#it Does Not make sense and the characters overreact to every little thing

[glitch-h]

Me watching two characters scream at each other over a vacuum: waoew... theyre in love...

#secret garden kdrama #i couldnt tell u why i am so obsessed with this drama like #it Does Not make sense and the characters overreact to every little thing #theres a million dramas i could watch #but no it has to be THAT one for the millionth time

[wayfayrr]

So this is very much a self indulgent mini-fic, venting about some stuff that I've been dealing with recently <3 I'm working on requests and some other fics but I got told to post this to get it off of my chest anyway @cloudninetonine @angry-trashcan thanks for the confidence boost to be able to post this

“Hey, you’ve been sitting over here for a while, you feeling alright?”

“Just been thinking… I was part of some drama before I was uh brought here. It’s just, it’s just messed with me a bit I guess. I’ll be fine when we need to start moving again, don’t worry wars.”

After a brief second of fabric shuffling, he sits down and leans on me. It’s an oddly comforting feeling, different too like he’s bothered by something? What could’ve set him off so badly?

“Would you mind if I asked you about it? It’s clearly bothering you so, you should get it off of your chest and well, I’d just like to help you through this.”

“If you really want to know, it’s a little complicated though and while I can make a lot of it make sense to you I’ll have to leave a couple of things out.”

“Sounds like you’re willing to get it off of your chest though, so would you care to explain it to me honeybee?”

He’s being more persistent than usual too, have I really been looking so badly bothered by my thoughts? The worry does feel nice however, it feels more like talking to an old friend than anything which is wonderful seeing as I’ve not been able to reach them recently. I’ve just been stuck rereading old messages in a new context while my phone endlessly buffers to reach impossibly far servers.

“It’s… I’d been having issues with this person for a while… they used me more than anything, kept asking me for advice and making everything about them and brushed anything I or my other friends were trying to say off and sent things they really shouldn’t to people unwarrented… and then everything else.”

“Everything else? You don’t have to cut yourself off, with how you’ve been acting the rest feels like it’ll be worse anyway.”

“They just - someone connected some dots and pointed them out to me and I just… I’ve been going back over what they said and - and - and it made me think. They told me they associated my voice with a character they always got weird over, they kept fawning over my accent and how they’ve only ever heard it in fiction before, they gave me weird compliments when I was talking about things I did as a kid and that’s not even getting me started on how they treated my friends. I just… I feel so disgusted, seeing it in this light. Every bit of my skin just itches with disgust towards myself. Sorry I didn’t mean to share so much at once - I’m just tired. They didn’t even like me, it was like they only wanted me for where I’m from.”

The way he stilled sent a shiver down me, did I say to much? He might have not meant it when he said I could share… I mean theres no way he could’ve known… or does he think I’m simply overreacting? I’m probably just overreacting anyway.

My heart started beating again when he softened and pulled me to rest on him.

“I’m so sorry you had to go through that all. They’re the one who is disgusting, not you, never you. I’ll speak to time, you should just rest for the rest of the day. I can lend you my scarf and you can just have a nap or I could ask wild to make your favourite food and you can just rest.”

I didn’t get a say before he’s already draped it over my shoulders; he’s leading me back over to the others and setting me down next to sky as he goes to speak with time. 

“Hmm? Did something happen, are you feeling alright dove?”

“Ah well, wars is going to ask time if we can stop for the day because I’m just dealing with some memories. I hope it won’t bother the others.”

“I doubt it, everyone’s been tense and tired recently. I know I have, I’ve been about dying for a rest. Would you care to join me too?”

Leaning back against him is all the response he needs as my eyes flutter closed, he’s so warm and comfortable. There are few people I’d prefer to rest next to. 

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“So then old man, I think that’s a good enough reason to settle for the day, don’t you?”

I know he’ll agree, asking him like this is simply a formality. After all, how could we continue when a member of the group is in such a state? On the verge of tears just from thinking about someone for a little bit too long. 

“You’ve never asked this for anyone else, but fine.” “Thank you Time, I’ll pay you back for this.”

“And Wars?”

“Hmm?”

“Go take your anger out on something, it’s not a good energy in the camp. Not if they’re so fragile right now. There’s apparently a standard bokoblin camp just a little south.”

He’s seen right through me then, but now I don’t need an alibi for when I come back.

#venting #vent fic #linked universe x reader #yandere linked universe x reader #yandere linked universe #link x reader #moss✦writes

[trulytiredhermit]

Are requests open?

If so may I ask for the chain with isekaid bullied reader?

Reader never had a good relationship with teacher for example and recently reader gets bullied for everything she does by 3 stupid boys and gets insecure

Thank you so much 👀😭

Take your time,🙏🏻

*Well, I've only really been accepting asks.

But honestly when I think about it some of these asks have been ranging on requests so sure, I'll do this request for you.

For future reference though since I do both yandere and normal Chain I think it would best to specify which version people want. Also, if I do take more requests it would have to be narrowed down to only 2 characters because otherwise it puts a lot of work on me.

And this in just for everyone in general to see. But I hope you'll enjoy this request then! I tried doing a group scenario, but I apologize that some characters weren't as prominent as others.

Why was Time staring at you?

Did you do something wrong again?

You did didn't you...

Can't ever do anything right, always just a screw up.... you know you shouldn't have lashed out at Legend when he was making his usual stupid and snide comments, but you just couldn't handle it when he started sounding like them.

Those three boys that had downright tormented you back home in your own world, always with their degrading and horrible comments about things you did or how you were always at fault for every little thing that happened. The shoves and pushes from them that would lead to bruises on your arms and legs, the jabs from their elbows to your stomach or ribs that would leave behind a stinging ache as you held back your tears on your way to your next class.

And you knew Legend wasn't like them. Underneath that tough and harsh exterior he was just as soft and kind as the other members you traveled with, he just had his moments from time to time.

But he just made that comment about how you were slowing the chain down, gave a little shove to your shoulder as he brushed past you to walk ahead of you, and you lost it.

The group had settled down for the night now and neither you nor Legend had spoken to one another. You could tell there was a bit of tension within the group due to your backlash at the red-vested hero and you felt horrible enough about it. Which was why you had chosen to set yourself up further away from the Chain and further away from the glowing light of the campfire.

Wait, was Time coming over to you?

Oh god he was, wasn't he... he was going to lecture you now about your clear overreaction, scold you about keeping your emotions in check just like your old teacher always had when you blew up at those boys the one time after you'd finally had enough of their constant poking, pushing, shoving, and-

"(Name), is everything all right with you? You seem... troubled."

Time's voice broke you from your spiraling thoughts, but you almost wished he hadn't.

You didn't want to go through everything again, have it all fall apart, your little make-believe friendship you had with the rest of the Chain. You just wanted to keep believing in it, keep fooling yourself that they did like you and wanted to be around you instead of letting you tag along due to a sense of obligation to help you find your way home.

"I'm... I'm fine Time... just woke up wrong or something I guess..."

You mumbled, hugging your knees to your chest as you rested you chin on your crossed arms.

Judging from the furrowed brows and mouth forming into a hard line, Time hadn't bought your little lie and he wouldn't accept anything but the truth.

You sighed, looking down you played with the end sleeve of your undershirt, thumbing the stitching.

"Just... remembered something bad when Legend made that comment and bumped into me okay... but I'm fine... I'm sorry I overreacted like that, it won't happen again okay you don't have to... to do the whole 'I'm disappointed in you, you should have done better' spiel."

As if you haven’t already heard it a thousand times before.

You didn't see it, but Time's stern look morphed into a softer, more concerned one as he looked down at your huddled form. You clearly weren't okay, and he would never ever tell you he was disappointed in you for simply losing your cool after having dealt with one too many comments from Legend.

You flinched when you felt a weight be put on your head, you hadn't meant to honestly, but you just got scared when Time suddenly sat down beside you and rested his hand atop your head. Which was not lost on the older hero.

Almost as quickly it had been placed upon your head, his hand was taken away, an apologetic look crossing his face and a 'sorry' forming on his tongue.

"Who's giving a spiel?"

You and Time paused, looking for to spot Wind, a curious yet worried marring his young features. Becoming ever the nosy teen, Wind rarely if ever gave most of your group their privacy when it was most needed.

"It's nothing Wind I just-"

"Didn't seem like nothing when you lost it with me."

Legend cut your words off sounding as tense as he had earlier when you had snapped at him, but a warning look from Time made him sigh and take on a more gentler, somehow softer look that you never knew the vet to be capable of.

"Was there a reason for it? I know you wouldn't do something like that without a solid reason (Name)."

"Four is right, even I can get fed up with Legend's quips from time to time, especially when they hit far too close to home for comfort."

Warriors spoke up, agreeing with what the designated smithy of the group had brought up.

By now you just wanted to find a hole to curl up in and forget about everything. You hated when all eyes were on you, expecting something from you, looking at you to scrutinize you up and figure out all your thoughts.

"It's alright (Name), if that was the reason why. I'm sure many of us have those moments where we lose a little control." Wild's voice cut through the stillness of the passing night, it seemed like all of them were invested in you now.

Why couldn't they just leave well enough alone! You've handled yourself well enough in this stupid new world, or worlds, whatever you didn't care to use the proper terminology right now.

It's not like they really cared anyways, sure they were supposed heroes of their time, having defeated many an enemy and even grand evil lords who wished to conquer the world. But you were just some silly little person that ended up accidentally going through a weird portal and ending up becoming their new problem while they were already going through things!

"(Name)? Are you alright? You haven't spoken?"

Couldn't Hyrule see you weren't alright! And you didn't want to speak! Even if they did care this wasn't their problem to deal with, you have handled yourself well enough on your own.

But if they didn't...

If they didn't care then you didn't think you could take another scenario, more harsh mocking words and hard shoves, more constant denials and put downs again. You just couldn't.

You jumped as you felt a hand touch your shoulder, looking up wildly to spot Sky's face near yours. His brows cinched up in worry as his eyes looked down into your own, as if searching through them into your very soul and seeing something akin within his own.

"What's wrong?"

Those two simple words were all it took and you just broke.

"I can't deal with another thing like that happening again, okay! I-I... I can't deal with another them, with you guys just... I can't okay, I can't! I had to deal with that in one world why should I have to deal with it in this one!"

Instantly the group wished more than anything to clamber around you and offer sweet words of comfort and reassurance, but they didn't wish to crowd or spook you.

But this didn't stop the rancher from drawing in near to place a comforting hand on you back, nor did it stop Sky from kneeling down in front of you, moving his hand down to hold your own in his.

"Then tell us what's wrong, so that we won't accidentally do it again.... tell us what happened?"

And tell them you did.

You told them of what went on in your old world, of the constant harassment and bullying; of the teachers who looked away, turned a blind eye to the three boys who constantly made your life feel like a never-ending hell you didn't deserve. All the while the groups faces hardened, some hiding their emotions more than others behind a stony mask.

A sniffle tore up from your throat as you pried your hand away from Sky's hold, raising it to wipe away at the tears that lined your lash line. A soft, yet filled with bitter sadness, giggle sounded from you making the group look even more concerned than before.

"And you know why those people, the administrators and what not, turned away and told me that boys were just going to be boys? Even when I brought the topic up to them firsthand?"

The group hung off your every word, and Warriors, along with Sky, looked as if they already knew the answer to your questions. Yet even with knowing, it didn't make hearing your answer any easier.

"Because they were too important to the stupid school, too much of a bigshot to take down over something simple as bullying some mediocre student-"

"You are no such thing, and I would ask you to refrain from every speaking such a phrase again."

Time's hard voice, harsh but not with an anger directed towards you, came out sharp, stopping your words in your tracks as they died on your lips.

"I can tell from how you acted when we first found you, how you insisted you still needed to study and prep just in case this was all a dream or in case you suddenly returned back to your old world, that you are anything but a mediocre student. Those boys, those teachers you spoke of, are nothing but fools who could not even be considered as men."

