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cirkkaa · 2 years
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ghost-opal · 8 months
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oh yeah i did this a while back its still one of my favorite homestuck fanarts even if it is kind of plain lol the barely visible image of Paul is just there because i google image searched "alien" and couldnt stop laughing at this image, i happened to have this paint tool SAI/Photoshop project open so i was like haha why not fuck it i'll put in a comedic skewed UFO png too, it works
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yeah this guy is still really funny looking. i haven't even watched the movie but i saw the trailer and he makes a pose like this while saying "its probing time" or something and i think thats really funny. isnt it so funny that an alien is acting really vulgar
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mmeqkoi · 2 years
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ooo lighting so cool
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honeytonedhottie · 14 days
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how to successfully rebrand⋆.ೃ࿔*:・🧁
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this post is a collaboration with my FAVORITE @prettieinpink. in this post we'll elaborate on rebranding urself and implementing change in a way that is not only efficient but not that difficult to do ✨
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FLIP THE SCRIPT ;
write down who u wanna become. what ur goals are, what ur style is like, ur schedule, achievements, relationships etc. however instead of writing it like "it'll happen one day" write it as though it happened already.
on the flip side i want u to write down what u think hinders you or blocks u from making the rebrand that u want so desperately. ur weakness. then flip them and find solutions on how to deal with it entirely, or diminish it significantly.
EXPAND ON UR BEAUTY ;
learn how to do makeup that is suited for ur own features. learn which clothes and colors compliment and flatter you the best. when u try and use a cookie-cutter approach to beauty as a way to fit a standard, you won't feel/look ur best.
thats why its important to know your own self the very best. no one knows ur beauty and body like you do so only you know best how to make ur beauty bloom.
DEVELOP UR OWN STYLE ;
u dont have to follow along with every single trend that u see in the fashion industry. although its fun at times or the particular trend can inspire u to create more outfits, its important to have a sense of individuality when u dress.
i recommend creating a pinterest board and filling it up with clothes that u love and clothes that align with ur style. find a fashion inspiration or multiple if u dont know where to start. when u go shopping, reference this board and look for clothes that r similar to the clothes in ur pinterest board.
REFRESH BUTTON ;
block the numbers of people that keep u trapped in a version of urself that u no longer associate with. get comfy with the block button girlies!! you can control who sticks around you and you're directly responsible for protecting ur peace.
delete photos of people who are no longer in ur life (like, they hurt u or walked out of ur life/vice versa) change up ur environment and what ur staring at every single day. unfollow people on social media who dont inspire you/who make u feel bad about urself and where u are on ur rebranding journey.
ADAPT ;
remember that list that we made earlier? lets learn to adapt habits can cultivate that and make this rebrand thrive. identify nonsense in ur life and learn how to get comfortable with cutting it off.
EXECUTE ;
now its time to put everything that we've covered into a action with a few easy and simple steps.
do ur SWOT analysis (strengths, weaknesses, opportunities, and threats)
create solutions to what u classify as ur weakness
commit to yourself and your rebrand
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grossditz · 7 months
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WAITJRLDB WAITRNDLDBS OMGGGBEKDBEN hello im a new anon but i just saw the bigbro! hanbin blackmailing you into sleeping with him # ANDJDLDJ@(#<#(#* honestly just keel me alr 😵‍💫 hope you elaborate more into this (if you want ofc) cause i can perfectly picture him making his way into you from the back while he presses your head w his hand against the bed/table ANDHDLDJSL
bigbro!hanbin has always been sketchy towards you. sometimes you would catch him lingering outside your room door in the middle of the night (while you're unaware he's already watched you cum all over your fingers) before going to his room. or sometimes he'd purposely walk in the bathroom while you're changing, only thing on always your bra. it was like he followed your every move, knowing what you were doing at every minute.
thats why you're not surprised when you catch him in your room after a night out, laying on your bed with a smile on his face. "do mom and dad know you smoke?" you nearly tripped over your rug, running over to the bed and grabbing the pack of cigarettes from his grasp. "why were you looking through my stuff?!" you didn't get the chance to pull away before hanbin was pulling your body onto his, strong arms locked around your waist. "hanbin—" you muttered, fists slamming against his chest, "knock it off." he was so much stronger than you. this wasn't even a fair fight. he ignored you, tugging on your spaghetti straps, slipping them gentle off your shoulders. "no! wait— you can't do that!"
"i'll tell mom and dad you've been smoking, yn." his voice is low, fingers working on pulling more pieces of your clothing down, "ill tell if you don't let me."
hes serious when he says this. movement stilling waiting for your response. this was frustrating. you had no way to get past this. if they found out you've been doing drugs, they'd definitely kick you out! you have nowhere else to go! this was too bad! you tried to flutter away the tears blooming in the corners of your eyes. "bin..." your lip quivered. hanbin smiled, continuing his actions. he didn't care that fat tears were already starting to roll down your cheeks. not when his hand is pushing on your core and its so tiny, so tight and ready for a good big brother to fuck.
hes so rough when manhandling you. pressing you into the bed and forcing his cock inside you :( pushing his hand down your your stomach to create the illusion of him going that deep inside you. hes really so mean :( calling you a slut for actually letting your big brother take you while your parents are down the hall! as if this isn't all his fault to begin with!
he cums in you so much, fucking his cum deeper with every rut of hips, forcing your head down on the mattress going, "stupid little sister loves getting her belly stretched out huh?" his tip hitting your womb so hard, "gonna have your brothers baby? love it dont you?"
ofc you do! you would do anything to keep hanbin from ratting you out !!! even if it means giving all of yourself to him </3
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arcan3-reliquary · 5 months
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Johnny Cage and Kenshi (with a touch of Jonshi) Headcannons
Why? because they make me ill and once i claim characters as my favorites i hold them like a squishmallow
| JOHNNY CAGE |
Has freckles. like everywhere, in all the places. Also has a tooth gap. A lot of his visual “imperfections” are edited out and that really got to him early in his career. Now he rolls with the punches and proudly says that his imperfections are some of his best bits
Total history buff. Almost became a history teacher before acting and martial arts movies were a serious avenue for him. 100% would go back for a masters in history “But im no good at school and have like zero time :/ ”
(Hits with the transgender-fication beam) Hes just like me and i dont even need to elaborate because i know some of yall agree with me.
Very ADHD. Probably got diagnosed after the divorce and events of story mode and immediately went “Oh shit that explains so much.” I say this as an actor with ADHD
Do not let him talk about sci-fi movies because he will talk your ear off. He has a list of his all time favorites (the original Dune is at the top because of nostalgia, not because it was good and thats his stance on it till the end of time)
| KENSHI TAKAHASHI |
Loves soft textures and compression clothing. Helps him feel more grounded when he’s dissociating and doesn’t have the element of sight to pull him out.
Has opinions on certain books. Not much for mainstream genres but does enjoy a good scifi horror or essay. Smoke gifted him a CD player with audio books once because he knew Kenshi missed the physical aspect of books, and to this day those cds sit with not a scratch on them.
Not much of an infodumper, prefers to kinda just sit with his opinions and write/record them for himself. But when Johnny has a hard time sleeping, he’ll just start talking for as long as he can stay awake.
Cold as a corpse. Mans is freezing has always has the thermostat on 70. Not very touchy but when people feel his hands they immediately jump up 6 feet bc of the temperature
His coffee is pitch black without even an ounce of sugar in sight, and to add to the horror he once called unsweetened green tea “a little too sweet” while Ashrah and Smoke called it the most bitter concoction known to mortal kind.
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thegayghestieprompter · 4 months
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Random Papa HCs
(click for more, not nsfw but i wrote a LOT)
Primo<3
Primo was like. THE parentified child. If you think Nihil wasn't out being a Slut™ for the Whole Time you are WRONG!!!
He loves his brothers. Even Copia. Even before he knew they were biologically related.
He is Filled With Anxiety™ all the TIME. Being raised to grow up almost immediately is tough, yeah
This man. This man is so romantic. Like. He will love you forever and ever and ever and ever. And he will make sure you know it. You are going on All of The Dates. You are going to be given gifts randomly. Mostly flowers. He likes flowers
He likes flowers :3
can't cook for shit
Upon revival he looks a bit younger, like 60s/70s rather than like 80+ and definitely has long blond hair. This one is here because I like Peemo with hair. I want to touch his hair. I think I love hi
Sighs. Pansexual.
6ft tall
His legal first name is Federico. I don't know why, I found it on a baby name site and I love her (the name. Primo's pronouns are He/Him)
His pronouns are probably He/Him
Secondo<3
Slut. The Worst Sassy Bitch from 18 to like 29
He's like actually sweet but only if he is In Love with you
He loves his brothers. This does NOT mean he is nice to them
Everyone annoys him all of the time. There are no exceptions.
Only dates humans. Is confused as to why anyone(Terzo..Copia..) would date a ghoul. Ghoul-fucker. Ew. Nasty.
So he might be bi. I think he is
He's a Bisexual Bitch and I want tokiss hi
He's so fine
^^^not a headcanon thats actually a fact
Bald forever<3
cooks so fucking good. never cooks though :(
He had blond hair too when he was WAYY younger except he was like "ew i look like my older brother who acts like a MOM. dying this shit brown"
Wavy with some curls<3
Another He/Him!?!?
