#if the professor doesn’t show up to class for 5 years you are legally allowed to start a war

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Edelgard von Hresvelg from Fire Emblem: Three Houses

#fe3h #fe3h Edelgard #Edelgard #edelgard von hresvelg #fe16 #fire emblem three houses #fire emblem three houses fanart #fire emblem three hopes #fire emblem three hopes fanart #fire emblem fanart #fire emblem warriors #fire emblem warriors three hopes #fire emblem heroes #fe16 Edelgard #if the professor doesn’t show up to class for 5 years you are legally allowed to start a war #she was right I can’t believe John Wick was discriminated against for not having a crest

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Letters From An American

Today in Fuck Abbott and the GQP Harder Than Ever Before Welcome to Fucking Gilead Edition

September 1, 2021

Heather Cox Richardson

Last night at midnight, a new law went into effect in Texas. House Bill 1927 permits people to carry handguns without a permit, unless they have been convicted of a felony or domestic violence. This measure was not popular in the state. Fifty-nine percent of Texans—including law enforcement officers—opposed it. But 56% of Republicans supported it. “I don’t know what it’s a solution to,” James McLaughlin, executive director of the Texas Police Chiefs Association, said to Heidi Pérez-Moreno of the Texas Tribune when Republican governor Greg Abbott signed the bill in mid-August. “I don’t know what the problem was to start with.”

Texas Gun Rights executive director Chris McNutt had a different view. He said in a statement: “Texas is finally a pro-gun state despite years of foot-dragging, roadblocks, and excuses from the spineless political class.”

The bill had failed in 2019 after McNutt showed up at the home of the Texas House Speaker, Republican Dennis Bonnen, to demand its passage. Bonnen said McNutt’s “overzealous” visit exhibited “insanity.” "Threats and intimidation will never advance your issue. Their issue is dead," he told McNutt. McNutt told the Dallas Morning News: "If politicians like Speaker Dennis Bonnen think they can show up at the doorsteps of Second Amendment supporters and make promises to earn votes in the election season, they shouldn't be surprised when we show up in their neighborhoods to insist they simply keep their promises in the legislative session.”

That was not the only bill that went into effect at midnight last night in Texas. In May, Governor Abbott signed the strongest anti-abortion law in the country, Senate Bill 8, which went into effect on September 1. It bans abortion after 6 weeks—when many women don’t even know they’re pregnant—thus automatically stopping about 85% of abortions in Texas. There are no exceptions for rape or incest. Opponents of the bill had asked the Supreme Court to stop the law from taking effect. It declined to do so.

The law avoided the 1973 Supreme Court Roe v. Wade decision protecting the right to abortion before fetal viability at about 22 to 24 weeks by leaving the enforcement of the law not up to the state, but rather up to private citizens. This was deliberate. As Dahlia Lithwick and Mark Joseph Stern explained in an article in Slate: “Typically, when a state restricts abortion, providers file a lawsuit in federal court against the state officials responsible for enforcing the new law. Here, however, there are no such officials: The law is enforced by individual anti-abortion activists.” With this law, there’s no one to stop from enforcing it.

S.B. 8 puts ordinary people in charge of law enforcement. Anyone—at all—can sue any individual who “aids or abets,” or even intends to abet, an abortion in Texas after six weeks. Women seeking abortion themselves are exempt, but anyone who advises them (including a spouse), gives them a ride, provides counseling, staffs a clinic, and so on, can be sued by any random stranger. If the plaintiff wins, they pocket $10,000 plus court costs, and the clinic that provided the procedure is closed down. If the defendant doesn’t defend themselves, the court must find them guilty. And if the defendant wins, they get…nothing. Not even attorney’s fees.

So, nuisance lawsuits will ruin abortion providers, along with anyone accused of aiding and abetting—or intending to abet—an abortion. And the enforcers will be ordinary citizens.

Texas has also just passed new voting restrictions that allow partisan poll watchers to have “free movement” in polling places, enabling them to intimidate voters. Texas governor Greg Abbott is expected to sign that bill in the next few days.

Taken together with the vigilantism running wild in school board meetings and attacks on election officials, the Texas legislation is a top red flag in the red flag factory. The Republican Party is empowering vigilantes to enforce their beliefs against their neighbors.

The law, which should keep us all on a level playing field, has been abandoned by our Supreme Court. Last night, it refused to stop the new Texas abortion law from going into effect, and tonight, just before midnight, by a 5–4 vote, it issued an opinion refusing to block the law. Justice Sonia Sotomayor’s dissent read: “The court’s order is stunning. Presented with an application to enjoin a flagrantly unconstitutional law engineered to prohibit women from exercising their constitutional rights and evade judicial scrutiny, a majority of Justices have opted to bury their heads in the sand.”

Texas’s law flouts nearly 50 years of federal precedents, she points out, but the Supreme Court has looked the other way. ”The State’s gambit worked,” Sotomayor wrote. She continued: “This is untenable. It cannot be the case that a state can evade federal judicial scrutiny by outsourcing the enforcement of unconstitutional laws to its citizenry."

The Supreme Court has essentially blessed the efforts of Texas legislators to prevent the enforcement of federal law by using citizen vigilantes to get their way. The court decided the case on its increasingly active “shadow docket,” a series of cases decided without full briefings or oral argument, often in the dead of night, without signed opinions. In the past, such emergency decisions were rare and used to issue uncontroversial decisions or address irreparable immediate harm (like the death penalty). Since the beginning of the Trump administration, they have come to make up the majority of the court’s business.

Since 2017, the court has used the shadow docket to advance right-wing goals. It has handed down brief, unsigned decisions after a party asks for emergency relief from a lower court order, siding first with Trump, and now with state Republicans, at a high rate. As University of Texas law professor Stephen Vladeck noted: “In less than three years, [Trump’s] Solicitor General has filed at least twenty-one applications for stays in the Supreme Court (including ten during the October 2018 Term alone).” In comparison, “during the sixteen years of the George W. Bush and Obama Administrations, the Solicitor General filed a total of eight such applications—averaging one every other Term.”

So, operating without open arguments or opinions, the Supreme Court has shown that it will not enforce federal law, leaving state legislatures to do as they will. This, after all, was the whole point of the “originalism” that Republicans embraced under President Ronald Reagan. Originalists wanted to erase the legal justification of the post–World War II years that used the “due process” and “equal protection” clauses of the Fourteenth Amendment to apply the protections of the Bill of Rights to the states. It was that concept that protected civil rights for people of color and for women, by using the federal government to prohibit states from enforcing discriminatory laws.

Since the 1980s, Republicans have sought to hamstring federal power and return power to the states, which have neither the power nor the inclination to regulate businesses effectively, and which can discriminate against minorities and get away with it, so long as the federal government doesn’t enforce equal protection.

Today’s events make that a reality.

Worse, though, the mechanisms of the Texas law officially turn a discriminatory law over to state-level vigilantes to enforce. The wedge to establish this mechanism is abortion, but the door is now open for extremist state legislatures to turn to private citizens to enforce any law that takes away an individual’s legal right…like, say, the right to vote. And in Texas, now, a vigilante doesn't even have to have a permit to carry the gun that will back up his threats.

During Reconstruction, vigilantes also carried guns. They enforced state customs that reestablished white supremacy after the federal government had tried to defend equality before the law. It took only a decade for former Confederates who had tried to destroy the government to strip voting rights, and civil rights, from the southern Black men who had defended the United States government during the Civil War. For the next eighty years, the South was a one-party state where enforcement of the laws depended on your skin color, your gender, and whom you knew.

Opponents have compared those who backed the Texas anti-abortion law to the Taliban, the Islamic extremists in Afghanistan whose harsh interpretation of Islamic Sharia law strips women of virtually all rights. But the impulse behind the Texas law, the drive to replace the federal protection of civil rights with state vigilantes enforcing their will, is homegrown. It is a reflection of the position that Republicans would like women to have in our society, for sure, but it is also written in the laughing faces of Mississippi law enforcement officers Lawrence Rainey and Cecil Ray Price in 1967, certain even as they were arraigned for the 1964 murders of James Earl Chaney, Andrew Goodman, and Michael Henry Schwerner, that the system was so rigged in their favor that they would literally get away with murder.

When they were killed, Chaney, Goodman, and Schwerner were trying to register Black people to vote.

[dreaminginthedeepsouth]

LETTERS FROM AN AMERICAN

September 1, 2021

Heather Cox Richardson

Last night at midnight, a new law went into effect in Texas. House Bill 1927 permits people to carry handguns without a permit, unless they have been convicted of a felony or domestic violence. This measure was not popular in the state. Fifty-nine percent of Texans—including law enforcement officers—opposed it. But 56% of Republicans supported it. “I don’t know what it’s a solution to,” James McLaughlin, executive director of the Texas Police Chiefs Association, said to Heidi Pérez-Moreno of the Texas Tribune when Republican governor Greg Abbott signed the bill in mid-August. “I don’t know what the problem was to start with.”

Texas Gun Rights executive director Chris McNutt had a different view. He said in a statement: “Texas is finally a pro-gun state despite years of foot-dragging, roadblocks, and excuses from the spineless political class.”

The bill had failed in 2019 after McNutt showed up at the home of the Texas House Speaker, Republican Dennis Bonnen, to demand its passage. Bonnen said McNutt’s “overzealous” visit exhibited “insanity.” "Threats and intimidation will never advance your issue. Their issue is dead," he told McNutt. McNutt told the Dallas Morning News: "If politicians like Speaker Dennis Bonnen think they can show up at the doorsteps of Second Amendment supporters and make promises to earn votes in the election season, they shouldn't be surprised when we show up in their neighborhoods to insist they simply keep their promises in the legislative session.”

That was not the only bill that went into effect at midnight last night in Texas. In May, Governor Abbott signed the strongest anti-abortion law in the country, Senate Bill 8, which went into effect on September 1. It bans abortion after 6 weeks—when many women don’t even know they’re pregnant—thus automatically stopping about 85% of abortions in Texas. There are no exceptions for rape or incest. Opponents of the bill had asked the Supreme Court to stop the law from taking effect. It declined to do so.

The law avoided the 1973 Supreme Court Roe v. Wade decision protecting the right to abortion before fetal viability at about 22 to 24 weeks by leaving the enforcement of the law not up to the state, but rather up to private citizens. This was deliberate. As Dahlia Lithwick and Mark Joseph Stern explained in an article in Slate: “Typically, when a state restricts abortion, providers file a lawsuit in federal court against the state officials responsible for enforcing the new law. Here, however, there are no such officials: The law is enforced by individual anti-abortion activists.” With this law, there’s no one to stop from enforcing it.  

S.B. 8 puts ordinary people in charge of law enforcement. Anyone—at all—can sue any individual who “aids or abets,” or even intends to abet, an abortion in Texas after six weeks. Women seeking abortion themselves are exempt, but anyone who advises them (including a spouse), gives them a ride, provides counseling, staffs a clinic, and so on, can be sued by any random stranger. If the plaintiff wins, they pocket $10,000 plus court costs, and the clinic that provided the procedure is closed down. If the defendant doesn’t defend themselves, the court must find them guilty. And if the defendant wins, they get…nothing. Not even attorney’s fees.

So, nuisance lawsuits will ruin abortion providers, along with anyone accused of aiding and abetting—or intending to abet—an abortion. And the enforcers will be ordinary citizens.

Texas has also just passed new voting restrictions that allow partisan poll watchers to have “free movement” in polling places, enabling them to intimidate voters. Texas governor Greg Abbott is expected to sign that bill in the next few days.

Taken together with the vigilantism running wild in school board meetings and attacks on election officials, the Texas legislation is a top red flag in the red flag factory. The Republican Party is empowering vigilantes to enforce their beliefs against their neighbors.

The law, which should keep us all on a level playing field, has been abandoned by our Supreme Court. Last night, it refused to stop the new Texas abortion law from going into effect, and tonight, just before midnight, by a 5–4 vote, it issued an opinion refusing to block the law. Justice Sonia Sotomayor’s dissent read: “The court’s order is stunning. Presented with an application to enjoin a flagrantly unconstitutional law engineered to prohibit women from exercising their constitutional rights and evade judicial scrutiny, a majority of Justices have opted to bury their heads in the sand.”

Texas’s law flouts nearly 50 years of federal precedents, she points out, but the Supreme Court has looked the other way. ”The State’s gambit worked,” Sotomayor wrote. She continued:  “This is untenable. It cannot be the case that a state can evade federal judicial scrutiny by outsourcing the enforcement of unconstitutional laws to its citizenry."

The Supreme Court has essentially blessed the efforts of Texas legislators to prevent the enforcement of federal law by using citizen vigilantes to get their way. The court decided the case on its increasingly active “shadow docket,” a series of cases decided without full briefings or oral argument, often in the dead of night, without signed opinions. In the past, such emergency decisions were rare and used to issue uncontroversial decisions or address irreparable immediate harm (like the death penalty). Since the beginning of the Trump administration, they have come to make up the majority of the court’s business.

Since 2017, the court has used the shadow docket to advance right-wing goals. It has handed down brief, unsigned decisions after a party asks for emergency relief from a lower court order, siding first with Trump, and now with state Republicans, at a high rate. As University of Texas law professor Stephen Vladeck noted: “In less than three years, [Trump’s] Solicitor General has filed at least twenty-one applications for stays in the Supreme Court (including ten during the October 2018 Term alone).” In comparison, “during the sixteen years of the George W. Bush and Obama Administrations, the Solicitor General filed a total of eight such applications—averaging one every other Term.”

So, operating without open arguments or opinions, the Supreme Court has shown that it will not enforce federal law, leaving state legislatures to do as they will. This, after all, was the whole point of the “originalism” that Republicans embraced under President Ronald Reagan. Originalists wanted to erase the legal justification of the post–World War II years that used the “due process” and “equal protection” clauses of the Fourteenth Amendment to apply the protections of the Bill of Rights to the states. It was that concept that protected civil rights for people of color and for women, by using the federal government to prohibit states from enforcing discriminatory laws.

Since the 1980s, Republicans have sought to hamstring federal power and return power to the states, which have neither the power nor the inclination to regulate businesses effectively, and which can discriminate against minorities and get away with it, so long as the federal government doesn’t enforce equal protection.

Today’s events make that a reality.

Worse, though, the mechanisms of the Texas law officially turn a discriminatory law over to state-level vigilantes to enforce. The wedge to establish this mechanism is abortion, but the door is now open for extremist state legislatures to turn to private citizens to enforce any law that takes away an individual’s legal right…like, say, the right to vote. And in Texas, now, a vigilante doesn't even have to have a permit to carry the gun that will back up his threats.

