#like they CHANGED MY LIFE

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[uwanosorade]

Source

truly connected people on a staggering level. If you engage with anime, even if you dont like dbz, chances are the anime you like got to you because of dbz's popularity. If you like jrpgs, even if you've never played dragon quest, the games you do love almost certainly became a thing because someone in the 80s loved dragon quest. 68 is way too young but genuinely what a towering legacy.

#akira toriyama #i watched like. 2 episodes of dbz as a kid maybe but its still dizzying to think how toriyama changed the course of my life forever.

[girlboyburger]

alright tumblr, here's your homegrown cowgirl C:{

what do you think of her?

#this was fun! took me awhile since life is nuts rn trying to move but #id like to do smthg like this again somwtime #my art #furry #fursona #anthro #furry fandom #cow #cow girl #fat #< - not enough art in the fat tag. i will change this o7 #tumblr polls #sketch #doodle #edit: bf pointed out the tummy could be bigger so i biggified her a little

[bisclavaret]

a day late to my 6 years on t anniversary ✨🏳️‍⚧️ a short comic about looking back

#trans pride #transmasc #comics #autobio comics #transgender #this reads a little more melancholy than I meant it to! #I think I forget how far I’ve come #like oh yeah this rules actually my body’s changed so much #also I grew my hair out and I’m less blond now #anyway I love being on testosterone :) #life saving magic potion that makes you hot and happy #my art #Magnus post art at a reasonable hour challenge (impossible)

[cistranny]

I wanna do something nice.. say something you appreciate about the person you reblogged this from!! even if it's smth as small as their profile photo :)

#I'll say smth nice abt myself 2. hmmm... I appreciate how I don't like strangers and cowards control my life and actions #nice things #smth positive???? for a change??? if no one rbs this I will be vaguely embarrassed but

[isjasz]

☀️⭐🌙👁️👑

This is the way you are supposed to play this game.

#dddaily4sherin #day 172!! #grian #smajor1995 #pearlescentmoon #itlwart #goodtimeswithscar #trafficblr #traffic smp #secret life #secret life smp #secret life spoilers #life series #my art #cw blood #i had so many thoughts about this but itll be too complicated to explain it #so ill let u guys analyze it and take it how u want💥💥💥💥 #(maybe ill change my mind and ramble about it later maybeeeeee idk BHASDAHW) #explodes. cant believe we can draw scar with all the winners now it still feels like a fucking hallucination

[claraoswalds]

They're made of plastic. Living plastic creatures. They're being controlled by a relay device in the roof, which would be a great big problem if I didn't have this. So, I'm going to go up there and blow them up, and I might well die in the process, but don't worry about me. No, you go home. Go on. Go and have your lovely beans on toast.

HAPPY 19TH ANNIVERSARY! (March 26, 2005)

#dwedit #doctor who #usertennant #userteri #userveronika #userdiana #miatendos #ninth doctor #rose tyler #ninerose #ship: better with two #* #and then my life changed forever.......... #the coloring on this could be much better but alas i didn't realize it was the anniversary until it was already like. midnight lol

[psrj]

demon king of salvation

#omniscient reader's viewpoint #orv #kim dokja #orv ruined my fucking life like two years ago #stupid fucking webnovel rewired my brain changed me as a person etc #and i cant come back from it so we're trying belated fan art as coping now #my art #fan art #art #oh this is gonna be another stupid fun reverse isekai i thought #this is gonna be so bad its good i thought #i cant fill these fucking CLOWN SHOES man

[xx-sketchy-xx]

Poor poppy, a three tiered cake is simply not big enough!

#wally darling #welcome home art #wally #poppy partridge #sally starlight #creepy #disturbing #horror #kay ima be honest #I forgot how much poppy’s design changed #And so I had to basically redo her xD #Cause I had her most recent design alongside their older designs #I was like oh phooey #I’m still struggling to figure out why he stares at certain things #This poor baby child lol #I’m actually like a super amateur artist #I need to work on my angles and proportions a lot #yus the life of a hooman

[personishfive]

in which dialogue is exchanged

#p5 spoilers #goro akechi #joker p5 #akira kurusu #persona 5 #my art #comics #this one marks a change. that change is i have switched to clip studio paint because it was on sale #glad i could keep this blog's aesthetic lol. every art program should let u disable anti aliasing methinks #this ones based on an old old sketchbook comic. well like half of my comics are based on sketchbook comics. i still have material to work w #from those. lol #long time no comic in my defense i am as overwhelmed with life as ever. but you already know that. love u guys<3

[inkskinned]

yesterday while feverish i wrote about how boats can moor next to each other like pigeons, cooing with the gentle rap of water against their hull. you once said that that the way i see things - birds in the water, feathers in marina paint - was "childish and naive." you said i'd been misdiagnosed - "it can't all be adhd. you might be just kind of stupid and lazy."

i still do certain things like how you taught me - turn the pillow case inside out before putting it on. drive defensively. hate myself entirely.

the prompt for this poem is "mahler's fifth." i wish it wasn't, but mahler's fifth was our song. it ended up in my book. every person that knows your name has promised me they'll give you one swift rabbit punch, right to the face. dean read the book and showed up on my front porch, drenched in sweat from running the 8 miles at 4 in the morning. he was shaking. pacifist and gentle - he works with children - i'd never seen him furious. a punch isn't going to do it, he said, and then said i'm sorry. i had to come to see if you were okay.

mahler's fifth was mine first, like my girlhood. i like the way each movement piles onto the next movement, each instrument bleeding into the next. i like the horn version the best. before i met you, i danced to it on grass still-wet from sprinklers.