A Slut And Whore™ until he falls in love. On the rare occasion that he does he falls HARD. Stupid little dumby. I love hi
His legal first name would be Vincenzo. No elaboration. I just Think So therefore its true
6'2, says he's 6ft because he never actually checked, Terzo tells people he's 5'9
Terzo<3
short fuck. he's literally 4'9 and its literally canon and thats so fucking funny
Whore but not in a slutty way. He fake-romances like any sibling of sin and then gets FUCKED and then DIPS. Suddenly he has a lot of paperwork to get to
Slut but not in a whorish way. Wears revealing clothing for Omega but still the fancy kind. Kabukiaku has it down and I love her for that
Stupid old man with smile lines face wrinkles i think i need to kiss h
Did you know his confidence is the fakest shit because boy he is SO insecure (i have an angst problem this is my fault sorry
Ghoul-fucker
Loves to annoy Secondo. Gets pissed when Secondo gets mad. Tries to bother Primo. Gets pissed when Primo is kind and open to him. Hates Copia. Gets pissed when Copia Exists.
He romancess everyone with at least One Rose. IDK why but purple and red are so pretty together and he looks so romantic he is a very romantic man btw so he uses roses to stealyou
Hear me out. "Antonio"
Sorry I didn't elaborate his legal first name should be Antonio because??? yeah
Most people use He/Him for Terzo, he doesn't mind He/They. He just doesn't care. Basically cis he/him who is okie dokie with a little "they/them" here and there
he can't cook for shit
he's handsome
he's stupid
he's an idiot
he's so fine
he's my boyfriend
sorry for last bullet thats not a hc i just love him :(
Copia<3
Sigh<3
5'7. u3u
he's not that slutty actually he's too dorky to even properly romance someone. you give him hints? he thinks you're really friendly. he tries to give you hints? they are not understandable
Rats. Everywhere. He has pet rats. This is canon and if you disagree you are Wrong
be the rat you want to see in the world
that wasnt a hc sorry. He/Him
GREY HAIRS IN HIS BROWN HAIR GREY HAIRS SO MANY AND I NEED HIM. I LVOE HIM
sorry guys. i put myself back into my cage i am normal again. he has that cute little giggle. like that kind of laugh you hear that makes you just stop and stare at the person for a bit because You Are In Love With H
his smile is sooo sweet
He doesn't have fangs but he has sliiiightly crooked teeth that look kinda like em :)
he loves his brothers. He likes Primo and is closest with him cause Primo was active in his childhood and hung out with him and stuff. He respects Secondo but Secondo didn't really interact much in his childhood. He'll gladly make conversation and try to say hi when he sees him. He always kindly greets Terzo and awkwardly babbles about random shit getting progressively more nervous when Terzo is obviously annoyed
Hi. He's pretty
His office has plants that Primo gave him
He has every Employee of the Month award on his wall in his office
He can't cook for shit
take out<3
doordash<3
Pansexual<3
Ghoul-fucker
he's my husband
sorry no he's not. i lied. do you forgive me
ummmmm
rats?
yeah
Nihil >:( >:( 🤬🤬🤬
I hate him
Ugly old wrinkly BITCHSTICK
terrible
cheater
fuckass dumbfuck
i hate him
he's stupid/neg
i don't like him
young nihil is sooooo fine i need him in my household
i hate him
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icey--stars · 1 year
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Stories To Be Told: PART 10
Series Index
A shadowsinger, a warrior, an Illyrian, that's what she was. Trained by one of the most formidable female warriors. Escaped the Illyrian camps and her clipping when she was barely sixteen and is now the holder of 6 siphons. What happens when she tries to sneak into the City of Starlight? And starts down a whole new road of chaos?
A/N: and WELCOME BACK! thank you all so much for your support. it truly means the world to me!! and remember- its every other day posting now, besides weekends because thats my break days lol
ps. i am way to lazy to write the entire time y/n was at her brother's and mother's place. so just imagine a lot of sucking up and pissing y/n off. (in other words, i dont need more characters to show development with lol) AH i can't wait to make you all suffer in anguish and wait after wednesday's post.
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I was buzzing with anger as I flew back to the House. My mother and brother had tried so, so hard to get me to like them. They just made me hate them more by how desperate they were. Extra food, tours (which I blatantly refused) and all sorts of things. Gifts from my mother in the form of dresses. Knives from my brother. I hated it. I absolutely hated it. There wasn’t any escape either, unless I wanted to winnow away. I wasn’t willing to brave going into the camp. I stayed where I was, or I snuck into the forest for an hour to cool my anger down.
I flew through the better part of the day, rain starting to come down from midday. I ignored it, pushing through the wind and storm.
I landed on the balcony, soaking wet. I stalked inside, taking off my boots before I went into my room and set them by the window to dry. My leathers soon joining them.
I had just changed into a dryer set of clothes when a knock on my door made me flinch.
“Who is it?” I called.
“Azriel,” the male replied from behind the door.
I sighed, still feeling as if I was running on pure spite and then shook off my wings before opening the door.
“Yes?” I prompted, leaning against the doorway.
“How did your trip go?” He asked.
“It was fine,” I replied.
“Where’d you go if you don’t mind me being curious?”
“Illyria.” I looked back over my room for a moment, seeing if it was clean enough to open. I was startled to find my shadows curling over me still. They’d been silent mostly, for the entire flight and visit. I opened the door, pulling my shadows in to disappear.
“I went to visit people who aren’t my family anymore. Nothing big,” I said.
“You have… family?”
“Not really,” I sighed, opening the door to work on scrubbing my leathers dry and cleaning them. “They’re quite manipulative in my experience.”
“Ah,” Azriel sighed. “I can get that.” He didn't elaborate, and I didn't need him to.
“Did you need anything, or did you just want to know why I was gone?” I asked.
“Well, I was confused why you were gone, but I figured if you arrived during this storm, you’d like a couple clean towels.” He pulled a small pile of towels from behind his back.
I eyed them suspiciously before taking them and setting them on the bed. “Thank you, I suppose.”
Azriel stood there awkwardly for a few more minutes before he finally said, “I’ll see you later.”
As he walked off, I took one of the towels and used it to dry off my head and neck that was still dripping water, looking out the window at the moon and the stars beyond it.
Luckily, I didn’t get sick from my fly through the rain. I managed to dodge that bullet.
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“Y/N!” Nesta greeted me as I landed near them for training the next morning. “How have you been?”
“Fine,” I replied. 
“Where’d you go, if you don’t mind me asking?” Emerie questioned.
“Illyria. My… old family asked for my presence. I’m not going back,” I replied hesitantly.
“Good. They don’t need to be in your life,” Emerie said. I nodded in agreement.
“Alright! Come on ladies!” Cassian called. “Glad to have you back Y/N, hope you’ve been practicing for the past week.”
I rolled my eyes.
The training was hard, but it also was a relief to be back, doing what I’d been doing the past months. Spring was nearing and the air was getting warmer, which was nice. Around this time I would settle myself in the middle of the forest instead of near a town to buy food. Spring was when all the critters started to come out.
During lunch, Nesta said, “so, does anyone have any plans for Starfall or are we all going to stare at the sky like last year?”
Starfall. The most beautiful night of the year. I remember watching it at the camps and missing it dearly in the Winter Court. I’d been watching it hanging onto the tops of trees recently, but I’d heard that the best place to view it was in Velaris. 
“How about you Y/N?”
I realized I’d zoned out the conversation and shook my head to clear it. “I’ve no plans. I’ll enjoy seeing it from here though.”
Emerie smiled. “It’s beautiful. Do you plan to wear anything nice?”
I pursed my lips. “Not a dress,” I replied. “I’ll probably find something a bit different though so I don’t stand out.”
“Cassian always ends up wearing just a nice black dress shirt, so you could get away with that,” Nesta offered.
“It is hard to find dresses that work for wings, so I get that,” Emerie chuckled. “Everything tends to be harder to get on. I might be able to help if you need it."
I nodded in agreement. “I’ve never been the type to wear dresses. Never have actually. I wore a skirt in the Winter Court once, but it wasn’t to my liking, just too limiting on movement. And I might just take you up on that offer Emerie."
“Makes sense,” Nesta replied. “Though if you ever want to try, let me know because I am so going to be there.”
I chuckled. “Will do Nesta.” I finished up my food, standing up. “Alright I have work, see you all tomorrow.”
They waved me off as I walked off down the hallways.
Azriel met me on the balcony and I almost groaned. What did he want now? At this point, all he did was worry over me. Or act all awkward and weird. I prepared myself for a snarling match.
“Y/N, Rhys would like to have a word with you after work. Just at the River House by the Sidra,” Azriel said.
I eyed him a little big longer before replying, “Alright, I’ll make sure to meet with him. Anything I should prepare?”
“He didn’t tell me anything.”
I sighed, a little disappointed about not knowing what to expect. “Alright then. Anything else?”
Azriel shook his head. “Don’t end up in the harbor again,” he chuckled.
I rolled my eyes before flying off toward the docks.
I wasn’t tasked to use my wings luckily. It’d become a habit of my boss to exploit them. Instead, I lifted boxes and carried them onto ships just like the rest of the dock employees.
I managed to find the River House without fail, landing outside as I passed through the wards. The House of Wind had wards, I knew, but I’d gotten used to them. These were… different. Stronger somehow and more reinforced.
I knocked on the door and it opened to reveal my High Lord.
“Ah, Y/N. Great to see you. I had a couple things to discuss with you if you’ll come with me?” Rhysand asked.
I nodded, and he held the door while I walked inside and then led me through the halls to a smaller room. An office. It had papers scattered everywhere, while some remained neatly stacked. Others were ripped. But there was ink on the desk and a bookshelf, which made it less intimidating in a way.
A stool magically appeared at a snap and as Rhys took the one at his desk, I took the stool, facing him. My wing twitched with nervous energy. What was he going to ask?
“So,” he began. “I’ve heard from your brother that you visited him recently, yes? And your mother.”
“Not really my family, but yes. That’s where I left to visit. Faxon and Merle.”
