#i can't believe i went through ep 1 to 6

[polarsirens]

Reality shatters.

#dimension 20 spoilers #d20 spoilers #neverafter spoilers #dimension 20 #d20 neverafter #pinocchio #pib #ylfa snorgelsson #princess rosamund du prix #prince gerard of greenleigh #mother timothy goose #scheherazade #the stepmother #fanart #my art #okay. this is really the last one #i swear #i can't believe i went through ep 1 to 6 #thinking i don't really need to draw #then made four posts about ep 7 #what the fuck #(if this style looks way similar to the exu:c fanart) #(it's because it is) #(i have one thing i am relatively good at)

[monsamborabutterfly]

Okay as every week here are my thoughts on this week's of EP and oh boy do I have thoughts lol

1) atom you dirty little shit I hope karma fucking gets you good. Zero empathy for him. I get it realizing you are queer can be tough & so can be sleeping with someone for the first time but falsely accusing Boston like that is horrible.

Title I think you're a great actor but stop playing such fucking annoying people please and thank you🙏🙏

2) the fact that all his so called friends just went with it without even thinking about it shows me that they all fucking suck. I hope atom will tell the truth and they'll apologize to Boston for once.

3) sorry to all my topmew babes out there but my god do mew and boing have chemistry. I want book and mond in a show together so bad now.

ALSO TOPMEWBOING angry sex give it to me

4) boing is a shady little bitch but God I'm living for it!!

5) low-key hope we see sand and boing kiss!! I love my sandray but the "not me ghost shipping part" of me would be fucking delighted to see it ngl.

6) oh daddy dan...hun I love you but it's time for you to go babes

7) sandray angst hurt so bad but I believe in them. They will make it🤡🤞

8) NOW TO MY FAVOURITE PART OF THIS EPISODE:

Oh BostonNick. This is everything I wanted and so much more than I hoped for. And it was perfect in my opinion. From Nicks pic on Boston's phone to them talking to them making love. I like that it wasn't dragged out. I like that it was so very BostonNick. I cried. Multiple times lol I hope they are allowed to be together now and won't have to go through too much shit anymore. I can't wait for next week's BostonNick in love era

9) I'm glad they're showing ray going to rehab. I don't think we've ever seen something like this in any bl before. I love it!!

10) last but not least I wanna talk about neo and marks acting in the talking scene. I've already seen some shitty takes. And yeah maybe I'm biased but I think they're talented as fuck and some people seem to forget who Nick and Boston are. Mark didn't overact. Nick is just a highly emotional person. He feels things so deeply and he's so in love with Boston it makes fucking sense for him to full on sob cause everything breaks out of him. And Boston cried too but he's very emotionally repressed. He's terrified to show emotions. He's not the type to full on cry in public. I mean we got more emotions from him than I thought we'd get. It was very fitting and I'm sure it's exactly how Jojo and everyone else wanted the scene to be.

Okay done ranting now! Great episode as always!

#only friends the series #topmew #bostonnick #sandray #ofts #only friends ep 10 #thai bl #ofts boston #ofts nick #ofts top #ofts mew #ofts sand #ofts ray

[taigertea]

spoilers for the new additional 6 pages of Tiger and Bunny 2 (which you can access through this post (big thanks to TLF and @tnbdirectory), i wrote a less coherent rant about this on twitter but like omg

I believe now this is the 3rd (?) time Barnaby has explicitly shown/said he wants to be with Kotetsu, with it being of his own volition

(The three times I can think of 1. when Barnaby comes out of retirement with Kotetsu end of S1 2. episode 21 of S2, in cour 2 when he wants to be partners with Kotetsu for the last time 3. the new TL'd 6 pages for post S2 ending where he really makes it clear he wants to support Kotetsu by Kotetsu's side, without any snark about it, just really requests that he stay and help even when Kotetsu tells him he doesn't need to stick around)

(I don't really count the elevator scene from S2 ep 18 and the final scene from The Rising because though it's obvious to the audience what Barnaby is thinking, I don't think it's clear enough for Kotetsu to REALLY get it. Though you could debate more with the elevator scene, I'm open to conversation lol.)

But I'm just pulling my hair out at how Kotetsu still just really wants what's best for Barnaby, when he looks at Barnaby's bangle it's feels like he's just about to say something along the lines of "can you really be here?" when he could be doing something "more important" or actual hero work.

But Barnaby doesn't even dignify Kotetsu's attempt to push him away just giving that line (that makes me insane) of how he wants to be Kotetsu's support. Also just the way Barnaby KNEW what Kotetsu was going to say.

It's so wild that it's like a mini version of their Rising situation, but this shows how far they've come. Like Barnaby does not stay silent here. I'm sure he remembers how that went down, and at least this time Kotetsu asks Barnaby instead of making the executive decision to leave him in the dust on his own. Barnaby's just so honest here? No bullshit, little snark, just here it is, all on the table. It does make me wonder if the past couple months not working with Kotetsu has made him not want to not cloak things as much and say it straight. Though this might have been something even spurred on as early as S2 ep 21 when there was real risk of their partnership being over, after his super ernest confession.

But this made me think, Barnaby's made it pretty clear to Kotetsu he wants to be partners, even in non-hero situations, but it made me realize that I don't think Kotetsu has ever reciprocated verbally? Not because Barnaby isn't important to him or that he doesn't want partners, but more because of how Kotetsu views himself as a burden/problem to Barnaby? And also because I don't think Kotetsu's love language is really through words (though I think it's important that Barnaby DOES show love through words occasionally without snark, because Kotetsu's a pretty insecure and dense guy, he needs it spelled out for him plainly).

Like Kotetsu seems more to me as an act of service love language guy, which we've seen (and @abluescarfonwaston has made a great post about here). Which makes sense how he reacts in seeing him being a potential problem for Barnaby and trying to remove himself as the problem. Which would be great... if that actually wasn't causing MORE of a problem in Barnaby's life (in that Kotetsu's not a problem at all AND PLEASE STAY FFS).

The big moments that indicate Kotetsu appreciates his partnership with Barnaby directly are basically just in ep24 of S1. Every other time he's just kinda... gone with the flow? Like it's usually Barnaby initiating or asking Kotetsu, except in the elevator scene which was a question and not really an affirmation. WE as the audience can see how clearly Kotetsu adores Barnaby, but I wonder how it comes off to Barnaby in the show when he can't see how torn up Kotetsu gets at the thought of or actually having lost Barnaby as a partner (Rising and hospitalization).

And yes, we see they can "know what each other is thinking without saying anything" but I don't think that's 24/7, as shown by a couple moments throughout S2.

Despite being the more "tsun" one, Barnaby has been more explicit and straightforward about what he wants from Kotetsu (Kotetsu in his life, whatever form it may take).

Which makes me wonder, man would Barnaby just snap, like all the safeties are off, and just kiss Kotetsu if he ever explicitly told him that he wants Barnaby in his life? The other option is acting tsun but I think the previous option would be infinitely more fun.

also bonus thing I noticed:

Barnaby says "WHY" for the word game and Kotetsu asks if he couldn't choose another word. Barnaby refuses, but the next thing Kotetsu says is "YOU" which works out in this situation lol (dunno if this is a English TL version only thing but thought it was funny how it worked out)

also wondering why Barnaby was so stuck on keeping "WHY" 😆

#tiger and bunny #kotetsu kaburagi #barnaby brooks jr #tiger and bunny 2 spoilers #specifically new manga chp spoilers #usatora #dtg blabs #tnb #tnb2 #me digging through my posts for arthurs one post about kotetsu's love language #wow this got really long sorry bout that #this new chp sent me on a spiral #like it already sent me spiraling after the JP ver came out but this somehow sent me spiraling again

[coffeelovesdramasalatte]

LITA Ep. 4 Rewatch Thoughts Pt. 1

Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 5 | Part 6

Alright friends, we've finally made it to THEE episode! Definitely grab some water for this one, you're gonna need it.

Sang along to the intro's chorus and it's a banger as usual. The recap felt shorter this time, likely so they could get to the good stuff faster. My last post was super long so no need to go over content again here, but I'm glad they included my favorite shots of Phayu holding Rain in the recap as a little treat.

This episode opens with P'Saifah doing some accounts for the shop - always a good time to see him! I'm still so happy that he knew to call Phayu as soon as he saw Rain standing there all drenched and sad. I also love that he's already accepted Rain as Phayu's person (so cute!). Phayu says here that Rain hasn't eaten since yesterday, which implies his last meal was when they went out together. I'm not sure if there's a special meaning behind it, but it is interesting that they're having dinner together twice in a row under such different contexts. Since last time, we've learned that Phayu is emotionally invested in Rain beyond simple liking (as demonstrated by how he treated and cared for Rain during a vulnerable moment).

I continue to love how they namedrop P'Pakin without showing us who he is. I, for one, would really like to put a face to the name of the all-powerful big boss. Especially bc he's clearly a PhayuRain shipper like the rest of us (evidenced by him encouraging Phayu to bring his naughty boy to the next race). Yay P'Pakin!

Phayu's face goes through a series of microexpressions here which really cemented Boss' amazing acting skills. You can tell he considers taking Rain for all of one moment before he thinks it through and remembers that he's teaching Rain to be more responsible and that he can't distract him with illegal street racing. I picked this screenshot for the pretty lighting and the subtle furrowed-brow.

Listen, I've said this 1000 times and I'll say it a 1000 times more before this set of posts is over. NOEUL IS TOO CUTE it's not fair no one should be this adorable when eating ramen

Phayu will really take ANY excuse to touch Rain's lips, won't he. I think we're at 4 lip touches so far in the series? I'm loving the bisexual lighting in the background too. Stellar shot

Ok if Phayu is Rain's codeline senior (shoutout to @atrioofinsomniacfoxes for telling me what this means), I'm sure he already has basic info like Rain's age in his permanent memory. Which means the line about him not dating underage people was either meant to reassure the audience he's got morals (which I don't think any of us ever doubted) or so he could get Rain to admit he wanted a kiss (which is mean bc then he withholds said kiss). Rain looks so smug here though when he helpfully reminds Phayu they already kissed

This is so aesthetic to me. The light from above, the hand placement, the absolutely content look on Rain's face. All perfect. I also love how Phayu gently strokes Rain's face before moving in - again, these two do small gestures extremely well that makes the couple believable. The way Phayu has his eyes closed too makes me wonder if he actually wanted to kiss Rain here, but then decides in the end to hold back in order to not be a distraction to Rain.

