#like seriously I just reblog stuff that resonates with me

[atsu-i]

Hello, I just saw the anon ask talking about you not being on tumblr that much anymore and we don't really talk to eachother (I think we only ever exchanged messages once), but I wanted to say, while I can, that I have wonderful memories of this website and a lot of them include seeing the mangacaps that you reblog or reading your tags, including all of the occasional venting and even some of the adorable auntie stories.

If you allow me to ramble a little bit, I want to talk about the blog that you called "shitty" and how I think it is actually really cool.

You might not think that you do much because you mostly just reblog stuff, but I feel like all the mangacaps that you reblog are more meaningful than most people think. I think that they are an act of self-expression and throughout the years I've felt like those kinds of posts express a desire that people have to be more honest with their feelings and put them out into the world. I've felt like the mangacaps, combined with all of your text posts, probably do accomplish some of this.

I am not going to say that your blog changed how I view life or anything like that, but I can say that your blog, along with many other similar ones, have seriously been a part of my journey of better understanding myself.

For example, today I liked a post that had a guy feeding a cat in it. And I didn't like the post because the art was amazing. I liked it because I thought that the guy is gentle and that aspect of gentleness resonated with me personally. And obviously, there are times where I might like a post just because I think that the art looks cool, but I think that a lot of times when I'm browsing through tumblr I'm just learning more about myself through the things that I like.

Maybe the whole thing isn't supposed to be that deep, but sometimes (not always) for me it is. I think that this whole thing feels unreal for you because you don't put a lot of effort but I think that it is pretty cool that a bunch of people like the blog despite that.

As always, have a nice day and drink some water.

;-;

#wasnt expecting a reply to that anon reply but tysm for....somehow telling me how you felt about this blog #and somehow me? #also just like the anon...i wanna say ty for appreciating this blog of mine #like seriously I just reblog stuff that resonates with me #and sometimes I just rant and share stuff I wanna share and yeah sometimes I just reblog coz I find it pretty #also the manga's i read shows i watched and will watch...its all here lol and it's...how should I put it #it's just me and somehow it doesnt feel 'real' that anyone will give attention to it? am putting myself out here and not expecting anything #but somehow...some of you notice and am like why lol coz you know my content.....it's very depressing most of the time tbh #anyways haha i still remember you btw haha we talked I think twice? waayy before and am glad I did #thanks for rambling to me...it's always welcome btw #I like reading what you guys think and feel #and somehow I always receive kindness which I think I still dont deserve but you still give it anyway #all I could do is say ty ;-; #like this blog really is my escape tbh....and some of you appreciating it makes me sad and glad at the same time? ;-; #really tysm #and yes am rambling too in my response haha i hope it doesnt bother you reading all this nonsense lol #again ty idk how many times i should say it but yeah #this means a lot...you and everyone else who appreciates me being here #and with that....I would like to say have a nice day/night dear! #I always stay hydrated lol but yeah i hope you do too ^^ stay safe yeah? #oh also! thanks for thinking the blog is cool ;-; you are nice for thinking it that way ;-; #lastly ty for still following me and remembering stuff I shared on here even the personal stuff #again tysm ;-;

[gloriousmonsters]

i’m the same anon who had the knee-jerk capslock malfunction. i realize it’s probably kinda cheap of me to be like “literally talk about whatever original work u want!!!!”. so to do the meme/challenge properly and pick one……..I’ve actually been MOST curious about Heart Hands Bone. just given some of the stuff you’ve reblogged that really resonates.

but seriously, i wanna hear about whatever original work(s) you’re feeling unhinged about rn!!!!

I'm always happy for the excuse to bring up HHB :D honestly now that I think about it, it probably would be useful to write up little 'this is what that project is' posts I can link to when I talk about them. table that for now.

Heart Hands Bone takes place in a town built over the remains of an ill-understood network of fungal and flesh 'brain' that, once upon a time, took the form of a fairy-tale forest above ground. It's all that's left of a narrota bestia, a creature that fed off narrative and granted miracles, and the town above it is split uneasily between tourism that sells a sanitized museum of its past and the people still caught in the Forest's threads; the cursed, the blessed, the transformed.

Katinka is a new resident, but feels closer to 'fairytown' than she does the modern world. When the chance to save a life presents itself, she does what old-school virtue dictates, and trades her own life for another; but just as she's resigned herself to an inglorious role in a bloody fairy tale, she's pulled into a much stranger one.

The Child-Eater is the last of his kind; the scion of an ancient mother, he never saw the Forest in its glory, but he still believes in its power. Indignant at Katinka facing death for an act of kindness, he saves her life and entangles her in a story he's convinced isn't really about him; it's about the man he loves with a passion that's made him uneasy with his current role. Hal Anselm, the 'prince', the enigmatic and unstable heir of a royal family descended from Snow White. The setting has changed, but their power has not, nor the bloody and jealous hold they keep on the most treasured relics of the Forest--Snow White's bones.

But through the years, five have slipped through their fingers. The Child-Eater has discovered the location of four, embedded in the dying Forest's last strongholds of story. When he gives Hal the information, the cursed prince is happy to invite the two of them along on his quest--and Katinka, despite herself, follows her conflicted sense of honor and her own fascination with the prince into a fairy tale made of fairy tales.

...Man, I need to whittle that blurb down somehow, but there's a lot going on in this one, y'know? Anyway. Excerpt.

Solvania’s house crouched like a toad in the shadows of the river bridge. The west end of town, fairytown as some humans called it, for how it was thick with the remnants of fairy tales, boasted many houseless inhabitants, but none of them took advantage of the bridge’s shelter--Solvania’s house exuded decay, long-toothed bitterness. In the old days, if the fire was lit, it would have smelled like baking bread due to the flour in the bricks; these days, it smelled like mold and rot.

The only other people that came there, aside from the child-eater, were occasional bandits barging in to use the oven or other kitchen equipment. He loathed them--still thought longingly about the death of the one that had put a nick in his good cleaver--but in a way, he had to be glad of their crass manners. If the Bandit King hadn’t barged into his kitchen once, commenting cheerfully on the bones he was trying to clean and commandeering the use of his small knives--a favor from one cannibal to another, let’s call it--he would never have seen Her bone.

A tooth, rattling around in that cheap plastic locket the King wore like a prize. Just in its presence, the child-eater’s stomach ached and the gut-trees grown to two or three feet down near the river started singing, rubbing their branches together in the wind. He’d sat on the floor staring, barely aware of the bandits jeering at him in between their business of cutting a girl up on his table, until the Bandit King noticed, and laughed.

“In love with Snow?” he’d asked, dangling the locket from his fingers. “I can’t blame you.”

That wasn’t quite accurate. The child-eater did love Snow--as he loved the Gallows God, an encompassing, reverent love that seemed to fill the ugly, rotten hole Solvania had hollowed out inside of him over the years. Twin lanterns in the darkness. But he wasn’t in love with her; such things were beyond a creature like him, even if he aspired to them.

And what he felt, in that moment, wasn’t about love. There was reverence, yes, but mostly there was excitement. Fervent, wild hope. He’d already heard rumors of three bones, after diligent searching, but to have one so close to his grasp--this, he could take to the prince with an easy mind.