Rhysand nodded. “Alright. It seems that Faxon, the head guard there, has made a mistake. He mentioned you to the lord there, Ambroz.”
I shivered at the name, holding back a snarl. Oh, for so long I’d wanted to tear that male apart. The one who tried to clip me. The one who ruined everything. My plan, my life, my memories, my mind, and so many other little parts of me.
“I understand you have some not so pleasant memories with him, but he’s offered to apologize to you, wanting you to visit. I want to know if I should be concerned for your safety.”
My leg started to bounce and I held it down with my hand. 
“Ambroz isn’t the type to apologize. He’s the type to act irrationally. I barely knew him during my time in Ironcrest, but you learn a lot about a male who ruined your entire life. You don’t have to be concerned about me, but perhaps just a bit concerned for how things may fall out if I don’t visit. If I do, which I can, it probably will end in bloodshed on both parties.”
“I see. I don’t have a particular liking for that male. And because he hasn’t committed any outright crimes, I can’t condemn him. No matter how much I want to. I was wondering if perhaps you’d be willing to visit and find a way to… make him come clean about something or commit a crime. He’s causing problems all across Illyria. I’d rather like to kill him if I could. Clipping would warrant that.”
“If anyone is going to kill him, I’m doing it. Or any female in that camp that I knew,” I said, holding back the growl in my voice.
I paused, and then observed, “So you want me to manipulate him into coming clean.”
“Should you want the killing blow, it’s yours. And yes. I do,” Rhysand spoke. “I’ve been trying to have Azriel do it, but Ambroz doesn’t particularly think he can manipulate Az. He does, however, with you.”
I closed my eyes for a moment, my knee bouncing against my hand, even despite the strength I put forth to keep it down- “I’ll do it,” I said loud enough for him to hear. “If only to get the opportunity to kill him.”
Rhysand nodded in understanding. “Faxon offered housing. Though I have an inkling you don’t exactly want it, so I’m offering for you to stay two hours north, in Windhaven. My mother’s old residence is there.”
I nodded. “That would be great, but I don’t really know where that is exactly.”
“That’s why I’m sending Azriel with you. He will stay out of your way, but act as some sort of body guard, while doing extra work for me,” Rhysand explained. “That isn’t an issue, is it?”
I tensed but replied, “not an issue my lord.”
That bastard had lied about knowing nothing. He knew.
“It’s just Rhys, but I’m glad you find that agreeable. How soon do you think you could leave?”
“Anytime,” I replied. “Just give me tomorrow morning and I can leave whenever.”
Rhysand smiled. “Leave tomorrow then. The sooner you finish, the sooner it’s done. Azriel has a mental link with me he can use to tell me when to come down. That will be when Ambroz finally fucks up.”
I dipped my head. “Sounds good.”
I flew out of that house feeling rage boiling my blood slightly. “You knew,” I deadpanned at Azriel, who was standing on the balcony, quietly observing the city below us.
“Yes,” he sighed.
“You lied,” I observed, seeing if he was going to argue.
“Yes, I did. It was Rhys’s job to inform you of the mission. Did you accept?”
“Yes, we leave tomorrow.”
Azriel nodded. “We’re traveling by shadow to Windhaven. You can get out your nerves during the flight to Ironcrest. To send a message like daemati, tell a shadow a message to repeat to me. Only we can hear it.”
Azriel was in full spymaster, planning mission mode it seemed. It made it slightly easier to talk with him. Without all his... interesting behavior
I nodded, despite having a spike of anxiety about using my shadows. There was no telling how long this trip might take, and I’d have to have my shadows out the entire time just to make sure I was intimidating. I had to make sure people took me at least partly seriously.
Distantly, I wondered where the hell all my pissed off energy towards this male had run off to.
“Keep the negative from flowing into your power. That’s the best way I can describe it. Create a wall, similar to a mind shield between it and your shadows,” Azriel explained. “I’m going to trust that you can hold your own against the males in the camp should things go south. Can you winnow very far?”
I knew what he was talking about. The hard thing was doing it. But at least I had an idea on how. 
“I can winnow to the human lands if I wanted to,” I replied.
“Good. And if there are wards, pray to all the gods that you don’t die,” Azriel finalized. “I’ll see you in the morning.” He walked off without another word. He was clearly focused and prepared for a mission like this. Unlike me, who was just trying to do whatever the hell I was being told to do.
I sighed, and then walked to my usual area for dinner, sitting down with a huff.
There was always one thing I neglected to tell everyone about my shadows. Something I'd avoid telling anyone until my final days if I could.
Wards… wards usually don't matter to me. I can feel them, and I can pass through them, but if there are wards that stop me from doing things, most often, under intense pressure, I can indeed still use my shadows. I didn’t know if Azriel could as well, and it might very well be a “me” thing, but if there are wards and I am trapped, I can escape still. Maybe alone, but there are worse things in life. After all, I'd escaped alone without Rainne. Losing someone I was pissed off at would be easier.
My shadows were my secret, I told myself. I wasn’t obligated to share what I could do, especially when angered. There was more I could do, but I didn’t know if Az could do them as well. But I knew the ward winnowing, slipping in between undetected, wasn’t normal. And someone might just kill for that power, to control it, or extinguish it.
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TAGLIST: just comment to be added! in the future, i'll work on a taglist for all my works, but for now, its just this story. if i've already posted the next part, the notice will be a reply to ur comment and you'll be in the next one <3
@mis-lil-red, @bunnymallowo, @judig92, @biblophilefox82, @azzydaddy, @thegirlintheshadows101, @whatupmydudes01, @feyres-fireheart, @elizarikaallen, @xenlynn, @panzees-bizarre-adventures, @starswholistenanddreamsanswered, @baebeepeach
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k0kichiimagines · 2 years
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i wrote this on my period on drugs in pain at 2 am after a nightmare and repeatedly waking. thats my excuse. my excuse for posting it? because i can. starting w saeran because i can.
r the mystic messenger ass or boobs men ( and women (singular: jaehee)) ??
cws : non explicit nsft. F reader. im already regretting this.
saeran - boobs
literally nothing anyone says will ever chance my opinion on this i say that every version of saeran is strongly a boob lover. we can discuss literally any other character here not saeran im stubborn about this, boob lover
in a nsft he loves ur tits, titty lover woman lover, kisses ur chest gently, leaves hickeys, loves it exposed so he can press his lips to your nipples or in a cute bra. the man is obsessed
sfw? pillows. he loves lying on your chest, its soft and comfortable and like a second hug. constantly resisting the urge to just face plant into your face, doesnt understand why its called a marshmallow hell
yoosung - boobs.
do i need to explain?
i dont know how to explain it actually he just screams boob lover??? but he's too shy to actually touch your chest, his hand will be shaky and you'll probably have to grab it and put it there
zen - ass
i think zen is an ass kinda guy, he likes when you wear tight dresses or jeans or really any thing that shows it, probably (definitely) smacks your ass any time he sees you kind of guy
hips are his main thing i think though, looves your hips i know it wasnt an option but where else can i put this
but equally does love ur tits very much <3
jaehee - boobs
im running out of ideas of how to elaborate i started w saeran and then did the others randomly but tit lover again
matching lingerie 👁️ matching bras.
but yeah she loves your chest, loves how soft it is, cups your breasts and kisses them softly, makes your heart melt.
jumin - both.
he loves gifting you clothes that show off you cleavage, necklaces as well, pretty clothes that generally draw attention to it all. only draw back is you have to cover up all the love bites hes left there, so you may tend to avoid them
equally loves ur ass usual behaviour hits it (lightly) all that stuff. wear shorts around him, like those rlly short ones
saeyoung - ass
i really debated over this because i can see him strongly loving both, but i think if someone forced him to give one up he'd literally kiss both ur tits goodbye sadly
he likes face down ass up sex positions, grabs your ass when youre sitting on him making on, started grabbing your butt as a joke when he walks past but now its just automatic and it would feel too weird to stop now. perhaps he also likes it because with your tits you'd obviously see him starting and tease him, but with your ass ? less so
uses it as a pillow.
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tacagen · 9 months
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Healthy Eobarry AU
(yes its just called that. no there is no actual romance, the word eobarry is here only so i dont have to write 'barry and eobard' all the time im talking about them. some things are very close to that tho but thats just the way it always is with thawne.)
the core idea: eobard is still a flash fan from the 25th century with a huge crush but he never wanted to be a hero like barry. he always wanted to go back in time and become flash's archnemesis instead, so there is no rejection abandonment and disappointment drama at all. not a single trace of canon hatred, thawne just wants to have some good time with his favorite hero in a weird way. barry, on the other hand, has no idea what the fuck is even going on. the vibe is most reminiscent of silver age eobarry. their dynamic:
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ALSO their dynamic: this jla short
the lore:
they first meet in 21st century. eobard just finds barry, comes up to him like 'omg hi flash!! im your fan from the future and i just synthesized myself the speedforce connection to go back in time and meet you irl :)', waits exactly until barry believes and starts marveling at that fact, goes 'BUT THERE'S ALSO THIS LITTLE THING YOU SHOULD KNOW :)))) youre probably wondering why these colors. well, i call myself the reverse-flash and actually im here to cause problems for you on purpose. NOW CATCH ME IF YOU CAN :D', runs off to break the brakes of a bus carrying children or something like that while barry stands for a few seconds like 'huh. reverse? where are you going?'
