#losing innocence

[purpleoceanrock]

I Regret, I Hurt, I Hope

It’s weird growing up. You remember all the things you wanted to be as a child. You remember having dreams instead of goals. You remember worrying about having friends or not having friends. You remember being self-absorbed and silly and serious all at the same time. You remember having a meltdown over things that didn’t really matter because the world sucks, and it’s not going to make a difference even in just a couple years. 

I am still growing up, and yet I remember all of these things from my childhood. Now I have goals instead of dreams because I know those can’t exist in this brutal reality. Now I’m not worried about if I have friends or if I don’t have friends. Instead, I simply find myself pondering the actual importance of friendship during childhood when friendships never last anyway. Now I’m serious and self-aware and sometimes attempting to be silly and carefree. Now meltdowns come from PTSD and hostile work environments and the fact that the world doesn’t care about people like me. 

I try to make a difference. I try to follow the rules and lead by example and be a positive change. I try not to cry myself to sleep while I despair over everything that breaks my heart. 

I hope for inner peace. I hope for a future that maybe isn’t amazing, but maybe it’s enough. I hope for healing. I hope that today’s kids don’t have to go through what I did. I hope I won’t continue to be disappointed. 

#growing up #losing innocence #PTSD #hope #disappointment #goals instead of dreams

[tinartss]

scheming

#haikaveh #kavetham #genshin impact #alhaitham #kaveh #sorry i lose it a little each time i see the fake innocent babytham panel LMAO #eyelashes fluttering and all

[ride-a-dromedary]

No matter how long I live, I will never get used to the cruelties that infest our world. That such evil is allowed to breathe the same air as us…is an abomination.

#Baldur's Gate 3 #Halsin #child death tw #bg3edit #halsinedit #videogameedit #otheredits #my stuff #individuals who want halsin to lose it on civilization 'innocents included' are missing a key fundamental of his character #anyway that's another line recorded that doesn't usually get heard #rest now little one - you deserved better than this

[lambmotifz]

thinking about how dean’s monstrosity is about enjoying violence and torturing people (mostly men) & sam’s monstrosity is about being inherently unclean and his body being used as a tool for use and abuse by others

#also thinking about how sam is canonically dean’s moral compass begging him not to kill innocent lives #and how sam always felt like an outcast and a monster and dean was the only one who kept him sane and grounded #and it doesn’t matter what other people think of him as long as dean doesn’t lose faith in him... #“we make each other human” this is what its all about #wincest #samdean #sam winchester #dean winchester #spn

[mysillyside]

The way I completely lose all interest in Lawlight as a ship if Light isn't Kira. And frankly, I feel like L would agree with me on this one. I don't think he'd gaf abt Light in the slightest if Light wasn't Mr. Serial Killer.

#Lawlight only works if Light is Kira bc otherwise light is just some rly smart pretentious teenager. #Like you're telling me L a 24 y/o self made multi-millionaire and the world's greatest detective (top 3 if you count the aliases)- #would care in the slightest abt mr “i got a perfect score on my college entrance exam”. Be fr!! #Idk the ship loses everything that makes it fun and appealing to me if you remove Kira from the mix #Ik ppl do “Light isn't Kira” AUs to make the ship more wholesome but i'd argue it just becomes problematic in a diff way. #L is not only way older but also extremely rich and successful. If Light is innocent but still a suspect- L also has immense power over him #Ig i don't see the point of trying to make Lawlight wholesome. It's still problematic but without the goofy homoerotic enemyship. #Light being Kira not only makes them equals but gives them spice! #However I DO get the appeal of “Light isn't Kira” AUs where Light is still a fake asshole who's performatively nice but hides his real feel #But removing his misogynistic swag/superiority complex/his bitchy internal monologues to make him normal? No... #Imo even if he isn't Kira he'd still be a weirdo. The only Yotsuba!Light is so normal/nice is bc he's trying to prove to everyone- #but most importantly himself- that he's a good person incapable of being Kira. He's trying to be the best version of himself. #Pre-Death Note Light for example is never as outstanding and good as Yotsuba!Light for this reason. Yotsuba!Light is the exception. #Like the Death Note doesn't make you pretentious or hate women that was all Light Yagami. #this is such a random rant sorry guys XD again more power to ppl who enjoy this AU or normalguy!Light but I don't get it personally 😔 #death note #light yagami #l lawliet #lawlight #💬 katposts #🤪 sillygoofy