#heart hands bone #WIP meme #it's my most current/active WIP and i love it sm honestly #it's not As noticeable in this excerpt but from the CE's point of view #people are only ever referred to with role names (king/bandit/prince/girl/princess) #while Katinka's perspective uses Actual Names

[drill-teeth-art]

My comic Good Bi Gender is really blowing up more than I expected and traveling outside my usual circle. And that’s awesome, and I’m very glad it’s resonating.

But I’m genuinely wondering how many people who are more unfamiliar with my work read it and went to check my blog only to discover I post transformers fanart for my wip of a fan version of a series literally every day.

BUT. In genuine seriousness. I’m really thrilled my comic is resonating with so many. People who are transmasc and bigender and tons of people in the tags who aren’t those identities who still connected so much. It genuinely means the world to me. And it genuinely means a lot that the comic is circulating as much as it is. The comments and tags on that comic. I’ve literally just been reading through them all this morning, and it’s a wild and amazing feeling to see how many people are all so connected in this.

So. For anyone who saw that comic and gave my blog here a follow and doesn’t know much about transformers (which I mostly post art of) but is curious about my work, I’ll post a summary of what I’m workshopping. Because it’s basically a retelling of the story of transformers my own way since transformers was the first “boy” thing I liked growing up and is very significant to me.

And also, I might post more gender stuff now too. I have a series of illustrations I’m not done with yet about my gender I was on the fence about sharing, but maybe now I will.

But anyway. Thank everyone who liked my comic. Thank everyone who reblogged my comic. Thank everyone who left tags and comments about how much the comic meant. Because that means the world to me.

#otto thoughts

[lycanlovingvampyre]

MAG 179 Relisten

Activity on my first listen: cutting the French tamarisk in my garden.

JON: "Sorry." BASIRA: "You apologise too much." Hmm, I wonder why Jon would have this feeling that he always has to apologize...

JON: [Chuckling] "Martin says the same thing." BASIRA: [Chuckling] "Like he’s any better." Hmm, I wonder why Martin would have this feeling as well...  (Guess what, abuse and trauma can do such things.)

JON: "What happened?" MARTIN: "I-I thought you were about to fire." BASIRA: "So you gasped, just in case?" Martin is so funny xD

I remember immediately noticing that the Daisy-munching-sounds stopped when Basira and Jon got into that argument on my first listen.

I can't quite figure out what happened when Daisy is already close to Jon (when Jon tells Basira to take the shot, but Martin tells her not to cause she'll hit Jon) but before she bit his leg... What kind of struggle happened there? I'm pretty sure this had to be envisioned in some way or shape to properly figure out what everybody would be saying and what sounds we're hearing.

Also, with the distorted growls and super distorted voice I always imagined Daisy's appearance similar to that fucking horrifying bear in Annihilation. Something that is similar distorted like her voice.

[GUNSHOT] [SNARLING] [TWO MORE GUNSHOTS] Ah, there's the three gunshots Alex messed up in MAG 158 XD

JON: "Is it… Is it awful that I wish she’d recognised me?" No, it's not. It's like he says. They were friends there near the end. They shared the suffering of starving, shared the feeling of nobody understanding their situation...

JON: "I didn’t think to check. Just, sort of, assumed it was safe." MARTIN: "That’s a pretty big assumption, Jon." Tbf it's justified. Until now there has never been anything out there which could have hurt Jon. Trevor could have hurt Martin, could have even killed him if he was still a Hunter. Well, Jon got away this time and I guess from now on hed be keeping a better eye out for this.

JON: “Hmmm. Apparently. I mean, I know it sounds strange, but it… it felt right for Daisy to be able to hurt me.” MARTIN: “Dream logic again?” JON: “Mmm. The… resonances from our relationship before the change carried over and –” Interesting post which got dug up because of a mag a day today. Also reblogged it today, but I’m repeat myself here: That does make sense and it works very well with MAG 200. Jon also says it to Martin, “It has to be you”.

BASIRA: "No. You go on. I’ll make my own way to London." MARTIN: "What? No, don’t be daft, it’s not a problem for us to wait while you deal with this." BASIRA: "Please. Just go. …" MARTIN: "Wait, seriously?" Martin didn't learn anything from last episode. Basira likes to deal with stuff on her own and in silence.

MARTIN: "We’re not doing this." BASIRA: [softly] "Martin. Please." I know, Martin's intentions are good and it's his caregiver thing, but he got to stop assuming what's best for him in a situation like this is best for everyone else as well. It's already hard and it's so energy-draining fighting off other people you don't want to respect your way to grief on top of it.

@a-mag-a-day

#a-mag-a-day #mag 179 #tma #tma spoilers

[breadrising]

🌿🦴❄️

Man I meant to reblog that to my fandom blog LOL oops

🌿 ⇢ give some advice on writer's block and low creativity

For me personally I just try not to push it Stick to low stakes stuff and ride it out I've been writers blocked for months but I tried out roleplaying and it's a bit less scary than writing a whole thing by myself yet it's still good practice

🦴 ⇢ is there a piece of media that inspires your writing? 

Ngl Infinity Train has inspired a lot of my plot structure because the "cars" mechanism is so compelling to me due to its simplicity Actual play D&D podcasts such as Dimension 20 and Dungeons and Daddies showed me that my combination of humor and emotion can actually resonate with audiences and be taken seriously Specific works have specific inspirations but overall those are two big ones I feel like children's literature and YA are huge inspirations as well for their simplicity and the fact that they're what I was consuming when I started writing and in my experience your earliest inspirations are the ones you'll never escape lol My ideas are always complex but simplicity is what I admire most so I have to boil everything down to its essence

❄️ ⇢ what's your dream theme/plot for a fic, and who would write it best?

Well I guess all my dream fics are ones I want to write so the answer would be "a version of myself whose motivation isn't as fleeting" lol I suppose there's this idea for an adventure time: fionna and cake fic I want to write eventually and it follows Gary using baking science to go save Marshall who's accidentally been wormholed back to Ooo

#asks

[livebloggingmydescentintomadness]

Hi, momdad.

Thanks to the recent aceweek on tumblr, I am slowly realizing that I am indeed asexual. It is a groundbreaking realization for me, because I always wondered what I was doing wrong in terms of sexual experiences (should I watch different porn? should I explore more with different people? should I try to be more in connection with my body? Why am I just not like that?) and the way these asexuals explain themselves, it just resonated with me. A lot. It's so cliche to say this but it is a cliche for a reason. With all my heart, I say that: for the first time in my life, I don't feel so left out, I don't feel like I have to do something to correct myself, etc. etc. So thank you, first and foremost, for reblogging ace content and being an ace blogger yourself. Much gratitude. It means A LOT. Seriously.

I wanted to ask you to be my guiding light one more time, if you don't mind. I think I might be aromantic. I feel love, attachment, fondness, and everything else, but I never really understood the difference between love to my closest friends and love to my boyfriend. Well. It is different, especially now that I have dated my bf for so long and I have lost close contact with many of my close friends as I grew up, but the difference is in the extent or the amount of fondness I feel for them and not the quality of the love itself. If that makes sense? It's the same kind of love, only to my boyfriend who's been my best friend for so many years, it's much more intense, big and therefore more intimate than to what I have for my friends.