During Reconstruction, vigilantes also carried guns. They enforced state customs that reestablished white supremacy after the federal government had tried to defend equality before the law. It took only a decade for former Confederates who had tried to destroy the government to strip voting rights, and civil rights, from the southern Black men who had defended the United States government during the Civil War. For the next eighty years, the South was a one-party state where enforcement of the laws depended on your skin color, your gender, and whom you knew.

Opponents have compared those who backed the Texas anti-abortion law to the Taliban, the Islamic extremists in Afghanistan whose harsh interpretation of Islamic Sharia law strips women of virtually all rights. But the impulse behind the Texas law, the drive to replace the federal protection of civil rights with state vigilantes enforcing their will, is homegrown. It is a reflection of the position that Republicans would like women to have in our society, for sure, but it is also written in the laughing faces of Mississippi law enforcement officers Lawrence Rainey and Cecil Ray Price in 1967, certain even as they were arraigned for the 1964 murders of James Earl Chaney, Andrew Goodman, and Michael Henry Schwerner, that the system was so rigged in their favor that they would literally get away with murder.

When they were killed, Chaney, Goodman, and Schwerner were trying to register Black people to vote.

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Notes:

https://thehill.com/homenews/state-watch/437665-texas-gop-leaders-drop-constitutional-carry-bill-after-gun-rights

https://www.texastribune.org/2021/08/16/texas-permitless-carry-gun-law/

https://www.npr.org/2021/08/31/1033068542/texas-voting-restrictions-bill-abbott-republicans

https://slate.com/news-and-politics/2021/08/texas-abortion-supreme-court-roe-wade.html

Mark Joseph Stern @mjs_DCBREAKING: By a 5–4 vote, with Roberts joining the liberals, the Supreme Court REFUSES to block Texas' six-week abortion ban. Opinions here:

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September 2nd 2021

https://www.vox.com/2020/8/1/21350679/supreme-court-border-wall-trump-sierra-club-stay-stephen-breyer

https://www.vox.com/2020/8/11/21356913/supreme-court-shadow-docket-jail-asylum-covid-immigrants-sonia-sotomayor-barnes-ahlman

LETTERS FROM AN AMERICAN

HEATHER COX RICHARDSON

#history #Texas #repressive legislation #abortion #women #women's rights #equal rights #voting rights #Texas Taliban

[physioblr]

How to get a 4.0 with ADHD-C and Dyscalculia

(Or, how to survive Uni as a disabled student)

Disclaimer: 

This is what has worked for me. I don’t claim that this will work for everyone. Not every ADHD brain is the same. Also other axis of privilege, time of diagnosis, and support are different between people. I have severe ADHD-C and was diagnosed as a young adult and had little support to help me deal with my symptoms until I met my partner. Psychiatrists aren’t trained to help you deal with the range of issues you will face. 

Do keep in mind as well that some professors are just ablest assholes. The idea that someone is kind, empathetic, or will always follow federal law just because they are in a profession that gives them a power differential is ridiculous. You may also run into professors that also take pride in their exam distributions looking like a statistician’s nightmare. Keep an eye out for the obvious dog whistles, and do research before registration when possible. If you end up in these situations, drop the class during the add/drop period if you can. If not, be prepared for your GPA to take a hit. 

I’m writing this from an American perspective, if you are in the UK/Europe I lived in Scotland for 5 years and would be happy to help if you have questions regarding the Equality Act 2010 and the UN convention of disability rights.

A. Lifestyle:

1. Sleep hygiene. Sleep = study retention.

I had trouble sleeping for most of my life. I wouldn’t be able to fall asleep or stay asleep at the appropriate times. A lot of people deal with this by being “night owls” — i.e. just accepting that our clocks are set later than neurotypicals’. Other people deal with this by sleeping on a biphasic or polyphasic sleep schedule. 

There is another option though. You can train yourself to go to sleep at the same time every night and wake up at the same time every morning. This might take a couple of weeks for your body to adjust. Here is how I did it:

Take your morning dose of medication about 30-40 minutes before you actually need to wake up. This allows medication to kick in. It’s similar to the trick of drinking a cup of coffee before taking a power nap. I have two alarms. One to take my medication, and the other to actually wake up. My medication alarms have a particular tone so that I don’t take my medication twice.

Wake up at the same time every day, including weekends. You can’t oversleep or your body won’t adjust. Do not press the snooze button. Get up right away to start your morning routine. The 5-10 minutes that your snooze gives you isn’t going to make you feel less tired. It will make your feel groggy, which is something called sleep inertia. Your body doesn’t get to complete a full sleep cycle, and it will donk you up.

Add going outside to your morning routine. Even if it’s the winter, or mostly dark. I have an adorable greyhound, and he has to go potty as soon as I wake up. In the very least open your blinds/curtains and open your windows to get some fresh air and morning light. Studies show that light effects our circadian rhythm. I find that even when it’s dark out though, going outside helps due to the cool morning air.

Keep a consistent morning routine. Do everything in order like you are going down a checklist of tasks. Make your bed as your final task. Don’t get back in your bed. Your bed is for sleep or sex only.

Go to bed at the same time every night, no matter what. Medication has likely worn off by the time you go to sleep, and contradictory to neurotypical belief, when your brain wanders it can make it harder to fall asleep. So can hyperfocusing. I find that reading can keep me up as I will hyperfocus, but listening to audiobooks doesn’t cause those problems. I turn off the lights, put a seep mask on, and play an audiobook with wireless headphones to help me get to sleep. I recommend reading/listening to something light like fantasy or science fiction.  Save thrillers, horror, and mystery books to listen to during the day.

2. Exercise.

I recommend exercising in the morning everyday, cardio and strength training. Even if you just do some cardio 10-15 minutes, it is still beneficial. Most exercise physiologists would recommend a rest day, but I’ve found that lighter days work better than complete rest days. You will see a noticeable difference in your hyperactivity symptoms. It’s not simply that it gets the fidgets out of your system, it is good for a hyperactive mind and helps with emotional dysregulation as well. It will help you sleep at night too.

Always speak to your doctor before you begin any exercise regimen, especially if you are taking 60+ mg of ADHD medication and have not exercised regularly on your medication previously.

3. Eating.

Eat at the same time everyday. Your body will tell you you’re hungry at those times. It’s also helpful to schedule your food around medication so that you don’t repress your natural appetite. Also, not that it needs to be said, but the brain uses up a lot of calories. You need to eat to retain what you learn.

4. Emotional Regulation.

This is one of the hardest parts of ADHD that no one ever talks about. You may not even know what this is, or that emotional dysregulation is a symptom of ADHD. It’s never mentioned in the DSM or ICD because emotions are hard (and expensive) to quantify. A lot of medical professionals have never even heard of it. If you want to read up on it, I suggest reading work by Dr. Russell A. Barkley. To give you the basics though, ADHD brains fail to self regulate emotions. We have emotional impulsivity. When we take in sensory information for conscious appraisal the pathway goes like this: stimulus —> thalamus —> cortex —> amygdala. Our frontal cortex is not the greatest at giving us context, or telling us to chill out, so our amygdala can be in the driver’s seat often. This aspect can make us really fun people, because it can make us get excited easily and enjoy life to the fullest. It can also cause us problems. For example, expressing anger at your boss or teacher (even if you are rightfully angry) might not be the best—diplomacy may give a better outcome. Our amygdala doesn’t know what is best for our future selves.

So, how does one regulate emotion when you’re brain doesn’t function like you want it? Try practicing mindfulness. And no, I’m not taking about attending to everything coming into your working memory or weird granola hippy garbage. When you are having an emotional response, check in with yourself. Are you feeling overstimulated? Are you feeling understimulated? Are you hungry, are you thirsty? Are you tired? Is your medication wearing off? Notice patterns, notice what triggers the emotion, write it down. Develop a proverbial toolbox that can help you when you are not regulating your emotions well. This toolbox is individual to you, and it may take some trial and error.

Keep in mind that trauma is different than emotional dysregulation, although our emotional dysregulation doesn’t exactly help. A lot of us ADHD brains have experienced severe emotional trauma via ableism and abuse from the school system, from teachers, or from parents. It never gets talked about because it’s usually caused by someone in a position of authority, and we are hardly ever given a voice to talk about our own experiences. Find someone you can trust to talk to about it. Find ways to self sooth in a healthy way when re-experiencing that trauma. You may have complex PTSD. It’s difficult for us to get help for complex PTSD because society doesn’t recognize that disabled people experience trauma in a very unique way. Keep in mind PTSD wasn’t even considered a disability under the ADA until 2008, one couldn’t get social security for PTSD until 2017, and the ADA didn’t exist until 1990. If you do seek out help though, expect push back from some medical professionals, have someone that will support you through the process, and do so when you will not be experiencing new trauma. Also, remember, fellow ADHD brains are here and we all love and support you.

B. Disability Services:

I’m not going to sugar coat this. We are barely recognized as human beings, so our rights are always under fire. Being disabled in this world is like walking through a mine field. Not every university or work environment is going to follow the ADA. The ADA became law in 1990, and the abled have been dragging their feet ever since. It’s difficult to enforce, complaining to the government often leads to nothing, and getting a lawyer is expensive. It’s also hard to prove discrimination in court. The ADA leaves a lot of room for improvement. Ableism is a systemic problem pretty much worldwide. I’m not trying to upset anyone, but you need to be prepared for what you are up against.

1. Keep the nature of your disability private.

Never ever ever tell a professor or TA the nature of your disability. Tell them you have a disability recognized under the ADA which is federal law, do not tell them what disability you have. There are lots of tips on tumblr that will tell you to inform professors that you have x disability, and that they will be empathetic and blah blah blah. Those uninformed tips are putting your legal rights, and your grade, in danger. There are so many biases professors can and do have when it comes to ADHD and dyscalculia. You are just asking to experience ableism if you divulge. Some professors don’t believe that ADHD is a disability, or they believe that vaccines cause ADHD, or that you just magically grow out of ADHD when you turn 18 etc.  It isn’t your job to deal with their delusions, their biases, or their ableism — that’s their therapists’ or HRs’ problem. You do not have to tell anyone but your university disability services. Under the ADA you have a legal right to privacy, but if you divulge to a professor you are waiving that right.

I also wouldn’t recommend telling other students the nature of your disability. Unless you are pretty sure the other student also has your disability, but even then internalized ableism is a thing. You never know who they are going to tell, if they are ableist, or how they feel about your accommodations. You never want an abled student crying to a professor because they think your accommodations are “unfair”. If a student wants to know what disability you have, and you want to tell them something because you have become acquaintances/friends but don’t want to tell them exactly, say that you have a neurodevelopmental disability and/or a learning disability.

2. Advocate for your legal accommodations.

Disability services are not going to hold your hand. They are not going to simply offer you all the accommodations that you are legally allowed or would make you successful. They deal with hundreds of other students and likely have accommodations they offer everyone, regardless of the type of disability you have. Request accommodations that actually put you on the same playing field as everyone else. Read the ADA, and understand what reasonable accommodations are.

If you have ADHD, I would recommend requesting extended time on exams and assignments, a private room to take exams in that is free of distraction, handouts/materials and textbooks in text-to-speech capable formats, the ability to take breaks in-class or exams, reduced course load, and the ability to record lectures for note-taking. You may be able to request a memory aid for ADHD, as a lot of ADHD brains have very low working memory (also called short term memory) capacity. Part of our attention difficulties come from low working memory capacity as sensory input goes through working memory before it is stored in long term memory. Anything stored in long term memory must be pulled back into working memory to be used and manipulated. Get a psychologist that specializes in ADHD adults to test your working memory capacity if needed.

If you have dyscalculia, I would recommend requesting a memory aid (used for formulas, constants, equations etc), the use of calculator on exams and assignments, extended time on exams and assignments, reduced course load, and a private room for exams.

3. Get accommodations implemented.

This is a different process than getting accommodations approved. My uni makes me contact professors at the start of the quarter in an ‘engagement process’. Due to re-experiencing trauma, I avoid setting up a meeting with professors and just email. Emailing prevents professors form cornering you or badgering you to divulge your disability, or subtly threatening you about your registration or degree, and puts everything in writing so there is a legal paper trail. 

Professors may try to get out of their legal obligations. I have had this happen multiple times. I’ve even had professors tell me that accommodations aren’t helpful for disabled students, or that they are not fair to abled students — I responded with “well it’s not fair that I was born with a disability and that you’re gatekeeping disabled people from getting an education”… they didn’t take that well. Do not try to argue with a professor about your disability rights or accommodations, it will only make you upset and they will likely accuse you of being hysterical or unstable. I’ve even had a professor say that I “threatened” them when I simply reminded them of their legal obligations under federal law as they were trying to not implement accommodations. This is why email is the best choice — you have time to respond professionally and having the receipts is important to keep you legally safe. If a professor is being belligerent about implementing accommodations, tell disability services what is going on (forward your emails) and remind them that accommodations must be implemented in a timely manner under the ADA. If disability services tries to make you argue with your professor, say that you do not feel comfortable doing so. If they push further, tell them you would rather not without an attorney or other representative present — mention you would rather the university handle it internally as you are concerned bringing an attorney or representative into an argument would escalate the situation which isn’t ideal for anyone.

I have a standard email that I send professors during the ‘engagement process’ that I edit slightly to reflect the course. It is professional, polite, and reminds them of their legal obligations as well as university policy. In it I also outline what my approved accommodations are and suggest how they should be implemented. 

4. Any paperwork you have to turn in, make sure to do it early. 

Create reminders on your calendar, write the dates in your bujo future log, whatever you need to do to get that paperwork in on time. Read everything slowly. These are legal documents. If you have a support system… ASK FOR HELP. Seriously, don’t be afraid to ask your support system for help with legal documents.

C. Studying:

1. Choose two places to study.

I don’t like studying in the library or in cafes. I know it’s not as aesthetic to study at home, but it prevents me from people watching and getting distracted. I have two designated study areas. One is my desk, the other is a cozy couch. Choose locations based on stimulation and comfort. My desk is fairly understimulating, while the couch is a bit more stimulation.

2. Learn to use your hyperfocus.

Most reading this probably know what you need to get in the hyperfocus zone. If you don’t, then note any patterns/conditions when it happens so you will have an easier time using the only ADHD super power you’ve got. When you are hyperfocusing on studying, ride the wave for as long as you can. However, make sure to set alarms to eat, go to the bathroom, stretch etc. Don’t let your hyperfocus keep you from taking care of yourself.

