#i wanna make me Holy shit

[aquamarlne]

I made more of These :3

#:3 #silly lil thing #south park #ugly bob #scott the dick #rick the mountie #French Canadian mime #i wanna make me Holy shit

[inkskinned]

kids remind me, often, of the things i've taught myself out of.

i have a big dog. he looks like a deer. he is taller than most young children. while we were on a trail the other day, a boy coming our direction saw us and froze. he took a step back and said: "i'm feeling nervous. your - your dog is kind of big."

goblin and i both stopped walking immediately. "he is kind of a big dog," i admitted. "he's called a greyhound. they are gentle but they are pretty tall, which is kind of scary, you're right. their legs are so long because they are made for running fast. i am sorry we scared you. would you like us to stand still while you move past us, or would you feel more safe in your body if we move and you stay still?'

"oh. i didn't know that about - greyhounds. i think i ... i want to stay still," he said. at this point, his adult had caught up to us. "i'm nervous about the dog," he told her, "so i'm - i'm gonna stay still." she didn't argue. she didn't make fun of him. she just smiled at him and at me and held his hand while goblin and i, with as wide of a berth as we could make, crept our way through.

behind us, i heard him exhale a deep breath and kind of laugh - "he was really big, huh? she said it's because greyhounds have to go fast."

"he was big," she said. "i understand why that could have made you a little scared."

"yeah. next time i - next time do you think i could maybe ask to touch him? when - i mean, next time, maybe, if i'm not nervous."

later, going to a work event, in the big city, i stood outside, trembling. my social anxiety as a caught bird in my chest. i took a deep breath and turned to my coworker. she's not even really my friend yet. i told her: "i feel nervous about this. i am not used to meeting new people, ever since covid."

she laughed, but not in a mean way. she said she was nervous too. she reached her hand out and held mine, and we both took another deep breath and walked in like that, interlinked. a few people asked us - together? - and i told the truth: i feel nervous, and she's helping. over and over i watched people relax too, admitting i feel really kind of shy lately actually, thank you for saying that.

the next time i go to an event, and i feel a little scared, i ask right away: wanna hold hands? this feels a little dangerous. i hesitate less. i don't hide it as much. i watch for other people who are also nervous and say - it's kinda hard, huh?

i know, logically, i'm not good at asking for help. but i am also not good at noticing when i need help. i've trained myself out of asking completely, but i've also trained myself to never accept my own fears or excuses. i have trained myself to tamp down every anxiety and just-push-through. i don't know what i'm protecting myself from - just that i never think to admit it to anyone.

but every person on earth occasionally needs comfort. every person on earth occasionally needs connection. many of us were taught independence is the same thing as never needing anything.

each of us should have had an adult who heard - i feel nervous and held our hand and asked us how we could be helped to feel safe. no judgement, and no chiding. many of us did not. many of us were punished for the ways that we seemed "weak".

but here is something: i am an adult now. and i get nervous a lot, actually. and if you are an adult and you are feeling a little nervous - come talk to me. we can hold hands and figure out what will help us feel safe in our bodies. and maybe, next time, if we're brave, we can pet the dog that's passing.

#spilled ink #warm up #so i have worked in childcare as a teacher for like 15 years #hence the language behind ''what helps you be safe in your body?'' #like you can tell by what i say here i have EXPERIENCE with kids. #but tbh the REAL teacher moment is watching a 6/7 year old say #''this makes me nervous #can you please not come closer?'' #as a teacher i was IMMEDIATELY like ... ahh whomever is raising you is doing an EXCELLENT job holy shit #verbalizing your fears? trusting an adult to listen? #ability to recognize a way you might feel safer? #like .... this kid's caregivers.... that one moment... i was like .... who are u i wanna french kiss you big on the mouth

[whereflowerswenttodie]

this is doing things to me. sinful things.

link below the cut if you want it,

(minors please do not interact.)