later you would tell me that the way you heard it was somehow better. you understood something in it that i couldn't quite wrap my fingers into. once, on our anniversary, you asked the classical music radio station to play it for us. we missed hearing it because we were fighting. one of the things people get wrong about abuse is that sometimes victims are, like, brutally aware of the stupidity of our situation. what do you mean that you thought i wasn't good enough for you? you? you're just... nothing.

sometimes people can pull the poetry out of your life. i watched my words become clothesline, and then thin out into kite twine. i watched you chew through every good syllable of me. so many good songs and places and moments were ruined. i am glad you didn't like most of my music - less to tie back to you.

but still mahler's fifth. the music swells, and i am 21 and throwing up in a bathroom on my birthday. a woman i will later refer to as lesbian jesus runs a cool hand down my back, her perfect pantsuit starch-pressed. she told me to leave you. she said - and this is true, and not an invention of rhyme or fantasy - i'm you from the future.

i am 22, and i got home from an award ceremony, and i remember you telling me - you act so proud of yourself when you're actually so fucking embarrassing. i took you to disney world. you took my virginity. i gave up visiting spain for a week with my family - i instead choose you, to spend the time just-cuddling. you called it "our fuck week." the music swells. it probably should have been a red flag that for about 3 years - i just gave up on crying. my grandfather died and you said nothing. my uncle died and you ghosted me for 3 weeks. you said i need to protect myself from your ongoing tragedy.

every so often i come back to the memory of one of our last afternoons in person. i had just told you that i wasn't going to law school, despite the free ride - i was going to join a creative writing program. master's in fine arts. i was going to finally do it - i was going to follow my dreams. this blog was already internet-famous. however reluctantly, i would occasionally refer to myself as a poet. i got into umass amherst's writing program for fiction authors. it is one of the the top 5 programs in the country.

wait are you seriously considering actually attending that? dumbfounded, you turned completely towards me in your seat. for the 3rd time in our relationship, you almost crashed the car. you actually want to be a writer?

the first time i went viral, it was for a poem i wrote about you:

he wants to say i love you but keeps it to goodnight because love will take some falling and she's afraid of heights.

every time i see that, i want to throw up. you weren't in love with me, you were in love with the control you had over me. a little truth though: i am afraid of heights. you caught a rabbitgirl and skinned her alive.

mahler's fifth still makes me sick.

give me that back. give me back music. give me back everything i had before you. give me back fearlessness. give me back bravery. give me back a scarless body.

give me back what you took from me.

#nosebleed club #sorry stephen not ur fault #just like. thinking #writeblr #spilled ink #warm up #every time nat is like - oh let me get that for u #im like .... this is a trick right like ur gonna be mean now bc u did something nice rn #so obviously if ur being nice now either u did something mean and im about to learn about it #or you're going to BE mean #or ur gonna hold this over my head forever and i'll never get a nice thing ever again? #and every time nat is like .... babe i just actually like u #lesbian jesus story is 100% real btw. she also told me not to be an event planner #literally changed the shape of my life

[delicourse]

i miss them a little if im gonna be honest

#mp100 #mob psycho 100 #kageyama shigeo #kageyama ritsu #hanazawa teruki #tome kurata #tsubomi takane #shou suzuki #deliart #i meant for the image to be like. after the end but i also didnt think about the hairstyle changes. sorry...... #also i know i was like shou 100% has dwarf hamsters since he got 2 but u know what i dont care. golden hamster stan for life #im planning on getting one i've been checking out breeders near me so i can get a proper healthy one. there are so many good ones here too #i already am thinking on what color im gonna go for..getting picky even. something like offwhite.. silver pearl.. silver dove.. silver mink #jurys still out on wether im gonna get another female or not #i do love how big ladies get and their intense energy and work ethic. truly the most passionate creatures i've ever come across. inspiring. #but a lazy fluffy guy that just sits around and washes his balls all day does seem easier. less likely to climb my curtains. #i got distracted i love hamsters so much. look at my mop drawing now everyone

[periwinklemoonlight]

old 3l desertduo design concept

#for those of you who said you liked my 3rd life designs ^_^ heres an early version of them #my art #desert duo #3rd life #grian #gtws #trafficblr #most of the changes have to do with the colours of things but there r a few other noticeable ones #this specific version is from the beginning of 2023 when i was starting to redesign the designs from june 2022

[whoisspence]

friendly reminder that they

are also them

#thats literally how quickly my mood changes #go off i guess #but why is emo matthew so hot #like ruin my life already ugh #emily prentiss #spencer reid #matthew gray gubler #mgg #criminal minds #whoisspence

[mumblesplash]

gem, what happened to your eye?

(wanted to upload this panel separately, original is from this comic)

#my art #geminitay #secret life #icr exactly when but there was this moment earlier in the series #where someone asked gem what was up with her eye (because her skin had one green eye and one yellow eye) #and her response was smth like 'i'm yellow now!' #and i was like wait that's SO GOOD #bc there's an established tradition of ccs changing their skins to match the color of their current life #so the person (scott i think?) was obviously asking about the eye that was still *green* #but her answering that way implies she took the question to mean 'why did your eye color change' #because /the other one isn't her eye/

[ryllen]

color coded affection

#thru my experience chronologically the blue one actually goes after the yellow one; but development wise it looks better like this prolly #this is harvest moon like hearts where the color changes as affection level goes higher #twisted wonderland #twst #sebek zigvolt #twst yuu #twst mc #fanart #yea i can't believe once i didn't put any speck of attention to him i am not even looking????? #but now i look intently at him and be like isn't he kinda handsome??????????? #OH nooooooo #how life steers itself to the unexpectedly funny road #yuu thought she is finally normal about him #but that's exactly where it starts #god i need to finish my homework