God, if looks could kill you'd think Time would already be gunning to hop through a portal to your world and teach those who had wronged you a well-needed lesson. Any of the group looked as if they would do so, even Legend, the ever sarcastic and secretive member of the group, looked more upset about what you had spoken of.

"They're less than that. What you went through, what you dealt with (Name). That wasn't bullying, from your words that was just pure torture. To go through what is to be a safe haven for young minds to learn and grow only to be harassed a-and made to believe that you were less than them? To be ignored or told that it was simply boys being boys that's just...."

Sky trailed off, looking for the proper word to use but not finding it as he wracked his mind.

"It's just torture."

"And it is, torture I mean." Warriors confirmation was curt, a stony look upon his face as he got up to sit down at a closer spot next to the three that had situated themselves around your form.

"It is manipulation not only to make you view yourself as less, but to make you believe that what they were doing to you wasn't bad in the slightest. It is disgusting that such tactics should be used upon you by those who you would look to for guidance. But you are not alone now (Name), we would never do such a thing to you, nor would we allow for it to happen while you are here."

There was a comfortable silence that filled the air after Warriors mini speech, sometimes broken by smiles and nods from members of the group along with a few spoken confirmations.

That silence of course was broken by the young teen of the group, the little sailor that had a protective and caring gleam in his eyes.

"Yeah! And if they ever bother you again then I'll shove 'em into a cannon and fire them off into the ocean!"

A startled laugh erupted from your throat as you giggled, looking at Wind with a stunned gaze. The rest of the chain was also looking at their younger counterpart with ranging emotions, most being shocked and concerend.

"What? Tetra did it to me and I made it out fine, I even smacked into this wall of a monster hideout I was trying to sneak into."

"You snuck into a hideout that you smashed into?! How did they not discover you immediately?! Wouldn't you hitting the side of their building make a loud noise?"

Almost anyone could tell that you were now fully invested in the sailor's story now, laughing with a surprised smile on your face as you listened to him recount his tale of being shot out of a cannon.

Meanwhile, the older members of the chain shot each other looks, nodding determinedly at each other as they all came to a unanimous agreement.

Even Wind, as he kept you busy whilst talking about more happier topics that kept you smiling and laughing, shared a glance with the others. He may have been younger, just reaching his preteen years, but he was not stupid, and he hadn't brought up the cannon story just to be silly.

No matter what they would not let someone hurt you as you had been before. They would be the ones to take care of you now, to succeeded where many had failed without even trying.

If that included not letting you go home, then so be it.

#trulytiredhermit #linked universe #linked universe x reader #can be seen as yandere I suppose but can very easily be seen as normal #I'M BACK TO ANSWERING ASKS NOW YAY #Hope y'all enjoyed this one and I apologize if some feel ooc #if they do let me know how!

[isaactheterrible]

TF2 Mercs Love Confession Reaction (Rejection)

(Disclaimer: GN reader, the characters are purely based on my own headcanons and interpretations of their personalities + She/Her Soldier)

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1.Sniper

-Sniper got really quiet after you confessed to him, he refused to make any expression that would betray the inner workings of his mind

-It took a long moment for him to look you in the eye again and when he did it was a simple "Mate..." Before he stared back at the floor

-As part of him feels bad for hurting you but he's mature enough to know it's no one's fault really, he is a bit worried things between you will change now

-If you insist on some kind of explanation or act entitled he'll honestly never really think of you the same, your image will be forever tainted in his mind

-If you accept his answer he won't hold it against you or act any different around you, he tries to be understanding and not judge you in any way. You're still the same friend whose company he enjoys after all, just not in a romantic sense

2.Scout

-Scout thought you were joking at first, surely this was just some jest between friends but seeing your expression well...

-You reminded him of himself, every time he spoke to Miss Pauling and honestly it kinda made him cringe internally a bit

-You were still his friend of course and he cared about you just not like... That...

-He still tried to play it off as a joke, out of awkwardness mostly, surely if he pretended like he thought this was only a joke and laughed it off you'd get the hint and drop the topic

-He really doesn't want to have to reject you outright so he'd appreciate it if you got the hint

-If his forced to he'll probably be kinda angry and yell at you and maybe distance himself for a while but things would go back to normal pretty quickly

3.Soldier

-Soldier would be very confused at first, especially if you're not direct about it. She's not the sharpest tool in the shed so you'll need to just come out and say it

-After your confession Soldier is uncharacteristically quiet for a few seconds, looking into the distance

-She simply reminds you of the rules against 'fraternization' but doesn't otherwise react

-She won't treat you any differently tho, or even view your relationship in a different light. She acts like you simply asked to use the bathroom or something. Something minor and easily forgotten

-If you're insistent with the issue she will hit you tho, in the same way she hits all her coworkers when they misbehave, nothing special

4.Pyro

-After you confess your feelings for Pyro they stare at you for a really long moment and then simply shrug their head and go back to what they were doing

-Pyro doesn't appreciate being seen in a romantic light so even if you were respectful in your confession they might still be distant for a while, perhaps even talk the issue out with Engineer

-After realizing that perhaps they've been overreacting a bit in their approach they try to continue their platonic relationship with you

-Still there are times when their trust issues are acting up and they might approach you with more caution than the rest of their teammates

5.Heavy

-Heavy feels instantly like shit when you confess, he honestly doesn't really know how to handle the situation and his a little frustrated that now you've complicated things between you

-He simply doesn't respond and sits in his awkwardness continuing to do what he was previously doing like you never said anything

-He does keep his distance from you for a while but Medic talked some sense into him finally and Heavy decided to talk to you

-He sits you down one on one and explains to you his feelings about the situation apologizing for how he handled it but rejecting you nonetheless

-The two of you get close again after that unless you decide to be an entitled dickhead in which cause he simply avoids you like the plague and keeps avoiding you like the plague no matter what anyone says

6.Demoman

-Demoman takes a few moments to think about what you said before he turns to smile at you goofily "Sorry lad/lass... I don't really feel the same way as ye."

-He doesn't press the issue any further, choosing to sit in silence for a few minutes nursing his drink before changing the conversation to something else

-Might take it upon himself to be your wingman which was a horrible idea on his part but he did really have the purest Intentions with it

-He couldn't lie really he did get a bit of an ego boost from the whole experience but be just doesn't see you that way your his friend not his lover

7.Spy

-You and Spy had been flirting for a while now but he wasn't all that serious about it, simply something he did to feel sexy and have some banter, he never really thought to question if you were tho which is why against all odds your confession actually caught him off guard

-Spy REALLY wanted to be the one to let you down softly but he's just too damn snarky

-He treated your whole ass confession as some random piece of banter replying sarcastically and nitpicking the smallest details tearing the whole thing apart, it was brutal

-He felt pretty horrible about it too but he was caught off-guard and just responded instinctively, he sometimes can't sleep at night remembering your face when he fumbled through his words trying to be normal and failing horribly

8.Engineer

-Engineer is probably the most mature about this out of all the mercs, rejecting you firmly but gently, not because he's generally all that mature but you're his friend and he wants to do right by you

-He dislikes disappointing or hurting you but he'd feel uncomfortable if you treated him like a shoulder to cry on right afterwards

-He might be a bit distant for a while but not out of awkwardness, instead he simply wants to give you some space and time to process your emotions

-Doesn't hold it against you tho, he understands that sometimes people develop feelings and they just aren't reciprocated although he does get a small ego boost from the experience

9.Medic

-Medic feels pretty awkward about your love confession and tries to playfully laugh it off although he's not as oblivious as Scout so he knows you're being genuine, simply trying to spare you the embarrassment

-If you keep insisting you're being sincere he'll give up on saving the rest of your dignity and simply reject you outright

-He'd try to cheer you up by mentioning other nice things that don't involve romance "Why would you go on a dinner date with me when you could study the anatomy of a human cadaver with your best friend instead?"

-The best friend being himself, he didn't wanna friend-zone you like that he really didn't, but you brought this to yourself really

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Lol Imagine if you got rejected by all of them one right after the other🤣

Link for part 1:

Link for the same prompt with side characters:

#medic #pyro #scout #soldier #team fortress 2 #team fortress comics #team fortress demoman #team fortress engineer #team fortress headcanons #team fortress medic #tf2 soldier #tf2 demoman #tf2 sniper #tf2 #tf2 engineer #tf2 spy #tf2 scout #tf2 medic #tf2 pyro #team fortress heavy #team fortress spy #team fortress two #team fortress soldier #team fortress scout #team fortress sniper #tf2 heavy #team fortress classic #tf2 headcanons #tf2 whole team #tf2 jane doe

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Trimax Thoughts Vol. 1 Pt. 1

I'm late to this because I couldn't think of what to say other than my little joke posts. This is just more sporadic commentary as a result because I'm saving some of my thoughts for when I have more information later on.

One of my favourite panels so far fr. Please Mr. Nightow what dumb shenanigans did these two get into on the regular. Please tell me. Eriks and Lina are my new favourite comedy duo. (You know. Before bad things happen. As per usual.)

Ok so some thoughts on Vash awkwardly insisting that Lina overreacted - she didn't. Self-defense is valid and Lina was well-within her rights to kick that creep in the face, but Vash is now even more passive than he was in his attempts to mitigate violence and tragedy - he's not just throwing away his own pride and dignity, he's fumbling through expecting others to do the same, which he didn't used to do btw - which, unfortunately, makes sense. He's hidden himself away and is terrified of himself - he wants so badly to avoid being the cause of or seeing any more pain inflicted on people. But here's the thing - extreme passivity can also be harmful. There are some things you should get angry at and should respond defensively to. It reminds me a little of that part in Little Arcadia where Meryl is upset with herself for not responding with the same righteous anger towards Badwick pointing a gun at his parents the way Milly did. Unaffectedness can become uncaringness if one walls oneself off from becoming defensive of that which is important to them (tbh I think Meryl was being too harsh on herself in that scene - but it's important to note that she writes the letter to her parents after, and responds more openly and honestly in future chapters). Meryl also realizes in that arc that she can choose a path for herself that doesn't necessarily have to be in perfect keeping with her parents' - they will live through her regardless - but Vash here doubles down on his original philosophy and takes it to extremes instead. I'm finding it really intriguing that Meryl appears to be learning similar lessons to the ones Vash should be, but much earlier than he does (if he will, which I hope he will). I think that might be because they have similar ideals at their cores.

Also, lol at Wolfwood seeing the footprint she left on the guy's face and just being like "nice, kid".

I hate this. I hate this. Can he quit having his reputation be thrown back in his face for five minutes? How much must it hurt him that despite him only ever wanting to help, the image most everyone has of him is this caricature of a villain who is violent and cruel and belittling and demeaning, or else, the whispers of some calamitous being on a power scale incomprehensible to humanity, like some sort of bogeyman? And then to have him reveal all his scars in such an incredibly humiliating way - and to have that be the moment we, as the readers, have definite proof that this man is, in fact, Vash. This impostor went the extra mile to look exactly like the "humanoid typhoon" but it's those scars that are the genuine reveal of Vash's true character. He's just a guy. Yes, he's capable of being dangerous, yes, he's pretty much a living weapon of mass destruction, but he is also kind and self-sacrificing to a fault and chooses this kindness every day. He is literally just a guy. I need people to be fucking nice to him. Leave him alone.

Wolfwood already being defensive of Vash counter: 1

Grandma Sheryl really said "Get my gun." Whhfsdjhfvh

I'm realizing that when Wolfwood unclasps Punisher here, this is... the first time Vash has actually seen that it is. A giant gun. This is the first time the reader would have seen this. Hjhnsdjhvn???

The hair cutting scene hurts me so bad man. I've seen a couple people break down that scene so I won't do that here but hnnng. I love that Lina so clearly cares about him. That she wanted to keep him safe too. And even though she doesn't feel like she could do enough it meant the world to him. Augh. Aughhhh.

Meryl's birthday is in February!!! This is important information.

