic relationships with sex and relationships that are romantic but without the sexual aspect.

Somewhere where being open about being queer (with a focus on the aroace spectrum), being disabled, or any other thing that isn't "normal" and accepted in the typical dating pool, y'know?

Maybe we should all go back to making and being active in forums so it wouldn't be tied to someone having to work for hours to create a functional and marketable app :/

#demi aromantic #asexual #ace #demiaro #aromantic #aro #demiaroace #aroace #aspec #arospec #acespec #aroace spectrum #aroace stuff #aroace dating #dating on aspectrum #aspec dating #aspec romance #demi ace #demi aroace #queer platonic relationship #queer platonic attraction #queer platonic love #queer #dating apps #rambles

[bara-izu]

Rotating him in the washing machine with my headcannons

#tbf i should have used the demi flag but you get the idea #astarion #baldurs gate 3 #dont mind me okay #bg3 rambles

[hellfyire]

i love steve who struggles to differentiate between romantic and platonic feelings

when he feels so intensely, but cant tell if he wants to date someone or be their bestfriend

steve who was like, obviously these strong feelings i have for robin are bc i wanna date her

only to find out that wont be possible, but hes just as happy, even more tbh, being her bestfriend. steve being soo excited he gets to hang out and be close with robin and he doesnt even have to kiss her or anything!!!

and steve thinking he wants to be bestfriends with guys. wants to be bestfriends with eddie. wants to be able to be close to him. and doesnt really think about how he never feels close enough to eddie.

steve getting to kiss eddie and being like "oh. OH. OOH!" bc he realises he wants to be eddies boyfriend.

#steddie #stobin #steve harrington #eddie munson #robin buckley #hellfyire rambles #i love bi steve! i love demi steve!!! #steve who feels the same (but not) about women and men

[book-tease]

why is issac crying oh shit 😭 i’m so excited for his storyline but i will probably cry

#mia rambles #heartstopper #is it gonna make me cry like loveless did who knows #lowkey loveless made me realize im demi so im so excited to see how issacs story turns out

[lilqu33rboi]

So this is kinda random but I haven't seen a definition for "choice verbal" in an autistic context ANYWHERE, nor have I seen a list of all of the verbal labels for autistic people, so here's a list in order (imo) of least-most verbal. Also, this is speaking in general terms, so don't come at me saying "well in this context this verbal label can also mean..." because likely I know that already and I'm just trying to keep the definitions as all-encompassing as possible.

(Also a quick disclaimer: most autistic people can temporarily lose speech occasionally due to shutdowns or other reasons, regardless of their usual verbal status.)

Nonverbal- unable to speak at all, ever, or having extreme difficulties in doing so, therefore making AAC a more comfortable option in most cases.

Limited-verbal- using spoken language in limited settings and purposes

Semi-verbal- only being able to speak in specific circumstances OR showing moderate difficulty speaking most of the time; some use AAC & some don't.

Verbalflux- people who fluctuate between full-verbal, semi-verbal, & limited-verbal

Demiverbal-

- Can reliably speak most of the day for most days of the week

- Verbal shutdowns happen anywhere from a few times a week to a few times a month, possibly for no apparent reason

- May experience some level of difficulty with mouth words, anywhere between slight difficulty only a little of the time to half the time

Choice verbal- Having the full ablility to speak (with the exception of autistic shutdowns and the like), but choosing not to speak in uncomfortable and/or overwhelming situations due to significant overwhelm, lack of understanding social cues, or other reasons.

Full-verbal- Having the full ablility to speak (with the exception of autistic shutdowns and the like), and choosing to do so as much as they are comfortable. (The same as most neurotypical/allistic people.)

Hyperverbal- Having the full ability to speak (with the exception of autistic shutdowns and the like), and (wether by choice or on accident) speaking more often than verbal autistics/allistic people.

Feel free to tell me if I got anything wrong or if I missed anything! (Pls no hate, though, and use tone tags!)

#choice verbal #choiceverbal #demi-verbal #demiverbal #asd #actually autistic #autism spectrum disorder #autism #autistic spectrum #nonverbal #semi verbal #hyperverbal #thoughts #rambles #ramblings

[demiesworld]

do y'all ever read your own smut and get just slightly turned on by what you wrote? im having that dilemma rn from reading that jjk office sex shit and toji eating the pussy fic. i might sound arrogant but damn that's some hot stuff.