3. Create a study routine.

I know I keep blathering on about routines, but it helps. Treat studying like you would training as a professional athlete. When you have a study routine, you never have to decide to study. That decision is already made for you. When studying for exams, make a checklist of everything you need to cover. Ask the professor in advance about what is going to be covered on exams so that you can make an exam study plan early. If your professor is a garbage person and won’t tell you use the syllabus, textbook readings, labs, lecture slides, and snoop on the internet for past exams. Last minute learning is never a good idea. The human brain simply can’t do it, and your working memory capacity is too low to cram.

4. Accept that everything will take you longer, and that it’s okay.

It sucks, it really does. Those neurotypicals don’t know how lucky they are. It’s going to take you longer to read, to learn material, and to do basically anything in life. That’s okay, you do you. Don’t compare yourself to others, it will only cause you to feel bad about yourself. Guess what though, you are already a statistical anomaly. Only 32% of ADHD children graduate high school. Only 22% of adults with ADHD get into university. Only 5% of ADHD adults graduate from university. You are already punching those statistics in the face by existing. Seriously, do what you need to do and fuck anyone that has a problem with it. You’ve got this! 

5. Create the environment you need for your brain.

Sometimes I’m feeling really over stimulated and I need complete silence. Sometimes I feel at a sort of stimulation equilibrium and I listen to lofi study beats playlists. Sometimes I feel understimulated or I’m doing something really tedious, and I need to put on a tv show or a movie in the background. I keep a list of TV shows and movies that I can put on in such cases. Pick things that you won’t really watch and that you are familiar with. It usually helps me transition so that I can start the studying task. Listen to your body and do what works for you.

6. Don’t use the pomodoro technique.

The pomodoro technique was made for neurotypicals. ADHD brains have difficulty transitioning between tasks. It’s better to study for as long as you can maintain focus or hyperfocus than rely on a set 25 minutes. Again, be sure to eat and use the bathroom! You don’t want to be taken off your meds due to weight loss, and you don’t want to get a UTI.

D. Tools of the Trade:

1. iPad Pro & Apple Pencil v.s. Echo Livescribe Smart Pen

I used to use the echo livescribe smart pen but now I use an iPad. It’s cheaper in the long run and I don’t have to worry about running out of paper. Apple has way better customer support as well as iCloud backups, plus they can find your device if lost. Now I only use the echo livescribe pen when taking exams. My university lets me use one from the disability office so that I can make verbal notes when doing long answer exam questions and to keep track of my thoughts if I want to skip over a question and come back to it. I requested it as an accommodation, it had to be approved by committee. They actually thanked me for being so creative and trained the person in charge of accessible technology so that it could be used with other students. It’s almost like asking disabled students about what helps us and our experiences is a good thing!

2. Notability

I use the app Notability for lectures as it can record the lecture and has great organizational capabilities. I usually copy/paste slides into my notes so that I can write on them as well. I also use Notability to read textbooks. It’s got fairly good text-to-speech compatibility, so you can move around if you need to. 

3. Goodnotes 5

I use the Goodnotes 5 app for a digital bujo as well as for making mind maps. It’s got some great shape recognition functions. Although Notability has improved their shape functionality, it’s still not as great as Goodnotes 5.

4. iWork 

I also use pages on my iPad to make condensed study guides / study notes. It’s also really great for writing essays or making tables. I used to hand-write study notes, but it takes way longer.

4. Omnifocus

Omnifocus is great for breaking down big projects into smaller tasks or making quick checklists. It’s a bit of a pain to learn how to use, but once you do it’s completely worth it.

5. Quizlet Plus

Quizlet Plus is completely worth it. I use it a lot for figures or structures I have to memorize, I draw figures in Notability and take a screen shot or grab it from my textbook. It’s a really amazing flashcard app. Also, if you have your textbook on your device, you can copy/paste definitions right into quizlet.

6. Studybreak

Studybreak is a great app for iphone. It tells you how long you have been studying, nags you if you’ve touched your phone to scroll social media, and can suggest that you take a break. You can program it to set how long you want to study for, how long you want to take a break for etc. You can also ignore the break suggestion which is nice when one is hyperfocusing. It also keeps statistics on how long you have been studying and for which subjects.

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[greenwaterskeeter]

i finally have a coherent personal narrative, and here it is. It’s quite long, but i think of some interest, and might be encouraging!

-Mentions of suicidal ideation, emotional and financial abuse, emotional incest, fatphobia, misogyny, capitalism. Whatever the qpr equivalent of romance is. Ends happily-

I felt for a long time that i should have died when i was 20. Not in the sense that i deserved to, but in the sense that by then i’d accomplished as much as i ever would and was therefore obsolete– taking up resources unnecessarily.

When i was 13, i felt forced to choose between my parents. My bus driver/karate teacher, a kind person who i very much admired, advised me to flip a coin and then, if i didn’t like the result, pick the other. I chose my mother and (privately) pledged absolute loyalty to her (I was obsessed with LOTR at the time and felt that it was the purpose of my life to be a Sam for somebody).

While she was single and struggling to keep the farm and raise my brother (a toddler then), that devotion was used and rewarded. There were times i thought with satisfaction that i might as well be her husband, as well as a parent to my beloved brother. I was proud. I felt righteous. The joy of supporting and protecting her was real. The intermittent anguish of being a minor who could legally only do so much to help was also real. (I believed in laws then).

When I was 17, she remarried (a perfectly nice, wealthy man, as devoted as me and much more powerful) and i went to college. I slowly imploded across all four years, though I didn’t realize that until nearly the end. I think now it was because nothing i could offer her was needed anymore. Every time she treated me like a child instead of the valued partner i had been, i was crushed. Emasculated. i began to feel positively Tortured without understanding why. It sounds like a villain’s origin story, doesn’t it?

When it started affecting my performance, i could only think the trouble was that i was pining for a married professor, as you do. I had fallen in love with him, and made myself his best student (and then his TA, and then began to feel gross about it, quit, and started avoiding where i knew he’d be, all without telling anyone). Once my decline became known and answers were demanded, this was all i could offer in explanation.

I didn’t blame anyone consciously then, but i think now i felt betrayed by how my friends and family reacted. They all thought i must have seduced him (or vice versa if they were generous) to be so torn up. It was too foolish to become suicidal over a crush. They didn’t believe me, or accused me of grandiosity, when i said the professor didn’t even know how i felt. I have always struggled to keep in touch with people, and once my oldest friends gave me the Adultery is Bad talk, it was hard to keep trying.

Everyone did their best and we were all very young. I didn’t understand any more than they did. But still, i can acknowledge now what it would have meant to have just one person who believed in me regardless of understanding. On a deeply hidden level, i felt that my mother, at least, owed me that, after years of faithful service.

But horribly, once it became clear my suicidality was almost entirely passive, she turned on me. She was very frightened. I guess she had also been thanking her lucky stars all that time that i wasn’t turning out like my dad, but here i revealed myself at last to be a freeloader, just like him. I was supposed to go to medical school. I had been the pride of the extended family, the eldest and purest of my generation, a marvel of the local intelligentsia, and i wound up dragging myself back home inept, directionless, cringing, the same as so many unfortunate young cousins and neighbors who’d used to have me pointed out to them as an example. Who would my brothers look up to now?

I endured living at home for a few years. My mom couldn’t keep up the punishment constantly, so although there was no telling when she would start in on me again, or whether she might finally go through with evicting me, there were beautiful things too.

I worked for her husband’s business for no pay, which i understand now was abusive, but i have always enjoyed working with my hands, and when they left me to it, it felt like the old days, like i had a use, even if it was now peripheral. My brothers weren’t sure what to do with me, but we still had fun when we could. The animals comforted me, and it’s special to be able to give affection and gentleness to a creature who depends on you. The woods and mists and early mornings and silent moonlights were still beautiful, and gradually i could appreciate them again. When i was with people, i felt my disgrace abjectly. But on the farm there were many chores to be done alone.

The more i recovered, the more trapped i felt. I even, very alarmingly, spent about two hours one afternoon silently consumed with resentful feelings towards my mother (this hadn’t happened since i was 10). I began to be afraid of losing control and doing something desperate (I totaled two different trucks during this time, on roads i knew well, for no apparent reason). I had given up my spot at a medical school i would not get into twice, and the obvious escape was to reapply elsewhere. I attempted this, and sabotaged it, multiple times.

I got a job at a nursing home, which was hard on my back but full of wonderful people, and was forced to quit when it made me late to my shift at my stepfather’s business too many times. By this i understood that a local job was not getting me out of there. I asked for money to get an EMT certification and was refused. I applied to many online jobs, none of which i had enough time to make money from. I called up one or two branches of the military, and was rejected for being too fat, thank God. I applied to medical school again, and managed to not sabotage it enough that i was accepted into a master’s program instead. It was across the state, five hundred miles away.

And still it might have come to nothing, as i had no conscious plans, actually, of staying away once i was done with this master’s program. The expected thing would be to go on to medical school, but i was only anticipating the first day of being free and couldn’t imagine anything more than a week in the future. I looked at the amount of debt i was taking on for this, knowing in my heart that i would not get a job that could pay it back, and was only relieved that they hadn’t caught onto me and i could still get loans.

There are a lot of things in my story that aren’t what they say is healthy or proper. I shouldn’t have romanticized my own parentification, i should not have had feelings for a 50 year old man, i should have kept trying with my friends, who have good hearts and only made one mistake before i ghosted them, i should have kept telling the truth, i shouldn’t have taken moral injury from things that weren’t my fault, i should have been properly angry with my mother at some point, i should not be grateful that my tendency is to harm myself rather than others.

One person alone should not have been able to save me.

In the second month of my year away, i was in a study group with my roommates and some of their acquaintances, and i laughingly shared some anecdote or other that i thought was harmless. I don’t remember whether anyone else laughed, but one person said: “That sounds kind of fucked up.”

“Oh,” I said, embarrassed. “Eh, well.”

Nothing more was made of it, and we went on studying. Later, this same person saw me sitting in the cafeteria alone and came to sit with me. We met to study again, just us two, and they showed me a video about white tears and watched me closely for my reaction. We compared ideals and found them the same. We came up with a project to collectivize flashcard-making for our class and had to meet frequently to carry it out. “We’re colleagues,” my new friend said, firmly, when people asked if we were together. We discovered ethical problems with the program and protested them, formally and informally. We were accused of being too insular. We talked about our families, and they said things like: “That’s not okay, you realize that, right” and “I think if more people loved the way you do, I’d have a reason to smile in the morning.” It became normal for my eyes to be sore from crying.

Neither of us got into medical school that year. We got an apartment together after graduation, and worked together too until i was fired (I was new to challenging authority and not very subtle in my distaste for our bosses). My friend’s parents wanted them to quit too, to come home while they reapplied, but they said: “Not without Autumn.” So after some negotiating, we went to live with their folks for a while…

We’ve been together for 5 years now. At first I did the same as I’d always done, but my partner made it clear they don’t want self-abnegation from me. I started trying to have boundaries, paradoxically, to make them happy. I’ve dipped into therapy as money allows. I’ve been reading and thinking and writing. Above all, I’ve been loved.

And all this time, I’ve still been deeply ashamed. I’ve spent the last ten years in some degree of emotional pain 24/7. But somehow, two weeks ago, another thing happened that shouldn’t, and i suddenly knew that i was a human being like any other.

I still feel that I should have died when I was 20, but now it’s in the sense that people say, “You shouldn’t have survived that! What a miracle!” Still existing feels like a bonus. I might live a long time from now and i might not. Either way, I’m incredibly lucky to turn my face to the world and know that i am a creature in it, like other creatures. I am well. It’s good that I’m alive.

#by auti #hopefully this is something good for someone :) #long post #yikes i hope this isn't just me rubbing it in that i hit the jackpot #idk i feel good about it so i'm posting it #please watch dr. gabor mate btw #that's part of this #and the untamed is part of it too #i still have problems lol don't get the wrong idea #but still everything's different now #the euphoria has worn off a bit but #it's like... it's like i'm meditating all the time? #it's not painful to be present is what i mean #i have the distinct feeling of being un-nerfed #feel free to rb! #although adding commentary might be weird #still i can imagine certain kinds that might not be so. your call!

[purplesurveys]

809

1. Has a boy ever asked your parents for permission to date you? No and I don’t feel like this is necessary; it’s a tad too traditional for me. Once Gab and I became legal to her parents though I did feel the need to come to her house and shake her dad’s hand out of respect and officially acknowledge the fact that I’m seeing his daughter. Over the years I’ve also been kinda courting her parents by buying them stuff, getting them Christmas presents, going to parties they invite me to, etc. so that we can bond more and they can get the chance to know me better.

2. Do you often get stuck behind a tractor driving somewhere out where you live? No, definitely not here in the city. In the province, you’re more likely to get stuck behind either a tricycle OR an eight-wheeler or something bigger, than a tractor. Tractors would be easy to overtake - it’s the long trucks that are bitches to drive past. Dad is an absolute master at overtaking and he has never gotten us in an accident, but I always have to squeeze my eyes shut every time he overtakes in a two-lane highway. 

3. Have you ever hidden alcohol, had a parent find it, and DRINK it? No. There’s really no point in hiding anything, really, from my mom. She’s a witch and would find out anything. It’s much better to give them a heads-up that I have alcohol because they have no reason to refuse it anyway.

4. Do your parents tell you that if someone starts a fight with you, you can finish it? We don’t get to have this kind of conversation. I don’t know what they’d prefer me to do if I get into an argument.

5. Where you ever in 4H club? If so, for what? No, and I’ve never heard of that before.

6. Has your father ever belonged to a sportmans club? I don’t know what this means either. Man it really bugs me when surveys ask question only a certain audience would understand.

7. Is there a band in your state that’s really big, but not big anywhere else? Duh, I live in the Philippines. Yes, we have TONS of bands that are huge here but probably wouldn’t get a cheer anywhere else which is a big shame because we have an insanely talented pool of artists. We have Ben&Ben, IV of Spades, December Avenue, Munimuni, Silent Sanctuary, Autotelic, Orange and Lemons, Over October, She’s Only Sixteen, Lola Amour, The Ransom Collective, etc. The local music scene has always been bustling.

8. If you have siblings, was there ever a tradition your family had when you all turned a certain age? We all had grand 1st and 7th birthday parties. Other than that, not really.

9. To what extent do you think abortion should be legal? Simply put, I wish it was available as an option everywhere. It’s still mostly illegal here and it’s taboo enough of a topic for me not to know what options women here have, simply because the information isn’t available; and I wish that wasn’t the case.

10. Have you ever stood right up against the stage at a concert? No, the concerts I’ve been to have barriers everywhere since I only ever go to shows of big artists. Even Paramore had a certin distance from the audience to the stage, and I was already in front row.