Ah yes, Trimax Chapter 3, or, as I like to call it, "Area Insurance Girls Destroy Workplace Asshole's Entire Career by Hitting Him With Proof that He Is a Hitman Committing Murder and Fraud, Then Hitting Him in the Back with a Projectile from a Stun Gun". (Meryl and Milly I love you and I love your teamwork. Girls <3. Again, someone broke down the whole part with Meryl here so I won't get into it.)

Wolfwood already being defensive of Vash counter: 2

Wolfwood already being defensive of Vash counter: 3 (also holy shit dude???)

(For clarity, this counter I'm keeping is because it makes me laugh - I have a sneaking suspicion I know why he's there from Tristamp - which makes the fact that he reacts like this after like. What? A few days of knowing him? - really, really funny to me. Also I'm writing up a little something I noticed about Wolfwood, and this is a bit relevant, so there's that too. But mostly it's just funny.)

Geez, Knives looks demonic in the flashbacks. It's very intriguing how he's mostly faceless. I would imagine it's some complex mix of not recognizing his brother after what he's done, not recognizing him as his brother after what he's done, and not wanting to see his twin's face (which looks like his face) staring back at him as some kind of monster. I also have to wonder if Vash is a little scared of Knives, especially after July and Fifth Moon. Also, the way Knives tries to help Vash up because they're "brothers", hence, the same, but when Vash angrily accuses Knives of not being human, Knives kicks him back down while shouting about that he wouldn't want to be like them ever. Really I think this kind of highlights the dynamic in a nutshell. Vash fears harming others more than he does about his loneliness. Knives fears being all alone, I think, and is willing to commit harmful acts to assure he won't be - Vash often winds up hurt by this. Knives doesn't. It also emphasizes how Knives' offer of sticking together is contingent on Vash being agreeable, which is. Yikes bud.

Hm. Wolfwood starts calling him "Needle-Noggin" here. He was calling him Vash before. Interesting.

Brad stfu challenge. Don't be mean to him I'll be sad :(

What is wrong with him. See, Vash is exaggerating his weirdness for the bit and also to hide intense internal turmoil. Wolfwood is clearly trying to get a better vantage to see what's happening here but, unfortunately, I also think he is just like that.

I find it very interesting that Wolfwood finds it so important to finish that particular conversation with Vash, that he even went to go find him earlier to do so. It seems he was under the impression that Vash's stance is one of passivity, but that's not true at all - Vash's whole thing is that he is actually incredibly, notoriously bad at "doing nothing". Isn't it Wolfwood who was the one who wanted to leave here? But he has a point that sometimes you have to make difficult choices. Hm...

Vash just went full chaos entity for this one, huh?

"Wow, it's great that the bullets didn't pierce through and that the equipment works!" he says as he coughs up blood from the force of being hit. :/

This is a very tricky situation, morally speaking, at the end. Vash actually seems to understand the father's reaction here. But if the man shoots his daughter's murderer then it's not just the murderer who loses his "blank ticket" - so does the father. The way the screams of the murderer look like they're encroaching and pressing in on Vash... agh. And then when he goes for the gun, the father thinks Vash is judging him but I really don't think that's it at all. I don't think Vash faults the father for his anger - he understands the cruel death of a family member and the anger that comes with it. He lets the father beat him up instead and release aggression that way, which is a very... Vash way of dealing with it. It worked this time but... that's only because the father turned out to be unable to kill him after all. Vash didn't seem like he really knew what to do here, or even what the right thing to do was. He reacted on instinct. I feel this was less bravery and self-sacrificial pacifism than it was an incredibly vulnerable moment and an apology, in a way. He can't allow himself to let people die when there's something he can do, or to have them throw their futures away. But he is also sorry in a way, not for the act of intervening, but because he knows the father is hurting badly. Idk.

This is interesting, because I think it's right, but not completely. It's less that they are all his family, and more that he has taken up what he kind of sees as the family mantle (Rem's) of saving all the people she saved during the Fall, which is, unfortunately, everyone. Poor Vash, honestly. It's hardly sustainable, and even if it was, it assures that he will always be wrapped up in torment.

I just know Vash intentionally calls Wolfwood out in a really annoying sing-songy voice every time he does something nice just to embarrass him. Hjhdfnvjh

Anyways, that's all for that; until the next volume -

WHAT THE FUCK?

#trigun #trimax #trigunbookclub #storyrambles #ahhh people have so many cool observations i haven't even been able to fully read through all of them! i'm having a lot of fun :)

[theknittingshadow]

A Shadow’s Scattered Thoughts on “Journey to the West”

Alright, people. Blame @semisolidmind for getting me into Lego Monkie Kid. Finally decided to check out the original “Journey to the West. Strap yourselves in because there will be NO organization or cohesion to this whatsoever!

I’m at Chapter 20 right now and so far…

-Wukong’s a little pretentious and entitled but, considering none of the monkeys of Huaguoshan questioned the existence of a fully-furnished palace in Water Curtain Cave, I’m not surprised.

-Shifu Subhodi definitely WAS harsh striking Wukong on the head, as I had heard about before. However, IT WAS ALL A SECRET CODE FOR SECRET IMMORTALITY LESSONS! Hallelujah, he’s not as big a jerk as I feared. Still, there are better ways to get your point across, sir.

-At first, it seemed like the book went on long tangents of unrelated stories. I began to think this was less a book with one overarching storyline and more a collection of stories. Then, I finally got to when Tang is chosen to go on the journey. I realized it was all BACKSTORY.

-The Celestial Realm is simultaneously more and less merciful than I thought. On one hand, they kept giving Wukong chance after chance when he’d get upset and beat someone up or something. On the other hand, they beat and banished Wujing over BREAKING A CUP.

-I was super confused on Lego Monkie Kid’s characterization of Ao Lie when the book first implied he set his father’s palace on fire on purpose. Continuing, it seems more like he lit the place on ACCIDENT. WHICH MAKES HIS WHOLE “AVOIDING CARELESS ACTIONS” and “MY POWES HAVE ONLY EVER GOTTEN ME IN TROUBLE” SPIEL MAKE TOTAL SENSE!!!!!!

-There is so much poetry in here, guys. So So So Much.

-Speaking of poetry, it reminded me of both the Odyssey and several Shakespeare plays where they pause to sing a song or something.

-Why does the author keep making the characters reiterate what just happened? They Do The Thing. Then they gotta explain to someone else The Thing. There’s rarely an instance of “and they recounted the events just described” and leave it at that.

-Why does the Jade Emperor need to take a carriage to go literally anywhere? Even just to the other side of the courtyard? Is it a really big yard?

-Tripitaka DID seem like an overreacting crybaby but then I thought “this is PTSD at work” and IT ALL MAKES SENSE. He gets kidnapped by ogres who kill and eat his personally chosen companions (who came from his monastery and whom he most likely grew up with as friends) before his very eyes. Of course he’s going to freeze up and/or freak out every time a monster appears and Wukong needs to leave his side for whatever reason.

-Related, crying now that you have to walk to the West seems ridiculous until you think it might be more crying about how he was nearly eaten by the dragon that ate his horse!

-Seriously, I could go on about Tang’s unusually frequent crying and how it relates to potential PTSD and delayed reaction to said trauma.

-People keep calling the disciples ugly right to their faces and I Do Not Appreciate It. On another note, Wukong is surprisingly chill about this.

-Bodhisattva Guanyin used a fillet on a bear yaogaui in one chapter. I was not expecting that. Maybe ancient ideas of mercy are different compared to today?

-I’ve read and seen SO many stories of how Zhu Bajie kidnapped the human woman he married but that’s…not what happened. Sort of. They married with both her and her family’s consent. It was only after his true appearance, huge appetite, and poor manners were revealed that her family tries to get rid of him. He keeps his wife away from them as a result. Normally, I’d say good for him for trying to cut off toxic people but his wife was described as pale and unkept when Tang and Wukong arrive. So…she’s not doing good and should really be returned to her family.

-Wukong laughs at people and calls himself “Old Monkey” a lot.

More scattered thoughts to come!

#Journey to the West #jttw #sun wukong #wukong #tang #tripitaka #zhu bajie #sha wujing #lmk #lego monkie kid #ao lie #guanyin #scattered thoughts #Tw murder #tw death #tw kidnapping #Tw ptsd

[pancake-breakfast]

Time to start Maximum for Trigun Book Club!

Archive

Trigun Volume 1: Covers + 1-3, 3 Detailed Thoughts, 4, 4 DT, 5-6, 5-6 + DT, 6 DT, 7-8, 9-10

Trigun Volume 2: Covers + Extras, 1, 1 Supplemental Research, 2-4, 5-6, 7-8

Stream-of-consciousness thoughts for TriMax Vol. 1, Chapters 1-2 below. (More detailed thoughts will be their own posts.)

TriMax Volume 1 Covers

Kuroneko on the chapter index gives me serotonin.

Vash finally finds a lamp with a genie in it and all he gets is punched. He seriously has the worst luck.

Wolfwook looks VERY possessive over that cross of his....

LOL, switched to the sex doll. Of course.

Chapter 1: Hero Reborn

First Knives is reborn, now Vash will be reborn?

Yeah... kinda hard to forget someone literally shot the moon when there's a giant crater on it now....

Vash with dark hair has made his premiere.

Hmm. Needs more floaty cloth bits.

Well, someone's having a bad day. I know I wouldn't want to end up tied up and tossed in a fountain....

LOL, they shout for the sheriff and the next character we see is Wolfwood. He's not a sherriff!

You gotta know a place is welcoming when you walk into a saloon and everyone immediately pulls a gun on you. I mean, that's just a normal day in Texas or Arizona, right?

Oof. RIP bus.

I mean, I realize Fifth Moon was traumatic and all, but somehow I doubt Vash would be filling someone with "twice his weight in lead."

I guess the person dumped in the fountain was actually the sheriff. Nightow could have shown the guy's badge or something to give us an indication of that....

Poor Vash. He doesn't deserve NEARLY that many knives in his picture.

Everyone has to ask about the cross. Wolfwood rarely actually answers. Deflection and misdirection is better.

LOL, Lina's face here...

Oh, man. WW's face in literally the next panel after Ericks's entrance. He knows exactly who he's looking at.

Vash Ericks, I know you try to look for non-combative solutions, but female-bodied folk really don't have a lot of options when people get handsy if we want them to decide not to push their luck beyond just being handsy.

Ah, see, this is why he thinks she overreacted. Because now a lot more people are in danger.

Heheheheheheh, WW, Lina, and Vash are all in such a close clump here.

Aaaand now "Ericks" has fully noticed Wolfwood.

Who the heck is this evil hamster of a human being?

All I'm saying, buddy, is that her footpring miiiiiight just be an improvement.

Gods, WW is so intent in this situation. Just looking at everything and listening to everything.

Dude, who STOLE VASH'S JACKET?!?! Also, those sunglasses jut feel wrong.

Oh, Ericks. So gentle....

Yeah, pretty sure actual Vash the Stampede wouldn't stoop to humiliating people as part of a power play.

Ericks, though. He's like, "Cool, a bargain where people live at the end!"

I wonder how much of Ericks telling Lina to cover her eyes is because he doesn't want her to see his scars.

WW wasn't really with the group long enough to see Vash's scars before, but this really clears things up for the audience. And you can practically hear the gears grinding in WW's head as he observes this scene.

Dude. This imposter even copied his gay little earing. Now that's commitment.

Opening fire on a naked man? Rude.

*sigh* All of that for nothing 'cause Lina's still caught.

AGAIN?! How often does this guy get shot!?

WW barely knows Vash and he's already like, "I WILL CLOCK ANYONE WHO SPEAKS SLANDER AGAINST HIS NAME."

What? He has super-healing? I mean, I guess that makes sense.

People really need to stop barreling their way into the infirmary....

Sheryl has a point. Things gotta get done. If the young folk won't help, then this old lame woman's gonna have to do it.

LOL, Wolfwood waking up Ericks will never not be one of my favorite scenes.

