#friendship vent

[venting-valentine]

failing friendship

so somewhere near the beginning of january i told my best friend that i felt like our friendship was fading.

i started feeling a disconnect and my mental health was declining. i sat with those feeling for two months because i thought they would pass and i was afraid of seeming over dramatic.

one day out of the blue she told me that she was grateful to have me as a friend. this made me feel confident in our friendship again, so i told her how i was feeling. i was also in a very good mood that day. i finally thought i was getting better.

this caused her to not talk to me for like two weeks and then send me a long paragraph basically saying we should meet up sometime soon in person.

mind you we hadn’t seen each other in about a month and the last time we hung out i was so nervous i made myself sick.

it was super awkward and i’ve never seen her that nervous before. we told each other everything we wanted to say and made no progress.

i gave her a week to process everything and then reached out to meet up again, which unfortunately didn’t work out due to my work schedule.

i gave it another week and eventually just told her everything i felt through voice messages because i was fed up. it was lingering in my mind and i just wanted to makes some progress.

selfish of me, i know.

she responded the next morning saying she would get back to me either that evening or the next day.

it has now been a full week and still no word from her.

it doesn’t make me feel like she wants to try to fix our friendship. it feels like she’s trying to ignore me and hope that i just drop everything, which i think is a cowardice move.

i would rather she tells me she doesn’t want to be friends anymore directly instead of leading me on.

when we are at standstills like this it just confuses me and i don’t know how to feel. i don’t know whether to be frustrated and grieve or just pretend that we are still friends and that everything is fine.

what sucks even more is i told her to be direct with me.

it makes me a little bit sad because so many empty words that have amounted to nothing.

i think i just have to move on, but what i hate is a part of me is still so naive to believe that maybe she's just busy.

i feel like an abandoned dog waiting for its owners to come home.

#tw vent #vent #vent blog #vent post #personal vent #friendship vent #venting #feel like such a little bitch #i’ve been bottling this up for awhile now

[cacophonyofcrimson]

ahah wow sure does suck when someone u’ve trusted with ur deepest secrets to just disappears out of ur life.

no word, no warning.

there is such a hole where u’ve left. such a fucking hole. never in my wildest dreams did i imagine this would be the slow ghost that was clearly so well-planned. i always, always hoped u’d tell me. talk to me. yell at me.

anything besides this silence.

i miss u so much.

#friendship vent #trauma vent #personal vent #vent post #vent blog #[ bog boy. ]

[vanting]

Howdy, the names Angel, I'm 18

Always in distress

Venting page cuz i have no friends and my therapist is nonexistent

#blog intro #friendship vent #vent post #tw vent #personal vent #venting #vent

[m4esventacc]

i love being my friend group’s inside joke (what if all theyre saying is true)

#vent #friendship vent

[heebiekeewiejeebies]

Are you so introverted that you don’t rlly have any skills with making friends ??? But you do have a irl friend group, but you feel like you’re annoying + uninteresting so you become distant??? Then one day you meet someone online with similar interests, someone who you find surprisingly easy to talk to, who you talk to (and/or voice chat with) almost every day??

I have, sometimes if he’d notice I was quiet or something he would check up on me, usually I just keep to myself and don’t go looking for any reassurance, but I appreciated him a lot. I wouldn’t constantly vent to him, my issues are mainly anxiety(I don’t suffer from depression), I do have some trauma that I never shared with anyone, so I usually just told him stuff like “I feel like I’m being annoying” and other similar stuff, I mean, when he reassured me I would usually trust his words. i do have my imperfections, everyone does, but I try not to make my insecurities anyone’s problems.

Anyways I would look forward with talking to him everyday, he told me that too. We would share our art with eachother without fearing judgement, we would say shit like “ONG I M EATING UR ART”, we have almost the same sense of humour, similar interests and allat,, I remember feeling like I wasn’t alone and I was grateful for him, he also showed that he had interest in me as a friend. I mean, I wasn’t totally alone like we had others in the same group.

I forgot to mention that we all met on the same day, I had a twt acc with 2000+ followers(triguntwt) and I was like HEY GUYS I MADE A MINECRAVT SERVER and ppl joined, but myself and several other ppl clicked and we ended up making a discord server, it still exists yea, but 2 ppl (including him) aren’t in the friend group and some others are busy, those who are still here I’m still in contact with.