11. Have you ever forgotten to put on an oven mitt before you took something extremely hot out of the oven? No. I’m incredibly scared of hot things and burning my skin so I’m always careful.

12. Do you own one of those airwick things that automatically sprays every few minutes? Nope. I don’t think I’ve encountered one, either.

13. If you are taking (or took) an elective foreign language in high school or college, what level did you make it to? No, we didn’t need to take it in my degree. I’ve always felt kinda jealous about it because it turns out other degrees in my college – broadcast communication and film – do require foreign language classes, so there’s people in my college learning Spanish or Korean or Italian or whatever, and us journ majors apparently don’t even need those skills. Sigh.

14. How many light bulbs are on in the room you are currently in? There’s one main light but it has three lightbulbs.

15. When was the last time you felt extremely out of place? Sometime in April last year when Gab’s school was holding some mini-concert event type of thing. I didn’t know she and her org were going to be doing documentation throughout the event, so we stayed in one of the classrooms which served as backstage while they were working on photos, publicity materials, etc. in real time. Everyone knew each other and everyone didn’t know me, and I got a lot of stares which made me incredibly uncomfortable. Eventually I felt super antsy and I had a silent breakdown that evening. Annoyingly it was Gabie who got mad at me and told me I was wasting her time and that I shouldn’t have come, which was just fabulous to hear when I was having a breakdown as it was.

16. On Election Day, Did you have school? Elections usually fall on Mondays and I don’t have school on that day, so I was always able to go vote with no problem.

17. Have you ever had your phone taken away at school before? Nope. I use my phone if I’m bored/have to answer an important message, but I make sure it’s under my desk so that it’s not distracting to the professor. In my old school we weren’t allowed to bring gadgets, so I never brought my phone.

18. Do you look better with or without glasses? I dunno, I honestly like how I look either way haha. You’d have to ask other people.

19. What is your favorite type of pet bird? We’ve only ever had lovebirds and they were a delight to have. I wouldn’t mind having a pair again.

20. If you dye your hair; Can people tell? If you don’t; Do people think you do? No, they have no reason to think that I do. My hair has always remained black.

21. When was the last time you had a fruit flavored snack? One of the last few days before lockdown. Andrew brought a jar of fruit-flavored gummies to Skywalk; it was a part of his payment for a recent hosting gig he did. 

22. Do you speak with a slight stutter? Nope. I usually have an idea of what to continue saying as I speak.

23. Does your school lean more towards ghettos tendencies or hic tendencies? Noooooooo idea what this means.

24. Is your state a swing, republican, or democratic state? Philippines doesn’t do any of these things. All political parties generally stand for the same things; the only thing separating them is the political color that symbolizes their party. It’s a sorry state we live in here, as if I haven’t talked about how miserable it is here enough.

25. Does your state have any good sports teams? I don’t really follow local sports. And we don’t have states.

26. Are your parents work-o-holics? I’d say my dad is, since over the years I’ve seen him rise up the ranks. I’ve never seen my mom work at home.

27. Do you find yourself wearing more bright colors or neutral colors? Throughout my college years I wore A LOT of black and white. But during my last year I realized how boring that looks like, so I’ve recently upgraded my wardrobe with a whole lotta color. Now I mix up my black and white with olive green, mustard yellow, maroon, etc.

28. Do you REALLY think Bush is the worst president we’ve ever had? I mean he was never my president per se because I am not American and I was too young during his term, so I honestly don’t have much of an opinion on him. I do know he’s not the worst though, considering the garbage bag America has as president now.

29. Did you go fishing a lot when you were younger? Do you now? I have never gone fishing.

#survey #surveys

[writing-in-the-impala]

You Always Hurt The Ones You Love (Part 7)

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader

AU: Professor!Bucky Barnes/ Teacher!Bucky Barnes

Series Summary: You fall for your smoking hot literature professor Bucky Barnes (quite literally) what follows you never predicted would happen.

Warnings: Swearing, Drinking, teacher-student relationship (but like it’s all legal chill) and mentions of PTSD because it’s Bucky, SLOWburn we’re in for a long ride

Word Count: 1741

A/N:  Analysis of Bucky stolen from @yetanotherobssesivereader who wrote an amazing post describing how Bucky showed signs of torture and that he wasn't okay I  loved the analysis and think it's canon so I had to include it

MASTERLIST | SERIES MASTERLIST | Part 1,  Part 2,  Part 3,  Part 4, Part 5, Part 6

You were dreading going to class and seeing Bucky, you didn't know what you should do, you knew you can't not turn up to class because that would send a strong message of you not wanting to see him but you also knew you didn't want to see him because you were confused and you hated the fact that you were longing to kiss him again. You approached his classroom with dread however we're surprised to see the whole class outside the room in the corridor. "What's going on?" You asked one of your friends from class.

"Doors locked, no one knows where Barnes is." He replied and you nodded a thanks. Minutes later everyone received an email.

"Class cancelled. Couldn't find a parking spot. - J.Barnes"

"Class cancelled!" Some kid shouted and the crowd dispersed. You decided to go to Tony's office because you weren't in the mood to take a subway all the way home.

"Hey kiddo." Tony said when you knocked on the door and walked in.

"Hey, you busy?" You asked.

"Always but never when you come in." He said with a wink and you laughed.

"I wanted to talk about May's birthday." You said.

"Aren't you meant to be in class?" Tony asked as you sat down opposite him.

"Barnes cancelled." Out simply replied.

"Oh yeah apparently he's off sick all week." Tony replied, sick? So he lied in the email saying he couldn't find a parking spot, so this means all your classes with him are cancelled.

"Yeah, anyway Peter and I have a proposition." You said and Tony leaned in.

"I'm listening." He replied.

"You know how May has always wanted to spend a night in one of those hotels where the rooms are huts in the water." You said.

"She never told me that..." Tony said.

"She probs knew you'd pay and take her that's why she never told you, anyway they are really expensive but Peter and I have been saving up for literally years and we have enough for a room for you and May for a week in AVANI Sepang Goldcoast Resort but we forgot about the flight so we were wondering if you could help us out pay for te flights and we'll pay you back when we have the money because we need to book this now and don't have enough." You explained.

"Kid I can pay for the room too." Tony said.

"No, we don't want you to pay we just want a small loan if you get me? We'll pay you back." You explained.

"Okay, how about we do this I'll book the rooms and flights and you'll pay me back?" Tony asked and you nodded.

"That would be amazing yes please." You said.

"Okay so when am I booking this." Tony asked.

"I was thinking flight out in May's Birthday and then a week in Malaysia?" You said and Tony nodded clicking some stuff on his computer.

"Okay, aaaaand booked. You and Peter are coming too." Tony informed you.

"No we don't have enough to pay for so many flights." You protested.

"Yeah but I do and you deserve to enjoy yourself after collecting all that money, May would want you there." Tony explained.

"It's meant to be like a romantic get away for the two of you." You continued to protest.

"That's why you and Peter have your own rooms and so you won't bug me I bought extra tickets so both of you can have a +1. And if it's a romantic get away you should bring a boyfriend and Pete can bring that nerdy friend he builds ships with or his new girlfriend." Tony said.

"How do you know about her?" You said confused.

"I know everything." Tony said and you thought not everything you don't know Bucky kissed me but you were never going to tell him that.

"Get ready to spend a week with Natasha." You said.

"You know what leave, and don't come back. If you bring Natasha you're not allowed on the plane." Tony said and you made a fake offended face. "You have 2 months find someone and I don't want to kick you out but I think I'm late to teach a class, I'm not really sure." Tony said and you laughed before hugging him, thanking him and saying goodbye.

Bucky didn't show up to class for the whole week. On Friday you got annoyed, this was childish, yes he made a mistake but does that mean you can't be friends, does that mean he can't teach you, you were gonna fail just because that idiot kissed you. You didn't know what annoyed you more the fact that he regretted kissing you so much that it hurt and made you feel terrible or the fact that he was acting so childish. You decided to go to Steve so you knocked on the door and heard a "come in." So you opened the door to see Steve sitting at his desk grading some papers. "Miss L/N, how can I help you?" He said formerly and you shit the ford before speaking.

"He's not ill is he?" You asked your voice angry but weak.

"I don't know what you're talking about." He said.

"Cut the bull shit Rogers you're mean to be the honest one, he's the lying one." You said annoyed.

"Language, Okay fine yes he isn't ill but he might as well be he hasn't left his flat all week I don't know what's wrong." Steve said.

"He hasn't told you?" You asked your mood changing why wouldn't Bucky tell Steve, his best friend.

"No. All I know is it's something big because Bucky is pretending nothings wrong but something is up." Steve said you could see he's being honest that he's worried. "How did you know he wasn't ill?" Steve asked and you didn't know what to say, because he kissed me and then went missing so I know he's avoiding me is what you wanted to say but knew you couldn't.

"Because he sent an email saying class is cancelled because he couldn't find a parking spot and then Tony said that actually he's ill so I knew he's lying to someone." You explained. "So what's wrong with him?" You asked sitting down.

"I don't know, he doesn't tell me stuff." Steve said.

"But you're his best friend I thought he tells you everything." You said confused.

"You'd think." Steve said with a slight laugh that he used to mask the pain. "Look Bucky avoids telling me things he believes will hurt me or upset me, he tries to deal with problems alone." Steve explained and you felt bad for Bucky and Steve noticed the look on your face as it's the way he felt and he continued. "Look I know Bucky has told you a lot he's been really open with you which is rare for him but how much did he actually tell you?" Steve asked.

"Just bits and pieces, he told me he had a bad experience in the army, he was captured and he was made to do terrible things, something to do with Tony that's why Tony isn't too fond of him um, he told me about his PTSD, his depression, he told me about you saving him that's about it." You explained.

"Wow So he actually told you most of it. Okay I'm gonna explain to you something about Bucky, which you've probably noticed with the times he's had outbursts on you, now this is between me and you because I just want to explain Bucky a bit to you because I know he tried to push away people he's don't it with me too and I just want you to know he thinks he's doing the right thing." Steve explained, it sounded odd why was Steve now talking about Bucky pushing you away? Did Steve actually know about the kiss? He did. You were sure of it.

"So Bucky is bad at dealing with emotions but good at hiding them, after he was captured by Hydra and then rescued from te Hydra Facilities to me he smiled but when I looked away he'd stop fake smiling. For a long time I didn't realise but it was one of the signs he wasn't okay but he hid it well. When we were celebrating the rescue everyone was together but Bucky, he decided to sit apart from everyone tossing back whiskey and probably trying to forget what happened when he was captured. I know they did terrible things to him he's never told me that but when I first saw him at that facility he was repeating his name, rank and serial number the therapist told me it was a sign he was tortured, I was an idiot for asking him to go on another mission with me. But he followed me like the amazing friend and soldier he is, and because of me got re-captured by Hydra after nearly falling to his death out of a train, they tortured him broke him. And yet he still pretends like none of that happened, when Bucky was rescued and went through the therapy to be Bucky again he tried to push me away, he was scared he'd hurt me, he pushed Dot away too. He has trouble letting people in and let me tell you that after Dot broke up with him I thought he'd close off again completely but he didn't he actually opened up, but now he's trying to push you away because he's scared he's gonna hurt you. His PTSD is getting worse which probably means he thinks he's the winter soldier and not Bucky and he's scared that he will hurt you. He cares about you and if you care about him you will try and reach out to him even when he shuts the world out." Steve said his eyes pleading you to save his friend.

"Thank you, this must've been hard for you to tell me.... you know what happened the other day don't you?" You asked cautiously.

"I live across the hall, he didn't even have to tell me I heard the swearing." Steve said.

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Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire 

Chapter 14: The Unforgiveable Curses

Moody teaches a class of fourth-years curses that, as he admits, he is only supposed to teach sixth-years and older, claiming that Dumbledore supports him. I wonder how aware Dumbledore is what is going on in the classes however. Did Dumbledore really know about this? And if so, would he support it? Does he think his students need to be a prepared for a war he has yet no idea is about to start? In book 5 Dumbledore admits that him ignoring Harry was in order to protect him, to shelter him from what was to come, and it is only in book 6 that he actively prepares him. It is more likely Dumbledore doesn’t know what Moody teaches his students, showing that he is not all-knowing about everything that goes on in Hogwarts, especially as it is later revealed that a member of his staff (an old friend of his) had tricked him almost an entire year.

The thing about the Unforgivable Curses is that apparently they are hard to detect. Moody uses all three (although not against humans, which would be the legal loophole) and gets away with it. The Ministry had a hard time proofing who acted under the Imperius Curse and who didn’t, because it is hard to tell and/or the curse left no traces. You can use a spell to show you the last spell a wand performed, but apparently that only works if someone is arrested immediately after using one of the curses. Magical law enforcement seems a lot harder than the Muggle counterpart, simply for the lack of evidence, which means that statistically a lot of crimes never get solved (and would result in the large number of Death Eaters who never went to prison, as seen at the World Cup).

I wrote in my previous chapter notes that there is a certain kind of cruelty to Moody, and I say Moody not Barty Crouch Jun., because he impersonates him almost perfectly, so what we see of this performance had to be in character with the real Moody. Though Barty Crouch Jun. is obviously cruel in his own way, and Moody gives him a platform to act out this cruelty. Showing the Unforgivable Curses to the class is cruel. It is psychological terror. He knows that Neville’s parents went mad because of the Cruciatus Curse (especially since he has been the one to cast it), he knows that Harry lost his parents through the killing curse, and you can bet there are other students whose families suffered through the war, and who have family members that had been tortured and/or killed. He justifies that they need to see those curses in order to understand them, in order to be prepared. But that is not how you overcome a trauma. None of those students have a choice in what they see, or any kind of preparation and aftercare. And we see Neville and Harry handle this experience in very different ways.

“There was a flash of blinding green light and a rushing sound, as though a vast, invisible something was soaring through the air – instantaneously the spider rolled over onto its back, unmarked, but unmistakeably dead.” – This makes it sound like the curse has to travel through the air at some point, putting those students (especially those in the front row) at a large risk. Is there a magical version of a stray bullet? Can a killing curse stray? Can you accidently kill the wrong person? Are Aurors allowed to use the killing curse?

“Avada Kedavra’s a curse that needs a powerful bit of magic behind it – you could all get your wands out now and point them at me and say the words, and I doubt I’d get so much as a nose-bleed.” – Magic (not just curses) isn’t just about saying the right words and using your wand – it is in a lot of ways about intent. And most people wouldn’t have it in them to kill someone. Harry never did (though he used the Cruciatus Curse successfully in book 7). Molly however could do it. Which is probably one of the most fascinating character moments. But we get there in time.