right after barry, utterly confused and shocked, averts the situation thawne caused, he goes 'WHAT THE ACTUAL HELL WAS THAT?? DIDNT YOU JUST SAY YOU WERE MY FAN??' which thawne answers with 'wow. you really thought i was one of these boring "my favourite person of all time inspired me to become a hero like them" rip-offs with no imagination, didnt you? tsk tsk, i am so disappointed'
secrecy of their identities to each other isnt a thing since the very first fight. 'by the way, my name is eobard thawne! and i know you're barry allen, i actually know most of the 21st century heroes' identities but i promise you can trust me with that!'. indeed, he doesnt reveal this to anyone or threaten to do so but trust isnt exactly the right word either as thawne fucking loves visiting barry while they're both in their civil clothes at times + itwasmebarry still becomes a thing (elaborated on further below).
thawne is faster than barry here from the very beginning on pure theory and little to no speedster experience but only because barry just desperatly tries to process all the information he recieves from thawne every time they fight along with handling whatever endangering civilians shit eo does and he isnt doing well. at all. like, it does require a lot of hard effort not to lose your mind while constantly being hit with stuff like 'OOOHH DID I MENTION THAT I WORK AS THE CURATOR OF THE FLASH MUSEUM IN THE 25TH CENTURY?!? BTW WE STUDY YOUR HISTORY IN SCHOOL IN COMICS FORM, ISNT THAT AMAZING?!!'
thawne never shuts up. thawne genuinely enjoys the whole thing and admires barry an impossible amount and he's always fascinated by every aspect of the speed force, especially seeing and using it in action. thawne never acts like a normal villain as in 'commit crime->run away/fight the hero/watch the chaos'. he does something that endangeres people's lives (ALWAYS in front of barry because that is the whole point) then runs alongside barry as he saves everyone, never initiating the fight and ENDLESSLY commenting on everything barry does with consideration of flash facts, speed force and other physics stuff and even barry's personal background. it always goes like 'must do this and this to get everyone to safety!-' and thawne, instantly from somwhere behind barry's left shoulder: 'YES you DO, because this this and this and of course you could try that but-' and it goes on for 5 minutes on superspeed at the very least. from a non-speedster perspective, it looks like two blurs with lightnings, red and yellow, are saving people and going with some kind of weird squeaking high-pitched sound, which is never there if there is only flash around.
by the way, the rule that it is Very important for thawne to touch barry at any given chance and prolong it by going faster than him is still present. the same goes for becoming a speedster partially to have an opportunity to get away from 25th century and its mildly or not so dystopian shit and boringness. doesnt really realize the first part tho, sometimes casually drops some crazy ass facts about his future as something totally normal (like that one good-bad detection chair from silver age that gets a cameo in rs) and gets confused when the reaction is something like '.....i am so sorry.'
THE SAME ALSO GOES FOR 'IT WAS ME BARRY', its just way more lighthearted and has the purpose only of annoying and messing with barry through slight inconveniences in his life and it is a whole another part of their enemyship outside of the usual tag games. examples: 1. barry in his lab, extremely tired and almost exhausted, stumbles on air, says 'dammit eobard, this again??'. thawne unphases nearby with an offended look, goes 'HEY. THAT WASNT ME.', demonstratively pushes barry's mug with coffee off the table like a cat, 'now this was me, barry', grins and runs off before barry can do anything; 2. imagine thawne's excitement when he plays chess in iron heights, looks away, notices yellow lightnings with the corner of his eye and turns to the board again only to find that his queen is gone. the very next encounter starts with thawne running around barry in circles like 'it was you. it was you. IT WAS YOU! ITWASYOUWASNTIT!!'
this thawne is incapable of murdering anyone close to barry or ever hurt him at all. the best he can do is threaten anyone's life in barry's sight (and he knows barry will save everyone. more, he never arranges the events with the chance of barry not being fast enough to save every single life threatened so it isnt a big deal) because in other case he just wont come out to play with him :( ((i dont think thawne's generally capable of murder here? he feels too silly for that to me))
following important things: 1. barry obviously never killed thawne because he never did anything that extreme. 2. nora allen is alive and well and probably met thawne personally. he visits her in his civil clothes and acts in the nicest way possible, barry hears about the mysterious friend from work he never mentioned later and chokes on tea as nora recalls 'what did he say his name was? edward taurine?' 3. BARRY'S DOG IS STILL DEAD THO but it actually was an accident. he still blames himself for not shutting the back door that day in the way he blames himself for the not emotional enough postcard for his grandma in dc superhero girls. (see also: this vid but its about the dog instead of nora) ((ALSO thawne is most likely actively empathetic about it because he cant stand seeing barry sad or hurt. unfortunately he is also actively neurodivergent so that turns out to be awkward))
they team up often but barry is never aware of that as it happens out of his control. thawne has every single event that threatened barry marked in his calendar and an alarm set for it and he just shows up there like 'fuck you, this is MY archnemesis/idol/inspiration and nobody is going to fucking hurt him'
barry is generally always in the state of confusion when it comes to thawne. he doesnt understand what's going on like 80% of the time. as thawne never gets any clearer to him, barry just accepts that this, at some point, is now a part of his life.
instead of love letters, thawne writes and sends barry personally discovered speed force equations like 'look!! this is how it all works there!!' and occasionally mentions other science things discovered after 21st century. barry reads all that, understands and sometimes uses those against thawne who is completely delighted by that.
one day thawne manages to lock barry up in anti-meta cell and spends the following 3 hours on MATHEMATICALLY PROVING THE EXISTENCE OF THE SPEEDFORCE TO HIM STEP BY STEP, reciting his dissertation verbatim which was written in the context of no one knowing and caring about the concept.
thawne participates in the legion of doom and other supercriminal associations out of 'is flash gonna be there?? whatever youre planning im in, just leave him to me and me alone'. probably doesnt even listen to the scheme details and learns about it directly from barry in the final fight when he asks him 'eobard?? what?? the?? fuck?? why are you participating in something that's ultimate goal is DESTROYING THE FUTURE??'. (or others just stopped telling him the details, OR he doesnt listen on purpose after that one time he edited the whole plan like 'oh cmon do you actually think you could succeed with THIS?? let me show you how its actually done' only for them to lose epically. whats worse is that thawne saw it as something obvious. 'wait you really thought it would work?? cmon the whole point of being a supervillain is that the good guys always stop you no matter what you come up with.' they naturally never let him speak on the plans again which he responded with 'WHATEVER. YOU DO YOU IG. NOT GONNA INTERFERE AGAIN :/') unironically protects barry in group fights if any other villain is trying to aid him against the flash and attacks his own allies for that (barry once uses that to his advantage to take out the whole legion one by one lmfao. thawne genuinely doesnt notice that he is the only one standing until barry mentions it. he takes a moment to look around and that's when barry takes him out, too). as you can figure, he doesnt get invited into villain associations often, and if he does its usually the last resort bc he is a Genius Even By Future's Standards and therefore one of the most competent scientists out there.
nobody wants to sit at the same table with thawne in iron heights or interact at all because he instantly starts infodumping about the flash and their relationship. you accidentally get closer than like 2m to him and after a few seconds he just goes 'me and flash are best enemies, you know? we even always wear matching suits, oh and did you know-'
thawne gets mad if you compare his suit with kid flash because his suit has a Deep Idea and acktually he got to 21st century before wally was also struck by lightning and therefore was here first (yep, he did that on purpose and it gets revealed the very same moment he mentions it)
speaking of kid flash. thawne argues with him at any given chance because fighting a literal child on who is the biggest flash fan is something he would do on a daily basis. it just feels right (and it shouldve happened in canon at this point at least once. fucking Come On dc. almost 60 years of thawne's existence and for what!!). his points are that: he is the flash's Equal (even in height. thawne is very fucking proud of that fact) and not a pathetic sidekick; he got powers after years of hard scientific work and not by coming to barry's lab at the right moment; he is an Expert, a Professor, a Curator of the flash museum and knows everything about flashes, including the things they dont know themselves yet (he accidentally reveals that wally is also gonna be the flash but is quick to claim that he was the slowest and dumbest of them all and actually fuck you ima erase that from the timeline later), 'therefore l + ratio + IM his biggest fan and there is nothing you can do about it' 'lmaoooo who the heck taught you these words?? dude you sound so cringe. like do you even know what ratio means??' '*thinking it's just a figure of speech from 21st century literature classics or something like that for his whole life* well i- h- wh- DONT CHANGE THE SUBJECT.' wally doesnt care at all and just trolls him, harshly at times. he doesnt take thawne even a little bit seriously, which eo tragically doesnt realize.
thawne's comedically jealous of barry to iris between the lines and is completely unaware of that. the same thing going on with the rogues about emenyship with barry but that one is direct and on purpose. probably fucking jumps in their fights with flash like 'hi i just took out cap cold for you no need to thank me <3 now, can WE dance?? :|' every now and then. probably it gets super awkward when they inevitably end up in iron heights together that same day. honestly i think every supervillain who met thawne wants to kill him at this point. he's extremely annoying, both on purpose and not
thawne finds and starts nitpicking the first curators and architects of the flash museum in 21st century from the very project stage like 'NO it should stand THE OTHER WAY everyone shut up im from the future i Know Better'. it continues right until barry comes to pick him up and apologise for the inconvenience. 'eobard, i know this place means... a lot to you but please let history run its course. i mean, arent you risking your whole existence by trying to make these changes?' 'BUT THEY'RE DOING IT WRONG >:('
CANONICALLY ALMOST DROWNS 3M AWAY FROM A BRIDGE WHILE TRYING TO RUN ON WATER WITHOUT KNOWING HOW TO DO THAT YET OR AT LEAST HOW TO SWIM. every time barry mentions that incident thawne blushes like hell out of shame. imagine being saved from the lake by your crush/nemesis/everything who is actually Worried that you almost drowned out of your own stupidity which kind of covers the cringefail at first so youre enjoying the Moment but then you hear 'why did you even decide to run across the lake, there was a bridge nearby?'. thawne BEGS barry not to tell anyone (and especially wally). that probably was the first time thawne actually stayed in iron heights for longer than half an hour without getting out the very second everyone looks away on barry's condition of secrecy. now, the funniest part? if thawne hadnt shown that it was cringe even to him, barry wouldnt even say a single thing any further. to him it was a usual impossible to grasp shit thawne does every single encounter.
thawne considers heroes and their morals objectively dumb but his thoughts on barry having the same mindset are 'god he is SO adorably naive. so pure. so innocent. havent done anything wrong in his life. sweetest cinnamon roll of all times'. occasionally tells him that out loud because he has no fucking shame except when it comes to the lake incident
his own set of morals is just 'be gay do crime' where be gay stands for teaming up with barry on practically everything that isnt their one on one fights.
following: other villains are dumb to him as well. sometimes complains to barry about how nobody Understands him and his superior taste in being a supervillain, especially in the legion. poor barry just tries to get some rest between work and superheroing and then thawne casually comes running out of fucking nowhere, lies down on his lap and starts venting about how barry is the only one that Gets him on superspeed.