Awwwww, Wolfwood! Don't remind him about Fifth Moon! He thinks about it every time he sees that moon, I'm sure. It's NOT a pleasant memory in any way, shape or form, and he hates the legends around him!

Ugh, someone give this man a hug....

Cruel, indeed. The way he looks when he picks up that gun. There are so many emotions going on here. Loss, resignation, familiarity, sadness. Seriously. Where are the hugs for this man??

Wolfwood, always the pragmatist. He knows this isn't a great path, and how unfair it is for him to drag Vash back to it. But he also knows it's the path forward.

Heh. Yeah, just the two of them. For Vash to exhibit this amount of trust in WW suggests he's at least suspected WW's true nature for a while.

PUNISHER REVEAL!!!

Annnnnd Vash's first thought on seeing the giant machine gun is, of course, "Please, no death."

This panel of them heading into the fight together just fills me with so much joy.

Fake Vash is in a bit of a pickle, isn't he? Looks like he knows it, too.

Wolfwood reacting to Fake Vash demanding actual Vash say his name is beautiful. He looks like he's gonna die of laughter there in the dirt.

Heh. And with that last gunshot, Vash reclaims who he is.

And even after that reclaiming, he gets a heartfelt, genuine, and warm hug from a young girl who has only really known him as her friend and adopted family member, Ericks. <3

Chapter 2: Lina

"Something freaky is going on here." Yes. You're dealing with Vash the Stampede and Nicholas D. Wolfwood. Even one of those should be enough to cause serious alarm.

SHOES OFF THE BED. Geez. Barbarian....

Ugh, I love his expression here.

I'm sorry, I can't get over Wolfwood's weird duck face in this panel.

This is a very interesting take on the Lady and the Tramp spaghetti dinner scene. That poor sausage....

Aww, you can see where his hair's gone all dark underneath now that he has it tied back.

Well, that's one way to get Vash's attention. He doesn't have as much chill when it comes to his brother. And understandably so.

Uhhhhhh, what's up with that spiky weird shadow guy?

TBH, Vash has good reason to be suspicious of anyone who knows too much about Knives. Knives's games aren't about humans. They're about Knives and Vash. Humans are just pawns and casualties.

I love how this 12-year-old girl is able to cow a bunch of whiny, scared men with just her presence. I love how angry she gets on Vash's behalf.

"If he and his followers sniff me out..." HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA no comment. Vash just got really freaking lucky with exactly who's sniffing him out.

The comedy of this panel is great. Granny's all like, "Oh, no.... You're gonna end up beaten up in a ditch somewhere...." Meanwhile, her granddaughter has already begun just wailing on Vash. Without even dropping the groceries.

Ugh, just... having someone take care of him for a bit. It's a small and much-needed kindness. But that's how it often is with small kindnesses.

Wolfwood: "That brat (affectionate)"

LOL, Vash gets head-pats. GOOD.

Wait, Evil Hamster Man is back??

What the heck is even happening in this panel? Is this a second guy? Is this a growth on Evil Hamster Man's back? I don't know. We already had a guy with a LITERAL GUN for legs, so either wouldn't exactly surprise me. Wolfwood's face sums up my feelings perfectly.

Ohhh, Vash isn't having any of this guy's shit.

WTF, he just KICKED the round out of the sky?!

Vash isn't really prone to showing off just to show off. I'm guessing he's doing this to make Lina and Granny feel a bit better about how competent he is.

Even Wolfwood, who's seen Vash's weird before, seems a bit shocked.

Also, LOL, Wolfwood frog face.

Literally still can't tell if the second gunman is an actual dude or just some weird Evil Hamster Man growth.

Oh, there we go. He seems to be a separate entity, after all.

LOL, Wolfwood, calling them like he sees them. (Thank you, @trigun-manga-overhaul, for keeping the swearing. It makes it that much more funny.)

And now Evil Hamster Man is given a choice: a chance at redemption, or having to deal with an angry Stampede. Let's hope he chooses wisely.

Well, Granny's feeling better about the situation. Lina seems more... resigned.

There's something so lovely about the hair-trimming scene. It's one last bit of domestic comfort with his little found family before he heads off to war.

I genuinely believe Wolfwood here. He has a good heart, even when he tries to hide it.

*sigh* And as Lina cuts away at his hair, we just drown in their shared memories. The vast majority of it is simple things. Family things. Quiet moments. But they meant the world to Lina. And they probably meant the world to Vash, too.

I have thoughts about Lina burying herself in the cloth from Vash's haircut.

This chapter ends beautifully and makes me want to cry.

#trigunbookclub #trigun maximum #volume 1 #pancake analysis

[welcometothejianghu]

I can't actually recommend Psych-Hunter, as it's not, strictly speaking, what you'd call good. It has, however, made us laugh out loud several times, and a lot of the visuals are really clever, and it's got to know what it's doing with how gay it's making those main boys (to say nothing of the police captain and that little cop who totally has a crush on him). It's weird and it's fun, and if you're looking for a thing to watch, you could do a lot worse!

NOTE: The preceding paragraph was written before I watched the last episode.

Look, this show is a hot mess. Let me break it down:

The good: some amazing visuals; excellent costuming (like, even when it's ugly, it's still good?); delightfully batshit worldbuilding decisions; fun short-arc mysteries; hella gay bromance; delicious boy tears; incredibly endearing secondary cast; great Psychonauts-esque plot device; some gorgeous mindscapes done with (mostly) practical effects; did I mention those two boys are real gay for one another?

The bad: little to no narrative cohesion; terribly bad pacing; high body count, especially of ladies; a couple inexplicable heel turns; when the CG is there, it's not great; plenty of unintentional comedy; most overarching mysteries remain completely unsolved.

The ugly: het romance that swings between just plain boring and outright skeevy; absolutely no grasp of the female lead's character; and of course, all the shit it pulls in the last episode.

...But obviously I found the whole mess still pretty compelling despite the flaws, considering I've just written like 1500 words of a Tumblr post that barely anybody else is ever going to read about it! So, uh, maybe that's an endorsement? I can't tell anymore.

Most of those words are beneath the cut, starting with the vaguely spoilery thoughts -- the ones you can read without spoiling yourself for the whole show. I'll mark when the big ones are coming up.

The good and the bad are, I think, somewhat self-explanatory. I want to talk about the ugly a bit, though.

The first two are actually two halves of the same problem. As a character, as she is written, Yuan Muqing sucks. Her entire personality is "whatever we need The Girl to be doing in this scene." She swings from Strong Independent Woman to Damsel In Distress to Spunky Female Police Officer to Spoiled Rich Schoolgirl to Giggling Love Interest with no sense that there should be any consistency between these states. Every detail of her life disappears the second it's not immediately relevant to the plot. She is a selection of two-dimensional objects chosen on a scene-by-scene basis to compliment whatever else is going on around her. I guess you could excuse this by [insert spoilers for the last episode here], but for that to work, the show would have to give off any sense that it understood her characterization was bad in the first place.

Whatever they could have done with the het romance was pretty doomed to fail from the start by having her be so badly written. (There are a few very cute moments they have later on, when they write her like an actual person, but it's too little too late.) She and Jiang Shuo already have little to no actual chemistry together, and the majority of their relationship is artificial overreaction-and-miscommunication conflict. And as though that weren't bad enough, the show keeps making it skeevy by making her so young. She's a high school student who has a very little-girl room, complete with dolls she talks to and petulantly punishes when she has tantrums. Many of her hairstyles and outfits also run young. Nobody gets a canonical age, but she's clearly a teen while both boys seem well into their twenties. The age gap does the relationship no favors.

Worse, the romance largely nukes her relationship to Qin Yiheng. When the show starts, they at least interact with one another, even if it looks like the show's going to get a "girl can't decide which boy she likes!" dynamic going with the main trio. Very quickly, though, she needs to be only The Love Interest for Jiang Shuo, meaning that she barely talks to Qin Yiheng for the whole rest of the show. Even when all three are onscreen together, those two might as well each be invisible to the other. They're not really a triangle -- they're a hinge, and the non-Jiang-Shuo points don't touch.

All that being said, there is such potential in her, and like 95% of that potential comes from the fact that the girl is obviously insane. Beyond even her canonical delusions, That Girl Ain't Right. Everything she does is so much better if you imagine there's a full-on roomba with knives simmering just beneath her bippy, ponytailed surface. She has to be Generalissimo Daddy's good little girl, when deep down she wants to do violence. That's great.

Some of the early promo materials I've seen make mention of how she's supposed to be the muscle of the operation. I wish they'd been far more consistent about that! She should absolutely be the party tank, bounding away from danger with a boy under each arm. All of the "oh no, Muqing got kidnapped/held hostage/threatened!" beats should have been responded to with a shrug.

But of course, it doesn't matter, because...

****MAJOR SPOILERS START HERE****

...it's not real.

Nearly none of it is real. There are two real people in the show, and everyone else is imaginary. Everything Jiang Shuo feels about her is completely one-sided, because she doesn't exist.

I am not categorically opposed to the final plot twist. I actually think, thematically, it makes a fair amount of sense, given how many other dreamscapes and mind-dives we've seen. What I'm opposed to is having it drop in the final episode, when there's no time to deal emotionally with any of it. If you wanted to pull that Inception shit, you should've done it at least halfway through the series. Give poor Jiang Shuo multiple episodes to deal with the truths that a) everyone he loves (minus one person) is a figment of his imagination, b) he is ultimately the one responsible for the horrors he has created, and c) he will have to decide in the end whether to live in the delusion or to destroy it by leaving. Let him wrestle with what he knows vs. what he feels. Give him plenty of time to deal with his guilt about what he's done to Qin'er. That would be delicious. That's not what we got.

Also, you've got to telegraph it, like, at all. As it is, I wondered for a while there whether something weird/bad happened, the real last episode got destroyed, and they had to hastily film an alternate ending. I am all but certain, on reflection, this is not what happened. There are just enough clues planted earlier that, yeah, I'm pretty sure this was the end they meant all along.

Which was such a bad decision. You know all those mysteries you were interested in, the ones driving the plot? Congratulations! You're never going to know! And it's not because the show got canceled or otherwise truncated -- no, it's because the show decided to tell you outright that those mysteries were never meant to be solved. It's a riddle that never had an answer in the first place.

I said at the time that the end feels exactly like an anime that got too far ahead of the manga, ran out of source material, and had to cobble together an ending that wouldn't spoil the manga's eventual logical conclusion. That's not quite what happened, but it's exactly the vibe.

(Not to get too spoilery of other properties here, but yeah, you realize this was the same guy who made Sand Sea, and that actually makes a lot of sense. Speaking of things that ran out the source material...)

My instinct is to tell people not to watch the last episode, to just stop at the end of 35 and make up your own stories about what comes next, but ... you kind of have to see it to believe it. It's worth it for the sheer audacity that would consider this a good ending.

I've seen plenty of people on various sites saying they loved the ending while clamoring in the same breath for a second season. No, friends, you're having the same reaction I did -- you know a twist like that should not be a last-minute drop. It's not a setup for anything; it's what happens when you can't stick the landing, so you throw out a bunch of impressive-sounding nonsense while pretending that was what you'd meant to do all along. A second season wouldn't solve the mysteries, because the show has declared that not only won't they be solved, they weren't even mysteries in the first place. They were fancy shiny meaningless things that made the plot go, and you were stupid for being invested in them.

And by "mysteries" here, I mean the actual things that are being held up as mysterious and in need of a solution, like Liu Zhi's identity and the Yin River treasures and what happened to Papa Qin. I don't mean the things like wtf is going on with Moustache Dad and his weird semi-k*kistan flag -- because those are just fun bits of magical realism worldbuilding. Clearly this is all operating in some urban fantasy next-world-over scenario, where we're in, uhhh, Zhanghai, Zhina. It's real-world enough that we still have the British and the Japanese, but fake enough that whatever was going on with that hypnotism clock and the lake monster skeleton? Totally normal.

