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natelia-aldelliz · 1 year

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Omg imagine if Ghost got hurt in a mission and like his mask is drenched in liquid like I dunno blood or water or something, and he's half laying down on the ground, still reeling in

And Soap approaches him very gently, like he's a spooked animal, because he basically is, and kneels in front of him, with very soft hands reaching for his mask and he says with a quiet voice :

"Am gonnae lift yer mask, LT, I ken ye dinnae want tae, but ah dinnae want ye tae drown yerself... Ah hiv another one fer ye, a dry one, tae replace this one. If ye want tae, ah'll even close ma eyes tae dae it"

And it's Simon who looks back at him, feeling terrified but so in love that it hurts him to hold the words back and instead he just nods slightly, doesn't know if he wants Johnny to recognize the emotion in his eyes or not. Because he doesn't know if he can love him, if he can provide for him, keep him safe, and he doesn't know if he can keep himself safe if anything happens to his Johnny.

But Johnny closes his eyes and lifts the mask off and reaches in his pocket to take out a napkin and another of his masks, wipes the blood and water off his face and gently puts the other mask back on and it's just too much.

"I love you." Ghost says, and once it's done it doesn't feel like he can stop. "I love you, fuck I'm sorry Johnny, I love you"

Soap opens his eyes, feels a bit shocked but not as much as he would have expected. Because it makes so much sense, and he maybe already knew it even if he didn't dare to admit it. Didn't dare to hope. Instead he looks in Ghost's - no, Simon's - eyes, immediately reaches out to wipe the tears that cling to his pale lashes, and smiles.

"Yer a bit of a numpty aren't ye, Simon?" he says, pouring all the love he feels in his eyes. "ah've been in love with ye since the very beginning, dinnae apologize, please, yer more than enough fer me"

#cod mw2 #john soap mactavish #simon ghost riley #ghostsoap #soapghost #btw the '''little''' comic i'm drawing is the longest thing i've done #it's going so slowly and i can't focus it's just awful lmaooo why is my brain like that it knew how i work when it gave me this ideaaaa

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blue-jos10 · 2 months

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i wonder how kevin's fitness-obsessed mind justifies his alcohol addiction

#kevin day #aftg #all for the game #like does he think as long as his hangovers don't effect his court time its ok?#that doesn't really fit with the idea that he's a health freak outside court too #like you're telling me he doesn't see the irony of counting calories in decimals then downing a litre of straight vodka?#or is he just so addicted he cant stop?#i feel like he'd go for rehab if he thought it would influence his long term playing but that doesn't seem to be on his bucket list #like i get he'd be hopelessly addicted at the nest but now that his future seems to have some light i'm not sure why he still lets his #addiction destroy him slowly when he's thankfully now adamant on achieving a livable life #idk if this makes sense or if its been addressed somewhere else before but yeah i was just wondering #also sorry if this is inconsiderate or ignorant as to how addictions work i don't know the best

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sleepinglionhearts · 1 year

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Libra, Libra, I'm always thinking of you 😊

#doodles #fire emblem #libra #fe art tag #what can i say i still love him so much #so like I'm starting to feel more like. energetic again #it's still on and off like a good energy day means I'm tired the next but!#the tired isn't as intense #I'm like.. able to do stuff #I've been able to draw a little more and I've been cleaning up my desk #apologies again to those who are waiting on commissions I'm getting there #i just got my desk cleaned (again) and i bought a TON of organizing thingies #so hopefully it STAYS CLEAN #anyway getting myself back into drawing slowly and whatnot #and i drew these at work over lunch and i feel like they look very nice #so onto the tumblr they go #pls enjoy

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angelicartemis · 5 months

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MORE SPRING BONNIE‼️‼️‼️

This actually took me way too long to finish because for some reason a lot of things like to reel me in and keep me occupied from doing any art whatsoever! 😁 I love it!! (I am being sarcastic)

These were drawn in aggie again because I seriously can't get enough of the pencil/pixel brush there, it's genuinely so yummy. <3

Sorry for the weird positioning btw, but I really don't want to move anything around so this is what y'all are getting :'DDD

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vaguely-concerned · 16 days

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BASHIR: Oh, so that's what this is all about. The fact that my fantasy happens to step on what you consider to be your private domain. Well what's the matter, Garak? Have I bruised your ego by play-acting at something you take so very seriously? GARAK: That's something else you've yet to learn, Doctor. A real intelligence agent has no ego, no conscience, no remorse. Only a sense of professionalism. And mine is telling me that it's time to go. Computer! . . . GARAK: It's time to face reality, Doctor. You're a man who dreams of being a hero because you know, deep down, that you're not. I'm no hero either, but I do know how to make a choice, and I'm choosing to save myself. Computer, show me the mechanism

Something something 'how are you playing at being a hero with this when I've had to fight bloodied tooth and nail just to get enough of me together to be a person (and insult & indignity to injury I'm not even very GOOD at it!!)'...