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Hi there! @look-at-those-niceass-rocks and I are back on our bullshit with some unhinged movie-night quotes, this time with the first Descendants film. Previously, we've had some shit to say about Rise of the Pink Ladies and Julie and the Phantoms. This is the first actual movie we've watched for these movie-night quotes, so it's a long one. Buckle up, and enjoy the ride!
Bee: "Elected king"? That's not how democracy works.
Bee: How is he inheriting the crown if his dad is still alive???
(Note: For those not aware, hi, I'm a costume designer and technician, I usually have Things To Say about costumes, including the following Several Minute Rant)
Me, two minutes into the movie: PAUSE, okay I have opinions here Bee: Okay? Me: Okay so this is a fitting, right? I appreciate the big stitch lengths, that's accurate, but this should be a mock-up, with muslin! Why is it made of the fashion fabric??? Bee: This is riveting
Me: Why are his sleeves finished off? Where are the pins? Is that a hand back stitch??? Bee: *cackling*
Bee: YOU CANNOT BELIEVE IN THE DIVINE RIGHT OF KINGS AND DEMOCRACY
Me: Why did they give Ben a bust dart? Does he have tiddies??? Bee: TRANS BEN???
Bee: I'm gonna take a drink every time you go on a costume rant. Me: LISTEN
Bee (@Evie and Mal): So they're lesbians, right? Me: OH HO HO, YOU'D THINK SO WOULDN'T YA
Bee: You said Kenny Ortega did this, right? Me: Yep! Bee: That. SO very tracks.
Evie: *flirting* Bee: Ahhh, performative heterosexuality!
Me: Her love interest is so [HUSBAND]-coded; you're gonna lose your mind
Bee: Ah yep, Kenny Ortega choreography
Bee: IS THAT FUCKING KRISTEN CHENOWETH??? Me: YOU DIDN'T KNOW THAT???
Both of us, anytime Carlos is on screen: He Baby
Bee: I bet AO3 had a field day with this franchise
Bee: Ohhhh, look at that shitty marching band, let me at 'em- NONE OF THOSE PEOPLE ARE PLAYING THOSE INSTRUMENTS Me: *wheeze*
Bee @ Audrey: Oh THATS a lesbian Me: I COULD GO ON A RANT and I won't until we have more context!
Me: Look, Evie's love interest is a dude but I choose to believe that he's a he/him lesbian so it works
Mal: And I totally don't blame your grandparents for inviting everyone in the whole world but my mother to their stupid christening! Me: Look, christenings were public events! They had to go out of their way to tell Maleficent not to come! Bee: Right! Like it was more work to have someone find her to tell her not to come! She would've stayed away if you just kept your mouths shut! Me: Not to victim blame, but don't fuck with the fae if you don't want the fae to fuck with you Bee: No I'm victim blaming in this one instance, that was fucking stupid
Doug: Hi-ho... Bee: Oh god he is [HUSBAND]-coded
Carlos: Die, suckers! Me: Let Carlos say fuck! Bee: He would say it constantly
Jay: *ninja kick through the door* Bee: Dumbass
Carlos: *trying to help Jay up* Me: *sobbing* He baby!!! Bee: He wants to help his brother!!!
Bee, already tipsy: I think every time we say "he baby" I need to drink water
Me: Hnng I remember being obsessed with Mal's outfits as a 14yo but looking at it now as a costume designer, I can't tell if I still love it or if I kinda hate it. Bee: Lemme take a drink and you elaborate. Me: There's something kinda off-putting about it and I can't tell if it's because it reeks of 2015 Disney Channel-which is not a bad thing!-or if I just don't think the design works. Bee: It looks like they were going for scene but didn't really know what scene was
Me: I think we should also take a drink whenever we say "that's gay"
Both: STOP BEING MEAN TO JANE SHE'S SO CUTE
Ben: *trying to convince Carlos Dude won't hurt him* Me: For the trans!Ben headcanon, I know that's just a weird fuckin' seam on his shirt, but it looks like a binder
Honorable mention: Us constantly screaming at evie that she's allowed to be smart
Bee: Hey, [HUSBAND], Wanna come see a character that's you coded???
Evie: *making clothes* Me: THAT SEWING MACHINE IS SEXY
Me @ Lonnie: I wouldn't call that cool hair Bee: Oh now she's cool, she ripped her skirt
Mal: I think it's time Benny Boo got himself a new girlfriend Bee: Girl he is right behind that door
Mal: *wipes Lonnie's tear* Bee: LOOK AT HER FACE, see that? That was a gay awakening
Me during Did I Mention: Guess what Bee: Huh? Me: That's not him singing Bee: *gasp* They Troy Bolton'ed that man
Bee: There are. Not enough trumpets in this band Me: Nerd
Talking about the Maleficent movie and how I've never seen it Bee: Oh god, you would've been like. 12 Me: Or 13 depending on the time of year! Bee: It came out in May Me: ...Okay yeah I would've been 12 Bee: I can do math! [HUSBAND], distantly: Citation needed! Bee: HEY!!!
Ben: Is this your first time? Bee: HUH???
Me: What was he trying to accomplish here? Like he didn't tell her they were going somewhere they might need swimsuits, was he trying to get her in her underwear??? Bee: If it wasn't a Disney movie I'd say yes Me: Horny teenage boy
Ben: *shirtless on the cliff* Me: Good for him, he's had top surgery since the last scene
Maleficent: Still doing tricks with eggplants? Bee: Idk, ask her husband
After the cover of Be Our Guest Bee: What. Was that. Me: I know Bee: That was so bad! Me: I promise the other covers are better
Me: I hate Mal's costume in this scene Bee: Drink! Me: The purple on her blazer matches too perfectly with her hair, there's no break in the silhouette Bee: Oh yeah, I see what you mean Me: I get what they're trying to do with the lighter palette, but I'd swap the blue and purple, personally
Queen Leah: My daughter was raised by fairies Me: That was your own fault Bee: Nowhere in that curse did it say you couldn't raise her
Insert the TEN MINUTE interlude of me dying over the obscene fit of Ben's suit:
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(Please note: A) his jacket sleeve is caught on his elbow, which is what's causing that FOUR INCH exposed sleeve, B) who wears a pocket square and no tie? C) the buttons are STRAINING because the suit hasn't been tailored properly, it's way too small, you're the future king and I expect better from you okay you CANONICALLY have people tailoring your clothes, and while we're on buttons, D) NEVER button both buttons on a suit jacket! If the jacket has two buttons, the top is buttoned and the bottom isn't. If it's three, top is button sometimes, middle is always buttoned, and the bottom is never. Also: Unbutton when sitting or doing physical activity, such as croquet. This has been Levi's useless button PSA)
Honorable mention: I showed my mentor this picture the next day and he gasped like he'd been shot
Jane: He's never gonna make a villain a queen Me: WE WERE ROOTING FOR YOU! Bee: WE WERE ALL ROOTING FOR YOU!
Me: she's not ugly, she just has a fuck ass bob
Bee @ Beast: Oh why'd they give him glasses, now he's hot
Mal: How do you know that?? Ben: because I'm listening to my heart! Bee: Gay Mal: I'm listening to mine too Bee: DOUBLE gay
Bee: I love how you can soo very see all these frozen people moving
Maleficent: *Dragon Time (tm)* Bee: FOUND THE BUDGET
Jane: Guess I did get pretty lucky in the mother department Me: Speaking of mothers can someone please catch the lizard Bee: PLEASE
Side note, my internet was wigging out and the stream kept freezing, particularly during Set It Off Me, struggling with the connection: And what if I cry Bee: Limping toward the finish line Me: What if I cry and commit arson
Mal: You didn't think that was the end of the story, did you? Bee: Well that was fucking ominous
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Can you talk/elaborate more about your McCoy headcanons... I like hearing you talk about him
sry this took so long!