I guess that's part of what I find so frustrating, that it made such an interesting world to play around in ... and then took the cop-out "it was all a dream!" explanation. All the trauma and deaths you felt sad about? Irrelevant. All the friends in danger? Who cares! All the stakes you thought mattered? Meaningless. What, you want new stakes to care about? Well, we'd love to, but the last episode's ending. Bye!

Anyway! Frustrating but compelling! I have now burned so many more brain cells on this show than it deserves, and I will probably continue burning more for fanfic purposes. If you made it this far into this nonsense -- both the show and this post -- I salute you.

#psych hunter #house haunters #心宅猎人 #i made this #meta #rec post

[fandsart]

Oh, absolutely. Nancy needs to work on her people skills because she's really bad at those. I would love for Murray to call her out, but every time a character does that, the narrative in Stranger Things punishes said character because Nancy is always right.

I agree with all your points. Also, in s3, it was a summer internship, and Nancy acted like she was a fully employed reporter there. Jonathan saying she should have managed her expectations was the truth, and I hate how much shit he gets from the fandom for that.

Nancy is more of a detective she thrives with investigating and following clues. Her need to be constantly right is what's motivating her, not wanting to tell a good story. She also lacks creativity she needs to have to spin a good story. Like Robin coming up with her little backstory or thinking outside the box in the library, which helped them so much in the overall plot. As for Steve's essay, I talked to someone who works as a teacher, and they were like Steve's essay was fine a bit choopy and definitely in need of tuning. Nancy overreacted by saying it's not cohesive or doesn't make sense. It was clear Steve used a metaphor, and if Nancy isn't able to see that, idk if she's good at writing. I'm not saying she is stupid, I just feel like she isn't passionate enough to improve her writing skills but is rather focused on solving mysteries.

I honestly see her working in the police force, it's a better conclusion to her arc because the police failed Barb so she's now making sure that won't happen to other families. Maybe she should team up with Hopper in s5, that would be interesting.

I was going to bring up the fact the narrative punishes characters who question her. Well, really I was had a sentence written out that said "The only reason Nancy is always right is because she has to be the girlbossiest, but most of the time she really should be wrong" but I didn't want to make the commentary too meta. I already had so much down about it, so I didn't expand past that and just deleted it.

I think it's interesting to compare her hunches to Joyce's, because the way they play out is similar but different. Nancy is always presented as being right about something that everyone else just denies, even though it's right in front of them (very Don't Look Up). Whereas Joyce always happens to notice really weird things which make sense to question, but people always question her perception of the events because what she's claiming to experience seems unreal. Nancy has to be in conflict around the obvious so she seems like she's, idk, prosecuted a little about it.

People make fun of her for thinking there could be a story to be written, which doesn't make a lot of sense. In real life I feel like it would make more sense for the professionals to stare blankly at her for her suggestions and then ignore her, which can also work for a narrative, but it has to be exaggerated (there's a similar issue with how El is bullied in season 4. These aren't things that really tend to happen) so these professional business men bully Nancy for trying to do their jobs for them badly. I think it would have been more realistic for them to just be like "Let the professionals deal with this" but we have to be on Nancy's side about it, so it has to be undeniable that they're prejudice and condescending, which they can be, while also being right. But the duffers can't have anyone being like "That's a good point" to a point against Nancy, because that might make it obvious that Nancy isn't actually the best person to prove their first wave feminist point

I do like the idea of Nancy being a cop. I hadn't considered it before. I'm really big on acab, but narratively it does make sense for her, and it makes sense as a line of logic, and how else is she gonna use her gun skills in regular life in a way that she would really be down for. Most shows I'm more hesitant to be like "This character should be a cop" because, seriously, acab, but with this show I obviously already have to come to terms with Hopper being a cop, and it could be cool for him to take her under his wing in that area

#fandsart #ask #answered asks #anon ask

[inkykeiji]

SPOILERS FOR THE LEAKS in my ask

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Clari did you see the new reveal about Dabi’s quirk. I’m fucking dying. Screaming, crying, throwing up.

He was always perfect :,(

But we already knew that

bnha manga spoilers

i did, kind of! i honestly try not to look too far into them & make assumptions until i can read the whole chapter for myself (because sometimes i find the leaks summaries are misleading or poorly explained) so i’m not 100% sure how i feel about this! i have a lot of questions. for example, based on the summary we got, it says that new abilities are awoken only close to death. so how far, theoretically, would enji had had to push touya to get this to manifest/show up/come out of him? would he had to push him to the brink of death to get it? why didn’t it show up when touya was 13 and nearly burned to death? or did it show up then at age 13, somehow, and dabi’s just been conveniently hiding it until now? additionally, does this actually have any impact on neutralizing his flames and the fact that his body was not built for them? does it help in that aspect? can it help in that aspect? many many maaaany questions.

i said this last night in my little rant/vent post but if dabi ends up living i will be thoroughly and immensely disappointed. as much as i love dabi with every fiber of my being and my whole entire heart, and as much as i wish there was a way for him to continue living, him having a well written and impactful ending to his story matters more to me and it’s what he deserves as a character. he deserves a GOOD ending. dabi surviving this makes absolutely zero sense and would be such a horrid ending for his story as a whole, especially considering the fact that, logically, if he were to live the only place he’d end up is jail for life; he can’t claim insanity, not when they have a video of him fully and lucidly explaining and admitting to his crimes. he knew exactly what he was doing all along, obv. letting him off with a slap on the wrist because he has ~trauma~ (aw, boohoo, so do i and i don’t murder innocents) and is the number one hero’s son is so fucking stupid, not to mention extremely unfair and goes against pretty much all of dabi’s beliefs (false heroes, heroes being treated differently etc).

anyway sorry i went off on a tangent there HAHA i could write u an entire essay on why i think dabi’s end should be his (and enji’s!) death so i tried to keep it brief while still explaining myself properly but!! honestly, i’m extremely critical when it comes to dabi’s character arc/story, and him not getting the well written, heart wrenching ending he deserves has been a heavy fear of mine preeeetty much since i picked up this series.

in sum: not sure how i feel about the sudden ice quirk thing, trying not to overreact or make any serious judgements until this whole bit of the story has played out. trying v hard to have faith and trust in hori and his skills as a storyteller because i know he has the capacity to make this phenomenal and i hope to whatever god is out there that it doesn’t get fucked up by fan service.

#bnha spoilers #bnha manga spoilers #tw death #just in case haha #sorry this probably wasn’t the answer u we’re looking for aaaah >.< #i’m just ?????? so so so critical when it comes to anything in his story #i am glad the family appears to be making good on their promise to ‘stop him as a family’ #i just hope he doesn’t live LMAO #like i said last night what would *really* be gut wrenching would be if they all got to say goodbye before he passed #or if they all get to tell him what they’ve been meaning to tell him #ie ‘i love you’ ‘we forgive you’ ‘we’re sorry this happened’ etc #THAT would hurt and that would be a pretty decent ending for him #i’m also like still hung up on the frankenstein thing because i so desperately wanted this to end like frankenstein does #with creation + creator dying together #and obv it still might!!!!! i’m trying so hard not to overreact or make quick judgements without all the info!!! #anyway i’m rambling again haha #the thing is;;;; is that i don’t believe dabi’s story is meant to be one of redemption or forgiveness #that’s SHOUTO #i think dabi’s story is meant to be a cautionary tale #but i digress #hope ur having a good thursday my friend!!! #stay safe and drink lots of water <3 #staple chan #clari gets mail

[22degreehalo]

The thing is... you're not supposed to care about the kens.

That's why they're portrayed as just generic privileged pathetic white guys. They're just kind of a joke.

(And that's some parts 'men are privileged and it's not our responsibility to coddle them' and some parts 'men are expected to be independent and take care of themselves and not have feelings.' It's not a coincidence that the kens being insecure, or crying, or making obliviously homoerotic statements, are part of them being a joke. That's just how you portray people as ridiculous: you make them super emotional about things that don't really matter, and you associate them with campy, queer, over-the-top things.)

I said in previous posts that, while I am most likely overthinking it, it seemed a failure of the movie to introduce this setting and then not really engage with it. I recall a popular post on tumblr about 'bit-ism', or the willingness of a movie to commit to the bit; insofar as the setting is entwined with the message of the movie, I've rarely seen a movie fail as hard as Barbie. It introduces an inverted society, but then only seems interested in that society to the extent that real life changes it. If I'm not supposed to care about the kens, why establish them as the oppressed parties at all?

But that's all assuming that what people say about it is true: that it's a thoughtful piece about gender and misogyny. That it Has Things To Say about men and patriarchy and gender dynamics.

And maybe it is actually just not nearly as deep as I'm trying to make it.

Maybe it really is just a movie intended to go 'haha, wouldn't it be funny if men were oppressed instead of women?! Take that, men!!'

Which. Is exactly what conservative commentators say, of course. So I've tried not to lean in that direction. I highly admire Greta Gerwig as a director (Little Women is one of my favourite films of all time!), so I really wanted to read something very interesting into it.

But the more I think on it, the more I think that the 'take that, men!' interpretation is... the more generous one?

Because. Let's be clear. This is a movie in which an Asian character reacts with comedic excitement at the idea of their people being allowed one circuit court justice. And the (mostly white) people in power smile and roll their eyes because they are definitely NOT going to allow them any more than that, lol, but isn't it so cute to see how happy they are? (Cue laugh track and applause.)

If this movie really does have things to say about gender and power... they suck!! Big time!!! It only only makes sense if misogyny is the only oppression at all, or at least the only one that matters. That is some straight-up radfem/TERFy anti-intersectionality bullshit!!

Ken being uncomfortable in Barbieland even before he encountered the real world isn't anything about the patriarchy and how men are harmed by it, because that logically just doesn't make any sense. Ken is unhappy during the movie because a) the plot needs it and b) so Barbie can not return his feelings and make that whole feminist statement about it. That's it.

The movie just exists to make women laugh and pump their fists and clap.

And that's okay, I think...? The movie is a power fantasy. That's fine. Those are allowed to exist. Not every movie has to be Morally Perfect.

But. I think it's kind of rich to expect men to, like, be super hyped about it. Getting extremely angry is an overreaction... but there are two options, here: the movie is designed to make fun of men in a silly and deliberately mean-spirited way, or it genuinely and sincerely argues that any oppression men face is universally beneath concern.

As for myself? In a way, I'd rather overthink it. Because alas, I am nought but a simple baby sensitive snowflake hyper-empathetic autist. And I just do not like it when people are mean, especially when the victims are quite clearly powerless and pathetic and emotional. But I understand that I am unusual in that way, and that snark and mockery have their place in the world, and are capable of doing good.

Maybe the movie doesn't intentionally express damaging ideas about how oppression works. Maybe it is just kind of mean. I think that will probably prevent me from ever properly enjoying it. But there are worse crimes than Making A Movie I Don't Like.

#as always if you portray a group as pathetic and small and not worth caring about #you better believe im gonna identify with them lol #anyway am i about to anger some poor tumblr femslashers and read ken/allen fanfic? probably. #.. #... #barbie 2023 #if you saw this in the main tag no you didn't please don't flame me lmfaooo ;___;

[leatherbookmark]

bitchy preaching to the choir

one of the things that hit me when I read those piping hot takes about how jc/jgy/sms/xy bad, wwx good (aside from the fact that they're painfully primary school level) is how christian they are in the assumption that "getting over"* one's traumatic/painful experience is not only the goal but also just a morally Good course of action, and anyone who doesn't do that is therefore Bad. it's not that their traumatic/painful experiences were particularly serious or different from the ones our brave protagonist has dealt with -- it's just Bad.