I can't get over how happy Rain looks to be where he is. I'm in unanimous agreement, Rain.

But then poor bby, Phayu throws cold water in his face when he tells him Rain shouldn't come to the garage anymore. The quick mood change is masterfully sold by Noeul's brow-furrows and parted lips. I also like the frantic eye contact he makes with Phayu here.

Rain's immediate reaction to Phayu telling him not to come is that he's sorry he's annoying. That's so sad, because it sounds like someone must have told him that in the past and it must have hurt quite badly for him to think that's the reason right away.

I feel like Phayu thinks similarly, and is not a fan of Rain thinking this way because he turns his head and breaks eye contact. He only looks back when he starts explaining to Rain that no, it's not because he's annoyed or doesn't want Rain around, but it's just that he wants Rain to be more responsible. I really like how Phayu phrases things in this conversation because it shows how seriously he's taking Rain and their potential relationship. Very mature on Phayu's part.

But then he immediately follows up this decree with a headpat/caress! He wants Rain to follow through on this relationship and he's relaying that through touch!! I found it very interesting that Phayu chose to drag his fingers along Rain's face instead of his hair, which is where he usually does it.

And Rain, our impulsive and rather in-love son, immediately is like Mission Accepted ft. death-grip on Phayu number 5

I couldn't get a clear shot of it, but Phayu's fingers appeared to twitch as he was pulling away from Rain, showing his reluctance to leave. Some very subtle but masterful acting from Boss (or maybe it's just that Noeul is like a Boss hand magnet so it was just nature running its course, or maybe it's both).

Finally we get the title of the episode, which is Warm Me with Your Heart. Well, I think Rain and Phayu warm up more than just their hearts in this one, just saying...

Fruity siblings alert! P' Som is actually a good brother and upperclassman for checking in on his sister's work and her friends.

Leave him alone P' Som, he's going through Phayu-withdrawals. I really like how they styled Noeul's hair in this scene! The bangs are so pretty!

Thank you to P'Som for sharing this absolutely devastating burn. I'm going to use it on someone someday:

Also life advice I really need to take LMAO I'm so bad at waking up on time:

Wait something super yellow-blue is happening here but I'm not sure what it is... Ok so far we've had yellow blue primarily with scenes containing just Rain and Phayu in focus, but this is the first one I'm noticing where it's so apparent but Phayu isn't present. However, the blue in this scene (mostly P' Som's overshirt) is a lighter blue whereas Phayu's blue is more navy. Maybe by the end of this post series I'll have figured out what it means??

Wait the siblings do really be fruity - P' Som is wearing rainbow tie-die so true of him

I love how Rain has dropped his crush on Ple like a bag of potatoes. Boy simply does NOT care, and Sky notices within 0.2 seconds. He's a really perceptive friend for being able to tell Rain likes Phayu before Rain is willing to admit it, and that Rain's not upset over the teacher's remarks but for a different problem. He also tells Rain to look inside his heart (a.k.a. to be true to himself). Can anyone tell me what Rain's shirt says in this scene? Because now I'm seeing that it's dark blue and the text is literally right over his heart so it could be important.

Sky immediately getting goosebumps after he was sensitive to his friend PLS Sky you don't have to pretend you're not the world's second biggest softie when it comes to Rain (beaten only by Phayu).

Ok this is cool - Rain's reflecting on his feelings while staring at his reflection in the phone screen, similar to how he was reflecting while looking at the mirror in the last episode!

Then we get a montage of Rain working hard and looking rather forlorn. He does ignore Ple once more which is an indication to us that he's moved past that crush completely. I also like that they made Ple such a nice person without making her romantically like Rain. She's cool!

Also they used my single-braincell'ed other son, Sig, and his friend to show us something else yellow-blue. I can't not include this shot bc how the heck was Sig comfortably snoozing like this? I want a series about the adventures of Sig.

After we see Rain working hard but still looking at his devoid-of-messages phone, we cut to an equally forlorn-looking Phayu. The man clearly wants to message Rain but is holding himself back. insert dreamy sigh (not even from me, Phayu literally sighs so hard right here that his coworker notices)

HE SAYS YET!! Y'all I can't get over how sure Phayu was that Rain was going to be responsible and then be his

I find it interesting that everything the other person said was a problem in his relationship is what Phayu wanted Rain to say because it would have shown responsibility.

I also like that when asked if they broke up, Phayu says it's not like that before deflecting. I always found it infuriating in dramas when people are like "I'm going to straight up reject you even though I like you for your own good". Here, Phayu didn't say they would never date, or even that he doesn't like Rain. He has made his interest abundantly clear and is just waiting for Rain to mature a bit. We love healthy communication and goal setting in this house!

Ok I'm going to say it again: I LOVE Sky as Rain's BFF. He is so perceptive and nonjudgmental and a great listener and I'm so happy we got to see his story in the latter part of the show.

Oh sweetheart, do I have news for you...

Next we get cupid-Sky saying that he never meant it when he told Rain he's annoying, and that he rather likes this side of Rain. This one statement is enough to light a whole fire under Rain and our boy is back in business.

Note to self: Can get friend-counseling services from Sky for ice cream (he looks so cute here like he knows he did a good job and also he's imagining how much trouble he just sent Phayu's way)

In the next scene, we cut directly to Rain showing up at the garage all excited to work, and Phayu completely ignores him as he walks by. It must have taken every ounce of Phayu's strength to do that bc Rain is looking mighty adorable right here. Yay we see P'Aon and the other employee! I can't recall her name so I'll call her Khun Suay from now on. Neither of them want to disappoint Rain so they have to argue over who tells Rain he can't set foot in the office. Rain is undeterred though, our stubborn son. He's an engineer y'know - he can solve his own problems.

I do love all the little details they put into this show - they just told us it was super hot outside but now we see it too with Rain's sweat.

Phayu, no longer able to tolerate seeing his boy toiling outdoors, comes to check in. Rain is here to complete his original plan of attack, which is to show up in front of Phayu every day until Phayu falls in love. But now he's also fulfilling Phayu's demands of being more responsible. Good for him.

The way they filmed Phayu here is interesting, bc he's on the far end of the screen rather than the middle. It could just be for some variance in shots, but it also does make it look like he's closer to Rain's side than he physically is.

Their convo can be summed up as follows:

Phayu: Why are you here? You should be studying.

Rain: I AM studying. Here.

Phayu: You're an eyesore (you should be inside somewhere safe and cool and away from my cracking self control).

Rain: But I wanted to see YOU.

Phayu: Ok nvm forget everything I said - how much work do you have and in what ways can I help without making it obvious I'm helping?

Rain's logic >>>>>>>>>>>

Rain knows he's won ahhhh what a smug cutie!

To Rain's credit, he does get back to work as soon as Phayu leaves.

Ok we're not even halfway through this episode and I already hit the max number of images so there'll probably be three parts to this (sorry in advance but I don't think anyone's gonna complain about the copious screenshots to come of Those Scenes) (This author's note is coming after I finished all the parts - I was so wrong, there are now 5 parts and y'all can thank my lack of impulse control for that)

Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 5 | Part 6

#love in the air #lita the series #lita rewatch thoughts #phayurain #bossnoeul

[godunlap]

NOTES ON EP. 6 ( part 1/? spoilers beneath the cut ) i'm so sorry if this is long & boring to you, she is just my everything. if you don't want to read the full debrief, the only note that pertains to canon divergence is marked : + 𝗗𝗜𝗩𝗘𝗥𝗚𝗘𝗡𝗖𝗘 〢

YALL SEE HOW SHE ALMOST DIED ??? no i'm not okay

— 𝚌𝚊𝚝𝚎'𝚜 𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚍𝚜𝚎𝚝 : ◌ due to cate's upbringing post - caleb, she's always felt like the physical side effects of her abilities were some kind of 'righteous punishment'. so not only is everything her fault, but even the resulting isolation & rejection from [ both her parents & the world ] isn't enough to make her feel adequately rebuked.

◌ on that note, how much damage has actually been done inside her head already? does she heal 100% or is her brain riddled with scar tissue??? how many burst blood vessels in her eyes before there's irreparable damage? there's just SOOOOOO much to consider.

◌ THE VOICES???!!!! i read an article like 2 days ago that hinted at cate's mind reading capabilities & it went right over my head until tonight i swear. SHE IS SO POWERFUL !!!! mind control, memory manipulation, telepathy / clairaudience, unconsciousness inducement, dream manipulation. i'm sure i'm missing some. if trained, could she project psionic attacks??? so far the only limitation i've made note of is that she can't implant false things, like memories, she can only take away.

— 𝚜𝚘𝚌𝚒𝚊𝚕 𝚒𝚖𝚙𝚕𝚒𝚌𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜 : ◌ robbed of a normal childhood, cate has only ever known the 'at - arms - length' love of her parents & the manipulative care of dean s/hetty + some other higher ups at g.odolkin. knowing this, cate is extremely aware of how she's being perceived at all times & attempts to mold herself into whatever the situation calls for. it's only after getting close to luke, jordan, & andre that she finally begins to feel more like herself & that they might accept who that person actually is.

— 𝚕𝚞𝚔𝚎 / 𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚛𝚎 : + 𝗗𝗜𝗩𝗘𝗥𝗚𝗘𝗡𝗖𝗘 〢 ◌ i already hated how quickly cate/andre happened after luke's death, it truly kills me to know it was going on before.

◌ probably my only divergence from canon will be that this was not a thing, cate had genuine feelings for & loyalty to luke while he was alive. until canon says otherwise (maybe) i think cate was asked to get close to him by i/ndira, knowing how powerful he is. spending time with him & his family, cate got emotionally invested for the first time. this made it harder for s.hetty to get her continued compliance, but in the end cate always caved. the "𝘪 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘪𝘵 𝘣𝘳𝘰𝘬𝘦 𝘣𝘰𝘵𝘩 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮" comment from marie was so REALLL. her loyalty, admiration & love for i.ndira forced her into a sort of 'double think' that allowed her to believe she was doing the right thing for both dean s/hetty & luke. cate was never interested in andre before luke's death & confused her feelings of grief & guilt post - luke to hook up with andre. she does love him dearly as a friend.