[rayjayoo]

surprisingly back with more phos doodles wOOOOOO

#ray art #houseki no kuni #land of the lustrous #hnk #hnk phos #phosphophyllite #post winter phos... #i really wish we could've seen more of antarc and phos duo i adored their interactions in what little time they had together #feel like they could've blossomed into a sweet friendship as they worked together more :(( #in another universe antarc was never taken away and the two continued to patrol winters together time to time.... #post winter phos just makes me so sad man #they had to go through the pain of losing a partner for the first time and you can tell just how deeply that affected them throughout the #rest of the story #and i just #hnngghbjkjkkk #even with the loss of their legs phos still maintained their spunkiness and innocence #but after the loss of their arms in that winter... #man #its so quietly heartbreaking to realize that there truly wasnt any going back after that winter for phos #they couldnt go back to being that naive and innocent gem they once were

[ectokelpeigh]

All these DP x DC posts on my dash and not ONCE has anyone capitalized on these two sharing a voice actor

#I know there’s lots of VA overlap in like every cartoon ever #Tara Strong alone is responsible for 50% of my childhood favs #but I rewatched a little TT for the first time in at least ten years tonight #and this one FLOORED me when I heard it #WHY IS THIS COMBO SO FUNNY #idk what’s funnier: #Danny hearing Slade and going ‘’uuuugh really??’’ #or Robin hearing Mr. Lancer and just going apeshit. losing it. interrogating this poor innocent underpaid teacher #klo #crossovers #dc crossover is just a one-off for me (this is a threat and a promise) #dpxdc

[radioactive-killjoy]

"From Eden" as an Ineffable Husbands song gets painful when you imagine Crowley saying "Innocence died screaming, honey ask me I should know" because he's the one who lost his innocence first 😭

#perhaps this is obvious but at one point i saw it more as how he as the serpent saw adam and eve lose their innocence #good omens #aziraphale #crowley #ineffable husbands #aziracrow #good omens 2 #from eden #hozier

[ducksbeloved]

lol i wonder if lucy came up with the "high 5 heroes" party name

#fantasy high #dimension 20 #fhjy #fantasy high junior year #lucy frostblade #this is an old draft but ive chosen to believe this is true #bc (about to do annoying surface level analysis) smth about them changing their name right as they lose her :( #like she was what grounded in that younger more innocent state and once... whatever happened to her happened they either couldnt bear #or didnt care to keep the name without her there to temper their crueler behaviors yk #idk im very interested in their whole deal beyond just 'annoying bad kids foils' ifeel like things drive thattype of action & transformation #did not expect to write an essay in the tags damn #rat grinders #my posts

[kissnpunch]

q!phil saying don’t torture luffy but rather give them some candies if they want to interrogate them, is just a kid, is just a little creature, makes me cry because at some point that’s what he does with all the eggs, like he missed that experience after surviving alone on different territories and he just want to secure a sweet and pure childhood to them.

#qsmp #qsmp philza #qsmp purgatory luffy #qsmp chayanne #qsmp tallulah #i swear to god he’s just so good on a really cruel island #he deserves better #literally he’s losing is mind #he rather sacrifice himself instead to hurt another innocent creature

[foggysirens]

i think what made the last episode of kenobi, and the kenobi show as a whole, so special is because it really just reminded us that the heart of star wars is love.

we see it full force with beru and owen. both willing to do anything to protect luke. put their lives on the line for him. we see it in beru immediately jumping into action. we see it in owen's claiming of luke as his own. his son. their son. in the looks on their faces when they see luke again, the utter fear that he may be gone. because while obi-wan could most likely feel him in the force, for one gut wrenching moment owen and beru thought their boy was gone.

we see it in breha and bail. their odd, funny little girl finally home and you can just feel their joy. their pride when leia is unapologetically herself. and how when obi-wan talks to leia about her birth parents, she instead looks to them. those who have raised her with a fierce love and kindness. how when she looks to them, they look back with so much love.

we see it in obi-wan and anakin. obi-wan apologizing to anakin, and we have to wonder how long those words have been building inside him? and then the tragic acceptance that there is no longer that person there to love. that his ten years of grief, maybe longer, was over something that was not his fault, that he could have never succeeded in preventing. but at the same time, we know that obi-wan still holds his love for anakin. it's just that darth vader isn't him.

and don't even get me started on obi-wan and his love for luke and leia. how leia was the one to pull him from his isolation. become the man he was again. how watching over luke is his motivation to stay that way. how thinking about them literally is what gives him the strength to pull himself up from the ground. honestly obi-wan and the twins deserve their own post.

star wars has always been a story about love. it can, after all, ignite the stars. and the kenobi finale has captured that fully, making it feel like the most truly star wars show in ages.

#star wars #kenobi series #kenobi spoilers #obi wan kenobi #luke skywalker #leia organa #beru whitesun #owen lars #breha organa #bail organa #anakin skywalker #also reva and her love for her friends and how her want to avenge them took her down a dark path #that made her lose sight of what they would have wanted #and lose sight of herself #and how eventually her love for them and realizing her loss of innocence wins #mj.chatter

[imminent-danger-came]

(3x10 Samadhi Fire) - (3x11 This Imperfect World)

You! You ruined everything! All that time you spent locked away, and you haven't changed a bit! I'm going to finish you, like I should have done a long time ago! I told you—you should have stayed buried.