“That’s what you’re up against. That’s what I’ve got to teach you to fight. You need preparing. You need arming. But most of all, you need to practise constant, never-ceasing vigilance.” – Barty Crouch Jun. is teaching Harry the exact curses he knows Voldemort will very likely use against him. And he doesn’t do it to prepare him, or to help him, he does it so Harry will know exactly what is going to happen once he hears Voldemort using those curses. Talk about cruelty.

“They were talking about the lesson, Harry thought, as though it had been some sort of spectacular show, but he hadn’t found it very entertaining […].” – Which reminds me of the Boggart class from last years, and how most of Harry’s classmates had almost childish fears out of some horror stories because none of them had experienced real horror yet. Only Harry, Ron and Neville saw something they actually had to face. And again we have Harry and Neville as outsiders, as the ones personally affected by those curses, making them equals even before we know about their special connection.

So, we know that Moody comforts Neville and then gives him a book that is supposed to help Harry with the second task, all part of his big plan. But had there been a part of Barty Crouch Jun. that felt remorse for what he did to the Longbottoms? That looking after Neville in that moment was because of genuine regret of what he did to his parents? Or was it really just calculating?

“Telling Neville what Professor Sprout had said, Harry thought, had been a very tactful way of cheering Neville up, for Neville very rarely heard that he was good at anything. It was the sort of thing Professor Lupin would have done.” – I love that Harry judges his teachers on his “what would Lupin do?” scale. And obviously Lupin would have done it because he is a genuine kind person, and maybe he saw a bit of Peter in Neville and knew the damage it could do if someone is constantly underrated. And maybe Moody/Crouch Jun. did it because it was something he would have needed to hear more often from his father.

“‘Good one,’ said Ron, copying it down. ‘Because of … erm … Mercury. Why don’t you get stabbed in the back by someone you thought was a friend?’” – I wouldn’t go so far to say Ron stabbed Harry in the back, but clearly Harry expected Ron to believe and support him after he became a champion, so that predication is somewhat half right.

“‘Not spew,’ said Hermione impatiently. ‘It’s S – P – E – W. Stands for the Society for the Promotion of Elfish Welfare.’” – As far as acronyms go this isn’t the best one. Though the Society for Promoting the Employment of Women is spelled the same way. I also like to think that later in life Hermione did manage to fulfil her long-term-goals (changing the law about non-wand-use, and trying to get an elf into the Department for the Regulation and Control of Magical Creatures).

But in general I think Hermione’s fight for House Elves is there to inform her character, to show us her need for social justice, but at the same time that you can’t overcome systematic century old exploitation through some idealistic ideas. Hermione means very well, but her attempts to change anything turn out to be rather harmful to her cause.

“If it hurts again, go straight to Dumbledore – they’re saying he’s got Mad-Eye out of retirement, which means he’s reading the signs, even if no one else is.” – How much did Dumbledore knew or suspect if he thought it was necessary to hire an Auror as a teacher?

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[douchebagbrainwaves]

I'VE BEEN PONDERING PG

It's very common for startups to present to them. Do people live downtown, or have some sort of exit. There is less stress in total, but more as an exploration of gender and sexuality in an urban context, etc.1 I think the goal of this rule; if you can't explain your plans concisely, you don't worry that it might come out badly, or upset delicate social balances, or that can incorporate live data feeds, or that you won't be demoralized if they seem pointless.2 One YC founder told me that it wasn't worth investing in. The patent pledge doesn't fix every problem with patents.3 I can tell from the case. This site isn't lame. They wouldn't all grow as big. It will be easier in proportion to an estimate of your company's value that you'd both agreed upon.

Then you could, I don't care what he says, I'm going to name them: type A fundraising is when you can do, you don't see the opportunities all around us is that we get on average only about 5-7% of a much larger number.4 In most fields the great work is: very exacting taste, plus the ability to direct the course of adding some feature they were asking for.5 Most hackers are employees, and this trick merely forces you to clean up your apartment, writing something that you'll be able to say whether he should be classified as a friend or angel.6 Don't say anything unless you're fairly sure what you want to reach; from paragraph to paragraph I let the ideas take their course. Sometimes a competitor will deliberately threaten you with a business background, and he will automatically get paid proportionally more. Not all of them had never seen the Web before we came to tell them to stop.7 If you're free of a misconception that everyone else is crazy. Most startups that raise money and the kind of alarms you'd set off if you operate like Columbus and just head in a general westerly direction.

As we were in the old sense of managing the round. Technology is a lever. Modern literature is important, but I suspect that most of them a part time job. In the Bay Area would be the answer. But let someone else start those startups. They're not necessarily trying to mislead you. Like a lot of people will make them.

But if you make something they like. 05 PM subject: Re: Revenge of the Nerds on the LL1 mailing list.8 American universities currently seem to be a media company to throw Microsoft off their scent. Java white paper, Gosling explicitly says Java was designed to be a missile aimed right at what makes America successful.9 Different users have different requirements, but I don't think that's the right way to do it. But this is merely an artifact of the rule of law.10 All you'll learn is the words kids are allowed to use. That's the way to the close.11 It did serve some purposes: reading a talk out loud can expose awkward parts. What investors still don't get is what insanely great translates to in a larval startup.

When I talk about humans being meant or designed to live a certain way out of habit or politeness. Hackers & Painters that hadn't been online. Incidentally, the switch in the 1920s to financing growth with retained earnings till the 1920s.12 And the programmers liked it because they don't like to have it. What counts as property depends on what works to treat as property. But this is wrong. What's a prostitute?13 Everyone by now presumably knows about the danger of premature optimization. Essentially, they lead you on. That will change the way they treat the music they sell through iTunes.14

So tablet makers should be thinking: what else can we give developers access to? White said, good writing is rewriting, wrote E. Almost four decades later, fragmentation is still increasing. The more people you have to do it than literally making a mark on the world. Investors looked at Yahoo's earnings and said to one of the principles they teach you is to align the car not by lining up the hood with the stripes painted on the road, but by trying to use mass lawsuits against randomly chosen people as a form of evolutionary pressure. People think that what you want. In principle anyone there ought to have multiple founders who were already friends before they decided to build recipe sites, or aggregators for local events.

Better Bayesian Filtering. They may play some behind the scenes as adults spin the world for a while, can make visual perception flow in through his eye and out through his hand as automatically as someone tapping his foot to a beat. If you looked in people's heads. They are all fundamentally subversive for this reason. I sat down and calculated what I thought was hard, the groups all turned out ok. Election forecasters are proud when they can get it, at this stage.15 The danger of symmetry, and repetition especially, is where the richest buyers are, but figure out precisely where you lose them. If they didn't know what language our software was so complex. 2:21 AM subject: Re: meet the airbeds PG, Thanks for the lead Fred to: Fred Wilson date: Mon, Feb 9,2009 at 11:42 AM subject: Re: airbnb There's a lot to start a startup. And yet they can hold their own with any work of art ever made.

Leonardo?16 It is, as far as possible prevent them from having fun. Doesn't that show people will pay most for?17 After thinking about it than most, but almost everywhere the trend is in that direction. Till then they had to ask permission to release software: the last thing you changed. But fortunately in the US are more conservative than Boston ones.18 People are all you need is to be battered by circumstances—to let the days rush by. But that's something you can fix later, but you can't evade the fundamental conservation law. And yet Apple's overall market share is still small. Though the Web has been around for a millennium is finished just because of its prestige, but because they were ambivalent about threatening their cash cow, mainframe computing. I mean efforts to protect against cosmic rays.19

Notes

Even as late as 1984. Incidentally, Google may appear to be at a large company? Plus one can have escaped alive, or to be good?

To do this all the poorer countries. Ed. But it was the least correlation between the Daddy Model may be a sufficient condition.

And in World War II to the rise of big companies can afford that. And while this is to try to be a win to include in your classes as a result a lot more frightening in those days, but I call it procrastination when someone gets drunk instead of happy. I'm talking mainly about software startups are now the first digital computer game, you can probably write a subroutine to do would be better at opening it than people who might be a good problem to fit your solution. Look at those goddamn fleas, jabbering about some disease they'll see once in China, during the war on drugs show, bans often do better, and instead of the world of the most famous example.

Plus one can ever say it again. When I catch egregiously linkjacked posts I replace the actual amount of damage to the founders' advantage if it was 94% 33 of 35 companies that can't reasonably expect to make a fortune in the case, not because Delicious users are stupid.

But you're not allowed to discriminate on any basis you want to get going, and oversupply of educated ones come up with elaborate rationalizations. I also skipped San Jose is a meaningful idea for human audiences. Though in fact had its own mind about whether a suit would violate the patent pledge, it's not enough to defend their interests in political and legal disputes.

What Is an Asset Price Bubble? This doesn't mean easy, of the river among the bear gardens and whorehouses. They act as if you'd just thought of them could as accurately be called acting Japanese. Many more than 20 years.

It's hard for us!

2%. If a prestigious VC makes a small proportion of the things you're taught.

Doing things that don't scale.

Now the misunderstood artist is not limited to startups. There's not much use, because few founders are willing to provide when it's done as conspicuously as this place was a false positive rate is 10%, moving to Monaco would only give you more than the previous round. Cascading menus would also be good startup founders tend to get going, e.

Emmett Shear writes: True, Gore won the popular vote he would presumably have got more of the flock, or at least, the government and construction companies. People only tend to damp this effect, at least guesses by pros about where that money comes from ads on other investors doing so because otherwise competitors would take forever in the case of heirs, professors, politicians, and everyone's used to place orders.

His critical invention was a kid that you'd want to sell them technology. I'm not dissing these people make the people working for startups, because it aggregates data from so many trade publications nominally have a lot of reasons American car companies have little to bring corporate bonds to market faster; the point where things start with consumer electronics and to run on the firm's site, they're nice to you. Not only do they decide on the young Henry VIII and was troubled by debts all his life. Distribution of potentially good startups, who've already made the decision.

Maybe that isn't really working bad unit economics, typically and then scale it up because they couldn't afford it. An investor who's seriously interested will already be working to help a society generally is to let yourself feel it mid-sentence, but you get an intro to a clueless audience like that.

But it is dishonest of the country turned its back on industrialization at the start, e.

The need has to be employees, or editions with the buyer's picture on the back of Yahoo, we actively sought out people who'd failed out of the things attributed to Confucius and Socrates resemble their actual opinions. The speed at which point it suddenly stops. And when a startup to engage with slow-moving organizations is to write every component yourself, but also very informative essay about why something isn't the last step in this essay I'm talking here about everyday tagging. If not, greater accessibility.

In 1525 he was made a bet: if you hadn't written it? I saw this I used thresholds of.

Especially if they were to work your way up. I managed to find a broad range of topics, comparable in scope to our scholarship though without the spur of poverty are only locally accurate, because those are probably the last step in this respect.

So how do you use that instead of Windows NT? How did individuals accumulate large fortunes in an absolute sense, if you make something hackers use. On the face of it.

But it's telling that it would be to say that it had no idea what's happening as merely not-doing-work. But they've been trained. So far, I preferred to call them whitelists because it depends on a weekend and sit alone and think.

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[luisneer]

selected tweets 2016-17

These are tweets from my first @luisneer twitter account. Recently I made a new twitter account with the same username, after having deleted my account and having been without twitter for several months. These tweets are from August 2016 to March 2017, which was most of my first year of college at Shepherd University, in Shepherdstown, West Virginia. I don't go to Shepherd anymore; I transferred to West Virginia University, in Morgantown, WV, after my second semester. My tweets from late March 2017 to [July or August] 2017, when I deleted my twitter, were not archived. 

I'm creating this blog post so the world will have access to some of my tweets from the deleted @luisneer, in case they have any merit as literature. I'm still not sure if I will continue to use twitter in 2018/the future. Usually when I use twitter I feel like I'm actually wanting to be doing something else, but I don't know what; or wanting to be using "another app" that doesn't exist. Twitter generally seems bad for me. Questions about my tweets August 2016-March 2017 can be directed at [email protected]. Thank you

    2016

   morgantown has ~48 vape shops

 **morgantown has ~480 vape shops

 siri has werner herzog-like inflections

 considering changing outfits when i take several walks in one day (so nobody thinks im a serial killer, stalker, spy, alien)

 think i remember ~5% of things i said today

 imagined vague connection btwn 'vitamin d' and 'reptar'

 felt distinctly that i was a monkey or chimpanzee while crouching in the corner of my dorm room eating peanuts out of a jar

 just thought (as a request to my mom) 'fax me my skateboard...'

 looked at toilet in bathroom stall with expression of 'utter terror' for what felt like ~15 seconds while it flushed

 listening to bright eyes with headphones at house show

 feel that the toothpaste i use is advancing decay of my teeth

 feel 100% certain that i could train myself to use telepathy to operate my phone during classes

 enjoying the sensation of my right leg 'falling asleep' during psychology class (left foot is also 'asleep')

 felt 'sociopathic' after eye contact w library worker who watched me pick up & pocket a pair of apple headphones someone had left on a chair

 left stolen apple headphones on gray bench across the street from my dorm

 repeatedly placed/removed sunglasses while walking in hallway

 strong desire to remove all positive patterns from my life and perpetuate/embrace all negative ones

 feel that my laptop 'knows' which parts of its screen im looking at

 in winchester, VA

 thought of my own music as having 'no compelling audible elements'

 thought of myself as being legally named 'the fuck up', then couldnt remember my actual name

 successfully, i feel, duplicated 'sociopath facial expression' during eye contact with arch-nemesis in stairwell

 ive taken 13800mg ibuprofen since i got to college

 feel compelled to ask my 9 yr old brother for advice re 'college-level' personal issues

 feel smart after sitting on couch in painting studio + reading art magazines for 2 hours

 persistent notion that 100% of students at my college personally hate me

 psychology professor muttered something like 'scary snake... endocrine system...'