— 𝚜𝚊𝚖 🥲 : ◌ i think it's safe to say sam's probably been the most negatively impacted by cate. he's the piece of the puzzle that erodes at her ability to remain amenable to the whole situation. in the moments she's faced with the pain & suffering he's being put through, she has to dissociate. that is not luke's brother & she's not luke's lying, manipulating, parasite of a girlfriend. he's just a patient & she's a useful tool. ( you're easing his agony, this misery is necessary, you're doing the right thing ) all those whispered encouragements of i/ndira's just playing in her mind on a loop. that's how she keeps going. but when it all finally catches up with her, she knows it was wrong. she always has.

#⁰³ ⁾ ᴺᴼᵀᴱˢ. forced to disconnect. #if you read this whole thing #🫶🫶🫶 #BUT EVEN IF U DON'T #🫶🫶 #i know it's... yeah #& i probably have more in the tank so don't even

[monstrology]

thinking about that final scene of Justified: City Primeval episode 5 between Raymond and Raylan.

*I'm sure there's nuances to this I'm missing without reading the book, but this observation is mostly Raylan-centric because of that.

Raymond: So what do you want to know about the Oklahoma Wildman? It's all there. I left my old case files clean. Raylan: I ain't got those kinda questions. I want to know what's missing. Why I think I can't trust anybody. Why it's all a shit sandwich. Raymond: Look at you, still giving a fuck. Raylan: I try. Raymond: Ah, you remind me of me, man, when I started out. Except you're old. Raylan: I ain't gonna sleep at night if this son of a bitch wins. Raymond: Back in the day, first started out, guy I tangled with....Freddy Keck was his name. He was cute. You know, Freddy shot through my front window one night, not to kill. More like, "C'mon man, let's do it." Like it wasn't nothing--cowboys and Indians. Except Freddy was for real--a stone killer. Raylan: How'd you get him? Raymond: Eh, we couldn't. Raylan: You didn't get him? Raymond: I said we couldn't. Raylan: So what happened? Raymond: Showed up at my house one night. Raylan: He got tired of the games? Raymond: I know I was. But he says, "We're gonna sit and have a drink." It was all a big mix-up. Said if I had any sense of humor, I'd see how comical the whole thing was. He's chattering away. Yeah, he walks behind my bar, reaches down, and then... [pop noise]. Shot him. Raylan: He drew on you. Raymond: Eh, I shot him. Raylan: He had a gun on you. Raymond: Eh, I don't know. Raylan: You don't know? Raymond: Think it was a church key. Raylan: He had a bottle opener in his hand? Raymond: Yeah. What I remember is he's still talking. Hole in his chest, eyes wide open, still talking. I don't know what he was saying or who he was saying it to. I didn't care. The guy would never shut up. Anyway, I cleaned my fingernails with the bottle opener, and that was that. And I sleep just like a baby.

And it reminds me of everything about "Fire in the Hole," episode 1 of the original show. Boyd and Raylan sitting at a table, reenacting the confrontation between Tommy Bucks and Raylan. Tommy, who Raylan tells Boyd, had the gun under the table. How did Raylan know when to pull? Boyd asks.

Tommy went first. "He pulled first, so I was justified." And then Boyd goes to pull on Ava and Raylan shoots him first. Right in the chest, slightly off target.

And there Boyd lay, "hole in his chest, eyes wide open, still talking," like Raymond's Freddy, at least for a little while. Until he heals and then we spend 6 seasons with the most talkative shitkicker in Kentucky. A guy who never shut up.

Presumably, Freddy dies from his injuries and Raymond goes on to live his life supposedly unaffected. He sleeps like a baby. And Raylan implies that he won't sleep until Clement is caught, feeding into his personality of relentless pursuit as a marshal that we've seen throughout the original show. Regardless of his own personal struggles with his love interests or his daughter, Raylan prioritizes the mission of his job over all else. He's particularly insulted by Clement because he went after Willa, which ironically made Raylan push her away so he could go after Clement.

Raylan goes to sleep at night at peace because Tommy pulled first, his shot was justified, and Tommy received the justice Raylan believes was deserved for what happened in Nicaragua. Of course, there's a whole list of consequences that follow that at his job and from Detroit, but he justifies it for himself.

"But what troubles me is, what if he hadn't?" Raylan asks Winona at the end of Justified ep 1. "What if he just sat there and let the clock run out? Would I have killed him anyway? I know I wanted to."

What if there was no justification? What if the criminal in front of him, whom he knows deserves retribution, doesn't commit another crime upon him that it justifies his own violent act? He wants to shoot Clement, he wanted to shoot Tommy. He just needed a reason, first. To stay morally sane and just within himself.

For Raymond, there was no solid justification. He didn't know if Freddy was reaching for a weapon beyond a past history. Freddy was in RAYMOND'S house, behind RAYMOND'S bar. If Raymond had a weapon there, Raymond would know it. Even if Freddy had a weapon on his body, his movement wouldn't be towards the bar, but to his person. He comes up with a bottle opener to open a drink for their sit-down, but Raymond pulls on him anyway, without looking for the proof, without the justification to return fire.

Raylan continuously, confusedly, tries to insist Raymond's narrative fits his own moral code. "He drew on you. He had a gun on you." Raymond denies it. He had no clue. He couldn't get Freddy the legal way, so he got them the violent way, instead.

And he sleeps like a baby.

Raylan, who wondered if he would have killed Tommy if he hadn't pulled first, sits here ~15 years later and the first thought he has about a situation like this is still "they have to pull first--it's justified that way." I doubt he would have slept like a baby, not because he doesn't think Tommy deserved it regardless of pulling first, but because it would have shaken his own morality, the conception of himself that he's built in contrast to the criminal background he grew up in and worked around. It troubles him that he even questions his morality, without having acted on it.

Of course, Raylan is dubious by consistently nudging criminals towards making decisions that thus make pulling justified, but that's the gray side of law enforcement for you. There's also the question of Raylan's trajectory had it followed the book and his shot had killed Boyd. He apologizes to him as he lay bloody and fading away, and yet his survival suggests a subconscious decision to spare an old friend's life regardless of who pulled first--technically, Ava was the one with the loaded and aimed weapon and Raylan was defending her, after all. Raymond, meanwhile, cleaned his nails with the item that accidentally killed Freddy, unconcerned for the nuances of the incident.

All of this just highlights a stark difference between the two, Raylan and Raymond. And even though Raylan doesn't mention his past at all during this story and insight into Raymond's history, you could hear the echoes of Raylan's past in it, looking at all the parallels of two men in similar circumstances with different outcomes.

#justified: city primeval #raylan givens #justified #this is a lot of word vomit and character analysis but i just wanted to share what's been rattling in my brain since I watched last night!! #they said let me remind you of the ghost of raylans past aka boyd crowder #excuse any typos or formatting i wrote this on the tumblr text block

[fureliselost]

VLD REWATCH s8e4-7

these

don't look like they're fading, don't look like they'r ever going away, they ain't ever gonna change

ok, i'm done, let's go

- what happened to olkarion?

- oh no, weblum

- hunk and keith talking rhymes go brrrrrr

- tf

- and pidge can bond w dead olkarion

- kl shots

- tech probs again lol

- go.... pidge?

ep 5

- iverson>loving doggos

- I LOVE ONE INA LEIFSDOTTIR

]- OH MY GOD I KNOW WHAT EPISODE THIS IS

- and it's a trapppppp

- veracxa go brrrrrrr

- ezpr and zethridddddd

- GIVE LANCE CREDIT PIDGE

- Veronica...... do you actually know lance? I mean, a minute ago we were shown that lance is actually better than most of the paladins at navigation and then you're........ what are they trying to say really?

- yay, space lesbians ig

- the purpose of this episode was just to have the lesbians reunited and the paladins in their skintight suit

ep 6

- ok, so roabeast that's what is happening, it's hard to keep track

- i don't think it's a good idea to attack oriande, but ok, allura

- why tf did they parallel honerva to allura wtf

- in s8 they started putting allura and lance beside each other in scenes where previously keith and lance would be needlessly beside each other but, like, when it's allura beside lance there's just this... void? it's hard to explain that but one of the reasons is that she and lance don't engage with each other as much as keith and lance. And allura, since she is now dating lance, is expected to engage with lance, that's the entire reason why I started collecting every frame where keith and lance are together -- keith and lance weren't expected to interact or be near each other because they claimed to hate each other but they did, constantly, and just the first season had more screenshots than it had episodes (meaning that there was more than 1 needless interaction or closeness per episode).

- the atlas being a robot was...... i didn't like it

- this ep is confusinfg, what's happening w matt?

- honerva what the absolute fuck are you doing

- wait, hadn't luca died? who that

- yay zethrid, ezor and th eone olkari

- honerva wtf

- hoe is tearing apart reality

- slav will go crazy with this non-believer

- is that sincline WHAT THE FUCK

- lotor really said yeet

- go berserker allura

- ohhh, lancey lance woke up to stop allura from going nuts

- ok so allura went for honerva and lotor went for allura, so lance went for lotor and honerva's evangelions went for lance, which caused lotor to go for the evangelions and then lance and then, as allura is going for honerva and lotor is going for lance, honerva stops lotor from killing lance so allura doesn't kill her? is that right?

- nope, that is not right because honerva wasn't even worried about allura, so when allura gets close honerva does madic mumbo jumbo

- are we gonna talk about the fact that allura was using a spear? or, dare i say, a lance

- damn, this moment is v emotional

- heavy

ep8

- i love kinkade

- dude, all 4 MFEs share a room, i loveeee

- james and romelle being curious at the camera is cute

- LET HIM BE EXCITED ABOUT YEAST DAMMIT

- Rizavi is the life of the party (derogatory)

- Interviewing pidge and keith dfgdfg i don't remember this, but it might be fun

- hunkkkk i love you

- they took baybay to space lol (do y'all think they brought kaltenecker too?)

- oh god i remember him

- they intervievwed kolivan lol

- corannnnnnnnnn

- YES KALTENECKER IS ON THE SHIP

- "just so much great recycled poop!"

