#series: don't stop believing

[roadtogracelandx45]

T-Shirt| K. Severide | Chicago Fire

@prettyinpayne

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They were already doing everything a married would do, and Kelly decided that it was time for them to make it legal. 

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That T-shirt right there, your hair messed up like a Guns-n-Roses video

"Shh, babe." Kelly laughed, "You are going to wake up Shay." 

"No, I won't." Libby said with a giggle, "She has a girl over anyways. My giggling won't bring her out of the haze she is in. She has a one-track mind especially when it comes to pretty brunettes." 

The leader of the rescue squad laughed and grasped a hold of her forearm to keep her steady. Cruz and Otis had kept handing her different shots to see if she would get sloppy drunk.

But as he thought, she didn't get giggly or handsy until they left the bar to come home. He had seen her drink with her three older brothers and knew that she could handle her booze with the best of them. 

And it was just great to see the expressions on Cruz and Otis's faces when they realized their plan didn't work. "But still do you want to deal with a cranky Shay tomorrow?"

"No." Libby said pushing the door to their bedroom open, 'You do know that this is all Cruz and Otis's fault, right?" 

"Oh, I know." He said following her into the bedroom and reaching his hand out to unzip her dress, 'I told them that they could come to take care of you if you weren't feeling good tomorrow." 

Libby wiggled out of her dress and gave her boyfriend an offended look. "We Reagans don't get sick or hung over Severide. Expect for Danny but then again he takes after the Reilly side of the family."

"I know I remember hearing the story about his cadet class reunion," Kelly said watching her walk into the adjoining bathroom. 

"Guess who had to go pick him up afterward?" She leaned back and looked at him. 

"You?" 

"Yes, and let me tell you he wasn't happy about me being the one to pick him up. And it didn't help my case that I had my music up loud." 

"You, my love are evil." He laughed as he started to pull off his shirt. 

"Only on days that end in Y." She grinned before leaning back into the bathroom to wash her makeup off.

Since they had been together she had made leaps and bounds in her personality and had grown into a woman he wouldn't mind spending the rest of his life with her. He had Shay go out with him and design the perfect ring for her. 

He just had to figure it all out. He had done the big proposal when he was going to marry Renee and he knew that Libby didn't care much for the big things, she was just happy to be with him. 

His ears perked up hearing the familiar intro of Guns-N-Roses Paradise City playing. He sat down on the bed and could see her dancing in the bathroom pulling up her messy hair into a ponytail clad in one of his baggy Chicago Fire department shirts.

Feeling his eyes on her, she turned and looked at him. 

"What?"

 "Nothing." He answered as she came into the room carrying her phone with her. 'Mhmm." She said moving to straddle his lap

. "What is going on in that head of yours?" 

"I have been thinking." He started moving his hands up her bare thighs.

 "About what?" She asked.

 "About how much I want to marry you." 

"Marry me?" She repeated looking at him surprised.

 "Yes." He returned before reaching over and taking the small velvet box and handing it to her. "We are doing everything that involves being married why not just make it legal? What do you say? Want to become Libby Serveride?"

 She looked thoughtful for a second before breaking out in a bright smile, "Yes!" She exclaimed causing him to laugh and sit up and kiss her. "I love you." She muttered against his lips. 

"I love you too." He said as he rolled them over resting her on her back.

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"Good morning Shay," Libby said coming down the stairs a little skip her step. 

"What are you so happy about this morning?"

 Instead of answering, she held up her hand and showed her, the shining engagement ring. 

"Finally!" She exclaimed going over to her and hugging her. 

"I have been waiting for him to ask you to marry him for weeks. Since he got that ring for you." 

She nodded her head before she poured herself a cup of coffee. "I was going to ask you if you mind being my maid of honor. If you wouldn't encourage me I wouldn't have gotten together with him." 

"Of course!" She said, "Does Gabby know?" 

"Not yet. You are the first one to hear."

 "Good. Hey, congrats there Kelly. Libby just told me." Kelly nodded his head before he went around the table and pressed a kiss to Libby's lips and took her coffee mug from her. 

"You have to tell Cruz and Otis." Shay said. Libby turned to her fiancée who nodded his head in agreement. "I will call them."