But that's maybe what everyone else feels when they feel romantic love? But some people fall in love when they don't know the other person well, and loving a friend need time, so maybe not?

Anyways, sorry for rambling. The question for which I wanted your wisdom is that: I think I may be aromantic, and I want to tell this to my boyfriend, because (a) I don't think it's fair to him that he thinks I am romantically in love with him when I may not be, and (b) I think I also want to communicate who I am genuinely to him because he's my best friend and I want him to understand me better. But I just have no idea how I can do that without making him feel unloved or putting our relationship in possible jeopardy.

How can I tell him? Are there some effective ways to explain this? He's not versed in the aro/ace vocabulary, not even the slightest bit, he does not know this world, he's a hetero cis man living in a conservative country, he does not speak english and most of these materials are in english, so he probably has never had any access to this stuff. But he's the best critical thinker. He understands queerness well when he's told, and he's the fiercest supporter of do whatever you want to do and be whatever you want to be unless it harms anyone else. His profile picture is a rainbow for that reason when he's never met a single (at least openly) queer person in his life.

More importantly, and I'm so scared to ask this: Can I even be dating someone if I am aromantic and the other person is not? Have I not been "dating" him and should I correct it from now on? By breaking up with him and being his best friend? (This somehow makes my heart break, which I don't understand why that is the case for me if I am indeed aromantic.)

Sorry for sending such a long ask. I literally have nobody else to talk to who understands this issue (I also live in that conservative country with my boyfriend haha), so I ramble, apologies.

hello, darling! congratulations on your realization(s)! it truly is an incredibly freeing feeling, realizing that there's nothing wrong with you and you aren't alone, and i'm so glad that you've found that for yourself.

i'll try to answer your questions about aromanticism as best i can, and for background/context to my answers i'm going to preface by saying that i've never actually dated or been in a romantic relationship myself, but i haven't been aro my whole life, as i was once in love with someone and i used to get crushes. so in that sense i can help with distinguishing between romantic and platonic love, but i may not be the best for talking to boyfriends lol.

first of all, YES, aromantic people can date and have romantic relationships (and get married) if they want and choose, just as asexuals can have sex if that's what they want and choose. they won't have the same feelings or experiences about it as allos, but they can still want and choose it for their own reasons.

it sounds to me like you seem to have a good relationship with your boyfriend, so there's absolutely no reason to break up with him just because of this. if you end up deciding it's not what you want, that's another thing, but if you're happy with him, please don't think you have to break up with him because you're aro and/or ace.

in my experience, romantic love does feel different than platonic love. platonic love is in no way less or inferior, but romantic love does generally feel more like obsession or infatuation. in the crush phase at least, it makes you feel... giddy, butterflies in your stomach and champagne in your blood, and you tend to make an absolute fool of yourself because you can't think straight and you'll do anything to see them and talk to them and, if you're very lucky, make them smile at you. when you lay eyes on them, your whole brain and body and soul goes "!!!!!!"

by contrast, platonic love is, like you said, a great deal of fondness. you don't lose your shit over someone, but you feel a great deal of warmth and care for them, you want to be around them and share things with them and you want them to be well.

these days, when i have a celebrity "crush", i don't feel butterflies, i just feel a great deal of fondness for them. i have no idea why that changed for me, why i suddenly 'turned' aro, but i can definitely see the difference in feelings in myself. i'm deeply fond of my qpp (queerplatonic partner, a relationship type that straddles the line between "friends" and "more than friends") of 17 years, but i definitely don't have romantic feelings for her.

some aromantics find everything to do with romance anathema to them, some aros love romance. personally, i can't get enough of love stories, but the idea of actually dating horrifies me. i might be happy to have a life partner, but i wouldn't want something that looks exactly like a typical romantic relationship. some aros avoid even watching movies with romance in them, some aros get married. it's entirely up to your own feelings and what you want for yourself.

it sounds to me like your boyfriend is a really great guy, and exactly the sort of open-minded person who will be able to understand the way you feel and experience things differently. i've never had to explain being aro to a significant other, but i think you could probably boil this down to, "i don't experience romantic feelings the same way most people do, but i'm more fond of you than anyone else and i want to keep the amount of intimacy that i share with you."

because that's sort of what relationships of all kinds are about, right? fondness and intimacy. different relationships mean different amounts and types of intimacy, but it's still about sharing those things with another person, whether they're family, friends, or partners.

if you and your partner are happy with the degree of fondness and intimacy that you are both sharing with each other, then nothing needs to change except a greater understanding of who you are as a person. if you learn more about being aro and realize that hey, actually, doing X romantic thing makes you uncomfortable, then you can discuss that, but nothing needs to change unless you WANT it to.

if you're happy with your boyfriend, you are 100% allowed to be aromantic and happy with your boyfriend. if you're happy having sex with your boyfriend, you are 100% allowed to be asexual and happy having sex with your boyfriend. if you're not happy, if you're uncomfortable, then think about what changes to make. if you're happy, just be happy, love. that's always a good thing.

here's my aromanticism tag for more, and here's my asexuality resources tag since you'll likely want to do more reading there too. take care, darling. <3

#aromanticism #dating #advice #long post for ts #anonymous #ask

[prettyboykatsuki]

Hi! I'm not sure what the Tumblr etiquette is here, so if I misstep forgive me, but I wanted to let you know that I used a screenshot with your name on it on a post about 1960's fanfic - which, to my surprise, has apparently "done the numbers" and has like 15k notes on it now:

https://www.tumblr.com/bliss-bliss-bliss-bliss/711429082005553152/fanfolks-today-need-to-remember-how-important-the?source=share

It wasn't exactly a reblog because I was still figuring out how stuff worked, so you're not getting notifications about it - I think you had reblogs turned off. If that means you object to your writing being circulated, it wasn't my intention to disrespect that and I'm sorry.

I'm not even sure how to bring it up now, or if an ask is even the right format, but it seemed like the right thing to at least let you know that like fifteen thousand people have seen a blurb you wrote in support of older women in fan spaces. If you want me to edit the post I'm happy to of course, but it, uh, it seems to be really resonating with people.

P.S. I saw your posts about college - that sounds rough! I'm so sorry you're struggling with it! I'm not going to advise you whether or not to keep going, because everyone is different; I'm just going to remind you to reach out for help, and to listen to yourself, and to be kind to yourself. Good luck ~

hey! i saw that post floating around and yes i did turn rbs off but mostly because the post was blowing up and i simply didn't want to see the notifs anymore. i don't necessarily have a problem with you screenshotting the post and using it since you still included my url and everything plus the post itself isnt super novel anyways

you don't have to edit it!! im glad the message got to people some other way. at the time of posting i had like two separate text notes absolutely wreaking havoc on my notifs so i just turned off rbs for both. i appreciate you reaching out anyways, but seriously no need for apology!! i didnt see it as disrespectful. if i turn off rbs and people still want to rb some other way it is what it is yk. its out of my hands at some point

im glad it resonates and i mean what i said lmao. i think the disrespect of older women in fandom is insane because 99.9% of amazing fanwork comes from that demographic of people. i would know!! they are my friends and mutuals!!!!

re : ps : thank you!! its whooping my ass but ill be okay. thanks for the warm wishes and kindness in general, always appreciated!! hope you're having a great day!