#gojo x reader #gojo satoru #jjk gojo #gojo satoru has me by a very tight grip #i may as well die #holy shit #i wanna be jogo so bad #why did they make this? #Spotify

[kiiingsnake]

commission for @sequintial

#art #my art #character design #digital art #drawing #mecha #angel #holy shit dude this was right up my alley and i LOVED making it #its making me wanna revisit some of my old mecha designs that i havent touched in almost years #concept art #illustration

[neptunesailing]

hades art dump part 2

#this is NOT in order of which i drew them i think i drew the last three a while ago. zag was today tho :D #nep draws things #hades game #hades supergiant #zagreus #thanatos #megaera #zagreus hades #megaera hades #thanatos hades #how did i tag this last time...................... #sketch #I POSTED FOR HADESGAME AGAIN.. WOAH. UNHEARD OF. #anyway i wanna make a chibi series maybe......... i love this game holy shit. i should draw the olympians and . actually everyone #pain and suffering i need to think about this game more often. ive been oc-pilled recently.. ouh. i think i may be in btwn fixations. ykno #like that downtime of when ur not Into Something. thats me rn. i also think thats also a big Burnout time for me whoops . school might have #to deal with that i think. ahhah school is killing me oh my god

[cryptocism]

Chapter 18: Two's Company

You know what they say about best-laid plans.

#frequency fic #too many thads au #thaddeus thawne #thad thawne #inertia #bart allen #impulse #dc #*clapping hands rapidly* speedster fights!!!! speedster fights!!!! boy they are fast and they sure do fight!!!! #whoever came up with the speedster powerset i just wanna talk #every fight scene i write for this fic makes me feel like im trying to do quantum physics in my head #like its great and i love it but holy shit #character tree art will be coming with the next installment bc this chapter had to be split in half #also happy new year!!

[miradelletarot]

A little help?

Friends, moots...passers by?

might be a strange ask, but can you just bombard my TL with Everything Gale Dekarios? I need to purge some sad brain shit outta my head, and the only cure is Gale. Probably.

...or a lobotomy. That will make me stop thinking about my failed marriage right? Hmm. Let's try Gale first.

#gale dekarios #gale of waterdeep #bg3 #bg3 gale #baldur's gate 3 #gale #baldur's gate gale #baldurs gate #Give me all of the Gale Dekarios #rizzard of waterdeep #make my brain exe with hot wizard things #idk if i've seen it before #but no. seriously #I am so far up in my feels #that i typed out an entire discord rant in a trauma dump channel #only to delete it #b/c it was nothing but rambling nonsense #and holy shit i don't wanna dump all my shit on other ppl #so we are gonna ignore the problem #and just drool over gale instead #that will help me for now #i promise i'm in therapy

[ljesak]

not drawing lately, playing bg3 it's so good

#a lil late to the party but!! holy shit #it gives me inspiration to make art but I wanna play instead ajshd

[steakout-05]

autistic coded men who have orange cats my beloved

#star trek tng #star trek #star trek data #garfield #garfield jon #jon arbuckle #jetpack joyride #professor brains #jetpack joyride 2 #this is my type. weird silly or otherwise quirky guys who have orange cats #brains being autistic is more just a headcanon i have rather than deliberate coding #but he's been shown to have a few autism-like behaviours and traits across the shorts and jetpack joyride 2 #it's kinda stereotypical but he's more of a logical simple thinker and he finds strings of numbers to be easier to remember than names #which i find to be interesting! he just has different thinking patterns from what i've seen in neurotypicals. and it's like. #it's the autism radar. i can always tell when a fictional character seems to be Not Neurotypical because holy shit they act like me- #-or another autistic person i know! #also all these characters are like. different facets of autism and i think that's so interesting #on the left we have highly logical direct and ''idk what to do with my face or my hands help'' sherlock spin autism #and then there's slightly unhinged dorky possible ADHD combo and complete lack of social skills autism #and finally there's the evil autism #and i love all three of them <3 #i just realised they're also all sitting in big comfy chairs! #jon's armchair looks so comfy though. like i really wanna sit in there #it's probably slightly dirty and most definitely scratched up by garfield but my god that's what make it more homely and comfy #i wonder how many armchairs jon has gotten over the years. i should count all the instances of him having a differently coloured armchair #anyway yeah. autistic cat dads my beloved <3