i think he never really believed in what he was taught religiously as a kid like he asked too many questions and was not satisfied with the answers but the fear still got to him, he was always high strung and sensitive and was bullied rly badly for it, he mostly hung out with his gramma who was the only person in his family who was nice to him, she was a healer and taught him everything he knew about herbalism. the intrusive gore stuff started at like 8-10 and by 12 he was living every day feeling like he had no skin or bones and that someone could just reach inside him and pull something out. if anyone threw him a punch he'd just crumple up on the floor in a ball shaking cus he felt like he was bleeding to death. he started stealing his dad's tools and making armour to wear under his clothes so no one could get to his insides which like. burned the fuck out of him in the heat but honestly very practical for a queer kid in georgia and he was able to start fighting back
he didn't have the vocab to explain to anyone what he was experiencing, all anyone ever saw was him blacking out at the mention of body parts so he was just called squeamish and everyone moved on while he got worse. then one day his gramma was cooking and he saw her cutting up tomatoes and lookked at them a little too long and slammed his head thru the drywall, and his dad went to hit him and she was like no no stop and took him into her greenhouse sat him down and was like you're old enough to know now i think. and she told him he was getting visions from god of what hell looks like + that both of them were being called to service. so he went heavy into evangelism at that point and it lasted a couple years, all the time he was still studying medicine in school, and then he had a massive breakdown because why hasn't god made it stop I'm doing what I'm supposed to. and his family control him and would never let him go get seen in a million years so he stole chemistry supplies from school and started trying to cook his own antipsychotics with herbs in the greenhouse because the kid is a visionary. did not fuckin work he got really sick from it and just kept going and going cus he felt he was so close to getting it right + ended up getting arrested and charged in hospital at some point down the line
then the space program came to his town and he was like please yes get me the fuck off this planet, and he didn't have anything to show for how smart he was because he was too sick to finish, and they looked thru his criminal record (cus thats how they find their starfleet candidates be real) and they were like hey listen, from age 16 u were in ur room trying to make fucking quetiapine from scratch, starfleet needs a freak like you
he met jim in organic chemistry and they got together, he eventually told him he joined starfleet to run away from god and jim was damn that's crazy i joined to meet god and pry my life back from his cold dead hands. and they were both like wow haha. and then they met spock and had this same conversation at the bar one time and spock drunk on cocoa pops was like if we're speaking metaphorically i believe i joined to make out with god sloppy style
*also also when bones is in recovery he fine tunes the stuff he was working on with the plants and sends it to his gramma who would never take meds in a billion years but because he made it himself with the bush knowledge she taught him she was down with it n he gets her better and they repair their relationship
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My Girlfriends Roommate - Chapter 6
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Warnings: Mentions of other peoples body parts, mentions sex between highschoolers, financial influence over others, using people, I believe thats it. Enjoy!
You tried your best to enjoy the day, but it was hard to do with Gabe around. It wasn’t difficult to see why either; the guy was pushy and issued a sense of authority by means that you have yet to figure out. A habit of his that was highlighted when you guys were shopping at a boutique, Vicky picked out random items for both of you to try on and he would consistently interject his opinion of each piece she pulled from the hangers.
You started to suspect that Vicky’s usual choice of tight and lascivious clothing were a result of Gabe’s influence, possibly unwanted yet acquiesced due to his financial status. When you noticed the price on one of the tags reading $649, you expressed disinterest and informed Vicky that it was absurd.
This was the moment that may have confirmed the reasoning of Vicky’s connection and loyalty to Gabe. Even if it wasn’t directly stated, you had a sense based off of her followed response.
“It’s okay don’t worry about the price, Gabe says he’ll pay for everything.” You immediately shook your head and looked at her somewhat sternly.
Yeah sure, today you were spending time with her, and Gabe just happened to be around, but that was as far as you were willing to take it when it came to associating yourself with him. It was unsettling to watch as he acted in a manner that was more than just friendly towards Vicky; he started to display a similar attitude towards you. It became routine for you to peel away and migrate to a different section of the store whenever he would eaves drop and present pieces for you to try on, to which you of course declined harshly.
As far as you were concerned, the guy was a stranger and the attitude he displayed thus far since meeting you have been unpleasant. You wouldn’t put it passed him to be the type to formulate an unspoken quid pro quo agreement by holding someone in debt in return for his lavish spending on them. Possibly someone like Vicky.
“Does he normally buy you expensive stuff?” You asked with curiously as you started to become more concerned towards the type of relationship Vicky had with Gabe.
Vicky nodded in a positive notion. You suddenly felt sick to your stomach yet was polite enough to not show a raging disapproval in the true manner of how you felt. You opted to be a good friend and attempted to express your concerned opinion of the matter, yet she beat you to the punch and insisted that you let Gabe purchase the items.
“Thanks, but I’m good Vicky. I really don’t wear these types of clothes anyhow, they’re not practical for me.” You responded.
She simply nodded at your response, continuing to admire herself in the mirror as she tried on a wide selection of clothes. You decided it would be best to save your talk with her for another time, whenever Gabe wasn’t around flashing his wide selection of bank cards every chance he got.
The next day, you and the girls met up for lunch in the food court, Vicky originally was supposed to join in, but ended up texting stating she wanted to make up with Ethan and spend her lunch time with him. Understandable. The girls inquired about the events that took place between Ethan and Gabe.
“Y/n, what happened yesterday?”
“Nothing too serious, just a minor misunderstanding between Ethan and a guy named Gabe. I’m assuming you know him?”
You were very discreet with your response as you didn’t want to elaborate and possibly misguide them, figuring Vicky may have already issued the details prior to them asking you. The conversation continued as the girls spoke out.
“Oh yeah…we know Gabe.” Their tone at the mentioning of his name was unimpressive.
“You guys don’t like him?”
“It’s not that we don’t like him. His dad is loaded and pretty much secured his future with a top position at his company, so he’s set. It’s just the whole thing between him, Ethan, and Vicky gets tiring. “ One of the other girls chimed in.
“Yeah, Gabe can be annoyingly flashy and big headed. But he will buy you anything you want since money is of no concern to him. But other than that, I sometimes can’t stand him.”
Surprised at the admission of Gabe’s true reputation amongst Vicky’s closest friends, you wondered what triggers any woman to remain associated with someone they’re not entirely fond of. Was the amount of money he had worth them lose their self-respect and put up with this guy?
You didn’t want to consider that. Regardless of Vicky’s high-end attributes, she never came off as greedy or one to care about money enough that she would continue a friendship for the sake of expensive gifts. At least not until yesterday’s shopping trip.
A few weeks have passed and the seasonal change of spring to summer allowed you and Vicky to forget the events that took place that day. What with the increasingly warm weather and summer festivals taking place; you, Vicky, and the girls spent majority of your free time making fond memories. You guys even took a girl’s trip for a few days and had such a good time. It would have been better except Samuel hadn’t been as active in communicating, which you couldn’t help but be reminded of every time you saw Vicky and Ethan together, which was quite frequently.
Throughout the weeks that passed, whenever you, Vicky, and the girls hung out, Ethan, along with some of the other boyfriends of the group, would join in to spend time with their girlfriends. In fact, it was habitual. Through them, you became close acquaintances with their boyfriends, who seem to be pleasant and friendly. Much like Ethan, only less scary and intense.
You saw more of Ethan and got to know him a little bit better since your first meeting. It turns out, he really is a decent guy, and was exceptionally good to Vicky. He would have no problems or bouts of annoyance whenever Vicky would call him up at random and ask him to give everyone rides to cafes and shopping outlets. The girls seemed very fond of Ethan, even though they would note the intimidating vibe he omitted, signifying that you weren’t the only one that felt that way about him so it would appear.
Still, having Ethan around with you and the girls was not as bad as you predicted it to be, in fact, there were moments that you had developed your own bond with him, just a tad bit.
Moments such as when Vicky overindulge in alcohol at a party, you watched as one of the girls would call Ethan at 2 or 3 am in the morning, waking him and urging him to drive over to meet with you guys. His level of commitment and priority for not only Vicky’s wellbeing, but that of you and the girls, was noted when he would pull up. Sometimes he would come over, still dressed in his pajamas, and would carry Vicky into the car, urging you to also ride with him since you and Vicky were going to the same destination. He would carefully lay Vicky in the backseat, always being considerate, and strapping her in as best as he could and making sure she laid comfortably as she knocks out.
You would sit in the front passenger seat next to him and while at first you were too shy to dictate the selection of music, you became more comfortable in scrolling through all the genres on his playlist as Ethan would always pass his phone over to you while keeping his eyes on the road, encouraging you to play whatever you wanted to listen to.
There were also times when he regularly visited the dorm to meet up with Vicky, arriving early just before she would be dismissed out of class. Aside from what you had already thought of him, you considered Ethan trustworthy enough for him to wait for her inside the room. This was initiated when he would opt to wait in his car for her, but you threw the offer in allow him to wait inside.
He would take up on your invitation and normally lay on her bed scrolling through his phone. Ever the quiet type, you were shocked each time whenever he would note your break from your assignments and initiate small talk, which enabled you to feel more comfortable around him and getting to know each other. He respected the boundaries of your space and never once did anything without receiving your permission, even when it came to using the bathroom which was located on Vicky’s side of the dorm.
Not only did you not mind his company, but you also actually enjoyed it a little. It made for a nice distraction whenever you grew bored when reading all the class materials, which were painfully redundant. Though Ethan was good in your book and a smile would always appear on your face whenever you saw them together, you couldn’t help but become painfully reminded of Samuel as you witnessed the affection between Ethan and Vicky.
Samuel claimed that he was swamped with maintaining his GPA, which was prevalent for him in order to continue to play football, which was his passion. You sympathized and understood as you honored his request and refrained from messaging until he finished his exam prep and scheduled summer practice. He claimed that he felt bad for every time he saw you messaged him but never had the time to message back and felt like a terrible boyfriend.
You reassured him that he was anything but terrible, and apologized for making him feel that way, even though it wasn’t your intention to do so. So, you both agreed to take a break from the FaceTime sessions and the texting until he was finished with everything. He even stated he would like to come see visit you once he was finished with everything, which you happily agreed to.
Still, it was hard. Going from having someone waiting for you, regardless if it just was through phone chats, it was lonesome to adjust to a change of pace where you entered an empty room and had nothing to look forward to, other than homework. You’re quite sure that Vicky wouldn’t mind keeping you company, but she had her own schedules to abide by, leaving her only available to engage with you on the weekends.