- i love coleen holt

- lance is so stressedddddddddd

- ok, allura getting lance to relax is pretty cute

- i actually really wanna ship kallurance because, well, that's the best way to end a love triangle! but I just..... can't seem to get into kallura. maybe i should search some art and AUs to see if I can get into it

- rizavi u rebel

- more altean pilotsssssssssssss

- that allurance scene was soooooo stiff wtf

- :((((( poor allura

- YES HUNK CONNECT PEOPLE THROUGH THEIR BELLIES THAT SOUNDED WEIRD

- Cute

ok i'm stopping here because i hate the next ep

#vld rewatch #vld #voltron #voltron legendary defender #eli rants

[marciego]

brodmila for the shipbask game, thank you!

ohh i didn't expect anyone to ask about them, thank you!

1. Favourite scene of them?

that scene around the end of s3 where camila couldn't calm down when she was acting, and then broduey showed up and she finally managed to say her lines while looking at him, i'll admit it was a very wholesome scene, i did smile a lot seeing how happy they looked

2. What do you like the most about them

the last 10 eps or so of s3, that's really sad to say but that's like....the only moment of the show where they have nice interactions, which is kinda :/ because i think they deserved to have more than arguing all the time to them you know. those eps really showed they could improve, i don't get why the writers didn't make that happen sooner

3. A random headcanon

this one and the quote question are always the hardest to answer when i don't like a ship szdefr

sorry, i can't think of anything

4. If you could change something about them what would it be?

i could say a lot of things, "giving them more than lies and arguing all the time" being the short answer, but there's one specific thing about them that, above everything else, i'd like to change

it's the seba plotline in s3, because it was starting SO WELL like?? broduey actually, genuinely working on his jealousy, but somehow it's not enough and he doesn't want to hold camila back but he's hurting, and that scene where she finds him crying alone and he tells her she should do what she wants but it still hurts, and instead of getting angry she's like "what can we do now?" LIKE. it was so much more interesting than everything we ever saw with them?? and honestly i believe it was such a nice way to treat jealousy, because even if broduey's feelings weren't rational and he knew that, that didn't change the fact that he was hurting, and i wanted them to follow through this plotline SO BAD. like it could have been so GOOD but once again the violetta writers hate nuanced writing and only know how to take away from camila everything that makes her happy so ofc seba had to actually have feelings for her and "broduey was right all along" and they went back to arguing after that. i'm still so mad this could have been so good

5. If you could date one of the people who would you choice?

no one, broduey is a nice dude but i couldn't stand his jealousy and camila would honestly get on my nerves aszdefrg

6. Favourite hot scene of them?

insert my "diego's not here" answer

7. Favourite quote?

i don't have anything in mind rn

8. How do you see thir relationship in the future?

i believe camila is a lesbian and deserves to have broduey become a close friend, they've always been better off as friends

9. Scene that makes you emotional?

the scene i talked about where camila found broduey crying all alone, at least the first part of the scene before this arc loses everything that makes it interesting when broduey asks her AGAIN to choose between him and the rockbones. it was a very sad scene, and for once broduey's jealousy didn't get on my nerves, it was just...something he tried and failed to control, it was sad and very genuine

#thank you a lot for the ask!!

[yuraimi-lee-bunny]

Let's get to the point first and then I'll give the important details:

Because of rude and intolerant comments of directly and indirectly way from LiS fandom here in Tumblr (only intolerant and abusive fans of Pricefield and Chloe) I fell into depression for a year and a half

I met the game on February 6, 2015. I immediately loved the game. I could only watch Gameplays. At the same time I was about to finish my Visual Arts career. I was specializing in Illustration and creation, development and character analysis (theory and practice)

At the beginning (between Ep.1 and Ep.3) Pricefield was causing me some pleasure but I also liked Warren, although I defended Warren from the unjustified hate that dome gave him, but I never saw the Grahamfield as an option. But days before Ep.4 some personal things happened to me, and I began to see the Grahamfield with an option, I started to like it more. Ep.4 arrives and besides being my favorite episode, I was happy and surprised that the Grahamfield was a possible option.

Finish the game and although I don't like at all the choice "Sacrifice Arcadia Bay" I had no problem, in the end: everyone their choices. I started showing my Grahamfield works. Sometimes comments came directly and indirectly offending my work. No problem, I could deal with it. But in 2016 began the problem: The attacks on Grahamfield, Warren and those who liked it increased even worse: they attacked those who chose to Sacrifice Chloe. The offenses were of a lot of variety but here are some of the ones I remember:

"You have no heart" "You're a monster", "You're a horrible person" "Surely you're homophobic" "You're a lesphobic" "You didn't understand the game" "You didn't understand Max" "That disgusts your tastes" "If you like such a ship, then fuck you"

In early 2016 I was dealing with many personal, family, professional problems, go to see things about LiS and other things that I liked helped me to reassure me. But that intolerant posts in LiS tags were so massive and consecutive that ended up making me believe them and thus, fall into depression.

I was weak? Maybe. But I hope you understand that everywhere I was going through difficult times, that when I went to see things about LiS it was my way of being able to entertain myself and I hope you also understand, that these people were not entitled to attack people. In 2015 I could deal with it but that 2016 I couldn't because of my own affairs and because the attacks, seriously, were massive. I was no longer happy with my decisions, nor tastes, with anything. I tried everything: to listen to my favorite music, to watch series that motivated me and remembered me my goals and my own being. Met my friendships, my boyfriend. Nothing worked. Everything was getting worse: although I no longer paid attention and stopped going to tags for a while, the damage was already done to me, the doubts grew more and more in me:

"Why do I like grahamfield?" "Why couldn't you like the Pricefield?" "Why do you like Warren?" "Why can't Chloe be your favorite?"

And worse:

"Why do you always like the weirdest thing?" "Why can't you be like the others?" "Why don't you normal?" "Why do I think as I think?" "Why am I this way?" What was I born for? "Why do I exist?" "Why?" "Why?" "Why?"

My self-esteem went down a lot, I no longer wanted to draw and I didn't want to get out of bed. Everything looked gray and had attacks of crying. Although my problems had turned out. The depression was already in me. I had to go to the psychologist. I was diagnosed with Social Depression. It wasn't serious, but it had to be treated. I kept going to sessions. My psychologist is a love, I could tell her absolutely everything even if it sounded very absurd but she understood and helped me. My mom, my boyfriend, some friends help me too. Some things I discovered also help: Lukas Graham, Keane, Oxenfree, and more.

Throughout 2016 sometimes I suffered attacks of anxiety, doubts, of crying. It was difficult to deal for me, my mom and my boyfriend. But we don't give up. I didn't give up. I almost broke up with my boyfriend for believing it was a nuisance and weak, but I never did. Unfortunately sometimes looking Pricefield made me nervous and feeling of guilt for not liking Pricefield invaded me very hard. I swear that I tried by many means to like it and become my ship. I never could and currently I can't. I only see them as best friends.

So I drew Grahamfield. In fact, in this long road of recovery, Max and Warren accompanied me a lot, they were the characthers and a ship that helped me a lot in accepting myself as I am and with my tastes and choices. Little by little I was recovering. 2016 wasn't a very pleasant year for me, but still there some good memories of that year. 2017 was a better year. At the beginning of that year I could feel improvements, but sometimes the doubts continued and sometimes I woke up with stomachaches. Monstar Calls, Persona 5, Jughead's Comic, new friendships, and improved more. LiS's fandom was quieter and I drew more Grahanfield. But April was where I found that serie that made me try harder to get up.

Orange is the New Black and Bojack Horseman were those series that I watched in 2016 and helped me a lot to accept my depression, to accept myself, to defend myself and to love myself as I am. But that April 12 2017 I started watching 13 Reasons Why and everything was clearer to me. I know, 13RW is a very controversial series, but it helped me realize many, many things: how lucky I'm to have people around me who love and love me. That I want and I must be strong to protect those I want, to defend myself and demonstrate what I'm capable of achieving. Not giving up. It's worth moving forward. I want to live.

And so, with more strength and enthusiasm I began to overcome my low self-esteem, I began to draw more, to work for a while as a waitress and resume my studies to get my degree. There was only one problem: now I saw Pricefield and I got angry. It reminded me of all the pain I went through in 2016 for those rude people who liked Pricefield and kept attacking you just for liking another ship. But my anger is left just in that: Angry. I swear never, but NEVER come to attack or offend someone because they like Pricefield. I never did and never will.

2017 was a good year, although BTS isn't a game that I like very much, I enjoyed it somehow. My psychologist tells me that I'm much better. For me it meant that I had already overcome my depression. The earthquake of September 19 in 2017 was an event that greatly impacted me. I helped as much as I could, and there I realized that in 2018 I wanted to improve myself more as person. And I did it.

2018 was my best year: I participated in a film with rotoscopie technique called "Olimpia" and it's one of my greatest achievements and I'm proud to have participated in making animation. I did many activities that helped me grow as a person. I kept drawing Grahanfield and now I defended Warren and Grahamfield as I had never done, but this time with evidence. My love for the characters had come back and I had studied the subject more. American Vandal, Chilling Adventures of Sabrina, Shape of Water also arrived in 2018 and they helped me a lot.

2019 arrives: Carmen Sandiego and The Umbrella Academy get to inspire me professionally. I started a diploma in February of Graphic Novel to get my Bachelor's degree. I did it. I finished in August and this November they gave it to me. I'm already licensed. I've been calmly reading the LiS comic. Seeing things about Pricefield no longer fill me with anxiety. I absolutely feel good and happy with my tastes within the fandom of LiS.

In these days I have thought about my whole process. OITNB ended this year, next year ends Bojack Horseman and 13 Reasons Why. Those 3 series with their recent seasons have made me see that I must close a cycle. And that's why I count all this.

I tell my story as proof of how much the toxic side of the LiS fandom damaged me. That although everything remains calm sometimes, there are still people like that I managed to get ahead, and I hope that someone inside the fandom hasn't suffered something similar or worse. And still, to those people who damaged me only one thing I can say:

Thank you.

Thank you for your fatal acts, because even they have damaged me and brought me into depression, it caused me to get the best out of myself and show myself that I can be stronger.