But anyways,,, he grew distant 2 months after we became friends, I asked him what’s going on and it was just personal irl stuff, I asked if he needed space and i did as such. I would have small interactions like once a week, but I was like so afraid we would drift apart, but I guess we were the moment he started distancing. In July, a month after that happened, I kind of just avoided interaction bc of something else and he cut off all contact with the group bc he lost the connection plus he was just overwhelmed, honestly i understand that.

Honestly, I was shaken up, I guess I should’ve knew it would happen but I wasn’t like, sobbing. I didn’t immediately start crying. I did once it settled in, but I knew I had to move on. I kind of just kept to myself a little and was just recovering, he was kind of the only person who I felt almost fully comfortable with, and I still blame myself, usually I find myself wishing I never met him, because I just didn’t want to experience this, and I have a feeling he felt a lot of guilt. I never once felt any anger or resentment towards him for this, because I don’t blame him, i just kind of learned the harsh truth that not all friendships last.

So like, I’m not alone right now, the original ppl in the group kind of moved on like, with life and allat, but we’re still in contact and there is some new ppl too. I’m sort of realizing that I might not rlly miss him, since I don’t rlly want to talk to him again, I just miss those memories and the sense of having a ‘close’ friendship. Deep down I know that I can move on, I will meet someone else, I will heal. It’s now 2024 and my goal is to try to heal as much as possible, but it will take time i know. Also I should note that I’m not interested in seeing how he’s doing nowadays, there’s no point in that plus I don’t want to hurt myself anymore

I know I said I’m not actually alone, but I feel alone. This post is already long enough so that’s abt it for now LMAO

#tw vent #cw vent #personal vent #friendship vent #mental health #friends #loneliness

[nameforthemain]

fairly long vent about friendships as a warning

watching my brother interact with his friends is just so mind-blowing because it's amazing and everything I'd want and yet I've never been able to get anything close, honestly wouldn't think it possible if I didn't see my brother manage it so successfully.

he'll just drop over to their houses for the night organised in that day. go to a house party at least once a week because his friends throw them all the time and they always want him there. even now we're in holiday on a different continent and his friend happens to be on holiday nearby, so she just invited him over for dinner at their resort and her mum is willing to pick him up from town and bring him back to eat and chat with them and it's just so amazing?

and I just... want it so much. I know it takes a certain amount of confidence to suggest these meet ups, but I've done that. Nobody's going to invite me so I've pushed my limits and done the suggesting. And that's where the difference in our friends really shows, because his will do everything they can to make it happen and the two of them can find something that works and have a great time! whereas all my life, if I suggest hanging out with my friends, all I get is 'yeah we totally should do that!' and so if I want it to happen, I have to make it happen, I have to work around their schedule to suggest a time, date, activity and by then it's got to be 3 weeks away or something because they won't suggest dates or reply quickly or anything to make it easier to actually do it. And there's only so much of that I can take before it doesn't even become worth it to meet up with them, because all I get is the vibe that they don't actually want to meet, they're just doing it because I've organised it for them. (Not to mention the times where I've organised it, shown up, then half of them are no shows and only say they're cancelling last minute when I chase them up)

It's just so frustrating, I just want friends I can meet up with and do stuff with, friends I'd happily call with at anytime, even if I usually hate impromptu calls, friends whose houses I could just drop over at and friends who would invite me places without making it seem like a burden or an afterthought to invite me. I literally just want to be close with someone and yet I've never fully managed it

#i got so close to getting it once #had an awesome friend group and we'd text every day and randomly call to talk #then two of them fell out for reasons i still don't know and it all fell apart. one only texted me to ask about the other person #one of them stopped talking immediately as soon as the gc was gone #and the final one still talks to me but it's not the same and it's like... i wasn't part of the fall out so why did my life have to change #but that's always the way. every friend I've had in 21 years has slowly ditched me because of other events and nothing i do can stop it #no matter how hard I try #peppa talks #friendship vent #again. I'm sorry

[thoughtsofapessimistttt]

If I’m too much, go find less tf

#feelings #life stuff #thoughts 💭 #relationship #love #mine #friendship #vent #you’re not too much baby #could never be #quotes #love quotes #life quotes #relationship quotes #friendship quotes #self love #lit #motivational #literature #in my feels #coping #relatable

[nfsdiaryy]

#feelings #life stuff #thoughts 💭 #relationship #love #mine #friendship #vent #you’re not too much baby #could never be #quotes #love quotes #life quotes #relationship quotes #friendship quotes #self love #lit #motivational #literature #in my feels #coping

[hel7l7]

We used to be so close Now I don't know where you are

#vent art #venting #missing #longing #losing #friendship #mixed media

[cacophonyofcrimson]

i wonder how many of my “friends” would just drift out of my life 4ever if i stopped reaching out first.