#return to sender #i really dont care where my text posts go adskjdj #ive had so many of them reposted in random places at least on tumblr its contained lol #the only place it makes me uncomfortable is like instagram and tiktok

[monimolimnion]

I posted 11,344 times in 2022

That's 4,097 more posts than 2021!

35 posts created (0%)

11,309 posts reblogged (100%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@jollyfanasties

@itsrapsodia

@charmps-you-grickly

@freakinflipflop

@4ragon

I tagged 4,014 of my posts in 2022

#ofmd - 1,064 posts

#wwdits - 917 posts

#queue - 109 posts

#goncharov - 92 posts

#unreality - 74 posts

#seascape tag - 68 posts

#help - 48 posts

#lauren - 46 posts

#drawtectives - 35 posts

#oh my god - 28 posts

Longest Tag: 140 characters

#the day after i saw this post for the first time i hung out with my friends and we had the most cursed conversations in ubers both there and

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Kindred [Chapter 12 + Epilogue]

name: Kindred fandom: Ace Attorney | Gyakuten Saiban pairing: Mitsurugi Reiji | Miles Edgeworth/Naruhodou Ryuuichi | Phoenix Wright wordcount/chapters: 13/13, 96k additional tags: miles adopting pess: the fic!, it'll take a while but we'll get to narumitsu eventually i promise, set during disbarment but no AJ spoilers bc i haven't played it yet, Plot Lite(TM), very mild disbarment-typical angst, Slow(ish) Burn, References to / characters from AAI 1&2 but no major spoilers, COMPLETE!

summary:

Her ears prick up at the sound of his voice, but she doesn’t move. "You'll have to forgive me, I'm afraid. I suspect that I am not very good at this." Miles would feel silly to an extreme for speaking to her like this, except for the way that Pess thaws, ever so slightly - her tail twitches, her head dips a little from its stiff posture, and she huffs out a long breath, heavier than her shallow meter from before. "I'm aware you don't understand me, but I am quite certain that I understand you, Pess, at least a little. And I want you to know you are safe with me in this house, and that this will be your home so long as you are happy here.”

Against his better judgement, Miles Edgeworth adopts a dog.

Read it on AO3!

74 notes - Posted August 8, 2022

#4

not to bang on about it, but i think the Goncharov Phenomenon and the new Defunctland video being released at the same time is kind of. apt?

in the documentary Kevin spends an hour and a half in agony about his existence as a youtuber/artist/documentarian, agony i recognise and deeply resonate with, and comes to the conclusion that work doesnt have to be "great" to be worth it. that seriousness and importance is not something worth trading off joy for. that it's not actually a bad thing necessarily that sketches and memes take off and stuff you worked hard on doesn't, even if it feels bad in the moment

his point being that creativity is worth it even in isolation, that even the "real" virtuosos have no regrets about producing work that is less important, and that it's about whoever you touch with the work, no matter how shallow or simple the work may seem, and no matter how shallow or simple the impact might be on whoever you touched.

you still touched them, didn't you?

i think it's obvious why this resonates with me quite so much - in a fandom context, as well as where that intersects with my work in games, my ideas for novels that might not get anywhere, and what i "should" be doing to be considered a proper writer

and that's why goncharov is such a fantastic fucking example.

the entire POINT of goncharov is that it doesn't mean anything. and because of that, it can mean everything at once. the outpouring of creativity in unison from seemingly all corners of tumblr is no less beautiful because it is couched in memery and an inside joke. the analysis speaks just as much about the context of our zeitgeist as it does the film that doesn't exist. the art, the writing, the music. everyone taking whatever craft they've built for themselves and using it to reach out to each other for no reason other than it's fun.

it is worthy of doing, in and of itself.

my god. humans just need an excuse to create beauty sometimes because we'll do it about fucking anything. and i think that's wonderful

90 notes - Posted November 23, 2022

#3

ok. hear me out. i have thoughts about nandor’s list of ideal wife traits.

ive seen posts that are like 'it's a list of traits guillermo has!' reading it as a nandermo hint, as well as posts that say 'guillermo has the exact opposite of those traits to show that nandor is in denial' and i really don’t think it’s a direct 1:1 of either of those at all

it's pretty clear to me that the list is first of all much more literal than that - the show isn't always trying to indicate something aside from literally what it's talking about (the traits of the wives he re-deaded during the montage) and while i love reading into things as much as the next guy i think this list really was just written to serve the joke more than anything

BUT. but. it's also something that is much more indicative of nandor's inner workings than it is a straight up list of things he likes about guillermo but won’t admit to because, well, let's list the traits -humble, an excellent listener, not petty or slovenly or vain or manipulative, never asked him to shave off his beard, not smarter than him, warm and wanted to be with him (🥺), kind, a good haggler, merciful, horny, and has a sense of spontaneity and fun

to me this reads almost as if it's a classic comphet 'oh i just have high standards' kind of bent thinking. half of the traits seem to actively contradict another item in the list! this is the exact kind of thought pattern that happens when you are so divorced from your actual Self that you don't actually even know what you want - if i just have a reason that every relationship isn't perfect, an excuse for it to never be right, then i don't have to face what is genuinely happening inside me. if i have a formula, then i am safe. 

i would argue that the list is actually three separate things: 1: things nandor genuinely does want in a relationship (which do tend to line up with guillermo's own traits, or the ones he has made most visible during his servitude) 2: things that would be good for nandor’s personal development and therefore he does not want to be challenged on them (especially by a near-stranger as his wives have become to him - the fight scene is the big example here, since his reaction to guillermo in the same context was so different, but also i’m including things like not being smarter than him, etc. these are largely Also traits guillermo has, and are the ones pointed out by the posts arguing that the whole list is about guillermo in negative).  3: the other things are just quibbles because he is a petty little bitch but we been knew that already

to me his total misread of marwa's personality at the end of the episode is so starkly obvious for those exact reasons - he doesn't know what he wants at all, and it's not as simple as his subconscious having all the answers in a direct negative for us to superimpose guillermo on, either. because divorcing yourself from your emotions and anything remotely difficult to process for 400 years is bound to have some sort of impact.

also i am deeply certain that nandor was largely the same (read: an asshole) even while he was still human, too, but that’s a topic for another time

118 notes - Posted July 16, 2022

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287 notes - Posted February 3, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

thinking about how nandor calling all his partners wives is a clever way to have him very explicitly handwave heteronormativity and establishes him as someone who doesn't even register the modern sexuality zeitgeist BUT still places him as the sole husband: still centers him as the man of the house, the one waited on hand and foot, the one in charge, and the one ultimately aloof from a relationship that is supposed to be a partnership (there being many wives notwithstanding).