*see also, “forgiving”. i remember being a kid and Feeling that you’re Bad when you don’t want to forgive the person who apologized to you, even if you felt the apology wasn’t sincere/wasn’t enough to make up for the harm you experienced. Good Kids Forgive!

what’s most interesting is that paradox that happens next -- if a character doesn't get over their trauma, it wasn't trauma and they're overreacting, harbouring grudges, making up things to be mad about; but if a character pretends everything is fine, and directs all them harm to themself rather than outside, they’re a Good victim and a Good character that we, the audience (aged 6) like and admire.

wwx, especially cql wwx, is a good example of a Good character, especially from a western, christian point of view. he’s just and heroic, he’s self-sacrificing, he was “born with a smile on his face”, even when he gets drunk it’s cute, and while he does get horrible revenge, it’s like, 1. eh, ehhhh, who remembers that, and 2. comparatively shortly after the even he’s taking revenge for. and most of the harm happens to him! jzx’s death wasn’t even him and sms is better at demonic cultivation than he is*, and while he does unleash the dark wisps of resentful energy, he humbly throws himself off a cliff, so see, he’s not evil at all!

*can you see that i don’t like this theory.

jc, jgy, sms and xy meanwhile have one thing in common -- they can’t “get revenge” immediately, or shortly after. because the one who’s hurt them is their beloved brother who then went to die himself; because they’re powerless children; because they can’t do shit on their own. so they “harbor a grudge” for “perceived slights”, are “obsessed with people who say one bad word about them”, “let their resentment guide them for their whole life” etc, etc.

a small digression -- one would think* that, if one takes this way of thinking, characters are generally supposed to get over their feelings rather fast, get over themselves and become useful members of society. but there is someone who’s allowed, even praised and adored by fans for holding onto pointless feelings, perhaps... calling out every night to someone who won’t answer, given that they’re dead... hm

*one wouldn’t, it’s a strawman and a through experiment

and like, jc being Mean to wwx is a proof of whatever bad trait people want to give him, even though this man is one big ball of trauma, conflicted emotions + his strong sense of duty, etc, etc. but of course, it’s easier to say he just can’t give it (and wwx) a break.

jgy, sms and xy, although their situations are different, care for themselves because no one else will. no one helped jgy after he was kicked down the stairs, no one helped xy after he, a little child, was horribly mutilated by a petty adult man, and no one cared for sms’s life -- he was expected to die for the lan family and the inner disciples, and the fact that he dared to Prefer To Survive was met with scorn of the lan and hatred of the fandom*. if your status is so low that no one would care or even notice if you died, well, that’s your problem, pick up your cross and carry it with a smile or die mad about it.

*and that was cql, where they made him more of a poor dude mistreated by the lan, who then have the absolute Gall to go “umm he didn’t want to die for us, so when you treat him with respect it makes us uncomfy ://”

#shrimp thoughts #i know what day it is and it is with a Very heavy heart that i must admit i do Not like the ways zzj's portrayal of jgy impacted the fans' #understanding of the character. like i KNOW censorship etcetc bigbadvillains aren't allowed to be too sympathetic BUT. the smiles. the face #as he bows. i also know that no matter the faces people would still retroactively add the interpretations of 'he smiled evilly' or 'he #glared' onto everything he did but. mmmmmmmhhhhh #i know. i know. i'm sorry (u_u) #*oops. what day it WAS. i thought his birthday was a couple of days later!! 💦

[transboykirito]

Please elaborate on Suguha having BPD, I show a lot of symptoms of BPD but I’m too scared to get tested so she means a lot to me :))

hi before i start this explanation i wanted to first say i know firsthand how terrifying it can feel and it can feel so isolating and... all the things i don't have words for. but i’ve been there and it does get a little easier - it gets hard too, and it feels like a constant uphill climb, but... the good moments do exist and they’re important too.

this is going to be a long post because there’s a lot i want to cover (seriously there’s so much evidence to support this headcanon that i would genuinely believe it if reki said this was what he intended when he wrote her)

disclaimer first of all: i am not a psychiatrist, i'm just someone who has bpd and notices a lot of my own traits in suguha. i'm happy to be debated or corrected on anything in this post, as long as it's done respectfully.

childhood - catalyst + development

okay so let's start off right at the beginning in what i'm gonna call the catalyst - aka, bits and pieces and what i think could've led to suguha developing bpd.

we don't know for sure what directly causes bpd, but there's a link between bpd and trauma. contrary to popular belief, suguha did actually have a rough childhood, you could easily call it traumatic (the light novels do, in fact, explicitly say it’s traumatic)

one of the things that can be linked to bpd is growing up in an abusive or unstable home and witnessing abuse (even if it wasn't directed at the person with bpd) - remember how suguha grew up with a father who worked away, a mother who was scarcely present and how she quite literally physically had to stop her brother getting beaten by their grandfather? that alone could've caused it. add in kazuto "abandoning" her for years and getting trapped in sao, i'd say we have more than enough grounds to support how she could've developed it.

emotions

so next we move onto how it presents itself (again, this post is written on the assumption suguha has bpd). bpd presents itself a lot in how the person feels emotions, the way they perceive emotions and the way they interact with relationships. this section is focusing on how suguha presents, explains and acts on her emotions.

for the most part, leafa’s one of the most passionate characters in sao. she’s also one of the few side characters who get in-depth descriptions about their emotions. the one thing i noticed is her emotions constantly have such strong physical reactions. multiple times her emotions are described as so painful she physically struggles to breathe.

[quote] Every time she did, she was struck with an indescribable emotion; it was a sharp twinge, striking deep in her heart. Her breathing grew painful. It made her want to hold herself and fall to the floor. [end quote]

[quote] Embarrassment, shyness and an undeniable feeling of his sweetness raced around inside of her, gripping her chest so painfully she couldn’t breathe. [end quote]

emotions with bpd feel like all or nothing. they’re oftentimes so intense you physically feel them take over your body. the way suguha’s emotions are described resonated with me for that exact reason. especially the fact her happiness is still laced with anxiety about when things will be difficult again, yet her negative emotions are intense and confronting.

the idea that suguha overreacts to small things also makes a hell of a lot more sense if we look at it with the assumption she has bpd. minor inconveniences can feel impossible to overcome and any kind of heartbreak or rejection genuinely feels like the end of the world. she isn’t being irrational (at least, not in her own brain), she’d reacting the only way it feels like she can when her emotions are that powerful.

her screaming, crying and flailing all seem more reasonable if i’m assuming her emotions are constantly threatening to overflow. she physically needs to get the emotions out somehow - it’s kinda like autistic stimming, in a way, for me at least

her emotions also take over from her rationality. it’s a common trait in anime, yes, but i think it’s relevant enough to this theory/headcanon to be included here. she prioritises her emotions over her physical health in some cases, an example that immediately comes to mind is her staying up way too late playing alo with kirito despite the fact she was physically exhausted the next day and she knew she would be

favourite person/relationship with kazuto

one of the most notable parts of having bpd (in my experience) is my favourite person (fp). this is someone who, for better or worse, a person with bpd’s entire world basically revolves around. it’s common for someone with bpd’s entire mood to be controlled by their fp’s mood or how they feel their fp perceives them. it’s also common to be incredibly jealous and border on being possessive of your fp (though, this is something that should be worked on and boundaries should be set)

sure enough, these are feelings we see suguha experience with kazuto. significant amounts of her time is spent trying to figure out what he’s thinking - especially about her - and what she needs to do for them to be as close as they used to be.

suguha’s moods fluctuate depending on how she thinks kazuto feels about her. if she thinks he‘s distant from her, she easily falls into a spiral of guilt and self-loathing. if they’re happy together, she’s happy with undertones of cautions, wondering how long it’s going to last. even when she knows kazuto’s happy and content, she still worries about the next time he’ll break down and/or she gets upset when she remembers that she isn’t the only one who makes him happy

she also gets jealous when she finds out about asuna, not specifically because kazuto wouldn’t return “romantic” feelings to her, but because someone else was taking up his time and space in his heart. actually, reading the light novels, i get the impression suguha doesn’t really care if her supposedly romantic feelings are returned, she just wants her and her brother to be close again. 

their entire relationship screams of him being her fp - though, as time passes i do think they work out how to handle that relationship in the healthiest way possible, which, in their case, seems like suguha spending time with kazuto’s friend group helps that jealousy and him making more time for her at home is helpful too

bpd also explains why she can come across as rude or indifferent to nagata.it isn’t that she particularly dislikes him, we know she considers him a friend, but he isn’t her fp. it’s fairly common to idolise and prioritise your fp to the point they’re the only person you focus on. you can still like people and have other friends - you can even have deep and meaningful relationships with other people - but you express those feelings in those relationships differently to your fp (in my own personal experience, i dated someone while having someone else as my fp, and while i deeply deeply cared for my partner, i didn’t know how to express that to them in a way that didn’t feel like i was “betraying” how deeply i adored my fp - i am working on that...)

the outburst -  episodes 22 + 23

this is the part i was excited to write because it’s the scene that convinced me she has bpd (again, even if that’s not what reki intended) - so we’re gonna break this down because this scene is just... so much

for this i’ll be referring to the anime while adding additional context from the light novels, because the anime captures it really well

for context for the excerpt, suguha’s just found out that kazuto and kirito are the same person and logged out of alo.

[quote] The sobs came pouring from her throat. Her hands impulsively clenched the fragile device, no more than two thin circles of plastic. It began to bend, creaking faintly with the pressure.

She almost wanted to break the AmuSphere, to permanently sever her pathway to that other world - but she couldn’t. She felt too sorry for Leafa, the girl living on the other side of the ring.

Suguha put the device on top of her bed and sat up. She put her feet on the floor, closed her eyes, and hung her head. She just didn’t want to think about anything. [end quote]

this was interesting to me because it says she almost broke the amusphere impulsively, the only thing that stopped her fro doing it was leafa, who, for all intents and purposes, in this scene she’s somewhat referring to as a different person altogether. again, she’s prone to making impulsive and irrational destructive decisions.

be warned, this is a big excerpt, but there’s a lot of subtle information i want to be able to reference, so i’m adding it all here. anime screencaps provided, because i really love the way they animated this scene. their expressions are so fucking good.

[quote] She couldn’t stop the current of emotion from tearing through her. Suguha leaped to her feet and strode to the door. She turned the knob and pulled, and there was Kazuto. He looked at her with obvious concern.

“I... I...” Her feelings turned into tears and tears into words before she could stop them. “I-I betrayed my own heart. I betrayed my love for you.”

At last she had spoken the word love to his face, but it slashed at her chest, her throat, her lips, like a knife. The pain seared at her, but she kept going.

“I was going to forget, to give up, to fall in love with Kirito. In face, I already had. And yet... and yet...”

“Huh...?”

For several seconds he gaped at her silently. Then he whispered, “You love...? But... we’re...”

“I know.”

“...Huh...?”

“I already know.”

Oh no, she thought. But she couldn’t stop. She put all of her raging emotions into her stare and pushed on, lips trembling.

“We aren’t real siblings. I’ve known that for over two years!!”

No. Suguha hadn’t asked her mother to hold back on revealing that she knew the truth to Kazuto just so that she could hurl her feelings at him like this. She wanted time to properly consider what it meant, and what she could do about it. [end quote]

this scene really emphasises, multiple times, the fact suguha doesn’t want to be yelling at him and hurting him. she’s highly aware of the fact she should stop, but she physically can’t stop herself from saying it, even if she knows she’s saying cruel things she doesn’t mean.

i’ll get to the splitting thing in just a second, but please keep in mind how much suguha feels like she can’t control what she’s doing and saying here, it’s important later.

you know how i said that having bonds with other people can sometimes feel like you’re betraying your fp and how you feel about them? ahem. “i fell in love with this other person and betrayed the feelings i had for you”... :( been there

i particularly adore the way it describes her emotions feeling like a knife cutting through her as she’s trying to get the words out. again, more than any other sao character, suguha’s often the one being given physical representation of her emotions like this, especially the hurtful ones. i think it’s really well done.