#ash writes #oc: libby reagan severide #oc: libby reagan #series: don't stop believing #kelly severide fan fiction #kelly severide imagines #chicago fire imagines #chicago fire fanfiction

[patchesofuniverse]

I found this in my drafts - I wrote it after I finished Leverage: Redemption S1 and then most of the original series. Posting it now with the caveat that I never got around to watching the rest of Leverage: Redemption so I do not know what happened from there.

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It still amazes me that people who've lived through

- Sherlock, where the creators outright deny that their two male leads could ever get together, while throwing out constant M/M fanservice.

- FIFTEEN seasons of Supernatural, where women can't survive for very long because they'd threaten the fan-preferred M/M pairings, and one of the actors for the pairing straight up denies that his character could even be gay, shot down questions about it, and finally just "didn't want to put him in a box" following an outcry near the very end of the series.

- She-who-shall-not-be-named, who never so much as hinted that any character might not be straight, but then declared one gay when the series was basically done.

- and however many more queerbaiting shows

can look at Leverage and think the creators are trying to pull one over on us.

- "That means I would be thinking about you and Parker, which I never do!" in the least convincing tone, after lamenting the suave thief Parker is out with that night.

- Watching them kiss and nodding

- "'til my dying day" and "but you never, never need anything" "Yeah, I did" looks over at Parker and Hardison for a moment before looking back "And thanks to you, I don’t have to search anymore."

- Confirmation from the creator that the OT3 is canon.

- "Even numbers only baby" and "Age of the geek, babe"

- The hints in the show (Hardison being aware of how Eliot wakes up, "we built vents in the house", etc) and then confirmation that the three of them live together.

- The necklaces

- Hardison talks to Eliot AND Parker before making the decision to step away from the team. Parker's scene is more dramatic, sure - but Hardison checks in with Eliot too, and Eliot confirms his support before Parker drags Hardison off for their chat.

They haven't given us a kiss or the exact words, sure. Polyamory still isn't widely accepted in the US - it's very possible that they can't give us a big flashy display on screen because of executive meddling, or just that they have to consider ratings.

But what they've given us is in line with the characters they've created. They also never make it into a joke, aside from Hardison's "We're together" bit in The 12 Steps Job (which was season one). They don't make flashy fanservice out of scenes with Hardison and Eliot together, or with the three of them.

The Leverage PTB haven't queerbaited us with the OT3. They queercoded them. And then confirmed that they intended the things we saw on screen.

Part of me wonders if the idea that the OT3 are queerbait is the fact that Eliot's relationship with Hardison and Parker is more subdued than their relationship with each other. I think there may be folks who want to see them as a perfect, exclusive triangle where they all share the exact same relationship style. But that's not how polyamorous relationships have to work - and indeed, it's not how most of them work. Parker and Eliot have always had a different kind of relationship than Parker and Hardison. It's not unreasonable to think that, even in a committed romantic threesome, the three sides of the triangle would represent different types of relationships.

#leverage #leverage ot3 #eliot x parker x hardison #leverage: redemption #Some folks also clearly dislike that Eliot still flirts with other women #and I think that feeds into the idea that the OT3 are queerbait or not canon #but polyamorous relationships don't have to be exclusive #a friend of mine has two commited romantic partners #but still goes out on dates and has casual sex partners too #Eliot clearly enjoys flirting and the company of women throughout the original series #it's completely possible that Eliot is committed to Parker and Hardison without needing to be exclusive #it's been 8 years I think Parker's had time to work on her jealousy stuff #or to at least be able to roll with it out of love and respect for Eliot #that same friend above sometimes gets anxious and needs their partners to reaffirm that they love them and want to stay together #but they don't stop their partners from seeing other people because that's not the relationship they agreed on #if you want to write polyfidelity then go for it! #I don't actually think we've seen anything on screen that truly contradicts it #(flirting isn't cheating) #but I also believe the OT3 can be canon without requiring exclusivity #polyamory #ot3

[littleragondin]

So I may have been slightly obsessing over “To sir with love”, as one does, and a thing that has been circling in my head for the last few days is the way Tian's confrontation with his mother at the start of episode 13 and his talk with Yang at the end of the same episode echo and oppose each other.