 feeling heavily drugged/sedated in psych class

 psych professor seems obsessed with/terrified by snakes

 imagined kanye smoking crystal meth and tweeting something like 'please help me... cant feel mouth... need help'

 saw a moth at open mic, thought about god

 experiencing difficulty trying to smile

 enjoying using numerous cliches ('the case is closed', 'taking a step back', 'harsh realities') in an essay

 intrigued by conversation i had 9 hrs ago w/ 2 boys who countered my tone (calm, eloquent) exactly by being loud and rude in a friendly way

 felt simultaneously really cute and really lonely while giggling with my mouth closed in french class

 imagined kanye inventing the word 'compactualize' and using it in a sentence during a televised interview

 enjoyed 8-sentence john updike bio in norton lit anthology

 perceived person standing outside bathroom stall occupied by me could 'sense', via something like echolocation, that i was/am depressed

 spoke to french professor in what felt like a distinct persona/alternate luis neer called 'marge simpson voice' luis neer

 feel confidently that the public debut of 'marge simpson voice' luis neer was a success

 feel that 'marge simpson voice' luis neer is the culmination of an unconscious process that initiated in my mind maybe 3-5 years ago

 i want to identify/analyze additional alternate luis neers

 i dont like videos

 i came to college and got weirder, better at writing, more arrogant, more defeated, more sensible

 simultaneously feel that i should run 3 miles and that, at this moment, i would be incapable of running any distance

 feel urged to draw new attention to my 'marge simpson voice' tweets

 huge power outage at shepherd lol

 realized theres no such thing as a 'nation'

 remembered ive blown off obligations to several people, not just one person, so my irresponsibility doesnt 'have a focus', felt comforted

 feel that my follower count is 'crystallized' / will never increase or decrease ever again

 struggled to convert 'stick-and-poke' to past tense during conversation in line at sheetz

 feel it would be pleasurable to take a donut + bottle of coca-cola from this sheetz via armed robbery

 crossed busy road, felt really surprised i didnt get hit by a car, also i wasnt wearing glasses, was walking to sheetz, bought an icee

 laughed alone in my dorm thinking that i should print out a picture of barack obama to put on my wall

 drank from separate glasses containing soymilk, coffee, iced coffee, apple juice, cranberry juice, water, sprite for dinner/breakfas

 just thought 'from adorno to zizek' sans context while shitting

 opened gmail, emailed my father, closed gmail, opened gmail again, viewed email to my father, forwarded it to myself

 'camcorder' would be a good band name

 i thought arnold palmer had already died

 willem dafoe doesnt make me uncomfortable

 i want to stop being mean

 i hate bfs but i want to be someones bf

 wishing i was in a car with friends and no cellular service

 tangled up in myself and others

 twin peaks is depicted as a small town but its population is greater than that of every city in west virginia including the state capital

 eating shark

 thought of my own intelligence as 'frightening'

 thought while walking to class that ginger ale should be made public domain

 had the stitches on my chin removed today, touched the scar tissue for the first time

 i miss being in therapy

 i love carpet

 i love carpet !!

 just thought about my own tweets and lol'd

 mood lately very fragile

 this is what i get for staying up til 5 am

 all night i've felt a wave of dread swelling up, now it's really hitting me

 sound of laughter in public still frightening + unnerving

 my instinct for when to unfriend people on facebook has adapted so that i unfriend people over statuses that make me feel no emotions at all

 fuck, im feeling so much terror

 gucci mane was born 3 days before conor oberst

 the other day i mentioned that i was a poet and this vape guy interrupted me to say "and you didnt know it" and i went fucking nuclear

 interacted with mailman who was picking up mail as i was trying to mail chapbooks, he didnt notice at first that i was talking to him

 what if old people have secrets

 my dad is making me root for a football team but im in pain emotionally

 i feel guilty in general

 thought of my poem "portrait of a nation without any people" as the "lead single" for my full length; it appeared in potluck 14 months ago

 im close friends with satan rn

 feel like travis scott never intended for people to spell his name with a $

 from now on every time i get honey on something ill list the thing in this thread

 finger

 desk

 coffee cup exterior

 pajama pants

 knee

 carpet

 chin

 phone

 shirt

 shoe

 thought that my elderly geography prof. moves by "shuffling"

 feeling shorter, broader

 the only part of the new bright eyes box set i want is the booklet

 is there a booklet? i know there are nvr b4 sn photos

 the song "lime tree" came to conor oberst in a dream

 i like citing things in MLA

 i write essays by pretending im werner herzog

 doesnt seem to be getting later

 lit professor gave my project (sequence of 6 sonnets) a C, i wish she would have gotten me expelled, shelley + ginsberg both were expelled

 heard someone in another room ask "where's wal-mart?" as if wal-mart were a person whose location could change

 i think i just swallowed a filling while eating popcorn, i am very scared, please help

 crazy how things get worse

 there are people on my floor having tons of fun and im upset

 bit my mattress while sitting in the chair next to my bed

 weird that chance the rapper only has 2.4 million followers when he's sort of one of the most famous artists in the world rn

 also weird that donald trump has made 34,000 tweets, seems like an incredibly large number

 the strangeness of yesterday was, for me, augmented by people on the internet talking about a tv show that ive never seen or heard about

 the sunlight is obscene

 im so upset about the sun being so bright im afraid to go outside

 im glad im the only poet who likes trailer park boys

 i slept in a blanket fort under my bed and havent left it all day

 yr = your ur = you're

 my favorite things are pdfs

 now that ive adapted my living space to allow me to never leave my blanket fort i feel like my roommate, omar, exists in a parallel universe

 i hear him but i never see him

 i love latte art, i drink many lattes

 thought that twitter "isn't worth it" in an upset tone while drinking mtn dew

 felt pleasant considering uniqueness of all parent-offspring relationships

 went through my closet + made sure all shirts and jackets were zipped/buttoned

 my blanket is generating flashes of light from static electricity

 record store guy became visibly sick of me several months ago; feel a little guilty every time i enter his store to spend money

 i prefer EPs

 felt "out of control" walking downhill listening to dead kennedys with headphones

 writing an essay is difficult because idk how much relevant information other people have already considered / moved on from

 have been wanting to write at least one poem inside my blanket fort but i don't think it's going to happen, i don't know why

 the internet isn't big enough

 usually when i think "i dont understand the uproar about [event]" i realize there is no "uproar"

 "uproar" is media's way of manipulating the public spotlight and distracting people from important tasks

 feeling helpless + melancholy after dying 15 times and killing 2 stormtroopers in star wars battlefront

 the only way to attain conor oberst-level emo hair is to lay in bed and sob for hours

 i'm sad

 my mom was confused when i told her my first book comes out today

 was luis neer in odd future

 thought "sometimes i just want to end it and start all over" in an exasperated tone re my goodreads account

 becoming increasingly convinced it would be best for me personally to take myself extremely seriously/never joke about myself

 thinking that my tweets would seem terrible if i were a senator/governor/other politician

 imagined doomsday device for future @starwars movies: the "death train," a normal train that exists in space and destroys planets

 how does anyone do it

 in science fiction movies, spacecraft usually look like shopping malls

 everyone in the world is high except me

 feel like i want to have poems published immediately

 having delusions of grandeur

 im sitting on my record player

 my most-used word in 2016 was "bleak"

 prepared and ate garbanzo beans w a lot of rosemart at 2:00 AM

 my brother has a friend over and is being mean to the friend

 all i want for christmas is to never cheer up, ever

 watching eyes wide shut and hugging duckuc

 my nose feels like it's going to bleed

 im sad because every bf looks like me

 getting better at eating ice cream by punching it with my tongue

 the internet is too freaky...

 i think 2017 will be a year of realizing things

 im watching the angry birds movie

 the angry birds movie is so shitty... why was it made...

 ive never had a new years kiss

   2017

   im weird

 eating medicinal ice cream

 im not going to do any drugs in 2017

 made a medicinal phone call

 i want to drink some blood

 i dreamed that roger ebert wrote a negative review of life after ppl and called it "liner notes"

 years dont kill people

 feel inexplicably/explicably really scared about the future of my poetry career

 i've felt stoned since i was a baby

 downloading google earth

 made eye contact in starbucks with possible luis neer incarnation from ~50 years in future; bon jovi "dead or alive" played through speakers

 realised that at some point in the future i will become extremely interested in watching football

 i recommend reading poems extremely slowly while touching the text with your middle finger/index finger

 experiencing cognitive dissonance

 used phonetic clues to correctly predict meaning of & use the word "tandem" while discoursing with myself internally

 i miss steel pedal guitar sounds on conor oberst songs

 my previous incarnation "college luis neer" has evolved to become "high school luis neer-like luis neer in college setting"

 thought "man, i got to stop caring what people think about me" in an emphatic tone that seemed confusing/interesting

 mediocore

 beyonce is cool i think

 i want to re-read "v for vendetta" and to not tweet about it

 remembered that i own a pinata

 i will be at awp

 how could i make twitter a better place

 i saw 4 people wearing yeezys in dc this weekend

 feeling increasingly self-conscious about how much i use the phrase "in the world" or refer to "the world" in poems

 felt robot-like while attaching detachable headphones cord to my headphones while wearing the headphones

 watching shepherd univ lacrosse team practice from "safety of" student center

 i invented releasing two chapbooks in one day

 im dumber than me

 reasoned mentally that im more likely to produce accurate drawings of myself because "i basically look like a bird, so i just draw a bird"

 i want to have a "fake tweet" (e.g. a simple phrase) to tweet repeatedly every time i feel urged to tweet an uninformed/unimportant opinion

 my fake tweet for the foreseeable future will be "i dropped my textbook in the stairwell". when i tweet this it means i have an opinion

 i dropped my textbook in the stairwell

 does anyone remember the chapter of "the hobbit" where bilbo avoids starvation by ingesting peanut butter, honey, cherry nyquil, and water

 sensed that all my college friends just simultaneously shifted from having vague/non-serious negative feelings about me to hating me

 resulting from continuous building of irrepressible/inevitable conjecture in the friends' conscious thoughts

 eating chicken and squash

 i click on 100% of poetry links tweeted by poets i follow

 when i was writing Waves i was obsessed with waves (e.g. energy waves, frequencies) and used the word "waves" at least ~10 times every day

 i dropped my textbook in the stairwell

 white nike swooshes on shoes of boy in library look vibrant/magical

 terrified of being cool

 walked to library really slowly while listening to noise music through big headphones

 i was really, really yung when i started publishing and i'm still really yung

 2 chainz always looks like he's walking in an airport

 i have 5 twitters

 i didnt know what bill paxton looked like, i was thinking RIP gene hackman

 why doesnt anyone blog about me

 thesis statements arent real

 thinking about my book

 i deleted both my tumblrs by accident

 sad about my tumblr

 my name is all over the internet

 im a lizard

 someday there'll be no more ppl

 a lot of conor oberst song titles have parentheses

 feeling sad about the actions of my clone, who passed away

 idk how to use venmo or what it is

 present-day tumblr is like the end of the never ending story where atreyu is talking with the rock biter and the nothing is swirling around

 when someone, anyone, is upset with me im afraid im going to be assassinated

 the views-era apple music ads that depict drake working hard in the studio have really affected and inspired me

 on tumblr i have 4 followers

 almost all of my tweets seem unimportant

 feel that if someone told me that one of my tweets made them upset i would just apologize and delete it

 ground control to commander venus

 i like my new tumblr

 i would be wearing a cardigan rn but i dont have one

 feel that i will continue to generate bright eyes-related content throughout my life

 is everything ok

 i look like michael moore

#words

[trentteti]

A Step-by-Step Guide to Applying to Law School

Applying to law school can feel like a labyrinthine process, we know. So we thought, as a bit of public service, we’d simplify this process as best as we can. Here are the fifteen steps you need to take to apply to law school, along with a deluge of links to posts on how to make the most of your law school applications.

1. Go to college, and get the best GPA you can

Earning a J.D. is a postgraduate endeavor, of course, so you’ll eventually need an undergraduate degree to matriculate into law school. You’re probably, at the very least, already in the process of earning that. Your major matters far less than many believe, so choose the concentration that interests you most. But your GPA will matter quite a bit — it’s a major factor law school admissions offices will use in constructing your academic index, or whatever figure they use to get an initial read on you as an applicant. Your LSAT score will eventually be the centerpiece of your law school application — and at many law schools, a great LSAT score can rescue a less-than-stellar GPA — but an amazing GPA can occasionally carry you into 1L, as well.

2. Make a plan to take the LSAT

This is the hurdle most pre-lawyers fear the most. Almost every law school application requires you to include a score from some standardized test that the law school thinks will effectively appraise your lawyerly mettle. And the LSAT is the one standardized test of lawyerly mettle that’s approved by all 203 ABA-accredited law schools. Ergo (step 2b, by the way: start dropping “ergo” in everyday conversation), you should plan on taking the LSAT.

But which LSAT should you take? The LSAT is offered many times a year, giving you a ton of options to choose from. Our advice: choose an exam — preferably one to which you can dedicate about twenty hours of weekly study time during the two-to-four-month span before that exam — and sign up for it. As in, sign up before you start studying. Smash that register button. Having a deadline will force you to take the study process seriously, which will only help you get prepared. But, of course, this will require you to choose your LSAT wisely. The amount of time you’ll have to study should be your number one consideration. No single exam is any “harder” or “easier” than any other, so that shouldn’t be part of your decision making. Just choose the exam that fits best with your schedule.

Some law schools have begun to accept the GRE or GMAT, so those can be options instead. Still, we recommend the LSAT; we think it’s a better test (and it lacks math), but it’s also still the only test accepted by every law school.

3. Sign up for the Credential Assembly Service

You can do this when you sign up for your LSAT. Eventually, this service — abbreviated to CAS — will be how you distribute your grades, LSAT scores, letters of recommendation, personal statements, and everything else to all the law schools you apply to. It’s helpful but pretty expensive, so you’ll need to budget for it. (LSAC also sells bundles that include LSAT fees, CAS fees, and law school report fees to save you some money. And there are also fee waivers you may qualify for.)

4. Study for the LSAT

Most people use some sort of study aids to prepare for the LSAT. It’s not the kind of test that most can show up and crush. And, wow, do we have study aids available for you. But you should explore — LSAT prep isn’t a one-size-fits-all kind of thing. You may want to think about whether an in-person class or an online course is right for you. Or if private tutoring is best option. Consider sitting in on some free classes, to see if you dig that style of learning. To explore more of our options, we recommend signing up for a free LSAT Toolkit and scheduling a time to talk to one of our Academic Managers, who can help you find the study plan that makes the most sense for you.

5. Take the LSAT

It’s a lot, but you’ll get through it. And if it doesn’t go well and you have to retake? No biggie. Law schools will mostly just look at your highest score. Oh, and don’t forget about taking the Writing section of the exam within a year of taking the LSAT. You do that at home, and most schools require it as part of your application.

6. Research law schools

Of course, you’ll need to know which law schools you want apply to before you apply to them. Do your research. Don’t just rely on the U.S. News & World Report rankings. You can use better, output-based rankings or just look at the raw data yourself. Remember, you’re going to law school to pass the bar and get a job. So look for schools in your price range and preferred locations that are good at helping their grads pass the bar and get jobs.

There are also law school predictors — such as our own Law School Compass — that can give you a good sense of the schools you’re almost certainly getting into, those you have a good shot at getting into, and those you have an outside chance of getting into. Ideally, you’ll apply to schools in all three categories. And if you qualify, make sure to check if these law schools offer fee waivers to reduce application costs.