But when you thought of the times you shared with Samuel, the way he admired your face and told you that you were the prettiest girl he’d ever seen, it motivated you to hold on and helped kept your patience strong. Whenever they were free, Vicky and the girls became a pleasant distraction and made it easier for you to carry on.
Vicky had the opposite problem, she often complained on how she wished Ethan would change his opinion on Gabe and be more receptive of his presence. She often felt too stressed when her free time was split between spending time with Ethan and hanging out with Gabe.
This compelled you to ask her a question that was lingering in your brain since you met both Ethan and Gabe. Though you weren’t fond of the latter, you felt that perhaps you were overlooking a feature about Gabe that kept you from seeing any positive trait that Vicky could see in him, enough to keep him around and treat him almost as if he was her boyfriend.
Trying to get some closure for the sake of your curiosity, you asked the question to Vicky one day as you both were folding laundry on her bed. Specifically, you asked her both, Ethan, and Gabe, regarding on how she met them and how they got to know one another.
“Well, Ethan and I went to the same high school. I was a freshman, and he was a junior. I had a crush on him and was able to get his attention. It wasn’t easy, he seemed like he was too busy for a girlfriend, but I somehow managed to get through to him. It took some time, but he finally asked me on a date, and we had been together ever since.”
You were quite amazed at the amount of time Vicky and Ethan had been dating.
“Oh wow you guys have been dating for a while then.”
“Yeah.”
“So how did you meet Gabe?”
“He moved to the area and started to go to the same school as Ethan and I. He was so popular; more popular than Ethan who, believe it or not, was an all-star at our school.”
You were shocked upon hearing that. During the entire time you interacted with him, Ethan never eluded that type of reputation. Really, the man was always dressed in very relaxed clothing, which for you wasn’t a big deal. You prefer men whom, like Samuel and Ethan, share the trend of not putting too much priority into the types of clothes they wear. It was decent for them wanting to look good, but not to go overboard into dressing flamboyantly all the time. Since you also opted a similar style majority of the time, you deemed casual as a good thing.
Still, you wondered how Ethan’s constant appearance appealed to Vicky, considering her prerogative in fashion. Always with his fitted baseball cap, you never witness his face in full exposure, it was always partially hidden and the fact that he was always the quiet type made him seem anything but popular, at least compared to the what you were used to.
Vicky continued;
“Honestly, I do care for Ethan, a lot. But now that we’re in college, there’s still too many unknowns with him. “
“Unknowns?” You perked at her description of Ethan.
“Yeah like, his plans. He’s turned down every opportunity to attend internships and gain the hours, which makes me worried. How else is he supposed to network and get a good paying job? He says he has a solid plan established after college, in Korea.”
You lifted your head at the mentioning prospect of Vicky and Ethan carrying their lives overseas, considering they spent nearly their entire lives here.
“You don’t want to move back to Korea?” you asked presumably.
“It’s not that, I wouldn’t mind it at all. I just need reassurance. I come from a solid family, and always lived comfortably. I don’t want to have to suddenly live with a man and worry about financial stability.” Vickey cautiously explained to you as she emphasized the importance of having a comfortable lifestyle.
You didn’t say anything, a moment of silence stilled the air until she let out a deep sigh.
“Honestly, the girls don’t even know this but…I’m not sure if Ethan and I have a future.”
You raised a brow, she was telling you something that she hadn’t mentioned to the girls that knew her for much longer than you did.
“He lacks ambition and doesn’t have a competitive nature, unless when he’s playing basketball. He’s nice but I think I maintain and cherish my friendship with Gabe because he’s obviously well off through his family. In a way, I feel like if the day comes that I must end things with Ethan, I’d figure it will be nice to have a backup, someone who is going work hard and have a good career. Plus, we get along very well.”
Shocked by the flow of her admission, you honestly couldn’t see or understand her reasoning. It was quite selfish. Being able to read your thoughts through your facial expression, she tries to justify;
“Don’t look at me that way y/n, you know I’m not a bad person. I just worry about certain things. I don’t want to have to struggle in life.” Hearing enough, you tried to reassure that a comfortable life can be obtained in a myriad of ways; settling with someone who had a rotten personality for the sake of a secured future wouldn’t pave a path of happiness for anyone, let alone her.
“Yeah but Vicky…what would Ethan think? What if he is working on a stable career path for you both and is just waiting for a suitable time to tell you?” you spat out your ultimatum.
“There’s no way that’s the case Y/N, he never looked into careers with Korean companies. He’s too relaxed in his approach with it, like he doesn’t care. He cares enough to maintain good grades and scholarships but that’s it. He’s always telling me that I don’t need to worry about anything, but I need more than that.”
Vicky explains further her worries at the prospect of having a tumultuous future with Ethan. Yet something still didn’t make sense, so you continued the conversation.
“So…if that’s how you really feel, then why even bother waiting to end things? Why would you remain attached since judging by your tone, you seem to already accept that you and Ethan aren’t going to work out.”
Her answer was probably the most shocking thing you heard come out of her mouth.
“You really want to know y/n?” At that, you nodded and smiled at her with a chuckle, she said it like it was something scandalous.
“It’s because of his dick. That and well, he’s also hot. Gabe is cute, I’d give him a 6/10. I know you haven’t seen Ethan without his hat but trust me, he is a 100/10 both his face and…you know…” She laughs hinting to you that she was referring to Ethan’s, apparently, blessed body part. You laugh with her.
At the mentioning of their intimacy, you thought back to all times that you and Samuel had sex. There were many, and they were all beautiful, but you secretly harbored the fact that you never had an orgasm, despite the number of times you and Samuel had sex. Moments like now, where your friends would talk about it made you yearn for that experience. How could you not? They described it as the best feeling ever.
Not sure if size had anything to do with it, considering Samuel, though being the only one you’ve been physical with, seemed to be of an impressive size. He was a well-built young man that played football after all. There was also no way it could’ve been an issue of matching with the wrong person, that was out the question. Samuel was more than right for you; missing out on an orgasm did not take away the intense sensation from when you had sex with him. You figured that one of these days, when you and Samuel come back together after college life, you’ll have your moment. For now, things were fine just the way it is.
Turning your attention back to Vicky, you started to wonder if the reason of her being out every night, not returning until the next morning was a result of her enjoying sessions with her well-endowed boyfriend.
“Is that why you’ve been staying out all night?” you teasingly laugh as you placed one of her pristine designer brand dresses on a hanger for her.
She shook her head upon hearing your question, answering delicately.
“No, we hadn’t had sex since before I moved into the dorm. I mean …honestly, even before college, when I started my senior year, it was already dying down. Which is becoming an additional factor for me to break it off with him.”
Taking in a huge sense, you asked a question that would otherwise insinuate her relations with Gabe, although upon it slipping out you wanted to take it back immediately after hearing how it came out.
“…Is that why you hang out with Gabe so much?”
Vicky looked at the wall ahead, she stared at it for a few seconds before looking back down at the shirt she was folding. She didn’t seem offended, more like pensive at your question. Nevertheless, she answered in a rather detailed answer.
“I haven’t told him, but I think Gabe is aware that I am not exactly content with Ethan’s plans. Gabe has told me so many times he’d take care of me, he has the means to do so. He always tells me that a beautiful girl like me should not have to settle. We’ve always been so close, I guess I hang out with him a lot because he brings me that comfort that Ethan can’t.”
Another moment of silence blankets the room, this side of Vicky shocks you. It really does. Vicky is pretty; she’s also smart, talented, has potential and many good friends around her. There really is no reason for her to be so concerned about a stable future but for some reason, it was there. No matter how many times you try to tell her otherwise, she always remained overly concerned of that aspect in life.
Ever since your girl talk with her, you felt a bit shameful for watching Vicky continue her relationship with Ethan. You felt it wasn’t in your place to interfere and risk stirring the pot, but it wasn’t fair to Ethan. Sure, you could understand Vicky’s concern for his lack of tenacity in applying himself towards his future, being that he was completing his second year and well on his way to the third year of college. But you disagreed with Vicky, if she wanted to break it off, she should do it sooner rather than later.
However, you remained impartial and refused to get involved.