I love Grahamfield, Max and Warren separately. These characters and ship aren't only that, they're my recovery symbol and reminder of loving me as I am. They mean to me a lot. They grew and healed with me. I appreciate these two separately and together. I never hated Chloe. She isn't my favorite but I appreciate her a lot, I recognize her flaws, and I still appreciate her. Chloe and me have things in common. But in truth: you don't know how much I identify with Max and Warren, that's how it was since I met the game.

I'm glad to notice my years of progress. But I also want to apologize if at some point I became rude for defending Warren and/or Grahamfield. Now I hope you understand where my courage and my insistence to defend it came from.

I also want to make it clear that I don't blame Pricefield or anyone who likes this ship or Chloe. But I want to prove that attacking someone just because doesn't like your ship isn't fine. You don't know what is happening to that person. Judging someone just for a taste is neither good nor kind. You don't know how much a characther/ship can mean for that person. Notice to what degree can damage their fanaticism that reaches the degree of intolerance. I also want to clarify that it isn't bad that someone doesn't like Warren and Grahamfield. What is wrong is that some don't understand that everyone likes. That understand that not everyone will like the same thing and they will not see it in the same way.

Everyone is a world. Everyone has their own worldview. Not because someone is different from you and doesn't like the same as you, it gives you the right to judge it as trahs and treat it as trahs.

Treat people as you would like to be treated.

I'm glad that in these 4 years that I like LiS I have found people who are still kind to me and others, and who respect each other's tastes and decisions. Both on Twitter, IG and here I have found friendly and fun people and I really appreciate them. They were a great help of my recovery. Really, thank you very much guys. Believe me that sharing the same taste for LiS but each one having different taste, still treating each other well and in a friendly way, helped me a lot and I'm very grateful. I will continue to like everything about LiS and LiS2. I will continue to draw about it and I will love to find friendships that also like LiS. Count on me when you need anything. LiS is still something important in my life, it helped me a lot to grow in several aspects. But I also won't let anyone keep offending/attacking someone else in the fandom if that person isn't hurting anyone. Respect and Tolerance among all please.

If you have read all this, you don't know how much I appreciate it. I hope this helps someone to reflect on our way of living, communicating, understanding and tolerating each other. I'm already very well, more than good.

I love myself.

Please love yourself.

You can do it!

#life is strange #lis #max caulfield #warren graham #grahamfield #pricefield #bae over bay #chloe price #rachel amber #amberprice #kate marsh #nathan prescott #victoria chase

[chenoehi]

My thoughts on Grammys, BTS, and the Academy's supposed 'diversity'.

Can't do 'Keep Reading' on mobile guys so if you don't care about it keep on scrolling.

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The only BTS music I thought might have a slim chance for a nomination was "Boy With Luv (ft. Halsey)" as a pop duo collaboration. That was it. Anything more than that was just wishful thinking.

The Academy (both Grammy and Oscar's) talk about diversity when controversy comes up, they give some Black artists and actors awards, they look like try-hards, and then the next year they repeat history. Each year more men continue to be nominated than women, even in years that women dominated the industry. Each year artists who push boundaries continue to be overlooked or less favored than more traditional artists. Each year recognition continues to be bulk awarded to the most basic artists with the most basic styles with the most basic music, often times the same (mostly white) artists each year. No one get me started on always having to award artists like Taylor Swift or Ed Sheeran or Adele each year they make music, despite whether or not what they put out is actually good, original, or better than what they did the year before. I'm not singling them out, but I think they illustrate my point. I will make one exception for Adele because she is a phenomenal singer, although I did not personally believe 25 deserved to sweep; I've been told by fans that Ed Sheeran is a good performer, so I'll give him that but I'll keep my thoughts of his music and the rest of my opinions to myself. But I get tired of artists like these getting nominated every time or almost every time they put music out and then getting awards every time they're nominated, hence sweeping. It gets tiring when the music that frequently-awarded artists put out sucks and they keep raking noms because of who they are.

There is absolutely nothing BTS or any other Asian et al. artists can do to beat that system. None of the criticism in the world has changed it thus far and I don't know that anything ever will. It's a hard institution to tear down. They will use "diverse" artists for ratings by inviting them and having them hand out awards and, in BTS's case, making such a big deal as to even display their Grammy outfits in the museum, and then they will refuse to nominate them.

It's a back handed compliment to non-Western artists. The Academy is saying they're good enough to help win over a predominantly younger and more diverse generation of viewers but they're not good enough to be awarded for their achievements.

What's worse is, the only expectation I had was for the Academy to invite them as performers despite whatever minuscule nomination they might have garnered, because it's been clearly hinted they would attend another Grammys and the Academy would frankly be fools to not have them perform after the shitstorm going on the pop industry rn. If you know anything about the Taylor Swift situation (you may not be able to tell which one because there are always so many) who knows if she will be performing this Grammys, and her medley of her songs was supposedly going to be a highlight; something's always stirring things up so who knows if certain artists don't end up going at all or bow out of performing. Ariana Grande bailed on the 2019 Grammys because the Grammy producer wouldn't let her perform songs she wanted to, and these kinds of disputes happen and artists who are nominated become no-shows. So, the opportunity to invite a group with a huge following, who have already proved to increase ratings, seems like a sure move right?

But BTS can't exactly perform at the Grammys if they're not nominated for a Grammy; I don't see them doing a tribute any time soon either. And if the Academy even dares to invite them at this point for a performance it will be an insult and a transparent ratings grab. BTS may still go to avoid appearing as if their pride has been wounded or just because they want to go regardless. They know better than their fans how it feels to lose, to be discarded, to be overlooked. This is happening to them first and foremost, not us. And if they decide that they will deal with this the same way they dealt with all their other struggles, to push on, perform for their fans, and use the opportunity of exposure for what it's worth, then support them and their decision. I, for one, won't be watching it live regardless of whether they are there. If all the Academy wants is ratings from BTS fans when they are fine with treating them like garbage, they won't get ratings from me.

I fully believe that the Academy is not only discriminatory to non-Western, non-white artists but that failing to nominate BTS for any award at all is out of fear. Fear that their traditional, safe artists will be offended and boycott the awards if they lose out on a nomination, fear that their fanbases will retaliate, but more importantly, fear that BTS or any other gigantic force of a non-Western artist may be a shoe-in for whatever award they are nominated for and potentially sweep if allowed to compete with all other artists. This comes after BTS won Best Group at the Billboard Music Awards this year. Their first time being nominated for a major U.S. award category. It wasn't even a Best New Artist schtick. It was a main category and they were up against established, popular, Western groups like Imagine Dragons and Maroon 5. It comes on the heels of Super M earning number 1 debut album and beginning a successful tour they are on right now. It comes after Blackpink performed at Coachella and toured the country. It comes after NCT 127 and ATEEZ toured the country. Even TXT, a months old group, had successful showcases in major U.S. cities.

The Academy is too racist and xenophobic to acknowledge Asian artists--they always have been and they always will be. The most diversity we'll see is the nomination of Black artists, but still only 2 were nominated for SotY whereas 4 were nominated for RotY. I don't know the exact numbers, but any time I've ever kept up with the awards I don't see very many other diversity groups being represented in nominations either, such as artists with disabilities or LGBT artists who have different gender expressions and identities or sexual orientations that impact their music, performance, and artistry. Halsey's intimate performance at the BBMAs with that female dancer was huge because that's just not something that's really done. Still. And any time it does happen it's a Britney and Madonna moment all over again, it's a fetish to everyone. Progress has been made but it's very minuscule in comparison to the 'diversity' touting approach they've taken.

I'll just leave the words of this morning's Rolling Stone article here:

So, the Academy selectively extends its diversity goodwill just as they always have. No shade to the artist, but just using this example of Lil Nas X versus BTS, you have a young Black, gay artist who started his career in late 2018. He's nominated for some of top Grammys with a minimal discography--an 18-minute EP. This is groundbreaking, it's great. BTS, a 6-year-old established group of young Korean artists who break nearly every record there is and dominated Western charts this spring, and they continue to chart Billboard and Western streaming platforms. They earn no nominations.

The two artists ironically happen to have a collaboration in the form of Old Seoul Road.

Congrats to Lizzo and Lil Nas X (that's not shade at Billie btw) but this tweet from the New York Times is so unbelievably misguided because the Academy's conception of diversity is like seasoning with mostly salt, a little pepper and no cayenne (hate to use that analogy but am I wrong?):

I do appreciate that some artists who don't get nominated a lot got nominations, but looking at the list of top awards I just can't imagine how some of those got through. And I listen to a lot of different music and some BTS stans may have know idea who the fuck Bon Iver is and I'm not saying they don't deserve nominations period, but when you look at the list it's just mind boggling how a song like BWL that was listened to and appreciated like a summer anthem would be could not be included in that mess. (Vampire Weekend for Album of the Year, what, who the fuck, is that, they've been around since 2006, that's when I listened to nothing but metal and rock and I don't, know who the fuck this obscure band is? I may have heard of them once eons ago but they apparently made no impression? I'm sorry). I won't go as far as to say BWL was a Western summer anthem because much of the gp still doesn't know them, this is true. But apparently that's never stopped the Academy before. Bonus, anyone remember Bon Iver winning Best New Artist over Katy Perry all those years ago? No, just me? Good times. (Respect to Bon Iver, I'm just making a point that a lesser known artist won that award over a popular artist and the public went "waH?" Bon Iver being nominated for Record and Album of the Year this time honestly has the same effect as before because what is Hey, Ma even. I listen to Indie music so. What it is.)

Anyway. That's my thoughts. Expect nothing and you won't be disappointed is a myth. You will always have room to be disappointed in humanity.

Edit: while I'm at it, a big, massive fuck you to the Academy for never nominating Halsey for Without You.

#bts #bangtan #kpop #grammys #grammy awards #grammys 2020 #2020 grammys #kim namjoon #namjoon #rm #kim seokjin #seokjin #jin #min yoongi #yoongi #suga #jung hoseok #hoseok #jhope #park jimin #jimin #kim taehyung #taehyung #v #jeon jungkook #jungkook #bangtan boys #bangtan sonyeondan #rant #personal post

[logicalstansadvice]

Who saw Pam&Tommy? How was it?