#star trek #star trek ds9 #ds9 #garashir #elim garak #julian bashir #I have a surprising amount of feelings about this ep that are taking their time in slowly working themselves through my brain haha #slow burn obsession in progress please stand by I suspect I'm going to have an obnoxious amount of more things to say lol

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prncewilhelm · 10 months

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craaazy that some of you are so determined he stays within the mould when the entire show is chronicling him breaking out of it

#it fills in when he takes the role of crown prince after erik's death #and slowly becomes more rough until it's entirely not in the lines anymore #like season 3's logo #young royals #yr s3 spoilers #spoilers #no one yell at me i'm tagging everything #young royals season 3 spoilers #as someone who has grown up working class w a monarchy that sucks the living daylights out of my country #and has caused so much systemic oppression and created the class system that only widens the wealth gap as time moves on #i'm really exhausted by having to explain that wille being a queer king isn't a progressive thing #and that yah this is a tv show but it presents you an opportunity to #rewire your thinking about real life situations and the actual class system #the people at the top are still oppressive even if they're gay #imperialism is still imperialism even if you let gay people go to war #go read red white and royal blue if you want your gay royal fantasy #this is literally a show about the class system #and how historical systems that are held up by institutions like the monarchy #are a bad thing #and can never be progressive #even if you rainbow wash it

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kiruamon · 2 months

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Grey World AU - It's all wrong

Sixth comic part of the AU is out! Sun's changes are affecting Moon, too. And he isn't taking it too well.

Moon feels like losing control. And he knows exactly who to blame for this. Oh no...

#grey world au #fnaf au #fnaf moon #fnaf sun #dca #fnaf dca #daycare attendant #fnaf daycare attendant #traditional drawing mixed with digital coloring #sketches #my art #do not reupload #Moon isn't happy about this.#He's scared and angry without knowing why.#Didn't help either that Sun ignored Moon's concerns for so long. So he isn't willing to talk this out anymore.#Things are going to be intense!#Also that's seven years bad luck for you Moon.D:#I'm slowly working on coloring the next story panels but there are so many... *sob*

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quatregats · 3 months

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Went back and reread some of Master and Commander again and goddamn is that book rich with detail...truly I did not know how to appreciate it on the first (or second) read-through...

#19-year-old me was very silly but also there's just too much there for one reading #i'm now resigned to my fate (actually learning how ships and sailing work) and the previous owner of this book left very neat notes #so i think i'm going to try to follow in their footsteps and disentangle a bit of what's going on #plus go through it all more slowly i read way too fast and then i miss things #but yeah. like that one and i think also post captain and hms surprise are really just bottomless pits of historical detail #trying to write fic for it again and i'm realizing even more what an incredibly talented writer he was. just constantly in awe of mr. pob #perce rambles #The Creative Endeavor and other aubreyad nonsense

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thewishender690 · 10 months

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Here is a warmup I did of my Warlock Vasili!

#art #destiny 2 #warlock #destiny warlock #vasili kuznetsov #musing #♞конец желаний♞#I'm going to slowly upload my work here as well since twitter is going down the drain #and I've been putting it off #TheWishEnder690 #my art #artists on tumblr #gay artists #destiny 2 art #destiny art

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well-organized-sociopath · 2 years

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“why don’t we kiss?”

i cant find this anywhere except on facebook in terrible quality but it just has to be on my blog

#corporate #corporateshow #comedy central #matt engelbertson #jake levinson #thinking about when matt quit his job and they didn't work together anymore hahahahaha #anyways i'm having a really good rewatch #we're on season 2 now and that's my favorite season and i'm just having a good time #it's great seeing people enjoy it #i'm genuinely just going to slowly build out the rest of this universe for myself lmfao #this will be a forever show for me

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johnbierce · 5 months

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Magic school book sale

Into the Labyrinth, the first novel in my YA magic school series, Mage Errant, is a Kindle Daily Deal today! (November 15th.) Books 2&3 will be on sale as well for the next couple of days. Mage Errant follows the adventures of Hugh of Emblin, a young student mage whose magic doesn't want to work right- though his anxiety works just fine. Mage Errant features found family, a convoluted science-inspired magic system, a non-neurotypical protagonist, a queernormative setting, Machiavellian politics, lots of explosions, and more kaiju than you can shake a stick at. (Though, uh... I highly recommend against shaking sticks at kaiju in general.)