and how if, in the end, guillermo refuses to be nandor's wife and insists on being his husband that it sings in total synergy with the entire storyline thus far - it would be guillermo learning to own himself, his sexuality, his self worth, and refusing to be a doormat, and nandor accepting that change is part of life even when you are undying, and that he cannot always be dominant in order to avoid being vulnerable, and in fact needs a partner that will challenge him

in this essay i won't

1,634 notes - Posted July 17, 2022

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#tumblr2022 #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review #kindred made it into the top 5!!! #genuinely so nice

[fencesandfrogs]

I'm sorry people are clowing on your post. Personally seeing it made me very emotional because I'm generally terrified to express the ways my parents unchecked disorders fucked me up, and I never see other posts about it. Just ones yelling about not vilifying pds which is awesome don't get me wrong, it's great to see people trying to break stigmas around this stuff. But also leaves me feeling guilty and like a bad person for being traumatised by my parents unchecked disorders, especially when trying to explain it just gets people assuming your vilifying it before you even finish speaking, so I just stopped talking about it. But genuinely It was perfectly easy to understand what you were saying, I could tell you were careful about your wording and it resonated with me a lot. You genuinely did nothing wrong with the post and I'm sorry people are being shitty. Especially someone who reblogged it through me, felt pissed at myself that I'd caused you hate. So I am sorry about that.

- Im-traumatised (it's a sideblog hence my notifs being from anxiousdelinqunet fjjfjf)

😭 no that's exactly how i feel, i feel guilty and alone and like i couldn't talk about it, so i just stopped talking.

seriously getting this ask fully outdid everything else that happened tonight because like. y'know. you reach one person.

(also it's 0% ur fault that someone reblogged it from u. it's happened to me and i just break out the good ole...oop tumblr won't let me but the meme that's like "sorry my follower added that to ur post.")

anyway tysm for this message bc (a) legitimately knowing that i reached someone makes me feel so much better and (b) i appreciate the reassurance that i did not say something wildly out of line.

<3

#ask #anxiousdelinquent #mine #if u didn't want me to post this publicly! #let me know and i will take it down #but assuming ur ok w it being public #i figure other people might be helped by the knowledge #that they're not the only people to feel this way wrt pds and abuse #which was my whole point to begin with #that i feel alone and want to share experiences with someone #without either being accused of vilifying #or being encouraged to vilify

[embossross]

hi!! just an hour ago i came across your work of the devotion of the girl in the mirror and i’m hooked. i am sucked in and there is no getting out. not that i would want to anyway after crossing the initial hesitancy over the subject i’ve only ever briefly read up on.

the way u write has my brain buzzing with colors and sending shivers down my spine over the interactions and relationships ur creating. several times i wanted to eat my fist over rindou not being real, other moments i had to pause when i noticed how warm my cheeks and neck were from blushing. then at times, which compete for my favorite, were the literature references (+ your overall writing) that made me want to send this ask. moments that helped give the characters life. what literature and music, of any and all kinds, would u recommend??

like rindou i like to balance work and life, keeping them separate, and would love to read/explore new content while waiting to see what happens next and what it takes for rindou to crack a smile or a laugh. (there were several descriptions and details that were favorites but “Rindou’s laugh is as deep as his speaking voice. It seems to break free from him, resonant and rich. Even more rare than his smile, though no less precious.” is one that made me buzz whether it’s from the progress or wish to read him laugh idk i’m rambling) GAH your writing has ruined me in the best way possible. it’s been lots of fun so thank u for writing this and sharing. cant believe i’m gonna think about coins while drinking coffee

it has your brain buzzing with colors?!?!?!?! oh that's just the most beautiful compliment my writing has ever received. i'm shaking now!

describing someone's laugh is - i think - literally one of the hardest things to do without either losing the magic that is laughter or being a complete cliche, so that is SUCH a compliment to have you call that out 😊 like i'm seriously giddy reading this whole review/ask.

but getting to your question about lit recommendations...i legitimately gasped. that's my bag. that's my moment. i need a read more!!!

thank you so much for giving me an excuse to share ughhh i love it so much. unfortunately don't have any real music recs (like tbh i live by taylor swift), but i'll give you too many book recs to make up for it.

the biggest direct influences i thought about in this story - other than the ones i quote at the end are:

Snow Country by Yasunari Kawabata – though this is a less happy outcome, explores intimacy and a kind of doomed love. (note: this is an almost embarrassing reference because I am like a kindergartner compared to his writing)

The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath - girl in the mirror is actually a reference to this one as that was the working title. My themes about branching choices and the future are directly inspired by this novel.

The Idiot by Elif Batuman - collegiate coming of age stuff for reader 😊

Fanfiction! lots and lots of fanfiction. i reblog my faves from the anime fandoms but honestly, i've been reading for like 15 yrs now and i have a lot of fanfiction-isms in my writing. it's the biggest influence because you can't have 2 characters just sit down and talk and fall in love in published books. that's such a fanfic thing to try to capture that dialogue and process in its own right.

these aren't as direct or references for devotion of the girl in the mirror, but they are books i would recommend anyone and all deal with like love or eroticism or character in a way that i think largely impacts my writing:

Giovanni's Room by James Baldwin - I literally read this while writing the 1st draft, so I think the influence is probably there

Love in the Time of Cholera by Gabriel Garcia Marquez

Mexican Gothic by Silvia Garcia Moreno - so sexy

Palimpsest by Catherynne M. Valente - best erotic writing, not best sex, best eroticism

After the Winter by Guadalupe Nettel

A Manual for Cleaning Women by Lucia Berlin - live & die for her writing and ability to convey rich characters

The Ten Loves of Mr. Nishino by Kawakami Hiromi

In the Miso Soup by Ryu Murakami - NOT SEXY OR ROMANTIC but does impact some of the writing about tokyo specifically, especially the criminal underbelly

#literally dancing in my seat as i reread this ask #giddy doesn't #describe it! #thank you!! #wish i could make rindou #in a lab for everyone #because we honestly deserve him #asks

[valoisfulcanellideux]

On the subject of (excessive) spam reblogs

I'm someone who curates their feed - no matter where it is (Tumblr, Twitter, etc) - judiciously. I've never partaken in followback culture, and I only follow people whose content - when taken as a whole - is something that I'm truly interested in seeing day after day on my feed or dashboard. (This usually means that my follower count goes up and down more than a tart's knickers, as people who follow me and then don't get followed back decide to unfollow again.)

I'm also someone who tries to read or look at every single post on my feed/dashboard (unless, of course, it's a glut of fic-posting, such as holiday exchange stuff) so anything that means I have to scroll more than I normally would in order to get to where I last left off reading... well, it gets the side-eye from me.

This brings us to the subject of spam reblogs. Now, I get that this is a (fairly recent?) part of Tumblr culture (or at least in my current Tumblr fandom sphere, because it was never a thing in my previous one). A post really resonates with you, so you reblog it multiple times.

Personally, I don't understand doing that; I'd far rather reblog once and add enough words to explain why it resonates so much, but some just like to hit the reblog button a few times.

Fine. Whatever. Tumblr be Tumblr, right?