Madame Li comes to Tian when he is in love, hopeful, begging for a chance at happiness, and how does she respond? She crushes it, with the revelation about Jiu and Mr. Ma yes, but mostly with everything else. You will never know love, she says, except mine. That stifling love who wants him to be someone else, that chips at who he is again and again and again.

Then Yang finds his brother (heart)broken, and Tian holds him back to confess his love, again, now in despair and shame and self loathing. And Yang response to that is as it has always been, that his brother is wonderful just as he is. You deserve love he promises, and I love you I love you I love you. A love with no reservation and for all that Tian is, a love always there.

And they both love Tian, they are both afraid and worried for him, both are going to great lengths to protect him, at this point both believe that Jiu has lied to Tian and played him. And. Yet. His mother again puts the blame on him, on who he is, makes him guilty of his own betrayal. His brother reminds him that it's not true, that the betrayer is to blame, and that the fault never laid with him.

And so it's no surprise that Tian pushes away his mother and the prison her love has built around him, but seeks the comfort of his brother's love who has always celebrated who he is.

#the contrast between the ways Madame Li and Yang love Tian was fascinating to me during the whole series #the way his mother keeps pushing him down into shame and his brother keeps lifting him up and celebrating all of who he is #also I was already pretty weepy halfway through the discussion at the temple #but when Mme Li said 'no one will ever love someone like you' I straight up sobbed #the violence of those words??? mein gott I had to stop the video a moment #and after seeing him smile like that at being loved?? believing he's being deceived is NOT an excuse putain #(anyway there is a lots of shared blame for the way Tian views himself (hi Mr Song) but she's done a big part of the work ngl) #on the other hand Yang get the Best Brother Award - leaving the rest of the competition far far behind #and don't get me started on Tian's crying face #it got to me every fucking time like excellent job here but also I ended up on the verge of dehydration too many times #Khun Chai #To sir with love #thai drama #lakorn #asianlgbtqdrama #Tian x Jiu #TianJiu #One31 #thai bl #mine #gifs #ragongif

[nonokoko13]

If I see someone else trying to defend Kalim/Jamil by attacking the other or their enjoyers and misreading and boiling down their characters by saying Kalim is stupid or how Jamil is the only one at fault in their situation I'll be the one overblotting. Why you pit two victims of an awful hierarchy system they weren't asked to be stuck with. Why you have to treat people who respectfully disagrees with you in something like a series or a character interpretation like they're criminals who must be shamed or punished with death. How do you play a game that relies on narrative without actually reading. Why can't you use the block/mute button instead of engaging in a conversation you know it will be unpleasant for all parts to make it a fight you want to win. And why I see so many mysoginy/misandry in a game that it's about a lot of male characters with a main character who can be the gender you imagine them to be

#twisted wonderland #fandom drama #I'm not exaggerating when I say twst western fandom is one of the most toxic fandoms I have ever had the bad luck to interact with #I have seen a lot of people stop playing or drawing twst because they felt like they were in a witch hunt #over something so harmless like saying they like Vil or Rook or Neige or Jamil and they're their faces #some dude (a minor I believe) killed himself because the amount of negativity he encountered for being a Vil fan amd using he/him #a very weird thing when REDDIT USERS out of all social media turn out to be the most chill #Twitter is a given that they nuclear toxic but like ?? even for twitter standards the level of toxicity is concerning and crazy #and tumblr I have no idea because I'm not updated with drama but I'm pretty sure it's a “vanilla” version of the twt twst fandom #every month I see something bad has happened god I love this game very much but this fandom sucks #at least the english one idk the rest #jamil viper #kalim al asim #♡ — shut up noko #vent post #i guess #I'm glad I found this series I just don't want to stretch my patience with people who search trouble or make it up when they're bored

[liashinigami]

Ngl the thing about the parking lot scene that hurts the most is just how desperate Ray is to get everyone to leave him, down to Sand. And so he hurls the worst insults at him he can think of, that Sand can be bought. And still Sand won't leave him, because he doesn't want Ray to destroy himself.