7. Start getting your letters of rec together

After you secure your LSAT score and figure out where you’re applying, you’ll need to get your application materials together. Start with the letters of recommendation, since those require the assistance of people who may lack your sense of urgency on the matter of your law school application. For most schools you need two letters of rec, but can include an optional third. If you’ve graduated within the last five years, at least two of your recommenders should be professors or people who can otherwise speak to your academic prowess; if you’ve been out of school for five or more years, your recommenders can be people from your work field. Here are some tips on how to secure the best letters of recommendation.

8. Craft your personal statement

It sucks to write about yourself in this way, but everyone applying to law school’s gotta do it. Fortunately, the prompts law schools use are so open-ended that the same personal statement — with minor revisions and additions — can be used for every application.

Start early, work through some inevitably terrible drafts, and get a lot of people to lend their editorial perspective. And remember, it should be a narrative that communicates what’s you unique about you and why you’re interested in a legal education and career. It can, but certainly doesn’t have to be, a tale of overcoming adversity. Don’t be falsely modest or a braggart. And definitely don’t just write a laundry list of accomplishments that many other applicants likely have as well.

9. Update the old résumé

This, by the way, will be the laundry list of your accomplishments. Tips on what to include in your résumé here and how to format it here.

10. Write an diversity or explanatory essay, if applicable

Most law schools allow you to include an addendum to your application. In a diversity essay, you can discuss how your race or ethnicity, religion, socioeconomic disadvantage, sexual orientation, or otherwise unique experiences might contribute to the diversity of the law school. In an explanatory essay, you can address any weaknesses in your application, such as a semester of anomalously low grades, a low LSAT score, or a gap in your work history. (Provided, of course, there is a reasonable explanation.) These addenda are truly optional — you should only write one if you do have a story to tell. No diversity or explanatory essay is preferable to one that elicits an eye roll from the admissions officer tasked with reading it.

11. Secure your transcripts from your undergraduate institution

You’ll also need to make sure your transcripts are uploaded to your CAS.

12. Review your applications, and send it to law schools

Next comes a scary part.

13. Wait for responses

This is the scary part. But, remember, you did it! You had a mountain of stuff to compile for your law school applications. You got through that, and now you’re on the other side. You’ll eventually be put through the 1L ringer, so try to enjoy these next few months. Travel, see friends, cultivate interests, etc.

14. Negotiate your offers

Once you start getting accepted to law schools, you can start negotiating with them to obtain scholarships. Many schools have built-in processes to negotiate such offers. So follow those rules, be realistic, and be polite and respectful in all communications. But don’t be a pushover — you finally have some leverage. Use it.

15. Figure out how to finance law school

OK, this is also the scary part. But there are many options to finance law school for you to consider.

A Step-by-Step Guide to Applying to Law School was originally published on Blueprint LSAT Blog

#applications #Law School #letters of recommendation #LSAT #Personal Statement #study plan #trent teti #lsat

[womanwup-blog]

AVENIR’S TASK #01: GO GO TOMAGO’S DNA — character’s general information, background, family and more.

( &&. GENERAL INFORMATION )

FULL NAME: ethel go. PRONUNCIATION: eh-thel ko. ALIASES: eunha (은하, korean name), go go tomago (street name in japan). PREFERRED NAME: go go. AGE: 25. PREFERRED PRONOUNS: she, her, hers.

SEXUAL ORIENTATION: gray-a. ROMANTIC ORIENTATION: biromantic.

LANGUAGES SPOKEN: english, korean and japanese. NATIVE LANGUAGE: korean and english. having immigrant parents, she was taught both languages, catching the words and meanings without much explanation as she heard her parents talking, much like any other child does with their mother language (except that she learned two at the same time).

OCCUPATION: lab technician in avenir university, mostly on mechanical engineering labs. CURRENT RESIDENCE: a small studio near the university. CURRENT RELATIONSHIP STATUS: single.

( &&. BACKGROUND )

ETHNICITY: korean. NATIONALITY: united states citizen. VISAS: korean (expired), japanese (expired). FINANCIAL STATUS: lower middle class. used to be a upper middle class while relying on her parents. could also say she was considered an upper class while in japan, after her mother’s second marriage—but she never acted like one.

HOMETOWN: avenir, united states. PAST RESIDENCE: seoul, south korea → hiroshima, japan → pasadena, united states. EDUCATION: mechanical engineer, caltech (not graduate). LICENSES: driver, motorcyle, dog.

( &&. FAMILY )

MOTHER: amber tamago, nee park. HER ALIASES: jieun (지은, korean name), mrs. go (while married to ethel’s dad). HER AGE: would be 54 if alive, died at 52. HER OCCUPATION: chemical engineer in a pharmaceutical industry located in boston while living in avenir. got transferred to seoul after her divorce. eventually moved to japan, where she got involved with the yakuza gang once getting married for the second time. in the gang, she was a drug producer and helped with medical assistance when needed.

FATHER: stephen go. HIS ALIAS: hajoon (하준, korean name). HIS AGE: 55. HIS OCCUPATION: used to be a chemistry professor in avenir university. after his ex-wife and daughter moved to the other side of the world, he was offered a job in caltech, which he didn’t even hesitate before taking it. it’s where he currently works, in the division of chemistry and chemical engineer.

STEPFATHER: tamago noboru (卵登). HIS AGE: 57. HIS OCCUPATION: once a police officer, training to be a detective, noboru started working in cases that had to do with the yakuza gang. getting deeply involved with it, he eventually changed sides in this fight, becoming then a soldier for them. from then, it didn’t take long to reach the position of second in command in the headquarters in hiroshima.

CHILDREN: tomagotchi, a female poodle puppy (adopted a year ago).

( &&. PHYSICAL APPEARANCE )

LOOKS LIKE: lee yeji, yezi. HEIGHT: 162cm, 5′3ft. WEIGHT: 45kg, 99,2lb. HAIR COLOR AND LENGTH: naturally and currently dark brown, shoulder length and long bangs that she has to pull away from her eyes quite a lot. sometimes with colorful streaks. EYE COLOR: dark brown. TATTOOS: a tiny star and a moon on the side of her right middle finger. a quote (“all will pass”) on the left side of her left wrist. PIERCINGS: standard lobes, upper lobes and helix. DO THEY WEAR GLASSES OR CONTACTS? no.

DOMINANT HAND: right. DISTINGUISHING FEATURES: hair color (until a few months ago, she used to change it a lot, but lately she’s been settling with the dark brown and keep the colors just as a decorative feature in a few locks); slightly large hips and strong thighs. IF PAINTED, WHAT COLOR ARE THEIR NAILS/TOENAILS TYPICALLY? dark colors (black, purple, maroon) mostly, because she gets annoyed when her nails get dirty when working on her bike. rarely paints her toenails, not seeing need to it since she uses boots and sneakers all the time—she does polish and keep them “ideal”, but with no color to them.

USUAL STYLE OF CLOTHING: black is a favorite when it comes to her dressing code; black leather jacket, black pants (skinny or straight leg, mid or high rise), black boots (with square high heels or not, depends on her mood) or vans, a white tank top or crop top or sweater (depends on the weather). but she also likes jeans and checked button-up shirts a lot, and shorts and (rarely) skirts as well (like her pants, all are either mid or high rise). besides the classic black and white, she may be seen using purple, yellow or maroon colored clothes. FREQUENTLY WORN JEWELRY: rings, long necklaces or chokers, small earrings.

DESCRIBE THEIR VOICE, WHAT KIND OF ACCENT DO THEY HAVE? changing her tone according to the language she is speaking, go go is definitely one of these people who seems to have multiple personalities just basing on her voice. in english, the girl has the standard american accent and is perhaps the language she manages to vary her tone the most: she can sound from smart and sarcastic to kind and soft depending on who she is talking to. now, in korean, being a language way more expressive in tone and expressions (considering that if you say things too straight and matter-of-fact you actually sound extremely rude to their natives), the young woman expresses her emotions accordingly, in the seoul accent: if she is happy, her voice will be slightly high and perhaps too cute to her own taste—but manners, right?—and if she is really trying to be rude, her whole body language will express it as much as her monotone voice. in japanese, if heard by people who are not native or descendant from their culture, they will straight up think she is a badass: the hiroshima accent is well-known in western culture as a “japanese gang accent”, the famous stereotype—though she was involved in one, she rolls her eyes to this a lot, as it’s obvious a lot of those who have that same accent are common citizens there. in general, go go’s voice is slightly deep and strong. SCENT: her favorite bubble gum’s flavor, raspberry, would easily be one of the first scents noticed whenever you talk to her—it seems stuck in her breath and we can all blame this in her need to chew a gum. always in leather jackets and around the city, it may seem that her natural smell is exactly that: the leather, the smoke scent of an urban city. last and not least important, though, almost all of her cosmetics (shampoos, soaps, creams) are citrus—she adores fresh scents and that’s what she likes to smell the most. POSTURE: considering her stature, which she (sometimes) judges short because of tall people making it too obvious, go go is always looking much taller than she actually is. not only because of the heels on her boots, but because of how her back straights up naturally, keeping shoulders back in a confident attitude. she rarely looks away when talking to someone—unless the conversation is extremely comfortable to her—and likes to keep an eye contact, it’s rare to see her being the first one to break it. might seem intimidating and unapproachable, because that’s the image she lets out to others with her body language: arms crossed on her chest, eyebrows furrowing, looking quite judgemental; however, the sooner you act nice to her, she might look more at ease.

( &&. MEDICAL INFORMATION )

BIRTH NAME: ethel go. BLOOD TYPE: b. DATE AND TIME OF BIRTH: june 07, 1992, at 07:11am. PLACE OF BIRTH: the university’s hospital, in avenir. VAGINAL BIRTH OR C-SECTION? vaginal. SEX: cis, female.

DIET: she eats what she feels like eating, when she wants to eat it. she misses korean food sometimes, even the things she didn’t even like all that much while growing up or living in seoul. go go is used to spicy food, so she barely reacts to it whenever she goes out to eat with her friends and something is, probably, “out of normal”. she also doesn’t really like raw or cold food—though she does eat sashimi at any given opportunity. ADDICTIONS: bubble gum (it’s too easy to see her chewing…). painkillers—she used to take a lot of them in the past and it helped her not only with the physical pain, but to make her able to sleep. nowadays the effect isn’t the same on the later, but it’s still what she takes at least once a day when a headache comes (and it always comes). ALLERGIES: penicillin.

DO THEY GET OCCASIONAL CHECKUPS? not really. EVER BROKEN A BONE? HOW? she sprained her wrist a few times, but that was it.

ANY PHYSICAL AILMENTS/ILLNESSES/DISABILITIES: none. ANY MENTAL ILLNESSES/DISABILITIES: may suffer of general anxiety, but it’s not diagnosed. ANY MEDICATION REGULARLY TAKEN: painkillers (usually aas).

WERE THEY EVER LEGALLY DECLARED DEAD, BUT WERE REVIVED? no, but she wished she was declared dead in japan after her “disappearance”.

( &&. PERSONALITY )

POSITIVE TRAITS: altruist, protective, calm, friendly, smart. NEGATIVE TRAITS: detached, unpredictable, competitive, blunt.

LIKES: listening to music, watching tv shows, reading comic books, playing video-games. also likes to go out to drink whenever she has company. DISLIKES: anyone who doubts her skills or threatens her friends, waking up too early, being called ethel (though she allows belle or anyone who’s known her when she was a child to do so, since that’s how they knew her by), losing.

STRENGTHS: independence, intelligence, curiosity, charm. WEAKNESSES: fluctuating self-esteem, too helpful, likes to take risks, can’t deal with pressure.

INSECURITIES: being who she is and let people into her life. although she has several friends, it’s possible that all of them barely know something from her past: the most people would know is that she was born in avenir and lived there as a child, but what has she been doing since then? why did she leave caltech? she feels insecure about opening up about such things, expose her life and make people judge her. while she usually doesn’t mind being judged, she believes that being judged with an actual reason is impossible to ignore. FEARS/PHOBIAS: being found by her stepfather or anyone from the yakuza, probably.

HOBBIES: working on her bike, staying in the labs for longer than she is needed (just to study and test things on her own), street races. DESIRES: to go back to caltech and finish her studies, so she could spend more time with her father; be able to walk around and not feel anxious, as if she’s being followed. REGRETS: not exactly a regret over a thing she did, but she wished her mother never married noboru—life probably would’ve been so much easier if she had accepted to just continue her work as a chemical engineer. she almost regrets running away from japan sometimes, as she feels she put her father in danger by having spent time with him in pasadena. and she obviously regrets having to move away from there to keep the man secure. also regrets never saying goodbye to her mom or talked to her after leaving to pasadena. SECRETS: she has a lot of money saved on her bank account—which she stole from her stepfather before running away from japan, in hopes that money would cover her living and studies in caltech. in the end, she barely used the money as she went living with her father and got a scholarship. so, while she keeps saying she doesn’t have money and she barely manages the few she receives from being a lab tech, go go actually has enough to get a more comfortable place—but she doesn’t want to catch attention from others. the only stuff she bought with a small percentage of that money were her bike and some equipments to work on it.

ARE THEY GENERALLY DOMINANT OR SUBMISSIVE? dominant. EMOTIONAL, LOGICAL OR BOTH: logical, she is rarely guided by emotions. BOOK SMART OR STREET SMART: both, but probably tends more to street smart most of the times. ARE THEY MORE INTROVERT OR EXTROVERT: introvert, but looks extrovert (especially when she drinks too much). OPTIMIST OR PESSIMIST: probably too optimist. SPONTANEOUS OR STRUCTURED: spontaneous. INSTINCTUAL OR LOGICAL: mostly logical, but can be considered both. depends on the situation. EXPENSIVE OR INEXPENSIVE: inexpensive. she does have a few expensive things, like her bike, and her style and taste may seen like it as well, but… truth be told, she rarely wastes money poorly. she still manages to try to save some money by the end of the month, like she was taught by her parents when she was younger. GENEROUS OR STINGY: quite generous. POLITE OR RUDE: very polite. ARE THEY A DAY OR A NIGHT PERSON? night.

( &&. SKILLS )

TALENTS: her mechanical technology knowledge is probably the thing she feels proud the most. she also considers her social skills a talent—she may be quiet, but it’s quite easy to get her talking and laughing, as long as you know how to do it. she also can sleep anywhere at anytime.

ABILITY TO DRIVE A CAR? yes. CAN THEY DRIVE ANY OTHER AUTOMOBILE? WHAT? yes, motorcycle. CAN THEY RIDE A BIKE? yes! she had one in japan and used to ride it every day to school.