Well... then there's this:

That is 101 (one hundred and one) consecutive reblogs of a single post. Not only is that fucking obnoxious, it's also inconsiderate and selfish as hell.

(I've blurred the content, since - while I'm bitching about this kind of behaviour online - I'm not here for naming and shaming, although some of you who follow this person will (obviously) know who it is. All I want to do here is perhaps make people think before doing something like this.)

I don't care how much a post resonates with you, doing that ^ is a fucking dick move. Because what you are effectively doing is telling every one of your followers that anything posted before you began that spamfest isn't worth reading.

All those fic updates. All those posts where people might be feeling really low and in need of uplifting. Posts by those who want to share something wonderful that's just happened to them. Posts by those who have just been given some shattering news and are desperately reaching out for comfort on the internet, because that might be the only place they have to find that comfort.

You have decided that none of those people are important. You have decided that your opinion on something needs to not only shove them out of sight, but also to stomp on them and to completely drown them out. You have decided that you're going to SHOUT SO LOUD that they will never be heard by anyone who follows both you and that other person.

I don't care how much a fucking post resonates with you. A couple of spam reblogs? Sure, I can just mute the post. 10 spam reblogs? I'll probably mute you for a bit (although knowing me I'll probably forget to check back and unmute). 20 - 30 spam reblogs? Well, if I was following you, I shortly won't be.

100+ spam reblogs? I'll fucking bitch about you until the proverbial cows come home. Don't be a thoughtless and insensitive dick.

An update on this: Someone (not me) sent this person an anonymous ask, begging that they tag spam reblogs (so the tag can be blocked) because scrolling past them on mobile was really difficult. The spam reblogger's response was twofold:

They can't tag that many reblogs because xkit doesn't work on the mobile app, but the complaining person can always block the post using xkit (which doesn't work on the mobile app that they were struggling to scroll past them on).

The complaining person can block the original poster. It's not possible to block an individual post without using xkit, so their second suggestion is to block the poor unwitting fucker whose post they spam-reblogged 100+ times!

Seriously. What the actual fuck?

#valois be bitchin' #things that get my dander up #don't be a tumblr dick #on the subject of spam reblogs

[1d1195]

Can I just say, I’m absolutely in love with how you write Harry. It doesn’t matter what kind of universe you put him in, I fall head over heels for him every time. And how dare you make me fall even more in love with a man I can’t ever have!

Seriously though, I find myself checking your page throughout the day (like I don’t have notifications on lol) because I’m obsessed with your writing. Traditional was just.. so amazing. The detail and the realism of the obstacles the reader and Harry face were amazing. Poor reader couldn’t catch a break there for a minute but it was so sweet to see how everything kind of fell into place once her and Harry got their act together lol. I don’t typically read series that aren’t finished yet (I found it when up to part 5 or so was out), but I read part one and couldn’t help but read the rest of the parts that were published at the time.

And screens?? What I would do to have a man as caring and patient as you wrote Harry. Again, the detail in the little things like him learning braille for the reader and being her source of hope to the joy he expresses when he realizes she has some hope too. I would love to see what happens post surgery for the reader. Those feelings of her being a burden continuing throughout her recovery and also the unknown of the result would be so upsetting but also so fluffy to see more of Harry caring for her.

Therapy was great too. I loved the jokes of the reader’s friends trying to convince her to sleep with Harry, even before anything really happened between the two of them. Even though it’s a reader insert, I still felt like there was another version of me in the story because I would definitely be the friend encouraging that. But the reader’s hesitance is a nice balance and it was almost relieving when they finally got together. And that scene on the couch 😮‍💨 I died a little bit inside

Those are the ones I can remember enough detail to write any feedback on, but I really can’t express enough how much I love your writing. I think traditional is what really made me gravitate to your account but your other pieces are so amazing too! (btw crystal-hs is my side blog for reblogging harry/1D related stuff!)

Wow, wow, wow. Thank you so much for all of this. I'm so glad you've enjoyed my blog this much to comment. I've seen your side blog and I'm so honored to be a part of it. Thank you so so much.

I obviously love Harry and lately I've been much more into the realism of life and how it's portrayed in stories and movies. I think there's a lack of it so I've been enjoying writing more realistic ideals.

Of course Traditional has easily become one of my favorite couples to write about. I think I would die to work for Harry. Just being in his presence would be enough for me.

That's a great idea for Screens! I really never planned on it being more than one part but now it's two it may as well be three right? But idk, I don't want to take away from the original plot...like the whole point is her struggle with seeing I don't know if curing her is all that realistic, but you're right. I would love to see nurse Harry, ya know? I choose to believe with all my heart that Harry is the kindest most caring man on the planet and I will be devastated to find out differently.

Therapy is one of my own personal favorites and I think I've mentioned many a times that it didn't seem to be anyone else's favorite which is fine, but any time I get love for it I feel extra happy because wow did I love them. Yeah, it's almost cyclical each month how I decide to write things like the couch scene 👀👀👀...

Thank you so much for taking the time to write anything at all about my writing. I LOVE reading your tags/comments. They mean the world to me. It's some of my favorite things to read what resonated most with you.

And I really hope you find a Harry :)

xoxo

#blackxcrystal #traditional #therapy #screens

[naura-speaks]

Okay tumblr Stays. This is your native territory. If anybody's gonna enjoy this, it's you. From one Stay to another, blow this up...pretty please. I know this ain't tiktok lol.

But yeh I made an English cover of Maniac! I threw some fun little nods to the source material in the visuals (no shut up we're not talking about the members here) and my translation itself.

I'd toss this in a reblog, but I don't especially want it to get lost if someone wants to see it. Here are some more deets on how I made it!

I speak like. twenty words in Korean, so I did not directly translate it from the og lyrics myself. HOWEVER. What I did do was take the English subs from the MV along with a bunch of other lyric videos and translations (and sometimes I even looked up translations of specific words) in order to get a good picture of the original intention of the lyrics, with obvious priority given to the official translation from the MV. Then I tried to figure out how to make that singable in English. Some of it, I could keep nearly the same as the original subs, but other parts translate more awkwardly, so I took some creative license while trying not to take that too far.

Not gonna cap with you, I am not that experienced of a producer, and anybody who is will probably know that right off the bat. Part of the point of this was to force a learning experience on myself by RPing as 3racha for a bit 😂 Hence why I didn't try to come up with my own arrangement, but literally replicate every. single. sound from the original audio. If Maniac has 175M views, I'm 175 of them just from trying to make this dang thing. And that's before I wised up and just ripped the audio to insert as an audio track in my Logic session to hear it side by side rather than replaying parts of the MV every dang time it can't be illegal if I own the literal CD. Seriously though, I came out of this project knowing way more producing stuff than I had before, and I'm really proud of myself for that.