[quote] “When you quit practicing kendo and started avoiding me years ago, it was because you learned the truth, wasn’t it? You were keeping your distance because you knew I wasn’t your real sister. So why have you decided to be nice to me now?!” [end quote]

note here how she immediately blames herself for kazuto quitting kendo, saying that he quit because he wanted to avoid her, when he actually quit before he even knew he was adopted because he has no passion for it like he does with computers and gaming.

this, i think, would be her splitting. i’ll do my absolute best to describe it, but it’s basically trying to see things as one set, firm way. aka, “it was 100% my fault this happened” or “this is all your fault because you’re an asshole” when you think about a situation.

for suguha, in this scene, it’s kinda like she’s putting the blame on herself while being mad at him for it. she sees this as her fault but she’s holding that bitterness towards him for being absent.

again, to bring back to the point that she’s barely in control of anything she’s saying in this scene and the fact it’s putting her in pain to say all of this, this is what splitting can feel like. it’s actually a pretty decent example of it - and that’s not even the author’s intention to do so.

people with bpd can split without even being aware of it, like they have no control over their thoughts or actions. just like we see suguha doing here.

[quote] No matter how much she knew she ought to stop, she couldn’t. As Suguha’s words echoed through the cold hallway, Kazuto’s black eyes gradually lost their expression.

“I... I was so happy when you came back from SAO. I was so happy you started treating me the way you used to, I thought you finally saw me for who I was.”

At last, two teardrops hit her cheeks. She rubbed at them fiercely and strained to push the voice from her lungs.

“But... after this, I’d rather you kept being cold to me. Then I wouldn’t have realised that I love you... I wouldn’t have been sad to learn about Asuna... and I wouldn’t have fallen in love with Kirito to replace you!!”

Kazuto’s eyes grew just a bit wider, and then his expression froze. After several seconds in which everything seemed to have stopped, his eyes wavered, then looked down. A single word came from his mouth.

“...Sorry...”

In the two months since he’d awakened, Kazuto’s eyes had always been full of a tender, gentle light when he looked at Suguha. Now that light was gone, and a deep darkness had taken it’s place. Suguha felt sharp regret pierce her chest as painfully as any blade.

“...Just leave me alone.”

She couldn’t stand to look at him any longer. Suguha slammed the door to escape the guilt and self-loathing that threatened to crush her. She stumbled back several steps until her heel hit the bed, and she fell over onto it. [end quote]

so there, in explicit words, suguha feels self-loathing for hurting kazuto. that’s such a strong word and i need to highlight that. she genuinely hates herself for hurting him immediately after she does it despite acknowledging she doesn’t mean anything that she said. this is, quite literally, splitting in an extreme outburst.

this is what convinced me suguha has bpd. this right here. because this is a feeling i’ve felt so much, an outburst i’ve unfortunately experienced (with some slight differences, of course). her thoughts, emotions and reactions all resonated with me because i’ve been in that situation. it’s not a nice situation to be in and my god the amount of love and adoration i have for this character for still not giving up and still fighting for the person she loves after this... i love her. i love the both of them so fucking much.

euphoria

okay that scene is miserable here, some happy sugu to end it out. because, yes, bpd is exhausting and angry and isolating and impulsive and irrational. but the bonds you can form, if done healthily with lots of communication and understanding and patience, can be some of the strongest bonds you can have and your highs and absolute, pure euphoria.

[quote] As both a fairy warrior and a kendo athlete, Leafa had to admire Kirito’s ability. He was equally adept at both offense and defense, as smooth and beautiful as a dance. The longer she matched his rhythym of strikes and sways, the more Leafa felt that she was ascending to new heights she’d never experienced before. None of the duels she’d ever taken part in here had ever truly satisfied her. She’d lost before, but it was always due to some special quality of the opponents weapon, or a spell. No one had ever bested Leafa through sword skill alone.

Now that she’d finally found someone who was even better, and he was her beloved, Leafa was filled with something like joy. Even if they never shared their hearts again, this special moment was enough for her. In time, she noticed that there were tears pooling in her eyes. [end quote]

end notes

so yeah. there’s just a tiny breakdown of that scene and why i personally think suguha has bpd. a lot of it is because i relate to her experiences and emotions, and once again i’m not saying that reki intended her to have bpd. this is all my personal opinion and some supporting arguments i managed to pull from two volumes.

suguha is a character i desperately clung to when i was in the process of getting my bpd diagnosis, because she felt like one of the only characters who would’ve possibly been able to understand how i was feeling. which is weird to say, because she’s a fictional character, it’s not like i can call her on the phone and ask “hey do you relate to how absolutely batshit i feel while these people run a bunch of tests on me like i’m some kind of fucked up zoo animal? really? you can? that’s great, let’s be best friends!” but... in a way, that’s how it felt?

i escaped into her world with her as i read and watched sao and she helped me to feel less alone in all the utterly terrifying feelings i had. i held onto her the same way i held onto kazuto and shino through my hardest ptsd breakdowns and panic attacks, how i held onto asuna, eugeo, tiese and ronye when my ptsd made me feel like i was living in someone else’s body.

intentional or not, reki wrote a character that made me feel a little more understood in a situation where i couldn’t have possibly understood less. and i think that’s something special.

#sapphieissleepy #asks #leafa #long post #headcanons #kinda? #i wanna someday make a little post about the different sao characters that helped me through different stuff but i feel like nobody cares #like its definitely just gonna be me crying over my ptsd and then just 'and kazuto ur so pretty i love you bby <3' at the end but #bpd suguha tag

[nny11writes]

Okay, so about that Super Gal Pal Trio fic.

Best fic name ever

Is this one of the infamous Lost Super Poly Trio/Catrapta Fics we were talking about a couple months ago?

WE DIDNT GET TO SEE THE OTHER TWO FIRST KISSES >:((( we saw them mildly thirsting over scorpia but we were promised two more first kisses and the author left it u_u

i was really surprised by how this was made after season 1 yet the author seemed to be hitting story beats from season 4, in particular Catra's nightmares and guilt, her feelings over Adora, Entrapta, and Shadow Weaver blurring together, much like they did in the show.

rest under a read more. do these work in asks??????

The chapter of Scorpia ripping open the vent to talk to Entrapta, and then trying to carry her to her bed and accidentally ripping apart the bedding, well, I think this fic has one of the best and funniest Scorpia characterisations I've ever seen, especially impressive with how little we knew about her, or her relationship to Catra and Entrapta, after season 1. Definitely one of the more brazenly confident Scorpias. Refreshing.

I am always impressed by when stories write a closer Catra and Entrapta dynamic and, in a way that seems almost more inevitable than Catradora, probably cos these two in particularly are so... troubled????, they ALWAYS get too close and hurt each other. Catra has a tendency to lash out when she feels vulnerable, and Entrapta takes every social fallout as her own failure, because she has always been told as such and doesn't have enough experience to understand when other people are not treating her properly. There's a bit where Catra's inner Shadow Weaver tells her she's "dug her claws deep" in Entrapta and engineered this almost abusive dependency, and Catra feels so shit because this is, well, true to the scenes in that fic. But Catra is also growing attached and really does care about them, and she's fighting her inner battles and getting more nightmares because of all these feelings mashing together

Catra as a result decides if shes going to be a toxic girlfriend she will at least make some effort to make the others happy together and actively starts pairing Scortrapta, which is the most hilarious outcome possible. Catra pointing to her girlfriends happily cuddling: "Look what ive done!!! Those two have an ACTUALLY healthy relationship!!! Youre welcome!!!"

But basically the catrapta dynamic showing how easy it is to simultaneously depend on another person, and be hurt by them, i see that in a lot of stories and I think the learning curve for them is figuring out how to set healthy boundaries and stop that cycle, which is something that the SPT in general struggle with.

Entrapta going full crisis mode because her feelings for Catra have just completely distracted her from her science fixation is so funny, it's almost Hordak levels of overreacting and the way she tries to figure out WHY she feels that way and even sets fire to some things to "purge" the feelings and talks in a recorder for 30 minutes nearly blacking out from lack of oxygen, it is so unhinged. As is the scene afterwards where they. um. break the cafeteria.

10/10 lonnie catra fight scene

YES THIS IS THE MAIN ONE THAT I COULDN’T FIND AND I COULD NOT BE HAPPIER THAT YOU DID!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

It allows me to re-read it for at least the fourth time :)

I know! Gosh, this is the fic, this is honestly my “if there was one fic you could magically have updates for again, what would it be?” It would be this fantastic one right here. Characterization is so well done in it, and the character beats are good. There’s light hearted moments to balance out darker moments and I just love it to bits and pieces. And you’re totally right, it picked up on a lot of groundwork that was put down in Season 1 alone and that’s a huge part of what makes it a stand out from a lot of other fics that came out around that time too.

I love brazen Scorpia, she makes so much sense for this point in the show. I think she doesn’t get too nervous or second guessing that much until later on. At first she is just a one train running kind of person, if she wants to get to her friend in the vents and can’t fit well the vents will bend under her big meaty claws instead!

And I really like that initial bit of conflict in this fic, where Catra is just in a bad spot already to hear Lonnie being a jerk like that, but then Entrapta just enthusiastically steps into a hidden trip wire for Catra. So the lash out is Big and Bad, and of course Entrapta doesn’t get why. And just one chapter later we see Scorpia literally using her positivity as a blunt instrument the way Entrapta did the previous one, but just with much different results because of who, how, and why. And that damn nightmare sequence with all the mixed up emotions followed by Catra kinda faking her own version of comfort 100% based on Adora and AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

I had totally forgotten about the Lonnie and Catra fight, agree 10 outta 10. :p

It’s just a smart fic, and a fun fic with a lot of hurt/comfort and I think it was one of the first I read where Catra started to realize some emotional touchy feely shit in a way that felt realistic. I don’t know how to end this except saying that everyone who likes super poly trio and especially catrapta since that’s the only one of the pairings that actually had screen time, should go read Super Gal Pal Trio on Ao3!

[barsibatosbiggestfan]

BSD characters that are protective

Characters included: Dazai, Chuuya

Warnings:

hi so i meant to write for more characters but i lost inspiration half way through writing and i’ve had this sitting in my drafts waiting for inspo to come back but it hasnt :’) so i guess i’ll just post it as is

Dazai

outwardly he doesn’t seem super protective over you, but trust me, he is

honestly you’re one of the only things that he truly treasures in life like,,, of course he’s protective

dazai is super clingy so he’s usually around you anyways but when he’s not he always has a way to check in on you

this is kinda a theme with all of them but being the s/o of dazai could make you a target and he knows that. luckily, basically everyone has enough common sense to not mess with him but if it does happen, dazai has plans in place for any situation

if something happens when he’s around, like a guy is not leaving you alone, he has a pretty casual approach

he has faith in your abilities so he’ll stay back and see how you handle the situation

however if it escalates and you show any sign of distress he will step in

dazai is good with his words and he uses that to talk the guy into the ground. that guy will leave feeling like he is absolute scum of the earth. yet dazai will have a smile on his face the whole time

honestly he just loves you a lot and wants you to live the best life possible

Chuuya

i think we can all agree that chuuya is a little extra lol he can’t help but be a bit much

you are his EVERYTHING, he treasures you so much that he can’t let anything happen to you

he hires someone to be keeping an eye on you whenever he’s not along. chuuya has seen how dangerous the city can be so although he trusts you, he doesnt trust other people

god forbid someone tries to mess with you when he’s around, they probably won’t survive

chuuya is sometimes the human equivalent of a chihuahua with one major difference, he is WAY stronger than most people. guys will ignore he’s around bc they think he isn’t a threat due to his size, yeah thats a mistake

but like a chihuahua he can get angry and overreact to little things. theres times when there’s no actual threat but he will still try and fight someone, please hold him back and give him a kiss so he doesn’t kill an innocent person

all in all he means well and just really wants you safe, he can’t imagine his life without you so he goes to every length to make sure you are safe

#peachy writes #bsd x reader #dazai x reader #chuuya x reader #bsd headcanons #dazai headcanons #chuuya headcanons