Anon 2: he went back to his pre-Bucky voice

Anon 3: The best thing I can say about this show is that the makeup is incredible. Sebastian is great at times (his first scene, when he is on the phone with Pamela), but knowing his mannerisms irritates me a lot and I keep getting flashbacks to his other asshole roles like he has some douchebag presets embedded in his brain. Lily is good but sometimes too cartoonish. The show itself seems trashy and pointless...I don't know

Anon 4: i literally saw people claiming that the show plays tommy sympathetically...i've watched ten minutes of the show and i have to laugh at that delusion

Anon 5: I can't believe how much I love Pam & Tommy. I thought it would be schlocky, and it is a little, but damn - Seb and Lily make me believe those two have an insatiable passion for each other. Sizzling hot.

Anon 6: P&T: I have to ask… I know the talking penis is fake but what about the rest of his scenes? Was that a prosthetic as well? European length usually leaves much to be desired. 😂

Anon 7: Haters are having a meltdown because apparently Sebastian and Lily admitted in some recent interview to watching the tape together for research purposes. First of all, how the fuck is that surprising in any way? They had to reenact it so obviously they had to watch. Secondly, how is he a liar? He said before he didn't watch the tape as a kid, when it happened. I don't know if I would call it lying or omitting the truth.

Anon 8: it's funny that they mention Tommy lee's gf because she followed Sebastian the moment the news were out and she constantly likes and comments his stuff 🤮 if she's so concerned about what Pamela thinks then why is she doing what she does?

Anon 9: I'm a little stunned by the people on social media who say Seb is just too short for the role of Tommy. It's just such a hyper-literal idea of what makes a person a person, especially since Tommy is not 7 feet tall. That surprised me so much more than the handful of people who of course come out with the "Sebastian Stan can't act" crap. Anyway, just found that weird in terms of what can turn people off an actor, so I thought I'd share lol.

Anon 10: From GQ's P&T article: “It was made from silicone and involved lifecasting Sebastian so that we could then sculpt the appropriate size and blend points. Once we were done sculpting, another mould was made and we cast it from a plasticized silicone...We apply the piece by having the actor ‘saddle’ himself into the appliance like a sleeve. We then glue it into place...All modesty is out the door in these scenarios and we become quick personal friends when you're in those positions.

Anon 11: it's fucking nuts! If you're not offended by it, it's definitely worth the watch!

Anon 12: I saw Pam&Tommy. Maybe this is just me, but it is the first time I watched Sebastian and it was like he wasn't Sebastian. He was so fucking different! He nailed the role. And I'm not saying he didn't nail previous roles but this time he was so different that I almost couldn't tell it was him. Even his voice was different at times.

Anon 13: Finally saw the first ep. My take: Seb is excellent--want more. Jury is still out on Lily. Jay Leno was a huge, sexist creep. And whoever plays Lonnie is a much better actor than Rogen.

Lady Danger - So many responses:

Anon 4, I don’t know what they’re smoking but I can say truthfully that Tommy comes off as the complete asshole he is.

Anon 3, I don’t think the show’s aesthetic is meant to be something very grounded. It’s ridiculous in all the best ways. But if it’s not for you, at least you know now!

Anon 1&5: I’m personally loving it so far - Tommy Lee is a ridiculous insane asshole rockstar and Pam is that buxom kind blonde. They’re hot together.

Anon 6: NEVER have I laughed so hard as I did with the penis puppet scene! 😂 Seb wore a prosthetic all the way through the show - if you know anything about TL, he is NOT the size of an average American man. 🍆 😆

Anon 7: If you’ve seen the show thus far, you’ll know they had to recreate some audio and non-explicit scenes from the tape - so far, you never see or hear more than flashes or snippets of it. And you don’t need to - there’s more than enough nudity & sex without it! 😂 As for the seemingly contradictory answers from Seb - it’s about the context. The E!News interviewer asked if he’d watch the video in 1995. Which of course he didn’t, he was 12!! When asked in the context of today? Both he & Lily said they’d watched it for work purposes. Which they had to, to recreate the moments we’ve seen/heard this far.

Anon 9: People who have nothing else to criticize will go after physical attributes that he has no control over. They want replicas of real people and don’t care otherwise. Easy to ignore.

Ruby Woo -

Anon 2: I was expecting his voice to take me out of the role but the physical transformation makes it impossible.

Anon 11: you are absolutely right! This touches upon the commodification of women's bodies a lot more than I thought it would. The way Pamela was treated on the set of Baywatch is appalling. (I have to admit that it's makin' me think about the way her wishes were disregarded concerning the making of this series....but me not watching won't change the fact that these events happened.) Hopefully it will bring about even more awareness within the industry.

Anon 8: eh, people try to make themselves relevant any way they can.

Anon 12: wait until you see Fresh!

Vamp - I've only had time to watch the first epi, but anyone who claims this series is romanticizing Tommy Lee is not watching the same show.

P&T confirms that TL is the massive asshole I always thought he was.

And it's reminded me that Jay Leno was a fucking creep. That scene made me livid....

#logical stans advice #sebastian stan #logicalstansadvice #anonymous #opinion blog #pam and tommy #asks answered #spoilers

[jwowwsboobs]

The Meaning of Belly Button Blues by cleopatrick

posted by cleopatrickband on the r/cleopatrick subreddit

yo what's up everyone. this is luke!! it's such a trip to see you all analyzing these lyrics so deeply. i can't thank you enough for caring about these old (arguably not great) songs lol. i can still remember being 17 and working so hard on this track; wondering if anyone would ever care. so thank you!

i just stumbled across this thread last night and thought this is a good place to share the story behind the song. mostly so you guys don't have to keep wondering, but also to clarify that this song doesn't have anything to do with the LGBTQIA+ community. as our fans know, ian and i believe everyone deserves to be exactly who they are in whatever way they wish. we do not tolerate discrimination of any form in our community, and we have, and will continue working to ensure our shows and our scene is a safe space for anyone from anywhere :)

ok so here we go:

this track was written about my experience with religion / growing up in the canadian catholic school system. at the time, that felt like the coolest / deepest thing i could write about in my life. out of the whole EP, this song is the most directly related to that topic.

back in my early school days, i was a very timid and malleable little guy. during one particular year in school, when i was about 5/6 years old, i had a teacher that was very religious. she imposed a lot of her own beliefs on my class - teaching us about hell, and the devil, and sinning, and all that stuff in an effort to endow some god-fearing cooperation in us. she was essentially my first teacher, and so i really trusted her the information she gave us. i thought all of this biblical stuff was totally real. in my mind, god and religion was like the magic powers i'd see in spider-man cartoons or whatever. it all seemed logical.

so over the course of that year she ended up scaring the shit out of me with this "hell" stuff. i had decided that i wanted to be a priest when i grew up, because i figured they don't really go to hell (and can possibly do magic??) i also started to pray the rosary at night before bed, because she had told us that's a good way to avoid the hell stuff too. it was some serious brain washing.

anyways there's lots of funny stories within this experience, but they aren't necessarily important for belly button blues. that song is based off of two more unique moments from that year. two moments where i was first able to think semi-critically about what i was being taught.

the first, is a memory from that year that formed verse 1. its a short story, but it felt good to write about.

basically one day my teacher was getting mad at a girl in my class for not sitting up straight, or keeping her desk clean or whatever. classic little kid shit. but in an effort to compel the whole class to behave better, this teacher stoo at the front and announced to us all

"if you don't sit up straight, god won't answer your prayers"

i remember immediately thinking that was weird. nobody had mentioned that god cared about that kind of stuff to me in church or anything. it seemed out of character for the guy that was so strict but forgiving and so for a brief moment i wondered if my teacher was just being mean.

that's verse one. however the rest of the song is about a second, and more important time i questioned the whole bible being fact thing.

on this day, my class was on a lame little religious field trip. the school i went to was attached to a church, and the trip our teacher planned was to have my class walk over to the church to do a tour // a stations of the cross thing with the priest.

so there we are, walking through the church looking at these mildly-gory old paintings of jesus with the cross, and angels, and disciples, and stuff, when all of a sudden this big painting of adam and eve catches my eye.

i knew all about adam and eve from church. in fact it was probably my favourite biblical story at the time. but standing there that day, staring at this painting; i felt really confused.

i knew adam and eve were born of god. they were the first humans ever, and that meant they didn't have a mom or dad. but the thing that was confusing me about this giant painting was that i could clearly see that both adam and eve had two big beautiful belly buttons on them...

at the time, my second youngest brother had just been born, and through that big life event my parents had taught me about some basic biology stuff. the simplest of which was that belly buttons came from our mommy's - they were how we ate before were born. and so it didn't make sense to me that adam and eve would have belly buttons. where they babies in gods tummy? that was never mentioned?

so stupidly, i asked my teacher about it. i can still remember the anger and shock on her face. i was only curious - but she scolded my in front of the whole class for asking that question.

that interaction helped me to slowly begin formulating my own beliefs. i stayed interested in religion for a few more years, but as better teachers came around, my god-fear faded, and so did my investment in church and prayer. eventually i realized being a priest would not be fun at all. instead, i wanted to be a magician. then after a few more years i realized that being a magician might not be too fun either... so i decided to be a musician.

now i am here on reddit talking about my songs with you guys.

so yea that's the main story behind the track. the song is supposed to be both comedic and confusing. lyrically, i wanted to layer a lot of open ends and possible plots on top of the one foundational point that eve shouldn't have a belly button to be pierced in the first place. so i sing about cleopatra and pharaohs and stuff, but that was all supposed to be a diversion from the real themes of critical thinking, confusion, and the judgement cast by toxic forms of religion.

well anyways, thanks for reading this far if you have. and again, thank you all for the support. we love you guys!! stay safe, take care of each other, and hopefully we will all be bouncing around in a mosh pit together real soon!!!

much love

luke

#cleopatrick #new rock mafia #my uploads #long post

[starliightxo]

✨ Holly Discography & OOC Meanings ✨

Storytelling = songs not written about her life but a story she made up

Red

1. State Of Grace ~ for Haley

2. Red ~ (Storytelling) Comparing love and emotions to colours

3. Treacherous ~ Park

4. I Knew You Were Trouble ~ Park

5. All Too Well ~ Adrian

6. 22 ~ Just a feel good, having fun song

7. I Almost Do ~ Adrian

8. We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together ~ (Storytelling) just a catchy get stuck in your head song, are specifically to be a single to get attention

9. Stay Stay Stay ~ Adrian

10. The Last Time ~ (storytelling) but in a way it's about her parents and begging them to put her first when it comes to them taking Haley. Because they never considered her in all their choices and it broke her.