Mage Errant is heavily inspired by Diane Duane, Dianna Wynne Jones, Will Wight's Cradle, Andrew Rowe's Arcane Ascension, and a bunch of cheesy shonen anime. It's part of the new(ish) genre of progression fantasy, which is much more heavily focused on training and growing in power than average in fantasy. (I like to call the genre "books for people who like movie training montages way too much.")

The whole series is complete now, sans a short story anthology coming out in February. It's also getting a webtoon comic adaptation, which is super exciting! Oh, and whenever I got a bad review for having queer characters (of which I got MANY), I hit a mental button reading "make it gayer."

#fantasy novels #progression fantasy #YA fantasy #epic fantasy #book sales #Mage Errant #I'm probably going to try using blaze on this post to support Tumblr and all that? Dunno how well it will work.#Still figuring this site out. I've only been on here a few months as I slowly evacuate from Twitter and Reddit.#(It would be kinda funny if it didn't get approved until after the sale ended. Hopefully that doesn't happen though.)

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hxhhasmysoul · 4 months

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Thanks for sharing your fics recs (especially the KilluGon) most in your list, I have not read them yet... 🤩🌻 Also, love your analysis and reviews, thanks for sharing them....

Okay, so as ItaFushi and SatoSugu shipper, I was curious about SukuIta ship. You are the first person (that I know of and follow) that ship them...Hope you don't mind if I ask you a few things. What do you think are Sukuna and Itadori’s greatest personality strengths and weaknesses? Why? What do you love about their dynamic? What make you ship them?

Also, you're the first person that I follow that don't like Gojo (even not entered him in your top 5 fav charas). I don't mean anything negative...I just find it interesting. As a Gojo lover (he's my 2nd fav after Yuji) I found your reasons for disliking him pretty reasonable and I love your metas.....

Happy holiday....

Thank you for your kind words. And I’m glad that my Gojou negativity doesn’t put you off. I haven’t been very kind in my posts about him, they are very ranty. My top charas are honestly related to how much I think about them and how excited I am for scenes with them for various reasons. And like for example Kirara is absolutely on the list of characters I’m always excited for, or: Miwa, Hana, Toudou, Junpei, Nanami, Higuruma, Maki, Uraume, Tengen or Yuki. Gojou used to be on this list because I actually enjoyed how flawed he is, it was: wow this man! A bit like watching an accident happen. But I also find his position in the jujutsu world interesting. Fandom soured me on him and that’s on me.

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As to the fic recs, if you enjoy killugon I have reblogged some hxh and killugon fics rec lists over the years: x, x, x, x, x, x, x.

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“What do you think are Sukuna and Itadori’s greatest personality strengths and weaknesses? Why?”

Yuuji has it all. He has this sweet side, he’s silly, cute, compassionate and has people skills. But he also has a darker side. He’s lonely, has unprocessed issues concerning forming relationships with others, he doesn’t value himself too much, he has the tendency to blame himself, it makes him suicidal eventually.

He can be very introspective and self aware but he sometimes chooses not to do that, like his refusal to think about his parents, or he can use it against himself to bash himself with guilt because he can over analyse his shortcomings. Yuuji both seeks connection and doesn’t easily let people know him too closely.

He’s also very smart and adaptable. He learns very fast, he can analyse a situation well and employ tactics that will often make him succeed in what he’s doing.

He also has good intuition, like in how he befriends Junpei, how he doesn’t want to be around Megumi during the culling games, or with plans on how to save Megumi.

Because he wants to connect with people he doesn’t always know when to put his foot down. He’s very good at asserting himself against people who are bullies and who are hostile towards him, like Sukuna and Mahito. With people he cares about though he’s not really good at that. He will argue but with for example Megumi and Gojou he will fall in line. They intimidate him to an extent, they seem knowledgeable and powerful in ways he isn’t. He defers to their judgement despite them failing him.