[adoringhaikyuu]

hello!! i have a bit of a request! could i get oikawa bokuto and kuroo w a s/o who absolutely loves to cook and bake and does so a lot, but always always always shares the food they make? n they kinda slowed down in making food bc ppl arent accepting or wanting the food they make and its making them really down :(

ive been having this issue w my roommates bc i always cook for them w lots of love and they never eat what i make and its,, draining on me,,,,

but yea!! i just want oikawa bokuto n kuroo to make me feel a lil better :( thank u so so so much!!!! i love ur blog n ur writing so much 🖤

THEY AREN'T EATING YOUR FOOD SO YOU STOP COOKING FOR THEM

CHARACTERS: bokuto + kuroo + oikawa + (gn!reader)

WARNINGS: none

NOTES: i hope everything is ok and if not i hope it gets better!! <3 + i tried to make these a little happier ! they all take place over a week + i tried a new format with this we'll see if i stick w it sfkjhg

bokuto:

bokuto honestly didn't not want to eat your food

it's just that he had to go on a new diet for the upcoming season, his trainer and nutritionist told him to try it out to see how it works with him

and the things you cooked and baked were on the no eating list

he just loved when you made food for him, it tasted amazing and he could feel the love you put into it

he was planning on waiting the diet out and stockpiling all the food you made for afterwards as a treat

but he may or may not have failed to tell you that

so when you noticed he wasn't eating the food you left for him when he came home late after practice, you were disheartened and not to be dramatic, but heartbroken as well

deciding not to waste anymore, you simply stopped

turns out, the diet wasn't really working with bokuto, his nutritionist decided it was unecessary since he was getting the same results when he wasn't on it––thanks to his genetics, metabolism and workout routine. if anything he was glad, he was beyond excited to come home and finally eat your cooking again.

he practically ran home with a skip in his step, shouting out cheerfully as soon as he stepped past the front door. "baby i'm home!" he put his things down and took his shoes off, before gliding in front of the fridge to open it. "what's for dinner?––" he trailed off when he noticed there was nothing cooking, maybe you were starting later? he looked through the shelves in the fridge, looking for something to snack on in the mean time and gasped abruptly when he couldn't find the containers of food he'd been saving over the past week.

he closed the doors and frantically looked around the kitchen, opening random cupboards that couldn't possibly keep any refrigerated food fresh.

you walked in to find him searching around like a madman and you paused. "kou? what's wrong?"

he looked up at the sound of your voice and ran over to you, placing his hands on your waist. he kissed your forehead to say hello, despite the pout on his face and the clearly pressing matter on his mind. "hi baby doll. i was looking for all the food that was in the fridge, did you move them?"

you paused, "well i––i threw them out?"

his eyes almost bulged out of his head, "what?! why??"

you were confused by his sudden outburst, it's not like he was eating any of it. "i mean you weren't eating, kou...it's been a week since you've stopped eating my food, i just didn't see the point in keeping it all in there...that's also why i'm not making dinner right now."

he stared at you, shocked and disappointed in himself, he had no idea you were feeling this upset. "oh my god...did i forget to tell you?" your brows furrowed curiously but he simply pulled you into his arms for a tight hug. "i'm so sorry bub––they wanted me to try out this new diet, that's why i wasn't eating! i didn't mean to make you upset! i was even planning on eating all of the dinners i missed afterwards...but the diet wasn't for me so i can go back to eating normally now!"

you pulled back slightly to look at him, not knowing what to say. "oh..."

he gave you a sad smile, "yeah," he brought a hand up to hold your cheek, "you know i love your food––it honestly hurt my heart when they told me i couldn't eat it!"

you cracked a smile and he gave you one right back, "i'm serious!"

you sighed happily, "okay...so i guess i should start making dinner then?––"

he was pulling you over to the fridge before you could finish your sentence, "absolutely! and i'm helping!"

you laughed and started getting the ingredients together, "how about i make your favorite tonight?"

he nodded like a child excited for ice cream and kissed you on the cheek. he wasn't really a chef himself, that's why he left it to you––he didn't want to burn down the kitchen. so he'd mostly be staying by your side, maybe handing you things or mixing things, but you enjoyed his company nonetheless.

you had started seasoning the food when he slid his arms around you from behind, leaning down to rest his head on your shoulder. "hey baby?" you hummed in response and his hold on you tightened a bit. "would you...mind making my favorite dessert tonight too? i've been craving it for a while now..."

you smiled to yourself and nodded, "i'd love to."

he squeezed you and kissed your cheek loudly, "yes! thank you i love you so much!–"

kuroo:

almost every day you sent kuroo off to work with a baked good you made him

he loved them and you loved making them so it was a win-win

you'd put them in a little container with a cute note

and though he knew what to expect each time, they never failed to brighten his day

but earlier this week you stopped by kuroo's office to drop off the treat he'd forgotten to take with him today in his rush out the door

he was in a meeting so his assistant let you into his office

and you felt an ache in your chest when you noticed four of the treats you'd given him this past week all on his desk, unopened

that day, you went back home with all the uneaten sweets and unshed tears aching to fall from your eyes

did he just take them to please you? did he not really want them this whole time? was he just trying to be a good husband?

all these questions flooded your mind, only confusing and hurting you further

but one thing was for certain, you'd stop baking them for him

it didn't make sense for you to if you knew it'd be going to waste

kuroo was beyond done with his day and it wasn't even halfway over. he sighed, loosening his tie as he shut the door to his office, drained from the two hour meeting he'd been in.

thankfully, he had no more meetings today so he could sit and relax while he worked in his office. he sat down at his desk and shut his eyes for a moment, needing to calm down and regenerate himself. he reached over to his left blindly, knowing he'd left the treats you baked him there––things had been getting so hectic lately, he barely had time to eat them, but he was saving them for when he did have the time.

his hand smacked down on the desk three times as he tried to reach for the containers before he finally opened his eyes. his brows furrowed slightly, "what the..." he looked around the desk, opening the drawers and everything before giving up and calling his assistant in.

she knocked on the door and he signaled for her to come in.

"yes sir?"

"hi, do you know where the sweets i had on my desk are? i thought i left them here."

his assistant thought for a moment before perking up, "oh i believe your partner came and collected them while you were in your meeting, sir."

he frowned, "y/n was here? why didn't you tell me?"

"they asked me not to disturb you."

kuroo nodded, "oh alright...well, thank you, that'll be all."

he immediately pulled his personal phone out and called your number, you must have been back home by now.

you saw his name pop up on your screen as you were about to throw out the baked goods and hesitated for a good while before sighing and picking up. "yes?"

you could practically hear the smirk on his face as he spoke through the phone.

kuroo leaned back in his chair, looking up at the ceiling as he spoke. "you stole my sweets from me? where'd you hide them? or did you eat them?"

he didn't even feel bad that he'd just left them there?––"well you clearly weren't eating them kuroo," the smirk dropped from his face and he sat up, alert. woah––kuroo? why did you sound upset? "they were just sitting on your desk––anyway, i was about to throw them out."

"woah, what?? why would you do that?!"

he was speaking to you but you honestly weren't listening, too annoyed and too hurt to pay attention. "look if you didn't like them, you could have just told me so i wouldn't have to waste hours every day busting my ass to make them for you––were you just throwing them out this whole time, is that it?––"

he shook his head with each word you uttered before realizing you couldn't see him, he was just in complete shock. "what? no no, kitten listen to me, hey listen, okay?" you paused, mostly to catch your breath, but he took that opportunity to speak up. "i love when you bake for me, everything you make tastes amazing. i love eating the sweets you make when i'm at work because they remind me of you and of how much you love me––this week's just been a complete pain in my ass and i haven't had the time to sit down, eat and enjoy your treats, i love them and you too much to just scarf them down in a minute. i need to savor them, you know?" despite the adrenaline running in your body, you cracked a smile. "i finally had some time to myself and i was gonna eat them just now when i realized they were missing so i called you..."

he trailed off and you took that as your cue to speak up. "oh..."

you could hear his smirk again, "yeah, oh."

"so i...maybe...overreacted a bit."

he chuckled, the sound warm even through the phone. "no kitten you didn't, i get why you were upset––but, you should have asked me about it first."

you sighed, "yeah, yeah..." you looked at the open containers in front of you, only now noticing the notes you put in them were gone––he must have taken them out to read them even though he didn't have time to eat––"wait a minute, if you haven't had time to eat..." you could hear him clear his throat awkwardly, "kuroo you haven't been eating lunch?!"

he laughed awkwardly, "um, i mean, i eat after work––"

"that's not the same!" you rolled your eyes, "i'm coming back over there and i'm bringing you lunch and you're going to eat it, understand?"

he poked his tongue to the side of his cheek. "okay, kitten."

you sighed, "you're lucky i love you."

he leaned back in his chair again, "oh could you bring one of the––"

you cut him off, putting one of the already closed containers back in your bag. "already on it."

he grinned, "god, i love you."

oikawa:

oikawa loves your cooking

and normally he scrambles home after practice to eat it

but this past week training was grueling and tiring, so by the time he came out every day, he was drained mentally and physically

and he was starving

he couldn't wait any longer as soon as he stepped foot out of the gym

so he went to the nearest takeout place, bodega, whatever to get something to eat quickly,, for the whole week

he thought nothing of it

but when he came home every night for a week straight saying he'd already eaten when you tried to offer him the food you spent hours making?

it hurt, a lot

so you decided you'd stop cooking

oikawa was aching to go home––he was exhausted and all he thought about to get him through the day was you, your cooking and your cuddles. he needed all three immediately. when his coach said they were all free to go home, he could almost feel a weight lifting off his shoulders.

he sighed loudly as he stepped into your home, peeling his sneakers off and setting his things aside. he padded into the house, going straight to the kitchen and frowned when you were nowhere in sight. he'd come home a bit early today, around the time you were usually making dinner.

he looked around and walked to the living room, smiling to himself when he found you sitting on the couch, looking for something to watch on tv.

you smiled up at him and greeted him, the sound of your voice making him feel warm inside. "hi baby, how was your day?"

he huffed and slid onto the couch, lying down so his head was in your lap. "don't even talk to me about the day i've had––i was thinking about you the whole time." he took your hand in his and brought it up to his lips to give it a soft kiss. "you got me through it."

he placed one of your hands on his cheek and the other in his hair, mumbling a thank you when you started playing with the slightly damp mess on his head. "mm that feels good baby." he closed his eyes and sighed contently, settling in comfortably to your touch.

after a few moments, he spoke up softly, trying his best not to fall asleep. "what's for dinner?"

"um i'm not sure," your eyes were focused back on the tv as you thought for a moment. "what do you wanna order?"

he paused and cracked one eye open, opening the other when he realized you weren't joking. "wha––order?"

you looked down at him and nodded hesitantly, "yeah? like takeout?"

he sat up abruptly and turned to face you, "what? why?"

you paused this time, unsure of how to respond. "well...every night for the past week you haven't been eating my food. i think it's fair for me to assume you don't want my food anymore."

he felt a piece of himself break on the inside, "oh angel..." he grabbed your hands, "no no––i love your food, you know that––i've just been so tired this week, i couldn't even wait to get home to eat, so i stopped by the nearest places with the boys." he scooted closer to you. "i'm so sorry i made you feel like i didn't appreciate what you do for me––i promise from now on i'll drag myself on my hands and knees if i have to to come home to you and eat––"

you laughed and shook your head, "tooru there's no need for that––"

he cut you off, almost offended. "of course there is! i hurt your feelings baby, i never want to do that again!"

you smiled and pulled him in for a sweet kiss that he quickly melted into. you pulled away to look at him earnestly. "it's okay babe. just...maybe tell me next time? i was just worried you were tired of my food, that's all."

he pulled you into his lap and held you tight. "i could never and will never be tired of anything you do for me, i promise." he kissed your cheek. "though it is my fault, i did miss your cooking this week––but if you're not in the mood to make anything i understand and we can still order––"

you shook your head, "i'll make your favorite, okay?"

he pulled you in for another kiss, "i really don't deserve you."

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