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ihni · 9 months

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Seagulls.

His body is alight with indescribable pain, and there's a crumbling mall around him and a monster in front of him and tentacles like knives in his chest, his sides, his back -

He can't breathe. Exhaled all the air in his lungs on that scream, his last scream, a final act of defiance against a monster that he didn't have the strength to defy until now, and now he can't draw in new breath, he can't -

There were noises. Pandemonium. Concrete cracking, glass shattering, metal bending. Explosions, roaring. Screams. He's pretty sure there were screams. They might still be there, but they're drowned out by the sounds of -

Seagulls.

He blinks, and for a second the destroyed ceiling of the mall and the dark sky beyond turns blue, the light blue of a cloudless summer day. He blinks again, and it's gone.

He's lying down, and it's cold tiles against his back and there's blood underneath him but the blood warms him like sand on the beach, and he blinks again and the blue sky is back and the cacophony of noise is blending together to a buzzing, to white noise, to something rythmic like -

Waves breaking. Swash on sand.

Someone bends over him. A girl. Long red hair, crying, she's in pain like he's in pain and oh god he's in so much pain, but he doesn't want her to hurt so he says -

"I'm sorry"

- and doesn't know what he's sorry for.

He blinks. The sky is blue, the air smells like salt, and someone is bending over him. A woman. Long blonde hair, smiling. She reaches out a hand and gently brushes a bloody strand of hair out of his face.

He can't move. His body is broken, there are holes in his chest, his blood is full of crushed glass, tearing him up from the inside. It's worse than anything and everything he has ever experienced, is enough to push every memory and rational thought right out of his head and replace it with agony.

"It hurts," he says, and it's a sob, a wheeze, blood bubbling out between his lips.

"I know," someone says, and it's a woman. Long blonde hair, smiling. Familiar. Her hand is on his cheek, her fingers brushing away the tears that are drawing clean paths through the grime on his temples. Her touch is soft, cool on his burning skin, soothing -

Something wet hits his face, something salty like a tear, but that doesn't make sense because no one is crying but him. The sky is blue above him and the sand is warm beneath him and the sounds around him are of seagulls and waves, and that must be it, not a teardrop but a splash from the sea; salty and wet, as if the ocean itself cries for him -

"It hurts," he says again, because it does, but there's a woman there, with long blonde hair, and he knows her, it's -

"Mom"

- and her smile widens and her hands are on his face and her smile is the sun, is warmth and comfort and peace.

"I'll kiss it better," she says, and bends down and places her lips on his forehead, lightly, barely touching.

He closes his eyes, and takes what feels like the first breath in forever. Something like life blooms from her touch.

She presses a kiss to each of his closed eyelids, and he feels his heart restart in his chest and can't remember when it stopped.

She kisses his cheek, and the background noises - that aren't the seagulls, or the sounds of waves - fade. Another kiss on his other cheek, and the sky stabilizes, and stays blue. He can't recall what it used to be, before.

"It still hurts," he murmurs, confused but at peace, but she kisses his bare chest where a hole should be, and there's nothing there but unbroken skin.

"Does it?" she asks, laughter in her tone, and he realizes that no, it doesn't. Where before there was a wildfire raging in every inch of his body, now there's only the gentle warmth of the sun bearing down on them both. There's no more pain, because his mother kissed it better, just like she said she would.

He sits up. Digs his toes into the white sand, looks out over the endless blue in front of him, sky and water, meeting at the horizon far from here, before he turns and looks at the woman beside him. His mother.

"I've missed you," he says, "Please don't leave", and his voice cracks like he hasn't seen her in a long time, but he can't remember ever being away from her, can't remember anything but this moment, right here.

"Oh baby," she says, and her arms are around him. They don't reach all the way around his shoulders, and for a second there is a fleeting memory of another hug, a lifetime ago, where his shoulders were smaller, where he was smaller, but as soon as it appeared it fades. "I won't leave you, ever again."