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Do you have any other Desi Johnny hc’s? I love them soo much, It’s so interesting to hear about other cultures! 🫶🏻
yea sure of course!!!
unfortunately still dont have many hcs so some of these will just b building off of old hcs but WHATEVERRRR
•ik i said he wears a lungi at like his house, but he actually did wear it from time to time in the curtis house for when he was sleeping over
•his spice intake is crazy he can eat something rlly spice w no reaction meanwhile everyone else is dying
•ik holi is a hindu holiday and hes not hindus BUT i think he would find it very pretty and be very interested in it (i mean shit unless u wanna hc his religion being hinduism be my guest)
•johnny actually uses a shawl a LOT when hes cold and when he notices that ponys cold he just, uses his cloth and makes pony wear a shawl too, literally 0 questions asked
•his fav food is biryani i will not be elaborating
•he eats w his hands a lot (like yknow he eats things like rice w his hands) he finds it pretty practical, and he WAS nervous about doing it around everyone else outside his home but he kinda grew out of that
•his mom used to feed him w her hands, thats like one of the better memories he has w her, so maybe???he also feeds pony w his hands??? as like a familial thing
•FUN FACT in 1952 there was this big emphasis on bengali culture, especially language and since johnny was born in like 1949, i think his mom (i hc him as half mexican half bengali, his mom is bengali, or if u want u can reverse it it truly does not matter) would have this big idea to surround him around him speaking bengali as his first language (if ur curious spanish is his second language, then english is his third)
•him learning english as his third language is kinda why he has trouble reading acc, i forgot if that was canon or not, but yea, he can speak it perfectly fine, he just didnt practice actually reading it as much
•he sees his mom as like bollywood pretty when she was younger, if that makes any sense, like movie star pretty (YES IK BOLLYWOOD IS FROM INDIA but my point still stands)
THATS THE HCS I GOT FOR NOW, if i messed anything up or wasnt culturally right someone feel free to tell me
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gatiox3 · 2 months
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kung Fu panda. 4
u guys thought I forgor about my ramble? UR WRONG
so um WTFOK SO KUNG FU PANDA i freaking love kung fu panda HE IS MY FREAKING LIFE if he never existed my sister wouldnt be a furry (will not elaborate she is blocked here FOR A REASON sorry nox) I HAD HIGH HOPES !!! (FIRST MISTAKE.) the music, was breathtaking, felt like i was watching kung fu panda for the first time again (not really but u get wat im saying) the animation was FLUID! there were some stiff parts, but I hardly noticed them, theres only one part where some movement didnt make sense?? like for example po was flung to the left but was then was stopped mid air, and awkwardly moved right to the ground?? i was the only one that noticed it i think thats a me thing FUCK HALF OF MY RAMBLE GOT DELETED ANYWAYS. OK SCREW WHAT EVER I WAS GONNA SAY UMMM THE ART. THE COLORING. THE CONTRASTING COLORS. THE TRADITIONAL CHINESE ART (duh) I WAS JUST AMAZED BY IT ALL IM A FREAKING ART NERD loved it so much AND THE CHARACTER DESIGN for the villain BEAUTIFUL. other character okayish.... picked most obvious animal and made her wear clothes...! im a picky person. OK WHATEVER BUT WHEN THE MOVIE FINISHED, it felt so short?? maybe cause IT WAS SO FAST PACD??? WHY DID THEY DO THAT. the beginnning started out good ! there was that initial action, somewhat revealing the villain their motives, and then showing where po is and what his dilemma is !!! BUT JUMP CUTS EVERYWHERE. IM BEING SO SERIOUS WHEN I SAY THERES PROBABLY ONLY ONE FADE IN SCENE (done perfectly if i may say) BUT WHAT. AND SOME OF THE SCENES FELT A LOT MORE SHORTER than others. almost like they added the scene last minute because they needed it?? or sm like it cuts from one scene, characters bond for 2.2 seconds, JUMP CUT! WHAT! OK SO NOW IMA GET INTO THE STORY, I WONT GIVE MANY LIKE MANY SPECIFICS< BUT ITS UNDER THIS CUT
ok so i noticed this in kfp3, but they donot take the movie that seriously anymore! in the og kfp obv there were some funny scenes, and they fit PERFECTLY. there were serious scenes, heartwrenching ones, and they worked so good. BUT IN THIS ONE. THEY HAD TO MAKE EVERYTHING A GAG. IT PISSED ME OFF???? I COULDNT LIKE FEEL FOR THE CHARACTERS??? EVEN THE VILLAIN CANT BE TAKEN SERIOUSLY. gags EVERYWHERE. not even to the build up when then villain finally acts on their master plan! not even when PO GETS A VISION. NOT EVEN THE FREAKING. THE HOLY SHIT THE ENDING PISSED ME OFF SO FUCKING ABD YOU HAVE NO FUKCING IDEA. WHEN THE VILLAIN GETS SENT TO THE SPIRIT REALm, GAG. OH MY FUCK. NOT EVEN LIKE WHEN MASTER SHIFU IS MEDITATING AT THE END. GGAG IM GOING TO GAG ON YOU. EVEN WHEN THERE WAS A SERIOUS SCENE BETWEEN TWO CHARACTERS, OR LIKE A STORY ON THEM, i coulnt take it seriously because the story wont take itself seriously! ok ummm where am i OH DO NOT GET ME STARTED ON THAT FOX GIRL WITH PO I HATE HER SO MUCH THAT I DONT EVEN KKNOW HER NAME. this might be more spoilery so BUT SHES BASICALLY JUST SOME SELF INSTERT Y/N WHOS A BRAT?? AND IS EVENLY MATCHED FOR PO AND IT FELT LIKE I JUST WATCHED A WATTPAD GET TURNED INTO A MOBVIE. I SERIOUSLY THINK ITS JUST A ME THING BUT IDK. YOU PROBABLY DONTK KNOW JWAT IM TALKING ABT BUT YEAH. i wish the whoel thing was just a lot more like! kfp u know! i might just be blinded by nostalgia ! im not even gonna lie my fave part was seeing TAI LUNG I FUKCING LOIBVE TAI LUNG HI TAI LUJNG IMM YOUR BIGGEEST FAN DID THEY GET THE OG VOICE ACTORY??? IDK BUT I LOVE U HE WAS THE MOST SERIOUS CHARACTTER IN THE WHOLE MOVIE AND IT JUST SOLIDIFIED MY LOVE HAI TAI LUNG !!! HAI !!!!!!!!!!! they also had the other villains there but werent really like used within the story but i understand, they also kinda did the same with tai lung but I LOVE TAI LUNG UGHSHWBDW. ok yep ALSO GAY DADS!!!!! but there were like 3 story lines going on, gay dads, villain, po and the other thing, it coulda worked out! but it felt rushed! idk but the betrayal was just sooooooooo obvious wdym u trusted a FOX who is a CRIMINAL who says DONT TRUST ANYONE, and I KNOW HOW TO GET YOU TO THE VILLAIN. po is kind hearted so i cant blame him for trusting her anyways i love u po big kiss. BACK TO VILLAIN, ugh she had so much potential, like the true introduction to her was merely perfect! there were gags to the side, but it didnt effect it as much! but PLEASE JUST LET HER BE A BAD PERSON SHE ISNT FUNNY !!!! WE NEED TO START TELLING PEOPLE THEY ARENT FUNNY OR IT RUINS THE WORLD!!!/j but the fight scene at the end was beautiful, it showed her true potential, but how it ended was anti climatic. a single move they couldve done at the beginnning, and a skadosh (i love skadosh btw) and when all the villains were finally leaving, there was no SERIOUS ENDING FOR HER. she just screams on the way in, gettiing one last laugh. idk i just love kfp im very passionate abt movies animation art music wat not sooo yeh i think thats it HAI TAI LUNG I LOVE UUUUU I LOVE UUUUUU AHHHHSHHAHAHAHHSSHSHAA conclusion the movie was beautiful, kinda funny, but beautiful das it the end
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idealspawn · 10 months
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fuck. i feel so fucking bad. i hate how i sometimes shut down and cant communicate my thoughts right away. and i cant really even vocalize that i need time either. i just lose my voice and freeze. i made the guy feel uncomfortable i think. like he said everything is fine but like. like . like. he is confused but like like like like like its not like i wasnt ever planning on elaborating bc im actually really good at communicating i just like. am weird sometimes. and i told him that. and all is well but i feel so bad that i literally just said nothing when he tried to talk to me about it. he wanted to sleep w me and i was okay w it at first bc i want it too but i was high for the first time after like 2 months and literally so disoriented and i freaked out like i barely even recognized him, i was THAT high. and then just froze and shriveled and said nothing and kept repeating that i dont know anymore and cant explain it rn. he stopped immediately the moment he noticed sth was off and asked if i was uncomfortable and/or afraid of him as in nervous. and he tried to talk abt it even when we werent high anymore and he blamed himself a lot which is so sad bc thats not it and then tried to like i guess move slower and said its ok if im not ready but the next 2 days we were together i literally just said nothing when he tried to make advances or talk abt why both of us acted awk and i like just acted like nothing happened but like still made moves on him and was okay with like other stuff just not like sleep-sleep w him. i kept sending mixed signals. i also was like so weird and quiet in general the entire time i was w him and i said i was in an odd mood and he pinky promised it wont affect anything and that he likes multidimensional people and its okay that im diff sometimes. i drank alcohol the entire time i was there too and fuck. idk im just. so fucking weird. he said its ok he is nervous and scared too and like i just fucking said nothing i dont know whats my fucking problem. fuck. like it was actually really fun too most of the time. we did graffiti and looked at the stars when we were lying down in this tower near like mmmm a big beautiful singing stage (???) and smoked his last lucky cigarette and did fun stuff on playgrounds at night and the moon and the clouds were so beautiful. the clouds were exactly like in suzume when the sky collapsed. then we cooked together, it was so fun to shop together and then we watched moomins and it was actually really nice. i picked him a nickname by opening a book on a certain page number and picking a word blindly. and he read me the little prince in french bc we both know french too and its a sentimental book to him. he sang me songs and played the guitar. he also surprised me by playing one of "our" songs and i literally started to cry. and he altered these lyrics in this one song so it applied to us and it was so sweet. i wear oversized clothes and he put my sweatshirt on and i had his jean jacket and bracelet on the entire time. he looked so nice in my hoodie and he didnt want to take it off and kept hugging it. i think probably bc it smells like me. i said i came from the moon, that they switched me when i was 5. he said he isnt even from this solar system. it was cute. made me not feel insane lol. its just like.. im a literal idiot sometimes. he was supposed to come to my place today and he asked if its okay if he comes tomorrow bc he is very confused and scattered and slow today and i think its bc of me and i feel so bad. like its okay he comes later but i intended on explaining what happened w me to him today and i just want to fix everything fast and i dont want him to feel bad and fuck. i fucking dont know. i asked him if he is confused bc of me but he hasnt answered yet. i feel so fucking bad. like all is well he said that a million times but i just want to fix everything now and immediately but not over texts....
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