Those two are the big things, but in other fun facts, the pic I used for myself in the video was taken directly after I got back to the hotel after going to their Newark D2 concert! Were there other pics I probably could have used? Ones where the bottom half of my hair isn't approximately the color of seaweed? Sure. But it's the principle of it, man. It's the principle. and hey at least I matched with Minho for a short bit

Catastrophe is a way better producer than me and a super sweet guy, so it was really great to have him look over my work and help out with a few things, on top of his contributions as a featured artist 😭 And though JoePav's part in the cover was tiny, his enthusiasm in the project and its progress has been mighty and appreciated beyond words! When you don't have a big following, it can be a bit harder to get excited about your own work sometimes, so having somebody else get excited on your behalf is contagious and really nice 😊

I stayed up on 3/17-18/22 to listen to Oddinary when it dropped at midnight, and I started my lyric translation the very next day. I'd say the next morning, but I think I had classes. But I was vibrating that entire morning because despite having been a kpop fan for a good year at that point, Oddinary was the first album I'd bought, and it got delivered that day when it wasn't supposed to come for days yet. It was also my first anticipated skz comeback. By technicality, I'd probably been a Stay since somewhere around Kingdom by pure happenstance, but I was in denial I was as deep in the hole as I was, so I didn't call myself a Stay until after NOEASY. BAHAHAHAHA so much denial, but also so much gradual falling into Stayville because I did in fact listen through the whole album within a week of it coming out.

This got so off topic, how did it get so off topic

I remember listening to Maniac for the first time and just feeling so at home with the lyrics of it. Like even if I didn't end up covering it, it was a message that resonated so much with me and with one of the main messages I like to communicate in my own lyrics and as a person: normal is overrated. Yeah, sure, it's kind of been tossed around nerd communities so much that it almost sounds like a pick me at this point, but like, being comfortable enough with "being yourself" to act a little weird in public is a bigger feat than people give it credit for. And yep, it's one of the biggest reasons I stan Stray Kids. They're a bunch of unapologetic weirdos, and it feels like home. I like to say that they feel like family, both in the straightforward understanding of the phrase and because they often act like my literal blood family does. Like a bunch of nutcases.

And now that I've spent a literal hour or more on this brain dump (why. why did I do that.) I will let this post and myself go to bed after using my resin in genshin. Hope it was interesting enough, and if not, oh well. At least my brain has been thoroughly emptied.

#stray kids #stray kids maniac #skz #skz stay #skz cover #music #cover song #i think my brain is literal molasses now. i feel it slowly slorping around in there #ngl though if they somehow find this cover (looking at you Chan) I would probably actually decease #feeling bad for my family dealing with the hypothetical funeral arrangements but it's okay #they know i dont care if they toss my body in a hole in the ground raw. i aint using it anymore. more food for the environment i say #on the other hand maybe i should lay off the genshin for tonight and just go to bed #or maybe i just won't to spite the responsible side of myself #or maybe i actually will since i accidentally got like 4.5 hrs of sleep last night bc i stayed up way way way too late reading #i think i will. good job responsible!Naura. gn guyssss hnghhhh #Youtube

[umepnnn]

astro observations i

!! these are solely based on my personal opinions, observations, and experiences. take what resonates 💗

some sagittarius (suns/stelliums/personal planets) i know tend to put their phone on the max volume when they watch youtube videos, tiktok, etc.

and sometimes it's without the consideration for others who are also doing/watching something in the same space.

to be exact, i saw this in people who either had scorpio sun + sagittarius stellium or sagittarius sun + scorpio stellium 😃

sagittarius people like to sing or sing a lot, some like dancing too.

virgo mercuries at a pisces degree (12°, 24°) could have good grades, even all As, but people would still get surprised when they see them study.

i find cancers, especially risings, bad at lying and i think it's because of their expressiveness in their facial expressions and the way they talk.

taurus venuses can like someone (romantically) for a very long time.

this could be one-sided crush for years, long-term relationships, or even being unable to get over an ex for a long time.

virgos don't really make up lies, they tend to hide.

pisces risings look so good with blue eyes and/or cool undertone makeup/style.

sagittarius mercuries at a scorpio degree (8°, 20°) and/or in 8H don't know what tf they're saying but people tend to just agree with them.

they also come up with the most bizarre lies/plans to get away from doing something and people would still believe it & go along with them.

taurus sun/rising/degree in AC are very photogenic.

✨ itsy-bitsy commercial break ✨

personal note. i think jung jaewon is a cancer rising.

it'll be easier to observe watching his videos and interviews but here are some pictures in case anyone wants to take a guess :)

won't be elaborating much because i think i might make a separate post for him lololol but look at those big eyes and the round-ish face pluss the calming watery vibes (*´ー｀*)

andd... we're back 🌟

gemini moons just know what to do in any event/situation, or they look like they do, especially in domestic stuff.

geminis are known for just ✨knowing✨ things, while moon shows our natural instincts/habits in situations.

pisces venuses tend to post sad quotes or songs when they're upset in love (and they want their partner to know that).

people who have venus square saturn are usually in a love hate relationship with people with authority (parents, teachers, bosses, etc).

pisces mars are clueless and they show it when reacting to things. a lot of times they use that cluelessness (feigning innocence) to lie too.

as a pisces rising, i get away with a lot of stuff and i don't even know why i do.

probably because pisces risings are treated more gently than others?

i noticed that whenever i got into trouble along with my friends, the adults who's doing the scolding would talk to me in a softer tone while my friends would get yelled at their faces lmao

capricorn men's eyes are soooo attractive. i notice this in men with capricorn stelliums, especially ones that have sun included.

maybe it's just me who's attracted to capricorns LOL but to provide examples: kim taehyung bts and timothee chalamet with a capricorn stellium of sun mercury mars uranus neptune, zayn malik with capricorn sun mercury uranus neptune. and a guy friend of mine who has cap sun mercury and chiron.

gemini suns/risings/stelliums tend to have baby-ish teeth. like the two in the front might look a little bit bigger than the rest and have a slight plunge like a rabbit's. or sometimes their smile just looks very child-like.

taurus placements 🤝 2H virgo/virgo placements: having keen taste of food

"this water tastes different" (literally what they said to me)

hope everyone enjoyed this 🌟 i would gladly appreciate any feedbacks and inputs on these! just remember that they are only observations which are NOT meant to be taken seriously 💗

always grateful for reblogs 💞 please take care and stay healthy!

sending love and positive energies, lily.

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[atomicnebula13]

Just passing by to say that I started reading your fics and I love them. One thing I especially liked is how you include song lyrics at the beginning, I think that sets the mood somewhat (I personally love to share a song with my stuff to give a little help in building an atmosphere). Also that you mentioned that you can't write horny stuff without putting some feelings into it lol, I share the sentiment, no matter how hard I try to do something outright erotic it will always end up being an emotional bombshell at some point. Other than that, I really like the terms you use, I found some of my favorite English words in your writing and I really got excited about all the others I learned hahah, thanks for that!

But what I really want to say is that as I am prone to enjoy more tender stuff, I found myself weeping over your sweeter works. They really got to me. I finished the ones I read with a heart a little broken and mended at the same time, and to be able to generate that in another person is wonderful. It reminded me of when things started to get ugly in the comic a few chapters back as other things got sour in my personal life and after I finished reading the episode I just had to sit and cry for a while. There is something sacredly healing about acknowledging our pain in the art we consume. It's curious how a small bunch of fictional youngsters can steal our hearts to such an extent. I guess it is because something of ours is reflected in their experiences or personal characteristics, or because as characters they are excellently builded, or simply because having followed their history for 8 years (8, I think?) means that at this point we love them as if they were real. (Damn, 8 years is a lot of time!) I don't know, I just wanted to thank you for reminding me of these feelings. I'm going to continue reading your works that I haven't read yet, and I'm sure I'm going to like them as much as the ones I've read.