There's seagulls and a blue sky, cool waves meeting warm sand and his mother's arms around him, and everything feels right.

He buries his face in her long, blonde hair as she murmurs in his ear, "You're finally home."

#billy hargrove #billy and his mom #stranger things #listen i have no excuse #i am sorry #i just needed to give him a happy ending and sometimes my brain crosses the wrong wires #and in this instance the happy ending was to at least give him a happy Ending (as in death)#this is like ... my version of the horrible canon #and i guess a writing exercise too #im in the cottage and i wrote this on my phone #i can't explain myself #ihni writes #character death #i hate myself for it I'm sorry

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poyopaan · 4 months

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sometimes you just gain an older brother who tried to kill you like an hour ago

#miskipz draws #jjk fanart #jjk #jjk spoilers #jjk choso #jjk itadori #yuji itadori #itadori yuuji #listen i liked choso a lot from the brief glimpses before and now i have an excuse to really like him #who doesn’t love a man dedicated to his family /hj

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cubedmango · 11 months

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indian blorbos obtained u know what that means [hits them w desi memes lazer]

#gayatri singh #pavitr prabhakar #spiderverse #across the spiderverse #marvel #atsv spoilers #my art #god i wish they put the song in the movie it wouldve been so funny #sony listen . u still have a chance in the next movie-#do ppl even know this meme anymore akfjdkjgkd i saw one (1) person mention it online so far #excuse my hindi handwriting it . sure will look like that when i never write in it

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blackpilljesus · 2 months

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I saw this from the female separatism subreddit & the responses are some of the biggest reasons for separatism et al (or extinction if I'm being candid here). Moids cant be reformed they are fully aware of the hell they force women to live in. MaIe achievement & happiness is rooted in female exploitation & life. Their glory days are based on our horrific days. No amount of love, kindness or facts will change maIes and we cannot happily or even neutrally coexist with them.

Main points across answers:

Many want to experiment but not permanently be women

They dont want to be in constant danger or lose their autonomy at the hands of maIes for merely existing

They dont want to deal with childbirth (& periods)

They dont want to have to share spaces with species much stronger than them with ulterior motives

It makes me go crazy seeing people give moids benefit of doubt for their evil like "maIes just dont understand", "we need to teach maIes", or claiming that maIe violence is a result of maIes struggling with (expressing) their feelings. I get that women love maIes and it can be hard to imagine that people can intentionally be so evil but it is what it is. MaIes have no problems expressing themselves, abusing women is what maIes choose to do because they enjoy & benefit from it - that is their expression.

MaIes see the same news of women being abused, raped, and killed like we do except rather than be disheartened or alarmed they're either apathetic or satisfied. It isn't aliens that's committing GBV it's maIes & maIes have no problem reminding women of this when women anger them (such as rape threats & threatening women they'll end up on the news/true crime). The victim blaming, denial, and derailment of misogyny is part of the game to keep the system alive, they know the events occured & are a systemic occurence they just dont care. Hell not only do they not care, they rejoice in it or get off on it.

MaIes set up environments that work in their favour which simultaneously ensures that women will lose. They know women are set up to live in damn near impossible conditions for us. It's normalised for women to defenselessly share personal & private spaces with beings much more stronger than them with ulterior motives for us, it's trap. It's interesting how these moids aren't saying that they'll just cover up and *poof* harrassment gone, or they'll just pick a nice guy & they'll be okay. MaIes know the net negative they are towards women.

MaIes know that childbirth is a painful process & what do they do? Demand it happens and make it even MORE painful for women. MaIes that impregnate women do not love or care for them. Pregnancy itself is dangerous & sometimes lethal, often comes with a range of health issues, to cause someone to be in that condition especially in a environment where abortions are illegal is reckless & unloving. Now imagine how sinister & full of hatred one has to be to impregnate someone and abuse them on top of that. Many women risk their health & lives to reproduce with a Y and they get abused by said Y instead of being taken care of. Deranged.