#only friends the series #ofts stop making ray the most relatable character of the series pls #it's painfully pointing out my own problems and I don't like it #also I don't believe for a second thag Ray actually meant any of that #I think that he was hurt and drunk and high with emotions just going haywire

[gayrogues]

there is no fucking way that tom king's shitty oneshot, featuring the most out-of-character riddler known to man and a batman who breaks his no kill rule and waterboards people, got nominated for an eisner award...

#i hate the riddler issue of one bad day so much it's unreal #1. why write a riddler comic if you're gonna be like 'actually he HATES riddles and puzzles and won't be using them anymore' #now he's just some guy who kills people #2. i don't think i need to explain why i hate the concept of batman breaking the no kill rule or waterboarding people #3. trying to make the killing joke relevant again after 30 years? to say that ed was the mastermind behind it? #4. the plot is just. incredibly silly and not in a good way like you're telling me once the riddler stops using riddles he #becomes powerful enough to take over the entire city and batman can't do anything about it except kill him? #and i'm not talking taking over the city like in zero year where there was an actual plan #in one bad day everyone just gets sooo scared of him and his massive brain that they fall in line #5. that is not his fucking backstory #that's like. the complete opposite of it. keeping only the part about him having a shitty dad #he was never a prestigious prep school kid under immense pressure to be the smartest #he was just some kid who went unnoticed by everyone and that's why winning that puzzle contest was so important to him #and then his dad refused to believe he was smart enough to win the contest without cheating and you know the rest #he has a very ordinary backstory that explains a lot about him #meanwhile i feel like tom king was like 'oh shit this series is called one bad day' #'i need to give ed a pivotal moment in his life that made him fucked up and evil' #'how bout i write all this stuff leading up to him brutally killing his teacher at the age of like 15' #and it just sucked ass #i feel like there was more stuff i hated that i'm forgetting but i am not gonna re-read this comic to remember! at least the art was good #oopsie daisy these tags turned out to be much longer than i was expecting - i don't even care about the eisner awards i just saw the #category pop up on the library app that i use and i was like Why is This in here #ransom.txt

[ctl-yuejie]

loyalty and compassion

#the untamed #cql #wang zhuocheng #xuan lu #jiang yanli #jiang cheng #listen i was about to continue my series on lwj's garments but these two scenes popped up and i just had to #somehow it is easy to forgot how earnestly fond jc was of wwx before he died #i just love that his first instinct is to go and take him home #both as a brother and as the future clan leader #but we can already see the hurt at getting left behind or at least without an explanation or a goodbye #and don't get me into jy....she's definitely worried about wwx and i am not sure she agrees with her father's stance to let him go #but at the same time she has to calm jc down #however she also doesn't stop him when he sneaks out to finally get wwx back #also: look how insecure but happy jc looks at finally following through with the goal of getting wwx back #i like to believe that it takes jc always certain deliberation to go down a certain path which also makes him overthink the outcome so any #reaction by wwx that registers more negatively to him than the one he imagined will hurt him #someone rescue him from himself #ahhhhh

[space-specs]

Dick Grayson 🤝 Roy Harper

Sidekicks successfully able to move beyond their mentor and more well-known for their own individual vigilante identity now.

Stephanie Brown 🤝 Bart Allen

Original heroes that carried a couple legacy names before going back to their own unique hero names.

Tim Drake 🤝 Conner Kent

Stuck in the same name retelling the same stories and unable to fully grow as a character because DC can't seem to give them their own unique identities that would allow them to move on past this narrow idea of their characters.

#anyway yeah....just having some musings....they don't make 'em like they used to /hj #if they would stop roping Tim back into Robin that would be great actually #similarly i think Kon is being held back by still being Superboy #not to the same extent that Tim is but definitely keeps looping the 'i'm not like other Supers :(' narrative #(looking at you Superboy: The Man of Tomorrow preview) #i am holding out hope for the new SB series but also i am so fucking nervous. don't fuck this up for us dc #and i think he should get to be like 'i'm not like other Supers :D' and then build a new identity in the reconciliation of self #does that make sense? #like....i don't mind him staying SB except that it does grate on me a little that jon is allowed to grow up and become Superman #while kon is left behind and kinda neglected in superfam content and not allowed to Grow™ #and growth doesn't have to involve a change in hero name but i feel like tim and kon's names are so tied to their teen years #and them still having the same names is also seems to be why they aren't allowed to literally grow and be aged up at all #which limits the kinds of stories they get to have and can be used to tell #the immortal comic medium vs. the realism of believably semi-mortal characters ig #rambling in tags #spec-text-ular #dc #dick grayson #roy harper #stephanie brown #bart allen #tim drake #kon-el #conner kent #nightwing #arsenal #spoiler #batgirl #robin iv #impulse