(Sorry if I wrote too much, but I feel it was worth)

Excuse me while I blush furiously over this message. My number one motivator for writing is music. I almost always get inspired to write a fic based on the song I reference and one of the things that immediately drew me to your art (besides how stunning it is, seriously, you have your own hashtag that I use exclusively when I reblog your works) was that you included songs and lyrics as well. I think that's absolutely beautiful, I love that art just manages to breed more art. It's never ending, beautiful and organic form of creation and I can't help but be enchanted by it over and over. Haha, yes I've never quite mastered writing smut without putting feelings into the interaction. I find it especially hard when I'm writing for TianShan because there are just so many instances where something deeper is going on than what we see on the surface level. I'm so happy that you are finding your favorite English words in my works! I love particularly flowery language, especially if it's evocative. I feel genuinely emotional reading this. Tender works always have me feeling a little heart broken as well so for that to translate through the writing is such a compliment. I always hope that my writing will resonate and be well received by the reader but in the end I'm selfish, I'm usually writing for myself because it's a catharsis. As you say, it's sacred to acknowledge our pain through the art we consume. That's something I've always found particular powerful as a writer - reading takes time and people's time is precious so for someone to stop to read my writing feels like such an honor. They are investing their valuable time in me and it's really something I hold very dear. I don't ever want to take it for granted. I agree, I don't know how this fictional group has so many of us in an absolute stranglehold but they do. I'm so thankful for it though because it brings so many of us together in a really meaningful way. It is shocking how long the manhua has been going for (I remember reading when it was JUST Jian Yi and Xixi). Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings with me. This message really warmed my heart and lifted my spirits, my friend. You really are my favorite artist so to hear that my writing is something you enjoyed makes me a little emotional. I'm not sure I'm worthy. And should you ever have any requests I would gladly write something for you, you have only to ask. (Also, don't apologize, you can never write too much). 💕

#answered ask #i’m not crying you’re crying

[scottiedeux]

If you like Clexa you will like CaitVi

In this essay i will...

Okay but seriously through strap in as I've wanted to articulate this for a while now and I GOT THOUGHTS okay

Many of my followers follow me because of this blog's Clexa obsession (which isn't going anywhere btw) and maybe some because of Gentleman Jack. But of course if you've noticed lately there has been an abundance of Caitlyn x Vi posts from Arcane: League of Legends

This post is essentially me saying  - if you like Clexa, you will like Caitvi

and here is why:

First off - why is Clexa so special?

We just passed 6 years since Lexa’s untimely death on The 100 and this fandom is STILL going strong. Over 12,800+ fics on AO3 tagged wth Clarke Griffin/Lexa and still more and more being written, an active (considering 6 years old) fandom, a CLEXACON which is maybe the largest official wlw fans gathering I’m aware of? 

The Clexa fandom is like, somewhere between regular ships and those huge fandoms that go on for decades (Xena Warrior Princess, Harry Potter, Star Trek). Like I do not doubt excellent fic and fanart will continue to be created into a full decade after Lexa’s canonical passing

Why did this pairing resonate so much? I’ve often asked his of myself, because while I get into some other ships and read some other fics time to time, I genuinely always just came back to my Clexa fics (... until CaitVi, we’ll get into that). Really I’m just processing my own thoughts here, but maybe some will find it helpful. 

Fully Realized Characters - Clarke and Lexa are fully realized characters with strong motivations that have nothing to do with one another. They exist in world where being wlw is not a problem nor what is keeping them apart. It’s their responsiblities and duties which logically exist in The 100 universe that is creating tension depsite their obvious attraction and respect for one another. Half (probably more) of the paltry amount of wlw shows we get are focused on the wlw relationship and our shitty homophobic world provides the tension as characters struggle with coming out, unsupportive parents, unsure if partner feels the same, etc. And yeah that drama is great, but something that sets Clexa apart and that I LOVE is that this is not where the drama comes from. Not even one little bit.

Interesting World. Well, i mean, until the showrunner shat on all the best concepts of The 100 world (I stopped watching after Season 3, but they apparently go off planet or some shit ? the hell?) But up to Season 3, Clexa was happening in a world that had stuff going on that was good television. I remember tons of articles out around season 2/season 3 saying The 100 was one of the best sci-fi shows on TV at the time. And it WAS. We got our wlw pairing not in a shitty throwaway world but in a fleshed out interesting one.

Canon relationship. Clexa is not a tease, this relationship really happened on the show. All the supporting characters knew about it and reference it. Our fandom was not stretching out moments - up until Lexa’s death we were eating full on meals of wlw canon content between Clarke and Lexa. Season 2 finale was basically as major of a moment as it was BECAUSE of the relationship between these two.

Chemistry - these two had it. Partially the actors, partially editing and script, we felt those moments ya’ll. I don’t even have to elaborate.

I’m probably missing some other items here - reblog with more if I’m missing anything glaring!

Okay so now that’s addressed - 

Let’s talk Caitlyn and Vi from Arcane League of Legends.

Fully Realized Characters - Caitlyn and Vi have full storylines and motivations that have nothing to do with one another. They exist in world where being wlw is not a problem nor what is keeping them from getting together. It’s their responsiblities and duties which logically exist in the Arcane universe that is creating tension depsite their obvious attraction and respect for one another.

Interesting World - Runeterra is a world setting with depth. The Piltover & Undercity dynamics are fleshed out and interesting. Caitlyn and Vi exist within it and their relationship is impacted by it.

Canon Relationship - This point may be where CaitVi actually has a leg up on Clexa. Canonically in League of Legends we know that in the future Caitlyn becomes Sheriff of Piltover and Vi becomes her deputy. Arcane is a prequel show - so we ACTUALLY KNOW that both characters will be alive in the future. League of Legends lore doesn’t officially acknowledge that the two are romantically linked (although its implied) but don’t have fear. The Arcane showrunners have preeeeety much confirmed CaitVi as canon, explicitly talking about season 2 and even talking directly about what was done in season 1 to emphasize where the relationship is heading. 

Chemistry - The animators are giving us everything we want. Longing looks, hand touches, extended moments together. And the voice actors are delivering

To me, CaitVi has been the first ship in SIX YEARS that has managed to wrestle me away from Clexa as my primary wlw pairing that I’m obssessed with. And really, when I break it down it’s because its the first wlw ship I’ve encountered that touches on all the things I love about Clexa. Lucky for us - Arcane was a success and more seasons are to come. If you follow this Tumblr for Clexa - maybe check out CaitVi?

Anyways, who asked for this? No One i just had to get these thoughts out mmmkay

“So what’ll it be? Clexa or Caitvi or BOTH?”

#clexa #clexakru #clarke x lexa #caitvi #violyn #piltover's finest #caitlyn x vi #vicait #myrandomassthoughts