11. Holy Ground ~ Adrian

12. Sad Beautiful Tragic ~ Adrian

13. The Lucky One ~ Herself discovering that starting to be known and fame isn't exactly what people expect

14. Everything Has Changed ~ (storytelling)

15. Starlight (co-written with Soraya) ~ for Soraya

16. Begin Again ~ meeting Adrian again after the 4 year gap

17. The Moment I Knew ~ a birthday she spent just after she had Haley and longing for Adrian to come back even though she knew her parents wouldn't have even let him through the door even if he had. But it's not nearly as bitter @ him as the song suggests

18. Come Back... Be Here ~ Adrian

19. Girl At Home ~ (storytelling) girls supporting girls

Fifteen (EP)

(the EP based off the songs she wrote in school/post losing adrian)

1. Love Story ~ Adrian

2. Fearless ~ Adrian

3. Fifteen ~ Herself and kind of a message to Haley to put her dreams first

4. You Belong With Me ~ Adrian/Paisley but lowkey any girl taking interest in him. I.e. margo etc.

5. Better Than Revenge ~ Paisley/Margo

6. Last Kiss ~ Adrian

7. Enchanted ~ Adrian when they met again at St Judes. their first official date was at a ball esque thingy

8. Ours ~ about Adrian @ her parents and the disapproval

9. Mine ~ Adrian (Storytelling) what she imagined

Safe And Sound (EP)

(The EP about/for haley)

1. Safe And Sound ~ a lullaby for haley

2. Innocent ~ about herself in a way and trying to forgive herself for hr mistakes when it came to haley and the choices she make but also reminding her that she could stay innocent and young for as long as possible

3. Never Grow Up ~ wishing she doesn't grow up too fast because she very much did and it was terrifying

4. Untouchable ~ How haley's kept away from her

5. Breathe ~ the follow on from untouchable and not being able to breathe without her

Welcome To New York

1. Welcome To New York ~ Her love for the city and dreaming of living there

2. Blank Space ~ (Storytelling)

3. Style ~ Adrian

4. Out Of The Woods ~ the aftermath of (tw) the rape and holly fighting to get out of the dark place and there's obviously hints of Adrian in there being with her through it

5. All You Had To Do Was Stay ~ Soraya & Dallas (storytelling)

6. Shake It Off ~ speaks for itself basically for her fans

7. I Wish You Would ~ Adrian after he disappeared when she first got pregnant and they separated

8. Bad Blood ~ Anyone against her and labelling her as the mean girl. She went very theatrical and played on it. Although everyone thinks it's specifically about Hensley, she was just one name on a long list

9. Wildest Dreams ~ back when she first started at St Judes and met Julian again, his was another sing based on their first date at the ball-esque event

10. How You Get The Girl ~ at Dallas about Soraya

11. This Love ~ Adrian

12. I Know Places ~ wanting to hide from the insider and paps and opinions whether it's with Adrian or on her own.

13. Clean ~ The last song she wrote for the album and it's about (tw) the rape. It was the first thing she ever wrote about it so it's extremely personal

14. Wonderland ~ (storytelling)

15. You Are In Love ~ Adrian

16 . New Romantics ~ St Judes/Monroe life

Reputation

1. Ready For It? ~ preparing for battle in a way. this was one of if not her biggest album and it was all about her fighting back and taking control of her public narrative. She wrote/sang about things you'd never expect and said ings you'd never expect so it's getting ready for that

2. End Game ~ Adrian

3. I Did Something Bad ~ Everyone who did her wrong and called her the mean girl

4. Don't Blame Me ~ Adrian

5. Delicate ~ Adrian

6. Look What You Made Me Do ~ are you ready for it 2.0

7. So It Goes... ~ Adrian

8. Gorgeous ~ Adrian/Haley/Soraya

9. Getaway Car ~ Park

10. King Of My Heart ~ Adrian

11. Dancing With Our Hands Tied ~ Adrian

12. Dress ~ Adrian

13. This Is Why We Can't Have Nice Things ~ about the shit she gets for winning awards

14. Call It What You Want ~ Adrian and their relationship but it's aimed at their parents

15. New Years Day ~ painting a nice picture of new years day (because She was (tw) raped on new years eve night just before midnight) and basically how Adrian was there for her the day after and picked her back up

Lover

1. I Forgot That You Existed ~ anyone not on her side and lowkey about the guy who r*ped her. Although that's on her mind a lot, this would have been her when she's enjoying her time with someone and she forgets for one night. Or how she wishes she could forget about him for good.

2. Cruel Summer ~ probably her brief rebound of a relationship with park tbh and she convinced herself it was love to try and make herself feel better about the guilt. But ultimately they both knew it wasn't good or going to work.

3. Lover ~ about Holly and Adrian finally being in complete control of their relationship but still having insecure moments where she worries about losing him, but he's there every time. It speaks for itself mainly tbh.

4. The Man ~ the feminist jumped out LOL she aimed for this one to be relatable in every sense cause she knows it's a very common topic. But some things jump out from her own experiences like: "when everyone believes ya, what's that like?" About the r*ape trial.

5. The Archer ~ I love how holly it is 😩 reflecting on how she handled certain situations like things with hensley (bad blood) and how she's made a lot of mistakes. And being lowkey terrified she'll lose people because of it. I think mainly Adrian and Soraya tbh.

6. I Think He Knows ~ Adrian

7. Miss Americana And The Heartbreak Prince ~ about the negative affects caused by st Jude's and "fame" and having Adrian there through it all. The second first specifically would be about the night of the r*pe and when she told Adrian and he was the one of the only ones who cared what the truth was. Personally I think this is the most holly song on the album! I knew exactly what she'd write it about as soon as I heard it lol

8. Paper Rings ~ Adrian

8. Cornelia Street ~ kinda Begin Again 2.0 for holly and it basically being about that first time she saw Adrian again after they're 4 years apart and the fear she had of losing them/him again. I especially feel the line "It's the kind of heartbreak time could never mend"

9. Death By A Thousand Cuts (storytelling)

10. London Boy ~ her dream has always been to live in New York so she's kinda made herself new York in this album and Adrian's the London boy, even though he isn't English LOL? but their relationship lives in London basically. And she loves NY but she'd go wherever he is instead.

11. Soon You'll Get Better ft The Dixie Chicks ~ Soraya's health problems, how much her wellbeing means to holly and how desperately she needs her to just be okay all the time.

12. False god ~ I picture her breakup with Adrian back when she was pregnant and they were kids. How it all went to shit but that small hope still there "We might just get away with it." She probably would have taken snippets from old journals back from that time for this.

13. You Need To Calm Down ~ It's about ever form of love

14. Afterglow ~ this one hits me so much and cause I'm so invested in holly and adrian, hurts my heart. Basically apologising for hurting him ever, mainly with Park. But lowkey the r*pe thing too. Even tho he'd never be mad or blame her for that, she blamed herself at one point. And She panics regularly that it would ruin them.

15. ME! ~ a confidence boost for herself, her friends and her fans.

16. It's Nice To Have A Friend ~ being in love with your best friend. Also how I picture her and Adrian starting out in school.

17. Daylight ~ about how her and Adrian both had other things while they weren't together, but since they got back together, it was like stepping back into the daylight and nothing can be as perfect as that feeling they have with each other. They never really had it with anyone else.

Folklore

1. The 1 ~ (storytelling)

2. Cardigan ~ recently holly has defo felt kind of forgotten about and falling into the shadows. And as always, Adrian is slowly started to pull her out of her dark place.

3. The Last Great American Dynasty ~ awhile ago Adrian bought them a kind of holiday home and she wrote a story about the previous owner (storytelling)

4. Exile ft Bon Iver ~ the last song she wrote for the album. Her and Adrian recently broke up and have one of if not their biggest arguments and this was about that

5. My Tears Ricochet ~ Her Parents

6. Mirrorball ~ about being what the media want you to be and being perfect and when you fall and break they watch as if it's entertainment

7. Seven ~ (storytelling) a childhood friendship where one is suffering (tw) in am abusive household and the other wants to rescue them. It's also about wanting to stay young as long as possible and when we stopped doing the little things only children get away with

8. August ~ Park

9. This Is Me trying ~ Herself and her struggle to hold it all together. She defo would have had that moment of being on the edge of a cliff and having the moment she decided to back away from it

10. Illicit Affairs ~ Park

11. Invisible String ~ Adrian

12. Mad Woman ~ Herself and women in general

13. Epiphany ~ (storytelling) a couple/people during world war 2

14. Betty ~ (storytelling)

15. Peace ~ for Adrian

16. Hoax ~ (storytelling)

17. The Lakes ~ wanting to run away but of course only with Adrian

Other Songs

Back To December

Sparks Fly

Mean

Long Live

Beautiful Ghosts

Christmas Tree Farm

I Don't Wanna Live Forever

Babe ft Sugarland

Only The Young

#hollywork #holly #saved #discography #holly discography

[theapostlesnigeria]

DON'T MIND HIM - THEY CAN'T HARM YOU

"His tail swept a third of the stars out of the sky and flung them to the earth. The dragon stood in front of the woman who was about to give birth, so that he might devour her child the moment it was born. She gave birth to a son, a male child, who will rule all the nations with an iron scepter. And her child was snatched up to God and to his throne. The woman fled into the desert to a place prepared for her by God, where she might be taken care of for 1,260 days...out of the serpent’s reach." - Revelation 12:4-6,14 NIV 1984.

Don't allow Satan deceive you with his showmanship. If you are a Believer, there is nothing, absolutely nothing, he can do to you, at least spiritually. Yes, he flung a third of the Stars off their course unto the earth - absolute show of great Power. But the woman that just gave birth in his front, despite the fact he was in her front to devour her child and the weakened state of the woman by childbirthing, he was not able to even reach nor touched any of them. They were divinely and safely taken from right under his nose - absolute show of his Powerlessness and Helplessness.