Sukuna is funny in his contrasts. I’ve once written that he’s full of shit. He’s the opposite of Yuuji because he refuses to introspect, to analyse himself. He of course has a huge ego so he has a very specific attitude towards people who exert any form of power over him. He gives Kenjaku the cold shoulder and tries to ignore them as much as possible. (Tell us why, Gege. Heian flashback when ;-;) Towards Yuuji he’s just irritable, disrespectful and petty.

He’s very nerdy about jujutsu, it’s very clear he enjoys it and he enjoys fighting. He believes that others matter only as much as he can get some enjoyment or entertainment out of them. Which is actually not entirely true, because he very clearly has a friendship with Uraume and he’s very mindful of Uraume’s feelings in it. As I said, not self aware.

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“What make you ship them?”

The process of elimination. It will be a story XD

When I first read and watched JJK, I came out of it caring very deeply about Yuuji. I liked other characters but Yuuji was and still is special to me.

In fandom I primarily seek three things:

1. Art of the characters I like because I just like art and also it gives me extra emotions.

2. Meta and discussions, because I enjoy over analysing stuff and making theories.

3. Extra emotions in the form of fics. I’m only in two fandoms, they both traumatised my favs very deeply. I want to experience other things with the favs. I want them in situations. (mostly long form AUs but not all AUs, I’m picky XD)

With Gon and Killua, point 3 was easy. I find their romantic ship close to canon, I love them both, I wanted more of that.

With Yuuji I wanted something good for him. I wanted him to be prioritised and on the receiving end of love. I wanted someone to care as deeply about him as he does for others.

So I went on ao3 and started to look into the tags.

The first one I checked out was ItaJun. I like Junpei, I think he’s an interesting character. Yuuji and Junpei’s canon interactions can be read as pre crush stuff. They hit it off very quickly, share the passion for films. Are capable of talking honestly about deeper and darker things. Most fics in that rather short tag were from Junpei’s pov. Made him very mopy, soft and fragile, introverted in this stereotypical way. And Yuuji was there as the manic pixie dream boy. Next.

So I looked into the ItaFushi tag. It was long so I had hope. Even though I was and am ambivalent about Megumi. And I don’t particularly like his dynamic with Yuuji in canon. I mentioned it above, it’s about the misplaced deference that Yuuji shows Megumi. And Megumi thinking he’s much smarter than he is. Most fics in that tag were from Megumi’s pov. Made him very mopy, soft and fragile, introverted, melancholic and overly intellectual. And Yuuji was there as the manic pixie dream boy. But also dumber than Megumi. Like in the KilluGon tag you can find fics like that too, fics from Killua’s pov by people who don’t care about Gon. In both tags there will also be these kinds of fics but written by people who seem to dislike the “sunshine” character. It’s not just that they find that character to be a tool to make their fav feel better, but that they are kinda upset about it. There are few fics in that tag that I liked, though. Because despite being from Megumi’s pov, they both wrote Megumi and Yuuji close to as they are.

But generally, I was growing disappointed and frustrated. And I remembered one smut in the ItaJun tag which was actually a poly threeway with Sukuna. I remembered it because Junpei’s pov was nice and the dynamic was interesting. And I was like: well, can SukuIta be really worse than this? I mean if that poly fic was anything to go by, at least the smut will be fun.

So in the SukuIta tag finally, finally, my chance of finding Yuuji’s pov was high. And the authors there are actually interested in Yuuji’s personality. Not all of them do it justice, obviously, but they are interested. They are interested in putting Yuuji in situations. They are interested in tension and high emotions. They are interested in strange, codependent, very intense relationships, even in some of the more fluffy fics. There’s a lot of E rated stuff there, a lot of dead dove. And as I said before, I’m very picky and I won’t click on most stuff, but that was true for the other 2 tags as well. Just that, when I chose to click on stuff in this tag, the percentage of fics I read till the end was incomparably higher than in the other two tags. And reading through it, I started to get ideas to write for it.

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“What do you love about their dynamic?”

As I said above, in the beginning I was mostly amazed that I’m getting Yuuji exploration. Sukuna was there as the vehicle for the situations and the emotions. Even when I started writing my first fic, I was of that mindset too. Writing it made me ponder Sukuna more and grow to like him beyond his fun energy as a villain.

