#health nonsense

[dalesramblingsblog]

Alright let's try this again, because I think my initial attempt at announcing the new status quo for the blog and my personal life was perhaps a bit too optimistic and promised a bit too much at times.

So, long story short, I probably have some sort of ME/CFS and/or long COVID from getting infected last May. I don't have a formal diagnosis yet, but I have seen a GP who acknowledged it as a very strong possibility, and I suspect it's just a case of jumping through the necessary procedural hoops at this point. I have decided to interrupt my studies for the foreseeable future, as I don't see myself getting better in the four days before classes start up on Monday, and any hope that I might be able to function is honestly so far-fetched and abstract that it might as well be expressed as a mathematical equation.

The hit that this has landed on my employment prospects is, I imagine, not good, and so the Ko-fi is really the only feasible way I have of earning anything approaching a living, at least until I can get around to applying for disability pensions or something. I'm lucky enough to have parents who are able to support me and provide me with a place to stay and take care of the essentials, but that's not to say that that extra bit of support wouldn't still be welcome.

In my first attempt at making this post, I said I'd like to do some shorter, less intensive Ko-fi exclusive posts about Big Finish's main range of audio dramas, and I would still like to do that... but I equally want to stress that I can't make any promises to that effect with how unpredictable my condition can be from day-to-day. I'd still definitely consider adding some form of Thank You tab to the sidebar of my blog shouting out recent donations, so, y'know. There's that.

So yes, that's basically all I have to say. I feel really irrationally guilty in writing this post, as I still can't get over that nagging little voice that tells me I'm just begging for money. But, y'know, given how shitty I feel, I think I just have to tell myself that I might just be allowed to beg a little. Anyway, thank you for all the support, and I hope you'll understand if my productivity might not be quite what it once was while I sort this out.

#dale's ramblings #health nonsense #btw happy 300th post #wish it was under happier circumstances but w/e

[redditreceipts]

I really love this instagram post specifically because the person asking the question is simultaneously making the answer impossible. If they had worded it normally ("Almost all women menstruate - so, why is there still so much stigma?"), the answer would have been obvious - only women menstruate, and because of misogyny, normal female bodily processes are stigmatised. But by not acknowledging this reality in the "info" graphic, we will never reach a conclusion - the question will forever remain unanswered.

So why does menstruation still remain stigmatised? It's disgust towards the female anatomy and the imperative towards women to hide their female physiology. It's the shame and humiliation that is hammered into every little girl's brain when she discovers that she is female, and her realisation that she will have to make her female body appear presentable if she does not want to risk social ostracisation. That's the reason. And unless we understand the direct link between female anatomy, reproductive capability and misogyny, we are never going to solve that problem.

So yeah, that's what we mean when we say that gender-inclusive language is robbing us of our words. That's it.

#radblr #radfem #rad fem #radical feminist #safe #radfems please touch #radical feminists do interact #menstruation #female reproductive health #radical feminism #radical feminists please touch #feminism #gc feminist #reproductive justice #reproductive health #reproductive rights #tra receipts #tra nonsense #tra bullshit

[thedomesticanthropologist]

The abandonment wound that turns into a deep, never healing "I want someone to take care of me" is just

So

Big sometimes

And so often we become the one who takes care of people - those of us with this wound.

The hard thing is, learning how to take care of yourself really well doesn't heal it. Learning how to ask for help when you need it doesn't heal it. Learning to live with it doesn't heal it.

Nothing really does, when that "step" in your early childhood was either missed, mishandled, or otherwise fumbled spectacularly enough to cause this kind of wound. It's hard in complicated cases too, where you were cared for in many ways but maybe not the one that mattered. Or you were cared for in ever way but inconsistently. Or it was from a source that betrayed or abandoned you, even if you were handed off immediately to someone else that took care of you. There is no wrong way to receive this wound, nor is there a competition for who gets to feel it the hardest or the deepest.

But those who have it recognize each other, I think. We do, even if we don't know what it is we are recognizing. Even if the wounds were caused in different ways, even if our stories look so very different.

"I want someone to take care of me"

It may just always be there, in some way or another. It may even be unwanted, where you can't articulate it or you become hyper independent. It may be desperately wanted and cause clinging and limerance and all those painful things. It may be witnessed and cared for and managed by someone who sees their wound and does all the 'right' things.

But it doesn't really ever leave, does it

And we find each other, don't we?

#abandonment trauma #childhood trauma #mental health #healing #thoughts #rambles #mutterings #nonsense before bedtime

[faeriekit]

Ooooo you wanna read Health and Hybrids so bad

#health and hybrids #faer nonsense #dp x dc

[wheelqueer]

why do disabled people have to be perfect victims to get sympathy? either we’re lazy for rotting in bed all day or we’re faking our disability because disabled people can’t do things. they are disgusted by our blood but love to watch us bleed

#chronic fatigue #chronic illness #chronic pain #disability #disabled #wheelchair user #wheelchair #autoimmune #celiac #cfs (chronic fatigue syndrome) #mental health #ableism #ableist nonsense

[salty-an-disco]

I love the shifting mound so much. have I ever told you guys how much I love the shifting mound? because I love the shifting mound

#she’s so aoskosmdoemeodme #yeeeeeessssss girl. talk philosophy about the very nature of reality and how existence itself is built with perception with me!!! #I need her to do a philosophy podcast. I need it for my health #stp-posting #slay the princess #the shifting mound #stp princess #sal’s nonsense

[cockyroaches]

Getting into DC/marvel is a fucking nightmare bc you look into a random character to check what they're about and it's like "they were horrifically tortured as a child. They hated their life so much they sold their soul to the devil. In one iteration they get cannibalized but it's fine that's not canon anymore. They're engaged"

And it's all about some fucker named Murder Piñata.