[batfamfixation]

Actually? Fuck all of the people trying to gatekeep comic book characters that exist in other media. Acting like people can only form opinions about characters based on the comics is bullshit. If someone likes the Teen Titans because of the TV show instead of taking the time to read the thousands of comics "required" to be a "real fan" of those characters, good for them. If someone likes the Young Justice or Justice League cartoons and wants to talk about their love of those characters, they should. If Batman from Batman the Animated Series is a person's favorite version of Batman and their comfort character, GOOD FOR THEM.

This need to gatekeep comic book characters that appear in other media is fucking gross. If someone loves Batman and says he's a great guy because of how he's depicted outside of modern comics, then they're not a "fake" Batman fan, they just love a version of Batman that you don't care about. The same goes for all of the other DC shows and movies. People are allowed to love versions of characters that exist outside of comics and call themselves a fan of that character.

Stop. Gatekeeping. Fictional. Characters

#Are there any fandoms that aren't toxic? Please? #Growing up I experienced misogyny for liking media that fanboys considered to be theirs #(looking at you ⭐ Wars fandom) #I didn't experience misogyny in the Harry Potter fandom before the series ended but then JK R0wling ruined that herself #fucking with the spelling of fandoms so they don't show up in those tags #I felt fetishized and objectified in anime fan spaces (am lesbian) #Comic book fandoms used to be dominated by misogynistic white guys who didn't believe women who said they liked comics #Remember when we used to criticize guys who wanted women to prove they were “real” fans???? #Why are women now doing that? #So many women fought to be a part of fandom spaces just to turn around and join in on the gatekeeping #Setting rules on who can call themselves a fan #Stop #Please #I'm so tired of going to character and comic books tags just to see people gatekeeping what iterations and ships are acceptable #This fandom is full of so much hate that I'm losing my love of comic books #I planned on binging Roy's comics #but the die-hard Arrowf@m fans “us vs the Batfam” mentality is ruining the character for me #and from what I've seen of Roy's Titan run I relate to him a lot and absolutely planned on making him my next comfort character #and I really need fucking comfort right now

[graciousdragon]

makingn my headache worse by going on the danger days fandom wiki again

#rys.txt #i've made a severe and continuous lapse in my judgement #i just went on because i was looking at the most recent comic series' synopsis and i forgot who mike milligram was #that place is a goddamn shitshow oh my god #there is barely any information on there about any of the characters and most of the existing info is confusing/vague #we gotta start over. burn the whole thing down and start from scratch. and not on the fandom wiki site please #and if i have to see another person arguing over party poison's gender i will implode #i don't care what the answer is just stop arguing over it. please. we can all believe what we want forever #also. i refuse to believe gerard way has/had an amino account. there's no way #there are reasons why i haven't been on there in years

[roadtogracelandx45]

Don't Stop Believing| 1| K. Severide

*repost and rewrite*

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@prettyinpayne

Introduction. 

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“I don’t know Jamie, she seemed serious about it all.” Libby Reagan said into her phone, she had returned to the Sky Lounge Coffee Shop, where the day before she had met Paramedic Leslie Shay and her girlfriend Clarice and Shay had suggested off-hand that she should try becoming a paramedic turning the times she wasn’t in school to earn money. 

And to get her out of the bad habits she had formed and break her out of the shell she had been in for the last few years.

 “I think it would be good for you Lib.” Jamie, Libby’s twin brother returned, “You always wanted something good like dad, grandpa, Danny, and Joe.” Their grandfather was the police commissioner in New York, their father was the Chief of Deans, and their two older brothers were joining the police academy or on the force itself.