Realising that maIes are aware of the evil they inflict is one of the things that radicalised me. It isn't a miscommunication or ignorance issue, their violence is intended. They want control. The cruelty is the point. Instead of wasting time & energy trying to change maIes or hope that they "understand" one day, focus on yourself & other women (who prioritise women). Moids aren't oblivious to female pain they enjoy it. A lot of women treat maIe evil like it's a mistake on maIes part but it's calculated terrorism. I know that this will go over many womens heads as they refuse to hold strong negative sentiments about moids as a collective so if you're not a woman like that, take this post as a sanity check. You aren't crazy, it isn't all in your head.

#Will women listen to any of this? Nope. But I will still speak anyways.#I say all of this as an osawoman so attraction is not an excuse. The time for reconciliation & reform has long gone.#And stop fucking creating more maIes ffs #While many women are under the impression that moids are clueless about our oppression; some want to believe so bc they dont want to come #to terms with evil moids actually are. Because if you want to reproduce or have a positive relationship w/ moids theres no way you can #consciously do that bearing in mind what moids are so many women push it away. Anyways #blackpill feminism #blackpill feminist #female separatism #female separatist #males know what they're doing they just dont care #radical feminism #radical feminist #feminism #moids are terrorists #feminist

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sunglassesmish · 9 months

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misha from the spn gag reel in his first ever scene 🥺

#listen i know it’s terrible… i have no excuse #spn #cas #my gifs #misha collins #castiel

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lamentfulwarbler · 20 days

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“Dazai is the big spoon!” “No, Chuuya is!” NO YOU’RE BOTH WRONG! SKK CUDDLE LIKE THIS:

#IGNORE HOW THE OTHER BED LINE IS MISSING #OR PILLOW #IDK HOW BEDS MADE FOR MORE THAN ONE PERSON WORK. OKAY? OKAY 👍#ALSO THE BLANKET/DUVET FALLING OFF THE BED WAS ON PURPOSE THOSE MFS DON’T BLANKET HOG. THEY EJECT THAT THING OFF THE BED #i made this in like 5 mins or less. ignore any fault anatomy-#faulty anatomy*#chuuya position inspired by mayoi. dazai is just. how i sleep with my teddy i think 💀#LISTEN IT WASN’T INTENTIONAL #I LITERALLY JUST REALISED #anyways peace and love we’re all correct #everyone can be a big spoon here 🙏#aorry for my handwriting. its always been like 5hat i don’ have an excuse-#bsd #bsd dazai #bsd chuuya #soukoku #skk

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factual-fantasy · 8 months

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#Okay little bit of a lie I DID finish the thing I was workin on #but I called it quits right after XDD #it HURT #like RILLY BAD #and it burnt my widdol thumb too 😭#and the skin immediately peeled off and EHGR #I might have just wanted an excuse to stop working and take a break ngl-#but still guys listen hot glue is rilly hot okayyyy is hotttt and my lil burn is a big boy burn I promise-#my leg still burns and it hurts to sit criss cross apple saurce 😃👍#I am the LARGEST baby ever #but hey look spooky eyes how neato #also dramatic drippy face thats rilly fun to draw

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strawberrysamara · 4 months

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"Kaidan Alenko is boring" WRONG. Kaidan Alenko is one of THEE characters of all time. He's Canadian, he's Schrodinger's man of colour, he's DOWN to fuck and still didn't manage to figure out that he's bisexual until his thirties, he killed a man as a teenager and almost caused a diplomatic meltdown bc of it, his tits are bigger than yours, he's constantly getting migraines, he has autism but doesn't know it AND he glows. What more could you want

#samara speaks #mass effect #kaidan alenko #now if you'll excuse me it's date night. i need to go fall down several floors through a fish tank and have him come pick me up.#also like. as much as he is under control in comparison to some of the other squadmates he's still got his personal problems 4 u 2 fix #it's just that his problem is that society demands that biotics be perfect to be accepted; otherwise they're seen as threats #part of his arc with shepard is (imo) learning to have more confidence in himself and his abilities and to listen more to his emotions