[cookinary]

Okay, I get it now

Thanks @mileikcin for making me curious about this game like god damn I've been missing out

#Sayonara Wild Hearts #THIS GAME IS SO MUCH FUN??? #DAMN #AND the OST slaps??? #how did I not play this earlier holy shit #some of my reactions including but not limited to: #''BROOO HOHOHOHO'' *mad laughter intensifies under insane good times* #''Oh so it's like Audiosurf all over again'' #''THIS IS NOT LIKE AUDIOSURF ALL OVER AGAIN'' #''I'VE PLAYED JUST SHAPES AND BEATS YOU AIN'T GOT NOTHING ON M—'' *dies* ''Okay maybe you do get something on me'' #''I'VE PLAYED HI-FI RUSH YOU AIN'T GOT NOTHING ON ME'' *misses QTE* ''FUCK!!'' #''What the fuuuuuuuuuck'' #''THIS GAME IS NOT COMPATIBLE WITH MY ATTENTION SPAN'' #''NO MAGICIAN I REFUSE TO SKIP THIS BIT STFU I WILL STRUGGLE BUT MAKE IT THROUGH'' #''YOU CAN'T DO THIS TO MY BRAIN PLEASE'' #''C'mon smooch the dragon. Can we smooch the dragon? WE CAN SMOOCH THE DRAGON 10/10'' #also The Fool is super cute #might add her to my list of cosplays i wanna do #after Chai and Beheaded #Yeah I'm gonna enjoy replaying this game every so often #fave boss are the Howling Moons btw #insane

[raayllum]

Can we expect any chet in your Snake Boi fics? 👀

For Snake Boi Callum fics I have

i can't help it: in which Kpp'Ar gets out of his coin and at first, mistakes Callum for Viren

i asked god to take the damage out on me: Callum does the same spell Viren did to save Soren in order to save Ezran

some say in ice: Callum uses the blood freezing spell in order to protect Rayla.

it still floats: Soren POV fic on Callum's selective loyalty (and what it means to be adjacent to, but not directly, have it)

CHET plans are being reserved for my fanon S6 fic "Teach Me How To Name The Bigger Light" (4/26ish chapters done? Maybe?) as anyone who follows me / my theories will not be surprised by much of the lore or endgame plot decisions.

However, if you do want some CHET fics, there are some lovely ones written by other people:

Post-exchange fic by @zuppizup

Post-exchange fic + 5 related drabbles (scroll to the bottom of the screen to start at the beginning) by @jelzorz

prelude / buildup by @mandaloriandragontrainer

exchange & aftermath by @rayllurn

the exchange & the aftermath by @lawchan89

these art pieces by @chimpukampu in order: 1, 2, 3

As well as a few by me such as

My own post-exchange fic

the originator, featuring like 12k of buildup and AU as of S4 but I'm still very proud of the fic as a whole

loosely adjacent post-s5 drabble

a post-s4 speculative (s6?) prelude

10.2k oneshot that's not CHET but it is about callum being all "i'll do whatever it takes to keep you safe" (post-s4) about dark magic so it was 100% written as a CHET prelude, canon confirm (and one of the reasons 5x08 made me do a lil happy dance)

As you can see there is quite the little collection, and I am excited to add to it one more time - as getting to said scene and being able to write it again to reflect how the theory/scenario has matured and evolved since its first inklings - god, a full three years ago? - is one of the reasons I'm most determined to actually make my way through writing all of fanon S6.