 “Could you imagine Danny finding out that I am working with the CFD?” Libby returned with a small laugh, her eyes going to the window and smiling when she saw Shay with two new people she hadn’t seen before. 

“He would probably flip his lid but Lib, he wants you happy.  We all do. And you haven’t been happy since we turned 16.”  

“I know, I hate it when you are right.” 

“Hate it when who is right?’ Shay asked, having come inside with the two people, one a good looking man with dark eyes and graying hair and a woman with dark hair and a teasing smile.

 “My brother. Jam, I gotta go be careful. Tell Syd hi.” Libby said into her phone quickly before hanging up. 

“Which older brother? Jamie?’ Shay asked, causing her to nod her head. “Danny is out on tour again and Joe is in the academy. So it's hard for me to talk to them. Jamie is easy.” 

 “He is closer right?” Shay  asked, sitting next to her. “Yeah, he’s in Boston for school,” Libby answered, her eyes going to the man that was now sitting across from her. “Libby, this Kelly, my roommate and this is Dawson, my partner.'' 

Libby muttered a quiet hello and slipped back into her shyness. 

 Seeing it. the man engaged her in a conversation. He was curious about her, she wasn’t like the other girls that Dawson and Shay brought around for him to meet. He wanted to get to know her.  

Dawson and Shay exchanged a look, the latter had been right, Libby was perfect for Kelly, she was the exact opposite of Renee and the badge bunnies that came around. They both wanted Kelly happy and Libby was the best one for that. 

#ash writes #oc: libby reagan #oc: libby reagan severide #series: don't stop believing #chicago fire fan fiction #chicago fire imagines #kelly severide fan fiction #kelly severide imagines

[kyouka-supremacy]

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#random rambles #The last ask sent me on five different tangents I wasted the whole afternoon over #I opted against adding this to the ask because it'd be unrespectful to Anon but if I don't let it out somewhere I'll die #Everyone knows how beyond what it may look like that I don't like bsd and that includes Beast #But the ask touches the exact reason why I think Beast ultimately fails as a story #because it constantly tries to frame Akutagawa as evil and heartless; but what's framed as his most cruel action #- the one of mindlessly slaughtering his enemies at the start - is itself moved by love #And I know someone in the wings is already arguing #“that's the whole point. the reader is supposed to see through it‚ and see that Akutagawa wasn't inherently evil to begin with” #… But I don't think that's the case. This is not the place to talk about it but at the same time I don't want to make a post about it #but at the same time I feel like I won't have peace untill I've brought this up. #That's not the case because 1) Dazai says it's not the case‚ and Dazai is the character with most authority in the entire franchise #and 2) Ryuunosuke's later scene with Gin reinforces the fact that Akutagawa's action was cruel and inhuman #But it's not true. It's just that the author is a little nihilist that doesn't believe humans are inherently good. #So please let's just stop pretending they aren't? Because bsd fans. in my very humble opinion - are in severe need of someone #to remember them they are free to like aspects of the franchise even without acting like its morals aren't completely fucked up #Sorry for derailing it's been tormenting me since forever I desperately needed to mention it somewhere. #I've recently read someone say that bsd sustained that humans are inherently good and like... What the fuck. What the fuck. What the fuck. #Like there ARE series that do that? T/pn is one of them? Read t/pn if you want that? It's good? #But bsd definitely doesn't c'mon it's not that hard #Ugh. sorry for this. It was just to say #I love Beast but I don't like bsd and Beast is part of bsd and Beast does ultimately adhere to bsd's fucked up morals Kyotag out #I'm just saying we should all be able to recognize where our personal worldviwes end and where the author's start. #If you don't you aren't reading you're projecting #I'm not even rereading this #if I'll overthink it a second more I know it'll end up together with my millions black posts at the bottom of my drafts #Post

[redheadedbrunette]

Cool so I reread the series and I noticed a lot more than I did the first two times I read it which is fun. The relationship between Ben and Erica is more explored than I remembered which is good and I can definitely see her character arc a lot clearer.

X is still my least favorite book and there’s absolutely a corner that Gibbs wrote himself into on that one unless he’s entirely giving up on the idea of having Ben and co. be secret agents.

Ben’s a lot more of a competent spy than I remember too, which is refreshing.