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sojutrait · 3 months

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reddit, AITAH for sleeping with my cousin's husband even tho i met him first so technically i should have dibbs and also i was really sad bc im in a loveless marriage and also yes it was in her bed but she was on a business trip so its really not that bad and-

#ts4 #s #*soju save #*chu hua gen #LISTEN I KNOW #I KNOW #PLEASE REMEMBER SHES JUST A GIRL!#god forbid a woman have hobbies #now alexis. he has no excuse he will be boiled

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sneakertin · 5 months

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this is an embarrassingly low effort thing but i just needed to get it out of my sistem. so

what book do you think they're reading?

#yes it is traced #i have nothing against other artists tracing. it's great go for it #but when i trace it feels like a sin even tho i know there's nothing wrong about it #i don't ever do it but this is a one time thing only #whyy am i even making excuses. don't listen to me #anyway #tin's art tag #doctor who #dw spoilers #doctor who spoilers #artists on tumblr #dw #dr who #fourteenth doctor #fifteenth doctor #dw fanart

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camplease · 7 months

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i feel like this is a hot take, but it's clear to me that so much of ianthe's outward projection of superiority is a deeply ingrained — really, formative — sense of inadequacy. it's to prove to everyone, even the people who were supposed to love her, who were supposed to inherently value her, that she does actually have value — in fact, she has the most value because look at what she can DO!

and i don't even think she's entirely internalized that, but that kind of projection kind of falls apart if you show even a moment of self-doubt

and i know ianthe isn’t supposed to be sympathetic here, or at least i’m assuming she’s not to most people, but can you imagine the body horror of being inextricably tied to and irrevocably altered by the guy you grew up with and didn’t even really like and who didn’t like you either (but who served you because that was his Role, and, who, even though you’ll never admit it, you maybe even cared about a bit because at a certain point that’s kind of unavoidable - i know she tried to convince palamedes she didn’t, but she is a known liar prone to sentimentality), but it was fine because you knew you were better than him, too?

except now you're not exactly, not entirely better than him, because he's not just fueling you, you didn't get to just use him to become someone who matters. instead, he's part of you, and you still don't matter?

like from what she says about her parents' reaction to the canaan house aftermath, even that part didn't work. she didn't earn mommy and daddy's validation, admiration, anything

and she's running his empire, but she's still third place to surrogate daddy, too. if she even places!

ianthe naberius is very much the consequences of her own actions, i’m not going full apologia here, just imagining being in that position and. goddamn

#ianthe tridentarius #the unwanted guest #naberius tern #the locked tomb #harrow the ninth #nona the ninth #ianthe naberius #tridentarii #cw ianthe #m.tlt #tlt #anyway #†#i say all of this when actually i may be entering my ianthe apologist era i have a whole in defense of essay in my head that #i haven’t been up to articulating so far 🤡#like boo hoo poor her but like also KIND OF MAYBE IDK IDK LISTEN IM JUST SAYING #people have so much sympathy for harrow because of her childhood trauma but i feel likeeee. ianthe’s childhood sounds profoundly fucked and #neglectful even from the small glimpses we’ve gotten into it so far #doesn’t excuse her at all and also yes obviously harrow has taken concrete steps towards becoming a better person even having spent less #time being an adult i'm not discounting that at all i'm not saying they're exactly the same #just ALSO!#you know etc etc i’ll get to it eventually maybe

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theandrosaur · 5 months

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would you consider drawing shadowpeach reacting to each other without glamor

It is only Wukong reacting to Mac's flicking glamors in the terrible S3 scene, my bad, but I kinda went through several ideas and this one stuck with me

#lmk #shadowpeach #sun wukong #six eared macaque #lego monkie kid #YES IT IS THE DUSTY ASKS FROM MONTHS AGO #listen. i have no excuse #I have the sketches of the first way longer ifea #which also was wayy fluffier #i'll post it later

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 10 months

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