#demies rambles #toji smut #jjk smut #gojo smut #nanami smut #geto smut #sukuna smut #jjk #black writer

[greenieflor]

Demisexual!Steve is everything to me so have some of whatever this is

Steve didn’t really get the appeal of sex. He never had. It was fine in middle school, he would laugh at the stupid jokes Tommy H made and parrot back some version of his own, not quite understanding what he was saying. That didn’t matter, though; it made people laugh and clap him on the back. Then they got to high school. Tommy and Carol had been together “long enough to ask her, dontcha think?” Steve didn’t quite know what Tommy was going to ask her, but figured it didn’t hurt to agree. Now, Steve wasn’t stupid, he knew what sex was. At least, in the abstract. When he had asked his parents at age nine where babies come from, all he got was an “ask your mother” and a “oh you’ll find out when you’re older.” His health class sputtered through a quick, and frankly kinda gross, biological explanation and that was it. So yes, Steve knew what sex was, he just didn’t get the appeal. He figured one day, when he was married he would have sex- he did want six kids after all. But outside of some future marriage, Steve really couldn’t be bothered to care about sex. 

As high school progressed, Steve went on more and more dates. He enjoyed flirting and was pretty damn good at it. He learned to be good at other things, too. How to unhook a bra in one move, where to kiss a girl’s neck to make her go wild, even learned how to like having sex. But despite the growing number of notches in his bedpost (and his growing reputation as a bit of a slut) Steve Harrington still didn’t get it. Until he met Nancy Wheeler. With Nancy, it was different. It took them a little longer to fall into bed together, Steve was surprised at how much he wanted it with her. He had never actively wanted to sleep with someone like this, and it had never taken so long for it to happen. When they did sleep together, Steve finally understood. He got what people meant when they talked about sex. Up until this point he had enjoyed it, sure, it felt good and was kinda fun, but he hadn’t felt the desire, the emotional release that came with sex. After the dust had settled from Nancy breaking up with him, Steve figured he had cracked the code. He started taking more time with the girls he went out with, waiting until the third or fourth date to take them to bed. It just wasn’t the same though. He felt like he was back at square one, just going through the motions, except now he knew how good it could be. He knew how great it could feel and he just didn’t understand why he couldn’t get that back. He graduated, got the job at Scoops Ahoy, and soon after meeting Robin thought that maybe, just maybe, he had found it again. That feeling of wanting. But it wasn’t quite the same. There wasn’t that same heat when he looked at Robin. After their conversation on the bathroom floor he knew why. He loved her, maybe more than he’d ever loved anyone, but it wasn’t the same as when he loved Nancy. As we have already established, Steve wasn’t stupid. He just didn’t care too much about school. But after Robin came out, he ended up reflecting heavily on who he was in high school. The things he laughed at, the slurs he had thrown just to fit in. So, on a day off, he drove down to Indy to go to their library, already knowing that the Hawkins library would have jackshit on queerness. He was nervous about asking for help, he never really paid attention when Nancy would tell him how the cataloguing system worked at the library, but he recognized the pink triangle pin one of the librarians had from something Robin had shown him a few weeks before. He finds what he’s looking for deep in the stacks and takes a few books to a small table tucked away in the corner and starts reading. And reading. Steve devours the books he pulled, barely noticing the growing headache or setting sun until that same librarian comes over to tell him they are closing in twenty minutes and “did you find what you were searching for?” “Yeah. Yeah I think I did.” Steve waits. He thinks. Looks back on his past relationships and wonders. He talks to Robin, but neither of them have the right words. Summer was over, his kids were in school and suddenly all they could talk about was this Eddie guy they played D&D with. Steve, despite his growing jealousy, has to admit he respects the guy a bit. Anyone who looks out for his kids is good in his book. And then spring break happens. A month later, Eddie is finally released from the hospital and Steve insists on taking him back to his house- his parents left a long time ago and made it very clear they had no plans to return. Steve checks Eddie’s stitches every day and the two start to grow closer. Love never sneaks up on Steve, it hits him all at once. Eddie had been living with him for a week when he was finally up to DMing a short game and seeing all the kids again. The house was filled with noise and laughter for the first time in years and Steve thought he couldn’t be happier. The night came to a close and the kids started heading home and suddenly it was just Eddie and Steve, sitting side by side on the couch with the debris of the night spread around them. Eddie collapsed into Steve’s side, letting out a sigh and a “god I love those kids but they are so damn loud.” And that’s when it hits him. He loves Eddie. Has for a while now, probably. And that is what was missing from all those attempted dates in high school. That’s what he had with Nancy that made it so different. What made it hurt that much more to lose. But he still didn’t have the right words. So he smiled, brushed a lock of Eddie’s hair behind his ear, and pulled him into his side. They could find the words together.

Update: wrote some ace!eddie!