Friend, if Satan couldn't reach the woman right under his nose nor in her prepared place of abode and safety, is it you that is in the very throne of God, that has been translated to the very safe Kingdom of Christ, that he can reach? No, never. God said He has fully rescued and secured you from Satan's reach: "For he has rescued us from the dominion of darkness and brought us into the kingdom of the Son he loves." - Colossians 1:13 (see also Ephesians 2:6). Why do you still doubt Him by fearing Satan and his antics. What He did for the woman, He has done for you also.

Despite the devil was right there in front of the woman to kill and devour, it did not make God to change His plan, His timming nor seek a safer place. So don't be taken in by what Satan displays nor all the doctrines of demons taught nowadays in our midst (1 Timothy 4:1-2). Take faith and comfort in God's faithful Promises no matter what Satan displays. The danger in believing all these doctrines of demons that does nothing but highlight and glorify the power and works of their Master, Satan, is this: it happens to you according to what you believe, even when it is wrong - "Then Jesus said to the centurion, “Go! It will be done just as you believed it would.”..." - Matthew 8:13. So, stop looking at the wrong place - Satan. Look unto your Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. Look unto the Word of God. When God moves, nothing can stop him or make Him backtrack. Have you forgotten: when God decided to bring the Deliverer of His people from bondage in Egypt into the world, Satan started killing all the new born sons. Did God change His plan or timming or backtracked? No. Rather, He sent the boy right into Satan's Palace to be taken care of. Satan taking care of the one he was seeking to destroy? Friend, know your God and have faith in Him: “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.” - Psalm 46:10.

This reminds me of an incident in 1996 at Epe, Badagary, Lagos State, Nigeria. I was there for my weekly weekend village outreaching. The Chief Priest of the village idol worship was gravely sick, near death. In one of our All Night Praying, he ran into the church for prayers. Stunned, the Pastor, Johnson, asked me to pray for him. To the glory of God, he was healed. The next weekend, me and the Pastor met him in our effort to gain him for Christ. He then confessed to us that he had no other option left than running into the church after his opponent for the Chief Priesthood of the village idol worship had cornered and pinned him down to the ground for the kill. He said to my hearing, that they of the satanic kingdom don't enter there - the Church. But that night after his confession, the forces of darkness staged an attack on me. Around midnight, I woke up. Right before my eyes were two black birds doing their acrobatics in the room. They would pierce out through the wall in one side of the room and pierce in through the wall of another side of the room. They weren't passing through the windows nor the door. Only through the block walls of the room they were piercing through as if nothing was there. It didn't occur to me to pray or do anything. Neither did I have any iota of fear in me. I was just calmly watching their great acrobatics. After about 45 minutes, they finally took their leave. I praised the Lord and went back to my sleep. Friend, yes, they had power to pierce and fly through walls, but they didn't have the power to touch me, for we are divinely protected. "We know that anyone born of God does not continue to sin; the one who was born of God keeps him safe, and the evil one cannot harm him." - 1 John 5:18. It doesn't depend on what Satan thinks he has or can do. It ALL depends on what God has faithfully said - THE WORD. That's where your sight should be on.

Have you ever wondered why God had to move you to another Kingdom while you are still alive and living on Earth? Have you ever tried to know the benefits of such a move? Have you tried to know the responsibilities and demands of such on you? Honestly, one of the main problems we have as Believers is that we don't know our Rights and Privileges available to us. Thus we are perishing as a result of our ignorance (lack of knowledge).

But wait a minute: If you are believing and holding on to the Laws of God because you believe God gave them, then why are you ignoring your Rights and Privileges available to you as if God didn't give it as well? Friend, its time to forget about all these shouting and jumping up and down in Christendom. Forget all its activities and rituals. It's time to sit down with your Bible and know who Christ has made you into; know the potentials He has made possible and available for you.

GOD BLESS YOU - BRO KINGDOM EGEJURU

[chrkrose]

But if the show is using romance to get people talking/debating, it's not working, like at all. The ratings for the last ep, which was heavy on a ship, received the lowest ratings since 2012. There is huge backlash to this ep on TWD Facebook page. Whatever their reasons, a lot GA fans don't like r!ch0nne and ultimately it's The GA TPTB have to think about. Putting Daryl in a ship could turn a lot of fans away and they can't afford to lose any more viewers.

Read more because this is huge. Also, if you are a R!chonne fan, it would be better to just skip it. I’m leaving out of the tags cause I don’t want to bring negativity to the ship or the fandom. But I don’t ship R!chonne, so it won’t be a positive post about them, so ignore it if you like the pairing :)

I think what are you failing to see is that, first of all, Caryl is not R!chonne. It’s not a surprise here that I’m not a R!chonne fan and I don’t like what the relationship is doing with one of my favorites female character, but I’ll try my best to answer this without my bias getting in the way.

There are a few problems with R!chonne that I think could be the cause of why the episode wasn’t well received (besides racism, because we know this is one of the reasons why some people don’t like them together), and also a few problems with the structure of the show that didn’t help the episode.

1. Their canon:

Gimple dropped the ball big time with how he made R!chonne happen imo. Before season 5, I used to ship them a lot. Their interactions during season 4 and part of season 5 were perfect and totally created the perfect setup for them to be one of the most iconic couples in the show. But then J3ssick happened. And you see, the problem is not having a midship in the middle of it. The problem is having R!ck lusting after Jessie and completely forgetting about M!chonne and what they had together. Sure, they traded some looks here and there, and it was clear he had no chemistry at all with Jessie, and let’s be honest, that couple was ughh, but the fact remains that R!ck couldn’t stop going after jessie and that could be a huge turn off to people when it comes to R!chonne. It’s hard for you to believe that these two people love each other when M!chonne didn’t seem to bother with R!ck and his new gf (don’t get me wrong, I thank God that she didn’t, cause I’m honestly not here for Ricardo Grimes having two women fighting for him) and when we have R!ck, just one episode prior to their canon, having flashbacks of Jessie and all the (five) moments they spent together flashing to the whole public and him suffering while having to kill her. Many of the complains about R!chonne was that it seemed out of nowhere, and honestly, it did. If Gimple had taken at least 2 or 3 episodes to build something back and then having them going canon, it would be way better.

2. The lack of development:

After dropping the ball completely when it comes to their canon, Gimple made another huge mistake: didn’t give R!chonne time to develop their relationship on season 6. So we ended the season they went canon without any other significant moment that could stick with GA and solidified them as a couple. They shared a few scenes here and there, but there wasn’t nothing substantial as them trying to navigate through this relationship. It seemed like they simply fell into this thing and that’s it, no need to explore what all of this could mean for them, for Carl and Judith.

3. Screentime doesn’t equal to quality time

Then we have a huge shift when it comes to season 7a. R!chonne is in every episode together and sharing  lot of screentime. But, this doesn’t mean that what they shared was something that helped GA connect with them as a couple. Their scenes were mainly about what was happening with N3gan and his monologues, and the little interesting storylines we could have that could make them be interesting to the public, they dropped… again. Like M!chonne not agreeing with R!ck’s attitude when it came to how he was handling N3gan. That last only one episode and then it was over. I feel that this is more a problem related to how everything needed to be about N3gan and it certainly hurt what could have been good moments for them, but the audience was finding it hard to connect with anything on 7a, R!chonne unfortunately wasn’t an exception.

4. M!chonne disappearing in the relationship.

Maybe this point is the one that my bias will be super clear. M!chonne was one of my favorite characters of twd. Any episode that had her as a focus, I was already down for it, simply because it was her. But since her and R!ck started this relationship, her whole storyline is centered on the Grimes family, and specially, on R!ck’s character, and this sucks big time. Where are their conversations about how SHE feels when it comes to Glenn being dead? Where are the conversations about M!chonne having to kill a teenager, when she was a mother herself? Where are their conversations about Andre? Her struggles after she lost her son? What she went through while she was alone out there? Where is she talking about Andrea to Rick? How their friendship changed her? If R!ck has the time to talk about judith and the whole shane/lori storyline, why M!chonne doesn’t get the same?

And since when M!chonne would be the kind of character who would simply give up at the prospect of R!ck dying? M!chonne, who loves Carl and Judith more than anything?

M!chonne’s storyline revolves around R!ck now, and this can be another reason why people feel hard to connect with this relationship, since M!chonne is a fan favorite and people are expecting more of her story than just being R!ck’s partner and the person who supports him.

Do I think it’s an important relationship in terms of representation? Yep, I do. It’s the powerful black female character with the white leading man, we don’t see this in television very often, it’s a huge slap in the face of racists assholes. But I still think this relationship could be better, could be done better, and if they are not careful with how they are treating M!chonne in all of this, this might be more harmful than helpful.

The thing though, that you need to understand, is that the problem doesn’t rely on R!chonne happening, but in how it’s been conducted. The whole TWD problems is about how they are making things happening. R!chonne is just one more reflection on how TPTB is not handling well their own show, how they are not being careful with how things happen and how to make it happen in the best way to draw GA viewers to their arcs. It could happen with Caryl as well? Yep, absolutely. They could fuck it up and turn the relationship in something not satisfying to anyone (shippers and GA). But putting them together is not an issue, and never was. Carol and Daryl are two of the most popular characters in the entire show, and GA as a whole already considers them “a thing” even without canon. Their story revolves around how powerful their relationship always were, and if they do it right, it will be even more interesting to see them navigating their relationship. Daryl Dixon being paired with Carol is not something that will drive fans away. It might drive some of his ageist fans away, which let’s be honest, it’s great for him, since they are the worst part of his fan base. The character maybe will be able to finally be discussed for his interesting arcs or development, instead of “when Daryl will finally hook up with someone?”. The worst thing that happened to Daryl was to become the cash cow. And that happened on season 4, when he became this huge product rather than a good character with interesting arcs. His highest moments were season 1/2/3, and it was what made him popular. And it’s not coincidence that it was when he has this storyline with Carol going on and interesting arcs that were focused not on his man pain and him crying to make fan girls go nuts, but arcs that focused on his struggles and his past, and the abuse he suffered, and him finding himself having feelings for someone and wanting to take care of his family.

People tend to forget I think that Daryl is only what he is today because of his storyline with Carol. If it wasn’t for that, he would be just one more “one note character”.