I also completely forgot that all 10 of these books happen in the span of like a year and a half which is hilarious.

Oh and the age gap seems like something that would be a lot more of an issue if there weren’t only like 300 people in the world they could have contact with. Even Erica and Josh had a bit of a gap since she had to have been 14/15 or so while he was 17/18. A gap of 2.5 years would be problematic for normal kids but I think different rules would apply.

I'm so glad it was clearer on a second go around! Honestly, I didn't even really see it all that clearly until I reread the series a couple years ago (SSAS came out my first week of college) and had a lot more experience with how stories work on a fundamental idea. Erica's development is very much in the background, but when you're looking for it (excluding SSPX, but that's a different rant) it's so clear and interesting and I love it.

SSPX bothers me for SO MANY REASONS the biggest of which is that Mr. Gibbs puts the message before the overarching plot of everything, and then! It's not even a relevant message! Like, what twelve year old is hardcore believing QAnon (it's pretty obviously meant to be that or something similar). I feel like something could have been achieved and a message about privacy, like Murray makes getting a video of Ben part of some TikTok knockoff challenge, because that seems like a much more likely thing kids would do, but gotta make fun of people who remember what the news said two years ago and comparing it to what they say now! Can't have people with good memories! But yeah, it does shoot the series in the foot kind of, and I understand the reasoning behind why things were done the way they were! I just don't agree with it most of the time.

It's even funnier when you realize that it's not a year and a half evenly spread out, it's one mission his first year with five months before summer, one that summer, and seven his second year. Eight if you want to count SSGS and SSBI as different missions (I go back and forth as to whether or not I do). It's so funny. Please give poor Ben a break.

And yes! Ben is actually so much more competent than people seem to give him credit for sometimes. It's just that his skill set tends to be less flashy and useful in battle scenes, but he's very much the chess master of the group. He's the one planning and strategizing, and all the karate moves in the world aren't going to do you any good if you can't actually foil the plans.

My reasoning for why I'm okay with the age gap is because the narrative treats them as equals who are more or less in the same place in life. Like, yes she's two classes ahead of him, but for all intents and purposes, they're teamed up together constantly with others in Ben's class and I think Erica is the only one we really know about in her class (can't remember Chip's age, but he might be? idk, doesn't really matter). It's never dwelt on, and it bothers me when people try to make a deal about it! Like, they're not going to be in the same place in their lives forever. It's high school. Almost no one marries the person they dated in high school. I've long held that they'd break up sometimes after Erica graduates and starts her adult life while Ben is still in school (or something similar depending on how Mr. Gibbs decides to do things moving forward).

#anyway my own personal conspiracy theory #is that between SSAS and SSPX the CIA contacted mr. gibbs #and told him to stop writing stories where the government was covering things up #and also to make conspiracy theorists seem crazy #because whether or not you believe in actual conspiracy theories #you *cannot* deny that in the context of the Spy School universe #they are correct that the government is lying to them #because that's the only reason i could come up with why someone who's invested so much time writing a series #would mess it up so royally #and there's an out of universe reason why the school got blown up #(it's because it's hard to market a middle grade series where the characters are in high school) #(and don't say Harry Potter middle grade didn't exist as a marketing demographic back then so JK had more freedom in a lot of regards) #so i don't see why there couldn't be an out of universe explanation for the other stuff #especially because several authors *have* gotten contacted by the government when they guessed something a little too close to the truth #but anyway #enough of my crazy #it's how i cope with the book being *so bad* #and that's the stuff i can explain away #unlike Erica's characterization in that book #spy school #ginger answers #erica hale #ben ripley #anyway if you want to send me more asks i would absolutely love that #i've been missing talking about it and the tag has been *so dead* and hardly anyone comments on my ao3 stuff

[airenyah]

and so what if i'm rewatching simm. again.

so what.