And of course if I missed anyone's fic or drabble or art piece, feel free to add it in the replies/reblogs - I'd love to see/read it! <3

Bonus: my favourite meme I've probably ever made

#the dragon prince #tdp #rayllum #snake boi callum week #upcoming #cube hostage exchange theory #thanks for asking #compilation #tag ramble #anonymous #did not realize just how many other people had written till i was making this like #holy shit u GUYS!! :') <33 #rayllum fandom #stuff for me #or insp by me <3 #literally if it doesn't happen it'll just be bc they don't want to repeat 5x08 too much bc #we got an unsuccessful hostage exchange that was only unsuccessful bc finnegrin was a bitch #callum did his part so like #if they don't wanna repeat i get it #but also would take her being stabbed so easily like there's still #Something here mark my woof

[fully-caulked-wagon]

it's meee jooohhnn mulaneyyy

#i didn't forget zoro's scar in the second to last panel what are you talking about #one piece #zosan #sanzo #zoro #sanji #john mulaney #shitpost #art #my art #roronoa zoro #pirate hunter zoro #zoro one piece #blackleg sanji #black foot sanji #sanji one piece #post timeskip #one piece art #zosan art #sanji art #zoro art #the pain of drawing a character that just makes you wanna squish their cheeks but you can't because you drew them and also they're not real #op #black leg sanji #zoro roronoa #tryna fill out the tags here but that last one physically pained me i won't lie #one piece fanart #zosan fanart #this was so low effort dude like holy shit #what is this

[emodennis]

i’m very happy currently :)

#dating this new person and holy shit i like them so much and they like me a lot too :)) #all i wanna do is talk to them and cuddle and make out #can’t wait to spend all of therapy talking about them today #we hung out on both sunday and monday which was crazy to me cuz i like never do that #but they make me so happy #and they keep saying that i make them so happy #and we just compliment each other all the time and it feels sooo good #i love making them all flustered they’re so cute omg #i’m seeing them again friday but it feels so far away honestly but it’s only three days #where’s that post that’s like ‘gay people don’t know how to flirt it’s always ‘there’s a rope attached to my chest and it’s pulling me- #-towards you’’ #phoenix talks

[unknownarmageddon]

ight, DAILY HOZIER!!!

last two of wasteland, baby!!!! then we move on to an EP and THEN unreal unearth

just so i dont gotta redo everything tho, tomorrow you get three songs cuz i’d already taken pairs of songs, so tomorrow is the only time you get a three set

I ALMOST FORGOT FUCK wailing i was watching. snapcube dubs i forgot i had hozier homework /silly

but yippee yippee lesgo!!!

#answering asks #chair asks #chair!! #ouhhhh why would you be loved is interesting;;; #i really really like his voice in this one cackles #OUH the guitar like in the background on the chorus god #why would you be loving…… #AUGH why would you play it all on something as hollow as trust….. #o love the thing with like. *why* would you be loved why would you be loving #why would you trust #like what do you get out of it why would you. what reason have i given #i dunno i cannot explain it wailing but banger dude #wasteland baby!!! i kinda know this one i think cackles #okay immediately banger ass lines actually holy shit #all the fear and the fire of the end of the world happens each time a boy falls in love with a girl augh #AUGHHHH god this is making me insane actually #SO so fucking proximity dude weeping wailing. like one of The most proximity songs #it’s so so like. quiet and soft and. god. it’s like a whisper #it feels like this is the way cross would sing to killer when he plays his ukulele to him know what i mean #god. GOD #YOU ARE UNBREAKING YET QUAKING…. #god that’s so cross about killer aughhhh #AUGH AUGH fucking when he’s like. but the start of all things that are left to do what the fuck #wailing wailing #banger dude it makes me wanna draw so so bad #wasteland baby i’m in love with you……….. AUGHH #OH OH i got so. excited about wasteland baby i forgot to mention how wild it is that this is the end of this album its so wild cackles #hype dude

[puwumats]

i feel a normal amount for delloso de la rue and k. p. hob :)

#dimension 20 #a court of fey and flowers #acofaf #d20 #captain kp hob #delloso de la rue #rue/hob #seriously though guys holy shit you gotta watch this season #every single character makes me wanna foam at the mouth #let me know if you want an id post for the text - i know its tiny but it needed to fit the medium #and i have so many thiughts about it