#do u know what looking up mirror master and the presence's backstories Did to my mental health. #well it certainly wasnt as bad as whatever the fuck the 'black manta was autistic but they cured him but he went insane after' nonsense #bitch mantis #dc #marvel

[resiliencewithin]

I 👏🏻 am 👏🏻 not 👏🏻 useless 👏🏻

#god fucking damn it #get that nonsense out of your head this instance missy #mental health #mental illness #self love

[hellaace-purpleperson]

If you don't like Noah Schnapp, it's fine. If you want to stop watching ST, it's fine. If you don't root for byler anymore, it's fine. Do whatever you want, but I am tired of people shitting on Noah and ST and byler on the fucking byler tag. So get the fuck out of this tag because this is really getting on my nerve. Thank you

#byler #Im tired of people whose not even relate to this war and conflict just ruing my day in the byler tag #and I keep trolling them in the comments but its like arguing with a fucking brick okay #my main language is not english so pls ignore my grammar mistakes thx #Keep it out of the fucking tag omg #Just a disclaimer that I still love Noah ST and byler #Okay I hope to never troll anyone about this situation again but my changes are sooooooo low #a most necessary edit to the tags #But i have been vibing in the byler tag and block everyone who speak this kind of nonsense in the tag #Doing wonders for my mental health #warmly recommended

[y-rhywbeth2]

I used to be so calm about this ship: It was an exaggeration of a few scraps of in-game stuff; It was all in my head; It was fun but I shouldn't get obnoxiously attached because it wasn't real-real, platonically or romantically, and one day Larian might release more dialogue that would puncture my bubble of fun a bit (no big deal, just an "aw" moment).

And then Larian did release more dialogue and the floodgates opened; I am unhinged forever now. It took five lines to ruin me.

#“One day they might make durgetash OOC” Then Larian makes it VERY IN-CHARACTER #I am STILL. High. on this. Bullshit. #BuZZZing #The endorphins have given me a temporary 24-hour+ reprieve from the crushing weight of reality and mental health oh my god #I AM CORRECT IN ALL THINGS #babbling #/durge #/gortash #/durgetash #villainous nonsense

[dalesramblingsblog]

Genuinely just crying now because I had to cancel some social plans at the last minute due to my fatigue and I feel so damned guilty. I know it's irrational but that doesn't stop the feeling.

#health nonsense

[thedomesticanthropologist]

This isn't the same as sobriety, but I've made it 8 days now into recording my food/water intake on Lifesum, which is an app I'm using to help me with my binge eating and my dehydration

I've made it 32 days on it before, last year, so this isn't new, but I struggle with consistency and I'm pretty proud to have made it this last week because:

1) I've had the recommended amount of water every single day since starting

2) I've only ripped off cheese chunks from the brick of cheese with my bare hands and eaten them naked in the kitchen at 2am twice instead of every night

3) I'm eating a few times a day now instead of nothing until dinner and then slamming 2k+ calories into my face and getting tummy hurty

4) I have not yet corrected, but am now aware of the fact that I've been eating very low nutritional value foods that are high salt, and that's good information to be aware of. So I've had more fruit the last couple days

So yeah! Idk, I'm pleased. Not sure how long I'll keep it up but for now it's been good

#health update #lifesum app #not a diet just trying to be aware of what im doing #and as a result my behaviors are improving cause like #i have to witness my own nonsense #hahaha

[faeriekit]

SOMEBODY (me) but I'm not naming names (me) had to go to the hospital today (me) to get their blood taken out AGAIN (ME). They gave me a little bracelet with my legal name and everything. Now that I've been visited by the medical care fairy, I'm in the mood to write a Hybrids chapter, but I don't trust that asshole (me) to stay on target without support. If you have the energy, shoot me a medical experience? It doesn't even have to be yours. If you have an interesting medical story to share, feel free shoot it to me—just don't doxx yourself, pretty please.

#it was outpatient there wasn't an emergency #*sadly whips and naynays* #health and hybrids #faer nonsense #ask games

[note-boom]

Kyouka: dramatically jumps off a train

Atsushi: dramatically jumps off a blimp and a boat

Dazai: dramatically jumps off buildings and bridges

Kunikida: dramatically jumps off a helicopter

Guys. Please stop dramatically jumping off things

#am i missing anyone from the ada because i feel like i am.... #ranpo started it by dramatically getting himself kidnapped and rescued btw #and yosano dramatically fell off her sanity and mental health but shes better now #anyway it'll be a week or so before i can get back to posting immediately #i still havent watched the episode actually but all i could think of... #anyway i love these dramatic weirdos #bsd #bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs #bsd musings #humor #bsd kyouka #bsd atsushi #bsd dazai #bsd kunikida #bsd season 4 #bsd s4 spoilers #bsd spoilers #spitting nonsense

[curioscurio]

A comic about self loathing and weird metaphors that may or may not make sense

#artofcassafrass #original comic #i struggle a lot with expressing my negative emotions so nonsense 3 am comic time babey #mental health #cw self loathing #cw self deprecation #cw depression #i guess? #ask to tag

[idoodlestuffsometimes]

Thank God, you didn't give Caleb a crusty lip.

You fool! You've fallen into my trap; did you think I forgot your suggestion of Bald Caleb? Now we can have the glorious Bald Caleb and Crusty Lips Caleb double smash combo

Finally, Caleb's devious plan comes to fruition and he makes his escape:

#brother's keeper au #doodlereply #doodle art #show's over guys Caleb is free now #lol this is so messy but sometimes you gotta make nonsense it's good for your health