#lav rambles #oh shit i don't have a writing tag #steddie #steddie ficlet #listen i didn't know where this was gonna end up #but here we are #demisexual steve #demi steve #asexuality used to just be considered the same as bisexuality #basically #so i figure demisexuality would be kinda similar #but not quite #uhhhh #eddie munson #steve harrington #platonic stobin #just a touch

[1in5-demigods-agree]

Y'know the cool thing about the PJO show coming out in 2024, is I get relive my childhood while getting drunk of my ass.

#percy jackson #pjo disney+ #pjo tv show #percy jackon and the olympians #but seriously 8 year old me is screaming #I've waited 12 years I can wait 2 more #demi rambles

[dandydemidoesfandoms]

When I tell you this scene is so damn precious.

It's so justifiably heavy, but it somehow makes you feel like you are floating between the ticks of the clock.

Just the relief. They aren't clinging to each other with a feral desperation of someone, afraid and insecure, who doesn't know how to express themselves anymore.

They are embracing each other, getting lost in the absolute heady brilliance of their feelings, finally bare and open. This is bliss.

Boun and Prem put their whole foot in these scenes. Just 🤌🏾✨️.

#between us #bl drama #winteam #bounprem #intimacy #dandy demi rambles

[dreamingofspring]

Brennan knew exactly what the fuck he was doing to so many of us when he set up Oisin as being this physics wiz kid beer pong master and mentioning he fucks up THE REST OF THE NIGHT after ONE conversation with Adaine

#d20 #fantasy high #fhjy spoilers #fantasy high junior year #oisin hakinvar #adaine abernant #adaine o'shaughnessey #oisaine #fhjy #please dear god do not let him be evil #please they're so cute autism4autism #ace4ace wizard couple my beloved #demi aroace adaine with her first crush and mistaking it for anxiety my beloved #the idea that oisin had an interest in her since freshman year my beloved #christina.txt #i rambled to my friend about them and they are not leaving my brain

[shadesofdeviant]

Random 9-1-1 Thoughts

Listen, I love Buddie. I've been a Buddie clown since Eddie's very first episode. Buck made a face at Eddie getting dressed, Whatta man played and I went "...well shit" as my fingers took a life of their own and started writing fic.

I also adore BuckTommy, Or TEvan or whatever wierd name we're going with. The chemistry was beautiful, it felt natural and passionate in a way none of Buck's previous relationships have and I am HERE for it.

But if we are going to get Eddie having a sexuality crisis of his own...

Do you know what I'd like to happen? For Eddie to be somewhere on the Ace spectrum. whether sexual or romantic or both.

The man who has only really felt comfortable both romantically and physically with his late wife who was his high school sweetheart.

Who forms strong platonic friendships that to most outsiders might look romantic or flirtatious in nature, but the concept of which never crosses his mind.

Who moves too fast and fails to let that bond develop, or pushes himself into doing what society/family expects of him and then wonders why he ends up having literal panic attacks.

This man says he hates being forced to date, who stresses about performing normally on them. He judges his eligibility with women based on how much time he wants to spend with them, based on the idea of them, how much his kid likes them, not because they're attractive or he feels a connection with them. Who complains that sex complicates things, who gets teased mercilessly by the others for not being good at dating or knowing what to do. Who freaks out at the idea of being set up on dates and then promptly drops said blind date like a hot potato and yet somehow ends up with a new friend.

I'd adore for Buddie to go canon.

I'd adore for BuckTommy to remain canon.

I would go feral for Queer Platonic Buddie (maybe with extra Tommy) where Eddie comes to terms with the fact he's not broken or weird, that he's perfectly fine just the way he is, that he doesn't need to follow societal norms and can get everything he needs from those around him without having to throw himself into something alloromantic/sexual.

I also really feel like I need to write this so...I guess it's on the list haha.

#rintrash #9-1-1 #Eddie Diaz #Evan 'Buck' Buckley #Buddie #Tommy Kinard #BuckTommy #I am an acespectrum!Eddie truther #Whether thats ace or aro or demi or gray etc. #I see so much of myself in him at times #This is just me rambling haha #Feel free to ignore me

[albino-parakeet]

I don't know what the bubble these three characters together fit in my head is called but they're there.

(The first picture is the same character, there was an art style change. The one of the left is from the first volume and the one on the right is from I think one of the last volumes. I just love both of them lol.)

#ajin demi human #birdmen manga #the summer hikaru died #hikaru ga shinda natsu #Kei nagai #karasuma eishi #yoshiki tsujinaka #The bubble is unofficially called “Manga I love that have fantastic art styles” for now lol. #A quick look at all three's wiki and all of them start with some form of “not great at socializing with others” so that's something lol #i'm just rambling