#+ this crow’s cawin’ #vent post #personal vent #vent blog #friendship vent

[vanting]

I wish there was a way I could describe the absolute devastation that I've felt in the past 3 hours, but alas, there is none.

#personal vent #tw vent #vent post #friendship vent #vent #venting

[peterokii]

high school trauma or why i cant make friends

#vent #personal #toxic friendship #adhd rsd

[carouselunique]

Good question! Especially since these two are the only Mane Six who would largely have a similar dynamic to canon because they knew each other as kids.

Fluttershy felt bad for Rainbow Dash at first, though Dash never took the prestigious job of Chief Weathermare to Ponyville seriously it seemed to upset her to lose her position and have to go back to being a regular weather worker.

It didn’t affect Rainbow Dash’s quality of life or anything, it was more of a pride wounded situation. It might’ve been unimportant in the face of constantly practicing to be a Wonderbolt, but being replaced and demoted means she’s not the best - she didn’t take this job seriously until she lost it. Fluttershy knows that being the best at what she does means a lot to Rainbow and was always willing to listen to Rainbow Dash vent.

… Which is when she started to wonder to herself “… Hey, Rainbow, do you fancy your replacement just a little bit?”

Even if she doesn’t, and Fluttershy goes back and forth on whether she thinks the vitriol is homoerotic or just normal exaggerated RD shit talk, Fluttershy finds it amusing that Rainbow Dash has all this smoke for just a nice girl. Sunny Rays just exists and Rainbow Dash has to talk to Fluttershy about all the aggravating shit she does like ‘Say good morning’, ‘literally just do her job’ and ‘keeps adjusting her dumb hat’

#my sketches #my little pony #sunny rays #Rainbow Dash #Fluttershy #mlp #mlp g4 #mlpfim #mlp fim #my little pony friendship is magic #swap six #side stars au #Flutterdash #mlp Sunny Rays #my art #Fluttershy (internally): This constant venting about your coworker is a little ✨💅🏳️‍🌈🍉🍒🍓🍊

[sl8tersstuff]

They ask me what’s the matter and I lie because the truth is they don’t feel what I feel and I know they never will.

#deep thoughts #quotes #life quote #poem #poetry #quote #quoteoftheday #literacy #words #writing #understanding #venting #vent #self identity #mental health #friendship

[incognitopolls]

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[nameforthemain]

just a mini vent/rant thing to get out before bed

(online friends this does not include you, I love you all and you have my heart)

so like... what does it take to have close irl friendships that actually last?? I know I shouldn't use my birthday as a judge because it is exam season and most of my friends are getting ready for final and most important exams at the moment. It's a busy period and I can totally get why they wouldn't remember but it's still like... nobody remembered.

I don't even talk to my primary school friends so I get why they didn't. my secondary school friends used to forget my birthday even when we were still in school and I would be sat right in front of them all day as a reminder. And I don't think my uni friends even knew my birthday because I stopped telling people unless they asked. My work friends knew though, I told them literally a week ago but they forgot.

And I used to have one friend in secondary school who remembered. She was the busiest of all my friends but she always remembered and made gifts and sent long texts first thing in the morning to wish me a happy birthday. But she didn't this year; we hardly talk at this point because she's too busy to reply, but the last time we talked was 2 months ago when I wished her a happy birthday. I'm not like, hurt or hating her for not saying anything, because she's the sweetest friend and given how little we talk at the moment it's understandable... it just feels like the end of an era though.

The one friend I could always count on to remember didn't remember. And sure I've got online friends now and a few people irl who did remember so I still got plenty of happy birthday messages to keep me smiling and feeling loved but it's like... these are all relatively new people, what more can I do to keep everyone in my life? what do I have to do to have friends that I don't grow apart from with time? is it even possible for people to want to stay in my life like... why am I the only one trying with my old friends when they seem to stay in touch so easily with each other? I just want some friendships that actually last a lifetime, but I can't seem to get it

#random talks #friendship vent #there's just a lot on my mind that comes up every year #gonna get worse not I'm not doing things to distract myself #maybe delete later