#i think on avarage i've watched it every 6 months or so ever since it aired lmao #i just. i have a very soft spot for it ok!!! sue me #also easily my fave joong role tbh #every time i watch it i'm just so amazed by just how MUCH of kluen's thoughts and emotions he shows me just via his face #when kluen has a very withdrawn and introverted personality and talks very little #and yet. YET!! i can see what's going on inside of him #it's so nice to watch thank you joong <3333 #also the joongdunk energy is just... *chef's kiss* exquisite #airenyah plappert #simm #adrm #also!!! i don't think dunk did as bad as many people like to say he did esp considering it's his first role #(bad buddy doesn't count‚ i refuse to believe he was on bad buddy <3) #(dunk natachai + bad buddy series just doesn't go together in my head dfkdfjkdf) #anyway i'm fiercly in the dunk protection squad and that's that <333 #although i do constantly wanna scream at him to hold still already to stop moving around so much #and that is the point where i realize i'm turning into my camera acting teacher good lord #(the amound of times i heard him say ''hör auf zum zappeln!!!!'' lmao i've got major trauma from that class)

[eatabledogy]

So I'm developing a new favourite interest-

#dogy dialogue #this is of course regarding the mass reblog spree i went on for south park shit #yeah that happened hours ago and yeah i still memed it #basically i forgot how but me and my sib started talking about creek and then we watched the craig and tweek eps again #and i half jokingly said what if we watched the whole series together #they said fuck it why not #and so we are almost finished season one and i can feel sp starting to grasp me in a chokehold #always saw the ads for this show and always thought i'd despise it #now look at me #i can hardly even believe i'm starting to get into this shit #it's the best worst thing to happen to me #btw this reblog spree happened because my sib expressed surprise that i hadn't reblogged sp stuff #so blame plugnuts #only reason i didn't was because of judgement but fuck it this is my blog and i can reblog sp if i want #also i just didn't think to so- #anyway fandom content for this show is fucking amazing #you appreciate it more cause the style is really kinda simple #so to see more of the characters features brought to life in drawings is so so so good #mostly the hair hhh #i went on a rant and don't know how to stop #i guess to wrap this all up i've been watching and enjoying south park and will reblog content for it until i die #thank you for coming to my ted talk #hope you like the high quality edit i did for this #peace

[i-dreamed-i-had-a-son]

Thinking once again about Obi-Wan and the changes he was forced to make to himself to survive after the Jedi fell. Thinking about how he still felt compassion and outrage at the injustice of his fellow worker getting robbed, and how Obi-Wan stared the man in the face, but Ben had to hold his tongue and walk away. We all expected him to stand up for the unfortunate. We expected the knife catch in the bar to be him, we expected him to help the young Jedi who found him, we expected him to help like he always has. But he is a different man, because he has to be, and he crams himself into the shell of apparent apathy that protects him. We start to wonder if he really has lost hope. If he has changed so deeply that what made him who he is was lost.

But as soon as he is off of Tatooine, as soon as Obi-Wan can't endanger Luke, he gives some of what little money he has to a clone veteran--a clone that likely killed some of Obi-Wan's friends and who could recognize him. He confronts Haja for deceiving the refugee family, and we can see his anger, not because of how Haja makes a mockery of his dead culture, but because taking advantage of those in need is wrong. He treats Leia with such gentle kindness, encourages her about her droid, buys her gloves even though she doesn't need them. As soon as he has the option, he immediately shows so much compassion. He starts to feel like the man we knew before.

Despite the time that has passed, his heart is still the same. He picks up his lightsaber, and he reaches into the Force; his mind and his hands have forgotten these things, but his heart has not. It has merely been waiting beneath the sand.

For the first time in ten years he allows himself to be--he remembers--who he really is.

Obi-Wan Kenobi. Jedi.

#star wars #kenobi series #kenobi series spoilers #obi wan kenobi #meta #it's just how instant that change is. and i don't think he'd even realized that he had only stopped because it would have endangered luke #he believes he has changed--but he hasn't. not really. not irreparably. so instinctively he shows compassion without even realizing #without recognizing that really--he has always wanted to. #the physical symbols of being a jedi are secondary. ben is no jedi. but obi-wan once was. and he can carry those things #i don't know how else to say it--it's an internal change that is represented by him taking up the outward signs of being a jedi again #and that just means so much to me #kay has a party in the tags #kay can i just catch my breath for a second #my meta posts #quality meta seal of approval #not to hype my own post up i just put that on all meta posts so that i can find them