#oHhhHHoOhHhhh when Wukong's past catches up to him #The fact that Macaque knows from the start that Wukong is going to end him VS LBD who doesn't think he'll do it initially #*sigh* I miss LBD #Like that's why she chose a little girl to inhabit right #LBD tries to pick the best pawns she can #''This body in particular has been quite useful'' haha thanks minor scale #Like the fact that she almost loses because she assumes Wukong wouldn't be able to kill an innocent child #Lol #lmk #lego monkie kid #lmk SWK #lmk Macaque #lmk LBD #lmk parallels

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Okay, random question but in the panel where Lan Zhan & Wei Ying are riding side by side, why is Alan Zhan’s horse sad? Is Little Apple bullying him? :(

PS: I check in daily for your posts, OBSESSED 😭

Alan Zhan (patron saint of when the substitute professor gets your name wrong).

#poorly drawn mdzs #ask #MDZS #wei wuxian #lan wangji #mdzs au #I was going to give a serious answer but then I saw Alan Lan #I gotta warn you all; if it was not already evident - I am the biggest instigator of 'typo in the group chat' hazing #be warned (affectionate (non-threatening (a little threatening))) #Shout out to everyone with a non-western standard name who went to a western school and had their name constantly butchered #shout out to everyone who goes by/went by a nickname because 'people don't mess it up' #I *see* you. May you find Solstice in St. Alan Zhan's arms #whether wwx snuck into the class early to change the attendance sheet is is innocent is up to your interpretation #he's just enjoying the class president (and his academic rival) lose his cool #i dont have a ton of modern au thoughts but I do love the teen era dynamic of ‘smart class clown and smart nephew of headmaster’ rivalry #idk how it was at other people’s schools but the viciousness of being in the top 5 in class was a bloodbath at mine #The *Drama* between top students was wild. Validictorian selection was basically done at knife point #anyways; who’s writing teen wangxian modern AU where they are rivals for the valedictorian spot? #getting to know each other just to win but then actually enjoying the tome spent together #they both need to win and be the best sooooo bad; I cant imagine such a story ends well #wow we got far from Alan Zhan in the tags #Thank you for your on going support! I hope you don't mind me teasing you a bit like this tumblr user deathoverdignity #comic proper resumes tomorrow!

[ghost-proofbaby]

one thing about me is i’m always gonna find the fic in the fandom that involves sensitive ears

#first eddie #now astarion #it’s not an ear kink it’s just a whimpering men kink #something something men losing control from me touching something so innocently something something

[lil-cherubim]

Fought the pink roller blinds live

Lost his mind he did

#lovejoy fanart #lovejoy #wilbur soot fanart #wilbur soot #art #call me what you like #i had this vivid image of him just trashing some innocent blinds in a barbie house #idk why #i might be losing it honestly lmao #fanart #will gold

[bumblingbabooshka]

Harry Kim saying Naomi is lucky to be born on Voyager and that he would have given "anything" to have her life when he was a kid...

#He sees NO downsides???? #Also I love how Neelix was yelling and panicked and Harry was like 'haha ok buddy. Hey this little guy is ugly huh~? See ya later!' #absolutely unbothered and not the least bit curious - love him <3 #saw someone post about how they don't like 'once upon a time' bc Neelix doesn't tell Naomi right away about her mother .... bro. #c'mon. Anyway I love Neelix and him trying so hard to shield Naomi from bad things / upset bc he KNOWS how fucking painful #it is to lose a family DID make me tear up. #Also Naomi in that burned-down forest (symbolic of innocence?) was a kickass visual. Neelix telling her about his family and Naomi trying #to comfort HIM??? SHE'S SUCH A GOOD KID MAN....Neelix making her a flotter doll was also v cute #OH AND Naomi going 'I Am Borg...' and Neelix going '~??? No you're not~!!!' and Naomi giggling...added NOTHING to the #episode - as it should be!! Sometimes you've just gotta have a really cute silly moment <3 #Tuvok: [says something] / Tom: Nice bedside manner Tuvok =_= #Tuvok: [about to say the most beautiful comforting words you've ever heard one parent say to another] And I took that personally. #Love how Naomi is scared of Seven at first...girl that's your roommate. #HEHEH she starts off the series scared of her but by the end she's her little buddy and also her intern #but yeah never forget that Harry Kim can and will say the most unhinged things but so casually that no one will really clock it #NEVER forget that he says he remembers.....either being an infant or his own birth - both WILD to me #Harry Kim lowkey loves destiny and being special and the idea of 'chosen ones' and the narrative even though he will fight it all if it #harms the ones he loves #Harry: (guy from an alternate timeline who replaced the dead Naomi with the alive one from his own) That kid's living the dream <3