DO THEY PLAY ANY SPORTS? WHAT? not really… doesn’t consider herself a sports person, though she likes to watch sometimes. DO THEY HAVE ANY COMBAT TRAINING? WHY? yes, quite a lot. she had to learn it for her own good while living with her mother. in the beginning, she aimed for self-defense, but in the end, go go got really good at boxing. she’s stronger than she might look and has knocked down bigger and taller people while training (and also when she actually had to fight to rescue a friend).

( &&. MISCELLANEOUS )

DO THEY HAVE A FAKE ID? yes, though she doesn’t even use it. ARE THEY A VIRGIN? no.

WHAT CAN YOU FIND IN THEIR POCKETS/WALLET/PURSE? in all honest, she wished she didn’t have to carry a purse—she doesn’t think it fits her, and that’s why she is rarely seen with one. for now, she seems quite satisfied at keep a backpack with a few pockets to it, which makes her capable of separating her things. usually, she carries some make-up (lipsticks, chapsticks, eyeliner, mascara), sunglasses (though she rarely uses it), pads, aspirins, bubble gums, fingerless gloves, phone, laptop and their chargers, and a few tools in case she decides to check something on her bike. PLACES YOUR CHARACTER CAN ALWAYS BE FOUND: avenir university (labs, mainly the mechanical engineer), the park, coffee shops, at eve’s improving her bike, the limits of the city, at the beaumont’s to talk to old maurice about random ideas, at bars with friends, anywhere around the city, truly.

WHAT IS THEIR IDEA OF PERFECT HAPPINESS? to live plenty and be free, without anything holding back. WHAT OR WHO IS THE GREATEST LOVE OF THEIR LIFE? very platonic, but tomagotchi—her poodle and best friend—and her bike. she doesn’t believe she’s ever fell in love (romantically) before. ON WHAT OCCASIONS DO THEY LIE? to keep people safe—which means she means constantly. not about everything, considering she is too honest for that… but about her life, at least, she lies all the time and no one can prove what is true and what’s not.

DO THEY SNORE? no. DO THEY CHEW THEIR PENS/PENCILS? no, but would easily be seen holding one between her lips when she is thinking, focused, and her hands are busy. DO THEY CHEW THEIR NAILS? never even tried, she loves her nails way too much.

CAN THEY CURL THEIR TONGUE? yes. CAN THEY WHISTLE? yes.

DO THEY BELIEVE IN THE SUPERNATURAL AND MAGIC? her beliefs rely on science. if you can explain it with facts, she believes it.

HAVE THEY EVER CHEATED ON ANYONE? no. HAVE THEY EVER BEEN CHEATED ON? no. HAS ANYONE EVER BROKEN THEIR HEART? no. HAVE THEY EVER BROKEN ANYONE’S HEART? not that she’s aware of.

ARE THEY SQUEAMISH? not at all.

HAVE THEY EVER KILLED ANYONE? WHY? HOW? kind of, maybe? she never killed anyone directly, but she does believe she’s killed her mother—she still doesn’t know what happened to the woman, but something inside of her tells her stepfather killed her and, for that, go go blames herself. she doesn’t know the reasons, but lives in the constant feeling that she was the cause for that—her disappearance, the money she stole. HAVE THEY EVER SEEN ANYONE DIE? WHAT HAPPENED? yes. she doesn’t even know how many people she actually saw dying and that’s quite a disturbing thought alone. being involved with the yakuza made her presence and watch several executions, fights and confronts with the japanese police. sometimes she helped her mother to take care of the injured soldiers and, those who she didn’t see dying either in action or for doing something wrong, she watched in a deathbed after those police confronts.

ARE THEY A LIGHTWEIGHT? not that much. she knows her limits and usually does cross the line between ‘ok’ and ‘tipsy’, but only if she trusts she can do so. go go is too conscious to let herself do anything stupid like get drunk accidentally (as in, not controlling herself).

#&&; hey youngblood! doesn’t it feel our time is running out? — ( headcanons. ) #avn.tasks #took me forever but i am quite satisfied with the result #THIS WAS VERY WORTH IT WOW

[autoirishlitdiscourses]

Discourse of Tuesday, 26 September 2017

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Sincerely-Held Bigotry

Originally Published on June 26, 2017 on Eichy Says 

It’s been exactly two years since the U.S. Supreme Court ruled – in the 5-4 decision of Obergefell v. Hodges – that same-sex marriages must be legal for secular purposes in all fifty states.  This had been a long time coming...and this verdict (in favor of same-sex couples who desire legal marital protections) should have been rendered decades ago!

Two years later, there has been no erosion of rights for opposite-sex couples who wish to enter a civil marriage.  Same-sex couples now have a significantly higher level of equality that they were denied for so long...although there are still battles to be fought on behalf of LGBT people in the areas of employment discrimination, adoption, and harassment.

The major “gay issue” of the moment appears to be the battle over whether “religious liberty” is a viable defense if private business owners want to discriminate against LGBT customers.  This was precipitated by the case of Masterpiece Cakeshop, Ltd. v. Colorado Civil Rights Commission, where Colorado-based baker Jack Phillips refused to design a wedding cake for the same-sex nuptials of customers Charles Craig and David Mullins.  It will now go to the U.S. Supreme Court to be dissected and analyzed at the federal level.

In November of 2015, I wrote an editorial entitled “Faking the Cake,” which described my socially-libertarian views on this controversy.  My position on the “Wedding Cake Case” remains the same, today:  I oppose the concept of federal employees being able to deny services to LGBT people in the public sphere (as Kim Davis infamously attempted to, that same year)...but I believe that *PRIVATE* business owners reserve the right to deny service to any citizen – for any reason – at their discretion.  They just have to be prepared for the social and/or economic fallout...in the form of backlash or boycotts from the general public.

My narrative, today, goes more deeply to the core of why “anti-gay” attitudes are still an issue in the 21st Century.  By and large, it’s for the same reason that we still see “whiteness,” “masculinity,” “attractiveness,” personal wealth, able-bodied (or able-minded) dynamism, and interpretations of what makes someone a “good Christian” revered by so many Joe Schmuckatellis throughout the United States.

When I attended the University of Wisconsin - Eau Claire in the early-aughts, I took a couple of courses from Bob Nowlan, a Professor of English, Critical Theory, and Cinema Studies.  Bob is openly-gay and extremely revolutionary in his approach to teaching as well as when developing his curriculum emphases.  In light of the fact that he himself is obviously pro-LGBT, he structures his course content in a way that acknowledges (and introduces students to) opposing viewpoints that can be hostile toward LGBT people (juxtaposed alongside the pro-LGBT perspectives, of course).

I once took an invigorating critical theory course taught by Bob that was entitled “Queer Theory and Culture.”  During one class session, he showed us a video documenting the positions publicly taken by citizens who mobilize against ballot initiatives for LGBT equality (or, as it often happened to be the case, in favor of ballot initiatives that would enshrine secular discrimination against LGBT Americans into state constitutions).

In one segment of that video, I vividly remember a middle-aged Boston-area woman being interviewed (in her church, of course) about her opposition to the legal recognition of same-sex marriage.  She insisted, casually and evenhandedly, that her opposition didn’t come from a place of hatred or spite...they were simply, in her words, “sincerely-held” religious beliefs.

During the group discussion that Bob led, afterward, I expressed my view that people such as this Boston woman are the real problem – as opposed to the “God Hates Fags” picketers who pop up at funerals or Pride Parades.  It’s very easy for any of us to see the hatred oozing from the pores of the Westboro Baptist Church’s congregation.  But when someone peddles their orientationism against LGBT people in such a cavalier, articulate, non-aggressive manner – as this Boston woman did – it normalizes and dignifies the “othering” of Americans who aren’t heterosexual.  It makes it seem as though heterosexism or homophobia “aren’t quite as bad” when coming from someone who appears halfway-sane.

The semantic choice of someone’s bigoted worldview as being “sincerely-held” is deceptive.  In my September 2016 op-ed entitled “Purple Pain: A Fairy Tale of ‘False Moderates’,” I point to former U.S. Senator (and Al Gore’s 2000 vice-presidential running mate) Joe Lieberman as a classic example of someone who spouted the mantra that disapproval of homosexuality isn’t coming from a place of hatred or discrimination...but rather, is based on “sincerely-held morally-based views.”

And look no further than the ambivalence of my former sociology instructor, Leonard, when we tackled homosexuality during our classroom discussions.

At the root of it is the misperception that homosexuality and bisexuality are all about gluttony, superficiality, and deviance.  However, this flavor of cultural orientationism doesn’t exactly gel with secular parity in the legal sense.

First, there’s the misnomer that “If everybody on the planet was gay, humanity would become extinct as a species.”  What they fail to acknowledge is that, if everybody on the planet was exclusively heterosexual, there would be even more global overpopulation than there already is.

And, if a lack of procreation is the basis for denying people legal equality, then, by that same reasoning, infertile people shouldn’t be allowed to remain married.  Or, couples who choose not to raise children shouldn’t be allowed to remain married.

Then there are the classic Bible verses that people trot out, which appear to condemn homosexuality: namely Romans 1:26-27 and Leviticus 18:22.

What biblical-loyalists fail to acknowledge here is that the meaning of Scripture was much different back then compared to nowadays.  We disregard biblical text that makes reference to marital obedience, slavery, divorce, and eating shrimp...yet, we, for some reason, are still willing to cling to the passages that cite homosexuality as a sin.

This, of course, assumes that the Bible was 100% unaltered between the present and when Scripture was first written.  And, even if the Bible remained 100% intact over centuries, you still have to have faith to embrace the implication that all of the Bible’s multiple authors were writing strictly based on divine intervention...rather than interweaving their own deception, ignorance, or schizophrenia into biblical text.

If you believe that, then you are CHOOSING to believe that.  Which means...you are CHOOSING to be bigoted.  Which means...on some level, your embrace of this bigotry is either conscious or subconscious.  Which means...you will get called out on it.  #SorryNotSorry

There is also the red herring of bringing pedophilia, necrophilia, and bestiality into the equation.  “Oh, if we accept homosexuality, should we then proceed to accept pedophilia, necrophilia, and bestiality?”

The big difference: homosexual relationships can (and should) involve consent.  If you sexually prey upon a child, the child can’t legally consent.  If you try to have sex with a corpse, that dead person cannot consent.  If you wish to have sex with an animal, the non-human creature cannot legally consent.

Additionally, moral invokers of the “slippery slope” fallacy will bring up the scenario of the American public hypothetically condoning incest.  But a romantic/sexual relationship between two people of the same-sex related by blood is NOT incest.  Because they’re, you know, NOT RELATED BY BLOOD.

As far as polygamy and polyandry (multiple-spouse relationships)...I wouldn’t personally desire that for myself.  But if several parties want to legally enter into a group marriage – and all of those parties are in consent – I wouldn’t have any problem with that.

Finally, even if there’s One Supreme Deity who has indeed determined that homosexuality is a sin, unconditionally – what gives us the right to use the law to legislate that morality?  If homosexuality is so morally-abominable, wouldn’t He just punish all of us queers upon our deaths, anyway?

There are many things that could be construed as “sins,” which we routinely overlook (or, at least, we don’t retool the law to hold people hostage).

Should all secular opposite-sex marriages (if there is no house-of-worship involved) be dissolved, and then be replaced with state-sanctioned covenant marriages?

Should every married couple have to gain the permission of a clergyperson before legally getting a divorce?

Should any case of proven infidelity committed by a married person also come with automatic punitive penalties under the law?

Should heterosexuals who enter non-romantic marriages-of-convenience be sentenced to prison time for violating “the intent of God”...???

In most cases, what I believe it really comes down to is that the folks who rail against homosexuality, deep down, view it as “icky.”  So they will try to rape and maul the law itself as a way of enforcing their “sincerely-held beliefs” upon everybody else.

Well, I find it “icky” when people litter inside of grocery stores.  That doesn’t mean I’m going to call for all grocers to install 1984-style cameras and draconian behavioral guidelines in their supermarkets.

But, as William Shakespeare wrote, “The lady doth protest too much, methinks.”

Translation: conservative activists who crusade against secular recognition for same-sex couples want the “upper hand” in persuading others to similarly subscribe to the bigoted beliefs in which they themselves are choosing to believe.  They will use buzz phrases like “lifestyle choice” or “special rights” to enact this agenda.

Why else would we see states such as Mississippi tout bigoted legislation? – such as House Bill 1523 (the Protecting Freedom of Conscience from Government Discrimination Act), that codifies discrimination by purposely using the phrase “sincerely-held religious belief” to justify equal protection of LGBT citizens.

Some of the language from the actual bill:

“...sincerely held religious beliefs or moral convictions...”

“...marriage is or should be recognized as the union of one man and one woman...”

“...sexual relations are properly reserved to such a marriage...”

“...male (man) or female (woman) refer to an individual’s immutable biological sex as objectively determined by anatomy and genetics at time of birth...”

This is why critics accuse conservatives and/or Republicans (or even some conservative Democrats) of trying to intrude into people’s bedrooms.

And, this is why current Vice-President Mike Pence will not win – assuming that Trump must step down, and Pence runs for the presidency in 2020.  We never asked for Mike Pence (we never even asked for Trump, and we certainly didn’t ask for Trump to pick Pence as a running mate)...and, in the process, Pence would take down the entire conservative movement along with himself.

Job discrimination, policing bathrooms, Pride Flag shaming, heteronormativity, and “religious liberty” laws (or corresponding attitudes).  Bring it on, bigots!  We survived the Holocaust, McCarthyism, the Stonewall Riots, the AIDS panic, and attempts to enact the Federal Marriage Amendment.

This time around, social media and generational awakenings – as well as common sense – are on our side.

Are things better now – for gay, lesbian, bisexual, and transgender people – than they were five years ago?  Absolutely – the secular legalization of same-sex marriage has made all the difference.  We’re not going back.  Just think how good things could be five years FROM NOW.

So no, I don’t believe the government should force private businesses to provide services to same-sex couples or for gay-friendly content.  Just like I don’t believe the government should force churches or other religious establishments to recognize same-sex marriages.

On the other hand, you may whine that we’re trying to force you how to think.  That’s not quite true – we’re asking you to reevaluate how you think, insofar as one very specific topic (homosexuality).

Condemning someone else based on their sexual orientation per se is no different than if you were to condemn someone solely based on their genitalia, their genetic ethnicity, their gender identity, their peacefully-practiced religion, their physiological or neurological disability, the geographic region in which they reside, or the income bracket that they happened to be born into.

And that’s my “sincerely-held common sense” talking!