The thing I like about their dynamic is when Yuuji gets to finally allow himself a close and raw relationship with someone, it’s usually very dramatic and dark in the best scenarios. That he carves something for himself, something often imperfect and kinda toxic, something where both sides are forced to make concessions and navigate around each other, but something where he’s prioritised.

And when Sukuna gets punished for his personality, like the consequences of his irreflexive nature give him anxiety or something like that. When he’s forced to actually self-analyse. Sukuna is about his own pleasure and you can write him in a way that if someone becomes his pleasure, he gets very intense about it.

At its best, this dynamic is very intense, dramatic and either goes in a very dark direction or requires a lot of negotiation.

Also true form Sukuna is the hottest JJK has to offer and my dear Yuuji deserves the absolute best.

#answering asks #thank you for the ask #jjk #itadori yuuji #sukuna #sukuita #also my friend asked me about this ages ago #and i was planning to write this but got busy and forgot #which is argh #i'm slowly going through all the asks #work's been rough and i'm slow

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666writingcafe · 2 months

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Reuniting With Henry

Levi

I've been working on myself lately. It's been a challenge, especially with also having to prepare to venture out into the human world, but I feel like it's been worthwhile.

Instead of spending all of my free time in my room, I've tried to socialize with other people in the real world. Specifically, some of my online friends. I figured that if they liked me in that space, then they'll probably be okay with me in a real-life setting. And for the most part, they do. I mean, there's been a couple of incidents where the opposite has been true, and that was demoralizing in the moment, but then I think about what MC would do or say.

One of the things I like about MC is their willingness to take risks, particularly when it comes to interacting with people. If they worry about looking like a fool, they don't show it. Rather, they allow themselves to be authentically who they are, regardless of what others may think about them.

As I watch MC observe Henry, I reflect on our relationship and how it's progressed. I certainly didn't like them in the beginning. I thought they were just another scummy normie who only cared about themselves. Of course, some of that was probably me projecting what I felt about Mammon onto them, but still. It wasn't like I was a big fan of them, either.

But scummy normies don't insist on befriending someone simply because they like them. They usually want something in return, but not MC. It seemed like the harder I pushed them away, the more persistent they were, but it wasn't obvious at the time. No, it was little things that they did that added up overtime, and soon I couldn't deny it: I liked MC.

Enough to let them chill in my room with me.

Enough to want to experience things outside my comfort zone.

Enough to touch them.

Kiss them.

Fu--

"Levi? Are you alright?" Shit. How long had I zoned out for? Apparently long enough for MC to move on from Henry and start rummaging through a box of games.

"I'm fine," I answer, trying not to sound too startled. "Just thinking, that's all."

"About...?" My anxiety tells me to change the subject, but I won't let it dictate my actions this time. I know MC won't judge me. They've proven that time and time again.

"You."

"Me?" They stand up, and I force myself to step closer to them. They seem surprised, but not in a bad way. At least, I don't think.

"I never thought that I would enjoy spending time with you." I take a deep breath, trying to calm my nerves. "I always have a lot of fun when we're together. I mean, I know we've been playing games online, but it's not the same as having you next to me." MC smiles.

"I feel the same way about you." They reach up and pat my shoulder, and I have to will myself to stay put and not run away. "I'm proud of you, Levi. I know you struggle with admitting your feelings, especially towards me."

"I'm trying to get better at that."

"It takes time." MC pauses as they grab my hand. "The important thing is that you're trying."

They look so sweet.

I know what the moment calls for, but I can't seem to move. At all.

"You're blushing."

"I have to prepare myself." The thought leaves my mouth as soon as it pops into my mind. Thankfully, MC appears to understand what exactly I'm referring to, for they gently touch the side of my face.

"On the count of three?"

"Okay." Did not expect that to come out as a whisper. Then again, my throat feels a bit tight, so that would explain why I sound a bit hoarse.

"One." I close my eyes and focus on the feeling of their hand.

"Two." I take a deep breath, and my mind suddenly becomes clear.

"Three." I don't know which is more surprising: the fact that I'm the one who finished counting or the one who initiated the kiss. In any case, MC embraces me, and the next thing I know, I'm sitting on my computer chair with them straddling my lap.

#obey me shall we date #obey me mc #obey me levi #obey me leviathan #keeping levi as a self-loathing shut-in?#out #having levi slowly begin to work on increasing his confidence and going out of his comfort zone?#in #definitely in #the devs don't seem to think so #but this is my rewrite #and i'm sticking to it #we love some positive character development in this corner of the internet

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